Recovering Sex Addict and Alcoholic-Tony

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Tony, a recovering sex addict and alcoholic in Los Angeles.
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[@tonycota5271]

Thank you for your time, Mark. I appreciate the opportunity to open up on your platform -Tony Cota

[@DetroitFettyghost]

Was great to meet you my friend. Have a great day!

[@fullSendernopretender]

You're a g man, thanks for sharing with us. Definitely inspiring.

[@mymichelle6828]

Thank you for sharing your story, and being so raw. Much respect!

[@KariTSays]

You’re very brave and a great human being! Thank you for sharing and wishing you continued healing, peace and light!

[@jasminemoukachar6677]

Such a great interview! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us ☺️ you were so brave and transparent! I’m sorry for what you went through as a kid 😞 You deserve the best ❤

[@Catalinaobregon]

Responding to sexual stimulation as a child is not something to be ashamed of. The shame belongs to the perpetrator. Glad Tony is no longer defining himself by it. Keep going, Tony. You’ve got this.

[@jaqikennedy9990]

More proof that WOMEN CAN BE PERPETRATORS TOO!!!! It's NOT JUST MEN!!!!

[@azrael4771]

Never told anyone this but when I was like 6 or 7 a person only a year or two older than me touched me long story short, and I've felt weird and anxious about sexual stuff ever since, I don't know if it was traumatic because we were essentially the same age and gender, but since then I've known about sex way earlier than I should've. I really sympathize with this guy, I've completely avoided sex my whole life due to anxiety and idk if that's where it stems from

[@noOnionswithoutTears]

A lot of woman who are predators of underage kids count on the "older woman/pleasure gratification" to keep them from being exposed. Like the Mary Kay Latorneau case.

[@ext93]

@@azrael4771 if you have felt anxious about sex since that experience i would say thats traumatic in a way

[@johnzackarias11]

@@azrael4771 I'm sorry that happened to you.

[@paulahillman1100]

I love how many men are speaking up about sexual abuse / rape… bc it happens to men too! Thank you for speaking out tony! Sending love to you

[@alberthernandez5318]

Why god why???? Why couldnt it happen to me??!? 😩

[@diegom.9762]

@@alberthernandez5318 don’t wish that, trust me.

[@alberthernandez5318]

@@diegom.9762 could be worse. Some people never get laid and then shoot up a school...

[@diegom.9762]

@@alberthernandez5318 I they they shoot up schools cause they get bullied/home life, not cause their dick ain’t wet.

[@alberthernandez5318]

@@diegom.9762 nah. Exhibit A: Elliot roger.

[@jrodhaynes973]

The color grade with his outfit, tattoos, and the backdrop was top tier. Incredible story.

[@1n1e0q1]

I just thought about that before i looked at the comments and read yours lol its perfect

[@RebelBuddha1971]

Wow, this was inspiring to watch. What a great guy. So intelligent, self aware, well spoken, sensitive and in touch with both himself and others. Wishing you all the best in your journey, Tony.

[@tekis0]

This gentleman is so sincere in his responses and so serious about his recovery. It's inspiring to me.

[@williamlind2843]

I'm 20+ years older than he is. I pray I can use his will to change his life to give me strength!

[@dementedpuppy]

@@williamlind2843 it inspired me so much relate to so many of his struggles. Mark is doing gods work thinking of others before himself. I don’t fw religion. But that is only way I can put it.

[@BHWATTZ]

@@dementedpuppy He full of sh blaming the next door neighbors LOL

[@Nessa_1990]

@@BHWATTZ ?

[@cantankerouspatriarch4981]

Lol, keep crying Heardist. Only a tiny segment of delusional feminists are still clinging to their hope that she won't have to pay him the millions she was ordered to by the court as a result of the jury verdict against her.

[@Music-Heals-1111]

Its so massive that he realises what that woman did is abuse, so many males tell this story as bragging rights, but as a female living the same story in reverse it most definitely is abuse. What a beautiful soul. ❤❤❤

[@Lpm100]

Not abuse. It's like hitting a dog with a meat bun.

[@majesticallymade6177]

Amen indeed

[@charlesm6707]

a woman going onto a man is not "the same story in reverse" and why are you telling everyone you got raped online?

