Scared to be Alone With Her Baby

[@morganlyla3665]

I feel like this woman needs a better support system, and she’s very kind towards the people who failed her… very sad

[@jellybeanchloe6953]

i think her mother was really supportive ❤ but the truth is, we don’t know

[@TheEccentricPoet]

​@@jellybeanchloe6953They're talking about the husband, not the mom

[@shewolfinubaka]

I think her fear of not telling anyone about her intrusive thoughts out of fear that they would take her baby is honestly a very realistic

[@lenditasallahi7199]

I’ve read a lot about it and that’s soo common (at least the fear of it)

[@jenna1879]

I felt the exact same way. Im so glad she shared all of this, I feel really seen.

[@explore_with_em_x]

This whole thing makes me feel sad but mostly for the fact that her husband and her family don’t know her enough to see that she’s suffering. I had my daughter and for about 10 weeks afterwards I suffered with the same feelings and emotions. Not so much depressed, just terrified, lonely, anxious. I didn’t want to go out, be left alone, I thought about every little thing that could go wrong. And I never said anything to anyone. But they knew me. My husband had gone through that pregnancy and birth with me, he could see that I wasn’t myself and that I was hiding things. He could see my brain working overtime. He didn’t need me to vocalise anything to him. That’s the sign of a good husband. A best friend and a truly amazing support system. So the fact this nobody in the woman’s family could see how much she was struggling mentally. It breaks my heart for her.

[@valeriedanette3612]

honestly same. i love my partner so much i could instantly tell if his mood changes, if he’s not feeling the best mentally physically or if he’s anxious . all without him saying a word.. she did say they’re divorced now.

[@enexius67]

I’m so glad she’s talking about this ❤️ I had no idea Postpartum OCD was a thing, all they ever talk about is Postpartum Depression, or they expect mothers to feel happy and perfect after childbirth. It’s been proven that childbirth is very traumatic in itself. This really helped me understand it better, as someone who is not a mom.

[@kate3276]

I’m pregnant with my 3rd, I had awful post partum and anxiety and ocd after my first…and it was 100% because of how I was treated in the hospital. They didn’t listen to my concerns or what I as the Mom wanted for my birth. As soon as the baby was born they didn’t give a crap about me. The 6 week follow up appointment was a joke. I’ve been anti hospital birth ever since. I had a home birth with my 2nd and I felt so supported and nurtured through the entire process. Even post partum was a million times better because my midwife came back multiple times over the first few weeks to check on me and how I was doing emotionally and physically. Birth does not have to be traumatic, but it is in a system where women are viewed as a means to an end to get the baby out.

[@babyee5203]

I’m only a few minutes in but I can’t lie this freaks me out & makes me extremely nervous. I’ve been diagnosed w OCD since I was 14 (I’m 20 now) & I can’t imagine having my intrusive thoughts become so extreme & real & not know it’s ocd. It’s a relief being diagnosed because I can understand to some degree that I’m not crazy & there’s a reason I’m having these thoughts. If I was never diagnosed I would honestly thing the worst of myself & have even more mental brain damage from trauma :( a part of me already didn’t want kids because of my ocd & I over the years I’ve worked very hard to work through my triggers but it makes me physically sick to know I will most likely have sick thoughts & constantly question my love for my children to the degree ocd will make me question it. She’s so strong. Just a reminder to anyone, if you feel like you may have a mental illness, please go get diagnosed- nothing is more reassuring. Hard to learn, but reassuring.

[@fandoms5ever]

I seriously think her husbands lack of support contributed to her depression and not feeling safe

[@prickhead]

I agree. When she said she told him she was going to the hospital & his response was "okay" I was like huhhhhh?! If that was my partner, I'd be like 200 thousand questions and affirmations like it's okay babe, everything will be fine, are you there now, which one, can I come, nevermind, I'm already there, see you when you get here, I packed you a bag, got your favorite snacks and the fuzzy pj's.

[@x_x4269]

seriously. she couldn't move or do anything for herself and no one was helping her?? like fuck that guy and the doctors

[@michaelkeller5555]

Yeah, that rubbed me the wrong way, especially what she was talking about toward the end where basically her husband couldn't handle his daughter being a higher priority than him, or her being her own fucking person.

[@pretelquetzal]

His reactions to this whole situation were pretty alarming 😢

[@Daniellefullwood]

@@pretelquetzal I agree ..

