Ren - Su!cIde (A Blind Reaction)

[@coreyms]

I think you’re the only one I’ve seen who interpreted certain lines the same way I did. When ya said “he’s referring to pain as his family members”. That’s how I interpret it as well. Like that’s how familiar it is to him, like family. I’ve seen some say he’s actually placing those labels on his family, which may be correct for some artists but he seems to have good relationships there. But… with art, anything is up for interpretation. Great reaction as usual

[@jeanwyenberg2774]

Agreed. Some reactors are taking when he says Useless my mother as meaning he came from an abusive family situation. I don't take it that way. If it rhymed better it would be Bruises are my brother....bruises are my sister...Useless is my Mother....Truth is my father.... I think of it that way.

[@StephanieEMT16]

You’re right. He is close to his family members. So you guys are the first I’ve seen to interpret the way he meant them.

[@madison-arts]

I agree with the exception of one part. I think he might be referring to his actual mother when he sings these lines: I can't eat, I'm nervous Won't stay down 'cause my body purges Useless, my mother, can't keep in my supper I think he's telling his mother it's no use making food for him because the lyme disease had his diet dwindling down rapidly as more and more types of food he could no longer eat. He mentions this (the diet) in some of his past videos before he began treatment. Towards the end he could only handle certain types of meat and vegetables and in small quantities.

[@coreyms]

@@madison-arts That’s a good point. That makes sense. However I saw other channels saying he was actually calling his mother useless. But that relationship seems solid. So your interpretation here is probably spot on

[@madison-arts]

The commas were a dead give away for me, (Useless, my mother, can't keep in my supper) separating her within the lines. I also wonder if when he says brother and sister he's speaking to us? As an extended family united by the same pain?

[@bkkidd2112]

You're the first reactor I heard catch that he referred to his pain as family. Thanks Ren for sharing himself and thanks to you as well.

[@kazpwright]

Yes! Same for me about the pain as family line. It makes SO much sense.

[@SleepyWaifufu]

I feel the same way! When I heard the song first and the whole brother sister mother and father and the references it struck something. I don't think many people has picked up on that note. I'm glad I'm not the only one who noticed that.

[@Peacetrain66]

I watched at least 10 reactions yesterday. Cried all day😢

[@endlessrage4062]

Ren made the internet cry yesterday.

[@lajoyous1568]

Still crying a week later 😢 ❤

[@jro341]

You are not alone. Ren is bringing a lot of people together.

[@hayazi96able]

....I guess I'm not the only one, and for a fact, I am not joking, I have found more than 30, which you'd be surprised how actually hard it is to find considering the amount of actual reviews there really are, they just done really good to hide them due to the "content".

[@itspickleric138]

Been watching every new reaction I’ve seen since it dropped and I still cry

[@philk9227]

Ren's rawness and pain are palpable and heartbreaking. Thank you for the heartfelt reaction Walter. All the best from the UK

[@kt_kroovy1031]

Hello Walter and fellow Rooskis ☺️ I turned on the notification for this premiere but I'm having second thoughts about attending. I watched this yesterday when it dropped. At work. The rest of the day did not go well. It's a brilliant, heartbreaking song but I'm not going to be able to endure it while at work again. I'll definitely watch your reaction when I get home, where there's plenty of tissues, an emotional support bunny and no judgmental coworker eyes upon me Love you guys... I'll be in the chat in spirit 💜🦇💚

[@kt_kroovy1031]

An absolutely genuine, beautiful reaction Walter. I'm glad I waited until I got home to watch it. I was right there with you, tear for tear. Thanks for being in this world, friend *HUGGGGS* ❤️🦇❤️

[@Lynnie_14]

Love you Roo❤It hits deeper than you could possibly be prepared for. Much deeper😭 #RIPJoe #LoveYouRen #Renegades #RUOkay

[@helenajrgensen3157]

I'm a fan of Ren. I love Ren, and one of the reasons is; He is real. He shows what he is and what he feels. He dares to break the silence and talk about difficult subjects. The things we in today's society prefer not to show. On social media, we prefer to exhibit success and joy. But the comment trackers under Ren's music and under reaction videos give me hope. And you Walther... You contain some of the same qualities. You show emotion. You stand by them. You talk about difficult experiences. You are brave in the way you use your words. You are a role model. You are important and valuable Thanks for one more great reaction ❤

[@christilehman-starr4428]

Good therapy Thank you Ren Thank you for doing this Walter. Much ❤️

[@MrNiccholas]

It's so unfair that suicide doesn't end the pain, it simply transfers it to those loved ones around you. The darkness is so thick it feels like I'm being suffocated. I rolled my truck almost a year ago and I'm still on disability because of the TBI I suffered. I have permanent brain damage and will likely never be able to get back to my old job or my old life. Oh how I wish I wouldn't have survived the crash. Yes, my loved ones would still mourn, but accidents happen and aren't anyone's fault. But suicide is different. I cannot put them through it. But man, I just really don't want to be here.

