Rachel Bay Jones | "So Big, So Small"

[@shabytin]

And this is why, people of the earth, she got the Tony :)

[@collinnc2001]

They all deserve the beloved Tony. Saw this tonight in Greensboro… cried my eyes out

[@jessixgamer9738]

@@collinnc2001 Did she perform? Or was there someone else playing Heidi Hansen instead of her?

[@ellak6009]

@@jessixgamer9738 I saw it in Greensboro as well, and it was someone else. Rachel Bay Jones was the original Broadway Heidi, and what was in Greensboro was the National Tour cast. (I cried a TON as well, it was phenomenal!)

[@jessixgamer9738]

@@ellak6009 Lucky you 😔🔥 I'm here hanging in Europe

[@miahiraani]

It doesn’t matter how many times I listen to this song, I still cry EVERY time

[@andres_david25]

Same 😭

[@Mchammer37]

"Your mom isn't going anywhere, your mom is staying right here," makes me blubber every time. Anyone else? Just me. Okay.

[@train7151]

🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️

[@haydn4ever]

Yep! Same!

[@frogguycharlie8557]

McKenna Morris The bit with "Is another truck gonna take mommy away?" just makes me sob everytime

[@trinitysolo]

I really break down when she sings “And I knew there would moments that I’d miss and I knew there would space I couldn’t fill...” for me that’s what breaks my heart because I never really looked at it that way. When my son was born, I felt so sad sometimes when I looked at him and I think it’s because I KNEW I was going to come up short for him in so many different ways as she sings. We as parents, can’t be everything for our kids, we’re going to mess up, and THATS OK as long as we stick around for them and love them. We have to admit our shortcomings in order to be better.

[@maddiebeckstead9107]

i saw the show and in person- 😭💖

[@ryanrush1716]

2:27 so much emotion. i’m not a parent, but i felt every word, every note.

[@manickamupendran]

true, you dont have to be a parent, but a kid at some point. :)

[@thomasproductionz2764]

WHYYYY DO I ALWAYS CRY AT THE "YOUR MOM ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE" PART?!!!?

[@iheartme7491]

Same :(

[@yunabroadway3033]

I swear the did something to us we can all cry at the same moment

[@andres_david25]

Same 😭😭😭

[@seyaro2180]

Its the chords I swear

[@nympheas2478]

Mommy issues (don't worry, same)

[@msyouzhu]

I’ve never cried so hard in the audience seat.

[@collinnc2001]

Omg o cried like a baby

[@8ananapi3]

"a truck that will take mommy away" oh, I guess I've become immune to this song "and I did, and I do" *NOPE*

[@isaacgaleao]

"There is *not* another truck in the driveways"

[@andres_david25]

@@isaacgaleao 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@qualitypudding]

1:42 if you listen closely, you can hear the sobbing of everyone watching this video.

[@mshipper4404]

It's me Sorry

[@cameronpotts6445]

The “Goodbye...Goodbye” at 0:59 gets me every time 😢

[@collinnc2001]

The whole song gets me

[@cupidbasill]

Every time I listen to this song I cry. It makes me think of me and my mom. My dad left us when I was a little girl.. So I understand, I even asked my mom, “Will a car take you away like what happened with Daddy?” so this really hits home for me.

[@laurelrose7018]

I don't know why it took me so long to realize this meaning too, but after revealing the truth, Evan is abandoned by his new "family" partially because they are hurt that he lied to them (understandably) but mostly because he served no purpose for them anymore. They only loved him for the connection to Connor that he provided them. But his Mom doesn't leave him, even though he lied to her too and even though he thinks she's going to hate him. No, she loves him for who he is, flaws and all, and she's going to stay with him when it all feels so big til it all feels so small.

[@MegaAcca123]

not really

[@laurelrose7018]

@@MegaAcca123 Thanks for your thoughtful and nuanced contribution to my analysis 😂

[@mahnoorahmad1690]

no matter what, mothers are forever

[@andres_david25]

@@mahnoorahmad1690 Lydia Deetz from Beetlejuice: well mine is dead, but she'll alway be in my heart Aww I just melt down to my own coment

[@mollyrweber]

It’s easIer to push away people you know won’t leave you

[@fiona-lyons]

The first time I heard her sing " I there another truck coming..a truck that will take mommy away..." it was like a hammer blow. And every time since. So powerful.

[@nmmccrea]

My mom was killed in a car crash on Christmas Day a couple years ago. This song made me cry harder than I can remember. I miss her so much. She worked so hard to give me every chance at a good life, and damned if she didn't do a great job.

[@mars_starz420]

Wow RIP

[@jackhaldeman9166]

This reminds me so much of when my dad walked out and left my mom to raise and support my brother and me... and she did... and she does... and she will. My mother is my hero.

