pov: it's getting worse again and it's all your fault [a playlist]

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disclaimer: none of the songs in this video are mine, neither the photo

[@itsnotniicole4769]

hii sweeties i haven't posted for like 8 months and i'm really sorry, i have been through hard times lately because of school and also because of personal reasons. i will try to be more active and i apologize again:(( anyway, here you are the timestamps: 0:00 rain - jack stauber 0:35 memoir #2 - may roosvelt 2:46 poison tree - grouper 6:20 just take my wallet - jack stauber 7:52 vas - jagger finn 9:33 you not the same - tilekid 12:16 cigarettes out the window - TV girl 15:55 look who's inside again - bo burnham 17:29 young - vacations 21:05 haunt me (x3) - teen suicide 24:18 in my head - bedroom 31:37 inside out - duster 34:17 a burning hill - mitski 36:14 i can't handle change - roar

[@d0g_spt92]

Take your time! It's okay. I hope ur doing well!! ❣️

[@lilystarlight1]

Just remember that school isn't everything in life, you can get far even if you're not the best at school! You certainly have a talent and something people look up to, and then you don't have to be able to solve an equation like, lol

[@blueberrymacaron9116]

I hope you are doing well, school is giving me a hard time too. your playlist really helped me ,thank you. take care

[@orsolyacsintalan631]

i wish you all the best, take care ❤️

[@jayEliza]

take as much time as you need❤️ Stay safe i hope you’re doing well stranger 💕💕

[@user-nz9ek6bb1e]

Pov: Everyone around you is getting confident, being happy and moving on and you’re still where you were a year ago…

[@suz6290]

This cuts way too deep for me

[@Daren1911]

...

[@SaltyFishGo]

4 years for me

[@hailsilence2370]

That hit a lil' to close for me ain't gonna lie, thanks you

[@Yuuriii-chann]

Why u had to do me like that? :(

[@hackberry.emperor]

"I want to hurt myself, I really do..." "but I don't want to hurt others..."

[@kalilzapata5203]

Same

[@iaminpain8407]

same

[@AdrianMiletic]

I wish i could do it again. This feeling was somthing special i cant describe but it feels like i m a little bit more free and all the negative Emotions goes away with every cut i do to my self.

[@b3n9y74]

Same

[@chummy8497]

Pov : you bottled up your feelings and now you don't know how to feel anymore

[@warrir2310]

Accurate

[@nightmare-sv9nj]

My parents are in a bad divorce and I still haven't cried since I been just been there

[@Rayo_Raccoon]

ah yes. Been there, still doing that because I for some reason can't figure out how to stop.

[@Miserablekid]

this is so related very depressing sir

[@ashskusku5101]

Yeah

[@noone_felix]

it hurts i dont even know what hurts, it just hurts.

[@konstantindimovski2636]

same

[@brbrbrbrbbrbrbrbr]

Its been so long of pretending it doesent now i dont know if i should have stoped pretending becus now it just gets wors and wors

[@jessysherif9363]

Everything hurts my brotha...

[@s.a.w4528]

​@@brbrbrbrbbrbrbrbrI used to love playing pretend I'd make believe I had a father who wanted me by playing with dolls but imagination is so limited with reality

[@Farukai-ij7my]

same...

[@bonnie4143]

When you think everything is getting better. But then you realize, it hasn't got better...

[@xeamphicriku]

Im with you. Lets fight it together

[@corpusmarine3460]

Let us all fight together brothern

[@philrei2797]

Actually, it's something that happen in my life recently... However, I don't want to give up now

[@iameverywhere47]

@@xeamphicriku im tired of the gaslighting ...never seen it get better with anyone at anytime

[@corncobbob2326]

hey is 4 Benadryl enough or should I take more? How many is enough to send me over?

[@d.4024]

Sometimes you're even ashamed to cry because it's all your fault

[@ecbartistry7246]

this is beyond relatable

[@appleitree]

​@@gru1168if you came here to diss someone, it's no use, the number of views explains it all. Sorry for my assumption

[@gru1168]

@@appleitree disses ur misses

[@Bangchans_Bakery]

@@gru1168 listen here you dont know what this person is going through so dont call them emo for not wanting to cry so try to cheer them up and not make them feel more down you are probably some 5 year old who just learned what emo is and doesnt even know what it actually means anyways dont feel ashamed to cry, its a normal thing that happens and its healthy to cry and not bottle up your emotions if anything it means you have been through a lot more than what others have been through i hope thing get better for you ❤

[@appleitree]

@@gru1168 when someone is going through a tough time, you should know what they're actually talking about to judge whether they're emo or not

[@Lil-Prodigy]

That heart wrenching moment when you realize your right back where you were before you thought it was getting better

[@sup-vm9wp]

you ok?

[@Lil-Prodigy]

@@sup-vm9wp hah nah

[@sup-vm9wp]

@@Lil-Prodigy what's going on?

[@obscenedeath]

nuh uh

[@sup-vm9wp]

@@obscenedeath you ok?

[@Burntpancacke]

Its 2024 and you thought you found what made you happy, but it was just a dream, and now your back to the life you hate.

[@adepressedcatwithabadnicot246]

lol yep, you got that right. never laughed and cried after the same time before. thanks.

[@Sascha-n4z]

I wanted to comment something, but now... not feeling up to it, sorry.

[@FLOWERYFOX-u3z]

I had that days ago. But I misunderstood. But sometimes it still gets me..And I still wonder to think..If she lied about everything..

[@user-ns9yp9es9u]

Pov: You feel like you don't have any talents, hobbies or skills and you're just taking up space that could have been occupied by someone more worthy..

[@Lee_Magik]

my talent is Craig McGill survived 47 months on a healthy, raw salad of live tree-roaches and stankroot.

[@OneTime70]

I’m laughing because if you were so “depressed” then why would you search up an playlist?

[@Duck_talks]

@@OneTime70It appeared on my recommended? Plus these songs are good to listen to as comfort songs or if you're just feeling down in general

[@RochellB46]

@@OneTime70 can depressed people not look up depressing shit on KZbin 😂

[@jocosesonata]

@@RochellB46 Nah, you need a license for that nowadays. Who could've guessed feeling depressed and worthless needed official paperwork.

[@carteb0ok451]

POV: You lived a normal life before everything started going downhill. *You lost your friends.* *You realize your alone.* *You don't know who to trust anymore.* *Your grades are getting worse by the second.* Your life is being ripped apart, you see everyone continuing on without you. Your friends don't talk to you anymore, you don't have good luck. Medical problems are making everything worse, *You've been betrayed, and by life itself.*

[@registrateanimations]

me... honestly me

[@deadbydawn.]

@@registrateanimations ratio ngl bro

[@ArcherAT]

I was always alone because I've always lied about who I am and the funniest thing happend after all that lieing I forgot who I am, just another shell? a man something greater something lesser?

[@spqr05]

This is really accurate to my situation

[@venti6192]

why is this so accurate

[@Molls1676]

I just wish I could talk to someone about my problems without feeling judged. I hate this world.

[@fatimashow3096]

same i feel like I'm gonna die with my words.......even my fam know nothing

[@uwatak]

Yea I feel you it's hard when you have no one to vent too without feeling judged

[@olafjambor5449]

Talk to a counsellor I’m still feeling like shit my parents saw my cuts and I’ve been grounded for some reason but therapy helps it’s a person that talks to u about ur problems without anyone else knowing it’s a big step but do it it’s definitely something that helps even a tiny bit

[@-runa-7064]

It’s true o feel like I’m suffocating in my body and I just have a couple nights of peaceful sleep without crying until the sunrises without being bullied by my toxic family friends and being told everything is my fault it isinglass my fault....right?... and then almost getting sent to a mental hospital I just want this pain to end...

[@-runa-7064]

And then I hide everything from my family and I’ve just recently blown up on some of the people that hurt me

[@rand0mpers0n78]

Its crazy how everything could be going good for the first time and your smiling again and all it takes is one person to get u back to square one.

[@just.myselfxoxo]

that one person is me

[@littlebutterfly2144]

So true back to square one I guess.....

[@LouieKaplooie]

I still love you

[@kaystar23]

back to square one.

