Recovering Sex Addict and Alcoholic-Tony

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Tony, a recovering sex addict and alcoholic in Los Angeles.
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[@tonycota5271]

Thank you for your time, Mark. I appreciate the opportunity to open up on your platform -Tony Cota

[@DetroitFettyghost]

Was great to meet you my friend. Have a great day!

[@fullSendernopretender]

You're a g man, thanks for sharing with us. Definitely inspiring.

[@mymichelle6828]

Thank you for sharing your story, and being so raw. Much respect!

[@KariTSays]

You’re very brave and a great human being! Thank you for sharing and wishing you continued healing, peace and light!

[@jasminemoukachar6677]

Such a great interview! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us ☺️ you were so brave and transparent! I’m sorry for what you went through as a kid 😞 You deserve the best ❤

[@bygrace8485]

I’ve struggled with porn addiction since I was an adolescent, it became one of my coping mechanisms. Sometimes your escape becomes your prison. Thank you for sharing your journey, you are truly an inspiration. God can restored anyone who puts their trust in him🙏🏽

[@jizim8947]

HAIL SATAN 🤘

[@goodgolly4726]

​@@jizim8947 🤓

[@awakeninc1680]

Look up nofap, you can change

[@Catalinaobregon]

@@jizim8947 the good news about free will is that you can bat for the other side. Peace be with you.

[@jizim8947]

@@Catalinaobregon so what? Now I'm for the devil? Haha there is no devil or God or Santa Claus or Easter bunny etc etc. Each too their own, unless their chosen religion tells me I'm going to hell. Then they can go 🖕 themselves.

[@magicmantis]

After watching so many interviews, it really gives me an understanding on why someone might engage in reckless behavior. I've always had questions as to why some people do what they do. Thank you Tony, and everyone else for sharing your stories. And thank you Mark for bringing their stories to us.

[@mattcontrino8513]

I’ve been trying to escape for a long time. I was doing good, but I recently fell back. All it takes is once. Even being aware of it, the pull has returned. This story is very encouraging, especially as I attribute my freedom from addiction to Christ, as well. So much respect for this video. I’m sure this helps many young men, besides myself. We get so confused by what society tells us to be. I’ve destroyed friendships, relationships, everything, from lacking self-control. I’ve burned far more people than I’ve ever loved, because of pride and lust. It’s all fun and games until you realize that you’re alone, deep-inside, despite it all. So much of this story hits me close. Wish you only the best, sir. Respect. 💪🏼

[@michaelheery3085]

leave God alone.

[@Soul_Surfer365]

The level of awareness he has is truly a gift. A lot of similarities between us. I was abused as an adolescent, and I too, was introduced to the devils vile seed. I continue to struggle with sex addiction. Watching this interview brings it all back. Thank you for your honesty. Your lyrics are very powerful. Enjoyed your advise on YOU VS. YOU as well. Keep aspiring toward greatness king 👑

[@thefunfam7480]

You can overcome it. Make up your mind and ask for help if you need to. I’m praying for you!

[@joesmith9216]

devils seed? I don't think you know what that means guy. Are you generational satanist?

[@AMunoz-rh9cz]

Therapy with a specialist can greatly speed the recovery and heal the damage in a very thorough way by hitting issues that might not occur to you on your own.

[@iwasneverthere]

This was amazing. As a survivor myself, I never realized how those things affect me till this day. Thank you for sharing and for being so self aware, you really touched my heart and soul.

[@The0nlyy_Duece4]

I can relate to EVERYTHING he said literally from the military and all even though I went marines but I’m still battling addiction and this put tears in my eyes because it was as if I was listening to myself I have so much respect for tony man and I know what I’m doing is wrong in my mind but I just won’t let go🤦🏾‍♂️

[@sherinthomson4076]

You can & will be ok, too!! You can do this!! Cheering for you!! 🩵🩵🙏🙏💪💪💪💪

[@oshen0]

Are you able to get treatment through the VA? You might want to look into a therapy called "EMDR". I dont have/never had any issues with Porn... But, I have major PTSD/Depression/Anxiety/TBI from my Deployments (im 100% through the VA for this stuff). I didnt have the best childhood. I fought through a major addiction & finally got sober. I could go on and on.. but, I think you get the point. If you know these experiences & issues...then you just know the deal/know what the journey is like. I've tried all kinds of treatment and therapy over the years. NONE of it did sh*t for me. I found out about EMDR therapy and started doing weekly sessions, been doing them for the last year. It's been MAJOR, bruh'! It's hard, I break down every week during the session. It brings up some serious shit from your past...but, it's needed. It's worked better than anything else I've tried. Still have a long way to go & there's shit that we had to do during those deployments that I'll NEVER come to peace with...but Man ~ it's soo nice to be able to "take that edge off" and "readjust the load" that we carry with us. You can also go to one of the PTSD inpatient treatment programs through the VA. They're 6 weeks to 2 months depending on which one you attend. But, it will more than likely get you to 100% with the VA...and, the treatment and therapy is unreal! If you need help...its out there. If you need some suggestions/if there's anything I can do to help...lemme know.

