SEPTEMBER | Time of The Month 2016

[@SprinkleofChatter]

This is by far and above my favourite ever TOTM. Ever.

[@randalljanet]

SprinkleofChatter I feel that way about each and every single one in turn!

[@TheHazelHayes]

Thank you bae! x

[@nataliebeaumont]

Freakin' loved it Hazel. More like this please!

[@onlyproblemmm]

I agree

[@TheHazelHayes]

I'm seeing a lot of comments complaining about this episode being different so... Guys, changing things up keeps me passionate about the work I do and it helps me to learn and grow. Also, while I always want you to enjoy TOTM, it is ultimately a project for me and future me. This format is how I wanted to convey my experiences and feelings this month. Please respect that. And this episode is not shorter because I couldn't be bothered, it was a conscious decision. Besides, it takes longer to edit a month of footage down to 11 minutes than to 30. I know not everything is for everyone. It's totally okay if you didn't like it. But please don't be so critical or entitled or assume I made it different because I'm lazy. That's simply not true. Thank you to everyone who watched it with an open mind and who appreciates the effort that went in. Thank you for your comments and tweets. Once again I'm touched by the support you show me and one another. xx

[@MasterAppels]

ChewingSand "Don't be so critical" So you only want to hear how everyone loves it? You were critical about Suicide Squad. There's nothing wrong with stating your opinion.

[@CharlineOfficial]

I actually really like this format, Hazel. It's much easier to look at as it's not as long and I think there's more story to it now. Of course, it's still your decision to do things differently and I can't believe people don't respect that. It looks great and you did a wonderful job.

[@champa-ox7co]

agreed

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Master Like I said, it's fine if this isn't your cup of tea. But thinking someone is lazy for making a shorter piece is incorrect and thinking you're entitled to always be given the same length and format you want isn't fair. Also, my problem with Suicide Squad is that it was shit. If this were poorly shot or edited or made in general, then saying so would be fine. If I made a massive pile of shit, I would expect to be told so. But people aren't complaining that it's bad, they're complaining that it's different, and that's what bothers me.

[@thelovelymadbs]

For me the new format made me get even more meaning from September that I might not have noticed before. I loved it so much. Your creativity astounds me and I looking back at how your content has changed and grown

[@OhHelloSorry]

I think this was my favourite one so far, I loved the way it was put together it also made me a bit teary eyed because i don't have this kind of life ya know

[@ellaw5274]

you will. a year ago I didn't have this either. I'm still not completely there, but I'm a lot closer, and a lot happier. it just takes time :) don't worry x

[@corriehammons1684]

That's the best thing I've seen today

[@TheJemmaGrl]

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[@catherineliu06]

Your TOTM videos are meant to be watched while cozy in bed. I definitely feel my heart lighten every time I watch one. Even though my eyes are full of tears

[@londontolosangeles12]

catherineliu06 totally agree, that's I'm doing!

[@rachelmcpherson4727]

catherineliu06 couldn't have put it better myself 😌

[@TheJemmaGrl]

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[@penguinsjd]

DODIE IN THE BACKGROUND. im not crying your crying.

[@celiamacmillan3431]

You're* And yes I am crying... Very much so

[@penguinsjd]

Band Trash I was crying okay I didn't have time for good grammar

[@edenoforion]

I want so badly to experience these friendships

[@erin6046]

It's been one of THOSE days. The ones where it feels as if every single thing is against you. But this video was uploaded, and I'm sitting here crying whilst Dodie is playing and ugh Hazel thank you. I am a sobbing grateful mess x

[@elizabethflynn8079]

I've had the exact same thing today and this video has made me sob like a baby

[@samallen3111]

I wish I didn't relate but I do. She always manages to cheer me up, while still making me cry.

[@TheJemmaGrl]

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[@ScarfDemon]

I love it. It was dreamlike and intimate and gentle. It was like seeing your world as a stream of consciousness. Very beautifully made and framed with such a lovely message of love. It's a love letter to love. And I love it.

