POSTPARTUM GRWM: Baby Blues, C Section Recovery, Mom Guilt, Rehoming My Dog ☹️

[@victoriouslogan]

Hopefully the next few videos I do will be more upbeat and not as emotional as this one LOL postpartum definitely beat me up, but it got better for sure. Let me know what you guys wanna see next!!

[@patriceedwards1971]

I want to see the precious baby ❤😊

[@KourtneyC35]

I don't mind the emotional vids being a mom and a mom that has had interesting birth and postpartum experiences lol but just an idea, what about documenting a new activity or something you did to get back into your groove?

[@callib8368]

I love the genuine experience and unfiltered truth content tbh. Many women don’t share the tough parts and that is what sets you apart. Your transparency and how you and your hubby worked through it together.

[@ACUMCARSUM-dk3wh]

Hadir juga

[@MultiLexiiE]

Heavy on get you a MAN that believes in teamwork and partnership. During both my postpartum phases my husband showed me he was in fact THE ONE. ❤

[@mmhh5579]

THIS

[@BarbaraCienna]

I literally wanted to cry listening to this. Everyone says all women go through child birth and “it’s hard but you’ll get through it” but it’s not the same for everyone and everyone does not get through it. I tell everybody God did not intend for us to have such a painful childbirth experience. Just know I feel you. One hundred percent.

[@lifestyleofadecornatural9265]

I’m so glad you’re giving yourself grace. I promise you as time goes on those feelings fade. In time, you will embrace your birth experience b/c at the end of the day, you were able to bring your miracle baby into the world. You did that!!!!

[@britneykelley4919]

I had my 2nd baby in August and I felt the same way about having people around. I had an emergency C-section 5 weeks early after having a seizure and preeclampsia, so I needed help with my oldest, while my husband helped with me. I literally was so aggravated about people being around lol my parents stayed a week then my husbands mom came after for a few days. I was so aggravated that my blood pressure was up again lol like I just wanted myself, my husband and my two kids here

[@apriles5907]

I'm here for all of this postpartum, mom, wife content. Postpartum my second go round with a c-section was ABSOLUTELY night and day from my first and no one talk about it enough.

[@Alygolden]

I’m almost 3 months postpartum and I’ll just say, I really appreciate you sharing this. I tried not to set expectations for what my birth and postpartum experience would be like bc I’m super type A and didn’t want to be disappointed, but somehow I still was. Lol I had a vaginal birth but was in the hospital way longer than expected. I also had to exclusively pump way sooner than I thought. All that to say, you sharing your journey, especially the mom guilt part, makes me feel more normal. Thank you!

[@victoriouslogan]

I had no expectations either but ended up disappointed as well lol funny how we try to protect ourselves. But life be like YOU THOUGHT 😂

[@Alygolden]

No for real 😂 God really be forcing me to rely on Him completely!

[@Ccgemini]

Thank you for making a HONEST VIDEO about after birth feelings. This is going to be so helpful to so many because when you are having so much feelings you thinks it’s only YOU but others are going having similar emotions.

[@arianejohn6083]

Feeling disconnected from your birth experience is such a real thing. I had a very similar experience and you have EVERY right to feel how you feel! Your story is literally healing folks out here!! God bless!! 💚💚💚

[@lovebrittt]

You are the first mom that I’ve ever heard talk about that seizure feeling after delivery. I had an induced vaginal birth in 2020 but I hadn’t slept the whole time bc I was so nervous…after I delivered her I was literally shaking and thinking I was going to seize. I just remember trying to calm myself down in my head until it passed after about 20 minutes. It was the scariest thing!

[@Sage-26819]

I have never commented on a video before but I’ve been watching you since the hair tutorials Vicky and I just wanna let you know that I can’t imagine what your going through, but you are doing it mama! Hang in there, it will get better and hopefully easier. Thank you for being you and sharing🫶🏾We love you!!💛💚

[@Trice_Marie84]

I appreciate your transparency and honesty. Things people don’t talk about often! You’re a super hero and have overcome very hard things!!Bravo and kudos to you

[@takishasage-freebeautyzone]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Pregnancy, delivery and post partum are so different for each mom and for each time/baby. I'm glad that you were vulnerable with how it was for you, because I know there will be a new mom that can relate to some or all of your experience. Even though my kids are older, I can definitely remember and identify with some of the same things that you went through. Especially those post partum shakes and sweating...GIRL! I was like what in the world is happening?! Nobody prepared me for that, and for years I felt like it was weird because everyone that I told about it was like "really?! That's so strange". My oldest would be 18 and my youngest is 10 (in a few days), and it wasn't until about 5 years ago when I started hearing that other people had the same experience.

