recovering from a depressive episode | trying to feel better | getting back on track

[@alessyafarrugia]

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[@ziaxdxdxd]

@@alessyafarrugia definitely checking it out !

[@palviika8712]

Tears of joy are flowing, missed ya ale🌸🌸

[@ItsAsh4321]

YEESS! IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO POST QUEEN!!! I HOPE U FEEL BETTER ILYYYYY❤❤❤❤

[@Nanaa-t6u]

Clg?

[@courtneywickwire1302]

Hey Alessya!! I’m so happy u posted and got things back on track! I’m happy for you keep it up!

[@KillaBee716]

I love how raw and honest this is. Not some “aesthetically” self care on steroids video.

[@ziaxdxdxd]

Wake up y'all BIG SIS POSTED !! 🗣

[@naharifamily1650]

WAKE UPPP !! 🗣

[@Liliesxnotez]

FINALLYY 🗣️

[@Razz_el]

IVE BEEN WAITING!!!

[@AJLC_]

IM AWAKE IM AWAKE

[@Rahipatel1555]

Heyyyy I been waiting for years !!!!!!!!😂😂😂

[@kaylaslove]

Alessya let me tell you YOU ARE NOT ALONE Ive been depressed the whole summer (more like the whole year) I’ve basically been doing nothing except lay in bed, scroll, sleep, and eat. Very unusual for me since I love summer and it makes me happy but this time my depression got in the way. I thought summer would take my depression away but it didn’t.

[@MsJujubee3]

How old are you babe? How much time a day do you spend on your phone/social media?

[@kaylaslove]

@@MsJujubee3 I’m 16. When I’m not depressed im barely on my phone and I have a normal screen time 1-5 hours (usually because I keep my phone on when listening to music) but when I’m stuck in a depressive slump I’m practically all day on my phone. I know very well that’s it’s harmful but its really hard to have healthier habits when you’re depressed.

[@Clare-o-o-o]

I hope you get better.

[@Clare-o-o-o]

🩷

[@kaylaslove]

@@Clare-o-o-o thank you 💕

[@isabellaa8875]

And this is why I’m really glad that I’m taking school seriously because when I was not doing school, in my gap year I felt lost but free at the same time. But now that I’m in school, I feel pretty stable and have a routine. Even though it’s pretty lonely-ishh. At least I’m getting an education and I know that life after school is gonna be kind of empty a little bit but maybe it might not

[@palak8742]

Thank you for commenting this actually, I've been stuck in a weird place where I'm struggling to take my academics seriously and it inspires me to know that engaging with school is what's making someone's life better. I aspire to do the same.

[@zoeymeyer8254]

im currently taking my gap year and agree with you so much!! im a sucker for a good routine and not having it right is not helping my mental health at all😂

[@isabellaa8875]

@@palak8742yess, I’m telling you when I was working my retail job and going back to school. I really realize that school will always be a priority and just so much better. Working didn’t even matter anymore to me because I enjoyed what I was learning and the teachers. So maybe there might be something that sparks you again in school to not lose focus on the prize, which is the degree😏. Low-key I’m struggling to academically, but I gotta get my head in the game🫶

[@isabellaa8875]

@@zoeymeyer8254 yaa, I feel like life didn’t really pick up until I started school but I was just at home doing nothing and got alone can literally cause you to lose your mind by not socializing. Then seeing your friends with their life…. But again it’s better to know what you want then not knowing but at some point, you cannot wait any more longer you just got to go✌️

[@kathym322]

Exactly! And i am going to graduate on time as people my age! My friend i feel bad for her she cant do school this semester because she cant afford it but shes always bragging about getting expensive stuff so i think thats her sign to like.. stop yk. Anyway she has to wait to graduate and im most likely gonna be done before her😊😊

[@xogloria]

i'm 13 and I've had some really bad negative and suicidal thoughts this year. I feel like i have no one to talk to or someone that relates because I tend to bottle up my feelings and let it overflow when i'm in a bad state. Watching this video helped me to recover from my little 'episodes' and get my life back on track. new sub💗💗💗

[@KillaBee716]