[@trinam3519]

Beautifully put Chloe

[@rollingwaves1290]

IS THAT DODIE SINGING?? TOO BEAUTIFUL i feel so emotional and this life isn't even mine

[@gracelola8897]

It's one of Dodie's latest songs (and my personal favourite) "When"

[@rollingwaves1290]

Thanks. I guess now I just have to listen to that EP :)

[@bambajahn]

we've been hit by we've been struck by a smooth editor

[@user-gi8zx9de3u]

I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT WHEN THIS WOULD COME OUT YESTERDAY IM SO EXCITED

[@unclejizzy88]

LITERALLY so was I!!!!!!

[@user-gi8zx9de3u]

update: it was wonderful and my expectations were more than exceeded

[@unclejizzy88]

I agree 100%

[@ValenCabot]

blurryface Saame

[@han-go2hj]

thinking about *when* it would come out

[@meeksamillion]

ngl i started crying when dodies song started playing

[@ErinsHoose]

LOVING THE DODIE MUSIC YESSSS. Loved Simple Minds...music in this was 👌. Loved the Irishness at the start. Loved the jump at the end to go with the music. Love these TOTMs in general. Killing it. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

[@hamishwoodland7424]

Omg this feels even more than usual like a proper professional film. Don't know why I'm that surprised tbh

[@makenziemclernon8910]

The fact that this Time of The Month was all about love makes me unbelievably happy. Not just for you but for myself because it made me realize the love I have in my life. I may be missing the relationship part but my heart is so full by my friends and family that there isn't any emptiness there. So thank you Hazel Hayes for reminding me once again how bloody lucky I am.

[@thememoryguardians]

Makenzie McLernon you made me cry a little bit with this comment

[@jorjm1083]

About a year a go my older brother was going through a very tough time in his life and stopped communicating with my entire family, and recently I've regained touch with him and I remembered how much I truly loved him. So this video is very well timed with my life.

[@meganblairxoxo]

Jordan Mettam very happy for you! 💕

[@Emily-mt3rz]

I love TOTM so much. Since the start of September I've been in a really bad place. I got a pain in my arm and I just got worse and worse. The hospital still doesn't know what's up, and I've been vomiting and fainting from the pain. I've missed two and a half weeks of school, but I'm going back tomorrow (though the school has talked about me not doing full days), and if I'm honest I'm terrified. My mental health has gone down the drain, and I'm a mess and if I break down I'm front of my friends I'm not sure if I'll make it at all. I'm feeling awful right now, but in the middle of this stupid panic I got a notification for this video. I watched it and it felt like a reminder that people love me and that my friends won't judge me if I do break down in front of them, that I've got support and, if nothing else, this amazing online community. I've stopped crying now. Thank you, Hazel. You're a fucking incredible woman.

[@Emily-mt3rz]

jescakatie thanks. I will xx

[@mcskye1670]

Emily Daydreams Hope you're doing alright, go hug someone or something, this will pass and soon all be a memory x

[@charlielouise2428]

If the pain is spreading from your arm down your side and it's not heart related it could possibly be that you've displaced a rib; this happened to both me and a friend and it's absolute agony, but easy to fix

[@ells1263]

I’m rewatching all these just for nostalgia and it just feels comforting to me, but wow people Let’s not forget how beautifully shot these are they are a masterpiece to watch

[@dob1997]

Every time of the month you do feels like a totally different thing but this was like the kind of quiet little film that changes your life a little bit. Just gorgeous. (your music choices are almost as amazing as your video editing) :)

[@dob1997]

also I have a new favourite poem omg

[@emublue]

Hazel. The Fuck. You can't make me cry like this. Not aloud.

[@emublue]

also i love you

[@LilysLand]

Love this!

[@caorgi]

I've been sad, so low this whole entire week, and this is the first 10 minutes where I have been consistently happy.

[@xeniafoe]

My favorite moment was seeing you watching Dodie's performance. It made me feel all the feels and cry all the tears!

[@emilieroberts8143]

As an Irish girl abroad this really resonated with me. Especially the poem. You have to miss the place sometimes don't ya.