[@Sereetag]

Breastfeeding my 3 month old while I watch this. Thank you for making this video - you put into words some feelings I've been feeling but didnt have the language to express. My birth was very different to yours and quite positive, but Baby Boy spent a week in NICU. I felt very detached from him, didn't get that typical first "hold" on the chest, didn't hear him cry, didn't breastfeed for a while, I was even afraid to touch him while in NICU. So those feelings of detachment/separation are very relatable.

[@tiffanytaylor7193]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey! Listening to you felt like a sister sharing her experience. I can relate to so many things you said, the feeling of not wanting people around during the first few weeks, the sadness, the overthinking/questioning your choices. It’s so good to know I’m not alone in this PP rollercoaster 😅

[@favoreesh]

We love & support you Vicky! Ty for sharing your heart with us. As a fellow mom, wife & human - life really be out here doing a lot & we with you 💚

[@19Diva4life]

The dog mom part is so real!! I’ve been passing my dog baby around to my family since I gave birth 7month ago and we’ve finally decided to re-home him within our family 🫶🏾but I felt everything you said being a first time mom with a toddler level dog feels wild and I can’t/don’t want to do it 😅😢

[@tiaraeasley9289]

I’m so glad you shared your experience because although we had different birthing experiences I felt a lot of the same feelings, ESPECIALLY when you spoke about your dog. I felt the same way about my 16yr old beagle while pregnant, he also had some behavior issues such as separation anxiety and some medical issues in his old age, it can all be super overwhelming but we were sticking it out the best we could with no family around to help. I felt terrible most times once the baby was born because I was spending all my time with the baby and my husband was working so my dog seemed to be so depressed. Before my human child he got all my attention but once the baby was born I kept them somewhat separate because of his health and behavior issues, then he began getting really sick, we spent thousands of dollars but his health was declining and I had to make the difficult decision to put him to sleep, while going through postpartum! 😩 To this day I struggle with that decision because although I didn’t want to see him suffer I wonder if circumstances were different would he still be here, I know he was very old but my postpartum brain won’t let me see it that way so, I to have to pray my way through those negative thoughts. And although life is a bit easier without his neediness I totally understand missing your dog everyday. No one really talks about that like you said but I have a friend going through something similar so I know it’s more common then you’d think. Anyway thank you so much for sharing! I’ve been following your pregnancy journey because we were pregnant at the same time, I gave birth May 2023!

[@Ronnie556]

The baby blues hit me hard when I got home and I was shocked lol. I recorded a whole video of me crying while in the midst of all of that, to remind myself to double-check if I want to do this again 😅. 6 months later and definitely one of the best decisions my husband and I made, but whew the beginning was rough 😮‍💨

[@jeslovesjesus]

When I tell you I feel every WORD of this video. My daughter will be 3 in February and listening to this still brings up all those feelings from my emergency c-section. You’re so brave and so strong to be able to get on camera and talk about this! ❤❤❤

[@Rb_prov31]

Every feeling you had/have is valid. I can relate in every aspect of your story. I have had 3 c-sections and each experience has been different. My last baby (2021) was the most traumatic yet! Still trying to process that whole situation. So I completely understand all of what you were saying.

[@suzetteharris1612]

I can definitely relate to your experience on so many levels. I had a cat before my first child, and I had a C-section. Your sharing brings back so many memories and feelings I had at that time. It's emotional; it's complicated. I'm hoping the experience of child birthing becomes better, and we can definitely advocate for improvements in the medical field for moms and babies. ❤

[@jmichel1]

Thank you for sharing your experience Vicky. My son was born 3 months early in July via an emergency C-section due to preeclampsia. Spent 3 months in the NICU and he has been home for almost a month!! God got us through that! I can relate to the part about feeling he was taken from me. I remember saying that to my husband. I’m still processing everything cuz my husband and I were preparing for a home birth. I also experience the mom guilt and feeling my body failed me. Thank you for using your platform to share about your experience.

[@adorablethia]

Yess I am the second person, SO HAPPY to see my GIRL!!!! 😍😍😍😍, i got a C-section as well, however my baby died 3 days after, I would have dreams that my baby was taken away. So I know how you feel. After my C-section I went into a Coma and then placed on life support, No kids since then, because of the trauma.

