I have bipolar I disorder and I am manic more often than depressed. It sounds awesome but it's very stressful and I go into psychosis with hallucinations and delusions. Hypomania might feel nice, but mixed hypomania and severe mania are both incredibly painful.
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
ah yes, i know people w bipolar 1 and have heard and seen the manic episodes can be narly. hope you’ve found something that helps or are hopeful to find something, im still on the search for what works for me.
@gialouise000879 ай бұрын
it’s also so annoying because it’s almost like my sub conscious is like i don’t want to help myself not have mania that often because some of my best ideas have come out of mania it’s so annoying it’s like why can i just be normal and creative
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
yeah i get that on a super real level. i think for a while i’ve been scared to try to fix it bc i don’t want to lose the creative side but i feel like once you are at a normal emotional level you can almost find that creativity more frequently and naturally rather than random bursts of energy and excitement. i feel like most people have a choice to turn it on, but when it comes to being mostly depressed bipolar person you don’t really have a huge choice when you’re that low. treatment is also not for everyone. i do a lot of self work to help me through the downs, but i’ve also been trying different medications. can’t say i’ve had much luck yet but im hopeful 🤍
@BeThouWhole5 ай бұрын
@@gialouise00087 does base level jusy feel bland and beige after hypomania?
@gialouise000875 ай бұрын
@@BeThouWhole kind of, it’s like weird and very disassociating
@Justafayze8 күн бұрын
@@gialouise00087 This! The dissociation is so prevelant!
@kailaa78027 күн бұрын
“Either way, we’re sick”, “everyone else is dumb” 😂 This is hilarious and sooo true. I love it!
@mundanejane3535 ай бұрын
The laugh I laugh when hypomanic. Its comes from the depths of my spirit for the stupidest of things. I try to do so much because I know a low is coming afterwards
@MoskviinOrder8 ай бұрын
Anyone else diagnosed with bi polar and became addicted to booze and other stimulants and then it makes the whole thing even more ridiculous
@pennygardner49713 ай бұрын
I have bipolar type 2 and I'm an addict. Not proud but not ashamed. Alot of ppl with bipolar or any mental diagnosis is more likely to have an addiction of something. It could be cigs , alcohol, weed, meth and many others.
@adorabasilwinterpock60352 ай бұрын
Alcohol is not a stimulant
@Jesse782 ай бұрын
@@adorabasilwinterpock6035you're right, it is a depressant, but it also lowers inhibitions which at least for me has caused me to make some pretty stupid decisions when drinking, both depressed and hypomanic
@michaelmarchei85392 ай бұрын
Suffered in addiction since 14 till 35 with no mental health diagnosis. After I got sober it was GAD up until 3 weeks ago when I got diagnosed with Bipolar, it’s been a shit show staying sober with a relapse every year on average because of overwhelm anxiety etc. now on the mend hopefully
@campiwarski83268 күн бұрын
Fuck yeah I have and it sucks ass
@BenjaminCarey-l2x9 ай бұрын
Hey man, I love you, the lord loves you:) You’re doing great even though you may not feel it. Your music and videos are a huge inspiration:) I am not diagnosed with being bipolar or depression. But I know how I feel. And it ain’t always good. I feel the pain of highs and lows ups and downs every day and it’s rough. I feel like I got no one to talk to. The only thing that’s been there through it all is God. So above all I encourage you to keep doing what you’re doing, music etc.