[@matthewmack1983]

I cried watching her from the balcony... up close like this... DONE. They wrote a script for REAL PARENTS. endless bravos.

[@hellothere9791]

Why doesn’t this have more views?

[@msbeepbeep]

Such a powerful song...and a beautiful rendition! Bravo! I sobbed in the audience of Evan Hansen the first time I heard it...

[@MattB0610]

After seeing the movie, I think Moore did a good job at bringing this number down to movie size and letting it feel intimate and personal, but honestly, nothing beats the original. This legit made me cry at 5:30 in the afternoon on the subway

[@jonmoree116]

I ugly cried so hard during this song when I saw the show.

[@carolinelloyd-jones2914]

every time i listen to this song i cry

[@hellomynameishello2159]

the EMOTION in this oml, she is incredible. nobody plays this role like her

[@ajvargas9528]

This is the only song that will get me Every. Single. Time.

[@damonbrown8944]

As magical and perfect as a song can be brought to life. The rawness and transparency is shattering....

[@ApacheJulie]

And I just burst into tears at the show on Broadway. And all 3 of my kids put their arms around me.

[@JaneTam92]

i'm crying.....again

[@theanimeidiot8903]

I watched literally like 5 seconds right at the climax via Hannah Bayles and I IMMEDIATELY sobbed. Rachel Bay Jones, h o w

[@marionreyes6158]

When I saw the show in the West End last week, this was really the song that tore me apart. I was crying a lot before this song, but this! 😭😭😭 I don't think there were dry eyes that night! I had to share my tissues with the gals next to me.

[@bigbenigs]

Same! I watched this on West End and I was already crying so much with evan's breakdown that I didn't think I could cry anymore. Then this song happens 😭😭

[@collinnc2001]

I saw it here in NC I thought For forever was rough this though omg

[@finalfantasyqt]

I was fortunate to meet Ms Jones and she is the sweetest person! Hope nothing but more success for her!!

[@Cutiepenguin42]

I made it through the whole show without crying until this song. Then my lip wouldn't stop trembling.

[@deh2775]

Such a phenomenal talent!

[@laurelhell7041]

seeing this song live HURT

[@Arianna1500]

just such a moving performance. I will never forget when i saw the touring company put Dear Evan Hansen on in my town how the entire theatre was so silent during this performance you could hear a pin drop. not one breath, cough, moan. every single 2,000 persons were taken into another world. it was captivating

[@johannaashwood6449]

Literally what my little boy asked me after my husband left us… this song hits so hard…. Idk if I ever cried more

[@maddiem8136]

This brings tears to my eyes...I got to see dear evan Hansen live, and let me tell you, I cried. Alot.

[@eowynsalvador6664]

Everyone here posting the lyrics that made them cry... but I cried at all of them

[@TTVTanukiNights]

"Ill come up short a MILLION DIFFERENT WAYS..... and I did. And I do. And I will" BRB crying.

[@armanalburo7736]

What a gem! ❤ teary eyed every damn time.

[@orangelemon1870]

I saw her live in Dear Evan Hansen

[@broccoli_lord7695]

Lmao I thought you said Live as in living in the house and now I know it's live as in seeing the person on stage

[@adymationsyay4152]

You lucky bastard

[@dohtcahm]

@@broccoli_lord7695 Oop, that's what's they were saying?

[@robinorene]

me too!!

[@Truman81]

this song really grows on me each time i listen to it

[@medicatedmenorah]

As the kiddo of a single mom, as soon as the song starts, I’m already crying.

[@Azzt2794]

He sings it with so much feeling that it makes me cry ;; ♡♡

[@nath_npc_tales]

The song as a whole is already really emotional, but 2:13 - 2:50 happens and I'm here ugly crying

[@strawbbri]

i cry every single time i listen to this song without fail

[@jonlarsen7326]

My bio dad left my Mom and me in 1972. It crushed her and ruined me. Well, my dad and first stepfather’s emotional and physical abuse. I was Evan Hansen and at age 55 I still am. Parents need to realize that their actions have profound, lifelong effects on their children. I am blessed to have a wonderful Mom and through her tears she found a way to be strong.

[@charmainedethierry4166]

I was in Evan's place once except it was my mum who left and my dad who stayed

[@gerbilfantastic]

When I listened to the movie's soundtrack, I didn't really care or feel anything. I thought maybe I just listened to this one too many times and it didn't really have an effect on me anymore. But *NO,* as soon as I clicked on this and heard the first verse, I started crying.

[@TheMissingLink1]

Here after watching the movie - and MISSING this performance.

[@ravengorospe8398]

This song always gets me sobbing ugly because I can relate to the song. My father left my mother, too, and I was the only one out of my 4 siblings who have seen my mother cry everyday and every night. I love my mom so much.

