What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger-Christine

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Christine, a woman from Bakersfield, California, who shares the story of the struggles in her life.
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[@olgabalakshina1410]

Another amazing human being. It was an honour and pleasure to hear your story^ Christine!

[@deborahbreeden4394]

In my early 30s, my Mom told me that she was jealous of me for my courage to go out into the world. I replied that I was surprised to hear that because I thought that I got my courage from watching her. In the 1960s, my Mom was the only Mom in the neighborhood who would drive to the auto parts store, and she always came back with the right part.

[@joeadams-iv9yb]

I found that what doesn't kill you can still screw you up pretty bad.

[@ronniemead805]

Unless you can turn it around like Christine did.

[@mykiea5156]

Truth

[@tanyabarboza4759]

Word!

[@irenelakhan5331]

Absolutely

[@lavernebell6274]

That’s why I’m so sick of that saying. Even though it hasn’t killed me Im fucked up

[@lanctermann7261]

Her story was quite relatable. She is a survivor, and a very intelligent one. I love her facial expression. In her there was no trace of self-pity. I see great wisdom in her eyes. She ought to have a portrait painted of herself.

[@holly0297]

Christine's so beautiful inside and out. I know that's said a lot, but in her case it's not hyperbole! My mom was like her - and I was the luckiest daughter who ever lived until I lost her. I should have my mother painted! 🥰

[@christinemcbride9527]

@@holly0297 what a beautiful way to honor your mom and keep her presence with you always. Paint away! ❤️

[@DS-mh5hb]

I like thriver even better , but yep, she's a good one ❤️

[@JulieD-t5x]

Christine, I have been on a healing journey for 71 years...thought I was healed, then something happens, one stumbles and you lose your confidence...i was thinking about giving up today & ending my life once and for all, believing it to be my fault...some how your story reached me & gave me the confidence to get up off of the floor & keep on keeping on....bless you...bless you...bless you! You are one amazing person, and i think that i might be too!

[@selfesteem3447]

Prayers ! Keep on keeping on🤍

[@lilmamalove1623]

Don’t give up before the miracle happens!

[@JeffMTX]

We have to stick it out. I’m in the same hole. This is our only mortal life. We might as well see it through and keep trying. God will take us when it’s time.

[@margaretwebb389]

Theses comments are very uplifting and inspiring!! We are not alone in our struggles! We are here for some reason/purpose. Blessings everyone

[@traceyleeherrera5247]

wishing you hope, wellness and healing ❤️

[@xavierflorence9050]

As a mental health counsellor and a man with a huge empathetic heart. This is without question. The greatest channel of any form of medium. I recommend it to every allied health professional to view. It will certainly teach you far more than any other text or source will ever do. To Mark Laita. You are an absolute saint and genius. Bless you man ❤️🙏

[@luvyatubers]

This is what I've always wanted. Growing up only celebrities and heroes of the day got to tell their stories

[@nerida1487]

Absolutely! Thank you Mark. I'm an avid viewer from Sydney Australia. Love your work!!

[@kimhutchinson2759]

Advanced psych nurse here & I concur. Just what everyone needs. Ears that hear.

[@LyndaDixon-k9s]

I don't think for a MOMENT! MrML is a Saint - but he's a Smart Fab! Man INDEED!!

[@maddieaper719]

Thank you again Mark. I am a healing arts practitioner and I have been hoping for you to interview those who have healed themselves. Beautiful

[@joannemates6367]

I’ll be 50 in December and I have lots of similar stories and experiences. Minus the alcohol and marriages. I am also the product of severe childhood and generational trauma. I have spent the last 5 years working with a brilliant psychologist and have been on a healing journey too. It’s a work in progress. It’s not finite. I picked her as an artist before she even mentioned that. What a beautiful woman, she has obviously done lots of difficult soul searching and has been through so much. “Courage is being afraid and still doing the hard thing.” I wish her so much love, strength, healing and peace. Cheers, from Country Victoria. Australia 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺

[@sherryd.3425]

Love to you also, Joanne. I'm 60 years old. Same effort, same story, same outcome, I hope.

[@GoyedOUT]

I’m a 70 year old man .And found her story incredibly inspirational …Physical pain is a constant at this point of my life.( Chronic back pain )….maybe I can apply some of her suggestions to raise above these challenges.Thanks Mark for having her on today!!

[@TopSecretInformations]

Best to you, Stay inspired!

