Detoxing In A Hotel | Relapsing | Story Time

[@christinaarandall]

Thank you for always being so open and honest girl. You are the epitome of strength. 🙏🏼💙

[@JessicaKent]

🙏🖤

[@rachelclarke9069]

Amen 🙏🏻 So proud of you girl! I know how hard it is but as Myka was your miracle baby, so was my son. If it wasn’t for him I’d be dead or in prison 😕 Funny how life works sometimes, I’m now 9 years sober! 😊 and there are still times I struggle I won’t lie, but keep being strong mama!!

[@TessMac]

As are you Christina. You’re both STRONG, beautiful badass mama’s! 🖤🙏🏻😘

[@lunaxbaby]

♥️♥️♥️

[@amber22431]

Love ya gurrrrrrl!! Shout out from Mobile, AL.

[@os01441]

Girl, you need a TED talk youre so inspiring, unbelievable

[@nicholaswalton4609]

Lmfao

[@christadelancy2012]

Ted talks usually have a theory and explain the theory. But I get what your saying, her words are moving.

[@Josiahsutton1]

@@christadelancy2012 some Ted talks people tell their stories. They are usually inspiration stories. She would be great for a Ted talk.

[@christadelancy2012]

Joss77 have you been in college ? What Ted talks do you have where there is just a story... And that was the main point of the Ted talk ? She tells a great story for sure, I just don't know if this is a TED talk. Maybe if she got into the pyschology behind addiction or talked about theoretical processes addicts can follow to maintain sobriety.

[@Josiahsutton1]

@@christadelancy2012 I'm in college currently. Look through the TED youtube channel. There is a story from a north korean refugee and there's one from a guy who was almost a school shooter and plenty others you just haven't seen them. Too be fair most TED talks are usually someone explaining a theory but there are a few personal stories you can find.

[@christinaarandall]

Omgosh Jessica 😭😭😭 I love you so much and wish I could hug you so big. 😭😭😭😭😭

[@juliareisig1358]

I went 16 months totally sober. and now I've relapsed on meth. so it really hit me when you said if theres a pulse in my body there's hope for sobriety. I'm just gonna get right back at it

[@sahilrizvi6583]

Hows it going

[@Adnapac]

You got this, keep going.

[@LuMichelini]

Try your best!

[@DestinyRodgers]

Don't give up. Keep trying

[@autumnmarie5014]

I really want to know how you are doing! I hope you stuck with this! Life is so beautiful! Way to beautiful to waste it away with drugs. Hope all is well!

[@meljstephan]

This level of openness about addiction is so necessary and important. Thank you

[@sinsinna9290]

that's wtf I'm sayn this shits powerful to me she will keep youh strong nd hardened to keep growing nd for me remaining sober .

[@dahliablack3999]

I can’t even count how many times I relapsed at about a month clean. This story really hits home. I’m about 4 months clean right now. These videos help.

[@Amanda-er6vb]

Chelsea Perez stay clean girl, if you did it for 4 months, you can do it for another four and so on. I’m pushing for you!

[@dahliablack3999]

Amanda : Thank you so much! I really appreciate the words of encouragement. Keep being a light in this world girl 🥰✨

[@FIBROMOM]

Keep it going girl, you got this! 💪💜

[@dahliablack3999]

Thank you all so much for the support. Your words really do help! 💜

[@jgirlbyootymua1097]

Chelsea Perez congrats girl! Keep pushing and keep your head... you got this... ❤️❤️❤️

[@brittanycarpenter2608]

"As long as there is a pulse in your body there is hope for sobriety" That really hit home for me. I am so proud of you Jess.

[@sadgab.]

BRITTANY CARPENTER what i don’t want to think about is the same goes for relapse 😰

[@magickaldust1213]

"Addiction doesn't care." I felt that.

[@geema2281]

I just came down to basically say the same thing. Addiction doesn't care. It's just that simple.

[@thedrunkenramblingsnorthea4201]

me too

[@bobbiechoffman]

It really doesn’t. I felt that so hard.

[@thecatearthsociety5335]

Addicts don't care, either. Especially about themselves or their future. It seems impossible right now to even imagine being sober. Inspiration angers me as much as criticism does. Our brains are just re-wired and every single door out of our addiction is not just closed, locked, but also booby-trapped. If you are sober -- good for you -- I know it doesn't feel like anyone really understands how hard it is, but some do. I do. It is a real life miracle and most humans will never have to face anything so hard.

[@janelane6258]

Being an addict literally in the bathtub trying to detox at home on my own for the first time...( not detoxing for the first time been an IV user for 10 years and have went through complete detox in jail many times in and out of treatment and outpatient services just never on my own cognizance) I'll tell you that only a few minutes into this video well I do commend her for actually rebuilding her life which I haven't been able to do long-term which for opiate addicts to do that long-term is an astounding only 4 to 6% recovery rate, I feel like she holds reservations and has trouble taking responsibility; i.e. I really meant it but addiction doesn't care... I only worked at the store I didn't steal the s*** I'm sure she was in on it. don't take it the wrong way just constructive criticism calling it as I see it. we have such a hard time recognizing around defaults when other people can see them so easily.

