Victim of Narcissist: Move On!

[@mellowyellow415]

I tried to be his friend and it completely backfired on me. Never ever stay friends with a narcissist.

[@LooneyClipse]

same. But at least he was somewhat aware of it and warned me and until much later he started showing these signs :/ so it didnt hit me twice as hard as it could have.

[@amto87]

Z. same here. never again will I try to be his friend. not worth it

[@fernandobernardo6324]

They don't have any friends.

[@samvaknin]

Narcissists have no friends www.narcissistic-abuse.com/journal85.html

[@noomiblumquist2450]

@@fernandobernardo6324 it seems like he is very social and has lots of friends

[@nberezin71]

They come back...be ready...moved by a profit motive...be prepared and be strong....dont be fooled...love yourself enough to appreciate your growth beyond them...take the lessons and love someone else...someone worthy of you

[@srosechampion]

💪❤️

[@SMA57880]

Yes and be prepared to be tested once you think you have healed from narcissistic abuse. It shows up until it is pulled from the very root inside of you. Very tricky moving on, proceed slowly.

[@arvindm2632]

Yes yes yes

[@Jennycosmo1]

Wow. If Sam Vaknin is saying no one should HAVE to be with someone like this. Take that advice!

[@sadiegirl9913]

no one knows these kind of complicated personalities till its to late. To bad this isn't taught to us in high school.

[@jemsweaters690]

So so true!

[@bobbibacha]

My moms the narcissist...try growing up with someone you can never please or understand who abuses you and ruins your life regularly

[@Ston247]

High Schools are supposed to prepare you for the "work world." They do NOT prepare you for the real world !

[@cbisme6414]

@@Ston247 yes, unfortunately it now seems everything falls on schools to teach! At some stage we've lost the safety and protection of parents, family, extended family and community for the life lessons, it's also unfortunate that it's there that these issues are also hiding. At least now caring parents to be have so much information at hand, they also have too much negative influences in their faces too, it makes you think just where is the answer?

[@j.j.5330]

@@Ston247 You got it! Its the parents responsibility to teach their kids. How to have character and standards.

[@kidsmoked]

I haven't lost the trust and love for others. I haven't lost my smile. A narcissist tries to steal your smile. Don't let them. :)

[@jeanlaubenthal698]

That has been coming up for me....drilling down I started hearing myself say if you would just not smile you might be safer. Thank you for posting.

[@mahdigoodarzi2754]

me too. but it took almost a year for me to land on my feet. now, i can smile again, even laugh. but i will never be the same person again. that naivety seems to have died

[@nangrayson532]

@DollJewel me too!

[@samsmom400]

No offense ... but ... I'll just leave it at that ...

[@samsrandoms8437]

I lost mine and it destroyed me and my confidence

[@rebecahboynton6049]

I am on my 9th day in recovery from not speaking to my narcissist. He has been using me for sex, popping in and out of my life whenever he feels like it, for 6 years. I have not felt this broken and worthless after the ways he has spoken to me in many, many years. I have nightmares almost every night, and it is difficult for me to fall asleep because his painful words play though my head. I just wanted you to know that I have been listening to these videos every night to help me fall asleep, and they have been the only thing that has worked. I pull them up, lower the brightness on my screen to dark, and I listen to you tell me that his sickness is not my fault every night. So thank you.

[@treelover1050]

YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS MAN USING YOU. VALUE YOURSELF AND LOVE YOURSELF. DON'T LET A MAN USE YOU SEXUALLY AND NOT HAVE A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP. THERE ARE MANY GOOD MEN. WHO WILL LOVE AND CHERISH YOU AND RESPECT YOUR BOUNDARIES AND NOT USE YOU. GOOD LUCK.

[@kynathomas4809]

I can identify with what you are saying and it's been 14 years off and on, no commitment and he's now single and still NOT choosing me. I'm honestly so glad we don't have kids or marriage together. At this point I'm just trying to remain no contact. I've called the police on 2016 and that kept him away for 2 1/2 years and he came back to love bomb me again and I fell for it . Now I must start all over.

[@baldrthebraveandnursechris7346]

Rebecah Boynton stay strong I feel your pain

[@janetw9932]

I have nightmares too every night , I went out with him for 4.5 years , I been not with him for like 10 months. I feel that I will never trust again, therapy only helps so much. Please be stronger then me Rebecah.

[@cbisme6414]

@@AuntyEsther I couldn't agree with you more👏👏👏 no body has the right to decide for another how long they should take to "move on" it's all subject to their individual circumstances and history, bless you. We all need to be supportive and encouraging of those going through and surviving any relationship with a narcissist. 🙏🌿🕊️

[@josephgoudreau7425]

We are so self sacrificing that it’s hard to “move on” and put ourselves first. I am still learning to put me first at least sometimes

[@kwarrior2895]

What a warrior.

[@goddessvibes08]

❤️.

[@merioummimi8272]

Exactly the same with me , i always end up being the looser , unfortunately !! I want to put myself first always

[@mariaelenarodriguez6188]

Sam said it: it is a process. Don’t freeze, keep learning to move to next phase. 👍🏼

[@tabithatierney6512]

I agree it’s very hard to move on when you are so used to putting them first and worried about just them I have 2 kids they are older but I feel I’ve lost touch with them and I need to get myself back!

[@ernestmac13]

That last line is important to remember as, the narcissist will only be happy as long as you're worse off than they are as, any success you may have will be perceived as a threat by them.

[@zeyprestige5110]

Thanks for pointing that out.

[@SMA57880]

So, so, so true!!!!

[@Kabaselefh]

Social Media Meham now I understand why each time I got a good job my narc wife hated me. At last when I decided to go back to school to change career, the move ended our 12 years marriage. This healing process has been enlightening.