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
i appreciate the kind words friend. im glad to inspire and also be inspired by people like you and comments like this. so happy you have an outlet in God
@morrison229 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your day. I feel the same at times. Ups and downs. It’s a vicious cycle. Ohhh. New song title, perhaps. Vicious Cycle. Has a nice ring to it…
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
thanks for enjoying & encouraging. & heck ya some free inspo
@Mimikyu_84 күн бұрын
lol as i'm reading this at almost 4 am while I'm like going through and coming down from a hypomanic episode seeing this makes me feel better. Bc I do be like this (especially right now) and yeah I should go take my meds, write in my journal about everything so I can tell it to my therapist at our next session and then go to bed. But seeing this does make me feel good that I'm not alone in this and like I do notice when I have my highs and lows even if I'm not sure or feel like I'm just overreacting and making shit up. And it makes me feel good that my psychiatrist and therapist have been helping me get better about managing it and it actually has been helping me if I can be mindful about all of it. I think I might take tomorrow off too to make time for myself bc I haven't been and I know it's making my brain worse. So yeah thanks for posting your experience this was helpful! ☺
@reuben81409 ай бұрын
Interesting hearing your thoughts on wanting to utilise the efficiency and drive during mania, I always liked how Homeland explored that
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
not always the case for everyone, but yes my highs often tend to be very productive but sometimes destructively so. sometimes can be not good at all though just depends
@Justafayze8 күн бұрын
holy moly the accuracy of what youre describing. The feeling on top of the world and wanting to do everything all at once lmao Just went through this, I said " its not bipolar, I just figured out what was wrong with me, its just my thoughts that are causing these drops in my emotions that are killing the high!" And to be fair, that part was true, but the level of tiredness/fatigue is out of this world and not normal compared to the energy I had just 3 days prior.
@SantiChancy9 ай бұрын
hello, friend. I am 22 and was recently diagnosed with bipolar type 2. Like you, I am struggling to find the right medication to deal with this. So far it has been very frustrating. However, I feel less lonely when I hear experiences like yours. Thx for sharing. Greetings from Argentina :)
@ReaganBeem9 ай бұрын
hi friend! im glad this is something you can resonate with. im starting on lithium in a few days, we’ll see how it goes. wish you the best on your path to better mental health
@SantiChancy9 ай бұрын
@@ReaganBeem ❤️💪🏻
@jessicasuzanne___3 ай бұрын
I have bipolar type 2 as well and it gets very overwhelming at times. when I'm manic I normally stay up really late and don't sleep til the afternoon/ I talk quite fast, my thoughts race like crazy (then again I always talk like that) and then the depressive episodes hit only for the cycle to happen all over again
@BeThouWhole5 ай бұрын
Ugggh. I just met someone Im going to be interacting with a bit over the next few months and I decided to research Bipolar II because I wanted to unserstand him. Ive never really looked into it before. I am listening to all these experiences just to realize these are my experiences. I dont know what to do with this.
@shearavina7 ай бұрын
i was diagnosed of ocd comorbid with bipolar ii 2 years ago at the age of 15 but funny thing, i only knew about it exactly 1 week ago. i basically forced myself to parents to get the psychological report that was ready for release 2 years ago. but bcs of my age, they seem to underestimate my situation. i anticipated that i would be diagnosed with ocd but i didnt think i would be officially diagnosed with bp2 as well. up until now, i am convinced that it was a misdiagnosis. tho make sense but idk, i cant seem to accept it bcs of the stigma that surrounds bipolar disorder. ive been down for a month, if not months, im too sensitive. i thought this feeling naturally comes with ocd. im so confused.
@zanejager41728 ай бұрын
I got it too. The ups make everything feel like sex and the downs makes you wan't to murder the people you hear laughing and having a good time without you.
@RobbW-ay2 ай бұрын
I’m with you dude in some ways. I’m not sure I’m bipolar but some of the symptoms make sense to it. I started seeing my current psychiatrist in July of 2024. When he saw me for the first time I was in an emotional wreck and I think I was delusional as well. He put me on Caplyta. Been in it now for a few months is November of 2024. Is helping with something for sure. I also have OCD with intrusive thoughts. I told him the symptoms and he tried me on Prozac. That put me in hypo mania. It was then that I looked back on my life and it made sense and thought maybe I am bipolar type 2. Now I’m still not sure. I believe I’m ADHD as well. The one thing I’m positive about is OCD and I have definitely had symptoms of bipolar. What counts though according to my psych and it makes sense to me odd reading the symptoms. Now worried about a diagnosis just yet. It is a challenge in life though. Keep on keeping on and just treat the symptoms. I haven’t been doing the therapeutic part but I realize it’s a component that is really needed. There is also a spiritual component that is needed. Thank you for sharing your day with us and your story.
@songbird23353 ай бұрын
"im bipolar, heh!". Best part! Im hypomanic currently and im on 3 mights no sleep.....im so open about my disorder too...no shame here!!
@Fishisthe13 ай бұрын
Thank you for your transparency. You help people like me that read the comments. ❤
@ShadyPlatinum7776 ай бұрын
The highs are like being high
@danait75715 күн бұрын
The highs make me feel like I have the answers to life.