[@maq3009]

I was stationed in Sasebo, Kyushu, Japan while in the Navy. And I can definitely relate to this man. To be honest the Navy culture during the early 2000's was really toxic. Especially for overseas Sailors because they don't have the support of family and friends from back home. And communication with friends and family while on a ship was difficult because you would be out to sea all the time and wouldn't get a cellphone signal. And we were out at sea for months.

[@pierrebitcan]

@@Lpm100 That's insane. He was an innocent kid, molested by a creepy woman.

[@oregoncountrygirl]

“my wife was a virgin when I met her, and I had no intentions of taking that from her” bud… from a mother to a grown son, you are a good man in spite of the bad things that happened. God loves you and forgives you, he’s got you. Keep moving forward. Praying for you.

[@KayciazWorld]

Amen I really hope he sees this comment✝️🙏

[@oregoncountrygirl]

@@KayciazWorld I do too

[@freedomjusticehappiness5773]

finally he did

[@vdogg1987]

I want to know how old she was when he met her.

[@youparejo]

​@@vdogg1987 me too

[@elijahtejeda990]

Thank you for sharing man. I got molested as a young boy by a guy that was 4 or 5 years older than me. I still cope with it but I’ve slowly began to understand that it was not my fault and the forgiveness is slowly starting to come. I’m 22 now and I’ve also had a sex Addiction I’ve been with so many women I’ve lost count after 20. When I met my fiancé she helped me realize none of my childhood trauma was my fault. For any man or child going through the same. It’s okay to get help !!! Please do so! God bless!

[@athens31415]

Wow, very powerful. And yes you are right about the trauma, the shame lies with the abusers 100%!

[@lauratitus7214]

0 seconds ago I was molested several times as a child. When i got older the sex addiction took over. How i made threw all that i have no idea. Thank you Mark for having the courage to speak candidly about this.

[@paisleygirl6642]

Sexually abused by adults as children leaves us with trauma. Most of us spend the rest of our lives dealing with the remnants via addictions, mental illness or acting out. I'm so glad Tony is a survivor and is on his recovery journey. Thanks for sharing.

[@thesilencedgirl]

So true!

[@alberthernandez5318]

@@paisleygirl6642 this is gonna be a hot take, but i think its different, he was a 15 year old boy and consented. (Yes i do think its different for men and women.) It doesnt sound like this guy had any longlasting problems from that experience. IMO most his problems stem from lack of positive male role models. Btw i dont think its right adult women have sex with underage kids. Sex has consequences and kids arent old enough to fully realize that and unequipped to take on that responsibility.

[@jennifersmyth6301]

I’m 61 and I still vividly remember the sexual abuse that happened to me at 8 and 13. Thank you for sharing your story

[@jeffnieves5921]

❤❤

[@jenny-DD]

Do tell more

[@cad2item]

Do you have any idea how to prevent that kind of abuse? Im 39 and im a father of 4 year little girl. I worry about that something could happened to her... Your the first person I dedicate you that song m.kzbin.info/www/bejne/bpm3Z41_rbqtfJY&pp=ygUPcGx1bW1ldCBkYW1hZ2Vk

[@jjlove13only1]

Tony is very self aware. He knows who he is and who he's not. And has worked really hard to get in and understand the places he got hurt. And he's going to be ok.❤️❤️❤️

[@keepupmcgee5099]

Ok

[@sheilabrennan4481]

Well said.

[@5thdimension954]

Shame also lies in secrecy. The fact that he can put his internal narrative and place it in correct context. It no longer owns him.

[@ElFantasma13]

No he doesn't know who he is. He's just following what his mother taught him. He basically just married his mom.

[@michaelheery3085]

if he was aware he would not have so much TATS.

[@917hazel]

These are the kind of conversations that ppl like myself crave. This sincere honesty offered up to help others is a profound gift to humanity. Many blessings to Tony and Mark.

[@GClifford-cw8ci]

I started bawling when he starting speaking his lyrics. This man is so poetic and can really tell his story. U can tell he needed to vent and speak his truth and I was ALL EARS

[@aridelisbido3094]

Respect to this guy that has accountability of his actions. Not everyone is able to do that

[@bygrace8485]

I’ve struggled with porn addiction since I was an adolescent, it became one of my coping mechanisms. Sometimes your escape becomes your prison. Thank you for sharing your journey, you are truly an inspiration. God can restored anyone who puts their trust in him🙏🏽

[@jizim8947]

HAIL SATAN 🤘

[@goodgolly4726]

​@@jizim8947 🤓

[@Catalinaobregon]

@@jizim8947 the good news about free will is that you can bat for the other side. Peace be with you.