[@margaritasaloscerdos5]

You are so special Walter, can't wait to see the reaction. Of course it is triggering, and it brings feelings and emotions we were hiding and not wanting to see. It happens not only with this song but also happens in so many other situations. But through all these years in my recovery process I have learned that, life doesn't bring or show us stuff until we are ready to handle it (this doesn't mean it is not going to be difficult or painful) and life uses whatever the tools to trigger us and make us see what we need to see to heal, to grow, to acknowledge what was still scaring us and finally, to love ourselves more. Keep going Walter and all the rooskies supporting you!

[@salishseamermaid]

Walter, i appreciate your openness and deep compassion. Please know, though, that your own well-being is more important than any reaction video. Give yourself the grace to pass on one if you don't feel ready.

[@auntiethetical]

This is the first time I’ve seen one of your reactions so I went into it knowing the song, but not knowing anything about you. Of all the reactions to this I have watched, your introduction is the most intelligent, heartfelt, and meaningful. I wanted to be able to say, “Wait! Don’t do this…” because I knew what was coming, but it was already too late. One of the most powerful things you said was that this made you think “of the context of what [you] almost put people through.” I believe that what Ren has done, by sharing his grief and loss in such a gut-wrenching way, is going to save lives. As you said, “Please, please, please don’t put people through that.” I can’t even comprehend the tragedy of him still thinking, after more than ten years, “I was late like a jerk;” still blaming himself for not running fast enough. 💔😢

[@cherylrobbins715]

We are crying with you. Thank you for your honesty. Hugs.

[@heartwork8318]

Thank you for your openness and sharing your pain just as Ren. Though hard the song and authentic reactions will help many others. Love and good vibes Walter you are special! ❤

[@elizabethdemerie13]

I am so proud of you for having the courage to react to this video ❤ sending you much love, positivity & healing 💖

[@Attabasca]

You have a great voice. The kind that lends itself perfectly to radio or podcasts.

[@rebeccarose7405]

Thank you so much for sharing your deep emotions with us. This song rips me up every time. I don’t think it can go on the car playlist, because crying while driving is not a good thing, and I can’t imagine a time when this song won’t make me cry ugly…. ❤️

[@giallogem]

You're emotional response too this track is the most genuine i've watched ( I've watched a lot ) I hope you're ok.

[@FaerieCastle]

I wasn’t sure if I could watch you reacting to this. I waited until I was home. I’m so glad you are still here. I’m glad I’m still here too. Most days anyway. Ren has started even more conversations with this one. And I think we all cried with him.

[@jadejameson5312]

Honestly, you have the best breakdown and understanding that others haven't got; including myself. And I just love you.

[@davew2106]

I can see how hard that was for you man,peace bro.

[@clockworkpink]

This is so tough to watch. BUT... I honestly think this is saving lives.

[@megandrehr3420]

I cried in bed for hours after my first listen to this. Ive tried and thought about doing it so many times but always went back to how bad id hurt my true friends. There were many nights i showed up on their door step needing help

[@kazpwright]

Thank you for being brave enough to do this reaction Walter. You’re a beautiful soul. Lots of ❤ from across the pond 🇬🇧

[@annemorgan2064]

Hey Walter, this one is so painful, I agree it covers all sides of suicide. I said this before, I consider you a friend, thank you for being her still. Sharing your experience but also your message of the value of each of us is a powerful and brave message. Love you Walter, you are valuable. Much much love

[@annette7258]

I think we all carry pain from times past. This is why his words hit so hard. 💔❤️ I admire your sensitivity and ability to show love to others

[@lyndsayricardi3462]

