Reading My Prison Journal

[@LanielDarson339]

Hi Jess! I found you exactly a year ago when you had less than 2K subs. Im 33 and had 6 years clean from heroin and then relapsed right before I found your channel. Just hit 60 days clean after a year long relapse where I lost everything I built in 6 years of sobriety. Now it's all about the comeback. So appreciative of your channel and just you as a person!

[@JessicaKent]

You got this brother!!! 💪🖤

[@albertagrown]

You got this! One day at a time, my friend! 🤘🏼💕

[@litgirlablaze3432]

Good luck dude. This shit is hard. Fall down seven times get up 8! ✌🏽💜

[@Virkalisa]

❤️❤️❤️

[@carlasuannepoohlockett3259]

Congrats

[@MissLinkinParkLover]

”Unless that man has a diaper, you can not change him” 😂😂

[@victoriamahnke1755]

I loved that so much. Also, Happy New Decade!

[@lenalomonaco2727]

i read this as she said it! i love her omg

[@CMoore8539]

@Sonojulia Isn’t that the Truth!!!

[@alondramulero5915]

I love that quote so much 🤣🤣

[@kimberlyk8119]

"Dont break the law just cause of awkward social situations" As an introvert you sold me imma be a good girl forever!!

[@rachael6167]

Anyone else think it’s so amazing to be able to open up so personally about such a traumatic event in her life

[@Juwlz]

Yes. Ive been tempted for so long to make a youtube channel. Ive had a insane life, I have a rare medical condition and became a young widow. All the stories about these two major life events are interesting and could help people, but I am so afraid of KZbin 😂 opening up to a camera is awkward enough(I truly didnt think I would struggle to the extent I initially did when I made practice videos. I decided to make practice videos to get comfortable talking to a camera and to practice how to edit but i never uploaded them). Fear of being judged, for certain stories that nobody in my life knows, for being 30 and not a 18 year old, for having a big nose😂 my cousin has done youtube and social media for a long time and shes had hate and expose videos made about her lol, shes had people threaten her, its crazy. Between those fears and currently being busy raising my one year old niece on my own for 5+ months now(ive always helped raise her but have been taking complete care of her 24-7 for 5 months) and a new massive health issue, Ive not decided yet on if I am going to do this youtube thing lol i think if i do, im going to use a pseudo name, like Lia instead of Julia lol

[@pinkgiraffe378]

Yes

[@sierrabird3817]

@@Juwlz I'd watch your vids!

[@SLYCoopaEatsChicken]

"because I beat up a sex offender" just when I thought I couldn't adore you anymore

[@MellowLady222]

True!

[@FknAlexx]

"It's my job to make sure I'M okay" mood of 2020 & forever

[@MargieB]

Amen! We are allowed to be selfish. We cant help people without us being OK.

[@lolabullen9464]

Margie B omg yes girl

[@thoraneh7365]

This aged well lol

[@jennajohnson1237]

Just now reading this comment and it hit me real hard that 2020 was 2 years ago 😅😅

[@kristelveerus2140]

"It's my job to make sure I'm okay." That's the best sentence to start 2020. Happy new year!

[@eej1983able]

AMEN

[@thoraneh7365]

Oof this didnt age well

[@bethfrizell4613]

Thanks!

[@anastasiahejduk6447]

One thing that struck me listening to these is how important this will be for Micah one day to read. She needs to know that she saved her momma and just how much she was loved from day one.

[@AllieLittleMonster]

“Sorry my hair looks gross I know” Ma’am your hair is perfectly laid and pin straight not a single knot, Whachu mean 😂

[@addiemua8844]

Stefani Joanne. I feel you.

[@sarahcopeland777]

I was with an abusive alcoholic for awhile and everyone was telling me how "good" I was for him so I felt that..it is so true..you can't ever fix them ❤

[@beehanna5742]

Do you realize how strong and special you are? Your Mama Bear instinct completely trumped your need to use. You are a strong woman and amazing mother!

[@johnhammond2123]

I would love to hear more about your entries in your prison journal if you would feel comfortable to do so. Love this and you lol!

