Scrapped Touhou 8 Video

[@astrolatryy8877]

Hey, as someone who went through a whole artistic burnout caused by mental health problems for a good few years, and is still kind of recovering from it... I get it. The endless revisions, the terrible cycle of perfection, constantly grasping at a project hoping to finally make it good enough even as you start to hate it more and more... I remember struggling with all of that, too. I think even if that video never happened, never reached its purpose... what you discuss in this video resonated with me. It's nice to know someone else went through it, too, and to see creative struggles spoken about so openly. So, I don't know-I just hope it helps to know that you accomplished _something_ with this video, even if it's effectively just a channel update. Best wishes for your next video; I hope the creation process treats you better in the future.

[@nssheepster]

That sounds like an incredibly nasty sequence of events. Youch. Glad you're in one piece, though.

[@Niiue]

This was quite a... personal video. I don't know why, but this video... um... well it'll stick with me for sure. It is a raw, unfiltered deep dive into what goes on in the background of creating a video. The narration talking about the constant struggles you faced, as footage from the video that will never be seen is playing in the background alongside PCB's ending theme... It resonated with me. The ending where you shred the video, abrupt and even slightly comedic, is also extremely relatable. Just giving up, and finally being done with whatever mess that was is something I'm sure we've all felt before. Something about this video made this bizarre mix of emotions well up inside me. I don't know what it is, but I can say for certain that you've been through a lot. I won't bother saying any needless platitudes, but hey, even a video like this was still good to me. If I've gotten anything from this video, production is rough, so do your best out there.

[@stickinittotheman1]

Elligently said, I am in total agreement on all points. Burnout, stress, overcriticism, perfectionism; truly, all these things are tough to handle. Take care of yourself, rest up, and thank you for your hard work. Love and Peace folks, best of luck in your pursuits.

[@DukeDezh]

Thanks for the vid. Probably the most production ive seen in a video about a scrapped video before. I enjoyed it. Im sorry about your rough few months... you didnt have to make this video. You could have scrapped ithe project and moved on. However, i am glad you did. Your experiences made for an interesting story, and im glad to see youve been still making videos, as Ive enjoyed your past few quite a bit. I hope now that this video is out, you can find some closure with this project. It is okay to drop the ball. It will inevitably happen every now and then to us all. Its picking the ball back up afterwards that matters most. I hope you can move on and work on something new that will bring you fulfillment, whather it be a new youtube video for us or something purely for yourself. Im glad youre okay. I think im gonna go watch your terrarria video again now.

[@indigo1149]

Hey man, production can get to anyone, I love your content, and I hope to see you continue to improve, doing the things you want to do! Next time, will be even better!

[@wylskoe]

thanks mister freefall

[@N0tAduck]

despite everything, i really appreciate the effort put into subtitling this, too few youtubers bother

[@lennioc]

You seem to enjoy hellish games. Might I suggest Noita?

[@CptFreefall]

i couldn't figure out what was going on last time i played, but yeah, probably will give it another shot

[@technoscrap]

can sort of relate, ive been animating on and off for more than a year and ive been wanting to move onto another project. And the first few scenes I made are so bad, i have to remake them now as ive improved. Fortunately (or unfortunately) i dont have really have an audience that i have to account for. And theres so many scrapped projects ive made before, i wanna finally make something thats actually worth watching. Good luck on your next project!

[@Atlas-br9ks]

This kind of shit is the reason I have to respect videasts, small and big, so frickin much. I would just had given up at the sligthest inconveniance lol. Glad that purgatory ended for you at least !

[@slightlyngl]

i know from experience life beats you down at your lowest and even if i dont know any of the details it's completely understandable that stuff happens and it took you a while to make a video. all i can ask (and i mean ask) is to keep us updated, maybe make some socials or post some filler content. that's all up to you tho much luv 💜💜

[@aestellic]

i love how all the chapter thumbnails are the shredder image lmao also its ok to not be able to upload videos consistently! just remember that you have no obligation to us viewers and that your health is much more important!

[@partythyme7792]

You’re killing it, sorry that happened, glad to see you back on your feet

[@Geokit]

The fact that I probably know the exact corner and room that shredder was in haunts me

[@perihelion1225]

Take. Your. Time. You make great content, and I hope you take care of yourself above all else!

[@leonardowesselka4124]

Glad you're fine mister, welcome back!

[@Nebularc]

pls come back your content is really quality

[@custard_lol]

sorry dude i really hope you feel better i love your content so much so i really hope you keep making content but at the end of the day what you went through was kinda shit so take as long as a break as you need even if the algorithm forgets about you i wont keep up the good work dude (also ps i love touhou so much lol)

[@FinetalPies]

But what was the lowest score you finished the game with? Still probably a world record.

[@CptFreefall]

PB was some 35 million? depends on what the category rules are, really.

[@aneirynstreet3552]

sometimes the best way to get past a block like that is to just start an entirely new project and maybe come back or reuse content for a later video IF AND ONLY IF its relevant to the new content, trying to put square pegs in round holes will never be as effective as spending your time searching for a rounder peg,

[@ternakitwatches6850]

the touhou of all time

[@ahno2595]

POG!!!!

[@pressetoascend]

I’ve always wanted to know what the minimum amounts you can score in a touhou game or any shmup in general is, and how you could achieve such a thing

[@GoingBizark]

Unluckier than me somehow

[@samueldionne9675]

POGO!

[@noahreddy3935]

epic

[@xicision2533]

I haven't finished the video yet because I just want to say that KZbin did not send me your videos. Algorithm is stinky

[@znoopsy]

theres no need for any milestone videos, who watches those anyway? a mention will do enough, just like here

[@ThatSkiFreak]

unlucky

[@thethieflord8868]

All good as long as your back in action and are able to throw more Marisa propaganda

[@nneykobar_hali]

Be free. )

[@tacotrashh]

a

[@mouhou9795]

Time to train an AI.

[@derikJoy]

how the FUCK is this video only 3k views almost half a year after its release??? i feel even worse for your situations now that this video didnt even get seen by most of your subscribers.

[@sorensmith8403]

Yeah, this is cool ig Now beat terraria without breathing WHILE beating tohu on the hardest difficulty while blindfolded while being pelted with stones

[@un-lukiifollower2027]

Excuses.