I love the hypnotic sound that comes right off the bat…it’s reminds trancelike feeling that RATM lures you in with…drawing the listener followed by the repetition brilliance of a word or phrase to strengthen the impact of the message. To do that with something we are taught to suppress is not only but imperative. It get locked in just like a catchy, melodramatic tune that gets stuck in your head ….. next thing you know your singing it aloud in the grocery store and passing it on. What a brilliant way to dust off a word that can be found in a dictionary of any language to raise awareness, understanding and conversations. There is a reason that brushing things under the rug and ignoring a room full of elephants has a negative connotation. Now, when my head aches with depression I pop on a dose of Aspren and Prozach 👊🏼👊🏼👊🏼love you for making me happier

[@DakotaDogProductionsAk83]

Crying with you Walter. It is absolutely important that we understand our value. I miss my brother absurd… Keep sharing this message! It’s so powerful ❤

[@jasonstewart3996]

This one is hard to take. The song itself is so good. Typical Ren masterpiece. But I have had a few friends commit suicide and one of my very best friends. I cried so hard at the end. But it's a topic that needs to be talked about. And Ren as we know understands this so he's not just singing a song. He's created another masterpiece that deals with real things and they need to be dealt with. So kudos to Ren and kudos to you my friend. Walterooskie I love you and you are awesome and you matter

[@jasonstewart3996]

Brother I need you to know that you are worth it. I don't know you but I feel like I do because I follow you and have seen your pain and your happiness thru music. So if only from afar I can tell you that you are something special my brother and I love you and so do many others that watch you. You are genuine and intelligent and your reactions bring out true feelings wether they are good or bad they are real. So than you for being you

[@Shiroar]

I think a lot of us felt simultaneously excited about new music from Ren and nervous about how emotional this one was sure to be. It is definitely a tough one. The recently added ending really completed the song. And made it absolutely heart wrenching. Beautiful vulnerability and song. Ren is doing something very important with his art by voicing things we don’t talk about enough. And he is bringing us together as humans that feel empathy and share similar emotions. We relate. We are less alone.

[@StephanieEMT16]

I’ve never seen your reactions before but I’m so glad I did. I’ve been on both sides of this. My health is very similar to REN’s so I relate so much to his music anyway. This song is amazing because he put my feelings for the past two years into this first part. The second half I leave for him and joe respectfully. But it also is what we’ve felt like after losing someone that way. Thank you for your response. I think you have the most honest insight and reaction that I’ve seen. ❤

[@jgilmer]

Love ya dude!

[@louisemyles4971]

Felt your very present raw reaction. This is a tough one, but healing in the way it connects us all. A topic tabooed for wayyy too long. Sending warm hug.

[@RonNL70]

Thank you Walter for your heartfelt reaction ❤🙏 Tearing up aswell 😢😭 This one hits incredibly hard on so many levels. Big hug and much ❤ from the Netherlands RIP Joe Hughes 🖤

[@silentfenrir6927]

Your approach to this review is incredible, you're a king sir.

[@jeffmartin_UK]

Thank you for that very emotional and heartfelt reaction.❤

[@sleepyskin]

Great react. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing about your anorexia and how you relate to the song. Big hugs.

[@AndyUK-Corrival]

One of several reactions I’ve watched and first for your channel. As someone who has contemplated ending it all, I found one other reactor put it quite well when he said it’s not that you want to die but more you don’t know how to live. That is very true for me. Ren is such a master of words that hit the nail on the head for so many of us. I hope you weren’t hit too hard with this one and stay strong, you sound like a good friend to many. Andy UK

[@DakotaDogProductionsAk83]

I’ve missed you Walterooski… so proud of you for doing this. Your sharing has changed lives. I’ve come to my senses and returned to the fold. I need the Rooski family and I need you ❤❤😢

[@neilcooper2966]

Hugs mate x

[@seagull01-cp8pb]

Thank you for sharing this with us Walter. I appreciate your insights to a very important topic👍💕👍🦇

[@GregDaniel78]

I thought about you Walt when this one popped up. Stor kramisar as they say in these parts.

[@alexparkinson9409]

I’ve just come across you, and I am so proud of you for being here. You shine with genuineness, you are a gorgeous human being and your illness has made you a sympathetic/empathetic person, you are one of the rare ones and I can’t imagine how many people love you including us that watch your wonderful videos. I’m sending you so much love, if you ever feel them dark moment, reach out of anyone, we appreciate you still being here, you help us too ❤

[@walterooski]

Wow… you have no idea how badly I needed those kind words when I read them. Truly, thank you thank you thank you so much for your kindness. I’m moved, I’m humbled, I’m honored. You made a difference to somebody today, sincerely.

