Physically In, Mentally Out: my PIMO story | ex-JW, ex ministerial servant, pioneer, LDC

I'm currently trapped in a cult. Physically. But mentally I've never been freer.
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[@nellylugo7414]

I’m 76 now and after watching The Australian Royal Commission Trial in Facebook not knowing what it was, I couldn’t go back to the K. H. and a month later I sent my DS letter! I was 72. I’m free from the cult, and happy to live my life the way I want it, without any control! This is paradise!’

[@abbatsol7153]

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@rubyh1706]

Wow that's incredible and brave! Great for you and enjoy your life by your terms!

[@alyssawoodman]

Your picture is beautiful :)

[@nellylugo7414]

@@rubyh1706 thank you very much! If I did it, means anyone can do it and for free from the cult!

[@nellylugo7414]

@@alyssawoodman thank you, my hair is more grey, because the photo was taken two years ago!

[@anamayguerra9876]

This is legitimately one of the most easy to listen to and interesting/most personally relatable ex jw stories. Thank you for posting! Keep up the content, it’s as cathartic as it is entertaining.

[@marfta7414]

"I would rather have questions I can't answer than answers I can't question."

[@hugemuscles100]

Bars

[@davidburroughs2244]

Richard Feynman

[@SunguchMan20]

Most certainly.

[@Michelle-Williams-Melbournite]

That is why I’m fed up and leaving JW. Cause no one can question anything. Yet they Question & answer only what is written in ‘their Magazines’ . Boy I got sucked in. I’m hoping to Leave ASAP. Scary stuff

[@gettingout7870]

I left the Catholic Church when I was 17yo (now 41yo) because of the CSA that was being covered up. I became a JW because I thought they did not tolerate that. Earlier this year, I found out they were covering it up the entire time, even before I came in. The ARC was what woke me up. I found myself doing a lot of research to validate what I was seeing. I was even told I was obsessed with it. Personally, I don’t care if the elders want to DF me. I don’t care if people shun me. The elders know that I have looked at “apostate” material and that I am never coming back. I refused to hide that I was looking into these things. I refuse to be judged and told something is wrong with me for following common sense, reasoning and logic. No one can prove Watchtower was chosen by God in 1919. GB members cannot prove they are spirit anointed. Elders cannot prove they are spirit appointed. I was going by “works”. Their works have proven to be detrimental and that has been proven by a massive amount of evidence. Man has dominated man to his injury. This so applies to those running the organization. They replace hellfire with armageddon. They replace Pope with Governing Body. They replace excommunication with disfellowshipping. They replace bloodguilt by murder in war to bloodguilt of forcing people to follow a faulty blood doctrine that nature and biology invalidate (breast milk contains millions of white blood cells that babies consume to build up their immunity). They state they don’t hate people and have love among themselves, but call people who no longer believe mentally diseased apostates. They say not to judge those at doors in service but quickly judge when baptized ones naturally questions beliefs. When you look into the true past of this organization, it quickly becomes clear just how political things truly are. The reason things change is not due to “new light” but “new men” who want to make things their way. Funny how the Faithful and Discreet Slave is nothing more than a parable when you read it in context. Not to mention it is never mentioned anywhere else other than a Gospel account of that parable. Also, if it was so important to get the food at the proper time from the slave, why does its identity keep changing? Wouldn’t God want us to truly know so we would not be mislead?

[@daroweilburg7706]

You are stuck on stupid and the Jehovah's Witnesses can't fix stupid!

[@gettingout7870]

@@daroweilburg7706 Stupid is not looking at all the evidence and following men who state that anything said against them are apostate lies even though there is plenty of proof to the contrary. Learn to separate Watchtower from God. Watchtower is a corporation.

[@njw7579]

@@daroweilburg7706 Wow. Is that what true Christianity looks like? No thanks. Bless you, in Jesus name.

[@yesij6885]

@@daroweilburg7706 as JW you shouldn't talk to someone that way.. gives them bad reputation.. 🤷‍♀️

[@thinkingman2020]

@@daroweilburg7706 you are stuck on stuffing your fat belly....maybe your octopope can fix you and disfellowship you until you repent from overeating fatboy.

[@javierchavez5176]

I'm in the same situation I woke up around July of 2019 and I stopped connecting to the meetings since the pandemic started like in February or March. These last few months I've been fully deprogrammed I even got a better job and bought a house. I'll see if I can get away by fading but if it's not possible I'm fine with dissociating at least I was able to wake up my sister in the meanwhile we're both in the same situation. My parents still in but hopefully they wake up in the near future with so many witnesses leaving it's a time bomb.

[@bumrush9422]

Unfortunately, there will always be a cult core who will never wake up. There are still a small core of Russell Bible Students to this day!

[@patjacobs5019]

Good for you...I'm not a witness but I've read their stuff and it blows my mind all the lies and brain washing they do...

[@halleluyah757]

@@bumrush9422 Russell preached that organized religion was a sham and hoax; he probably would not even recognize what he left off with but, he more than likely would leave it too!

[@jclarkhome]

Great speaking ability. I’m moving you on to gestures. 29 years for me, I fully understand where you are with your life. You will find in the end you are going to lose most friends and family that are in the cult. I suggest you begin quickly to cultivate friends in the “world”. I wish you the best.

[@liplockednomore]

I DAed July 1 2020. Life is wonderful outside the cult even at age 70👏💛🌻and I love your tongue-in-cheek sense of humor😂

[@DarkCrueDethAngel]

Are you really age 70 just asking❔?.

[@natashapeeters988]

Wow, so beautiful to know that you are free! Life is beautiful. You made my day! Thanks and ❤💓💔💕💖💗💙💚💛💜💝💞💟❣💌💖

[@Jexit2020]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It never ceases to amaze me how we all have so many common experiences. It's both validating and sad. I look forward to the day when you can fully leave this organisation behind.

[@altworldly]

Thanks buddy 🙏 “Validating and sad” is exactly the right phrase! But it’s hopeful too, because folks like you have made it out to the other side and are thriving!