[@victoriouslogan]

thank you for sharing, I'm so sorry you had to go thru that. blessings to you and your family

[@Sassybesos]

This really made me tear up. I have so much empathy for women who go through that type of loss. Praying that you get some peace in that area, in Jesus name. 🤎

[@amberbug90]

Wow. Such hardship. I can't imagine. Thank the Lord u awoke from your coma. Your life is precious and I wish for you to have complete healing and peace in your soul. ❤❤❤🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 How has your journey been emotionally since going through this? What is your status now?

[@adorablethia]

Took me years to get pass it, I have not been pregnant sincee, But I am hoping to trying again, if its Gods will@@amberbug90

[@PreciousBB18]

That is a lot to process. I pray that the trauma be released and the pain is healed. Trying my best to be careful with my words. I’m praying for you.

[@HairdiariesofanonguruBlogspot]

We love all sides in of Vicky! Thank you for being vulnerable with us! 💗

[@ndidi08]

A blessing to women who have yet to experience motherhood✨💗

[@MikkisoXTRA]

I know exactly what you mean with Gigi! I had to rehome my dog when my first baby came home. It was not going to be a good situation for everyone. I felt so bad but I also felt relieved. 😞

[@saraclair2202]

I truly needed this video! It made me feel like I wasn’t alone in those feelings especially about figuring it out yourself.

[@Zeelookeezy]

Praying for you Vicky! Postpartum is tough. This video was very relatable. I felt like I lost something after my first C-section and couldnt explain why. I felt empty- like an incubator instead of a mother. Now I’ve had 3 and can recognize those feelings. You are doing great! A win is most definitely a win! ❤

[@tiarachenault7837]

Thank you for being so open ! I hope you know how many of us really love you and look forward to whatever you choose to talk about ❤️❤️❤️ and ya look good girl ! 😍

[@shelovesthemso6252]

Omg!! Vicky. Looks like I had D-MER when I had my sons over 30 years ago. However, the doctors did not understand what I was trying to describe. There was no name for it then. Whenever I tried to breastfeed my newborn a deep, dark cloud would seemingly pass by. There would be a hellish feeling of depression that I found too heavy and unbearable to tolerate. I stopped trying and went to formula because that feeling, that emotion was the worst I had ever experienced. I’m sorry you suffered this also, Vicky. I’m sorry for all of the sadness/disappointment.

[@joyybaybee]

Yes! The part about coming home 😩 nothing like I expected and even with support it was so overwhelming for me. Thanks for sharing with us, we love ya! ❤️

[@BabyC51085]

Thank you for this video Vicky. I kind of know wjat to expect. I feelclike people dont open up about birth. Very authentic!

[@lifeasana5003]

This was beautiful thank you for trusting us with this … you go momma you are doing a phenomenal job!!! We must show ourselves grace we are rockstars !!

[@LaMonicasLAB]

Thanks for sharing Vicky, I hate that this video is over, I can sit and listen to you talk for hours lol

[@dancekenzie96]

I love that Kiss edge control! It doesn't turn white for me but I use the green pineapple one.

[@victoriouslogan]

It only turns white when it’s mixed with other products or I don’t wash it off my edges and try to reapply!!

[@dancekenzie96]

@@victoriouslogan I see! Yup that'll do it

[@beautylove200]

I’m glad to see your back ❤. I’m so here for this king of content. We don’t talk about this enough! My experience was a bit different from yours I chose to opt for a c-section because of risk of dystocia. I’m not entirely sure of your pregnancy journey but please don’t feel bad. 9/10 when there is reason for an emergency c-section it is to save the life of the mom and/ or baby. C sections are birth too and save the lives of so many moms and babies so think of it as a blessing. Baby blues i completely felt that but I think it’s really just adjusting to your new reality on top of our body’s hormones. Congratulations on baby boy! Can’t wait to see more mommy content like this

[@maz2123]

Thoroughly enjoyed this sis thank you for sharing!🤗 Love the lip combo too 😍

[@Sassybesos]

I now understand why you say you don’t like having expectations and overly planning things out. Hoping you keep your peace and continue sharing your authentic experiences. 🫶🏽

[@cherrell_007]

Yes a birth favorites vlog would be great. Glad things are going better . Tfs ❤

[@evodieM]

Omg I thought I was going crazy or being weird for not allowing people to help me because I wanted to bond with my child . I can relate to being independent and not asking for help .