[@jizim8947]

@@Catalinaobregon so what? Now I'm for the devil? Haha there is no devil or God or Santa Claus or Easter bunny etc etc. Each too their own, unless their chosen religion tells me I'm going to hell. Then they can go 🖕 themselves.

[@jizim8947]

@@Catalinaobregon exactly what religion gives you free will? I'll wait... just look for the purple guy because I'll be holding my breath, LoL 🤣.

[@judyroberts4596]

When his voice cracked slightly when he was talking about being a little boy it made me tear up. I feel like I can see him as a sweet little boy who needed love and acceptance! Wish I could give that baby a hug ❤

[@KimberlyJose-si2sv]

I could remember several years ago as a teenage, i was addicted to alcohol. Spent my whole life fighting alcohol addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my husband recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

[@MorrisBasar-jm9lc]

Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.

[@CARIBBEAN_365]

Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Germany don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏

[@CathieGomez-mp8sk]

Hey! Yes Mr.medmushies

[@VanRyan-bv7du]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on telegram

[@JacksonSmith-wc8oo]

Yes he's Mr.medmushies. My daughter did straight shrooms in few days. Made her whole! after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. It helped us.

[@macrovigilance]

Tony's lesson at the end "you vs you" is real wisdom.Respect man for finding happiness and the good life!

[@mishloud4215]

Boy it is refreshing to hear a well-spoken person who doesn't say "like" every other word.

[@martinsiedlecki]

"You know what I'm saying"

[@nikkidotts3687]

WOW😂

[@MomCatMeows]

Wow, this guy is a boss. To speak so openly about his abuse is so brave. By doing so he makes others realize they are not alone and that this happens to more boys than we will ever know. Bless this man. ❤

[@missy7492]

Tony seems like such a sweet guy. I feel bad for what the older woman did to him. Shame on her for violating his childhood. Congratulations Tony are being sober and meeting your soulmate ❤️

[@alberthernandez5318]

Why? Why god? Why couldnt that happen to me??? 😭

[@alberthernandez5318]

@LostInDimensions depends how hot she was

[@nggapraying4392]

@@alberthernandez5318 how many comments will you make saying you wish you were a child being molested/raped? It's really not the time to be a sick troll 🤨

[@alberthernandez5318]

@@nggapraying4392 mfers out here crying about getting laid.

[@LordofYumYum]

@@alberthernandez5318 LeL

[@almightymalicious7881]

Thank you tony. I’m 23 and have never heard someone , let alone myself, articulate the toxicity it’s really brings. This interview showed me more than any interview on here and it’s for personal reasons. Again, thanks tony. You as well mark.

[@scottgarver5782]

This video moved me immeasurably. Tony, you're such a beautiful soul. I can see the hurt in your eyes - but I also hear the fortitude in your voice. You are an inspiration. Keep fighting the good fight and enjoy your beautiful family.

[@shellyh204]

"You versus You"... This really got me to the point I broke down in tears. Thank you for sharing your story Tony. Your story touched me in a way I never thought was possible.

[@FerenczAttila]

His message is very important, sexual addiction must be taken as seriously as substance addictions. It can cost your job, carrier, wealth and eventually your life, it ruins friendships, relationships, families. Yet, I think most people are not even aware of this issue, it's often ridiculed and even professionals hesitate to recognize the problem. At least in my country it's quite difficult to find professional treatment and rehabilitation services for sex addicts or porn addicts. So good job, keep up raising awareness.

[@dlhawks]

it's not taken seriously in a lot of places, that's true

[@joanofarcxxi]

I am a substance abuse counselor. Sexual addiction is the most difficult dependency to treat. It is insidious and often not seen as an addiction, but rather as a sign of virility (for all genders) and a healthy state.

[@rick-db1wr]

@@joanofarcxxi how do you know if you are addicted to sex? as someone who frequently partakes and enjoys

[@joanofarcxxi]

@@rick-db1wr it's something that has to be professionally evaluated by consultation.

[@rolandomota7771]

ive read it is usually comorbid and a significant number of sex addicts are also alcoholics

[@sharonaerneckeaitchison4500]

You can tell that this man is good ... through and through. Not one cuss word, forthright, transparent. What a wonderful life he is in now. Phew! Thank goodness he found himself and moved above and beyond his past.