[@ernestmac13]

The narc I knew was a friend who would tip heavy, not because he could afford a large tip for a taxi or at a restaurant but, because he liked the ego stroking doing so gave him. This friend also fancied himself as writer, but similar to another friend who lacked confidence as an artist and would be intimidated by the better work of other artists. Unlike this second friend who actually has some talent, the first friend had such poor grammar that; he struggled to write in complete sentences. I'm not just talking poor use of punctuation which I am guilty of myself, I'm talking being hard to read and understand due to how fragmented they were on top of poor use of punctuation. This friend similarly to the second one wouldn't compare his writing to that of others, and try to use such work to inspire him to do better, no he simply refereed to his own work. Unlike my friend who is the artist, this guy would puff out his chest and have a look of unearned pride-fullness when he would speak of telling others how he was a writer. He liked the notoriety that comes with the title writer, but he isn't willing to do such things as, join a poetry society, a story writing group, etc. The artist hasn't progressed with his craft much, but he has at least been in a publication, and you can see he has skill when you look at his work. The friend who fancies himself as a writer would often as "how does this sound as an opening line for a story or poem, only to use some line full of unwarranted and or unneeded bravado. He wouldn't listen when I told him, a story or poem is built upon a story or theme you are trying to tell, rather then through the use of inflated language that is simply used to try and impress the listener or reader. I think if he knew himself better and through that the story he wanted to tell, this friend might have the direction he needs. Sadly, this friend has baggage from childhood and PTSD from being in the military, but refuses to really address either one, using a family history of addiction as an excuse not to take psychotropics. In the end, I got tired of being an emotional punching bag when a simple miscommunication or simple action caused him to have a temper tantrum, and like a child shut down once I tried to actually engage in communication so we might work through whatever the issue was. So, one night after such a rant on his part, I recalled an Oct 2014 Esquire Magazine article I was reading at the time called, a fool at 40 is a fool forever. I though to myself, if this person is like this at almost 50, will he have dealt with his issues by 60, or even 70. I decided then and there that, I wasn't willing to deal with such behavior into my 50's 60's and 70's; so I said our friendship was over and left. My life is now calmer without having someone have outbursts over nothing, and even though we knew each other for decades and shared many common interests, I think the ridding of that chaos from my life has been for the better. He has even been told he has a borderline personality, and or suffers from narcissism, and has a God Complex; but I am sure he still doesn't see himself as the creator for much of the chaos in his own life. Narcs doesn't understand that, it is we ourselves that determine in large part how we respond to the events in our lives, and that by not having boundaries, and setting ourselves up to be responsible for the inability of others to manage their own lives, be it paying for the bills they always end up overdo on, or having to help them make the right decisions in life; we set ourselves up to have the chaos and stress that might cause us to lash out or behave in the other ways narcs and sociopaths do. Those of us who aren't narcs and Sociopaths need to understand the importance of boundaries and limits and why it is so important to end those relationships with individuals who can't respect us enough to not step over our boundaries and limits.

[@jodialan3230]

Zebede Zandale oooooijiiijooojjjoo

[@michelle4385]

No contact is the only affective way to heal ❤️

[@SMA57880]

"Once you realize that your partner is mentally ill and is dragging you down with him, you can move on." This statement depicts the exact reality of what it is to finally have the strength to leave an abusive relationship. The mood swings, the fights, the demeaning words, all of it, you just have to exit and educate yourself, and understand why you endured such needless drama. Thank you Sam. Your videos explain and clarify the madness.

[@kristel6647]

It also helps explain why we look for answers unlike normal relationships...it’s the knowing that this person is not mentally stable, nor are you imagining things or that you could change their behaviour by changing yourself etc...

[@samia6888]

This is exactly what happened to me. Idk how it clicked but as soon as I realized for real that this is something that can not be changed and understood the magnitude of the disorder it was much easier to block him.

[@ytusersumone]

He is describing what was going on with my ex-wife. I finally intuitively understood that no amount of communication will help. The same game would only continue ad infinitum, so I cut off her completely. Unfortunately no other option. It was so hard and I've mourned and still been depressed for years but it's much better now since I've become quite indiffrent and because I didn't visibly react (give supply) she doesn't (actively) stalk and harass me anymore.

[@mlesposito207]

Hello

[@DarkMadamX83]

What is the answer when they don't accept your resignation? When they are violent and unpredictable? The law does not acknowledge narcissistic abuse. It is too hard to prove. Makes the exit absolutely futile, but very hard to accomplish.

[@MinnieTyko]

I’m dumb. I left the narc and saw the advantages of leaving. Within two weeks I was looking and feeling more relaxed, felt almost no narc induced anxiety, looked younger and fresher, bloat went down, started exercising and eating healthy again, bought some plants for my house, and none of this was forced. It came naturally. This is about my 5th time leaving him. I then contacted him and he seemed so happy to hear from me. I knew he was happy because he had one more chance to use me, not because he missed me. We went through a whole cycle within 6 days. He tried to hoover me by making grand plans to take a day trip. I told him I didn’t want to go two days later because I realized what was happening and then the descent started. Now I’m having to go through the detox again. It took me two weeks to feel good. So now I know not to play with fire. I really just want to move on now. I’m so sick of this ongoing drama over and over and over. I’m ready to ignore him for good and to just get on with my life.

[@jennifermarie802]

I relate exactly to your story. Are you free now?

[@G4MESE7EN]

"..and what he seeks, is the pleasure of your destruction."

[@janetw9932]

Soo true

[@makeupjunkie6838]

I choose to win. I choose to live in the light. The narc can stay in his dark world.

[@sonicfoxxmusic4281]

GOOOOOOD MOVE.

[@zazrockwell9067]

My ex narc would rage and say "I Hate that I Love you- Fuck You- YOU WIN". It's sad I put up with that disrespect and yet let it roll off my back because I also found it fascinating in someway because I don't think like that and couldn't figure out how a very well educated women with a Masters and works with doctors all day could speak like that in private. Yup, move forward again back into the light.

