Spiritbox - Constance (Official Music Video)

Spiritbox's song "Constance" from their album 'Eternal Blue'. Buy/Stream the full album now at riserecords.ln...
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LYRICS
Dying sun burns in the night
I watch it glow and it’s so hard for me
Speaking darkness out of spite
Coercion and then caving in
Wrap me in my bitterness
Give it up I’m complacent
Just enough to escape this
Heretics wouldn’t phase me
Lucid trust I don’t want it
Palms are rough when you promise
Fire lies when you’re honest
It’s hard to lose and wonder why
You pressure in increments
Like a slow moving coup
Memories dissident
When I am holding you
If my sun won’t set tonight
I’ll look around but it’s so hard for me
Like a shadow passing by
Crashing into shapes and then
Fading with my innocence
Give it up I’m complacent
Just enough to escape it
Heretics wouldn’t phase me
Lucid trust I don’t want it
Palms are rough when you promise
Fire lies when you’re honest
It’s hard to lose and wonder why
I have been waiting my whole life
For pressure in increments
Like a slow moving coup
Memories dissident
When I am holding you
****** This project is funded in part by FACTOR, the Government of Canada and Canada’s private radio broadcasters. Ce projet est financé en partie par FACTOR, le gouvernement du Canada et les radiodiffuseurs privés du Canada. www.factor.ca/
#Spiritbox #Constance

[@riserecords]

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[@Mr-ks5kl]

Beautiful

[@alexandro9896]

It’s not in Spotify yet?

[@gSWG3R]

@@alexandro9896 It is.

[@yuriyuriyuri9405]

Really guys .... tooooo soooon

[@alexandro9896]

@@gSWG3R really it’s not,maybe some country restriction thing?

[@scotthryciuk3142]

Constance is my mom. Today - December 4th is her birthday - she is 88. She is the nurse in the photo. She is in a long term care home and I have not seen her since early March of this year due to COVID-19. Unfortunately the press release is incorrect. Courtney’s grandmother died in 2020 and she wrote the beautiful lyrics to honor her grandmother. Dylan’s grandmother is still living and has been suffering from dementia for several years. Dylan created the video imagery to honor his grandmother and her struggles at this time in her life. Mom goes by Connie to those that know her. Today her proper name of Constance is more meaningful. Dylan from Versa Films is my son. I am thankful to Courtney and Spiritbox for having the courage to tackle a subject like this. Courtney: I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I am touched by the comments from everyone that has been through this. As the son, I know how it affects me - everyday seeing your mother not remember you. Counting the times she remembers your name. As parents we don't always see or realize the impact these circumstance and this disease has on the grandchildren. Dylan, Courtney and all the comments show that the pain runs deep within the families. For me it is tough to watch this video. It is harder to live with or to have lived with this in real life. Words cannot begin to describe. Thank you to everyone for their comments as hard as they were to publicly display. It's amazing Dylan. It's amazing Courtney. It's amazing Spiritbox. Constance is proud. I am proud. February 17, 2023: One year ago today at 12:15 AM Constance (the actual nurse in the photo) ended her fight with dementia. Mom fought hard for over 6 years. The last three days of her life were painful to watch. From February 14 to February 17, 2022 her body began its last painful shutdown. This horrible disease removes the person we knew slowly right before our eyes. It cruelly removes us from their memories and when it finally does that it removes any and all functions of the mind until their body can no longer live. This video and song have been a great comfort to me since it was released and even more of a comfort after mom's passing. I cannot begin to count the number of times I have watched it since mom's death. It was the first thing I listened to and watched the morning of her passing. I continue to watch and listen to it regularly (this morning included). The song and the video have resonated with so many people as the comments and reaction videos clearly show. The subject matter is daring for any band and Spiritbox should be commended for that. The imagery of the video displays a different kind of horror story that so many people face in real life. I cannot begin to say how grateful I am for this song and video. Thank you to Courtney and Spiritbox for a beautiful song and thank you to Dylan and Versa Films for the powerful visuals.

[@justinsmithmusic]

Thanks to you and yours for bearing such a beautiful immortalization not just for your mom, but for all of the loved and lost. There’s a catharsis in the tears that can’t be found anywhere else. I’m thankful. Your son is an incredible talent.

[@scotthryciuk3142]

@@justinsmithmusic He is. The band too for taking such a tough time and making it musically beautiful. Beautifully sad. Thank you for your words.

[@owenjanzen9843]

Your son is the most talented and thoughtful individual I've ever had the pleasure to work with, his art is truly beautiful and wonderfully inspiring

[@scotthryciuk3142]

@@owenjanzen9843 that is very kind of you to say. I'll admit he's a pretty good guy

[@nihilmusic1536]

Your son is a true artist! Great video and song.

[@VersaFilms]

Thank you for trusting me with this video. This was a special one.

[@JayEdgar0409]

Great work as always. The cinematography is amazing

[@rlj6798]

Awesome work again man, your Spiritbox videos are next level!

[@VNKNOWN_TX]

You guys made a masterpiece with this one.

[@nickmaas5255]

Knocked it out the fucking park mate

[@architecterror]

You made a fantastic tribute video!

[@trevordelaplain7246]

This wasn’t one of their heaviest songs. but it was one their HEAVIEST songs!!

[@Ravelle17]

nailed it

[@twinny_mi]

heavy feels ☑

[@InfiniteDrums]

@joseph ka Beesechurger

[@freezingjazzy]

@@InfiniteDrums Dude, that was such a beautiful response, I teared up a bit.

[@treweis1141]

Thst doesn't make sense but ok

[@mylife1221]

This song has a double meaning now. We'll miss you, Bill. Rest in peace, buddy.

[@anagramhound]

Holy Roller: Slaps me physically Constance: Slaps me emotionally

[@스텔-c6o]

lolllll

[@feliperiquelmet]

Blessed Be: Get slapped twice

[@ArturoGarcia007]

There's also the Rule of Slaps

[@anagramhound]

Ah yes, my favorite is The Slap Effect, Pt.1-3

[@MightBeCale]

@@anagramhound I just love Slapbox, man

[@CommanderVolkov]

Losing a loved one to alzheimers or dementia is truly heartbreaking, and this song captures that sadness perfectly in the video. I work in an ER where families often bring their elderly loved ones to us because they don't know what to do, don't know how to take care of them, don't know how to cope with their parent or grandparent not knowing who they are anymore. It's so heartbreaking to see, and not many are willing to speak on or show the struggles of the elderly in such a beautiful way. The frustration of the family and the way she looks at the photos and doesn't know who she is, and that lost look in her eyes, it's very true to real life. Thank you Spiritbox. Haven't cried like this from a song in a good while.

[@josueveguilla9069]

I lost my paternal grandmother to Alzheimer’s, too. I miss her so much😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@cxnnxr_99]

I lost my grandmother to both. One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through. This video had me breaking down 5 seconds into it.

