Scared Sober with Delirium Dirk - Real Delirium Tremens and Alcohol Withdrawal

A brief overview of Delirium Tremens and Alcohol Withdrawal. The most horrifying experience of my life. Followers welcome. More vids and stories to come.Delirium.
Dirk experienced the most frightening experience of his life when he went into 4 days of Delirium Tremens. He recounts his experience in detail of audio and visual hallucinations as he suffered in agony for 4 days. He describes his encounters with the Top Hat Man, Demons, Shadow People, and the Hooded Figure. He provides insightful information in the world of alcoholism, Delirium Tremens, and Alcohol Withdrawal. Which at times can be horrific or comical.
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[@frankiepoindexter445]

I survived delirium tremens more than 3 times. I have been sober since August 5th, 2020. I'll be 35 years old soon. The experiences of terror, vivid dreams, hallucinations, insomnia, paranoia and hopelessness that I suffered through due to alcoholism are unimaginable. It's nearly impossible to convey. I'm thankful that my drinking days are behind me, that my body was strong enough to survive. I'm lucky to be alive.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Well said, brother!!! Well said. Yep. The human body (of real alcoholics) is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. Can't believe it myself. Thanks so much! You are a living miracle. Dirk:)👍💯✅

[@frankiepoindexter445]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober I've watched several of your videos and I want to thank you for putting your experience out there. My family and friends don't believe me when I talk about several of the the agonizing mental odysseys I've been through. They didn't care, it was just "get clean" "get sober" and it was that simple to them. But I'm a real alcoholic, not many people can relate. Thanks again, and for your reply!

[@1badombre82]

I haven't drank since either. DTs certainly scared me sober. Never need to feel that way again

[@laced99]

As a survivor of alcoholism Im so happy for u. Im going on 3 years July 5th and still struggle with what it did to my body. I dont have enough fingers or toes to count the stints in rehab. Having to learn how to walk again after a 10 day induced coma was enough to make me stop

[@pavelkish7142]

That terror is portal to demons. People that experienced DT always see demons/dark shadows.. they never see and hear lullabies and flowers. I hope you all following the CHRIST, man. Theres no such thing as luck.. LORD gave you another chance. People die from this easy. I lost friends to this.

[@eugeneaxe]

To all survivors of alcohol addiction and tremens here: You are amazing. 🌞

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank you so very much for your positive feedback and support!! That goes a long way👍 Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@aaronluna4341]

Thanks man. Hard to kill, that’s for sure. But I will die one day 😃

[@ih8u228]

Wow. I had tremends. Not just withdrawals. Thank you for ur story. 4months here

[@1badombre82]

Thank you. My DTs were terrifying to me and everyone around me.

[@xKapnKrunch]

Scariest thing in my life...

[@shaunl446]

Thank you. I'm 2 days sober. Not much but hey. I hope you're doing well.

[@layersoftheonion8168]

Hope you’re still sober!

[@diane8168]

Hope you are OK. This just popped up on my feed. I really hope my fiance can at least try like you. Never give up❤

[@shaunl446]

@@diane8168 it's been a uphill battle. I stayed sober yesterday because I wanted to take my 2 girls to the fireworks like I have every year. I hope your fiancé at least discovers he has a problem. That's a start. Best Wishes!

[@shaunl446]

@@layersoftheonion8168 still fighting but haven't given up! Thank you for the well wishes! You're awesome

[@evonne315]

Hey I got one week in! Only my third time quitting in my life. Doeant matter though all that matters is the Now and what we do Now. You got this! Keep going ❤

[@camarossdriver]

I’ve been sober (5 years this November) and I went thru’ all of this. I was downing a 750ml of vodka a day with a 12 pack beer chaser. I was a daily blackout drunk. I seizured in my sleep a few times,and almost bit my tongue off once. In the morning EVERY DAY,I couldn’t even walk down the stairs because my knees were shaking so bad. It took all of my effort just to get to the gas station each morning to get my vodka supply. My hangovers were EPIC! I’m VERY LUCKY to still be here. It’s STILL “One Day at a Time” for me…but I feel GREAT now

[@charlescossel7948]

Keep it up buddy!

[@hankbellamy]

I'm only 24 had kidney failure and had seizure in shower from withdrawal broke my back nearly died I still drink but not as heavy

[@Fragrantbeard]

@@hankbellamyI believe in you. Your story has not yet been written. You are worth it. Please take care of yourself.

[@camarossdriver]

YES! All the time.

[@sqwidink1]

Good for you! Alcohol is evil stuff 😇

[@OnasTarot]

As a nurse who has professionally detoxed many a soul......my heart goes out to all who have suffered this event. It's awful.

[@JohnGlen502]

How do you do it? Not cold turkey?

[@OnasTarot]

@@JohnGlen502 with benzos and IV fluids

[@sladderemil5720]

@@JohnGlen502 They give u different benzos IV

[@tl1635]

I feel absolutely terrible for the nurse's that had to deal with me.. I know it was bad but to this day I don't know for sure what was real or not... I really really hope some of it was a dream.

[@BoondockGore]

Can't you just drink less until you stop? Like pour an exact amount and only that each night then gradually lower the amount or something?

[@darecop2112]

I lost my job and almost my marriage of 20 years due to bourbon and vodka. I experienced the DTs, but not to this extent. I ended up in rehab this year for six-weeks, and have been sober since April 2, 2023. I feel so like a new person. I praise God and His grace for bringing me out of that life of destruction.

[@user-bn3ed4db3b]

I'm one day ahead of you, I stopped on the 1st of April 2023. I haven't had any cravings and I don't miss anything about it thank goodness.. I can't believe that I have been drinking for as long as I did now that I'm sober.. it's such a gutter drug, I will never start again.

[@truthseek3017]

You know about the parasites and snakes.

[@Jay-zx5hx]

Amen

[@rutherke41]

I was hallucinating so bad that still to this day, nearly three years later, I have a hard time trusting my own eyes. I would see people I knew in my apartment, hear doors opening and closing, people talking, and I would see spiders EVERYWHERE. It was horrifying. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Its AMAZING that REAL DT'S are so powerful, and the mortality rate is frightening. I'm glad you survived!!! Thanks much! Dirk:)👍👍👍

[@Meezyb33]

We’re the hallucinations scary for you? I will hallucinate cats or unknown people and it literally put me into shock almost and everything is so hyper sensitive!

[@rutherke41]

@@Meezyb33 yes. The first few times it happened it scared the hell out of me. Then I became accustomed to it happening after binges and was able to tell what was real and what wasn’t. Which is insanity. I continued to drink. But the hallucinations had lasting consequences for me. I have been in recovery for three years now and I still find myself questioning my own eyesight. Whenever I see a bug my first thought is “is this a real one?” It’s really sad. But I am SO grateful to be sober.

[@Meezyb33]

@@rutherke41 I feel like no one has this side effect but do you get jumpy at any sudden touch and like jump at any unexpected noise and just flinch and look over? And any hallucination is scary to me, it’s just that I’m hypersensitive on DT or something, I’ll 100% see a cat and flinch so hard and then my eyes fix on that’s it’s just a pile of towels lol

[@rutherke41]

@@Meezyb33 I can’t remember exactly if that would happen, but I do believe it is. I am a fairy jumpy person as is, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that was happening while I was drinking. My anxiety was absolutely AWFUL towards the end of my drinking.

[@DelaniaAndTheDogs]

The way you described waking up, drinking, vomiting and then being able to hold liquor down was spot on. I had tears in my eyes hearing your story. Brought me back to the worst place I’ve ever been and made me grateful again for the gift of sobriety. I’m sober and cigarette free since Sept. 4, 2021. Beating addiction feels great. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m sorry you went through that nightmare.

[@TeboShepherd]

The doctors making phenergren impossible to get a hold of never helped. There's a special place in hell for whoever invented zofran. Zofran is less effective than placebo, but since phenergren was no longer patented, they release zofran on the public. If raging alcoholics could pop a phenegren when they can't hold loquir down, theyd be just fine!

[@kevinmc4500]

I totally know that feeling, I got sober 10jun21….it was detox by myself at its worst!!! Congrats on your success!!!

[@red_words]

Jesus is real all I did was yell out to him one night and boom over night didnt even have any more urges to drink. Although i did drink a couple more times it just wasnt even enjoyable after that. I am conviinced the Holy Spirit changed me because even other parts of my lofe regarding morality changed instantly. Not saying I walked perfect but nothing was the same after that. Sinning isnt fun anymore I guess when you get the Holy Spirit. It was a miracle and it can happen for you too.❤✝️ Edit: i should clarify before this happened I would have been lucky to go a few hours without drink or xanax or weed.

[@red_words]

​@@kevinmc4500Seriously dude try Jesus whole heartedly. Jesus Christ is real and he is God we werent lucky like some of them that saw miracles be performed in the flesh but we are still seeing miracles attributed to him today because yes even with my miracle he left his signature and is still showing up for me.