[@Ichbineinschweinhund]

seriously. a single word from a person who i never knew is more than enough to ruin my entire life and that is what i am undergoing now

[@chisakurachi1809]

Pov: you think you’re finally starting to heal and move on when in reality, you’re just getting used to that feeling so it’s doesn’t bother you the way it did before 🙂

[@TraumaTazed]

If you ever need someone to talk to or vent to I'm willing to listen because I want to try to understand what you're going through so I can help. You are human like the rest of us and deserve to be heard without judgement or backlash, because you matter 🤍 I'm here for you my friend!

[@chisakurachi1809]

@@TraumaTazed Thank you so much, this made my day a lot better.

[@TraumaTazed]

@@chisakurachi1809 okie dokes. I'm always happy to help and I'm here for you!

[@davidsmusic31]

So true

[@angelabowles1414]

Exactly how I feel.. my friend is a youtuber.. well I vented to much to her. She made a video about how she hated when I vented she said she couldn’t help. “Stop telling me” and stuff.. when I looked in comments I was scrolling for someone to stand up for me… I never found it. All I saw was “true! I see her comments it’s so annoying! She’s annoying “ or stuff like “I get you she’s really dramatic” well..I guess I am.

[@lexwyatt5376]

When you think you're getting better but realise you have just found comfort in the darkness instead.

[@duanyhatakeuzumaki6717]

How do you know that

[@user-friklo2004]

+++

[@KodaThePolyTherian]

Exactly

[@_shoukokanamori]

secret syp or smth?

[@jaushuagrahamthefloridaman1124]

Is that not better?

[@minikince]

you know its sad when youd rather live in your dreams than real life

[@Lee_Magik]

my dreams are luffy fucking zoro

[@stiyp7485]

Whats sad is i dont even know know if everything is real anymore, i just want to wake up from this nightmare of a life. I just wanna die so i wont have problems anymore, i just wanna float in infinite void. I hope there isnt hell nor heaven for me because i dont deserve such conforting ideas of afterlife

[@Lee_Magik]

@@stiyp7485 Dont kill yourself. Tell your parents and or contact a suicide prevention hotline.

[@spriteman1925]

Dreams are sick tho

[@saulcarvajal7911]

I’ve been living in a nightmare for the last 7 years. Day and night, torment after torment without a moment of peace. The only reason why I haven’t taken my life is because I do believe there’s a hell and if I do it then it’ll be much worse. It’s forever. There’s nowhere to find peace.

[@ryebreadthebread]

When you realize no one ever talks to you unless you text first and you’re nothing more than an afterthought

[@Yoursweetgrammy]

That’s so hard, I’m genuinely so sorry. You don’t deserve any of that, you are worth a nice relationship with somebody.

[@ryebreadthebread]

@@Yoursweetgrammy thank you, genuinely thank you

[@windtheleaf8606]

I am never on anyones mind

[@ryebreadthebread]

@@windtheleaf8606 you may say that but with your comment you are now on my mind and I’m sending you a virtual hug

[@choopy8493]

Ouch, this is so relatable it hurts, i wish i was special to someone :(

[@Kondwani-rp1su]

Pov: When you thought this year was going to be your best year but it becomes your worst.

[@LoneBuffalo118]

I recently lost a loving Aunt and Uncle in the same year.. and I lost my grandma to Alzheimer's and covid 3 years ago... And I'm drowning in nothing but self-hatred and raging at the world for how it is.. So much corruption So much hypocrisy So much hatred These are the worst years of my so called life Wish I never saw reality.. and I wish I was never born Fuck society.. Fuck humanity I wish for nothing else but death

[@OMSondos-sv1fi]

Exactly

[@tahirkairys3744]

For now...

[@jebslept8515]

every one year is gradually getting worse

[@enaalovya]

frrr i believed in that for so long also..

[@Greencheez-y]

To all the people, like me, who are much too tired to wax poetically about our heart ache: I see you, I hear you too. Your silence speaks volumes

[@hamzabelmiloud232]

we use wax on hair not heart

[@hi.ivy.]

thank you. that’s exactly how I feel. Just beyond exhausted everyday. I can hardly put my feelings into words and I can’t physically speak to tell anyone.

[@pepsut]

Went to new school Wasn't able to make friends Ended up here knowing well that These 3 years will be hard

[@deluded2630]

@@pepsut focus on urself my friend, find things you like and venture towards them. People with similar interest will find you. If anyone is mean to you, be kind they might want to be ur friend bc they arent too happy themselves.

[@nova__3138]

i’m balling my eyes out.

[@quietone1946]

pov: it's summer and you realize you'll spend most of your days in your room doing nothing my parents and grandparents refer to me as the pale one of the family since i never go out.

[@mariliagabriela1239]

identify myself a lot, pleasure I'm Brazilian.

[@Lynxy11111]

Honestly same man

[@personne9953]

Same, i don't really have any friends to hang out with, and they always talk about their others friends when we talk on social media...Have a nice summer anyways!

[@s.m69]

Same, I do have friends not many but more than enough and I just never go out and not bc I don’t have friends to hang out but bc I don’t have the energy for it I just hate to be outside maybe it’s bc I love my phone too much

[@at08zena53]

bro wtf how are you spying on me ???

[@Midnight_Devils_666]

Pov: Nobody noticed when you started to become depressed, anxious and mad, until you went off on them and suddenly you're the "bad guy" Edit: tysm for 177 likes, I rlly appreciate it!! ♡

[@alexiiconner]

communicate. first you may need to find someone you can, and that’s fine ❤ but it’s gonna be harder waiting for someone to notice. i’ve been at the point where i didn’t have anyone, but when you do, let them know. you won’t explode as much that way❤❤ helped me sm

[@good_old_kamaji8769]

Someones intent holds just as much credence as someones reaction. You may not have meant for it to be hostile the flood gates just opened and the water came but you can't save everyone from drowning. Build a stronger dam and allow a small stream to form letting the water hold up will only crack the walls.

[@MiyuKuhaku]

Worse. People notice. They still make you out to be a villain by driving you over the edge.

[@Honk...]

​@@alexiiconnerCommunicate doesn't work. I swear this is a suggestion everyone gives for any problems, and to be honest, I think many people are with me in that, yeah, they've tried, over, and over, and over again. But it just doesn't work, ever. Nobody ever wants to, if you try, you're made fun of, or told you're overreacting. Every. Single. Time. I'm done with communicating, or trying to. It doesn't work, hasn't worked, and never will.

[@georgedangmei3547]

Pov: it's not a pov anymore...

[@user-zr5qb4jy8b]

Pov:you start to feel like you're losing your mind because of all the chronic mood swings and you can't recognize that these feelings are real or not

[@sup-vm9wp]

Are you ok?

[@birogrenci]

Yeah.I'm not me

[@Nuthingspecial]

realest

[@sup-vm9wp]

@@birogrenci you ok?

[@sup-vm9wp]

@@Nuthingspecial you ok?

[@iloveyouyuri7127]

You know it’s a good playlist when it starts with jack stauber

[@anto_poto]

I was gonna say the same thing

[@gachanoob1012]

Fr

[@gayforurparents2990]

fr

[@BlaqueDolphinn]

overused

[@ausersucks]

@@BlaqueDolphinn kinda agree

[@sleepyeyes-n-5504]

So I'm locked in my room lying in bed while I'm thinking about what I did and what I said, I feel like my heart is going to stop with every beat it gives

[@lol_iwannadie]

I understand that, but stay strong, I feel the same, if u want we can be friends, we can sit alone in our rooms talking thru the comments :) I'll always be here

[@thecreature916]

Stay strong mate, when you have hit rock bottom, theres nowhere to go but up. Life finds a way.

[@ayoubjones7545]

legalise nuclear bombs

[@hamzabelmiloud232]

change room

[@tomiokayuki9564]

@@hamzabelmiloud232 stop being heartless people are depressed if you won't say something nice then your silence would be better

[@Lala-iw2ip]

pov : whenever they tell you how sweet you are and how precious and it feels like a literal gunshot to the heart because you're fighting demons

[@KING_LIRI1]

yeah... too familiar with that feeling. you know, the one you feel like you dont deserve anything nice? that even your loved ones should turn to other people? yeah... im here with you on that one...

[@stormyplayswastaken]

trust, the only demon i have is an 18 pound cat stalking me when im getting food at 3AM im also probably believing a delusion that im fine

[@tempejkl]

"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that" - Robin Williams

[@Jairo-s7f]

Can’t relate

[@LouieKaplooie]

I love you

[@caiopatrick7244]

I thought, I really thought I was becoming ''somebody'', I dropped everything again, I blacked out to rebuild myself... I reached the bottom and looked at a lost boy. there is nothing else

[@hyprr.7559]

It always get better brother. Im struggling too but you need to understand that there's always something that will turn you around. You need hope as much as it seems there is none. Think of the things that bring you joy. Or the people that truly do care about you even wjen you feel like they dont.

