Poly-Drug Addict interview-Stephan

[@AH-zm2wf]

This is an incredible interview. What an eloquent man. He allowed himself to be so vulnerable here. I wish the absolute best for him.

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@AH-zm2wf]

@@heidixlouise138 I am incredibly sorry you lost your brother. May he rest in peace and may you heal from your grief. I know I am a stranger to you, but I'm sending you love.

[@skylerjackson146]

I think we all would love an update from Stephan. I want to see him back on top, he has it in him, and he deserves it. 💕

[@blakebreuhan3194]

Unfortunately he’s since passed away 💔such an amazing person gone too soon. I wish I had good new to share 😢

[@TSUNAMI-MAMI]

@@blakebreuhan3194what happened???

[@heidixlouise138]

Today is a year that we lost him. Hes my little brother... he overdosed on fentanyl on skidrow unfortunately. 😞

[@Tenacious1952]

@@heidixlouise138I am so very sorry for you and your family. He was a special, wonderful human being even though I only knew him from this video.

[@masan.4211]

@@heidixlouise138 I'm so so sorry for your losses. This is the first SWU interview that broke me - I can't stop crying and I don't really know why. :.( I hope you're doing ok, wishing you all the best!

[@GJames007]

It’s crazy. He has like nothing bad to say about anybody.

[@voteZDLR]

It's a good thing. I mean, it's so easy to blame anything for your circumstances but at the end of the day you put those substances in you. It's OK. Figure out why, and take responsibility for it. And it seems like he has. He's very close to actually I think repairing himself for good I think if he can just get clean one more time. God willing the fentanyl shit doesn't take him first. That shit is no joke.

[@jpaul5387]

When your dopamine level for hours is is 5x the level of an orgasm then you wouldn't have much bad to say about ppl either lol

[@MeezerGurlMakes]

Except himself...

[@scratch5191]

Umm he's high. He's really really high and he is talking about himself and someone is listening. He feels interesting, but know this, he's not. He's a cliche. I have a new neighbor who hustled a voucher for being homeless. She/ he has a whole rotation of people from the park down the street. The washing machine is either in use or broken now. The outside outlets are charging stations and the fun never stops. You're being fed manipulation. You are constantly bombarded with their problems and you are their solution until you have to establish you have problems too . So before you get dazzled by this hug fest go to a drug court and hear about their children. They are generally taken away for reasons other than their parents being intoxicated. They are people. People who love themselves in a most peculiar manner because as much as they talk about their lives and plans, they watch porn, try to have sex, neglect themselves and the property they " live" in. Are engaged in their drug hustle, sleeeeeeeep for a month or until the next opportunity to keep the dream alive emerges. He's a liar and he's high and he's going to get paid by the guy shooting this.

[@chonkcat7362]

@@jpaul5387 I shouldn't laugh, but yea it is like that lmao.

[@silverliningsoap]

"I possessed humility because I remained teachable." Smart guy! I hope he is able to beat his addictions. He deserves a cool life, not just a drug free life.

[@heidixlouise138]

he was so so intelligent, always loved to read and learn...unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@Masonwmasters]

@@heidixlouise138hate to read this :/

[@ariesfairie11]

So many of the people you showcase, who are caught in the addiction stronghold, are incredibly real, funny, and intelligent. It breaks my heart they're stuck in the cycle. But there is always hope. Stay strong, Stephan!

[@Fishing-gs9ku]

Very true. As someone that’s been through it, it’s a living hell. You’re just TRYING to feel normal ALL the time

[@bhief473]

In my experience suffering builds character. Break the cycle and reinvent yourself 🙏

[@misspriss4439]

All addicts are real ppl.. Thyr hurt ppl. But still all the things describe.. life is harder for some ppl.. ppl just can't deal sometimes.

[@nishachamlingrai7444]

@@bhief473 q1q

[@juliequigley637]

Very well said. I appreciate you understanding the cycle. But I think we all know no one can reach as deep as a struggling addict and come out on the other side being successful. We addicts are definitely the most intelligent and understanding people!!

[@missemily1988]

This is one of the hardest interviews I’ve ever watched. This guy can make it. He is so smart. My heart hurts for him so much. I hope so much he can get clean again 💔

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@Christy768]

You can do it again Stephan, It's never too late! Don’t stop believing in yourself!!!

[@dlrainer]

Stephan, hearing you say you hate yourself just broke my heart. You deserve love and compassion. I'm sending you positive vibes, I hope you get the help you need.

[@jwardbass4452]

I can only imagine what he’s like when he’s not using, he’s highly intelligent and has a nuanced view on life.

