Rapper Reacts to NF - How Could You Leave Us!! | I CAN'T DO THIS (First Reaction)

[@KnoxHill]

What else do you want to see me react to? 🤔 Comment below! Also if you like the song in the intro listen to it here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/oGOphKSvjLd_sMU 🙌🙏

[@Star-qp9oq]

I love your reactions 🥰🥰🥰. I can't wait to another NF reaction. I can't waaaaaaaaitttttt😵😵😵😵. You should check out "You're special", " Like this ", "Thinking"

[@truefrance]

Do outro but you need to react to all NFs music video from perception all the way to mansion to make outros make sense

[@teoigi3247]

Sending you a virtual hug. Much love bro, wish you were my friend.

[@joergel8976]

I really enjoy watching your reactions. Actually you should check out every single song from him. But I'd really like to see "Mansion" or "Intro 3"

[@whatthecookies43]

Give mason wav a listen he’s a new rapper has 3 songs out so far I think he’s got good flow. Even if you don’t keep up the good work love you reactions

[@taggveteto4346]

I heard that on the last bit when he talking he had to get everyone out of the studio. That’s how you know how emotional he really feels. 😢

[@jamieharpur1727]

Tagg Veteto yea. it was originally a third verse but he just broke..

[@angelas.g.9848]

YEP.. TRUE. 💯

[@robbanningrb]

Tagg Veteto that’s true!!

[@henleythehen4429]

Hi this made me think about my dad

[@shadysumoyt]

I believe it that part hits hard

[@awonddy]

Fact: The ending was recorded like it happens in the song. There was supposed to be a 3rd verse but at the end of his second verse he had a breakdown. Asked everyone to leave the studio but leave the mics on. The "3rd Verse" is him crying at the end.

[@tasha7642]

S4m1 whoops sorry I didn’t mean to reply to you 😭

[@teewhyeee]

love NF

[@keegs1495]

i think you mean there was supposed to be a 4th verse

[@fenyx6573]

This song is like a psychopath test. If you don't feel this, there is something wrong with you.

[@neptunelizzie]

I feel it, but I didn't cry

[@westonkenyonmusic]

I cried at the title.

[@georgejetson1379]

I kept eating pizza...then I ordered chicken wings.... then I still cried ... that darn NF still got me again... how does he do it?!

[@westonkenyonmusic]

@Beed Beezy Now that's a question. But he did say, "if they don't *feel it."* I feel some Indian and Japanese songs and have no idea what they're saying.

[@egodumpster]

The first time I heard this song was about a year ago. I just started breaking down. Just imagine how sad of a backstory this is. Don't take what you have for granted

[@zoe-cw6sx]

Nate had two sisters , his father and mother got divorced and his mom's boyfriend physically abused him (and sister i guess) and he writes about him (step-dad) in the song Mansion

[@kittykat7654]

If my fiancé and I broke apart and I found out that her new man was physically abusing my children I’d go to jail for murder

[@goblue7516]

Great song

[@goblue7516]

@@kittykat7654 see thats why if I had kids I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't with their mom and some guy was abusing them when my mom walked out on me and my dad he said he never trusted a woman to treat me like I was their own son its hard when you have kids

[@ethanrampergash9173]

`zoe_wolfy` :p yea Nate and his sister were abused by their moms boyfriend and then his dad was able to take them away from all that.

[@zoe-cw6sx]

@@ethanrampergash9173 yea thank god his dad was there to take them away

[@tinabagheri5158]

This is the first song of NF’s that I ever heard. I lost a son to addiction two years ago and the line “I hate the way I remember you” hit me so hard because all I remember of my son is the horrible 6 years of his addiction. I pray that one day I can begin to remember my son as he was before his addiction. I know he was so much more than his addiction, every person is! I want to remember my happy, sweet and loving son.

[@justjessy2148]

Tina Bagheri sorry for your loss 😔 I hope you do find peace and you start to remember your son when he was in a good place and not just the bad parts! 🙏🏻♥️

[@tinabagheri5158]

Just Jessy thank you. I pray time will heal the pain. I do know my son had a huge heart, and that has helped. Knowing he is finally at peace also helps.

