Fentanyl Addict interview-Daniel

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Daniel, a fentanyl addict in Los Angeles.
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[@jakemass56]

This young man is the definition of PTSD. He's still young and ,obviously, intelligent. He deserves help now..

[@rmcdiarmid8785]

“ I miss me….” This was one of the most heart wrenching stories on this channel. Daniel I hope you can find the help you so completely deserve.

[@NK-st7jn]

I remember listening to one of the interviewees say in another one of these “People think drug addicts don’t feel anything, the problem is we feel too much” and I feel that a lot with this guy ….

[@moisturisedgnome1181]

Agreed. What sane person could live in this world and not be driven insane?

[@jennifermartin7468]

This man is clearly intelligent, kind, and in touch with his emotions. It’s sad to see him in so much pain and facing such huge challenges. I hope he can find a path through this. If he can, I see a beautiful life ahead.

[@Dylandontplay]

Hopefully he reads comments like these!! Men need to hear this kind of stuff aswell!!

[@MTLcanada]

Such a wonderful soul, I hope 🙏 that he goes and gets help. He is young enough and not to late.

[@susanfurlong2002]

YES, SEEMS LIKE A DECENT GUY, HE WENT DOWN THE WRONG ROAD. I BELIEVE IF HE HAD SOME HELP, HE COULD LEAD A BETTER LIFE. HOPE HE GETS HELP.

[@ObiAmajoyiSrMD]

Such a wonderful comment. Thank you for writing it. I wish I could find a way to ensure that he reads it. I agree, he is gifted with the attributes necessary to get through this and thrive. Let’s hope he can tap into them.

[@livewithnick]

I feel what this guy feels minus the addiction. I’m a firefighter/EMT and you never ever forget the bad calls. The ones where the human body is so mangled it’s hardly recognizable. Decapitations,suicides,burns,brain matter etc. I hate to be so gruesome but this is daily life for 1st responders. It’s no wonder the suicide rate is high among us. I would like to encourage every 1st responder and military personnel to seek counseling. Even when you think you’re ok.

[@sarahs.3094]

Thank you for your service. You are a hero. I'm sure you find helping others fulfilling. How do you cope with all of these traumas you encounter ? And how do you separate work life from personal life? I'm sure these traumas impact your personal life too.

[@lbaird100]

Thank you for all you do.🙏

[@livewithnick]

@@sarahs.3094 I don’t separate work life from personal life unfortunately. It’s impossible. I also volunteer in my community at a 2 volunteer fire department on my personal time. One on one side of my community and one on the other side. In rural communities like I live if people don’t volunteer then we don’t have fire or EMS. It is fulfilling but it also takes up as much time as a full time job a little of times. We’re on call 24-7 365. No pay whatsoever. We’ve had in the last year a double homicide of two brothers (they were my 3rd cousins), a 3 yr old girl killed in a car wreck due to her father being high on drugs,a 12 yr old boy died after hit by a car(I grew up with his mother),found two decomposing bodies after a welfare check request, worked a 35 yr old female drowning victim with her 5 yr old son crying for his momma on scene,a few drug overdoses,probably 25 cardiac arrest,a self inflicted hanging of a young man,a decapitation of a 30 yr old guy after a car wreck. That’s all in 6 months time at a rural fire/EMS department. That’s not counting all the structure fires,mva’s and regular medical calls we get. I’m not telling this expecting a Pat on the back at all. I just don’t think most people realize what their local first responders deal with daily whether paid or volunteer. When we are paid it’s not much. Even though a medic has all kinds of life saving skills and do things only doctors usually do in a hospital setting they don’t make near as much as a registered nurse in most areas. Then they have all the years of terrible images,sounds,smells stored in their heads. This goes for law enforcement too. Too many end up like the guy in this video unfortunately. Thanks for your thoughts and concerns.

[@user-randi1987]

@@livewithnick some one very much like you responded to my son's suicide almost 2 years ago. They were unable to save my son but I want you to know that, as his Mom, I am grateful someone was there to fight for him. That he did not die uncared for or alone. Thank you

[@feelinghealingfrequences7179]

tell us about the therapy u have attended? and what do they do? how do u feel afterwards? is it weekly for life?

[@andrewfoy.]

I was hanging on every word. This is SWU at it’s very best. I know Mark is reluctant to help because addicts are often so self destructive and beyond repair but i think Daniel can be saved. Please do follow up interviews

[@CM7777...]

@@annaxefta587 ignorant comment from an ignorant person

[@cokeysnose375]

@@annaxefta587 Its hard to help. Nobody knows everything

[@mstreech]

@@annaxefta587 sometimes you forget that the person your talking to is a real human being with thoughts and feelings. The internet provides a certain degree of anonymity, for better or worse. Love is the answer. Don’t forget it. You can start small by talking to people like you want to be talked to.

[@HouseOod]

He's way too gentle. There should be locked up hotel rooms with barred doors that provide food and showers and toilets but no 1 is allowed to enter and they are locked in to keep them safe.