[@imfromtheinternett6155]

Lol yup . I used to wake up and chug water to make myself vomit that way I wouldn’t puke up/waste any booze when I chugged a beer or 2 after that vomit session lol

[@PaddyWonka9]

I was in the hospital when my DTs started. The nurse gave me something to help me sleep, and an hour later I started to hear the faint guitar solo of Bohemian Rhapsody (which continued playing in my head for 3 days on). I swore I was having a reaction to the medication but was too nervous to tell the doctor's what was going on. Later that night I started seeing people who weren't there in the corner of the room and even swore to my wife that my sister had been sitting next to me. Next morning I was taking pictures of tree outside of my hospital room to PROVE to my wife there was a MARCHING BAND PRACTICING IN THE PARKING LOT. I was so convinced, that she started to agree with me as to not panic me. The hallucinations are terrifying, but the overwhelming CONFUSION on top of the visions and sounds makes one think you've totally lost your mind.I remember 3 nurses holding me down because I was trying to put on my shoes when they had a big needle in my wrist to check my blood gasses . I was released from the hospital in the middle of my hallucinations because I begged and lied to be sent home. We stopped at a publix by the hospital and I got trapped in the bathroom stall. I was confused, things were still appearing and the damn guitar solo wouldn't stop playing in my ears. I was in there for at least 45 minuets in a ball on the ground crying before my wife found me. I'm now 8 months sober the 23rd. Seek medical treatment, please people. It is TERRIFYING

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

You just 'NAILED' REAL DELIRIUM TREMENS! Its so awful...so terrifying, and, IT KILLS US!!! You are a miracle, my friend, as am I. Thank GOD for 'Sibriety'. You, and your post, may help thousands.. So glad you are here! Much love, Dirk Delirium:)👍👍💯💯‼‼

[@PaddyWonka9]

I appreciate the kind words! One of the biggest things I feel I can contribute is informing others of the stages and symptoms of DTs. I had been admitted to the hospital upwards of 7 times (that I can recall) most of the time in the ICU or Stroke unit. Out of all the times admitted, because of my dishonesty and the lack of awareness of DTs, not a single nurse or doctor could figure out what was wrong. It could have cost me my life as it has many others. With alcohol as popular as it is, I feel spreading awareness in the medical community should be a responsibility for us. Thanks for the love! -Spanky

[@johnhewlett525]

Very similar to me I kept hearing some song over And over..thought it was coming from someones house ..no one else heard it..it actually went on for a while ..after hospitalization and lithium it slowly went away..I was imagined everyone was talking about me and people were coming up the stairs to kill me ..I knew the people as well..it was real to me ..I also ripped off a drip in hospital convinced they wanted to kill me..they transferred me to 2 other wards..then the librium kicked in I felt better ..1 year later sober and no hallucinations or songs playing over and over ..never again

[@PaddyWonka9]

@@johnhewlett525 such a scary and confusing time. Im coming up 9n 11 months sober myself. Proud of you my man!

[@johnhewlett525]

@@PaddyWonka9 thank you my friend..keep it up..we dont want to go back there ..proud of you

[@mashmash7877]

I am 15 months sober after over 20 years of daily heavy drinking. My withdrawal experience was chest tightness, shaking, sweating and extreme anxiety. It took about a year to get over the anxiety and I'm still suffering somewhat but life is getting easier every day that goes by

[@DonnyLusk]

Proud of you!

[@volpeverde6441]

don't PANIC if these feelings come back.... I've been off the drink for 14 years - but your body REMEMBERS.... every so often you will get a mini version of these symptoms - like phantom withdrawal.... don't panic - just ride em out....

[@sararyan1255]

👍👍💕🥰🙏

[@DrSaxxy]

That's an incredible achievement, wo/man!!

[@DrSaxxy]

I just realized 'person' makes more sense. :)

[@Irishbeermonk]

As an Irishman with in-laws who are functional and heavy alcoholics, my sons grandad had the TDs Jan 2022. Over Christmas, we had him down from County Sligo for 2 weeks. He brought his own Whiskey down, his own beer, his own alcohol mixers for the vodka he distilled in his home. On New Years Eve he got really drunk. He went upstairs to the toilet and decided to pop into the spare room to his grandson and wish him a happy new year while he slept. He didn't hold his balance and fell on the 2 month old baby and broke his eye socket. So he quit drinking after the response he got from the family. The Saturday after New Years he didn't have one drink we heard him crying and screaming downstairs, he was telling us that skeletons of the Martians were living in our home and he couldn't believe that we couldn't see what he was seeing. My sister in law gave him a beer (we're pretty used to this in Ireland) and he refused. He kept refusing until she told him that she loved him and that its okay. He drank the can and another and another and slept. The next day we got him into AA. He's now 3 weeks sober, still smoking and drinking a lot of Pepsi Cola. But I'm hoping he keeps this journey going.

[@James-lm6wt]

How’s he doing is he still off the drink 🙏🏻

[@Irishbeermonk]

@James-lm6wt he has his ups and downs. He did drink a few pints one night and didn't drink for months and during the summer he drank 4 bottles of Corona and hasn't drank since. Very strange,but seems to be managing his life much better than I've ever seen him.

[@James-lm6wt]

Suppose you can forgive him the odd few drinks as long as he don’t have to rely on it again maybe was a blessing in disguise what happened seemed to have shook him up a bit…my friend was a full blown alcoholic 16 old English and 35cl bottle of brandy a day for a good 10 years lost his pancreas now he’s a diabetic has to have insulin everyday he don’t touch the drink no more

[@Irishbeermonk]

He's not a selfish man, I think the way he was before scarred him emotionally. The drink didn't suit him. That it. Especially the spirits. He just made him blackout drunk and really clumsy. He'd never be angry or anything, usually very witty and funny. But, I think he's realised he's funny when he's not drunk also and gave him a newfound confidence in himself. I think he likes to have beer, even when we're not around, as long as he's with people. His friend said he was drinking Heineken in his local pub, had a few, stopped and sat around with a pot of tea after. He sat out in the summer with a few Corona Lights in the sunshine, only drank 4 out of the 6 bottles and didn't drink for the rest of the weekend he stayed with me. I don't know is actually addicted to alcohol or has actually come to terms with being able to be himself and not needing it as a crutch. Time will tell. I'm not educated enough on the subject to lecture anyone on how to live or how they feel.

[@GrCent]

I am coming up on 46. I have been a DJ at nightclubs most of my adult life. That sent me into the arms of alcohol. I've never had delirium tremens, but I have very paralyzing anxiety for some times two days after my last drink. I recently quit for 12 days and then the other night I started drinking again, and I drank last night as well. I got up this morning and had a drink in my hand within an hour. I started feeling panic and anxiety coming on right at the first drink. I put the bottle down, took a hot bath and I'm going to lay in bed and recover today. I'm going to try and quit again. If anything, at least I had 12 days sober, and more to come. Thanks man.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank YOU! If you visit your 'Primary', they can prescribe a short script to make it easier on your body. Also, EAT & DRINK a ton. I always liked lemonade & Gatorade. Even if it doesn't sound appealing, eat.. Good deal, amigo! Also, hit the Subscribe tab. I've got about 60 videos & will do better about 'new material ' Thank you so very much for your positive feedback and support! Dirk:)👍💯👍💯

[@GrCent]

I always have an easier time eating when I'm not drinking. When I'm drinking heavy the only time I eat is when I'm all done for the night. Then I get up in the morning sometimes I get sick and have to throw up. It is a vicious cycle. I subscribed as soon as I saw this video the first time. You are most welcome and thanks for the support.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

@@GrCent Right on, my friend! Rigbt on... D:)👍🙏👍🙏

[@Jchristpsalms8411]

That's when you need to stop the alcohol is consuming you. You feel anxiety until your drunk. Then you go to sleep and wake up feeling ok.. then anxious as soon as you think about drinking again.. then it starts all over again. It's never ending unless you stop. Recommend slowing down with wine to beer to non alch to none..

[@user-bn3ed4db3b]

Did you get clean?

[@brianpeters7847]

I was a terrible drinker every day and that's all I could do was drink and I never had DTs thank you God... Sober and happy and reasonably content..

[@ashleydukinfield4868]

How much were you drinking per day

[@cM-zm5kp]

@@ashleydukinfield4868 lol he drank 1 beer a day

[@Dwightpower88]

Gatekeeping alcoholism? Jew.

[@SB-wq6qp]

My dad passed away from this about 14 years ago. He was a really good person but had a horrible drinking problem. It makes me happy that you survived. God bless you ❤️

[@aidanhall6679]

My condolences 💐

[@melizc8785]

This video helped me realize I’m not crazy. I saw the same shrouded creature with yellow eyes in my kitchen one night, and called my boyfriend screaming at the top of my lungs. It’s crazy how alcoholics see the same things. I’m not sober yet but I’m hoping to get there soon. Wish you the best.

[@user-bn3ed4db3b]

Have you stopped yet? Maybe consider a rehab to give you a starting point that's supervised in a controlled environment. I don't need to tell you that the longer you drink the more damage you do...