[@livamoore5566]

Me too.

[@Lily.Fern.1107]

My ex (the narcissist) hated when people lied to him, all the while, being the biggest liar of all. 😕

[@samvaknin]

The Narcissist as Liar and Con-man groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/narcissisticabuse/conversations/messages/4951

[@Asia9898]

Yassss yassssss oh my God yasssss

[@anumer897]

So true! I am glad I am not the only one who has experienced this. It's nice to see there are others out there, though I wish more people did not have to deal with these kinds of a**holes. Mine says the same, "I HATE LIARS! Liars get people killed." meanwhile all the while LYING TO MY FACE constantly.

[@dancinginthepurplereign4126]

Same with my biological mother. She did cross examining.

[@Dopendekhang]

Yeah exactly these is what narcissist say. They says I hate people who lies whereas they themselves believe in their own lie and are pathological liar to the core 🤣🤣🤣

[@robbiea1482]

08:10 "by endlessly recreating your harrowing experiences, you unwillingly collaborate with your abuser in perpetuating his or her evil conduct. It is by moving on that you defeat your abuser, minimise him and his importance in your life. It is by loving and trusting anew, that you annul that was done to you." It's so difficult to move on without closure or justice. I needed this

[@tinamarie3024]

Me too.

[@mariaelenarodriguez6188]

“It is legitimate not to forgive sometimes”. I agree. Thank you.

[@c.d.s.2538]

Wow, how incredibly accurate. is anyone still watching this in 2019?

[@A.S2400]

Yup- always timely after the holidays !!

[@rvz77]

2020

[@OCtheman300]

Yeah, this mans confessions and help are priceless. I am still not theire but hopefully soon i will be narc free and can start my recovery...

[@LauraStar127]

Yep 2020. Watched this same video several years ago too!

[@lsitton]

I am and it's 2020

[@sharonsamuel9987]

I'm horrified at how many hurt and damaged people there are, like myself, on SO many comment sections under SO many videos on narcissism. The volume of people afflicted with this terrible condition is shocking, as is the seemingly growing amount of shattered people who have had to survive a relationship with them. No wonder our world is becoming a sicker place... We who have survived the automatic death sentence of life with a narcissist lose years regaining 'normality', having to claw our way back gradually as we rebuild our shattered and changed lives. The only God I will ever allow in my life again is the one whose love saved me from this nightmare. He is the only source of healing, protection and peace... Sam, your insights and accumulated knowledge have helped me reframe my understanding of what I lived... and what to do next.... Thank you

[@haliec4713]

Something that helped me heal was to write a timeline of events that had happened from the beginning of the relationship to the end. Once I began to see the patterns with a more clear mind, I began to see that it was a never ending cycle. I didn’t see it when I was with him but my body knew. 20 months ago I left and went no contact. It was the best thing I did. Beginning to find peace

[@Arid_OasisLLC]

"What he seeks is the pleasure of your destruction ". W😳W!

[@something9532]

"Can't you act civilized? Can't you remain friends with the narcissist?" (long pause. pitying look). "The answer is NO." lol

[@234Monkfish]

Two years ago I thought this was harsh. It is 100% correct and a very good summation of traits that are shown.

[@nancywillis5444]

We learn, it's hard and it's a difficult concept to wrap your head around. Sam gets the message across just the way I like it. He's a pisser, but that's OK, he's the best pisser and teacher there is.

[@jackiematney7789]

Not harsh, just reality! Sam knows...hes a narcissist himself.

[@eyes2seebeyond]

the ending words, 'the pleasure of your destruction' should awaken anyone who is going through this. thanks sam for these vids..

[@tinadorn5278]

Going thru it nowwwwwwewww 8 years of pureeeee torture!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😢😭😭😭 I'm getting outttttttt for good this time but I need tonsssssssss of help!!!!!!!!! He has physically emotionally verbal etc etc abused me!!!! My father was one too abused me too allllll abuse my father did if u know what I am taking about!!!! I am 52 my life has been pureeeee helllllllllllll I'm getting out!!!!!!!!!! And he's a full blown alcoholic on the weekends he's put knives to me choked me etc etc etc when he's real drunk because of my mouth I don't take crap off of nooneeeeeeee I'm one tuffffff girl and smart!!!!!!!! I can't wait to feel free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Idk what that feels like anymore ughhhhhhhhhhhhh but I will nnnn I can't wait!!!!!!!! I'm moving out state changing my number too!!!!!!!! They are sooooooo evilllllll

[@nedelecm]

I am divorcing my narcissist. I can’t thank Sam enough for the help his videos have been in making me understand what i have been living with for the past 20 years. Everything he says is spot on. Now to rebuild my life.

[@t.l1357]

I just divorced a narc after 20 yrs of being together. Yesterday a friend who wanted more, devalued me. He came up with a conversation out of the blue about his favorite eye color. This morphed into the story of the most beautiful woman he ever met. This person never starts a conversation outside of normal surface level things. But went into great detail of this spectacular woman. I was confused because he always tried to hint at me being this most beautiful woman and I immediately tagged him as a suspected narc. I'm attractive but no supermodel. I am well aware of exactly how attractive I am and wary of overdramatized flattery. I asked him what was the point of this convo? I asked if he ever tried to find her again because I'm sure it was possible. I would never have this woman's looks or eye color and don't care to .......... then I realized it's been about 4-6 months....the turning point for narcs. The love bombing ended and now we are onto devaluation. I sent him a note that I wish him well but I realized months ago he has no true romantic feelings, love or caring for me but rather something I give in the way of emotional support. He agreed that he doesn't even know what feelings he has for me but I was like a pacifier to him. If I was away it would be unpleasant for him and no one can replace me. So guess who is now blocked?. I realize I still have a long way to go with recovery. But I at least know how to spot a narc more quickly now and pray I will not attract these people at all in the future. Good luck to all of my empaths. These people are truly aware of the damage they are inflicting on your life. But are you? Run, don't walk away and never look back!