[@alexparkinson9409]

@@walterooski every word I left is full heartedly true, it’s hard to take positive words around with you and keep them in mind but I honestly wish you the best, you’re a gorgeous person. Definitely a new viewer/supporter. So much love to you. 💗

[@grimsbytownfan]

Really need to stop watching these reactions before bed man, I’m an absolute mess every time but feel like I need to. Thanks for the video, hope you’re ok

[@clayschuetz899]

I hope in the end this made you feel better inside, for the fact that you didn't succeed, you are still here and I'm sooo happy for that. I'm just now meeting you, and I can feel you have such a beautiful heart, your emotions are sooo beautiful, and i want you to know, I love you, you're a good human being with such a big heart 🤗

[@Freakiehippy30]

You are such a sweet and lovely man Walter

[@Theogvineofthedead]

Yup I've been crying for the last 2 hours.... God damn

[@ryanclarke4482]

💙 Keep stepping forwards 👍

[@desiredbydesign6188]

Your a great guy thankyou

[@philflynn9161]

We got ya my friend!❤

[@morecrayonsplzmcw4836]

Thank you

[@guybeasley6615]

Great stuff❤

[@boxicuk1620]

❤

[@pirada74]

❤❤❤❤

[@belgand5555]

Thank you..🥲♥️🥲

[@alex1014]

I cried too its okay!! I reacted to this on my channel too!

[@Oceanno69]

Sending loving Hug!

[@puppenbuhnebauchkribbeln1183]

🥺🙏🏼

[@wexfordgirl1]

As an anorexic with a lifelong chronic illness all of this hit hard.

[@garysherwin3316]

Crying hell😢😢😢

[@TeresaGrimes-qp9ic]

The Island...I U

[@fracker8258]

Sending hugs to everyone. I love you all.

[@amandacollins2854]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@GracefullyTwisted69]

This song is such a heartbreaking song and I know so many of us know how he feels. 🦋Rest in peaceful dreams Joe🦋 I am glad that I found your channel, know that you too are very important to this world, to your followers and I love how beautiful your soul is. Take care, and always try to shine for all to see. Much love /ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\ ❤ ω ❤

[@jeanfieler9885]

We love you, Walter. We’re so, so, so grateful you are here.💖🙏

[@tizianasassu]

❤

[@StephiesCorner]

❤❤

[@MissMeKate]

Sending you a hug. ❤ You are important too. This song is so hard to listen to, his pain is overwhelming and flows from him. I truly believe that this song will save people. That Joe will live on in so many people who will choose to stay because of Ren's music and the conversations people have because of it.

[@margaretc5679]

💯

[@SR-71BlackbirdA2]

An incredible tribute to Joe and a therapy session for Ren at the end.

[@arklilbro]

The day Ren made the whole world, ugly cry

[@sicmuvva11]

Tears streaming down my face, what a beautiful soul this artist is.❤‍🩹

[@denalinde]

I’m so hopeful that this song opens up long-overdue conversations worldwide. We need to stop treating it as a dirty secret, so we can connect more honestly & with love. 💜

[@lillyvanpug]

I was really nervous about you to watch this 🥺 you are wonderful, Walter, and I am grateful to be a part of the Rooskis Sending hugs to everybody in need of one 🫂🫂🫂

[@JaqueDark]

I don't think there's anyone I've wanted to reach through the screen and hug more over this reaction. The heartbreaking thing is so, so, so many people can relate to this.

[@stonyBKLYN]

I was about to do something horrible the other night, and I heard Ren's song before I did, when you're caught up in a cloud of non stop negative thoughts while being immensely sick, I realized what I would be doing to the people who loved me, even if there aren't many and I'm still struggling. But it stopped me. I hope each day I can find a new reason to stop myself although sometimes it becomes an uphill battle you'll feel you will never win. You have to suffer and keep fighting. Love to you all.

[@lajoyous1568]

I'm glad you found Ren and his powerful words of wisdom before you made a terrible decision. It's hard to see those that love you through the fog of pain, but they are there. ❤

[@Night_Parade]

The day Ren made everyone cry…. This is hard. If anyone here is struggling to find hope, reach out to this community. If you are thinking of taking drastic measures call the suicide hotline, reach out to anyone, reach out to us! I promise there is hope. I’ve held the gun. I’m thankful and grateful I got help. My life is now optimistic and flowing with love and art and hope for a future. I never had that. Didn’t think it’s possible. It is! I promise. There is light beyond this horizon, you just can’t see it yet. There is love. You are loved and you are understood.