[@ZepyhrLight]

Please check out in absence by silent planet. Same idea and same feelings it'll break you like this song has.. I'm so sorry for you guys and anyone else who had lost someone to these illnesses but rejoice for they are in heaven !!!! Where they are living with the true God of Jacob , Jesus healed them the second they got in... I don't know what heaven looks like or what that moment will look like that.. but I really believe someone who has gone through these illnesses get to heaven.. Jesus is a beautiful forgiving Savior , he would not allow anyone suffering like this too suffer hell. And jesus, if I'm wrong let me know tonight when I sleep. Amen Jesus amen

[@CommanderVolkov]

@@ZepyhrLight I'm not gonna start a religious argument, but you realize like half of Silent Planet's songs call out the hypocrisy and cruel nature of Christianity, right? Not exactly the type of band a devout Christian should enjoy considering the context of their songs. You should probably preach elsewhere, buddy.

[@ZepyhrLight]

@@CommanderVolkov no . They call out the hypocrisy because religion, Christian religion especially can be hypocritical. The world will know us by love not by teachings and works as the Pharisees of this world can keep believing. Jesus said the two most important commandments were to love God and love your neighbor as your self. Silent planet calls out the hypocrisy to shed light on who we are so that maybe we will have a change of heart and let jesus in. I love silent planet. They are 100 percent a band I should listen too and will do till my last breath :)

[@Anhedonia22]

The most beautiful ballads int he world are made by metal bands. Period.

[@Grimeyhoob]

Word 🤘🏻 Fade to Black. Bother. You name it. All metal.

[@zakf6104]

True that. It’s Only Smiles got me feeling that way too.

[@rachelhenderson4850]

Soooo true!

[@mrbred-el3vf]

straight facts.

[@rosssweat3703]

@@Grimeyhoob cemetery gates! Hollow! Pantera has several. What I wouldn’t do to hear her cover cemetery gates or this love!

[@Danky94]

Showed my dad this song, he lost his mom to dementia 5 years ago, after listening he proceeded to tell me all the stories of when he and I would visit his mom and all the memories that he has of her. He told me "at the time those moments were for her, but now those memories are for us."

[@BlackoutBlakeOfficialYT]

I know it's 5 months late, but your father's quote struck me so powerfully. ...I'm sorry that happened to his mom.

[@cynthiaf9957]

That's so beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with us!

[@blastard8980]

Nothing to do with video, you could have shown him something else (with the same topic) and get the same reaction

[@Danky94]

@@blastard8980 And you could have not been a miserable git and said nothing...

[@gitiimoc]

You broke me. I just had a little disagreement with my mother. She doesn't have Alzheimer's, but she's in her 80s and in constant discomfort. I'm going to go in and make up. Life is short and too precious to be stubborn. Thank you for a beautiful and moving video.

[@risheyrsp4519]

G Oyil, You Go Man! 🙂💙

[@weareallbetteroffdea]

Life’s too short to hold onto arguements. I just lost my dad about 2 months ago and we never fully got to reconnect. So much hurt that didn’t get to heal. So many things left unsaid. I regret not going to see him and talk to him face to face. Please do so, while you still have her.

[@jonometal666]

Do what ever you can to help her be more comfortable bro - I lost mine in 2015 and am pained with regret. Could I have done more to help etc.

[@Squirrel-zq6oe]

Wow that made me tear up

[@nathanwilliams3049]

I had a similar exp !! Called my mom and even told her about this video and how it made me wanna be closer to her

[@NikNocturnal]

True art

[@SBSTN87]

Need a reaction video of this right now mafafaka❤️

[@peterveres797]

I hope you did a reaction to this!!! :)

[@50mattman]

Guaranteed he is editing it as we speak bois

[@somerandomguy9156]

Cover? Maybe... 😕

[@nopenope7585]

Patiently waiting...

[@laurenbabic]

oh my god well donnneeeeeeee. this is beautiful.

[@DivisionBell]

Lauren

[@WillEhrendreich]

Please collab soon! You two are my favorite female metal vocalists!

[@DylanOvertimeWinner]

Still jam everything you do!

[@redthunder6561]

Só tem pessoas fodas aqui, queria ter amigos assim... Lauren você poderia fazer um cover dessa música? Por favor? 🖤🖤🖤

[@timklafke4712]

Heyyy, love your stuff Lauren.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

Any band that can write a song like Holly Roller and then do a 180 so perfectly and write a song like Constance is a band I'll be listening to t'ill I die.

[@liagreco3245]

ridiculously underrated comment. i'm right there with you. Courtney is an amazing vocalist.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

@@liagreco3245 She's insanely good. I've even gotten myself into IWABO to tied me over until the album comes out.

[@liagreco3245]

@@jeffreymercado2082 I wasn't a huge fan of that band. It was bit much for me. Though I thought Courtney had a better voice than Krysta did.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

@@liagreco3245 lol I didn’t realize Courtney wasn’t always the lead vocalist.

[@liagreco3245]

@@jeffreymercado2082 yeah, Courtney joined the band in late 2012 after Krysta Cameron left. I don’t know why, or care. But Courtney was the vocalist on Late for Nothing and Hail Mary. Krysta was on it’s all happening and ruining it for everybody

[@NiflheimMists]

Ok, it's time for singing, and then some crying. And then some singing and more crying.

[@ilovesecretagents]

I DEED IT

[@Thystonius]

Haha, nice reference to the one take of Rule of Nines

[@Kkulchong.]

Nice reference bro

[@marcomauceli8385]

Foreallll

[@scottgarland2542]

If you know, you know.

[@patfix]

The expressions of the old lady are heart breaking.

[@Karmajinxer14]

DUDE YES. SHES ALL SMILEY AND THEN LOST AND IT HURTS SO BADDD

[@iurigrang]

She's such a fucking good actress, like wtf

[@waterproof4403]

❤😔

[@BaenaCarcosa]

This video made me cry :'( beautiful!

[@scottshepke669]

At least I’m not the only one

[@metaphysical6926]

Spiritbox never misses

[@matildagreene]

Literally started bawling halfway through, Spiritbox has done it to me yet again

[@808BassMetal]

I'm not crying! My face sprung a leak!

[@rogerlosh3537]

I lost my great grandma to Alzheimer's disease so this song hits close to home so I'm right with you

[@absolutebangersyt]

Rest in Peace, Bill ❤

[@justinmadison513]

Even the increasingly distorting guitar tones play into the dissonance of losing ones memories. Holy shit this is amazing art. All around.

[@Watchpocket]

I was thinking the same thing. Such a masterpiece of a song.

[@danielboyd3077]

Each chorus there was a 5th that was off. Something like that just enough that you knew things weren’t being held together. It also increased through the song. GENIUS

[@tylersummers2663]

It almost reminded me of "Everwhere At The End Of Time" by The Caretaker, he did the same thing to a whole concept release. I still can't listen to it fully without breaking in half.

[@justinmadison513]

@@tylersummers2663 yes! That's exactly what I thought!

