Spiritbox - Constance (Official Music Video)

[@riserecords]

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[@Mr-ks5kl]

Beautiful

[@alexandro9896]

It’s not in Spotify yet?

[@gSWG3R]

@@alexandro9896 It is.

[@yuriyuriyuri9405]

Really guys .... tooooo soooon

[@alexandro9896]

@@gSWG3R really it’s not,maybe some country restriction thing?

[@scotthryciuk3142]

Constance is my mom. Today - December 4th is her birthday - she is 88. She is the nurse in the photo. She is in a long term care home and I have not seen her since early March of this year due to COVID-19. Unfortunately the press release is incorrect. Courtney’s grandmother died in 2020 and she wrote the beautiful lyrics to honor her grandmother. Dylan’s grandmother is still living and has been suffering from dementia for several years. Dylan created the video imagery to honor his grandmother and her struggles at this time in her life. Mom goes by Connie to those that know her. Today her proper name of Constance is more meaningful. Dylan from Versa Films is my son. I am thankful to Courtney and Spiritbox for having the courage to tackle a subject like this. Courtney: I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I am touched by the comments from everyone that has been through this. As the son, I know how it affects me - everyday seeing your mother not remember you. Counting the times she remembers your name. As parents we don't always see or realize the impact these circumstance and this disease has on the grandchildren. Dylan, Courtney and all the comments show that the pain runs deep within the families. For me it is tough to watch this video. It is harder to live with or to have lived with this in real life. Words cannot begin to describe. Thank you to everyone for their comments as hard as they were to publicly display. It's amazing Dylan. It's amazing Courtney. It's amazing Spiritbox. Constance is proud. I am proud. February 17, 2023: One year ago today at 12:15 AM Constance (the actual nurse in the photo) ended her fight with dementia. Mom fought hard for over 6 years. The last three days of her life were painful to watch. From February 14 to February 17, 2022 her body began its last painful shutdown. This horrible disease removes the person we knew slowly right before our eyes. It cruelly removes us from their memories and when it finally does that it removes any and all functions of the mind until their body can no longer live. This video and song have been a great comfort to me since it was released and even more of a comfort after mom's passing. I cannot begin to count the number of times I have watched it since mom's death. It was the first thing I listened to and watched the morning of her passing. I continue to watch and listen to it regularly (this morning included). The song and the video have resonated with so many people as the comments and reaction videos clearly show. The subject matter is daring for any band and Spiritbox should be commended for that. The imagery of the video displays a different kind of horror story that so many people face in real life. I cannot begin to say how grateful I am for this song and video. Thank you to Courtney and Spiritbox for a beautiful song and thank you to Dylan and Versa Films for the powerful visuals.

[@justinsmithmusic]

Thanks to you and yours for bearing such a beautiful immortalization not just for your mom, but for all of the loved and lost. There’s a catharsis in the tears that can’t be found anywhere else. I’m thankful. Your son is an incredible talent.

[@scotthryciuk3142]

@@justinsmithmusic He is. The band too for taking such a tough time and making it musically beautiful. Beautifully sad. Thank you for your words.

[@owenjanzen9843]

Your son is the most talented and thoughtful individual I've ever had the pleasure to work with, his art is truly beautiful and wonderfully inspiring

[@scotthryciuk3142]

@@owenjanzen9843 that is very kind of you to say. I'll admit he's a pretty good guy

[@nihilmusic1536]

Your son is a true artist! Great video and song.

[@anagramhound]

Holy Roller: Slaps me physically Constance: Slaps me emotionally

[@스텔-c6o]

lolllll

[@feliperiquelmet]

Blessed Be: Get slapped twice

[@ArturoGarcia007]

There's also the Rule of Slaps

[@anagramhound]

Ah yes, my favorite is The Slap Effect, Pt.1-3

[@MightBeCale]

@@anagramhound I just love Slapbox, man

[@VersaFilms]

Thank you for trusting me with this video. This was a special one.

[@JayEdgar0409]

Great work as always. The cinematography is amazing

[@rlj6798]

Awesome work again man, your Spiritbox videos are next level!

[@VNKNOWN_TX]

You guys made a masterpiece with this one.

[@nickmaas5255]

Knocked it out the fucking park mate

[@architecterror]

You made a fantastic tribute video!

[@mylife1221]

This song has a double meaning now. We'll miss you, Bill. Rest in peace, buddy.

[@trevordelaplain7246]

This wasn’t one of their heaviest songs. but it was one their HEAVIEST songs!!

[@Ravelle17]

nailed it

[@twinny_mi]

heavy feels ☑

[@InfiniteDrums]

@joseph ka Beesechurger

[@freezingjazzy]

@@InfiniteDrums Dude, that was such a beautiful response, I teared up a bit.

[@treweis1141]

Thst doesn't make sense but ok

[@NikNocturnal]

True art

[@SBSTN87]

Need a reaction video of this right now mafafaka❤️

[@peterveres797]

I hope you did a reaction to this!!! :)

[@50mattman]

Guaranteed he is editing it as we speak bois

[@somerandomguy9156]

Cover? Maybe... 😕

[@nopenope7585]

Patiently waiting...

[@SpiritboxOfficial]

We love you all

[@Vvengance]

Your latest album proved this statement is true 👍

[@timbehen6739]

Beautiful song

[@absolutebangersyt]

Rest in Peace, Bill ❤

[@jacobrollins7290]

Rest in peace, Bill Whoever he was my friend, may his soul rest in peace.

[@jwspitz35]

@@jacobrollins7290 he was the bass player in this video and the former bassist for Spiritbox, he passed away earlier this year

[@jacobrollins7290]

@@jwspitz35 oh no, so sad to hear that 😢

[@CommanderVolkov]

Losing a loved one to alzheimers or dementia is truly heartbreaking, and this song captures that sadness perfectly in the video. I work in an ER where families often bring their elderly loved ones to us because they don't know what to do, don't know how to take care of them, don't know how to cope with their parent or grandparent not knowing who they are anymore. It's so heartbreaking to see, and not many are willing to speak on or show the struggles of the elderly in such a beautiful way. The frustration of the family and the way she looks at the photos and doesn't know who she is, and that lost look in her eyes, it's very true to real life. Thank you Spiritbox. Haven't cried like this from a song in a good while.

[@josueveguilla9069]

I lost my paternal grandmother to Alzheimer’s, too. I miss her so much😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@cxnnxr_99]

I lost my grandmother to both. One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through. This video had me breaking down 5 seconds into it.