[@mattheinemann3259]

Believe it or not most addicts are. We have to be smart and resourceful. I still drink every once in a while but have been heroin and fentynal clean for two years and like two months, that shit made me pure evil.

[@20frendmax]

Hes like this..he's a great person. Funny and very caring.

[@Mutantcy1992]

And he's got great comedic timing

[@cadernin9714]

Matt Heinemann what made you decide to take fentynal in the first place.

[@heidixlouise138]

hes an absolute fun and hilarious person... he was a very emotional and loving child. unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@K72-g3y]

This man's self awareness is amazing! He's so intelligent and has so much potential. Hopefully he can get clean and use his story to help others ❤

[@marisaberner8056]

Damn when he broke about his mom, the humanity that poured out of him was so sad and beautiful.

[@davidx4120]

Almost pitiful, but NOT. He needs his mama right NOW. I know what he's going through minus the drugs.

[@tiffaniroman3045]

@brooks brown, you are right he does need his mom. My little brother uses drugs because of my mother's death over 20 years ago smh, and I don't know how to help him.

[@JoeJohnSoundsandVisuals]

That hit hard

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :( hes with his momma now.

[@horizonsfluidline]

I have watched all of Marks videos. This one hurts the most, today anyway. I even imagined that in another time we would be close friends! Pleasant interlude. So beautiful what an appalling waste.

[@rePenia]

He seems like such a genuine soul. Sending you love and positivity, Stephan. You can do it.

[@abigailcoffey512]

You're a qualified nurse and you've been clean before, there's still alot of hope for you're future.

[@linkes28]

Yup he can so it again

[@joolzg1936]

A nurse who is an addict is not a good idea Lot's of temptations in hospitals.

[@amberk4978]

Addicts recover.

[@brandonjoseph1489]

Correct me if I’m wrong but I don’t think you can be an rn with hep c

[@MarkGelderland]

@@brandonjoseph1489 HARVONI cures hep c

[@MsTcup]

Wow. Talk about potential. I hope Stephan gets his life back. He Absolutely deserves it.

[@incredibeast9661]

He’s 32?!! He actually looks young for his age even considering his drug abuse. Hope this guy gets his life together

[@kadeelacayo4806]

He definitely is nice looking at 32. He looks late 20s early 30s. I think you’re just used to people who look older

[@misstiffany614]

32 is young. He looks 32

[@incredibeast9661]

@@kadeelacayo4806 perhaps. I guess more often then not the people on here look a bit more rough from their drug usage

[@cassgreen5813]

Exactly. He looks 25

[@Nicole3900]

@@cassgreen5813 oh gosh definitely not 25 haha but he does look good for someone who has done so many drugs and been through as much as he has. I just turned 26 and I'd guess he was mid-30s.

[@kalebdye4378]

All this man has is pure love in his heart for everyone. It's so beautiful that he didn't let his experiences turn him bitter. I wish you the best Stephan. As a former meth addict myself, it really is possible to quit and you of all people deserve to have your life back. I believe in you. You can do it. Your mom would want you to get sober again, even though she couldn't.

[@gabrielmartin4726]

I really appreciate your last sentence, Kaleb. And, I believe it too.

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@Beejuice.08]

"The drugs are the only thing that makes me feel like im not alone" Same. You can break this generational curse stephan. Youre so strong. ❤

[@athenafavela123]

This interview broke my heart. You can feel the love he has for his mom

[@Maxisawsome421]

He's with her now😢❤

[@heidixlouise138]

He definitely didnt mention the whole story of the abise we went though as children.. im his step sister. My father and his mother had a very toxic relationship ... she was type 2 bipolar and abusive. He Did love her so much though, they were close as adults. They also used together which is how she contracted hep c and passed about 5 years ago... unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose last year. still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@toreason8146]

Watching his brain battle moment to moment with his feelings on the drugs is the perfect image to show someone who doesn't understand addiction and it's power. Stephan your story was so powerful and your incredible personality comes through so clear. As does your unbearable pain. As you said yourself, people deserve love 💓

[@glockinshpiel]

Tell him to get on a plane and come to Minnesota. Call PRIDE institute they specify in gay men and sex/meth. MN has something called a rule-25 which can get you treatment free…there’s a huge community of LGBT in recovery with sober house and everything.

[@sourtm5916]

I'm one of his siblings. This is how he was naturally his whole short life.

[@DarrickDraper]

@@sourtm5916heartbreaking. I’m so sorry to hear your brother passed. He seemed like a wonderful person. I see myself in his struggles. My mother passed a year ago and it’s been a hard and empty time. Wishing your family the best.