[@valb3759]

Having lost my husband, an addict, to suicide, you help me understand. It wasn't about me at all. He was fighting silently and never asked for help. I have been to Alanon meetings and found them somewhat helpful. Thank you for sharing

[@dannyj77dj]

Sorry for you loss Val xx

[@iligalvan]

I'm so so sorry about ur husband. God bless u

[@18BDM]

So sorry for your loss, Val. I hope you're doing ok.

[@djmurrell9054]

God bless you

[@DianeLynnPhoto]

Watching this literally made me sick to my stomach. I am an addict and I have been sober for 6 months. It has been the best and the worst time of my life. Luckily, I have not been in any legal trouble and I am working so hard to change my life. Thank you so much for this channel.

[@Buriichan]

If you're still clean, happy almost one year! If you're not, I hope you're still alive and remember to be safe and practice harm reduction, and I hope you make the effort to get clean again. You can do it, you're worth it, and you can be happy! Congratulations, hopefully. :) ❤

[@alondramulero5915]

Happy almost on year!! 💗 You should be proud!! ❤❤

[@DianeLynnPhoto]

@@alondramulero5915 thank you!!!

[@L._._]

I get sick to my stomach too reliving everything ! I have about 2 yrs now. Congrats on 1 keep it up!!!

[@megannoe2057]

Your now going on 2 years of sobriety! Keep going🖤

[@JessicaKent]

2 thumbs down already. Them haters got that notification bell on I see 😂💯

[@heathermachala7623]

I like to think of it as until you have haters you haven't"made it"and girl you have made it!!! Thankfully 95%of us LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!!!!

[@JessicaKent]

@@heathermachala7623 Oh for sure.

[@6ripx159]

Now it’s 1 thumbs down lol

[@presleywashington4549]

Yaaaasss

[@heathermachala7623]

@@JessicaKent this video hit home hard!! But it made me feel not so alone!! Ty Jess...you are an 👼

[@briannadavey9910]

Sick and tired of being sick and tired... my sober date is 12/09/2019

[@madisons7892]

Brianna Davey stay up!

[@ralphduran8557]

Good for you cant wait till i can say that but im working on it i will be giving my testimony here real soon

[@briannadavey9910]

Ralph Duran you got this!! I wish you the best of luck. It’s hard real hard but you can do it. I know it’s hard but detox and further treatment worked for me

[@briannadavey9910]

madison sherwood thank you hunny

[@briannadavey9910]

rumpleforeskin73 I fell off so many times it’s a part of recovery but I’ll keep pushing , I been struggling with drug dreams lately which sucks but I know I’ll get thru it

[@ileanek4565]

Slightly unrelated to the topic, but I love it when you make small talk in the beginning of your videos. It feels like a nice, chill intro, not like rambling. I don't find it annoying at all.

[@annemarieleunissen7742]

Me too

[@redshift912]

I find it very annoying

[@lkey591]

With tears in my eyes, I’m thanking God that none of my kids or grandkids have dealt with this sickness. I’m SO proud of you! I just want to hug you (in a grandma’s way).❤️

[@BabvBlues]

Wow this took me on a rollercoaster of emotions, I felt like I was you when you told the story

[@coryrachel8972]

Omg IKR

[@brittanymyers8829]

My sister lost her battle with addiction in March, and I so wish she could have gotten sober. Not just for her, but for her two boys she left behind. I hope this video reaches someone and helps them get the help they need.

[@yespls6260]

I'm sorry 😔 you tried your best to support your sister and she knew that-- she was not a bad person for struggling. Don't blame yourself. You are probably a great aunt to those boys and they're lucky to have you

[@indieme7633]

Someone out there needed to hear this today. You’re gonna save lives. My daughter has been addicted to H for years now. She is 22.

[@KittyKittyBangBang249]

Gawd, I’m very sorry to hear that. I really hope she gets better. So damn young. You two will be in my prayers... for real

[@indieme7633]

Kim Bolina thanks. I really appreciate it.

[@divinaa998]

My an heroin addict in recovery I'm sorry for all what you going through with your daughter we don't enjoy getting high in some point is just to don't be sick and don't feel pain I hope your daughter get out of that hell

[@danithefiend6167]

My heart goes out to you. My sister is currently using heroin. Im recovering from it. Its soul shattering. My heart is with you.

[@palladium607]

I have 4 kids and them being addicted to drugs is one of my greatest fears. I am so sorry for what you are going through.

[@kylies3160]

THIS is drug deterrent.. not the DARE program.

[@brandondrake14]

Jess, I mean this with total sincerity and as a compliment: You have the charisma, articulation and looks to be a successful actress in tv and or films. You have a lot of potential to do a lot of things!

[@123sleepygamer]

I agree! Pretty, smart and well spoken! Great storyteller. She is fit for the media industry for sure!

[@jadeeey1]

“i feel like addicts always make that promise and not that we don’t mean it i think alot of times we mean it” damn that spoke to my soul. 💛

[@AngelMary]

Yes it did. Was saying it with her. Nobody gets it unless you've been through it. :(

[@heighton7206]

Amen

[@jadeeey1]

so true. we really do mean it when we promise and say it’s the last time as crazy as that sounds even when we’ve promised it a thousand times before.

