A Life On Drugs-Samantha

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Samantha, a woman from Dallas County, Texas.
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[@jackielowe9961]

Sammy lived with my family for a while when we were in high school. Her story is completely true. Girl if you see this I have been trying to reach you for over a decade. I had a son also calmed my life down. Would love to get in touch.

[@emilyvanderlaan7699]

@Kelly M I don’t believe everyone’s stories on here. Not everyone is gonna tell the truth lol come on now. The above comment didn’t imply that at all though

[@garyrunnalls7714]

She bought a house for $60,000 ? As cheap as this is I don't know any loan mgr that would give her a loan for any amount. I guess let her talk but .....

[@AW-jl1tj]

​​@@garyrunnalls7714 maybe a rundown house in a rural area or bad area of a city, and a rent to own situation

[@carlao7157]

@@garyrunnalls7714 depends where. In Michigan people bought nice suburban 3-4 bedroom homes for that price in the housing market crash like 2009

[@badfrankleatherworks2658]

@@garyrunnalls7714 So you can tell how good her credit was in 08 ? You know the average median home prices in New Mexico in 08? You can tell her whole work history from watching this video ? Remember, that some people drift in and out of stability when dealing with addiction and other issues.

[@davecaldwell445]

"A Life on Drugs" sells this interview short. Her life, which she talked about with such focus and clarity, has been one frightening episode after another. She is truly a survivor, in every sense of the word. I wish her happiness.

[@rainrabbit9209]

Agree. Mark has great titles, yet this one doesn't fit. She is in reflection mode. There is a different type of person that takes out eyes. If she lives on a lake, how did Mark find her? There is more, much more, to this story. She is skimming the surface.

[@hetaera3418]

What a lovely comment. Thank you for your empathy.

[@tammyusa7188]

Yes! I completely agree. Wish the title was something more like the tragic timeline of Samantha etc etc. So glad she's made it through so far and wishing her happiness too.

[@AudibleVisibIe]

Yeah wtf kind of title is this? I get he only gets so many characters but come on man this is weak

[@SallyMangos]

This channel is a business first and the KZbin algorithm favours titles like these the most. That's why shorthand titles on videos are prevalent.

[@Grenadecali420]

I was Sam’s roommate in California and went to New Mexico with her and her ex husband. She was constantly battling the demons in her and sometimes those demons would get control. I had to leave. Couldn’t handle it. I hope she’s conquered those demons. There’s a light in her that so desperately wants to escape to the surface. I hope she made a path for that light.

[@JohanMcBean]

Dear Samantha ,I think you are amazing wish you and your family the best of the best your deserve it love Jo 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@samanthahaynes5289]

Who goes there? Is this James?

[@hannahw.3315]

​@@samanthahaynes5289 You are a survivor, so strong and bright. I feel you are suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I know because I suffer also. It took finding a psychiatrist I trusted, oddly one no one else liked because he himself had Asperger's and didn't make much eye contact nor offer sugared words and fake sentiment. I trusted him and let him prescribe anti-anxiety/anti-depressant/mood disorder and medications to help with substance cravings. It took time to find the right combos for my biology, weeding out ones that had non-subsiding side effects and time for my body to adjust to the ones that eventually worked. I am so grateful for these meds- my days are as colorful, my mind is as creative as if I weren't medicated but I'm 'more' stable emotionally and mentally. I will have to work on myself for the rest of my life but I'm grateful for self-actualization and knowing I can always be better but to forgive and be good to myself also. I hope soooo much for you that you can make the path you need to getting well. Before something really bad happens to you.. You are such an amazing woman with so much to offer! There is no doubt a purpose you are meant to fulfill you just need to find someone (a doctor) you can trust and give meds a chance. I work with military Veterans with PTSD, and like many of them, you have been to battle and back many times. Your brain emits chemicals that have enabled you to survive your traumas but they don't just go back to 'comfortable, livable' proportions when you are out of danger... that's what meds will help you with. I promise the light at the end of the journey is sooo worth the work. You deserve inner peace and to find your true path in life 🕉⛈⛅☀💜

[@ladyriot9620]

I can see how deeply Samantha struggled to keep her interview as pleasant and clean as possible. It was almost like she didn't want her trauma to infect the viewers, she wanted to protect others from the things she was forced to endure. I am glad she has a family and a peaceful place to live and raise her son. Great job Samantha!!!

[@ambrr_lily]

Exactly! I couldn't put into words quite as well as you, but that's so clearly her struggle. She also probably knows no one will believe it if we knew all the horrible details.

[@bennyvontrap5843]

I disagree shes hinting at things without saying things to leave an air of mystery

[@donaldbiden1920]

Omg you could not be more exactly wrong in your interpetation. She is a master manipulator and a sympathy black hole. Textbook doomcow who feeds on the sorrow of others

[@annesprung1266]

WTF ..it should be a crime that she got 6 years for defending herself !! Samantha is a hero for surviving all that shit! ..this system is rotten from the inside and that's the actual root of all misery.

[@ThePlaneterra]

I raised an adopted child. I could tell that she did not attach to us even though we got her right after birth. We sought help early on and did everything possible and she has done exceptionally well. She has oppositional disorder which you will find in kids who were bonded then taken away from their bio parents. Some kids know from birth. They don’t necessarily bond. With their adoptive parents. There has been much study about chemical bonding in utero. Even in the most loving environment a child can feel abandoned. So many of the people whose stories we hear had no chance from day one. My daughter has stayed on the straight and narrow but she prefers to be on her own She doesn’t date and her relationships are surface level only. Her dad and I are more emotional but she just doesn’t go there. We raised her with the utmost patience and loving understanding. I guess my point is that damage can be done to our fragile human existence before we ever have a chance. Society tends try to find the reason we go astray when usually it comes back to early abandonment every time. Much study needs to be done to counteract this core damage. My heart breaks for all of these folks.

[@a.j.fisher813]

Interesting. I am.adopted and my parents dud everything literally everything they could for me. I always felt loved and wanted. I too was adopted from birth. I did have a drug problem that led me to dark places but I am recovered and clean 5 and 1/2 years . I never knew why I felt the way I felt, I was always very uncomfortable in my own skin. When asked why I turned to drugs I didn't ever have an answer. I still don't. I recently lost my Mom who although we had our ups and downs I was so very close with and relied upon so much. Life hasn't been the same without her it just isn't.

[@DezaRay24]

The counteracting would to be shooting the birth parents from the get go so they don’t feel as if relinquishment is their only option! The fact that you even tried to force an attachment to your adopted child is sick and disgusting and I see why the practice was banned because it’s harmful to us the adoptees!!! Y’all need to stop thinking that the younger you buy us from our bios that we will attach or suffer less trauma! A baby and it’s birth giver are one human for months after birth! It isn’t until a child starts to learn it is it’s own human that it starts to detach ever so little from the mom. How are we so okay severing the ties of a birth parent and their child to fulfill your own selfish needs and wants of becoming a parent!! NOBODY is entitled to someone else’s child! Adoption IS traumatic for us adoptees!

[@terywetherlow7970]

@@a.j.fisher813 If u can get thru this new dynamic now u will hopefully do well A.J.

