Shoshana Bean sings Scott Alan's HOME - Live @ Birdland

Shoshana Bean performs "Home" at Scott Alan's CD Release event for 'Dreaming Wide Awake' on January 7, 2008. CD available on CDbaby.com/scottalan and iTunes.
BACKSTORY: Well, Shoshana gives the backstory on how we met, and how this song came to be, so I am going to take another direction with this one.
The first time Shoshana and I ever performed this song together was at a Benefit Event called 'The Kitchen Sink.' Shoshana's last day at Hairspray was that day. It was on a Sunday. She was already very emotional. I was very emotional, too. I didn't know ANYONE. To my left was Stephanie J. Block and Julia Murney (neither one I had worked with yet) and to my right was the adorable David Burtka and Anythony Rapp. Shoshana was running late, so I was waiting downstairs in the greenroom, by myself, twiddling my thumbs. Finally Shoshana showed up, but we were told to go upstairs and wait on the side for our performance.
Everyone sang two songs. Shoshana sang The Cornet Man from Funny Girl, first. Then she called me up on stage to perform 'Home.' I was SHAKING so badly. The song went beautifully and when we were done, we went to sit back down with everyone. David Burtka was crying and touched my leg when he told me he loved the song and I thought, 'wow, this is a nice moment.' (not the touching of the leg, though, that was nice, too. Just the feeling of being 'special' and a part of something in the theatre community).
Ok, so, that's still not the story. I am on a high. I think I am something really special. I walk to the subway thinking in my head 'yup, I am a star. Better believe it. Don't mess with me' when I hear these girls in front of me talking about the concert. I start walking faster to hear what they had to say, when one of them goes 'I know, right ? Shoshana Bean is so amazing, but what was that horrible song she sang at the end ? 'Home' ? Just really really bad, the worst song of the night' and her two other friends agree'd .... I felt like I was back in highschool. My ego balloon, popped by a thirteen year olds opinion.
Ya, I realized at THAT moment, you either can handle the criticism and keep on going, or you can let it hold you down. I took a few seconds, thought about it and it was at that moment I decided ...
Lets keep on going.

[@syworld82]

10 years later and this performance still makes me cry.

[@DanGalla]

Still, 8 years later, EASILY the BEST performance of this song on KZbin!!

[@DanGalla]

10 years on and I keep on coming back!

[@vinhphungphuoc6017]

@@DanGalla i reply just to remind you to come back to this beautiful song in case you've forgotten it all. Have a nice day!

[@girlbye4215]

I come back every year since this was posted

[@WHATTHEBUCKSHOW]

CRYING! Perfect!

[@Matty3Mite3]

that performace truely was incredible , the amount of vocal control you need to be able to sing that well whilst holding back tears, the womans a goddess!

[@vampirechunks]

Gorgeous, gorgeous, GORGEOUS voice.

[@wickedly4]

Sho is amazing, that little speech at the beginning and then her amazing vocals. omg i love her so much.

[@pwags4]

The magic of music and voice . . . pure love! Boom!

[@makergrl]

i love how real and how passionate her performance is

[@bollyvmgg88]

I love this woman! Beautiful voice, beautiful song!

[@MamaMaryEllensBlog]

Woke up this morning thinking about my baby (Im pregannt) and could think of nothing more than singing this song to my baby and listening to it :) Ahhh HAPPINESS.. love sho love scott .. bless them both for thier amazing talents!!!

[@JBoy1985]

I love the sound of people crying when they ar belting. It puts so much raw emotion into the performance for the audience. I love her.

[@appeasedsouls]

After 10 years, I still crave this video once in awhile. And here I am, at 5am. Much love, Shoshana

[@pwags4]

When I listen to SB singing this fabulous song AND think of the one I LOVE! I just weep . . . such depth of emotion and passion. Scott is a genius and SB is an angel. Thank you. Brilliant! I want to use it as our wedding song!

[@suki3275]

every time she sings this i tear up! such a beautiful song

[@misskit123]

Bless her. Gorgeous. Scott and Shoshana are both amazing! I can't wait for either of their albums to come out!

[@zachwinningham]

I started reading the story on the right as Shoshana started singing...the entire thing is extremely emotional, from the story to her voice quivering from tears..amazing. Thank you.