[@reolynn4611]

This helped me understand my sister she has said it to us and we use to get mad but I understand more she has been clean for a couple months now this time. I have learned to just to be there when she needs us

[@KittyKittyBangBang249]

We do mean it. We can’t even figure out why we go right back and forget about every promise we’ve made

[@QuadrexJosh]

Respect, I'm detoxing off of meds and alcohol on my own. Wish me luck.

[@JessicaKent]

Hey homie!!!! Haven't seen you here for awhile 🖤🖤 I'm so proud of you for detoxing but if it gets bad please seek medical attention 🙏🖤

[@QuadrexJosh]

@@JessicaKent Thank you, I am waiting for doctors appointment on Monday, the medical help here is very bad right now. Apologies I haven't been around much. Great to see you doing so well. Very courageous of you to share all this. Hope you feel better soon 👊🏻

[@JessicaKent]

Keep me posted! My email is [e-mail] 🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@QuadrexJosh]

@@JessicaKent Thank you! 🙏🏻

[@ryanramsey9621]

Bro my best aunt was a registered nurse for over 30 years. She was also a functional alcoholic until she went to work so drunk her colleagues thought she had dementia. When she stopped drinking she HAD to be given Ativan generic name is Lorazepam. It helps you not have a seizure for alcohol withdrawal. If you get the shakes too bad go to the doctor because you can die from alcohol withdrawl. Its way more dangerous than coming off any dope. I know this first hand. Some hospitals also taper people off alcolol with actual intravenous drip of straight grain alcohol. Good luck.

[@ashleyholstein293]

You’re so strong Jess. I have literally watched all of your videos i was addicted to oxy 30s and I’ve been clean for 130 days tomorrow. You’re such an inspiration to me you have no idea. I found your channel in the beginning of me withdrawing it was meant to be. So i just am so thankful for you and your channel and your family and honesty. You’re amazing girl! Stay safe stay sober ❤️❤️

[@JessicaKent]

🙏🖤 You're doing amazing!

[@ashley3461]

You're amazing too! Congrats, that's something to be proud of.

[@ashleyholstein293]

Ty so much beautiful! This video is so real. This is what withdrawal is truly like. Your messages are saving so many lives including mine. I’ve wanted to relapse so many times. But watching you shows me miracles happen and we don’t need drugs to get by. Sorry for the ramble i just truly felt your words so much especially with the detoxing. I’m now on probation bc i was shoplifting while using and got caught but I’m staying on the right path ❤️ I’m so happy you replied bc i thought for sure i was going to jail but somehow i got lucky with probation. God bless you girl

[@er1ns]

Ashley Wilson stay strong Ashley... you’ve got this!

[@beckabelle5927]

You got this girl 💪💖 I care about you ☺️

[@laurenmontine]

I was addicted to h and i’ve been sober since 01/14/2020. it’s been the hardest thing i’ve ever been through😩

[@alondramulero5915]

Congrats on your time being sober!! I realised after watching all of Jessica's video about addiction and reading a couple comments, addiction and recovery are no joke! I'm proud of you for being clean for almost 3 months 💝 i know you can do this!! Sending you lots of love and wishing you happiness in life 💝

[@vanessafelix7347]

Happy 5 months, queen!

[@MrsFawncyPawnts]

Happy 7 months

[@blackthunder7342]

Word up

[@luisgonzalez5374]

Relapse remember the feeling, just playing congrats

[@syriennahernandez5806]

Oh my god, I never knew that people struggling with addiction had to go through all that, my heart goes out to all of those struggling right now ❤️🙏🏼 you are a true survivor

[@Runeforged]

You know what the weirdest thing is? None of us really know why we do it. You can point to things like trauma or depression ect. Sure those don’t help but that’s not the real reason. You just do it. You just HAVE to do it. It’s not even a decision really… that’s why quitting is so god damn hard.

[@TheOnlyCoachOfficial]

These feels had me crying. Still sober since we’ve talked, keep being you - you are loved & saving lives. 🖤

[@beckabelle5927]

Proud of you ❤️ ik you don't know me, but I care about you! Keep keeping on ☺️

[@cailin5309]

Everyday is something to be proud of & they add up quick. Just let it happen 💜

[@blackdemins42910]

Praying 🙏🏻you got this 💯 One day step at a time 👏🏻❤️

[@paulhoskins7852]

Stay sober!! Congrats! So happy for you!!

[@alexandralynn186]

I don't know you. I don't know how I stumbled upon this channel but I'm so proud of you

[@morganhough1022]

"As long as there is a pulse in your body, there is still hope for sobriety" ❤❤❤

[@jaymerosebrethour3371]

I really wish I could watch these without getting flashbacks. I’m clean off heroin and fentenayl and it has been the hardest part of my life beside loosing my mom. The high is so amazing for such a horrible cost. Thank you for spreading awareness and showing people an addict can be just your regular girl. ❤️

[@Sophia-wz9qf]

Detoxing cold turkey around people who don't understand what your going through is really tough. Detoxing alone is really tough. Detoxing period is tough. Your stories hit so close to home. This story was a good reminder to me of why I'm sober. Thanks for sharing Jess! ❤

[@taazhiiprime5408]

I had no idea detox was weeks to months! That's a real eye opener and realization to help others even more! Thanks Jess!!

