Roland Jupiter 6 ambient arpeggiations

I went to my studio to lament over how messy it is. I haven't wanted to be in here at all. I just want to sit and do nothing. 2023 was awful. 2024 feels like more of the same. Health worries come and stay. Maybe I'm just getting old and my body gave up fighting for me.
Well, my studio IS a disaster. I sit here WANTING to sell my Jupiter 6, but I feel I'd regret it. I don't know how to clean this place up to make it worth keeping these things. Worse, the things I do have listed don't even get people interested. Nothing like "Hey, I want this but would you knock this much off?" No, just no interest. Can't tell if the gear is crap, if the money's gone, or what - but all my gear sits. Useless in its current spot, hardly any interest in it, but I guess I had more interest in playing my Jupiter than cleaning my room, so there's that, right?
If you're curious how I've been holding up - every day I want to talk to my mom. I want to tell her about what's going on in my life. Sometimes instead I just write a note to her on my phone with what I wanted to tell her. It's not the same, but I guess it's something. I did get the desk that she used her whole marriage. That was nice, I like that desk. Turns out it was my Great Grandma's on my dad's side (We got a lot of stuff from his side, but nothing from my mom's side, weird). I like having all these antique heirlooms. They're probably not worth anything, but they're worth something to me. I am documenting them for my kids so they know where these things came from. We also got my parent's vintage Sears Silvertone Radio Phonograph. I think it was made in 1966. We've been listening to old vinyls and it's been great. I did buy a new needle. I doubt the old one was ever changed. And I'm pretty sure I have to fix a speaker, the right side doesn't play. I'd have thought these would go for some money, but I guess they weren't great. I dunno. I love how it sounds. I love how it looks. Reminds me of my parents. It's all I have left of them.

[@RedMeansRecording]

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[@MIDERA]

Thanks :)

[@chris_economou]

Thank you for sharing your sounds and your sorrow. Your parents are always with you. And they are in your children. May 2024 bring you joy and peace and health. Day by day. Please keep making and sharing music, for you’re shining a light you may not even see right now.✨✨✨

[@xisotopex]

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[@MIDERA]

Thanks for your kind words :) Last night, I managed to watch videos of my dad for the first time since he passed away 13.5 years ago. My mom was in those videos too and it was nice to see them again. Thanks again for listening :)

[@chris_economou]

That’s so great that you have your parents in videos!! The beauty of technology.🙏🏼 My mother died 10 years ago, and I hear her voice and singing in my brain often. I guess I’m thankful for that technology, too!💕 Did I tell you that she said, about my child when I first became a mother, “the child of my child is twice my child.” I always loved that line and think of it often. Your children are twice your parents’ children. That’s a lot of love.❤️

[@MIDERA]

@@chris_economou I thought I had written back but I guess not! I have heard that phrase before, so I'm not sure if I heard it from you or elsewhere! It's a very nice saying :) Sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. Sometimes I still have dreams about my dad and I can hear his voice too.

[@lairdtomfrenchelectromusic2545]

Hi MIDERA , Your musical production takes you to the guts (French expression), that is to say, that it moves deeply. I've read (as usual) the description of your musical production, but, I can't find exactly the right words to support you. I'm really sorry I can't find the right words. Anyway, even if your parents are no longer with us, they still accompany you in your heart and their souls by your side. Take good care of yourself and your family.

[@MIDERA]

Aw, thanks :) I am pretty sure I hate everything I make with the Jupiter 6, definitely considering parting ways with it.

[@SilentPity]

It doesn't feel real, but it hurts all the same. I felt your pain through this music. Thank you.

[@MIDERA]

Yeah, definitely :/ Thanks for stopping by.

[@Unison_Detune]

Hi Midera, you are not alone in the selling stakes. Nothing seems to be shifting. I fear the West is in steep decline. Remember the love and values of your parents, love your family with all your heart and just keep putting one foot after another. Exist in the present and let music soothe your soul. ATB.