[@JessicaNicoleFaust]

Anger was a MASSIVE thing for me when I got clean. I would black out in anger. Just actually feeling your feelings again and learning how to cope with them, very difficult, YET CAN BE DONE! 💛

[@0xydeath]

You look stunning ♡ what a queen

[@janinerivera9070]

Umm.... I've been locked up I am a felon I'm an addict and it is so hard to be sober day by day and your my rock

[@chasityyoung815]

@Janine Nicole its a struggle every day! Don't ever give up!! Prayers for you🙏

[@That-Wanderer]

Hey, its hard... but it gets easier every day. But you gotta stay away from what or who is causing you to turn to addiction. You can do it, stay strong, say no, and walk away.

[@addiemua8844]

Janine Nicole. Over one month girl! You go! Stay strong! Have a wonderful day!!!

[@skypurvis6755]

11 months!!!

[@User_678_89]

4 years!! Congrats !! ( hopefully you still sober!)

[@Lisasanti1]

I've never been to prison, nor am I an addict, but I love your channel and personality. You're so strong, and a voice and inspiration for so many. Proud of where you are today!

[@dieeineanja]

„Unless this man has a diaper it‘s not my job to change him“ we stan taking care of ourselves

[@twentyonecowards1281]

you really really really show people who had the situation kinda like yours that making mistakes doesn’t ruin your entire life. you have two beautiful daughters and a boyfriend (husband?) your just a big inspiration. i’m sure that people who have gone through things kinda like this are very inspired by you showing you can still have a great life after making a big mistake, thank you a lot ♥️

[@courtneyrose8562]

so proud of you, i almost cried when you talked about how you are doing everything you said you would do in prison 😭😭 so proud

[@crystalbrawl9347]

Although I’ve never been to jail, God knows I should have. That all changed the minute my Dr told me I was preggo. I’m glad your daughter gave you the inspiration to change and stay on the right path. These videos are helping people Jess, truly. Getting clean, staying clean or just helping someone understand addiction. Thank you for baring your heart out to us girl. Keep up the good work! Happy happy New Year to my second fam! The ride or die fam 💜

[@tracytyrrell7166]

jessica... that is a big ass cup of coffee.... im jealous 😂😂

[@sarahsomething1084]

Going to rehab is a huge life altering/catastrophic experience! You’re a soldier Jess! Keep fighting the good fight 💪🏻👏🏻

[@darrenkirupa6096]

I'm a practicing lawyer going through a very difficult time right now and you are an inspiration! You are the only KZbinr I follow and something about you is just special. Reese is a very lucky dude! Keep strong and know your strength inspires many.

[@Rtytanicj]

This got me in my feels for some reason lol, I am so stinking proud of you and how far you’ve come!!! 💜💜💜

[@MC-ly8jc]

Rtytanicj crazy right? Shes amazing.

[@racheljay9963]

I wrote you a letter hope you get it soon. You’re such an inspiration to me! I’m 8 months sober off heroin and meth and I’m doing amazing. I never had legal issues but I was living with my dealer in hotels and he was extremely physically abusice and almost killed me multiple times. He loved to strangle me unconscious but not to death. So glad I’m away from scary people. You make me feel I’m not alone.

[@Pafarmgirl90]

“ unless that man has a diaper you can not change him” 👌👏🏻🙌 yes girl realest quote I have heard in a long time love that! You’re so inspiring girl I love everything about u and am so so so grateful that you come on here and share everything about you past & present , trust me when I tell you people hear you , people relate to you , and you’re helping so many ! You have come so far and you should be so proud of the woman you are today , because you are amazing 🥰❤️

[@kellyd9914]

It's amazing that you've accomplished all the goals you set for yourself! I've been through similar in my life, and I know it is a struggle, and it's WORK, and it takes having the insight to see what needs to change in your life. You absolutely should be so proud of how far you've come!

[@cdsterry20]

I want to say thank you for sharing your story! I am a recovering addict also. It really does help knowing your not alone and hearing stories of other recovering addicts. I have a nephew in South MS prison. I've told him when he gets out I wanted him to watch your channel. He wants me to go with him to N.A. meetings when he gets out. I'm so proud of him he turned down getting out early so he could do a welding class, so he would have a chance at a better job not returning to his old life. Please keep sharing! Love you!

[@francespetrie7829]

I am so impressed. You bring tears to my eyes, Your daughter will love and respect you for your accomplishments. blessings to your famiky

[@kaley7924]

i can't imagine going through even a quarter of the stuff you went through. you are such a strong and amazing woman. i am so happy you are blessed to be in the position you are in now with family, friends, work, education, good health and mindset. So inspiring to so many people! Love ya!