[@BlaqueDolphinn]

goofy ahh emo

[@weomxd]

@@BlaqueDolphinn stairs

[@hamzabelmiloud232]

great speech mr president

[@ami-do5ku]

[@Cherrezz]

Pov: on the outside you think its getting better but on the inside you know your only making it worse...

[@everythingnothing2978]

Absolutely like 90%of the time .I actually need to go to theraphy

[@corncobbob2326]

hey is 4 Benadryl enough or should I take more? How many is enough to send me over?

[@weomxd]

@@corncobbob2326 hey, im guessing your benadryls are 25mg each. you wanna take around 250mgs to start really dipping into the other side. just remember to use safely because overuse can damage your liver and kidneys (and possibly your brain)

[@AlLEMM]

@@weomxd Wait what's that supposed to mean??

[@corncobbob2326]

@@weomxd thanks for your reply! tbh with the brain part, I'm kinda wishing for something like it bc some of my issues which I don't think there's a solution for (a solution that still saves everything else that is) and it includes me wanting to permanently erase thoughts and memories while burying some (there are some memories and thoughts that were good but had several bits that I wasn't happy about and want to forget) far far away enough that I won't take about it for many years even when I'm surrounded by things that can trigger/unlock it and bring it back.

[@ams_world4962]

Pov: falling back into old habits making you wanna unalive yourself again

[@ArcherAT]

Realizing you'll never escape the downward spiral.

[@Nightmare-blade]

Accurate for me

[@ams_world4962]

@@Nightmare-blade sorry to hear that love 🫶

[@annalysavela7145]

You realize you’ve always been the same and there is not bright path ahead of you;

[@yosikujlev432]

again and again and ....... aga-?!?!

[@MIN3RAL_VR]

I’m so glad people on the internet actually know and understand what people are going through.

[@lemon_duude]

A supportive family and friends, no traumas, no toxicity, yet here I am wasting it all doing nothing while my life is going downhill. It's rough when you're disappointed in yourself.

[@fairykeibani9155]

I’m sorry. (also I’m sorry I don’t have anything to say that would help you.)

[@EternalSleep69]

yeah, i know how that feels mate. it didn't get better for me, but i hope you're doing fine out there. and remember that we all suffer in our own ways, and our problems matter (even if you think that they dont, or you don't have them)

[@potatoyt1801]

Stay strong king 👑 you can do it

[@alexandranewman7769]

We have the exact problem. I hope you have learned to forgive yourself. You got this

[@margarin279]

same. and i dont see a way out...

[@krissy2441]

Pov: Strangers telling you your enough doesnt work when all you want is a hug from someone who understands and wont just feel pity for you

[@TheProAtPUBG]

It's not love anymore. It's only pity, maybe disgust. You deserve better.

[@Kay.naileen]

THIS.

[@Wanderer_Simp_69]

Relatable… all I need is hugs…

[@Chocymilk990]

*hugs everyone in the replies.* here, have a virtual hug. Y’all need it :3

[@TheMelofia]

honestly everytime someone says that kind of thing to me I have to hold back the urge to tell them to stfu that's all

[@thefbioffical]

Credit to my pillow for catching all of my tears and being there

[@fwoop4848]

Same here. Pillows a real one.

[@introvertedtallperson6398]

@@fwoop4848 yeah thanks pillow for being here to catch my sadness

[@Normelniere]

Always there for me, pillow u da real mvp

[@mastowl_7112]

Same but my pillow is also torn up because i thingten it into my arms just to feel some warm. 'cuz i've never been hugged in my life

[@Me.hangry]

Pillows are those who just take every single tear of yours and just don’t hesitate for handling anyone’s depression

[@igl0bruh693]

When you think you made huge progress, yet it feels all the same. Your accomplishments brought you no joy, no sense of completion. All your efforts meant nothing.

[@adambahja]

"I'm not a good person as I thought, I'm bad."

[@EmmmKkkk]

​@@JonclashHq I feel you brother, hope u r doing ok

[@acoonator3165]

Let me tell you something god make good and evil poor and wealth but you have option yo make it right to become hero

[@adambahja]

@@acoonator3165 thx bro you're right

[@qwertys_weird_world]

Soy esta desde hace tanto tiempo, y recien me doy cuenta

[@rfifil]

im tired my life just destroyed every day ( real )

[@yashironene6994]

I want to be happy again, but don't think I can ever feel happy again.

[@syd_9764]

Ik exactly what you mean

[@ayoubjones7545]

dope shit like that jerm

[@hamzabelmiloud232]

be happy be rusky

[@SlapStyleAnims]

I know the feeling

[@kolyaneustr]

we are never gonna be happy as we were

[@lojret6812]

Pov: You trying your best but nothing is standing by your side... You feel coold inside your heart and you wanna cry but you can't

[@ayoubjones7545]

pov: you are reading all these comments from the saddest scum of the earth

[@hi.ivy.]

couldn’t have said it better myself.

[@Zl0ize0]

Wow dawg.

[@i-love-cats75]

🤓

[@Dismayxo]

That was me for 3 months long. I just lost my Guardian 3 years after my mom. This was in February this year. Im 19 almost 20 this December and I lost my childhood home, was just drifting through life in houses that werent mine nor a room that was mine and I felt so empty and lonely and afraid. I cut out a lot of people for a while because I needed to "focus on myself" but I just didnt want to care about anything anymore and just disappear. Now that those 3 months are over, I got a more stable place to live and I regret everything I did during that time because I cant get that time or experiences back ever again.

[@themooniscalling2942]

pov: The year started well, but by the end of the year, you have barely anything left worth living for. You don't want to end your life either because you believe something good might still happen. But in reality, you are falling deeper into the abyss.

[@LouieKaplooie]

I love you

[@sashaZAGADKA]

You are Beautiful.

[@Solar-fish]

i'm the opposite

[@kamranilyas8072]

POV:When you realise that you can’t even die peacefully

[@Ray-k3i]

Wtf, you alr there?

[@_m_995]

Nah i will tonight

[@Reva2005_]

@@_m_995 Heyyyy pls don't

[@AlLEMM]

@@_m_995 please don't trust me it will get better just please don't

[@Pleiades_Erret]

@@_m_995 wish you good luck

[@elenapet6446]

I genuinely thought I was getting better, but then I realized that I have never been worse than I am now. It just keeps getting worse, I dont want to do this anymore

[@terzo_is_daddy]

Same honestly.i realised i just got used to this feeling, i'm not getting any better. I just fucking got used to it

[@LoneBuffalo118]

One says they've had enough Months later one responds don't leave Another one just claims too relate Why are humans like this? 🙁

[@Chuuyasn1dog]

The one who responded months later didnt See the Video before 💀

[@Shotaboat]

​@@SirPigingstin sadly it was the other way around. Always was

[@Pablodelic]

Me too..

[@EeeTsheej]

you’re lost in your 20s whereas everyone in your life is moving forward. All you want is answers and a reason to wake up

[@Primelynoob]

Damn 😢

[@CheesePizzaNYC]

Jesus is our only hope brother ❤

[@CheesePizzaNYC]

Believe he died for your sins and that he was raised from the dead 3 days letter and you shall be saved. Trust me there’s another life after this current one, and it’s beautiful.❤❤✝️✝️

[@Alexander_Papadopoulos]

​@@CheesePizzaNYCfed up of god

[@Alexander_Papadopoulos]

​​@@CheesePizzaNYCplease tell something more comforting than the same thing i listen over and over again in every corner Tell me something out of bible or anywhere which gives me a real reason to live

[@MisMadison]

It’s been a year since i was raped, 5 since i lost a father to addiction, 10 since my family became a narcissistic dynamic, and 17 since i was brought into this world. I have been waiting all my life for a reason to keep going. I’ve been waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel. I am so fucking lost

[@Random_weeb23443]

Stay strong, we love you, you're strong and I hope you'll find your peace soon

[@schmidt178]

it really hurts, im sorry you have to go through this. much love..