Just know that even tho the communication isn’t always there, So many people love you. I know life seems hard but hang in there. With time things better💖 So many people battle depression but are too afraid to speak on it. Myself included

[@xogloria]

@@KillaBee716 Thank you smm

[@juliacarr5388]

you got this my love. don't give up on urself

[@yoni6773]

Hi! I totally understand what you’re feeling. Im 15 years old and im also dealing with suicidal thoughts sometimes. So I hope it helps to know youre not alone and that it wil eventually get better if you believe in it. I’ve been going to a therapist for the past couple weeks and its been really helping me so I always recommend it to people. If you want anyone to talk to, im always here. (Sorry for my bad english btw haha)

[@xogloria]

@@yoni6773 💕💕

[@arishasattar949]

Girl u deserve a raise to normalize acne with this glowy skin

[@fkirsten.]

omg u talking about overdoing your routine leading to burn outs made me realise that-that was happening to me as well. you really changed my perspective on how i do my routines, tysm for that omg.

[@applebottomjeans3648]

you're my comfort youtuber pls don't ever die

[@prettysahataratv2000]

Whoever is reading this : Your skin isn’t a paper don’t cut it Your body isn’t a book don’t judge it Your heart isn’t a door don’t lock it Your life isn’t a movie don’t end it You’re beautiful You’re handsome Be you

[@rosehassan]

1 YEAR CLEAN FROM SH FINALLY

[@fairyyquen]

@@rosehassancongrats !! you should be proud of yourself !

[@anabelmilojevic5076]

​@@rosehassanSooo proud of you!!! You're so strong be proud of yourself

[@AmeliaDayal]

​@@rosehassan keep going!! I believe in u

[@mriduldwivedi852]

✨✨✨

[@sharmanetwork]

what you showed and said here was so realistic and accurate, I go through the same issue of expecting myself to do the most and the thought itself stresses me out so much that I just don't do the bare minimum

[@maddiemcdowellx]

the timing of this is insane. this is just what i needed tysm 💗

[@exposury]

IM GLAD IT WASNT JUST ME DEPRESSED THIS SUMMER LOLL BUT I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING THESE PAST FEW MONTHS AND THIS VIDEO GAVE ME SO MUCH REASSURANCE YOU DONT EVEN KNOW

[@exposury]

why am i yelling

[@hayathashi7986]

😂😂

[@Aaliyah1909]

Same lowkey wasted away during summer regret it but can't change time just gotta perfect it for next year we got this 🤞

[@KillaBee716]

Ooooooooof I needed this sooooo bad. Crazy how this video found me as I was sitting, scrolling, anxious depressed, binge eating, stressed about school. Ugh thank you and everyone in these comments. I feel less alone

[@Soperlove19]

Omg me too 🥲

[@RozanaIsrat-ni7vl]

Girl i feel you

[@sabahatnaheed1435]

im depressed at the state of the affairs in this world. i cant believe how evil the world is getting.

[@yeahnah4303]

hijacking your comment to say: girl be careful about filming in your neighbourhood!

[@emilyanderson2963]

So very very true

[@lizhollingsworth4099]

Real

[@AMANDA_ALVELO]

it's true, but there still are kind and good people too. less but still there are them❤️‍🔥

[@hannahh9523]

Watching your videos I always admired the fact you looked like you had it all together. I admire you even more now. It takes a lot to admit and show imperfections being a perfectionist. Something about knowing that there are others out there that go through ruts brings comfort that you’re not going through it alone :)

[@siennatenis]

i love how shes transparent and doesnt be fake and shows that struggle is a part of life, as someone who has also had their struggles ik that it truly takes guts to admit it love you queen 🩷

[@superbad2007]

God, it feels so good to hear someone be in a slump! I've been out of school 8 months and finally went back for fall and recently, I've been having what I call pre class jitters. I'd be emotional id have anxiety attacks id just let my anxiety my ocd my depression come out and say all sorts of things because I'm nervous and yet I waited so long to join classes again. It feels great to know I'm not alone in a time I should be rejoicing

[@luv4her-n9l]

I assure you, I have never been more thrilled to see someone's post! Alessya, love you so much and I hope you are feeling much better both mentally and physically. xx 💕

[@emeraldstone48jdhhdhd38]

no because literally me lately so I'm literally getting my shit together this week because I've been way too depressed. Honestly your so fair and I'm so proud of you.