[@VonSolo5]

Breaks my heart, so many kids are unprotected and have to navigate so much adult cruelty and life is so hard for them from day 1. Wishing him and his family a beautiful and peaceful life and future ❤

[@mattcontrino8513]

I’ve been trying to escape for a long time. I was doing good, but I recently fell back. All it takes is once. Even being aware of it, the pull has returned. This story is very encouraging, especially as I attribute my freedom from addiction to Christ, as well. So much respect for this video. I’m sure this helps many young men, besides myself. We get so confused by what society tells us to be. I’ve destroyed friendships, relationships, everything, from lacking self-control. I’ve burned far more people than I’ve ever loved, because of pride and lust. It’s all fun and games until you realize that you’re alone, deep-inside, despite it all. So much of this story hits me close. Wish you only the best, sir. Respect. 💪🏼

[@michaelheery3085]

leave God alone.

[@magicmantis]

After watching so many interviews, it really gives me an understanding on why someone might engage in reckless behavior. I've always had questions as to why some people do what they do. Thank you Tony, and everyone else for sharing your stories. And thank you Mark for bringing their stories to us.

[@amber76OH]

This story broke my heart. What a monster that step dad, and that adult woman was to this man. I'm so happy to hear he pulled himself out of the depths of hell, and is happy and healthy.

[@Kinann]

I cried about his father situation. similar upbringing, reaction and much later realization. His relationship history also similar. Breaks my heart to know his pain but uplifting to hear his story.

[@nataliemartin1232]

Some adults set no good example.

[@Nift502]

He’s lucky he wasnt marked by a husband

[@Nift502]

Porn is evil the it’s from the devil

[@Kinann]

@@Nift502 Wow, the devil talks to you? That makes you evil, too. Doesn't it?

[@frenchibristianbok8847]

My heart broke while he was reciting his lyrics you can feel his pain with every word

[@kevenfinley2809]

Yea that was deep 😔

[@annaxefta587]

lol. I guess I’m different

[@alberthernandez5318]

Hes "oh god oh fuck i got laid" 😫

[@moonraker30]

I love how he stresses that it was toxicity, when this happens to boys it’s usually excused, they are being molded into a man, they won’t be gay, etc. I respect him so much for explaining how this was not normal

[@athens31415]

Yes! Very true

[@ReallyDude89]

Wow, this was really good. So sad that lady took your innocence at such a young age and having to go through what you did. Thank you for telling us your story. This man is going places. I’m praying 🙏🏼 for your journey. ♥️

[@Soul_Surfer365]

The level of awareness he has is truly a gift. A lot of similarities between us. I was abused as an adolescent, and I too, was introduced to the devils vile seed. I continue to struggle with sex addiction. Watching this interview brings it all back. Thank you for your honesty. Your lyrics are very powerful. Enjoyed your advise on YOU VS. YOU as well. Keep aspiring toward greatness king 👑

[@thefunfam7480]

You can overcome it. Make up your mind and ask for help if you need to. I’m praying for you!

[@joesmith9216]

devils seed? I don't think you know what that means guy. Are you generational satanist?

[@AMunoz-rh9cz]

Therapy with a specialist can greatly speed the recovery and heal the damage in a very thorough way by hitting issues that might not occur to you on your own.

[@blissiimo2064]

What a cool dude. powerful lyrics.hope he gets to influence a generation - he is a man with a strong story to tell.

[@lartdelavivre1]

Tony " It is also me vs me". An accountability man indeed. So good to see you find love and recovering. You are a good looking, good hearted and talented man. Good bless.

[@pianokylemac]

Dude, that lyric of yours was profound and impactful. I, and everyone else who heard your story, wish you much success in your music and sobriety

[@christines.3480]

Thank you for sharing, Tony (and Mark!). I recently read a quote that your story reminds me of..."Everyone must choose one of two pains: The pain of discipline or the pain of regret". Hopefully your story will inspire others to choose discipline sooner so they can minimize the amount of regret their poor choices would inevitably bring.

[@jhett63]

There's a dose of some truth....wow

[@1stone379]

Pain of discipline. I like that

[@whatyouseenow411]

I love when you come across a person with a loud appearance, rough, whatever you want to call it, and they are so far from what they LOOK like, then you would ever think. NEVER judge a book by its cover so to speak!

[@JaaeLA]

Love how open and remorseful he is toward himself. Doesn't seem like he beats himself up but he knows it was a time and he's doing better.