[@Jenniferamu]

His soul is so damn pure💔 A lot of these interviews are heartbreaking but this one, for some reason, crushed me.🙏💜

[@MeezerGurlMakes]

NO ONE is just a junkie. Early sexual abuse, trauma, a multiple of other negative events drives people to numb the pain and deal with it anyway they can. Love this guy. I wish him healing of his soul. ❤️

[@The_Cherokee_Gypsy]

EXACTLY!!! Mental illness added in to that too

[@margaret4870]

We as addicts will do whatever it takes to numb the feelings

[@MeezerGurlMakes]

@@margaret4870 I know. ❤️

[@kadeelacayo4806]

We need to get rid of the junkie word

[@gballs007]

Not totally true... drugs such as opiates which are started for fun drastically turn people into junkies because it's on a physical level which robs your body of producing dopamine and seratonin, which in turn makes users become seriously depressed along with the other physical withdrawl symptons turn people into junkies... I have personally known a few people, some lifelong close friends who never had any mental issues, came from great loving families with everything growing up, good looking, lots of friends and great relationships.... turn into junkies because the opiates robbed them of their bodies natural chemical production of all the chemicals the body needs. As well as robbing your body of any sexual desire from the lowering of testosterone and other hormones. It's one of the only drugs that literally robs your body.

[@brentongutierrez4021]

I’ve never seen someone lay out addiction in such a way non addicts may actually kind of understand what one goes through when struggling... by far the best interview I’ve seen and that speaks volumes because this channel is absolutely incredible! This one made me cry myself to sleep, thanks for the work you do 🙏🏼

[@bradybirdy9243]

You can just tell how he has so much genuine goodness within him.

[@lekhadali571]

Wow, this guy is amazing... his self awareness and gratitude is magical. I hope he finds whatever he is looking for and gets whatever he wants out of life. Thanks so much for sharing your story Mr.

[@aprilchiginsky7560]

What an amazing interview. I hope he can find the strength to become sober again. He really needs some therapy and services. He's a kind person who seemingly can not deal with emotions and feelings. I hope he makes it.

[@tadpole53]

There's so many times I wish I could reach through a screen and give people a hug or a "You're ok" or something, anything. Steph seems like an amazing person, I think he just needs a little kick in the butt and some support to get to his potential again. He reached it before and I think he can do it again!

[@lilaworley8935]

I'm positive the untreated/mismanaged ADHD is playing a roll in your struggles. It's so familiar....

[@nunyabizwacks6711]

some ppl dont believe in that tho. In my opinion, "ADHD" is just a personality type, not a disease or something wrong. Plus he said he was on adderal in like 3rd grade, which must have been because of ADHD. In my honest opinion, theres a good chance a person will end up like this when they are pretty much given meth from a young age. Its like so many drugs, the doctors that prescribe them have no idea what they are like because they have never done them. Last thing this guy needs is legal meth for his troubles

[@julybutterfly]

I was thinking the same the thing. He checks all the boxes for ADHD.

[@julybutterfly]

@@nunyabizwacks6711 ADHD is just a personality type? How do you arrive at that? Kids who took adderall wind up addicts because addiction is unbelievably common with ADHD, not because adderall was their gateway drug. There has been a lot of advancements in what happens in the ADHD brain, particularly with women who have it. I recommend catching up on the disorder.

[@moespaws16]

I had the same thought. Or c-ptsd possibly. Hearing him speak is how my brain is.

[@moespaws16]

I’m not on drugs…but my brain is just, bouncy.

[@s0yg0z0]

This completely breaks my heart. I used to hang out with his sister and we all went to the same NA meetings. I knew him when he was clean. I had no idea this is where he was and his situation. Come on Stephen. Come back home. And stay.

[@francissynergia7385]

I second this. STEPHEN!- go home and be the man you know you should be! Fix everything and make it all better than it would have been without your involvement in colouring the world!

[@heidixlouise138]

I had so much hope that he would finally get help and stay in rehab... he refused to stay everytime. We all tried so hard. Jessica is back in FL she has a son and has been clean for a few years. unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother too...still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. . Hes no longer struggling :(

[@jeffshikle]

@@heidixlouise138sorry for your loss. He seemed like a very intelligent man with a huge heart.

[@soupsandwich8]

Smart guy, just doesn’t know how to deal with his pain. Makes poor decisions but with the right environment and mind frame he can live a rewarding life.

[@thekatt...]

💯💯💯

[@TheChadls]

All addicts

[@SandraSmith-vb5pf]

I think he’s in with a chance. Clean Stefan is achievable but his relapses are obviously an issue. Best wishes for his future success. 🌬💨💨💨🤍

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

[@nastaranbattles1351]

Your spirit really touched me. Something very genuine about you. You’re definitely a humble soul. Thank you for your honesty

[@markmywords5126]

This is heartbreaking. I’m just happy he still has touch with his emotions. I’d love to be able to cry from things that are painful.