[@xoanastasia1960]

I understand this 1000% it’s crazy how us addicts have a strong connection with eachother without even knowing eachother ❤️

[@karlah8919]

It’s the drugs that do the talking when you relapse & you become almost like a witness, kidnapped in your own body, helplessly watching them destroy you. SO proud of you, girl. Thank you for sharing your stories with us, even the tough ones 😞. They made you who you are today & that’s a damn warrior. ✊🏻❤️ You are such an inspiration.

[@djlopez33]

this is going to sound a little odd. but every now and then i think about this video and come back to watch it again. it’s one of your most raw and candid videos you’ve done and i love it. i also relate to it in such multiple ways. love ya Jessica xo ❤

[@amstel5468]

You're ready when you're ready. You have to keep trying, I walked out of Detox 28 times and felt POWERLESS to prevent a relapse. On the 29th attempt I was able to get through that first week out by hanging with my children and little by little I took the power back. 9 months clean August 1st!!! NEVER GIVE UP ✊

[@AR-do2ob]

Wow

[@brandiecrisp8385]

I have 17 years clean. Everyday is a gift, and I remember so vividly what those old days were like. Thank you for sharing your experience so eloquently - you have worked so hard and I am so happy for you!

[@roserouthier4814]

From one female recovering heroin addict to another, we never ever want this life on purpose, we always want to get better....be strong and I hope the rest of your life is drug free and happy

[@leoni-jane6518]

I’m 21, 6 months clean off h but the struggle is still real. Much loves 💜

[@kelly1827]

Congratulations on having 6 months! Stay on track!

[@leoni-jane6518]

Cat Sweeney thank you 😊

[@leoni-jane6518]

kelly1827 thank-you 😊

[@JessicaKent]

🔥🖤

[@ivantheterriblepart3]

Congrats on 6months!!! I just wanna give you heads up that I always relapsed at 6months. I don’t know what it is. Now this is just me everyone is different. Whatever you do don’t stop doing whatever it is that is helping stay clean. Keep doing it. Also your still young girl, you can do this! You caught it young “got help young.” You can do it! I lost a lot!!! I never finished college I love my car, job, etc.. I’ll pray for you just keep doing what is working for you :)

[@kadyhopkins5099]

Literally cried my EYES out at this... been sober for years now and this kind of thing always feels like it was just yesterday.

[@nicolegarcia1192]

As a future healthcare provider, I think it is incredible that you give so much of yourself by sharing your story in order to help others both in the struggle and those having to see their loved ones struggle.

[@JessicaKent]

I really appreciate that! Ty 🖤🙏

[@invisiblekid7374]

I have to comment on this video. I just recently started watching your videos just randomly one night. I'm a struggling addict, and this video shook me to the core. Everything you mentioned about going through the detox, not even just being sick, but all the emotions you were feeling, and the pain you felt going through it. I empathize with you so much because I have felt every one of those emotions, and know exactly how you felt. Even about struggling for weeks to detox and then going right back at it. I feel so alone sometimes because you are correct when you say that people don't understand what you are doing. Alot of people gave up on me. It was nice to see someone else that has felt the same feelings as me and I'm not alone in this. I really don't have anyone to talk to about anything and have been bottling everything up for far too long now. I just wanted to comment and say thank you for the video, and let you know how much this video got to me!!!

[@krystaj944]

Michael Frankowski Jessica please read this comment....

[@eej1983able]

Sending you hugs, Michael! Prayers for you, too! You're never alone.

[@uncommon-commonsense]

I'm 2yrs sober. If you ever need to talk tag me or something and I'll respond.

[@slowdiver5732]

Hi Michael, I’m in the same boat. I went through 2 traumatic withdrawal episodes last year and they haunt me to this day. I’m still not sober and most nights I lie awake with severe anxiety over this problem, my problem. When will I be free from the slavery of addiction? Will I have to go through those withdrawals again. It’s inevitable and I’m terrified. My loved ones don’t understand either. I’m good at hiding it an pretending to be a normal functioning member of society at my job and other places that require a front of normalcy. But I feel this won’t last forever and will get harder and harder to carry on. I’m scared. You’re not alone. Let me know if you need a friend to talk to. ❤️

[@krakwhorznkandy]

I felt every moment of this story girl. 7 years clean off dope on June 4th for me and this brought up a lot of emotions . Thanks so much for sharing your story, you're great!!

[@sgtblackrock4997]

That belly full of snakes was what always got me. Caused me to relapse every time. 13 years clean btw. Gotta want it.

[@Dell19711]

Caught your channel for the first time with this video, almost three years sober for me, when ever the thought of relapse enters my mind I think of the hell that is detox and the misery of that broken promise we addicts make "This time it's for real" , keeps me clean. You are a very worthy spokesperson for recovery. New sub here.

[@chrisurlacher1830]

My withdrawal symptoms lasted I swear for a month I hate when I hear someone say or a few days & your good to go !!!! Ugh I feel sick thinking about it. And the depression is HORRID

[@chrisclizzle5189]

I totally agree..it lasts alot longer than a week.

[@chrisurlacher1830]

Chris Clizzle I must just be unlucky I swear it was about a month

[@chrisclizzle5189]

@@chrisurlacher1830 i definitely believe u! The anxiety and depression are horrible too along with the physical shit. Ugghhh. I hate even thinking about it, its a total nightmare!😢😭

[@shahab814]

people don't realize that post withdrawal that will last about 14 months.