[@professorx1739]

I think it's cool for him to stay inside too get the latest scoop. Try to infiltrate headquarters and work his way up to be a governing body to have real genuine insight of what goes on behind the scenes. Lol 😂😂

[@olmeckrav]

That talk by Tony Morris shocked me awake. -homophobic -should not marry if the man is not a ministerial servant -jehovah won’t forgive inactive JWs and they will die! I was like who is the world is this guy to tell God what to do and impose his own point of view without zero biblical backing! So I read “Crisis Of Conscience” and disassociated ASAP!

[@mattgml7638]

just make sure your not the one also going to die!! be careful what you wish for because it comes from the devil!!

[@olmeckrav]

@@mattgml7638 We’re all going to die. Human beings do not live forever.

[@liplockednomore]

I'm a Patreon of the John Cedars Channel. I'd LOVE to hear you interviewed by Lloyd!!👏

[@altworldly]

Your lips to god’s ears!

[@sasukeuchiha8648]

1:03:51 Yes. Lloyd Evans helped me wake up too.

[@daroweilburg7706]

@@sasukeuchiha8648 Yeah! The one with a pornographic addiction? That Lloyd Evans? LOL!

[@Trotoloko]

@@daroweilburg7706 Wasn't the "porn addict" a bethelite that just confessed because he was shit-tired of that life even without being addict?

[@seanswade8699]

@@daroweilburg7706 not porn addiction 😱😱😱😱😱😱. I could see having a meth addiction but 😱😱😱😱 porn!!!! NOOOOOO! Why Jehovah? WHHHHHYYYY! (shakes fist toward sky) (That was sarcasm btw)

[@jay-sn5vm]

I am also PIMO and I just wanted to thank you for being so reasonable and like not vindictive in this video because often while im watching or reading something about ex jws I have that inner voice of doubt that this is satan drawing me away. even tho I know I won't be staying in this cult (I'm turning 18 soon and im gtfoooo lol) it still kinda haunts me that maybe im making the wrong choice and im letting apostates ruin my life. Just goes to show the indoctrination and brainwashing we go through! But thank you like I said this video was so nice to listen to and resonate with. Much love ❤️

[@sphi288]

heya. nother PIMO exjw here, still trapped in with my folks, 4th generation as well! im glad to see content from other people like me.

[@hrh4961]

@@Nica-Ra-Wata Off your meds again, aren't you?

[@blkhemi3925]

*Scientific factoid* From late June to late December, the Sun stays in the sky less and less, and the days get progressively shorter throughout the year. Until on or about December 22, at which point We have the shortest day in which the Sun is in the sky. The following 3 days, the Sun doesn't move in the northern hemisphere. The sun rises and sets in the same spot, at or about, the same time. On the morning of the 3rd day, on or about December 25th, the Sun rises a few minutes early in the vicinity of the constellation called the crux(cross), and stays in the sky progressively later, until sometime in early April where the days are officially later then the nights, or figuratively speaking, the light conquers the darkness. (The sun/son died on the cross, was dead for 3 days, and then was resurrected)(passover/spring fertility Festival/Easter) On December 24th, the star in the east (Sirius) align with the 3 stars in Orion's belt (the three King's) and point to where the Sun will rise on December 25th. Whether anyone wants to admit it to themselves or not. There is a definite connection to astrology and the bible.

[@natashapeeters988]

Sad for you that you are trapped inside. I am sure you will find a solution to get out. Take your time and think about every detail. Prepare yourself and I wish you the best!

[@natashapeeters988]

@@Nica-Ra-Wata WOW! Heavy duty stuff. . . ! ? ? ?

[@dancingnature]

Blk hemi I’m assuming you realize the numerology in Genesis. The numbers 1,2,3, 6and 7 show up a lot . 1+2+3=6 and 1x2x3=6 The ancients thought these were somehow magical because 1,2,3 are all prime numbers

[@kevinimpartial4682]

Lol. The music from legend of zelda.. Good stuff man. Am also a Pimo for about 2 years now. I secretly Go around and help Young witnesses to wake up.

[@kipmic1]

Lol, good on you :)

[@tarameers5401]

Kevin, that's awesome that you take the time to help ppl wake up. The brainwashing truly does go deeper than we think

[@crzamable]

Be really careful! This peoples don't believe in nobody other than the organization.

[@halleluyah757]

Kevin from the...bunker? WOW, I was hoping you would wake Up and live your best life.

[@cassidyrosas7897]

Looking forward to the next one. I’ve been out and shunned for a couple years. Tho not Dfd at this point. I’m very open about not being a witness anymore, I personally listen to exjw material daily but it’s took me over a year after leaving to do so... now I have a grip on my own life and happiness so I feel comfortable listening to it regularly. It was and will always be a huge part of my life, and my mind.

[@altworldly]

Thanks so much! I’ve also accepted that this is always going to be a huge part of who I am, and that’s ok!

[@mjthunder22]

@ Cassidy rosas your not alone I left yrs ago when I was in my mid 20s and I'll be 40 dec 4 and I don't miss it.

[@davidburroughs2244]

I'm 64, nearly, and I've been out since my mid twenties, and I only miss some of the people, but I have put them and those relationships into perspective. Surely, it will always be with me, but I haven't worried about it in decades. I had been raised in, gone to brooklyn bethel, etc., and had to get kicked out later for what I did not do than any thing I had done - and, I suspect that was orchestrated by my ex, whom I had adored. Took me a couple of years before I accepted that. Life goes on, gets both better and worse, and we all deal with those changes, appreciating some regretting others, but always learning. You will do fine, I have every confidence in you and your good heart.

[@mattgml7638]

i think there is a lot of hate and bitterness!!

[@mattgml7638]

did you no think when people come into the religion are mental and go out mental??

[@allenhannah56]

This was put together very well. Your extremely well spoken. I was listening to this in my car on My way work, It seriously sounded like something I'd hear on NPR. Great job!

[@altworldly]

Thank you so much! That’s exactly kind of the tone I’m going for 😄

[@daroweilburg7706]

Yep! He has a good teacher in Satan!