[@_peasant6317_]

Hey girl! Hope you're going well with getting your shit together!! ❤‍🔥

[@sle279]

this video is so comforting bc it's realistic

[@artemisjournaling]

i love how this is exactly how ive been lately. And ive been feeling so guilty. I always feel like everyone that tries to be better is doing so good except me. Honestly thank you for this

[@logandevereux5076]

Girl this was so relatable!!! I’m experiencing autistic loneliness and it’s been painful feeling like I’m a failure and that I’m not being as productive as my friends and family are! But I know I’m not alone and this video helped me so much, I’m sorry you’re not feeling the best but things will get better. I’ve learned that most of my depressive times teach me life lessons that help me go forward in life and become more of my true self. Love you lots 🥰🥰

[@pranayadhir1489]

i just searched on safari how to recover after being sick and literally opened youtube after that and saw pookie posted i mean the universe is on my side today thank you alessya❤️❤️❤️

[@taliah125]

im glad someone else relates to finding it hard to wake up early

[@AngelBlack-hg3bz]

This has been the most helpful video ive seen lately ive been going through a post travel depression and as someone who always wants to be doing EVERYTHING, this has been a wakeup call to try and take things at a pace my mind and soul can cope with right now... thank you girl keep going :)

[@samanthazeiler2020]

I actually desperately needed this video.. I been trying so hard to pull myself out of this.. I was doin so good, and shit got tough and I made some mistakes and I’m still recovering from that.. but thank you girl ❤

[@Thepharaohsoul]

First time watching your videos and full transparency: I really needed to hear and see this. I’ve been in the worst slump for almost a year now, it’s been so hectic mentally when you understand there’s change that needs to be made but simply don’t make it. Whether it be from lack of energy or motivation those come backs are always what life’s about. Appreciate you fr Alessya.

[@EmmaAllgood]

love how honest and raw you are abt ur emotions, showing us you can be a baddie even with saddies💋💋

[@shuhnellx]

Thank you for being realistic and honest. I can relate heavy. 💞

[@4zureal]

as a girl who had battled depression for years, it’s very comforting to see people recognizing it in these vids. sometimes showing the both the bad and the good is so needed, thank you ❤

[@250cupsofjunk]

Girl... THANK YOU FOR THE REFRESHING REALISM!!!!! We applaud your vaunerability here! Made me feel good to know im not the only one with a messy space and mental issues and burnout!

[@nataliamaria31]

Since 2019, you have always been my comfort youtuber. You have always been so real and that is what comforts me the most when I watch your videos. Whenever I feel down, I watch your videos. After watching this video, I felt motivated to continue my own plans that I procrastinate against, thank you so much Alessya for being the sunshine you are :)

[@ilikediaherrea]

thank you for your honesty alessya and for feeling comfortable enough to be vulnerable with us. you feel like a friend of mine when I watch your videos and we are the same age too. i have this same problem too but I've been learning on how to take things easy because that's the only way you can persevere. I tell myself one step is better than no steps at all, I've made myself have anxiety attacks trying to make myself do so much in a short amount of time and it isn't healthy.

[@divyashreeduddupudi6807]

gosh i love this woman, she is so real, fun and pretty. Honestly, i feel like i could watch u all day..

[@samanthaxmanzi]

OMG MOM POSTED!! ilysm. You literally give me hope to get my shit together.

[@ZoyaNteyi]

Thank you so much sis. You're videos are helping my 16 year old self to feel more confident with my imsecurities and be the best I can be. I love you so much ale🤍🤍🤍

[@Peaceful733]

Girl your authenticity is so refreshing. I can relate. You're loved and understood more than you know. Thank you for sharing your experience. 💜

[@luffypunketa]

you seem so genuine, this video made me feel seen and understood 🤗 when I have these type of depressive episodes I always feel like I am alone with my struggles. but the way you described how everything feels and the things you did to try to slowly get better were sooo relatable. your channel is very comforting.