[@TheHazelHayes]

You do indeed Emilie

[@lezfmoon]

whenever you include the bits of flying to dublin and being around howth/Sutton/raheny my heart hurts. somehow it makes me feel homesick even though I'm still at home.

[@littlelollipopfairy]

charliebears omg I'm not the only one! Everytime I see it I get this pang and it's almost pride that she's coming home, but it makes me feel like I'm also coming home even though I haven't left home in over two years😂

[@MarkHilton1]

I must admit I wasn't quite sure what to make of the format at first, but the more I watched the more I really enjoyed it. definitely do all future totm's like this

[@Wizipita]

I don't normally comment, but I think this special episode deserves a little love. I adore TOTM, it's been with me through some hard times and some beautiful ones too, I think you're the bravest woman out there for your vulnerability and your honesty, and you make such wonderful videos, but I think this is gonna be my favourite one (dethroning last December, because your "Jazel is canon" revelation kinda made me cry like a baby, thank you very much). It's a grossly beautiful ode to your family, to Jack, to your friends, I mean, to love and to life. And don't even make me talk about the music. I'm crying so hard about this. Thank you for putting your life out there, for making us connect with you and your wonderful people, and for always trying new things. You're amazing.

[@Vanessa-hp4ir]

I have an anxiety disorder and I find that whenever I watch one of these I feel relaxed and it helps me overcome anxiety attacks

[@arielmackinnon2035]

mmMM i smiled sm when dodie came on

[@bitcheslovesticks6993]

xeremony ; was that a pun?

[@arielmackinnon2035]

Nobody what how would it be a pun im confused

[@bitcheslovesticks6993]

Because of her song when?

[@arielmackinnon2035]

Nobody no

[@bitcheslovesticks6993]

xeremony ; oh

[@lydiab4874]

Still one of my very favourite episodes, I come back to the series every so often when there's absolutely nothing else I want to watch but TOTM

[@leaphiline7565]

I am crying. this is absolute perfection

[@nicolefok7307]

I feel like I'm watching happiness in video form, something that makes my inside all fuzzy and warm

[@alicebrazier]

Amazing! I love that you've merged filmmaker Hazel and vlogging Hazel so effortlessly - you're so talented! Plus, these videos are so amazing to watch back to back to see how far you've come. One of my favourite channels on KZbin. 👏 xx

[@TheHazelHayes]

Thanks Alice. That's exactly what I set out to do so I really appreciate you saying that. x

[@alicebrazier]

ChewingSand you do you 🙌 and keep it up - I rewatch TOTM so often, and I just love them more each time x

[@CaitlynSofia]

rewatching this because it's so beautiful and i realised how much it reminds me of "Happy" especially the line "there in the simple things: her mother's hands, her lover's arms, the shoulders of her friends..."

[@astrasparkz]

As usual, I enjoyed this installment of TOTM. This style is very unique and different and I liked the way you structured it in parts, centred around the theme of love. However, I feel like it wasn't as personal, I didn't feel the same connection to this one that I have done to previous months. I personally much prefer the talk-to-camera style when vlogging, and your talks at the beginning and end of each episode which never fail to teach me extremely important life lessons and leave me in floods of tears. I also love being able to sit down for a long period of time so I can really put my feet up and relax while watching TOTM, but to me it felt like there wasn't time for that this time around

[@betsycoughlin5556]

I loved September. The brief windows into your life remind me of everything I have ahead of me. I often watch these when the future seems uncertain, or when my life feels like one cruel joke after the next, and these remind of all the love that will find me someday. They help me understand that even I could deserve that. As always, thank you for sharing, it means more than you know

[@rebekahlawrence4246]

Oh Hazel, your timing never disappoints. Thank you for sharing your life with us

[@MsTravelchanel]

My word this is gorgeous. The kind of thing you watch then moves you to squeeze out every ounce of life, joy in your day.

[@Bullitain]

At first I thought that I wasn't really a fan of this new style that you're experimenting with, I guess it was just the slow start but good god did all my doubts go away with the second part. Genuinely more beautiful than sammy in the Thorpe Park freeze frame. I loved Dodies When going into the live recording and just all the lovely parts with your friends just really nice. Well done Hazel!