[@altworldly]

@@daroweilburg7706 Hey fam what happened to your comment earlier that called me a liar and an apostate and all that? 🤔

[@daroweilburg7706]

@@altworldly If the shoes fit..wear them...if my comment is not there you removed it, and we ain't fam...bozo! You obviously have latent homosexual tendencies.

[@angrykoolaidman]

He does have a slightly Ira Glass-esque tone and delivery. I feel like I'm listening to This American Life. Or I guess, This PIMO Life.

[@andrastuba3085]

I love listening to other ex-JW´s stories. Many of your experiences are very relatable to me and I am so proud of what you have accomplished, since I know how difficult it is. I also remember breaking down and crying at work when I was already having serious doubts, praying to Jehovah that if he sees anything valuable in me, anything at all, then I am begging him, to please save my life and strengthen my faith again. Well, turns out I was just talking to myself then :D I am so happy that I managed to escape this cult years ago. If anyone else is in a similar situation now, just know that you are capable of much more than you possibly think, I believe in you, you are not alone, and you can do it too!

[@juliaabadi6812]

I love the fact that you too, realised that you are now able to read anything that you want. I have bought so many books on science, philosophy, history. I look forward to hearing that you have reached the stage when you and your wife are able to physically leave the borg and really be free.

[@Samantha.72]

This was such an interesting video . Really, really enjoyed it. Looking forward to the next one 😁

[@HolldollMcG]

I'm watching this in 2023, and I'm so proud of you! Your strength to pursue your own sovereignty and values and your courage to share that strength with others via you story is so, so inspiring! ❤️

[@mariuna5473]

Really loved that NPR helped you wake up! NPR played a role in me waking up too. I had a lot of doubts but I was all in, so I left it in Jehovah’s hands. Then one day I was listening to NPR and they where interviewing a scientist. He read an excerpt of a book he wrote. I was driving and I had to pull over because I had just read a quote from his book in the Awake collaborating creationism. However the author read the whole paragraph and it was the opposite of what WT claimed it said. I went home and looked up the transcript and the link to a portion of the scientist book, and the WT article and just started bawling because there was no way this could have been an accident. They purposefully chopped up the quote. Then the shelve came crashing down. I 💗NPR!

[@markmueller5810]

Do you have the specifics of the date of the article and the name of the scientists book. Thanks

[@Leeshalom]

Do you remember the Watchtower article and which book they were quoting

[@dancingnature]

This editing quotes by scientists to mean the opposite of what the science means is very very common way of giving out deliberate misinformation. This is why scientists and scientifically literate people commonly say that creationists lie.

[@mariabrown7118]

I woke up this year too... this was a good listen...thanks

[@kipmic1]

Congratulations Maria! I hope you can regain some of what the JWs have taken from you.

[@daroweilburg7706]

@Maria...don't listen to the scum bags who support you committing suicide. Come and contact me and I will address all your questions. Download the app Paltalk...Go to category Religion and Spirituality...then go to Christianity and then to the room entitled Is JEHOVAH the TRUE GOD? Or, email me at [e-mail]. Do this anonymously.

[@izzyOla]

@@daroweilburg7706 seems you are counting your hours over here. 🤣🤣

[@kipmic1]

@@daroweilburg7706 Only my wife gets to call me a scum bag! Doofus....

[@diegomendivil7101]

Thanks bro for this video. I too hope to share my story one day, in a sense the pages are still being written. I been “free” for about 3 months now. The reason I stayed is quite complex and I hope to find someone that I can relate to one day. I would argue that I been mentally out for the past decade. I’m originally from Mexico and together with my family we moved to the US illegally when I was 7. Got baptized at 13. Thus when I returned to my home country at age 17 without my parents as they had stayed in the US. The government of the US put a ban on me disallowing me to renter the US for the next 10 years. I am yet to be allowed to visit my parents since my visa has not been approved as of yet. In the organization I became an elder at 25, handled sensitive judicial cases, gave convention talks, regular pioneer, construction volunteer, my face is even on KZbin because my congregation recorded the Spanish zoom meetings for the branch and someone uploaded it to KZbin. From the outside I was physically active but mentally never there. The thing that made me stay was the same reason that made me leave. The promise of the paradise and a world without borders resonated with me, in my mind it solved my biggest problem of injustice. In my eyes the US government is punishing me for a decision my parents took while I was still a minor. The organization would never let injustices like this happen! I was sure of that! As I read the elders book and found the consequences for disassociating, and watched the Royal commission hearings it all broke down for me. The same thing I been angry about of “the world” is the same thing the organization does and worse, have no plans to change. They break up families, protect evil people, and build strong fear for you to leave. Thankfully when I spoke to my parents about my issue and reasons for leaving, they took it well. They respect me and love me. Every day I come to the realization that yes, the REAL WORLD is scarier than I imagined but it’s also so much more beautiful than I thought. Stay strong everyone!

[@andracadicecrawford4256]

Awesome Video and awesome perspective!! Keep them coming lil bro! Welcome to your freedom.

[@daroweilburg7706]

What freedom? He is still in! You people are idiots!

[@kirstenornelas881]

My husband and I were both born in , raised in, both 3rd generation in. For both of us we were just talking about this last night oddly enough. The day after we decided we were done we both said we felt so much better. We didn't have that intense constant shame, the feeling of never being good enough no matter what we did. We had known each other most of our lives and had gone our own paths and even left at different times. We reconnected after both of us were out and we were friends once again. We had never before looked at each other in any way except friendship but eventually our friendship became a relationship and we have now been together going on 11 years and raised two amazing children outside of the organization. You will get there to the point staying in and being miserable will no longer be worth keeping your family and friends. It is hard, it isn't easy and there are days I miss my family a lot but I'm so much happier outside of the high control lying , hypocritical organization. Take care and don't stay in just because of family.

[@michaels8530]

Thankyou for taking the time to do this video, my wife and I enjoyed it and look forward to more. We've been out for 30 months and are continually reassessing and processing, 50 years of control takes it's toll! You made many good points. Above all, we are very happy where we are.