[@evilCODrays]

I've lost both family dogs, two very loved ones both to cancer. Someday I feel as though I could punch a wall, vent my frustration with pretty much self mutilation. Then I think to myself, what's the point when the past can't be changed. 22 years and so many lost to me, friends drifted away, and even some I called friends became truly despicable people. Unfortunately I can't feel as though I can't emotionally express this, feel bundled up. Though u gotta keep going on in life, march through every bad moment and keep it the past. Bad things happen, it can't be helped unfortunately but what u choose to do is what matters.

[@MisMadison]

@@evilCODrays we can do this together b

[@evilCODrays]

@MisMadison ik we can, I've come to terms with the things that's happened to me. Just hope u can as well. You're stronger than u know.

[@hamsterpillow7750]

My mother always gets comfort when she's crying in a drunk state yet when I was crying my eyes out in front of her, everything she did was just "stop crying, you're a man." "You know why they all comfort me? I gave birth to you! That's what I achieved!" Guess I won't have help and support unless I "achieve" something

[@jeremiah6945]

This reminds me of my own mother.

[@cheesygrilkaboomyawoman]

Fuck them all, you living everyday is an achievement in and of itself. If noone seems to love you just know that at least my love goes out to you!

[@JosephCummington]

Giving birth to someone is not an achievement. Being a good parent is.

[@UltraDumbass]

i mean as a man you shouldnt cry that much.. (im a man too, its just i dont have many reasons to cry for, and not many to be happy for.)

[@theonebman7581]

You lose your emotional rights once you've been born a boy

[@zai_and_ron]

“All you wanted was to make others happy but in the end you made them sad”

[@sup-vm9wp]

You ok?

[@Morgan_Illusion]

True. Felt like I'm making my mother happy, but instead made her accidentally sad. I feel like ending it all, after all the work I put in, I still made her sad. Wished I could just end it all...

[@smasherzgaming2376]

That's all I've ever wanted. It's always backfired on me in the end happened to me in a relationship, two friendships, and more, I'm about to give up this goal

[@rodentsofrandomness9203]

This is how I feel all the time

[@CDJ._]

fr

[@spikespiegel6178]

I dont remember the last time I looked at myself and felt happy, or the fact that I've cried more times in the past few weeks than the amount of times I've felt happy

[@XxPeachyXxHD]

Honestly same..

[@cobalius]

Not same. But it's still horrible here. I've to convince myself to eat and drink almost daily again...

[@errebusaether]

At this point, I am no longer crying, I only feel empty and just tired…

[@Upadek_Społeczeństwa]

I am feeling happy, because death is getting closer and closer 😁

[@mangirdasgrauzys1504]

That's rough buddy but I know how it feels. It's a horible to have that happen. But you gotta try to find something or someone who can help you get through tough times. I hope you get better and find some kind of happynes to fill your life (eanglish isn't my first languige so sorry if there are any mistakes other then me)

[@diaismid]

why is it still raining? i did what i was supposed to do. that’s not fair. man that hit hard.

[@casandraibarra4723]

POV: your scrolling down the comments so you can find the time stamps 😐

[@julakruzal9248]

It's on the creators comment

[@materialgworl5651]

Fr

[@ash-yf7cm]

@@materialgworl5651 its on the creators comment

[@materialgworl5651]

@@ash-yf7cm oh ok ty

[@96shawty37]

not really... im only trying to find a comforting comment :D

[@Soggy-water]

I cried for the first time in a pretty long while last night, and today, I just feel numb. Like life is just a black hole slowly sucking us into into insanity.

[@lukehiggins2282]

cry some more

[@Soggy-water]

@@lukehiggins2282 I can't

[@LoneBuffalo118]

Existence doesn't feel real to me I'm so lost 🙁

[@Ralsei6969pro]

im crying rn fr

[@Soggy-water]

​@@LoneBuffalo118 it's like we don't even have a purpose anymore. The world is all just and endless illusion.

[@myukiosan]

Pov: You thought you had gotten better, that you changed, but your the exact same as before, everything and everyone is falling apart around you.

[@ayaaaaaaaa.k]

Don’t you worry I’m proud of you , of what you’ve done you’re here today and it’s amazing :)

[@LoneBuffalo118]

This world deserves to fuckin burn

[@AxolTheAxolotl-bd1ue]

POV:nothing can hurt you the same way that hurt, nothing will be as bad as what happened…..nothing…

[@fobo3361]

finally a playlist that has music that fits the title, swear playlist will have titles like this, then like super exciting energetic music, but anyone whose felt this way knows, energy is the last thing you'll be feel when youre this low

[@realname4625]

@Mom almost like the people making them are trying to cheer us up. It just comes off as smarmy imo

[@natiart]

I know right? + They are repeating over and over the same songs and doesn't adding new song to the playlist

[@Bbuildurluv]

Pov: you did something really bad and now the guilt is getting heavier and the sadness from your old memories starts coming back to you, and you just want to disappear forever.

[@hellothisisaftonfamily]

I can relate to this...😢

[@tempejkl]

it was a mistake, i didnt know better. i hope i can apologise some day though.

[@peepeepoopoovdbhxvbcc6683]

@@tempejkl W mindset. Understand your mistake, find out why you made the mistake, then stop the root of the problem and grow as a person. Then you will be able to apologize. And they'll probably give the chance of listening to you.

[@kookjtm]

I relate and this hurt me. I never want to make this mistake but i did. I did and now i feel so alone and guilty. I dont want to hurt her one more time but she really want to stay with me. Sometimes i feel like a trash, like a deserve all of that.

[@vxunvlex]

yes.. I just want to disappear forever

[@irelandsutton4874]

nobody notices how we cry and suffer every night but they notice the smallest mistakes weve made

[@Lee_Magik]

my dog went missing

[@junxinggames555]

yep, every time i help and get nothing back, i feel moody and i get scolded to hell, i am just a little bit out of order or whatnot and get yelled at ig.

[@IwouldIfIcould]

It’s true😢

[@Thefutureee1]

Real

[@user-tn8kb9jb2m]

We’ve

[@Sl3epy_K_]

Pov : you had a rough childhood ang your parents is “trying to be nicer” to you but now you can’t feel anything bc of them…

[@Louise3901]

It's important to remember that YOU are YOU no matter what life decides to throw at you! You can choose to let it go or let it consume you. Grow from it all, don't let it destroy you.

[@ayanami1008]

Fr oh god

[@Louise3901]

@@ayanami1008 um

[@ayanami1008]

@@Louise3901 what

[@Louise3901]

@@ayanami1008 what?

[@jasperistired5045]

POV: you're slipping away and trying to find a reason to hold on just a little longer

[@DoseOfRandom137]

It was easy to just come up with a reason to be happy. But now its becoming harder and harder to find a reason for anything.

[@TheProAtPUBG]

Is there anything to hold onto anymore?

[@grandstarstudiosFORMER-YT]

@@DoseOfRandom137 you said that right -GSS

[@ZenCopson]

it like hanging from a little string that could snap at any moment @@grandstarstudiosFORMER-YT

[@peepeepoopoovdbhxvbcc6683]

I don't know if you're still here, but if things haven't gotten better, I need you to remember that you can still drink flavoured milks (chocolate, strawberry, banana is my personal favourite) and that you can make microwave popcorn so those are two really good reasons IMO

[@yoannaliese7464]

Realizing you’ll never be a normal person really destroys your chances of making any kind of relationships.

[@-pastellovessans6703]

Pov: You hear everyone over in the next room laughing, and being happy. But as soon as you walk in to join in on the fun, nobody is laughing anymore...

[@Kaylee-d7g]

i had this happen before, my brother made a joke that i had made before but i got in trouble for saying it but my brother didnt.., then i say a joke my brother once said and i get in fcking trouble again.., im just going to stop making jokes and stop trying to be funny because at this point im not feeling any better then i have been..

[@Anrxst]

@@Kaylee-d7g that be happening to me too and i feel the same

[@Kaylee-d7g]

i feel bad for you but thx for telling me this, i hope you get better and you can get away from that

[@angelswithme]

slide 3

[@Cecegthjy]

me

[@YuneLied]

I thought everything was getting better, I thought I got myself on track, I couldn’t be more off. All of these negative emotions that I chose to ignore all came back to me, I thought I got better, but I was only brushing it off, I was lying to myself so that I would feel better. I never escaped these horrible thoughts, I just simply convinced myself they weren’t there. They were always here, growing stronger while I became weaker.

[@ProperPyromanic414]

Fr

[@abbywhitt2736]

I never understood what people meant that it’s worse to feel numb then other emotions.. but now i understand them completely. What happened to me? I was such a happy little girl..

