It's been 4 years since this video was made. I want to thank you all for the love
@edaozturk63567 жыл бұрын
We love you
@Jessica-sf1cs7 жыл бұрын
Hey bud! Wish you all the best. Love you
@Cara_V7 жыл бұрын
Wishing you all the best & to keep fighting always :)
@Me-eb3wv7 жыл бұрын
IhaveSchizophrenia oof
@thomasbrown67397 жыл бұрын
IhaveSchizophrenia your awesome
@theaccountiwatchyoutubeonl89157 жыл бұрын
You look like the main character in a movie about how a girl finds her true love and he's like a rebel
@alegria18137 жыл бұрын
I guess it's a 80' movie
@fionamoore48457 жыл бұрын
My heart goes out to you, you seem like a nice person and I hope shit doesn't get too bad
@fionamoore48457 жыл бұрын
also, don't say sorry, no need to :)
@melissadelsol61007 жыл бұрын
ik right
@amyyoung28047 жыл бұрын
your discomfort is palpable. I feel it's anxiety. thank you for letting us in. you're amazing
@dashontelamarcus18146 жыл бұрын
for real lmao
@rollingstone88014 жыл бұрын
Nobody cares about your feelings old bitch
@centraltv56473 жыл бұрын
Palpable yeah?
@bitnah31797 жыл бұрын
It's amazing to me that you're very aware of your mental state. Typically, media portrays people who have schizophrenia as severely impaired and unaware individual. I hope you find a standing where you can live comfortably while coping the with constant daily journey you have to face. I wish you the best.
@SamiKarvinen7 жыл бұрын
I mean looking at statistics there a lot of schizophreniacs DON'T actually know that they're ill, or at least not aware to some of their symptoms, thats the reason media generally portrays them as such.
@Prieta1007 жыл бұрын
Brittany Santiago Exactly,I feel like crap when I see people speaking on it like we crazy in Instagram specially when they start commenting on someone's mental issues,it hurts me so bad how people think is easy to deal with this..To be aware of it and still not be able to know when something is real or not plus anxiety/panic attacks,deep depression, OCD and what not (speaking from my side)😕😕😕 I wish some people could put same effort on trying to understand us the same way they put all that effort in to judging us.
@syphruskid7 жыл бұрын
I knew somebody that had schizophrenia. He was completely aware he had it and was a very nice man, but I later on saw him at his worst, started thinking everyone was watching what he was doing and judging him, became extremely hardcore clean oriented. He once even got mad at me over something that never happened. I never held anything against him as I know it wasn't his fault, but at his worst he made me nervous because I never knew what was going through his head.
@RiverNeverKnows7 жыл бұрын
When someone is in a deep psychosis..... They are clearly not aware of what right, Wrong, Or real is. I seen this a lot in my Ex-Fiance.
@joshuah6047 жыл бұрын
Brittany Santiago I would have thought the exact same thing because my brother is schizo effective and he is not this lucid, BUT, 3 of his/my friends are also schizo effective and 2 of them are very lucid and can describe attacks quite well... another good example is Princeton's famous economic professor, Dr Nash, whose life with schizo effective disorder was explored in the movie "A Beautiful Mind", in it he becomes extremely lucid and becomes capable of identifying who was real in his life and who was a hallucination. He ends up never getting rid of the hallucinations but being lucid he is able to identify the hallucinations and live with them, and his quantity of life is quite good, he still teaches in Princeton, and apparently the same few hallucinations he has are always following him around... scary but also kind of cool...
@mnymatt7 жыл бұрын
the amount of people in the comment section recommending weed is shocking
@upularFTW7 жыл бұрын
Weed has become a fix-all meme drug, people will believe anything....
@rodneyauerbach12457 жыл бұрын
+boy jenus neutronoid it does work for a lot of people
@TheRise7 жыл бұрын
Except that many cases of schizophrenia are triggered from weed use
@arthurdent62567 жыл бұрын
TheRise Not caused, triggered. If you have it you had it.
@TheRise7 жыл бұрын
Ahhh yeah thanks for correcting me
@j4n3h5b27 жыл бұрын
It's extraordinary how self aware you are, I know someone with schizophrenia and he thinks everything he sees and hears is real.
@maddyjean92835 жыл бұрын
j4n3h5b2 he’s right. it is real
@jon90984 жыл бұрын
@@MorganaCherish It is real to them, thats what they mean.
@fille202004 жыл бұрын
@Judging Budgie Plot twist. It really is real.
@deeznutsinyoface76324 жыл бұрын
@@maddyjean9283 exactly
@elven13994 жыл бұрын
its not real
@ChorisitoASMR6 жыл бұрын
the way he explains it is so calm
@danielalmeida71267 жыл бұрын
looks like he's straight from the 80s. Anyway wishing you all the best.
@skunkylepew81767 жыл бұрын
more like nineties maybe...
@danielalmeida71267 жыл бұрын
mate he looks like a member of the brat pack lel
@skunkylepew81767 жыл бұрын
+Daniel Almeida I see what ur saying
@danielalmeida71267 жыл бұрын
TazzyLe Zero :D early 90s could maybe work though
@JonCurtin7 жыл бұрын
looks like the main kid in Pretty in Pink
@iknowtheboognish8 жыл бұрын
It's pathetic that the only thing people seem to care about in this comment section is his looks, not what he's actually going through.
@mumble978 жыл бұрын
He has luscious hair.
@yulsbrumbeck40818 жыл бұрын
i dont think its all people seem to care about, but even tho he is sick, he is still a person and man and he prolly longs more than anythin to have a normal life, so normalizing things and talking to him like you would to any other person it might help ...