[@kipmic1]

Congratulations Michael on waking up, I was fed up and left in 95' when I was 24, really didn't wake up to the truth about the truth until I started watching videos on YT :)

[@daroweilburg7706]

Satan is now your daddy...sad!

[@kipmic1]

@@daroweilburg7706 Lol, at least my daddy doesn't shun me, lets me live a free and happy existence, loves me unconditionally, doesn't mind if a have a different opinion than his, allows me to research all available material and come to my own conclusions, and doesn't demand I turn in time each month or I won't be saved at Armageddon (of which, shame on you for count time for this interaction :( ).

[@j.g.m.6180]

@@daroweilburg7706 Did you ever think that maybe satan is your daddy and you just dont realize it.

[@thinkingman2020]

@@daroweilburg7706 satan is tempting you with food...REPENT!

[@thisguy2917]

Outstanding video 👍 I could listen to you all day man, Great info.

[@gr8fulride]

You've come a long way in a short time. I'm glad you spoke to a therapist. Thank you for the vid. I appreciate your perspectives

[@thetwinklegg8121]

Subscribed!!! You are such an amazing speaker. I also love, love, love! Your sense of humour. I am the only 'JW' in my family. I was a fading PIMO when Zoom started. It has made it so easy to fade. Some people I was close to do sometimes look for me. I have not said anything much to them. Most members of the congregation barely speak to me and I am fine with it. I keep myself pretty busy, I have gone back to college- part time. I have also increased my hours at work, started making new friends- it's hard right now coz of C-19 but it is a start. I watch Exjw videos and also alot of none related content that I find enjoyable on KZbin. Oh, and I have just started a small business. Yes, I am keeping myself very, very busy.

[@livingwithtandj8956]

I’ve been out since August of 2019. I truly appreciate the point that you make that you have to come out of the rabbit hole. A personal unfortunate incident pushed me out the door. Although I’ve always questioned doctrine that wasn’t why I left. The ARC and learning that they were a NGO with the United Nations is what started me to look into any and all doctrine that I ever questioned. I was deep down the hole but I’m coming out of it. I’m just getting to the point where I’m letting go but I know I have a long way to go.

[@MJ-ej5ok]

@living with T and J.... wow I left the same time...I spent three years researching and it came to a head in August 2019 I just could not continue going to the meetings..... how are you doing?

[@livingwithtandj8956]

@@MJ-ej5ok I am doing GREAT!!! My family and I are much happier bc I’m less uptight and not imposing a ton of ridiculous rules. I still know that I have a way to go and some things that my very indoctrinated family trigger me but all in all I’m good ☺️

[@MJ-ej5ok]

@@livingwithtandj8956 that’s awesome keep it up... we are free!

[@ryanedwardscott]

One of the most compelling exjw videos I've come across. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@bessmcneill971]

Brilliant video. Can relate to so much of your experience. I was out for years and never gave JWs a second thought but the tight pants talk made waves among my PIMI family members. Only one family member is still holding on.

[@daroweilburg7706]

@Bess...Yeah! Only one of your family members remained intelligent! Why not come and address all your concerns with me anonymously and join that family member so you can live forever? Download the app Paltalk...category...Religion and Spirituality...Christianity...and the room entitled: "Is JEHOVAH the TRUE GOD? I will leave the light on for ya! Or, email me at [e-mail].

[@thinkingman2020]

@@daroweilburg7706 you need to address your overeating.

[@RoswellFreak85]

That was my exact path out. That video with the woman admonishing the sister over just turning down the bracelet made me roll my eyes SO HARD! That would never happen LOL And I agree with you. You have to grieve that loss. Staying angry doesn't help you move on with your life. Therapy is vital when you leave. Thank you for this.

[@chriscampas-svensson461]

This is so great and on point I to had to fight to be removed as a MS many meetings trying to get me to remain public talks in and out of my hall and service meeting parts being groomed for being an elder. I surfed the internet durning meetings at the end of my run. I am thankful that my wife and I left together!

[@thefigleaf6206]

Love your format. Keep these coming.

[@altworldly]

Thanks, Jill!

[@TheBalancePod]

This man’s format makes you drop everything.

[@thefigleaf6206]

@@TheBalancePod so true! Unputdownable content. He has a great style.

[@paulmaes6054]

I can relate to some of the things you had to say. At one point I was so unhappy about all the little things that started bothering me. Then I found out so many other things big things. After Baptism I found my joy dwindled because I felt abandoned unloved I couldn't get a straight answer about any of my deeper questions and concerns! I left that organization angry...and almost not believing in God. I had recently became interested and went to a few meetings and memorials. It was the same but the spirit there wasn't the same. Something seemed not right. Subdued or something. I still believe in the Lord and the Father... they will never change! Jesus says who will and will not inherit the Kingdom. Galatians 5:19-21 it also says the meek will inherit the earth. Period all of the other "Watchtower stuff" is the words of men who are uninspired and supposedly anointed with God's Holy Spirit yet make so many mistakes about things never apologizes and does not have the decency to work with authorities to make the community safer for all children. It really bothers me and of course I don't want to return! Now that I know so much!

[@daroweilburg7706]

@Paul Maes...I do not believe my brothers could not answer your deeper questions...I assure you I can and I welcome them...download the app...Paltalk...category Religion and Spirituality then click on Christianity...then the room entitled Is JEHOVAH the TRUE GOD? Or email me at [e-mail] and I will answer all your questions with the Bible version of your choice.

[@paulmaes6054]

@@daroweilburg7706 ok thanks

[@thinkingman2020]

@@daroweilburg7706 I have reported you to your elders for trying to gain glory for yourself and your overeating.