[@rebeccaadamski7743]

This poor young man desperately needs counseling of every kind, I pray he can get the help he desperately needs.... love and light to you Daniel 🌈❤️🌈

[@chewie2055]

Why pray?…..get him counseling instead..

[@rebeccaadamski7743]

@@chewie2055 "I pray" because I can't physically get him the counseling he needs as I don't live in America.

[@chewie2055]

@@rebeccaadamski7743 Do you have money? Send the creator of the documentary money

[@blacksource2101]

He's walking away from this interview with a few hundred dollars so he's definitely gonna get what he need👀

[@rebeccaadamski7743]

@@chewie2055 Thank you

[@allisonschneider924]

He’s going to make it. I pray all his self awareness saves him.

[@struthersboyz4990]

The self awareness is definitely a help, but I have been told the same thing by most of the therapists I have been in contact with, I have unfortunately used this to convince myself that I can somehow outthink the disease….. I can’t

[@andrewclark14atgmail]

Daniel my heart goes out to you man, I pray you lift yourself out from this burden of a life you find yourself trapped in, you can do it, small steps small victories, a day at a time, life's worth it, you're worth it!

[@neon_332]

Wooph. That's hard.

[@droidsxi3271]

@Malik Spydr thing with Fentanyl is you've got to wait upto 4 days to take it. So for 4 days you're dope sick as fuck. Methadone he can start immediately, and works in conjunction with therapy, and psychiatric care. He also needs the structure Methadone provides. Going to the clinic every day by a certain time, keep your scheduled appointment with your case worker, and they can get you to a therapist quickly. Once he's stable, he can taper the Methadone if he feels ready and can switch to Subutex if he needs it to still be on MAT. You and I have done it, he can too. I started smoking black tar at 15 to comedown after raves. Quickly it caught me. I'm 30 now, survived 2 ODs, a ten day coma, renal failure and so much other traumatic shit from being in the game. If this dude needs some help I am willing to help. I'm a bit north of him so could be a bit tough but I'm willing. Does anyone know how to get Marks email address!

[@atlantisfunktions]

stay strong brother. Ive seen it all also. you become used to it honestly and once you understand this is reality it becomes easier to cope with. Someones gonna have to respond. Someones gonna have to clean it up too and if you cannot handle the gruesome reality of everyday death than maybe being a first responder isnt for you.

[@droidsxi3271]

@@atlantisfunktions It seems he was strong enough being an EMT bit one call can really put how close we all are yo death constantly. I don't think hes a weak man, I think he's just extremely lost with all that's happened, and he feels ashamed. You could tell when he talked about his dog. Stay strong brothers, reach out to the many of us who have been there and come out the other side better.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.❤️

[@siobhanrose1680]

He looks like a very baby faced Woody Harrelson. The fact he is verging on tears 1min in tells you everything you need to know, his sadness is right there at the surface, it completely breaks my heart. I’m so glad he is still here, I feel his fragility. I wish you peace Daniel, your trauma is so very large. I hope you can start therapy soon. You deserve some peace.

[@fitbroom]

Dude check out the skinhead psycho on this channel!!! Literally. He looks like woody harrelson like CRAZY. Two very different people with eerily similar faces

[@Audacity0708]

I thought the exact same thing. He looks so familiar. I hope he can get past this somehow.

[@pendlelancashire]

*you and your carcinogenic looks worship. So if he looked less cute and less attractive you'd dismiss his suffering? You're a demon.*

[@ALittleOG]

Once he gets the help he deserves, he will be such an asset helping others. He isnt much younger than me and you can tell, society needs this guy.

[@shani6708]

"Society needs this guy" is one of the best, most beautiful comments I've seen. It's so true.

[@jjg1501]

society needs no man or woman, the sooner people realize this the sooner they can move forward.

[@FrenchPrinceofBel-Air]

Agreed

[@martham9980]

I was thinking the same thing. With his skills/experience/insight he can help many people.

[@iamgreg3834]

@@jjg1501 that is simply not true. Society is made up of people. And quite frankly, it doesn't matter what you think about it. People need people. Certain people need certain people. Society needs doctors, teachers, dentists, mentors, and the list goes on and on, to function at a high level and minimize the suffering of our fellow man. Do we have flawed systems in place? Absolutely. But that doesn't mean that that people aren't needed. We are naturally a hearding animal. We need each other, and that is just a fact.

[@ALittleOG]

This is the first one that Ive wanted to help more than I can describe. This guy needs to be saved, please get a gofundme going.

[@redrobin494]

There is check the links you can leave a message with your donations specifically for him & Cool'yo☮️ 🤜🏻✝️🤛🏾

[@annarodgers3385]

This may be your best interview yet, Mark. Daniel, you’ve tugged at the heart strings of most of us. Praying you can be strong and get the help you need to get clean. This is not your life story, only a part of it. Being the kind-hearted, gentle-spirited person you are, you will one day use this part of your story to help someone else. God bless you and thank you for sharing.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.❤️

[@frakbling420]

It’s a good interview but FAR from being the best, personal opinion of course.

[@blynch8740]

Seems like a really nice person. I hope you turn it around. You are worth it.