[@MF81the1st]

I totally agree too! Well, okay, the most horrid symptoms are over after two weeks or so, but it always took me weeks until months in addition to sleep normal at night and to be ( physically) symptom free.

[@Rtytanicj]

Cried through this video Jes. I am so so so so so so beyond proud of you. I felt this video so much. I have 5 years at the end of this month. Couldn’t be more proud of you. 💜💙💜💙

[@alyssahollingsworth1931]

My dad had a cocaine OD and died awhile ago. It’s nice to watch these videos so that I can understand why he did what he did. It helps me to not be angry or harbor bad feelings. Thank you! You are awesome 💖💖❤️

[@WayOutHere]

I feel like you’ve already come a long way on KZbin. You’re opening up so much. I know you’re gonna help tons of people. Keep going, girl

[@LilChivo22]

I got out of treatment on January 1st 2022 and I’ve been clean from alcohol and fentanyl. And my worst day sober is better than my best day loaded! Your videos give me motivation, thanks for posting and being so open, I love your channel so much! Keep it up!

[@brittbrat4977]

Hey Jess! Detoxing is a biiiiitch 😫 but it's a cake walk compared to getting "clean"... staying clean. Ppl don't realize the drugs, the high, it's only a fraction of the monster. The lifestyle, the repetition, the cycle, the triggers, the company you surround yourself with, that's the hardest to change. Changing your whole world, finding out who you are, loving yourself and accepting that what's done is done and you can only change what's in front of you and what you do going forward. Keeping busy!!! I see alot of ppl try to get straight and then dwell on relapse or dwell on the fact ppl are still mad at them and don't trust them and then they just fall weak to it and go right back to using. All you can do is focus on YOU. All you can control is YOU and the decisions you make going forward. It's not easy and there's going to be many days where you're overwhelmed and feel defeated and just wanna give up. The urges are always going to be there too. Hello! We're addicts! But what you put in is what you get out. Learning to love yourself and keeping things simple is key. One day at a time ❤️ Thanks for sharing

[@Maria-je8fe]

Watching this gave me chills and flash backs. I've been sober for 1 year and 6months. After many relapses and lies to myself and others I finally started fighting. I feel you and all the pain. The struggle is 100% real. I'm so glad you got sober and speaking the truth! I feel the love and support from you!❤

[@nancypaclibar3257]

My ex is addicted to meth. I've tried to help him so many times because we have a child together. But, until he wants sobriety, there's nothing I can do to help him. I even got him a spot in rehab. He didn't go.

[@nancypaclibar3257]

@@HollyGolightly1976 my ex and I haven't been together for 16 years. Our son just turned 17. He knows about his dad's addiction and it's really hard on him. I have known my ex since I was 14. I'm 36 now. He did not have a meth addiction when we were together, just a drinking problem and he smoked weed. I'm sorry you have to go through this. Take care of yourself first. An addict has to choose sobriety their self. Cant force it. Take care.

[@HollyGolightly1976]

ItsmeIceCreamGirl 235 Same! My Ex only smoked weed. He didn’t start using Meth until about 5-6 years ago shortly after he started a new job in a factory where just about all the male employees use it or H or both. Not to mention the dealer even works there. He takes his paycheck along with several other guys paychecks every payday!! I can completely understand your pain, it’s awful 😥. I will keep you and yours in my thoughts. One last thing, and you don’t need to reply if you’re busy or if you are unsure but someone at a rehab I called a long while back told me there are no medical detox places for Meth users. She acted like there really weren’t many options at all other than the user just going cold turkey and going to some kind of NA or outpatient therapy meetings. Have they developed or are there some type of medical detox’s for Meth addicts?

[@nancypaclibar3257]

@@HollyGolightly1976 I'm in South Carolina and there is here. I think I just called around to our state funding programs. He had to call and do the over the phone assessment his self. He said he did but the didn't have a bed ready for him. Which, I didn't believe. I hope your love one can get clean.

[@HollyGolightly1976]

@ItsmeIceCreamGirl 235 🙏 😊

[@NStreit04]

Hi there- I’m so sorry to hear about your loved one’s addiction. I have a long history of having to quit drugs. I’ve cold turkied meth three times, cold turkied heroin, cold turkied cocaine, and now I’m currently tapering kratom. The info you got about stimulant detox is correct. There is not physical need for a medically supervised stimulant detox unless the person has some other health condition that needs to be monitored along with it. But there are plenty of rehabs for people who used stimulants. A stimulant user can benefit from an institutional environment, because essentially they are locked inside and can’t go score again. But they don’t actually need medical supervison. Benzo and alcohol withdrawal can kill a person and it requires medical supervision. Opiate/opioid withdrawal doesn’t really need medical supervision but the detox is so horrible that many people will want medical supervision so they can get the comfort meds. Stimulant withdrawal really isn’t that bad, you’re cranky as hell, agitated, very depressed w/ mood swings, make reckless decisions, you have a ravenous appetite, and you sleep it off. Stimulants are the easiest “fun” drugs to quit by far. I’m sharing this info because there are many predatory institutions out there who take advantage of desperate families who want to see their loved ones get off drugs and off the streets. I think it’s important to consider that, for quitting stimulants, a free trip to the mountains will get you the same effect that you get from paying 20k to an institution- that you’re physically removed from the harmful environment and unable to source your drug of choice. Good luck

[@kareemaafteraddiction8965]

I’ve watched this story four times now and every time it’s just as sad for me...you make me wanna cry at so many points but especially when your boss says she’s proud of you...I know that feeling...