[@sherryd.3425]

Love to you! Chronic pain can make us weary and bitter. However, it can also make us kind and loving. Children come into the world and experience the pain that we, as adults, believe is so debilitating. We are just gosh darn wimpy....but if asked, I'll swear to God you are in the worst pain that I have ever seen. I will declare to it, stand by it, and challenge anyone who believes you should endure. I just can't understand why a 70-year-old man doesn't qualify for high-grade, government-paid for pain medicine. I have worked for 40 years so that you can have legitimate comfort. Love to Mark, but I really want you to be okay too.

[@powderandpaint14]

You may want to read "when the body says no" by Gabor Mate, and "The body keeps the score".

[@froggy9191]

Ditto with the chronic back pain. How you can find some relief from it soon 💐

[@ronniemead805]

You may want to look into certain supplements like Magnesium, Boron, Tumeric and Bentofamine. Our foods are totally depleted of the minerals necessary for good health, so supplements is the way to go.

[@kimmandley9356]

She is me. I also have the Power of Now book somewhere...sadly my education doesn't translate into a career, but, I just have to work with that. I am 56 years old & have truly been feeling useless. She is so inspiring & I needed to see this today. Thank you.

[@derrick8224]

Thank you for sharing

[@kimmandley9356]

@@derrick8224 thank you❤️

[@sandraumney5516]

also, me. thank you, too.

[@paularobinson5031]

Sending you lots of love from melbourne Australia Kim - you are valued and ur worth is beyond any gifts you feel you lack 💞

[@kimmandley9356]

@@paularobinson5031 Thank you, Dear Paula. You touched my heart.❤️ blessings to you.

[@3ZN357]

Her compassion and well spoken kindness was right on time. Her objectivity in retrospection ironically makes me feel so choked up right now. Thank you, Mark. Needed this one today.

[@carynmartin6053]

Same!

[@Mimi4justice]

Same also

[@routinemsp2705]

Same

[@soulessvalleys8404]

💯

[@nikkidotts1279]

I ABSOLUTELY AGREE

[@outingsforoldladieswhoaren7664]

Oh my love... it was so helpful to hear your story. I too wasted so much potential because I did not believe in myself. At 63, I am just starting to develop boundaries and accepting myself. Sometimes I think it's part of our generational inheritance.

[@Stumpybear7640]

We are here to learn x

[@jennytaylor3324]

"The apple doesn't fall far from the tree" is a very accurate old adage!

[@bayoubabe6698]

Yes, you can work on this, everyday!!!! Blessings and Peace ✌️

[@KateElizabeth1013]

The way she explained her family’s generational trauma is incredible. So, so relatable.

[@icehorse79]

Her level of awareness is mindblowing. What a wise and radiant woman. I took a lot from this and would love to see her share some of her wisdom online 😊

[@rhyhunter8750]

I'm having a very hard day, I'm free falling with things out of my control, my heart feels tight and my breath staggered. I'm really emotionally and physically low today. I'm spiralling down deeper. So much of this resonated. Thank you, I'm 41 and I'm feeling some hope after this turnaround story. I wanted it to be over and give up today... But we have to believe and carry on.

[@christinemcbride9527]

❤

[@donnadonato527]

I hope you are doing well

[@stacyinfishers]

Today I felt that too and at 60 needed it, almost related too much today

[@skyehannah8388]

Thank you for being here and sharing! Your words helped me ❤❤❤

[@rebeccag189]

Whew! That was beyond intense; I felt it. I’ve had so many of the same experiences, issues, problems, and feelings. Generational trauma, drug/alcohol abuse, physical/sexual abuse. I have clawed my way back several times. I struggle. I persevere. I’m 63. Hearing “the rest of the story” is exceptionally uplifting, and helpful. It reminded me of what I am capable of. Thank you so much!

[@amandacurry3050]

What a beautiful, well spoken woman Christine is. Thank you for sharing you experience, strength and hope ❤

[@wendymarie7151]

Couldn't have said it any better. ❤😊

[@andreaponce4006]

I cried watching this video bc I relate to her situations so much. I am 18 trying to find myself while still overcoming my trauma. It is almost like seeing an older version of myself. Thank you so much for sharing her story, I really needed to hear this.

[@michaelp5518]

Go into the military. Get on your own 2 feet. learn a computer trade or something useful. learn how to exist in the real world. I became a marine, then a medical tech. then a dentist. The military was the one major life changing aspect. I had my own developing issues growing up.