[@richempress8385]

so heartwarming😭. Just beautiful🤗👏👏

[@pipi-io9cq]

the 4 dislikes are from evan's dad's four accounts

[@conniehan2340]

the emotion

[@BoazsCrown222]

She still makes me cry!

[@exunderscorejai]

Since my mum died I’ve made Rachel Bay Jones my adoptive mum. She doesn’t know but it’s been great so far

[@ruthvillalta9166]

Bawl every time 😭❤

[@makattack568]

WHAT A TALENT.

[@ocsmichaelanthony]

Damn it.... I'll be doing fine and then she says "and I did.... and I do... and I will..." and I BREAK

[@reblwill1]

That's my biggest gut punch, too.

[@kellerhouse69]

Rachel Bay Jones is the only one I think of when I hear this song.

[@daphnehuynh1143]

I earned this solo in a concert that’ll take place in about a month, any advice??

[@maxrosen9998]

try not to cry halfway through

[@jaredkleinman4036]

Don't overdue to vibrato, it'll make it more emotional if it's clean

[@twinkerbell1333]

So what happened during your solo? Did it go well?

[@athuh1082]

how’d it go?

[@Lilly_LaVonne]

Pure emotion in her eyes, in her voice, in her composure you can tell

[@midnightthoughts5572]

I'm going back and forth from time to time to this video, just because Rachel omg you sang this so good! 🥺😭

[@LonelyStar831]

I cry every single time I listen to this

[@brookieblackwell]

Sobbing immediately, thanks

[@onetouchlegacy7658]

It’s impossible for me to listen to this song without crying

[@oliviadobben4654]

i just remembered this existed and i'm now im crying

[@bobkirsch2722]

Woooow

[@rinwastaken7632]

I will never look at an u haul truck the same ever again

[@jamiestange1163]

One of the most heartbreaking songs ever.

[@jonah1854]

this song makes me CRYYYYYY i accidentally listened to this in the car with my whole family and let’s just say a lot of us cried.

[@hometvxd5338]

Dang, after listening to the movie version, well, I understand that it's a "clearer version" because, well, it's a movie, so it has less gasps, breathing and everything but it just hits really different and I could cry everytime listening to this one because the emotion can be FELT (as it does on the recorded version) and it's just amazing but the other one it kinda disappoints in the part where you feel like it's rising and rising and it just kinda stops or keeps from going all on the feels, idk

[@crab_ravee]

Also, this is Rachel Bay Jones, and emotion is her specialty

[@abov8030]

They really give you a good one-two punch with words fail and so big/so small right next to one another

[@jaffa5341]

I'm not crying, you're crying

[@bobkirsch2722]

Such an amazing song. This has allowed me to realize that though my parents were fallible, they were human beings first just trying to figure shit out themselves.

[@lynnmckenna9934]

Omg so freakin’ good

[@laurateddy8017]

This hurts so much right now

[@reblwill1]

With you. ❤

[@yasmimvitoria1504]

a well deserved tony awards

[@lauraleejingo5463]

😢 love it

[@TKYO_TK]

as a mommas boy this makes me cry a lot

[@maryannarella]

Love you for this, RBJ

[@mshipper4404]

Ahhh this song hits near home But it hurts more when you listen this right after "Good for you" and "Words fail" She try to gives everything to Evan but it wasn't enough

[@mikesmoviemadness24]

Judging by the comments, every 30 seconds of this song makes someone lose it. Yup the math adds up, cuz I haven’t stopped crying since the song started!

[@madijean8877]

chills

[@gotosweetstxr]

I NEVER cry at videos or media, and THIS SHIT MADE ME CRY DAMNIT IVE LISTENED TO THIS SONG DOZENS OF TIMES

[@Rafiz-ez4fw]

BAGUS BANGGEEEETTTT 😭

[@LotusSunn]

My cousin is awesomeeeeeee love her from the tennessee

[@spideyversed]

she’s such a genius

[@PolishViking2423]

Its Salen from Good Doctor! Damn this song is soo good

[@danpoop3922]

“AND I DID” Ugh TEARS

[@magicdolphin8436]

Wait, that actress who played the villian in that arc of The Good Doctor sang this?? Damn, she's talented.

[@decibellone696]

She was delicious in young sheldon as the - "put out mom".

[@haleyapple8147]

She was on gray’s anatomy s16 35

[@meghanpool8392]

I don't know if I cry because relate to the mom because I work and I feel like I miss so much of my kiddo or because I yearn for my own mom to say this to me.

[@joenovinson9297]

If you're not feeling gutted, there's already a hole in your soul. 😢

[@matthewleeprice6611]

This song makes me cry because I’m growing up and I don’t want to, my sister is going to college and me too in three years

[@magnetsonfridges]

This song absolutely destroys me

[@nachamer2960]

:C

[@RyeClarke]

...

[@shroomy2444]

Dude this dong os so popular with villlian deku