[@ZepyhrLight]

Please check out in absence by silent planet. Same idea and same feelings it'll break you like this song has.. I'm so sorry for you guys and anyone else who had lost someone to these illnesses but rejoice for they are in heaven !!!! Where they are living with the true God of Jacob , Jesus healed them the second they got in... I don't know what heaven looks like or what that moment will look like that.. but I really believe someone who has gone through these illnesses get to heaven.. Jesus is a beautiful forgiving Savior , he would not allow anyone suffering like this too suffer hell. And jesus, if I'm wrong let me know tonight when I sleep. Amen Jesus amen

[@CommanderVolkov]

@@ZepyhrLight I'm not gonna start a religious argument, but you realize like half of Silent Planet's songs call out the hypocrisy and cruel nature of Christianity, right? Not exactly the type of band a devout Christian should enjoy considering the context of their songs. You should probably preach elsewhere, buddy.

[@ZepyhrLight]

@@CommanderVolkov no . They call out the hypocrisy because religion, Christian religion especially can be hypocritical. The world will know us by love not by teachings and works as the Pharisees of this world can keep believing. Jesus said the two most important commandments were to love God and love your neighbor as your self. Silent planet calls out the hypocrisy to shed light on who we are so that maybe we will have a change of heart and let jesus in. I love silent planet. They are 100 percent a band I should listen too and will do till my last breath :)

[@NiflheimMists]

Ok, it's time for singing, and then some crying. And then some singing and more crying.

[@ilovesecretagents]

I DEED IT

[@Thystonius]

Haha, nice reference to the one take of Rule of Nines

[@Kkulchong.]

Nice reference bro

[@marcomauceli8385]

Foreallll

[@scottgarland2542]

If you know, you know.

[@patfix]

The expressions of the old lady are heart breaking.

[@Karmajinxer14]

DUDE YES. SHES ALL SMILEY AND THEN LOST AND IT HURTS SO BADDD

[@iurigrang]

She's such a fucking good actress, like wtf

[@waterproof4403]

❤😔

[@Phant0mGetsuga993]

😢

[@Danky94]

Showed my dad this song, he lost his mom to dementia 5 years ago, after listening he proceeded to tell me all the stories of when he and I would visit his mom and all the memories that he has of her. He told me "at the time those moments were for her, but now those memories are for us."

[@BlackoutBlakeOfficialYT]

I know it's 5 months late, but your father's quote struck me so powerfully. ...I'm sorry that happened to his mom.

[@cynthiaf9957]

That's so beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with us!

[@blastard8980]

Nothing to do with video, you could have shown him something else (with the same topic) and get the same reaction

[@Danky94]

@@blastard8980 And you could have not been a miserable git and said nothing...

[@BaenaCarcosa]

This video made me cry :'( beautiful!

[@scottshepke669]

At least I’m not the only one

[@metaphysical6926]

Spiritbox never misses

[@matildagreene]

Literally started bawling halfway through, Spiritbox has done it to me yet again

[@808BassMetal]

I'm not crying! My face sprung a leak!

[@rogerlosh3537]

I lost my great grandma to Alzheimer's disease so this song hits close to home so I'm right with you

[@Anhedonia22]

The most beautiful ballads int he world are made by metal bands. Period.

[@Grimeyhoob]

Word 🤘🏻 Fade to Black. Bother. You name it. All metal.

[@zakf6104]

True that. It’s Only Smiles got me feeling that way too.

[@rachelhenderson4850]

Soooo true!

[@mrbred-el3vf]

straight facts.

[@rosssweat3703]

@@Grimeyhoob cemetery gates! Hollow! Pantera has several. What I wouldn’t do to hear her cover cemetery gates or this love!

[@gitiimoc]

You broke me. I just had a little disagreement with my mother. She doesn't have Alzheimer's, but she's in her 80s and in constant discomfort. I'm going to go in and make up. Life is short and too precious to be stubborn. Thank you for a beautiful and moving video.

[@risheyrsp2015]

G Oyil, You Go Man! 🙂💙

[@perennial.collective]

Life’s too short to hold onto arguements. I just lost my dad about 2 months ago and we never fully got to reconnect. So much hurt that didn’t get to heal. So many things left unsaid. I regret not going to see him and talk to him face to face. Please do so, while you still have her.

[@jonometal666]

Do what ever you can to help her be more comfortable bro - I lost mine in 2015 and am pained with regret. Could I have done more to help etc.

[@Squirrel-zq6oe]

Wow that made me tear up

[@nathanwilliams3049]

I had a similar exp !! Called my mom and even told her about this video and how it made me wanna be closer to her

[@nangelov]

I lost my grandma today. She was a kind and stoic woman, never complained and did everything she could to not be a burden to anyone to the very last moment. She was suffering from dementia that got rapidly worse the last few months, severely impacting her quality of life and her independance. (That didn't stop her to totally destroy me playing Dominoes together...) This song has a different meaning to me now. Thank you!

[@markuskaufmann7788]

Sad to hear my friend. Hopefully you will always remeber those precious und good memories of her, surely this masterpiece will be linked to it.

[@WilliamGrady-yd5uz]

Good luck to you good sir hope you reach ur goals in honor of her

[@МихаилИванов-х3ц]

I think about my grandma when listern to this song.

[@SorooshMhs]

I lost my grandfather to Alzheimer’s recently and he too would always destroy me at dominoes and backgammon. So i can deeply relate. Sorry for your loss brother, may she rest easy.

[@nangelov]

Thanks all for the comments, guys!

[@laurenbabic]

oh my god well donnneeeeeeee. this is beautiful.

[@DivisionBell]

Lauren

[@WillEhrendreich]

Please collab soon! You two are my favorite female metal vocalists!

[@DylanOvertimeWinner]

Still jam everything you do!

[@redthunder6561]

Só tem pessoas fodas aqui, queria ter amigos assim... Lauren você poderia fazer um cover dessa música? Por favor? 🖤🖤🖤

[@timklafke4712]

Heyyy, love your stuff Lauren.

[@justinmadison513]

Even the increasingly distorting guitar tones play into the dissonance of losing ones memories. Holy shit this is amazing art. All around.

[@Watchpocket]

I was thinking the same thing. Such a masterpiece of a song.