[@MIDERA]

Very true about the selling bit. Although I have to at least understand that I am thankful I don't NEED to sell anything. Thanks for the kind words as well. Much appreciated :)

[@Blurillaz]

Thank you and I'm sorry

[@MIDERA]

Thank you!

[@adub303]

The sounds are absolutely beautiful. So glad you decided to keep the Jupiter 6 and to share it with us. I don't know you, but I know it takes a lot of courage to share your story, and I'm sorry for your loss. But you clearly have great inner strength, so please feel free to share as much or as little as you feel up to sharing. Thank you for posting this and we all hope you're doing well. Cheers.

[@MIDERA]

Thanks :) I’m happy to share, if for no other reason than to give people something to read while they listen.

[@cyberamus]

Your studio tidying wasn't a total failure. You channeled your sorrow and talent into something beautiful. I'm inspired and I'm sure others are too. Peace and to happier tones times.

[@MIDERA]

Thanks. I appreciate that!

[@willswitchcraft]

no matter what you're going though......this is beautiful...............thanks for uplifting us...............................

[@MIDERA]

Thanks friend. Much appreciated. Doing OK for now, I suppose :)

[@gin-sonic]

I managed to clean my studio end of last year. Had to paint the walls after xx years. Moved everything into the living room for two days. Highly appreciated by my wife. :-) Disconnecting an unbelievable amount of power, audio, USB and MIDI cables. Fascinating. Or maybe not. And I did find a different setup that gives me more space in that tiny room by moving some shelfs to a different spot. I actually made a drawing in powerpoint of the room and the stuff I have. That helped! Go for it!! Now I have to make sure I keep it that place tidy. And don't sell your Jupiter 6! I own one as well and even if it will fail one day I will keep it as a wonderful piece of art in my studio to look at.

[@MIDERA]

Ah, you're probably right. I just need to get rid of SOME of my gear so that I'm not overwhelmed. I'm not allowed (for good reason) to keep my gear out of my studio, so it's a complete mess! Gotta do something, but the J6 probably shouldn't be one to go, even if I prefer the Prophet 10!

[@thesrabbit]

Beautiful explorations. Hypnotic, meditative, soothing.

[@MIDERA]

Thanks :)

[@Handheldsounds]

This gave me Future Sound of London vibes. dude - cheer up. You give so many people comfort through sound and your sincerely. What you do is worth it!

[@MIDERA]

Thanks. I appreciate it. It never feels like what I do matters, but maybe that's how everyone feels.

[@drdoom2020]

Always an enjoyable listen, thanks for posting! I appreciate you

[@MIDERA]

Thanks!

[@lockofthedeath]

We love you MIDERA

[@MIDERA]

And I love you random citizen. (Megamind Quote) Thanks! ❤

[@AndyPawlakOfficial]

Beautiful

[@MIDERA]

Thanks!

[@billrebsamen1810]

Beautiful heartfelt piece here. I totally get how you feel. My studio is an absolute wreck as well still. Our 2023 has been wrought with picking up after bad decisions our adult daughter has made. Lots of time and money spent trying to help her get back on her feet. I too have Jupiter 6 (among other beautiful synths) that I need to enjoy more. I've been blessed to be able to make a considerable monthly income with my music with teaching, performing and promoting a local venue - very little original music production though these days aside from my live improvisations at the venue. This keeps me in fellowship with many of my favorite local musicians - that's huge. As far as studio clutter I've found I take great pride in achieving only the slightest productivity in baby steps. Right now it's the task of going through about a dozen boxes full of mostly clutter but with the chance of finding those few precious things I've been looking for - so its truly like Christmas come late with almost every box I unpack! It helps that I've fired up my old turntable and moved my vinyl collection into my studio (I made room on a bookshelf) to keep me company while I trudge forward! Carry on my wayward son...you know the rest!