[@karencristobal4999]

I'm just glad you got a good foster fam for your sweet girl. As a foster mom I appreciate your kind words bout them. Also super proud of you. You are the bio parent we foster parents dream of and the outcome we pray happens (contrary to popular belief. We DO want you reunited). Good job mama***

[@adriennegonzales2636]

Can we just recognize what a great job she did by writing to vent!? This is so great!

[@cassandrahodges5093]

YES GIRL! This NEEDS to be a series! So, so, soooo inspiring! I’m personally trying my best to stay sober and you’re making it that much more motivating and possible for me. ❤️ thank you.

[@cristinarichart1118]

I love going back thru my treatment plans at the methadone clinic n seeing all the goals I’ve smashed. In the beginning they were so basic find a home and aNd a job...... 7 years in now current goal new car and working on my body, mind, spirit 💕♥️💕 happy 2020 Jess n Reece

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I like it when you say "What's up you guys"..😊

[@stanfordholman5301]

Jess I just found you 1-1-20 at 845 am! I beat dope in 2005 after hitting rock bottom!! I’m now trying to stop drinking..... I think it’s a miracle that you popped up on my phone! You are a great inspiration!

[@sarahsomething1084]

Prison is a HUGE life altering experience. It’s a catastrophic event so KEEP TALKING Jess! Especially if it helps you heal/cope. “Grow through what you go through”. ❤️

[@gr6058]

This is not just a channel. This is the show we need on all steaming platforms.

[@alextirendi5412]

Definately the most georgeous ex dealer i know, this channel has enough stuff for making a movie of her life.

[@eej1983able]

I love old journals even if they're tough to read at times

[@cmcota37]

Girl I’m loving ur highlighter u look amazing 😉

[@cmcota37]

U poor thing this was a sad video to watch but so raw and real I hope ur ok after reading this go kiss ur family and have a great rest of ur night Jess 💟

[@JenDoe1]

Soulful Diaries no....YOU.

[@ithinkitsraining5466]

Hey, Jessica. I found your channel probably a few months ago. I haven't been though even half of what you have, but I think your story is incredibly inspiring, even for those of us who haven't had the same experiences as you. To see where you are today and what you've made of yourself is truly amazing. You're an absolute sweetheart and I'm so happy you've been able to overcome some of the most difficult challenges that seem almost impossible. You're resilience is very inspiring. Thank you for sharing your stories and inspiring and encouraging others. You're putting a lot of good into the world. That's one of my favorite things. Thank you very much! Have a happy new year!

[@katarinakovrlija3372]

"it's not my job to make sure he's okay, it's my job to make sure I'm okay" YES!!! Such an important and profound message. Btw, seeing you get emotional here is making me emotional. You're so amazing and strong ♥️ Edit: Just finished the video and girl when you said you're now doing all the things you once wrote about wanting to do I fucking broke down. Please never forget how amazing, strong and resilient you actually are!!

[@shadowcat4529]

21:12 I'm fascinated by how insightful and almost philosophical that whole thing was. It really shows your understanding of the situation.

[@samnicole9803]

Hearing you talk about how you weren’t gonna leave Micah ever again made my heart super heavy 😞 I’m so glad you kept your word and got your baby.

[@leomduffy794]

This is my first time seeing your vidios and im hooked already. From one recovering addict to another your stories are amazing.

[@kaykay8012]

You are the best I love your videos thank you for being so truthful us moms who went through loosing children and going through addiction are so misunderstood and looked at so horrible,thank you so much for showing all that we can do it we can overcome what no one could imagine

[@raahatkapur]

Jess I just want to say credit to both you and Christina for really painting a picture of what prison is like and how not every person who goes to jail is what we see portrayed in the media. You guys really opened my eyes.

[@lifeisbeautiful4972]

@Jessica Kent: althoug i have never been adiccted to drugs and never been in prison i love to watch your Videos. Thank you for sharing youre experiences with us! You have such lovely voice and you are a beautiful Person! You are sooo strong and i am so happy for you that you have your daughter back! Wishing you the Best - nice greets from Austria 🙂

[@blue-ks8zu]

11:14 that mug is huuuuge lol😂😂 love it

[@blblex6420]

Hi your really interesting and I am so happy u have finally read this to us

[@jacibaker3240]

I love the fact that you talk about prison which makes me more sacred to even get a speeding ticket

[@Laue283]

You’re just great. Thank you for sharing your story. Definitaly helps me a lot.

