someday (original)

disclaimer: a long novel ahead of you
after “garden of roses”, i didnt think i could make something as good as it esp bc after that time period, i was going through the darkest time of my life, creatively, physically, and mentally. this is definitely the most vulnerable and real ive gotten in my songwriting and also in what ive chosen to show to the world. i debated whether to share these vids because its not what appeals to the human eye. but it appeals to me, and i find that far more valuable than anything else.
this summer-or rather this beginning half of the year-was where i struggled the most as an artist and as an individual. throughout the wide range of emotions captured in these videos, the main thing i talked abt was how I was scared of losing myself to all my doubts and insecurities that have completely resurfaced and intensified these past few months. i got my heart broken and faced confrontations that forced me to re-evaluate who i was and who i wanted to be.
after scratching and rewriting so many songs (i literally had like 10) because none of them felt “right”, i eventually wrote this song. i was in my backyard, playing a simple melody and these lyrics just came out naturally. and i havent felt this way since my first single. its super vulnerable. super sad (i mean all of my songs are lol). but super real.
this song is to remind not only me, but you, that its ok to not be ok. that sometimes its so much better to let yourself fall into all the misery and pain youre feeling because eventually it’ll be the cause of your growth. and that someday, we will get to where we want to be.
i hope this song finds you well. i hope you are healing, growing, and thriving. and if not, that’s ok. when you feel the most alone is when you are surrounded by the most.
maybe someday ill record this more professionally and share it on all platforms, but for now, this is the simple and raw version i feel is best to give and also to close the summer off (‘: thank you all for everything, love you guys!!!

[@missjada1656]

hang in there girly you’re going to get the recognition you deserve one day

[@rhylie1686]

This is absolutely beautiful and you’re going to do great things in life. Remember to love yourself because I saw this video and I already love you. You’re so talented and never for get that.

[@thisyna]

im so sorry I JUST saw this!!! but thank you so much 🥺 that means the world to me!!

[@missjada1656]

i love this

[@SammyBelMar]

you are such a beautiful soul to witness. thank you for sharing what it's like to be human. and REAL.

[@thisyna]

HII SAMANTHA!! im so sorry I JUST saw this, but thank you so much ily 😭💛

[@jpeduria1883]

🥺❤️