[@outernationalstudios]

I have been through this exact thing minus a few details myself... I have never heard anyone be so honest about how it feels. I am 4 years in recovery now- you are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

[@ShannonsChannelURL84]

You help me stay sober! Hearing about your detox and being able to relate 110% makes me re-realize that I never wanna feel like that again and nothing is worth it and now I am crying because I’m sober and happy and I never thought that would happen

[@nikkiweber6000]

Thank you for sharing your testimony...I'm an addict.. unfortunately 25 years many rehabs and I forced myself to watch this...part of it was my addiction craving just to hear about drugs, and I end feeling as I'm not alone..and you are strong...♥️

[@lizlee3487]

I’m a month and a half clean, one of the hardest things I’ve ever done but your stories have helped me so much and everyday I push harder to make my life better and turn it around. Seeing your success makes me confident I can get better and beat this. 💕

[@brittthoffmann]

im proud of you!!!

[@DevonDua]

I wanted to thank you for this. Such a reminder of the darkest times... going sober for 5 years now. Thank you you for reminding us WHY.

[@jebjim9391]

You are so strong not only for moving out of that life but for posting this for every one to see. You are an incredible, powerful person who deserves so much respect !!!

[@Mrs.Baker8198]

Everything you went through, felt, did…. I’ve been in those exact same spots over and over again. Exact same story just different people, different states, different jobs. You are so strong and so inspiring. Thank you for telling your story bc it gives a (now) sober mama hope to watch you to continue to succeed!

[@PoopyStinkerson]

Jess I wasn't going to do drugs before listening to this, now I extra don't want to do drugs.

[@chicofromph33nix64]

You are on the right path.. GOOD JOB JESS....!!

[@rachael5489]

Good thats the point

[@PoopyStinkerson]

Please read my comment carefully. I am not into drugs. Now I am extra not into drugs.

[@PoopyStinkerson]

@AL _ please read more carefully

[@willarooo]

@@PoopyStinkerson i find it funny how many people think you do drugs lol

[@제임스-x1y]

this broke my heart, you're the strongest person x

[@chargers1fan]

I watch your videos because I see myself in a lot of them. This one has me crying and wanting to be sober. Thanks for telling your story.

[@cencoast_7.340]

Dad's don't get sick days either, not just mom's. We are out there holding it down.

[@andreaturnquist4855]

I am an alcoholic and my son is being raised by his dad. Kudos!!

[@jennydoucette2538]

i love your raw vulnerability and honesty. i am an alcoholic and have experienced intermittenr and drastic withdrawals as well as nasty bodily functions that just dont seem to stop, esp after you quit drinking. my body put up a big stink, literally and figuratively. and yess, me too, after i thought i was home free after all that, i turned on a dime. God bless you Jess! keep up the good fight and fuck everyone who doesnt understand!

[@Skippityloo]

I lost one of my best friends back in September of this year to addiction. it’s so excurtiating knowing the pain she silently went through. the loss of her has been detrimental, i don’t think she fully understood how loved and important she is to me and her family. my heart goes out to you and every addict on this planet. you are so strong and im so grateful you survived ♥️ your story is so so important, i can’t stress that enough. thank you♥️

[@raraavis7782]

Oh man. I almost cried myself, when you relapsed just when the worst was over. It’s true...I can’t really understand detox, never having been addicted to drugs...but I sure can understand, how you felt about that.

[@reganmcanear7684]

Same

[@TheSeamJimi]

That look in her eyes, as if through the camera and my screen. "I'm so proud of you". Straight to my heart like she genuinely knows my own story. I'm in awe of her compassion and warmth, and how her words are like a hand she reaches to rest on my shoulder.

[@martinp6926]

I never realised how long it takes to detox. It sounds really rough. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@iloveyewtewbs]

Thank you for sharing. I could tell that this was a very difficult story for you to re-live. You are so strong and amazing and a light for so many people who are in the midst of this right now or just coming out of it. I myself have over a decade clean and for years now I wanted to step out and tell my story but I haven’t had the courage to do it. I think that you’re slowly helping to build that up in me. ♥️

[@andrewmcvay5718]

You have no idea how powerful your testimony is - bawled through most of it. Crying so hard I can’t catch my breath. Thank you. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us.

[@brittanyp9334]

The insomnia, hot/cold sweats, and restlessness is the worst! You are EXHAUSTED but can't sleep. You feel like you need to get up and move around because your body is so restless but you have no energy. You are EXHAUSTED and would do ANYTHING to just sleep it off but you can't. The minutes seem like hours. For some reason I had to pee a lot even though I was barely drinking anything. Just getting up to go to the bathroom was a struggle. I couldn't stand for more than 2minutes without feeling like I was going to collapse. Having the shits but also constipated because it's an opiate. And this goes on for AT LEAST 3 weeks. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I would rather die than go through that again.

