Sex Addict interview-Philip

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Philip, a gay sex addict in Los Angeles.
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[@NancyJSimpson]

The difficult thing regarding Philip is that in his life, his parallel universe he is happy. To try and convince him that some other form of life would be preferable would be impossible. One of the values of Mark's videos is that he humanizes others for us. People we would normally dismiss as creepy, gross, losers ....he puts a face on. He lets us get to know them. Watching the videos they are chatting with us. We see they are people. Like us in many ways. People who have lost their way, become confused, have lost hope, live in delusions. Addicts with little hope who have traveled hard roads. Sex workers who hold onto their humanity with a thread. And, in some little way we come to love them. We begin to root for them. This is the gift that Mark brings to the earth. In his own way he is helping humanity to heal and the viewer probably is healed more than the subjects. Thank you, Mark, for making the earth a better place.

[@SuzanneDeniseB]

So much truth ♡

[@myozbubble]

You said it perfectly, Nancy. Mark helps humanize marginalized people. They are humans and they deserve to be heard. If folks don't want to hear this, they are in complete control to move along and watch something else.

[@kittymeowc8061]

This needs to be top comment. People have the chance to share their story probably for the first time in their life. It's hard to read the judgemental comments. Let's just listen for now, we judge others constantly

[@quivive66]

Who is we?

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

@@kittymeowc8061 👌😘

[@Morefuego]

Stop trashing Philip. Give him the respect he deserves for telling his story. Appreciate his honesty.

[@deandreabuxton4592]

I agree. I feel so sad for him. I hope he gets help.

[@jaxonmoon9815]

Totally agree, anybody who has the courage and humility to be open about such things and face their wrongdoings deserves respect. Regardless of what they did, because it shows that they arent numb to it and they dont ignore their problem.

[@amandawarner2882]

🙏🏻

[@deandreabuxton4592]

@@Morefuego I mean who are we to judge him? Even though it seems he's being open right now in this interview we aren't in his head 24/7, and even though he said it it's obvious he's embarrassed about talking about it. I can't imagine having this addiction. Constantly needing to have sex to feel good physically. Doesn't sound fun. For me anyways.

[@Morefuego]

Fr y’all are dope as fuck

[@lazyorbit86]

what i love about these videos is that the thumbnails portray everyone in the same: a black and white headshot. no catchy titles, no clickbaits, you go in with minimal knowledge and you just learn about the person through their stories.

[@Sanuske4]

No catchy titles.. "SEX ADDICT INTERVIEW!" lmao Let's be honest..if it said "Interview with Grocery Store Cashier" nobody would be here. That being said I appreciate this channel in bringing light on people not often listened to. But definitely got some catchy titles flying around.

[@nenebratzxz3441]

I’m he definitely used clock bait in that incest video there was no proof

[@ArtTube333]

absolutely

[@honeykemp]

@@nenebratzxz3441 I thought that too..!

[@honeykemp]

Alot are mislabeled/mistitled

[@erinclarocca]

He says “that was fun,” but seems like he could break down into tears. My heart goes out to him.

[@niteshghadi3685]

Yes .....even I felt like that .....he seems to be channel his pain into happiness...he might be confused abt it

[@laken1804]

I think it's shame.

[@thedonofm-town1856]

You can still have fun while other aspects of your life isnt healthy

[@Celestialmilk777]

I see a child abuse survivor that became hyper sexualized by the ADULT black men he was in close proximity to. This could have happened to anyone, any race, any gender role reversal, etc. It’s just really sad to see he has such a kind heart and wants to please others inherently because of his trauma. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s powerful.

[@acroamaticeeore]

What child abuse? If you refer to his 14-year old experimentation, he doesn't seem to view that as traumatic, at all.

[@chrisp2642]

@@acroamaticeeore Maybe because as a 14 year old, he was taught it was okay lmfao. What a dumbass fucking comment. A 27 year old fucking a 14 year old is not okay, was not okay, and will never be okay.

[@_______6398]

@@JustinJ we all knew it was only a matter of time until a race related response came through. There is nothing wrong inherently about stating an observation. You’re literally the one bringing race into it by your very comment. The comment or was literally just making a factual statement. Stop victimizing yourself.

[@_______6398]

@@JustinJ I’m not a kid but sure please continue to victimize yourself 👍🏻

[@_______6398]

@@JustinJ such a fragile ego I’ll leave you be

[@alanmcgee6825]

He is proof that people literally freeze in time and are basically the age they were at the time of whatever trauma had happened to them. It’s like they stay that age forever. So sad....

[@ashleywidiner6612]

It is extremely sad

[@WeDontRocKWitShEeP]

You hit it on the head. Very accurate observation.

[@anateirataia3952]

❗️❗️❗️

[@ElBelle1620]

Wouldn't that be age 14 when he first tried to see if he was gay. I have never seen a 14 year old act like this but I guess since he's from a different time, maybe this is the way he act back then. Thing is this only happens to some people. Not all.

[@devilslotus4351]

It's true. Imagine being the most mature 5 year old. I stayed 5 but I did mature in a lot of ways; but I express myself in what people perceive as childlike. Which I am childlike but I also deeply love history and literature and I am knowledgeable in to some degree. I also enjoy writing while I read. (It's inspiring) The way I act does not come across that way and sadly people treated me as if I was extremely stupid. I like this channel because it's mostly positive, even when dealing with people who aren't considered positive. This channel humanizes many different people. I say this because I'm scared of someone being mean to me. Just hoping people are positive with me as well.

[@Mutchkin21]

Putting his sex addiction aside, he seems like a nice guy. He seems to be a people pleaser to a high extent. His childhood was skipped in this interview. Something happened.

[@dbrikhs]

Exactly! What would cause a 14-year-old to take out an ad in a newspaper to see if he was gay?

[@TidalWaveDan]

It may not have been skipped. He said he was a loner within his family. He started experimenting with men at a young age out of that boredom. He liked it and got caught up in that world. Every case isn’t a result of forced sexual assault.

[@smitten8951]

@Elizabeth Martin, his body movements are speaking what he will not..

[@stateyourthesis]

@@joshperry6700 I'm stealing this and putting this on my next Fetlife status update

[@landofthelivingskies3318]

@Elizabeth Martin .....those body movements are either long term crack abuse or meth abuse. No doubt about it, crack/meth is a part of his sex addiction

[@drillosophy1012]

I deadass was gonna hit the Hub tonight, but after watching this, I’m just gonna pray and sleep.