@woofenme15968 ай бұрын
Reagan! Thank you for sharing your life, story and living your truth! We ALL have mental health and folks seem to forget that, and as physical, emotional and spiritual health, mental health is a part of our whole self. It needs to be exercised, nurtured, fed and lived! Keep taking care of you, and thanks again for sharing. Dancing A Round My Problems is a great song entirely and I have shared with s but of friends! Best to you and yours all ways! Geoff from Maine.
@Kriti20246 ай бұрын
You need to sleep. Maintaining a regular sleep-wake cycle is really really really important.
@MsKITCATTY2 ай бұрын
I take medicine for it, but have never had therapy. Is it very helpful? I also have ADHD. I've been like this for years and years. I'm now 60 y.o., but not in my brain I'm not! Lol😝
@Faithmadelegacy3 ай бұрын
Thx for sharing. Im bipolar too… i subscribed 😊
@gialouise000879 ай бұрын
this is so real thank you for sharing
@柠梦檬14 күн бұрын
When I’m depressed, everyone distances themselves from me. When I’m happy, everyone is drawn to me. Tell me it’s not an illness, but my charm. I understand the pattern, which is why I feel lonely. I hope someone loves all of me and understands it. But you have a driver's license and can drive. If I report it to the community, I won’t be able to get a driver’s license. We are from different countries
@elliewilliams5664 ай бұрын
What if I don’t have bipolar but I have a couple of these episodes..? 😅
@Aj14x24 күн бұрын
How did you feel when you felt the low at work ? I mean how did you feel about yourself ?
@CalMili-x9l3 ай бұрын
Take care of yourself baby ❤😊
@MsKITCATTY2 ай бұрын
Spot on. This is me!!
@yourPru7 ай бұрын
I don’t think this is bipolar man, I think it’s something else but I’m yet to put my finger on it.. I hope I will find out what’s the deal sooner than later.. keep us posted tho, thnx 🤙🏼
@elliewilliams5664 ай бұрын
What are you thinking..?
@elliewilliams5664 ай бұрын
How r u that rapid cycling? I thought bipolar was for longer periods?
@pennygardner49713 ай бұрын
I have bipolar type 2 but I have more of the depression and along with paranoia/ delusions. So many ppl with bipolar experience different symptoms. There are others that has rapid cycles . For instance others can wake up feeling like it's going to be a great day and that they are going to accomplish so many things in one day but all of a sudden depression can kick In , maybe an hr or 2 or could be later that night. Then you could wake up the next morning and starts all over again. Also some ppl could laugh and cry at the same time. That has happened to me. And some ppl could be happy and laugh and then just like that start crying afterwards. Bipolar is dangerous no matter if it's bipolar 1 bipolar 2 or unipolar. But rapid cycling is the most dangerous cause you don't expect what mood hits and you could go into deep depression and have suicidal thoughts or actual suicide attempts. Or go into mania/ hypomania and decide to be a daredevil and be like hey there is a cliff let's go jump off it would be fun. Some ppl can go into real bad mania and think it would be funny to drive down the road Into incoming traffic. Manics like to take dangerous risks. Not all manics but some. Sorry for the long comment.
@yourPru7 ай бұрын
you are manic; chill!
@lililiilililililil5797 ай бұрын
Hey there, current MD student who has worked with multiple registered psychologists in the past and present! I am not here to invalidate you, your symptoms, or your diagnoses, this is just my opinion. Bipolar is commonly misdiagnosed and from what you are sharing in this video and in your comments (of course there's probably a lot more you prefer not to which is understandable), it seems like, in my opinion based on my experience and research in these cases, that you may have more than just Bipolar and if not, then it is likely your psychiatrist diagnosed you with the wrong disorder (there are several conditions that look like bipolar which has led to patients like you who do struggle with mental health to be misdiagnosed)
@rbly3845 ай бұрын
what are some example conditions that are similar/ look like bipolar?
@alaynaceline115 ай бұрын
@rbly384 as far as i know, adhd and borderline personality disorder (BPD) can look very similar at times
@msbutterflyz4 ай бұрын
If you really are a student you show know this is a highly irresponsible comment.