[@red240red2]

@@danielboyd3077 wish I knew what you meant. Can anyone explain this to a person who doesn’t know music theory

[@LoudwireMusic]

Album plz

[@wastedblues2]

Push em for it, Loudwire! And make sure they make more than 250 copies this time, I barely got the last one.

[@thealaskanforever]

Patience. The longer they have, the better it’ll be.

[@MrJapsverb]

Pressur in increments

[@TankTheTech]

Spiritbox: Releases highly emotional song and beautiful piece of art with video director. KZbin community: Thank you for this beautiful piece of work. Loudwire: AlBuM pLz

[@geoffalpert3678]

Oh shit loudwires here 😲😮😯😧

[@driftless7134]

Tuned in for some metal. Ended up thinking about my grandma and crying. Powerful stuff.

[@inory5460]

same here right now

[@xSeas7]

This comment is perfect.

[@OrdepLiveira]

I lost my granny a year ago, nothing never hit me as hard as this song did.

[@n.a.1625]

Same here. I'd call my grandmas right now if it weren't 2am here... Both are in their late 80s, and every single day they are with us is a gift.

[@travisbrooks2564]

My grandfather lost his battle with alzheimer's disease today :(. This song an music video means alot to come to after something so hard to face. I will remember him for what he was a good grandfather to me and paving my way as the man I have become. Thank you Courtney and spirit box for helping me cheer up

[@corysutton]

Sorry man, stay strong for yourself and your family.

[@DEADPEDAL]

I am so sorry to hear man. I am all too familiar with this awful disease, as my great aunt fought with it for almost a decade in conjunction with Parkinson's. As awful as it sounds, it was almost a relief when she passed. The human we were caring for wasn't really her anymore, anyways. It's a hard, strange, and crushing thing to witness. Hoping you find peace in the coming weeks and months.

[@Randallsixx13]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You have his memory and his lessons. He goes on...

[@TineEdong]

Hope you are doing ok. Don't drink too much. Talk to people if you need help. Keep it metal my friend.

[@nickkohlmann]

Hey there. I hope you're doing okay and wish you the very best. There seem to be people with similar experiences in the comments, and to everyone going through the loss of a loved one recently I just wish the very best this earth has to give. Lost my own grandfather last year.

[@derrickmanley6143]

The video is heartbreaking. Absolutely heartbreaking. Just had to say goodbye to my grandmother yesterday and this hit way too close to home. Beautiful song, though.

[@ellab.7658]

Aww I am so sorry ❤️😢

[@rogerlosh3537]

I lost my great grandma to Alzheimer's disease so this song hits close to home I'm so sorry man rip

[@Commandercolt44]

I'm sorry for your loss

[@jacobriddell4917]

Stay strong man, much love

[@gitiimoc]

Sorry for your loss.

[@Void-Realm]

The woman who's playing the Grandmother/Mother with Dementia did a really good job with her portrayal.

[@lumos2230]

It's actually the guitarists real grandma

[@callmekanda5662]

@@lumos2230 NOOOOOOOOO ;(

[@TheHeckler85]

She also has dementia as well

[@ice9charnas791]

@@lumos2230 thanks, now im crying harder

[@tylero2112]

I lost my grandma the same way last year. This song hit me right in the feels.

[@TooLITMafia]

Thank you for this beautiful gift that I will never let leave my heart... Forever love from Too LIT Mafia

[@jawa4929]

Heyyyy what’s up man? Love the vids!!!

[@StuntmanDanHemi]

great reaction bro

[@KrC_Games]

nice to see you here, dude i wonder you can do Amber Town - Bloom? i've been asking everyone to react that, i know you have alost of request, but this one is special, trust me man!

[@malus138]

Damn boy I hope you drop a reaction to this shit I love this song soooooo much.

[@kingsp00k78]

Thanks for getting us over here. Been listenin to them for 4 days straight

[@mrsandman_]

My mother is bipolar/schizophrenic. There are times when it gets really rough, and her demons are winning. Nothing hurts more than being “forgotten” by your mom especially if you are really close. Her loving and gentle hands becomes rough and hurting. This song gives me a big hug, like it says, “go on, let it all out.” Thank you Spiritbox for this song, it touched my heart.

[@KnivingDispodia]

Damn. Best of luck to you.

[@nicopillay4059]

The longer she lives with it untreated, the worse she'll get. Make sure she's on her meds and drinking enough water. My younger brother suffers with schizophrenia

[@xButtrflyx]

This has been my life for so long now. I listen to this often because it fits so perfectly the emotions that are felt.

[@jpav35]

I feel the same way. I lost my mom 8 months ago at the age of 62. She didn't take care of herself physically or mentally the last 20 years or so of her life, so it was almost as if she was slowly losing her mind the last several years of her life and it was just so damn painful to experience.

[@emkstr]

@@nicopillay4059 My brother has it as well, along with bipolar disorder. It's so hard to see him fade. He's currently in recovery from his heroin addiction (again), so it's not at its worst. But you can tell talking to him the years have taken their toll. And he's still such a young man.

[@coldbloodsupplicant]

This video hit me hard, just lost my grandma yesterday. But nothing helps heal quite like heavy music. Glad to be alive in a time when bands like Spiritbox exist.

[@Commandercolt44]

I'm sorry for your loss

[@coldbloodsupplicant]

@@Commandercolt44 thank you

[@gitiimoc]

Sorry for your loss.

[@makasher100]

Sorry for your loss

[@prozmadamus319]

Sorry for your loss broski god rest her

[@Kyurk11]

Not sure if this means anything to anybody, but I need to share this to help get it off my chest. My wife and I moved away from our home state PA to NC a couple years back. We rarely get to visit family and it has been even rarer this past year due to travel restrictions. Last month within a 2 week span, I lost one of my grandmothers and my wife lost one of her grandfathers. Although we were able to Skype/FaceTime them before they passed, we were unable to visit them in person to say goodbye due to COVID. It has been very hard. I work as a chemist for a company that researches and manufactures medications for rare neurological diseases (including Alzheimer’s and dementia). Ever since this song was released, I have been listening to it everyday on my way to work to serve as a reminder to why I am working where I am at, and to help me process our recent losses. Thank you so much Spiritbox and Rise Records for this beautiful piece. You have connected on a deeper level than most with this song and music video. ❤️

[@СимонЦанков]

Thats beautiful

[@constantlyfabulous]

That's what's up🙏🏾

[@jordanengstrom2269]

Thank u brother. Prayers to you.

[@damiencharnoski7428]

I'm sorry

[@karigalliard516]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Keep moving forward and stay close with your wife. There are always people out there willing to listen. Thank you for sharing a bit of your story 💖

[@anthonylawless2156]

Spiritbox are going to fully blow up soon, They're so damn talented, Courtney is so versatile she can sing literally anything!

[@joshdean6243]

I love the CTE Cog!

[@camdenwyeth316]

They're on their way up for sure. They've grown so much since last year I'm so happy for them.