[@root937]

Lol

[@BaezLife]

Good on ya mate

[@Al-kb2xl]

bloody hell I can't believe Philip is only about 8 years older than me!!? also sounds like he was VERY lucky to not catch AIDS. There's something almost sweet about him despite his confessions. thank you for interviewing this man

[@tdkfangirl]

It's not luck, he said he takes prep

[@joez3706]

PREP wasn't around when he was letting guys do him in the Detroit alleys 🤷‍♂️

[@klorgas]

@@tdkfangirl Prep has led to an increase in HIV in Europe because people treat it as a full-immunity, in reality it gives you a 50 (maybe 60?) precent resistance to the virus That's why prep is only supposed to be used in combination with condoms as a 2nd line of defence in case the condom breaks Stay safe and have fun everone ;)

[@bryysexy]

If he was a traditionally attractive man I guarantee the comment section wouldn’t be how it is.

[@ThePhillyfashionista]

You are right

[@clxynxtion6160]

Sadly

[@8213apice]

😂

[@giftofgod241st]

Facts !!

[@Jasmine-lj8qw]

What's traditionally attractive

[@cloudsleyfalconbridge]

You would never know from the thumbnail that this man's fingernails are painted sparkly pink.

[@sofialorenzini8026]

brooo i thought he was straight till i noticed the nails (obviously straight men can totally wear nail polish nothing wrong with that) but then he actually talked about being gay

[@cloudsleyfalconbridge]

@@sofialorenzini8026 tell me about it! 😆 I love painting my nails, and I'm as straight as a laser! But he is definitely not

[@lukki7ster]

that's what im saying! I almost didn't click the video because I thought it was going to be some sleazy douche bag story.

[@bettyvanderhooven-schmaasc4235]

@@lukki7ster same here

[@onii-san3851]

I only noticed once you mentioned it wow

[@basic_CeceRae]

I want to know the following. 1. Can he expound on his childhood a little more? 2.What’s his worst childhood memory 3.What’s his best childhood memory 4.When was he first exposed to sex? 5.Has he ever seen a therapist? 6.Does he feel he missed out on having a family 7.Does he consider his relationship with sex healthy or no and why? 8. Is there anything not related to sex directly or indirectly that he is passionate about ? 9.Has he ever thought about seeking help for his addiction 10.If he knew he had only one day to live how would he spend it? 11.Was he close with his mother. What comes to mind when he thinks of his mother? 12.was he close with his father? What comes to mind when he thinks of his dad? 13.When is the last time he cried 14.When is the last time he felt complete and utter joy that wasn’t related to sex. 15. Does he love himself

[@SoftWhiteUnderbelly]

Candy, I’m hoping to do another interview with Philip soon. These are perfect questions to ask him. After that first interview things kind of got off track and stayed that way with him. Thanks.

[@adriannedubins8793]

Thanks for a great listing of questions. I have these plus a whole lot more related not just to this man, but society’s sexuality. So many thoughts and questions.

[@Executnr]

@@INTJosh this guy is a wolf, hes an open book, hes street smart, hes a degenerate he is not to be pitied, lots of people are gullible calling him childlike, hes womanlike hes the complete opposite of a child. His so called master has definitely brought underage boys to him.

[@Executnr]

Perfect questions

[@v3n0m14]

@_CandyRenee_ Did you see the new video? Good questions and the conversation was really great to see. Link: kzbin.info/www/bejne/aHe7mpmbYt9lnac

[@anindustryplant7449]

This one honestly breaks my heart the most out of all of them, he’s still so indoctrinated into thinking everything that happened was normal and justified

[@vidamariaixchel7873]

He has been abused and does'nt even realise it. Very low self-esteem. Sweet guy, I hope he'll find a REAL friend some day.

[@beckyfarmer4430]

@Mindfulness Organics I feel very sorry for him and hope he gets help soon.

[@trishalouisebertrand6784]

I bet his lovley man to poor guy

[@pinkpugginz]

Hes been abused by pedophiles his entire adolescence. So sad.

[@trishalouisebertrand6784]

Notice he cant carry even open his eyes he been abbused doesnt like relize it

[@tranquilrabies]

He does seem like a genuinely sweet person. I hope he faces no more abuse for the rest of his days.

[@kimberlycleinhizon6196]

Phillip saying "I'm a great person to just spit roast" in his cheery voice while proceeding to thoroughly explain what a spit roast was got me dying LMAO

[@chickadee.1232]

😂👍

[@napqueen9377]

He breaks my heart. He deserves real love, a good therapist, and a healthy life. I hope he gets all of it ❤️

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

🤣🤣🤣🤣 wtf … you weird asl

[@napqueen9377]

@@twsbrl2xlldmoney355 having compassion for other people is weird? K.

[@livingtowork7297]

This the kinda man that bums a cig and then tells you the best stories ever.

[@porshialyde]

😂😂😂

[@divinetrouble66]

These are the greatest people!

[@Gooniessss]

I think me and you have a different sort of best stories 😂😂😂

[@otllc979]

You nailed it. These interviews are fascinating for certain, but to just assume that straight truth is being told is naive. This particular one sounded a bit too much like a string of endless troubled teen fantasies.

[@divinetrouble66]

@@otllc979 while I think that some of the instances are embellished in his memory, nothing in this sounds far-fetched. I know a lot of people in the BDSM community (and am occasionally a part of it) and this is pretty on par with the lifestyle. Obviously, this isn't his entire life, just what he prefers to focus on.

[@ThatPrettyGirlYongz]

This man is not addicted to sex. He’s addicted to being controlled. He’s addicted to being an object and feeling like he can satisfy these men. It’s like he thinks sex is the only way he can be worth anything to these men. He was trained to serve after all.

[@ngpdreamteam2k4]

He’s a drug addict that’s addicted to cheap dopamine kicks and lacks self discipline. He said it himself. As a kid he did what he wanted.

[@germangonzales2008]

Sounds like average day in life of a woman.