@cyniical84077 жыл бұрын
brendon
@iknowtheboognish7 жыл бұрын
:^) yes indeed
@mickeymota95577 жыл бұрын
+Mumble Cakes Lol he does.
@Sarahmint7 жыл бұрын
To Everyone recommending weed, I can tell you that it makes conditions of certain mental capacities WORSE.
@queenbee60773 жыл бұрын
Weed????
@queenbee60773 жыл бұрын
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 but why
@dwasd69513 жыл бұрын
@@queenbee6077 it affects some of the same parts of the Brain schizophrenia making some symptoms worse and making some better
@andrewrossetti56283 жыл бұрын
Very true
@juggmannwright73243 жыл бұрын
Shit is worse some people wheb their high get paranoid an that would make it worse
@6Thompson97 жыл бұрын
"Hello, hold on..." instantly liked this video
@seshtillirest21757 жыл бұрын
Sorry man hope things get better for you.
@CRISIZLO7 жыл бұрын
sesh
@gloomjesussecretaccount7 жыл бұрын
SeshTill IRest seshhollowwaterboys death to them other boys
@egdyaf95087 жыл бұрын
SeshTill IRest it wont he needs to load up on meds
@user-kw1ig8bn1g7 жыл бұрын
SESH
@oWetThings7 жыл бұрын
sesh
@neighbor4727 жыл бұрын
This is the first comment section I've seen people get pissed about complimenting someone's looks
@CameronFB7 жыл бұрын
Suttree Lowery the thundering clouuuuuuuuds broke up
@scousemali7 жыл бұрын
Suttree Lowery o
@swaghettimemeballs44207 жыл бұрын
They're just jealous lol.
@ungloomed7 жыл бұрын
and when you breathed in i felt the pull
@ungloomed7 жыл бұрын
FUCKING POOR ME FUCKING POOR ME ALWAYS SUFFERING ALWAYS SUFFERING
@Oceansideca19875 жыл бұрын
You know this video is old when he said “ my iPod is messing up “.
@tylerjoseph82847 жыл бұрын
I have schizophrenia, and whenever I describe it to the people around me, they think I'm insane, and we really aren't as insane as they think we are. Sure, their are some people who aren't good, but we aren't those people. We're just different. P.s, you're kinda adorable, and I love how open you are
@thomascampbell3509 жыл бұрын
You don't have to apologize about this. This isn't your fault. You're helping people, making others feel less alone and educating others.
@thomascampbell3509 жыл бұрын
I'm terrified 0_0
@ThatAwkwardUke9 жыл бұрын
MrFALLENHER0 Oh snap. I have a feeling someone is getting shrexsual.
@MrFALLENHER09 жыл бұрын
Basically
@bereruter09 жыл бұрын
Madyson Reed yeah I agree this is why I enjoy his videos anyways because they are slow and chilled out and at the same time helps educate me about schizophrenia and helps me understand it more since I have symptoms of it I want to be sure about things
@jx41128 жыл бұрын
At least you're relatively calm about it and not totally freaking out. You seem fairly chilled which is something
@LifeInJP8 жыл бұрын
he's on medication
@imamea79467 жыл бұрын
Whose to say that medication is helpful... maybe for the short term at times but not long term...
@jx41127 жыл бұрын
LifeInJP yeah, it would be a nightmare if he wasn't
@imamea79467 жыл бұрын
You have a lot of faith in meds... Have you seen some of the side effects? There's one quote from a doc that says, everything that can be found in a pill can be found in nature... if you're able to find it in nature or with natural methods there would only be side benefits
@jx41127 жыл бұрын
Ima Mea The side effects can't be too bad surely otherwise doctors wouldn't prescribe them. It must be better than whatever you can experience with schizophrenia, so I think it's worth it
@ninarenton50005 жыл бұрын
Don't say sorry for something you can't control properly ! You are amazing and you will get better ✌✌✌
@czarinaschwartz87876 жыл бұрын
I felt really awful when you kept apologising. You're clearly suffering, why is that your fault? I know this is old vid and I am glad you're doing much better. But you were right about demons and the devil. I say it from experience. I know smoking pot worsens it. Anyway, I nearly teared up when you said you forgot what you were saying. Literally me. Take care. I am glad you posted this. Thank you for your bravery. Most of us aren't violent during our worst day but just broken. Glad you tried to reach out despite everything.
@czarinaschwartz87876 жыл бұрын
I didn't ? Its still up there. See from desktop. Maybe its a phone glitch.
@rafiqmohammed94023 жыл бұрын
Nida, thanks for the comment (jazakallah for goodwill). And to the guy in the video you're awesome man. I appreciate your courage. Keep ya head up. There's a lot of help do not ever think you're alone.
@staceyrangel30513 жыл бұрын
@@mustang4636 Parents are in a cult, ya learn it, act like you like it, and you don’t get a lecture or a beating. My life.
@mustang46363 жыл бұрын
@@staceyrangel3051 That much is obvious to me by now. Anyway, you're replying to a really old comment and just gave me an ugly reminder of the stupid shit i used to say when i was 15
@mustang46363 жыл бұрын
@@staceyrangel3051 if youre old enough to move out just know you shouldn't live with ppl like your parents go be free
@salmam.a23308 жыл бұрын
this is so upsetting i wish him the best...
@LissaHailey138 жыл бұрын
Ayee ashton
@salmam.a23308 жыл бұрын
+Alissa is me ayyyy if u know u know
@ingt123457 жыл бұрын
My best friend has schizophrenia and it breaks my heart to see what he goes through. He was super popular in high school and now he's in pain everyday.
