Preachers Daughter RUINED ME (reaction)

[@elsieegrace]

timestamps! 2:26 family tree intro 9:58 american teenager 13:19 house in nebraska 21:56 western nights 26:59 hard times 30:51 thoroughfare (sing along edition) 37:30 gibson girl (sing along edition) 42:04 ptolemaea 50:35 august underground 54:15 televangelism 56:37 sun bleached flies 1:01:19 strangers edit: just noticed i think they accidentally skipped family tree?

[@pixiefroot]

Totally did by accident, thanks!

[@pixiefroot]

Singalong edition took me out xD

[@laramorrison5973]

he skipped family tree intro, not family tree. He played family tree as the first song instead of intro

[@tibb75]

​@@laramorrison5973the intro is there. He skipped the track after Western Nights

[@laramorrison5973]

​@@tibb75 No it isn't, he played family tree as the first song, not family tree intro. Family tree intro doesn't have the lyrics "give myself up to him in offering, let him make a woman out of me"

[@jaredpaul9970]

The scream in ptolemaea is the most gut wrenching feeling, of overwhelming pain and suffering. I broke down in tears the first time I heard it.

[@shelzblack488]

Same and I can't stop listening to it and this album

[@VincentAFH]

I was terrified when I first heard it, because I’ve never heard anything like Ptolemaea before and her making those faces in the visualizer didn’t help either lol. But even after I told myself that I wouldn’t listen to it anymore, I still kept doing and it got stuck in my head. That feeling of ‘fear’ from the song since long faded away. And now it’s my second favorite on the album

[@VincentAFH]

Strangers gave me a mix of emotions but “I tried to be good, am I no good?” Made me emotional due to the fact it reminded me of all of my past/failed relationships especially the one which was almost a year ago now since it’s ended, he betrayed me.(I’m gay btw) and “With my memory restricted to a polaroid in evidence” got to me as well

[@sweetsolitude99]

'I think that album made me feel more than I ever felt in a church" ME omg

[@CharleeXK]

“I think listening to this album is sadistic” 😂 abso-fuckin-lutely

[@mestreenric1484]

37:46

[@jaredpaul9970]

You have to read the lore behind this album, it’s insane. Her storytelling is so unique and gut wrenching. Can’t wait for a new album from her.

[@Preachers_daughter]

How did you know she will realese a new album I hope so I like her songs

[@tobyc8022]

@@Preachers_daughter she said this is a trilogy (she also wants to make preachers wife and preachers mom, i believe)

[@Preachers_daughter]

@@tobyc8022 I really be happy if you are right I wish so that could be perfect

[@nuna143]

This album struck me so hard. Obviously we haven't been murdered and eaten by someone we adored and loved but the feelings in this album and the classic loss of innocence is so heartaching. We search for love everywhere but get so caught up in it that we lose sight of what is real.

[@Catinthecosmos155]

I was a victim of childhood s/a and I have some religious trauma I’m also trans masc non-binary and the character in this and the creator are trans too so I relate to this album so much and it absolutely breaks me especially my first time listening, the line “god loves you but not enough to save you” made me sob because that’s how I felt when I was little. Thank you for reacting to this album it’s so beautiful and sad and just amazing. Ps. August underground is the name of a well know snuff film. Thought you may want to know that

[@badmiracle]

i think hayden being trans really adds another layer to the album (even if she’s said she doesn’t really know/care if ethel the character is trans) that makes it so completely heartwrenching. i hope you’re doing alright. ❤ (ps: august underground isn’t real snuff, just a movie that simulates it)

[@Catinthecosmos155]

@@badmiracle i know it’s not real deaths but it still is considered snuff, snuff Is just killing porn both real and fake. Thank you for your concern I really appreciate it! I’m doing a lot better now. And her being trans is something that I feel makes the story a bit more deep, growing up in small religious community would be absolute hell

[@fugostrawberries]

yes! I had the same experience with that line as I also felt like that when I was younger with Christianity surrounding me yet I was struggling with such a horrible situation I'm glad I'm not alone 🫂

[@Cryingismetal]

the singing crying to throughfare is by far the realest thing ever

[@jack2653]

Yup. Pretty much my reaction on first listen. Hayden/Ethel is such a master storyteller and has said that Preacher's Daughter explored all the dark ways she felt her life could have gone had she not been careful. Get ready for more of her because she's got the Willoughby EP coming out later this year (which has some lovely demos floating around) and then the next two albums dive further into Ethel's lineage and generational trauma

[@pixiefroot]

The way I related to this album was really painful. I definitely have such an appreciation for her. When I found out she produced AND wrote this album I lost my mind.