[@Corrupted-file]

Same here. This interview is like a therapy session, hope Steph finds a good partner, and breaks his chains.

[@RoseWasCute]

Would love to get an update of any kind about him! He seems like such a great and kind person. The medical community would be better off with him as a nurse.

[@sourtm5916]

He has passed. There's a go fund me page

[@drewdollinjer3624]

@@sourtm5916 Can you please post a link to the gofundme?

[@vanessagausch8080]

​@@sourtm5916 can you post a link to the Go Fund Me Page?

[@stefanieborges3850]

He passed away the end of May of this year. We love him and miss him dearly ❤

[@arthistoryliterature2950]

Oh no! This breaks my heart!

[@Bricklinsv1970]

When talked about his Mom I lost it im still sobbing. Im so grateful mu Mom is still here with me. I hope he finds lasting happiness.

[@janicejacome]

Treasure her. The most devastating thing in life is losing her.😔

[@Bricklinsv1970]

@@janicejacome I understand and am pre mourning it. Not sure if I will deal with it when it happens I want to go first but I know it would here her even more

[@Nicole3900]

As a nurse it hurts to see this guy like this because I can tell he has a big heart and would make a wonderful nurse if the circumstances were different (i.e., if he weren't dealing with addiction). You can tell he's educated too with how he speaks about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs, Hedonism, etc. My heart aches for him.

[@jimbob9907]

Hope this dude makes it, he has so much to live for 💕

[@finolaomurchu8217]

Yes, he is suffering and he's very likeable.

[@jimbob9907]

@Blacksun Sigrune only an absolute dickhead would make a comment like that... congratulations.

[@ryansiroisheller9145]

As long as I knew you, you’ve always been an amazing person. Should helped me years ago in so many ways and I am forever grateful. You have so much to offer this world and deserve all the love it has to give you.

[@janicejacome]

He needs you, Friend!

[@heidixlouise138]

It still doesnt feel real that hes gone :/

[@Mauro-ot2ux]

I like this guy so much, I feel so sorry for him. Adorable, sweet person destroyed by addiction, I can totally relate.

[@terrytezzbigtel]

Me too x

[@jenny_lestari]

he's so self-aware amidst all the inner chaos and drug use. sending you a big hug stephan

[@FCWW87]

Heart on a sleeve, Steve! I hope you are able to push through this man.

[@kwcutie911]

Oh, Stephan. My heart breaks for you. The pain you feel over the decade you didn't speak to your mother broke me down. You have to know that it wasn't wrong to cut out a toxic person, you were protecting your own sobriety, which you're supposed to do. The timing of everything is awful and worthy of being upset about but nothing that happened to your mom was your fault, hunny. Your little sister's circumstances aren't your fault. All you can do to fix any of this is to break the cycle in your family. It's a lot of pressure and its unfair that its on you to do it, but you have to. If you don't you'll be just another sad story in your family tree. You can do this again. Sending you all of my love

[@heidixlouise138]

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :( our childhood was so insane but he just could not cope with the a use his mother and my father put us through.... she was type 2 bipolar and they got closer as adults nd unfortunately used together and thats how she passed 5 yrs ago from hep c. We tried to save them both :/

[@tarotdreamseverythinginbet350]

This one breaks my heart the most. He is using drugs to mask a lot of pain. I hope he finds his way to sobriety. He deserves a new start and counseling. He holds on to A LOT of guilt. Sending him tons of healing love and energy. 💓

[@campbellreynolds4769]

Wow what a great guy. Stephan you fought hard twice and almost got there, third times a charm. Sending love from New Zealand, go get it mate

[@lw3894]

Just so y’all know it’s possible - I celebrated 10 years dope free last month. Went from living on the streets to being married to a beautiful woman and having a great career. It’s possible you just have to be willing to change everything about your life. I’m not trying to brag, I’m just trying to bring a little hope to anyone that reads this and thinks there is no escape. I love you all, -Dopeless Hope Addict

[@maryannhope8276]

God Bless you ❤

[@elizabethluna1899]

Congratulations that is something to brag about such a great accomplishment. Stay strong nothing is worth going back.

[@cherhop1]

Proud of you, what a powerful transformation.

[@lw3894]

Thank you everyone❤️ stay strong and keep one foot in front of the other

[@Paper.packages.3333]

Wish you all the best 💗🇬🇧

[@Mohjoe62]

When it comes to his mom, Stephan immediately starts crying.That shows how much he loved his mom.I wish Stephan a life as a bartender again,and he was happy there.Love from germany

[@MrShoward73]

My mother was a narcissist and we were estranged for years as a result. She died just as I was starting to bridge the gap, and I still cry sometimes over the loss. I sympathise with him entirely.