[@evolvinalison]

im loooooving this calm, slow paced pick-me-up vlog ♡

[@ameliesmagic6958]

This woman has given me confidence to be myself, god bless you

[@cookiechan5961]

This was such a wake up call for me to stop decomposing on my bed and start being productive again. Thank you, Queen~

[@WilliamAiken]

THE COFFEE ADDICTION! It's always that back and forth for me too.

[@Faeriesephone]

Honestly Alessya i love and appreciate you because at the end of the day, you’re human and i think of these “self improvements” and “rountines” just seem so overwhelming and makes you think that, you NEED to do this and that to become or be “that girl” or to be “self disciplined”. But i feel like in reality it’s just doing simple things that aren’t extreme and something simple and nice like going to the park, journaling, cleaning or just doing your legit best! Honestly at the end of the day we’re people and we have our days and moments we’re not meant to be perfect. But i know that you’ll be okay and it’ll get better sometimes we need to fall in order to rise up again🩷

[@sapphire7207]

I am in the exact same place as you right now! the most important thing is realizing how normal it is and learning how to navigate life, knowing these phases may be a part of your cycle. it's okay cause you can just keep going and it's not the end of the world. Come back stronger~

[@courtneyalysan4925]

Love you girl! I've been depressed too! I know what you're going through. I feel very alone!❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@saylenadominguez2924]

Depression is real you ain't alone Alessya. Thanks for sharing 😊 I love you ❤ Always here to support you!!!

[@jessicaflamenco6732]

Proud of you for taking steps and taking care of yourself. You have fans that love and support you.

[@AASTHASINGH-gp4lp]

WHY DONT YOU POST OFTEN ,YOU ARE SO SOOTHING TO WATCH 😭💗💗💗

[@Froppy371]

It’s probably stressful to edit and record everything which just adds to all the stuff in life

[@tabss618]

She literally explains in the video dawg

[@Froppy371]

@@tabss618 yeah

[@tabss618]

@@Froppy371 these fake ah fans man smh 😔x

[@AllaThingsEve]

Girl, you just made me get up and take a good bath, eat good, meditate and journal, thank you beautiful! ❤

[@emillyypaiva]

This gave me the motivation I needed. I've been really depressed since my exams started and I'm almost finishing high school so I'm anxious and stressed ASF. Its been awful, just want to stay in bed and be alone. But tomorrow i have to go to school and I just feel the urge to romanticize my day and start with a good emotion instead of wanting to die 😝 Thank you so much. ❤️I hope tomorrow things get better. !!

[@merieltiapula991]

i hope your doing better sis i love how honest your videos are please continue to protect your peace

[@Melina_gh]

It felt so cozy and I'm glad that finally I found someone who showed us the reality of " we're not spouse to be always perfect and we can start with simple and little steps" also it was so fun and you're so beautiful girl 💞

[@fairylush7997]

I am so heartwarmed to see someone else go through acne like I do , and still be so beautiful❤ I love you

[@heiditroyer8553]

most relatable thing I've watched in a hot minute, love it

[@PetDKK]

Thank you for being real and transparent Alessya! We love you for who you are! Lovely video ♡♡

[@aditiavhad7988]

FINNALLY SHE POSTED 😭😭😭💘💘💘

[@em09s]

when i tell u this lwk healed me bro i see these 'getting out of slump' vids nd its girls who like stayed in bed an exture two hours the day before and its all goody goody so i love to see this real vid that makes me feel seen

[@zuzannarafalko2204]

I'm actually so happy to see that I'm not the only one to feel this way. Thank you for sharing this with us girl

[@CherlymaryLepathie]

I think were all going through it this year ,have seen lot of post , depression is so hard my room was dirty i would endlessly scroll on tiktok , wouldn't feel like eating or if i did i would eat alot ,cry alot, being quite, questioning life 😭😭💕💕

[@RG255-g3s]

Watching this made me actually want to be productive! thank you💗

[@livylou646]

Im not happy you were depresses but im so happy to know that im not alone in this kind of thing ❤

[@Surrenderedvlogs]

I pray you find peace and joy! And it’s okay to not be okay sometimes we’re all human and go through things at times ❤

[@sadiaaarafiq6465]