[@danielboyd3077]

Each chorus there was a 5th that was off. Something like that just enough that you knew things weren’t being held together. It also increased through the song. GENIUS

[@tylersummers2663]

It almost reminded me of "Everwhere At The End Of Time" by The Caretaker, he did the same thing to a whole concept release. I still can't listen to it fully without breaking in half.

[@justinmadison513]

@@tylersummers2663 yes! That's exactly what I thought!

[@red240red2]

@@danielboyd3077 wish I knew what you meant. Can anyone explain this to a person who doesn’t know music theory

[@andrewrice8726]

When you're desensitized to almost everything but then the teary eyes hit anyway.

[@halfsleepertv]

Chainsaw beheadings? Fine. Extreme sexual violence in movies? Fine. Grandmas with Alzheimer’s? Totally fucking not okay 😭

[@cup6580]

Yeah I felt the same way. Honestly it is hard for me to cry anymore and this song really hit deep

[@jonmiller19845]

Bingo

[@scotthryciuk3142]

One year ago today at 12:15 AM Constance (the actual nurse in the photo) ended her fight with dementia. Mom fought hard for over 6 years. The last three days of her life were painful to watch. From February 14 to February 17, 2022 her body began its last painful shutdown. This horrible disease removes the person we knew slowly right before our eyes. It cruelly removes us from their memories and when it finally does that it removes any and all functions of the mind until their body can no longer live. This video and song have been a great comfort to me since it was released and even more of a comfort after mom's passing. I cannot begin to count the number of times I have watched it since mom's death. It was the first thing I listened to and watched the morning of her passing. I continue to watch and listen to it regularly (this morning included). The song and the video have resonated with so many people as the comments and reaction videos clearly show. The subject matter is daring for any band and Spiritbox should be commended for that. The imagery of the video displays a different kind of horror story that so many people face in real life. I cannot begin to say how grateful I am for this song and video. Thank you to Courtney and Spiritbox for a beautiful song and thank you to Dylan and Versa Films for the powerful visuals.

[@vspacekidv]

❤️❤️❤️

[@beewitche]

my condolences. 💖

[@bloodowl8927]

May your mother, Constance, rest in eternal peace forever.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

Any band that can write a song like Holly Roller and then do a 180 so perfectly and write a song like Constance is a band I'll be listening to t'ill I die.

[@liagreco3245]

ridiculously underrated comment. i'm right there with you. Courtney is an amazing vocalist.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

@@liagreco3245 She's insanely good. I've even gotten myself into IWABO to tied me over until the album comes out.

[@liagreco3245]

@@jeffreymercado2082 I wasn't a huge fan of that band. It was bit much for me. Though I thought Courtney had a better voice than Krysta did.

[@jeffreymercado2082]

@@liagreco3245 lol I didn’t realize Courtney wasn’t always the lead vocalist.

[@liagreco3245]

@@jeffreymercado2082 yeah, Courtney joined the band in late 2012 after Krysta Cameron left. I don’t know why, or care. But Courtney was the vocalist on Late for Nothing and Hail Mary. Krysta was on it’s all happening and ruining it for everybody

[@derrickmanley6143]

The video is heartbreaking. Absolutely heartbreaking. Just had to say goodbye to my grandmother yesterday and this hit way too close to home. Beautiful song, though.

[@ellab.7658]

Aww I am so sorry ❤️😢

[@rogerlosh3537]

I lost my great grandma to Alzheimer's disease so this song hits close to home I'm so sorry man rip

[@XandycamX]

I'm sorry for your loss

[@jacobriddell4917]

Stay strong man, much love

[@gitiimoc]

Sorry for your loss.

[@Void-Realm]

The woman who's playing the Grandmother/Mother with Dementia did a really good job with her portrayal.

[@Morimoto94]

It's actually the guitarists real grandma

[@callmekanda5662]

@@Morimoto94 NOOOOOOOOO ;(

[@TheHeckler85]

She also has dementia as well

[@ice9charnas791]

@@Morimoto94 thanks, now im crying harder

[@tylero2112]

I lost my grandma the same way last year. This song hit me right in the feels.

[@killxswitch]

Doubt anyone will see this but thank you for this song. I miss my grandmas.

[@stefol0u]

I miss mine, too. 💔. Not alone man.

[@Evan-mh1kd]

Last remaining grandparent (my dad's mom) is dying. Lost use of her right arm and now is getting dementia at 92 years young. Other Grandma died during COVID and I didn't get to be with her while she went. Amazing song. Love it and Spirit Box.

[@killxswitch]

@@Evan-mh1kd Sorry for your losses. 92 is a long time to live but I know it still hurts.

[@BobbieDraper]

I miss her too :/ she was the only grandparent I had

[@sentientcardboarddumpster7900]

My grandpa just died. I want to show some family this song but I don't wanna break their hearts as much as it breaks mine. Maybe they need it like I do though

[@joshkuhnmusic]

I wasn't prepared to cry tonight. But here we are.

[@sanekn]

Same here man

[@spadz93]

Bro, same. Lost my grandfather back in April to dementia/alzheimers. This hits wayyy too close to home

[@joshkuhnmusic]

@@spadz93 Im going through that battle now. Its not fun

[@spadz93]

@@joshkuhnmusic no it is not. Here for you man

[@joshkuhnmusic]

@@spadz93 thanks bro you too

[@anthonylawless2156]

Spiritbox are going to fully blow up soon, They're so damn talented, Courtney is so versatile she can sing literally anything!

[@joshdean6243]

I love the CTE Cog!

[@camdenwyeth316]

They're on their way up for sure. They've grown so much since last year I'm so happy for them.