[@christalaganas1453]

Hey there its Christa from north Carolina again and I think you are so strong and just all around an amazing young woman for all that you have accomplished by putting one foot in front of the other and doing the next right thing. I'm very impressed with you and proud. Keep doing what you are doing!

[@Bellavanacoffee]

wow Randy looked different! thanks for sharing your journal. ILY!

[@sammyjostewart5613]

That's amazing momma! So proud! I still have letters and drawings from when I was locked up. It's a really weird feeling looking back on them.. Almost 4 years sober over here! 💕🤘

[@vahidm6119]

It’s probably best you did time AWAY from familiar faces in AR. It made you look inward for strength and friendship. I love your vids. I got my boy back too after a battle so I feel your struggle for Micca (spelling?). Nothing more important than your job as a mother! It’s a lifestyle worth living baby! You’re a huge inspiration... I think I’m going to share your videos with a drug rehab counselor. She May be able to share these with other ladies like us 🤗 to inspire them to move forward!

[@pinkgiraffe378]

You reading your journal really shows how hard prison life is. I get that sometimes that could have been the only place to vent. It's so interesting to hear.

[@ruthgardiner3531]

I forgot to mention ages ago that I love your new video intro, it’s really cool. Also, thanks for sharing your thoughts and journal with us, it’s really eye opening as to how your thought process works in prison. Just by a few pages, you can tell how high tension being locked up really is. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come. 💔💔💋💋

[@victoriar8284]

ive been looking forward to this video since you first mentioned it🙌🏼

[@freetobree5323]

UNLESS THAT MAN HAS A DIAPER YOU CAN'T CHANGE HIM SIS. PREACH

[@MJ-ge6jz]

Just found your channel. Its cool that you can monetize your prison life and recovery... having a KZbin income is life changing for many people. You are providing an example to many on how to restart a life...

[@niagadde]

Thank u for sharing this❤️so proud of how far you’ve come

[@scastello92]

I love that book Snow falling on Cedars !

[@kennedy570]

At 8mins when you talk about getting your daughter back, becoming a good mother & never going back to prison.... that's when you truly made the choice to change & you DID! I'm so fucking proud of you & how hard you worked to get where you are today ❤

[@xOperationIvy]

Grateful for you!

[@bbbookworm02]

omg you have inspired me so much!! I definitely haven’t been through what you have but the determination to be better that was inside of you during the roughest time of your life is truly admirable. you’ve reignited the fire in me to go after my goals and dreams with vigor💜💜much love and thank you for sharing your story with the world. I never leave comments but I think your channel was recommended to me on purpose not by mistake

[@melissaR54]

I love hearing your stories about your past cause you are so real and honest about things you have been through and you tell us no bullshit. It was so sad hearing you read the part about Micha. I bet you were a little bad ass in jail and prison. Lol. Thanks for sharing.

[@chasityyoung815]

If your parents would have gotten Micah, you may not have took the situation as serious as you did. I am beyond proud of you! You are a true warrior Jess💪

[@ameliabeckley8038]

So gorgeous omg, I just started watching but I just gotta say you’re so beautiful 😍

[@nicolelori412]

This is so crazy girl. The journey you have had. And today as I watch this is New Year’s Day 2020, a new year a new decade ! Wow. We can only hope to be better even stronger people ♥️ happy New Years to your family girl 🖤

[@kareemaafteraddiction8965]

The parts with Micah really hit home...I remember it being excruciating to be without my daughter! Aren’t you so glad it’s all behind you!!!! My gosh how far you’ve come!!!

[@chrishorbatt3504]

Your old vidios were awesome. That's why I started following your channel

[@chantalcarlson]

Christopher Horbett, I totally agree! Jess, there is nothing wrong with your older videos and you should be proud of them because they are authentic and absolutely everyone on the planet has to walk before they are able to run. Putting yourself down everytime you tell new viewers to watch an older video for context just makes it more awkward and trivial. Trust me, your older videos are only cringe worthy to you; I, like many, subscribed to your channel when I started watching those videos, so they can't be that bad!

[@amymcinally1009]

Your videos are helpful I started watching the detox in the hotel one and it kept me interested, I feel angry and sad when I hear about the problems you face more because it alerts me to the chaos in the world. People are cruel to eachother in all walks of life good and bad at work offices good and bad in the underworld you were obviously good.