[@germangonzales2008]

@mr krabs You got me all wrong, I'm not expressing my personal views on women im expressing my views on how American society views women's worth. Women are "trained to serve" and are very much trained to satisfy, from a very young age they're read fairy tales like Snow White and sleeping beauty, both in which the female damsel goes into a sleep-coma and is only able to come back to life by the nonconsentual kiss of a man they've never even met. In this women are taught that they are at their best… when they are unconscious. in a more vague sorta way since both Cinderella and Snow White were mistreated by their much older than them mother, who even go as far as to abandon them, In this women are told that women who are more beautiful than them are a direct threat to them... I could go on but I am already asleep good nite.

[@midatlantic09]

@YoN3Lx To be fair, unless you're a man and have lived life as a man, you really have no legitimate frame of reference in regards to the male sex drive and desires.

[@Octodaurus777]

@@germangonzales2008 Spot on!

[@aimeereal5122]

Mark’s videos are raw and unnerving, it’s the part of life that no one wants to acknowledge or talk about. Kudos to all who tell their story.

[@alyssaandrus1]

This is the absolute craziest shit I have ever heard. I know these things happen but I've never heard anyone so blatantly honest and open about it.

[@sevestan]

Just another Republican...

[@2ared952]

@@sevestantf does political views have anything to do with any of this? Gtfo

[@amaalien8382]

This guy isn't a creep. He is honest. Living his truth

[@alc2752]

So he can’t be an honest creep?

[@dcxxxx]

This guy is delusional, FFS!

[@readmore4178]

“...his truth...”. I think that tells us the intellectual level that you’re operating on.

[@readmore4178]

@I put my name in here then Yes. We’re all so “tolerant” when it is someone else who will have to live with the consequences.

[@robmiskell6656]

No, this guy isn't a creep. He is honest living his truth of constantly wanting it put where the sun doesn't shine.

[@bryysexy]

You can tell he didn’t want to talk about his childhood

[@lululovesyou7618]

So right! I think he lived in a house where there was definitely love by some -but also traumatic things happened.

[@joyo1512]

But he actually spoke about. He said he was a middle child, in a stable home trying to navigate through the world with this new found discovery that he was gay. His brothers seemed to share more of a bond or maybe received more attention. He sought attention, that was maybe the missing link. I'm more curious what his relationship with his mother was.

[@claymac7895]

Oh yeah.. My guess is he had to have had a very dominating parent or parents in combination with some sort of physical, emotional, and or sexual abuse.

[@carmeyyoung8835]

This man has been interviewed 3 times so far and each time has been better than the last. He's very smart and he's a good person . You can definitely tell he didn't expect to be interviewed again but I'm glad he has. It's time for another update!💖

[@jennyjen7000]

Romans 1:28

[@normanmacfarlane2867]

You are becoming my favourite you tube channel. One thinks that life is full of variety but you just open things up to such an extent that is mind blowing. My understanding of humanity grows every time. Thank you

[@sugarsore]

He is very child like. You can tell he is emotionally stunted from his childhood trauma.

[@27Nightshade]

I honestly do not agree. Just because his voice sounds childlike, does not mean his mentality is. He seems very smart and educated.

[@sugarsore]

@@27Nightshade By referring to him as childlike, I was not saying he seemed unintelligent. I only meant he seemed emotionally childlike.

[@27Nightshade]

@@sugarsore again, I disagree. Not in any of the interview did he seem emotionally childlike. I think because his voice is childlike, you are going there. Just my clinical opinion.

[@LoriSF124]

@@sugarsore I agree with you

[@teal2913]

@@27Nightshade Nah bruh, he's childlike

[@RustyorBroken]

One of the most brutally honest people I've ever listened to. If he's comfortable with his life and not hurting anyone else then I say keep being you.

[@JayyVee41]

Let’s not go crazy…he talked about taking penis for an hour

[@linmezmer2956]

@@JayyVee41 that’s what i was gonna say lmaoooo he loves it

[@Bdot888]

I loved his honesty and how comfortable he was with his sexuality. Some people always like to point out the negatives in other peoples lives. At the end of the day, we all pursue what makes us happy on this earth

[@lilpoohbear653]

@@linmezmer2956 it is the only connection he has ever had with other "so-called...humans". It is frightening and very sad that this is what he thinks life is. The minute his butt or mouth does not work any longer...he will be utterly alone. That is heartbreaking

[@TheRighteousGabss]

Exactly! 💯

[@mariaong2353]

In this channel, some videos feel too heavy to watch, but there are these kinds of videos where I just eagerly listen to their stories and I just feel a mix of emotions. Part of me is angry because Philip's curiosity should not have been taken advantage of a predator. And another part of me is just appreciative and fond of how Philip shares his stories. I could listen to him all day. I loved the life lessons he shared at the end lf the video too.

[@HJ-fm4td]

my heart breaks for him and the cruelty he has endured, sweet soul.

[@SpikeTheNeuropsych]

I can't tell if Phillip sees it as cruelty or not, but that's definitely the right word for what happened to him.

[@connorfletcher771]

Why? He wants to be abused. He loves the idea of that As I do I, my Misteress is the world to me and I live to serve her. Guys like to be used yknow

[@billy6pack887]

@@connorfletcher771 Some yea. Some like to be in control or change. Whatever dude, as long as it's consensual and over 18 have a blast, or 3 lol

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

You a goofball .. invite him over to watch your kids

[@billy6pack887]

@@twsbrl2xlldmoney355 F that this guy's molested kids for sure. For people saying I'm being judgemental wa wa...exactly- invite them to babysit your kids alone.

[@SuiteVII]

His body language is so interesting. It goes back and forth from anxiety to grooving. He got a rhythm.

[@bryanpaultal]

Robert Elcock - speeding a little for sure- watch the jaw- but the groove is cool

[@anneneedham3]

We share this in common

[@aderlinejohnson8566]

He's a damn crack addict

[@atomusbliss]

Meth. It's called Meth.

[@lab7652]

That perfectly explain dudes mannerisms

[@raeofsunshine144]

My dad is a sex addict. I witnessed him trying to pick up women while out with myself and my siblings, and when they asked if we were his kids, he would deny that we were his children. He’s white and prefers women of color. He’s lost jobs because of it, and he would get extremely angry when frustrated and sometimes physically abuse me. I noticed a lot of similarities to the way this guy talks (minus the gayness), and the fetish for people of color. I feel that there’s not enough awareness around this subject, and it’s unfortunate that a lot of people who were sexually abused as children deal with it by becoming hyper sexual as adults, and how this behavior is encouraged by society. This guy seems like he is trying to fill a void and has low self esteem. I appreciate Mark bringing awareness to this subject.

