Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor-Marisol

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Marisol, a survivor of sexual abuse.
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[@marismoodswings]

Hello everyone, Thank you so much for taking the time to listen to my story. Words can’t express how grateful I am for YOU!! Never let anyone take your voice, strength, love, and most importantly YOUR WILLINGNESS TO LIVE FOR YOURSELF May God bless all of YOU!!! Love Mari ♥️

[@hayleywhelan3243]

I'm so sorry you went tru all of this is so upsetting but you are a strong beautiful woman with so much to give to the world and I hope you find happiness and more in your life xxx hayley from Dublin Ireland ☘🍀🌻

[@leahdinatale9606]

Mari, you are such a beautiful person. You are strong, brave, and so smart! May God continue to bless you and cover you in his love.

[@hmmm8552]

Thank you for sharing ❤️ stay beautiful and continue to heal yourself every day

[@juliefennell3343]

God bless you, Mari. Thank you for sharing your incredibly impactful words. You are so articulate and poised. I’m praying for you. God bless you. ❤️

[@Heartsinhandshorsemanshipllc]

Thank you Marisol for sharing your story. You are a very strong young lady, and we all appreciate your honesty. Those of us who have been through trials can learn so much from you.

[@greggonzalez661]

This beautiful young woman was betrayed by all of those who were placed on Earth to love and protect her. This is the cruelest betrayal of all.

[@patriciaque197]

Marisol, I pray you know in your soul that the trauma had to be revealed in order to begin casting it from your being. You are brave and you are worthy. 🙏💛🙏

[@bohemia9956]

💛💚💙

[@rsdouglass4]

You said it.

[@davidx4120]

Yes, I almost cried. Her voice was trembling as she was discussing her mother. Every girl wants their mothers love. This has to be difficult.

[@donp9982]

So sad bro

[@SuperMiIk]

A conversation needs to be had about mothers that abuse their daughters and coddle their sons. And before anyone twists my words, *no* , sons don't deserve to be abused either.

[@DaMensch86]

This happens a lot in the latin or Hispanic community. Not so much abuse, but the boys are treated like little prince and the girls are treated like housemaids

[@kimcarroll4955]

I agree totally! My mothers a narcissist, who would accept anything that a male in her life could dish out (my brothers, her partners) but treated me like shit & a verbal punching bag my whole life. Not excusing her behaviour, but I think it comes down to her father and that need for acceptance from him that she never got. Which translates to women in her life being second class and accepting any toxic behaviour from men.

[@nikkidalogan3502]

Also in the black community will at least the Caribbean I have many female cousins that can’t go outside to play like there brothers can etc. They don’t understand how this causes children to rebel

[@lailahfields8916]

@@nikkidalogan3502 no the black community period. There's black American mothers out there who do the same thing

[@Web19814]

100%. I am Hispanic and this is exactly how it was and is. It's disgusting. We had to do so much for my brothers. Serve them, iron their clothes... It was all BS. I now have 2 kids, 1 girl and 1 boy. I make sure they both do chores, both know how to do laundry. I don't know how I got lucky with my husband as well.

[@vanessaaac]

The sheer amount of children being sexually assaulted all of the time is truly unfathomable. I am so deeply disgusted every single time I hear about these poor children and I hear about it a LOT. Like......WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH THESE HORRIBLE PEOPLE?! I don't f***ing understand! All of you survivors out there are so strong, thank god for you. You all have a great purpose on this earth, even if it feels the exact opposite sometimes. Mari, your courage is inspiring and I will never forget your strength.

[@Celestialnighthawk]

Broken people create broken homes which create more broken people and all the anger and sadness is inflicted onto innocent people then more broken people are created and the cycle continues it’s probably never going to stop but I pray it does one day also some people are just born evil

[@JesusistheonetrueGod]

Children are sexually assaulted in schools now without their parent's knowledge, they just call it "gender affirming healthcare" and convince people it's a good thing.

[@dawnsky11]

I agree. These men need to start telling themselves NO - whenever they are tempted. Also, kids need to be supervised. Please, be aware of what your kids are doing at home, especially when they are teenagers.

[@steveotatooed]

Its very simple the abusers were once the abused they are just repeating learned behavior

[@dbr311]

I was thinking the same thing!!

[@personallynicki2455]

Her tears when she hugged Mark shows that all she needed/wanted outside of peace was for someone to hear and see her. You are heard Mari, we love you!

[@JFU245]

It made me cry. I cried with her. She’s so strong!!

[@personallynicki2455]

@@JFU245 after watching this I’ve found out that my husband niece have been being rapped by her father for 4yrs. She 16 now. The universe is an amazing thing. I never thought I’d know someone who’s personally been through such torment. I cried for Mari and I cry for keke too now. What is life! She was only 12. Her mother knew. My heart is broken.

[@yyg4632]

@@personallynicki2455 i found out one of my rlly close family members was also being raped by another one of our older family members since childhood. This crap is so scarily common. I hope youre there for her and were able to tell her that its not her fault and it doesnt define her, and that you are there for her!!!!! Such simple words are sometimes needed to be heard by someone else!!!!

[@personallynicki2455]

@@yyg4632 absolutely me and my husband now are trying to pick her up and show her a normal family dynamic. We’ve always tried to pick her up and was denied that because he lived with the mother and for years NO ONE WAS ALLOWED in their home and they would make excuses why she couldn’t join our family outings. We know now. Only god knows!

[@that_blonde_punk]

ur right, she was heard and felt. love these people and followers

[@courtney8203]

Family molestation is so swept under the rug yet so prevalent in society. Marisol, thank you for sharing your story and you are a courageous human… much love

[@leilacherradi3485]

Right ? It's scary when you see how common it is.... It makes you wonder what kind of society we live in!!!!

[@Desaree1]

Her story touched me and reminded me I'm not alone we are not alone

[@sandypandy5506]

My boyfriend and I could not sustain a relationship. I believe it’s the severe molestation from his dad. He never trusted me. I was totally devoted to him. Still love him. I went to work and he moved out. This abuse destroys families

[@sandypandy5506]

And relationships

[@naturallaw1733]

@@leilacherradi3485 what do you mean 'Society'? this is actually part of the Human story. it's one of the usual Taboos throughout time and place. 🤷‍♀️

[@unlitdarkness6]

Round of applause for the detective who believed her.

[@samuelpena3195]

Give him a raise

[@sweetness5599]

And a pit in hell reserved for the detective who didn't believe child me

[@blueStarKitt7924]

​@sweetness5599 😡🤬😔 Sorry for what you went through. May you heal and find peace and love.❤️🙏

[@Pollyjisdabest]

This story broke my heart more than any other SWU video I've watched before... This channel makes me realize more and more how it should become a top priority to everyone to keep children safe. Even if you are not a parent, watch out for the children in your life. Once a child's spirit is broken, they will never be the same.

[@flordelis9649]

Same here. I was abused as a child by family and my mother still doesn't believe it!! If sexual abuse was talked about and taken more seriously we could fix the problems of the world.

[@Pollyjisdabest]

@@flordelis9649 I'm so sorry that happened to you. Some people think denial brings protection, but that's not how it works. The more that people share their stories and speak out about the issue, the more awareness it brings. I never would have thought that child abuse of this kind was so persistent around the world until I started watching YT. May God bring you and anyone with childhood scars strength and peace 🙏

[@jaynesegman7847]

YOU MUST ALSO WARN NAIVE YOUTH OF ALL THE DANGERS OUT THERE.

[@bonniecleveland3470]

This one is hard because of some stuff I went through

[@justsomenobody889]

Sibling sexual abuse is the worst type because of course the children must live in the same house, and for some reason it just doesn't cross parents' minds as a possibility. This particular type of abuse is rampant in Amish communities, in part because children are never even told that sex exists (much less what it is) until the day they are married, so the teenage boys start acting purely on instincts with no sense of what they're doing. I suppose the best way to prevent it is for parents to have the 'bad touch' talks when the child is very young, like 3 or 4, and obviously to spend more time supervising their children in general (which sadly isn't always possible)

[@rideorfly13]

You really have won the lottery of life if you are a born into a caring, loving family. I’m a lucky, lucky guy

[@ThePresentation010]

Pretty much wyte..

[@david21216]

I often think of the statistic that around 50% of the world lives on $5.5 dollars a day, birth can be all about those statistics homie, gotta be thankful all the time

[@rideorfly13]

@@ThePresentation010 yeah cos no white people live in poverty do they….