[@marywilliams1859]

Truly sad

[@chrisnewburg4839]

I think counseling would help this man immensely..he’s carrying so much pain...he can’t see thru all that trauma he saw, he HELPED people too! Probably saved some lives...I hope he gets clean-he has so much life to live.

[@bradagee7140]

If you get anything from these videos, one common theme, be there as a parent. Ask questions, be a mentor, teach your children, and show them love.

[@CatalinaFOIA]

My grandmother was a night supervisor of a hospital for 41 years and one piece of advice she gave me: When faced with a difficult emotional situation, treat yourself with white gloves. In other words, be kind to yourself, be careful with yourself, and treat yourself as if you were a parent looking at a child. What care would you provide for an emotional child? Then... do that. 🙏

[@marialiyubman]

Your grandma sounds amazing. I wish I had someone like her when I got to the ER for chronic pain.. maybe if I had more people like her I’d still be trusting the system. ❤️ I do, however, have an amazing grandma as well. ❤️

[@Vikuku]

Thank you for sharing these wise words! God bless you and your grandma

[@ironzude7762]

Thank you for sharing that. ❤️

[@applejellypucci]

Very helpful thanks

[@Prsonfi23]

Thank you for sharing

[@deedeemegadoodoo70]

“I miss me” 😞 I hope you find the help you deserve! Please don’t give up!

[@CatalinaFOIA]

😢 This part really caught me off guard 😢 it hurt me right in my heart. I hope he makes it. He seems so kind and empathetic. One who could get taken advantage of easily.

[@RadRedhead222]

Daniel, get in a program. You haven’t been out there as long as some. There’s so much hope for you! Thank you, Mark!

[@teresadavis2328]

Please, please, please Daniel get help now. I’m a RN. We see things that NO ONE should see. For you have to be both friend and EMT is horrific. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this. Daniel, with help, you can regain your life. Please don’t let your dear friend’s death destroy you. It’s not to late. Your friend would not want that. Let her life define you. It’s not to late. Please go to rehab and get therapy for your incredible loss. You are an intelligent young man, very kind heart. The people that you know and have worked with will accept you with open arms. It’s not to late to honor your Dad and friend with a well lived life. Please. I’m praying for you. You are a colleague. We need you. We need people like you. Please fight for your life. You are worth it.

[@sheilaboland6285]

I read through your story twice. And now I am crying. Daniel, I hope somehow you read this and get help. We do need people as caring as you.

[@peterstar2023]

I have the greatest respect for him. When he said "hate is a strong word" shows how nice he is. I love that comment. If you read this I want you to know I have the deepest respect for you. Much love from Sweden.

[@andrewpegg5321]

My heart pains for you, Daniel. This makes me tear up. You are an amazing person with such potential. I can see you getting better in the future and this interview is something that I think you've needed to do for some time. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@awesome_comment]

I hope that one day I see a follow up and Daniel is clean and in a much better place.

[@js3617]

Daniel, never give up on yourself. I'm a recovering addict, EMT and now in paramedic school. Our stories are so similar it's mind blowing, even how you lost the family home is eerily similar. After a decade of addiction that got progressively worse and started out like you, one day I had enough. I came to the conclusion getting help would be no way more miserable than active addiction and what my life had become. I never looked back. I got on my feet and healed a lot of the emotional scars and dealt with shame. Once I could handle living life sober I retook an EMT program and worked my ass off to invest in healing and balance. I got a job with a very busy service in a large city and maintained a personal therapist and my support network. There are horrendous calls but today I have the coping skills to handle them...but there are so many more absolutely beautiful calls and interactions that I cherish from this perspective. I returned to EMS to help change the attitudes and culture. None of us are too tough for therapy and proper emotionally healing, all people including the many addicts we see deserve every chance at life and compassion, and we can be balanced health care professionals. After a few years as emt and rebuilding my credit, savings and relationships I started medic school. Who knows where my future goes but all you have is today. And if you focus on the ONE moment at a time and deal with the challenges one at a time, you will look back as I have with an entire new life rebuilt and a heart filled with hope and not shame. Try everything Daniel until you find a treatment that works for you. Abstinence? Methadone? Suboxone? Long term in patient and sober living? Try them ALL. Don't stop until you find something and put all your effort into it. I promise you can rebuild back even better, make your self and your mom proud and even go back into EMS if that's what you wish to do. Please know your fellow first responders hear you and send you love and support. We are not judging you and shaming you. You can do this Daniel, i was where you've been. It's possible. ❤

[@abbiesonntag3855]

Amazing!! 🤜❤🤛

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

It's been my experience, that those who are intelligent, selfless and loving who end up in this predicament, they are the most beautiful human being with the most beautiful promise. I say it over and over and I'll say it forever, that weak people don't become addicts! It's people with incredible depth, substance and power that carry things far too heavy to carry alone or at all that become addicts...Daniel you've got so much life left to live, not just surviving to exist...There are many different forms of therapy so I hope, Daniel, that you try different methods to find what fits you best. Not everyone heals or benefits from talk therapy alone or at all. Man, beautiful human being. All the things he's expressed? I really do understand and could feel myself right there in some of the descriptions. Be strong, love. ♥️

[@MineChanclas]

Thank you for this. I absolutely agree and I appreciate you. We need more people like you in this world. 🙏🏼

[@danijjoycee]

This is so sweet and so true.