@troystuart88707 жыл бұрын
+roy walton ive got the Same exact story.... My best friend went to his cousins house for a week and came back a totally different person. I knew it was Schizophrenia but it took him painting his face black with a sharpie and pointing a carved wooden stick at his sisters friend till he was diagnosed. I wish a bad day for him looked like this...Hes a paranoid schizophrenic and its honestly scary to hang out with him even though i still do occasionally but i talk to him on phone as much as i can. Sometime its just "word soup" and you cant understand a single thought. He used to be any out going ladies man with a heart of gold and now i look at him and just wonder where the friend i knew is. Its weird having your friend physically there but everything you knew as him is gone. Hes in jail at the moment, im hoping only till he goes to court. But he had a tiny bit of Pot on him and i guess his paranoia kicked in because he walked up to the cops and said " just arrest me already cause i know you guys know i have weed on me" handed the cops the weed and they threw him in county jail.... What a criminal justice system right...
@laurenpaterson34757 жыл бұрын
Troy Stuart
@jesari17017 жыл бұрын
you really suit this hair. It's really cute :)
@marceloc22117 жыл бұрын
jesari1701 Yass!
@user-nf3hh8kn5r7 жыл бұрын
OP I agree lol
@fragtall7 жыл бұрын
You are self awared of your sickness and even of your emotions / halucinations at the moment - I respect you for that.
@beanbeanster72196 жыл бұрын
I think you're incredibly brave with your honesty about how you're feeling, hearing and seeing. You're helping others who have schizophrenia and also their friends who want to be there for for them so thank you for sharing what it's like. You really are helping more people than you know and you're braver and stronger than you know too. Thank you.
@sage62699 жыл бұрын
I have a 7 year relationship with a schitzo guy. He reminds me of you alot. a million things always going on in his head. Sometimes at night he will wake me with his screams and grab a knife and pace around saying "someone's in here". It used to scare me, but I'm so used to it. He wont make eye contact with me when he's having hallucinations, and sometimes he will wake me up every 10 min asking if I'm crying.. I just rub his hair and blast some music. It really helps him drown out the voices. It's gotta be so loud you can feel it though. We will fall asleep to that sometimes. He does really well most of the time. It only gets bad if he forgets his Seroquil and then takes it and is waiting for it to kick in. That's a sure way to tell if we're gonna have a bad night.
@juliamary50569 жыл бұрын
I'm not sure why but I found this interesting and would like to know more about your relationship:)
@gcv9809 жыл бұрын
If your boyfriend is that bad he needs hospitalization where he can get therapy.
@thomascampbell3509 жыл бұрын
You're a saint. Ya know that?
@ForeverRepublic9 жыл бұрын
gcv980 Great, just so some doctors can feed him drugs and treat him like an animal. How about no. From what she described, he's actually doing well. Schizophrenics are always going to hear voices or have a paranoia episode on occasion, so imprisoning someone in a mental asylum will only make it worse. In terms of stress and being forcibly separated from their friends, family and significant other, it will only make the delusions worse. So please, for all that's good, shut up. And OP, you're such an amazing person, I admire you!
@gcv9809 жыл бұрын
ForeverRepublic You have no idea what you're saying. Sure keeping him away from drugs is only going to make the delusions worse but that's what you want isn't it?. Not everyone can deal with that kind of thing. Making delusions worse may lead the patient to make rash decisions (rash because their minds are incoherent from reality) and some end up hurting or even killing other people or themselves. I'm not saying drugs are going to cure them, I think there's a possibility of treating schizophrenics with vitamins, there is a doctor who believes that vitamin b3 etc can sometimes cure them. However, only a good doctor can offer the right treatment plan for that patient. So unless you're a psychiatrist yourself how about you do the world a favour and shut up. Because not all doctors treat patients like animals only the incompetent ones do. Btw I wasn't referring to the person who made the video I was referring to people who can't handle the voices inside their heads
@theleftymonster7 жыл бұрын
You must be a very intelligent person because against your illness you are fully aware of the fact that those voices are not real. This is very important because it will help you to fight against this illness. All you need to do is just ignore those voices or things that you see or hear but you know it's not real. I know it's easier to say than done but I want you to try this with all your will power. Listening to you and how much you are aware of yourself, I'm sure you can do it. Just don't give up, keep fighting, ignore the freaking voices!! I wish you all the best.
@peroxideman52927 жыл бұрын
Diamond Dust It doesn't have anything to do with intelligence, It's about the severity of the illness at the moment
@OG_stevedidWHAT7 жыл бұрын
a lot of people with schizophrenia know they are hallucinating. It's not like know will turn it off though. You guys should educate yourselves before making accusations like this is fake. I wouldn't wish schizophrenia on anyone.
@jesshorakova19737 жыл бұрын
as people here said, it's about how several is the Illness and also how the individual perceives it. Another thing is that's not that simple as "ignore those voices" it's imbalance of chemicals in the brain.
@dunnyt16807 жыл бұрын
"Ignore the freaking voices!!" Thanks doc
@nullw87687 жыл бұрын
The problem is this: you know it's not real but the fact that it is happening makes it a reality. Knowing that it's not real doesn't make it go away. In a way, knowing that it's not real probably makes it *more* real because you actually have to attach that value to it, actively.
@fhorsey5 жыл бұрын
Thank you for courageously sharing these intimate and difficult experiences. The content you create is very educational and watching your videos is helping me begin to fathom what my cousin deals with everyday. Thank you, really.
@gg-rv2ch5 жыл бұрын
I love and appreciate this video. the way you express what you’re feeling in the moment is incredible. thank u for this
@Skeevee7 жыл бұрын
the courage it took to film this, share it, and the difficulty of going through it, composed and intelligence is beyond impressive, what people took away from this video: he's attractive. lol
@astriddelacruz9105 жыл бұрын
KhalSenpai haha ik right
@LibertyLikes8 жыл бұрын
I've been in a lot of therapy and I can tell he is being very skillful. It takes a lot of awareness to be able to say "I'm feeling very paranoid" instead of "I'm being followed." That is very skillful. Well done!