[@leondaprofessor]

Strangers had me bawling on the floor. Still does to this day actually

[@lizziejlake]

watching people react to preachers daughter is becoming a hobby of mine - your reaction at the ptolemaea scream has been my favourite so far. you really felt that!!!!

[@futuredeadcamper1736]

The first time I listened to this album all the way through I was absolutely emotionally devastated. But man she is an immaculate storyteller and I cannot wait for more of her music.

[@Chris-uq5vl]

I just KNEW I was about to watch an epic reaction to the album the moment you said American Teenager wasn't your favorite! Finally someone who appreciates all the other slower, more heartfelt songs on the record

[@shelzblack488]

Same here

[@elsieegrace]

so true! yk someone's gonna really connect with the album when they're not the biggest fan of american teenager, because hayden herself has regrets about that song

[@rawcarrot8460]

The empathy I am practicing everytime I watch reactions of people who mention crying during first songs when I know Ptolemaea will come.... I agree with your takes and honestly, this album is a CALLbum cause I felt everything she said-

[@flakeyjay]

I am just catching the fire of this artist and I quite literally mean artist.. The longing, desire, absence, pain, torture, recognition and finding a voice that seemed like a ghost for most your life. So impressed! Great review as I was crying with ya!

[@lexrae6642]

ptolemaea is my favorite song of the album and i can truly say it’s one of few songs that has actually made my jaw drop

[@infernusrex796]

Great reaction, I am 51 year old queer man, and House In Nebraska absolutely broke me as well!!

[@alyssamichaela]

Love you singing along to thoroughfare 🥺 it's a great song to sing along to especially when ethel starts belting at the end ❤

[@shanecallahan9920]

Loved your reaction! This album is a masterpiece and she’s quickly become one of my favorite artists after only one album. ❤

[@marcobc9461]

You’re so sweet I really felt so sad seeing you struggling with strangers, but that’s so fucking good music, Ethel is a real artist, please keep doing reactions, I loved this one ✨❤

[@pixiefroot]

omg youre too kind! thank you! im glad you enjoyed this video.

[@youarelikepapa]

we all lost it at the end of strangers, don’t worry about it 😂

[@pixiefroot]

I WAS LIKE NAH IM NOT UPLOADING IT CUS IM A BABY. Glad to see people can laugh with me about it. Haha

[@localfairy_1113]

hard times is ethel processing the abuse she faced from her dad when she was 9, for me its on of the sadder songs on preachers daughter

[@ashleygray4769]

Thanks for doing this album it's a masterpiece! Cried through the album too 😢❤

[@Harlan-kj8id]

Hayden has said that Ethel is an “unreliable narrator” of her own story. They put a lot of work into building a universe for Preacher’s Daughter, and one element was a missing poster for Ethel. She spent her life just wanting to be loved by a man, so she recollects the Thoroughfare encounter as a great romance…but the truth is darker. She was actually kidnapped by Isaiah, and whether it be drugs or Stockholm Syndrome, how she recalls the story isn’t reality. As you said this sounds like a happy song… which makes it heartbreaking when you know the truth.

[@sonImbigguyinwoods]

Hearing the lines about "that home in Nebraska" after finding out it was something Ethel and the guy made up together as a place were they get away from their problems.... It fucken hurts so much more every time now.

[@pixiefroot]

Wait….. what?!!? 😩

[@JulietMHorner]

Yes, Ethel & Willoughby never actually lived in Nebraska. It was their "escapist dreamscape."

[@averyc8761]

this was a great album reaction vid! it’s amazing how quickly you caught onto the themes of the album, especially w sun bleached flies. i loved how you shared your perspective on those themes from both your own personal experiences and from a lens of an objective audience. i would love to see your reaction to her Inbred EP. keep it up ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

[@pixiefroot]

Ooooo I will check it out! Thanks for the kind words and suggestion! 💜

[@mestreenric1484]

" I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home " 15:53 YOU PERFECTLY CAPTURED MY REACTION FOR THAT LINE i love your reactioonnn fury 💙💙

[@atomrat2434]

watching this and crying along with you

[@jordannow13]

Loved this reaction. I could tell you felt it all in your bones. I highly recommend reading what each song is about on the genius page for preachers daughter. And the hidden messages and lure behind it all. You caught onto a lot of it but there’s some stuff on there that might blow your mind. Can’t wait for the new album/ep Willoughby Tucker I’ll always love you

[@marblefanboy7724]

i listened to this album for the first time a few days ago and ive barely been able to listen to anything else. hard times and strangers though set me off in some sort of way though that i cant make it through either song without open mouth sobbing rocking like a baby, something about the lines "mama just know that i love you and ill see you when you get here" just strike such a chord in me that i cant help but break down when i hear it or even read it

[@lifeisabeautifulrisk]

just wanted to leave a comment and say that you are very respectful when it comes to listening to the music and lyrics and I really appreciate that! you have gained a subscriber!