[@Purplekitti04]

I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️❤️

[@yk_arubanorchid297]

Sorry for your loss

[@eliseesbjornsson4981]

I’m so sorry for your loss

[@deflowerdefile]

I can't listen to this song without crying midway. it takes quite a lot to make me cry imo. powerful song.

[@KnoxHill]

Couldn’t agree more. Amazing artist amazing song

[@g41ne73]

I also agree

[@tristonward7500]

I agree strongly

[@Debo1088]

I feel the same way.

[@remotecontrol9021]

@@jeebusdaddygamingmy few ideas is think of some topics that inspire you or you like then just sound out the words or just try to rap with or without a beat . For ex - My motion telling no swollen eleven like Ellen the pen villain . It's all about experiment and what you may or may think works . If it sounds good or you may think it sounds better in another verse then try that . If any questions feel free to ask away

[@jimcarriesa1911]

Not gonna lie your reaction and breakdown is actually making this song more powerful for some reason

[@noahross3642]

Truth

[@nataliHasan]

Facts

[@CP-eg5uv]

Please do NF „Intro3“, „Remember this“, „Mansion“ next please!!!🙌🏻🙏🏻

[@knuddefc1684]

First mansion then intro 3

[@jgsource552]

remember this real af. Legendary song!

[@sjmayhart889]

Remember this is my favorite song by nf

[@nicig2020]

Yes those are important

[@angelfromashes1792]

If I'm honest the thing I want most is to see more people react to heavy nf songs when they haven't heard him before. They usually do it cause they hear he's different, get the gist of what he does, but they're still NEVER ready for the emotional weight of his lyrics, and I love seeing their eyes be opened, in a sense. And I also love the newfound respect they almost always have for him afterwards too.

[@unicornlover1267]

*Can we just take a moment to appreciate that Nate posted such a heartful and important song and let it out in the world?*

[@ryanolsen294]

facts, one of the best songs ever from anyone out there IMO.

[@realwestcoastgaming]

YESS

[@christinabott-lamb1781]

My daughter and I saw his Therapy Session Tour in Greensboro, NC back in 2017. When he was performing this song, he couldn't get through it. He sat on the stage and cried. We cried with him. So brave to try to perform it, but his raw honesty and human struggle (courageous)!

[@marianacastroevans5142]

In the song "Nate" from The Search, he tells his younger self "At twenty-five, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction . Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one" (this song is number four) So powerful and sad :( Thanks for reacting to it man, killed it as always.

[@aryabhoola]

"Skip the track number 4" could also refer to when he said in an interview that looking back at this song, he would never have wrote it like that because he understands what was happening now instead of just laying blame on himself and his mom. Just a thought.

[@riodeleon4279]

I thought number 4 was referring to The Search album as it’s the 4th album and it’s full of emotional songs

[@katiethompson3123]

@@riodeleon4279 this is track four of Therapy Session, definitely referring to this song

[@Doc_Jello]

@@riodeleon4279 a little late but it says "track" and this song is the 4th track on therapy session

[@aidanthomas2510]

Yeah that's one of my other favourite NF songs

[@probablyprodigy]

The emotion behind his voice is incredibly powerful. You can feel it in every single word. I've never heard anything quite like it.

[@KnoxHill]

It is one of my favorite songs of all time. Thanks for commenting & supporting!

[@israelflores5020]

I think that by the line “telling me this Isn’t you” his mom meant like “son why are you writing this kind of music? this Isn’t you” which is another way of Nate saying that she really didn’t know him

[@naoldemisse1316]

I think that its his mom saying that this isn't her and his music inspired her to change. Because next line says that she was listening to a different tune later. Which means she didn't actually change like she said she would. I THINK

[@israelflores5020]

Naol Demisse I’m a month off😅sorry ‘bout that, I agree but by “different tune” in my opinion I thought it meant simply “doing another thing” implying that she had passed away

[@israelflores5020]

Draco Granger-Snape when was the interview? ‘Cause I believe she passed a year after he graduated so I think 2010, not sure but I know It’s not easy at all, It’s basically a must, I haven’t gone through personal experiences but I get it and I hope you’re doing better😊

[@israelflores5020]

Draco Granger-Snape thats good to hear☺️and ah okay gotcha

[@messinalyle4030]

I thought that by her saying that this wasn't her, she was flat out denying what she put the family through. But perhaps she couldn't lie to herself and shut out the pain that way as she hoped, and that was the final straw that drove her to kill herself. That would add yet another layer to his anguish, if he held himself even slightly responsible for her suicide simply because he had tried to tell her the truth and she couldn't handle it. He shouldn't hold himself responsible, but I think that most people would, in a situation like that.