[@ThePlaneterra]

@@a.j.fisher813 Feeling “uncomfortable in your own skin” is a terrible way to live. I hate that for you and for my own child. These are things that need to be talked about and understood in adoptive families. It’s such a beautiful feeling to be getting a child when you’ve wanted one for so long. Everyone thinks that the love is going to solve all possible problems. I am deeply devoted to my daughter and I would do anything for her. I feel good about the fact that I have always accepted her for who she is and been grateful for the love that she does have to give. I learned to show up for her and just be thankful for bring able to raise her and give her a great life. Thank you for your heartfelt response. It always helps to know we are not alone in trying to figure out these complexities.

[@ThePlaneterra]

@@DezaRay24 When we know better we do better. I am an now an advocate for children to stay with their birth parents. I am a guardian ad litem for foster care. No one works harder than me to keep families together. I hear you loud and clear, believe me. I wish all good things as you go forward and I thank you for your sincere comment.

[@christopherbigbear4908]

Everything she's saying right now about Provo Canyon school is absolutely accurate. I walked in (walked in being a loose term because I was actually brought in in handcuffs even though I had committed no crimes) at the age of 16 and had my head shaved and wasn't given fresh clothes for over 2 months while I sat in orientation. We are straight up survivors of that school and the system keeps us from getting justice.

[@sandraammons6672]

Do people know what happens in this place? Why has something not been done about it. I am assuming no one cares.

[@RabidDisposition]

Why were you going to a school like that if you hadn't committed any crimes?

[@msmellowmood84]

I was sent to Second Nature, which is similar to Provo. Rough days. And my parents sent me, I was not court ordered to go, I had committed no crimes. Your parents sign you over to the state when you have ‘behavior issues.’

[@msmellowmood84]

@@sandraammons6672 some of them have been shut down, but quite a few still run. I was sent to Mission Mountain School in Montana after Second Nature and kept until I was 18. The things she says are accurate. They tied signs to your body to shame you and made you sleep outside and take ‘sabbaticals’ alone in the woods if they thought you were acting inappropriately.

[@terywetherlow7970]

How tragic. So sorry this is what happened. Has anyone confronted them?

[@shoobadoobayou3008]

This interview had me close to tears. Child protective services is the start of a hard life. She said she was prepped for prison. She talked about her time in a torture institution. I see so many kids on the street that are being prepared for the same thing. So many kids. How do we let this go on? How do we stop it? We are the people. Are we the people who let this go on? Heaven help us all.😭

[@roguerage9328]

I’m 54 single dad and this is so freaking heartbreaking. I feel so bad how everyone and everything failed her. We have no idea, absolutely no idea what she goes through but it’s right there on the surface. I hope to God she finds her way to heaven, she deserves an eternity of peace.

[@Athena124]

I love when you interview people with enough intelligence and insight to really describe what has and is happening.

[@jellybean8040]

I agree .

[@evawilliams5342]

"Treat our children right!" This lady may have hit the nail on the head with her whole story xxx

[@zoecoote3746]

It could be the footnote for almost every interview here.

[@arandrearhoda]

Treat "God's" creation right.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@zoecoote3746 that part

[@VJGYtube]

It always breaks my heart when the story starts with early childhood neglect and abuse. She seems to have a good grasp of why her life took the path it did. I think she would be a good candidate for doing psychological work with others or helping families of troubled kids. I’m so glad she has the incredible strength to remove herself from a toxic living situation and make her life better. Much respect!

[@bourbonlife8878]

Allowing her to tell her story, to self reflect is a therapy all its own.

[@tinokshenishba]

My goodness, she is so well-spoken and intelligent. She could make the best trauma therapist - she knows the inner terrain and has the natural skills to be the best.

[@DAN-TAK]

If she gets a job like that let's hope she don't stab and kill her clients too.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

Thank you

[@tinokshenishba]

@@DAN-TAK whoah - she served time for defending herself. Where do replies such as yours even come from? To make yourself feel better at the expense of others? If you're going to point fingers at others, might as well start with those in places of powers who systematically have killed and intend on killing millions of innocent men, women and children in wars for the sake of *democracy*. Yeah - start there.

[@DAN-TAK]

@@tinokshenishba Defending herself ? Maybe I missed that part of the story, what I heard was different and if the word defense or defending was used I most likely passed it off as the story had something off about it meaning it was not genuine, if someone is telling you to stab them and you stab them I am pretty sure in the U.S that is not defense, in my country it is not defense, and I AM sure that is not universal law either. No, not to make me feel better. Yes indeed, in fact I did start there on other KZbin channels including news channels about war, this thing some call democracy and so forth. That is a good point about democracy and good we can agree on something 🙏

[@tinokshenishba]

@@DAN-TAK Which part of the story did you not hear that she was defending herself? All you need are listening skills.

[@marysueweir713]

Please keep us posted on this incredible woman’s journey. Her life experiences are tragic and yet she still is here. Her strength is amazing. Prayers that she is able to find the counseling she needs to live a happy life.

[@kaylaleitzinger1669]

The amount of trauma this woman went through from childhood into adulthood is horrific. She’s very well spoken and open about her life, I feel she’s being very courageous opening up. Thank you for sharing your story and hopefully stopping younger teens/kids from growing up the same way. You seem like an amazing individual.

[@purepelican8972]

She is authentic and genuine. A beautiful person.

[@Logginit]

Samantha knows what the system is lacking. She would be wonderful in a position of social work to help others (would help her at the same time giving back). Wishing you everything good in life.

[@__Mskris__]

She truly does. Though she has nothing to “give back”

[@leonegirl1167]

I enjoyed listening to her. She’s intelligent, articulate and composed. I like that she takes full responsibility for her actions and doesn’t play the victim card. She’s fair to her adopted family too and recognise their efforts which says a lot about her as a person. I pray she keeps getting better

[@man2mountain]

too bad the society that f$$k€¥ her whole life didn't take responsibility for theirs. lol, 'enjoyed' listening sicko. I pray you, in the name of Jesus, stop speaking for Lucifer.

[@man2mountain]

lol and of course she calls herself 'leongirl' cause she's a machine gun Martha, one of the Butler's 'teachers.'

[@beaulandexavier5486]

intelligent ?

[@suchabadkitty1293]

@@beaulandexavier5486 Yes, do you not understand what that word means?

[@beaulandexavier5486]

@@suchabadkitty1293 Well maybe she is, but she doesn't sound intelligent.

[@kat8436]

She is such an interesting and thoughtfully spoken person. I would love to see a follow up and sending you so much visual love and support Samantha. Keep fighting for yourself and your son, you’re a strong woman

[@gollbach-cardenas5605]

Continued peace and healing for this gentle Soul. May she live the rest of her years surrounded by people who bring positivity and love to her life.

[@tere218]

The … calm in which she recounts all these stories… how clearly and articulate she expresses herself is crazy. She’s so composed it’s wild. Hope she’s doin ok

[@rosieleat6868]

and there is a raging storm of stress underneath all of that 'calm', phew! Here's wishing her all the well.

[@MrMannyc]

Even before sharing her story I can see in Samantha’s eyes the traumatic experience she has gone through. It seems impossible that anyone could endure such pain in there lives. Your son is a blessing in your life and I hope the happy memories you share with him softens some of the pain you are feeling. I admire your courage and strength, thank you for sharing your story.

[@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet]

Oh please. If all she spoke about was buying new mascara you wouldn’t be the wiser.