[@stevewalker6340]

Been listening to them a while, surprised it hasn't happened by now

[@Ravelle17]

@@stevewalker6340 they haven't been able to tour. if they were on the road in normal conditions they'd be world-beaters

[@tinastodomingo7665]

spiritbox is so underrated, but the best one.🤩🤩🤩🤩

[@Veorick]

Thank You For Your Grooves.., May You Rest In Peace Bill Crook🕊️🙏🏻🕊️

[@joshkuhnmusic]

I wasn't prepared to cry tonight. But here we are.

[@sanekn]

Same here man

[@spadz93]

Bro, same. Lost my grandfather back in April to dementia/alzheimers. This hits wayyy too close to home

[@joshkuhnmusic]

@@spadz93 Im going through that battle now. Its not fun

[@spadz93]

@@joshkuhnmusic no it is not. Here for you man

[@joshkuhnmusic]

@@spadz93 thanks bro you too

[@MatteBlackEverything]

I just lost my mom a year ago, and she was definitely older than most. But she struggled with dementia for the past 10 years.... I lost her 10 years ago as far as I'm concerned. This song was so beautiful, and the tonal bridge near the end was the pain I felt for 10 years, and is probably what my mom felt (emotionally speaking) after forgetting people, loosing memories, and loosing her speech.... I felt this in my core. Thank you all. EDIT: I just want address the reversal effect in the video.... We all want to reverse time when a loved one is at their last stance. I would give my life to speak to my mother again....... But time keeps moving forward... I hate it. I hate it soooo much..

[@CapitalMforMotivated]

Thanks for sharing, i'm sure this video and song will be helpful to countless people and families who understand the helplessness of cognitive decline

[@maggotsxcl7403]

I just lost mine about a year ago too, December 15th, 2019 and this song hit me pretty hard

[@ZepyhrLight]

@@maggotsxcl7403 I lost my grandma in December too, back a little earlier though. She died around the same time her love did. But a year later.. my grandma ahhhh she didn't have dementia or anything she struggled with diabetes, congestive heart failure and was a cancer survivor of 11 years struggle. What this song brought out into the light of my mind is that I really didn't know her, and she really didn't know me.. we didn't talk much even though I was around so much... I almost never gave her the love she needed... And it hurts the living hell out of me. But I forgive my self in jesus name and ask jesus to forgive me as well for this, and Grandma Karen , I know your up in heaven, I hope you forgive me for not talking.. I was struggling too.. I'm so tired of the silent mute SPIRIT placed on my family....

[@Drrburken]

Dude same

[@DemonLordRaiden]

A lot of people who have never been through this kind of shit don't get it, but you're right when you said " I lost her 10 years ago as far as I'm concerned". My grandpa died back in 2015, but he hadn't really been around for the last 2 or 3 years since he was put on tubes and was constantly sedated. Fuck dementia. I don't know how to end this, but I hope you can move past the pain of your mom's passing. It never goes away, but it gets a little easier.

[@martinv.-]

I was NOT expecting such a masterpiece. Unbelieveable.

[@Anthony-pq4vr]

Absolutely a masterpiece of art

[@jaguar1224]

I didn’t expect Spiritbox to go prog. It was violently beautiful.

[@milostodorovic69]

Expect the unexpected

[@dropthehammer1360]

Fucking beautiful.

[@killxswitch]

Doubt anyone will see this but thank you for this song. I miss my grandmas.

[@stefolou]

I miss mine, too. 💔. Not alone man.

[@Evan-mh1kd]

Last remaining grandparent (my dad's mom) is dying. Lost use of her right arm and now is getting dementia at 92 years young. Other Grandma died during COVID and I didn't get to be with her while she went. Amazing song. Love it and Spirit Box.

[@killxswitch]

@@Evan-mh1kd Sorry for your losses. 92 is a long time to live but I know it still hurts.

[@BobbieDraper]

I miss her too :/ she was the only grandparent I had

[@sentientcardboarddumpster7900]

My grandpa just died. I want to show some family this song but I don't wanna break their hearts as much as it breaks mine. Maybe they need it like I do though

[@terryvoorbij6260]

Imagine being in a band with your wife and putting out bangers like this. THAT IS LIVING

[@fawnjackson9183]

Can we please talk about how every time Constance appears after the first family scene--when she sees her late husband out the window--small things around her house, the pictures on the wall start disappearing? Can we also please talk about how her family's faces start to blur at the dinner table (while the pictures are vanishing off the walls)? And finally when you get to that riff, we all know which one, that all throughout the video stuff was disappearing off the walls finally everything was blinking out of existence? What makes a house a home are the memories that are created in it. Things that have meaning. Did yall notice her picture of Jesus vanishing off the wall when her daughter in law was helping her sweater on? It started with little things then suddenly furniture starting disappearing, stuff that likely was purchased when her husband was still alive. Then her family vanishing...and then finally her own face starting to blur as she starts to forget herself. She knew something was wrong when she wet her face in the bathroom. All the while her late husband kept appearing. At the end it was all she remembered. And maybe at the very opening how Constance was blurry but the water of the lake wasn't? Or at the end the water was the thing not as in focus? Yes this family suffered but this video also captures what its like for Constance herself to feel her life deleting, slowly first but then in whole chunks, robbing her of the things that made her life full and complete. Like when the grandson mouthed I love you before being the first one to be forgotten, then the daughter in law then finally her son. Even when she stood at the lake with her husband, the only thing that was still clear, her expression was sad and bewildered. She could only remember her husband's gentle smile, but it brought her no peace. Can we talk about all of that? Just food for thought. The director spared no details in how dementia erodes the soul and everything that makes us us. It happened to my own grandmother. Maybe those disappearing memories just materialize on the other side. Maybe.

[@JasonGulbin]

Well said. The director's grandmother is currently living with dementia and Courtney's has passed, so there's lots of first hand experience unfortunately.

[@shanahenkel8902]

You didn't miss a single detail, wow.

[@stephaniemcgrath5428]

This.

[@joshguy5221]

You got the point, exactly what I was seeing in the video. Brilliant

[@nunya4244]

I noticed all these things! This video, and the music, is so powerfully and beautifully done! Lost my mother to dementia in 2019. My son, a heavy metal musician, showed ne this video last night annd both of us were in tears, shaking our heads in agreement at how powerful this is. The music is spot on.

[@bogdanhxc]

I need this thanks

[@ismaelcastellanos3822]

REACTION PLEASEE

[@engr.zachkinouchi08]

i really love this song so bad it makes my tears out and i missed my grand mother... greetings from the Philippines.

[@andrewrice8726]

When you're desensitized to almost everything but then the teary eyes hit anyway.

[@halfsleepertv]

Chainsaw beheadings? Fine. Extreme sexual violence in movies? Fine. Grandmas with Alzheimer’s? Totally fucking not okay 😭

[@cup6580]

Yeah I felt the same way. Honestly it is hard for me to cry anymore and this song really hit deep

[@jonmiller19845]

Bingo

[@TechNerdRudy]

Oh my gosh, what a masterpiece!