[@GabbiBelleS]

This is why mental health awareness is SO IMPORTANT. Intrusive thoughts have been apart of my life since I can remember, but I’ve always known they were intrusive thoughts due to having family members with severe depression & anxiety. Intrusive thoughts can make you feel so guilty but you have to tell others. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Medication for mental illness is also nothing to be ashamed of. They correct chemical imbalances!!

[@jessguad4104]

If anyone is watching this later like I am. We push on the stomach after delivery to make sure the uterus is moving back down to it's appropriate size. If we do not do this, there is a risk of hemorrhage. I know it's very painful, but there is a very good purpose for it! We also put baby on mom as soon as possible for thermoregulation of the baby. I know it can be super daunting for mom, but we really try to do the best for both mom and baby's health. (a student nurse on her maternity rotation!)

[@nicoleinwonderland6452]

Thank you for this!!

[@ChatMort69420]

Thank you! I knew about the massage thing but I thought it might be to push out all of the placenta or something.

[@EncoreMama]

I can’t imagine my daughter crying to me that she’s terrified she will Jill herself or her baby and just being like, “Ok, sweetheart. Gotta get to bingo!”

[@AllisonHamilton-rn8zg]

Right

[@Callimasrawr]

I think maybe she could have thought that she was scared to drive with her kid, not an overall intrusive thought that she was going to do that. A lot of first time moms are scared of driving with their kid even though they will let someone else drive. Just saying you never know. Her mom seemed very supportive

[@silkysam9640]

Same thing happened to me, although I didn’t specifically say that I had bad thoughts. But my behavior was absolutely not normal and people around me just stood by and watched

[@xoviolet32]

I feel like that with the husband… imagine your wife pleading with you not to go out bc she’s scared she’ll hit your child and you’re just like “you won’t… okay gotta go hunting!”

[@J.Cashhhh]

Lol it was a charity event or something. I would be going to bingo too lmao because like she said her Mom had to stay there for a month after she got out of the hospital so….always choose bingo

[@nataliefields9009]

this podcast brings so many important topics to light. I hope that it continues to grow and attracts a diverse audience

[@filipa8626]

Agree 100%

[@margaridadom2]

Agreed!!

[@joemonroe2249]

For sure. I just feel like the internet in general when you use it long enough you learn about so many things that you were clueless about.. and I can see how out of touch people are that aren't ever on the internet cuz you just don't learn about the issues people everyday deal with.

[@sammysmith2646]

I have harm OCD, and it’s gotten worse since I was 11 (I’m 25 now), but the fact that it was identified and I was told it was a mental health issue not a “you’re a sociopath” issue, it’s helped me so much. I love this episode.

[@starryaqua]

Me too! Same exact form of OCD along with some obsession based. As soon as she described her intrusive thoughts I was like “oh my god I know EXACTLY what this feels like”. It can be so isolating and tough but know you’re not alone

[@vmarie22456]

@@starryaqua same. I’ve had this for a while now. I went to therapy last year, but had to stop due to not having insurance, but I’m doing better now, and doing ERP therapy, and just trying to let my thoughts pass.

[@amarisofficial]

I would love to get an introduction, even if it's brief, of your guests at the top of the show. Always interested to know how you met them, etc. Love the show!

[@umyeahok2097]

I stay commenting this lol I think she wants to be unique by just starting the conversation, but I do think an introduction would make it 10x better.

[@rebeccaromeo1518]

I dont think it matters, because everyone has a story. Whether you've been introduced or not... everyone's story is still there. I think we get introduced to soooo many people in our lives, but how many of them do you get deep with? I love this podcast because it skips all that surface level intro stuff and just gets straight to the point, to people's real self and real stories.

[@rebeccaromeo1518]

Plus like why would you need that surface level intro in order to connect with what these people are saying? It's about a deeper message and meaning, it doesn't matter who they describe themselves as in some short intro, it's about sharing a deep part of themsevles, just one meaningful story about their life, and everyone else being able to listen and connect with that.

[@amarisofficial]

@@rebeccaromeo1518 who said it’s needed to connect? All I said is it would be nice to know how or where she met them. Chill

[@minahere]

she has it written in the description 😊

[@Meganhaskinss]

This was an incredible podcast episode dev. Not much triggers me, but her story reminded me a lot of my first postpartum experience. Intrusive thoughts make you feel like you’re truly the devil, that you’re an evil person. It’s so dark, and terrifying. It’s extremely hard to explain to somebody whos never been through it. I needed to hear this story and cry the entire time because the last 3 years I’ve bottled it way down to the point where I didn’t even remember it exsisted until I heard her talking about her experience. Thank you Devorah❣️

[@thegoodlife6117]

Same ❤️

[@notaperson9831]

I’m so glad this has been cathartic for you. I’m 30 with no kids and no plans to have any, but I’ve had OCD and intrusive thoughts my whole life. It’s awful. Especially if you don’t know what is going on.