[@kaarenlewis1820]

Thank you, Sam Vatkin for the absolute truth about these Narcissists. I am set free!

[@jhavajoe3792]

What a guy. He's a bad mannered moron. Right, like I'm going to lay in bed with a woman talking about "any other woman on Earth?" That's about as insulting as it comes.

[@laureenanderson3122]

It is the kindness that continues to suck you in. It is so hard to believe even when you feel neglected and made small and unappreciated.

[@river7732]

100%

[@lesliemontagne6797]

Dr. Vaknin, with your teaching sessions regarding narcissism as a guide, and employ of trauma and c-PTSD therapy, I have broken free of a 41-year debilitating abusive marital relationship. May God Bless you, sir. The journey of healing is exactly as you describe. Exactly.

[@yeslek]

Oh my gosh...I'm crying my eyes out. I think I'm almost there. I hope.

[@Tamarablah]

Did you get there? I'm in the "I'm almost there" stage.

[@debidelaney3819]

It took me 33 years to finally figure out that it wasn’t all my fault. And now going on 35 years I am stuck in that angry/contempt stage. And blame too, Because my 4 children are all alcoholics or drug addicted. Thank you thank you thank you. I AM MOVING ON NOW.

[@Tomatoman857]

Sam, your website helped me even more than my therapist, way back 6-7 years ago. I lost 4 1/2 years to a N, as well as so, so much emotional capital, money, time and wasted love. She sucked the very life out of me before, one fine day, for some reason, I had had enough. "No contact" all the way. She's tried many times over the past years to scare my gf off, to no avail. Yet I have not set eyes on her once. I do believe the angels have shielded me. I do. I even took my therapist's advice and burned a personal possession of hers while saying, over and over, "Leave me alone forever." In my sleep, you see, while in bed w/ my gf late at night, I would say hurtful things, and I would have no memory of the words or of any dream that had her in it. Yet I would say things. But once I burned it (an old wrinkled camisole), I never spoke of her in my sleep again. Ty!

[@marciamarie3437]

Jim Griffin wow so glad to hear you made it bro:) its so easy to think only men can abuse but anyone can abuse anyone and it is not ok:) good luck

[@maricampari3970]

I'm still stuck. Mine stole 4 years and he never even broke it off cleanly. I am tortured beyond anything else that has ever hurt me. For 3 additional years. Why do I continue to waste my time? I can't trust anymore. Good for you.

[@jurejo]

@@maricampari3970, you waste your time because you are likely to be codependent, so look it up, it will explain why you feel the way you do. Concentrate on your healing. Narcissists are not capable of love, don't waste your precious time. Take it from one who has been there. I suggest watching all or Sam's videos, get his books & check on Richard Grannon too(he is codependent) so you get both perspectives. Also, Dr Ramani has some good videos too. It is a long road to healing, no time to waste. Leave them behind, they are not worth it, their love was just mirage!

[@maricampari3970]

@@jurejo I know I have those issues and I've been working to try to heal it for over 12 years. I've done plenty of therapy and reading/learning to cope. The recent relationship looked to be empowering and helped coax me to stand up for myself but after I found out I was being used yet again, even after I thought I had gotten out of the pattern of codependance it happens all over again. It's hard to keep morale up when every open door opportunity to escape the behavior leads me back to the same dead end room where I woke up years ago. It's hard to explain, but I feel like life will continue to slap me in the face whether I try to overcome the disappointments or not. I've been "rising above" and "moving on" since I can remember but Im getting tired of going through the motions with no light at the end of the tunnel. Frustration.

[@jurejo]

@@maricampari3970 Yes, sadly, I know how it feels. I have this problem in my professional life, I can always spot them, but problem is that they seem to be everywhere. In private life I just distance myself. I was really amazed how quickly my gut was reacting to this new friend, sadly it was right. I am trying to make myself more financially secure so I don't have to work for these people. As for private life, no idea when I will be willing to try again. Good thing is that now I feel very grown up in terms of my expectations. Stay strong & keep going. Ella

[@atheistfromaustria]

Dr. Vaknin is so absolutely right. Maybe one is in too great pain to realize this at first but if time passes, every victim will soon acknowledge this brilliant analysis. This 16 min helped more than everything else. Moving on is the most important step after abuse!

[@bonitastjulienlepauvre6489]

Wow; excellent. It's been at least a year and a half since my break-up w/the narc. Peace is wonderful.

[@lexluthor3776]

I had no idea there were people like this until I dated my ex. I've suffered emotionally and mentally even lost track of my purpose. Every time we would split she would come back into my life when I was starting to heal and then the cycle started over again. Thank god I know what's going on now so I can finally move on with my life.

[@karlmarx6067]

Thank you so much Sam you helped save my life I had to leave my "best friend" of 5 years due to him being a gaslighting narcissist with no true self. He was a complete illusion and I felt hurt when I stopped lying to myself about his true condition. I had I nasty case of maligant optimism and I highly recommend Sam's book for helping in recovery from narcissistic abuse. STICK TO YOUR BOUNDARIES AND NO CONTACT!

[@kimberlymccracken747]

Sam, I can't thank you enough. My Father is a narcissist/sociopath and I encountered another much worse. I almost lost my life in both cases. This is very helpful information. 💗💗💗

[@anumer897]

Reading all these comments below really makes me understand that why some people never achieve the kind of success they have the potential for.... because someone is sucking the life out of them for YEARS on end! :(

[@AFAKASI61]

After 23 years with a narcissist I have moved on. The battle to get free almost killed me, had to leave my job and lost my license.He made our eldest daughter his crutch and she has moved in with him. It's hard at times but I am loving the peace and calm in my home. Whenever thoughts of him intrude I try to replace them with some positive affirmation like "all good things are coming to me"

[@cinnflowergirl]

+Afakasi Much love to you. It's the crap in my head that made me easy fodder for the narc. It's great you are trying to change your thinking.