[@haydenwhittinghill5967]

Knox. A lot of people will say that reactions are just Capitalizing on others work. But you always bring a new light. Keep up the work man. Lots of love

[@sir.stayton6269]

Another very good breakdown channel Is TheThirdErnest

[@aimangupta9778]

He's not a reaction channel , he's more of an analysis channel

[@jasan_o3633]

@@aimangupta9778 breakdown channel is like the same thing pretty much

[@flhxalexx]

He made everyone leave the studio in the end cause he wanted to be alone while crying and venting. This is one of the most powerful, raw, deep songs I’ve ever heard. NF truly is one of a kind.

[@awonddy]

This is the saddest NF song

[@rowan2680]

Awonddy up there with Therapy session

[@scar4796]

And Trauma.

[@18onyx18]

When I first heard this song I was in school and I just started sobbing it’s a very powerful song

[@YbFlores]

I respect

[@bokutoswife5503]

ok but you can literally hear the pain in his voice when he yells “MA!” that made me sob so hard-

[@ezpznoob8092]

He yelled why I think

[@budgoblue6625]

I liked the genuine emotion and personal pain he was able to share. He went deep....and it truly shook him. Great reaction Knox. If you’re not moved by NF on this track? You’re not human.

[@KnoxHill]

True that my friend

[@annalisegulliver2540]

I saw NF live last month and it absolutely broke my heart when he played Mama. He played footage of his mum and had to take a break crying His growth is incredible

[@laserstorm7135]

Finally!!!!!!! took ya long enough knox I reckon everyone here watching is crying or has cried over this song and its message at least once

[@williamstrimp1792]

i've listed to this song over a 100 times and i cry every time

[@phantompuma5673]

Yep

[@ermidk321]

Y-yeah...this song really hit my hard cause I love my mom and dad so much....but I know that I'll eventually lose them to their drug and alcohol addiction...I almost never get to see them In person...I almost died because of my mom driving drunk...

[@tylerwhite768]

Yup

[@nayelitaveras23]

Laser Storm multiple times it never gets old because the pain I feel doesn’t

[@williamstrimp1792]

10:00 When he says "she startet crying and telling me this isn't you" i think that his mother said that because she actually didn't "know" NF. Like he said, his mother was never there for him and therfor never got to know him properly.

[@KnoxHill]

Yea that part really got to me. What a great emotional song and journey from Nate. Thanks for sharing 🙏

[@happygolucky8449]

My husband came home awhile ago and showed this song to me. I have never met my birth mom. I love the woman who adopted me but my birth mom was an addict when I lived with her. She gave me to my dad and signed her rights away and has never met me. Broke my heart to hear this song. My reaction was like urs I have three kids and it's an influential memory that's turned me into the parent I am today. I will learn from her mistakes and will never let my babies think anything comes before them. This song has made me cry everytime I've heard it

[@elliott7282]

you say you never met ur birth mom but u say you lived with her

[@stephaniemaris4878]

I'm assuming the living with her was when she was a baby, before she could really remember her. Thank you for sharing your story. My mama gave up parental rights before I was even a year old. She came back ten years later, but I never trusted her or believed she really cared. She gave too much proof otherwise.

[@fatherofcovidxijingping516]

I'm so sorry, life is hard for me too 💔💔💔

[@pandasanding7036]

Think she means her mom was an addict when she lived with the adopted mom and the adopted mom told her your mom is an addict which is why you live with me?? Maybe??