[@angelojasa-phillips2064]

I'm a hot mess at a Starbucks and people staring me down, 12 years later. #NoRegrets

[@TheAwesome717]

Shoshana gives me chills every time she opens her mouth! Incredible!

[@Dancingfool721]

OMG I love how she is putting so much emotion in this song it's amazing

[@mymixedtape05]

I get goosebumps just watching and listenig to this. she's incredible.

[@angeldog54]

dear scott, you simply are amazing. this song changed me and has helped me so much through hard times in my life. not just this song though, your entire album still dreaming wide awake has completely wharped my view of good music. thank you for sharing your wonderful gift with the world. i love sho singing this song and couldn't think if anyone else singing it, and anyone else just does not give it the justice it deserves.

[@Mommynmelv]

flawless...she's amazing...this song is amazing.

[@SusanSingsSongs]

thank you so much for writing this...it has a special meaning for me at this time in my life.

[@Clarinetist0409]

Thank you sooo much for posting this!!!!! Shoshana is incredible!!

[@KeroCake]

I just stumbled across this video and it made me cry it was beautiful and full of truth

[@crazychel]

shhe is soo briliant and so real and genuine ughh love it!

[@ilovefiyero]

omg im crying rite now gorgeous gorgeous song really resonates wiv me well done scott and shoshana

[@KellyLenior]

Mr Alan, I can´t tell you how many times I´ve cried my eyes out over this song. I think it´s one of the most intense, deeply loving songs ever, and thank you so much for writing it..!(aaand I´m crying again.. :).) 13 year-olds think everything sucks ;)

[@JCrabDaddy]

No one can sing this song quite like Shoshana. Truly incredible.

[@Boer4life]

this is THE song... and it always makes me get teary eyed...

[@Boer4life]

I can hear this song all day long... It means so much to me I LOVE IT

[@gotgrammar45]

I cry every single time I hear this song, and it's one of the first things I go to listen to when I log on to my computer:)

[@haleygrace1]

Her story at the beginning is adorable! She's great!

[@rgf610]

That was unreal! What an amazing talent. I hope she releases a CD soon.

[@elphielover247]

She sings great! (and looks great in bangs!) That's DEFINITELY perfect pitch.

[@appeasedsouls]

This video is incredible! I love her recovery there, the band was really on top of that, too. I was lucky enough to be an ushur for Wicked when it was in Toronto. She plays with the songs she sings, never once was it the same trill. I admire her voice, and courage so much. Thanks for this video

[@roseface]

this song blows me away. it just kills me.. scott alan. you are a genius. this song makes you a genius. just, wow.

[@nztheatreluva]

How could anyone say that song is horrible? it's gorgeous, and Shoshana is phenomonal as always

[@mhernandezaironb.2071]

13 years ago. Still the best ❤

[@naomimcgeown]

this is so amasing scott alan and shoshana you guys are amasing!

[@mizzybranson]

Scott you write the music of my heart.

[@roytrobe]

Waa!! She gave me goosebumps and I havn't had them in such a long time. She's amazing!

[@theshowtunesguy]

That key change is heavenly.

[@DallasJamesPritt]

AMEN! Perfect pitch all right...... she is amazing!

[@latincub99]

im such a huge fan . i love this video. amazing how i never get tired of listening to this... You must buy scott alans cd! great songwriter . great voices

[@twister126]

Adorable and talented...I hope she makes it big!

[@meijosui]

Why 7 dislikes, it's amazing! Love Sho and her personality. She's such a sweet person with a beautiful voice

[@CrazyDreemz]

gah....i LOVE her. she is amazing

[@ilooooooovewicked]

OMIGOD! This made me cry! I don't know if it was because sho was crying, or just because it's such a beautiful song, but...wow! Love it! Scott Alan you are AMAZING!!!! You too Sho!!!! =-)

[@marigold1230]

WOW!!! amazing.

[@GarrellWoods]

"It's because I have perfect pitch" Hilarious. But this is a beautiful song and get the right powerhouse to sing it and it's magic. Wonderful.

[@ShesBroadwayBound]

I love Sho, but the words of this song are so moving. Her delivery, too, is beautiful but wow go Scott Alan

[@GreenMusicGirl10]

Those girls who hated this song didn't know what they were talking about! Absolutely gorgeous!

[@swimvc99]

shoshana is love.