[@AFAKASI61]

+cinnflowergirl thank you and all the best to you too. It's actually a roller coaster trying to recover and heal. But always better than that hell I was trapped in. Namaste

[@AFAKASI61]

+cinnflowergirl thank you and all the best to you too. It's actually a roller coaster trying to recover and heal. But always better than that hell I was trapped in. Namaste

[@cinnflowergirl]

Namaste. It almost killed me too. I was desperate and didn't know where to go. I found a support group that helped. I realized I was acting like a love addict. I don't know if I am but looking at what I could change got me on the road to recovery.

[@samsrandoms8437]

Moving on from the narcissist's damage is very difficult for the "target" as often they only realise after the event, after strange happenings and by then a certain amount of damage is done to the t argetted partner. Very tough, as you are lone, weakened and trying to figure out what had just happened, but somehow you have to find the strength and way to pick yourself up and move on, knowing that the narcissist will discard you and not ever check if you were ok.

[@brunoantony3218]

Yes narcissists seek the pleasure of your destruction. Case closed.

[@boosybob5031]

they get madder and madder when they cannot do it. they kill themselves trying to destroy you

[@pepiyess4183]

What he seeks is the pleasure of your distruction,😲😲so true

[@jodyhing8557]

Thank you Prof. Sam. I’ve been married to my narcissistic husband for 27 years, and I’ve just been discarded and had the strength to walk away 3 weeks now. I saw the red flags through the last maybe 5 years, but was in denial. The lying, cheating, gaslighting, put down, I’m learning and getting educated..I think I’m slipping into depression, the heartbreak, is so hard to go on..The. Hardest part is that he’s able to just go on with his new supply without no remorse or anything..I’m just glad I have my parents, my 3 adult kids, and family to support me..your videos are helping I appreciate it you! I’m hoping time will heal, it’s such a lonely sad place for me to be, but I’ve got to get through it..I’m a caregiver for the last 15 years, and I’m guessing I just let it happen and was in denial, even though he was never a kind friendly person, I saw an angry, person who would just stare at me whenever I asked him questions, and shake his head without any remotes when I had a breakdown after finding out about his affair..it’s truly hard..thank you..aloha🌺 from Kona, Hawaii, Jody

[@tulinbeyduz920]

what made you stay ? can i ask ? did you not think you deserved more ? or did you just get use to the treatment .. just to me , it’s like why would you stay with someone like that …

[@Kimberly1Lily]

" The narcissist seeks the pleasure of your destruction." So in reality these people are committing a crime of kidnapping...Wow, thank you Sam Vaknin for your awesome insight.

[@brielleanyez7113]

What hurts the most is no matter how much he hurt me, I bent over backwards to make sure he was ok. He has threatened suicide for years, luring me back each time. There is nothing left inside me anymore. I'm absolutely empty. I developed Multiple Sclerosis and now I'm essentially dying very slowly. Run from these creatures. Save yourself before it's too late!

[@mimib6893]

Oh God, hang in there!!

[@GSIP69]

I hope you're doing better.

[@andreasaunders3174]

That very last point/ very last statement was CHILLING ASF .

[@hildy208]

Oh boy, wish I’d seen this video when I cut contact with my narc parents 18 months ago. It would’ve saved me a lot of guilt and anxiety over leaving them behind. I knew it was the only choice but I had no idea how painful the aftermath was going to be.

[@bustadance]

Wow, mind blowing! Wish I knew of your videos when I dated a Borderline woman! Would have saved me so much grief. Sam you are providing a great service with your channel. This should be taught in high-schools rather than the new degenerate sex-ed curriculum they are force feeding kids these days!

[@dalmatianlady2067]

Thank you. I listened to this a number of months ago. just listened again and because I am at a different stage of healing I listened differently. Your departing words are brilliant. I nearly lost everything and that includes my life. The hard thing throughout this all is realising my parents have conditioned me to confirm to this behaviour. I have been successful in my career but that was never enough. My sibling is always better. It's been difficult accepting this is what it is but now it's time to be authentic without a care of not being loved as I know I am enough within. Life has turned to the most wonderful from the depths of despair. Those words move on are the answer. Focus the attention on yourself, it's not selfish after all in fact it's very healthy. Thank you.

[@jeantave8562]

Betty Boo, I have been in this same situation, it is a difficult situation. In my experience it is even harder when people don't seem to have any idea how traumatizing the future is for a while after the break up. I waited 3 yrs to date again and started seeing a Narc, but this time I recognized the signs and went no contact. ( He was a shy/ martyr type. No friends, I never met anyone from his family, completely different from my ex fiancee.

[@RawOlympia]

You are so right! This was written so well thank you

[@Ston247]

I forgave my little narc. And I do pity her tortured soul. But greater is the need for me to stay healthy. Goodbye.

[@inspiredcamel]

Read, learn, put up boundaries.

[@gareththomas8199]

love the smirk at nobel prize comment

[@diamondvall101]

This is the deepest explanation I have ever heard!!! Thanks I needed to hear this 3 times to drill this in my head It’s all true !!!

[@JonPerson]

It feels SO good to have worked on myself and grown. My BPD ex sent this huge set of angry texts. I blocked her phones, emails, and cuddled up with the GF for a movie :) Feels good man.

[@deborahkalavrezou2385]

You say everything. How we loved, how we gave so much, then having to move on. You have so much respect and understanding of every moment we go through. Every emotion, you understand. It is so hard. But you are here , to help. Thank God. You are Brilliant. You change lives for the better.