[@iluvdracs2975]

Tony, thank you so much for your story. I'm going through these same issues at 20 y/o and it's hard to manage, especially living on my own and not having my parents around to restrict me from certain things. Thank you for showing me there is light at the end of this tunnel. I am still working on myself and I am more than grateful I came across your story tonight. Thank You.

[@sugeiypereira6647]

Amazing interview shining light into the reality of sexual abuse in young males. A topic that is not often discussed. I am sorry Tony that there was no one to save from that awful predator. She should had been held accountable for her actions. Tony, may you continue to find healing, help others and bring awareness to an issue that many times is not even consider and issue by society. Thank you for sharing your story! So powerful!

[@Lynn-nr2vk]

It was me versus me. Such a beautiful expression of words you have. A writer was in you all along. A great journey. You found yourself back on the narrow path and that is the ONLY path to be on. Much love x

[@MC-fw5vt]

"Me and God, with a lot of prayer.". God put sthg special in me that I couldn't see for years. As soon as I let all that go, I found what was inspiring me.". I'm so impressed. Full respect. I was abused as a child and share some aspects of your story. Maybe I should try prayer.

[@rosemariemoore1929]

May God bless this man and his family. Lord, keep your hands on them. Thank you for sharing your testimony, Tony. 💜

[@nhlibra]

"The Teacher Arrives When The Student is Ready to Begin." CONGRATULATIONS !!! Such an interesting story, Tony...thank you for sharing with us today. I'm a member of "Team Mom" and it sounds to me like she was doing a pretty good job overall. The stepfather thing...glad to hear that you've figured it all out by now. I was a mother at the same time as your Mom (my son is same age as you). Awesome ending...All the Best to you and your wife. 😄💜

[@lemmyjoker3678]

That quote is bullshit. He lucked out

[@acies9408]

Team Mom? Team Mom who let an abusive step father around her child? Am I missing something?

[@alexsparks4434]

By far one of the best life stories I've heard. Take care Tony.

[@k10621]

I am so proud of you and very grateful for having the opportunity to listen to your story! It takes so much courage and you are truly an inspiration! GOD bless you and your family!💜

[@RonEngrassia]

Wow. What a powerful story. Thank-you and thank you Tony for this video. So many parts of it resonated with me. But what he said at the end really hit home. Its always been me against me and you gotta find a way to stop beating yourself up. I have my own channel where I'm telling my own story of addiction and recovery. I had 7 years sober in the states until I moved here to the virgin Islands. Just coming off of what's basically been a 4 year bender. I celebrated a month sober on 5/8/24. There is a way out. Thank-you again for this video. Here's to another 24!

[@darenanderson1960]

This man tells his story really well. The bullying and abuse he received piss me off. I freaking hate bullies.

[@BELINDAMEADE]

Tony you are a wonderful human being! Thank you for your story, it really touched me and so glad you are the journey of SELF LOVE. Keep it up as you are an inspiration for many that are suffering like you did - Blessings!!

[@crystalstorey5924]

How refreshing. Accountability, change and no excuses. God bless you for letting Him do a work in you!

[@kenembury1102]

Very well spoken and aware of his story. Just telling it like it is. No blame just experiences.

[@MS-ns2zm]

My heart breaks for 3 year old him!! What a brave story , thank you for sharing. Praying for you and your recovery ❤

[@lisablanchard8915]

Thank you so much for this story ....it is an inspiration to see recovery at its best...I especially like the advice Tony gives at the end of this interview...Just a beautiful man...Best of luck for continued happiness and success with your song writing!!!

[@andrepope2692]

Bro this resonates so hard. 😭 I've lived such a similar story. I thank God everyday for redeeming me and showing me forgiveness and true love. Praying for you brother. Pray for me. I'm battling weed addiction now. Would love to meet you someday. Stay strong. 💪🏾

[@cobracommander9138]

This guy is awesome! In the middle of telling a very traumatic part of his childhood he breaks out into a rap song!

[@johnzackarias11]

He's really good at it too

[@babyraider11]

Bars

[@prakharvishnoi3249]

As i am watching this video, i am in tears. Stuff like thisbin bits and pieces uave also happened to me. I feel seen. I feel connected. I wish you all the very best Tony! You are a very strong and resilient and wonderful man. Wishing nothing but love and and everlasting happiness and success for you and your family!