[@ItsFreshItsAnne]

@@MineChanclas Thank you so much! Your kind words are filling up my heart ❤️

[@emm2937]

This is PERFECT! Thank you! ♥️

[@droidsxi3271]

You're mostly right. I've known numerous bad and weak people who've become addicts. The the majority of the everyday users often have a ton of empathy, would give you one of their shirts even if they only have two, and can often become soundboards for others that are hurting, and they forget to protect themselves before all.

[@fuhmepls]

This type of stuff can be so beneficial for an addict. To sit and just be able to spew out feelings and think about the past. You might be solving drug addiction a person at a time

[@b1k2q34]

Um.......no

[@Deelifull]

Good grief. This one was absolutely heartbreaking. I would love a follow-up video, if at all possible. 😢

[@lilaworley8935]

Daniel.... You can overcome this. You're too good for this lifestyle. You have too much to give to the community....and to yourself. You're so smart. You can do better. Self medicating is making it worse. Get clean. Face your emotions. Give back to the society. I have faith in you.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

@Lila Worley Wats up Lila

[@lilaworley8935]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 Good morning!

[@TRyanBenoitMusic]

I can tell he is capable of it, 💯 agree

[@rdizzy1]

"Too good for this lifestyle"? What exactly does that mean? Almost all humans are "too good for this lifestyle", drug addiction does not give a shit who you are or who you were. And no one should have to be a homeless addict on the streets of one of the wealthiest countries on the planet.

[@lilaworley8935]

@@rdizzy1 feel better?

[@prettynatural1973]

The most powerful interview I have seen in years.

[@erhines1]

One so many levels and for so many reasons this is the best SWU I've ever seen. Mark, you knocked it out of the park with this one. Daniel is just so human, and so honest, and so broken. Yet, he is so kind, and so benevolent and so meek. I just love this guy. He could be 90 years old and he is just his mother's son. A child of the universe, free falling, grasping at nothing disguised as something. Thank you, Mark, and your team.

[@jamesanderson3537]

I was a heroin addict for ten years. Have been clean since july 2017. I know it's hard but it's possible to turn your life around. I hope he finds the peace and happiness he deserves.

[@Skinnyj6921]

Daniel you are wanted more than you think! You’re super smart Please get the help you need! You can be sooooo much more

[@captainblackmouth]

I'm so sorry for what has happened to you Daniel. I am praying that you turn your life around. It is definitely possible! Don't doubt that. Much love to you bro.

[@DelGibson_NZ]

Tragic, thank you for sharing this Mark. Goes to show how quickly life can change....

[@dianaholland2047]

Daniel, I was in tears hearing your story. My heart breaks for you, and I can relate on so many levels. I was in law enforcement for 24 years before being diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression and medically retired in 2020. Listening to your story, it is obvious you are suffering from PTSD, and with falling down a flight of stairs and getting hit in the head with a shovel, you very well could have a traumatic brain injury as well. You seem so sad, and I just want to hug you! Please, please, please don't give up. There is help out there. I went to an amazing place in Los Gatos, California that has a six week PTSD recovery program for first responders and am much better. Please reach out for help through social services or someone. I think Mark hit the nail on the head when he said you are much more comfortable giving help than receiving help. That is how I felt too. You are an amazing person to continue to help others by doing things like performing CPR to save lives out there even now, but you need help too. Please give yourself the help that I know you would offer to others. I cried when I heard your last comment: "I miss me." Daniel, I know how that feels. You have to believe me when I say you can get better. I am thinking about you and praying for you.

[@leenasca2339]

Buddy. today is that day to fight for yourself, you are so worth it. You have an inner strength that most people don't have. I believe in you. ❤

[@baublesanddolls]

This poor guy is suffering from PTSD. I really hope he seeks much-needed counseling. It may take a few tries to find a good one, but once he does it helps immensely. PTSD takes years to get over, and he can easily get off fentanyl with the help of suboxone. He can stay on suboxone for a few years, then slowly wean off. That's what I did. There's no withdrawal from fentanyl with suboxone, and you can't get high if you take drugs due to the ingredients in suboxone.

[@roxannerodriguez7075]

Yes, yes and yes! 💜 I hope he reads this!

[@wyattroberts3559]

There is a lot of non truths in this comment

[@wyattroberts3559]

You have to be in full blown withdrawal before you can even start on subs

[@sabrinachamberlain5150]

Methadone is better!! Just stay low and remember why you're there!! And GET OFF IT as soon as you can. It helped me, I have a few weeks clean! It's a bridge but safer than fetty!!

[@wyattroberts3559]

@@sabrinachamberlain5150 congrats on your kicking the habit!!! You got this!!!