[@judyrumbolz7327]

Thank you! So appreciate your videos! You are doing such a service to those who are trying to deal with this.

[@tracilawson]

Thank you soooo much for your knowledge. My soon to be ex-husband is a Narcissist who is also paranoid and very vindictive. Everything you talk about I can relate to and I am using your videos as a part of my healing process.

[@ishmaelseaton9601]

Thx bro you just put everything in a nutshell for me. My ex is a narcissistic psychopath and took me for a victim, then she got the biggest slap of her life.

[@tammywalters7190]

Thanks Sam for helping me get out and stay out of a completely destructive relationship. I know far more now from watching your videos, and I understand better that there is no helping these kinds of people. They don't change and never will.

[@sambasko6339]

Am in 2020..watching again..corona time..

[@kerripotkonen4300]

Me watching 10 years later :D

[@904daniela]

This is so on point. I realised much later that I had been married to one. When I decided to leave him, he had the nerve to call my family to tell them that I had become psychotic. That was the only way he could explain to himself why I would possible leave him.

[@StacyMMT]

I am on my first day of freedom from a two year relationship with a narcissist. It hurts so bad that he doesn't have even one spec of appreciation for me. And because of how his fake sparkling personality has all of our friends fooled, not only did I lose the relationship, the love I believed I had, I have also lost a slew of friends. I can't wait to stop feeling this way. Thank you for your videos. You have helped me realize what was going on even before the end. Thank you.

[@ladykarendean]

Thank you Mr Vaknin, I needed to see this so badly. I have just been decimated by a narcissist verbally. When I rejected to be their victim of NSupply, I was verbally abused and devalued. Thank you for getting me to see that living well is the best for us. Also, thank you for putting the N's evil and destructive behaviour into perspective. Thank you,Sir. Thank you.

[@danielanoebel8365]

Great advise. Yes sooo hard to move on.

[@gratituderanch9406]

my husband just helped new realize my mom is a narcissist. Helps me understand why I've been so approbative, have such an easy guilt trigger. As we've our own children, we are faced with pushing her away. Still feel bad about it, and she slanders us to the rest of the family, but I'm done. I will not be abused any more, and my children will never go through that. We're not angry, feel sad for her, I will always love the woman who gave me life. We wish she could be a part of our life, but as no help has helped, and we've tried, but agree it's now time for distance. your videos, really even the ones on Obama really struck home. how was I blind for so many years?

[@samvaknin]

Narcissistic and psychopathic parents and their children - click on the links: groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/narcissisticabuse/conversations/messages/4727

[@GUITARTIME2024]

Gratitude Ranch i did the same thing. No contact 7 years now w my mother, and i have a 10 yr old daughter and wife. Some people just cannot respect others and they are toxic.

[@minoufr.5274]

Every one of these videos describes my life for the last 15 years!! It took me 13 years to finally have the guts to say "no more" and two years of patient fighting and self educating to build an exit strategy!!!! These videos are spot on every behavior I experienced! Now I have to protect and save my three children from the abuse of their dad!! It is mentally exhausting some days.

[@MsMaggieMia3]

I have just started researching the Narcissist (Male/Husband/Father) of 33 years. I am amazed, and appalled that I have never thought of this, the Narcissist, in him. Now, after watching and reading (your comment) I have now seen utterly the exact experience I have lived with him for 33 years! OMG, he's 71 I am 57, our children, 25, 31 and 32, he has no relationship with, no feelings. I loved your response to the video and thought I would say to you "thank you"!!!!

[@minoufr.5274]

My pleasure Martha!! I am so glad that sharing my experience was useful to you.

[@CapricornSunSagRisingLibraMoon]

Damn! This entire video is so enlightening and profound especially the ending; it's frighteningly DEEP! Thanks for educating me. You are a gift to those who want to learn about such disorders.

[@mlesposito207]

I wish I have heard this teaching along time ago. He made me believe I was weak, naive and stupid. This is a projection of himself.

[@roseh1132]

Thankyou Sam. I am starting to learn more and more about narcissists & sociopaths thanks to the many resources out there. No contact has been a lifesaver for me. I recommend it to anyone involved with these toxic humans.

[@nberezin71]

Thank you for helping me navigate this hero's journey....it is absolutely to face and work through each of these steps and become liberated. Your videos have been essential to building the next steps in my life.

[@MelodieofMovement]

Still in the learning phase.. moving on to grieving... I am looking forward to forgiving, pitying and moving onto a man who I can have a relationship that I don't constantly feel like I'm not enough.. sigh... in time..

[@barrett008]

Thank you professor Vaknin! This video is best summary and description of basic NPD behavior.

[@catherinemccormack2919]

Thank you, a million times, thank you~ I've listened to you now perhaps for hundreds of videos and I repeat this one over and over, hearing new phrases depending on where I am in the healing process and each time it's the best advise I've ever heard. Thank you~

[@lofotling7953]

Dear Professor Vaknin. I honestly thank you so much for your effort to publish all this content about those complex mental illnesses and disorders. Your detailed scientific multi-perspective points of view help me a lot to understand the dynamics between loved and affected ones, to recognize behavior patterns, to understand myself better and to find an way out of such a relationship - and to heal. Your work is an enrichment and I appreciate it in all aspects. I am looking forward to any new content and wish the best for you. Kind regards, F. Tanner

[@bachopinbee5991]

GENIUS! Already ahead of his time

[@marisamurrow7376]

Top of the line information on this topic. Thank you for sharing your expertise Sam!!!!

[@nikkishaye9385]

11:00 the ‘small favors’ was my entire almost 40 years of life with my Father. It REALLY is awful when the person who wrecks havoc on your soul is the one that is supposed to protect you and love you most. Sick. Stockholm Syndrome is very real. 🙁 Almost a month no contact though. Even called the police to have him stop stalking me for money and a place to live. I’ve been hospitalized over 20 times as the result of having 2 full blown Inverted Narcs as parents. I never ever thought I could be this strong, so if anyone reads this, I promise if I can do this, ANYBODY can! Thanks Dr. ✨

[@MystiqueGlobe]

very accurate they are stalkers also and its hard to cut off from them and when you try to do they try to create a group of people and turn them against you...