[@stevewalker6340]

Been listening to them a while, surprised it hasn't happened by now

[@Ravelle17]

@@stevewalker6340 they haven't been able to tour. if they were on the road in normal conditions they'd be world-beaters

[@tinastodomingo7665]

spiritbox is so underrated, but the best one.🤩🤩🤩🤩

[@fawnjackson9183]

Can we please talk about how every time Constance appears after the first family scene--when she sees her late husband out the window--small things around her house, the pictures on the wall start disappearing? Can we also please talk about how her family's faces start to blur at the dinner table (while the pictures are vanishing off the walls)? And finally when you get to that riff, we all know which one, that all throughout the video stuff was disappearing off the walls finally everything was blinking out of existence? What makes a house a home are the memories that are created in it. Things that have meaning. Did yall notice her picture of Jesus vanishing off the wall when her daughter in law was helping her sweater on? It started with little things then suddenly furniture starting disappearing, stuff that likely was purchased when her husband was still alive. Then her family vanishing...and then finally her own face starting to blur as she starts to forget herself. She knew something was wrong when she wet her face in the bathroom. All the while her late husband kept appearing. At the end it was all she remembered. And maybe at the very opening how Constance was blurry but the water of the lake wasn't? Or at the end the water was the thing not as in focus? Yes this family suffered but this video also captures what its like for Constance herself to feel her life deleting, slowly first but then in whole chunks, robbing her of the things that made her life full and complete. Like when the grandson mouthed I love you before being the first one to be forgotten, then the daughter in law then finally her son. Even when she stood at the lake with her husband, the only thing that was still clear, her expression was sad and bewildered. She could only remember her husband's gentle smile, but it brought her no peace. Can we talk about all of that? Just food for thought. The director spared no details in how dementia erodes the soul and everything that makes us us. It happened to my own grandmother. Maybe those disappearing memories just materialize on the other side. Maybe.

[@JasonGulbin]

Well said. The director's grandmother is currently living with dementia and Courtney's has passed, so there's lots of first hand experience unfortunately.

[@shanahenkel8902]

You didn't miss a single detail, wow.

[@stephaniemcgrath5428]

This.

[@joshguy5221]

You got the point, exactly what I was seeing in the video. Brilliant

[@nunya4244]

I noticed all these things! This video, and the music, is so powerfully and beautifully done! Lost my mother to dementia in 2019. My son, a heavy metal musician, showed ne this video last night annd both of us were in tears, shaking our heads in agreement at how powerful this is. The music is spot on.

[@mrsandman_]

My mother is bipolar/schizophrenic. There are times when it gets really rough, and her demons are winning. Nothing hurts more than being “forgotten” by your mom especially if you are really close. Her loving and gentle hands becomes rough and hurting. This song gives me a big hug, like it says, “go on, let it all out.” Thank you Spiritbox for this song, it touched my heart.

[@KnivingDispodia]

Damn. Best of luck to you.

[@nicopillay4059]

The longer she lives with it untreated, the worse she'll get. Make sure she's on her meds and drinking enough water. My younger brother suffers with schizophrenia

[@xButtrflyx]

This has been my life for so long now. I listen to this often because it fits so perfectly the emotions that are felt.

[@jpav35]

I feel the same way. I lost my mom 8 months ago at the age of 62. She didn't take care of herself physically or mentally the last 20 years or so of her life, so it was almost as if she was slowly losing her mind the last several years of her life and it was just so damn painful to experience.

[@emkstr]

@@nicopillay4059 My brother has it as well, along with bipolar disorder. It's so hard to see him fade. He's currently in recovery from his heroin addiction (again), so it's not at its worst. But you can tell talking to him the years have taken their toll. And he's still such a young man.

[@coldbloodsupplicant]

This video hit me hard, just lost my grandma yesterday. But nothing helps heal quite like heavy music. Glad to be alive in a time when bands like Spiritbox exist.

[@XandycamX]

I'm sorry for your loss

[@coldbloodsupplicant]

@@XandycamX thank you

[@gitiimoc]

Sorry for your loss.

[@makasher100]

Sorry for your loss

[@prozmadamus319]

Sorry for your loss broski god rest her

[@LoudwireMusic]

Album plz

[@wastedblues2]

Push em for it, Loudwire! And make sure they make more than 250 copies this time, I barely got the last one.

[@thealaskanforever]

Patience. The longer they have, the better it’ll be.

[@MrJapsverb]

Pressur in increments

[@TankTheTech]

Spiritbox: Releases highly emotional song and beautiful piece of art with video director. KZbin community: Thank you for this beautiful piece of work. Loudwire: AlBuM pLz

[@geoffalpert3678]

Oh shit loudwires here 😲😮😯😧

[@martinv.-]

I was NOT expecting such a masterpiece. Unbelieveable.

[@Anthony-pq4vr]

Absolutely a masterpiece of art

[@jaguar1224]

I didn’t expect Spiritbox to go prog. It was violently beautiful.

[@milostodorovic69]

Expect the unexpected

[@dropthehammer1360]

Fucking beautiful.

[@chihuahuainacone]

This song literally PERFECTLY captures the feeling of losing somebody who's still alive. They're still here, but you're watching them slowly slip away, and there's nothing you can do. The pain is indescribable, but if you know, you know. Update: It's been 10 months since I left this comment, but it happened... I lost my mother to cancer. Hold your loved ones tight while you still can.

[@ScribblePwn3]

Now check out the Caretaker's "Everywhere at the end of time" That album is an audio representation of the mind of someone who's slipping into that lonely nothingness. It's 6 hours long, and I powered through it like a madman, but what kept me going was this thought. The ones who suffer that fate have to live it every day until the end. 6 hours is nothing by comparison.

[@nysiy5360]

So sorry for your loss.

[@Melitzaneitor]

That is hard..wish you the best

[@brittneykeith8209]

I pray for you

[@chihuahuainacone]

@Brittney Keith I'm not religious, but still, thankyou

[@MatteBlackEverything]

I just lost my mom a year ago, and she was definitely older than most. But she struggled with dementia for the past 10 years.... I lost her 10 years ago as far as I'm concerned. This song was so beautiful, and the tonal bridge near the end was the pain I felt for 10 years, and is probably what my mom felt (emotionally speaking) after forgetting people, loosing memories, and loosing her speech.... I felt this in my core. Thank you all. EDIT: I just want address the reversal effect in the video.... We all want to reverse time when a loved one is at their last stance. I would give my life to speak to my mother again....... But time keeps moving forward... I hate it. I hate it soooo much..

[@CapitalMforMotivated]

Thanks for sharing, i'm sure this video and song will be helpful to countless people and families who understand the helplessness of cognitive decline

[@maggotsxcl7403]

I just lost mine about a year ago too, December 15th, 2019 and this song hit me pretty hard

[@ZepyhrLight]

@@maggotsxcl7403 I lost my grandma in December too, back a little earlier though. She died around the same time her love did. But a year later.. my grandma ahhhh she didn't have dementia or anything she struggled with diabetes, congestive heart failure and was a cancer survivor of 11 years struggle. What this song brought out into the light of my mind is that I really didn't know her, and she really didn't know me.. we didn't talk much even though I was around so much... I almost never gave her the love she needed... And it hurts the living hell out of me. But I forgive my self in jesus name and ask jesus to forgive me as well for this, and Grandma Karen , I know your up in heaven, I hope you forgive me for not talking.. I was struggling too.. I'm so tired of the silent mute SPIRIT placed on my family....