[@ruthrobinson2232]

The pain on Daniels face will stay with me. I get the feeling you’re going to turn things round Daniel, I really do. Sending love and healing vibes to you from the UK. Xx

[@kaesmithmusic]

Daniel, you are such a kind, gentle soul. PLEASE know that you deserve love and care. Think of yourself as a child that needs help and then help that child. You are so young and have so much promise to live a really good life. Ask for help and stick with it so you can help heal yourself. I'm going to donate to the GoFundMe in your honor. I hope we see you again and you're clean and going to therapy and back to being your true self. Many, many blessings to you, Daniel!

[@englishmenintown8622]

Perfect

[@natcat1059]

This guy has my heart hurting for him. Such a well spoken, caring and smart man. I wish you well and hope that life gets better for you. Sending big hugs💖

[@KimchiiQueen]

What a bright, sensitive, caring, empathetic young man. I hope he gets the help he knows he needs- Daniel, we are rooting for you!

[@mat_from_ballarat]

This guy doesn't deserve the cards that he's been dealt. He's tried to serve his community and is now living with the trauma he experienced. I wish him all the best.

[@b1k2q34]

The trauma of his job?

[@AlejandoGonzo]

My best friends name was Daniel, he passed away in oct of 2016 of a heroin overdose. Please don’t leave your friends and family that way. I miss him everyday and I wish I could cruise down the street just listening to some music with him. I wish I could have been a better friend and tried to help him with his addiction, but I was scared to become and addict again if I got too close. I can see the pain your life has left on you, but how much better life is to be able to overcome those obstacles and know you did it. I pray for your recovery, on day at a time brother.

[@angelikamariadipasquali7149]

Dear Daniel, as you are a helping person, please learn to help yourself, that part of you that is so desperate. You seem such a good person. With love from Italy!!

[@Graddy5]

I don’t know why but this was probably the hardest video of yours to get through for me .. That was brutal but absolutely captivating

[@SusieQinNewOrleansLA504]

This young man needs a good treatment facility. He's got what it takes to make it clean. He is smart, caring, ambitious...I wish I could just scoop him up and get him some help. I am 11 years sober...he can do it too.

[@jeanhelms2621]

Daniel, you’re still you. You came through so strong. So compassionate. So articulate & honest. With you, heroin & fentanyl have taken out one of the very best. But you’re still alive & you’re you. As you talked I couldn’t stop visualizing a huge alligator who has trapped someone in its jaws and pulled them into the water. They get their prey & begin to roll. The animal or person held in the alligator’s powerful bite spins with them. They don’t know up from down in that death roll. And they, no matter how strong they are, cannot pull free. They need help from others on the shore. No, you can’t process your friend’s or your father’s death. Fentanyl has you in that spin, wanting you to drown. You don’t know up from down. How could you? Yell, Daniel. Every time you catch a breath of air, scream for help. You chose drugs over counseling once. Choose again. Choose counseling over drugs. Let your fellow creatures attack that alligator & pull you loose. Beat up and bloody you may be. But you’ll be Daniel and you’ll be free. Ever wonder why somebody was always around when you overdosed? Why that bullet missed you? We need you Daniel. You’ll get freed. I believe it.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen!👍👏👏👏❤️

[@hilaryhegney2258]

What a lovely young man, I hope he gets the help he needs. I think he has great potential and just needs a break. Wishing you all the very best Daniel ❤

[@averydavis1943]

My thoughts are with you Daniel. You CAN make it out of this, you've just lost hope. I believe in you. Godspeed.

[@murderycatdoll1380]

This is the perfect excample of someone who Just WANTS and NEEDS Love to Bloom out of everything....sich a pretty Person...i Hope he will find His Nest and can this awfull parts of His life behind him. He deserves a loooot of good and hugs ♥️

[@redrobin494]

☮️🛐My sentiments exactly 🤜🏻✝️🤛🏾

[@viralsheddingzombie5324]

"trust me, it can happen to anybody." Very profound words. The best person can be broken down and ruined in a matter of days. Mark deserves a journalism award for this brilliant interview series. Daniel is young and he has good mind, he will recover.

[@mrs.nancygancy3321]

So many people care for you because you’re valuable. I hope you can recognize and own your value! Sending a big hug and lots of encouragement your way.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen!👍👏👏👏

[@shamanllama]

I think the most important take away is "it can really happen to anybody" god bless, Daniel. I hope you find peace and safety and a home and make it back out of this.

[@jcr6o395]

Out of the hundreds of SWU interviews I've watched. Even seeing a middle school classmate on this channel from a tiny town in New Hampshire...WE gotta help this guy. He's gotta get back to work SAVING lives!

[@naapb.249]

this platform is a very crucial space to completely be vulnerable and this man’s story could really be a catalyst for him to move mountains in many peoples lives. His blemishes could become the thing that’ll possibly provide him the relief that all of his pain brought him. Great video.

[@yodaddysuncle9037]

Marks consistency is crazy! I can only imagine how much content he has. Good morning everyone

[@CartellBo]

Goodmorning OG and you right that man mark drops alot of content and he never misses ever

[@gotmilkfunb]

I feel like that's a commentary on the sad state of many humans. The stories just keep on coming...