[@rideorfly13]

@@david21216 damn right

[@MusicLeeSarah]

White person living in poverty here 👋🏼(actually "perceived white person" as I'm half indigenous/ native American and half Anglo-Saxon but I have yet to benefit (in any financial and/or societal way) from my native heritage and everyone just assumes I'm white so I guess I have that assumed White privilege going for and against me...) But anyway I didn't always live in poverty. I grew up in the suburbs to working class parents who worked their asses off and now they are technically millionaires and I'm 40 just bought my first home which is a mobile home for $2,000... So now that We've gotten all of the formalities out of the way 😉🤣 I agree that yes if you're born into that I think you win some kind of lottery in Life or even if you're born into a family that holds its top priority to be others perception that you are a loving caring family I think if you're born into that kind of family you win some kind of life lottery as well. Based on the whole fake it till you make it theory... (All of this In my humble and usually crappy opinion 😉)

[@megancgreen]

The amount of adults in this child’s life who utterly failed her is staggering. I’m angry at them, but so in awe of Marisol’s strength and wisdom.

[@nicksterp2805]

just awful how her family shunned her when SHE was the victim

[@user-lk1qx7gb5o]

That's very common, adults inside the home, schools and community all turn the other way. No one wants to get involved. Which in my opinion is the worst part of the crime. You see this public neglect to a lesser degree everyday at grocery stores, fairs, events..the general public will walk right past a crying child alone without a parent in a public place. I've had to jump to the rescue hundreds of times in my life in public places for children and animals.

[@dawsonb5569]

What if you had said, "No! I don't want to do this!"

[@dawsonb5569]

Praise God!! You told on them!!

[@jaymegallo5575]

@@dawsonb5569and it would still happen. people say no all the time and they are still forced to do things. how ignorant of you.

[@kdog9104]

I know her inner child is so proud of her for standing up on this platform and strongly telling her story and helping others who may be going through similar things. Thank you Mari

[@natashavandekamp145]

This was one of the hardest videos I’ve watched so far. I can feel her pain. So many people failed her and it breaks my heart. She’s a beautiful human inside and out. ❤️

[@jackiesmith765]

Her parent, her parents and elder failed her period!! 😢

[@Strength_In_Wisdom]

Does anyone feel how much love she carries in her heart. Really you can feel her love. You're an amazing soul Marisol

[@kevinkinney5445]

How do like being an empath?

[@kevinkinney5445]

How do like being an empath?

[@wesleyalan9179]

I completely understand, Growth

[@Strength_In_Wisdom]

@@kevinkinney5445 😁 Being such has become a whole lot easier. It's like being the actual sun.

[@marismoodswings]

Thank you so much Growth for listening! May God bless you!!! ♥️

[@ihaveadreamformykids4400]

The cry at the end was the little girl who needed consoling, loving, and understanding. Made me cry too 😢

[@carsongibson5145]

I would like to hear how she's doing now. Despite everything thrown at her she still manages to have a good head on her shoulders and a positive attitude. I wish nothing but the absolute best for this young lady.

[@guyguyver7552]

I just see two big BAZOOMMBAS!!!...🤪😋🤪😛😛😛

[@deniselomeli450]

This hits so close to home. My sister was molested by my oldest sister’s husband and when we told my mom, she told us not to tell anyone. Fast forward 20 yrs later my mom gave him $70k to open up a restaurant. Some parents are so fucked up in the head. Instead of protecting her children she awards the perpetrator.

[@pamelaroach319]

Wow that is horrible

[@deniselomeli450]

Yes, but I’m blessed to have an amazing life away from all of those sick people. My sister that was molested is still around those animals. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@care4animals114]

So sorry ppl are disgusting God heal you please 🙏

[@emraith9]

That’s disgusting 🤮 I’m sorry you girls went through that.

[@chicnoir29]

OMG why would she do that. Some women throw other women to the wolfs.

[@bee1715]

12.09 she nails it by explaining childhood sexual abuse. It’s dissociation and your mind does it to keep you safe because what is happening is the WORST most horrific traumatic thing that’s ever happened to you. It’s why so many people don’t even remember or have recall of their abuse until as late as mid 40s. Prayers on EVERYONES healing journey who has had their lives ruined by sexual abuse

[@Mamabear1320-h4k]

You stated that perfectly. ❤ Sending you love 💐

[@carmenrodriquez-cedillo9082]

Your right, I used to feel like I was spinning and falling at the same time during my SA. I also would pee on myself. I'm almost 40 and am trying to build courage to go to therapy

[@sanb9459]

Sending you love ... wishing you all the best for the future! You're amazing 🙏🏻

[@cindys2995]

When I was a teacher, we were always taught that a child smelling like urine was a sign of abuse, but I NEVER understood that, other than that possible neglect. Her explaining her bedwetting was an eye-opener....such a sad, yet POWERFUL story!

[@bambabalino]

I knew someone whom 'smelled' etc., years and years later, I found out they had been abused - after watching this, I wonder if same/similar situation... It's an eye opening thing for me too and I'm taught also to look for signs of 'Neglect', without considering this as the 'type' of abuse happening...

[@jonahsummersell345]

@@amandasmith2109 how is that funny

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

@@bambabalino Yes I remember a girl who smelled of urine in middle school daily and she was teased relentlessly....she was my friend so I never participated but always wondered why...she would explain to her tormentors that he brother wet the bed each night. Later, I realized she just thought up a story but found out she And her brother were abused and she married an abusive husband. People don't realize how far abuse follows into adult life if not treated properly with therapy. So sad, but I'm glad I never teased her....

[@bambabalino]

@@amandasmith2109 That including emojis? lol ..Using, I think, in right context? (!) …Just in case, we are trained as best we can be (depending where we work, whom we work for, which service etc.), to look for signs of abuse, and this particular sign would initially/normally, I personally think, indicate neglect.. I have never been made aware of it be a sign of sexual abuse, but I will certainly bring it up in our next Safe-Guarding training... hence this video may help care/support givers another aspect to consider... the beautiful woman in this video, Mari, deserves a medal for potentially saving children... even if just one...

[@samueldoss9608]

I went to school with a girl That was abused Thankfully she recovered very well, has a family of her own doing very well When we were younger We have those talks My understanding is It's not neglect so much as to making themselves undesirable, in hopes not to be touched anymore I would say if the person is Really young than its negligence If there coming to an age of self sufficiency Then it's a defensive tactic and possibly a quit cry for help

[@SteveEilertsenSouthAfrica]

Hi married a "Marisol" 20 years ago. She told me what happened when we met - and I said I love you, and want you regardless. She dumped me almost at the altar but I fought for her and finally got her. I love her more than anything. She is precious beyond words. Today she was sick and I took off work to care for her. Some things have taken years to heal - I am a patient man - she is worth it. If you are a Marisol, you are worth it. There is someone out there who will love you for the precious person you are.

[@dragonflyparade8143]

What a lovely message to give out. I hope your wife is now well again and up and about. Be very happy together for a very long time.

[@DA-ib1ii]

❤️🙏❤️

[@dontevercalmdowntsegai]

Someone pin this comment 🥰

[@christopherhorn1161]

This is the most beautiful thing I've ever read, given who Marisol is.

[@ElderandOakFarm]

She is lucky to have you

[@10slover62]

That was one of the most heartbreaking, emotionally moving, gut wrenching recountings I've ever heard in my life. Marisol, you are absolutely incredible. You are strong far beyond your words. Far beyond. So strong. So damned brave. So wise. So sensitive (and I mean that in the best sense of the word). You will always prosper and bring light into this world. Thanks for your light, Marisol.

[@armygirl85fuckhitler74]

Watch Tyrone's video about the real boogeyman. I cried like a baby glad Mark hugged him at the end

[@intellectualunicorn7383]

She truly is a role model for a lot of us, I wish her the best in this world 🌎 ❤️

[@anaisvlogs3672]

Marisol. I commend you girl! To speak the truth and be freed from the darkest secret is so brave!!! I pray you are doing better and taking it day by day❤

[@tinamaze8937]

P88hn

[@ja398]

Amazing Mari!!!! I didn't speak of my childhood abuse to my parents until I was 57 years old. By then both of the abusers were dead. My parents gave me to my grandparents because my grandmother wanted a child with blue eyes. I was between 1 and 2 when I went there and was sexually abused by my grandfather and an uncle until I was about 7 or 8 and returned to my parents. Therapists in a program convinced me to tell my parents. Parents believed me but I blamed them for giving me away to where I got abused. There wasn't a need for me to go to my grandparents. How could my parents just give me away like a puppy. I just wanted them to say they were sorry that this happened to me. I never got it, even when I asked for it. It's not done in our culture, you don't say you're sorry. So I am saying to you now with all my heart that I am so very sorry that you went through all that abuse. You are beautiful inside and out. Wishing you love and happiness.