[@Lizquiz7]

As someone who went through this, it is definitely a combination of the husband not being there for her and her not speaking up about her needs and challenges. Communication is so vital. It's okay to take medicine, too. It's so hard in the present moment to realize that things are as bad as they are.

[@Ashley-u8r]

I always translated these kind of thoughts as, you want to protect your baby so strongly that you start thinking about all the ways you could be a danger. It is so hard to control, you almost feel as if your losing you're identity, I empathize. She's a really great mother, she's always thinking about her child :)

[@BradAaronTaylor]

As much as I loved the old show.. I actually prefer this one-to-one format. You're a natural interviewer, and you're knocking it outta the park. Proud of ya, Dev! 💯 x

[@mawhite5275]

Postpartum psychosis is real and needs to be talked about more. Postpartum psychosis isn’t always apparent. There are signs that others should be aware of so they can pay attention and get you the help you need.

[@jasl9987]

The poor woman from Massachusetts who has postpartum psychosis. Its the first time I heard of this. Its terrible. Women need more help!!!

[@AC-gm5nu]

That not postpartum psychosis it’s harm ocd, I think postpartum psychosis you can end up killing your baby or yourself.

[@skylahoffman8265]

This episode is SO important. My postpartum anxiety and postpartum rage was crippling, and no one even told me it existed, only PPD. As women we are our only advocates.

[@addisonmiller6086]

This episode was so comforting for me. I went through a very similar situation and it was the hardest time in my life. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but it is comforting to know I wasn’t the only one. She’s very brave for telling her story! It definitely will help a lot of people!

[@marlenimedrano205]

Diagnosed with tourretts & OCD & these conversations are something I wish little me had when trying to understand what I was going through. Very educational

[@roxyroloff2155]

What a powerful episode. Thank you Jocelyn for sharing your personal story. You will help so many women. Thank you Devorah for bringing such an important topic to us!!!!

[@fx4426m]

postpartum is so extremely complex and i seriously hope that it becomes more spoken about without shame or fear of outcasting. it’s extremely normal and it occurs more often than people think. it’s nothing to be ashamed of. my heart breaks for everybody going through it, and i’m so grateful that she took time to speak abt her experience with it

[@robyt9542]

You are right. The hardest months on my life.

[@michaelkeller5555]

By far, the best piece of advice I ever got when I was pregnant with my oldest, was one of my best friends warning me about intrusive thoughts, telling me that it happens, it's normal and it doesn't make you a bad mom. So when it happened when I had my newborn, I knew what it was.

[@ashleyschoepf9107]

This has been my favorite video so far! It was so informative and such a deep and personal topic that needs to be more known. I’m in nursing school and we were never taught about PP OCD, so I never would have known. I really appreciate your guest coming on and being so naked in sharing her story and dev for your support. Keep up the great work dev!! :)

[@Demigod8ether]

You’ll learn about it in Pediatrics/Maternity class and clinical rotation.

[@danavila2391]

This is literally my story !! Jocelyn you're saving so many mommas by telling your story I wish I would've heard this when I was going thru it ! This is by far my favorite interview 🥲

[@jessicaewing3146]

This is exactly my story also!!

[@xxxxxxxxx1652]

ocd is not just being clean and neat, there's a whole spectrum of hell - like variations to it. pure-o(cd) is so so common, its basically intrusive thoughts that occur 24-7 and for some people the only way to relieve the stress is to do certain things (for example dress a certain way, act a certain way, touch something a specific amount of times) and once you do it, the stress goes away but then comes again, stronger. that's why therapy is so important, as well as taking medication if necessary. i feel so bad for her, saying she felt crazy and like she had no control, i wish her and her baby all the best :-)

[@christalcavanaugh]

I didn’t know there were people who /didn’t/ have intrusive thoughts! I’ve always had them and I think I’m just used to it. Sometimes I’ll even start to steer towards a cliff while driving and just roll my eyes as I correct myself. Wild to think some folks have never experienced that sort of thing

[@josieclements6526]

I was just having this thought; however, I know in my mind they are not rational. I can’t imagine a time I would believe I would go through with one of these thoughts.