[@EvySurvived]

Don't look back that part of your life is finished. You escaped death so many times. I have a similar story and can relate to alcohol and sexual addiction. I love life now and have a wonderful fiancee and we are choosing to wait until after marriage to be intimate. How magical and exciting our sex life will be.

[@cyndeetaylor]

@@EvySurvived I love that story. Really!

[@megangovier6919]

Tony, I know you probably won't see this comment but I have huge amount of respect and admiration for you I don't know what it's like to go through what you went through, but man I'm so proud of you😌I'm so grateful that you exist and even more grateful that you beated your problems! I hope you continue to get the support and encouragement from the ones around you 🖤 you're truly a blessing Tony! You're a handsome guy and hope more positive and light comes your way :)

[@Oliver11217]

Amen ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@ligmajoe6484]

@@baublesanddolls lmfao

[@ligmajoe6484]

@@baublesanddolls lmfao

[@michaelheery3085]

he is a bullshitee.

[@paigeallegrezza4506]

What a brave young man. What an honor, Mark, to hold this space for him. To hear his truth. I hope he heals a bunch after this. His lyrics are fking awesome and inspiring. Just want to give him a hug.

[@aponteaida913]

Deep and powerful story. Well done Tony in your journey to better the great man you were born to be. May success come your way. Thank you Mark for this phenomenal interview.

[@sugeiypereira6647]

Amazing interview shining light into the reality of sexual abuse in young males. A topic that is not often discussed. I am sorry Tony that there was no one to save from that awful predator. She should had been held accountable for her actions. Tony, may you continue to find healing, help others and bring awareness to an issue that many times is not even consider and issue by society. Thank you for sharing your story! So powerful!

[@PNutty2886]

What a great story teller I hung on to every word! Kudos to Tony for having the courage and strength to turn his life around! So inspiring

[@Lynn-nr2vk]

It was me versus me. Such a beautiful expression of words you have. A writer was in you all along. A great journey. You found yourself back on the narrow path and that is the ONLY path to be on. Much love x

[@elainemarks7845]

Great interview. Congratulations on you sobriety. One day at a time. Your loving family needs the “real” you to be present. You’re a great storyteller, both verbal & lyrical. ✌️🎶🤘

[@SherifSpeedy]

"For this seed will grow like weed contminate to oneself....", the lyrics are quite deep and impressive Tony! Thank you for sharing, loved your story!

[@kenishahammond3935]

It's not always men that molest girls, boys get molested by women as well, and young guys sometimes think it's cool to have sex when an older woman, but what this lady did to you was just sick. It's just horrible. Tony you are so talented, self aware and humble. You're so brave for speaking up about this. I pray,Tony that you heal from this completely and that woman should be in prison!

[@joesmith9216]

Him being 15, yeah, that was not good but if he was 18 or 19 he would have actually learned something useful, haha. Cath-licks have all the fun.

[@hipsonsogbo]

That lady is nice, i wonder what her titties and pussy was like, he should tell more about her, and when the sex ended, how he kept it secret, and if he sexed the daughters as well. Must have after that.

[@joesmith9216]

@Magdalia Mahelóa not if he was 18 or 19, are you serious?

[@joesmith9216]

@Magdalia Mahelóa HE CONSENTED TO IT

[@Accune]

It's like a ice cream sundae with a turd hidden inside.

[@nhlibra]

"The Teacher Arrives When The Student is Ready to Begin." CONGRATULATIONS !!! Such an interesting story, Tony...thank you for sharing with us today. I'm a member of "Team Mom" and it sounds to me like she was doing a pretty good job overall. The stepfather thing...glad to hear that you've figured it all out by now. I was a mother at the same time as your Mom (my son is same age as you). Awesome ending...All the Best to you and your wife. 😄💜

[@lemmyjoker3678]

That quote is bullshit. He lucked out

[@acies9408]

Team Mom? Team Mom who let an abusive step father around her child? Am I missing something?

[@iwasneverthere]

This was amazing. As a survivor myself, I never realized how those things affect me till this day. Thank you for sharing and for being so self aware, you really touched my heart and soul.

[@MC-fw5vt]

"Me and God, with a lot of prayer.". God put sthg special in me that I couldn't see for years. As soon as I let all that go, I found what was inspiring me.". I'm so impressed. Full respect. I was abused as a child and share some aspects of your story. Maybe I should try prayer.