[@danhowell8069]

MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN SAMMY I AM DEAD 😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@lisaburvill-holmes3514]

totally get this

[@ohlookitsheather]

I find myself coming back to this again and again. It's such a beautiful tribute to the people you surround yourself with.

[@lauren1207]

Beautiful as always Hazel. Your videos never fail to make me smile and I always look forward to when you upload. Lots of love from Wales xx

[@londontolosangeles12]

Not even 2 minutes in and I'm pretty sure this is going to make me cry...

[@rosewainner3156]

I love your time of the months so much hazel, they're so amazing. Always help me feel positive again when I'm feeling down

[@poppyrothwell6844]

every single one of these makes me smile. without a doubt one of my favorite TOTMs ever.

[@jamie8652]

finally!! not blaming you just missed sassy drunk hazel with friends

[@jamie8652]

update: defintely not what I expected but I really liked the new thing. I sang along and I my entire body feels like crying but in a good way. i really liked it hazel.

[@thehedgehogwholived]

I keep coming back to this TOTM and every time it's equally as lovely to watch. the transition between having dodie's song as background music and filming the recording is quite literally breathtaking.

[@rachelboixadera8949]

This was so heartfelt and touching. I loved the separation of the three types of love: familial, romantic and amicable (I think that's the word), respectively. You caught the essence of all of them. I feel warm and fuzzy now! I've had an amazing day with my friends today and I love them all to bits and this video has made me grateful for them. I love that you make this stunning art because it is clear that you are passionate about it.Thank you, Hazel! xxx

[@karlikay94]

I've heard a lot of youtubers say the best thing they can hear is that they made somebody's day somehow better and you have done just that. Thank you for this wonderful series. It brightens any day I'm having.

[@erikaosullivan6767]

The Irish music and Seamus Heaney poetry made me homesick and I'm literally at home, I don't know how you managed to do it Hazel 💙 beautiful vlog xx

[@elyssashackleton3094]

ohhh sunlight in the background of that first wee montage made me tear up, beautiful - this is the TOTM i always come back to

[@saraduty8972]

Hazel this was wonderful.. Very well done. Some of the shots at the beginning were so beautiful.

[@heyitswadee]

This is still my favourite video of all time. The amount of joy it brings me is indescribable.

[@molldog1410]

I've waited so long for this Hazel Hayes! Can't wait to watch this. Ps- I have stir fry.

[@molldog1410]

Hope that all is well in your world my dear.

[@imogentait5744]

even though this one is only 11 minutes long, it is my favourite. I live seeing happy people with their happy friends and family!

[@LeighAnneMarie]

I love this so much, Hazel. You somehow manage to create such original, inspiring, lovely content at a time when a lot of YT feels stale and same old, same old.

[@darcydixon2561]

I watch this whenever I am sad, I think it genuinely captures the 3 types of love I feel perfectly. Thank you x

[@cheyna8523]

This is an absolutely beautiful work of art.

[@lillydowty7455]

Every time I watch a TOTM I tear up a bit but the waterworks definitely came out for this one! This was so beautiful and I loved every second of it!

[@katiek9856]

Got out of the shower, saw this was up so now I'm sat in my towel just sobbing like an idiot even though this is such a happy one and now my bangs are almost dry so i can't even style them properly geez

[@katiek9856]

but point is I love you and this is fucking beautiful. and I like the symmetry of both Septembers being differently formatted than general TOTM style

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Katie K Thanks for noticing and appreciating that Katie. Sorry about your bangs, that's rough.

[@chopardhokusom6727]

The opening song was the song we used to stretch in my Irish dance classes, so it was so nostalgic for me :)

[@andog8084]

Ahh I thought I recognised Seamus Heaney! Favourite poet ❤️

[@maddymacdonald2599]

Rip am I right :(

[@michaelaking6608]

This month I laughed, I cried, and I mostly smiled. It was beautiful and heart warming and just all around brilliant.