[@mackenzieb2218]

It's so freakin weird seeing 2020 on the upload date ugh. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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LoL

[@thehibernatingturtle4016]

It was quite a year

[@mackenzieb2218]

@@thehibernatingturtle4016 yeah fuck this year. I'm spending Christmas in isolation lmao

[@kinyah.67]

Yea but it’s even weirder seeing this 2021 with date 2020

[@kaleylopez2097]

yesss jessica!! i’m loving the new intros & outros

[@kareemaafteraddiction8965]

I’m so happy for you that you’ve changed your life and met so many of your goals. You’ll make a great therapist but ever since I started watching you I’ve thought that you need to write a book!

[@GigaElPro]

I like that I found you. I like prison stories just out of curiosity. But I love that you're in recovery because I am an addict in recovery too.

[@MyFavoriteColorIsGlitter]

You should do more journal reads if it is not too hard for you to do! I came across your videos and love your stories! Thank you for sharing with us!

[@jtreed8624]

Been waiting for this video! YES!

[@alivika1452]

Thank you for sharing. What you’re doing here is so important. Also, your videos are so professional now. You’re doing great!

[@tonycraven8142]

Just wanted to say that I love your videos and content. Please keep it up. I found this channel by accident and am really glad that I did. You are awesome and are putting out a positive message.

[@botanicalbunny]

I just wanted to say I think you're really brave for sharing some of your most personal detailed stories, a lot of people would never be able to do that. I think you're a huge inspiration and living proof that _anything_ is possible and that all hardships can be overcome. Thanks jess 🤘

[@akoczurshaw]

Girl, thank you for opening yourself up to us, you’re such a strong and badass batch!

[@juliannaponte390]

I read my journal I had through some really tough times and we both had the same reaction... bringing us back to a dark place. All we can focus on is the great things we have now. ❤️❤️❤️Couple things you said got me lol, “can’t change a man unless he got a diaper on hunny” 😂😂😂 and dude I used to talk to spoke Spanish, called me “Guerita” - pretty blonde white gurl. That’s how I knew he was talking about me to his boys. You’re so funny and real. You have a lot of strength and I admire that about you. Addiction is rough, know all too well. Keep being strong. Fuck the rude comments addiction is a disease and you are doing the best you can with it and you are amazing. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@MC-ly8jc]

You should be SO proud! Ily Jessica

[@B_kinda]

Hey girl, just came across my rehab journal lol. It was rehab or prison and somehow I I ended up for 14 months in rehab. The facility I was in housed ladies that had just been released and 85% came with children or were pregnant. This was back in 2009. I’m glad I kept my stupid journal. I wish I could find some of the girls I’ve lost contact with. Ended up getting on methadone before I left because I would have to do a lot of time if I messed up with my probation officer. Methadone helped me out so much. I got off it in 2016 on St Patrick’s day. Relapsed a few months after my dad died passed away in the summer of 2018. So back on methadone since August of this year. Sucks. 34 and back to square one.

[@TheEverSerene]

Thanks for sharing this, Jess... as always. So much love to you, darling 💜💜💜

[@ronelwestenberg7494]

This is the BEST advice I will ever get "....if he doesn't wear a diaper-you cannot change him..." If nobody ever told you they are proud of you...just know I am. You go girl!!!

[@jennj2049]

It's so great that you did/are doing everything you wanted to. Amazing 💕

[@ravencrowder9988]

love it.. ride or die!! been waiting for these. hang strong!! you did everything you said you would and much more!! new year starting with queen bee jes.

[@aylaphelan9486]

Her energy cheers me up so much

[@RosaBarron19]

Jessica, oh my God girl! Thanks for my first cry of New Year! You’re such an inspiration.❤️

[@mariah-wu5hk]

Your videos are great to keep me up in the midnight doing my homework

[@metalface9630]

Year of Visionaries , focus and clarity *20/20* 😎✌️🏼

[@elizabethgregory]

Yes girl!! So proud of you!!

[@DonnelleGriffin]

Thank you for sharing what you had done here. That was a lot of courage you had Jessica. 💜💜🙏😘

[@kenyavalencia3192]

*Me just getting out of work, just got my Uber eats delivered, put my daughter to sleep getting ready to watch your video* 🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖💖

[@madswozza]

Loving your prison/jail stories!! ❤️ from Australia