[@ElBelle1620]

I agree 100%. 👏🏾👏🏾

[@peepindis]

My god...I'm so sorry you were exposed to that growing up. When you said he'd get aggressive when frustrated that rang like a bell. An ex-friend of mine had this issue. She was molested when she was young and I think it made her hypersexual and all kinds of aggressive. Magnified when she was drinking which was frequent. She had a very hard time making and keeping friends - female friends in particular. And I never knew if this had something to do with sexual "competition," real or imaginary. But she's abusive. Her life is absolute chaos and it leaves well-meaning people in its wake. It also attracts a lot of people who do not have good intentions. It blights every aspect of her life. This does need to be talked about more frequently in a serious way. I'd like to know your thoughts about how we talk about it now. Lately it seems that any celebrity (male) caught with his pants down claims sexual addiction. How seriously do you take them?

[@peepindis]

@@modernmonkofbharat2229 we're here to listen...

[@kadeelacayo4806]

Preference isn’t necessarily a fetish... I only Date black men or women, I won’t fetishize them but I’m only attracted to.

[@ceceprincess4758]

I dont know what's up with the black fetish

[@s.fontanilla5472]

His honestly is amazing. The fact that he is so comfortable speaking about something so personal is amazing. I pray he continues to be happy

[@Aright231]

Hearing his story, I close my eyes and hear the hurt, especially when he talks about going to the ballgame at the Detroit Tigers and when he got drunk without his family in 8th grade. He’s strong, beautiful, brave and self-aware through all this trauma. We love you, Phillip ❤️

[@JLM498]

Gosh, 14.. far too young. 😞 something happened to him as a child. He was used and abused. I respect the honesty, but feel like he’s trying to “normalize” the trauma. A 14 year old with a 27 year old is NOT okay.

[@rustyshackleford6637]

thanks for clarifying that

[@JLM498]

@@rustyshackleford6637 🤷

[@horizon8529]

He searched for it himself and was happy with his first experience.

[@rustyshackleford6637]

@bigpink pencil I see you're trying awfully hard

[@rustyshackleford6637]

@bigpink pencil I'm a damn man

[@IINVICTA]

When Mark remains silent for 99.9 % of and interview, you know his guest has serious issues

[@Starae336]

😂😂

[@Bbygurl592]

Right

[@teeanders2773]

🤷🏽‍♂️🤣😂🤣😂💀💀💀💀💀

[@ayakowilliams4571]

Word

[@jordansanmiguel2740]

I disagree. Mark is fantastic at allowing people to talk and tell their story without trying to sway the topic or conversation in a way the he personally feels would better tell the story. He lets these people be themselves and tell their stories the way the want.

[@FoxExcess]

Well you definitely can't say he's done nothing for the black community

[@beeperlove]

Gosh what I love about these (and I’m sure it’s intentional) is there’s the title and the still photo. You instantly make a judgment about “who this person is” until you watch. Everyone is so much more complex and nuanced and so beautifully human even if you don’t agree with whatever the initial tagline is. I love having my judgmental mind scolded.

[@Quanii99]

His honesty is why I respect him. Shouldn't be anything negative to say if he's just sharing his experiences.

[@angelaspellman8206]

you know how society is Quick to judge

[@Quanii99]

@@angelaspellman8206 definitely

[@007kitkit8]

@Amy K I'm surprised you didn't distinguish the fundamental difference here. KKK are offensive to others so too are child molesters. This gentleman did not hurt or offend a fly. Comprehension is key, Amk K 🤦‍♀️

[@007kitkit8]

@Amy K Stick to what was discussed in the clip. Did he mention underage? This channel is pretty transparant so there's no reason why he couldn't mention this. Why are you inferring or assuming things to fit your agenda? I'm curious.

[@molleybrackney9585]

@Amy K how tf you comparing a kkk member to a sex addict .... let this man live

[@irockdoa]

The crazy part is he was holding back in this interview

[@AnAdorableWombat]

He was? Lol!

[@kaylaadonetti1897]

Yea you can tell there was more he wanted to say. In parts he was being modest well as modest as he can be. He skipped over his childhood too.

[@stokedradar]

@Lori Joy Fine Art Channel He was modest, there were times that he said I'm not getting into that. One instance was poo another was with a guy treating him badly. He withheld information to keep things limited. With 900+ guys yeah he withheld information. Which is obvious cuz the video is 52 minutes and no full adult can give you an entire life story in 52 minutes especially with everything the man has done. Although he was graphic in some areas I guarantee it gets much more graphic than what he said.

[@stokedradar]

@Lori Joy Fine Art Channel Understandable completely but that is not your neighbor.

[@apiemikey]

He must be making shit up

[@layplum]

My best friend is a sex addict. I’ve seen what struggles she goes through with the addiction, my heart goes out to this man.

[@freedomworks3976]

Unicorn 🦄

[@Flanch82]

What's her number?

[@sookie4195]

How he is not HIV+ is a miracle. He seems happy and proud. Be safe Phillip.

[@galegrazutis964]

He has ABSOLUTELY nothing to be proud of. REPULSIVE CREATURE!!!

[@tamaranicol7563]

@@galegrazutis964yo mama

[@caitlinhealy3452]

Bless this man. He was molested & used by up to 4 grown men at once. He never found a healthy way to express his sexuality and it locked him into addiction. I believe there is a healthy way to experience BDSM, but this is built on the back of abuse.

[@christoferprestipino7433]

lol, BDSM at its core is abuse, there’s no healthy way to experience it, people who are into BDSM are damaged, no two ways about it. Not saying it’s wrong, but don’t act like it’s normal.

[@steverobinson4995]

Agreed

[@caitlinhealy3452]

@@christoferprestipino7433 BDSM can be experienced lovingly and with great respect for your partner. It’s not a bad thing to enjoy certain elements of restriction or control during sex.

[@christoferprestipino7433]

@@caitlinhealy3452lol. No it can’t.

[@asdfqwerty5389]

@@christoferprestipino7433 of course it can be done in a safe and harmless manner. I have done it myself. just like hard drugs can be done safe and responsible, even heroin and meth. is it a good idea to try, maybe not, but it's not black and white like you think.