@Savexh6 жыл бұрын
Stay strong brother
@shanemays43466 жыл бұрын
I just found this. What amazing strength you have. I am sorry for the way you feel in this. Don't ever be sorry for who you are or what you go through. You are amazingly strong. Thank you so much for allowing all of us to see the raw side of this disorder. I hope you keep your strength and are doing better.
@neenweenbean8 жыл бұрын
he's very handsome.
@carinastefan26688 жыл бұрын
Just like Andy Biersack 😂😍
@roacherii8 жыл бұрын
+Carina Stefan YAS
@roacherii8 жыл бұрын
+Carina Stefan YAS
@carinastefan26688 жыл бұрын
***** Oh,okay.. Well.. Everyone has their own tastes..
@JoshTube8 жыл бұрын
+Nina doeful Extremely
@vegasmiri18108 жыл бұрын
i hated the guided hallucination. 4 years ive had schizophrenia and live with it. with out medication. with out letting "them" keep me locked away alone in my room. it strikes when im trying to sleep. and idgf im still going to end up asleep,im still going to take a shower, im still going to work and im still going to live like the lil badass i am. fear is what you make it and i f-ing loved that you did this and im going to subscribe cause your crazy and im crazy and its ok.
@2bitanalyst398 жыл бұрын
Marry me
@ccfan818 жыл бұрын
+vegas Miri The most important thing I read in this is "and it's ok." Because you are right, it is ok isn't it.
@vegasmiri18108 жыл бұрын
+Cory Modzeleski. it's ok if you choose to live your life that way. Im saying "your" life cause you're the only one who has to deal with your own inner subconscious. (dont let it change the parts of you that are wonderful)I'm stubborn and keep my problems with my schizophrenia to myself.my family and few friends know of my colorful traits.I've lost people in my life from fear and I've come to learn mental sickness is really common. always finding out someone always has a brother or uncle ect.that's been diagnose. Maybe cause im a girl I get allowed to be excepted easier. idk, but life has a funny way of taking what you want and giving you what you need. i heard a quote recently that said "strength comes from the madness we survive" it really got to me. so honestly its six am heading home realizing its going in to year 5 with this sickness almost 27 and i see a lot going for me cause i won't give up. life will be good if you make it that way. soooooo, keep being okay! medication or no medication you're going to find your middle ground. Just dont give up guys
@goldenhawk9528 жыл бұрын
Jesus he'll help you
@ccfan818 жыл бұрын
goldenhawk952 didnt work for me.
@GloomyYumi7 жыл бұрын
Watching this video gives me goosebumps cuz I remember feeling kinda the way you do before getting the right medication (I'm not schizophrenic btw) and being EXTREMELY paranoid and not being able to control my thoughts. Even thinking about it makes me want to cry. It's such a horrible feeling. Stay strong
@Typicalwhitegrill6 жыл бұрын
You remind me of a friend I made in the hospital, and watching this makes me miss him. I hope both you and my dear Alex are doing well ❤️Taking everything day by day is hard but we got this
@80disgusting357 жыл бұрын
I really hope you find some peace of mind.
@citrusblast43727 жыл бұрын
wow thats not disgusting :0
@letsogichmaric51077 жыл бұрын
he never will most schizophrenics end their life
@iPhilYa237 жыл бұрын
Theman Oje Mr Optimistic...
@TB.....7 жыл бұрын
Theman Oje There's always hope. You are tactless. A sign of lacking empathy. You may not have meant to be insensitive but you was.
@Funkynutblast4447 жыл бұрын
80% Disgusting that picture of Katya is A+😂
@BabyKiwiBullet7 жыл бұрын
Schizophrenia is a soul-sucking disease. None of us can imagine the mental prison it creates for its sufferers. I am blessed to be a caregiver in an adult group home. We have a severe schizophrenic who has seizures and is now quite far gone due to both conditions. My heart breaks for every one of schizophrenia's victims.
@34greenster7 жыл бұрын
Bill Maze schizophrenia is the worst mental disorder, and if not then it'll be manic depression but I schizophrenia is worse
@mikeyoung7660 Жыл бұрын
I think from what I know about it that it's a really bad illness. I really feel for people who have to suffer it on a daily basis. My heart goes out to you all ❤❤❤❤
@kellybreeyear90173 жыл бұрын
These vulnerabilities are what help the mental health community. I am applauding your choice to share this, in your narrative while experiencing the difficult symptoms you have to manage and you're staying so controlled in this moment, you can tell you're practiced and skilled knowing your illness. It's scary to doubt our own mind. The struggle is real, but we find perseverance and are given a resilience many have no idea how to obtain in the way we do. Many thanks, you're inspiring.
@TaysonPlaysGuitar5 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry you've gone through this. I hope your symptoms have gotten better and you're doing okay.
@jun920918hao8 жыл бұрын
Well, you may think this is a bad video, but I think this is awesome. I am a medical student and one of my lecturers showed this vid in class and pointed us to your channel. Your videos are helping us recognise what schizophrenia really is; I mean, we can read about it, but at the end of the day, it's just words on a textbook. Thank you so much for doing this. It must be hard to post something like this on KZbin and I really think you are incredibly brave for doing so. Take care, and know that you are part of the education engine behind medical students around the world.