[@davidburroughs2244]

That they didn't know the answer to hard questions often didn't bother me - I'm used to be being smarter than most even if I'm not more wise - and I put things on my shelf. Before long I needed a closet. Not too long after that, I needed to rent a storage compartment to have the room I needed to stack the stuff that wasn't getting answered and not dealt with. But, I knew I wasn't wiser than many older brothers and sisters, so I bided my time and put them off. Became that brother you could depend on when needed to step up and handle any talk on short notice. Gave several Sunday one hour public talks, etc., and got to the point where I could do field service without books - could even do it with out the Bible if the person at the door had a problem with the Bible. One of the worst (and, eventually, one of the best) was talking to a young mother who had recently lost her baby to one of those all too common childhood deadly diseases ... the best I could do was offer my telephone number and promise to be ready to listen to her and promise yuo not push any message, to be only a person she could rely on to hear. She never called - I suppose and hope she had plenty to do and others better qualified to hear and help her and really had no use for a young man. I did go back after a few days, but she had moved. Always hoped she got the support she needed, but I guess I'll never know.

[@compositioncompilation]

It got me a bit no apologies.. Meekness didn't go all the way..seemed dome were arrogant. The governing body don't apologise for preaching or seek permission to do it from huma government because they're authorised by God himself !! Matt 24:14..; 28:19,20. Authority is key. Rev 11:5 & 6 is a lot of leeway for ' the two witnesses.' Interesting name...particularly so ..in the last days. Negative consequences MUST be part of the picture .. Some of today's bad effects were sown earlier on..and only now being uncovered.. With Internet technology.. They knew.. They knew.. Daniel prophesied..that the words sealed up til the time of the end.. Now. They won't apologise..They're God authorised !! And with those earlier seeds now observable as TRUE KNOWLEDGE WILL BE ABUNDANT....rove about in it.. Etc.. Remarkable.. I come to the idea that do many bad things are being reported.. They could well be ' the Man of Lawlessnes' foretold to appear before the end. It's a matter of perspective.. Isa 54:17. The ARC troubled me..extra sensitive l guess as a witness..child sex abuse with its horrendous after effects ..and the hurt caused when ones are not believed..the offender is sllowwed to remain in the cong..but the victim is put out !! Crazy. But l could see from my personal experience. .it was a UNITY issue. Strange..but that was the way the policy was .. Unjust..Hell yeah Cong members left unprotected..as nothing should be publicised til a person is proven by two witnesses/ reports ! By this means however,.objectively It has created a scenario which raises a controversy. Publicity..negative though it is.. Yet..they followed scripture..closely. God must approve of it.. Compare to the way other organisations handle this epidemic of paedophilia. . They don't limit the reports to two.. France just revealed 300 000 cases over 70 years..one priest caught admission of 20 cases. If only the hierarchy acted to remove the wicked man from their midst after the first 2 witnesses !! That would have avoided 18 victims ! Marriage was forbidden too by some...totally unscriptural.. High ranking titles..putting men on a pedestal..a combination of factors ignoring inspired scripture ..words from jesus and Paul ! Well how God thinks of two children.. one listens the other doesn't and as a result suffers terrible consequences ..the one thst listened gets a pay on their back..maybe gets treated differently..gets away with a bit of leeway in other things.. Rev 11:5 & 6.. Leeway. Diplomatic immunity. Not a crime..move on.. nothing to see No apologies. .

[@pretendyoudontseeme5555]

Great story! Thank you for sharing, you have a great voice to listen to. I'm a fellow POMO who successfully faded many years ago but was POMI up until last year. Sending lots of love to you for your continuing journey and look forward to more content from you.

[@Green4peace]

The 2014 rant by Tony Morris played a huge part in my waking up. I had already began to doubt, but when this guy spewed out his vomit, I was soooo uncomfortable. I left the org three years later. Not soon enough.

[@jackiebaker1678]

This video is outstanding!! I am not nor never have been a witness mygrandmother, mom , and sister were/are I've tried to talk to me sis which just ended up in a big fight. Mom and gmom are deceased. And I know my sis is holding on to the idea of seeing them again. It just kills me that she has wasted her life on lies No education , no children no savings etc. BBreaks my heart!

[@swwagner1]

The fredom to learn outside of the Borg is so wonderful

[@NashonOsborne]

Thanks for sharing your story. Keep up the good work. I wish you the best on your journey.

[@mkultra7940]

I really like your editing. I love how the society's own propaganda is waking people up. And I gotta say, I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one who upon awakening has been absolutely ravenous where it comes to learning more and more about the dirt on the Society. It's bordering on obsession. Every video I watch, every podcast I listen to, every book I read is more and more validation. I hope you can get out soon. 💎

[@jimrin595]

I was raised in the abusive Roman Catholic Cult and emotionally abused by a Pentecostal Group. This video was helpful to me. Thanks for your honesty and openess. Bless You.

[@altworldly]

Thank you so much!!

[@jivinjuju]

Great video! This will be a big help to so many.

[@josevaldez1554]

Looking dapper their Tony. (:

[@msbutterfly4365]

Great video love to see more people waking up, and your experience just helps to remind us that our families and friends may one day awaken from this soul destroying cult... xx

[@linzrojo]

This video is amazing . It’s like pulling on the string of a beautiful sweater and once you pull it all starts unraveling . Thank you so much for you content .

[@kevaran1422]

My last involvement was the Melbourne International Convention November 2019. The last talk from a gov body member about "lets not ask things, this is not the time to ask whats the accurate pronunciation of gods name blah blah blah" made me not finish the program and walk out the stadium. My head was heavy but floating. I felt like I was deceived my entire life.

[@BALCACER]

Number 133 subscriber!! Greetings from Punta Cana, the Dominican Republic.

[@helenohara423]

Really enjoyed this. I'm not usually a fan of the off- script meandering style of presentation, but you make it work. It wasn't just engaging and entertaining, your advice and pointers were intelligent and sound.The advice to not sit in the rabbit hole forever is the most helpful thing I've seen in a while. You are a fabulous addition to the youtube activists.

[@clarkgrayhame1250]

Great video, I have seen so many folks leave the organization these past few years. So many of us are waking up. I have to suck it up and have had to for 2 years now. I woke up and stopped attending meetings 7 years ago but wound up coming back because of my family situation as well as my health. They know I don't care anymore but they think I can totally embrace it if I allowed it to. I told them that will never happen now. That's how it goes, perhaps one day I'll make my break off complete. Hopefully without having to get DFd or DA.