[@Drrburken]

Dude same

[@DemonLordRaiden]

A lot of people who have never been through this kind of shit don't get it, but you're right when you said " I lost her 10 years ago as far as I'm concerned". My grandpa died back in 2015, but he hadn't really been around for the last 2 or 3 years since he was put on tubes and was constantly sedated. Fuck dementia. I don't know how to end this, but I hope you can move past the pain of your mom's passing. It never goes away, but it gets a little easier.

[@bogdanhxc]

I need this thanks

[@ismaelcastellanos3822]

REACTION PLEASEE

[@TooLITMafia]

Thank you for this beautiful gift that I will never let leave my heart... Forever love from Too LIT Mafia

[@jawa4929]

Heyyyy what’s up man? Love the vids!!!

[@StuntmanDanHemi]

great reaction bro

[@KrC_Games]

nice to see you here, dude i wonder you can do Amber Town - Bloom? i've been asking everyone to react that, i know you have alost of request, but this one is special, trust me man!

[@malus138]

Damn boy I hope you drop a reaction to this shit I love this song soooooo much.

[@kingsp00k78]

Thanks for getting us over here. Been listenin to them for 4 days straight

[@ancapramanda2123]

I listen this song before and after my Son passed away on this month, and this song make me feel love and faith everyday, All song Spiritbox give me the spirit on struggling day

[@kylegoering1904]

Last minute of the song: gets kinda a heavy rif Me: headbangs with tears

[@mattk751]

Haha! Same bro

[@driftless7134]

Tuned in for some metal. Ended up thinking about my grandma and crying. Powerful stuff.

[@inory5460]

same here right now

[@xSeas7]

This comment is perfect.

[@OrdepLiveira]

I lost my granny a year ago, nothing never hit me as hard as this song did.

[@n.a.1625]

Same here. I'd call my grandmas right now if it weren't 2am here... Both are in their late 80s, and every single day they are with us is a gift.

[@JutsuII]

Everyone: It's only heavy metal music. It can't hurt you. The music:

[@jitteryzeitgeist]

@@typhon4829 definitely a metal band making a song. Bands like Harakiri For the Sky do melodic interludes and songs all the time and they are most certainly metal. You just start listening to heavy music last week?

[@federz666]

@@typhon4829 yep this is clearly synthpop

[@evm7368]

@@typhon4829 liquid metal

[@lev1649]

@selenite No, people just don't care about your snobism. I'm sure you have some obscure genre name for it, but officially, "Spiritbox is a Canadian metal band from Vancouver Island, British Columbia"

[@vinceglasener]

@selenite I'd call it more of an ambient prog style sound. Under the metal blanket genre tho fs

[@TamagoSenshi]

I don't think there's been a point in time that I hated the world more than when I sat next to my grandpa's living corpse and realised the man who'd been so important to me was gone. This song and this video are devastating and I'm so glad they were made

[@ianmcpeck424]

Never thought I'd be crying and doing stank face at the same time.

[@wesleyhudnall3353]

Its not pretty. Im glad im alone right now.

[@xXxT0XiiKxXx]

Comment of the year right here.

[@christianercegovich9142]

LOL

[@doriangrey4392]

did the same and saw your post!

[@johnstrh1]

is that not how everyone cries?

[@savannahwitter2276]

I am a nurse who works with patients affected by Alzheimer’s disease. I have cried a lot during this pandemic, but this had me sobbing. Amazing job.

[@alonzor557]

♥️

[@kennethfurr7397]

I sobbed as well. My grandmother died in December of 2019. She had Alzheimer's. The video and song hit me deep!

[@K-A5]

@@kennethfurr7397 I'm sorry for your loss. Hopefully you have good memories

[@kennethfurr7397]

@@K-A5 Thank you so much, KA. My grandmother never judged anybody and was always full of grace. I literally never heard her say a bad word about anybody. She was a beautiful soul and left quite an impression on me. I learned a lot from her and miss her very much. I have nothing but good memories when it comes to her.

[@Shiftaws]

Thank you for all that you do. I can not imagine how hard my Grandmother's last years struggling with Alzheimer's would have been without all the amazing health workers.

[@dawson6518]

I lost my grandpa today. My grandma is so strong. She said that everyday, she's going to walk through the door and say "hi Paul!', the same way she would any other day. She that she wouldn't let that empty house become her enemy. I don't know where she gets the strength from-- even thinking about him, I'm a wreck. I had him for 24 years, she had him for 60. I don't know how to fill that hole and I hope I never try to. So. Hi grandpa. I hope you know how much I love you. . Thanks for the beautiful song.

[@banehog]

Thanks for sharing. I am sorry for your loss.

[@advenchureswithmatt97]

I just lost my grandma two months ago man. I read your comment and instantly started crying. Sorry for your loss brotha

[@shanahenkel8902]

So sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.

[@raynebloodlust69]

I'm not crying, your crying ;(

[@Nothing-zw3yd]

I lost my grandfather on August 28th, 1995, I was your age. He died in my arms. That hole will never be filled, but it's ok. It gets easier, and love is everywhere, so hold onto your family and friends. Your grandma sounds like a strong woman, take lots of pictures with her!

[@SorooshMhs]

My grandfather lost his battle with Alzheimer’s disease recently. I came back to this song, and it really helped me with processing my grief and getting through it. Thank you Spiritbox, for this lovely gift you gave to the world ❤

[@twinny_mi]

The band is Spiritbox The video is showing an old woman losing her memory (and a family mourning) They are channeling Constance. This is her song. Okay I am going to cry now 🦋

[@OneInTheMosh]

Is Constance a real family member of the band?

[@twinny_mi]

@@OneInTheMosh So on Courtney's instagram she told her story behind this song. She made it as a eulogy to her grandmother Phyllis, and her songwriting buddy I guess his name's Dylan his grandmother Constance lived with Dementia. This song is his story in her own words. This was released on her birthday. Their connection with this song just makes the impact the lyrics have on me last and leave an impression

[@hanksilman4016]

Somehow the lightest sounding song from Spiritbox easily has the darkest themes. Scary and beautiful.