[@Tulip97]

When he started talking about his wife I got tears in my eyes. Congratulations on your sobriety and thank you for sharing your story.

[@lindriojanet647]

"It's Me vs Me." This is the greatest lesson of my life. Thank you Tony Cota, wishing you all the best man, GOD richly bless you. Sending you and your beautiful family, love❤️ and prayers🙏🏾....!!!

[@MB.77]

“It’s you versus you”. Such a simple but yet solid statement that all can relate to. Wishing him nothing but the best. I truly enjoyed the candidness with which this story was told the and sensible way this man is able to do the real introspective work. Very inspiring.

[@corygene6477]

Wow. I relate to this man very closely. Difference is in our type of artistic outlets. He does music and I'm a professional tattooist, but very similar childhood and early life. Good for him for seeing the light. I'm working on it too. He is very inspiring! Thank you for your story and thanks to Mark for having him on!

[@joesmith9216]

oh wow, you can tattoo more of his face, haha, how cute.

[@hijackhickory]

This is actually a great story and this guy seems like a great person and hopefully more success continues to happen to him. Thank you brotha for sharing your story.

[@magmoodjacobs1430]

it happens way more often than you think....

[@AMunoz-rh9cz]

@@magmoodjacobs1430 Absolutely

[@ddedwards6005]

So proud of all who come to share- so brave and inspiring to those who are trying to speak out! 👏🏾

[@alexsparks4434]

By far one of the best life stories I've heard. Take care Tony.

[@k10621]

I am so proud of you and very grateful for having the opportunity to listen to your story! It takes so much courage and you are truly an inspiration! GOD bless you and your family!💜

[@beastyboyBlue]

Tony is such an honest gent,who's life dealt him some awful blows. It couldn't have been easy to bear your soul to the world. I salute you. Tony. I hope the next part of your life will more than make up for what you had to go through. Thank you for sharing. You deserve the best.

[@elle1923]

Tony, thank you for courageously sharing your story! I’m sure it will help those who have experienced similar trauma. Boys and girls losing their innocence like this is abhorrent and I’m so sorry this happened to you.

[@The0nlyy_Duece4]

I can relate to EVERYTHING he said literally from the military and all even though I went marines but I’m still battling addiction and this put tears in my eyes because it was as if I was listening to myself I have so much respect for tony man and I know what I’m doing is wrong in my mind but I just won’t let go🤦🏾‍♂️

[@sherinthomson4076]

You can & will be ok, too!! You can do this!! Cheering for you!! 🩵🩵🙏🙏💪💪💪💪

[@oshen0]

Are you able to get treatment through the VA? You might want to look into a therapy called "EMDR". I dont have/never had any issues with Porn... But, I have major PTSD/Depression/Anxiety/TBI from my Deployments (im 100% through the VA for this stuff). I didnt have the best childhood. I fought through a major addiction & finally got sober. I could go on and on.. but, I think you get the point. If you know these experiences & issues...then you just know the deal/know what the journey is like. I've tried all kinds of treatment and therapy over the years. NONE of it did sh*t for me. I found out about EMDR therapy and started doing weekly sessions, been doing them for the last year. It's been MAJOR, bruh'! It's hard, I break down every week during the session. It brings up some serious shit from your past...but, it's needed. It's worked better than anything else I've tried. Still have a long way to go & there's shit that we had to do during those deployments that I'll NEVER come to peace with...but Man ~ it's soo nice to be able to "take that edge off" and "readjust the load" that we carry with us. You can also go to one of the PTSD inpatient treatment programs through the VA. They're 6 weeks to 2 months depending on which one you attend. But, it will more than likely get you to 100% with the VA...and, the treatment and therapy is unreal! If you need help...its out there. If you need some suggestions/if there's anything I can do to help...lemme know.

[@YoursTrulyThelma]

The inconsistent behavior of Tony's stepdad,. That puts the nervous system on complete edge. "I'm not safe.". That is where so many problems start❤️ Blessings🕊️

[@yootoob1001001]

An intense, yet beautiful story. May you continue what you've started for yourself, Tony. Very, very inspiring.