[@cafangytang1700]

everyone has intrusive thoughts, but NOT everyone ruminates on those thoughts and is heavily impacted by them. there’s a difference between normal intrusive thoughts and OCD, where you obsess over those thoughts

[@elizabethcastiglione9525]

i am not a mother nor am i very old. i’m 20 years old and hearing you talk about intrusive thoughts on a big platform makes me feel so validated. i have had crazy intrusive thoughts since i was 13 and it’s not a fun fight to fight.

[@hayleyrader5071]

So I have been just diagnosed with ADHD and I have been struggling to manage my disorder. I struggle with ADHD paralysis, chronic boredom, and imposter syndrome. What I am trying to say is, if you can put someone on your podcast with more experience (who is willing of course). I have been watching your podcast since u started. And I love what your doing with it now. I love you and thank you!! ❤

[@jasl9987]

What is imposter syndrome and constant boredom?! Do u mind me asking how old you are

[@tthewizard7667]

girl you’re not alone I am currently experiencing the same thing and it’s debilitating.

[@ruthiexox3883]

@@jasl9987 imposter syndrome is when someone has doubts in their skills or talents or accomplishments and they have a constant internalized worry that people around them like their friends or boss will expose them as frauds even though there would be external evidence of competency. People who experience this psychological occurrence sometimes believe they don’t deserve their success or luck. And sometimes they also feel like they are being deceitful about their outward intelligence.

[@ranimannous8365]

I live in the UAE, and I wake up at 5AM for work. This is my ritual now. Waking up on a Monday morning, so not in the mood, but then I see Dev’s podcast, and it’s time to sip some coffee. Love it.

[@adrianaa2767]

Just 10 minutes into the episode and I'm in awe. I'm sure other people will listen and feel validated, some pregnancies are easy, and some other are hard af but they are rarely spoken about. INtrusive thoughts are a reality too and we don't hear about it.

[@hannamosinske]

I love how honest and transparent this girl is being about her experience with pregnancy and PPD. I had a very similar experience with the dr. immediately prescribing me medication without even trying to talk to me about what was going on. Thank you for posting this video💖

[@Mamak_RN]

I’ve been binge watching your videos and I’ve loved every one of them. But what stands out is the fact that your such a good listener!!

[@Ccccccmmag098]

Dev you are literally making such a huge impact amplifying so many unheard voices! Loved the pod before and love it now you’re so multitalented and multifaceted!! 💗

[@kmryan]

This woman worked so hard to push through this pregnancy and wow, I am astounded by her.

[@berryblusherr]

ive never resonated with a video more in my life; outside of it being in relation to her pregnancy, i experienced exactly this after going through severe trauma as a 9 year old. I saw a newsclip of a murderer on the loose and got scared that i could do something like that out of nowhere. i was terrified. I will never forget that feeling and will be forever grateful to hear this and have such an intimate familiarity to the fragility of our minds.

[@leahjohnson1177]

This was a very informative and helpful episode! Thank you for opening up & spreading awareness for women struggling with postpartum mental health issues. I think one important thing to highlight is that women are not taken seriously in the medical field, we are supposed to just accept the pain we go through. The doctor who prescribed the medicine initially should have shown you more compassion and really asked what was going on. Informing pregnant women about the possible struggles after pregnancy is so important!!! The medical field needs to do better

[@jcast8756]

Postpartum OCD is very real, I’ve experienced this myself, it’s a scary and highly stressful situation. I’ve learned having a close relationship to God, and recognizing these are just thoughts and would never be an action. I pray all the mammas out there feeling like this, ypu will get through it! Thankyou for touching on this subject that’s so overlooked. 🙏

[@daphrdz7905]

dev this was an amazing episode, she was an amazing and enlightening speaker. Please keep doing your thing dev ❤

[@cschweitzy]

Absolutely an amazing episode. Jocelyn is a beautiful person. As someone who is terrified of having kids for various reasons, this made me feel better and has made me realize how I should attempt to make more of an effort for my friends who are mothers.

[@alicebird546]

It’s so insane to me that no one around her, even at hospital and therapy, figured out this was ocd!? The second she said she thought about pushing her daughter into a river or into a road I thought “that’s ocd”. I have OCD and it all made sense so quickly once I knew what it was, but before that, I thought I was losing my mind just like this guest! Ocd is so misunderstood that no one knows the symptoms because of the “I’m so ocd” jokes about cleaning for example. We hAve muddied the water so much with ocd that so many people like me and this guest have no chance of figuring it out alone. My heart goes out to her, ocd is a nightmare but meds and therapy can help so so much.