[@nanilotti3321]

If softwhite underbelly puts a trigger warning befor a video, you know it's going down.

[@williamhelm6632]

Got Damn Right nani👌

[@bellaramos6596]

true i was surprised i’ve never seen a video from softwhite underbelly that had a trigger warning 😳

[@heatherhamilton9777]

I thought the same thing!! 😳😂

[@jovivi6512]

So true😂👍

[@ameliajade5967]

Yes!

[@datnigga2008]

I seriously wonder how Mark finds these types of people

[@porfalarnisso8875]

Love your honesty Philip. Its so hard to find this transparecy in ppl nowadays. Hope everything goes for you.

[@yasmeennicole1294]

He has very good wordage , & he used it in the most respectful way . 😊

[@wes2473]

He said I realized I loved dick in me ..so poetic LoL 😂

[@h922js]

yas 😭

[@kennedijay99]

“You know who likes big butts and they cannot lie.” Referring to gay black men isn’t even partially respectful. “The blackest city/the hood” is not respectful... but ok sis

[@kerryhall4318]

*verbiage

[@nihalsagoo9794]

@@kennedijay99 get over it

[@_netbot]

I didn't want to watch this entire video but ended up watching the entire video.

[@tiptopanteater7713]

goddamnit, i watched like four videos and it's like 5 hours since i said the same thing.

[@annamay3707]

same here, i think it may be the profound sadness i felt towards the child in him trying to find love but unable to seek it out in a self-valuing way.

[@katlynmartin1749]

Me too 🤣

[@ThaMobstarr]

I am currently watching the video and this shit is so fascinating. I can't stop.

[@Ropeadopeya]

This guy took Black Lives Matter to a whole new level.

[@KennyFromthaA]

So did your sister 👌🏽😂

[@kimsherbinin4305]

Phillip, you are such a sweet soul. I hope you can get some help to control your addiction. It has interfered with your personal/ love relationships and your career. Sending you both love for doing this interview. So honest as always🙏💜

[@joannahunsaker8384]

he's completely child like, he doesn't understand love and what it means to be comforted, so he takes that toll in sexual actions. it is so incredibly sad, and I will pray for this man, I just want to tell him everything will be okay. my heart hurts.

[@theresamachado3779]

He seems so sad and trying to fill a void in his life 😥

[@daisyjake777]

You just put my thoughts into words.

[@PamelaLUSAF]

I love that Mark treats all the people he interviews with dignity, respect and compassion which humanizes those who are different and or shunned. Shedding light on all life situations is eye opening.

[@thatmombielife]

He’s doing a great thing. I’m sure sharing the stories is very healing and therapeutic for the person too. 🥰

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

Ya this weirdo needs to go away permanently

[@jennifersutton834]

One thousand percent

[@aidenhall2508]

This is one of the best videos on the channel. I’m only 25 and not a sex addict but I relate to Phillip in so many ways. I know this video is two years old but I hope he’s doing well

[@theresenydahl9531]

I appreciate how candid and honest Phillip is and I'm glad he's happy and optimistic ❤

[@nubianfx]

The more i watch these videos the more it reinforces that childhood- including adolescence, is the most critical period of human development. The things that happen in your youth TRULY can define your entire life. its actually terrifying. I pray for the kids mehn...and hope they have attentive, loving guidance.

[@TheFen2009]

So true.

[@Al-kb2xl]

I know they are fascinating from a psychological perspective. I have my own issues with addiction and 100% I think I wouldn't if my adolescence had been different. My life has been very privileged in comparison to most of these people though so I feel bad for complaining. I think it all comes down to stable, emotional support during childhood and teen years imo. Not having that, regardless of your privilege or class, can cause addiction issues later in life

[@kirika20]

This is true, I lived it and I'm living the consequences of having an abusive (mentally, physically and sexually) childhood which is why I treat children around me with love and respect. I know that when I was a child mean words had a lot of power in me so I never even say bad things as a joke to children, like I've seen people telling children as a joke that they're ugly or fat and that's very very traumatic for children. For example, my old sis was very abusive to me physically but her words caused me more pain, she called me stupid, ugly and fat everyday. I grew up with low self esteem and developed anorexia, binge eating, I become 200lbs one month and then go down to 100lbs and then go up again, it's been a constant battle with food for many years. Also, I grew up in a very problematic household. My step father would drink everyday and cause fights w my mom everyday and my mom...it was like she wasn't there. She never asked how our day was, never sat down w us and gave us advice and she always chose the abusive man. Now we're all adults and all my brothers are into drugs and my parents often ask themselves "what have we done to deserve these kids as drug addicts??" As if it wasn't their fault, as if they were amazing parents who never fought and who gave attention and priority to their kids but they weren't. My brothers are all drug addicts and even alcoholic like their dad. I'm a huge mess with eating disorders, severe anxiety, low self esteem, always depressed and unable to have a relationship w a man so I'm single and without kids. The one that caused me more pain seems to be better. My older sister. She found a good man, got married, have two kids, her own house....the life I always wanted but will never have. Life is funny.

[@giselle_kvm]

You'd be surprised by how many teens are let.down by their parents. I know childhood is important for bonding and stuff but teenage years are extremely important when it comes to navigating sex, self-esteem, social interactions, etc. If a parent isn't there to guide their teen or a teen feels like they can't openly speak to their parents, then that's brings a whole slew of problems

[@tobinjordan8533]

I just started working with 2 year olds- up to 18 and I’m terrified hoping I model love and self esteem appropriately

[@beckyfarmer4430]

My heart goes out to this guy, he is broken inside. He seems like such a lost soul. I hope he gets help mentally and spiritually.

[@sistahcool3533]

Really, I think he sounds/seems like he's quite happy!

[@hisword1296]

@@sistahcool3533 Trust me, he's NOT.....! Someone HURT this individual when he was a child, BIG TIME. Praying for this person-!

[@My.HumbleOpinion]

He said it in the end of the interview - he's craving intimacy love attention and in that moment when you're the only two (or 9 lol) in the room it feels like you're getting ALL that person has to give - noone else matters.

[@ninapearman]

He’s a masochist who willingly indulges his paraphilia.

[@readmore4178]

@@sistahcool3533 You are so removed from truth and peace, that you are incapable of recognizing one who is in misery.