[@wonders5700]

It don't matter how many times I hear this song.. it gets to me everytime.. NF is so special..the emotion he puts into his music 🖤

[@KnoxHill]

Couldn’t agree more. Thanks for supporting and taking this journey with me 🙌

[@johnathanbradley6908]

This one always cuts deep. I lost my father due to popping pills. Going i. And out of hospitals every few weeks because he would OD. I'm 35 now and it hurts like crazy. I dont take pain pills because of it. Your raw emotion shows me youre a wonderful father. My girl has 2 beautiful girls one 6 and one 12. Unfortunately she can no longer have kids and i always wanted one. But her kids i love like my own. Would die for. I've been in the picture for 5 going on 6 years and their dad is a major dead beat. Rips up their drawings in front of them things like that. I can't imagine a life without them. They saved my life. I suffer from depression and tried to comit suicide in the past. I can never be more greatful for the women by my side and those kids. I'm proud of you for being there for your kids. I could only hope to be as good of a dad like you man. Much love! 🙌🙏

[@Alan-xn6ip]

your a wonderful person takes a real man to loves someone elses kids like their your own

[@johnathanbradley6908]

@@Alan-xn6ip thank you. That means alot to be honest. It's been a tough process as ive never been a dad and its scary as hell but I'm there when they need me.

[@anitaschoonover2488]

I hope you are blessed richly for being a good dad & husband to your wife. It helps with the depression to have precious people in your life. Sounds like they bless you almost as much as you bless them!!

[@johnathanbradley6908]

@@anitaschoonover2488 thank you so much. Im beyond greatful to have them in my life!

[@ShawnMartinNCBIRDMAN]

The white hat makes me think he's pointing out someone else who's darker than him. Most of his stuff is about his own mind and his own problems and he wears the dark to show it, but this is strictly about his mom and her mess. Also, the song is more like a question, right? "How Could You Leave Us?" Fact is, he didn't really know his mom that well either if he's asking the question "How Could You Leave Us?". If he did, he'd know why she left. "Them pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right?". "If you're still watchin', WHY?!". He was just a kid when it happened, not sure how old, but as a kid you don't understand what adults are doing. He'll never know his mom well enough to know why. It'll always be a hole. In "Got You On My Mind" Nate says this about his now wife, "Oh, said you lost your dad, girl I know how that feels I lost my mom, tryna deal with that still I guess we connect on our hatred for pills". That's gotta be some major common ground to connect on listening to this song, the most raw song of any he's done. I'd say "If You Want Love" is closer to this, "Hate Myself" is but it's got a different feel. Thanks for the review. You got 2 girls, I got 2 too. I'm not on drugs but did have a close call bad fall from 25' off a ladder last year, sitting in the hospital not knowing what's wrong on the inside (2 broken ribs and a cracked vertebrae) and I couldn't let my kids see me when my wife put them on video chat. I didn't want them to see me with the neck brace and the tubes and wires and needles stuck in me. Nate's mom probably thought that, she didn't want them to see her in her bad condition, but that's the addiction. If anyone is watching, work towards not repeating the pattern or starting a new 1 in your family. There is hope, just reach out. Nate said in his suicidal thoughts he "might do something different like talking to God more" in The Search. If you're addicted to drugs it's a different kind of suicide. Numb the pain to die to it. In recovery, you wake up to the pain so you can live through it. You're not just in a physical war, but a spiritual one. Love the fam.

[@ko_chan5599]

The line '' last year i felt suicidal, this year i might do something different like talking to god more'' is from change i think, and i agree with everything you said

[@ShawnMartinNCBIRDMAN]

@@ko_chan5599 that's right! Change. Also an amazing song I think I did leave a comment on that song Knox did a reaction to as well. Hitting up all these NF songs!

[@EpicGamertje]

🙏 Amen

[@HeavvyWind]

❤❤

[@AnaGonzalez-yv9lh]

I feel like the white hat can also represent the innocence of him being a kid, that doesn't understand why that is happening

[@therrbros3180]

I get goosebumps every time I hear this song, it's such a powerful song. even tho I didn't go through anything close to this I still feel his pain.

[@BEternity17]

Lot of people started with "How could you leave us" thinking if this music is real or not. Are those real tears ? Real crying noises we hear in the background ? What about the end ? You did not. Because you know that NF is real. And we are ALWAYS having emotions, even good or bad, or sad. Because we know it. I love your work, keep it up.

[@otakuvibes2949]

I know im late but, #realmusicuntilwedie

[@courtgodley7789]

am i sobbing at 3am over this song for the hundredth time since becoming a fan of nate? yes sir yes sir. i'm so happy you finally reacted to this song, one of his most touching ones imo

[@joelharris363]

I don't think I've ever come across an artist to NF's degree where his listeners simultaneously want to applaud the brilliance of his work and curse him for the emotion he evokes.