[@myrnab2022]

I'm sorry that you were abused and that your parents couldn't say sorry for sending you away. ❤

[@deveaneatkinson2450]

:Your grandmother is a child abuser enabler she knew what they were doing and put up with it. I am so sorry

[@Tabithaatk2019]

I’m also wishing YOU a lifetime of love and happiness and peace ❤❤❤❤ thank you for sharing this comment

[@EternalRiver90]

I’m so sorry as well for all you had to to through. I was also abused by two older male cousins when I was 5. One time at my house and a couple other times at my grandparents’ as well... Not sure why so much abuse happens at grandparents’ houses whether it’d be by them or another family member. It’s so weird. Anyway I hope you’ve gotten the therapy you needed and definitely deserved. You are loved always and forever ❤

[@alyssachausse6752]

And I am very sorry that you felt betrayed, and hurt by people who were supposed to protect you❤ and I am proud of you

[@nurseprac.nikki513]

My heart aches for Marisol. I was also sexually abused as a child, physically abused by my mother and mentally by my stepfather. The one silver lining for me though was a grandfather who knew what I was going through and as a teenager made me come live with him. He taught me that I was deserving of love. It was bc of him and my grandmother that I’m am a successful adult today. I miss them so much.

[@hesbonkiproticharapkirwa9097]

Sorry 🙂.

[@mimilalla6197]

God bless your grandparents

[@RGTomoenage11]

You are deserving of Love, God bless you

[@Katenpotatoes]

My mimi saved me from alot too, i miss her terribly.

[@jennykaur7055]

God bless your grandparents and god bless you.

[@alabamajenny8751]

Those words,” I’m being sexually abused at home.” Those were the were most freeing words you could have expressed. It’s okay, Marisol. You are not alone.

[@TAM2031006]

Yes, until you do you are in a prison of your own misery.

[@catherinenevin747]

You deserve good things

[@patriciacole8773]

I know Jenny. It’s not happening now, right?

[@StevenEvens7125]

Sounds a lot like snitching

[@s3m4jno5w4d]

@@StevenEvens7125 the fuck are you talking about?

[@GaiaDay66]

As a licensed therapist…I want to say to you Marisol. Thank you 🙏🏾 for telling your story. Your poise and eloquence in speaking your truth, brought me to tears. I want to let you know you are loved and appreciated. Your story…sadly to say is a similar story I’ve heard in my practice, more times than I want to count. Someone here needed to hear this today. Thank you so very much for sharing you don’t how many you’ve helped.

[@shawnscott5647]

I have been through the same way things. I have a therapist but I don't really know how to talk to him about it. Were can I find a female therapist.

[@GaiaDay66]

@@shawnscott5647 Hi Shawn, There are several different ways you can seek out therapy and ask for a female. First, if you have insurance you can call your insurance provider and ask the rep to send you a list of in-network female providers in your zip code. Another, also way is that there a lot of new online platforms and in person centers that are nationwide like, BetterHelp and Thrive Counseling that you can ask for a female. Also free counseling and support in organizations like RAINN and Mending the Soul. I hope this helpful, thank you for reaching out. I hope you find someone, your courage to ask for guidance, is very much an indication that you’re ready to receive it. With love and appreciation of you reaching out, I wish you the best. Gail

[@alyssacozart716]

Truth

[@Ygonnaeatthat3136]

Gail, I've lost all confidence in the therapist I've been seeing for three years now. Before, we would discuss and work towards goals of getting better. Now, our time consists of catching up and addressing trivial instances of events that recently transpired. Have you ever encountered this and how should I approach resolving this? Thank you.

[@northernstar7162]

@@Ygonnaeatthat3136 It sounds to me like you and your therapist have outgrown each other? Maybe you could use the suggestions/advice offered in Gail's second comment and start looking for a new therapist?

[@Lilsonya262]

The fact that she said her dad was the only one out of that whole family that was somewhat mentally stable and took care of her & even thought of him as amazing but then once he found out that she was being molested by her own siblings all the support just vanished and he too even shunned her. 💔 just shattered my heart most of the time in these tragic stories we want at least one person to be their support system. 😔

[@Michael2x]

This interview was so difficult to watch! I am 61 years old and I had to keep stopping the video to clear my eyes. She is the strongest human being ever! Such an amazingly beautiful forgiving soul. How could anyone ever do this to anyone, especially a child. She was tortured by monsters, but she defeated them all. I never knew such cruelty could exist in this world, especially at the hands of your own family members. This lady is truly an angel here on this earth. She has taught all of humanity what it is to be a survivor! God bless you Mari!!!

[@nicholaskrancher2693]

You never knew such cruelty could exist? Do you live in a cave?

[@Sharebearr1214]

This one was very hard to listen to. Absolutely horrific what she’s been through and survived. Much love Mari!

[@Fifty8day]

I’m 63 and I found it difficult also. She is so brave to tell her story . I so hope your life is better .

[@stacyyoust]

@@nicholaskrancher2693 it's different hearing from her, she's smart and also real. I'm feeling the way too.

[@SkybabyandStar]

@@nicholaskrancher2693 whether or not you choose to believe it- many people aren’t aware of the things that go on in life. I feel I was pretty much sheltered a large part of my life. I wasn’t exposed to anything cruel or abusive growing up. For you to remark what you did to the lady- you are the one who must live in the cave. You don’t have the right to treat others with sarcasm or judgement. - you are nobody and until you know how to treat others you remain just that. A nobody.

[@lavernebell6274]

I’ve been through this from age 5 to 15 yrs old. My stepfather was the culprit. Then went onto being homeless, having intimate experiences with men much older than me. Onto many broken relationships, losing friends from me lashing out. Finally at 63 yrs old, yes a lifetime of misery and a broken world I have found a beautiful therapist who is looking after me.

[@Rose_budd]

Rooting for u!

[@tdeo2141]

I wish you lots of peace and healing. I know how distressing it is when it happens right at home, a place that is supposed to be safe and comfortable when the exact opposite happens.

[@MrEpz4321]

Your mother was the culprit. Look up single mother statistics.

[@idamaebennett9965]

Am sorry you experience such evil

[@carolinareaper8089]

I sent my ❤ love and support to you! Reeder you are amazing person and you mean a world !!!! Don’t be hard on yourself! I am sure your guardian angel is watching over you! I wish you only good days and a lot of sun ☀️ and happiness! Sending hugs 🤗

[@Lunapoodles]

Therapy has saved her...she knows her boundaries, understands its not her fault and not her shame to carry anymore. POWERFULL!!!!

[@wetsand7379]

I never comment on videos but damn... this woman is strong. Hearing her story makes me feel so angry and dissapointmented in humanity but I'm so glad she's still here with us and that she's making a healthy life for herself. Much love to this woman!

[@vivio2852]

You are the black sheep because you’re the only one who’s not messed up. What a courageous, gentle spirit you have. I hope your light keeps shining.

[@carolannpacificadam1944]

We are labeled

[@nikkikrow2211]

In spite of having a horrific child marked by abuse, Mari blossomed into a beautiful, sweet young lady.

[@kimle190]

The fact that her siblings used to abuse her like that suggest to me that they were also abused in the same way growing up. The fact that her dad didn't defend her and wanted her to lie for her abusers suggest to me that he thinks its ok and may have abused the oldest siblings in the same way.

[@EddyG0rdo]

Yea, someone had to teach them. Kids don’t just grow up sexualized at a young age. She didn’t mention the age gaps, but still they couldn’t be more than 5 or 6 years older Someone had to manipulate the brothers. Its so sad.

[@GetTheeBehindMe23]

@Claire Joy Lives : The mom sounds more emotionally angry… The kind of mother that beat the crap out of their kid for the smallest thing. She made it seem like her mother just beat her but I’m sure if her sisters can tell their stories it will be very similar to hers.

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@GetTheeBehindMe23 And the mother was most likely denied to just be a frikkin human being when she grew up. The cycle.

[@marylougeorge9890]

None of it means her father was the abuser.

[@kadeelacayo4806]

Why do you jump to the father ? The mother was the abusive parent that ran off. Also, I was never abused or taught anything about sex and I had a lot of sexual thoughts VERY young

[@KayliDaShizNit]

Her saying “all she ever wanted and wished for was to learn how to read” my heart broke in that moment. What a beautiful, pure, stunning soul! We can all learn a lot from this strong amazing girl ❤sending love and strength

[@AlinaMcleod]

You are such a beautiful, strong and intelligent person. Great things are destined for you.