[@amberk4978]

Narcissist never change.

[@bradycakes5]

I’m sorry it wasn’t where you wanted/needed it to be before it ended. I truly believe your mom is with you now and would do it all over if she could. Sending a hug your way. ♥️

[@KristyMills]

So hard to watch. Oh my gosh. Heart broken. This guy is so bright, kind, compassionate & empathetic. Stephan, you got this bud! You have so much love to share with the world!

[@LexWick]

I've watched pretty much all these videos and for some reason this one is the saddest. Not that there is a rating or scale but this one really got me. Love this guy (not that I know him that well but still).

[@b1k2q34]

You don't know him at all. I mean, seriously.

[@LexWick]

@@b1k2q34 you're right. I rarely ever comment on videos. Normally I'd agree with you, yet I had a reaction (for some reason) and just thought I'd post.

[@20frendmax]

Hes just like this for real. A great kid. I miss him. Sincerely, one of his 5 siblings

[@janicejacome]

@@20frendmax l believe it..he's a sweetheart l would love to have for a brother. Best of luck, love ,and new start in 2022.

[@misstruboyzrc]

He seems like such a loving, kind, beautiful soul yet full of so much pain it’s palpable. I hope he finds a way to quit running, get clean & start a life that makes him happy!!

[@susanrichardson3639]

She knew you loved her and wouldn’t want you to torture yourself. You should find your sobriety and spend your life helping others in her honor,

[@katlara9161]

That is absurd! His life belongs to HIM, not to a memory. She's gone, now it is time for him to look for his own path.

[@susanrichardson3639]

@@katlara9161 while you might think it’s absurd, he is continuing to use to numb out from his feelings and by his emotional reaction when speaking about the guilt and loss he feels around the relationship with his mom he continues to torture himself. I was merely suggesting he turn these negative emotions into something positive by finding his sobriety and then using his enormous talents as a nurse and someone who has dealt with addiction and loss. He could really help a lot of people. That’s all......

[@justliss1640]

Much love to you Stephan These interviews make more of a difference than I think people realize not only to addicts but to ignorance thank you both 💚

[@kimpierce2844]

Stephen, your a doll. I love your spirit ❤. You would be a great nurse, not too late. Get some counseling. Let that shit go baby. Save yourself son. !!

[@cynthiasparks7363]

I think this is my favorite so far..Great sense of humor. Raw real and smart 💯

[@danielbrown1724]

Damn, this one is a tough one Feeling for this bloke, not because I’m also a Florida dude, but because he has some serious things to overcome in order to find happiness 💜🙏🏻💜🤟😎

[@him4690]

We can't ever find happiness really

[@davidx4120]

YES

[@meco4068]

Never heard a Florida dude use the term bloke

[@AliasOnlyTV]

Woulda never guessed your not a Florida dude holy shit. Dan brown what u write the fuckin DaVinci code or are u just cursed with a john smith ass name.

[@danielbrown1724]

@@meco4068 yea, born and raised in England, moved to FL at 15 years old, been here ever since. I have an intertwined mix of British slang and Florida twang 🤣🤣🤣😳😳😳

[@lburke2002]

You're a beautiful person Stephan. And you're a nurse! There is so much hope for you. I would love to see an update.

[@aurorarose2836]

Nursing school coming out with his statement about "Maslow's hierarchy of needs". I hope he gets clean and sober once and for all. Steve needs to renew his nursing license ASAP even if he doesn't intend on practicing...always keep your professional licence current.

[@hmmm8552]

Maslow’s hierarchy of needs is exactly what I say every video and in person. They are essential and without absolutely wrecks havoc.

[@Vixen160]

Aurora... You still have to be working or work as a nurse, and most likely an address, let alone passing drug tests if employed to keep your license...

[@aurorarose2836]

@@Vixen160 ...I would like to think a PO Box or family/friend would lend an address. A nurse can keep their license current without practicing, as long as CEUs are met. There is no need for drug test unless working. Many nurses take time off to raise a family and return to nursing when their children are older. Many nurses have branched into another career and still keep their license current.

[@donaldmartinez1764]

@@Vixen160 all he needs is the ceus and to pay..a lot of nurses don’t even work as a nurse but keep it active because why not? There nurses on top of whatever there career is..

[@lorrainechavez654]

Didn't I hear that he relapsed just before he was to take his State Board Exams?