[@user-op7um4ui3f]

Don’t forget. Alcohol is actually called: SPIRITS for a reason. 1Day at a time AA FAMILY

[@bdean1481]

I am 23 right now and wasn’t really big on alcohol until the last 6 months and today I said I need to stop this before it turns into something that’ll kill me. Thank you for your advice, and I am glad you are alive and sober. Life is beautiful.

[@jamesreid343]

Hey bro. Just a word from me. Plz plz plz knock it on the head while you can. I'm clean a year after a relapse on heroin. I'm on suboxone now. Alcohol was ALWAYS there in my addiction from an early age I was unknowingly creating he'll formyself in later life. Out of all my detox's coming of booze cold turkey was HORRIFIC. Imagine being as scared a little kid shaking and wide awake for days but being totally debunked with no energy but my brain was just stuck in flight or fight mode and heart going nuts, have had to go to A and E about my heart from stopping. It's sheer he'll man. Just as bad as coming off of heroin and actualy life thretening as you can have a seizure. With drugs, you can take your self away from the scene and make it hard to access them. With booze it's Everywhere

[@drivenmad7676]

Great job my friend. I was addicted to benzos, booze and heroin. Four years sober last May.

[@jamesreid343]

@drivenmad7676 Similar story then man! I feel you bro. Keep up the good work 💪

[@mikeys7536]

I knew I couldn’t drink "normally" at 23 but continued on for about 20 years before it brought me to my knees. At least I figured it out before it killed me. I love waking up in the morning feeling good and no longer looking at myself in the mirror at the bloodshot eyes saying I gotta quit.

[@TeboShepherd]

Dts aren't real. At least they're not caused by alcohol, it's definitely chemtrails making people dt

[@shoutatthedevil841]

I drank heavily for years- every day. When I started losing weight and muscle it still didn't deter me. Then I had some blood work done- they called me a few days later and told me to get to the ER immediately. Long story, but I'll try to get to the point. A blood transfusion, and several tests later they finally addressed the elephant in the room by asking how much i drank/how long. I was admitted out of the ER already. Then I went through the initial stages of detox in the first 36 or so hours- then things got really fucked. I began hallucinating sounds and shadows. When I could sleep, purely out of exhaustion, I had terrible nightmares and felt like I was on the cusp of dying and going to hell. No proper treatment or meds for it, either. I ended up wrecking my hospital room out of the delirium and thought I had been stuck in a psychiatric hospital. I was there for 7 days, and suffered all of them. I was released and my mom gave me a ride home, where I sat alone, continuing to suffer the effects of quitting cold turkey. It took about seven months for my brain 'fog' to clear. Slowly from that point on I continued to improve. I didn't go to meetings, take drugs, or anything else. Just stayed sober after the hospital stay. That was 3 years, 2 1/2 months ago. Scary shit. Scariest thing I've ever dealt with.

[@GrendelSheperd]

It took me only only after some of these comments to realize that had delirium (albeit a light episode) for 3 days after quitting. The nightmares and night sweats were something else.

[@SadMach1n3]

I am searching for many answers and info because I finally have the right will and mindset to begin the process of quitting.. I have to ask how much did you drink and for how long?

[@shoutatthedevil841]

@xxsketchedxx it gradually increased, but basically 15-18 Budweisers per night. Of course it might be a little less/more, depending upon the situation. That much for over a decade. Although I was drinking fairly heavily on a daily basis prior to that as well. So, around 15 years overall. And that's not including any shots or hard liquor benders.

[@SartriLLe]

As a nurse, you are spot on. Usually DT patients have to be restrained (I hate doing this) for their safety. It's so hard to support someone going through it. When they are detoxed though, they always are so thankful for your help💔💖

[@Norquaymusic]

Yes I had to be restrained and sedated myself. As a thanks when came back round and was grateful for there efforts as I must of been a riot. I sent them £100 in pizza vouchers

[@fredWaxBeans11111]

I had to be strapped down. My second detox visit to the hospital. Back in about 2009. Sure enough, it was about 3 days after the last drink. I remember getting up out of my hospital bed and walking to the nursing station. I remember the words coming out of my mouth, "you got to help me, my parents are missing. And they brought their cat with them and the cat is missing too." Of course, my father had been dead for several years. I must have said some crazy stuff to the Head nurse after that, and he says I'm sorry but we're going to have to put you in another room. I wasn't violent at all just concerning to the staff. If I had to guess, I would say that the part of your brain that's active during REM sleep, is active when you're conscious during delirium tremens. Because you can see pink elephants and the clouds and the trees are waving at you and you wave back as if it's completely normal, just like in a dream.

[@evonne315]

Your an angel ❤

[@thedopest]

I had to be restrained. I tried running and i was. ona hold. atthis point and i had one of the security dude flatline me i had. a black eye my parents said I told him move or i'm going to make him move and he hit my dumb ass. They put. mein a weird chair for a while idk how long.

[@denisehogarth5433]

Thank you for doing this. My late husband did not survive his DT's. Please if you are struggling get help. Ask. Beg. Plead. Just don't give up

[@aprilberter1370]

Why did he not survive? I remember my hullucinations crazy

[@denisehogarth5433]

@@aprilberter1370 He had underlying health conditions and chose the addiction over his health.

[@aidanhall6679]

My condolences 💐

[@chaimrothberg5367]

Thanks for sharing your story, I recently went through minor alcohol withdrawals for the first time in my life and the feeling of anxiety and doom was so overwhelming that I’ve vowed never to drink again once I realized that it could be 100 times worse. I’ve also learned to view people with addictions in a far more sympathetic light.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Very good decision!!! Best one you will make at an early (or any!) age. Way to GO!! 👍👍👍 And please share our Channel... Much appreciated! Thank you for your positive feedback and support. Sincerely, Delirium Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@Strange9952]

I yelled at the nurse because my anxiety was so bad

[@cryptic4446]

I experienced acute withdrawal too and I thought it would be enough to calm me down but recently I had the worst one yet and man . The hangover was straight up demonic . Hang in there and hope your doing good.

[@stevenlupanko2983]

Top choice your wiser than yoda. We all know we are on the path to destruction it's always possible to stop early enough to stop the hell. I said to myself 100 times that I had hit rock bottom and then I did so your exactly correct it can get 100 times worse I'm fact there is no limit to the insanity it can cause and you certainly wouldn't want wet brain that is alziemers on steroids and caused by thiamine deficiency, thiamine protects the brain and alcohol washes thiamine out of the system. Life is much larger than a pub or your own four walls. To enjoy life on lives terms and not on addictions terms is a wonderful thing. It's a shame I went so low before I realised this, alcohol really hoodwinked me. I see pub landlords as drug dealers now 😆.

[@jondavis2032]

The same exact thing happened to me. I also decided I had enough after a minor withdrawal experience. Once I discovered it can get worst I said fuck that!!! I'm done with drinking...real talk!!!

[@paulabrauer5660]

It almost sounds to me like that thing you saw in your living room that didn’t disappear was an actual demon, it didn’t want you to get well! Good for you on your sobriety!👏👏👍

[@marcogasperoni2391]

I’ve seen them too because of my dealings with the occult. Not even delirium t ! There are dark rulers in the spiritual realms

[@frankthebank077]

Over the years I’ve experienced light withdrawals and delirium tremens but my last experience was DIFFERENT. 4 emergency room trips in one week. Severe shakes, very weak, faint feeling, and I couldn’t catch a good breath. Struggled to sleep at night because as soon as I hit the lights and close my eyes I began to hear familiar voices ! I wasn’t being spoken to directly but I would hear these voices having conversations with each other. I would be so afraid that I would get up and pace back and forth for a long time in the middle of the night not knowing what else to do. This happened for a while. I thought to myself that my life is ruined and I ruined it because of alcohol and now I am officially crazy forever. I’ve never been so scared before. Today I am almost 4 months sober and I’m never going back! Just the thought of what I’ve experienced from withdrawals and tremens scares the shit out of me. Never again

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Fuck YES!!!! You (& I) NEVER want to go back to THAT party!!! No...Scared Sober is 'appropriate'... I can so relate to your experience. Mine, at least my first, was incredibly intense and awful. That one should have killed me... No. Nothong good ever comes once we cross the line into alcoholism. Thank you so much for your story, positive feedback and support!!! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@MrMarkgolding78]

You will never know how grateful I am for you making this video. Thank you my friend. Mark X

[@Techno_Monkey_]

Im 43 and been under the comfort blanket of drink n drugs... im just now trying too deal with underlying trauma. This guy is real talk. Respect mate. ❤

[@Jay-zx5hx]

Updates? Any advice?

[@JohnSmith-ei3cm]

I never thought I would go through hallucinations in my life but it was real

[@StakeJake]

Yes it’s crazy. I’m a binge drinker. The withdrawals are horrible and my anxiety is through the roof when I quit.

[@dirtymikenthebois1518]

How long did you drink for

[@1badombre82]

Indeed. I had to get 3 people to tell me that I hadnt seen police taking away the bad men before I believed them and volunteered to go to the ICU

[@JessieNichols]

I love hearing about other alcoholics who have experienced this. When I first got sober it took a long time before I met another who had been through real DT's like this! Such a crazy few nights, and so unbelievably real. I am so extremely grateful to have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body! There is always HOPE!