[@Chris.Hey89]

SO RAW. dude, your comments and summary is SPOT ON. What a true artist- mind blow. The storytelling, the lyricism, the production, the story lore. The tumblr and the rabbit hole that is Hayden with the Ethel character building. I cannot wait for more in this effed up realm

[@dahliasdarkside1695]

My firsy listen to the album I managed to not cry through the whole thing UNTIL THE LAST TWO LINES and it just DESTROYED ME.

[@kaitlinriley4769]

the realist reaction on a first listen through i still get choked up to hard times after 20 million times of listening through the whole album

[@shelzblack488]

I cried too, but I can't stop trying to sing along, everytime though I end up choking back tears. House in Nebraska made me weep my partner loves it too.

[@Guilhermesb29]

I love that you appreciate the beauty of House in Nebraska

[@shanecallahan9920]

Also the way you were feeling at the end of your listen we were all there!!!!😢

[@zakikin6006]

she is insanely talented like omg

[@TheAbigailDee]

This album felt like my heart was being beat with hammer over and over. And I love every second of it. Thank you for this upload. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your thoughts and feelings ❤ Hope you're doing well.

[@thecinnamonginger]

Notice how Sun Bleached Flies, American Teenager, and Strangers are the best songs in this album

[@pixiefroot]

I have to say, Gibson girl is still my favorite. But I do love this album in its entirety. American teenager has grown on me since listening a few more times but it’s still far from my top three. Thanks for your comment and for watching! 💜

[@4GU5GA6]

thoroughfare is there for what then😢

[@Djmusiclovergirl]

A house in nebraska killed my souls

[@fki3nxir]

Am I the weird one that likes Ptolemaea?? Probably because it makes me dissociate and yet feel like I'm being sliced from stem to stern

[@sabimse]

I watched your reaction literally a few hours after I found the album. I've cried so damn much to House in Nebraska and especially also Hard Times, the last few days. They really hit hard, and I sadly relate A LOT to those two songs. To see your reaction to this album, was such a nice experience. I cried with you, I vibed with you - I felt like we were experiencing this wild journey together. I watched other reactions too, but they didn't hit the right spots - yours did! You have such a nice, calm and real energy. So thank you for this video! I wish you all the best in life.

[@Damiana_Dimock]

This album is in my Top 10, and I love seeing other people have such an emotional reaction to it because I absolutely know how that feels. Based on this reaction I have to recommend Mountain Holler’s “Songs To Wake Up To,” Superknova’s “Splendor Dysphoria,” and or Spellling’s “The Turning Wheel.” Everyone should check all four of those albums out.

[@atc-wn4un]

your reaction to strangers is very valid XD

[@CoOkieFace327]

Your reactions are amazing!!! This was wonderful to watch your journey through this album!

[@pixiefroot]

Omg thank you 💜💜💜💜

[@ZakStarr]

Thank you for this reaction video. I literally felt the same way when i first heard the album. ❤

[@pixiefroot]

It's so good!

[@hedgejae_]

omg! i freaking loved your reaction. you also picked up on things that i didn’t notice even after listening to the album lots of times in “Western Nights.” Wishing you lots of success dude. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and being comfortable with being vulnerable.

[@pixiefroot]

Thank you so much!!

[@3verestrr]

this album is so gut wrenching

[@charliedixon6936]

It ruined ALL of us. love this reaction

[@MiladySK]

Omg I have listened to Ptolemaea for the first time today. I cant even remember how it came up in my suggested watch list but it got me curious. Then I went down the rabbit hole reading comments and looking it up then watching reaction videos. Yours by far has been my fave. I literally cried with you. Your cat, is beautiful. I love how you got the songs pretty quickly and how you felt them deeply, as did I. I grew up being shamed and controlled by the church and my hypocritical mother. That and so many other things caused trauma and I believe music like this, although it is downright scary at times, it's healing too. Hayden/Ethel has such a unique hypnotic ethereal voice that just captures you and whisks you away on a haunting roller-coaster ride. I hope you cover more of these types of albums. Thanks for your heartfelt reaction video. ❤

[@just_a_gh0st]

i loved this video - this has been one of my favorite albums for a while and your reactions and the way you shared your thoughts and feelings about the songs gave me actual goosebumps. when you talked about sun bleached flies i actually had to pause the video because what you said about your father and sister was so painful to hear yet so beautifully said. thank you so much for sharing this!