[@Ennuae]

This channel is so helpful for people who are currently on the fence with drug addictions. Watching the stories helps me each day stay away from the downward spiral of this type of life. Thank you Mark

[@emilydobbins3938]

I hope he finds the strength within him to seek help. He deserves better than the life he is currently living. I hope sharing his story helps him start to process his emotions and trauma. It seems to me that Stephan would benefit from a long-term rehab and intensive counseling. He has such a sweet, kind soul. I wish I could give him a hug and tell him his life matters, he deserves so much more and he is loved.

[@davidx4120]

I believe if he gets clean FOR GOOD, he'll be great. He has an infectious personality.

[@emilydobbins3938]

@@davidx4120 I think it's very hard for people to get clean for good when they have trauma, especially childhood trauma, that has gone untreated. Addiction isn't just a matter of staying clean, avoiding the drug and other people who use. If trauma is left untreated, and the person isn't taught new healthier coping mechanisms, it's going to be extremely hard not to relapse. This channel, plus being close to someone who has struggled her entire life with addiction, and knowing trauma is what caused her to use in the first place has taught me this.

[@colleenuchiyama4916]

Don’t hate yourself , Stephan! You are a phenomenal man, and you need to remember this every day!

[@kpeezyforsheezy]

This dude wants to get clean so bad that I truly believe he will. Many addicts I’ve come across don’t even express the want or will to live a sober life, that’s what I knew always separated me from them. You can only beat yourself up like this for so long before you do something to change it. You either completely check out or you start taking steps to better yourself. I can tell he’s not ready to check out. He still feels, deeply. I hope the best for him. There’s resources out there and people waiting to help. ♥️

[@issafacelift]

Glad you're clean now. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do

[@kpeezyforsheezy]

@@issafacelift same bro, same. It took me over a decade. We both made it through one of the most difficult things life will ever throw at us. I hope you’re proud of yourself. IM PROUD OF YOU 🙏🏼

[@saragoff9065]

Very well said. Thank you! And well done K. ❤️

[@issafacelift]

@@kpeezyforsheezy thank you very much. Proud of you for kicking addictions ass too! 🤙🏻❤ I try to remember how far I've made it after going through addiction, but I have ups and downs. Like now, in the worst rutt and have never felt so dreadfully depressed/useless. I won't relapse, but I fucking wish I actually had a support system instead of dealing with it in my own head and driving myself crazy lol

[@ThePerezHilton]

He got so emotional throughout. My heart hurt for him!

[@caroldavis8570]

Watch these every single night, never commented before. This one broke me.

[@heidixlouise138]

Unfortunately hes passed :/

[@nicolebalm6116]

Stephan, don't be ashamed please and you DO deserve it . Please get clean for the third time, you deserve to be happy, and thank you for sharing your story. I hope all the best for you. Love from Spain.

[@amrita4468]

Listening to Stephan just twisted my heart. Words can't express how much I hope you can get clean and feel good about yourself again, Stephan. You're an astounding person with more potential than most! Wow, you are so lovable. Best of luck. Be safe. Please keep us posted.

[@Mercever_]

This one really got me. I really really hope you find it in yourself Stephan to get clean for YOURSELF !

[@NightLights420]

Wow man, props on you bro. You allowed so much emotion to pour out of your soul for the duration of this video, that is some real strength right there👏

[@DaShrimpBros2]

I’ve watched a lot of these videos and this might be the saddest. It’s so straight forward and so brutal with such numbness to it. I hope he’s doing alright, he and so many in his situation deserve better

[@amstergal]

Stephan, my heart goes out to you. You are so well spoken, personable, sensitive, (a beautiful quality), and graduated Nursing School which I know from friends is no easy feat at all. I hope hope hope for you that you can try whatever you decide would help to peel off the layers of self loathing. Please love yourself and nurture the beautiful soul you are. ❤️

[@chicomendez3720]

My human compassion and heart goes out to Stephan...I cried along with him and I also feel the same pain he does. I know very well...exactly what he's feeling, the sorrow, pain... I lost my only younger brother Oct.30-2020,he was younger than me 43yrs old I'm 47... He died of a sudden heart attack...since then I've been going through hell and the only thing that takes the huge emptiness and pain at least for a short time is drugs...each passing month I seem to get deeper & deeper into it for example weed (not too much of problem keeps me off the harder drugs), alcohol, cocaine, crystal meth,oxycotin,codeine...and now I discovered...Heroin..in reality now they say all the Heroin is cut with fentanall & carfentanall.... Dear God....

[@janicejacome]

Do something NOW please because you know the train is speeding down the tracks. I live it daily.. for decades. If you wait too long, the real kisser is when the self loathing comes in...cuz then you think and almost HOPE that train speeds up..PLEASE don't get to that point. Your brother would want you happy.