[@Nan-Elle]

Marisol -- I am so sorry that these things happened to you. You didn't deserve to be treated this way and harmed. Thank you for being so open and honest. That is hard to do to express how you felt and what was done to you. God bless you!

[@alabamajenny8751]

Yes she is. My God where the parents? The real parents who are supposed to PROTECT YOUR LITTLE GIRL! We go thru hell to find peace and you did what you had to do to survive. The mind is an incredible thing. I am so proud of you that you made it out and I pray you know you are strong. You were never wrong about this. Not once did you do anything wrong. Shame and humility are so strange emotions to deal with. Bless you Marisol. You know your story is helping SO many. Thank you. You are so brave, so beautiful. Let your heart be happy.

[@tiffanyrodarte2466]

I agree

[@tiffanyrodarte2466]

Mari i have went through what u have not exactly but SA dropping out turnjnfnro substance and I lost my kids due to my drug use. Ended up anprostitute living in the streets. But now am clean a straight A college student second year, with a full time job, sober, and we didn't let it break us!!! Ur beautiful

[@hales6547]

J

[@ztebazile]

"I didn't know that I can say no" 💔 every one of these stories makes me a more fierce mama bear. Sibling sex abuse happened in both my child's father's and grandmother's family and I am here to protect and break the cycle !!! Much love to you Marisol and thanks to Mark for giving her story space.

[@cosmicreef5858]

Happened to me as well and i do not tolerate ANY of it. It is EVIL. One of the worst betrayals you can ever experience.

[@loanicastillo3327]

Do not let your children have sex education at school. Home school. Go to church. Sex is the idol of young generation. Not God. But sex. They do not read the lives of the Holy. Or the Bible. Sex education makes children to explore. Kids are even raped in college these days. So common! They can get whatever they want in planned parenthood without your permission. Adults can be raped not only children. Adults are not safe either. Do never let them live with a person they are not married to. Do not let them be promiscuous as teens or adults. Talking about sex with children is promoting the idea. I am from a different country and I don't know what to think of sex education. At least I was in the Middle class and people are respectful and Kids do not have a social life. I wish I knew nothing about it. I was abused as an audult. I think sex education should be at the doctor's office when you get married. But now I remember procreation and sex is not the same thing. A teacher first mentioned this to me. And God wants the first. Still I cannot beleive people can procreate so easily, the whole thing to this day seems so crazy to me I don't know how people actually do it. So I don't know why people even want to do that. As a Child pancakes looked delicious on T. V. But in reality, they were never that good. So if you watch porn you may become lustful. I have never Heard of a real person enjoying it.

[@Magoodw]

“You don’t define me. And I forgive you”. - She set herself free with those words. She will be unstoppable in life in all that she does. She is a Survivor. What a Beautiful Soul.

[@JaneSpades]

Let's hope she does better

[@JaneSpades]

She's beautiful. Sorry forryakkvpain and dad see was a beast

[@angie_is_tired]

Good god, i’d read your comment before she said those words during the interview … Your comment literally struck me sober. I don’t know you; you don’t know me. But it’s so weird how the things we say can help people … God bless ✌️

[@carlmorgan8452]

She has her own youtube channel now....sharing and helping others on it too ... may God bless her 🙏❤

[@georgiastewart4479]

Marisol, You survived a nightmare childhood, and my heart breaks hearing you talk about this. You're a survivor. I hope you can find peace and comfort. You deserve that. All the best to you

[@lesliejohnson1138]

Thank you, Mark, for knowing to be mostly silent while Mari told her story. She had quite a story to tell and she did it so beautifully. You knew something magical was happening and your silence let it unfold. Mari, you are a gifted person. Your telling of your story took my breath away. You are awesome and I hope you take the world by storm!

[@albertohernandez2540]

Hispanics already un the majiriaty un los ángeles,Leslie TIC TAC TIC tac,the poder of Moctezuma

[@whofarted2903]

Hi yeah same this poor girl Marisol Also took my breath away Does anyone know what that meant for me please ? I'm so sorry to her ❤️

[@mariemonn8912]

Mark always allow the silence….a good trauma counselor know not to interrupt also….

[@katrinascheuermann763]

I agree 100%

[@ohlottie]

Here here to your comment. It’s exactly how I felt listening to Marisol.

[@rlms56]

She is so articulate and conveys her traumas so well. She would be a great at working with other abused children.

[@giannacargill796]

My thoughts exactly.

[@grandmamarymarthatammy_blo6603]

Good point!!

[@sandypants111]

Agreed. I thought she may have shared that at the end. What a true warrior 💕

[@PippiLong1]

I wonder if they now, would like to apologize. Now that they are older and may know better, they may be ashamed. They might need help getting to that point of approach.

[@tatertot58]

@@PippiLong1 They probably still deny it ever happened classic abuser style.

[@emmiecook1015]

Mari, your story is so inspiring. I live in Waukegan and grew up here as well. I have experienced similar situations, and I am an addict because I couldn't find ways to deal with my trauma. I had 4 years clean and I relapsed a few months ago. I have 3 days clean from heroin and I just want you to know your story has helped me.

[@denicesealy]

Stay strong friend. You are not alone. Congratulations on your sobriety🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️

[@solarose7820]

Hi Emmie! Stay strong. You did it and you can do it again! I’ve been there. Surround yourself with encouraging people and let go of the toxic and negative. Get back to your doctor to ask to start sub/methadone if you’re able to? You can do it! :) Take care of yourself xoxo

[@pappy9473]

Emmie I hope this message finds you in good health. I wish you well. Marisol said something very profound about the perpetrators in her story. She forgives them and does not allow the traumas of her past to 'define' her. She has found great strength. I hope you have too The very best of luck to you Emmie.

[@remy1016]

Here’s to another 4 and another and another, you’re gonna get there 💗

[@aananimity]

ODAT ❤

[@vaar2742]

Thank you Marisol, your story really hit home for me. I am a 71 year old woman who suffered from sexual abuse, physical and emotional abuse for years from family, co-workers and in marriage. All the time believing it was because I was a sub standard, flawed human being. My own mother turned against me also and so have my siblings..never believing me. I was blessed with two of the most wonderful children in the world who believe in me and love me with all their hearts and this has helped me along my journey. I am so sorry you suffered as you did, I pray that God will always be there for you and comfort you. You are right..Love is liberating and I feel hate and holding grudges puts us in a kind of prison., a prison I have broken out of. Take care of yourself and God Bless you.

[@specialk5579]

The traumatic experiences of incest & sexual abuse by her siblings still haunts her immensely praying u find peace in ur soul to b happy

[@whitebread-bn3ve]

A 45 year old white guy from the sticks who lived something similar. My entire life has been messed up from it. I feel for you sis. When our siblings mess us up, no one can understand. Stay strong!

[@niaprice3267]

We see you too White Bread!!! We are with you in Spirit! May you continue to heal and shine bright!!

[@ellamayoxoxo9510]

That’s so fucked up 😔 I’m so sorry my friend

[@ms.chacon7920]

Love and Light and Healing to you 🙏

[@RayleneG679]

💔❣🤟🏻🙏

[@syeager2389]

Take care. Best wishes n Blessing in the New Year 2022. 💖

[@Jivolt]

She held it together for over 51 minutes. The power of hugs.

[@stansmith5610]

Hugs?

[@P4PKing]

@@stansmith5610 Yeah, she broke down after the hug. So, the power of hugs.

[@crissypoo83]

@@P4PKing òplllĺ

[@brianda5793]

She needed the hug, she’s definitely been deprived of affection

[@nadiasoho1]

Marisol, you telling yourself to ‘snap out of it’ made me burst out crying. The fact that you had been through hell and back, the hurt, the mental and physical pain, the failures of those around you… and you still had the strength to say that to yourself…is mind blowing and epic. You are a warrior of life and deserve the the best of everything. Your strength is other worldly and I want to say you are loved. Thank you for sharing. 🙏🏽♥️

[@chicagolife5302]

Marisol is already a HUGE success! She's not a drug addict, prostitute, incarcerated, neglectful or abusive mother. Y'all watch the channel and understand the repercussions of an abusive childhood. God bless you Mari 🙏 you're a great role model.