[@Parpyduck]

Oh god and after the days on days of being awake at the end of your rope, the intense waking dreams. I had a lot of unsettling weird flights of fancy that I have no idea if I watched a bizarre movie/video while in that feverish exhaustion or my brain just made shit up (it's the latter) breaking under the stress.

[@3103-q6z]

‘you’re an inspiration’ that phrase gets passed round like it’s nothing a lot however, i truly mean it with you. your story is so heartbreaking. you’re a very strong person. your children are very lucky to have such an incredible role model

[@sylviascull1651]

I dont know how many times I had made it to the end of my withdrawals and relapsed. That feeling of defeat is almost as painful as the withdrawals. Thank you for sharing your story, people need to be less ignorant about the cold truth of drug addiction. A year and a half sober here.

[@lorenzoanzaldua2]

Thank you so much for making this video, I really really needed to hear this right now. I wasn't thinking clearly and I almost made a terrible mistake and it made me feel better just to hear from someone who understands just how hard it is. Seriously, Thank you

[@sunnyerienne]

"I cried out for help, nobody cared. The devil answered because God wasn't there " part of a poem I wrote when I relapsed after detoxing off meth . Jessica you are so , so strong and your story will inspire strength in all who hear it . Anybody out there who is clean, currently trying to get clean, or thinking about it - you can do this. You have the strength and the opportunity to live the most beautiful life . I have faith in you - we all do ❤

[@pannekoek20]

Oh wow 🙄🤚🏻 i love that part u wrote about your poem. Sounds like goof writing. Powerful

[@jasonyoung3070]

I did meth 3 years there is no physical withdraw

[@hippyamigo3]

Wow please tell the rest of your poem Sunny so realistic and relatable to so many people

[@kathrynblecka7250]

Jason Young She wasn’t coming off meth

[@gkarjala]

Sources say " Flu like syptoms for 3 to 7 days " First of all, that an understatement, and it's not exactly true. And it's only the beginning. Bless you, stay safe.

[@vee1537]

I’ve never been an addict, but I’ve seen and experienced friends who have been one. It’s scary and the people around you worry for your health and safety. To any addicts reading this, there is hope. Remember, even if you feel like you have no one, it’s quite the opposite, you have everyone. Surround yourself with good people who can help you, it is definitely worth it. Jess is so brave to share her story and this shows that sobriety is indeed possible, you just have to want it.

[@cailin5309]

The day will come for everyone when they stop saying “tomorrow will be different” & say “today will be different”

[@Laura-kl7vi]

You've been through so much. It's 1/2023 but I wanted to say that this helped me understand what it was like for my sister who detoxed, she went cold turkey and stayed clean.

[@kristimurray8142]

Jessica...I found your channel on here trying to get info from addicts from their perspective...I have a son who is now clean from heroin and meth, but has relapsed several times...I want to tell you how much your videos have helped me to see it thru an addicts eyes...I love my child w all that I am and I pray that this time will be the time that he is able to stay clean...he is surrounded by the best people and I am hopeful that he can stay on the path he is on..it is a living hell to have a child go thru this...Thank You for being so real, so caring....God Bless you on your journey...you are doing an amazing thing here...

[@deborahxayasith71]

I just stumbled onto your channel and as an ex addict (coming up on one year now) I just want to tell you that I appriciate you so much!!!! Thank you

[@sabrinarevette1676]

Just stumbled onto your videos and I can’t stop watching! Coming up on 2 years and there were so many relapses. I thought I was incapable of getting sober. I thought I was going to die being in active addition. I always say as long as there is air your lungs there is hope for recovery💕

[@darrekd]

You've probably helped secure my idea to build my channel. When I was freshly clean I told myself I can't not share the dark times I lived through. I honor your courage to share all these stories. Thanks for the inspiration. I'll be busy binge watching your shit 🙏

[@itsfromamovie]

The depression and the mental part of detoxing is one of the worst parts, I agree. God bless and thank you for sharing your story and keeping it up on KZbin! I bet this is helping so many people! ❤

[@shawnsmith4347]

I have chills all over because this is so real. The detox and going back out, over. And over. So glad we are both out of that cycle. And you described the detox pain so well that I practically FEEL IT! I want to say never again-one day at a time. Thanx for sharing what was obviously a super painful story.

[@Ralphie83]

I detoxed in a hotel 200 miles from home. That sucked hard, left after 48 hours and I have no idea how I managed that journey! Was 27 months clean but relapsed two weeks ago and havent craved since, although feel like it will happen again. Keep up the good fight everyone!

[@chrisjohn9758]

Holy shit this story is amazing. You've been through so much, hearing it makes me appreciate what I have, and when I'm in pain I always remember there's people who have gone through worse

[@empathysage5383]

ooh lemme go to dunkin’ to pick up my iced coffee and then i’ll be back to drink it while i watch this! i always watch your videos with my morning coffee, it’s a great way to begin a new day!

[@er1ns]

Empathy Sage got mine right here 🙋🏻‍♀️☕️

[@cassidyhoman]

Empathy Sage same I start my day with coffee, my heating pad, JESSiCA & Christina Randall lol♥️

[@sahilrizvi6583]

Where do you guys work at??