[@tylerwood5019]

Their range is absurd

[@andrexskin]

I normally don't cry, it's something that rarely happens. But man, this song, this video, this hits me. I could see Constance's pain from losing "parts" of herself, the pain of her family, the fear of what is going on, this is heavy. I cried, this song and this video is beautifully sad. In my opinion it's a masterpiece.

[@nickkohlmann]

I have tears in my eyes myself

[@Flaffi]

Да уж, музыка действительно не знает преград, даже не понимая слов, она очень сильно задела меня за душу. Прям тяжело смотреть, плакала. Но песня и клип замечательные! 💖

[@scotthryciuk3142]

One year ago today at 12:15 AM Constance (the actual nurse in the photo) ended her fight with dementia. Mom fought hard for over 6 years. The last three days of her life were painful to watch. From February 14 to February 17, 2022 her body began its last painful shutdown. This horrible disease removes the person we knew slowly right before our eyes. It cruelly removes us from their memories and when it finally does that it removes any and all functions of the mind until their body can no longer live. This video and song have been a great comfort to me since it was released and even more of a comfort after mom's passing. I cannot begin to count the number of times I have watched it since mom's death. It was the first thing I listened to and watched the morning of her passing. I continue to watch and listen to it regularly (this morning included). The song and the video have resonated with so many people as the comments and reaction videos clearly show. The subject matter is daring for any band and Spiritbox should be commended for that. The imagery of the video displays a different kind of horror story that so many people face in real life. I cannot begin to say how grateful I am for this song and video. Thank you to Courtney and Spiritbox for a beautiful song and thank you to Dylan and Versa Films for the powerful visuals.

[@vspacekidv]

❤️❤️❤️

[@beewitche]

my condolences. 💖

[@bloodowl8927]

May your mother, Constance, rest in eternal peace forever.

[@ryanwatts7817]

I'm on the verge of tears. This makes me miss my grandfather so much. He didn't know who I was when he died. For everyone going through the same thing I'm so sorry.

[@therealdantoni9554]

I feel your pain, loosing my grandfather to this right now and damn this hit home hard

[@ryanwatts7817]

@@therealdantoni9554 sorry to hear about that. I wish you the best.

[@sladecooper5801]

Seeing how emotional she is in this, it must be extremely personal. This is such an intense song and video. Keep doing this, I still have chills.

[@CarlosRodriguez-zd8eg]

Check her latest post on IG. It becomes even more heartbreaking after learning how personal this song is for her.

[@Quickman561]

I lost my Dad yesterday, not from Dementia but he was losing himself and his memories. This will always mean so much to me. Thank you SB

[@fancynecromancy]

I am so sorry to hear this

[@hi_dipanjan]

Bro I lost my father on last Monday.. I can feel it.. 😢😢

[@cky3457]

sorry for the loss. we love you. hope you find peace soon.

[@gem1nox877]

I come back to this song whenever I´m ready because it’s so beautiful. Unfortunately I can’t listen to it often since it hits really close to home. Almost everything in this video can be applied to me. Im the grandson slowly watching my grandmother fade away. It wasn’t the typical dementia experience some of you probably had since it got really bad really fast when her husband (my grandpa) died. It almost seemed like he took her soul with him. I visited her for the last 2 years without her even knowing who I am. I reminded her of my existence almost everytime but it got really exhausting to the point where I didn’t even want to mention who I was because she would forget in an instant. I miss her everyday. The actress who played the grandmother did an amazing job of portraying that blank stare dementia patients have 3:44. Still, one of my favourite songs. Thanks Spirtibox.

[@GhostTheory]

I completely relate to your story, we were told my nan had 3 days to live 3 days ago. "It almost seemed like he took her soul with him" made me tear up. My grandad died a few months and my nan seemed to have faded away with him. Hope you're all good

[@mandograssable]

You visited her which was great because she really did know you just not your name. Here is why. My dad had Alzheimer's for 8 years and the only thing he enjoyed was riding in the car even though he had tunnel vision and only looked straight ahead. I took him for a ride every day. One day at home I said, Dad, do you know who I am" and he said yes I know who you are, you are my best friend". I will never forget that until the day I die. Your grandmother knew you also.

[@Cheeto_Fingerz]

Hey… are you doing alright? Is your grandma still around? I ask, because I’m in the literal exact same boat as you. This video and situation match my grandmother to a T… All the way down to how she would have so much fun playing cards with everybody. Rook, skip-Bo, dominoes… that was her thing. The last couple of months have been really bad. She’s fallen and broken bones in her hip/pelvis region twice, both times requiring surgery… both surgeries resulting in worsening her already accelerating dementia. I’m afraid I won’t have the strength to hold it together when she finally does go, and I don’t think it’ll be long now. I hope you’re faring better than I am, best wishes.

[@heyitsryry]

it's rare these days to find music that just hits home in a way this song does.

[@Wendy-rb9xl]

I have not been so emotionally moved by a band’s music in such a long time. Love everything they release. Still wiping away tears from this one!

[@twinny_mi]

I have listened through this song a few times in and I am still bawling because when things started to disappear with her memory, I had to pause it. I'm sobbing like a baby because a very close family friend died and struggled with Alzheimer's. My heart broke

[@kristiangonzales6640]

Still Crying Right now

[@kylegoering1904]

Last minute of the song: gets kinda a heavy rif Me: headbangs with tears

[@mattk751]

Haha! Same bro

[@pidge8672]

Rest in peace Bill. Such a beautiful and talented soul.

[@johnothetree]

There aren't words to really explain why this song is so good, but anyone who's been through the experience of losing a loved one like this will get it. Love you grandpa, it's been 7 years and I miss you like crazy.

[@waterproof4403]

God bless your grandpas soul ❤

[@JutsuII]

Everyone: It's only heavy metal music. It can't hurt you. The music:

[@jitteryzeitgeist]

@@typhon4829 definitely a metal band making a song. Bands like Harakiri For the Sky do melodic interludes and songs all the time and they are most certainly metal. You just start listening to heavy music last week?

[@federz666]

@@typhon4829 yep this is clearly synthpop

[@evm7368]

@@typhon4829 liquid metal

[@lev1649]

@selenite No, people just don't care about your snobism. I'm sure you have some obscure genre name for it, but officially, "Spiritbox is a Canadian metal band from Vancouver Island, British Columbia"

[@vinceglasener]

@selenite I'd call it more of an ambient prog style sound. Under the metal blanket genre tho fs

[@saschat.6607]

Came for a breakdown and heavy riffs. Not my breakdown and tears. Lost my Grandmother a few weeks ago. Quick and painless she departed and apart from some light dementia, she was still sharp. I miss her. Its the first time I cry about her passing. Thanks Courtney, Mike and Bill. What a beautiful and sad song. Fuck, I need a drink.