[@claudiairwin3380]

not going to lie. Woke up to the news this would be up at 8am (Australian time) watched this and cried while eating a hashbrown at Mc Donald's (classy i know) yet this series is my go to when feeling down. It does help and i have recommended it, But thanks to this series i finally have realised it is time to get help. So thanks Hazel!

[@TheHazelHayes]

❤️

[@TheActingEdit]

Keep coming back to this one, time and time again.

[@megan.cunnington]

I really really love how this is edited. It's like an emotional journey through the month and sums it all up perfectly!

[@megan.cunnington]

Also my favourite part is when Dodie finishes the songs and Hazel goes "you cunts" and leaves ahahaha

[@sha2424]

this just fills me with so much warmth and happiness. do you ever just smile to yourself because hazel is such an amazing film maker and such a beautiful person and we're so lucky to have her in our lives??? me too

[@kikiflo163]

Okay I was already feelsy and then dodie's song started playing rip my heart

[@friendlyhufflepuff]

I literally just started crying as soon as When came on. I bloody love that song so much and putting it in this video, just was just perfect. This is my favourite vlog series, Thank you Hazel, and Dodie for creating such beautiful, amazing things.

[@julialeonetti879]

This is the best thing to watch on some down time, finally had 5 minutes to come up for air between assignments and exams. Thanks for making me smile and feel better, genuinely. Why does that bloody song make everything 100x better? Amazing.

[@MATRIXDAGGER]

This time of the month made me extraordinarily happy. It gave me that warm fuzzy feeling that usually comes with quiet afternoons with the perfect cup of tea and a good book. Thank you Hazel, this video gave me a break from the stress I've been dealing with and allowed me to just be.

[@emmakatehoward2935]

alright so my friend and i had a conversation about different types of love literally right before i clicked on this video and this was so lovely IT'S DESTINY

[@TheHazelHayes]

It definitely is 😊

[@emmakatehoward2935]

[@cariiqx_dime9266]

dodie's voice is so heartbreakingly sweet, its so tender you cant help but cry

[@juanitagutierrez402]

Q-A-L-I-T-Y video people. YES!!! Love it. Miss Hazel talking to "us", but love it haven't seen anything like this. Im in all of it, and the music 👌🏻god bless her was amazing. Hazel you've made my absolute day

[@beck1291]

juanita Gutierrez Q-A-L-I-T-Y. Couldn't agree more.

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Beck 😂😂😂

[@DeeDee97]

I've been utterly obsessed with 'when' and when it came on I just 😊😍😭

[@ameliagrace5759]

You did it again Hazel. Made me smile. Made me just a lil emotional. Damn you did it again 👌

[@TheHazelHayes]

Excellent 😏

[@SillyStokey92]

This was by far one of my favorite TOTM so far, and perfectly mimicked the stage I am at in my life right now. I needed to see the love I feel played out. Thank you for the happy tears.

[@freya6698]

i had the biggest smile through this whole thing, smashed it out the park hazel. i love the changed format!

[@freya6698]

only thing i would say (not that you'll ever see this haha) but might be nice to have the traditional-speaking-to-the-camera-reflection-on-the-month for extra warm fuzzies

[@genmoum6074]

As someone who's been feeling pretty down lately, this really reminded me about all that I have to be thankful for. I may be scared of the future, but I at least I know I'll still have people that I love and who love me. Thanks again, Hazel 💜

[@VioletHillC16]

that was just stunning 💙

[@shellfish1010]

I love the super long, philosophical ones, but I also loved this. Thanks for sharing the joy in your life selflessly, and opening yourself up to criticism. I find your vulnerability in this series to be very inspiring, and it only confirms my belief that you are a very strong woman. xx

[@lunalover972]

Im sure many would agree with me on this, but i think the longer the TOTM is, the better. However, not only do i recognize that for you, the longer the video, the more work it is, but also I cant help but feel like a short TOTM like this one is much more impactful. I felt touched by every moment. Keep doing what you are doing, Hazel.