[@callumgillies9611]

What a decent person. There is a wholesomeness and kindness to Stephan that I hope he doesn't lose.

[@dload1658]

You’re a really nice guy Stefan. I am confident you can do it. It may take time but you will. Stay strong. 🤙

[@kimdoe3374]

Stephan, I am truly sorry for the loss of your mom. My mom died in 2017. She was everything to me. I have managed to crawl out of the hole I have been in since. Everyday is a challenge, but it is a new day. I hope you find your niche in life. You will see her again.

[@lucas.daniel]

Hopefully Stephan can get clean. It seems like he has a lot of potential. I know he feels bad about his mom, but he still has siblings that are alive and his father that he needs to also tend to, otherwise he will live with regrets once they pass. I was also shocked to hear that his old sponsor doesn't talk to him ... I can only image how that affects struggling addicts...

[@20frendmax]

We are all alive and qere doing good. We have overcome the trauma. Steph needs to know we are home. Hes so ashamed and completely jaded. His dad is a very kind man. My dad, his stepdad loves him too. We miss him.

[@lucas.daniel]

@@20frendmax That's great to hear. I hope that Stephan will reconnect with you guys. Most addicts are ashamed when they are in their addictions but they forget that family is there to support each other.

[@Corrupted-file]

@@20frendmax Just responding to these posts shows such a strong sense of family support that many don’t have…thanks!

[@mandyylolo]

I see so much potential in him. He’s gone through a lot, he needs cognitive therapy and to learn how to “retrain his brain” to function without drugs/alcohol. If he can get thru that, I see a bright future for him.

[@janicejacome]

So little do l know and need SO MUCH HELP... l will look into this, there's got to be a way be a way. THANK YOU!

[@elelenamakdne]

What a beautiful person. Honest, kind, charming, funny. Tortured by a substance.

[@accountsofsolon7598]

It's the abuse he's really tortured by The drugs are the cope

[@rubymeagher1005]

Held captive with every word! Sending healing grace, dear boy♥️

[@bexski579]

Stephan, it is okay to have regrets and to grieve the loss of your mother. Be compassionate and gentle with yourself because you deserve the love and kindness you give to others!!

[@janicejacome]

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[@noeljjohnson]

My heart breaks for him. You can literally feel the pain and suffering he is going through as he tells his story. I wish he would reach out to his family so that he could have that “home” he so desperately wants and needs. Maybe that would be the beginning of having peace In his life.

[@girlscribe2845]

This man's soul is a bright light beaming. Stephan, I want to read your story, a longer version. Start writing it down! You think you are worthless now but in fact you are extremely inspiring. Your life is full of grief but your SELF is still beaming and compelling and beautiful. You restore my faith in what is most beautiful in us, that suffering and shame won't blot out.

[@christophersovereignshaw2325]

You look just like my old friend Ryan who also struggled with meth and opiates. You got a good heart and soul

[@Mac22a]

He seems so emotionally and intellectually intelligent, and such a caring person - no wonder he became a nurse.

[@nicoledavis4576]

It breaks my heart that Stefan feels so alone. He has a tragic but beautiful story. ❤️❤️🙏🏻

[@chudgolf2112]

wow. Stephan.....your potential is unlimited. literally. smart, compassionate, reflective. don't give up. you are loved and worth so much

[@pamronning]

So many of the people you interview are incredibly intelligent. Gods speed to his full recovery

[@loveyourselfplease6842]

You can come back from this Stephan. I've been practicing abstinence for almost 6 yrs now, single coming up on 11 yrs & it's been incredibly eye opening getting to know myself & being able to put my attention & energy into my kid. I've gone through addiction & alcoholism & when cancer took the life of my 5 yr old child I sank to my lowest point. I got drunk for the last time in 2010 & when I discovered I was pregnant in 2011 I decided to try changing my life because I knew I'd be raising my son as a single parent. I have to keep myself in check on a daily basis because I depend on prescription pain meds due to chronic health issues that cause severe pain. I have to be responsible for only taking the amount prescribed every day & I haven't had an increase in dosage for 4 yrs now but chose to go down a dose 3 yrs ago. Everyone has to decide when they've reached a point where they refuse to sink any lower & choose to turn it around. Even if it means messing up a few times that is ok, as long as you continue trying you haven't failed. I hope anyone watching this that has struggled with their own demons will seek the help they need or continue on the path they climbed to from the bottom. Please stay safe everyone & remember that negativity is a choice so please choose to spread positivity whenever you can. Yes I'm sure that's stitched on a pillow somewhere.