[@mosshart21]

Scott, those girls-en-route-to-the-subway are frickin crazy. This song is beautiful and if it doesn't move someone that's THEIR frickin problem. So glad you're writing songs. :)

[@juliette657]

really? oh, poor girl, that's so sad! i can't imagine losing someone that close to me. the fact that she's able to smile and joke around and sing at all, really with something like that on her mind is quite admirable. i love her voice! it's so lovely and emotional.

[@MamaMaryEllensBlog]

I have for a long time thought of this song as a sad death song (because of sho's interpretation to it) .. but recently I feel It can also be interpreted as a mother that has a new baby... thinking about it that way makes me cry just thinking about the love of my daughter!!

[@jmshew]

Scott.. wow man. Awesome song. What a beautiful lyric..

[@Hunter62186]

I just read the description and I've come to the conclusion that thirteen year old girls have no idea what they're talking about. But again, they'd have no idea what this song is about. It's absolutely beautiful and I'm glad you're pushing on!

[@rgf610]

Scott-those girls on the subway were so wrong. What a beautiful song! You could not have picked a better person it sing it. Shoshana is amazing!

[@chadevetts]

Shoshana Bean= AMAZING

[@TerryHermann]

better than the recording great quality sound to her voice, amazing

[@thegreengirl1]

Oh god Sho...why did you have to go and make me cry now? Haha this is amazing...

[@chadpcampbell]

i love shoshana.

[@dom_1923]

Dear Scott Alan, I'm really hating you right now because it is 4am and as much I would love to get some sleep, I can't stop listening to your music. This has happened on more than one occasion. Stop being amazing. Love, A fan

[@Nick83115]

she is so funny!! and talented!!

[@frazrowley]

I love the tone of her voice from 6:08

[@wickedphant0m]

@GiovannaClapis Shoshana's second album is going to be LEGIT. She's written over a dozen new songs since her first album came out, and there are some real winners in the mix. I think it may really take her places.

[@DLicedude]

"i mean its cuz i have perfect pitch" HAHAH LOVE HER

[@CardboardCreative]

Yes, Shoshana. Yes, you do have perfect pitch. YOU HAS NOT LIED.

[@syworld82]

This performance was after that... I hate to say this but Her National Tour performance of Wicked was Remarkable because of the inspiration...Its Terrible she was on tour during the 6 month anniversary of his death.. He passed i believe in March of 06...

[@legallywicked16]

this was amazingg..... like i was crying throughout the whole song because its such an emotional song and her emotions adds to my tears.... i wish sho the best of luck on her cd ps. i would love the backing track if tht was possible or just anything to do with this song because i love it and i am a proud owner of this cd

[@slayshanabean]

I love that she comes out of a sob with an embellishment at 3:45.

[@talenttrapp]

Or maybe it's cos I have perfect pitch..... :D :D this made me laugh so much!

[@VersaceWannabe]

Oh wow, i love her. Anyway, does anyone know if she'll performing anwywhere in the new jersey/new york area anytime soon? I really would love to see her live...

[@GioRC]

I wonder why people like Shoshana, Idina, Stephanie J. Block, Kristin Chenoweth, Megan Hilty, etc are not MORE famous! They are pure talent, and yet, you have kids with freaky hair doing shit on stage and being appreciated like the hit of the century! Humanity has just gone mad.

[@ephimer]

I lostmy breath

[@GioRC]

@DirtyRottenScoundrel I agree with you here, Lady Gaga is creative. I have to admit that her songs are very original. The thing I like about Lady Gaga is that she is, IMO, a personification of a lot of things, and that's what makes her original as you said yourself (that's also what the mainstream culture wants, though it doesn't mean I'm underestimating her talent). ^^

[@GioRC]

@wickedphant0m Really? I didn't know she was making a new album! I'll definetly check it out. And I don't doubt it can get huge, this woman's got a voice.. :] Thanks for the heads up!

[@dsetzer19]

@LTacousticTL you can get it on scott's website... scottalan. net i believe

[@nicole786]

She used to crack during her performances of Wicked when she sang "No good deed" due to the loss of her boyfriend (he was in a car accident) so I wonder if thats why she cracks up?

[@KellyLenior]

:) that's great! (so do I!!) and I'm sorry, I know I didn't think everything sucked when I was thirteen..