[@holly0297]

@@michaelp5518 I was soo close to joining the Army when young, then I met a few guys and got a bad vibe. Maybe should've gone Marines, eh? 😀But to your point, yes, military's often a great option! *Thanks* for your service, Michael!❤🤍💙

[@mrpapakc]

or the medical field!!!

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

Don't go into the military, pls! It will just lead yo more trauma, possibly worse.

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

​@@michaelp5518 why are you telling someone to go to military and eventually be a dentist? You have no clue about this person, their life, their talents, interests, etc.

[@francinegeddis7947]

This talk with Christine was a much needed gift in so many ways.

[@gigiarmany]

this sweet lady is the polar opposite of a narcissist, she gives so much & takes on ALL of the responsibility ...give yourself a hug & a break my dear, having a tough childhood as yours & no support is NOT your fault,wishing you all blessings on your healing journey..🙏🏽🖤❤️🥰

[@CassieBee88]

Omg, her ability to step outside of herself and her situation, and grasp the full range of her emotions and all involved is genius emotional level. If this woman is not a motivational speaker, she should be.

[@wendyh3297]

The joy radiating off her is so palpable. I am so so grateful (for lack of a better word) that she not only found her own way out but is now teaching it to others. Her passion for leading the teenagers she is working with (you can see on her face how she lights up talking about them) out of the darkness and into light is going to save a lot of kids.

[@ronniemead805]

Yes, this is what redemption looks like.

[@katiecrull77]

I'm sure I'm not the only one who identified personally with this story. Very enlightening. Her photo was brilliant! You can see the strength and confidence in her eyes. Thank you both!

[@AnaFernandez-jp5uh]

Me too.

[@cynthiakluth7748]

Ditto for me ladies..

[@cleansetsandbaguettes5236]

I cannot explain how much I needed to see and hear this interview today. The timing is incredible, and I dont think it.s a coincidence. Thank you again Mark, and thank you Christine for enlightening me and giving me hope through your words. So incredibly inspiring. Thank you, thank you. Thank you, Mark for sharing thissory.

[@moonchipper3087]

Ditto!

[@amandabiz]

I was just about to write this. This was beyond amazing and important to me right now

[@LindaMcification]

You're in sync with everything and so am I....

[@micheleherrera8070]

Same!

[@adarr23]

I couldn't take my eyes off of your interview Christine. You are beautiful and wise and have a fascinating take on life. Your words and story came along when I needed them most. For this I thank you.

[@boburuncle41]

I was told, "The way out is the way through" and "You have to feel it to heal it" took a while to apply those terms, but has left me very free. very nice lady, thanks for being open.

[@alimcally279]

She was so inspiring! I had to share it with my 50 yr old daughter who's going thru the same thing. Thank you!

[@col.cottonhill6655]

Wow your daughter is 50? You must be up there in age. I didn't know there were fans of this channel your age.

[@JulieM-ff9dq]

​@@col.cottonhill6655 ?

[@playingwithkash2134]

Not that it matters , but how old are you ?

[@eatwithcandy7147]

@@col.cottonhill6655 wtf 🤡💀

[@damienholland8103]

@@col.cottonhill6655 you gotta be trolling.

[@DebbyBuchman]

Wow. Just as I was thinking Christine needs to be a speaker and share this with the world, she says she’s a teacher. I would love to learn from her. How inspirational! Thank you Christine and Mark.

[@prettyhtemachine]

Christine, you are my favorite guest! I, too, carried my moms trauma growing up, and I try so hard not to pass it on to my kids, but i see my daughter being fearful of men and everything around her just like me. It's a struggle. I lean on everyone, i became a stay at home mom, and my husband of 9 years wants a divorce and wants to be financially free of me because im a burden to him. Im trying so hard to find my wings, but it is not easy. Your words spoke to me today, and it makes so much sense. Thank you for that!! 💜

[@jessicadavis2449]

Her story was so beautiful. I just want to keep listening. I can tell she’s touched so many lives and has found purpose in her work. I’ll always think of Christine now.

[@Lilcrisy]

I absolutely LOVE HER!!! I can relate to her on so many levels. What a beautiful woman! God bless 🙏🏼✨

[@JulieM-ff9dq]

I feel the same way. I can relate to much of her story, minus the alcohol problem that her father had (or any substances). I am close to her age (probably older) and people didn't seek help like they do now, nor did they know as much about mental health. So now there's a lot of traumatized people and we're passing our trauma on to our kids. In my parents' case, they did the best they knew how and so did I. I just wish I knew then what I knew now.