[@clarity2478]

Excellent video!!!! Spent a huge chunk of my life in the WT cult......what a big mistake. Woke up 12 yrs ago. Wonderful to hear that you have escaped their clutches. Congratulations.

[@Gouzinstrumentals]

liked and subbed. i want to hear more from u! plus backgound music is 🔥🔥

[@marque4739]

I really enjoyed this video, thank you for sharing and I look forward to seeing more videos from you.

[@Rupunzelsawake]

I very much enjoyed listening to your "rambling" while I brought in the washing, changed the sheets and cooked dinner. You are very easy to listen to..and engaging!!

[@austinshanahan7047]

"I got an apostate email and..... didn't.even.die!" 😂😂

[@sasukeuchiha8648]

Good one. It's found in 33:50

[@bumrush9422]

Well, I'll be a shun of a gun!

[@SpiderDiscord]

You're a very brave man. Thanks for sharing your story and your thoughts.

[@daroweilburg7706]

He is a coward and a liar. Not brave at all!

[@SpiderDiscord]

@@daroweilburg7706 How so?

[@altworldly]

Thank you so much!!

[@altworldly]

@@daroweilburg7706 Hi Daro :)

[@daroweilburg7706]

@@SpiderDiscord Well, when he got baptized he SWORE AN OATH and verbally set forth in front of perhaps thousands of people that he dedicated his life to Jehovah and Jehovah's earthly organization. He was a liar then and is a liar now. Liars are cowards. There is your proof! Just ask him the two questions he answered yes to in front of thousands?????

[@deniceney-lugo6879]

I loved listening to your story. You are easy to listen to. Keep it up !

[@MrMatthew54]

I think you have done such a good job explaining how a lot of us are. PIMO's. I am one and can't wait to figure out how to get out completely without losing everything.

[@bananaislandfilms]

Hey @AltWorldly, I'm loving your series. It's great to see anything that has more effort including writing, soundtrack and even visuals. Your perspective and effort as PIMO is also really interesting. I'm looking forward to consuming more content from you. Thanks for supporting the ExJW community. - Scott

[@ren-kw2cb]

Thanks a lot for the video. You sumed up a lot of my own processes... I was more of a "went out with a blast" kinda gal. Left just under a year ago and lost all of my close friends... Hard when you're in your twenties... But oh so liberating!

[@joeyburrell3207]

You are so very bright young man, and your so blessed that you caught on early to this nonsense. I was a born in, and now I’m a young 64. Woke up 4 years ago. So I wasted 60 YEARS of my life. Most of my life behind me. So I’m just saying, consider yourself very fortunate with MOST of your life ahead. You still have time to really do something with your life. Kudos to you.👍😊

[@joelee1195]

This is one of the best waking up videos I’ve seen. Excellent background music. Gives me hope.

[@sasukeuchiha8648]

34:10 That was the Australian Royal Commission. I was already woke up during that time because I researched the governing body and stumbled across Raymond Franz and his Crisis of Conscience book.

[@jennybloom9107]

Are you me? My God, this was so similar to my waking up process except the last convention I attended was Love Never Fails. I did the same thing where I was crying but because it all felt so fake and hypocritical, especially since the soft shunning had just started for me. Instead of the Alt right recruitment tactics, it was MLMs, and Amber Scorah on NPR was the first apostate thing I read and I was so surprised at how benign it was. Lloyd Evans interview with Howie Rutledge Tran was my exjwfifth video lol. He was so kind. And I had had issues with the treatment of lgbtq people, too. Thank you for this video :)

[@altworldly]

I’m so glad to hear that you connected with it! We really do have similar stories!

[@mattgml7638]

are you awake or are you still blue pilling??

[@jesetfreesince9317]

Excellent job. Very well thought out and presented. The “brothers in the back” give you 10/10 G’s!

[@deekid311]

12:05 "you train yourself to not think" Truer words have never been spoken as it pertains to Witnesses. I remember in service, an elder and I were having a conversation about a scriptural interpretation from the Society (basically questioning it, to be frank), and he literally said: "I think too much. That's what's wrong with me now!" It's sad when JWs feel they have to shut off their brains just so they don't go against the "slave".

[@typaul4859]

That servant talk was such bull. I was working at Warwick for 70 hrs a week and then my assigned congregation elders started badgering me every meeting about “doing more for Jehovah.”

[@edeleencotton6854]

I've been POMI since about 16 y.o. and not until 37ish about 2 yrs ago did I discover the truth! I enjoyed watching your video. You made some great points for me on my journey of healing from his spiritual abuse. Please keep making them and I honestly pray that you can live your true life along side your love ones.

[@MJ-ej5ok]

I left August 2019 you hit all the points that lead me out and like you I was putting things on the shelf for years.... my only regent is raising my kids in this cult for so long.... but we are all

[@blkhemi3925]

Your lucky, because the JW are milking this covid virus for all its worth... Every elder and every talk is about the end of the world

[@daroweilburg7706]

@@blkhemi3925 POPPYCOCK! You are misinformed!

[@blkhemi3925]

@@daroweilburg7706 my father told me that the witnesses explained to the congregation that this is now the final days, and to cut any and all remaining ties to their remaining worldly family and friends. Not that it really matters, considering my father disowned me when I was a child because I would be lost to Armageddon, which could happen at any minute. That was 30 years ago. Misinformed? Dude, I got first hand knowledge. Go blow smoke up someone else's ass!

[@SoCalDude1793]

I’m agnostic, I’ve never been in a official religion. I find these stories about, not just JW, leaving religion very fascinating. Stay strong and good luck!

[@minniemeowmix2934]

Thank you so much for sharing! I can't tell you how much some of the things you highlighted resonate with me. The fact that you are still inside breaks my heart but I know this will help a lot of people in the same position.