[@CalebG73]

I’ve seen Tony on his IG for a few years, never knew much of his story. Very insightful. These videos are the highest of quality and pack such a punch in every single video

[@lisawatton6535]

Complete respect to him for opening up and being honest, he hasnt blamed what he'd gone through on everyone else he owned up to his faults and wish him the best on his recovery ❤️

[@joyrn7663]

Thanks for sharing your story, Tony. I'm so sorry for the abuse and trauma you endured. Very glad you've found true happiness and contentment in your life. Good luck with your music career. You have a soothing speaking voice.

[@MargaritaPaslaru]

Thank you Tony for sharing your story, so so sooo inspiring!! It is wonderful you found the power within yourself to overcome all the negative situations you’ve been through! However, if anyone reading this is finding themselves in the same situation Tony was and you feel you’re not strong enough, brave enough, powerful enough, PLEASE ASK FOR HELP OR GUIDANCE; human connection and human support it is sooo important, do not ignore it! 🧡

[@danellemarieee]

Toby seems like such a genuine person. He is so well spoken and his presence is comforting. So happy for you Tony ❤

[@jeangeorges9910]

Such a fascinating story, this guy has so much talent and great articulation, his rapping was great with nice flow and lyrics. Thanks God for showing him the way, drug/alcohol/sex/party isn't give significance in life.

[@BritTellstheTruth]

Another testimony of how God can change people’s hearts. Keep them coming Mark. This is 💯 percent the TRUTH. Thank you Tony for your testimony. ❤ I relate so much to so much of Tony’s story. 🙏 Tony if you read this, from one believer to another, pray specifically for deliverance/spiritual bondage from any alcohol cravings/temptation. It works. It’ll happen. Prayers for you and your family. 🎉

[@brian_atc]

That's a man who has taken stock of his life. What a gift to have survived his downward spiral and realized happiness and satisfaction with what he has now. That's life's true meaning.

[@colleenjohnstoncomedy3036]

Thank you for your open honesty. You’re so well spoken and vulnerable thank you again for sharing

[@jessicafreeman302]

I’d love to hear more of his music. As a mom of a little boy, everything about his story is an eye opener and I’m thankful he shared it.

[@reds10001]

I was bullied at school and at home. I literally shut down. I didn't speak for 2 years. Later turned to drugs and sex as an outlet to escape and feel better

[@larae6885]

How are you now?

[@510fitness3]

Do you fantasize about killing ppl? Or yourself ?

[@leeleentony]

Compared to almost all of the ppl Mark has interviewed this man is smart enough and responsible enough to at least recognize that take full responsibility to know that alcohol and drugs mixed with the things from his past clearly are why he was having so many issues with things in life. Almost every other interview I watch ppl are blaming everyone and everything else SMFH Many blessings to him tho i hope he has a bright and happy future ahead of him. 💯🙏💚🙌✝️

[@BologneseJones]

I agree and this is why he is succeeding..he acknowledged what caused the problem how adults mistreated him but he didn't use it as an excuse

[@leeleentony]

@@BologneseJones yep u are exactly correct....it doesn't matter who it is, a person will not have much success at staying sober if they can't even at least take full responsibility.

[@SuperArielleo]

Excellent job, Tony. Thank you for sharing your story. Bless you and your family.

[@plutoplatters]

from 15 to 25 Sex addiction,etc. is rampant.

[@ciaramcclellan9584]

Wow he’s a great story teller !! Great interview mark . He’s a talented artist as well .

[@lisahinton9682]

Tony will be a great dad. His son will have a good childhood and will be a secure strong kid thanks to Tony's introspection and hard work on himself.

[@hittinpure1]

thank you mark and tony! such an inspiration. i am currently in SAA and know the struggles of sexual addiction! That was a powerful share and i am grateful to hear that this morning!

[@maithiliradhakrishnan15]

What's shocking is my own response to Tony's story. I was thinking, is that a big enough reason to become addicted to anything? That's when it hit me that we have glorified the most abominable things. We have normalized traumatic events. So, Tony, of course that was a traumatic episode and yes that is indeed something that can change the course of life. Thanks for sharing your story and reminding us that a 15 year old is as much a child as a 2 year old.

[@Whyarecatsooocool40309]

They are saying that 15 year olds can be taken advantage of just as easily as a 2 year old. They are still minors and can not consent, even though they might have felt like they were in control of the situation. But really those events led him to spiraling out of control and losing himself for many years to come.