[@silver911100]

Wow, interesting, and amazing

[@samanthahaynes5289]

You’re welcome ❤

[@tyrafennell1911]

A shit attorney she got six years essentially four years for murdering someone. I’m over this interview

[@Hitit123]

How is her defense attorney a “Shit Attorney”? If the story is indeed TRUE wouldn’t that make him or her a dam good attorney from her vantage point? Maybe quite possibly they took into consideration the guy she murdered was a not so nice guy w/ a wrap sheet? Nonetheless yes I get what your saying though as certain aspects of her story don’t add up..(IE) How does one manage to buy a 60K home in New Mexico at twenty years old presumably strung out on drugs etc?

[@leanda9666]

Me too bs city xx

[@Shanban44]

This has absolutely been one of my favorite interviews here. A lot to digest and think about from her words. She reminds me of a barely socialized tiger and very intelligent. Not the typical interview on this channel.

[@margaretmartin3143]

Yeah, you put it into the right words for me. Not even just my favorite it's the only one I like, with some Redemption.

[@MrDaniixox]

How is this true if she was in a psych hospital until she was 18

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@MrDaniixox I don’t know dig in and put your private investigator side to use

[@jsmoke69]

Thank you for putting content like this up on your channel. I appreciate the voices you provide for people in this society that others try to ignore, forget, blame, denounce, reject, deny, hate or lack any sympathy or empathy towards anyone that doesn't "fit" the ideal member of society. They all have trauma upon trauma in their lives from early childhood and this takes us on a journey with so much baggage, we can't walk away from it. Sam is someone we know and met recently, and she shared about her interview and said it was refreshing to have someone willing to listen and let her tell her story. Much appreciated.

[@desiblue9017]

'Sent Away' is a great podcast on the Provo Canyon School and Utah's "Teen treatment" industry. Didn't expect to find a victim of the atrocity on SWU.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

Hi. I’ll look into it

[@claraeyvonne]

Thanks for this information! I work for a school district where parents sue us in order to send their child to residential treatment centers in Utah. Often parents give up on their kids and just want to send them away.

[@snicker576]

Most teen treatment centers are usually violent zoos. The inmates are totally out of control

[@nhlibra]

@@claraeyvonne Wow...not good. You have a tough job. Thank you for caring about the kids.

[@nhlibra]

@Desi Blue, Ty for the information.

[@needmoreramsay]

This is the absolute horror of our modern day reality. This woman has been through things that are an inconceivable nightmare. The average everyday person can never believe it understand alone she must feel. I hope and pray she can find peace.

[@renzo9648]

Avoid females🚩🚩🚩 like this at all cost 🚩🚩🚩

[@ProphetJayWyatt]

8:20 Says "STRANGE THING" immediately after School Institution Mental Health Institution for Kids! Just in case you haven't been told lately, You Are AWEZOME! Today becomes History History becomes Legend Legend becomes Myth In Jesus Name!! Whoop Whoop!!!

[@Sleepparalysisdemon2]

Fact check folks. Starting with * The flat head baby* story ( flat head is actually a NORMAL thing that can happen and btw, you cant manipulate bones of the skull through massage) When you make up bulllshit about one part , you can best believe all of it is bullshit.

[@SkybabyandStar]

@@ProphetJayWyatt yes she is.

[@hgraham1836]

Well said. Inconceivable is the word. Heart wrenching.

[@natimarivelez]

My biological mother and father both were using drugs and were in no position to bring life into this world but I survived. Thank God for grandparents. I wouldn’t be who I am or be where I am today without them. I watch so many of these interviews and it really hits home because had I stayed with my mother I know in my heart I’d have a very similar story to many of the men and women on this channel. I wish her and everyone featured here..healing and peace to process their trauma and move forward with their life the best they can❤I started opening up about some of my story on my channel. So much more to unpack and heal from but it’s a start

[@jaynesegman7847]

I’m so glad for you

[@Nessa_1990]

You're not a monster. I can relate to so much of your traumatic experiences. I'm adopted as well. I don't have contact with my adoptive "parents". I'm so sorry no one was there to give you a hand and a hug or help when you needed it the most. You deserve so much happiness and love! This is NOT okay and it's NOT your fault! Sending so much love! 💕

[@goldielocks8231]

Wow did you have a bad experience?? I was adopted had an awesome experience!!!

[@berthacorona3862]

I have been watching this channel for some time now. This has to be the most emotionally well put story I've heard. I command Samantha for for keeping it together while at the same time mentally reliving her past to give us viewers a picture of her past. She's a survivor of this cruel world we live in. This just goes to show that we all have issues growing up and if it isn't addressed properly we grow up with a defense on certain situations in our lives. I was molested as a very young child and at 58 yrs old today I still have issues trusting people b/c they want something from me. When innocence is rob from us emotionally/physically we are always questioning the why and work around it. I'm glad Samantha smiled at the end...still struggling but pushing thru. Stay strong 💪 🤗

[@HandbagDiva]

🤣

[@CovertCrow]

commend?

[@terywetherlow7970]

Keep on keeping on Bertha. Sorry you had the trauma.....I know how you feel.

[@berthacorona3862]

@Kelly M I usually don't respond back. When you've been through some trauma we are all different in our reactions. Some people they still have issues the rest of their lives. Other continue to go to therapy, use medicine, become gorfoldics etc. Many also find an outlet in life that makes them feel good..therefore are positive and the key words are (it doesn't hurt as much) If you have never had an ugly up bringing... the more push in life to you 🤗👍 We are ALL different. Have a great day 🌹

[@marjory62]

Well put story? Lol not gonna lie it was hard to follow her

[@SuperTruthful]

Those beginning years of life is crucial for children to be as normal and healthy as possible. I retired from working in NYC DOC and most of them men coming thru there had horrific childhoods with no support whatsoever. Most had to fend for themselves early in life. It's doesn't justify their crimes, but it explains a lot their behavior. I don't know what the solutions are bcuz broken ppl continue to have children. SMDH

[@Llkolii]

Stop breaking people , it's not as hard as it seems

[@SuperTruthful]

@@Llkolii Apparently it is hard cuz it's done all the time.

[@ProphetJayWyatt]

@@SuperTruthful 8:20 Says "STRANGE THING" immediately after School Institution Mental Health Institution for Kids! Just in case you haven't been told lately, You Are AWEZOME! Today becomes History History becomes Legend Legend becomes Myth In Jesus Name!! Whoop Whoop!!!

[@VictorNickel]

@@SuperTruthful Human populations have been treated as cattle for millenia Don't expect any progress from institutions, since the powers that be understood long ago that you can manage humans just like animals Broken humans create a lot of problems, which create a lot of businesses

[@Sleepparalysisdemon2]

If people would actually fact check on their own and not blindly believe everything told to them, they would realize this is bulllshit.

[@alisac910]

I have watched dozens of these interviews and this is the only one that actually made me cry. This woman is so f smart. Perfect example of society wasting a human being that could have accomplished and done so much. It's heart breaking.

[@MamaGotBack..]

Agree

[@therealrobbdee672]

The Boogey Man is Real, Revenge , Redemption , and there was one I watched last week w a young Asian guy that all had me in my feelers! My heart truly goes out to these individuals and others like them that gave endured a life like theirs

[@therealrobbdee672]

@The Amber Heard Playlist!! go shit the bed!

[@julesgray810]

She is fucking smart.