[@daroweilburg7706]

The fact that he is still in the truth breaks Satan's heart as well, you are from your father the devil! John 8:44

[@daroweilburg7706]

@Geary Kunkel Hehehe! Believe me, I wouldn't go to a blind man for directions and I certainly wouldn't go to a stupid idiot for knowledge. LOL!

[@Ale33810]

@@daroweilburg7706 I never being a jw, so I want to give you an external prospective. You are the one who sound full of hate, not this guy. And honestly, why somebody should listen to a person that call them stupid just because they don't share the same believe system. Is a very naive way to act. Fortunatly, you're doing a very bad service to the organization. Those times that a jw knocked my door, I always found them judgmental and arrogant. You are the same. Last thing. If the Armaggedon story is real, the way you painted it, I believe that means that god is vendicative and childish. My parents teach me to fight the oppressor, not to serve him. I would prefer die with the innocent than live Forever upon their graves.

[@thetruthlies9212]

I wish I'd heard this 8 years ago! What great advice! I went through much of this on my own. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@koffinrott]

Listening to this while I'm working on an animation. I've spent the last three years coming to terms with the loss I felt from stepping away from the JW faith. I was never active in the Kingdom Hall after 11 years old, and I'm nearly 30 now. But I held on to my faith for a long time. I've probably been questioning things since highschool, because by then I was allowed to have friends. For a lot of my childhood I was not allowed to have friends over, or go to their houses unless it was another witness. Most of the kids I hung out with, my grandparents didn't like much. They thought they were bad because they didn't behave like the kids at the kingdom hall. (they were normal kids) That changed when I got into highschool, and because I was JW they would always ask me questions and like... None of my answers ever held up to scrutiny. So I'd go home upset and ask for answers that my family and the congregation just couldn't answer. I never got a straight answer, and I was always confused. I stopped identifying as JW by my junior year, but I had;t turned my back on it. I still defended the church and believed their teachings. I just didn't feel like I deserved to call myself a JW if I had to keep questioning things. (Imagine thinking asking questions is a bad thing.) By 21 I realized I didn't have a personality of my own. The me I was "allowed" to be was nobody. Even with my interests in Horror and Art and Videogames... Those things were steadily discouraged. Because my job was to be a wife and future mother, and to set a good example for the young girls in my family. It was... rough... by 23 I started questioning my gender, among other things. By 26 I had come out as genderfluid (I identify as a man now). It's... been really hard to step away from everything. A lot of what I feel is anger, for being lied to. But also, a disturbingly deep, deep fear of the indoctrination my baby sister has had to deal with. Not directly from the church, fortunately. But we have family who is very... vocal about the faith and she's a good kid so she listens and she took a lot of it to heart. I don't know how to undo everything that she's learned, or if I even want to. She's turning 10 soon and I just... DO NOT want her to get sucked into the JW faith. I wasn't in it very long and it did a lot to my self esteem, and I am still recovering from my experiences in the church as a child. The blender metaphor really makes a lot of sense. .. Idk... Thanks for the video. It's nice to hear other people who are still healing and slowly getting away from the faith. It makes me feel less alone.

[@blkhemi3925]

My father is a Jehovah's witness. He started with them when I was about 6 years old. He disowned me when I was 14, because my mother had custody of me and he felt that I would be lost to Armageddon and therefore had no reason to have a relationship with me. That was 30 years ago. It has had a life long impact on me.

[@jesetfreesince9317]

@blk Hemi 392 (fantastic engine btw) that must have cost you much pain over the years. Unfortunately, it’s just a classic example of what the borg and their fantasy corrupts people’s minds to do. I sincerely hope that you find the healing that you so deserve either through channels like this or through professional help. I was first generation but muddled through it until I was 30, thus the name Free since ‘93. Much love

[@blkhemi3925]

@@jesetfreesince9317 it's bothers me everyday, but I recently found the KZbin channel Telltale. Even though I could never fully understand his reasoning behind what he did, as I am now a divorced father and could never abandon my children, at least I can begin to see how his mind was manipulated, his personal weaknesses were exploited, and insecurities were preyed on.

[@traciharrett74]

Great job! Keep up the great work!

[@moniquedelaney7958]

Perfectly presented . Don’t change ; you will touch and help many .

[@Abbynormal95]

I'm only 20 min in but I'm really enjoying how you put this video together. Your editing and commentary are great 😂. Looking forward to more content on the subject. It's very helpful hearing from other people's perspective.

[@Nana-fo4zt]

This video was awesome!!! It was like having a conversation with an old friend, thank you 🥰☺️🤗

[@unknownalias5273]

Another PIMO here as well, trapped with my family. I am just riding it our until I am financially prepared to be set on my own. It is really encouraging to hear from so many other exJWs and soon to be exJWs with various backgrounds with similarities to my own in different ways. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@Sportliveonline]

its all about fear and control leading to Power

[@ingersollbob]

@ the 6:30 mark concerning supposed prophecies - "...there is almost no hint that any of these interpretations are true..." Exactly! I have often told believers who tout all the "fulfilled" and "yet to be fulfilled" prophecies found in the bible, that they only way anyone could say that these are prophecies specific to (insert time, place, person, action here) is if they were taught to believe that by some minister or book, who likely was taught the same thing by some earlier minister or book. No one reading these bible verses today would come up with that on their own.

[@celialehannehollon8567]

Looking forward to future content!

[@melicahdavid]

Bro, this was an awesome video. You sound like someone I went to a Nine Inch Nails concert, like 15 years ago in Las Vegas.

[@guitaro5000]

27:00 Stickerbrush Symphony from Donkey Kong Country 2. Great song!

[@itsble]

Dude this video was brilliant. By the way, you have an amazing radio/podcast voice

[@brittanyismebb]

Thank you for sharing your story!!