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Right??! We don't meet a lot of people (even in AA!) who have experienced the 'Real Deal'. Everyone THINKS they know what Delirium Tremens are...they don't have a FUCKING CLUE! (Lucky for them!) I hear people say "and my DT'S were bad for a little bit'... I'm like...no, no no. Thats NOT it... BUT, those of us that HAVE been there?? We usually just go "Yea. OH YEA.. I GET it". Says it all... So glad you're here with us, and alive!!! And SOBER!!! Ain't it great??! Please share our Channel...it's already saved lives!👍👍👍 Thank you so very much for your positive feedback and support! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@mattstocks4749]

Alcohol DTS gave me PTSD for a long time. I have never gone back to drinking after that seven years ago. It’s probably one of the most harrowing experience a human being can have

[@1badombre82]

Agreed. It's unbelievable how it can literally make you insane for a while.

[@scottyp2505]

Same, it’s by far the scariest thing I’ve ever been through. The delusions and hallucinations I had the two days leading up to my hospitalization were intense and I actually thought everything I was seeing and hearing was 100% real

[@BlkwtrPrk]

Damn. I've gone through withdrawal but it's been limited to insomnia, anxiety, hypertension, irregular heart, kinda stuff. No DTs or seizure fortunately. My dad was also an alcoholic and had a withdrawal seizure though. Very scary.

[@laced99]

Ive been sober almost 3 years and still am not fully right. Alcohol is the devils drink for sure! Once it has u it is very hard 2 get out of it. Lost a LOT of friends to it. Glad u are doing well friend.

[@buildertrash4102]

Had a similar experience withdrawing from benzodiazepines. It lasted two years. I’m still in shock from the intensity and duration of it. True hell.

[@lorimac0260]

Thank you. My brother died from “alcohol addiction,” according to the coroner. He was 42. I hope you are still recovering, happy and healthy. ❤

[@tmc3178]

this needs to blow up. this shit is crazy and you never hear about it.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Exactly. Because most people that get this far die in DT'S from stroke or heart failure! I still, to this day, can not believe I survived! Please share with anyone this may help. So very glad you are here! Thanks much, Dirk:)

[@oldschoolninamain9138]

Agreed. I've had them twice, I also withdrew countless times from barbiturates. People need to understand that alcohol wd can and will end you if you don't seek help. Alcohol is stronger than people think it is.

[@teslasnow169]

I was seeing demonic beings and people with machetes chasing me and it seemed like they were doing some type of ritual on me... was sweating seazing and crying on the ground thinking I was going to go to hell... finally getting sober and staying going to church and praying. Was beyond the most crazy experience in my life.

[@michaelh-uk3867]

Such an important message. I am an alcoholic and now work in recovery services. I often hear my colleagues refer to ‘the DTs’ as tremors, sweats etc. I am forever putting them straight. Delirium Tremens are terrifying and immensely serious. The hallucinations will live with me forever. It’s important never to forget the sheer terror involved. Thanks for this.

[@anitapiotrowski7513]

As an ICU nurse I have cared for plenty of patients in DT’s . I also lost my brother to the ravages of drinking despite the fact he had quit for 12 years. Religious leaders need to be held accountable they are not medical professionals. You were put at high risk of having a seizure and dying by being encouraged to quit drinking cold turkey . Very happy for you that you found recovery ❤

[@bricaaron3978]

*"Religious leaders need to be held accountable..."* Held accountable for _what,_ exactly? Specifically?

[@liveoak227]

​@@bricaaron3978for claiming authority on matters they're ignorant of.

[@garethwest9069]

You mean secular humanist religious leaders like Richard Dawkins, who believe "aliens" are responsible for mankind? Atheists invoking the existence of supernatural beings, to explain away the existence of God (of the Bible), a supernatural Being. smh Secular humanist ideology, powered by the philosophical delusion of Darwinism (a faith based belief system), is responsible for HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS of human deaths in LESS than a century, and counting, along with untold suffering and economic destruction. Thanks for playing.

[@garethwest9069]

@@liveoak227 "for claiming authority on matters they're ignorant of" According to 'evolution', one's thoughts are subject to the movement of atoms obeying the laws of chemistry, therefore making freewill impossible; one must presuppose the Christian worldview in order to be able to think! Please tell me, why does a material universe obey IMMATERIAL laws? Thrill me with your acumen, enlightened one.

[@liveoak227]

@@garethwest9069 a pastor has no authority giving medical advice to an alcoholic in need of detox.

[@miapdx503]

My forty year old son drinks every day. I worry about him, about his health. His father is an alcoholic who's health scares haven't deterred him from drinking at all. I can't save him but my son...he's my son and I don't want to lose him. I don't want to live in a world he isn't in. God help him...😥

[@toddianuzzi9296]

Very sorry

[@ledgy69]

Lead by example

[@ledgy69]

I'm so sorry for you and your sons struggles too. It's not easy

[@mpat100]

Blessings and healing for him for you and your family

[@moonlightwendy]

❤

[@mahoneymotorsports8880]

Thanks for sharing I’m 22 and I’m an alcoholic I drink everyday, recently lost my job and got a dui. Just 2 nights ago i woke up outta my sleep gagging on my puke. Almost passed out I’m lucky I woke up. I’ve been sober since then tomorrow will be my third day sober. I feel like shit. Puking and have been in bed I hope I feel better soon I’m done living this life..

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

You will feel better. You most likely will NOT experience REAL DT'S, but, on or shortly after day three, if you hear or see shit that ISNT there, get your ass to the hospital. FUCKING PRONTO‼️‼️‼️ Dt's usually kick in at about 72 hours after your last drink. If that doesn't happen, and it most likely won't just based on your age, then the WORST is ALMOST OVER‼️ Get your ass into 'Recovery'.. whatever 'Brand' you choose. I do AA...but they ALL work! Dude. DO THIS NOW! You never have to drink again... Let me know what I can do to help? Glad youre here, brother! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@Crudlife-sh8ht]

I am 33 years old I have been battling alcoholism for at least 3 years I go thru about 2 and a half pints a day my Dts aren’t to severe yet but they will if I don’t stop so I’m understand the feeling so I scheduled and appointment with a doctor to seek help with this addiction it’s my first ever attempt to get help I do wanna loose my life or the people I love pray for me guys

[@charleneclark1817]

I walked away from my ex due to his drinking

[@duda_ourique]

Hey, how are you doing? im 23 and really want to know people that would help me stop. I've been drinking since 13 and for the last 2 years i have learned to cope with the nausea, but the paranoia is getting to me, i cant leave my bed thinking someone is after me

[@islanderbyrd1881]

I am checking in to see how you are doing quitting alcohol.

[@johnye2210]

So crazy knowing others have gone through this. I thought i was the only one. One of the scariest things ive ever been through 😔

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Yes, sir! It's a wild ride... Glad you survived it!!! Likewise- I, too, didn't know SHIT about (REAL!) Delirium Tremens until I went thru them the first time. Yikes!!! Hence, the reason behind this Channel. Thanks so much! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@oldboy5001]

It's a living hell, and difficult to describe to someone who hasn't experienced it.

[@Plinkofficial]

Thank you for this. Sept 2 - Sept 5, 2021 for me was agonizing. Take care of yourselves, everyone.

[@Pantheonslayer]

I've been here, the hallucinations are absolutely terrifying it really annoys me that this isn't common knowledge to get professional help when withdrawing from alcohol as it is such a prevalent and commonly used substance. Thank you for sharing and hopefully helping those who don't know this. I can't tell you how many times I've witnessed people telling alcoholics to just quit cold Turkey with no knowledge of the true dangers involved.

[@greatgaming4962]

So happy to see someone had hallucinations almost the same as me. I had full on DT’S at 20. I used to only smoke weed until i got on probation at about 17. Didn’t even notice i went on a three year binge. When i turned 20 i got pancreatitis and had to be admitted to the hospital. Hit me a few days after when i was supposed to be leaving the hospital. Most vivid and horrible hallucinations imaginable. Some sounds still bring back the feeling of being so gone like that. I can’t explain how it feels having someone to relate to. Glad we made it out brother

[@juulianschronicles7382]

I hope you’re okay bro

[@wefgengneon]

and then theyll say weed destroyd your life

[@jaderenee7856]

Thanks for sharing my man. I cannot even begin to explain how much this helped. I’m on day 2 and couldn’t take it anymore, I had to go to the ER. They were unbelievably understanding and gave me the fluids I needed, anti-nausea meds and benzodiazepines. I’m just praying the benzos keep the anxiety at bay, because that’s what’s been the worst so far

[@lesterlarraga5055]

The anxiety and insonmia are thee worstttteeessts

[@kennygomien]

Thank you for this. I'm very much considering filming my story about this. It's eerily similar. The shadow people are terrifying.. I'm 4 months totally sober after going through this. I woke up screaming with a dead woman standing over my bed, bugs everywhere and that circus music screaming in my head. Somehow managed to get my phone and dialed 911 in the midst of a seizure.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank GOD you made it to the hospital!!! Most likely saved your life... CONGRATULATIONS on your sobriety!!! Keep it up 👍 Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@Meezyb33]

You ever post your video?? Would love to see it

[@snicksabea]

Glad you made it.