[@timothygilles494]

This girl needs to help as many kids as possible. She will heal her self that way. It's not what you take it's what you give that makes your life better. All the doors will open for her and happiness is the first door.

[@leneo1731]

I absolutely don't understand the history about the murder. He lied about having water. So she took the car as revenge. He's angry. She's trying to get it back. There's other people involved. If she got that angry because he didn't have water, why not take the car and drive to wherever you want to go? She was free to leave, wasn't she? That story made no sense. I also thought first degree murder was the murder which gives the real hard sentences. Like 20 or 50 years to life. I thought even manslaughter could give more than six years. I'm very confused.

[@jiid84]

I agree, things don't add up. I'd hate to think she'd make something like that up though. 🤷‍♀️

[@samanthahaynes5289]

I was charged with first degree murder I fought it in court for years and got convicted of voluntary manslaughter

[@christopherbigbear4908]

I did jail time. A very small amount for a very small crime and we were treated better in jail than we were at Provo Canyon School. I'm very lucky that my mind is strong because what we endured in that school would break a lesser person for sure. Not that people are lesser for not being able to handle it but I think you understand what I mean

[@donh7794]

Samantha is like the flower that grows out of the pavement - there something so beautiful about her. Im sorry she was dealt such a shitty hand from the day she took her first breath. I wish you well Samantha!! xoxox Chrystine

[@domovancan]

You’re right. There really is something SO beautiful about her. She’s probably an amazing mother. I really wish her happiness. She deserves it.

[@jeanc.65]

Brilliant comment! Samantha is definitely a breathtakingly beautiful flower 🌹 who has evolved from trying to survive in a concrete jungle, to finally finding an environment to flourish and bloom. 🌺🌼🌸 Hopefully your current family relationships, with your son and significant other, feed that part of your soul that was deprived of what it needed as a child. Wishing you all the best!!!

[@johnr3150]

Yes, strong and very attractive. She deserves happiness.

[@GoodwillGremlin]

Anytime a drug addict tells you a story, you have to consider that it might be bullshit

[@boso4505]

Absolutely! She sounds awful. I never slam anyone here too but justifying how she killed a man as he asked her?! Really?! She have been given a chance to have a life. She decided to start using when she was 13 and things just rock and roll. I am sorry if I am wrong but body language and how she stops and make the things on the spot. I am getting annoyed watching that. Well done for Mark to always keeping straight, non judgemental face during this interviews

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@boso4505 yeah I’m glad mark didn’t judge me either. He’s an amazing man. Wish there were more like him.

[@thedudegrowsfood284]

This young lady has had a tough life. Hope she gets a lucky break and finds peace.

[@mplslawnguy3389]

You make your own luck in this world. Nobody else is going to do it for you.

[@shannonsmith2642]

If she lives in a house on a lake then why is she in la on skid row doing this interview? She needs to grasp the truth and let go of all the lies.

[@susanh8685]

She isn’t. It’s says Dallas on the interview.

[@shannonsmith2642]

@@susanh8685 the interview is being done in Los Angeles. She says it in the first minute of the interview.

[@andreakuipers6406]

Yep . Don’t get it? And her time line is crazy . She bought a house at 19 but she went to prison for 6 years . It’s wild . I don’t disregard what she is saying, because I was a drug addict, and I made up bizarre stories, even I can’t believe them to this day. But yes I did ..

[@litty4553]

Or maybe her recollection is scrambled after living this way and she’s trying to fit in all the pieces of the puzzle.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

I took a plane out of Dallas to Los Angeles babe… it’s not that hard to put together how people travel

[@donaldbiden1920]

What is the point of all that jibberish about the guy she murdered taking her out to some garage blah blah blah? She killed him inside her house and fled in his "hidden" truck. The police found him dead on her couch when they went to execute a search warrant they already had for drugs. She is a remorseless cold blooded killer.

[@kbstrong429]

She’s beautiful and my daughter is also a Samantha. It’s sad what she has had to endure and no wonder she had that life. I pray for her to be well and find peace. 🥰

[@skyking228]

"Everybody's got a little Monster in them." She's amazing. Hope she considers a follow-up interview in a couple of years. Always interesting, thanks!

[@ProphetJayWyatt]

8:20 Says "STRANGE THING" immediately after School Institution Mental Health Institution for Kids! Just in case you haven't been told lately, You Are AWEZOME! Today becomes History History becomes Legend Legend becomes Myth In Jesus Name!! Whoop Whoop!!!

[@Sleepparalysisdemon2]

An update on total bullshit? People will believe anything they are told. I am kind of believing that is what his ACTUAL agenda is.. She what bulllshit can be believed , because of how it is presented. If she lied about one part she will lie about all of it.

[@simone1358]

@@ProphetJayWyatt ioii

[@simone1358]

@@ProphetJayWyatt iioiiiiioi

[@JenniJenniBoBenni]

Everybody's got a little in them - best line!

[@davidburke2697]

Wow....what a sad story but Samantha is still here and raising her son like a good mother. The very best to you Samantha and the best for your son!

[@ProphetJayWyatt]

8:20 Says "STRANGE THING" immediately after School Institution Mental Health Institution for Kids! Just in case you haven't been told lately, You Are AWEZOME! Today becomes History History becomes Legend Legend becomes Myth In Jesus Name!! Whoop Whoop!!!

[@MrSuperdelf]

I once heard my addict friend tell me his therapist told him he should have a baby.(my friend was very much about that), because he felt if he had that responsibility he would overcome his own personal demonds. Idk if that was responsible therapy but I do feel like it could work for some people. It gives them a new reason to live the right way. With that said it could also just bring a new them into the world.

[@meaganhiller3029]

@@MrSuperdelf I wouldn’t usually give that advice, but, it worked for me. I have been clean 11 years now and have two beautiful kids. 9 and 10 year old boys. ❤️

[@Hitit123]

@@MrSuperdelf Truth is often times addicts will ultimately get clean for a reason far more important / BIGGER themselves. With the aforementioned being said I got clean solely for my son.. “I’m A Single Father” while my ex-wife his mother is still strung out on (IE) Fentanyl, Speed and a myriad of other psych drugs over the better half of fifteen years now! All of my prior drug use stemmed from pharmaceutical drugs..can’t imagine being strung out on street drugs as well.

[@MsPilgrim123]

@@meaganhiller3029 my sister-in-law got sober when she got pregnant and it changed her life for the better. God bless you and yours.

[@MissNevada08]

This gal has done SO MUCH for herself despite all the struggles she's endured. Sober & "living in the quiet", with a young son. I hope she is able to be proud of herself. She's a miracle.

[@diegoshepherd3464]

What an amazing, intelligent, thoughtful woman. She has a strong gentleness about her, even though she lived through hell. Would love to see an update on her just to hear her viewpoint and opinions. Best of luck with your life at the lake. Sending love from Mexico.

[@LordsNeverWorry32212]

The irony of her saying she had a sh!t lawyer when she intentionally murdered someone and only got 6 years (only had to serve 4 in prison, with time served I’m assuming). She also said she didn’t feel she needed to be locked up in a high security prison with other murderers. The entitlement is real.

[@ProphetJayWyatt]

8:20 Says "STRANGE THING" immediately after School Institution Mental Health Institution for Kids! Just in case you haven't been told lately, You Are AWEZOME! Today becomes History History becomes Legend Legend becomes Myth In Jesus Name!! Whoop Whoop!!!