[@bethanymckeel4180]

This guy has so much to offer the world! He's nice, funny, caring--I'm sure he would make a great nurse. I hope he gets back into rehab and finds happiness and peace!

[@kristn6513]

Mark has a brilliant skill of finding good people.

[@arielly5747]

I never comment on these videos but this one really got me. My heart is breaking for Stephan🥺 I hope you are able to get clean and start loving life again soon. You deserve it.

[@12484uespicysvideo]

The only interview from here that made me cry, so much shame inside that beautiful soul.. please be strong Stephan you deserve good things and to be close to your family. If god exists I hope he makes him find a way and find peace of mind and happiness.

[@andjakeas]

Man this one hurt. He is a genuinely beautiful guy. I hope he gets the chance to be proud of himself once again.

[@diegoshepherd3464]

Poor guy has just obliterated his life and mind with drugs, sadness, living in the past. I hope he is able to get himself together. He has so much potential to have a great, happy life. Good luck to you.

[@gabrielmartin4726]

Insightful reply Diego. Living in the past is a hard cycle to break in and of itself. I can't imagine how challenging it would be addicted and homeless.

[@angeliaparish]

Stephan - thank you for pouring it all out. Only the best for you and your future.

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

You can do it again, Stephan! I'm rooting for you in Nashville!

[@pjfleming4115]

Stephan, you should be so proud of yourself for baring your soul. You are an example of all that is good about humanity. Life has dealt you a harsh hand but your recognition of self, of your problems, and the beautiful way you've vocalised your hardships and your triumphs is nothing less than inspiring. I hope you find your way through the fog! You have so much to offer and maybe this interview was the touchstone. Good luck, mate! It won't be easy but then life never is. Choose life mate ... it's waiting for you! You've probably saved someone's life by baring your soul. I firmly believe that you will find yourself and that you'll become even more awesome! Kudos, mate! PJ.

[@rogieru8796]

I miss my mom like he does , she died when I was 4 and at any moment I can cry when I think about it. Best wishes and God bless.

[@maryannhope8276]

I'm so sorry. ⚘

[@DeathTrapProductions]

I share so much in common with this man. The beauty of this show is that ir really makes you realize how much we all suffer in similar ways and that we should love and support others as much as possible.

[@flcutie315]

Wow he really needed to talk about his life i believe this interview will help him ! Hold on Stephan i see sobreity headed your way but this time will be the last time ! I feel it in my gut !, life has just begun for you dont give up !,

[@alexasmith6473]

I loved this interview! "Maslow's hierarchy of needs"... His mention of spirituality... I love ur presence, Stephan and your story telling and your voice. So sorry for all the confusing, chaotic trauma... & Your mom's death... I think you are so intelligent, empathic and aware... I got pulled into your story. It was in some aspects personally relatable but also so uniquely authentic and honest, such an emotionally moving personal account and well spoken. Spirit is on your side. I hope you can access that somehow. If not, it's ok. Spirit doesn't judge or punish; only we do... Until we don't any longer... Prayers and best wishes, blessings to you

[@bryan2316]

He is very bright. I do understand one makes their own decisions, but his mother was, and is a big part where he is at. She showed him the path to drugs and addiction. This channel always shows that parents are a big influence on peoples lives. I hope only the best for this guy. I hope he can find what he is looking for and live a filling life away from drugs and addiction

[@20frendmax]

She was my stepmother. She was a very proper lady with a good job. She just couldn't handle her bipolar disorder. I don't know why she went to drugs. Was not in her character. Steph was doing pills as a teen. I couldn't help him. It was so disfunctional.

[@conquercrps8450]

I am so sorry for not reaching out while I had the chance. You were a great kid & I am heartbroken to hear this interview & now learn of your passing. You deserved better. I'll play some spyro later & think of you- I hope you are resting in peace, Stephan ❤️

[@mddell58]

Wow. Stephan's racing speech, & his anxiety is spilling out everywhere. 😳 I really believe he needs to find a non-damaging way to release the majority of his anxious reserve 'tanks.' He'd certainly have far less self-loathing talks & conversations with himself. Take GOOD care of yourself, Stephan. ♥️

[@chaseriderthetruthchaser5988]

Yeah, or maybe he's high on speed 🤔 seems to be a nice guy who needs a little help with treatment.

[@20frendmax]

One of his siblings here...he's actually like this naturally

[@brandonjoseph1489]

Lol it’s called drugs 😂

[@jeremyraymond1306]

I have literally never commented on a KZbin video before, like... ever, but I feel for Stephen. I pray he can find his true self once again. I know he can. He's smart, charming, loving and honest. My love goes out to him. Bless your precious soul. More than I believe in you.