[@kuhzzy1798]

R.I.P dirk, never knew you but you seemed to be a great human being. Thank you for your stories, i'll see you up there.

[@scottyp2505]

I had DT so bad I started a full on brawl at the hospital and had to be physically restrained because my hallucinations where so intense . I was incapacitated for 3 days and almost didn’t make it. I’m absolutely amazed how similar my experience was

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Oh yea... Many people in (REAL!) Delirium Tremens have to be strapped down to keep from fucking ourselves or others up. Yes. I so so get it. In even more extreme cases, they put us in a medically induced coma. You're luckey to be alive, amigo! Glad you're here👍 Please share our Channel, and I will post another video soon. Check out some of the other DT videos. Again, I appreciate your positive feedback and support!!! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@thedopest]

yea i got clotheslined by a security dude that I apparently rushed when I heard i couldn't leave. Dude laid my ass out.

[@coryspencer9364]

I just wanna say thank you! I’m struggling really bad right now and I need people. I’m sick of my own mind. I feel alone

[@2needey1]

Still trying to quit..?

[@wendypenny924]

@@2needey1 yes, I haven’t had a drink so far and I’m in outpatient therapy because I have to work.

[@mattarchey559]

I just drank after a whole year sober. Alcohol is a trap

[@2needey1]

@@mattarchey559 are you having to drink to stop the shakes..?

[@wendypenny924]

Your not alone. I’m now over a month sober. It feels so good too. I’m tired of being drunk. I definitely don’t want to die known for that. Don’t give up. 😊

[@scarredtissues]

My brother, I just wanted to say I needed this. I’ve been struggling to quit and getting sick without drinking and sick after my first two before I can binge. I’m going to ween myself of safer with this knowledge. I have experienced this before and didn’t know what it was. You likely saved more than one life with this knowledge. Thanks again

[@markj5054]

Hey Dirk I'm struggling at the moment and your channel gives me hope, I've experienced the DTs a couple of times, I remember seeing my mums face morph into a demon and thinking she was trying to kill me, this was years ago, I'm getting support at the moment so I will get there, take care and Thanks.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

That is AWESOME NEWS‼️‼️‼️ Yes. By the time you join our 'Unique Club' of those who have survived REAL Delirium Tremens, one thing is pretty solid- You ARE a 'Real Alcoholic'.. I am! And, if I could/can get sober and STAY THAT WAY...ANYBODY CAN ‼️‼️‼️ So glad you are making that decision.👍 And REAL glad you're here with us! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@audreyfrye929]

Thank you for opening up . this needs to be studied so people who need the help can get the best treatment. I think you are amazing and kudos for being so open and helping others

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank you very much for your positive feedback and support! The whole purpose of our Website and KZbin Channel was that there just ISN'T a lot of information on REAL Delirium Tremens and alcohol withdraw. This shit kills. But yes, it is an amazing, TERRIFYING reality! The comments on this Channel are nothing short of amazing... Thanks so very much! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@SarahXBats]

Thank you for sharing! Nearly 3 days into my sobriety at the age of 23, I experienced auditory and visual hallucination, my face had swollen, and I was dishonest with my physician when I went in for help. Today, I am applying to medical schools. I am sober, although I did relapse once in between the 6 years since I quit. Thank you for sharing this, you will save lives.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank YOU! Excellent share. Yep...alcohol withdraw can and DOES kill. No joke- I'm thrilled for your sobriety, and CONGRATULATIONS on Medical School!!! Please hit 'subscribe' on my channel, as I have four more DT experiences to share- We are lucky enough to be alive!!! Best, Dirk:)

[@karlschaetti2934]

I love his approach. The most raw, real, non ecumenical account so far. With mum close to the pond, step brother and father gone, with myself now sober for five years, he speaks truth. No fancy lighting;) Cheers good fellow❤

[@domwren]

I remember a hospital detox where the medical staff started to perform a marching band parade around the premises, singing famous 80s songs. It's so insane how at the time I thought it was real, and not peculiar at all. All an hallucination. 2.5 years clean, never going back. Thank you for sharing, I'm not the only one.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Isnt that the fucking TRUTH. We don't think ANYTHING is 'peculiar' at the time. It's 100% normal. But, its not. You (& i) can tell REAL QUICK who is commenting because they have 'been there', and who has not. Its real. Bad... but very very real. So glad for your Sobriety! AWESOME!!! Real glad you're here with us... Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@domwren]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober Thanks Dirk, peace be with you brother.

[@tcon2809]

this marching band seems to be a repeating theme

[@HypnoKnight]

Thank you for being so open about this.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

You are very welcome:) This is the kind of information that WILL save a life👍 I got a message at 3am last Wednesday from a guy IN (REAL) DT'S. We spoke until 6:30am, got him to ER, etc. The problem is, most alcoholics are NOT even AWARE of this! I wasn't until it happened...and it damn sure should have killed me. Yikes! So I appreciate it! Please share our Channel with EVERYONE. I also have a GREAT 'Recovery' Group Page. Feel free to join and share as well. I post daily:) Thank you so very much! Dirk:)💯💯💯 facebook.com/groups/260583668423042/?ref=share

[@elviamendoza1514]

Thanks so much for posting this video! I'm going to also share my story. I'm going to leave out some details and just give you the jist of my experience with DTs. So, growing up I had a horrible childhood. My mom was an abusive single mom to seven kids and I was the oldest daughter so I was always used for babysitting, cleaning, cooking, etc. She had abusive men come in and out of our lives the entire time. So the moment I drank alcohol at 19 years old it was a feeling of bliss. A feeling I had never felt before. Calm, relaxed, happy. I couldn't believed I had lived all this time without it! It was magic. I never in a million years thought it would turn into what it did. My Dts were so similar to everyone's here. I had been a daily drinker for nearly 5-6 years... I only stopped when I was pregnant. I'll never forget the first time I experienced hallucinations from abstaining. The first time I heard music that wasn't there and couldn't sleep for days because I was raising a NEWBORN. I couldn't sleep at night or during the day. And everytime I almost fell asleep I was jerked awake. I was convinced I was posessed. I was scared to the point that I didn't want to be around the Bible for fear of burning to ash or turning into someone from Conjuring. It was absolutely terrifying. I ended up in a psych ward because I told my mom and brother to stay away from me because I was going to hurt them because I was not in control. That may seem insane but the second time I had DTs was far worse. I was hearing AND seeing things that weren't there. But because I had already experienced crazy withdrawals (which I now know is DTs) before, I kind of knew it was happening again. It didn't make it any less terrifying though or didn't feel any less real. I thought I was hearing demons. It was a week or more of HELL. I didn't see illusions of friends and family like so many of you mentioned. I heard evil voices trying to harm me and my daughter's. I saw a floating "demon" head. I went to the hospital a few times and seen smoke surrounding the room I was in. I didn't tell the Dr that I was hearing and seeing things because I was worried of being sent back to the psych ward. I eventually g better and stopped drinking for awhile but started up again off and on all throughout 2020 and 2021, but luckily never experienced them again during my struggle toward sobriety. All I know is I would never wish those experiences on anyone. Idk how I survived, but I'm so glad I did. My 22 year old brother died from alcohol Feb 2020 and I fell full force back into drinking, which is why I eventually had DTs summer of 2020 which was the last time. As of now I'm only 26 days sober. But it feels so much different then every other time I've tried to quit. Like now is my time. I'm so happy to have survived unlike so many who can't beat it before the drink takes them. Thank you so much for sharing this. It's hearing about these experiences from other people that help me keep on going that and my daughters.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

ONLY 26 days sober??? That's a FUCKING MIRACLE!!!! DON'T QUIT QUITTING! And yep.. you have had REAL Delirium Tremens. Welcome to the 'Club'... You are SO SO SO very lucky your second run didn't kill you. Isn't it amazing? The power of alcoholism & withdraw. Blows my mind- But yes, stay true. It only gets worse & then it kills us. Don't let that happen. Please, keep me posted! Thank you for sharing that experience, as it really is just that bad. Horrible.... Thank you again! Dirk:)👍💯🙏

[@ChakraZulu1]

It’s great how all of your tests became your testimony. For nearly three years I was a student counselor at drug rehabilitation center and I met some of the most amazing relatable people each week. One major thing I’ve gathered is essentially we are all the same in the sense that we all have unresolved traumas. All of us process our traumas in dramatically different ways and alcoholism is one of the more common. The one major discrepancy I find with organized rehabilitation is the disheartening mantra that one will always be an addict. I find that people can and often do reinvent themselves. If an individual has done the major inner and outer work to heal and change the course of their life then in the very least they deserve to not be acknowledged as something of a detriment.