[@ytusersumone]

Exactly. My exwife stalked and spied (and probably still wants to know everything) on me and systematically and somewhat descretely turned people away from me playing the victim and telling them her projections of me being a cheater, a narcissist etc. when in reality it was completely the other way round. As a semi known person she even threatens to write an autobiography with these lies in it to destroy some more, if she can. And people would actually believe her too, normal people who think they have sufficient discernment.

[@SN-bl6xm]

This happened to me. After going no contact with my narcissist family members, I just recently figured out that they are stalking me. Before they have already turned my friends and other family members against me. I moved to a different continent and I am trying to heal and build up a new life.

[@healingrain195]

"narcissist seeks the pleasure of your destruction"... yes, thank you, your videos help me tremendously.

[@debradeane6151]

Sam Vaknin, I am so grateful to you for these videos. I am nearly 7 weeks out from a 4 month relationship. It's been a very painful but educational experience. Our last week, we had a disagreement and he went into a Narc rage & was verbally abusive. I shut it down and got OUT, but it was brutal and ugly. Now I know I should have gone "no contact". I've gone through all of the stages of grief - my rage is finally dissipating, but it's taking longer than I expected to heal!

[@Chrisnuzzo76]

An unbelievably accurate description of what I was living in. And also I want to thank you for description of the emotions experienced during the aftermath repair stage because right now I am in the middle of that and didn't know if I would ever feel better.

[@MsDlkelley]

Thanks for your video. Wish I knew twenty five years ago what I have learned about narcissists in the last few months. Your videos have been most enlightening.

[@yellove484]

[@judyklynstra531]

This message is the best gift you could give yourself when dealing with this type of person...MOVE ON and quick! Before they can show you how "sad" they are and how "sorry" they are...it will only be a matter of time before they are no longer either of those things. Thank you Sam for all the work on these videos, so very helpful!!

[@mokonamodoki5202]

At the age of 50 (after all these years of abuse and confusion) facing the fact that my mother is an extreme narcissist is a relief ( like yours, my mother is a textbook case ) but also devastating, worse than being orphaned, and leaves us with only the low contact or no contact choices, neither of which is very satisfying. I wish you the best in your journey, and hope you find plenty of self love, acceptance and self forgiveness...

[@rosemaryhaddon595]

I left my narcissist ex before he discarded me and went no contact with my narcissist mother in order to nip further damage in the bud. They're oblivious to their psychopathology so all you can do is move out and move on.

[@rosemaryhaddon595]

@Felicity Unfortunately, even though it was the right move for years I carried around a big burden of unhealed narcissistic abuse that wreaked havoc with my life. It is only now that I understand the implications and can begin to heal properly. Thank goodness for these video clips that explain exactly what happens when you become the unwitting victim of these types.

[@carolineharbour1673]

Sam I still don't understand how my boyfriend could idolise his ex girlfriend and run after her doing everything for 6 years Breaking his neck too keep her happy She was a queen bee And how he put me into triangulation with her from day one Treating me badly And takeing everything he could My heart my money my self respect my dignity So is it that differenttypes of women serve different purposes She was strong and didn't give him an inch And I was weak a doormat that he walked all over And blatantly useing me

[@TheNinnyfee]

Archaic Chinese is a very good comparison. And a funny one. :) On the other hand, some co-dependents tend to think of a narcissist as a kind of child in need, no matter if their rage upsets them or not. You always run to assist the child, no matter how exhausted/degraded/attacked you feel. The attack will pass, and then the child will smile again because you made it happy. And when you try to get out of a relationship with a narcissist, you really feel that something is missing. It is like always eating very spicy food, getting a stomach ulcer from it, and suddenly you are not allowed to eat spicy food any longer. Everything tastes bland. However, you suddenly realize that there are other foods than spicy foods, other tastes, other textures, etc. And you ask yourself why on earth you always had to eat such an amount of spice.

[@samvaknin]

The Narcissist as Eternal Child samvak.tripod.com/journal92.html

[@debran.3100]

Mr. Vaknin. Thank you for sharing this frighteningly accurate information on a disorder that is so devastating to others. I started watching two years ago but I was just not ready. I still loved my husband too much and not myself. It was beaten into my head so much that I was at fault and he had everyone thinking I was crazy because I would react to his passive aggressive cues while he would be calm as a cucumber and play the innocent unaware victim. We moved closer to his daughter and it is evident there are also serious enmeshment issues. Without any supporting network, it finally hit me that all hope was lost. I felt so ashamed and stupid for my hope and persistent love and pleading that he be loving and faithful. The video explaining why we stay took that shame and helped me to let go last night. Thank you again. For me and for all those like me. Hatzlacha rabbah and a gut erev Shabbat.

[@wsalaam02]

before I met a narcissistic I had friends family this evil thing destroy every one and everything it comes in contact with, thank God for people as yourself to educate now I know what to look for keep doing what you do

[@krisscanlon4051]

I realize the amount of time wasted on these folks...it's a process but time moves on...take my part in the dysfunction. I feel that my addiction kept this thing going much like my alcoholism. I see how my whole life has been like this from day 1. Mind alteringly truthful to me.

[@LElayneSousa]

I totally agree with you! I was in the exact same position a year ago and it still hurts a little to this day. It is definitely a shock! And they turn on you so fast too. True! SO true!!