[@lisaaxe9062]

Yes, her story is so relatable. I’ve been thru generational trauma and also my own. I’ve never had therapy, but am not against it. At 60, I just don’t know if it’s worthwhile to “ unpack” it all, at this time in my life. I’m always saying to myself, “what’s the point.”

[@christinemcbride9527]

@@lisaaxe9062 no matter your age, it’s Always worth the effort ❤

[@mare6366]

it's so great to hear someone talk about the "pain body"!!! I read about it yrs ago and can recognize it in so many ppl. everyone should hear her story 🙏

[@ofrapeters3952]

Christine is such a beautiful woman inside and out … she is saying what so many of us experienced… I wish for her to continue to transform and heal and reconnect to the beautiful light that she is …

[@mermaidofaloha]

Thanks 4 sharing. I'm 60, lots of childhood trauma, a near death experience in 2007 (different than yours)." The unconditional love I am made of" "go back & fill up the landscape", your story really helped me a lot. Thank you. God bless you.🙏

[@adrianimee8665]

I love this woman!! Sooo smart and sophisticated and inspirational and so much intelligence and inquisitive!! And she went through a lot and is humble.

[@well_weathered]

My parents and grandparents were both traumatized and they left the city for northeast Michigan when I was nine. Giving up good jobs we struggled to make it every year. We did not have insurance so you didn't want to get sick. Generational trauma is important to understand. Thank you Christine. You just gave me an important nudge!

[@LindaMcification]

Yes indeedy...

[@debrareeves1005]

It doesn't get any more real then this woman right here. Thank you for that uplift I needed right now. God Bless the both of you.

[@danettecherry5003]

Through your channel, we are gifted with all types of inspirational people coming into our lives. Normally, we would not be fortunate enough to be influenced by people and their stories, if it wasn't for you.

[@tinasmith7630]

And the willin people 2 open n share their stories n hearts. No channel!!!

[@leneo1731]

To be honest, a few days ago I actually felt like I needed a break from SWU. I've been watching every day for a long time, 1,5 year maybe. The addicts stories are very hard for me to watch. Some of them stick with me for days. I believe it was during the weekend when Mark released an interview with this 39 year old prostitute from Thailand. Watching that video broke my heart. I know I'll be thinking about her for a very, very long time. Maybe I'm different than you. Because to me not many of these interviews are inspirational. Yesterday's interview with Pretty who was a recovering Fentanyl addict, was inspirational! Also, I love Frenchie's interviews, she's so great. I love her mindset! And this woman's story gives me hope and I admire her. I'm not trying to be rude or argue. I ask because I find it interesting. Which interviews do you talk about? I just wonderer if I'm to pessimistic to see that there's inspiration in other interviews as well. I'm struggling with depression so that kind of are colouring everything. Or it takes away the colouring is actually more correct because most things become grey and that's sad. I'd love to see all the colours. Maybe you see more colours than me. Or it may be the definition of inspirational, maybe my interpretation is different than yours. I'm sorry for rambling on. I just find these things very interesting.

[@jenniferharvey8696]

I’m with you! I understand what you’re saying. I’ve watched A LOT of SWU videos. Some break my heart and others inspire me. I think the juxtaposition of them helps me to appreciate both in their own right. Mark, I tell whoever will listen about your channel. I love hearing people’s stories.

[@ginny8150]

@@leneo1731 I'm with you

[@MC-fw5vt]

Unfortunately, I have a ton of these folks everywhere in my family, lol. Too close for comfort.

[@Catalinaobregon]

She has as a wonderful ability to articulate her troubled upbringing, feelings that ensue and recognition of the reasons behind choices she made in her life. Well done, Christine. I am sure your story resonates with a lot of people including me. The one thing about this channel is you realize you are not alone in your struggles or journey on this planet. It's all about love.

[@ssfov]

She is so bubbly and brings a warm and welcoming feeling with her presence. Never would I have ever thought or expected seeing her and listening to her that she experienced all that in her life. Never judge a book by its cover

[@kdm313]

What I took away was. There’s always hope. Thank You Christine.

[@creolelady3930]

Always ❤️

[@tinasmith7630]

Hpe comes frm God.