[@sammymcdermott4360]

Hearing this literally put a tear in my eye, this is exactly what I went through, the only difference was I was having seizures. Good to see your well sir

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank you so very much!!! It's an AMAZING & terrifying ordeal... Dirk:)💯

[@alexrobinson4821]

I'm 24 and at 23 I had a seizure only 19 hours without a drink I went in an ambulance and they kept dosing me with ativan until I finally felt like a human again I was hallucinating before it happened but I'm struggling again with alcohol and I'm scared to stop I started drinking at 14 years old and was a full blown alcoholic by the time I was 16

[@RosesR4U]

Addiction detox nurse here. Thank you for sharing your journey , Yes, I’ve seen many die detoxing at this stage from alcohol and can tell your story is 💯 authentic . Yes , you’re right ❗️You are a RARITY ❗️Most die ❗️So what does that tell you ❓THAT YOU WERE SAVED BY GOD FOR A REASON ❗️🙏🏻🕊🛐SO SAD SO HORRIFIC THAT YOU HAVE LEFT OUT THAT PART ❗️GIVE THIS GLORY TO GOD 🕊☦️😍💯🙏🏻HE has saved you for a reason ❗️Ephesians 3:8,9 … you weren’t shown satan for naught dude … pay attention to Jesus ☦️ speaking to you ❗️

[@la1131]

Thank you for sharing your story! I'm a medical student and I've learned all the clinical aspects of alcohol withdrawal, but I feel it's very important to understand the human side of it. You've really helped with this. I come from a religious background and can see how harmful those beliefs about the devil could be for someone hallucinating through such a terrible experience. It's really important that ministers are educated about this condition. I have a lot of respect for people fighting their addictions, it's clearly no easy task. Wishing you well!

[@AllusernamesgoneFUCK]

They're not describing the devil (christian), they're describing demons (general term for evil spirits)

[@celestialwrath]

Thank you for being so brave in making and uploading this video providing the very real details, experience and Hell that is delirium tremens. I endured its wrath at my own idiocy a few years ago when first getting help. It was single-handedly the worst experience I both do and don't remember. Seizures, whatever. Thank you.

[@RiverMontana5156]

I went though DT's 7 years ago. Thank you for your video because this helps even the strongest among us to hold fast. Your description brings back memories so vivid that it makes me hold strong.

[@howardaubrey4500]

Thank you. I really needed to watch this today.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thank you so very much! I'm really glad you're here, brother:)👍 Please, SHARE our channel! It just may save a life(!). Thank you so very much, Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@jacereske]

Thank you for this video. I just watched my husband go through the DTs in the hospital. It is the most horrific thing I have ever witnessed.

[@Seb_latimer]

My friend passed away at 41 stopped drinking suddenly had a seizure and died. Well done for quitting.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

I'm sorry to hear that. One of the many reasons a 'safe' medical detox is imperative in so many of our cases. Perhaps, others can learn from this. I, too, had a Sponsee/friend pass last month at 35. This stuff does not discriminate nor care. It kills us, yet it's legal. Again, I am sorry for your loss... Dirk🙏🙏🙏

[@svak321]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I was married to a high-functioning alcoholic for 16 years. He has tried multiple times to quit. It’s so refreshing to hear people talking about alcoholism factually, honestly and openly from personal experience. Alanon helped me cope and educate myself - I still hope my children’s dad will one day be able to get healthy and sober. The last time he tried he had a terrible bout with covid and swore this was it. He was able to go about a month before starting back.

[@mattdad8429]

Al-anon is a great program. Really helps people understand what their loved ones are going through. A lot of times people just don't know what to do, or how to help, and it's a great tool and connection.

[@dwightciampoli]

When he said he's been there a 1000 times with 3 days of being wrecked and and so ill sweating and can't sleep.... I feel him. I use to do this almost on a weekly basis. Thank god I don't have to live life on a hamsters wheel. I had a seizure first when I was 20 I didn't have a clue what was happening. Alcohol is poison. Also relate to visuals, I would close my eyes scared to sleep but desperately needing it after 3 days of no sleep and still see visuals through my eyelids, sickening things. I'm glad you have got through this. No one deserves this. I'm getting married on Thursday. 10 years of recovery. I don't call myself an alcoholic but I fit the criteria easily. I prefer to think I'm a broken person that fuckin hopes he remembers he must stay humble and admit he needs help and needs God and self care

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

So so cool... I'm glad you're here, man:) & CONGRATULATIONS on your marriage & sobriety! Love it- Thank you so very much! Dirk:)💯💯💯💯

[@clayton4976]

We will also be discussing the dangers in dirt never experiencing sobriety over a 40-year span of being in aa. Currently he has a little over a year and took it upon himself to have close to 10 Sponsees with right around 90 days of sobriety. He led the sponsees to believe he definitely had over a year because he would raise his hand when the discussion leader asked who had over a year sobriety. he gave the general assumption that he had 5 to 10 years in the program and was qualified to sponsor. Clearly he did not care about the individuals and was strictly wanting to increase the number of sponsees he had for his own ego...we will also go into verbal tirades when a sponsee relapsed or left him. A profane lace explosion of horrible comments were said to other sponsees about the poor individual that relapsed... So if you are currently being sponsored by this sick man keep that in mind nothing you tell him is kept a secret.

[@JP-vz1xs]

@@clayton4976 any chance you can proof read that and re post it? For example what are dangers in dirt?

[@lurkster1974]

@@clayton4976 Anonymity Statement Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions. Please respect this and treat in confidence who you see and what you hear. Fuck off you bitter prick.

[@clayton4976]

@@JP-vz1xs I will be discussing the danger of Dirt in upcoming posts. Hold your horses there cowboy...And no, I am not proofreading anything. Sorry.

[@darrengallagher4385]

Very well done to each and every person. One of the hardest additions to tackle yet you're all still going strong. Sticking up the middle finger high and proud at the bottle. Absolute respect to all 🙏 Yes the very same thing happened after a long long binge and roughly 2 weeks of no sleep, couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't and also started off with music coming out of the bathroom and then chanting as if a large crowd gathered all saying i was going to get battered and yeah that's just the start Worse than terrifying. Extremely great to be sober.. 16 years and counting

[@super1515]

Thanks for being open and honest. This is something that a lot of people need to know and understand.

[@nathandean4412]

Thank you for sharing your experience honestly, really terrifying stuff and I'm so pleased you've recovered ❤

[@brimo4565]

23 and developed severe alcoholic neuropathy. Although my nerves are all messed up and my hands and feet don’t work as they used to, I used it as a wake up call. I’m sure by now I would’ve experienced the same thing. Thank you for alerting others about this common unspoken of consequence of drinking.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Don't quit quitting!!! Dude, you're too young for this shit(!). But I'm glad you recognize that now. You WILL recover and bounce back. Please, keep me posted! And let me know if there is ANYTHING I may do to help. Please share our Channel, as it saves lives... Much love, Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@islanderbyrd1881]

It was alcohol psychosis you were experiencing during your DT's. I quit 30 yrs ago, but it was nothing compared to your experience with the hallucinations. The depression & impending doom lasted for months. I appreciate your story, it will help others! About your visions, this was said to me years ago by a friend in AA. " WHY DO YOU THINK THEY CALL IT SPIRITS?" That statement has had a profound impact on me. Is that really us? Or has something taken over our minds? I refer to alcohol as devil's piss. I think we get rid of our demons when quitting. The longer you stay off it, it becomes a way of life.

[@ScootsMcPoot]

Because they are created by distillation, which means they are condensed down from an invisible steamy vapor -- which resembles a ghostly spirit in the air.

[@ScootsMcPoot]

That's why it's called a spirit. Sorry the cool philosophical answer Is dead ass wrong

[@marcogasperoni2391]

Demons are real, we open doorways into the spiritual realms with drugs etc. Jesus has total authority over them

[@alexchetwood8991]

This inspires me to make my own video talking about my hallucinations and withdrawal I’ve had before getting sober, god awful things I seen just like you said and I still can picture them so vividly and were just the most real images of hell and evil imaginable, thanks for letting me know I am not the only one to have seen the horrible things and survive it to tell about it

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Yes, sir! If you would like, make a video and send it to me! I'd LOVE to post it here for you if you would like? Glad you survived!!! It's the most terrifying experience of my life to date.... Awful. Thanks so very much for your positive feedback and support!!! Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@Jw-dp2cp]

Hi dirk. You got the message across so clear. I really enjoyed your talk. It made me shiver as I was right there with you having experienced this so many times in the past 30 years. Absolutely pertafying. My last one I didn’t sleep for around 7 days from benzos and alcohol. The hallucinations and talking too people that wasn’t there including a dust bin, let alone those tracking me down too kill me are something that still stick with me just as strong as back then. Man are we blessed too be alive today. How my heart didn’t stop is a miracle and I’m so aware of that fact today. That was almost 5 years ago and I’m fortunate enough that the miracle happened for today and was able too commit too recovery and been sober ever since. I need too remember more that when I’m having a bad day today, that things have been so much worse. Thank you for your talk brother

[@mamat1213]

This was so helpful for me: “when I’m having a bad day today things have been so much worse”

[@palawanczech]

I am 37 years old alcoholic, sober for half a year, I remember I had something like this when I stopped binge drinking for couple of weeks, most terrible feelings that I ever had, I had a dream(I felt like I am paralyzed) in front of my apartments were demons, I could see them so I walked there and start walking, that demons were everywhere,I knew I am sleeping but I wasn't able to wake up and that dream was so long so I started to worry that I might will never wake up again and I'll stay like this.....fkin scary and thank Gods my gf was next to me when I woke up, alcohol is poison

[@spinozapeterson514]

Thank you for this. I have experienced this far too many times to be still alive. It always starts with a musical chorus of verbal abuse and ends in a Psych ward.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Yes, no shit!!! You are LUCKY to get hospitalized! My first (4 day) run, I wasn't so fortunate. Almost, and should have, killed me(!)... SO glad you're here!!! Dig it- Dirk:)👍👍💯💯‼‼

[@dickyyrrep1383]

Just found you, I’ve been clean for 6 months straight now and this time so far everything is going well. I look forward to watching a few of your vids.

