Sad Multifandom | Trauma.

TW // general depression
❝You know when you're drowning, you don't actually inhale until right before you black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's like no matter how much you're freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head's exploding. But then when you finally do let it in, that's when it stops hurting. It's not scary anymore. It's - it's actually kind of peaceful.❞
- Teen Wolf
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I edited about 98% of this video a few months back, when I first became obsessed with this song, but I put it on hold for a bit because I had a pretty full schedule as it was. Now, I feel like I've got a lot of empty posting slots coming up, and I got re-obsessed with this song, so it fit. Plus, you all seemed to really want to see it.
This video is kind of depressing, I know. The song is beautiful but heart-wrenching; I hope I did it justice. I didn't go nearly as dark as I originally thought I would, because these videos are hard enough to edit/watch as it is. Essentially, if I could get the feelings out there without using the triggering content, that was the route I was gonna go. Luckily, I think it worked out?
Footage is from And Then There Were None (BBC), Broadchurch (ITV), Harry Potter (WB), Testament of Youth (BBC), The Cry (BBC), Dracula (BBC), Doctor Who (BBC), The Magicians (SYFY), A Discovery of Witches (Sky One), Humans (C4), Agents of SHIELD (ABC), Sex Education (Netflix), Prodigal Son (NFOXBC), Love Victor (Hulu), Scream (MTV), Teen Wolf (MTV), Riverdale (CW), The 100 (CW), The Royals (E!), Euphoria (HBO), Killing Eve (BBC), Supergirl (CW), Peaky Blinders (BBC), Lucifer (Netflix), Years and Years (BBC), Captain America (MCU), American Horror Story (FX), Skins UK (ITV), Spinning Out (Netflix), The Avengers (MCU).
Music is Trauma by NF.
Colouring is mine.
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Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976. I only own the editing.
I am not liable for any emotional distress this video may cause.
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[@SunnyVids]

If you or anyone you know are struggling, please, PLEASE reach out for help. You are worthy, you are loved and you will always be able to find assistance. Argentina: [phone] Australia: 131114 Austria: 017133374 Belgium: 106 Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05 Botswana: 3911270 Brazil: 212339191 Bulgaria: 0035 9249 17 223 Canada: 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal) Croatia: 014833888 Denmark: [phone] Egypt: 7621602 Finland: 010 195 202 France: 0145394000 Germany: 08001810771 Holland: 09000767 Hong Kong: [phone] Hungary: 116123 Iceland: 1717 India: 8888817666 Ireland: [phone] Italy: 800860022 Japan: [phone] Mexico: 5255102550 New Zealand: 045861048 Netherlands: 09000113 Norway: [phone] Philippines: 028969191 Poland: 5270000 Russia: 0078202577577 Spain: 914590050 South Africa: 0514445691 Sweden: 46317112400 Switzerland: 143 United Kingdom: 116 123 USA: 18002738255 You are not alone. Please reach out.

[@hayleymhowson]

Thank you😭🙏🏻

[@Urobam]

Only those who had a trauma, a crisis understands; the panic attacks, I felt drowning, there was no air to breathe, nobody knows until it happens to you. I did not have a choice, neither an option but, someone decided, planned and executed the worst thing against another human being. Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle.

[@gia1448]

if someone knows the suicide hot line from peru let me know as soon as posible please. i cant find the number, i need help.

[@SunnyVids]

@@gia1448 PERU - LIMA - (00 51 1) 273 8026 - Teléfono de la Esperanza

[@GreySeren]

Thanks.

[@imawalkingheadache3903]

“we are all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer” someone in the youtube comments.

[@keelua6746]

i just took a screenshot of that comment lol, never related to something so much.

[@Blushbaby50]

It hurts:(

[@sophiakarron3651]

relatable

[@avinavpradhan2753]

It really hurts knowing that I am one of them who survived and fought it.

[@luigidimartino8547]

I took a screenshot too!