[@MaraJJ932]

Loved this get ready with me 💜 thank you for dropping that mascara.

[@Khulismonica]

I had a C section in South Africa. It was honestly not painful. Only when I tried to get up from bed it was a bit painful but I was walking right away. Only went to an appointment after a month for both baby and me.

[@bethforbes7913]

Thank you for sharing! I can remember feeling the same way when my daughter was born. I wanted help but when people were around it was overwhelming.. so I would get annoyed because I am tired and frustrated and I would feel bad for making them feel bad…

[@jmontgomery7871]

Thank you for this video. I’ve learned to quickly throw out expectations during this pregnancy. I was told I have to be induced last week and slowly starting to feel okay about it. We as women go through so much 😩

[@beautylove200]

I’m glad to see your back ❤. I’m so here for this kind of content. We don’t talk about this enough! My experience was a bit different from yours I chose to opt for a c-section because of risk of dystocia. I’m not entirely sure of your pregnancy journey but please don’t feel bad. 9/10 when there is reason for an emergency c-section it is to save the life of the mom and/ or baby. C sections are birth too and save the lives of so many moms and babies so think of it as a blessing. Baby blues i completely felt that but I think it’s really just adjusting to your new reality on top of our body’s hormones. Congratulations on baby boy! Can’t wait to see more mommy content like this

[@jessicalewis646]

This was absolutely beautiful!!! 😭my little sister had a baby and I feel like I’m some way I gained more respect and insight for her. I found your channel because of your very first vlog and then later found out who your dad was since we watched his videos about hip hop as little church kids 😂 and then I found out we use to have the same last name and I was like ok this is an imaginary cousin lol but said that to say thank you for sharing and I’m proud of you 🤎

[@LindaFennell-nz7el]

Congratulations. Queen 👑 Thank you for sharing. I had such a similar experience. Blessings ❤️

[@alexandriap6277]

My husband and I have decided to start trying for our first child. I am worried about how my dog will react. She is such a sweetheart and is very well behaved. However, she is very attached to me.. Kind of like a Velcro dog(I think that’s what people call it) we adopted her when she was a puppy and have had her ever since. That is my baby ! She can sometimes do her own thing, but she mostly prefers to be with me. She is in the crate during the day while we are at work, but other than that she gets to roam around, and she prefers to be wherever I am. I am not scared that she will hurt the baby, but I wonder how it will be because she is so big and is not aware of her size. We also have a three year old Siamese cat, who kind of chills on her own, and both the dog and cat get along very well together. It is always different when you add a tiny human being into the mix though lol.. another thing you mentioned is about the barking and waking up the baby. That does worry me. We have considered taking some classes with the dog to get the dog used to baby, crying and strollers and things like that. We are still looking into it as we are still starting to try.. I have a history of struggling with mental health, so I am worried about baby blues, turning into other things, but I have been praying and will continue therapy and doing the necessary work, but I know that you could never predict these things. I have some nervousness, but I do appreciate your vulnerability in this video. God bless you and your family.

[@TyMama26]

Thank you so much for sharing. I had a similar birthing experience and when I talk about it, I can’t put it into words or I feel as if no one understands what I mean. Especially with the c section topic. And I used to joke around and use the scene from Us when she was like my baby was ripped from my body, because in hindsight that it is kind a truthful. Anyway, keep the faith it’s good to see and know you all are doing better alone with you a little baby, Logan❤

[@caryljohnson1313]

Do I have kids, no. Did I watch this entire thing, yes. So informative. Thank you for sharing

[@kadeenxoxo5074]

Thank you for sharing. The motherhood journey is not easy and I can relate to a lot of what you’ve said. I had my second child who is about to be 3 months old, I’m exclusively pumping just enough to feed her and I returned to work part time a week ago….. Sheesh it has been rough but I try to do my best each day. I’d love if you discuss your breastfeeding experience. I too plan to stop at 6 months cause bwoy….

[@JustJoia]

Geesh… that was a lot Vicky. I do think that too in regard to my furbaby… My mom already said she would but I get choked up thinking about it. Thank you for sharing.

[@user-zd3xd4xd2h]

I literally was so aggravated about people being around lol my parents stayed a week then my husbands mom came after for a few days. I was so aggravated that my blood pressure was up again lol like I just wanted myself, my husband and my two kids here

[@jessicafrom.elswhr]

This is encouraging. You’re really strong.