[@danika5284]

If I'm not mistaken, she pretty much produced the album herself! Hayden is truly so talented.

[@Pockyliciousness]

This is the best Preacher's Daughter reaction on youtube. I've never seen anyone understand the story without looking it up! Only the religious trauma girlies get it 🤪🤙 I've never cried to Strangers before but I was crying there with you at the end. "This fucking album's fucked up," indeed. I couldn't listen to it for a few months after learning the story.

[@lairose964]

This is my favorite reaction to this album. Ptolmaea is my favorite song and ur reaction to it really hit me perfectly.

[@Zekew24]

"MAN this fucking album is fucked up" is literally the takeaway I have after every full listen. The story she tells and emotion it wrenches out of you is insane. I didn't think there would ever be an album that haunts me like this one has. But here we are. And it is excellent.

[@Hey_Jamie]

I get so damn excited when I see someone new has reacted to this album 😩🙌🏻

[@micti8myd]

Not gonna lie watching your reaction made it even more sad for me because my cat would come and comfort me like that too😂 he was such a good baby to me. I'll miss him like crazy

[@nicochico6534]

This is my favorite reaction to this album thank you for this

[@willbeach87]

Such a good album. Pure southern Gothic nostalgia vibes. Best album of 2022

[@kimdracvla]

house in nebraska made me sob. my bf is currently in a mental hospital and i can’t help but take blame for it. i miss him so much and i relate to this song so much.

[@kimdracvla]

update? he’s out and we are still together :’) we even listened to this whole album together so that was amazing

[@junlucas69]

I like your voice- the way you sang along in thoroughfare.

[@ZyxiaYrah]

I kind of laughed when you said American Teenager is upbeat and you didn't like it that much. I was like, it's gonna be the last "happy" song in the album so you better cherish it! Because it's only gonna go down from there! Yay!

[@Im_lil_kennedy]

I live in Alabama also!! This touches my soul and it’s the first time I’ve ever heard of this artist. I gotta check her out asap!

[@racheljthompson]

God, I love seeing people react to this album who really get it emotionally. Great video. Also, your cat is adorable. 🖤🖤🖤

[@mcz_13]

I’m only partway through the video but I’m just stunned at how spot on your analysis is before even having heard the whole album. The way you explained Ethel’s likely mindset and reason for why she was staying with and so unconditionally loving the guy in Western Nights because of her perception of love thanks to her upbringing and especially the religious aspect was just so exact. I just love seeing how deeply you clearly feel every song on a first listen

[@loganberry30]

Really moving and relatable reaction to this album, and very cathartic. Thanks so much for sharing it with us. PS- love how your cat was checking on you

[@specificsoup]

I think you misheard the “hurt” line in Nebraska. which is easy to do because she was taking blame for the relationship ending in that song, but that line was “you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt” - I think it’s just about vulnerability, she wasn’t able to tell anyone else about her own pain.

[@SceneInvaders-Chad]

Well done! She's incredible!

[@cbre1660]

I cried so bad too with House in Nebraska ;c

[@CalypsoKitty420]

Ik you posted this a long time ago, but I really resonated with you and your perspective, and enjoyed your company. If you ever react to music again I’d love for you to react to Lana Del Rey if you haven’t heard her stuff before. I think you’d really like the Ultraviolence extended album. Lana does story telling albums in a similar way to Ethel

[@Steebensonline]

funny you mention at the end that it felt like you watched a movie or read a book -- I know theres rumors right now that she's working on a book!

[@pixiefroot]

NO WAY

[@Artificialara]

It’s confirmed !

[@JulietMHorner]

Yes, a trilogy book series will expound more on the lore/backstory of the trilogy of albums: Preacher's Daughter, Preacher's Wife, and Mother of a Preacher.

[@SHATX1111]

Did you accidentally skip Family Tree?? 😭 Just got to the beginning of Thoroughfare. Man, your humility and wisdom and fearlessness in showing emotion really connected me. I felt like I was listening to this album for the first time again with you. Incredible reaction and looking forward to the rest!

[@pixiefroot]

Yesss, I’m embarrassed you caught that!!! Lol I was on shuffle and played the second version of family tree and not the intro version completely accidentally. 😩 thank you so much for leaving a comment and I really appreciate you’re words that’s so sweet. 💜 I was hella scared to be so vulnerable on the internet. 💜💜 I hope you have a great day!