[@postmodernfreak]

I agree with your point generally...but I don't think it's fair to compare a 2 year old to a 15 year old. Yes they're both young, and can be taken advantage of - but each 15 year old is different. Some 15 year old have had sex with older women and not batted an eyelid or become addicts. Does that make her actions right? Of course not..but Tony is understanding his role in it to. As well as why he couldn't stand up and leave the room. Peace!

[@charliemiller1934]

I'm sorry for your pain and loss of your innocence. So many people are abused than not! I hope you find peace and enjoy your life. You are very handsome and a great public speaker. You are so brave and I have enjoyed listening to you. I am Australian and love the accent! Take care of yourself Tony and thank you Mark. You have also helped me to understand my partner and his own sexual abuse by his mother.

[@jonnyjibjob6519]

Seems like a good dude and super intelligent and without any professional help, wish him the best stay strong brother

[@SHLYRH]

I’ve noticed more men be open about their SA with older women. And I’m incredibly proud of them for coming forward.

[@BologneseJones]

They need to ..men are either shamed or applauded ..it's rape and no older woman has any business doing what she did ..it's terrible and she would have been arrested if she was a man

[@SHLYRH]

@@BologneseJones 110% agree. Predators should get the tenth degree. No matter gender.

[@prosk8er92841]

My 20s were spent intoxicated . Now I'm feeling so unaccomplished and directionless

[@jenla4412]

Definitely one of the best stories I’ve heard so far. He is truly inspirational and he proves that over and over again God is the way. God bless you Tony and good luck in life and sobriety.

[@vashtistanford5322]

I wish you nothing but the best Tony. Your story is incredible and vulnerable. Glad you found peace and forgave yourself. Keep praying and fighting the demons. You came a long way.

[@crystaldaley7850]

what a beautiful testimony! thank you Tony! God bless you and the family! you are amazing!!

[@tanickasinclair7035]

That stepfather deserves prison time. How dare he treat a child with disrespect. Disgusting.

[@laurapitmon1253]

Tony, I'm sorry for the abuse/trauma you sustained in your childhood. Working through the pain and abandonment is a lifetime journey that can be overwhelming at times. Stay strong my friend.

[@ms_emjay17]

What a beautiful story of growth. You are inspiring. Best to you and your family. Would love to hear and support your music.

[@tanickasinclair7035]

The bullies in this man's life should have been REMOVED from his life and the parents of the minors held responsible.

[@athens31415]

100%!!

[@BonoAnimoes1]

Very courageous 👨🏼 man, my deepest respect. Hearing him telling about his life, I could not help but start thinking about our society and the role Toxic masculinity plays on all of this….

[@athens31415]

100%

[@s0nja]

What a lovely human. Men need men like this to speak to them. Thank you for sharing your journey, I wish you all the best.

[@guadalupemontantes7524]

Thank you Tony for sharing your story I always find inspiration in others experiences as I had to grow up and dysfunctional environment. God bless you.

[@Lionheart1980]

I love how Mark just got the hell out of the way and let Tony do his thing! That's what an excellent interviewer should do! I really enjoyed watching this! @Tony Cota killed it 🔥

[@soraiacristinadiaspavesi8128]

One of my favourite interviews here, what a cool guy, will forward this video to my son ;) Thanks for the great and hard work Mark, love your channel.

[@Shamaniukas]

Your VOICE is so clear and easy understandable , for me who's English is not first language = Perfect

[@rufaisani6148]

Went to high school with him seemed chill

[@Justin-rm8fz]

Whats he's rap name?

[@rufaisani6148]

@@Justin-rm8fz youtube.com/@tonycota5271

[@OTOWN2STOCKTOWN]

Where do I find his music?

[@rufaisani6148]

@@OTOWN2STOCKTOWN youtube.com/@tonycota5271

[@maureent8653]

Thank you Tony for sharing your story with us.

[@dementedpuppy]

I see myself if this guy so much. God bless you Mark

[@Greeenfiire]

I believe I know someone that’s going through something very similar. Awesome to see anything can be overcame. Love ya Tony.

[@scalpdotink8450]

You were standing in your own way for many years. You and I have a lot of similarities. Enjoyed hearing your story!

[@rhondaharmon724]

You need to talk to young men who are in trouble. What a great story and how well you voice it. I truly think that with your lyrics and your ability to express yourself there is great potential for you to reach a ton of troubled young men.

[@gurdenator85]

Thanks for sharing tony this was amazing to listen to. I related to so much on what u shared. Really happy you found your peace now.