[@heatherstevenson5640]

Thank you so much for posting these videos. They are so tremendously helpful. Such a chilling ending: "...what he seeks is the pleasure of your destruction." I left my husband almost ten months ago, but it wasn't until recently that I finally recognized the truth of that statement. I still hoped he would change. Now, with the help of your videos, I am finally seeing he simply can't. I feel more compassion for him and for myself as a result, and I am emotionally moving on at last.

[@wandaday3394]

My brain is still reeling after 25 years of marriage.

[@SWForce]

your so right Im going thru all those stages after leaving a abusive Narcissist. I left I found about this after I started researching articles to try to heal. Thats when I realize he was a Narcissist. Very abusive lits like dealing with a man child tantrums and its all about them and they have no empathy at all. You can see though they are always thinking and manipulate. They use people bigtime. Cheap people dont want to pay for anything they want u to pay and very lazy.

[@joannaoconnor9418]

6 years of narc abuse, now 4 months out of the relationship and I am broken. The aftermath of abusive relationships is like a city after the blitz. Understanding what happened is vital for recovery but it is also devastating realisation after devastating realisation. It's a long road ahead of me. I feel undone at the seams. I feel every emotion under the sun all day long, round and around. Devastating destruction.

[@dabarisgod]

My family have utterly humiliated, berated, bullied me. I have tried to stop them but they are getting worse as they age. They are now getting other people to become aggressive with me. Is leaving the only way out of this nightmare. Thanks, Jim.

[@Taye5394]

dabarisgod Yes it is. Leave, life is so much better.

[@jurejo]

Dear Dabarisgod, Leaving is the only option. Save yourself & life will be so much better, I promise.

[@ludmilamaksimova5516]

@@simpletruths5322 👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿🌹

[@jubilantlady]

Yes I will from here on out. Its a shame that people do this other people...but it may be more of a shame that people don't know about this dynamic of NPD! So glad that Sam is doing videos to expose these SNAKES!!!!

[@tomsmithbowhunting]

Jesus Christ Sam, you just helped me tremendously! !! Your vids are great, but this one is stellar! !!!!! I have a 12 year old son with a narcissistic female that has emotionally cut my throat. Has many many sexual partners over our 13 year relationship and has cut me to shreds. I moved on a month ago. They will destroy you and enjoy your pain as you crumble into despair and nothingness. God bless you Dr. Vaknin:), big hug brother! Respect!

[@mervisippola]

Stay strong tomsmith ! Te after affects will show up here and there, but do not let that affect you. Just make up your mind, that you'll never be the narcissistic suply again ! Just always put your son first and know, that for her it's about winning. She is incapable of really caring about your son. Sad, but true.

[@Chrisnuzzo76]

I have been through sam for 8 years and I had 2 children with her which after I left her and tried to get custody of my children her narcissistic behavior of trying to be the victim has gotten my children taken away from her. And now because she painted me as a monster for leaving her neither of us can have them back. Her cousin was an abused child and believed everything my ex said so the cousin called dcf on my ex. It's such a giant mess and recovering from the years of battle from not understanding that there was no way she would stop the destructive behavior because I was only a tool for her to behave the way she did. I enabled her because I kept staying with her even with her drug abuse and permiscuity. Now I have fallen apart after the destruction my codependency has been feeding.

[@slobomotion]

Christopher Nuzzo You have to quit worrying about the kids. They have to sort this out for themselves, unfortunately. Huge sacrificers "for the children" give me the creeps. I have spoken to too many friends over the six decades of my life whose tunes changed once the kids got to be 20. And the tunes were not melodic. You should have thought about your responsibilities when you had the children. You'd find my new country shocking. You have a child here, you must support it in perpetuity. Period. This is the law.

[@robyn9513]

slobomotion Im sorry but how can you sit here and tell this man to stop worrying about his children!? Then basically tell him he shouldve thought about that when he had the kids! Look, I was with a Covert Narcissist who drained me of my self esteem, confidence,my way of thinking (brainwashing) to the point that i'm still struggling with healing that it feels debilitating! Im a single mother who puts in a fake smile everyday and constantly beats myself up over all the bs this reptile put myself and my kid through. Idk if you have kids yourself, but if you did and been through this same kind of God awful abuse, I personally would never tell you to stop worrying about your kids! I dont give a damn what your laws in your country says. If you truly haven't been through our situation, then don't speak your negative thoughts on people that have been damaged by these sociopathic demons! #angerphase

[@patriciaturner7346]

Omg! It only took my daughter and me a few minutes to get ready to go to the mall.

[@VersusVS1980]

Because even though you may not understand archaic chinese, if theyre hitting you, screaming at you, doing something you dont like....whilst speaking archaic chinese...you dont need to understand it to know it's not a good thing.

[@nancywillis5444]

Robert Khattar !! Yes, ain't that the tits, though!? Love and identify strongly with his depictions of subjugation - superb visuals and writing. I think that each time I listen to it, another phrase rises and jumps in my lap - as if to say, hey! Psst! You lookin' for me? And I nod and say - yeah, I was. I didn't know it, pardon me, my brain is mush, courtesy of the daily mind fuckery from my husband.

[@littleiodine9480]

@@nancywillis5444 absolutely love what you said oh, and the way you said it! Thank you :-)

[@katblue3]

Sam, you're right about the damage inflicted. It hurts so much, like PTSD. You perfectly describe the emotional process of grieving. I'm in the knowledge phase now and your videos are extremely helpful. Thank you.

[@PrettySmartBlackGirl]

Thank you for sharing this info. your videos have helped me understand so much. I am a very empathetic person and I went through horrible trauma in a past narcissistic relationship. I went through so much pain and depression even years after dealing with the relationship. I hated myself. I'm now engaged to a wonderful man who has helped me in my healing process and I'm happy for the most part, but it's still hard for me to be vulnerable with him. I have a huge issue with trust. I'm working on my healing though. I know it's possible to completely let go and love openly without fear one day.

[@june8898]

This was an excellent video. Thank you