[@anitaschoonover2488]

Joel Harris isn’t that what makes NF exceptional? He is revealing his raw pain & suffering to help us face our own.

[@savannahlight3786]

I came across this song about 3 years ago. My mom died from an overdose in 2015. This song has helped me cope so much. The first time I heard it, I was in disbelief because I thought I was alone. There are not enough resources for the children of drug addicts. And the resources that are out there, are extremely faith/religion based. I was struggling with religion even before my mom passed, so I was trying to find ways to cope that wasn't just telling me "she is in a better place", or "she is with God now." I needed something different. And NF's music was that for me.

[@lkc1790]

Good luck with this one 😢 It's deep on another level. He actually didn't start wearing all black til a bit later on in his career. I don't believe it symbolizes anything. He actually made everyone leave the room when he recorded the end. #KnoxHill #VerseFam

[@shelbyr3983]

this song hits me so hard , taking care of my grandmother who is addicted to pain pills..... it hurts so bad and this song rips me apart every time i hear it edit: also i was a former addict and hearing you say “you always chase the high” i broke down crying....because that is true, you always chase it and it’s all you want. now being sober i have such a new found respect for those who struggle with that demon. it’s not easy to walk away from but i promise it’s worth it

[@KnoxHill]

Wow, amazing story. Congratulations on being clean. Sorry to hear about your grandmother but thank you for sharing your story and your struggle with us 🙏 Appreciate you taking this journey into NF’s music with me and for supporting the channel

[@LeeMijares]

I'm in a simmiler boat, my Grandma was addicted to smoking. And when I was like... 8, or 9 She died of a heart attack and died. The docter said the main reason was the smoking. The older I got, the more it hurts. I broke down when he said, "but if your still watching ma!"

[@greekgamerc6055]

Every time I hear this song I get chills all over my body, I have cried so much on this song... This song brings back so many memories man

[@RenewingMusicRob]

Knox Hill, you are one of my favorite reactors to NF, NF is my favorite artist and he's a big inspiration to me! Please keep doing more reactions and more NF

[@TheViper4Life]

I've heard this song so many times at this point, mostly from watching other reactors, and I still tear up to it...and im not a crier, it takes a lot to pull at a heart string enough to get me to well up...and yet this song has never failed. This is bar none, one of the...if not THE...most powerfully emotional songs I've ever heard.

[@KnoxHill]

You can just feel the pain in his voice. You’re right, I’ve listened to it a lot since this reaction and it still hits me

[@jimcarriesa1911]

I have seen this video several times and never consciously noticed the piano hit scene change. Good catch

[@chloehasler194]

This is why I vibe with him.NF real music, keyword: real. He shows everything and mask nothing.

[@codyedwards8874]

im a little late but i relate too i lost my parents as a teenager basically dad died my mom left me to take care of myself. its hard. i made it through so far. much luv knox!!!!

[@KnoxHill]

Wow, thanks for sharing that man. Good luck to you and take care 🙏🙏 All the best

[@puljudefender]

jesus hope everything is going fine for you if not hang in there!

[@darkestnutoftheabyss3641]

"One of the first things I wrote is *I wish I would've called* " - NF, Mansion

[@TFD-sn5nt]

This made me realize how lucky Em is to still have his mom. I respect the sacrifice NF made to make it. Nothing but respect

[@Nightshade0111]

9:18 he talks about hi sister in “my life” also can you do mansion-he talks about what goes on in his mind

[@editorials9827]

Man, the first time I listen to that album. Specifically that song, there so much I cried about!

[@KnoxHill]

Such a great song. Thanks for taking the time to comment & support!

[@editorials9827]

Welcome

[@jimcarriesa1911]

Good luck. As a parent this is a tough one.

[@LynxPlayzx]

Knox's intro : Hmmm what item should i give ppl today? Good job man love the reaction

[@anastasisbobbyg7821]

I get tears every time I listen to this song. It feels like a classic to be honest.

[@royalchicken116]

Thank you for reacting to this song!!! This song still sends shivers down my spine, and I couldn't listen to the whole song the first time I listened to it.

[@Jake-i8v5s]

This song makes me cry everytime.

[@whoisjoeyy]

This song makes me appreciate my mum getting sober and being able to work on a relationship with her, I could listen to it all day. I was about 22 and 26 now, there were a lot of memories we could've had but also so many still to make! Our relationship is far from good but the fact that she's trying and actually cares now make the struggles worth it!