[@darz_k.]

Wow! You blew my mind! There's so much in this short talk, and the way you delivered it was solid. I just found this video, so I'll check out some of your other videos. I reckon this information could save many lives, and has saved many already. Well done my friend. Kool t-shirt too ;o,

[@truthfactmysteryfictionfan7138]

Scary stuff. Your story inspired me big time and glad you're spreading the message . I haven't had Delerium but I have had psychosis due to drinking for many days on end and I have bipolar. I'm a binge drinker who drinks for a week or two straight, then quit for a month and over again. I live with my mom and one night I was detoxing after 10 days of drinking heavily and all I wanted was alcohol. This night I was wide awake and my mother kept walking into my room. The first time she walked into my room with a tray and a bottle of wine on it, but then she disappeared. Then she walked in for a second time to lecture me and disappeared. Then the third time it was actually her and she told me she can't sleep cuz I'm talking to myself and I knew it was real cuz the next day she told me she walked into my room once . As the night went on I had people in my room all night and the lights would go on and off on their own. I saw a shadow figure standing on my bed, voices, demons, then lucid dreams of hell.Drugs, Alcohol, Delerium or psychosis I believe can open up your mind to the spirit realm if you believe it or not. I believe you had a spiritual battle going on but not to sound like that minister cuz obviously delerium is a medical condition cause by a chemical imbalance going on in your brain, but I still believe that drugs and alcohol opens up a door to another dimension or realm of unknown science especially when you have delerium or psychosis.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

That's a VERY VERY 'valid point', as there are SO many unexplained things that go on throughout or lifetime. I DO know this- I was RIGHT on 'Deaths Door'. And, I know REAL DT'S are a horrific way to go!!! Glad we all pulled thru, as we are the fortunate ones. Loved your feedback! Stay tuned, as I have three more experiences coming. Albeit, not as messed up as 'Number 1', they are still just.. fucked up in their own right- Glad you're here, man! Thank you for the feedback!!! Dig it- Dirk Delirium:)👍👍👍

[@christianhippie711]

Yes - i do believe that is why booze is referred to as "Spirits"

[@johnlangan4511]

I am sure what you say here about it, can open you,r mind to spirit realm what i saw in my life of drinking came from Hell ,i was so afraid one night i was going to ask my Mother and father if i could sleep with them .I looked out the window and i saw Satan i never seen such an evil face ,i still believe twenty years later it was real .

[@johnlangan4511]

@@christianhippie711 The old people in Ireland would say the Devil is in the drink ,usually said by women who witnessed their Husbands going mad.

[@kbg8206]

I’m a First Nation from Canada and a lot of elders in my culture talk about these “evil entities” that can take control of your life this is why people experience “suicidal thoughts” and “psychosis” it’s not a mental illness it is bad entities that get into your body and controls your thoughts because when you drink alcohol your spirit leaves your body until you better yourself

[@bradshannon862]

I've been through this and lost it all MANY times in life. I've been through 2 treatment centers and multiple detox centers. I've been hospitalized near death a few times. I'm 3 years sober now, practicing Buddhism and I feel like I am in control of my future. I hope everyone can find their way out of the dark.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Dude... Amazing. Hands down, respect. You are not the first- My way out? Slightly different, but not so much. I used a single (massive) dose of natural mushrooms. Changed my life. Peace? Now, I 'get it'. So Buddhism, tranquility, spiritual seeking? As long as we find peace? Oh, YEA! Then? It 'on'! LIFE is back 'on'. Any way we find it? You get it, too. It ALWAYS got worse. Could 'loose' anything else?? Lost whatever was left, too. We were dead men walking... Ain't this great??! What a DIFFERENCE!!! Thanks so much! Dirk:)

[@azzzza1045]

Thanks for sharing this mate, I’m 1 year sober now I’ve never heard this was possible, keep strong 💪

[@zubina_]

Thanks so much for sharing this. I've felt so alone with this and terrified. I've stopped twice now from being a very heavy drinker too) and was told my heart had slowed down but my life had fallen apart and then it became a thing you get used to because time goes quicker too but now not drinking I do feel happier and more myself the dts and delirium/ tremors are horrendous your body goes into shock and does shut down and I was having panic attacks, being sick everyday and couldn't eat, psychosis, hallucinations etc. Sending so much love to anyone who is struggling/ struggled or needs support right now. ❤

[@nicholasbishop2811]

Thank you brother, I just checked into th hospital for this ironically happened across your video. Appreciate the advice and shares, made me feel more capable of succeeding AND fearfull if I dont!!!

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

AWESOME 👍 👌 🆒️ Please keep me posted!!! Dirk:)💯

[@uglyhobo4602]

Going through the dts right now. The hallucinations are so scary. Bugs feel like they're crawling inside my skin. I can't sleep. I'm hearing things that aren't there. Haven't left my motel room in 3 days. God no one deserves this

[@keithbentley6081]

Next time, sip on beer for a few days, reducing each day, still painful but much more bearable. If you can't get out to get beer, get someone to get it for you or go to hospital.

[@lilnikki2025]

Hello...are you still here??? Please answer???

[@tyroashbourne8078]

@@lilnikki2025 he's fine, you have to check comment poster's channel to see the last time they uploaded a video. People forget to check back in sometimes.

[@theoreking6429]

Man that's crazy. Thank you so much for your story. I know someone that needs to watch this. Thank you again. God bless.

[@beexcellenttoeachother5313]

Thank you for sharing your story…your generosity helps people like me from picking up the bottle again. 5-years sober for me and life has become INFINITELY better.

[@oh_my_science]

Thank you. I lost my father to alcoholism around this time in 2018. He died in my arms. It was ugly. I still think about it almost every day. He was only 63. I'd never gotten to know him, because I'd never seen him sober in my entire life. I was never able to connect with him the way that you did with me, just now through this video. Thank you.

[@BryanSalyersXD]

I'm really sorry to hear that you had to experience all that. I hope you can get through it in a healthy way and live a happy life!

[@oldboy5001]

The hallucinations are horrible, but to me the worst part was trying to sleep. Every time I'd start to drift off I'd be jolted back awake by a feeling of unimaginable fear and horror, words aren't really adequate to explain it. It went on for days so the lack of sleep compounded the mental trauma. I'd also hear what I was convinced were giant insects scuttling around on my roof and people shouting in the distance. i had three episodes of DT's, each progressively worse, until I finally stopped drinking for good. Glad to hear somebody talking about it.

[@rcalabais]

Your story is strong, heartbreaking, and I know what it's about...thank you for this VALUABLE video

[@AhhTheBonnie]

Wow what a great listen and well done on surviving your drinking addiction. You’re a really great talker very easy to listen to and will watch more of your vids, Thanks for sharing your experiences Pal 👏

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Awesome!!! Thanks, brother!!! Also, please come over and check out my NEW Channel, Alcoholics...ONLY!!! I will continue to post new videos on BOTH Channels... Thanks so much!!! Dirk:)

[@nickb2722]

Great way of explaining things, you may have found your calling. Hope the best for you

[@Im_With_Stupid]

Man... I had a friend who was a recovering alcoholic. For years he never drank, ever, and he was probably the nicest, hardest working, most stand up and dependable guy I've ever known. The kind of guy that would give you his last cigarette at his own execution. And then he fell off the wagon and that was it. He became a truly horrible person, utterly unmanageable, and constantly in and out of jail. Always starting fights, couldn't hold down a job.... He called me from jail one morning to come get him six hours away where he was abandoned by whoever he went there with. So I went and got him and found him in the middle of the street in nothing but his boxer shorts. He didn't even know what happened to his clothes and his fingers were all burned up from lighting off bottle rockets in a parking lot with his bare hands. No clue what his current situation is. Last I heard he finally landed himself in prison after beating up an EMS worker at a Walmart. It's sad, but I'm not having people like that in my life.

[@APimpNamedSlickBak]

Sounds like you're no longer with stupid and better off for it.

[@Cognitoman]

Jesus ...

[@mememan2344]

Some people wait until they are in that vulnerable state to begin instigating and provoking in order to make the person look bad, especially righteous judgemental Christians. Hopefully you are aren't one of them.