[@lajoyous1568]

I'm glad you got help and I'm sure I'm not alone in that. ❤

[@SilviaA.M.]

Much love to you Walter ❤ much love to everybody ❤❤❤❤❤

[@Moctipotili1]

After listening to this at the premier, I knew it would hit home with you and I was a bit timid about how it will affect you. You are loved. Thank you for sharing this moment with us.

[@mnicolaou82]

Sending love to all… those who identify with Ren and also, with Joe... ❤

[@Fullsteelchef]

Love you Walter and I'm glad you're still here with us. I'm right there with you crying. Such a powerful song.

[@ianhislop6782]

Thank you for sharing your reaction with us. You are so strong for knowing that it would hit you hard and just doing it anyway. Much love ❤️.

[@johnlasky7766]

I just want to say, i may not know you personally, but i love you all, and i want nothing but the best for you. Please, if your in the pits of depression and SI, PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE. much love everyone ❤

[@timwylie]

Thanks for sharing even though you knew it would be hard for you. I hope you don't feel pressured to do so. Thanks for always thinking of your audience and being open. It means a lot and I always look forward to your posts.

[@gracegrit3009]

I’ve watched the video multiple times and watched many reactions since yesterday. I was looking for your reaction. I thought this would hit you hard, as it did me because of my life experiences…and losses… and I wanted to watch with you as well. I didn’t puck up his equating his emotions as family members; that hit hard. Remember: You matter. You are important. You are loved. You are not alone.❤

[@_BLSS_]

This reaction made me have to subscribe. Thank you so much for your honest and raw reaction.

[@darrenhibberd780]

Brave boy Walter, well done. Heart retching stuff.

[@jacks9624]

Hold on, Wolt! You are just human, as the rest of us... Love and support!

[@SkaterWillsy]

I get how you feel with this one brother. I appreciate your effort to put this out there

[@Buzzachino]

I Will I Will Never Give Up, For Life, I Hold Dear, I Will Face Everything, Even When Filled With Fear, I Will Push Through The Pain, I Will Smile Through The Tears, I Will stay On The Path, Through The Trials And The Years, I Will Harden My Heart, To Confusion, Distraction, I Will Not Be Ignorant, And Dwell In Inaction, I Will Live, Laugh And Love, In The Face Of Mortality, I Will Not Let Evil, Change My Morality, And When My Time Comes, And I Lay Down To Rest, I Will Have Less Regrets, And Know I Did My Best.

[@thehangingparsiple5692]

This one's hard

[@KarriSimone]

What no notification!! This is super tough and can be triggering. But still beautifully sad. I feel you Walter .

[@SHAKED0WN.]

Have watched many reactions of this song (art) and really enjoyed your interpretation. You caught some things I hadn't thought of before. Looking forward to checking out the rest of your channel 👍

[@elevown]

Thanks for this man- we saw how hard it hit you - but its an important song to get out there with an important message.. I think other artists could have done the first segment of the song- but ONLY Ren coulda done that last bit - DAMN! Just like Ren I think what you do, sharing your reactions like this- helps make the world just that little bit better.

[@craseyflung1011]

I appreciate you for sharing your story here as well as in the one I think it was “how to be me”, when you read your letter and told your story. It lead to my daughter and I having an important and honest conversation about this and many things. She just so happened to be listening to music and music reactions with one of my earbuds while I was using the other one when your reaction came on. She is 11 and many people might think that is too young to talk about this stuff, I know that my parents never did. Anyway, I love your input and your positive attitude, and your real emotion when you hear and sing a great song. Keep up the good work. This world is a better place because of you, and Ren and many other people, because of the work you two both do.

[@LHartman-gj7dl]

Having watched lots of your previous Ren reactions i know exactly why that was so hard for you at the end. I cried with you. You are loved too Walter x

[@CreativePhotoWS]

I don't know who needs a hug more. Him, You or Me. We only spend a few minutes with you mate but we are richer for it. Thank you.

[@belindamelville2270]

❤😂😂😂❤

[@Corvid76]

Rolling Stone has a new interview with Ren today. Some info we've already been told but well worth a read.

[@lynette.]

He highlights both sides of the story and the pain of the one left behind hopefully will give pause for thought.