[@zoe-cw6sx]

nice reaction!! now at last that you did this...now do MANSION - NF

[@j.chenmuas]

When I first heard this song, i cried, i felt his pain even though I've never had anyone in my family who went through addiction. Powerful and deep stuff. Been in his train since moment album.

[@the_rat7363]

“I can’t imagine not being there for them” awww🥺🥺🥺

[@coreylockaton913]

this song gets me going i lost my mom to a intoxicated car accident so this song reminds me of her

[@gabrielriegel4018]

Im so sorry to hear that... i have not lost my mom or dad..but when I listen to this it makes me think about what would be if she were gone... im already depressive and start crying everytime i hear this song...im 18 years old btw

[@coreylockaton913]

@@gabrielriegel4018 im 18 as well

[@mbkeyboard4169]

I’m sorry but my mom and dad are addicted to drugs my mom lives 3 hours away and I live with my dads mom and dad my mawmaw and pawpaw

[@skurb8785]

NF is one of the only artists that can make you feel how he wants you to; if he wants you to cry, he'll make you cry. If he wants you to laugh, he'll make you laugh. If he wants you to feel, he'll make you feel. NF is a legend in every way possible and the legacy he will leave will be phenomenal.

[@Cygnusart0843]

9:01 Nate is the oldest child, he has 2 younger sisters. Nate was about 17-18 when his mom died. (He mentioned “a lady in the corner watching us, while she’s taking notes” which we can assume if cps. Idk if he ever went to foster care) His parents divorced when he was young, and he was raised by his mother, who was an addict. She began falling in with the wrong crowd, and attracting the wrong kind of people. There was a boyfriend who started coming around, who would allegedly abuse NF and one of his sisters physically. Until his estranged (?) father took him away. I believe Nate currently has a good relationship with his bio dad.

[@barbartist8571]

you have no idea how joyful i was when i saw the notification =D

[@bogdanadzic8827]

you made my eyes lucid, it's obvious how much you love your daughters. keep it up bro

[@andreas3039]

You should listen to the three intro's, it shows how NF evolves over his early albums.

[@fem6673]

Knox finally reacts to “how could you leave us” *everyone liked that*

[@charitygoza5457]

this is one of the first five songs I listened to of Nate's, he was recommended to me from a friend, and I literally bawled my eyes out listening because you can just feel how absolutely raw his pain is and its so amazing how much power that song has!

[@SteveB9001]

I lost my mom to cancer when I was 12 years old, I relate to this song too much. But Nate did it beautifully and poured his soul out, which takes a lot of courage. It's probably one of my favorite songs by him even though I can't listen to it.

[@kyleburnside9584]

Man coming back to this song and watching and then seeing how far he has come emotionally with his new song "Mama" makes me so happy for him. Its cool to see your old videos and how far you've come as well!

[@abrilmxranita8800]

Man, this songs hits my soul, love the way you deconstruct each song. Pleaseeeeeeee listen now to Trauma, this one gets me a million times more because I can relate to it more than How Could You Leave Us. Keep up the good work, @Knox Hill !

[@JennaLeeEquals3]

I’ve seen NF in concert- he is by FARRRR one of the most RAW, REAL & INVOLVED IN HIS FANS IN THE MOMENT. I loveeeeeee NF, HUGE fan.

[@zoe-cw6sx]

I cry every time i listen to it ;')

[@DrewHollenback]

The most beautiful part of this video is hearing your kids running around the house. Thats why i watch your videos, and listen to your music. Because you realize that those kids are the only thing that truly matters, and you gotta do everything in your power to raise then properly.. give them the life they deserve.

[@curtiswilson3569]

Great reaction. I personally believe the line “this isn’t you” is about her and Her belief she can be better. Lost my little bro to pills last year and still can’t grasp it 100%. As a parent, I can’t imagine leaving my two little ones this way.

[@tiffanysamann1355]

I heard this song this often but still get goosebumps everytime

[@leonardblank8227]

I found you through those NF reactions and only recently got into your music that you released yourself and I freaking love it. For example, I looked at your albums on Spotify and the song Gemini stood out to me because my zodiac sign is Gemini but once I listened to it, it hit on a different level because i relate to it so much. You are so underrated and you deserve more attention.