[@laurenm354]

that stiles voiceover in the back is one of my favorite moments. such a powerful scene

[@lumi9834]

I agree

[@kitmane1012]

And then they ruin it by telling stiles he is just tired.

[@jerajohnson2118]

@@kitmane1012 i hate the way the dealt with stiles' depression and never paid attention to everything he was going through since he was supposed to be the comic relief:/

[@kalilipso8890]

Does anyone one know where I kind find his speech by itself? I’ve tried making a video of my own but the background music is hard to get ride of!

[@annalise4189]

"Just cry, just cry, why can't I cry, I couldnt laugh and smile for a while but now I can't feel, let me feel something, just let me live"

[@yesididdietodaythankyoufor6252]

"I hate it. I don't want my life to be this hard" Feel that, but I wish I didn't.

[@elizabethmarie5880]

Same

[@elizabethmarie5880]

@@jadewu111 ya wanna talk

[@dominolinacole]

You are beautiful...you are the reason I keep singing

[@celestialphoenixqueen9258]

i have had more than my fair share of trauma , most of them emotional trauma and mental health traumas ... to this day i still fake smiles and act as if nothing is wrong when everything is ... i put on a fake mask so nobody notices just how broken and traumatized i am

[@whiskersonkittens2379]

The only thing that keeps me going is not wanting to hurt everyone more than I already have, but what sucks is no matter how hard i try, no one notices, and if they do-it’s not enough for them

[@destinycano4416]

Some say these only make my depression worse, but these express the emotions I feel inside. It is these videos that make me realize I’m not alone in this fight to survive

[@saucekekevlogs5156]

Yea it may seem to other people that it makes it worse but it doesn’t it make me let everything out it make me wanna scream it makes me let the tears out whenever I need to

[@-quasont-228]

Thank you.

[@sherannewoodard4042]

Thank you seeing these help me to feel like I'm not alone, that I'm not the only one who is different and struggling with this every day of my life

[@catherinecotter8624]

[@anxiousgam1ng803]

these videos are the only way i can express how i feel, i can never find the words, I'm discouraged from these videos but they don't understand they are the only way i can explain how i feel, the only way they can step into my world.

[@consortium6479]

This may be sad and depressing, but in its own way, it's beautiful.

[@oxycotine]

If you dont like depressing shit then dont watch this

[@oxycotine]

This is therapeutic to some ppl you know

[@enouu]

@@oxycotine that's not what they were implying at all.

[@AnneSoshi]

trauma is what i have after this

[@Chris-xx6sw]

"If I am not hurting myself then I am hurting someone else" Just by the way I feel and feelings well they suck and what sucks more is that I can't control them

[@Toocoolforschool573]

“If you never heal from what hurt you, then you’ll bleed on people who did not cut you” Misha Garg

[@AnneSoshi]

but okay now, this is extremely sensible. the kind of thing that can only come from an extremely sensible person. the scene selection, the quotes, everything is so touching. thank you. for sharing this, legend.

[@katewhoa]

I'm so confused what the universe wants from me. I am not strong enough to keep going anymore, but theres this one person I feel like I have to keep going for and I cant leave him.

[@-quasont-228]

Me too except it’s not a person. It’s hope. I am losing everything bit by bit, but I someone have hope. I try not to think about death and killing myself, because the truth is, I’m not scared. I can’t feel emotion so I’m not scared to kill myself. And if I die, I’ll see my grandpa again. He was everything to me that nobody else was. He made me feel cared for. He told me repeatedly he was proud of me. No one else did. Now that he’s gone, I have only a sliver of hope. Nobody proves to me they are proud and happy for me. I don’t want to die, just don’t want to live. When I need reason to live, I think of him. He would want me to stay on this earth, and experience everything he didn’t have the chance to. If I had to destroy the entire population of the earth to bring him back, I would. Not for anybody else though. Only him.