[@MIDERA]

Ah man - big hug about the stress with your daughter. I can't imagine that. I hope she and you are doing better now. A friend of mine is going through something similar and I know it's causing him a lot of anxiety. I think there's truly nothing worse in this world than the pain of your own child. Glad to hear you have a Jupiter 6 and have been able to do so much with your local community. Nice to see you're also able to get out and play! I don't get much of that myself. Good point about everything with boxes and such. I like that attitude. I made a bit of progress so that is something. If I could only find a good way to store my excessive synths in the room better -_- I think then I wouldn't feel such anxiety over it. Cheers!

[@universalvibe72]

Thank you for making this.

[@MIDERA]

Thanks for listening too!

[@EnervatedSociety]

Nice. Good job.

[@MIDERA]

Thanks!

[@billrebsamen1810]

I've listened to this three times in a row... Love the LFO bits starting around 5:45!

[@MIDERA]

Thanks :) The LFO is really fast... I have to check what it's like on my Prophet 10. I think it's not quite as fast (although the second oscillator acts as an LFO and would be faster, but would lose an oscillator).

[@tonelab]

Lovely 🙏🏻

[@MIDERA]

Thanks :)

[@marklholloway]

Hey brotha, I lost my mom when I was 37 and it was extremely hard in the beginning and life felt very surreal for a while. As time goes on the struggle becomes less painful. Keep writing music and doing the things you love. Maybe revisit photography or add some roadtrip camera footage to your music again. Socialize, stay active, don't let your hobbies and interests fade. Share with the world. Your music is a blessing for all of us and helps us feel more at peace with ourselves.

[@MIDERA]

Hey thanks - sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my dad back in 2010 too so I'm all too familiar with loss. Even worse is losing the entire generation, I can only ask my uncle's and aunts now :( I still do my photography when I have time, but with two kids - I am often just too tired. After our first was born, I couldn't just get up and go somewhere and take photos, and I lost a lot of that drive afterwards - it's ok, my kids bring me a lot of joy. I was starting to join Toastmasters to become more comfortable with public speaking - but I'm tempted to start doing like live shows on here as a way to 'public speak', although I'm not sure I'll have the bandwidth to do that either.

[@dammills]

I’m going through the studio challenge as well. I’ve taught myself to box things up and put them away somewhere if they don’t work for my current setup. Plus, getting another Jupiter would be really expensive. Unless you really need the money, it would be nice to leave it for your kids, or maybe even grandkids. You also have videos to show you using it so they can watch later!

[@MIDERA]

It would be very difficult to get another Jupiter. I expect the price will be driven up with a new mod coming out soon that 'turns it into a J8' if there's any truth to that (which I don't know).

[@MIDERA]

And yes - could be heirloom pieces? But I have some nice heirlooms that they'll have if they want them already (like a desk that was my great Grandma's!). My guess is my channel will be dead long before my daughters have an interest in watching them. Who knows!

[@dammills]

@@MIDERA I posted my lone video to my channel 15 years ago now, and my son got to see it. He loves the song, and it’s cool to talk to him about being in a band now that he’s starting one with his friends. Funny side story. I took my Iridium in to this shop to get repaired. What laid there when I walked in? A Jupiter 6. I was starstruck lol.

[@MIDERA]

@@dammills That's awesome that your son can see your song! Very cool to see him in a band too I bet! That is great to see the Jupiter in person. It's visibly a very cool synth! I think it might be one of the coolest looking synths out there!

[@dammills]

@@MIDERA It’s such a beautiful synth, and I really wanted to play it. It was waiting for it’s lucky owner to pick it back up though. Maybe someday!

[@jeremjerem]

Don't worry about gears or your studio... Take time...enjoy some "empty time" it's important to do "nothing" time to time. Nostalgia is a normal processus. In french we have this citation (don't know how to translate) : "Ne soit pas triste que ce soit fini, soit heureux que ce soit arrivé"

[@MIDERA]

I’ve been playing video games and reading more books. It’s been nice. And started trying to get out more and be a better, more interesting person. It’s hard. But thanks. It’s nice to not just go to my studio every day. Would love to have the motivation to write books though. I started, and it was fun, and sometimes I feel the character I made is just in limbo, sad not to progress… anyway. Thanks. I’ll have to look up a translation of your quote when I’m at a computer!