[@spectralgaming3917]

yeah it truly reminds me of my grandparents. noy a single time i didnt shed a tear listening to this song

[@tomplaysbonk]

Sorry for your loss. I beg that you don't drink to ease the pain - it only makes it better temporarily. Wishing you all the best, much love 🖤

[@Kat-tr2ig]

I lost my grandmother two weeks ago. I understand the pain. I wish I didn't watch the video, though. It's too soon

[@saschat.6607]

@@tomplaysbonk Thanks Tom for your concern, don't worry, I usually don't drink any alcohol and I quit smoking a long time ago. But there are times you just want a drink or a cigarette. But I didn't do neither, I called a friend and talked about it. Thanks, mate, much love to you as well.

[@tomplaysbonk]

@@saschat.6607 That's great that you tackled the problem, I'm only looking out for you as a stranger on the Internet 🤘 stay well!

[@nangelov]

I lost my grandma today. She was a kind and stoic woman, never complained and did everything she could to not be a burden to anyone to the very last moment. She was suffering from dementia that got rapidly worse the last few months, severely impacting her quality of life and her independance. (That didn't stop her to totally destroy me playing Dominoes together...) This song has a different meaning to me now. Thank you!

[@markuskaufmann7788]

Sad to hear my friend. Hopefully you will always remeber those precious und good memories of her, surely this masterpiece will be linked to it.

[@WilliamGrady-yd5uz]

Good luck to you good sir hope you reach ur goals in honor of her

[@МихаилИванов-х3ц]

I think about my grandma when listern to this song.

[@shanecray236]

The range this group has is immaculate. Courtney is amazing. Cannot wait for the new record

[@ianmcpeck424]

Never thought I'd be crying and doing stank face at the same time.

[@wesleyhudnall3353]

Its not pretty. Im glad im alone right now.

[@xXxT0XiiKxXx]

Comment of the year right here.

[@christianercegovich9142]

LOL

[@doriangrey4392]

did the same and saw your post!

[@johnstrh1]

is that not how everyone cries?

[@bryanbowser7011]

Found out this a tribute to her and their video directors grandmothers who both recently passed. My grandma who raised me is dying of pneumonia and covid in the hospital and im balling my eyes out to this song

[@simonemariani1450]

I love you, stranger, and even if I don't know you, I hope you will get through these rough times. A hug for you.

[@hardtobearit]

Directors gma is still alive just Courtney's gma passed. The other is in a home living thru dementia.

[@brendenlegault5897]

[@NeccoWecco]

I'm so sorry. Sending you all the hugs and warm wishes in the world.

[@YoungIroh]

It gets easier. Atm it feels like whatever god is out there decided you were his next victim but we'll be there every step of the way

[@paragirl15]

RIP Bill. Thank you for the music 🕊️

[@twinny_mi]

The band is Spiritbox The video is showing an old woman losing her memory (and a family mourning) They are channeling Constance. This is her song. Okay I am going to cry now 🦋

[@OneInTheMosh]

Is Constance a real family member of the band?

[@twinny_mi]

@@OneInTheMosh So on Courtney's instagram she told her story behind this song. She made it as a eulogy to her grandmother Phyllis, and her songwriting buddy I guess his name's Dylan his grandmother Constance lived with Dementia. This song is his story in her own words. This was released on her birthday. Their connection with this song just makes the impact the lyrics have on me last and leave an impression

[@mikewelsh1818]

Been working with the elderly as a caregiver/CNA for ten years now, and seeing my residents go through dementia never stops being heartbreaking. Thank you for this Spiritbox, you guys are amazing.

[@sleepsounds5974]

Our bodies, our minds will eventually fade away. In this box the only thing that will remain is the spirit.

[@b_l4ck]

I really fucking hope it's a better place up there, Bill. Rest easy, bassy boi😢🤍🕊️

[@savannahwitter2276]

I am a nurse who works with patients affected by Alzheimer’s disease. I have cried a lot during this pandemic, but this had me sobbing. Amazing job.

[@alonzor557]

♥️

[@kennethfurr7397]

I sobbed as well. My grandmother died in December of 2019. She had Alzheimer's. The video and song hit me deep!

[@K-A5]

@@kennethfurr7397 I'm sorry for your loss. Hopefully you have good memories

[@kennethfurr7397]

@@K-A5 Thank you so much, KA. My grandmother never judged anybody and was always full of grace. I literally never heard her say a bad word about anybody. She was a beautiful soul and left quite an impression on me. I learned a lot from her and miss her very much. I have nothing but good memories when it comes to her.

[@Shiftaws]

Thank you for all that you do. I can not imagine how hard my Grandmother's last years struggling with Alzheimer's would have been without all the amazing health workers.

[@joshuakram]

The most clever thing about this song is how at the end of the song the dissonance never resolves because when someone is suffering from Dementia/Alzheimer's it never gets better, it only gets worse until they finally die.

[@joshguy5221]

Dude I thought the same, how the ending signifies the illness shutting the brain down

[@Itsgea__]

right? I thought that was very genuine and, in a way, more honest - compared to other filmmakers portrayals of such illnesses. I like that the only true resolve and relief came with death, and it was only for her - everyone left behind in the wake of her passing (the band) was sad, but even though they lost her, i think the most special thing is that she gained all that she had spent her final years of life losing, back in death.

[@ericswearingenmusic9967]

Everywhere at the end of time- by the caretaker

[@gallattee]

I thought the same for a long time, until my grandpa clearly pronounced my farther's name. We thought it was long forgotten, yet it was one of his last words. Now I picture this disease as a veil which clouds the conciousness. it can her better, but it's not a good sign

[@jordan2002100]

I think that's what makes this song so heavy hitting despite being a relatively soft song. Just that sinking feeling into nothing

[@tommckellar4217]

Couldn’t have a better actress for this clip. The grandmotherly feel is unbelievable

[@Krondelo]

Thought the same, she is great.

[@Rantastic11]

Rest in peace Bill. This song always held a special place in my heart, and now you can rest and be remembered for contributing to so many beautiful things.

[@CataclysmicDuck]

After one of the hardest years of my life that was 2019 (started with my car dying, my fiance that I'd been with 3 years leaving me for a work "friend," my kitty of 20 years passing away, and losing 2 of my best friends because I needed to cut toxic people out of my life,) I met one of my NEW best friends who introduced me to your guys' work. Since then I swear to god I'm a changed man lol. I listen to your music every day, and you've quickly jumped to my top 3 favorite bands of all time. I love you Spiritbox, and hope that you guys put out music for as long as continue loving doing so ❤ Here's to 2021.

[@eduardog8782]

Yo my dude, stick it out man! Save money where you can so car issues don't happen like that anymore, let that girl go (I broke up with my gf of 8 years and randomly reconnected with a love interest from college and it's been great!) And toxic friends got to go! Nowhere else to go but up man! Keep pushing, and live easy knowing you gave that cat an amazing life with love and a bed to sleep in!

[@BigDatsquatch]

I may not know you, but I'm glad you're still here. I hope next year shows you some kindness.