[@eltorocal]

@Patrick Meallet ...she doesn't have to be a drug addict, prostitute, incarcerated, neglectful or abusive mother. But, she could have been, as it is treatment by the very same people as what she experienced that forms or creates the drug addict, prostitute, incarcerated, neglectful or abusive mother.

[@davidx4120]

Even when the abuse is verbal & mental to a child by adults in my neighborhood.

[@karithema9ician657]

Yeah she’s literally a goat 🐐 all the things life tried to break her down with…. She keeps fighting. She heavy handed too 💪🏾🙌🏾🔥

[@eltorocal]

@@karithema9ician657 Damn Good Woman there... she will make a Man a really Good Man... some day. Her decision... Her's ..and Her's alone.

[@MandenTV]

Bar for success is pretty low if not being a drug addict, prostitute, in prison or an abusive parent are the goals.

[@kaylajo1]

Hang on while i compose myself so i can see to write this... That was the most powerful and courageous expression of circumstance i have ever heard in my life. I cried like a baby for you, for your childhood, for your innocence, and in part for myself as well. Thank you for so bravely sharing your story and your healing. You have no idea how many lives you will change with this video. Thank you for including that hug at the end Mark, I felt like you were hugging her for everyone who just listened to her story.

[@quinntara20]

Llllll)ll ppl OPPO Pl

[@yadirarodriguez892]

Sending you a hug as well.

[@smokewolf8746]

I love how he just put her name, no title could do her story justice. Such a beautiful woman on the inside and out, and has such a great laugh but you can tell she laughs rarely which makes it even more beautiful

[@samuelelder9434]

The original title was censored by YT

[@sereneserene8]

@@samuelelder9434 what was it?

[@janetmcbee]

@@samuelelder9434 why!!! The truth is the truth, and she doesn't realize, with speaking up, or, out, how much she's helping herself, and Soooo many others . Right

[@samuelelder9434]

@@sereneserene8 🤷🏻‍♂️

[@samuelelder9434]

@@janetmcbee sounds like you’re arguing with me about something

[@nora__]

It’s so unsettling how common it is for people to experience this abuse everywhere they turn as they’re growing up. Thank goodness her teacher recognized something was up and did the right thing. Glad she has gotten help and is healing now.

[@jadeharper4623]

I wonder if she knows how poetic she is. It’s truly beautiful. She said she couldn’t hear what her mom was saying over the feeling of the cold water hitting her body. Though I’ve never actually felt that, I felt her words. And then she described the feeling of the warmth of the sun on your face in a car ride, and that red color when your eyes are closed. I would’ve have never known to use those descriptors of that feeling, yet I knew exactly what she was talking about. She speaks like how my favorite writers, write: Zora Neale Hurston and Maya Angelou.

[@ashleyjade570]

OMG YES!

[@noelhickman1048]

Yes! I totally agree 💭📖💕

[@user-sh2mk8ew4c]

No she does not. She need to be told daily what a wonderful lady she is.

[@pamelaroach319]

Yes the ones that walk with pain write poetry to keep us sane.though broken down and defeated feeling like we have been cheated.we find peace in small things like how the waves crash or a bird sings.we started out brokenhearted and without a chance now we can be free and to the moonlight we shall dance.

[@jviarruel]

Yes!!! 🙏

[@blane2472]

The dad's reaction to the SA makes me think he knew/ suspected what was happening but just didn't do anything, either consciously or because he felt too exhausted. No father should react that way and he might have worked his ass off for these kids but he failed as a father nonetheless.

[@nechelewatts9127]

100% Truth

[@sandypandy5506]

F a I l e d

[@naturallaw1733]

probably just worked too much and didn't have much time for anything else. so any suspicion would have just turned into denial.

[@sgvwes3505]

He was a piece of shit. In my opinion

[@diduck6878]

@@sgvwes3505 raising 7 kids by himself, = piece of shit???. There's guys that run away from the responsibility of 1.

[@ruhiyyakhaspoladli4332]

started crying at min 8 as a person who face sexual abuse when i was a kid. you are very very strong Mari! God bless you!

[@forever-rosebud]

💛

[@hannahkayee831]

Her mom should be in jail.....

[@MiraSky]

Same, I felt like she was speaking FOR ME!!

[@tdeo2141]

It is particularly distressing when the abuse happens by a sibling. I've been there as well and wish you all peace and healing.

[@jerrynospringer2516]

Do not call her Mari, you don’t know her

[@itsjust_deanna]

I remember seeing your video a year ago. I cried and was touched so deeply by your vulnerability and bravery for speaking out on things that aren’t easy to speak about. I was incredibly inspired by you. So I reached out to Mark myself and a year later I was able to share my story on here as well. It was so empowering and I thank you so much for sharing and being so strong ❤

[@krischanlive]

I watched your interview, it was very touching.. hope you're doing alright 😊

[@itsjust_deanna]

@@krischanlive Thank you so much! Yes, I’m doing much better these days 🙏🏼

[@krischanlive]

@@itsjust_deanna That's great, I'm glad 😇

[@JesusistheonetrueGod]

Go with God. There is hope in Lord Jesus

[@hayat-ec4bt]

I cried at the last minutes she needed that hug , such a forgiving and beautiful person , probably one of my favs interviews in this channel

[@Zumcho]

Yeah this my first time watching the hug, I cried too. What a powerful show of release.

[@jonnaobrien6495]

I had the same thought that Marisol was my favorite interview. When I saw it was a 51 minute interview, I almost bypassed it. I have a short attention span ! From her first words, until the end, I was captivated. Mark Laita’s photography and interviews have opened doors in my soul, yet not walked through.

[@gloriouscontent3538]

Oh, I would loe to give her a hug.

[@andreak6132]

This was the most emotionally intense thing I have ever watched. Never have I ever cried so hard for a perfect stranger. God bless your beautiful shining soul, Marisol.

[@alwaysmoreme]

Your God should have blessed her by saving her from years of being raped by her brothers.

[@kimsekulski4328]

I could feel her trauma. I could see her relive it as she was sharing it. Heartbreaking. I wish her healing and the life she deserves free from her past.

[@pinkpugginz]

her dad seriously pissed me off. I bet he knew what was going on the whole time

[@sue5158]

I recall the embarrassments of being abused in f4ont of others. Itvadds a whole new level of shame. Its like, " I must be so bad to be treated 5his way. And now everyone knows". My parents mirror Marisols. Thanks for sharing. We aren't alone. We aren't to blame. Xx

[@yyg4632]

A teacher literally has lives in their hands. God bless those 2 teachers who took time out of their lives to actually worry about her problems and literally improve her life so much. Heroes.

[@pattys7775]

Please do an update interview. Her story does not end here. How did you meet her? What is she doing in that area? Does she have a job? She could become a writer and write her life story or a motivational speaker. I wish I could give her a big hug 🙏❤️

[@transitionsnc]

I wondered all these questions as well.

[@Doin_the_Absolute_Most]

She really could be a motivational speaker. This just made me realize a talk with my kids about sexual abuse and boundaries is LONG overdue. If that’s what she was able to do for me, she could change so many lives.

[@transitionsnc]

@@Doin_the_Absolute_Most I absolutely agree with what you say.

[@janetmcbee]

Yes please🤗💔🤗 Do an update!

[@DavidGuzman-kx1hb]

Hi

[@SophieMarieWellness]

I am just blown away by her ability to tell her story so eloquently. I’m still sobbing. What an absolute warrior woman. Much love to you Marisol

[@AmberLovesMystery]

@@shottashabazz6721 are you serious? I’m sure she means because just LISTENING to such horror is difficult to get through- let alone recount. Why are you trying to make this about race. Do better ❤

[@blackthornsloe8049]

@@shottashabazz6721 energy vampire be gone

[@dawnmazarati3301]

@@shottashabazz6721 you're not only a racist piece of shit for making this assumption, but also a loser piece of shit. Only those guilty of racism themselves jump to the race card. The rest of us in the human race give zero fucks about your wounded agenda.

[@jesseramirez9062]

@@shottashabazz6721 if the first thing you say is about race, you are the racist.

[@ISa-jy8ol]

@@shottashabazz6721 Hey Shotta - I just want to make sure you know that your comment here, is the comment of a bad person. Why you making everything about race? It’s obvious you have no idea what it is like to experience adversity.

[@cassandratorres6009]

That Peace and Joy and Warmth you felt Sis. Was JESUS 🙏🤍

[@maureenmartini5094]

Her parents are examples of people who should never have had children. I am so sorry she was abused her entire life. She has strength beyond belief. So well spoken and eloquent. She should be a writer. I am in complete admiration of her survival and just her as a person. I wish her peace and love and happiness...she deserves all good things. I lost it when Mark hugged her. This is the MOST impactful video he has ever made.