[@brittany7662]

This video is one of my top favorite episodes, so inspiring and genuine. I ordered the book she mentioned and I can’t wait to read it. I’m in my early 30s and I want to experience enlightenment sooner than later and I am on the right track ♥️

[@kaytsmudge4359]

I loved this book, also read A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle as-well if it resonates with you 💕

[@Ernest-vh1zm]

I'm gonna order it now, too!!!

[@donikatod460]

I love how she talks about the lessons and healing and conclusions rather than details about the traumatic experiences. Overcoming victimhood is such a major blessing and effort.

[@ToolFan68]

The reason she doesn’t talk about the details is because then we would find out the truth about her. She’s had how many marriages now? ALL the men are baddies. LOL! Typical modern American woman. Totally selfish, blames everybody for their problems (especially men) ends up living with a cat and taking in strangers to pretend they now can help others. Notice that she never is the victimizer in any of her stories. Women are just as, if not more, emotionally abusive than men, yet most of them have no clue that it’s even possible as they have been raised in a matriarchal western society and that they themselves are doing the very thing that they are accusing others of. Men are waking up, hopefully women will eventually do the same so we can improve society. It takes two to tango ladies.

[@donikatod460]

@@ToolFan68 well, growing up in a family where a 6-year old is sipping cocktails, it's not surprising she'd have a series of bad relationships. It's not that all men are bad and she doesn't say that. But it's likely she attracts a certain type of men and she says that too. It happens all the time people go from one bad relationship to the next bad one. Seems she has discovered she is better off on her own because she is not able to be in a stable relationship. She can still help others. Many people who are in toxic relationships are not wise enough to leave them and perhaps consider no relationship is a better option.

[@quinnalame]

@@ToolFan68she never said she wasn’t the problem…she indirectly says she’s apart of the problem. that’s the point of her half her story. 💀

[@karenpappin4017]

I honestly can't begin to tell you how important and impactful this conversation was to me, thank you Mark and thanks you Christine for sharing your story... the difference this will make to so many is unquantifiable ... I'm so grateful

[@BratLisa]

I just ordered the book The Power of Now. As I am also in my 50's and need a new way of life. I pray you are healing and are enjoying life today. Thank you for your honesty.

[@RetireandGo]

The challenges , the struggles, these things make us strong. Resilient. I wish her peace and good fortune in life.

[@Stumpybear7640]

Resilience is a much over used word.

[@sandraalegria3439]

O.M.G. I love you lady. This interview is like therapy I can so relate to being so scared of EVERYTHING. I've been in isolation voluntarily just to avoid anxiety and fear.

[@jacobwiggers1973]

Great message. Finding the causes and solutions to the problems rather than drugs/bandaids.

[@ronniemead805]

WOW! You knocked it out of the ballpark with this one Mark. Spellbinding and inspiring lady. WOW, just WOW!

[@danielhiddleston1100]

I'm a 54 year old woman and this is absolutely eye opening thank you Mark ❣️

[@patriciamunro3060]

She's experienced a lot throughout her life. She's very well spoken, knowledgeable and intelligent. Wish her all the best! ❤

[@staceyv4186]

Pure gold!!! Christine you are a brave and capable woman. Thank you for sharing your story of hope and resiliency in spite of the trauma. Generational trauma does not have to continue if we are brave enough to face our fears and create our own story. We have agency as adults, but if we are stuck in the trauma our inner child is in charge. Our focus turns to comforting the traumatized child, loving them, and thanking them for protecting us at that time. The maladaptive coping mechanisms like dissociation and compartmentalization kept us safe, but as adults those tools are not sufficient. We need to show up as adults with appropriate tools to communicate and to love. You start by loving yourself first. Christine is a living example of this! All of the people you work with are so blessed to have your knowledge, experience, and candor. Be the change you want to see! 🎉🙏❤️‍🩹

[@vivienlakner4870]

Christine, you are amazing! Your life was very like my life in a lot of ways (one of 4 sisters, alcoholism, drugs, sex, abusive relationships. Married after 3 months to an alcoholic who was further down the path than me at that time. Im now 20 years clean and sober) and ive been working on mindfulness for some time and totally relate to what your saying. Its been a joy to listen to you and im going to forward this tho my daughter as she really needs to hear it. Thankyou so much, I will be replaying this one again. And thankyou Mark for all you do. Viv in England xxx

[@laalaaa607]

This is my favorite soft white underbelly video. I resonated so much with what she said. I to an on my upward journey after 16 year battle within myself. Dmt was my “near death expierence” which brought me back to who I truly am and made me realize my part in my own suffering. She is a beautiful soul and I absolutely loved this episode. Would love to see more near death experience videos!!