[@sonarfreq]

Please don't sell your parents things... they are a priceless treasure, especially in these early years of grief... holding them, hearing them.... will bring you solace. The time may come when you are ready to let go of them... but that time is not now. Listen to your heart, and may God bless you and bring peace to your soul.

[@MIDERA]

Oh yeah - I have no interest in selling any of my parent's things. I love this stuff. I'm going through it to see what I can learn about it. I am going to be picking up their bed set too. It's a really nice set and none of my siblings want it. We were going to donate it to the apartment complex my mom was at, but I would like to keep it in our family. Some stuff is just junk though - so that stuff will probably get thrown out or donated. Glad I got her favorite Bollywood film though. Can't wait to watch it (although I'm not sure I'll like it at all), but I will watch it!

[@anonymous_friend]

I've had synths and gear listed for months, and I'm starting to think no one has any money.

[@MIDERA]

I think you are right. Then again - that probably means I need to see it as a blessing for myself. I do not need to urgently sell my gear.

[@RabbitintheMoon]

what are your health worries?

[@MIDERA]

Eh - probably not something I'd get into the specifics online with, but I'm probably ok. I'm always concerned, but have some chronic pain that can't be explained ATM. Thanks for your concern.

[@RabbitintheMoon]

yeah.. I get ya... Definitely listen to your body,, if it's acting up,, go get checked out, and google your symptoms... I had an ulcer last year that could have killed me if I didn't get it sorted... @@MIDERA

[@ehmedMohamedAbdelsalimAbdalkha]

I want to sell my Roland Jp6. What is the fair price? I can sell it via PayPal

[@MIDERA]

Depends on the condition. I feel like they’re worth about $5500 USD currently.

[@ehmedMohamedAbdelsalimAbdalkha]

@@MIDERA Do you have a buyer who will deal through PayPal because it is safe for the seller and the buyer?

[@xisotopex]

couple things. be glad that you at least HAD that relationship with your Mom... When mine goes, I wont care. I wish it wasnt like that, but I am not responsible for the conditions she created for that to happen, and sometimes, once you pass over that boundary, there is no going back, there is no way forward, no forgive and forget, just forget.... either you clean and organize your creative space, or not, because you spent that time being creative instead... either way, its a win... right? dont do what I do, which is nothing. literally nothing at all.... the sun rises for me, passes overhead, and sets, and I am numb to it all... from something that was once so important, to now, when nothing matters anymore. have you identified why 2023 was awful? was it all internal? external? or a combination? health issues are terrible, but can sometimes at least bring back a sense of what is reality, what is important and what is not.... I have a just about an entire year that I have almost no memories of... I know what happened, but I dont remember any of it, and I dont know why it happened... edit... P.S. dont get rid of your Jupiter 6!

[@MIDERA]

Damn - that's really sad to read about your mom. I can't personally relate, but I know a few people who share your sentiments. That's just no way to be (as a parent). Shameful that parents are like that. At least you'll know you had every right to feel that way and act the way you did. I am very thankful I had the mother I had, and that we were so close. It does make her passing hard, but I still am full of love when I think about her. You're right about cleaning/organizing failing but still making music. I'd like to actually get back into shit that's not just ambient either, lol. I need to get my drums going again! And yeah, I will not sell the J6, at least not now.

[@lastminute3668]

Jesus Christ loves you brother . Were created for a purpose and all have trials. When you feel all is gone and without purpose I called out to God. It’s when you seek him. I play music for him now. Gives you fulfillment. Talk to him. He will walk with you .

[@MIDERA]

Thanks for your kind words. Best.