[@Catalinaobregon]

Unfortunately broken people have children everyday. It’s takes a Marisol to stop the madness. Fortunately there are Marisol’s out there to do just that.

[@gracemurrayart]

She'd write an incredible book

[@kadeelacayo4806]

Not her parents , her mother. Her father did the best he could

[@femmedraven]

@@kadeelacayo4806 Until he stood up for his sons and treated her like garbage when she finally told the truth.

[@ashleyp2625]

She should definitely be a writer. I would love to read anything she wrote. The strength she has is so admirable. So sorry she had to go through this in her childhood. I wish those who hurt her would have gotten their punishment. Horrible disgusting people.

[@ginaseaton3646]

"But at night, who's gonna protect me from THEM" Wow. This sentence cut through me like a knife. Peace and Love Marisol

[@olivia-hh9ml]

It gives me chills, so sad

[@karenevanoff8586]

@@olivia-hh9ml Same.

[@MiloMyriad]

But why did they abuse their sister? As they knew what they were doing...

[@KathleenHemrich]

Thank you Marisol! I'm a therapist and am so thankful that you had the bravery to share your story. Your story, your voice helps others who cannot tell their story. And thank you Mark for giving us the privilege of wathching such courageous beings. Bless you.

[@bettynelson5361]

Very brave indeed, I relate to her and could not tell my story for all to see. I'm praying she finds a peaceful life. I've been in counseling over 40 yrs. Hopefully it happens for her in less time. 🙏⚘

[@KathleenHemrich]

@@bettynelson5361 I agree Betty! I actually have my own KZbin channel and tell a bit of my story intermixed with counseling tips/tools but it's nothing compared to what Marisol went through. It reminds me of Maya Angelou the writer who wrote I know why the caged bird sings - after her trauma she stopped talking for some years as a little girl and then she said something akin to "Once I started talking again, you could not stop me" So powerful and I see Marisol this way.

[@teresamyers6992]

Everyone in this comment section is a therapist,

[@EmilyEverett-w7u]

I’m not sure how I came across this.?! I watched the movie Sound of Freedom and have been so moved that I can’t stop researching and learning about all the types of trafficking molestation trauma abuse etc… Your story hurt my heart. I cried numerous times. I’m so sorry I have to encourage you now and say YOU MADE IT!! KEEP THAT HEAD UP!! You survived and now I pray you thrive! You truly are stunningly beautiful inside and out! God is and will continue to use you to help others in similar situations past and present. I’m so very sorry no one has apologized to you. Their loss and issues, not yours! Their deep rooted issues themselves are what keep them from apologizing. I pray and pray you can realize( if you haven’t already) it’s NOT YOU. You should be given a Medal of Honor for surviving your abuse! They are in the WRONG 10000000% I pray you get so strong and happy and healthy that you can feel amazing about yourself and LIVE AGAIN! You deserve a beautiful ending. I am praying for you ! ❤ God bless you sweet girl!

[@muahgladysxo]

The ending was extremely hard for me. All her life growing up she had literally no one to hug, cry her heart out, or possibly someone sit down with her and hear her terrifying story. I’m literally crying so much because she’s stronger than ever. Marisol, if you see this I just want you to know you’re important to people and I’m glad I heard your story. May god continue to bless you. XO 💋

[@iv2880]

X2 I just want to hug her !!

[@Penguin_of_Death]

"May god CONTINUE to bless you" - how exactly has your god blessed her thus far then..? By sitting idly by, watching as she was abused by her siblings for 8 years..?

[@muahgladysxo]

@@Penguin_of_Death oh hush KAREN! 😂 may god bless your negativity. XO 💋

[@WillEhrendreich]

@@Penguin_of_Death this is what theology and philosophy nerds call the problem of evil, and it's a very very difficult thing to wrestle with. You're not wrong to ask what God was doing for those times she was being abused. I certainly don't have any specific answer, I can't claim to speak for Him in specific. What I can tell is that he was more hurt than even she was by this. I can tell you that he hates the evil that we do to each other more than we do. I can tell you that he takes it more seriously than we ever could, and has done more about it than we deserve. He became a man, Jesus of Nazareth, and through him taking the punishment for mankind's evil, past and future, we can be pardoned, and made new. Adopted as true sons and daughters. It's worth checking out. If God exists and Jesus rose from the dead, Christianity is true.

[@jennette307]

@@WillEhrendreich Thank you for telling the truth in such a beautiful way.. I pray it helps others to understand 🙏🏼♥️

[@ASMRconKiki]

Such a brave girl. I just wish I could give her a big hug, for all that she had endured and how much I admire her mental strength.

[@marcelinoperez2926]

Then hit the road. You can hug and help thousands of Latino children. In many Latino societies, children are sent away to work or are abused. For most, immorality is non-existent.

[@_Cristina_]

How articulate is her language, she sounds so intelligent and educated! And her smile is like the sun after the rain, just like her name suggests.

[@Sunshine-gh6vy]

That comment was beautifully written. When she laughed & I saw her smile it made me smile. Look at a person & you Can’t believe what a person is going through in life. Makes you aware to treat everyone kind

[@subcool1762]

Imagine how much smarter she would be if she would of been in a good family that cared and showed her the way..

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@subcool1762 Educated, not smarter.

[@kali4good]

Why is everyone so surprised when someone comes across as intelligent or educated. Is she not supposed to?? Someone help me out here….

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@kali4good She told us about not being able to read, being passed from grade to grade and skipping school. Most of us know that would affect being able to express and explain ourselves.

[@landynikole5347]

Sounds like Jesus brought her peace and forgiveness.

[@janedoe3648]

Her mom clearly had a lot of hatred toward women (self-hatred projectes onto her daughters). Wow her sexual abuse story is particularly unusual and horrific

[@elizabethbennet4791]

!YEP!! my mom was like this

[@captainmorguen3431]

Unusual? How? I mean the only thing that you don't hear very often is an older SISTER participating in it. Older brothers and cousins have always been a well known potential danger. Teenage boys full of hormones and helpless little girls that they have almost unlimited access to - are a very bad mix that should be very closely monitored at all times... Normally parents know this. I mean, I remember when I was about 11-12, I had an older sister. Our house was safe. So she had no problem changing in front of everyone or going from the bathroom to her room in just a towell. But when I turned 11 or 12 I remember this one moment our mom just stopped her, took her to the side and said: "You can't ever do this any more. Your brother's growing up. We don't want to provoke any weird thoughts, do we?" And I remember being surprised back then, like - what the hell is she talking about? Sister was always like that and I had zero weird thoughts. But then I got older and I just understood everything.)) Our house was not just safe by default. It was made this way by as couple of ever watchful, protective and understanding parents who didn't let even the little things slide. I bet if I was a girl and I had an older brother instead of a sister - all the neseccary measures and conversations would have been held just as well. Preventatively. Not when it's already in "the danger zone". But not all parents and not all households are like this unfortunately. Some have their heads in the clouds thinking those things can't happen... And others have this don't ask - don't tell attitude... those are the worst... Both in my opinion and by criminal statistics..

[@lwedel3361]

@@captainmorguen3431 Great comment. Your parents sound awesome. I have two older sons and three younger daughters. Your parents could teach others alot about this topic!

[@codirennke1109]

Her abuse is horrific, but I swear to you it is not unusual. This stuff goes on so much more than is ever reported or talked about publicly. I am a female in my thirties and have stories very much like this young lady. And I have only ever had the conversation about sexual abuse and raoe with ONE female who has never encountered this. Only one out of the probably 100 women I have spoken to in privacy about this over my life who has not. That means every single other woman has who I spoke to abiut this. Ask the tough questions if you have kids. It's not just the girls who are vulnerable. I know many men who were abused as boys.

[@janedoe3648]

@@captainmorguen3431 I have literally never heard of more than 1 sibling sexually abusing smn, and I have heard plenty of sexual abuse stories including by brothers. I had older brothers, my parents never had to closely monitor us, they weren't perverts, because my parents raised us right, with God and Christian values. And I was taught to dress modestly including around them

[@loriedwards4953]

I started telling my daughter at 2, That no one should ever touch her private area's. That it was not allowed or ok. That if she felt something wasn't right to tell me, a teacher, grandparents. Never be afraid to talk about these things with your kids. I think kids need to be taught from a very early age that SA, isn't there fault, and they can & should have a place to learn that the person hurting them will scare them into staying quite.