@bloko8087 жыл бұрын
Im Schizophrenic and the worst problem for me is trying to get some sleep. Im so paranoid I cant sleep at night or when every one else is sleep. I cant tell you how much mellatonein I've taken
@chardem.57437 жыл бұрын
Bad Wolf-111 melatonin on a consistent basis can actually encourage your brain to stop producing that chemical naturally because it expects that supplement. Best of luck to you 💓
@damiangriffin90947 жыл бұрын
Bad Wolf-111 smoke high quality indica cannabis
@elskepode27 жыл бұрын
Yeah, like that's people poured out to everyone. Good luck getting your hands on some. Most drug dealers are too fucking stupid to know what that means half the time and his Doctor sure as hell won't prescribe it.
@bloko8087 жыл бұрын
Fivefootnothin Marykate Thank u for your advice and luck . are u a schizo as well ?
@Emmewantspeace7 жыл бұрын
Bad Wolf-111 does the melatonin give you headaches? If I take it here and there, it's fine. If I take it every day in a row for 4 days or more, I wake up with INTENSE migraines for 4 hours. I want it to stop because I adore melatonin and the way you don't feel tired or groggy in the morning :/
@GirlMomma5 жыл бұрын
You are so courageous, thank you for helping us try to even begin to understand what it's like to go through this. It must be so scary, I'm sorry for all that you must have to go through. I truly hope you are doing well and that you have a good support system and good loving friends and family surrounding you. Bless you and take good care.💜
@clarasm59437 жыл бұрын
Lowkey extremely attractive Stay strong
@chloe-qf5fn5 жыл бұрын
ever considered that attraction is subjective?
@juliestewart30315 жыл бұрын
Yes he is! He is extremely composed through his episode. Wonder how he is now..hope he's ok.
@2LitProduction5 жыл бұрын
That’s the only thing you got out of this video? Fucking perverted ass weirdo
@MrPrush-ji4gs4 жыл бұрын
Federico García Lorca fg
@TheBlashMusic4 жыл бұрын
Reminds me of River Phoenix
@therealdeal26227 жыл бұрын
How can you be so calmed at it. I mean, if I heard a voice in my head I'd probably sit on a lonely chair and cry incessantly. You're really motivating to people with your "mental disorder", because although you say it's not a good day for you, you've have gone so far.
@ratmaster57 жыл бұрын
TheRealDeal because he's lived with it his whole life
@brownieboo3067 жыл бұрын
there is medication and treatments to help manage it but sadly not to cure it
@peterf79507 жыл бұрын
It's like a perma trip
@ongobongo83337 жыл бұрын
Im so jealous
@missblisss7 жыл бұрын
frostedlambs so is a perma trip.....
@stinkysmelly66957 жыл бұрын
You have no idea. The voices take your darkest fear, and just tell it to you non stop. It doesn't stop. You ask them to, you plead you take pills, but they just keep talking. You think it begins to fade and you get used to it, but it knows you because it is you. It knows who you care about, what they care about, and finally why you care about them. It tells you they'll die, you'll die, etc.
@devontecaples19937 жыл бұрын
that's fucked
@ongobongo83337 жыл бұрын
frostedlambs Well im not a pussy so ill be fine
@suzannealsop33944 жыл бұрын
Been following and supporting your KZbin channel for some time now. I have experienced something similar to yourself. Been on antipsychotic meds since 1992 and Only now I feel happy and safe regardless of anything because of my faith which gets me through.
@MikeBrokenArrow6 жыл бұрын
Hey man, thanks for sharing! Wish you complete recovery. We got lots of respect for you!
@morgipi8 жыл бұрын
You guys have no clue if this is real or fake. My uncle had schizophrenia and he acted very similar to this
@nickmiller43448 жыл бұрын
same with my uncle. I remember one time he was saying he can here people in the vents & he had a tinfoil hat & he was siting in the corner & he acted the same way as this guy
@kaithedreamer87108 жыл бұрын
+Mørgan Jøseph-Dun Twenty One Pilots
@agaist12798 жыл бұрын
I can agree
@ilovetech45948 жыл бұрын
How to schizophrenic's act ? I'm schizophrenic but I don't remember when i have mental break down
@antoinedemm75338 жыл бұрын
My brother has schizophrenia and he acts and speaks exactly like the person in the video when he is off of his meds.
@LuvBugBlaqkHart8 жыл бұрын
You're brave to post this. Thank you for sharing your experiences. You don't have to be sorry for anything. Much love.
@DemiChann6 жыл бұрын
I study psychology and videos like these really help me a lot in school and to help others just like you. Thank you so much for sharing this. And you are super cute! hope you are doing a ton better now.
@user-rs7pz5sf5i3 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing this video, it makes me feel like my episodes are normal
@newharmony857 жыл бұрын
So sorry for you man. I wouldn't be handling it as well as you. I wish you the best and hope you find whatever helps you cope.
@danielchapman5477 жыл бұрын
To someone trying to understand, your senses are your only way of interpreting the world. To have them corrupted like this is devastating, how can someone tell the difference between reality and the disorder? I'm so sorry, I hate hallucinating and can't imagine having it happen regularly.
@xgi365 жыл бұрын
Sorry you are going through this, I sincerely hope that a cure is found and you get the help you need and deserve. Thank you for sharing this so that we can understand and try to help.
@themetalone77396 жыл бұрын
Thank you for making this, and your other videos. Takes a LOT of balls to do something like this. Doing research for a book, and I think this is definitely going to help me portray the illness more accurately, so thank you for that too.
@RoflTheBananas7 жыл бұрын
I feel so bad you have to deal with this. You look attractive though, hope that helps
@iamthefirsttosecond7 жыл бұрын
lol
@aura71176 жыл бұрын
SUCKRPUNCHED he posted that last year....
@yeonjunssidekick99086 жыл бұрын
thumbandindex it's actually really nice of you c: you can't help with a comment like thit, but who doesnt like to read/hear compliments.