[@kyraconway8921]

I just wanna let go. I wanna be let go. I want people to stop caring so i can give up without feeling guilty that im hurting everyone

[@itsjiminsnonexistentjams1221]

“People who were born pretty, someone told them, so pretty how pretty, so they same themselves as pretty” “People who were born stupid, someone called them stupid, so they saw themselves stupid” “People who were born fat, someone called them fat, so they saw themselves as fat” and ....”someone who was a monster, was called a monster, people saw them as that, so they became a monster” I was wondering why people *hurt themselves* and others. But I also wondered why we couldn’t...that’s what I was curious about.

[@-quasont-228]

This is good but one correction. Nobody is born the way they are. They learn. When someone gets called a monster and all those names, they become one because that’s how they cope. When you are considered, “a monster” by other people, no matter how many times we tell ourselves not to care, we still care. No one is born a monster. They are persevered as one so they persevere themselves as one. So that’s what they become.

[@SeaMitchell]

I'm here because I feel suicidal at the moment. I know that's not great to hear but for some reasons seeing some of my comfort characters like this makes me feel like I can take another breath.

[@sofiaangel9288]

I just wanna say, you have a reason to be here, a lot of people just say “it will get better” you might not believe it but your time will happen, your time to shine, your time to be the best you, don’t give up, LOVE U AND SO DOES GOD

[@warmhearth]

I’m gonna...save this for later

[@gleer1380]

Everyday i wake up constantly feeling like I’m drowning in my own tears, crying because i feel like i have no purpose on here. It’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to be mad. But having to feel like this everyday isn’t good. I feel so lost. I feel numb cause i can’t feel anything as if I’m fading and feeling numb. Hearing things, not being able to sleep. I feel so unloved and unappreciated. I like to help others and making them happy but when i wanna be happy i have no idea what makes me happy. I constantly want to be loved, i know self love is best love but like i just wanna be someone’s joy, someone lover someone’s everything but there will always be a bad ending of them saying “I’m never gonna leave, i promise” and once they leave it’s like the promises they said they’d keep was never the truth it was a lit to fill my head with. Feeling like I’m never gonna be in love anymore.

[@willowjasmine7111]

Take a second to appreciate the actors in these videos that make us feel their pain and relate to their emotions xx

[@helenmand]

There was a time in my life when I would have 4 or 5 panic attacks a week... Those words, the beautiful music and the flawless editing really touched me. Amazing job as always!❤

[@kayceeLux]

When I have an anxiety attack I always put this one on. I cry and I feel better

[@celestialphoenixqueen9258]

i am the exact opposite , crying makes me feel worse and makes me feel like shit and so weak …. I hate it so damn much ! my emotional trauma and ptsd make it so hard to feel anything and be happy over anything or everything … I am going to Lebanon for a vacation this summer but i don't feel happy or excited or anything genuine … but if i don't act happy or excited my mom will be more stressed and anxious and depressed than usual .... then she'll ask me why and ask questions i can't answer cause i just can't .... i hate it

[@celestialphoenixqueen9258]

can't say the same , if i do cry which is rarely . i feel worse when i do and it makes me feel so much worse than ever . a vicisous cycle and a repetative numbing loop

[@isaiahayala5959]

I thought I was finally happy but now I’m back here watching these and feeling everything that people said to me

[@kyonnataylor6977]

I feel you every bit

[@hentaisama1614]

Have you ever been trapped in a loop before ? Never letting go, replaying the best moments with your ex over and over again knowing that it’s killing you slowly but you just can’t stop . “ I’m not fine “

[@aishacortes3856]

I'm happy to say that I have my appointment tomorrow for therapy after years of bottling up all my emotions

[@mariaaya9802]

I hope that it went well and I’m proud of you for wanting to get better

[@changedmynamebcyallwouldnt..]

how was it?

[@elijah2221]

How did it go?

[@aishacortes3856]

@bored af thanks for asking it's been three weeks and I'm getting a little bit better I'll probably never return to my old self but I'm getting better.