[@Chatrbox7]

I feel like I always go to the sad playlists. I tend to cry a lot and just listening to them at night help me get all my emotions out. I hope everyone’s doing ok ☺️

[@Val_kx]

i hope you get better

[@aspirespire8847]

I listened too it while I worked out and it definitely didn’t help 😂

[@onceupxn]

this

[@zane_nighter2322]

Hope your doing alright ónò

[@rollypolly9784]

@@Val_kx HEY can i vent to you real quick?

[@Iheartbl1nk]

Pov: you realize u hate you and feels like you can’t rlly get out of the loop of happy.sad.mad.repeat. And see you have so little friends and wish everything could be different.

[@Luciferslostlady]

POV: everything you thought be good once you got where you wanted to be but you spiral out of control and are self sabotaging back where you started to begin with

[@huojiir]

0:00 rain - jack stauber 0:35 memoir #2 - may roosvelt 2:46 poison tree - grouper 6:20 just take my wallet - jack stauber 7:52 vas - jagger finn 9:33 you not the same - tilekid 12:16 cigarettes out the window - TV girl 15:55 look who's inside again - bo burnham 17:29 young - vacations 21:05 haunt me (x3) - teen suicide 24:18 in my head - bedroom 31:37 inside out - duster 34:17 a burning hill - mitski 36:14 i can't handle change - roar

[@fairykeibani9155]

FINNALY I FOUND IT

[@fairykeibani9155]

THANK YOU

[@minhouwbin]

​@@fairykeibani9155IKR

[@SheTheChaos]

Thank you so much

[@User44326]

Thank You But Memoir #2 Gives Me Traumatizing

[@ryzeltamondong4026]

Pov: your just sitting there watching people around you being happy together without you...wishing you could be with them but you know that wouldnt happen because they hate you.

[@tiger13190]

ik how it feels

[@TheProAtPUBG]

You deserve love, but they won't give you the recognition. Strive to be better.

[@TheBlacklightq93al]

thats how ive felt since ive been stationed, i see everyone around me be happy but when they talk to me its another mood it seems fake, idk how but i can tell just how they look at me

[@Lee_Magik]

i remember a time when my dog jumped off the eiffel tower, drowned, got hit by a boat, guts everywhere and a fucking shark came in and ate the hell out of the remains

[@junko._.enoshima25]

happened to me i thought i had a best friend just to find out she was a girl i put my trust in talking shit in my back

[@Anonymous-eu6eb]

Everything is getting worse. They say it's my fault but... I really try to be better. I really try to improve. I'm not lazy, I really try to be nice to them... My heart hurts so much that I can't cry anymore. The tears don't come out. I just wanna be happy and peaceful.

[@alkdkbs5434]

I feel you... it's really sad to hear theres so many people like this. It feels like you do everything and yet somehow it's never enough and it just adds more stress and you end up going in circles. I'm sorry and this is very late but I truly hope you one day can find that happiness because I believe you will find it and you deserve it. Even I struggle everyday wondering if it's even worth it to keep going because I get so overwhelmed. Just keep living and take care of yourself even if it's just the basics. Drink lots of water. don't forget to eat enough and get nutrients in your body. It's ok to take breaks and you don't always have to be working directly towards "getting better". Get up do anything and just live life because you only have one to live my friend. You can do this! (Sorry if you don't want to hear this I just want you to know that people are listening and hoping the best for you)

[@MaraMara-bp2xi]

Me Too...

[@ZackLefroy]

Pov: every single time you open up to anyone they hurt you and you are coming to the point you just want to cry for the rest of your life cause no one will ever care about you and love you enough to never hurt you

[@ZackLefroy]

But you don't know me

[@Val_kit103]

@@ZackLefroy I know how it feels.

[@SomeGuyWithaFez]

Or just that everyone sees me as the one person to always get up or bounce back or whatever. So when I say something is killing me, I don’t think they really even try to understand how that translates to how I feel… One day it might be too much but they didn’t take me seriously when I tried to say something

[@OnlyBulletsss]

Imagine you wake up after having a terrible nightmare. You run to your dad’s room, wake him up, and he comforts you after you told him how scared and afraid you were. He tells you: “You’re safe in my arms, Son. There’s no need to be afraid. I’ll always be here to protect you no matter what.” You go back to your room feeling very comfortable now that your dad made you feel better, and you lay down and fall back asleep with ease. You wake up that morning feeling very odd, as if something didn’t feel right last night. You get up to go make cereal in the kitchen, but you stop at your dad’s bedroom. The door is wide open, revealing an empty bed and vase full of your dad’s ashes next to it on the nightstand. A few tears run down your face, as it hits you like a brick. Your dad passed away 6 years ago. I miss you, dad.

[@scumfulnpc4459]

That made me cry man

[@fatfag2290]

death sucks my grandfather died 3 years ago but im over it, you don't always get entirely over it but yknow

[@LilGalaxy_Nox]

Me: .. i dont have a father :,D

[@OnlyBulletsss]

@@LilGalaxy_Nox damn well i hope u have ATLEAST a parent that can carry u threw ur life 😁

[@Yegros1972]

@@LilGalaxy_Nox dodged a bullet got hit by another

[@cameronschultz8833]

pov: everything has fallen around you and it hurts the most because you are the only person to blame. no one has done anything to hurt you except you, and now the ones you love are a permanent memory because you just cant be normal and okay.

[@all_hail_the_mighty_amp606]

They thought I was better, but in truth, I just got better at hiding the fact that I'm being crushed by the guilt of just being alive

[@SirPigingstin]

Man I hope you get better

[@hamhamilton]

The second melody was literally crying. I never knew music could actually cry.

[@professionaloverthinker4259]

I never had a problem with myself, I always liked myself,but from when i was a kid my own family made me hate myself to the point I started hurting myself and wanted so badly to die. Now that I'm in 9th grade it's getting even worse but I'm trying my best to fix myself back to normal, I hope yall are staying strong

[@_csinti_]

i hope the best for you, stay strong. ask for help if you need it. you matter 💜

[@_csinti_]

​@Youssef Osama don't give up, please stay safe. talk to someone, ask for help if you need it. you matter 💜

[@_csinti_]

​@Youssef Osama take care 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)

[@eclisxpe]

@@_csinti_ I wanna commit

[@gord2508]

talk to the cops Boos

[@RevengeShordieIVN_]

it's hittin me again. I'm lonely with no peace. Anxiety is like my friend. The pain has never end. i got not many friends. Im here with no one left. I smile but im dead. Its tough to be happy when all im with is me.

[@Angry.-.]

Man I wish I had more to say… I know a random comment from someone won’t fix anything, I hope you find someone that is there for you, ion another note I like note I like your pfp (:

[@Cecegthjy]

I don’t think comfort talking will help with anything what we really need is someone to be there for us

[@SeaBuni]

Lately, everything feels like a chore, even for something that's supposed to give me joy. Hanging out with friends or playing games are things that make me happy but once it's over, I feel empty. I'm left alone with nothing but my thoughts that only tell me I'm a disappointment and I should hate myself. I even repeatedly tell myself I hate myself outloud when I'm alone. I don't feel hungry and whenever I eat it feels like I'm swallowing a pill. I can't talk to anyone but the internet because I feel like I'll be a burden. My lover doesn't wanna talk to me and I'm afraid my friends will ghost me and become distant. I feel like everything will revert back to how it was where I'll be by myself again and everyone around me is disappointed and the only comfort I could go to is my bed and phone. I just want the weekend to come where everything doesn't feel overwhelming.

[@rollypolly9784]

@BLaH bLah BLAh Hey...uh can i vent to you?

[@rollypolly9784]

@doomer pill Can i vent to you??

[@justsomerandomintrovert]

i get that. you are not alone. hope you get better soon

[@rollypolly9784]

@BLaH bLah BLAh I ummm...i had a horrible thoughts about my past friends...you see they were my internet friends and ummm I'm having a hard time trying to move on from them... what do i do to forget about them??