[@asiajames7421]

Yeesss, beautiful 😍thanks for sharing! ❤

[@BrookeLynn-sr6vy]

Keeping you on my prayer list 🙏🏽🤎

[@shamiya8419]

Bring back life with the logans!! 😊

[@victoriouslogan]

its coming!!!!

[@Search4Cherise]

I feel like I'm disliking everyone now at 14 weeks pregnant 😂 I feel very anti-social. Not down, or sad, I just want to be home. Lol. & alone with my husband & Dog.

[@victoriouslogan]

Felt. I was like that my whole pregnancy 😂😂

[@amberbug90]

excited to watch this.

[@tonielease4301]

Thank you for sharing your experience and journey with us. I’m not a mom but want to be one someday, and have learned so many things from you that I feel like aren’t talked about in great detail. 🫶🏾

[@kindman-mu3gi]

I am from Iran and I like your videos very much ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@kayandjas7816]

Had a traumatic birth baby spent 12 days in NICU now he 6 months and Im still not over the birth also struggling with pumping I want to quit so bad

[@Aprilhansley]

🤍🤍🤍🤍 so good to hear from you! Thank you for sharing and your vulnerability 🤍 I know that isn’t easy because the internet can be so harsh. I hope this can be a safe place. Bless you and your family!!!

[@plantbasedponzo2893]

Finally someone I can relate to

[@arianejohn6083]

Thank you soooo much for sharing!!!

[@Lancelot82923]

Praying for your healing!! Jesus loves you ❤

[@victoriouslogan]

Thank you! This all happened earlier this year so I’m feeling much better now 😊

[@HerlineJ]

I’m not pregnant nor have children yet. But a lot of people look at me weird when I say I don’t want anyone there during my birth except my husband. Not saying I wouldn’t want help but give me space

[@Niyab813]

I was told the pressing was to prevent clots

[@Reach4deStarzz]

I posted my two cats for sale after I had my second child 😂 It took some time but I love them with all my soul now, just as I did before. No judgement here 🙂

[@Search4Cherise]

Love you! ♡

[@CelesteMonroe11]

Do you think you would feel differently about everything if you were able to safely deliver at the birthing center? Ive noticed you have such a cloud over you about the whole process. I wonder if its surrounding literally just having a baby or specifically how you had your baby. What do you think?

[@victoriouslogan]

Of course if it went differently I would feel differently. At the beginning of the video I shared that a lot of my postpartum experience has been trying to recover mentally and physically from the birth trauma. It’s hard to process and talk about. I don’t know how I would feel if things went differently, but they didn’t. So that’s why I’m here to share my experience.

[@tiffanibonmon3420]

❤❤❤❤❤ love the content.

[@loveafrica97]

Thanks for sharing

[@ostriakeith18]

Vickiiii!!!! Hey girl

[@RayKhan-y3x]

hi

[@BonnieColemandia]

hello

[@OkekeJames-sv7fr]

Hello

[@TooReal_]

This is normal girl 🤣! 2nd, 3rd child you’ll be fine with a dog and a bird 🤣! Trust me

[@Kuldeep-qr5hg]

Hii

[@kjenkins4280]

❤

[@ItokBarbarItok]

Kren

[@TooReal_]

You were having side effects of what they gave you through your iv

[@NarendraKhatri-zm7tf]

😮😮😮😮😮😮

[@callib8368]

I appreciate your honest experience because I felt you when you said “I don’t want to talk to you” lol baby love me from a distance till my hormones and my mind get right 😊❤

[@MaraJJ932]

It's you and the kicks in the back for me 🤍

[@user-ut8lb6cp3y]

Heavy on get you a MAN that believes in teamwork and partnership. During both my postpartum phases my husband showed me he was in fact THE ONE. ❤

[@user-fq2zy4zn8c]

I literally was so aggravated about people being around lol my parents stayed a week then my husbands mom came after for a few days. I was so aggravated that my blood pressure was up again lol like I just wanted myself, my husband and my two kids here

[@ChristopherZahnchi]

hi

[@user-uy6zs2yf4f]

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[@user-bm7jn6ub4y]

Heavy on get you a MAN that believes in teamwork and partnership. During both my postpartum phases my husband showed me he was in fact THE ONE. ❤

[@user-ir1yq2md5p]

Heavy on get you a MAN that believes in teamwork and partnership. During both my postpartum phases my husband showed me he was in fact THE ONE. ❤