[@angellynn7019]

@@aishacortes3856 you will never be your old self, and that’s a good thing. you’re like a phoenix rising up new, and better.

[@skaterr_baby716]

The thing is I dont wanna live but I'm to scared to die and it makes me feel so guilty like all these expectations are just building up and one day I'm just gonna crumble and it terrifys me..

[@lovelyangel7964]

I know how you feel but we are alive for a reason even if it is to keep each other afloat from drowning completely and ending it all.

[@fifthmarauder4709]

I’m a big fan of you and your edits Zoe!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ikevinalex]

Wish there was a place for broken souls to find each other. They realise the value of things more than they reveal.

[@adeladragonova3503]

Lydia, my heartbeat Are Faster Stiles, my heart explosed

[@LeNoir2411]

i used to experience blackout regularly in my childhood.. i'd go 'blank' or 'black' but moves around.. well, figured it's dissociative disorder last year at age of 22.. my latest blackout happend last year where i skipped 2days.. and that's all, i'm kinda proud of myself for doing therapy and meds.. now it doesn't happen almost at all :) but ptsd persist though :(

[@FanGirl-me5jk]

Good job you are so strong ❤️❤️❤️

[@oldirty1238]

It's ok to feel the way u feel to anyone out there that's feeling sad or depressed it's ok to feel the way u feel keep your head up and keep going I'm proud of u

[@BellaAudios]

Huge TW. Today my school finally did an assembly on sexual harassment and assault because me and around 10 other girls came forward about our stories. When we did, we were shamed and put down. In the assembly they kept on using the hashtag #notallmen and #allwomen. It angered me so much because my school forced me to speak on other sexual assault experiences. I stated multiple times that I didn’t feel comfortable. They made me and told me that I need therapy because I didn’t want to tell them. They told me that sometimes ‘you don’t get the justice that you want’ even though they have the power to do something. They told me that it was my fault that I was on gcs on Instagram because otherwise I wouldn’t have tried to commit suicide even though the reason was people telling me to kill myself at school, not online and that I didn’t tell anyone about my harassment and it tore me apart. I was blamed. My teacher told me that my ‘story didn’t make sense’ even though I told them that everything came back in chunks, not all at once. I don’t want to remember. I don’t want to feel unsafe. When I told a trusted person (not saying names or roles of the person incase someone finds this) that I tried to commit suicide with a razor, they didn’t believe me and laughed in my face. ‘How can you even kill yourself with a razor’ they said. Why does nobody care? I don’t understand what I did wrong.

[@MLSA]

Please take care )

[@sintiengel]

You are so strong and you are not alone

[@soumyajyotimukherjee4752]

You did nothing wrong. You are not to blame . It is not your fault. Understand that

[@celestialphoenixqueen9258]

things like this are why i still hate all the schools and most teachers and school staff and assemblies cause they didn't do shit all worth their salt to stop me from being bullied and being bullied for having adhd and being in a paced learning program , sooner rather than later i told my bullies and teachers and principals and all of them off everyday cause i had enough of all their bullshit and trips to the guidance counsellors office cause they didn't do shit all to help me and the trauma i went through and the emotional scars that still are present ... i skipped all those stupid ass assemblies and skipped school sometimes cause they never did me any good and on grad day i smirked cause during my grad speech i vowed i'd be the best and kick ass and take names and refused to shake hands with the ass hats people call the principals , teachers and staff and even the school board of directors . ever since then i vow to never let anyone treat me like shit again and to fight back . rules and decorum be damned !

[@blacklegacy8955]

You don't know how important this is to know that people feel how you feel. This saved me, literally I wanted to die and the same night I was about to commit suicide I found these videos in a youtube notification and I finally feel something it hurt but I could cry again....thank you

[@SunnyVids]

I'm glad you could get some help. ♥️

[@bell4010]

Teen Wolf season 4 is the best one. This video makes me cry every time I watch it.