[@IzukusGorgeousThighs]

r/I'm14andthisisdeep

[@Untoter_Konig]

My younger self: “what happened to us…?” Me now: “nothing that wasn’t my fault…”

[@Krow_Kid]

I can feel it coming back. It’s not happened yet, but I can feel it in the back of my mind. I’m listening to sad songs in the hopes of making it come faster because I know I can’t outrun depression with fake happiness. I’ve done it before and the aftermath was _so_ much worse. I’m doing it again though, I’m playing my ukulele and venting in the comment sections of videos, trying to keep the darkness away, again with that fake happiness. But I know damn well I’m going to end up in the exact same place I was just a month ago. And I know _damn well_ I’m doing it on purpose. I think I’m addicted to that feeling, that feeling of emptiness, dread, and melancholy. I feel horrible for thinking this because I know so many people are in _agony_ at the hands of mental illness but-I need those feelings. It’s like that eternal despair is my identity, and I’m not myself without it. It’s so fucked up. So “It’s getting worse again and it’s all your fault” couldn’t be more accurate.

[@itsjusthazel.505]

i feel you. I really don't know what to say other then that and i'm sorry for that- but i feel and understand you. You're not alone :)

[@johnathonorourke7230]

This is EXACTLY what I'm feeling... It's nice to see I'm not alone...

[@watchmychannelorelse]

I actually felt this before, where after I stopped caring about my fears and terrors, I felt empty without them.

[@Kay.naileen]

Wow you just described me too..

[@nicolasbruno829]

This is so relatable… I never expected to see someone write this exact message out…

[@ItsMemeIk526]

i need a hug.

[@NiftyMissi]

Last night I begged my husband for a hug. He told me he didn't love me anymore, and to get out. I've known that he didn't for a while but I'm just. Packed, staring, waiting on my ride. I wish I could hug you.

[@LightLeaaks]

you deserve the world and I'm sending you a big big hug right now. I love you

[@りゅうかさん]

This is a big hug for you! ❤

[@Cecegthjy]

I need one too

[@kittycatrittycatalt9523]

i'm sorry i wish i could give you one irl but i cant i cant i need it just as much as you i reallywish i could give youone

[@Kyle_Brofloski..]

POV: you finally feel you’ve accepted the fate of a loss but then another comes and hurts even worse…

[@Rato.euacho]

All your friends have left and are much happier, they have changed, they are different, but you... You're still that same person, but this time you no longer have the strength to hide the sad and depressing emptiness hidden in your true face, so now everyone says you've changed and that you were never like that, but they don't really know you, they don't know the real you...They don't deserve you, but you keep trying to make them like you, even though you know they're toxic...They don't deserve you..They don't deserve you, They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU...and you know that... In your mind, you created a wonderful character, that everyone likes, that everyone loves, it could be a famous person, actor, singer, voice actor, whatever... in your mind they love you...

[@hiranursariisik3112]

felt this so bad

[@madiaskk]

fr

[@jordanlinder2884]

🧠 “Save the crying for after everyone goes to bed, no one wants to see how ugly you are” 👁 “Oh ok… thanks for letting me know…”

[@venti6192]

i shall give you a vitual hug altough i know that wont help i just think you really need it

[@M3DKIT-1SNT-H3R3]

Hey,if you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here for you. I will understand you. That’s all I’m good for anyways..

[@x.L0vestarz.x]

POV:you just constantly feel frozen in time while you sit there and watch everyone else around you move on with their life. And then there u r, just stuck. Spectating around everyone else’s life’s :(

[@Cecegthjy]

me

[@jezzz200]

Me :)

[@murilobarroz]

That moment when you realize that it doesn't matter to anyone whether you live or die, everyone is living their lives at fullest, and you're kinda happy for them, you don't feel sad, or distressed, not even depressed. You... just don't feel anything.

[@RitaMcCloud]

:( * silently nods head slowly.

[@Karolina-ql4oh]

Что тебе мешает жить на полную катушку как другие?

[@murilobarroz]

@@Karolina-ql4oh Наверное, результат моего выбора

[@nnnadyfskellingtom4877]

... yeah...

[@corncobbob2326]

Any advice because I’m wishing I can switch off emotions and just not feel at all just like what Cyborg did in Teen Titans. I feel too much that I can’t regulate my emotions which causes issues for others and I also feel too much in the sense that I feel lots of disappointment, anger, sadness, worry, and frustration and it doesn’t help every time I end up remembering stuff without conjuring them and every time I realize something new that’s upsetting. You’re like a tough cantaloupe whereas I’m an overripe fruit that’s been bruising a lot and bruises easily yet still not being squashed out of its misery.

[@priyankusheditz5836]

I don't want rain, I don't want people, I just want darkness right now. Because darkness keeps you in reality while brightness keeps you in hope.

[@Seispieles]

Hey, that's cool

[@Rrayyy]

When you feel like you're dying, you want to speak up, and then you realize that you're not bad enough to earn the right to complain without reproaching you.

[@theonebman7581]

... Fucking hell dude... why do you have to hit me so perfectly... My life is collapsing around me and has been so all my life and yet I can't feel worthy of a better life because too many people would say "yeah but there are others who have it worse" when I tried talking to them I can't get myself to ask for a scholarship because there's someone out there who needs it better, I can't get myself to ask for a hug because girls have it tougher, I can't enjoy food or life anymore because there are some who have none I want to feel like my life is too easy and I should have it worse, even if one more bad thing happens in my life and I'll lose it I'm fine, everything's fine, there are others who have it tough, my life is too easy, I must feel guilty when I'm empty

[@isabela7109]

@ThePneBMan7681 *I'm here! *I can be your therapist!* *You can always vent to me!*

[@ivanmont]

For me is that awful feeling where you don't wanna live but you're too scared to die, so you're just stuck in the middle tormenting yourself. If that isn't hell then I don't know what it is.

[@SirPigingstin]

Damn man you good?

[@sarahlethabo2823]

😢

[@generalsubs1359]

@@SirPigingstinobviously they’re fucking not

[@AceCJay]

I wish sometimes that I didn't exist but then I remembered how much joy I've given to others and those thoughts disappear because I have a sense that I am something to someone. I made someone happy, and if that's the only reason I am on this earth then so be it

[@Yasmin-vq9dz]

Wow i have this problem rn as well. I hope you are well :(

[@riellaluvs]

i'm tired. exhausted, actually. i'll never be good enough for anyone, and it's always my fault. people just get tired of me, and i become a distant memory in the back of their minds. it's okay though. i'll get to the point where i won't care anymore. but for now, i'm quite literally broken. drowning in a world full of people who i feel couldn't give a damn about me. but of course, "𝐢'𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲".

[@fatima.9929]

It was exactly the same with me. I am glad to know that I am not the only one going through this. I hope things get better for both of us.

[@tashaneedham8900]

It's always that we have no choice but to be ok even tho we're the ones hurt nobody knows our pain like us they don't feel it they tell us to stop acting like that that he wasn't mine anyways but even for the little bit I spent with him was so much to me he made me happy until I found out the little secret he had a gf and I was lied to everything mad so much sense now I was just to blind to see it but I have no choice but to be ok and move on I'll never be enough for anyone

[@jezzz200]

I feel so down right now, reading this comment makes me relieved that people feel the same.

[@XFleX-wx9dv]

Im about to cry but it dosent fucking come out

[@Cwclipsothervids]

We all know the feeling of feeling deep down and not being able to do anything the only thing we can really do is shed out tears until someone says something about it we act all happy in public but when we are alone that’s when we show our true selfs we all cry at night٠-٠

[@CatnipWCUEYT]

I asked myself: "What's the point of loving people if they always have to leave?"

[@martket_maker]

Suicide

[@egemenberkakdag3467]

same here. 15 years old soon-to-be-sophomore. there was a girl on my school bus who was a junior. in my country (turkey) seniors take two exams called TYT and AYT which determine your university. thats why they often stop doing everything and focus on their studies. I loved this girl on the bus and knew I had almost no chance of meeting/talking with her other than the daily bus ride. we became friends. about 1 month before the school closed my mom told that we were changing districts. I was going to use another bus. I didnt want to tell her this at the time since our yearly exams were near and I didnt want to worry her. I told her about it 2 weeks before the holiday began. she was shocked. she then told me that she wasn’t going to come to school on the last week. that meant that we had just one week before losing touch. I was never good at the “art of texting” and phone calls just didn’t feel so genuine to me. I guess she had similar feelings about them as well since she had called me only once so far. and on Thursday I was beaten up by a classmate. my glasses were broken and my eye was cut. my dad came and we went to a hospital. I had to get stitches. 7 of them to be precise. after that I was sent straight to home. I couldnt go on Friday as well. I had lost her. I had lost my only chance at seeing her for the last time. The last week was also trash. My classmates, the people I called friends, stood with the bully. They said that I had tried to suffocate him and that he had defended himself. I got a one week suspension. I am alone. I got betrayed. I have no one. I hate myself. It’s all my fault. I wish I was dead And thank you, kind stranger, for reading this. I wish you a very pleasent morning/afternoon/night/day ! And please forgive my poor use of English. Still a learner

[@CatnipWCUEYT]

@@egemenberkakdag3467 Oh im so sorry! (Your English is rlly good btw!) That is very.. betraying.After all you just wanted to at least say goodbye before you lost touch with someone.. I hate bullies, I hope your eye is doing better and peace has been restored, and your life is going better. I'll be praying for you stranger. Yet again, im sorry!