@hajarali2227 жыл бұрын
you are very very intelligent ..and how you can control this and keep yourself calm is really fascinating... however i don't think that smoking for long time can help ..it MIGHT help you your mind but are damaging your body ... there has to be solution.
@hajarali2227 жыл бұрын
it's **
@pattym91827 жыл бұрын
Cigarette addiction is common in a very strong majority of those with schizophrenia. I think like 80% or so. Somehow the way the nicotine and/or other chemicals in cigarettes interact with the condition makes it very likely for someone with schizophrenia to become hooked.
@caizeach92397 жыл бұрын
Hajar Ali22 weed
@Rafa-mv4nn7 жыл бұрын
Hajar Ali22 Vaping.
@MultiCheeseLouise7 жыл бұрын
pattym9182 I read about that too, and I used to live with a really bad schizophrenic (real scary delusions, shouting very loud at imaginary things) and he would chain smoke all day every day from waking up to going to sleep. He had a friend who too who was slightly 'saner' than him in some ways but also had schizophrenia who would smoke all day too, so I fully believe that there is some truth in the statistic.
@velocitymurder6 жыл бұрын
Thank you for having the courage to put this video up. I think you're helping your self because there are people out there that do care for even strangers with mental health issues. This helps us understand you.
@SMILEMOREGUY5 жыл бұрын
I hear voices occasionally but nothing like this although my depression and anxiety has gotten so much worse i just wanted to say i applaud you for having to suffer from this and still go on with life your awesome
@thegirlwhocouldfly8 жыл бұрын
youre super attractive sorry
@martanoguerol25628 жыл бұрын
true tho
@jessicasuzanne___8 жыл бұрын
+Clara Pondswald Yes he is. I know how he feels. I hear voices in my head, they tell me that I'm worthless, that I should hurt myself or hurt other people. But I don't hallucinate
@rawrx8 жыл бұрын
Eh, hearing voices is also hallucinating xD?
@jessicasuzanne___8 жыл бұрын
Alexander Biller True. But it's scary, because the voices tell me to hurt myself, to stay in bed all day, to hurt people but i don't want to hurt people, i dont want to hurt myself
@jessicasuzanne___8 жыл бұрын
RunPoo1 ..... Wtf
@MrCmon1137 жыл бұрын
This is surely a horrible disorder to have, but it is also fascinating. I think schizophrenia can teach us a lot about the brain.
@youtubecommentposter57047 жыл бұрын
This is incredible. Keep fighting and keep working hard! You seem to have things under control for the most part.
@dayspook5 жыл бұрын
Just wanted to say that you are extremely brave for trying to keep yourself even keeled and sharing your struggles with the rest of us at it allows us to relate better to others suffering from this disease. Hang in there kiddo, you are doing well!!!
@MelanieScarborough10 жыл бұрын
I know you published this forever ago... but you keep saying "sorry" through your video. You don't have to be sorry. This is a very raw and honest recording of your experiences. Even when you're not saying anything, you're showing us by your movements how you are feeling on a bad day. That's even more of a reason to thank you because who wants to be seen on a bad day? You seem like a sweet guy. Keep moving forward and working towards your goals.
@CuriousFunguy10 жыл бұрын
Yes ! your silence talks a lot ! I agree with Melanie ! Your video is perfect.
@Saphireaway7 жыл бұрын
My uncle has schizophrenia and it has been very hard for all of us to understand his mind, what he was saying, and the sort of things he hears. I found this video insightful. Thanks for sharing, dude! I wish you the best
@shock91777 жыл бұрын
welcome to the internet
@shadowofthenighthawk7 жыл бұрын
fuck you bitch
@shock91777 жыл бұрын
Dick Indiaz lmfao
@austinripley36887 жыл бұрын
Shock you're a real piece of shit lol
@austinripley36887 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry about your uncle Hannah
@FeastofFeasts15 жыл бұрын
Sorry about your diagnosis. You are doing well handling it. God bless you. I love you bro
@Berlini477 жыл бұрын
Damn bruh I'm feeling with you I've had the same problems and can understand your situation to the fullest, you get up buddy I promise!
@daynaherbert63647 жыл бұрын
I watched this video in 2014 and since then I've been extremely interested in all mental illnesses especially schizophrenia. I'm so fascinated by how the brain functions and what causes these conditions. I'm in my first year of psychology and I really want to be a mental health specialist. Thank you for helping me discover my hidden interest Jacob! Hope you're doing well xxx
@lukemortagal17647 жыл бұрын
he is soo good looking 10/10
@lukemortagal17647 жыл бұрын
Shock o really??
@isaacmoodie207 жыл бұрын
Luke Mortagal yeah you personally are clearly the only scientific explanation for earthquakes and hurricanes 😂😂
@cynicalbeauty19807 жыл бұрын
Shock does it make you feel better about yourself making others feel awful??? Fuck off loser and get a life so you don't have to make others feel bad about theirs...
@lukemortagal17647 жыл бұрын
LyssandRick get em lyss is that your real face?
@cynicalbeauty19807 жыл бұрын
Luke Mortagal yes darling it most certainly is
@SailorRob7 жыл бұрын
No need to be sorry, brother. This was a great video upload and gives everyone a glimpse into your life. I think you're a very strong person for sharing your experiences. Thank you.
@gregrhodes35226 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing. Had schizoeffective and in and out of mental hospitals. Also very compassionate and highly sensitive person so my heart goes out to you.