[@sadie6219]

As someone with undiagnosed OCD, I was blown away when you were talking about your intrusive thoughts. I never knew post-partum ocd was a thing, and I am so glad you were able to find the right help!!!! Thank you for sharing! I truly hope others who suffer with this will find the hope you bring.

[@alainaelizabethh]

Wow this episode hit me hard. I struggled with bad postpartum OCD for a while after I had my daughter and it was horrible I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. I never knew what it was I just remember I felt crazy

[@trtlduv07]

So glad you did this episode to shed light on this. I’ve had OCD my whole life and it sucks. Not many people know about postpartum OCD but it needs to be talked about cause if happens and it’s brutal for folks!!!

[@beautiful_one]

As soon as you started telling your story I knew it was post partum ocd. I have ocd and I have had the same thoughts with all my nieces and nephews when they were first born. It’s the scariest thing, those thoughts have made me suicidal! So grateful for the people who work in psychiatric units because that saved my life! 💛 Well done on your continued recovery! X

[@fandoms5ever]

My mom had post parting depression after having me. She’s had to be on antidepressants since. I feel bad for her but I almost never could tell she was affected by it. Very strong woman.

[@wendyWERKKZ]

Don’t let anyone else pressure you into having another baby when you’re not ready! 😞 that sounds like the worst to have people be like that, they might now mean harm but it’s so intrusive and weird when people push that on others

[@trashysandra]

Just stumbled across this and this has made me feel valid. I thought I was the only one going through this. I’ve had terrible intrusive thoughts since my fiancé went back to work after having our daughter. It’s getting better but I had nights I’d stay awake having all these though of things that could go wrong. It’s truly a scary experience because it’s such a mentally exhausting thing. Thank you for sharing your story for us moms who are going through the same things ❤️

[@kittydollkori]

I wouldn’t wish intrusive thoughts and ocd on anyone. Bravo to her for telling her story and making it through. I hope she has more support than just her husband because his lack of support is probably contributing. 😢❤

[@kristenness6034]

I loved this topic! I struggled with postpartum depression and intrusive thoughts and if I brought it up others would say "I never struggled with that I felt my babies were an amazing blessing" which just twisted the knife deeper as I struggled with being "an awful mom and awful person". So it's always good finding the community who can be open and ready to talk and find support!

[@shwetashah6589]

I know exactly how she is feeling about OCD intrusive thoughts. It makes you want to avoid places, and u feel guilty like something is wrong w u. All this started last year during march or April don't really remember what month from that month to now I struggled with this. I figured out what I had in august this year, and I have only told one person in my life my BFF, and that's it, but I didn't tell her exactly what I was thinking about, and it's hard to. Trust me crying all the time bc u don't know what is going on; feeling like u r crazy makes u want to stay in bed. U can't even watch certain tv shows and much more, so trust me, I know how this feel. Even though I am not diagnosed, I am afraid too. I am 15mins in, but it's nice to know there is someone who knows how it feels. I constantly think about this guilt every single day. Some days are better and someday r not.

[@erin-oh5jx]

im in the same boat. have been struggling for about 10 years now but it hasnt been too bad until the past year or so. its getting worse the older i get and its so hard battling alone. im not diagnosed either, i find it hard to open up. im afraid to be diagnosed because i worry having an actual diagnosis will make me feel worse. OCD is also extremely stereotyped so i dont want people doubting me and telling me otherwise, just because im not ‘clean and tidy’. but i hope you know your not alone in it. i truly get how hard it is and so do so many other people.

[@shwetashah6589]

@@erin-oh5jx thank u❤️

[@sarasnotherly7482]

Look up OCD recovery group on Facebook. It helps so much. I’ve dealt with OCD almost my entire life and have had many different “themes”

[@sammysmith2646]

I have harm OCD and violent intrusive thoughts, and I always got so scared I was crazy and I didn’t want to tell anyone. When I spoke up I found a community of people that also struggle with it. You can own this 💗

[@kickinitwithjess]

oh god when Jocelyn said she would have an intrusive thought and then obsess over it...girl I just realized maybe 3 days ago I may have OCD because I'll watch one scary movie and be all consumed with the idea my house is haunted just because it was built in 1910. Like literally thinking I won't make it out of my house alive lmao. Like the past 2 days if I knew nobody was going to be home until 8pm. I was going to be doing things until 8pm. I've noticed it can be triggered if I'm entering a very stressful time in my life for example: needing to find a new job. Honestly I am loving this podcast so so much and just in general it gives so much insight on people of different walks of life. It may even shed light on topics people don't talk about as often and make people feel less alone.