[@ally4ever]

This comment really hit me hard. I am a child that was also sexual abused as a child and now I am a mother of a daughter. I too started talking to her about her sexual parts at 2 while showering her. She is now 6 and I speak to her about sooooo many mature topics. I just need her to be prepared for this cruel world. People that have not experienced trauma as a child will never understand but “who feels it knows”.

[@350BMW09]

Ditto! My husband and I started talking to our daughter at 2 as well. It is so important to drill this lesson down early!

[@jenniferlacorazza1575]

Ditto

[@loriedwards4953]

@@ally4ever , I know your pain very well. I've sadly heard to many children say that as a child they were afraid to tell anyone because of the fear the abuser caused. But, they always would add, at 1st I didn't understand what was happening was wrong. Would my daughter tell me if someone touched her inappropriate. I honestly didn't know, that scared me into talking to her regularly about these things. I would also discuss things during bath time. Because it was a opportunity to teach her what is & isn't allowed. Very sad world we live in today.

[@amandahuber6639]

Well done! My mother also told me about "good and bad touches" and it saved me! I was in a bad situation when I was 9, as soon as I realized what the other person's intent was I got out of that situation immediately. Forever grateful for my mother who taught me boundaries. I told my brother right away and he had the same experience with the same kid and we banned together to stay safe.

[@elaibesummers906]

I just came across your story Marisol. So sorry you had such a traumatic childhood. You are one of the most strongest person I know for having the courage to tell your story. I can relate to so much issues you had as a child survivor myself. I can't help crying. I never understood why I was an angry person and I also developed disorders, which to this day I still have. I also had no boundaries. Embarrassment, shame and blame is not yours to own. It was not your fault. Your a beautiful, strong woman. God wants you here for a purpose. Thank you for sharing your difficult story. I pray continuous healing over your life xx

[@e0070414]

I don't usually do this, but she has got to be one of the most amazing women I have ever had the pleasure of listening to in my whole life. I have never been so fixated and captivated, yet feeling so incredibly sorry for a person in my life. Her story is so triumphant. To go through unspeakable trauma and still be here to tell the story. Marisol, you are amazing! You are the true definition of the power and strength to overcome any obstacle.. God bless you my dear. Your story will change lives. You inspire change.

[@Catflowerpower]

oh please 🙄

[@ethanyarboro1745]

It’s a miracle that she’s not strung out and on the streets. Too many times that’s the case with that sort of sexual abuse that you hear stories about on this channel. She is def a beauty too and could have a career on film or modeling, or anything she wants- she’s an all around boss. Sending Love and strength from Washington D.C

[@MariselaR.da1daOnly]

Say that LOUDER for the people in the back! You hit the nail on the head!

[@SmartMoveGraphics]

Well said.

[@lolsamftw]

I honestly think its because she's been honest with herself. She's admitted what happened and told others. It helps A LOT with trauma. A lot of these junkies on the streets havnt been honest with themselves since childhood. Its eating them alive.

[@lisalamorey3453]

I just love this woman. Wish she was MY daughter, and part of OUR family so we could show her love and support. Thankfully she found this all on her own. Please know you have SO many people here that care and admire you SO much!

[@AshleyRose_Gold]

You’re so resilient. I wish more people spoke out about their trauma. It could prevent so much and save so many lives. Aloha from all of us in Hawaii. Xxxo

[@cliffordbrock9242]

Hello Maris, I am a, nearly sixty two, year, old man. I was diagnosed two years ago. With Complex -PTSD. In my case there are three, dynamics at play for me. Childhood, Armed Forces and my marital divorce. I could so, relate to your experiences and trauma!!. One of the anxiety traits I developed, was bed wetting, up until I was seventeen years old. I thank you, for having the courage and tenacity to speak up. You are a beautiful human being. I pray and hope that the, rest of your life, is, contented, and to your, satisfaction. You deserve to be loved..💓 Love Cliff..xx

[@samuellandos785]

But also you deserve to feel loved Cliff! Take care ❤

[@Mamabear1320-h4k]

Thank you for your service and God bless you sir ❤

[@russelld1254]

I just don't understand why these things happen to such precious children. It is unacceptable how many people have had such horrible experiences. Thank you, Marisol. May you find peace and are happy. You are a beautiful and sweet person.

[@gardeniacampos342]

As a sexual abuse survivor myself this was really hard to watch 😢 Those who you think should protect you the most are the ones who hurt us the most this world is disgusting Can’t wait to go to heaven and not ever have to worry about all this pain one day! if I didn’t have Jesus in my heart I don’t know where I’d be now she is so brave for sharing her story it’s not easy

[@marisademore468]

❤❤❤

[@savagefromtheraq]

What entails sexual abuse? Is it the same as rape? Did a man forcefully shove his penis in your vagina? Like full penetration is abuse? Is it the same? Or like were you just touched/groped? I’m being serious btw I’m trying to understand women’s pain more seeing as how my current gf or girl I’m trying to establish a relationship with was raped by her stepfather for years.

[@carisarodriguez7743]

AMÉN SISTER

[@t_jackson4367]

@@emmacow82 In case u meant me, yeah sure I'm a creep. I asked her to send me a pic of her booty cuz i don't care about who abused her lol. But seriously, there are girls who still feel unsafe for not sharing the details. So my apologies for my curiosity. I'd rather chop off my hands than ever abuse a female. Therefore i deleted my last comment since it sounded creepy for some reason, which wasn't my intention🤷🏻‍♂️

[@hassantariq764]

No one is going to heaven unless they accept Islam. Christianity is an outdated religion.

[@stefanievalle1928]

It breaks my heart to hear how she still defends them and the ones who were suppose to be there for her and instead condemned her. I know family loyalty is a Major factor for sexual abuse being thrown under the rug especially in hispanic families. Poor baby. She says her father was too busy to know but the way he reacted I wouldn’t doubt he already knew

[@56brever]

This is one of the most compelling testimonies I've ever heard. God, please protect and bless this beautiful soul.

[@viva2pk]

Amen 🙏 May she have many blessings in this life and protection.

[@unclesamzbastardsonu.s.b.s9315]

Lol, your god let it happen.

[@nomadsteve5297]

Your god sat back and watched this poor child being abused for years and never did anything to help, Your god sounds like a real evil b&£ta£#

[@kerifernandez]

God didn’t protect her bc there is no god.

[@queenofscots2004]

Marisol, you're such a wonderful person.... Sweet, gentle, kind, sensitive, intelligent and absolutely gorgeous! I can't describe how enraged I am about your history! I wish there was a way I could help you. I've watched this video a couple of times since it was posted and my heart chatters in a thousand pieces. Every time. ❤️❤️❤️

[@caesarn7]

Poor girl , the shivers in her voice shows the emotional tolls still present. Scarred for life. I wish her the best . It’s great that she is telling her story with such detail as if it was yesterday

[@orpha9031]

Powerful story. By the time I came to grips with childhood sexual abuse I was 57 and my abuser was deceased. I wrote out a "mock" police report detailing the abuse. It brought me much healing. I ended up burning it. Marisol, go forth and conquer! We deserve peace and happiness 😊.

[@ashly9379]

you are a very strong and brave person. im sorry that has happened to you ❤️

[@gemcove5783]

Great idea. I too had a situation with a next door neighbor. Never told a soul because my Mom was Crazy & would have killed him. When he died. I had a party! I got thru my childhood trauma with a lot of therapy. I wish I had said something to someone.

[@AntonioVidovic-vk7tw]

I am male, 43 years old. Living in Canada for past 25 years. Born and grew up in Balkans. Small and extremely religious town. My father was a political refuge, fled Yuoslavia when i was 2 yrs old, my mom followed couple years later, to Austria to be exact. My sister and me stayed back with our grand parents. Influential people in our town, both my grand mother and my grand father. We were only grand kids they have had. Abuse started before I can remember and lasted till our late teens with our grand parents, continued with their friend until January 2006 . with a single woman, in her late 70s. It only stopped when my sister passed away in car accident in 2006. I have never talked about this before but few persons recently on help hot line. I am so ashamed, so insecure but finally ready and willing to speak up. Not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me, excuses, just an avenue to get it out or I don't know. I really don't.

[@carpediem2445]

She started crying when she spoke of her boss showing her a picture of his girlfriend which was 14 years old. Her heart broke for her. She stayed strong with no emotions about herself. Sad. I hope she knows that she can cry for herself. She needs it. She deserves it.