Your vlogs made me feel really really good ,I love youuuuu,please be consistent 🤍

[@Sistersamosa]

This was such a relatable vid i think i need a recovery day too❤❤❤❤

[@Laina.t.09]

it made me so happy that you removed piles of stuff on beat while cleaning

[@ashley-kg5se]

I love you so much Alessya, hope you feel better GOD BLESS!!!❤❤

[@Italia.72]

I love you so much girl I have been checking your channel every day for a month and when I saw u post I was so happy and tysmmmm Alessya for being so real and showing us that it’s normal to feel that way 💗

[@littlelle1]

currently watching this as im bed rotting. this makes me feel like it’s okay to have setbacks. also def trying that stress supplement bc ya girl also stresses 24/7 😻

[@moonflower5359]

You know what girl? Imma need you to stop being so pretty😭❤️‍🔥

[@abbyg5981]

i actually love how real you are. i am struggling with the same exact things right now and needed to see this lol

[@froggieskkk]

I´m so happy you posted !! i hope you´re feeling better, i really wish you the best

[@melissaprince4672]

I have never felt more seen. Thank you for sharing this, I feel so much more less alone in my battle . This is exactly where I am rn. Xoxo

[@ReaganStreet-ld5de]

not my family, not my friends...FRIEND lol she is so real i luv it

[@ItzIslagrl]

I've been feeling like this lately, and I'm so happy this video came at the perfect time, and it's giving me sm motivation.

[@HannahButler-k1r]

Ugh I literally love your videos! Lately I’ve been really hard on myself and stressing out too much over not getting everything done, your videos rlly help❤

[@JasmineHughess]

Hope you feel better Alessya girl! Love this because taking care of your mental health is so important.

[@houyhnhnm2277]

This has helped me so much. I'm in this slump that has been so hard to get out of, been in it for a minute. Thank you for posting this ❤

[@Fatomah.7]

I'm so happy to see you back 😢 I went through these kinds of days a lot before and I know how hard it is to just get up from the bed.

[@inspiredidiot3475]

girl I absolutely LOVE your videos, please post more, you can post literally anything and it'll be entertaining

[@m3taang31]

missed u

[@Urmom-o4o]

Omg I was literally hoping she was going to post because I’ve been really depressed lately 😭😭thanks so much bus sis❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Spongebob6428]

You’re literally Body goals 💗

[@garimachaudhary7041]

needed this one, going through a depressive episode, really not productive but trying to do better

[@manahil5099]

your videos are literally like a warm hug

[@olicooper4835]

I love you Alessya❤️ im so happy you’re getting better🫶🏼

[@magdacordeiro5213]

OUR QUEEN IS BACK!

[@uravgcorpsefan]

no because i literally randomly came back to your channel yesterday, and you posted at THE right time. ily bae 😭💕

[@NadaSabbah-be2be]

I’m with you on this one the whole summer I was in a terrible depressive state

[@MariaMartinez_07]

Your puppy is so cute!!! I’m glad you’re feeling a little better it will be okay. ❤ this will pass. Thanks for sharing. 🙏🏽

[@SarahCretu-q9p]

She is so real 😭😂🫶🏻

[@BarbaraKimani]

I just love your content... A lot... I watch a lot of KZbinrs but you are so authentic... I love love love that about you... That always keeps me waiting for your next post... Alessia you are awesome... This just reminded me that i shouldn't push myself to hard...❤❤

[@HarperMason-zm9nz]

I loveee you sm for this video! I have not been getting the physical activity I need and realized I was trying to hard to be consistent and fell through. Glad you posted this

[@fairyzcati]

you just described how ive felt all summer and still do . . HOW

[@emilysbows]

thanks for making me giggle and so proud of you girlie 💕

[@zoekalcc]

i love you channel so much, your so real and have helped me as a person so much. I really hope you doing ok alessya!

[@samaira_9392]

you are very strong. i love you so much and may god always keep you happy

[@mxx3098]

girl your body is STUNNING i need a tutorial fr

[@arjunssharma]

i will forever love u and the energy you put into the world

[@ishmitazaman7412]

love love love the vlog!!!! its like i watched myself in the vlog and this is the type of relatability content i need in my life!!!!