[@togikisses]

My mom had postpartum depression after my birth and my sister's... It was something I believe that affected my relationship with her for the rest of my life. I do not think she had the support system she desperately needed. I feel so guilty not having a relationship with my mom, especially because I don't think she really wanted kids to begin with and she tried her hardest. She also has Bipolar disorder and I'm sure that has a lot to do with my mom's personality and her connectedness with me, but I'm trying to work through my feelings with our past and try to have a relationship with her. Its been really hard. Thank you for this episode. It was really informative and special for me.

[@frogfernforest]

I really love this, and all these episodes, it feels like these interviews cover the range of the human experience. They are very interesting to watch, great job!

[@hannahtho9075]

I suffer from ocd and this is my biggest fear if I ever become a mother ❤️ my heart goes out to her. Intrusive thoughts are crazy

[@smb1234evr]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with mental health. It’s given me more courage to open up to others about my own struggles and diminish the shame I hold. I’m afraid to be rejected by others for it but the people that are meant to be in my life won’t care.

[@AllisonHamilton-rn8zg]

I was 19 when I had my first. I struggled so badly with ppd. I am so grateful for my family and my husband because I don’t think I would have made it through it. I was terrified to hold my daughter because of the intrusive thoughts about harming her and others, I wasn’t sleeping, wasn’t eating more than one thing a day maybe, all I drank was coffee so I could stay awake, I would stay awake staring at the wall. I also struggled with being really sick throughout my pregnancy as well. Literally was sick the whole 9 months. I was terrified to ever have anymore kids. I had my second November 2022 and the pregnancy was a lot easier and I did not struggle as much after.

[@apatterson5449]

I can completely relate to this and I have been saying I’ve had OCD since giving birth. The thoughts, the crying, all of it! So nice to know I’m not insane or not fit for motherhood because of my own mind. Very happy you did this and got your story out!

[@Raquellalfaro97]

This is amazing!! Intrusive thoughts can be so freaking scary and feel so real thank you for shedding a light on this💜

[@tdoh123]

Devorah you’re doing amazing in life!!!! Never change and continue to grow!!!!

[@Iambigus]

Great talk. The one thing people need to take from this is. Tell someone. Like a broken arm you go to a doctor. Mental health go to a doctor. They give you a tablet take it. Medication is so important. The more open the conversation the better it is for all. Do not worry about what others think.......

[@kaynjt3247]

Thank you for this, I needed to hear it. My postpartum has been a difficult struggle and there was so much I felt that I couldn't share with those surrounding me. I felt a disconnect in what was supposed to be my bonding time with my child due to my baby being in the nicu for the first two weeks, then once she was home after two more weeks my fiance had made a suicide attempt right outside the bedroom window. His whole side of the family came to stay with us for over a month, parents and cousins alike. They would do everything to the point where I wasn't doing anything for her anymore. Feeding her, changing her, holding her, washing her bottles, bathing her all under the guise of helping me so I could rest after the traumatic experience. It was tearing me up inside but I didn't know how to tell them. It felt like she wasn't my baby or my responsibility anymore even though I wanted her to be.

[@beeandra5966]

I hope you are ok. Ooof, that's a rough post baby experience. Hope your fella is ok too 🌹❤️❤️‍🩹✨

[@laurengallagher1]

This is why it’s so important not to stigmatize OCD. It’s not just liking things organized!!

[@michellebarron1987]

Great use of your platform. Very informative!

[@filipa8626]

Ughh yesss I wait every week for a new episode love this podcast so much you deserve all the love and recognition Dev💗 Edit: btw thanks for posting earlier it's much better since it's already midnight for me here so thanks💜

[@athenachristinemusic]

I feel for the moms. I couldn’t do it. And she’s so right about the meds! I’ve tried so many and finally found the right ones

[@niki.sk167]

I love this podcast! So proud of you dev!

[@Aubooboojoann]

I was watching this relating to most of her story. Wondering why I did, knowing I have never given birth in my life, first of all, yes I have reached out for help, no I didn’t act on anything, and I have gotten better. I got diagnosed with OCD as well. Intrusive thoughts were massively involved in my own experience as well, it was very intense. I am so glad she got the help she deserved and I hope she continues to. She seems so kind and I am sending her all my love. ♥️

[@xocaribabe]

Thanks for sharing your story! Women supporting women! Mom's supporting mom's! Love your mission. Your bravery is inspiring.