[@smritishrish1295]

Everytime I try to Pick my head and try to step the new start It Flashes the cruel traumatic life then grabs and pulls me to the down dark place I don't want to be alive but I'm so afraid to die Bc I care everything Writing this crying and breathing like suffocating.......

[@sintiengel]

Yes I know this feeling - you’re not alone ❤️

[@melissaCgreenwood]

I can't wait to sleep forever.

[@dr-fezo4030]

I watching sad multifandom when i feel depressed not because i am sad but Because I know that a lot hurts, not just me

[@Ilovehertjes]

Wow, this is so powerful. I felt this so deeply. You really are so talented!

[@sgcha7355]

I hate the fact that these pains and traumas kept hurting but when i do feel fine, i feel guilty for not being hurt

[@ChristinaZografou]

This is breathtaking! Completely outstanding!

[@siddiqibrahim1414]

In this whole video we think about one person and feeling inferior.

[@abigailpeart6803]

When you've been watching other things 2x speed then you go on to this still at 2x speed i think it makes it a bit sadder

[@mm-jy8vy]

These videos help me get my sadness out 😢

[@felicityqueen]

This song always makes me emotional, your editing did that too!! Absolutely stunning! 🥺

[@sgsjspike]

I love the use of NF in this

[@stayoutofthecitys]

I remember when I was in this space of life I thought Nothing could go right . I still struggle but I'm in a much better place then i was I never quit , I never gave up . Trust no one and ignore the haters were all gonna make it .

[@theprincessandthepie]

i was already wrecked by this but then eliot showed up and i T-T

[@ellaisplotting]

I just...need him to be ok and they wouldn't even give us that

[@aaliyahlinton699]

suffering with depression. Pray for me.

[@aestheticssubs7949]

I’ll keep you in my prayers bby stay strong😔💖

[@ibrarkhan9878]

Stay strong my brother❤️

[@itsaweirdworldafterall]

I wonder if I'll ever win my life back or will I eventually lose the battle to my mind.

[@MammaMia-oi9sl]

I actually wanted to cry. You did an amazing job...

[@chakahope1780]

We’re all broken, some of us are just better at hiding it.

[@petr0vafire]

Isn't this pure art? Yes. YES it is 💛

[@tiadeets]

This is really, really good. Thank you for editing and sharing. ❤️

[@justincredible77786]

For those that need to hear it....... you are loved and deserve to be loved

[@user-fq4dk8zw4l]

I'm at that point of my life were I can't drown more this is the end there is nothing more bad then this it is the reality I don't feel like laughing don't feel to get out of my bed I don't feel deserved to be loved there can be nothing more bad then this but I'm thinking about getting back up standing up again and show the World how great I am.

[@drivingfruity]

omg this is absolutely beautiful 🥺❤

[@haleighkinser1067]

Please pray that everything goes well with ambers interview thing with my social worker today please and thank you ily

[@ThornyRose13]

Wow! So beautiful and emotional! Masterpiece 😍

[@xxxspotlight800]

THank you for this video. AS someone who is trying to avoid killing hereself un past few years. THank yu. THis video numbed me out, but then it made me feel a bit better. As always, your editing skils are magnificent. This video is beautiful.

[@jaideortega2472]

are you okay? i’m kind of worried because your comment is wrote as if you were on a medication of some sort maybe you were just tired ?

[@winter7496]

This makes me feel something and i haven't truthfully felt something in awhile

[@bzstudios8397]

W-O-W!! I'm so in love with ur edit! This is beautiful. Please don't stop editing, u r a fantastic editor!!👏🌟❤

[@cloisfan14]

You're such a good editor. I'm shook.

[@romilly.]

This is incredible. Incredible song, incredible work!!!

[@CatchMeJoBros]

Wow! This is really powerful. Amazing video!

[@rivero1512]

This is so amazing, you are so talented!