[@mysticmama740]

Wow, this guy is so impressive. He has a very grounded and grounding energy about him. Self assured, wise, and he knows himself. One line that stuck w me "im a phenominal artist." Wow! To hear someone own their gift is wild. We need more of this. Recognizing, naming, owning ones genius. What if we all spoke of ourselves like that. I also love how hes always been driven by his angels and received messages that there was more for him. Gives me hope that I can re connect with my gifts as well. Thank u Tony. And yr lyrics are amazing as well. How messed up that ur innocence was stolen like that. A sad and poignant reminder of how many young boys are abused and it written off as acceptable b/c of toxic masculinity.

[@AnHebrewChild]

That same line struck me too. Indeed, there's a world of difference between boastful pride and humble confidence. The interviewee, Tony, speaks of his talent as a God-given gift and even as a purpose: a responsibility to steward. That's a good outlook. His self-assessment seems to be spot on. I think the rap (poem) he read aloud was _phenomenally artistic._ And due to my own early life story, it also spoke to me in a deeply personal way. As I'm sure it did to many. Thank you for your comment. I wish you all the best. Blessings. Tony, if you ever happen to read this, I wish you the best as well.

[@michaelheery3085]

he better avoid THAILAND.

[@basicinfo2461]

I honestly admire these people that learn life's principles the hard way and come back clean with a pure soul and devotion than those of the "Corporate world" that do just as much damage to others and keep it as a skill and a tool to gain power. I command you for the courage and honesty during this educational session. Thank you!

[@AnHebrewChild]

Insightful words. Especially your comparison to society's most destructive predators, who disguise themselves in white collars. The worst wolves are wolves in sheep's clothing.

[@brettsepulveda2994]

Thank you for sharing this with us. I can relate with this. I’ve been struggling with all these addictions since I was about 16. It’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever done and still trying overcome.

[@jodykurt9935]

Mark, great video and huge kudos for showing the flip side of the coin with who can be pedophiles . As a mother of 4, I am sad that this young man was not protected from the evil female child molestor who assaulted him. As a society, many times when a teen male is sexually assaulted by a female adult, it's looked at as a ' your so lucky' kind of a situation. It really angers me when this happens. My brother was molested as a boy and a teen in similar way and his life was such a disaster after. He ended up dying because of it.

[@Raw.milk1]

one of the best ive seen on here yet. I can relate to this guy not to his level of abuse and alcohol but the porn and sex. Hes very right about how it can distract you from knowing your talents. It consumes you and always think about it. I wish nothing but the best for this dude seems like a great guy and a great father. cool ass dude.

[@shonweather]

It's good to see men who acknowledge their sex addiction. Society deems it as part of being a "player," so most men don't talk about it. It's good that it's being acknowledged.

[@athens31415]

100%. It’s so crazy how society literally encourages men to deal with trauma by self harming, and that it’s actually celebrated. So so sick and twisted society is.

[@sikgurl918]

I love the story about you and your wife , and what she stood for and did for you. Just from the comments I've read, you've had an impact in some way for some listeners. I love underground hop hop , and theses days it's not the same as back in my day.....but what I love most about underground hip hop is an underground hip hop artist that has lyrics from their own life experiences, from the hurt, the trials, the lessons, the pain and suffering......THAT ARE FROM THE HEART.....STAY REAL !

[@donacatanguma]

Reminds me of Jelly Roll

[@crystalstorey5924]

How refreshing. Accountability, change and no excuses. God bless you for letting Him do a work in you!

[@robynrose3328]

He seems like such an intelligent, self aware and grounded human who has put in the work. Respect to you sir ❤

[@darenanderson1960]

This man tells his story really well. The bullying and abuse he received piss me off. I freaking hate bullies.

[@andrepope2692]

Bro this resonates so hard. 😭 I've lived such a similar story. I thank God everyday for redeeming me and showing me forgiveness and true love. Praying for you brother. Pray for me. I'm battling weed addiction now. Would love to meet you someday. Stay strong. 💪🏾

[@annfleming3809]

Tony I am a therapist and your story brought tears to my eyes. May God bless your soul and his face shine upon you, your son and your wife❤️

[@rosemariemoore1929]

May God bless this man and his family. Lord, keep your hands on them. Thank you for sharing your testimony, Tony. 💜

[@cobracommander9138]

This guy is awesome! In the middle of telling a very traumatic part of his childhood he breaks out into a rap song!

[@johnzackarias11]

He's really good at it too

[@babyraider11]

Bars

[@kenembury1102]

Very well spoken and aware of his story. Just telling it like it is. No blame just experiences.