[@violetmoon397]

Dev I love your new podcast so much! Keep going and giving voices to real people! Your awesome love you !

[@celestegowin2871]

Please make more of these videos, hearing other ppls stories really helps w daily struggles that other ppl have. I love watching these interviews

[@kimberlyrodas9147]

Damn this is so heartbreaking to hear. This is definitely something that should be talked about more often. The stigma that this makes someone a “bad mom”, needs to be broken. People shouldn’t be afraid to ask for help. Made me sad to hear that The Guest believed there was something “really wrong” with her 😢 Much love to both of you from OR 🫶❤️‍🩹

[@Jcubez234]

She is incredible for being this self aware in such a scary situation.

[@brizettperez]

i love this channel so much i hear these at school while doing my work all the timeee and i love that it shows different types of real life situations real people go through

[@Ggl3923]

When you have a baby having a good support system around you Is everything. Having time to rest and heal while you get help with the baby makes the whole difference

[@beatriz8877]

I'm not married, I'm not divorced, I have no children, but I struggle with mental illnesses. I'm almost two years into therapy and (for now at least) I quit medication to try my best to not need it. But it's hard. This episode help me to realize a lot about myself, even if I can't relate to Jocelyn's life. And also it motivates me to try harder into feeling better and getting what I need to get better. I love how we can conect to others people's situations and this show is amazing for doing that. Specially when they are such a natural into storytelling. Thank you so much to both of you!

[@prrsun]

Love it Dev ❤ thanks for giving space to all walks of life and listening so intently and asking thoughtful questions.

[@mags8212]

Wow. Other than the c section, I had my baby vaginally, but her pregnancy, birth story, breast feeding journey, etc sounds like mine almost to a T, I didn’t realize how healing it would be to watch this. Thank you ❤

[@leahw9810]

She is so brave,such a good episode! Very relatable

[@trinityanderson859]

This is exactly why I’m never having kids. My mental state is already fragile. Having a child with literally make want to not be alive anymore.

[@kaseymfs3651]

Wow, this video brought me to tears. Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest.. this will truly support someone who is going through something similar

[@alyssavoncrash4775]

this woman’s husband sound awful. i can’t even imagine going through something so terrifying and not being able to tell the one person who is supposed to support you because they might leave. even at the the point of her going to the hospital he still isn’t showing sympathy toward the gravity of her situation? makes me sad for her.

[@macymiller3417]

We don’t know their situation. Sounds like he was maybe overwhelmed or confused because this was knew behavior from his wife. Some men just have a more casual personality even when something serious happens, doesn’t make them awful. She also could be playing down the situation. He’s most likely supportive just was confused.

[@yunuenmartinezsanchez2554]

When you don’t talk to anyone they don’t get it right away. It takes a moment for the family to understand that is getting serious

[@yeseniacontreras3287]

I don’t think we should assume based on this video alone. OCD is a wildly misunderstood diagnosis not only for the sufferer, but those closest to them as well. It’s not easy to sit down and tell someone that you have thoughts about hurting your baby, nor is it easy to hear that from someone else. Awful is a harsh word.

[@rubydeep1191]

It sounds more like he didn't have much experience with mental health struggles and wasn't able to support her in the best ways because of that. We can't assume the worst

[@Stephaniemickle]

I don’t think he sounds awful at all. He sounds like a typical guy. Thinking things are pretty much alright, because you’re not looking for things you don’t know are happening in someone’s brain. And then once you learn they’re not okay, it’s very much a reflective process to think back on the signs or what she was doing that someone would say was a red flag. But she was 110% masking. thats not on him to know, when SHE didn't know, or open up and express her vulnerabilities. don't be so quick to judge.

[@AULGG22]

Just found this channel about 3 days ago and barely today getting to this video as the Lindsay Clancy case is going on currently.. so crazy because I had these thoughts with my first born and I also didn't feel like I was going through postpartum depression but the thoughts were there. I love my son and my intention was never to hurt him but my mind kept thinking about those "what ifs", I also never told anyone and to this day haven't (of course until now).. he's 11 yrs old and I'm so thankful that my thoughts never got any worse and somehow I was just able to push through. I remember going to Dr appts and getting those "survey/questionnaires" and I always lied, I wish there was a better way to help all mothers after delivery and to take our mental health more serious.