[@tcharleneedwards1953]

I have been watching you for about 2 weeks. And stumbled upon this storytime. This is by far one of the most raw and candid looks at detox and relapse. My story isnt at all like yours but it still speaks of falling down to get right back up again. And now I am in the fight to stop my maintenance. Its a personal choice and I just want to be free from all of it. So thank you for being that voice of strength and passion. It helps me as I keep reducing the amount of methadone I take which is way harder than I was told. So thanks again, Tye

[@Lena.Jones13]

Isn't it just, in the same place...

[@mariakeifer3431]

Hey Jessica, I just found your channel and I wanted to say thank you. I lost one of my best girlfriends to heroin and the lifestyle around it a little over two years ago. She was locked up in NY around 2016. Our other best friend has been clean for three years and she is now working to do online school and getting her life back on track. Somedays it feels really hopeless for her and as if the system was created for her to fail, however with time it’s getting better. Out of the three of us I was the one friend who just never fucked with hard drugs, so relating can be difficult for me. I just try to be there and help as much as I can. I sent her your channel and I know she will enjoy it. Any who, keep it up. What you are doing is super fantastic. Thanks again ❤️❤️

[@susand2802]

Have you reached out to your old boss to let him know how you’re doing now? 💙

[@andreaturnquist4855]

I was wondering that too!

[@ceIIardoor]

I'm wondering too!

[@jazmynleii2600]

'I just didn't wanna feel that anymore, I just didnt wanna feel that pain anymore' Jess that broke my heart watching you cry 😭 I felt like I have said those exact words time and time again. You have been through it huni and you're such a inspiration now girl 💖 It's easy to look at someone who's been clean and think 'whys it so easy for them' but truth is we dont see their struggle and I respect you so dam much for showing the nitty gritty ugly shit as well as the amazing life you can lead after addiction. This is the motivation us addicts need. Keep doing you girl. 💪

[@jazmynleii2600]

Must of edited this about 67 times 😂 I always get so anxious posting comments!

[@carynmartin6053]

I've tried to detox f2f heroine so many times before I got on methadone and then suboxone. If not for those substitutes, I would be dead. Thanks for sharing your story with us. You are so blessed

[@lknap6089]

This video brought chills to my spine and tears to my eyes. The amount of pain you felt, so have I. Stay strong and keep up the amazing work.

[@MayAllYourStarsAlign]

I lost my brother due to a H overdose and a year later my sister died May 22 of heart failure after getting very ill from a dirty needle. Hearing your story helps me to see their perspective. It also makes me hurt for them even more. I have so much guilt because my sister asked if I could take her in and I said no. She was in NC & I’m in Kansas. She was on parole & wasn’t able to leave her state. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@kristiegucciardo8194]

Ugh the leg pain 😫 and I know exactly what you mean by the smell. Detox sweat is such a distinct smell ugh

[@macncheese5701]

it smells like dead cat man.

[@macncheese5701]

Its fucking horrible

[@richdiscoveries]

I'm not even sure how I found this or even came across it, but God bless you. While I was never hooked on Heroin, I was on those goddamn pills for 9 years. Whether it was perks or OC's or methadone or just anything opiate I used approximately 9 years. One day I just realized enough was enough, packed my stuff and moved far away from all that. Went through detox on my own, got clean on my own. I continued to go to work everyday while going through it somehow but I did it. It took about a month and a half 2 months to start feeling normal again, but I'll never forget the first morning waking up and actually feeling somewhat decent. I've been clean 6 years now and while I still think about it everyday, I just think about what I went through all those years that's what keeps me clean. That and the fact that I have settled down and started a family, I need to be a parent now not a drug addict. I've never felt so good in my life and that's only because of what I've been through. Everyday clean still makes me feel better than the last, I know it's there everyday but you got this. God bless and thank you for sharing your story. I've also found that sharing my story with others helps me to feel and do better as well

[@theamazingamandasimpson5112]

I am literally CRYING MY EYES OUT!!! I am so thankful for Christina! If it wasnt for her videos I wouldnt have found your videos!! And this video is life-changing! When my youngest daughter was 14, she was kidnapped and put into human trafficking. While in this ring, they would (this is the first time I have ever written this and it's not easy) tie all the girls up, youngest was 9 years old, and shoot them up with H. I am so thankful, that after 9 months, and me doing a lot of the leg work! I found her!! I only got to be with her for a few hours before the FBI came and took her away to a safe house in south Florida. I never understood how severe withdrawals were.. This video was made straight from your heart and explained a lot of the behavior that I was getting from my daughter. Please dont ever stop doing what you are doing!! I want to share this with my daughter so bad, but I am not sure if it would trigger her.. BUT. thank you for sharing this. 💜💜

[@idkemily5544]

The Amazing Amanda Simpson thank god your daughter is back home. wishing you and her the best.

[@theamazingamandasimpson5112]

@@idkemily5544 awe!! Thank you soooo much. Merry Christmas to you and your family!! 🎄🎅🎄🎅

[@martarobledadecastanos776]

I’m so happy to know your daughter is safe now ❤️

[@daleschreyer1161]

Wow Jessica... this lets me know how little I know about addiction when youve gone through Hell for four - five weeks and just starting to come out and immediately dive back in... I cant imagine how strong addiction must be but your story is amazing... so glad youve come so far

[@smpx6]

As an addict who entered recovery 9 months ago and has relapsed a few times since then, this video meant a lot to me. Thank you Jessica, I love you.