[@needmoreramsay]

It's not entitlement. Have you ever been in a situation where there was a very real chance your life was in danger !? Where you seriously had to consider "kill or be killed" !? Ever been taken out into the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night, given heavy intoxicants, faced with your own mortality, fragile existence ?!? I can't even begin to imagine what that would feel like. I'd be terrified.

[@powderandpaint14]

It was self defence.

[@LordsNeverWorry32212]

@@powderandpaint14 Please learn to spell before you come defending people you don’t even know

[@powderandpaint14]

@@LordsNeverWorry32212 what did I spell wrong?

[@beux4004]

There's alot of holes. She spent the whole tim3 convincing you that it's everyone's else's fault

[@queenofthebutterflies5212]

This is one incredibly intelligent woman. Serious respect. I totally ''get'' the need to isolate. I have pretty severe CPTSD too and am a sober addict. We're the lucky 1's who are still alive. I hope she's blessed with joy in her life now, she truly deserves it.

[@diannh2894]

Sorry for the stupid question, what is cptsd?

[@Anna-cx4tg]

​@@diannh2894complex post-traumatic stress disorder

[@demieetai7092]

@@diannh2894post traumatic stress disorder 😊

[@TrishaNicole1111]

@@diannh2894 Complex post-traumatic stress disorder

[@adunminer3152]

I am adopted. I guess I was out of norm; I felt love and acceptance from my parents. I was raised in a loving environment and never experienced feelings of being abandoned or being detached from my parents. This is a GREAT interview and I appreciated Samantha's honesty. Why I ended up in the environment I did versus the environment which Samantha did I do not know, Samantha you are beautiful. Thanks for sharing your life with us.

[@annak.1625]

She’s so charismatic, I could listen to her for hours. You can tell she‘s very intelligent and has a great deal of self-reflection. There’s so much maturity and character in her words. I just love this channel, I’m just fascinated by all these life stories of both horror and trauma as well as human resilience and fortitude. I wish all the best for Samantha and her son!

[@joblow5517]

Bro chill. She's got serious issues and I wouldn't trust her.

[@sugarsore]

@@joblow5517 no one cares.

[@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet]

@@sugarsore It’s so stupid when people comment “who cares”. Well obviously you do. Duh.

[@annak.1625]

@@joblow5517 She obviously has issues and given her life story that is absolutely no surprise. I think it’s entirely possible to have serious issues and be charismatic, intelligent and self-reflective at the same time. She’s a complex being like everyone else and I’m just trying to see everyone’s full humanity instead of creating good/evil dichotomies in my head.

[@Leandatastic]

@@annak.1625 she killed someone - gouged out someone else's eyes and so forth - insightful? pathological.

[@kimberlygolden7095]

The comments seem less sympathetic to this woman vs other interviews. I can see why people would be turned off with her history of violence (fight, flight or freeze, yes?), and equally can hear the trauma in her voice. No one deserves a childhood like that, especially as an infant, and her institutional stories are disturbing. I wish Samantha the best of her life journey. 💗

[@mplslawnguy3389]

Because nobody trusts a methhead, and rightfully so. You realize that those people lie for a living right?

[@nicolehawes839]

I’m so impressed with her eloquence. What a heartbreaking life. May her days be brighter in the time to come.

[@Outerspacejunky]

Her: murders somebody Comments: she seems lovely

[@laurieg2436]

At 19 bought a house, where did the money come from??? She left school at 18 then bought a home?? She said the school didn’t teach her anything but she choose to go back to drugs instead of doing everything to change her life.

[@Hitit123]

💯

[@nhlibra]

@Laurie G, The housing market crashed in 2008 and the enslaught of foreclosures followed. You could pick up a house very cheaply for a few years. She may have purchased along with someone else or had access to cash. Idk, but it was not impossible back during that time period.

[@rikidik5352]

Makes you scratch your head a little bit don't it !!

[@stacieo8001]

She was married I believe. Her drug use wasn’t taken over her life until after she bought the house. The man she killed was friends with the people who were living in her home, supplying her with drugs. They were creeps! The man she killed was also a pedo

[@Ella-kn9qd]

yeah this part really didn't make sense, bought a house at 19 years old for 60,000???? what job did she have to be having a spare 60,000 around to buy a whole house at 19 while she is living on the streets? prostitution can't give you that much, or else all homeless women would be having homes if they could make that much from escorting on the street. she even said "for only $60,000" as if that's a small amount of money for her. I do believe she's been through a lot, but maybe this part she was confused or leaving out some important details.

[@realcanadiangirl64]

I'm adopted as well. Feeling disconnected is a common thing among us. I went onto find my birth parents which helped immensely

[@Alritealritealrite]

So am I but I never found the birth parents. I thought about doing a DNA test for some kind of connection

[@realcanadiangirl64]

@@Alritealritealrite Many adoption records are open now. Have you checked if yours are?

[@Alritealritealrite]

@@realcanadiangirl64 I tried when I was younger looking but not for a long time. The only thing I know is the hospital I was born at and what my original name might have been from a medicine bottle. For the most part I've let that go. At 46 it seems to just cause problems worrying about it

[@terywetherlow7970]

@@Alritealritealrite Check if you want don't, if u'd rather not. DNA test will show it all. To U my son found me after decades. It made me joyous. Mother's forced by her parents to place their child can be haunted all their days.....I lived it. Never a day nor his birthday that I did not worry. I loved him at birth but, had no say in the matter. I was 15. My mother need me free to take care of her kids. Adoption is not the answer for this dilemma.

[@vik2077]

I feel the same way, but I wish to find my birth family one day. It's just hard because I was adopted from Kazakhstan. Never really felt like I fit in. I'm about to do a DNA test for genetics, so I can find out what diseases I'm prone to.

[@nannitadenise8306]

6 yrs, shit attorney? For pre-meditated, 1st degree murder? I don't think so.

[@adoria5]

She ended up in that terrible Provo Canyon school that Paris Hilton went to and she shared what happened to her there as well. I feel for this young woman she sure has been through a lot since day one. ❤️

[@tonytravels2494]

Oh yeah, poor Paris Hilton! I'm sure she was totally oppressed.

[@anak6940]

Idiot

[@Killacam1992]

@@tonytravels2494 lol

[@michellew9240]

I pity the fool who believes Paris Hilton had any hardships in life!

[@tonytravels2494]

@@michellew9240 It's all relative Michelle, but every soul that incarnates here has their challenges to face and lessons to learn.

[@JasonLuxLover]

Samantha I went through some of those same feelings of anger and snapping on people and I have worked on myself you have to love yourself start watching self-help videos on post traumatic stress disorder and most importantly borderline personality disorder I was traumatized as a child as well and we have a lot of similarities I just want you to get better Samantha start loving yourself that’s the key to your happiness you need to choose happy every day!

[@johnknox3282]

How did she buy a house at age 19, for $60,000 with the background she had? Some of her story seems far fetched.

[@brandonmurphy4657]

Drug addicts are liars

[@nickbrennan3389]

Probably drug dealing. She ran away to Mexico for 6 months

[@afveteran6564]

I think alot of these peeps have quite an imagination......plus, lifelong drug use has to mess up your mind. I take all these interviews with a grain of salt.

[@grungetruck8243]

I guess the Provo canyon school is a terrible place, where they DO force feed people.