[@dawson6518]

I lost my grandpa today. My grandma is so strong. She said that everyday, she's going to walk through the door and say "hi Paul!', the same way she would any other day. She that she wouldn't let that empty house become her enemy. I don't know where she gets the strength from-- even thinking about him, I'm a wreck. I had him for 24 years, she had him for 60. I don't know how to fill that hole and I hope I never try to. So. Hi grandpa. I hope you know how much I love you. . Thanks for the beautiful song.

[@banehog]

Thanks for sharing. I am sorry for your loss.

[@advenchureswithmatt97]

I just lost my grandma two months ago man. I read your comment and instantly started crying. Sorry for your loss brotha

[@shanahenkel8902]

So sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.

[@raynebloodlust69]

I'm not crying, your crying ;(

[@Nothing-zw3yd]

I lost my grandfather on August 28th, 1995, I was your age. He died in my arms. That hole will never be filled, but it's ok. It gets easier, and love is everywhere, so hold onto your family and friends. Your grandma sounds like a strong woman, take lots of pictures with her!

[@cameronscustomguitars809]

spiritbox= unlimited bangers!!!

[@chihuahuainacone]

This song literally PERFECTLY captures the feeling of losing somebody who's still alive. They're still here, but you're watching them slowly slip away, and there's nothing you can do. The pain is indescribable, but if you know, you know. Update: It's been 10 months since I left this comment, but it happened... I lost my mother to cancer. Hold your loved ones tight while you still can.

[@ScribblePwn3]

Now check out the Caretaker's "Everywhere at the end of time" That album is an audio representation of the mind of someone who's slipping into that lonely nothingness. It's 6 hours long, and I powered through it like a madman, but what kept me going was this thought. The ones who suffer that fate have to live it every day until the end. 6 hours is nothing by comparison.

[@nysiy5360]

So sorry for your loss.

[@Melitzaneitor]

That is hard..wish you the best

[@brittneykeith8209]

I pray for you

[@chihuahuainacone]

@Brittney Keith I'm not religious, but still, thankyou

[@CynicSnacks]

Holy shit. I was not prepared for that. ♥️ Beautiful

[@77936fief]

aren't you supposed to make some new videos?

[@KS-ld7zs]

I don't know why Cynic Snacks is here, but I'm glad they are!

[@minusnine5036]

Howdy

[@SurrealiamPrime]

YO CYNIC YOU’RE A SPIRITBOX FAN TOO?

[@CynicSnacks]

@@SurrealiamPrime I am as of 2 days ago, yes

[@daitsy2476]

Kept wondering why everyone said this song made people cry so I listened to it, now I know.

[@blakemaddox3681]

Great video and song, tears are definitely OK

[@nickkohlmann]

Same.

[@christianduris1847]

I was holding it together...till 3:12

[@CPT_Nelson]

I took care of my mother until she died, in my arms, 6 years ago. Then my father for 4 years until his dementia was too much for me to handle on my own. This is a powerful song. Thank you.

[@milangakiller]

Descansa en paz Bill... gracias por tu música Mucho amor ❤

[@jonward9997]

I’m writing this through tear filled eyes. I’m 50. I lost my grandma to Parkinson’s disease in the late ‘70s. That vacant stare took me right back to her room in the nursing home. The power of such beautiful and emotive music is humbling

[@Sweaterkids]

Full blown tears... I miss my grandma. This is exactly what happened. Great song and video.

[@odvedokikrema]

jesus... that outro is just heart-wrenching. congrats to the band, you've made actual art.

[@campingmods496]

Not sure what your definition of art it, but they have been making great songs even before candace.

[@JC-gs9rg]

I can't believe I only found this band last month. The range of their music is amazing. This video really made me tear up.

[@boomerdunkin]

Me too

[@hanksilman4016]

Somehow the lightest sounding song from Spiritbox easily has the darkest themes. Scary and beautiful.

[@BarstucksCoffee]

That's masterful songwriting. Create the biggest impact even with the most simplest of devices. Definitely shed a tear with this one.

[@tbone0303]

If I cry in the middle of the pit if I ever get to hear this song live. Just know, I will need a hug and will accept all. I kind of glimpsed at the comments while the ad was playing prior to video seeing it was sad and emotional. But in no way was i prepared for this. I admitly and unexpectedly shed a few tears. But just a punch in the gut of what I am going through right now with my grandma. Even though I keep telling myself she won't be around for ever. I can't ever prepare myself for the day that she won't be there. This will probably be my favorite, of not only Spiritbox, but all music. But at the same time will be listened to the least. Its such an emotional journey. Thank you Spiritbox for bringing the heavy of heavy, in terms of music and emotion.

[@brandonmartin2301]

Hug pit 🖤

[@Moggymorgenstein]

Lol if you're ever in a pit for this band you ended up in a very wrong place and time.

[@dallasdavis5765]

@@Moggymorgenstein oh idk...we're going to tear the city down when Holy Roller and Aphids go off.

[@Phightins]

Good Lord. I was not expecting to shed so many tears..I lost my Mom-mom to COVID this past February and since then I just haven’t been the same. I was the first born of our family and was born on her birthday. I’ve always felt a strong love and connection with her ever since I was little. And her passing has been tearing me up since. Never has music moved me in such a way as this. I will always remember this moment❤️ Thank you Spiritbox. Rest In Peace, Edna❤️

[@bookreaderson]

Me too. Made me feel a presence

[@xluhvkeytieq]

@@bookreaderson im so sorry for your loss. this song is beautiful isnt it i keep listening to it and remembering my grandmother.

[@bookreaderson]

@@xluhvkeytieq mom died in 2018. I was 38 her 68.

[@GatheringHall]

Same thing happened to my Dad. September 20th, 2021. I had to take care of all his final expenses and take guardianship of my youngest sister. My dad was only 49. Losing him has changed me fundamentally as a person. I had to make the decision to take him off of life support. Hardest thing I've ever done. I feel your pain. You are not alone.

[@robertmarcotte4652]

You will never be the same. However. Enjoy it your having an experience not everyone has privilege to from old man at 70

[@No1nobody0]

Rip bill ❤️ we love you and we’ll miss you

[@doctrineop4162]

This isn't just a song or just a video, it's an experience. Very few videos accurately express and enhance the songs meaning. I literally cannot listen to this song without seeing the video playing inside my head. Thanks to the band and the videographer for making this, as painful as it must have been, it is a masterpiece. Thoughts and prayers for all those dealing with the terrible effects of Dementia and Alzheimer’s.

[@interlude44]

For real . We gotta take care of our elders when they are going through so much ...

[@games68775]

Yea I can't watch the video again, hits too hard, don't wanna go through that again lmao

[@SpiritboxOfficial]

We love you all

[@Vvengance]

Your latest album proved this statement is true 👍

[@timbehen6739]

Beautiful song

[@FantasticDimensions]

And the Best Actress award for 2020 goes to... the lady who played Constance in this video right here! Seriously, she was fantastic. Everyone was. Courtney, Mike, Bill, Dylan, et al... thank you so much for this one.