[@sierrabell2509]

I cried the first time I listened to this I called my eyes out bc my mom is sick (like incurable sick) if she were to get the common cold she could die. If she were I wouldn’t know what to do 😭

[@yusufkhan1479]

I hope she's alright and wish her good health

[@mekielmeyers6563]

My mom left me when I was only two but now I have her back in my life after 13 years (I'm 15 now). I've only known her for a hand full of months now but recently she's started doing drugs again from what my dad told me. From just listening to this song is making me think of a future where I don't have my mom. I've heard this song before and I've broken down before but now knowing what it's like to have my real birth mom addicted to a drug. Now the song just feels different like I'm on a much deeper level. I don't want to lose something I just got back... Momma I just got you back please don't leave me again

[@justjessy2148]

Ethhasaprob 83 I’m sorry you’re struggling, maybe you could talk to your mom and tell her how you feel and you could show your her this video and tell her that you’re scared of losing her the same way Nate did and the song maybe this song could really resonate with your mom and help her get better? I hope things get better 🙏🏻♥️

[@stephaniemaris4878]

I get it. My mama left when I was 10 months old, then came back years later. I begged her to take care of herself and just generally get her crap together. Unfortunately, she never made me a promise she actually kept, and I lost her when I was 17. I know you must be going through so much pain, and I wish I could help. ❤️

[@Astro-fj3ud]

i always get chills at the 3rd verse...

[@jamieharpur1727]

damn knox you gonna have a pool of tears with more songs like this

[@mayykhalil2765]

this song never failed makes me cry . i can feel his pain thru this song . it is very emotional to see how he caught up in his pain . it always emotional when people rap or sing about pain among their family .

[@Poohbear5254]

Good job breaking this down Knox. Always appreciate you, bro.

[@nolbertolopez1128]

the crying you hear throughout the song in the background was Nate actually crying during the recording session. The end of the song where nate is talking, he told the studio to leave for a few minutes but to keep the song rolling. this song was so heavy for everyone in the studio, they had to call it a day right after recording finished.

[@Killlerbee]

WOW you did an awesome job here Knox. I've watched dozens of reactions to this song and you just hit it right. Soooo good. Thanks for your reaction and deep thoughts and breakdown. Loved it brother.

[@britneyfoltz5233]

Amazing reaction, knox! You reacting to it made me cry AGAIN. This song is so emotionally raw, just like "if you want love".. I literally can never listen to that song without bawling like a baby!!

[@hazzardks4954]

The first time I heard this song I ran out of class because I was crying because I relate to this song so much. I mum was abused domestically and I had to witness most of it.

[@aimeev6691]

For some reason I keep rewatching this video over the years. This song is my life and it hard to find people that have the patience to understand.The empathy you break this song down with keeps drawing me back.

[@moto_elmo5599]

By far my favorite NF song, really hits home with my mom being addicted to drugs and me now being a father of two boys and not having my mom around to see them..

[@thecrackedgamer1776]

Even knoxhill dropped tears to this song, its such a powerful song

[@Itz_Hazey_]

Such a great reaction man, thank you for this bro, my parents and siblings are battling addiction and I haven’t seen my parents in like 3 years on Christmas, this always gets me in my feelings cause I can relate so much.

[@bryce._.tarver]

I’m so glad u reacted to this. I was the one who recommended this song bc I knew this song was great emotionally and shows meaning behind Nate.

[@mckaylalee4769]

This is a beautiful video so much meaning and what a great reaction ❤️

[@Brendonrhall006]

It took me a long time. I never was a huge fan of your reactions because u talk so much. On this video I listened. When u talk u know what your talking about. I subscribed. Not many reactors say anything real or have feelings. U do. U earned my respect. My respect means nothing but u have it

[@natnirv]

Hey Knox. This week you reacted to some pretty emotional songs (Leaving Heaven and now this one) and you did a great job once again. I had tears in my eyes throughout the whole video. I personally think that the white and grey colours represent Nate's relationship with his mom. He's trying to remember the good times but unfortunately the bad memories are more present and take most of the space. That's why there's only a little bit of white. Sad, I know. I would love to see you react to Castle and Arose from Eminem. Those songs are my favourites from Revival. I think they would fit to your recent reactions. Please consider it. Take care! I hope you and your family are doing well.