[@mizzkerii]

Well said! There were things that seemed a bit odd to me, but none the less it was a great fairy tale/urban legend. - On a serious note. Beyond the drug use, and mental issues associated. Im sure at times shes probably in her head thinking about the things that she could've accomplished but didn't, so she tells those fabrications to people so they don't judge or/and make her feel "less than"

[@rickisnake666]

This girl is good. She’s learned from her past and got massive balls to go forward and actually look after her own kid and get clean. Fair play to you mrs ❤

[@jobutler2804]

I listen to these interviews mostly when I am working. I am often blown away by the resolute clarity and deeper understanding of who we (they) are - as so many of these people have needed to reflect so profoundly due to the abuse and addiction that inflicts them. Roadside Prophets have always shown me the way. As a father I love my child so much and these interviews inspire me to love her more and be that awesome parent so life is a joyous adventure - it is all I can to do to make sure I learn the lessons from these stories. it is fathomless dissbelief little children need this much suffering. That little girl is still suffering & I hope you find peace by the lake x

[@karinascalzo8074]

Wow.. it’s amazing Samantha has been able to survive all these traumatic experiences. I’m sure fighting to survive the trauma every day is so challenging. You should be proud of how far you’ve come Samantha!

[@gypsydanger1013]

Omg. I can relate so much to her experience with these "treatment facilities". I was an adult when I was sent to one. I can't even say the name without risking a lawsuit... But it begins with a mandatory 3 day hold. They convince you to give it another 2 days, then a week, then a month, and eventually when you say "I won't stay here", you're threatened with legal action and warned of places that are "way worse". I spent 3 months in one of these places after an episode with untreated depression/life circumstances collapsing suddenly. I needed help, yes, but what they gave me was torture. For starters, men and women were housed together. Not in the same rooms, but see ward. Adults and children were separated on paper, but we had about 50/50 children to adults in our ward. Kids were sent to the adult wards if they didn't "behave" with the other kids. We say a therapist once a day, who gave us 3 different medicines for alcoholism regardless of whether or not we even drank alcohol. The kids had to take this too. It made some of us crazy, and they were taken away and we didn't see them again. We wore standard issue men's sweats. They weren't washed. We had to do that in our showers, which didn't even have curtains for privacy. We were given Ivory soap for all hygiene and rubber finger bristle things for tooth brushes. Group therapy was twice a day. It was basically an AA meeting even if you've never drank before. The worst was seeing an 11 year old rape/incest victim have to introduce herself and admit her "wrongs" in order to get checked off for the day. They gave us all twice daily Vispiril/ Vistaril? I think it was called? To keep us calm whether we wanted it or not. Smoke breaks were once every 4 hours. Non smokers still had to stand outside right next to smokers. Kids as young as 11 were smoking with the adults. The staff checked us every hour every night to purposely keep us on edge and sleep deprived. The staff were, just as this woman said, very very young adults. Barely out of high school. The female staff would bust in on us during bathroom and shower times. The male staff would sexually assault the girls openly. One guy who was at least 30 would take his "favorite girls" away every single day for a small amount of time. Said it was for "administrative reasons". They always came back with a quarter pack of smokes or got " supervised cell phone time" afterward. In case you haven't picked up on it, these girls were sucking dick for extra privileges from the staff. Jesus Christ for the love of everything, don't EVER send your loved ones to these piece of shit facilities. Research them in depth, and pay special attention to whether or not people are "allowed" to legally discuss their experiences. Don't sign ANYTHING without a trusted representative present.

[@froandcara]

Sounds horrible. Sorry you were exposed to that. Don’t you think you could out them? I think these places and circumstances will go down in 10 to 20 years. The corruption in our world is at a peak.

[@cmpremlap]

Sounds so horrible. I hope you are healthy and healing.

[@terywetherlow7970]

@@froandcara Anyone who sees this thread and who has the ability to get these places shut down, please do....Tee

[@Audrey_650]

I got sent to one in Utah! It was a “behavioral modification” facility. It was horrible, the fbi shut it down thank god so no other kids will be sent there again.

[@cmpremlap]

@@Audrey_650 it’s sad to hear these places existed. Truly taking advantage of a situation by misrepresenting themselves to families in need.

[@dinaguenther9453]

26 years working in the social work field. This traumatized beautiful soul gets it! She needs to do a Tedtalk!! She understands it from the inside out and is super articulate. I think her story could change system's. People in the system and working in the system would be touched by her story. Bravo!!

[@ambyburum2666]

I’m just skeptical about the accuracy of her story. I’m sure It Is a Mixture of reality and Fantasy

[@dejuhvu1793]

Her justifying stabbing a man LOL 😂 First, it’s because he asked her to stab him. Then, it’s because he was trying to attack her. Then, it’s because she wanted his truck. She says she’s in the middle of nowhere …. Then says she’s in a garage lol Okay mam…… This woman has had so many chances. SO many chances

[@col.cottonhill6655]

None of it matters to me if he was actually a convicted pedophile. Good riddance.

[@chanalexa6923]

And the last justify is she was high and the guy was an infamous sex offender in the neighbor Glory jury let her off the hook even her lawyer is shitty😂

[@DiaryofaRecoveringAddict]

She said “garage outside of town”, man. I can make all of these connect as multiple factors which pointed to her killing him. I’m sure that she was in a very terrifying and confusing situation. Dangerous as hell and she’s a young, vulnerable woman. Older guy giving her drugs - pumping her with them, and then “taking her out to this garage where there was no water”. All of theses things connect. The thing is, this is such a serious act she did commit, and so it’s understandable that she would try to understand the reasoning for all of it in her head. Just like everything in her life. I try to understand and justify some of my own actions, but I hold myself accountable. She’s doing the same. She’s raw and honest. This guy who was a “registered sex offender, PEDOPHILE, and known for giving young girls drugs”, taking this young, vulnerable and desperate girl to a REMOTE garage… I believe it was self-defense. I think she needed help and love. Not that crazy, traumatic shit hole. Some deserve that, of course… like er… pedos. Seeing where she is now, one can see that she only needed so little to live a good, beautiful and peaceful life. She didn’t continue to perpetually destroy lives. You’ve got to be kidding me. You probably defend rape too. Get your damn head out of the toilet.

[@baublesanddolls]

Not to mention someone came to the garage to tell the guy he had to go to work. 🤷‍♀️

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@DiaryofaRecoveringAddict thank you ❤

[@Madison.Rutherford]

Definitely someone you’d want to avoid in a road rage incident.

[@alantate25]

Why do you say that? Did you even watch before making a judgement?

[@MrsFrogmother1]

Agreed. She is dangerous.

[@Madison.Rutherford]

@@alantate25 I watched it that’s how I can say it.

[@maiskorrel]

@@Madison.Rutherford Lol I think she agrees on that as well since she is pretty aware she has a very short temper (that's why she likes living away from people so the chance for it to hurt someone is less). dont blame her at all for it though, she needed it so survive.

[@a.j.fisher813]

Yes indeed. Even scarier is how calm and composed she comes off.

[@seankearney730]

You have one of the calmest and best demeanours of any interviewer I’ve ever heard.