[@sarahbowden8970]

You now have as I am typing this the 8 thumbs down.....all the GB must of had a movie night 😂 consider yourself an official apostate. Love the style of delivery, as I have been out for a long time keep seeing how much this religion has changed, seriously don't recognise it. I do wonder if my worldly man hadn't of tempted me successfully out of the truth, watching their monthly broadcasting, music videos and hate speeches against almost anyone non JW would of awoken me... suppose I will never know, just count myself lucky I was like Eve and got tempted. Thanks for letting us join you on your journey fully out, here to support you. Do you mind me asking if your wife knows and watches your video's? If not especial thanks for taking the time to covertly do these. ☺️

[@helengrace6553]

Thank you. I enjoyed your story. Love from NZ ❤️

[@exjwphilippines762]

thank you for sharing your story. Subscribed qnd shared.

[@zetharerey3761]

The fact that you had a remix of "Forest Interlude" as background music sent me. ❤👌

[@owelov343]

Wow 😮 this PIMO channel is fascinating. I changed from PIMO to POMO but could only do so by building a social network outside of the cult that could support my escape.

[@pauletteforman]

👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽😊WOOO HOOO🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️❤️❤️❤️ ANOTHER JW IS WAKING UP!!!! It's a process of elimination. Been there, done that🙄🤦🏽‍♀️...and then there's FREEDOM🙋🏽‍♀️😄!!! You'll thank yourself later! I did, and I am the HAPPIEST I ever been 🤗💗👍🏽🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️🤸🏾‍♀️👈🏽😄!

[@latonyasmith683]

I'm very happy! I left in may of 2019!

[@pauletteforman]

@@latonyasmith683 Hi Latonya 👋😃💕!!! I'm so happy for you 🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤗! I left in 2012!!! NEVER EVER going back!! EMBRACE & ENJOY YOUR YOUR FREEDOM!

[@latonyasmith683]

@@pauletteforman Hello there, dear one! Welcome to your freedom! You've been happy longer than me!🤗🤗🤗💗💗💗💗

[@pauletteforman]

@@latonyasmith683 Awww 🤗💕. How sweet❤️. The peace and freedom will come in time. Believe me it will!!! 🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️😂👍🏽

[@latonyasmith683]

@@pauletteforman Thanks, and I'm very happy!

[@laymanphil8513]

Excellent work. thank you so much. There are more and more PIMOs who suffer in silence. Fortunately, there are more and more channels like yours. It comforts and gives courage to PIMOs. The passing of time plays more and more against this cult ... I think that the watchtower is at the end of its life and like any organism at the end of its life it will decompose from the inside without having suffered any persecution.

[@robird80]

100000% relatable. I like the way you express this. Thanks!

[@sarahshowalter9539]

Looks like to me at the Warwick hq area looks and is laid out for future sale as"Resort" property? Look at the over-head view he just showed. Thanks for leaving and welcome home!

[@davidburroughs2244]

It is definitely an investment property and designed for later sale, as are the video making studios. What better way to market those than by showing them in use no matter how poor the current product?

[@catmeow333]

I like where you’re going with this. 💙

[@jamieangel3766]

You express yourself so well I could listen all day. I'm just so impressed with how you woke youself up, despite never having any trouble with elders or jws. I was the opposite, waking up from elders tormenting my family for years, treating my reg pioneer parents like shit and from feeling like a complete outsider in the jws because a lot of the r&f are so 2 faced/insincere. A worldly person helped to wake me up. You should be so proud of yourself

[@compositioncompilation]

Everyone's under pressure..especially in.these last days . Rev 11:18. But look at the earlier verses Same chapter . Suppose to be happy seeing things come to a climax.. Knowing ahead of time..that changes will come good ..Gods will will be done on earth.. The lsraelites under Pharoah were worse off after Moses went before Egypts king ! There were things we could have criticised About with Moses! They did.. They lost out. Phrases in scripture that l was curious about.. Verses unexplained In the index..maybe to be revealed later.. ' The love of the greater number will grow cold.' Who is' the man of lawlessness to be revealed 'before the end ? I look at the revealed history and facts online..and now l factor in.. Rev 11:5 & 6 And l see they fulfill the role foretold 2000 years ago.

[@compositioncompilation]

Job 38:22 speaks of this current glacial melt..resulting in humans fleeing from islands in the sea..as sea level changes make living impossible for them. Moses wrote this..4000 years ago ! Good news is that's not how it all ends! Rev 21:1 - 4, 5

[@compositioncompilation]

The GB narrative allows for the revealing of the Sons of God ..the two witnesses.rev 11:5 & 6. Wise and discreet. Earthquakes to our faith..we need to find what's solid. When storm Winds blow..hold in to something that you can be sure of. Is there a God. I Start at the beginning .. Is there evidence of design ? Etc etc. Some of the things jw,s believe will prove to not be true.. That's OK. If we are meek.thats what's key

[@compositioncompilation]

Army on the UK last week drafted in to help distribute fuel no drivers due to pandemic and wyarantine/isolation rules from government..no close up contact so NEW drivers couldn't train JUST BEEN DRAFTED IN TO COVER ambulance drivers. Rev 19 :18. War = horses in scripture Flesh = needed resources Fat= luxury Those who ride horses..must be .. Encouraging.seeing prophecy fulfilled. Thing is to be on the right side of fulfillment . Benefit ourselves. Choose the correct ally. Unparalleled times. Build faith. Rev 16 said many would blaspheme. But why let Satan win ? Time of testing.. Ps 119:165. A righteous man may fall 7 times.. We can get up..assist one another into the new world. It will have been worth it !

[@Plantsandtoyhorses]

Perhaps you've seen them, but Lloyd also has a very insightful series of videos called "Fade Interrupted" that discusses when people want to fade but are hounded by elders. And he and Mark O'Donnel have shared the stories of how they helped their spouses wake up, not by pressure but in a way that the realization comes from themself, from their own reasoning. In that way, they don't feel pressured.

[@kristineolsen477]

All stages of grief are in a blender because the so called stages don't exist. Absolutely wonderful video! New friend, Kristine (Not jw friend, real friend)

[@runcanica]

Wooow! I love your videos! Please keep up the good work.

[@freedomparadisechick6564]

Hello I just discovered your channel, you have great videos and I'm sure you will help many witnesses to wake up to the truth!!☺️👍