[@SHATX1111]

Yoooo!! 😭😭 “Did the story die? This is almost like a funeral.” 😭😭

[@pixiefroot]

@@SHATX1111 😩😩😭😭

[@SHATX1111]

@@pixiefrootthere’s something oddly humorous of your realization at the end of “strangers” - I’m laughing through tears at “he killed her - and he ATE her!” Love this reaction so so much! So pure, so genuine. You’re such an empath, such a sensitive soul. Much ❤️❤️ Liked and subscribed.

[@gabbiespov]

if you want another album thats sad asf, i def recommend “do you love me or are you just lonely” by jess benko!!!!

[@beebaritter4952]

I loved this album

[@VincentAFH]

GIBSON GIRL HAS ME IN A CHOKEHOLD!!! It’s been my favorite for MONTHS and is my number 1, followed behind that is Ptolemaea, August Underground, Family Tree, American Teenager, AHiNebraska, then Strangers

[@Hey_Jamie]

Ohhh American teenager is certainly not radio-friendly. I mean it could be, but it is deceptively so. The music feels peppy and upbeat. The lyrics, the lyrics are another story.

[@Oudri125]

That's a lot of pop music.

[@cl4irv0yanc3]

Say what you want but say it like you mean it with your PAWS for once

[@cl4irv0yanc3]

Okayyy RainFurrest's Daughter

[@pixiefroot]

IM SCREAMING 😂😂😂😂

[@bebebethany4531]

oh my god. thank u for putting me on.

[@c4nt579]

this is so real

[@knox4236]

thoroughfare is actually suck an amazing snog

[@shelzblack488]

Aww your reaction. New subsciber here!

[@derlis_whatever7033]

Those are two weird songs to know beforehand lmao

[@pixiefroot]

i found them from shuffling on Spotify my playlists are expansive haha.

[@PoppyIsMyMetalQueen]

"My graduating class had 30 people" Mine had 16 and were the largest class in the school at the time. The class before us had 4😐

[@fugostrawberries]

love the shirt why did you start the album with family tree? I'm very confused lmao your reaction is so real though

[@MiladySK]

May I suggest, Larkin Poe, Mad As A Hatter song. It's about mental illness. It is also so powerful and well executed.

[@eltonfan62]

Why did you play the 2nd Family Tree first.?

[@finnibe]

why did u skip family tree intro😭😭😭

[@nathangrimes4071]

YES

[@jaidenalihath]

I cried to ptolemaea

[@evibeck3878]

🖤

[@ellecoixgayasf]

u didn't understand Sun Bleached Flies. How dare you to skip the best part of the song

[@pixiefroot]

I didn’t skip anything, I just edited parts of the video out due to me taking out my septum due to irritation. Or me adjusting in my seat and hitting the microphone. Sorry I edited you favorite parts out of the video. 💔

[@kamisartor5998]

Maybe you could be nicer about it? It's not that dip, you crazy

[@Hey_Jamie]

You reeeeeally have to adjust the noise reduction levels of your mic and/or audio. You never ever want to have your noise reduction so high that the moment you stop speaking, the sound completely drops. It clips you off, and it’s the worst for audio to make it so that the level is 0db once that super high setting for noise ends. It’s the WORST to have audio totally drop out completely when not speaking. For headphones users especially, it gives the feeling of your ears continuously being plugged and unplugged as you speak. It is maddening. There should ALWAYS be a level of white noise underneath. Never set the level to 0.

[@pixiefroot]

I’ve had my new dynamic mic for like 3 weeks. I’m still learning how to get the best sound from this mic. It’s very sensitive. It picks up the wind from my ceiling fan. I’ll keep that in mind. I have a lot of software I’m working with and it takes a lot of patience to learn it all. Thanks for your feedback.

[@rdd02]

calm down

[@stryk3r18]

Good review but your singing is distracting.

[@pixiefroot]

Well, there are probably 30+ other reaction videos to this album that may not have singing. I was enjoying myself and I create my content how I want to create content. Feel free to skip my next reaction video. 💜💜

[@ShiroPringles]

Just let the dude feel the album m8, if that's how he reacts there shouldn't be any problem w that :)

[@randychavez1979]

Slay

[@pixiefroot]

ethel cain is girly pop

[@finley6554]

@@pixiefrootcorrect

[@djdiarrhea1173]

37:48 oh yes it is and I listen to it EVERY DAY ON REPEAT