[@hondusa3639]

I had a close friend, told me she loved me. Then my parents decided to move away and she blocked me out of her life

[@egemenberkakdag3467]

@@CatnipWCUEYT thanks dude. last month has been better for me. the damage on my eye wasnt permanent and it’s fixed. I also finally mustered up the courage to finally call her. turns out she was curious about me but she was also shy about calling me. we talked a bit and decided to meet again once the school opened. But other than these two events nothing else has changed much. but nevertheless, I am waiting for the school’s opening. since I cant do anything else in holiday. And thank you for worrying about me kind stranger. We will probably never see each other outside of this replies section but your reply to mine was more genuine than 90 percent of things my friends told me. I wish you a very pleasent day, night or whatever time of the day you are reading this in. And I thank you, once again, for your precious reply.

[@EternalSleep69]

i don't feel emotions, only apathy. it started somewhere during autumn, and hadn't gotten better. if i feel strong emotions, then only in random splashes and then i feel empty. like i have nothing more left inside of me. i can't cry. i haven't cried in a very long time. i try to force it out of myself, but i can't. i feel horrible and sad, but nothing will come out of my eyes, so I'm stuck feeling this way. i have everything i need, supportive family and friends, who accept me, no traumas (probably), but i still feel this way. i can't help it. sometimes i start to overthink it and end up in shambles, unable to cry it out or talk to somebody without feeling guilty for even having problems. i'm scared of my own problems and i tend to forget them, until they resurface and i gotta bottle them up again, and then it all repeats. i just wanna be able to feel my emotions and to express them.

[@bc6308]

00:00- 2:47 why is it raining 2:27- 6:20 poison tree 6:20- 7:52 just take my wallet 7:52 -9:33 vas, jagger finn 9:33 - 12:14 NA 12:14- 15:43 cigarettes out the window, tv girl 15:43 - 17:29 look who’s inside again, boburnham 17:29 - 21:05 young 21:05- 24:20 NA 24:20 - 31:36 NA 31:36 - 34:18 NA 34:18 - 36:13 burning hill, mitski 36:13- 40:15 change, roar My apologies for the ones I don’t know

[@laylabelle03]

9:33 you not the same by tilekid 21:05 haunt me (x3) by teen suicide 24:20 in my head by bedroom 31:36 inside out by duster hope this helps thx for the timestamps

[@Unknwn_Identity_M_A]

You did miss some 0:00 *Rain* ~ Jack Stauber 0:37 *Memoir #2* ~ May Roosevelt 2:47 *Poison Tree* ~ Grouper 6:20 *Just Take My Wallet* ~ Jack Stauber 7:52 *Vas* ~ Jagger Finn 9:33 *You not the same* ~ Tilekid 12:17 *Cigarettes out the Window* ~ TV Girl 15:56 *Look Who's Inside Again* ~ Bo Burnham 17:29 *Young* ~ Vacations 21:05 *Haunt Me (x3)* ~ Teen Suicide 24:21 *In My Head* ~ Bedroom 31:38 *Inside Out* ~ Duster 34:20 *A Burning Hill* ~ Mitski 36:13 *I Can't Handle Change* ~ ROAR

[@themime5368]

24:20 "in my head"

[@NobodyUndefined]

It's all listed in the pinned comment...

[@laylabelle03]

@@NobodyUndefined I noticed that like a day after I replied lol 😭 oh well..thanks for letting me know tho!

[@yoshiinottherapper5492]

POV: Trying desperately to become a better person but it seems like u continuously fall back into your old ways and it gets harder and harder to dig yourself out of the void. Theres nothing you can do about it💔

[@leoniemeier6009]

Wow, the first song really hit me in the face. !TW! I'm about to vent, so if you're not comfortable with emotional stuff and things like su*c*d*l thoughts or in a bad place right now, don't read it. I don't want you to feel worse or make you uncomfortable! So have a great day, everyone. I appreciate you and I know you do everything you can, so be proud of yourself. And to those sticking around to read what I'm about to type: Thank you for your time and interest. It means a lot. When I heard the first song, I thought about me, my life and everything like that. I cried the first time in months and it was so refreshing and kind of comforting. All those emotions botteled up inside broke free. I only cried a few seconds then I felt numb again. Its weird. I feel anger, sadness, embarrassment and hurt, but thats only when I'm at my worst. The other times I'm empty. I smile and laugh to assure my family but I don't feel anything. I only feel happyness when I'm with my friends but that feeling is slowly fading away too. I don't feel safe with them anymore, I feel judged by them and I feel like they hate me. Whenever they whisper or laugh, I think it's about me. My body, my voice, my grades or the way I act. I just feel worthless. I'm craving a lot of attention and praises from people I like and I feel guilty or bothersome. I don't want to bother anyone, yet I know I will as long as I live since it's my nature. These thoughts appear every now and then within the last 3 years. There were times I was happy and smiled a lot but now I'm lost. I don't know why I exist or why I continue. I lost every dream of my future and whenever someone asks what my dreams are I say that I don't know yet even though I think that I won't be around for that much longer. I couldn't do something productive and helpful anyway. So, what would it be like if I never existed? Or died at a young age? What would it be like if I disappeared right now and never showed up again? Would they cry? Be happy? Would they even notice? I don't know. I don't even want to know because I'm scared. I know I'm not the only one and I know others went through this too, but I am not as strong as them. I give up easily. I gave up on myself years ago and seemingly everyone around me did too. Thank you for reading and giving your time to me. You're one of the only ones that listen, so thanks. I appreciate you and don't worry about me. I still search for a reason and do everything to motivate myself to keep going. It just doesn't work sometimes. You too, keep going. Keep searching for a reason to keep going and find joy in the small things. Maybe you saw a beautiful butterfly today or the sun was so bright or you made a loved one smile or you read something that was really touching. Every step we take matters even though they're not all good. Take care

[@aly_e_7178]

I strongly relate to this and I'm sorry you feel/felt this way. Im so very proud of you ml

[@ANXIETYS_BIG_YAWN_OFFICIAL]

And thank you! You too should keep going. With love and support! :)

[@mikamikachu2375]

I relate to this so much, thx for your message, pls I wish you the best

[@omar_9149]

I would be sad if you leaved.

[@leoniemeier6009]

Thanks to every person who replied, it was really nice reading your responses. I guess here's an update: Right now, I'm a bit better. I asked my crush out and they accepted, but there have been a few family problems lately. I don't know if I'm happy, yet I'm not sad either. Just empty again. Summer vacation is close and I know it's going to be a lot worse. I'm scared, I don't want to feel bad again. How have you been? I would love to know and listen if you want me to. Take care and keep going 👋

[@heheRika]

"I dont even know why you cry." "Your life is litterally fine" "Dont be so ungrateful" "My life is worse then yours and im not crying" "Stop trying to get attention" Humanity is so fucking disgusting.

[@boiifyoudontfaggumas4648]

Literally, my older sister told me "I have no reason to be depressed" when I was being somber in the car a couple days after my nan died:(

[@heheRika]

@@boiifyoudontfaggumas4648 Ouch. My condolences.. Your sister behaved, to put it mildly, ugly.. I am glad that my relatives are alive, and I am very afraid of losing them. I'm from Russia. I am Russian and proud of it. it is very sad to see now what attitude Russian people have, many people suffer in other countries only because of their nationality. Music helps a lot :)

[@LoneBuffalo118]

existence doesn't feel real too me Why's reality like this?? What did I do to deserve being put here!! 😣 I wish I was aborted!!! I hate it I'm hating everything!😖 I just want it all to go away dammit😩

[@thehale_]

@@LoneBuffalo118 I don’t know what you’re going through, but please: don’t give up. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how long it lasts, keep going until the very end. Because in death, everything is over. When you reach that point, it’s eternal for all we know. But when it comes to life, it’s finite. In other words, there’s a time for death. And it is not now or any time soon. If you keep going, you may live to see your life become better. You can be happier. There’s no guarantee, of course, but there’s only way to find out. Never give up.