[@daniellejohnson1448]

So true. She has such a loving ❤ heart. She in empathetic & you can feel for others sometimes more than you can yourself. Be Blessed

[@Timsgal777]

These feelings she had of blame are exactly why I never told on my uncle, and now I have major problems at 59. You did the right thing sweety.

[@icecreamman1]

Please get help it’s never too late.

[@jenrich111]

Yes, when we become Grandma age we truely realise the depth of damage and our innocence stolen and whole life shadowed by the betrayal and abandonment

[@janpangilinan2979]

My heart is with you.. You're a amazing strong woman. Bring inspiration to all women who needs guidance.

[@MandenTV]

Didn’t tell anyone then, don’t stop now. Getting help now won’t actually help.

[@loveofthegame4395]

"When I was in these fights, I was never mad at the person who I was fighting. I was always thinking about the things that were happening to me at home and I would just take my anger out on on them". That statement sent a light bulb off in my head and confirmed what God had showed me a couple of years ago. I used to like fighting as a kid and young adult because of a molestation incident and not feeling fully accepted by family. Thank you Marisol for sharing!

[@BerryOng]

I am also a domestic violence survivor and thank you for sharing your story. You have strength to walk out of tragedy made by abusers. Hope you get happiness and you deserve it. Best wishes

[@sandife4nandes365]

Another important note. In Hispanic culture, therapy ( psychology, psychiatrist) is not discussed. It is looked down upon as you must be CRAZY to seek emotional help. So, it's not something we are aware of. We have to learn to seek help.

[@ajobforjesus]

Yes I am Hispanic and I had a very abusive mother and what you say is exactly correct

[@febrero161]

True true

[@neciu7686]

Same in the blk community...your looked at as crazy...

[@sandife4nandes365]

You are right.

[@j.6549]

I’m not Hispanic but it’s the same in the black community. There’s a lot of what I call “toxic Christianity” where people tell you “just pray about it”. It needs to stop.

[@triciafeld8897]

Mari, I was riveted to your story. There isn’t an actress dead or alive that could play you. Your intelligence combines with your ability to express yourself and reveal a purity of your very soul. You are extremely special, rare, I was enlightened three times by your words. I looked up to the ceiling , still listening, and thought to myself, “ she’s right”. You’re truthfulness and kindness and fearlessness are the warmth that touched me. I couldn’t believe it when you stated you didn’t read in 8th grade. I kept thinking over again, you’re a writer. Every word you spoke was a moving image. No elaboration was needed because you set up every scene perfectly with words. I learned from you. Please use your intelligence and be disciplined. Have a great life.

[@justmetoo6067]

Great comment ♥

[@bridgetteb8537]

She is the definition of perseverance! Rising above all of her trauma and pain. She is an inspiration! 🙌🏾🙌🏾

[@superunknown70]

When she describes the way she seized control of her life for herself @ 42:45 was really inspiring. She chose not to live in a victimized state of mind for the rest of her life. I'm struggling to find the right words. Marisol, YOU are a freaking bad ass!! I hope your life, the one you create gives you every happiness you deserve!! Best wishes and thank you for sharing.

[@Leavetheguntakethecannoli]

Mari, as someone who suffered almost the exact same as you, I have nothing but love and empathy and admiration for you. Thank you so much for sharing your story, I cannot explain how alone I feel sometimes and there was a reason this video was in my feed. ❤️

[@amberdawnandersen3125]

Know that you are not alone. ❤

[@Leavetheguntakethecannoli]

@@amberdawnandersen3125 thank you ❤️

[@hasret113]

❤️

[@syeager2389]

You’re NOT alone.. I will advise u to reach out for help.. go to therapy and a support group.. it will help so much. Take care n Blessings in the New Year 2022. 🌹

[@dimelaschey3748]

Same ❤️ praying for you. Keep your head up.

[@js7924]

The last 10 seconds hit me the hardest, you could feel & hear the release. So impactful and brave! She’s a victor not a victim and I absolutely love her soul!

[@BlanketTruth22]

Such an important channel for telling the seldom heard human experiences...but wow it is hard to watch sometimes. Marisol has unbelievable heart to hold it together while telling her story. I'm happy she is now in therapy and helping herself! This testimony will certainly help others as well! ❤

[@novacancy7253]

Why do this happen? Why so many men have that issue? And women even if fewer? In this case, how her siblings became to be like that? She is so brave to talk about these issues

[@joyfulherbivore7113]

I am so sorry you went through all of this... especially when your family shunned you after you told the truth. I can't imagine what you must have gone through.. You are so strong and so brave. I am so proud of you and I love you. I am so grateful that God saved your life that day you tried to take all those pills. He still has work for you. God bless you Marisol.

[@Offender666]

Why did 'god' let her get raped, daily. ? Grow a brain..

[@stenvallkrista]

Leave your imaginary being out of this. If there was such a being he would have saved her but she saved herself. She got to have the credit!

[@nattyl2070]

Some of us believe in God. That is our choice. If you don't believe then that is your choice. But don't stop others from believing what they believe or knock them for doing so.

[@stenvallkrista]

@@nattyl2070 I couldn't stop you from believing even if i tried. You are the ones that bring god to everything when not asked. She got to have the credit, not god. I don't believe in god but even if i did what a horrible monster for allowing things like this happen to people.

[@krenwregget7667]

@@stenvallkrista EXACTLY! If god is real, he let all this awful trauma happen to this poor girl and did NOTHING. It was SHE who had the inner strength to preserver, survive and carry on, not your imaginary sky wizard and his blood magic rituals.

[@browneyedgirl4637]

I feel her pain. I held so much guilt for turning in my uncle for molesting me as it tore up my family. We never recovered from it tearing up my family but that is ok. I now know that it was not my fault and my child is safe because I spoke up so it was worth it. It is a terrible burden to carry.

[@janinna7480]

I was 10 when I got molested by my “uncle”, I spoke up and told those who were meant to protect me and they didn’t believe me. Since I had abandonment issues and I was troubled I was accused of lying for attention and nothing was even questioned to him. That is when I lost faith in those who were supposed to protect me.

[@lunar9359]

How old where you

[@browneyedgirl4637]

@@lunar9359 I do not know when it started but I stopped it when I was about 10 years old. I saw something on the TV about how you should not be touched by people and if you are you should tell. So that is when I told my mom and my sister. I had no idea it was wrong. Thank you goodness they started those after school specials. This was in 1986 my mom did not talk about that stuff with us so it it had not been for the tv show who knows how long it would have continued.

[@lunar9359]

@@browneyedgirl4637 damn that's crazy I know you must of feel guilty for braking up the family. I ask because there's females out there that are 16 17 years old that know better, and mature enough to prevent the situation, and they let it happen for months , then all of a sudden the female wants to speak up after so long because she felt like it. when she should've spoken about it the first intent or at least the second. Now if where talking about a preteen such as your situation than there's no excuses at all the female can't make rational decision that young, so the person deserves to be punished.

[@browneyedgirl4637]

@@lunar9359 the offender should be punished either way because it is wrong and illegal. Usually by the time offender makes their move they have groomed their victim and/or they threaten their victim. A victim should not be blamed or shamed into thinking it is their fault. Also I now know that I did not break up my family as we were already broken some just did not know yet. My uncle broke up the family. I simply stood up for myself and made him face the consequences for what he did.

[@OmGoshItsWaffles]

Sexual abuse in latino families isn't always talked about either. We'll be told "change your shorts your uncle/cousins are here" and it's so disgusting how they rather protect the pedos in the family than their own children. Machismo is normal too, so no matter what a man does, he will always be defended. We must stop the cycle and protect our children!

[@Lilybet1316]

What an incredibly resilient and intelligent young woman; she is a miracle of survival. Marisol your future will be beautiful, please never give up! 🙏🏻🌟

[@curtleyollivierre7671]

damn this girl trying to make me cry this morning...bless her soul...❤❤❤

[@marismoodswings]

Thank you so much for listening to my story Lilybet! ♥️ I appreciate your message.

[@abelmcguire1951]

@@curtleyollivierre7671 Guess you needed to cry eh, blessings to yours not alone soul!

[@YummyGummy77]

@@marismoodswings My goodness girl u are one RESILIENT PERSON!!?? U have me in tears especially at the end when u and Mark embrace in a hug. How did Mark even run across such a BEAUTIFUL INTELLIGENT woman like you!!?!!!

[@4eyes2sea]

Thank you Mark for hugging her at the end.. i wanted to be there for her. Her willingness to open up and let us in was so raw and real. she has already helped many many women with this video.. Simply amazing and truly beautiful.