[@BarstucksCoffee]

That's masterful songwriting. Create the biggest impact even with the most simplest of devices. Definitely shed a tear with this one.

[@brotherterrence]

Imagine being in a band with your wife and putting out bangers like this. THAT IS LIVING

[@pidge8672]

Rest in peace Bill. Such a beautiful and talented soul.

[@travisbrooks2564]

My grandfather lost his battle with alzheimer's disease today :(. This song an music video means alot to come to after something so hard to face. I will remember him for what he was a good grandfather to me and paving my way as the man I have become. Thank you Courtney and spirit box for helping me cheer up

[@corysutton]

Sorry man, stay strong for yourself and your family.

[@DEADPEDAL]

I am so sorry to hear man. I am all too familiar with this awful disease, as my great aunt fought with it for almost a decade in conjunction with Parkinson's. As awful as it sounds, it was almost a relief when she passed. The human we were caring for wasn't really her anymore, anyways. It's a hard, strange, and crushing thing to witness. Hoping you find peace in the coming weeks and months.

[@Randallsixx13]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You have his memory and his lessons. He goes on...

[@TineEdong]

Hope you are doing ok. Don't drink too much. Talk to people if you need help. Keep it metal my friend.

[@nickkohlmann]

Hey there. I hope you're doing okay and wish you the very best. There seem to be people with similar experiences in the comments, and to everyone going through the loss of a loved one recently I just wish the very best this earth has to give. Lost my own grandfather last year.

[@Quickman561]

I lost my Dad yesterday, not from Dementia but he was losing himself and his memories. This will always mean so much to me. Thank you SB

[@fancynecromancy]

I am so sorry to hear this

[@hi_dipanjan]

Bro I lost my father on last Monday.. I can feel it.. 😢😢

[@cky3457]

sorry for the loss. we love you. hope you find peace soon.

[@saschat.6607]

Came for a breakdown and heavy riffs. Not my breakdown and tears. Lost my Grandmother a few weeks ago. Quick and painless she departed and apart from some light dementia, she was still sharp. I miss her. Its the first time I cry about her passing. Thanks Courtney, Mike and Bill. What a beautiful and sad song. Fuck, I need a drink.

[@spectralgaming3917]

yeah it truly reminds me of my grandparents. noy a single time i didnt shed a tear listening to this song

[@tomplaysbonk]

Sorry for your loss. I beg that you don't drink to ease the pain - it only makes it better temporarily. Wishing you all the best, much love 🖤

[@Kat-tr2ig]

I lost my grandmother two weeks ago. I understand the pain. I wish I didn't watch the video, though. It's too soon

[@saschat.6607]

@@tomplaysbonk Thanks Tom for your concern, don't worry, I usually don't drink any alcohol and I quit smoking a long time ago. But there are times you just want a drink or a cigarette. But I didn't do neither, I called a friend and talked about it. Thanks, mate, much love to you as well.

[@tomplaysbonk]

@@saschat.6607 That's great that you tackled the problem, I'm only looking out for you as a stranger on the Internet 🤘 stay well!

[@No1nobody0]

Rip bill ❤️ we love you and we’ll miss you

[@TechNerdRudy]

Oh my gosh, what a masterpiece!

[@tylerwood5019]

Their range is absurd

[@bLiNkiiiMoN]

I‘m in tears. „MeTaL iS jUsT lOuD vOiCE -„ And then you got Spiritbox.

[@joshuakram]

The most clever thing about this song is how at the end of the song the dissonance never resolves because when someone is suffering from Dementia/Alzheimer's it never gets better, it only gets worse until they finally die.

[@joshguy5221]

Dude I thought the same, how the ending signifies the illness shutting the brain down

[@Itsgea__]

right? I thought that was very genuine and, in a way, more honest - compared to other filmmakers portrayals of such illnesses. I like that the only true resolve and relief came with death, and it was only for her - everyone left behind in the wake of her passing (the band) was sad, but even though they lost her, i think the most special thing is that she gained all that she had spent her final years of life losing, back in death.

[@ericswearingenmusic9967]

Everywhere at the end of time- by the caretaker

[@gallattee]

I thought the same for a long time, until my grandpa clearly pronounced my farther's name. We thought it was long forgotten, yet it was one of his last words. Now I picture this disease as a veil which clouds the conciousness. it can her better, but it's not a good sign

[@jordan2002100]

I think that's what makes this song so heavy hitting despite being a relatively soft song. Just that sinking feeling into nothing

[@RipleyE-we1hj]

"It's hard to lose and wonder why" RIP Bill Crook

[@jonward9997]

I’m writing this through tear filled eyes. I’m 50. I lost my grandma to Parkinson’s disease in the late ‘70s. That vacant stare took me right back to her room in the nursing home. The power of such beautiful and emotive music is humbling

[@ryanwatts7817]

I'm on the verge of tears. This makes me miss my grandfather so much. He didn't know who I was when he died. For everyone going through the same thing I'm so sorry.

[@therealdantoni9554]

I feel your pain, loosing my grandfather to this right now and damn this hit home hard

[@ryanwatts7817]

@@therealdantoni9554 sorry to hear about that. I wish you the best.

[@johnothetree]

There aren't words to really explain why this song is so good, but anyone who's been through the experience of losing a loved one like this will get it. Love you grandpa, it's been 7 years and I miss you like crazy.

[@waterproof4403]

God bless your grandpas soul ❤

[@gagadreams]

My grandma died yesterday and the fact that this song exists is an absolute miracle! My favorite band of all time saving my life yet again! Thank you! 💗

[@bryanbowser7011]

Found out this a tribute to her and their video directors grandmothers who both recently passed. My grandma who raised me is dying of pneumonia and covid in the hospital and im balling my eyes out to this song

[@simonemariani1450]

I love you, stranger, and even if I don't know you, I hope you will get through these rough times. A hug for you.

[@hardtobearit]

Directors gma is still alive just Courtney's gma passed. The other is in a home living thru dementia.

[@brendenlegault5897]

[@NeccoWecco]

I'm so sorry. Sending you all the hugs and warm wishes in the world.

[@YoungIroh]

It gets easier. Atm it feels like whatever god is out there decided you were his next victim but we'll be there every step of the way

[@thatmetaldude3325]

Christ, that was emotional.

[@tommckellar4217]

Couldn’t have a better actress for this clip. The grandmotherly feel is unbelievable

[@Krondelo]

Thought the same, she is great.