[@wolfbanesons]

classmates told me that i always get into conversations and said that thats why they arent that close to me anymore. someone keeps screeching and yelling at me when i just want to talk to them about kicking me away from talking to a close friend of mine just because shes talking to her. i feel like shes controlling her, because we are really close at art school but not at school. i usually sit alone in school break, after i eat i just play prisoners (game). i got accused of spreading rumors atleast 2 times but i didnt i just asked 1 person. they say make new friends, but no one is like me and i dont like talking to random people. i want to get back with my real best friend but she got new friends and we dont have anything to talk about, teachers separated us too by putting us in different classes for the first time a group of girls even makes fun of me for my humor and for being bad at something i cant control (my singing (it sucks yea), my choice of clothes, my fixation on bugs)

[@k0rokin157]

i cant cry. i can feel myself slipping back into a really dark place and i can’t even get my tears out. i’m about to fail my sophomore year all because i wanted to go lower on my adhd meds. i want to give up. i am just tired and thinking about waking up in the morning makes me choke on my own breath. i cant live like this anymore. i don’t know what to do..my family thinks i am better but it’s almost like my depression relapsed..i stay up trying to extend the day so tomorrow comes as slow as possible. i need to tell my family but i cant.

[@di-cream822]

Hey, you should not give up! Yes, I understand that you are tired, and you don't want to live that way. But you CAN live other way! Please, PLEASE WAIT ANOTHER YEAR OR TWO! it will be fine! I'm with you! I hope it's not too late, and You are still alive. If you need someone to talk, let me know. I'm here..

[@imnotgaybro3077]

this hurts im so sorry for that i hope things are less heavy now and i hope ur okay. it must be so painful to live with your adhd that makes everything harder than it is. i know ur struggling now and i hope things get better for you. i hope you never let the negative thoughts get to you. DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP OR FEEL GUILTY FOR THINGS THAT ARE OUT OF YOUR CONTROL. if you managed to get out of bed today and remebered to eat your meals and keep yourself hydrated, then thats great. i hope ur being gentle with youself. just bc your mental heallth is shit that doesnt mean you should neglect your needs and not take care of youself. i know its hard and im rlly proud of you. i hope that no matter how bad your days get, you always have things to make you smile and you always have things to look forward to. i believe in you. stay safe xx

[@stopventingyourproblemstoy1780]

No one asked

[@syd_9764]

staying up to 4/5am doing stuff to keep me busy just to avoid the day.I wish I could just stay in bed all day n night.This cycle never ends and it’s tiring

[@5stackaa]

@@stopventingyourproblemstoy1780 😂😂yoooo.

[@buttersmoothest]

mfw I do my best to improve, make people happy, be a good friend... but I mess up. I always do. I'm tired. I just want to make everybody happy. But I don't know how.

[@truecatlovern1]

you're not here to entertain anyone

[@cranegd2674]

No way, I feel the same too LMAOO

[@tempejkl]

you wont always be happy. it will come to you if you improve yourself. dont bother with making people happy when you are not, when a plane depressurises, you put your own mask on before helping others, no? Dont think too much, just do what makes you happy.

[@Tae-Joon-Park]

I’d like to just tell you uuuh don’t try to make others happy but I’m in the same position if you found a way out tell me

[@サーシャ王]

it hits harder when you realize there's no reason for you to be "sad". I mean, I have wonderful and sooo supportive parents whom I love immensely, friends with whom I communicate every day, no one has ever offended/insulted me, but then why do I feel this way? why am I so insecure, why am I still hurting myself, why do I feel like I don't deserve anything? I'm sorry about that, it's just that I'm really tired of myself, and at the same time I can't even understand the reason why

[@Honk...]

You're okay, don't apologize, you've done nothing wrong. The thing is, a problem isn't needed to produce another. What most people fail to notice, is that, even though the vast majority of problems occur due to a chain of others, they don't necessarily need another to occur. That's what can be seen by your comment here. And don't feel alone, I can relate to this as well. I'm gifted, I'm starting on JV in 8th grade for a sport I didn't even take seriously until recently, I'm treated well by most people, and I'm healthy, yet I don't feel great.

[@jezzz200]

It feels like I'm good at nothing, not even in studies which I'm responsible of. It gives me guilt and makes it all my fault, idk if I fee, lazy but I feel so drained.

[@AT4HS]

My therapist told me a couple of days ago that I am now symptom free and we should strife to hold the level of "happyness". I don't feel better at all, I still randomly break down in tears when at home, wishing I could just disappear from my existence.

[@addyhuman]

I’ve felt like that too, it sucks. I hope you find true life eventually. It might sound cheesy but i found life in Christ. I’m still depressed but uniting my suffering with him gives me comfort.

[@localplaguedoctor]

That's just another shite therapist with shite advice. I'm gonna try my hardest to give you some advice. Don't make a gratitude list. Make an ingratitude list and get angry at it. Get so angry you make that change. Happiness isn't smiling all the time. Happiness is feeling content and safe.

[@tartagalicious]

Therapists are fake, sorry they are just wrong they are bad creatures they wanna torture you and they lie the lie they lie all they do is lie.

[@localplaguedoctor]

@@tartagalicious yep.

[@LoneBuffalo118]

existence doesn't feel real to me anymore 🙁

[@aryelsealey7071]

I was listening to this and crying during class but no one noticed. It’s either because I’m just that good at hiding or I’m just as invisible as ever

[@sandriiam9357]

Or people just don't care. 😔 I understand you, I feel the same.

[@Lee_Magik]

You have suffered minor head trauma. This is considered an optimal outcome.

[@mint_marigold1229]

Oh honey...

[@Alien_editz28]

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[@zency_lover]

I love you too :'> you made me happy

[@tikkispotson5233]

i farted

[@HigashikataDio]

thx man...

[@Alien_editz28]

No problem y’all

[@GIGACHAD-dk7zs]

You made me smile

[@Thatonefnaf]

POV: you are the person who makes everyone happy and puts a smile on their face and in which any circumstance will be there for the people they care about…. And the day you start feeling gloomy and sad only one friend only one person comes to your side. when you come home from school still feeling gloomy you sit down all alone you can hear your grandparents and your mother fighting in the background, it’s Christmas time, you should be happy……but you’re not… you’re just sad and you start looking at yourself thinking nothing is real, all you want to do is cry but you’re so you’re so used to smiling….. nothing comes out.

[@Lee_Magik]

yeah nothing came out my dogs grave they lost the body

[@theonebman7581]

Are you the author of my life btw? Cause you described it a little way too perfectly for me to be comfortable :') I just wish I had a normal family who isn't trying to hurt eachother all the time... and a dad... and siblings... Also, if you are the author of my life and are currently writing, please send something nice along the way... it'd be nice...

[@prlecent]

I’ve always been the “evil” one . The “angry” one. The “selfish” one. Why can’t I just be a good person for one day ? Just one second? Edit : thank you all so much for sharing and being so kind. I hope that each and every one of you have an amazing future. Even for those who don’t see any light now I’m sure that it will break through eventually seeing how kind all your souls are

[@martaafonso5883]

Hey there! I just want u to know that you are not bad, you are enough and u deserve love. Its okay to be selfish or angry sometimes u don’t always need to think about others. You are not evil, you are amazing :) and I hope this helps a little, even if you don’t know me.

[@sovkinen]

ye sure

[@prlecent]

@@martaafonso5883 thank you! Sorry I’m late to reply! You did help a little and I’m just saying thanks ! (Again)

[@as-was-prophecyawp4088]

Oh honey it's just not in our nature for all that nonsense, be you.

[@nadamacavoy9794]

Well u see how you're thinking about that.. so you see it as a problem, you're good you're literally just a fine person cause you're thinking about being good that way Keep it up please

[@BusteDead]

"Tomorrow i'm gonna change myself." "In one day, things will change, i swear." "Its easy to change myself, i know how to do it!" And then.. You woke up. Repeating the same phrases again and again. One day...

[@James-talking-here123]

i wish i has the confidence to change like you can.

[@_kidtripp7772]

Bro, that is me. It makes me hate myself even more.

[@Mittens684]

Same. I'm so bored of this life

[@cobalius]

I'm already at "next time we'll go outside again"