[@Eyeyamgod]

Yeah the acting in this was top notch

[@guitarcurrents8767]

Rest in peace Bill... We love you forever❤

[@parisite99]

I’ll never forget when the grandmother that helped raise me didn’t know who I was anymore. That shit was devastating. She looked right at me one day and said “who’s son are you”...it broke my heart! She died about a year later not knowing who or what anything was. She didn’t even know my who my aunt that was caring for her was. The only moment of clarity was when she was about to leave us. She asked my aunt if it would be ok for her to leave, and my aunt told her we would be fine....she passed minutes after. This disease is extremely difficult to deal with and now I see my mom heading down that path as well. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost someone from this disease or is going through it currently. 🙏

[@Nothing-zw3yd]

I grew up in a funeral home, and was a funeral director when I was younger. I have an intimate relationship with death and loss. It's very common that our loved ones have moments of clarity before they leave us. They come back to say goodbye when they can. My grandmother had a massive stroke, and was unconscious for days. I went to the ICU to see her, and she was a little alert. My grandfather told her I was there to see her, and she grabbed my hand and said my name, it was the only thing she had said since the stroke. She passed away that night, 27 years ago. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[@johnebersole946]

I feel your pain. I am in it right now.

[@mesmer6131]

Sure sounds like heaven to me. The most beautiful song I've heard this year.

[@thatmetaldude3325]

Christ, that was emotional.

[@Generic_Man]

RIP Bill. You're missed already.

[@marywright5409]

She loved you sooo much Courtney- she would love this-we are all so proud of you and Mike! We love you! We will never be able to get over losing mom- amah- but we will always be here for you!

[@escher2112]

This video was like watching a memory. My father died three years ago just before Christmas... after that, we took care of Mom and hired help for her - but I eventually had to put my mother in a facility for Dementia a year and a half ago. The last time I saw her at her house, she got her coat and purse just before we left and told me "Ohhh your father will be along shortly to take me home"... and I had to remind her for the 2nd or third time that day, that he had passed. There is nothing more soul-shattering than having to remind someone over and over that their spouse passed.. Dear God, I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone... This song kicked me hard and woke up feelings I jammed in a box and hid that day.

[@icewalocum9441]

Thanks for sharing sir💖

[@TheDemolitionKings]

Right there with you. My mom had end stage dementia. It was terrible to watch her slowly whither away. She didn’t even know who I was by the time she passed away. It just seems so cruel.

[@SpringFaeKohaku]

I know most won’t see this comment but I am compelled to comment on this song. Especially this one. How utterly bittersweet, tragic and beautiful this song is; truly horrifying yet comforting. Having to experience these types of events when I was younger, mostly on my Mums side of the family; as Dementia runs in the family. (Her mother, sister and now other sister). Having your Aunty look at you and ask who you are is devastatingly heartbreaking and truly haunting. Especially when you’re just a kid because you don’t have quite a true understanding with what’s happening. I have never forgot the day when she forgotten me completely, her looking at me and having no expression of recognition - it’s forever burnt in my mind. Now my other Aunty is suffering the same illness, which breaks my heart because my Mum has to go through this another time. I moved in with my Aunty and acted as her caretaker at the same time as I tried going to Uni for the first time and study. I started realising fast at how rapid and unforgiving this type of illness is - it doesn’t care about anyone. I would cry sometimes because I just see her deteriorating and yet...she still makes sure others are happy and not to worry about her. She rarely tells the truth about her health and tries her best to keep strong; she would make jokes and laugh but reality is catching up so fast. I wish this illness didn’t exist, I wish no illness existed - it’s too evil and it makes it even more so because there is no cure. I can’t even imagine what it’s like in their shoes, how scary and terrifying it must be; I can’t fathom it. I can only do my best and give my support, love and a helping hand when I can. “It’s hard to lose and wonder why.” That lyric completely broke me into tears and then the chorus kicks in and I’m left in absolute shambles. I haven’t cried so hard in so long due to a song, this one hit so close to home, what a truly emotional and passionate song accompanied with an even more compelling video. (I still have a lump in my throat.) What a truly astonishing, ethereal and majestic Tribute to both of your Grandmothers. I’m sure they are undeniably happy and honoured, that they love you unconditionally and await for you when you’re ready. (To Dylan, keep strong and I wish you and your grandmother nothing but goodness, love and faith.) I know I’m late but, I truly hope you are all doing well. I love this song dearly and I’d love to make art of it one day. Thank you for spreading awareness with this song and video as well, I know it’s a tribute but I believe it’s gained a lot of awareness with these types of illnesses because of this song + video. Thank you for shining a light on this. “Our music videos usually have a horror element to them, and we wanted to explore a different side of horror: the horror of feeling like your mind is betraying you, due to a long battle with dementia.” I love horror and your music has been a great source of inspiration of horror and the different styles/types of horror to be explored & digested. You achieved it with much passion, love and detail; I give you infinite Kudos. I felt that this type of horror isn’t explored enough and talked about, it gives me comfort in a way that when dealing with this...I’m not truly alone. This song will help a lot in the future, thank you Spiritbox. 💜 I also hope everyone is doing alright, keep safe, drink lots of water, take your meds, eat plenty and I love you all. 💜 - Kohaku

[@RipleyE-we1hj]

"It's hard to lose and wonder why" RIP Bill Crook

[@shanahenkel8902]

This song will positively impact more people than you will ever know. Thank you for this gift.

[@Netjak]

My Grandfather had Alzheimer's and Dementia and it's actually the most heartbreaking thing to see someone you love complete lose who they are and forget their loved ones. This music video actually gave me chills and I couldn't stop crying. Please if you have loved ones hold tight to them and if you have someone in your life suffering from these horrible afflictions always tell them you love them, because even if they can't remember it at least you will.

[@cxnnxr_99]

I don’t even remember who my grandmother was before that dreaded disease. I’m right there with you and my thoughts are with you 🖤

[@twinny_mi]

@@cxnnxr_99 A very close family friend died of pneumonia while struggling with Alzheimer's and I cried so much during this video, especially when the pictures started to disappear. I couldn't hold the tears back any more. I listened through this a few times, and wow the feels are real

[@umbral9911]

It couldn't have been said better, this was the first Music Video in a while that made me cry, not tear up, literally cry, thats one hell of a song and even more of message..

[@MattxxMatt]

Okay, I really wasn't ready for that. Cried like an absolute baby.

[@gagadreams]

My grandma died yesterday and the fact that this song exists is an absolute miracle! My favorite band of all time saving my life yet again! Thank you! 💗

[@showskiguitar3066]

Holy roller was musically what this song is emotionally

[@jasondavis1277]

This song gave me goosebumps as well as filled my eyes with tears. It's hard to let go of a loved one. Especially after watching them suffer. I love you Lisa Emmett. R.i.p. Thank you for making this song Spiritbox.

[@mikeb9790]

This is more than just a song. This is meaningful beauty.