[@mercedezz]

Thank you so much for this, I’m going through a lot right now and I’m terrified…first video I’ve seen of yours but I just subscribed and will be watching more 💕 hope you’re doing good!

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Thanks so much!!! Yep...you will trip on some of my videos, but here's the truth- It's all true. Delirium Tremens are very misunderstood, and I think you will enjoy the comments as much as the videos themselves! At any rate, I'm glad you found me:)!!! Thanks so much for your positive feedback and support 👍👍👍 Dirk:)

[@mercedezz]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober yes I’ve been reading through the comment section and I love how honest and open people are. It makes me feel less alone. I want so badly to get better it’s been too long living this mess of a life I hate myself for it and am so embarrassed. I’ve been desperately researching online how I can do this all night (couldn’t sleep and the hallucinations/paranoia has been scaring me and making me feel crazy) your video finally calmed me down a little, as scary and real as it is…you’re helping so many people! Any good books you recommend that might help? 🙏🏽

[@Gemories]

I really appreciate this video as I am in the process of attempting to heal from alcoholism. You have brought me hope, Dirk ...thank you The story of the creature gave me the chills

[@SelfStorageBand]

Thank you for this video man, I’ve been an alcoholic 5 years now and it’s videos like these I watch whenever my mind starts telling me shit like you could have just get drunk tonight and quit tomorrow. You’re absolutely right DTs are scary as fuck. I thought I could quit cold turkey and turned into the THE WORST day of my life. Started having seizures days 2 and 3. Should’ve went to the hospital after that but didn’t. But on day 4.. Parasites and spiders crawling in my ears and eyeballs and spinning webs around every inch of my body. It was a real life nightmare that I couldn’t escape and after spending a whole week in the hospital I went to my first of many rehabs. I’ve been sober almost 2 months now and always looking forward to the next day waking up not puking my guts out like I had been doing for so long. Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me of why I’m doing this!

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Awesome message, my friend. Awesome. Yea...it's pretty amazing that the way (we) drink kills us. Dead. And, so many of us die in the throws of detox and real Delirium Tremens...its crazy. And, no one talks about it because we're DEAD! Fucked up, but all too true. Hit 'subscribe' to our Channel, as i have like 60 videos posted. You will relate- Also, please share our Channel as it does and has saved lives. What a trip, right??! So glad you're here with us and we appreciate your positive feedback and support 👍 Thank you again, and more videos to follow- Dig it- Dirk:)💯💯💯

[@user-zr4pd1zp7l]

My hallucination started with what looked like cigarette smoke then turned into an abstract shape shifting nightmare including being attacked and intensely feeling the pain (hands were chewed off). When I came out of it, I still had a hard time distinguishing delusion from reality. Alcohol is an evil drug

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Yes, sir! REAL DT's are absolutely amazing and terrifying. When we come out of them, our brains are still spinning and all fucked up. I'm so glad you survived! And yep...alcohol. Legal and Lethal

[@hatefulcrab8515]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober I didn't know alcohol withdrawal was so bizarre and scary. Must be what people thought demons were.

[@just4now141]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober my son is in psych hospital that treats people with substance issues too.. he stopped drinking after being everyday drinker..he's only 29yrs old.. im worried now..I didn't know people die of tremens..his BP was 160 over 120.. he was saying people talking in vents and people were outside running around with guns.. he agreed after cops came per his request.. he and his gf talked to police and he agreed he must be hallucinating.. its been about 4 or 5 days from his drinking and he sounds better but he still claiming people at hospital are looking through his phone and talking about him.. im worried he will never stop hallucinating! How long can someone hallucinate during detox process?

[@kbg8206]

@@just4now141-how is he now?? You should learn to pick some sage or even just buy some and light it inside your home and say a prayer to the creator for him, alcohol can take your spirit away from your body and let entities inside it……I had this happen to myself and glad it went away

[@LiliWhyte]

Hello! Enjoyed the video. I'm glad to know your fighting & winning, the grip addiction had on you. Subbed. I look forward to future videos. Good luck! 🍀

[@lisastory9709]

Well I’m glad your stil with us! My husband died jus couple weeks shy of his 54th birthday and our 30th anniversary! He was a great man, good father and provider to me and his 5 children! But alcohol withdrawal I believed killed him! I went to work and when I got home he was on our bedroom floor passed away!! He tried quitting many many times! Keep moving forward there are people out there pulling for u to live!! Thank u!!

[@jasminjones63]

Another survivor of DT’s here and sober 2.5 by the grace of God! My advice to the alcoholic who is still suffering: detox in a safe environment overseen by medical professionals because DT’s really can kill you. All I wanted to do when I first got sober was to just quit drinking; I had no idea how good life could actually be. Hang on and don’t give up on yourself before your miracle happens too!

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Well said!!! It really is hard to believe how GOOD things can get!!! And, they do- I don't miss being sick...can't get drunk. Can't get sober... All the lies and BS... Yes, it CERTAINLY GETS BETTER!!! And, a Safe Medical Detox is almost imperative if you have REAL Delirium Tremens. If you hear or see shit (that's not there), go to the ER IMMEDIATELY or call 911. Your life may well depend on it! Thank you for the awesome response. I appreciate your positive feedback and support! Thanks much, Dirk:)👍👍👍

[@agirlwhohasnoname5795]

14yrs sober Feb 23rd God willing 🙏 thank you for sharing your experience strength and hope

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

So so very proud of you!!! WAY TO GO!!!!! Good stuff- Dirk:)👍💯🙏

[@larelledean1333]

Thankyou so much for sharing your story. Honest, brutal, terrifying, but absolutely real xxxx

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

I appreciate your positive feedback! Thanks so much, Dirk:)👍👍👍

[@HowlerBarca]

This video led me to the hospital. Thank you. God bless 3mo sober

[@jackiekelly1064]

So similar to my DT story. I stayed drunk for about a year straight, then caught a stomach bug which forced me to throw everything up, including the alcohol I was trying to drink to keep the seizures/withdrawals at bay. It began with auditory hallucinations. I also heard people talking clearly from the floor below me. I kept hearing songs coming from the pipes that my partner was not hearing. Voices in my head. It progressed to intense visual hallucinations, including people in my apartment. Some hiding behind doors, some in plain sight. I thought they were trying to kill me. Today, I have just over 10 months sober. I, as well, was scared sober. Keep up the good fight.

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Dude...that's frighteningly similar in EVERY WAY!!! Wild. Once again, cats like us are truely luckey to be alive. It's just that real. And yes, sobriety is simply this for me. Life or death. One or the other... I am SO proud of you on 10 months!!! That is awesome...made my day!👍👍👍 Hit the 'Subscribe' tab. I have more DT stories (Stranger than fiction, that's a fucking UNDERSTATEMENT)!!!😉 But yes, once you experience what we went thru, it is probable to happen every time we try 'immediate cessation' without medical attention. I was lucky. I used benzos (just for that) but I would NOT recommend it. It's like Russian Roulette. It just wasn't my time to die quite yet. Awesome feedback! Thank you so much- Dirk:)👍‼💥

[@BeLLyHuStLa]

Wow that's scary guys :0 I too hit the wall after drinking wine day in day out, sometimes every night and then went on a binge one Sunday and was absolutely that crook that I couldn't keep down water, no appetite etc and those first few days/week was absolutely horrid. Very thankful to not go into full blown dts that's for sure! Had the brain fog, no motivation to do anything, bed bound, depressed and anxious etc and only the sweats the first few days and just all round feeling weird. That fateful Sunday is now 18 days ago and haven't touched a single drop since. Literally scares me to think about going through that hell again just for a temporary buzz that blocked out life's stresses. Feeling far better now apart from a few little anxiety pings here and there but I think my brains just adjusting to not associating booze with everything. Triggers and such but staying strong. Watching videos like this from real people with real experiences gives me Hope for the future mate. You must be very strong willed and it's amazing to see even if you're an absolutely heavy drinker, you can recover. Cheers mate!

[@pultsari9036]

@@DeliriumTremensScaredSober benzos are actually a very good idea (even though administering them yourself not so much). At least in my country when a DT patient is hospitalized, they are given repeated doses of benzodiapines in 1-2 hour intervals, until they fall asleep. Once the benzo-induced sleep is over (can take even 24+ hours), the worst danger is usually over, and the dose is weaned down.

[@anthonydiaz7988]

Thank you brother…7 year drinking problem ended last year today, the dts and withdrawal nearly killed me, rushed to the er several time during that time and never want to go back , thank you

[@DeliriumTremensScaredSober]

Oh, I SO SO SO 'Get It'... We're just not done until we are really DONE. And for cats like us, it is FAR from easy. But, you survived REAL Delirium Tremens, and you have your first YEAR!!! CONGRATULATIONS! You are a living miracle, and that's putting it lightly. Thank you so much for your positive feedback and support 👍 👍👍 Dirk:)💯

[@eugenelove874]

❤Thanks for sharing ☺️ Glad your better now ! Take care brother!

[@dadcallsmelisacat]

Seriously powerful share. Thank you so much.