[@GiGi_to_3]

Mark, I'm not sure how you got this man to agree to speak so openly about his sexcapades but whew, I wasn't ready. When does 1 person have time to experience 900 men in 1 lifetime?? Amazing.

[@aliensoup2420]

Ask Ron Jeremy (3600 women).

[@samx4830]

truthfully im a 20 year old man who went through very similar experiences as this man growing up, was taken advantage of early in my adolesence, i'd say about 16. I then got my first girlfriend at that same age. I loved her with all my heart and i enjoyed doing rumpy pumpy with her but there was always a side of me which struggled knowing that i had the urge to have sex with men, which i didn't. I then had my second girl at 18-19 and unfortunately i did. I've had good and bad experiences with sex but listening to this guys stories have made me realise i don't want to go down this path. I still struggle with knowing if im gay or not, i like it but i just dont want to be, i look at women and im so attracted to them but just not as sexually. I think im gonna see a therapist. I also have mad respect to this guy, hes real af and he says it how his life is. All love brother

[@Pagan_Fears]

“Rumpy Pumpy” what the fuck😂😂

[@samx4830]

@@Pagan_Fears the fuck you want man to say 😂

[@untetheredmoon6971]

Dang man, get some therapy and sort yourself out. Nothing wrong with being gay if it comes down to it, or bi!

[@michellehudson2290]

It is so sad that Philip only feels he is of value depending on how well he can service a man. I hope he find peace and true happiness.

[@belleooo]

Cannot understand why he would want to humiliate himself.

[@michellehudson2290]

@@belleooo because that is all he has known since he was 14 years old, maybe even before.

[@sharihall2746]

He has found peace and happiness. Its just not how most may define it. I think he’s OK with himself.

[@twsbrl2xlldmoney355]

He will when he dead

[@lockheedload]

Seems like he finds it by servicing other guys.

[@__-ti2en]

If this was a hot chic talking this video would have a billion views.

[@naturallaw1733]

Exactly! his Sexual Orientation and Appearance affects how a lot of people are reacting Negatively to this. but they are too Judgmental and Hypocritical to admit it.👎

[@__-ti2en]

@@naturallaw1733 Possibly. If it were a woman, it may be getting the same amount of negative feedback. I think we all judge everything consciously or subconsciously. That is why we choose to look a certain way, wear certain clothes, choose to be around certain people, prefer certain types of books or movies, eat certain food, etc. Beauty and attraction is in the eye of the beholder unless one would find everything in this world or any other beautiful. Ultimately, I can not judge them for liking, disliking, or being turned off by his lifestyle or his choices. However, that is HIS right as an individual as long as no laws are broken coded by "society" which is an entirely different topic of discussion all together. But yes, to criticize him or have disdain toward this man is completely wrong. I also agree with what I read in another comment. As long as he isn't taking advantage of younger boys as whoever the person was with him, he can do what he wants and likes sexually as long as all parties are in consent and he has no problem with it.

[@naturallaw1733]

@@__-ti2en I'm sure there would still be a lot of negativity like calling her a slut, whore etc. what I'm wondering is if you would still get the same amount of "disturbing" or "gross" that we've seen here with him??

[@mellow301]

Was just thinking how it remind me of some of the womans story that i seen on here.

[@salvadorguntherr9673]

You must be new to the channel. They dont like the hot chicks that like sex either.....UNLESS she is a trauma case. If not they slander her too.

[@j.t.1086]

Not at all what I was expecting, very enjoyable. Polite man. I'm happy he's happy.

[@stephanielake8169]

I’m surprised people are saying this guy needs help but all the “sex positive people” will claim that prostitution and porn is “work”.

[@starlight_44]

This guy is harmless, the only danger to himself is himself, i hope he got help.

[@Larkins217]

There is something child-like about him, I believe he was violated in his formative years in some way. I feel bad for him.. It’s quite alarming how many black men are on the DL these days.

[@marylougeorge9890]

I got that too. I agree.

[@erindoriah]

Completely alarming!

[@erindoriah]

@Chris Smith stop it!!!

[@nj_the_realgumbo5724]

@chris lol! 🤣💀

[@thatsnodildo1974]

Go on grindr and you'll see it and its sad because i know in the black community being gay is frowned upon and so they get with women but on the low with men

[@julieth200100]

He knows he's a sex addict and makes the best of his situation. He enjoys it and isn't hurting anyone. Just be careful out there you seem to have a beautiful soul . Sending angels to protect you.

[@cottoncandyflaps4347]

The way he described what a spit roast is. I could never have been so eloquent. Bless him.

[@wendyr1213]

46 years old 😳, he looks way older

[@acardinalconsideration824]

900 cocks would severely age anyone

[@holyshit1916]

meth

[@donpeace894]

Sad sad sad

[@SteppinRazor76]

I wasn’t paying attention to the math until he said he was 23 or 24 in 1998,me and him are the same age !

[@MrsGump]

I missed his age, but I def would've put him in his early to mid 50s

[@khadijaejaz]

When he talked about the one guy he loved...after his 800+ guys, it just got to me. Poor thing. He wasn't able to focus on it in the interview, he just got back to "dicks" and "seed." Sex addiction is just like other addictions. It really overshadows the rest of your life.

[@HawkGTboy]

This whole interview is so sad. This man’s life was ruined by his childhood abuse.

[@miiketookit]

@@HawkGTboy ruined by his addiction*

[@FrenchJae]

Yep..went straight back to the dick talk. Lol

[@kdeloris2225]

Yep🤦🏽‍♀️

[@TRUCKOCD]

I find it hard to believe that someone can actually have sex with over 800 people. I live in a small town so it’s differnt here

[@erikajorvig587]

Philip is such a sweet soul. I appreciate his honesty

[@stevesuy1551]

Man Ive never felt so umcomfy on KZbin before.

[@Jewels_8404]

He’s “OK” with his lifestyle and “happy” because it’s all he’s ever known. I believe there is a lot of trauma that he has blocked out and uses sex as his drug. Drugs are an escape from reality and sex is his escape from reality. When your violated for the pleasure of another you can go one of two ways - 1. Become very uncomfortable with sex 2. Somehow believe that is what your worth is and continue to seek out approval from others via sex.