[@graceharvey2909]

I'm having a horrible awful time right now and this video full of pure love and joy and happiness has brought a little bit of sunshine to my day, thankyou Hazel 💕

[@vee.t.a]

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG AAHHHHH

[@vee.t.a]

And yet again Time Of The Month did not disappoint. I cry everytime but this one was especially beautiful.

[@lisouv5228]

Speechless......*tears streaming down my face*

[@Malene_Simonsen]

This is such a lovely video. I like the spin you've put on it, and it seemed very fitting to do a video focused on the people in your life instead of the events. This one made me really emotional. Just, well done!

[@mollylever2184]

These things never fail to make me emotional, I aspire to have friendships and relationships like yours. The community and just love between everyone is everything I want..

[@mariareugicnad]

oh, this is so lovely! one of my favorites, for sure. so beautifully edited :)

[@fatimabilal1657]

can we appreciate your eye for the beauty in the little moments in life? too many of us don't have that, so thank you for sharing

[@j.c.miller1031]

I really enjoyed this new format. it felt different, but also the same in that the message was still very clear even though you didn't explain it. like, i feel it's more artistic because of the lack of an explanation, but still enjoyable because you don't really have to dig for a meaning because it's right in front of you. or maybe it's just me being fake deep. either way, loved the video

[@sarahbroadbent515]

I've only just found Time of the Month videos and I love them. Thank you so much for showing not just your strength, but how to cope when feeling weak

[@CookingwithKarma]

Most pissed people would be limp but nope not you Hazel ... straight as a board! lol. This was a really beautifully visual and touching time of the month. Loved it :) x

[@TheHazelHayes]

It's a new skill I've discovered

[@CookingwithKarma]

ChewingSand Well you've definitely nailed planking whilst pissed. Awesome job! 😉

[@StarlaGategrove]

This one will always be my favorite.

[@eshamary1447]

this is different, but i feel like it might be better, i didn't think you could improve TOTM but you have gone done a completely different path and i love this so very much

[@TheHazelHayes]

Aw thank you! It's always hard to try new things so this means a lot. x

[@ee-uj5hq]

Irish music brings so much peace into my soul

[@shadysadie8589]

I swear every totm gets better with all the editing and everything

[@kadenfoley3514]

Ever so often I just come back to this video and have a little (happy) cry. Thank you so much for making this.

[@DanLayton]

Rubbish xxx

[@sohailasabek3661]

Daniel J. Layton ughh i love you...

[@dmndsol]

That's generous.

[@Linaker22]

This is cyber bullying and I wont allow it

[@GreenMcGeek]

Daniel J. Layton ahahahah

[@TheHazelHayes]

I don't like Gryffindor Dan. I'd like Hufflepuff Dan back.

[@MaiHead92]

I suddenly remembered these videos and Im so glad you didnt take them down. What a lovely series! Brings back a lot of fond memories.

[@bananathrower]

To me, this new format seems to be a natural evolution. At the end of the videos you always found a throughline that made itself apparent throughout the month in many forms. This is the same idea only more prominent. Only thing I can't figure out is why it seems everyone but me is crying by the end of the videos. Am I dead on the inside?

[@MasterAppels]

Gidon They're probably drama queens.

[@bananathrower]

I've seen a too many people say they cry watching these to believe that. I really think it's me. haha

[@keshnazhivanski]

Not just you. I think these videos are great, but not sure why everyone is bawling their eyes out.

[@trinam3519]

I always cry at these totm's videos because they just touch me in many different ways. I tend to cry easily at not just sad things but happy things too. It affects people different ways. It certainly doesn't mean you're dead inside or like the other poster stated, a drama queen, that's rather rude to even state that people that cry at emotional content, full of drama, so what if you cry or not, if affected you the way it did and for you, that is perfectly ok

[@pebbellz]

I absolutely love this. It doesn't need to be 30 minutes long, or to have a spoken intro. It speaks for itself, and it's absolutely beautiful, and really touching. It really gets across all the different kinds of love that you have in your life, and how that love was expressed over the course of the month. Bravo, Hazel! I really think this is one of the best TOTMs yet.