[@Ravnaak]

I've never seen a song do this to you. Almost every time I listen to this song I cry. My dad was useless (still is) and my mom wasn't really there when I was younger so this song just hits home for me. Its crazy how powerful music really is man. Much love brother.

[@burtonboard44]

A lot of the time it isn't about chasing the "buzz' or the "rush" as much as it is chasing something that dulls the emotional pain... Great reaction! :)

[@I_Stay_4_SKZ]

I’m just here for the millionth time just rewatching your ИҒ playlist all over again. Thank You for sharing your musical knowledge ६ taking the time to explain certain things that most casual listeners might not notice.

[@bidhan05]

This guy would be a good English professor

[@dinoplaysaj5779]

Interesting

[@alejandrogarcia4816]

You are quite possibly one of the artists ive discovered who most wholeheartedly and genuinely loves art, both in your creation of it and your admiration for art around you. Your reactions to the art of others is carried out and delivered with so much honesty and care, its really beautiful to see the impact songs like this have on you. There is so much more than simply listening to a track, you delve into them and assess them both technically and emotionally, many people cannot do both, and yet you seem to do it so effortlessly. And its no wonder that, this attention to technical delivery and emotion, carries into your own music. This song definitely has cemented its place in the playlist of my life, and so has this reaction (as well as the many others) and your portfolio of great music. Brother, if I ever pursue my musical ambitions, I hope I could even come close to scraping the level of devotion you show to music in all the dimensions that you do. Glad to have discovered this channel when I did, and glad to be a part of this journey as a viewer! Can't wait to see how you take your career even further as time goes on 🤘, all the success that comes your way you have EARNED, never doubt that!

[@kayleebowentaylorcaniffsbae]

I feel this song 100% my mom died when i was 11 from a drug overdose...i was a kid who she leaned on and i got taken from her. Then a few months later she got taken from me. This song explains exactly how i feel, but i could never find the words until now. Right down to the cigarette smell....

[@kobineff]

This song gets to me i connect with it so deeply because my mom was never really in my life due to drugs and i have never been good at expressing my emotion so every time i here this song my emotions get the best of me and i start crying. i love this song and i love Nate.

[@Fabi982]

This song made me work on my relationship with my mom. My mom was absent for the first 7 years of my life. She migrated to the US from Mexico to work on a better future for me and my sister and left us at the hands of a loving aunt but an uncle as a predator. I was sexually abused when I was little and when she finally had enough she brought us to the US. When I heard this song when it came out it hit me when he says "why would you leave us?" Because A part of me wanted to blame her for what happened to me and ask her the same thing. It opened up wounds to the things that happened but it also helped clean my wounds. Our relationship has gotten better and I cannot even imagine what I would do when she leaves. Yes I know the song has to do with addiction and his moms death but to me certain verses he said helped me in my situation. Since then I have been his fan and wish he was more recognized for his powerful music 🎶 ❣

[@knivesalot4093]

This is song is ruff. Its so relatable and im glad you reacted to it because its so relatable and effects everyone.

[@zimzam391]

On being sober, even Em overcame that. Recently celebrated 12 yrs. Not Afraid. Respect.🔥

[@scar4796]

Zim Zam good job! Praying for you!

[@zimzam391]

@@scar4796 tf?🤔

[@ezpznoob8092]

Nice

[@littleotakuangel]

So glad you finally reacted to this song. This song just hits me as I relate on a certain level. I have cried everytime I listen to it. There's just so much raw emotion. Still love the song

[@Chris-op7lg]

Amazing song and Amazing breakdown

[@jazellemalhan566]

“Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had”- this part spoke to me so deeply. I didn’t have a parent in my life that was addicted but I was adopted at 9 months old. Throughout my childhood I struggled with depression because I couldn’t understand why my birth mother wasn’t there. I blamed myself for my adoption believing that she didn’t want me and it was my fault. I don’t even have a picture of her but I tore myself apart for so long thinking I wasn’t allowed to miss someone I never even met or knew the face of. I will never be able to escape the fear of being abandoned by people I love even though I’m an adult now. Sometimes I wonder if she even remembers she had me, or if she moved on and started a new family. Do I have brothers and sisters I never met? This song let me feel validated and is by far my favorite of NF’s songs