[@-TriP-]

this guy is relatable AF

[@cj5273]

I have watched a lot of videos on this channel and this is one of the very best

[@irenebelloni1255]

This is one of the best stories I heard so far, they way he tells his story is incredible

[@liamccormick4097]

Thank you for sharing your story Tony. You are a beautiful soul, I am incredibly sorry that this evil disgrace of a woman put you through that. So many mixed emotions and thoughts involved in going through that. I pray you find true peace in your life and continue your healing journey.

[@rachell4383]

I felt his words in my soul!!!! Love this

[@AnonYmous-vu1lw]

Man. Ive got immediate love for this guy. He has a good head to go through what he has. Youre a sitting duck if youre vulnerable and drugs start crossing your path. Bit love that he hasnt turned in to a tough guy to his core. Dont judge a book bu its cover. He has a great understanding of himself and the way its all unfolded. Great foundations to build on.

[@truthmatters4520]

Wow! He's a great speaker and has very good insight. What a great guy who has realized his value through his trials and tribulations. He would be a great councilor.

[@peachyyy_zahara]

Abuse against men is not spoken about enough and it’s heartbreaking to hear stories like this that men have never really shared before

[@claydesousa4609]

I never knew I had a sex addict problem because it wasn’t something I do everyday but it’s a problem because I use it for my benefit only! The girls who I do sleep with, I never see a future with them and eventually always end up breaking their hearts etc creating karmic debt for myself. This opened up my eyes and being honest with myself will help me overcome it

[@SweetLiLNuthing]

What a gentle soul, he has a lot of insight too. Bless you Tony.

[@lucillewright5153]

Wow Tony powerful testimony I can Relate sooo much to specific things you've been through. I have been sober now almost 2 years IT has been alot of hard work but with having GOD is a huge part of my story 🙏 Thank you for sharing the most intimate parts of your life, I do the same And it's freeing. True FREEDOM & PEACE DEFINITELY BEATS THAT OLD LIFE.

[@anthonybeamon7673]

His life reminds me so much of my own to a T. So glad I am not alone bro, thank you for this.

[@madspyBTKT]

You’re really intelligent and your talking is easy to understand. I’m checking out your rap songs!

[@cristinadinger5115]

Tony thanks for sharing your story, I appreciate your honesty, you are a very well spoken person and I am amazed by your wisdom. Keep praying and continue to let Him lead you!

[@vans2638]

Who else here from TikTok

[@thegrampaguy165]

me

[@TheJoStephan]

What an amazing story. This one is incredible to listen to. We pray for you bro

[@estevangonzales4685]

This Touched Iv been dealing with similar issues & didn’t think it was nothing, I needed this thanks

[@QTeezy79]

Very handsome, articulate and honest. Thanks for sharing Tony.

[@tvThinkpad]

thank you for sharing MUCH LOVE MAN KEEP IT UP

[@teejah7785]

He's a beautiful person!

[@halibella5552]

Woahhhhhh! All I can say is wow ! Routing for you Tony. You are magnetic!

[@ceciliahyde7127]

What a wonderfully inspirational young man. He is a true gentleman. He found a good woman, who in turn found a good young man, and between them both they created a very lucky loved little boy. May the Universe smile upon you and your beautiful family and new life. All the very best with your music career Tony. You and your wife and darling little son deserve the very best in life. The best revenge is to live well! Good work Tony, your mother did a great job in rearing you. 💋❤️💋❤️💋❤️👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@amandaowens2016]

I'm not knocking re-habs or therapy but it all boils down to this. Philippians 4:13 King James Version 13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. ✝️🙌✨️🙏

[@e.s.9080]

Very raw and inspiring. Wishing him all the best and all others going through their journey. 💜

[@deannatraetto1255]

God Bless you and your wife. My ex boyfriend is an addict. I really needed to see this. Xx

[@JaaeLA]

That woman, is wrong as hell smfh how dare her.

[@kimmefford2814]

One of my favorite interviews ever. SO inspiring

[@RomaAcorn]

Im a sex addict too. Sex addiction is hardest and brought drugs too.. Insanely hard to beat.

[@camtaylor1519]

"hit my knees right after she did" oh how sad it is so many of us can relate. and the significance of those lyrics.

[@connorhowe2679]

This deserves more views. Stand up guy.

[@samanthalozano2436]

God bless you and your family, Tony. You're an absolutely amazing man. Thank you for sharing

[@RealTalkwithBellaTT]

He reminds me a lot of myself. Especially when it comes to sobriety and music. I also didn’t start making music and being filled with lyrics until I gave my life to God and stopped drinking. I had wayyy too many distractions.

[@curlybaddie7814]

My God his story.. the abuse and manipulation of his innocence. I’m so saddened, but his courage and determination has made me better. You vs you!!