[@Veorick]

Thank You For Your Grooves.., May You Rest In Peace Bill Crook🕊️🙏🏻🕊️

[@daitsy2476]

Kept wondering why everyone said this song made people cry so I listened to it, now I know.

[@blakemaddox3681]

Great video and song, tears are definitely OK

[@nickkohlmann]

Same.

[@christianduris1847]

I was holding it together...till 3:12

[@sladecooper5801]

Seeing how emotional she is in this, it must be extremely personal. This is such an intense song and video. Keep doing this, I still have chills.

[@CarlosRodriguez-zd8eg]

Check her latest post on IG. It becomes even more heartbreaking after learning how personal this song is for her.

[@andrexskin]

I normally don't cry, it's something that rarely happens. But man, this song, this video, this hits me. I could see Constance's pain from losing "parts" of herself, the pain of her family, the fear of what is going on, this is heavy. I cried, this song and this video is beautifully sad. In my opinion it's a masterpiece.

[@nickkohlmann]

I have tears in my eyes myself

[@Flaffi]

Да уж, музыка действительно не знает преград, даже не понимая слов, она очень сильно задела меня за душу. Прям тяжело смотреть, плакала. Но песня и клип замечательные! 💖

[@mckennalineback]

Didn’t expect to cry so hard 😢lord

[@mikewelsh1818]

Been working with the elderly as a caregiver/CNA for ten years now, and seeing my residents go through dementia never stops being heartbreaking. Thank you for this Spiritbox, you guys are amazing.

[@Wendy-rb9xl]

I have not been so emotionally moved by a band’s music in such a long time. Love everything they release. Still wiping away tears from this one!

[@twinny_mi]

I have listened through this song a few times in and I am still bawling because when things started to disappear with her memory, I had to pause it. I'm sobbing like a baby because a very close family friend died and struggled with Alzheimer's. My heart broke

[@kristiangonzales6640]

Still Crying Right now

[@Mckinselz3450]

Song hits pretty damn hard if you've lost someone

[@UltimateGamerCC]

like a brick house...

[@brennonbrock7593]

I’m not one to ever get emotional but man it did hit hard

[@UltimateGamerCC]

@@brennonbrock7593 same, way i see it, unless you are heartless, you're gonna "react" to this one.

[@richardjones1022]

Like a f**king train dude.

[@UltimateGamerCC]

@@richardjones1022 train carrying peeled onions.

[@lorumerthgaming]

To this day, I tear up. One of (if not THE) greatest music videos ever made.

[@darrellsteiner7439]

The morning I first heard this song I called into work and stayed home and cried watching this over and over.. powerful piece! Cost me a lot of money that day

[@jamtarty]

Still gets me 3 years later, right in the feels.

[@shanecray236]

The range this group has is immaculate. Courtney is amazing. Cannot wait for the new record

[@wshaw28]

Said goodbye to my grandmother in August and ironically discovered Spititbox the day she passed. Thanks for getting me through, much love

[@Anthony-pq4vr]

I am a 30 year old man. First time I've teared up watching a music video in legit years. Losing a loved one to memory altering disabilities is terrible. Thank you for sharing this Courtney and Spirit Box. We will all make it.

[@guitarcurrents8767]

Rest in peace Bill... We love you forever❤

[@MattxxMatt]

Okay, I really wasn't ready for that. Cried like an absolute baby.

[@sleepsounds5974]

Our bodies, our minds will eventually fade away. In this box the only thing that will remain is the spirit.

[@jennifernave5290]

The people who disliked couldn't see because they was crying. 🥺

[@kristiangonzales6640]

I CRIED and I LIKED it

[@Hxltmane]

We came her for the screamy screams and the breaky breakdowns

[@limi.]

@Anon X but the message was heavy.

[@antoinemoran3537]

@@Hxltmane then you didn't understand anything lmao

[@streetwarrior7632]

@@Hxltmane Then go somewhere else. This was HEAVY maybe not in a instrumental sense but a lyrical sense. Not everything has to be screaming it's nice to have a mix up every once and awhile.

[@gem1nox877]

I come back to this song whenever I´m ready because it’s so beautiful. Unfortunately I can’t listen to it often since it hits really close to home. Almost everything in this video can be applied to me. Im the grandson slowly watching my grandmother fade away. It wasn’t the typical dementia experience some of you probably had since it got really bad really fast when her husband (my grandpa) died. It almost seemed like he took her soul with him. I visited her for the last 2 years without her even knowing who I am. I reminded her of my existence almost everytime but it got really exhausting to the point where I didn’t even want to mention who I was because she would forget in an instant. I miss her everyday. The actress who played the grandmother did an amazing job of portraying that blank stare dementia patients have 3:44. Still, one of my favourite songs. Thanks Spirtibox.

[@GhostTheory]

I completely relate to your story, we were told my nan had 3 days to live 3 days ago. "It almost seemed like he took her soul with him" made me tear up. My grandad died a few months and my nan seemed to have faded away with him. Hope you're all good

[@mandograssable]

You visited her which was great because she really did know you just not your name. Here is why. My dad had Alzheimer's for 8 years and the only thing he enjoyed was riding in the car even though he had tunnel vision and only looked straight ahead. I took him for a ride every day. One day at home I said, Dad, do you know who I am" and he said yes I know who you are, you are my best friend". I will never forget that until the day I die. Your grandmother knew you also.

[@Cheeto_Fingerz]

Hey… are you doing alright? Is your grandma still around? I ask, because I’m in the literal exact same boat as you. This video and situation match my grandmother to a T… All the way down to how she would have so much fun playing cards with everybody. Rook, skip-Bo, dominoes… that was her thing. The last couple of months have been really bad. She’s fallen and broken bones in her hip/pelvis region twice, both times requiring surgery… both surgeries resulting in worsening her already accelerating dementia. I’m afraid I won’t have the strength to hold it together when she finally does go, and I don’t think it’ll be long now. I hope you’re faring better than I am, best wishes.

[@Netjak]

My Grandfather had Alzheimer's and Dementia and it's actually the most heartbreaking thing to see someone you love complete lose who they are and forget their loved ones. This music video actually gave me chills and I couldn't stop crying. Please if you have loved ones hold tight to them and if you have someone in your life suffering from these horrible afflictions always tell them you love them, because even if they can't remember it at least you will.