[@JennyLynn-x9o]

I'm really hoping for a dmt or ayawaaka opening

[@KatieDeluxe]

She will help so many people including myself with her story. Thank you for telling the near death experience too!

[@heatherpaulson8590]

Thank you so much Mark & Christine for doing this video, so inspiring. This is the second time I’ve heard someone reference the book “The Power of Now” on this channel. We’ve been listening to Eckhart Tolle for years and it has really made a positive difference in our lives. Christine, thanks for also sharing your NDE, these experiences can have a positive impact on the experiencer as well as others who hear about them. ❤

[@shimsham9113]

this is one of my favorite interviews ever done on this channel.

[@catgonzales9084]

Thank you Mark for presenting such a “bright light” and lovely soul as Christine! 🪷☺️

[@grant4176]

She is lovely!

[@ronniemead805]

Yes, she is truly a light in the darkness.

[@kekebaseden41]

Thank you for sharing! The more I learn about the experience of others, the more patterns I see and a greater understanding of my own challenges and choices make themselves available. I had such similar experiences in my upbringing with undiagnosed adhd and low self esteem. I'm happier today in my my 50's. ❤thanks again

[@mamaw9634]

One of the best phrases I have come across- but you have to work to understand it- your experiences shape you, but don’t have to define you. Blessings to Christine! Thank you Mark for letting her talk- ❤

[@DS-mh5hb]

I think what doesn't kill you, either makes you stronger or breaks you , and then you end up surviving,thriving, or somewhere in-between . I'm very glad it made Christine stronger and appreciate her sharing .

[@KarmicPatina]

The insight gained from the open ended format, allows you to really step inside these people, even if only on a phone screen..doesn’t matter..it’s a special channel. This woman is so full of wisdom. Thank you.

[@zhara9741]

This was my favorite SWU video to date. I have been watching these for years. Simply amazing and inspiring. It soothed my soul and was exactly what I needed to hear.

[@BeeKay4444]

I am literally crying watching this. Christine is a true gem. Offers so much to others. I wish she had a YT channel or some way of contacting her.

[@carlygonnelli344]

I love your story. I associate the title, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger," with my own pain body and hurtful coping mechanisms. I appreciate the positive spin on the phrase. I have read "The Power of Now", a few times now. I learned a lot about living in your pain body, its a difficult journey. Thank you for the work you do with troubled youth and congratulations on your recognition, even though I'm a year late.

[@tinam761]

Thank you for you story !!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I am almost 55 and I’ve been in therapy for about a year. I’m FINALLY working through the trauma of childhood and adulthood. I have had counseling before, but most of it was just trying to manage the current chaos vs being able to actually make changes in myself. I sometimes feel shame when I realize how old I am and that I am just acknowledging so much… I also have several autoimmune diseases and had breast cancer. Physical pain management is what I do all day … every day within my limitations. It can be overwhelming at times if I’m unable to get small respites where it’s not dominating my thoughts. Recently it has improved a bit and I’m so grateful. Anyone else out there in our second half working to be healthier… You’re not alone. ❤

[@tinasmith7630]

Courageous u r!!! Never 2 late 2 heal. 🙏

[@Mimi4justice]

I’m 49 and have been in therapy for 2 years . Feeling very bitter and resentful it took me all this time to figure it out . Was dxed with MS last Oct …have had auto immune diseases since I was a teen . Raised in a Pentecostal home with a controlling narcissistic father and mother who was a child herself So glad I’m not the only one figuring things out at almost 50

[@col.cottonhill6655]

I'm not autoimmune but I do have chronic pain diagnosis because of my spine. I have some issues with my family members for mistreating me growing up too (still mistreat me) but I'm sure many of you experience the same. I'm glad to hear you got the help you needed. Don't feel ashamed that you waited so long.

[@JulieM-ff9dq]

Yes, me. I am a triple negative breast cancer survivor. Thankfully, I was otherwise very healthy, other than emotional trauma. I am so happy she got through the cancer and figured out her trauma. I hope you are doing well too, Tina. Good luck to you.