@SoldierofMusic6669 жыл бұрын
BAD TIMES WILL COME AND THEY WILL PASS
@snuffy12587 жыл бұрын
Hey, just found your channel. Im 14 and suffer from schizophrenia, I have been having a rough time lately with my hallucinations, I keep seeing my little sister run onto a road when cars are coming, I nearly got run over once or twice in the last month from this. I haven't been to school for a week. It really does suck... Wish you the best, and you are brave af for making videos about your schizophrenia. I was scared to even put this comment...
@maxasaurus3008 Жыл бұрын
Keep your head up kid
@imissedthepartwherethatsmy528611 ай бұрын
@@maxasaurus3008hes not a kid anymore
@maxasaurus300811 ай бұрын
@@imissedthepartwherethatsmy5286 ok, uh sorry?
@x_Automatic_SpIcE_x6 жыл бұрын
no it's not a bad video, you are showing us what it's like to have a mental illness, I work with people who have it but it's hard for them to vocalize when their having an episode other than yelling, your actually helping people understand what others are going through during an episode. I praise you for being so open about it, it can be tough to live with an you are such a strong person. thank you for sharing
@hunterthompson54692 жыл бұрын
I hope you are doing great man, and if you see this please never be sorry to the viewers. You are doing your very best to put this out there and to help make people more aware and it is SO appreciated. You are awesome man-never think otherwise.
@kdeering967 жыл бұрын
I have illusions because of my anxiety. I only have them at night down a dark road. It's really scary. And because of my illusions I have horrible panic attacks. Reasons why I don't drive at night. It sucks.
@tomhass80157 жыл бұрын
Illusions? I think you mean hallucinations.
@kdeering967 жыл бұрын
Dogling no. My psychologist said people who have hallucinations has had a head injury. Tbh I don't go to him any more because I feel like he didn't know what he was talking about. So he's probably wrong. I probably have some sort of schizophrenia. But I won't know till I get a different doctor.
@kdeering967 жыл бұрын
Lanky Daze I don't understand why that's funny? That's what my psychologist said.
@tomhass80157 жыл бұрын
Kimberly Marie Illusion just seems to mean a man made 'projection' while a hallucination happens in the brain.
@kdeering967 жыл бұрын
Lanky Daze I'm just wording them how my psychologist said. Like I said tho. I stopped going to him because I felt like he didn't want to really help and didn't care. So I stopped going to him. Trust me I know illusions is a magic trick lol. Like I said for all I know i might be schizophrenic. But I won't know till I go to a proper Doctor who really cares.
@monicapresley23839 жыл бұрын
dude you should paint what you see, who knows you could be an artist
@sadjadasadi45754 жыл бұрын
Your videos are really helpful to me as a person that tries to help a schizophrenic brother. I hope you are in good shape.
@sebbiewashere6 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Keeping you in my thoughts, much love
@kassychavira7 жыл бұрын
he's so handsome.
@nekonformni7 жыл бұрын
NO WEED, but there is possible way with CBD (cannabidiol), cannabinoid separated from whole hemp extract with no psychoactive effects, but neuroprotective - studies show it can help calm down symptomes of depresion, sychizophrenic etc.
@jacobdelaune70744 жыл бұрын
“Letters bein wrotin” 😂 love it my dude!
@trashmaster14577 жыл бұрын
My heart goes out to you man. Fuck whoever is denying this or thinking you're "faking" it or whatever. Your reactions are very real and very valid and I'm sure it's so so so hard on bad days like this but for you to be able to at least try and keep your calm throughout this video and explain to the viewers what's going on is brave. Much respect. I hope you're doing well, you seem like an absolutely awesome guy.
@Synicizm7 жыл бұрын
Thanks for uploading this, even though you didn't think it was good. It's real, and that's always better than well-produced or edited, or at least I think so. This is the first video I've seen of yours, and it's raw, and I think it's perfect for your goal with this. I can't imagine trying to concentrate with a bunch of weird stuff happening, and voices around me. You demonstrated schizophrenia as it was, and this is the first time I've seen something like this about it. I have a degree in psychology (and anxiety and OCD and a bit of situational depression - whee!), and textbooks really don't mean much without actual people behind them, you know? Subscribed, and going to find more of you know, hoping you're having less bad days!
@InvincibilityMedia7 жыл бұрын
I appreciate you for making this video! I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Please take care of yourself, you've got plenty of followers that care about you!
@kathyvalentine12126 жыл бұрын
God bless your heart young man ... I have a dear friend that I've known since I was 8 years old, I'm 58 yrs old now, who has suffered with schizophrenia since we were in our late teens. She has her good days and her REALLY "dark days" as she puts it. (It runs her family.) Plz don't apologize for the symptoms of your disorder, how else would the world ever get a glimpse of the REAL life you have to live. Thank you for your courageous efforts to enlighten the rest of us. Love your honesty, I'll be praying for you. (Stay strong! 💪)
@bones5432106 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry you have to deal with that...I can't imagine but it was helpful to hear you talk about it. I wish you all the best
@247sapphire7 жыл бұрын
its good that he is able to recognize and vocalize his problems. I wish him the best.
@pjf26759 жыл бұрын
Thank you for letting us join your world. You are beautiful... and I hope you have many better days.
@AshOfTexas6 жыл бұрын
You're amazing! I really want to make a video too, but I have a lot of anxiety and I don't think I could handle criticism. I love your honesty and courage. I'm proud of you. Watching videos like yours make me recognize my own triggers. I can see your pain. Def keep up the dark humor. Much Love from Texas!