[@mariasplaylistt]

Beautiful as always

[@Seraphinesarah]

Life is like a test that is so frustrating when you don't seem to get the answer and you keep on asking "why" but no one answers

[@Ainsley_Lux]

I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks. I don’t express my feelings very well I showed my older sister this she seen my attacks and how I completely relate to it. She almost cried. I play this when I get an attack. Please never delete it. 😢

[@mythsandmagic]

This is so sad! Amazing job😭

[@PedroMorales-ko3hv]

Why is it that I watch these videos and I still feel cold and empty inside but it these videos that share everything I have ever been through

[@VioletEmerald]

So gorgeous and emotional!!

[@VidsbyVenus]

This is really beautiful!

[@adamsmithering3587]

This edit is incredible

[@juliapaardekooper1335]

Okaaayyyy you got me girl first the sound from Stiles then Cheryl, Lydia, scènes played by Kaya and then Stiles at the MRI😭

[@wildxheart]

This is so gorgeous

[@innocentflower97]

You're a freaking artist.

[@aftonwebster5313]

I could feel the emotions in this video.

[@priyankakar6436]

I dont know. What to do anymore. Its all neverending. So consuming. I wish i can just end it all. I wish to not wake up again. I am just tired. Tired of being me. Tired of not being enough. However much i try. Right now i have noone to say this. I hope it sees the light of day when i finally sleep. Cause i wont be able to explain ever how terrible i feel all the time since 10 years. I just want everything to stop. Just. Stop.

[@laurenm354]

this is beautiful

[@madderthanthehatter263]

Tragically beautiful

[@LeeAbraham-jz3cj]

I love this work of art

[@reina7201]

feeling so numb right now in the shower just putting my head under the water and staring at nothingness

[@sandybeaches04]

The agents of shield scenes😭💕

[@bigbear7884]

I used to have problems where idk why I would black out. I would lose feelings in my legs then my arms then everything would just go black the first time I was scared at first but when I came back I would miss how just peaceful and calm it felt while I was blacked out. No pain not thoughts not nothing just alone peaceful nothingness. Even if it were just a few seconds of peace it felt longer. I miss those days.

[@Jerry_Mozz]

Happened to me once and it was like I had just got everything lifted off me. But once I realized I was back to reality I immediately felt the weight come back down. If death is similar to that feeling I can't wait to know that all my suffering and pain will disappear and I will never have to worry about a thing again

[@lunamonroe8073]

I don't know What's worse about being in a toxic family pain that comes from loving them or the pain they make us feel

[@legionstark6703]

This human heart always messes everything up

[@rey9493]

This is amazing

[@faithfulnessakinlolu5079]

i can't do this anymore. i hate my life, but love myself.

[@claireleguelaff36]

NF x SunnyVids, my favourite artists :)

[@keelua6746]

i mainly came for the nf. now theres more fandoms, and i love this edit epically

[@xxbludger]

Love this!

[@annahope5932]

Masterpiece!

[@beyahscrocheting]

why is it that when adults have bad mental health everyone helps them but when it’s a teenager/child we’re too young to know what real life pain is?

[@lumi9834]

I love stiles's voiceover🤧

[@imhere4984]

love stiles (dylans) voice over that was the saddest episode ever

[@osbtre6788]

as a fellow trevor i support this fundraiser

[@artemisnotfowl9739]

It really is peacefully (drowning)

[@sarahabby2044]

one day all this will be gone

[@marresuletan160]

I know I’ll end everything one day.. I’m just waiting for the perfect moment. I can’t anymore!

[@Midnightblue45]

That's how I feel unworthy of everything

[@chasitythompson6238]

I’m depressed on Christmas Day 😞.

[@_.depressedkid_.6378]

Same..

[@oxycotine]

That was so heartbreaking Christmas is one of those things in this world thats suppose to be about kindness, happiness and being together. Theres no such a thing anymore. Not anymore theres nothing there.

[@leanemaillard290]

Ow Clara Oswald... what have you done ?

[@mariamchirgadze1517]

I felt every word .