[@xBiEBEROBSESSIONx]

Wow . This sounds EXACTLY like my story. Glad to know i wasnt alone

[@user-qx4iz9gd8c]

So many interesting people in the podcast lately! ❤️

[@livinglux9107]

Love her conclusions about standing up for herself and having the courage to set boundaries

[@amandabatdorf2499]

This is so wild. I had the same exact thing. Sick as a dog my entire pregnancy, threw up before the home tests even said positive until the day I had my son, barely kept down prenatals, and all I ate was brown cinnamon sugar pop tarts. I kept a box of them by my bed! My boss would hear my throwing up, ask if I was good and said yup, took the trash out and went back to work! Ended up losing my job from fatigue and exhaustion.

[@eri1397]

My earliest intrusive thoughts started happening when I was around 11, and until I was 23 and got diagnosed with OCD, i genuinely felt like I was this secretly evil, dangerous person and would act in very avoidant ways to stop anything from happening. Hearing your story, I kept thinking “wow, this sounds exactly like my OCD”, so when post partum OCD was labelled I was like wow!!!! I didn’t even realize that was a thing. Thank you for sharing your story - I feel like it really decreases the shame around these topics when we can talk about it :)❤

[@EMK2017]

I had a very similar experience with intrusive thoughts growing up, didn't know what they were or that I had OCD for a long time so just thought I was crazy. That was the darkest time of my life, I'm so glad you got help. ❤️

[@zoyapawzup4777]

I had pregnancy where I was so sick the whole time that ended in a miscarriage/abortion and everything after really changed my mental state and I started having intrusive thoughts and doing all these things to have control over situations to feel safe, other things contributed but realizing what the thoughts were and not just my brain predicting the future or something because if I couldn’t relieve the thoughts I would continue thinking about them and freeze pace not get anything done just be stuck. Hearing this is awesome and I want to share it with everyone.

[@marcoanderson316]

"You shouldn't need medicine to be happy" SUCH AN ableist approach to mental health

[@AmoreMiu]

This country seriously needs to do better for moms and postpartum, there’s so many countries like Korea that put much needed recovery care, attention and support for moms for days or weeks after giving birth to make sure mom is doing well.

[@Skylarjohnson2wdkwks]

watching were all insane has became a sunday night ritual

[@Rockstarmama310]

loveeeeeee you for opening up and sharing this side of OCD! I never knew the things I was going through were related to OCD, until I came across it online. it truly is the most scariest feeling ever!

[@nija2106]

Love seeing you killing this on your own.

[@jennb1587]

@Alys lol, Not really. A few have way more than gad was getting, and the rest are the same or pretty close.

[@erin-oh5jx]

@Alys and what????

[@margaridadom2]

I’m obsessed with this show and I’ll always be ✨ btw thank you for posting it earlier! I can watch it before bed now ☺️ Sending love! P.s: stay safe during Halloween 🥳

[@p8735]

my mom had postpartum OCD with my older brother and had no clue what was going on. having thoughts of harming your baby goes against your true feelings and intentions which can be terrifying for moms, especially first time moms. flash forward, and i am living with OCD as well (diagnosed at 18) and also dealt with taboo thoughts that i literally thought i was crazy for. went undiagnosed for a while because i couldn’t possibly have OCD if i “wasn’t fixated on hand washing or counting numbers”, according to my first talk therapist i confided in. i didn’t get much better until i found NOCD and began ERP with them. if anyone is struggling, i highly recommend NOCD for help!!

[@allysson2762]

Thank you so so much for sharing, more people need to be aware and normalize seeking help without judgement in this matter ❤

[@jessie9539]

I’m only 10mins into this & I am so glad this is being talked about. Ocd is terrifying and makes you feel like a horrible person because of the thoughts. I don’t even have any children yet, still trying to conceive, and ocd is already making me question even having children😥

[@kaj1744]

I’m pretty sure I have or had parental ocd After I gave birth I became a clean freak and would get intrusive thoughts here and there and super scared of anything death related rn I have obsessive thoughts about car accidents and dog attacks😭

[@juliasanders9155]

42:00 Yes. I have OCD. When I had an official diagnosis, my brain was now able to wrap its head around the situation and say "I know what this is, I get it, I can stop freaking out now." That's because OCD demands certainty. A diagnosis gives us that. However, as people who suffer with OCD we need to remember to embrace the uncertain. Not everything in our lives is in our control.

[@taylorgibbons2071]

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