@DouglasJames-de4fo2 ай бұрын
Thank you for letting people know how tough it can be
@poisonforsocrates8 жыл бұрын
I love you man, thanks for keeping it 100
@robertoluis43867 жыл бұрын
Smoking weed is like playing with fire or Russian roulette for a schizophrenic or anyone with similar symptoms. Trust me I've ended up in hospital many times because of weed induced psychosis. I didn't stop using because of my fucking ego. It would not let me believe I was allergic because I wanted to be like everyone else and always trying to get higher and higher. Now I'm on 7 different types of medication and I just feel weird all the time. I'm unable to cry or laugh. Its like I'm desensitised. I got a phobia of sleeping now from it which is seriously fucked up. Find it very hard to fall asleep and stay asleep for more than 3/4 hours. During the day my head hurts and don't feel like doing anything because im so tired. I'm 4 months clean after 23 years of using and still suffering. On a bad night I get panic attacks, terror, blurred/double vision, small hallucinations like big black flies wizzing around, colours seem brighter or glowing, paranoid thoughts/delusions, feeling possessed, psychedelic visions, not being able to pee when I want to etc. It's horrifying to say the least. I'm always uneasy when bed time comes. I just wanted to talk about my own experience. I'm not trying to say the same shit will happen to you. It's your mind/sanity. I ignored my gut feeling every time I smoked weed because my pride took over and refused to admit that I am one of the people who have a high risk of weed induced psychosis. When I smoke I get severe paranoia which gives me anxiety then psychosis then panic attacks and of course insomnia. All those symptoms put together is literally a living nightmare/torture. It didn't help that I was always trying to get the strongest shit on the streets. Weed called amnesia and cheese. I'm from London by the way. I ignored myself, family, friends and psychiatrists advice because I was obsessed with weed. Maybe there is a strain for everyone just like there is many antidepressants for different people or maybe there just isn't. But because it's not legal where I am you don't know exactly what your getting. If I use again it could be the first joint or a matter of time before I get a bullet in the head and I'm back in the hospital again or maybe even worse dead. When your in psychosis it makes you very unpredictable. I find the older you get the worse the symptoms get. So for me I stay the fuck away and I turn my back on weed because these symptoms I'm getting are like a living hell. Fucking weed culture and advertising is way worse than alcohol is I reckon. Yeah you know the marijuana clothing, marijuana paraphernalia on the high streets, movies, internet and music especially rap(which I like). Its like the message is we must believe weed is a cool thing to do just like it was cool to smoke cigarettes back in my fathers youth. I know you can't overdose from weed but I'd rather be dead then be in psychosis until my last day. Fuck all that shit. Smoke in the privacy of your own home if it doesn't negatively affect you but don't go round telling the world that weed is the cure for all your problems. It's a lie. Potheads can be so ignorant and stubborn sometimes which pisses me off. Go to NA meetings etc to stay clean if your having trouble. I used to love marijuana and it's in the back of my mind still and probably forever but I must ignore it just like a schizophrenic ignores his or hers hallucinations and voices. I smell people smoking it on the streets or in parks a lot and when I'm walking on the street I see empty baggies. In the past I have found it laying around. I can't see weed in front of me because my old tendency was to smoke it all up like a fiend. I would like to think I will never touch it again. So far so good though I'm 140 days clean today. I have a sobriety app on my phone. Hopefully being sober will be my greatest high. It's hard but so is life. Good luck, be strong and do the right thing for YOU! Weed isn't for everyone and EVERYONE counts. Peace to all the potheads/junkies and sufferers. ✌🏻
@zzzz-rv7hs6 жыл бұрын
Roberto Luis I smoked a lot of weed n it send me to osychwars twice. Not worth it
@monkeyboy9910006 жыл бұрын
zz zz lmfao yeah weed isnt for everyone but it sure a fuck is for me 😂🤓
@monkeyboy9910006 жыл бұрын
Roberto Luis maybe you should fuck with cbd it just relaxes you and wont get you high
@evilwaffleiron_91906 жыл бұрын
Roberto Luis hey man suffered the same thing as a kid it was because of nightmares that lasted for 2 weeks straight instead of smoking but either way I know how it feels to dread sleeping
@monkeyman123286 жыл бұрын
Roberto Luis j Weird bc my roomate a skitzo be he straight pot head like us
@hatbee98976 жыл бұрын
Thank you for posting this. I suspect a friend of mine is schizophrenic, but he won't tell me about it. Sometimes he says he hears my voice and his thoughts jump around really badly. Videos like this have helped me understand what he might be experiencing. Im trying to overcome the stereotypes about schizophrenia. Please don't be sorry. This 'bad day' is so much easier to empathise with than just news reports or text in WebMD
@bucci99385 жыл бұрын
Hang in there! Be strong! I'm watching on 27 April 2019. I really hope you are doing better now with medicine. Please there is no need to say sorry. You shared this with us is already strong and amazing enough.
@yacoale81537 жыл бұрын
god, I wish I had schizophrenia for a day its so hard to understand from the outside
@SmoHuffmister7 жыл бұрын
I really can't imagine what you are going through, but I can definetly try, and holly shit I don't think id be able to maintain composure. Very impressed on how you handle this. Hope you dont get many days as this.
@rasputinputin20345 жыл бұрын
Just impressed how good he describes his thoughts and how manages this. Hope you're doing great dude🙏🏻
@KatieRose2306127 жыл бұрын
I am happy that you are sharing this and are recognizing things; my ex is a paranoid schizophrenic and he never took his antipsychotics nor antidepressants, and he ended up hitting me and telling me how bad I was even though I tried to show him how much I loved him and get him help. He never believed he is that although he was in the hospital for it twice and diagnosed with it twice. Never was able to recognize it like you can. You're highly intelligent. With my anxiety under deep stress I have seen bugs, shadows, and heard voices, so I can really understand at least in some extent of how you yourself are feeling. As long as you keep taking your medicine you'll get better. Don't let your voices overtake you. PS I hope I don't sound bad here and say I think you're really cute. Like I would love to date you if I ever had the chance haha.