[@jwh8228]

Imagine a world where The Power of Now is required high school reading and comprehension….Thank you for your story. I am near the same age and similar story. I feel today that unconditional love is something we MUST give ourselves if we ever want to give it to others…

[@drenaejohnson2091]

I’m a 38 year old woman and can relate to some parts of her story. You can see the passion when she speaks I loved this interview so much and will definitely look up the information she shared. Thank you Mark I love your channel I’ve been a viewer for years and have learned so much about myself and a better understanding of others you’ve been a blessing to me and many others

[@ms.g1728]

I can completely relate here. What an eye opener to see that what I felt at 11 wasn’t depression but rage. Wow, that hit deep. I saw the tunnel and release from pain, can’t wait to see the rest (all in good time)

[@msr305]

Christine - Holy Shit! In all the years I've watched Mark's interviews, I have found them facinating, but your story - in SO many ways- is my own. Thank you Christine for your bravery and ability to bring to words the experiences and mindset I know so well deep down. Love to you Christine. ((Thank YOU too Mark))

[@erinardito4881]

Gosh, Christine is extremely intelligent and aware of herself. I wish I could have the chance to meet her. She seems incredibly genuine and humble.

[@JPalm36]

I am struggling with getting off of Suboxone and Xanax , it has been a decade and I always tell myself I’ll need it the rest of my life . I know that’s not true though . I just can’t find the motivation to change and the sickness scares me so bad . Thank you for your story , it makes me feel like things are possible

[@lunakat7020]

I got off both just tapered the Xanax that was easy. The sub I went cold turkey it was the only way for me. That kind of sucked but I did it. It didn't take long at all please have hope you can definitely do this. Much luck to you💗

[@Mimi4justice]

You got this !!! Taper off slowly , and you’ll be okay . I still take Xanax as needed but I was on several 1mg daily . You’ll be able to do this ! I wish you luck !

[@lunakat7020]

@@Mimi4justice This is true Christina this does work.

[@dubaiedge]

Things are definitely possible. The advice to taper ever so slowly is the way, even if it takes years. Those years will go by anyway, so why not make them easier in yourself for the long-term? Don't tell your doctor a thing. Just do you.

[@lunakat7020]

@@baublesanddolls I will say it wasn't that easy in the beginning. I wasn't able to wean off of them I would always mess up somehow. The only way was cold turkey for me I actually did this three times throughout the years. I will say that was the biggest mistake in my life going on those things. I wish anyone that wants to get off of them the best of luck. It definitely can be done I never want to see those things again lol.

[@whitefangflyer]

Thank you Mark for these stories of recovery. They are so uplifting and encouraging. So powerful Christine… Amazing story! Love it!

[@patriciawilson6978]

Thanks for sharing your story, Christine

[@MarcellaChancey]

She ROCKS! I worked on an oncology unit while I was in nursing school. I no longer fear death. The experiences and stories of my patients gave me such a sense of calm about life after death. Her death experience gave her purpose and the courage needed to change her life. What an inspiring story. ❤

[@justagirlfromdownunder8362]

Can we please get more of her, she is just so healing to watch in this interview xx such a beautiful soul

[@modocroughstock5700]

Picked my cherries out of her experience.. amazing how (imo) have similar "bits & pieces" of childhood trauma that effect us in and at different times and degrees.. 67 M twice married, one long term 22yr. helped raise the severely traumatized m f children to the point of school exit.. thank for sharing your story.. may you always be loved.. we do!

[@m_a_lissa]

What a relatable story. It takes so much courage to put your story on a platform, but it’s so healing for you and for all your watchers as many of us can relate. While I listened and I self reflected on my childhood and the personalities that influenced my life and my ego. What I love about Christine’s journey was she understood the domino effect of generational trauma and how it only continues on untill a generation becomes aware of it. I think she did a beautiful job drawing out how one develops a personality- which is no more than a coping mechanism from our childhood upbringing, experiences, and traumas we have endured. Once we understand that we are able to look at our selves objectively and help heal our selves. Christine thank you for inspiring us all!

[@karladearston]

I love how excited she gets near the end talking about her wins. ❤

[@princesstakaloo]

What a beautiful soul this lady has. She has such a powerfully positive perspective on the curse of generational trauma. Much love 😍

[@quizpubbob]

She’s really helped me piece a few things together in life with this video. Such a treasure trove of wisdom. Great interview.

[@shirleygomez6257]

You left me with a smile Christine 🌬️ My story is very similar to yours, thank you a lot for bringing a lot of direction to the younger generations, namaste 🪷

[@curiousme113]

For me this was the most valuable interview I've watched yet

[@CaliGirl11-11]

Thank you for sharing your story, Christine. Sounds Just like mine and I'm Mexican American from California. You just confirmed everything. As soon as we all find "the Divine" in us, we can stop self sabotaging ourselves. Very well articulated. You are a very beautiful educated women. So glad you had a daughter. Sounds like she helped save your life?