[@Smashley8708]

@@gotmilkfunb broken homes and no health care is a recipe for hurt people who self medicate 💔💔

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Of course he can drop a video everyday. He can drop one every hour and never run out of people with these stories. America is F’d.

[@TheKimchiKid]

There's a literal list of his content here... Lol! Stop imagining and get to watching

[@winfriedbauer2280]

The strength is inside you Daniel! Find some good people to surround yourself with! You've experienced some horrific š#!t, which you're going to have to deal with; but feeling responsible for any of it will only continue the downward spiral! You are not responsible! Hug, brother!

[@winfriedbauer2280]

@Friendly Bear I'm hoping he reads my comment and finds something positive in it; maybe it reinforce something inside him... even if its a little, perhaps with all the other friendly comments combined he realises some self worth and finds the strength to make a change!... Okay, c#nt-f@ce?

[@wesleyalan9179]

Great comment here, and advice! thanks💜✌

[@marylougeorge9890]

Truth!❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

@Friendly Bear Thanks for being friendly.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@Jedimaster420 A touch of PTSD?

[@brookebixler1040]

Watching videos like these makes me so incredibly grateful that I have 8+ years of sobriety! *#soberAF* *#onedayatatime*

[@unicornsquad8009]

Mark, you are a legend. Your channel has made me think deeply about my own life and how I respond to others. Thank you.

[@mr.schnitzel3053]

This is a really good guy. I really want things to work out for him.

[@Thestarandswords]

This story breaks my heart. He just seems so beyond sad. I hope he finds someone to talk to and begins to work through his struggles. Healing vibes to you Daniel.

[@user-randi1987]

Daniel please seek help, it's not too late. You can still get mental health services and rehab for your drug problem. You are young and have along life ahead of you, you need to get some peace from some of your experiences. I hope the Very best for you, young man

[@gingerlancaster3033]

It sounds like Daniel has some serious PTSD. Having gone thru the suicide of my adult son by gs, I totally understand. Drugs numb the brain and minimize all those awful brain movies that just don't want to stop. It sounds like if Daniel had some serious mental health support, he could pull thru this

[@410Gregj]

I remember when my mom and dad divorced. I was 11 or 12 and so heart broken. Much of his trauma began there. Divorce is right up there near abuse, but most shrug it off as a ‘matter of fact’ thing that just happens. I’m 54 and still think about it to this day. I hope Daniel can make the turn. What a caring and compassionate person. All the best to you Daniel!

[@Gram72534]

Danny, a wise woman once told me. Don't beat yourself up, it doesn't change anything and it will keep you where you are. You can't change what happened, but you can change your future. You have to let all of this go, start to love yourself and others will as well. I'm rooting for you, good luck!

[@wesleyalan9179]

@@forplexforplex8831 I just don't understand you,forplex...it really blows my mind how you can make jerkish comments, then turn right around and say something positive. 🤔

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

@Wesley alan Forplex got split personalities For Real! Maybe Mark should interview him.

[@Gram72534]

@@forplexforplex8831 dude I saw you other comment as well, if the" big stick approach " worked we wouldn't be here. You can obviously empathize sometimes, so why the tuff guy act? Never mistake kindness for weakness, it doesn't make you look bad or make you less of a man to have a heart. I would argue it makes you more. If you haven't been there you can't possibly understand and if you have and still have this mind set, well my friend you are heading back! Karma and pain are the best teacher's not the punishment and guilt. Have a good day.

[@Gram72534]

@@forplexforplex8831 fair enough, why do you think that, when you see these people on SWU , why you would rather scold them as opposed to sympathy or just a positive comment? As I stated if that way worked we wouldn't be in this situation, your intelligent so you can't possibly argue with that? Do you really think these people don't know How there living , or constantly telling themselves how bad and guilty they feel? Believe me homie, they don't need to hear it from you. Whether your point is valid or not.. your point is valid buy your timing is not. Let a person get up and dust off before you hit them with a big stick. I feel like I'm talking to a person that has never truly felt the horror of addiction and or the horror of sobriety, when all that sobriety brings is memories of things that would horrify most. Be very thankful that you are not in there shoes this man Dan is in a battle for his mind and life, wouldn't it make sense to help them get better and healthy to prepare them for such a battle? I don't have the answers but I can clearly see what has been being done is not working, the ways of the past should stay in the past.

[@wesleyalan9179]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 Lol,I'm so glad I'm not the only one that notices 😄

[@kimberlyanne434]

Not one person is born to sleep on the sidewalk and be cold. I listen to this young man and you could be my grandson. My heart breaks for him. I don’t know if you’ll see these words, but maybe you can take a bus to Oklahoma. Call sister, and your mom, tell them you’re ready to get clean. I assume you’ve hit rock bottom or your close to it. Life is so short and I would do anything to go back to be 31, 32 years old. I’ll be 60 this year and I’m grateful I’ve lived this long. I want to see you and everyone else on this program live to be my age or older. Please call your mom and your sister and you can get out and you can be a success again. I believe in you.