[@cxnnxr_99]

I don’t even remember who my grandmother was before that dreaded disease. I’m right there with you and my thoughts are with you 🖤

[@twinny_mi]

@@cxnnxr_99 A very close family friend died of pneumonia while struggling with Alzheimer's and I cried so much during this video, especially when the pictures started to disappear. I couldn't hold the tears back any more. I listened through this a few times, and wow the feels are real

[@umbral9911]

It couldn't have been said better, this was the first Music Video in a while that made me cry, not tear up, literally cry, thats one hell of a song and even more of message..

[@GoalPost_er]

Grandparents, all over the world, wondering why the sudden uptick in calls from their Kids/Grandkids...

[@leyorixd]

If only mine were alive 😭

[@Moggymorgenstein]

Covid

[@kennethfurr7397]

Ian, I sure hope so!!! I lost my grandmother almost one year ago today. She was suffering from Alzheimer's. This video destroyed me this morning.

[@PleaseForgiveYourself]

All mine have passed dude to similar situations...this video tore me apart inside out.

[@GeminiWoods]

@@leyorixd All of mine passed nearly a decade ago... This song makes me miss them dearly.

[@icc7401]

not only are these some of the best musicians i know, they are some of the best people as well; hands down. as just one of many examples, Mike and courtney used to bring me groceries when I was bedridden on account of brain cancer. *see Perennial* and to this day Mike still drives me to some doctors appointments. he even did the camerawork on my music video just to help out. Blessed Be the members of Spiritbox

[@lennythebat]

Fellow brain cancer survivor here. What amazing people! Tell them thank you for the amazing music. It’s helping so many.

[@icc7401]

@@lennythebat so stoked you made it it fam

[@JC-gs9rg]

I can't believe I only found this band last month. The range of their music is amazing. This video really made me tear up.

[@boomerdunkin]

Me too

[@ryanrivers1259]

My grandmothers name is Constance. She passed away about a year ago. Thank you for this.

[@cameronscustomguitars809]

spiritbox= unlimited bangers!!!

[@heyitsryry]

it's rare these days to find music that just hits home in a way this song does.

[@alexmillet]

This one hit hard. The ability to move someone like that as a metal band in itself has made me respect and appreciate you so much more Spiritbox, truly😢🙌🏼 Signed, a newly lifelong fan❤️

[@CynicSnacks]

Holy shit. I was not prepared for that. ♥️ Beautiful

[@77936fief]

aren't you supposed to make some new videos?

[@KS-ld7zs]

I don't know why Cynic Snacks is here, but I'm glad they are!

[@minusnine5036]

Howdy

[@SurrealiamPrime]

YO CYNIC YOU’RE A SPIRITBOX FAN TOO?

[@CynicSnacks]

@@SurrealiamPrime I am as of 2 days ago, yes

[@wasp3959]

The only thing that's been good about 2020 for me is this band. Please be a banger!!!

[@robertienei4909]

Hopefully it will be more than a banger

[@wasp3959]

Ooowh!!!! What's more better then a banger? 🤔

[@robertienei4909]

@@wasp3959 Constance 🤘

[@wasp3959]

@@robertienei4909 🙋🏿‍♂️indeed bro! 😁😁😁

[@voodoo300]

Spoiler alert: it is!!!

[@Durfit]

The hardest breakdown is the one you forgot ever happened.

[@milangakiller]

Descansa en paz Bill... gracias por tu música Mucho amor ❤

[@michirista]

This hit me so Hard I spent the entire process of Alzheimer's disease of my grandfather from the beginning to the end 15 long years and it was one of the hardest experiences of my life in his final stage I just wanted him to die and finally be free (nobody in this world deserves such disease) my grandmother who took care of he day and night without rest developed extreme anxiety after his death now she is medicated and trapped like him, if someone is struggling or has a loved one with Alzheimer's or any disease please take care of their mental health especially that from the caregiver It is something very exhausting but with a lot of love you can prolong and give an excellent quality of life, I am autistic and my memory is brutally good, I could carry the gene and lose it one day, so today I give all the love to people that I can ,but more important,love to myself, I love you all and take good care of yourselves ❤

[@twinny_mi]

beautiful message 💙 thank you for sharing, stay strong 💖💖

[@michirista]

@@twinny_mi same ❤

[@bradkohl99]

Man, Mike wasn’t kidding when he said this was gonna be really different. So damn good.

[@InFlames0149]

as a nurse, this really hits deep. Sooo beautiful. And sad.... Alexa, play holy roller!

[@stevenuntalan7515]

Rest in eternal peace, Bill🥺🙏🏽

[@ANTHONYFERNANDO]

I've never even seen a band sing about this topic, let alone convey it so well. This was truly a work of art and this whole band should be proud.

[@CataclysmicDuck]

After one of the hardest years of my life that was 2019 (started with my car dying, my fiance that I'd been with 3 years leaving me for a work "friend," my kitty of 20 years passing away, and losing 2 of my best friends because I needed to cut toxic people out of my life,) I met one of my NEW best friends who introduced me to your guys' work. Since then I swear to god I'm a changed man lol. I listen to your music every day, and you've quickly jumped to my top 3 favorite bands of all time. I love you Spiritbox, and hope that you guys put out music for as long as continue loving doing so ❤ Here's to 2021.

[@eduardog8782]

Yo my dude, stick it out man! Save money where you can so car issues don't happen like that anymore, let that girl go (I broke up with my gf of 8 years and randomly reconnected with a love interest from college and it's been great!) And toxic friends got to go! Nowhere else to go but up man! Keep pushing, and live easy knowing you gave that cat an amazing life with love and a bed to sleep in!

[@BigDatsquatch]

I may not know you, but I'm glad you're still here. I hope next year shows you some kindness.

[@escher2112]

This video was like watching a memory. My father died three years ago just before Christmas... after that, we took care of Mom and hired help for her - but I eventually had to put my mother in a facility for Dementia a year and a half ago. The last time I saw her at her house, she got her coat and purse just before we left and told me "Ohhh your father will be along shortly to take me home"... and I had to remind her for the 2nd or third time that day, that he had passed. There is nothing more soul-shattering than having to remind someone over and over that their spouse passed.. Dear God, I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone... This song kicked me hard and woke up feelings I jammed in a box and hid that day.

[@Raskem_UwU]

Thanks for sharing sir💖

[@TheDemolitionKings]

Right there with you. My mom had end stage dementia. It was terrible to watch her slowly whither away. She didn’t even know who I was by the time she passed away. It just seems so cruel.