[@agnusdei3575]

nice to see someone in the comments being honest for once. he seems like a nice guy but i had a stint in being like him and once you let go of the addiction and stop letting people take advantage of you via “BDSM” you look back and you feel ashamed that you asked for people to hurt you, because that is sincerely what it is. you look back, hurt by your own actions. nobody has ever abused me but i was 100% abusing myself. it is so sad for me to look back and wonder how i suppressed the shame of lying to my mom constantly that facial bruises were from the dog. and again i 100% asked for them and thought it was all fun, hot, whatever. but the fact is you are hurting yourself in the long run. it took me years to stop obsessing over sex and the bdsm lifestyle. i still get stuck in fantasizing thoughts and have to get myself out of it. my grades in college suffered so much and it’s been hard going back to school and trying to work at the same time. but i know in the future i will know true pleasure from being married in a vanilla relationship, happy in a career, doing better for myself and pushing sex far on the back burner. i say, never again.

[@Thinkoutsidethebox15]

I'd say you either become hyposexual or hypersexual. When you're hypersexual, sex is not a connection things its an action. A pleasurable one and can be an escape but its an action of enjoyment. Like skydiving or crafting its a rush if you will and a high ypu try to chase over and over.

[@ceceprincess4758]

Right

[@antoinelyons5323]

gloom bunny you are not your past focus on better you so you can walk into greatness

[@europianbob]

@@agnusdei3575 You will get your dream life miss! :)

[@highintheskyx5332]

Mark the entire interview: 👁👄👁

[@queenzentertainmentinc.6338]

Right!!! I never heard Mark not ask question or cut in with one! He was truly amazed and stunned 😂😦😯😲

[@MariaEOD]

Sure was, I bet! 😂🤣🤦🏽‍♀️

[@lilman0820]

This guy seems so happy with his life , He is smart and a very well spoken guy . His up bringing is all he is used to . I hope he can find a real life partner and truly be happy

[@isabelizzy9130]

The most important lesson in this “matrix” is self love, self worth

[@ambergreen6714]

He's been so abused he didn't understand. Master rodrick abused him cause brings up the grades dropping. He deserves love! You can tell he needs attention and love. This video makes me sad. Master Rodrick was abusing him and he doesn't understand. Trained at 16 is not ok

[@hisword1296]

Yup, so so so sad.

[@ambergreen6714]

@@hisword1296 it so as effected me thinking of him..i had a patient tell me he was dom ... n i dont know why he did many ppl say weird or very sexual things to me n i never get mad but this got me mad cause all i could think about was this guy

[@bazggw6878]

It was pedophilia he was prolly abused by lots of peados as a young boy and didnt even realise.

[@connor7048]

What is also sad is that anyone who may have tried to give him real, healthy love, he probably didn't know how to accept it and sabotaged it for the immediate, illusion of love that he is addicted to.

[@offxcialmariah]

out of 800 of those men i guarantee that most of them had wives ect .. why you should never trust anyone and get tested

[@serenedelusions]

Scary to think about

[@DuttyRockb]

I don’t believe him fully, I think he’s has a personality disorder 🤔

[@Shaunny.Longlegs]

Oh you know they had wives? Interesting. Bet you have an arse that echoes too.

[@KittyKittyBangBang249]

Shaunny Longlegs If you don’t think that a good majority were/are married... you’re being extremely naive

[@Shaunny.Longlegs]

@@KittyKittyBangBang249 interesting that you know. If it were the other way around and they were women would the majority of them be married as well? 🤔

[@missstella8398]

you are a great interviewer, never once have i felt like you were outwardly judging anyone that you interview. We all have thoughts about others but its about how react to them and if we show our judgements to them. Very good job.

[@LP-km7gj]

The way he explains some of his stories is pretty entertaining…like the spit roast 😂. I could listen to him all day.

[@kasandrap4778]

He is getting turned on talking about his trauma, my heart is breaking for him

[@earsplittingpictures1133]

Not uncommon actually, from what i’ve heard it’s a horrifyingly common effect of trauma, people just dont seem to talk abt it

[@eyewai]

@@earsplittingpictures1133 It is VERY common. It's a horrifying feeling.

[@RISKILNIKIV]

feels good to read a comment that is not filled with hypocrisy

[@Lance-bg3hn]

Lmaoo he doesn't want your pity. He loves that mess.. quit making him a victim 🤣🤣

[@celesterodriguez6280]

i know the people on here commenting “🤢🤢🤮🤮” have never faced trauma or had to cope with things however you could

[@wendyhenning5598]

Truth, girl.

[@blackiechan573]

Hey

[@JulianCesarTheGoat]

Literally noone said that

[@bubbag8895]

Anyone who chose this watch this has issues

[@somedaynow1128]

@Aqua Lung thank you

[@LearnEnglishwithMrsKazim]

Mark, your channel is amazing, it teaches us about innocent victims & their honesty but rips my heart apart how powerful ones have been mistreating the vulnerable ones even in advanced & developed countries 😢

[@GL4SSHEART]

Phillip is such a sweetheart with a bomb personality. I feel bad for how his life went. He's intelligent and knows what he wants BUT no self control. I wish him luck.

[@neardeathSWAG]

Terrible how rodrick, groomed him so much that till this day he calls him master.

[@kellisandlin2536]

He later says Mr Roderick went to jail - I wonder for what?

[@CR33DBL4K]

Reminds me of 50 shades of grey

[@Dude-iz2dw]

@@CR33DBL4K 50 shades of black

[@StuartFuckingLittle]

@@sneed1162 You do realise he went out searching for that though, right? He was literally searching for pedophiles.

[@StuartFuckingLittle]

@@Dude-iz2dw lol

[@reversethecurse7589]

it is sad that this guy was probably abused and never got the true love and validation that he needed from his family.

[@marylougeorge9890]

I get that feeling, too.

[@leeannmansfield5254]

Yes

[@davegahan5154]

Yup! 💯 it starts at home

[@reversethecurse7589]

@Serena Chairs I was observing the part where he said the reason why guys like him is his backside and I thought to myself he truly had to come to that conclusion to feel better about himself and it’s sad cause kids shouldn’t have to experience that. Messed up when hurt kids hurt kids

[@reversethecurse7589]

@@marylougeorge9890 you not alone in this world if you work on yourself and invest everything into you , you’ll figure out that you are your most important asset .

[@iemon7722]

this was deeply educational .. thank you for this

[@kenmartinez70]

Great interview..found your openness and honesty at times unsettling but also brave and maybe inspiring for others to be more open about themselves..