[@ziyahanderson698]

Very nice guy!! I really pray he turns it around. I mean he has potential I can see it and hear it. This is one of best videos I’ve seen I feel so connected with him and i don’t even know him. 🥺❤️

[@ithoughtyouknew7036]

First responders go through so much. PTSD also dopamine burnout. Self regulation is not the way to go. But, I understand his pain. I pulled several bodies out of the water. It never is easy. Good luck to you sir.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Yeah, but that one watching his friend burn to death. Damn!

[@jajamonroee2463]

I was just asking myself the other day, do first responders receive therapy? I commend you all for the strength & courage 💛

[@ithoughtyouknew7036]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213I get it. I wouldn't wish that to anyone. Just like what I have witnessed. A body so bloated with water the arm comes free from the socket with the recovery. You don't ever forget it. His pain sucks. I hope he finds healing. Getting out of his environment will help break that cycle. When you see mistakes you learn what not to do. Pray for military and 1st responders.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

@I thought you knew 👍

[@marylougeorge9890]

😢💔

[@tomwatson7626]

He has an almost timeless quality to him, like I could imagine him living in the US 200 years ago. He's an old, gentle soul.

[@jrahn66]

Very much so and an empath as well.

[@918mbc]

I felt the same way, watching and hearing his story!!

[@lindboknifeandtool]

I have a theory that all “old souls” are just traumatized people.

[@vegasdancer007]

Daniel I wish I could give you a hug right now, you are a very special sensitive soul. This world is much harder for people like us, but you are not alone and you can still have a wonderful life. Please don't give up on yourself! You are so smart, and still very young! Love you Daniel!

[@englishmenintown8622]

How can we seriously help this guy. This guy needs help and deserves it. Not everyone's life is a bed of roses and one wrong decision cant be the divining moment for the rest of his life, thats simply not fair. This guy needs help!!!!!!

[@anthonycarter4]

Sulute to all the EMT's. They are strong mentally/emotionally to be doing that.

[@terywetherlow7970]

Do they have age restrictions to join. Seems the trauma he has stems from the accident of his friend. I have personally encountered a few gruesome accidents as a pedestrian. I was older tho.....best of luck to Daniel

[@marialiyubman]

No they’re not, They’re as*holes who follow orders.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@terywetherlow7970 You have to complete EMT training.

[@leilaniferreira1317]

I feel so much sympathy for you. You seem like someone who had such a bright future and I’m gonna say HAVE the potential to get your life back on track and have a bright future. Its not too late. I really hope you get the strength from within and the support from other’s to do what you need to heal from all your wounds. Stay strong!

[@juulfiend2103]

I know. Thank you

[@martham9980]

Daniel, your potential is still ALL THERE! Your self awareness is impressive and I really think counseling would set you on a better path. I believe in you.

[@baublesanddolls]

Mark, thank you for giving Daniel, and everyone else you've interviewed, a chance to tell their story. I'm sure it's the first time they've opened up to anyone without judgment and able to finish, which is so therapeutic. I don't think you realize how helpful and needed you are. You're not just a guy with a camera, as you say. 💖 💕

[@bxc4484]

A good guy that has gone through a lot and need counseling.

[@willd2225]

Would be excellent if there was a way to directly support this young man getting into treatment

[@cokeysnose375]

1 hit can change your life. actually hits home, hope this dude gets everything he needs

[@johnny5stacks60]

I hate fentanyl. I feel this guy’s story so much. I haven’t lost my dad, but the rest of his story feels really familiar. I know the feeling of being so out of it on Fent that you’re bumping into walls, falling on the floor, dropping everything, not realizing where the time went, forgetting how you ended up bleeding in front of a mirror. I lost my dog too because of my drug use. I let my family down. I was able to get some of my life back with Suboxone, but now I’m just a slave to that. At least I don’t put myself in danger anymore. You can get better, Daniel. I wish you the best.

[@turdfergusonoutdoors5070]

I feel you, never got into fentanyl but was heavy into Rox 30’s for a long time. Got on subs when my wife got pregnant with me first child. Subs work good if your on a plan and can stick to it that taper is very important your still gonna feel like shit and have trouble sleeping when you get off but it allowed me to live a productive life where i never had to spend all day chasing dope. Alot of doctors will try to keep you on subs as long as they can for that copay in their pocket. if i had to do it all over again i would have done subs for about a month and tapered off i was on them for 3 years. Good luck and glad your taking steps to better yourself.

[@englishmenintown8622]

Fentanyl is the devil. Not personal experience but know people closely that heroin and Fentanyl have rampaged through their lives.... But ya anyway basically saying i agree with you.

[@UhaveN0idea]

This poor baby. People underestimate the way a violent, alcoholic parental figure can traumatize a child. The way that trauma can come back years later. People underestimate what emts go through and see on a regular basis. I wish I could give Daniel the biggest hug. I wish I could just sit down and talk with him for hours. I hope he can see his worth & find peace and solace in that worth, no matter what that may mean.

[@ryanaustindino]

I hope Daniel figures it out… he seems just way too genuine to be untrue. He seems so nice. Seems like he just wanted the pain to go away..