[@thegeezerrr2042]

Wow. Just saw this vid.. What a lovely girl.. She's been through hell, I would be proud to have her as a.sister or a family member. I wish her every success.... James.. Bristol.. England

[@boardbrown]

This is a strange one. It was difficult to follow, and yes some of the pieces don't seem to fit. But she's experienced a life 1,000x more difficult than my own, and I can't walk in her shoes or begin to comprehend where she's coming from. I can't justify judging her, and only wish her continued peace and healing with the life she has left.

[@maiskorrel]

felt the same, at least I wish her peace

[@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet]

@@JohnSmith-mc2zz Right because why is she expected to have personal accountability. Let’s just be irresponsible and expect the government to run your life. 😆🙄

[@EL_TORCIDO]

This is meth psychosis mostly prob made up or extremely exaggerated

[@Sierrz]

There’s personal accountability and then there is accountability for those who sit on a high horse and further traumatize you to death. There shouldn’t be accountability for entrapping others and causing mental distress. Just a thought. Not going to sugarcoat either. You get what YOU give.

[@tjbrauttigan4841]

Some of her stories do not make any sense. I don't think she once took any accountability for any of her choices.

[@phyllysanantonio]

She still steals. It is not ok.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@phyllysanantonio what???

[@rubysparkles3194]

Wow, what a powerful woman with a powerful story. She is self-aware and able to articulate not just her own life but the condition of being human. I'm so glad she has found some peace living remotely on a lake with her family.

[@KR-xt1if]

By far my favourite interview. She’s so intelligent and has been through hell and high water. She deserves more I hope she finds peace and happiness

[@johnnaforfreedom9389]

I'm so happy for her that she's made it through everything and now is living happy with her son and partner

[@marimedgal]

Samantha is incredibly strong. She’s so well spoken and calm as she talks about all of the horrible things that have happened to her throughout her life. Her life story would make a great book and movie. I’m glad that she has a peaceful quiet life now living in a house next to a lake.

[@caroline7142]

“Seems everybody is making money off of trauma” *ad plays*

[@leonardgilbert1762]

My God, Samantha, you are one of the most dynamic people I have ever listened to. You are a beautiful being, who has been dealt a very rough set of cards. That having been said, you are brave, loving, & extremely intelligent & have so much to offer the world. Bless you. You are very resilient & you know this, so don't give up. I suspect there is a ton of people watching this who are rooting for you. Take care. Love, Len from Canada

[@michelejudd-seabaugh5761]

If I killed another person with a knife, and was remorseful, I wouldn't tattoo a knife on my leg. She has had a bummer life, but some was her own doing. She's blaming everyone but herself, including the woman who adopted her

[@holmesjacob5441]

That’s because her adoptive mom did a shitty job being a mother, she isn’t remorseful for killing this man, if you knew him you would understand why, if you could speak to her in person you’d have a different outlook on things, she takes full responsibility for the things she should, and is the most honest person you could ever meet, that tattoo is a reminder of what happened, the knife is surrounded by a chain link fence, signifying that she did the time for the crime, if you’d have known the situation first hand you would probably been upset to see her have to do any time at all

[@francoamerican4632]

She might have already had the tattoo at the time she did the stabbing.

[@stacieo8001]

You have to read her whole story. This is just bits and pieces- also the man she killed was a pedo. He SA little kids

[@mrs.beasley1979]

Exactly! You can be a victim or a victor.

[@cydd3522]

Wow. It’s hard to believe that people like you can be so heartless. God forbid you were in the same situation.

[@susanh8685]

I can’t even wrapped my head around this. 6 years for killing someone. I’m sure there are loads of people in for life that killed people on drugs! First degree murder you only get 6 years . Wow.

[@holmesjacob5441]

Charged with first degree sentenced with voluntary manslaughter

[@stacieo8001]

Her charges were dropped down to involuntary manslaughter/ totally different than a murder of passion. The man she killed wasn’t a good person. He was a registered S offender (kids).

[@jjkatz]

And then she gouged someone’s eyes out in prison. Crazy

[@samanthahaynes5289]

@@jjkatz bad things don’t happen in prison

[@zanettaczika]

She should be grateful that she was adopted. Her mother did her best. Did not abuse her, gave her home, love. Sorry but she is full of shit and minimizing her actions. There are people who been through a lot more shit then her and achieved success cause they made right choices. Life is about choices… Decisions you make direct your life. Blame yourself. Not cps for putting you into being adopted by teacher.

[@ninajones1175]

My sister and I were raised similarly. God bless you Samantha. I am 55 now and am only happy when I am alone and know that no one can get to me. People don't understand. My abuse began at 18mths. I left home at 15 and took my 13 yr old sister with me. Eventually, I went to college, raised my kids but still never felt safe. After all the years, it's still hard to get beyond the hard wiring instilled in us at the earliest of our memories. God bless and keep you and all of those who can relate to this woman.

[@msbkay]

i dont believe shit she saying w this 'murder' story. she is quite animated as an experienced drug addict...some of the most charismatic people.

[@holmesjacob5441]

Look it up

[@nhlibra]

How do you navigate in life with such a crappy affect?

[@andreakuipers6406]

Can anyone find the story of the murder? And why is she down on skid road when she wants to be isolated. I’m not judging her just wondering?

[@MaxMayfield14]

Right? I'm doubting it's even a female

[@shannonsmith2642]

I think she’s a really good liar with the truth sprinkled in here and there.

[@holmesjacob5441]

Look up the case then it’s all true

[@shannonsmith2642]

@@holmesjacob5441 I don’t have to look up anything. I can tell she’s a liar. She contradicts herself too much.

[@holmesjacob5441]

I’ve *

[@MaxMayfield14]

​@@holmesjacob5441I've what?

[@holmesjacob5441]

@@MaxMayfield14 idk half my original comments are gone for some reason, this woman is my wife we’ve been together a long time now, all this is true there’s records for all of it , fuck any dumbass who says I do t need to look it up I can just tell, not that you did I believe the original commenter did. But anyway yes her story sounds all over the place in this vid , whose wouldn’t if you try to tell someone in an hour

[@Gabriel-vj1cf]

As an ex iv heroin user I had no idea how fast methamphetamine kills your veins. I did it for about three years and my veins are fine.

[@trishalind5468]

She has a lot to say but tryʻg to watch her words and not hv to relive all her trauma again w/a straight face. Sheʻs not mental she jus endured a lot of heartache and try;g to still process everything tht happened to her as a bby. Godʻs always on ur side Samantha thank u fr sharing ur story

[@samanthahaynes5289]

You’re welcome sending love ❤

[@rockbay79]

This poor lady seems to never been loved. So sad. I had a feeling the entire video of just wanting to hug her and tell her she is loved. Very deep interview.

[@minoozolala]

Telling someone you love them or even showing them love for years means and does nothing when the trauma is so heavy and deep. Unfortunately.

[@fieraci8500]

Much of that story sounds extremely contrived. I’ve been around liars, addicts, and emotionally broken people enough to tell when things don’t sound right at all.

[@wesleyalan9179]

Yeah, she rubbing me the wrong way too...just something about her seems off.

[@morgenmachen2400]

It's the lack of accountability for me..however I try to remember that maybe she's not here to tell that story. I think our reality shifts slightly from day to day, depending on many factors, and maybe if she came to be interviewed tomorrow, her story may present differently.