[@margiepadilla1921]

His wife is literally an Angel on earth. Definitely made for each other. 💕

[@rafeeqwarfield9690]

He’s done a tremendous job without professional help. I hope he sees a therapist. It could help him self-regulate even more. But it’s powerful that he has pulled himself up. That takes an incredibly strong person

[@JesusChristIsKing247]

Jesus has been his counselor all along. The strength that he has had and has to share his story for the first time is supernatural and can only come from above. 🤍

[@iluvdracs2975]

Tony, thank you so much for your story. I'm going through these same issues at 20 y/o and it's hard to manage, especially living on my own and not having my parents around to restrict me from certain things. Thank you for showing me there is light at the end of this tunnel. I am still working on myself and I am more than grateful I came across your story tonight. Thank You.

[@mastluob2554]

A well-spoken young man. With the abuse that he was subjected to, he could have done some anger-induced destructive behaviors. He is a survivor and stronger than he realizes.

[@jeangeorges9910]

Such a fascinating story, this guy has so much talent and great articulation, his rapping was great with nice flow and lyrics. Thanks God for showing him the way, drug/alcohol/sex/party isn't give significance in life.

[@sunshinedaydream147]

I’m so happy his wife taught him to love from the heart. What a special lady ❤❤❤

[@trixtrix1767]

Such a well spoken and inspiring to watch. Very sad that a grown woman would violate a child it’s infuriates me, but he sounds like after years of turmoil he has come out the other side . Bless x

[@anneharkin9373]

Thank heavens for a light at the end of the tunnel story. So many of the stories on this channel are heart breaking, sad, depressing, but this man overcame his challenges and found a way out. Good for him! All power to you Tony.

[@Iqra0806]

Complete respect to him for opening up and being honest, he hasnt blamed what he'd gone through on everyone else he owned up to his faults and wish him the best on his recovery ❤️

[@Chevvvvv]

Extremely transparent dude, massive respect

[@Dinnerwiththeavilas]

“Sometimes some of the things we enjoy are toxic.” Very true. M glad to hear you found God and your wife.

[@Ceo191919]

That was probably the most incredible interview I've ever seen. It's really beautiful to see a guy open up and show this level of honestly. And come put of what he's been through with confidence and focus on his goals and what really matters in life. A plus plus man

[@alwaysblake148]

I hope Tony is doing well. His interview was honest, heartfelt and inspiring. He is an extraordinary young man.

[@MS-ns2zm]

My heart breaks for 3 year old him!! What a brave story , thank you for sharing. Praying for you and your recovery ❤

[@laurend3805]

I can relate to the sex addiction. It's all about the chase and the feeling you get being with a new person the first time. It took me a long time to get that under control. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@col.cottonhill6655]

Sup whatchu doin this weekend? Lol jk

[@butcherbabys]

@@col.cottonhill6655 cmon 💀

[@blumpkinspicelatte4580]

How come I never run into any chicks with a sex addiction? Some guys have all the luck.

[@Gulag00]

Same as a guy that’s why I quit apps

[@jJust_NO_]

yep.. it just feels exhilarating. you dont need to worry about your performance getting stale. its novel always the first time

[@DigitalXpressions]

This was so captivating. As a 23 year old man, i can only imagine being in the situation with your friends mom. It truely is the forbidden fruit, we are not meant to experience something like that. All the best !❤

[@Jason.cbr1000rr]

Still a kid come back when you're 27-30 👍

[@DigitalXpressions]

Huh?

[@andreranch6161]

@@DigitalXpressions your still a child 23 is young just like me being 24 is young.

[@DigitalXpressions]

Being young has no bearing on whether I can imagine being in that situation.

[@andreranch6161]

@@DigitalXpressions oh now we are imagining things…nice lol

[@BELINDAMEADE]

Tony you are a wonderful human being! Thank you for your story, it really touched me and so glad you are the journey of SELF LOVE. Keep it up as you are an inspiration for many that are suffering like you did - Blessings!!

[@RonEngrassia]

Wow. What a powerful story. Thank-you and thank you Tony for this video. So many parts of it resonated with me. But what he said at the end really hit home. Its always been me against me and you gotta find a way to stop beating yourself up. I have my own channel where I'm telling my own story of addiction and recovery. I had 7 years sober in the states until I moved here to the virgin Islands. Just coming off of what's basically been a 4 year bender. I celebrated a month sober on 5/8/24. There is a way out. Thank-you again for this video. Here's to another 24!