[@SandiByrd]

This one is heartbreaking....he regrets his decision to start using and it's so raw and genuine. I cried with him. I remember feeling hopeless in addiction. I pray that he gets the support and help he needs - he deserves a second chance at life 100%.

[@sheilaboland6285]

Daniel, I thought of you throughout the four hours I was at work today. I thought of the 14 ppl you helped breathe before the ambulances arrived. If you weren’t there to help them maybe they would have died. You saved their lives. Now it’s time to save your own life. I am sorry that in your deep pain you started with heroin because of your friend, because you couldn’t sleep. But please live. Don’t die. Don’t kill yourself. Please try to live. Thank you for sharing parts of your life with us.

[@amysharples4789]

Please get this guy the help he really needs, before the streets cause a lot more trauma than he’s already experienced. x

[@rshelton119]

Heart wrenching! I have high hopes that Daniel will get the help he deserves.

[@MineChanclas]

Daniel, please just know that you are loved. I know how hopeless and insurmountable it all feels. You carry SO much shame and hurt around with you all the time. Please know that you’re worth it. It took me 50+ tries but I am finally sober. Please don’t give up, friend. You are such a beautiful soul!

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen! Congratulations at not giving up on yourself!😊👍👏👏👏❤️

[@MineChanclas]

@@marylougeorge9890 appreciate you! ❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@MineChanclas ❤️

[@amygrove9635]

Daniel is one of my favorite interviews. I've watched it 3x times. I would love an update. What a sweet man. I hope things are better for him now?

[@damienmensinger1439]

This was a hard watch for me because his moral compass seems to be there and his mind is fractured. I hope he gets clean and finds his inner peace

[@jaguska368]

Daniel, you are such a sweet soul. I believe you will make it. You are strong and you don’t belong to the streets. Reach out for help and be patient with yourself. I will have you in my thoughts.

[@lisalandry9346]

So moving, Daniel. You’re intelligent, kind, compassionate, and gifted. I believe that you can turn your life around and that you’re ready to take those next steps. I believe that you’ve got this! ❤️

[@jvw418]

Please Mark, he deserves the help. Out of all people on this channel, he’s the one.

[@martinlehtonen]

"I remember thinking to myself why would sombody just run in to traffic, but here I am doing what I would question other people doing. I can't believe it's me....I miss me!"

[@Alejandro0777]

I live in Spain, I'm spaniard. From here I just wanna scream: PLEASE, SOMEBODY HELP THIS BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's extremely urgent!!!!!! God bless yoy Daniel

[@Beefareeno]

I struggled with the similar things, for similar reasons. You just want the pain inside to stop. But the thorns are in so deep. If you start to heal the pain, then you can slowly start picking them out. I wish you healing.

[@besainted]

i think you worded this beautifully.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@besainted ❤️😊

[@danijjoycee]

This man’s an angel. Sending you all of my love and healing Daniel, you’re not alone

[@user-by6yc8yl7v]

The fact alone that he's able to describe so much of his painful childhood/young adulthood memories while nodding off shows how much pain hes in.

[@kungfuckzong]

First two minutes of playing already feeling the pain that guy is going trough. It will be a hard one.

[@kimhsiang8049]

This is horrific. So different to many other stories. If I had of witnessed what he did, I probably would have fallen off the cliff too. Wishing you so much luck. Never giveup hope. Get that help. You have a whole life to live. It's not too late for you xx

[@meghancowling3479]

I really hope Daniel is able to access help. You are worthy of love and of self love and of a better life, Daniel.

[@debsprior862]

Omg my heart is breaking for this young lad, it makes me so sad. He needs help...and love! Let your family embrace you and get some help Daniel- you are a wonderful young man who has a life still to live and there is hope. I just want to give you a hug & assure you you can get through this...because you're bright, intelligent and there's more for you. I hope your family reach out to you , open their doors to you...& Love you, that is the way to turn this situation around. I hope this happens for you xx

[@Dylandontplay]

I hope he reads comments like these!! Men need to hear stuff like this too!!

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@Dylandontplay 👍❤️👏

[@milenanenova4008]

You see, Mark…this is a person we need and can help!❤️

[@milenanenova4008]

@Chris I guess if you’ve watch this channel for enough time you will already know that there are no voluntary addicts!

[@cdunne1620]

@Chris ..wow Daniel is healthier than you man, what a comment

[@Iheart2cook]

I agree 100%. Daniel is savable.

[@milenanenova4008]

@Chris I’m not from your nation!!

[@cdunne1620]

..yes Chris I agree with you to a certain extent about excuses excuses, yes but it’s very obvious this guy is not a typical case on this channel, you don’t seem to see that but yeah a lot on here need to bite the bullet and say enough is enough. I’m sure that’s very hard to do if you’re caught in the chemical addiction, it could be like a hole you fall into and it’s extremely hard to climb out. If you had your full faculties then yes no excuses but if your brain is not operating correctly how do you think rationally and say to yourself enough is enough, I don’t think it is as simple as you’re implying, I don’t know for sure though, I’m glad I don’t know for sure