[@mwlera4765]

I’m not going to discount someone’s experience, but from the start ( her “adoptive” mom “massaging “ her head and her neck being kinked) flat head syndrome is caused by a baby laying on one spot .. it self corrects when the baby starts moving it’s head. No one can massage the bones in the skull to correct position. It’s fairly common , it’s not some alarming sign of abuse. Provo canyon doesn’t “ keep kids till they are 18” it’s an addiction treatment facility. It’s like a couple of weeks. It’s addiction treatment for youth. Like I said I don’t want to discount someone’s experience but if she is gonna lie about some stuff , why not lie about it all?

[@jcj1942]

She still seemingly, has a keen conscience (amazingly) and is trying to assuage the guilt and trauma of her experiences and decisions, she's trying to live with and accept herself so things may seem contorted. It's not easy to cope. It can be very difficult if not impossible to forgive yourself when you are keenly self aware/paranoid. Enter 🌄✝️Jesus.

[@realcanadiangirl64]

@@mwlera4765 You're wrong about that school. kzbin.info/www/bejne/l3yuhn6QmN6GjdU

[@NicoleWiedemann]

I came here after hearing her story on a podcast called Invisible Choir. She was interviewed and he pulls old police recordings and does a really good job of relaying her story. I was intrigued by her and I wanted to see her for myself. She's a very brave soul and I wish the best for her. She's on TikTok as well trying to be an advocate. You go, girl.

[@killerinsideme]

Thanks for the heads up! Following her now

[@Chodesmclovin]

She kills someone, only gets 6 years (actually way less with parole and good times) then complains about it. I've heard of guys in way more self defense worthy situations and they get 15 straight. Women get so many perks in life. I hope she changes and stops blaming the world for her problems.

[@__Mskris__]

1. She didn’t get shit for good time, she did say for day man but okayyyy. 😂 This should’ve been self defense, she shouldn’t have even done time at all. Perks? Are you for real? WOMEN GET PERKS? WHERE? 😂😂 We LITERALLY live in a world of MALE privilege. Miss me with this bullshit.

[@aineulla]

Your videos are normally so good but I think this girl is either delusional or a pathological liar. It seems like she is making all her stories up as she goes along. It's too bad because she seems like a nice enough person and is very attractive.

[@hadaieong]

There were clues from this speaker, who was not grateful (keep blaming her social systems) and self pity maybe. Evidence: - she blamed and spoke down to the person who adopted her and massaged her head to become round again from a previous child abuse. -she spent lengthy amount of time to describe how dangerous teen life she was in. She chose to leave in the first place. - she blamed the school staff not being professional. She could have taken the opportunity as inspiration to become professional to help others and herself. She didn’t. - She claimed that she wanted to live in an isolated place. She has a son. Is she taking care of her son well? Obviously not. - The only thing she felt proud was to graduate high school top of the class. She made sure she mentioned that. - What’s wrong with a non-black lady wanting to marry a black man? - She is now 33. She kept talking about her life back then and how ugly the society was. Maybe stopping blaming the veins, the shaded hair, and people?? Maybe starting to look forward?? She planed what to say in front of her audience. She wants people to fund her.

[@r.b.johnson5269]

100% All I'm hearing is blaming and self-excusing.

[@holmesjacob5441]

Yak do t know shit, and she doesn’t want or need any funding, and her son is very well taken care of

[@holmesjacob5441]

Y’all don’t *

[@r.b.johnson5269]

@@holmesjacob5441 mmmkay

[@sugarsore]

Fund her? Where? How? She made no mention of anywhere to do so.

[@barkingorifice]

The gal is a survivor. It is amazing how she can be so lucid about the trauma she has lived. She is obviously bright. Her use of the language and her vocabulary make this clear. She deserves to be cared for with understanding and support. I hope she can continue to maintain her life with her son and her mate. She needs to be kind to herself and be aware of her love for herself. She is deep down good. Thank you for sharing this story.

[@__Mskris__]

So much this! She absolutely does! She is very loved, cared for and doing just this. 💛

[@1BackUpPlan1]

Everything she says is about how she was a victim of this, of that...Nothing was her fault. He shot her full of drugs, he ask her to stab him...I mean WTF?

[@juditbaneth2074]

If you were thrown away as a baby and injured on your neck and had gone through what she’d gone through you dont know how you would behave

[@1BackUpPlan1]

Oh, I'm sorry. I'll give her a hug and ask her if she could please not murder again..

[@roguerage9328]

Thank you! Some people are so far removed and honestly…. Now that I think about it, it’s good they are so far removed bc I doubt they’d lasted a day in this CHILDS life.

[@1BackUpPlan1]

@@juditbaneth2074 She murdered the guy. She had a choice

[@mrs.beasley1979]

This woman had a better childhood than most. She didn't suffer in foster care but had a loving parent. She wasn't abused. She had an excellent education. She chose her destiny. She's still blaming everyone else but herself. She needs to grow up and accept responsibility for herself. Excuses excuses excuses.

[@holmesjacob5441]

You don’t even know half her story, she’s got plenty of people who deserved more blame then she led on

[@holmesjacob5441]

She did have a parent who loved her, but love doesn’t cut it alone if you don’t know how to raise a child

[@sugarsore]

You disgust me.

[@inkystarz]

The system is so so broken, this story is a testimonial of that. My goodness, bless your heart Samantha.

[@Fragrant_lilac_]

She says it best, "it starts with the children. "❤

[@Jamali31748]

I was adopted too and I totally can relate. My biological mother abandoned me at the hospital, and since no one claimed me there, I was taken to an orphanage and spent the first 5 years and 6 months there. This was in Saudi Arabia. I didn't speak Arabic, only Philippino(tagalog) because the staff who took care of me and the bunch of other unwanted children were from Philippines. I'm with the same adoptive parents but my adoptive dad didn't want to much to do with me except support me financially which he did and that was great...but that wasn't what I needed. I needed guidance, a manual, discipline, and didn't get that. I struggled in school therr because I was the only one who didn't speak Arabic fluently so talk about panic attacks EVERY SINGLE DAY! I asked my parents to take me out of there but they did not, which caused further trauma from school...anyway I'm 36 years old now, and I isolate myself a lot when I'm down. Its been a hard life thus far even thought my parent are well to do. So please remember, MONEY DOESNT CHANGE OR MAKE YOUR LIFE ANY BETTER WHEN YOU ...just because you have rich parents, doesn't mean a damn thing,...Its so important to have parents to raise you right. I have a wonderful mother but she only spoke English since she is American nut I went to Arabic school so that didn't help with anxiety and panic

[@samanthahaynes5289]

Sending you love ❤️

[@gailgarcia8782]

Good Morning Mark and SWU Family 🤗 This interview is intense Samantha you're a BEAUTIFUL woman, I'm so sorry what's happened to you & glad you're getting your story out here praying you live a WONDERFUL life with your son & partner & find peace 🕊️ Thank you for letting me hear your story ! 🤗💕 GBY 🙏🏼

[@Eemoneybags]

This woman has gone through alot of stuff in her life. I hope she has a great rest of her life.

[@samanthahaynes5289]

Thank you

[@Eemoneybags]

@@samanthahaynes5289 you are welcome

[@davidwiegel6706]

I've watched this video several times. I am truly amazed at how strong Samantha is. I think she is an inspiration. A beautiful person who I hope has peace and happiness in her life. I totally admire her.

[@bintbybint8431]

‘Start with the children’, I couldn’t agree more.