[@GioRC]

@sydneyparra96 I agree in some ways, but fame wouldn't be so underrated nowadays if we haven't made it become a "common" thing. You're right, indeed, it can sometimes not show all the talent people have, bt sometimes the opposite can happen, and that's what they would deserve. Bt I think they don't really want all this kind of attention, because they have a community that loves them a lot, so why ask for more? & you're right, they are awesome already, & they don't need fame to increase that. ^^

[@leemondo1]

@Leadingdude I'm EXACTLY the same! :)

[@nicole786]

I think its because her boyfriend died. She had said thats why she had trouble with "No Good Deed" during Wicked. He was killed in a car accident in 2006

[@GlenofRotterdam]

@bnorem09 Why compare? 2 totally different types of performers with talent that blows a lot of people away.

[@MrEricrockinout]

Scott, Please Re-upload these in 1080p?

[@Orholam5]

+MrEric Rockinout was there even 1080p back then? :)

[@GioRC]

@DirtyRottenScoundrel That's really nice! :] I'm not pro about MT, bt I agree that some songs MT performers write suck, though the 1% left is great! LOL, neither do I want to listen to "power ballads 24/7", and I'm a theater freak. ^^ I dn't think they'd make it to the mainstream culture, bt I don't think they want it either. As I said below, they have a community that loves them for everything they do. I just think that they deserve that kind of recognition, even though they don't rly need it.

[@DirtyRottenScoundrel]

@GiovannaClapis While these girls are obviously well-trained and can act a song like nobody's fuckin business, they simply don't have the writing talent that people like Lady Gaga, Adele (who, IMO, has the best voice in contemporary pop...AND she's an incredible songwriter...), Bruno Mars, etc. Even Ke$ha writes all of her own stuff, as well as Britney's "Till the World Ends." They may appear like "kids with freaky hair," but there's a LOT more under that. They, too, are pure talent.

[@GioRC]

@DirtyRottenScoundrel they are indeed talented to know what it is that the mass culture wants (Adele here is an exception, her songs have more soul and her voice is amazing). But I just can't agree that theater people don't have the "writing talent" that these others have. Please notice that I'm not saying the ones you mentioned suck, in fact I like some of their songs. With "kids with freaky hair" I meant Justin Bieber, and please, don't say that his songs are genius. ^^

[@TVP4]

Subliminal isn't the word I would use for that song. Lol!

[@singerstretch]

any1 know where can find the lyrcs 2 this song

[@IdinaisLife1]

@bnorem09 See I just don't understand why these kind of comments are necessary. Why does it have to be a competition? Why can't people like all of them? I realise that some people are probably just going to look at my username and write me off as some crazy, obsessive fanzel but I love Idina, I love Shoshana, I love Eden and I love Kerry as well. Idina had nothing to do with this video so why was it necessary to bring her into it? I am truly not trying to start a fight, I just don't understand.

[@tipofmytongue1024]

Dear Shoshana Bean, God don't like Ugly! Love, Jon

[@DirtyRottenScoundrel]

@GiovannaClapis But having studied Musical Theatre at Boston Conservatory, I can assure you that 99% of MT performers are NOT songwriters. Songwriting is a very specific gift. Of the few composers that I personally know, one is completely extraordinary (he'll be the next big thing in MT, for sure). But his music is TOTALLY Musical Theatre. It could never make it in mainstream music. And as much as I love Musical Theatre, I do NOT want to listen to power ballads and belt-fests 24/7...lol.

[@NickDCPA]

i think shoshana bean is the greatest, she seems so so nice and she has an amazing voice. definitely one of the best actors/singers today!!! i try and sing some Wicked / xanadu songs on my page--check me out!

[@DirtyRottenScoundrel]

@GiovannaClapis LOL. Justin Bieber is pure SOMETHING, alright. But it's definitely not talent. lol. I completely agree with you there. Adele is certainly the cream of the crop. I would disagree that Lady Gaga is simply talented in knowing what mainstream culture wants (while I love Bruno Mars, I don't know him well enough to really judge his motivation). She is a classically trained musician as well as a phenomenal songwriter, and I think her originality and honesty is what makes her so amazing.

[@WestEndGirl96]

vocal cries...? yeah they rock... :) but they're really hard just to pull out of thin air xoxo

[@banthonywhite]

If you pick "I'm A Star" you can get a little subliminal message going with your audition and sing a great song.

[@joehnlein]

haha, yes...