[@tinamarie393]

I could listen to her calming voice all day long. She has an enormous sense of self now that she’s entered her healing journey! I loved this one, a very different side of the spectrum! Thank you Christine! God Bless🙏🏾

[@williammatlock1087]

She has an elegant way of speaking and great at captivating your attention! Seems like a beautiful old soul with a great heart. Thank you for this

[@dfadeley]

"Believing there is another story out tuere for us, but its up to you.if its a better story." Thats so incredibly powerful.

[@conniehanses]

The most insightful interview I've ever heard. You are inspiring and so thought provoking for myself reflection. The brain is powerful. Just gotta be open, honest with urself and do the work. Can be very uncomfortable but worth it for my wellbeing. Thankyou

[@caelesarcanum_]

I am elated to hear other people talk about the negativity of pharma and chronic illness. I have dealt with something similar. Root cause approach is elite compared to bandaging symptoms. Happy you have found modalities that keep your symptoms at bay! Your story is inspiring and you can tell that all "bad" in your life was a catalyst for growth.

[@toddbennett5734]

Christine I am so happy for you that you were able to find the answers that you were looking for to make your life whole . Sometimes the bad things that we go through are life's lessons that we learn from to better ourselves. It's never too late ! It's heartwarming to hear life's stories that turn out to way yours has ! Outstanding!

[@cintianascimento5963]

One of your best interviews 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 So inspiring ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@chyannehainstock7842]

Thank you showing these older women who went through trauma without support. ❤

[@franki81001]

Wow this interview…her words, knowledge, testimonial…is everything I needed at the exact moment in my life that I am needing it. So profound. I’m so, so, so glad I decided to watch. I choose to receive the message …of reminding myself I’m not too broken or too old to positively change my future.

[@carlaburgos12]

Holy, thank you!! I am speechless and lost for words for the impact this interview had in my life. She has reassured me what my purpose in life is. ❤

[@MsKatydid2012]

Thank you Christine for your courage! You expressed perfectly on what happens threw life living with embedded trauma from childhood. How self-worth is at the core of the patterns is right on. I just attended Jamie Kern Lima's live session on her book Worthy coming out in Feb. '24. It's filled with tools on how to find your way through that pain of lack of self-love.I'll try to post a link if the session that will be expired after tomorrow.

[@dav220]

I relate so much to Christine. Gorgeous honesty and depth here, very inspirational! Thank u thank u thank u. LOVE

[@tanyabonnette1796]

I loved the nde she told about how she felt loved and everything was beautiful. And the words that she has a beautiful life.

[@luisangelismylove]

Through your channel I am learning to be more empathic towards all sorts of people, not only those that are “normal” We are all imperfect but we have the power to make changes. I cried when she was talking about the empty landscape. Thank you Mark ❤

[@maryfonti6114]

A story of finding yourself after decades of struggle. It is criminal to have children and not care. Now Christine begins to find herself in her 50s. So many years to heal and move forward....Congrats Christine. Thanks for sharing your life.

[@melissasue3328]

I am 40 minutes in and I have stopped myself from commenting multiple times bc I wanted to hear the whole story first but I can't hold back. Your story is so incredibly similar to mine. The underlying generational trauma, the subconscious beliefs, the passing down of the "story" to my children unintentionally, the accidents , autoimmune disease, even "the power of now" unread on the shelf in my home for a decade. God I hope this story has a happy ending for us both! 🙏

[@nhlibra]

Christine, You hit on soooo many topics that I'd be surprised if just one person could not relate to a portion of what you covered. There were several for me but the big one I related to is your mother and the "scaredy-cat" personality. My mother was like that and still is to this day. She wasn't there for me at really important times of my life, but fortunately my father was and taught me valuable lessons on taking care of myself. He did go through a period of drinking after my mother left him and took his kids with her...thankfully he backed off drinking when he developed painful gout 15 years later. Thank you so much for your interview. I have listened twice so far but this is one of Mark's videos that I will listen to a few more times. You have made so much progress in your life towards self-actualization. Congrats! Your interview is EVERGREEN and will teach a lot of people at a young age how to avoid some pitfalls. 🥰💗💜