[@Ashleyiza]

This makes WAP look like a preschool song

[@David180995]

😂😂😂😂 I'm dying

[@leondel7480]

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@VictoriaWilder95]

The way sex education is doing right now I wouldn’t be surprised if WAP does become a preschool song 😂😂

[@billboswaggins1610]

Gtfoh lmao !!!

[@poutinedream5066]

And I wasn't ready for that! I don't know if I'm gonna make it through this.

[@tescovaluetunacan2047]

just the thing to watch while i’m having my breakfast

[@Daylamae_]

Because why did I find this the perfect video to watch while having breakfast after I seen it lol

[@litzyleon7374]

me too lmaooo

[@shannonyoung3910]

Oh my

[@Andrea_k86]

LMAO!!

[@diamondgen4834]

💀🤢🤮

[@nareeeely]

Aren't all us men sex addicts? We all want to have sex everyday, multiple times if we have the energy.

[@701delbronx8]

This is real LGBTQ. Not some Olivia Ponton saying she’s bi or whatever 😂

[@sierraarmstrong768]

I actually really appreciate his honesty..yeah this is GRAPHIC lol but he's human and real

[@michaelscrilla125]

He's human and disturbing, that's for sure.

[@OrangeHeadTM]

@@michaelscrilla125 anyone whose like this, into sexual deviancy, has usually been abused at some point in their life, I hate to say.

[@Eric-pu7lp]

Out of topic you pretty 😅😍

[@michaelscrilla125]

@@OrangeHeadTM Agreed. Just like with any trauma, you can get help. You can break the cycle. You don't have to become the monster they expect you to be. Alcoholic's kids don't have to be drunks. Kids that were abused don't need to put their future wives and children through hell. The more you do for yourself, the more you discount who they were to you and others in their lives. They don't deserve the credit of having any type of impact other than in their own lonely, pathetic existence, and eventually their tortured demise. They need to know how little of a difference they made in the lives that meant so damn little to them, and to see these people turned out better people for it, despite their ill attempts to make them suffer alongside them.

[@sloppytaco9629]

@@Eric-pu7lp leave my girl alone

[@trekofalltrades]

Reading this as a gay man I actually see how a lot of decisions I made as a young person could have led me down this road. Even now I struggle with sex addiction, and struggle with the facts that I too, asked older men to show me the way when I was altogether too young to be experiencing those things. The most jolting part of this interview for me is how Phillip almost brags about his experiences, you can tell he wears them like a badge of honor and that during his sexual exploits he has intense moments of lucidity that he attaches to. I feel that whenever sexual conversations come up with friends or new people I tend to overshare and the shock factor alone of the experiences of many gay men captivate others. I've noticed I too will downplay my own feelings about events that happened to keep peoples attention. I hope Phillip has a safe life and finds joy in other aspects of his existence. I send this man so much love.

[@andyr6581]

💓

[@courtneyyy9220]

And to you as well.

[@jconklin86]

Best comment! And exactly what I was thinking. Sex is literally his identity. He finds value in himself by how well he “services” others. I hope he can find value within himself, without the sex.

[@univuniveral9713]

So your gayness happened due to your mistake.

[@bigjo2163]

@trekofalltrades And this is exactly why mark does these videos, to open peoples minds a bit. I’m glad this has helped you out in a way and hope you do great things in life 👍🏼

[@reyhanajacobs1595]

The way he rattles off their sizes: “Tariq. - 11 inches” I’m logging off the innanet😂😂😂

[@kmac4458]

LOL

[@JamesFrancisCawfee]

Innanet?

[@JamesFrancisCawfee]

@Bob Freak i dont think ur allowed to say that word bobby

[@forpeace1580]

If I am learning anything from these videos, that is talk to your kids early about the sensations the body, mind and soul go through as we begin puberty but also when we are very young. Or they will go elsewhere for their info. The thing is society and the powers that be that are grooming our children to go in a direction for their agenda over us, has more pull over our own children. Dialogue, listen and deal with it. Get it out on the table before movies, tv, ads, billboards, video games, commercials, school systems that bombard us from infancy. This stuff breaks my heart. What I am appreciating, of which I have known, there are far more sexual abuse towards little boys than people realize. Of course little girls and infants even. People refuse to look at it but then want to judge and complain. We need to educate ourselves, and listen and be there for those who need someone to go to. God Save the Children. I really was drawn to Philip's portrait. His face, that look...the overalls...fingernail polish...all tell his story....

[@lesleysimpson5793]

What really worries me is that Philip lets the men control how he lives his life. He even does drugs if the person he is with uses them. Philip seems like a sweet guy in many ways, but no addiction is good for you.

[@moitonightmoi]

‘’ you know who like the big butts and cannot lie’’ my black a** screamed 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@RubenTrucks]

You other brothers can't deny

[@joefreeman3772]

@@RubenTrucks Oh no 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@macky1660]

i'm a bigger gay guy and they really dont lie lmao

[@justinkase1360]

@@macky1660 gross

[@jblank1862]

Ugh.

[@gabrialjackson5878]

The phrase "snap back" will resonate with me for some time I'm afraid. Honest interview I can appreciate that. It was shocking but fascinating

[@pamedwards7972]

When I think of your videos I think of this gentleman just how raw he was telling you about his life

[@mclyker]

Watching this I had the profound realization that my life is incredibly boring. And I was thankful.

[@laurena4000]

I know, doesn’t it feel great?

[@naturallaw1733]

it is Boring, but that's because you are not really Living it...

[@mclyker]

@@naturallaw1733 If what he described is living it... I'll stick with boring.

[@naturallaw1733]

@@mclyker it's your life to Waste. you only have one shot... 🤷‍♂️

[@Highspergamy]

@@naturallaw1733 Are you Phillip?

[@travels360]

It's beyond sad how childhood sexual abuse affects a person. Some "get over it" or work through it but the majority do not

[@damndredidthatt]

Been watching a shit load of these for the past 4 days and this is by far one of my favorites. Crazy how Much I relate to this man.

[@LovellArt]

Ive come back to listen to this one a few times over the last two years. Theres a weird need in me to be shocked and repulsed at times. I'm not sure why. This is a great one for making me feel revolted! He seems like a lovely guy though. I hope he's truly happy.