Squadcast - Talking About Abuse and Harassment

[@crooked._.beetles]

All you women are mad inspirational! Its stress relieving to hear people talk shit about their abusers. Its therapeutic

[@turner15]

I second that.

[@mikailaturkleson7472]

Aww, thanks. I'm glad you enjoyed it. 😊

[@octosax1515]

On an unrelated note I love your tik tok videos!

[@Oscar_Lasco]

Thanks for your hilarious videos! I discovered them thanks to Lily and they made my day!

[@mikailaturkleson7472]

This was a lot for me to unpack, but it felt so good to get off my chest.

[@rainyrouge5123]

I want to send you hugs

[@VanillaVillain8]

Good for you! Seriously, your ex is nasty, I'm glad your happy now

[@JamalService2000]

You all smashed the Live. Congrats on the marriage, btw...

[@hakudoshi999]

"Let's get together and shit talk our abusers" Everyone needs that kind of energy

[@JaniHorvat1]

It seems like it's nothing, but it does eleviete the stress and makes things seem better.

[@hakudoshi999]

@@JaniHorvat1 It really really does

[@skylarcase9296]

"Stick by your family" Your family has to stick by you first

[@VanillaVillain8]

P R E A C H

[@worldkitemuseum]

YES

[@skylarcase9296]

@@Guciom I can't even take you seriously because you callously misgendered her.

[@reimicrowave3020]

@@skylarcase9296 The person is making up shit. That narrative came from a Tumblr ask where Lily explained that her sister was abusive towards her and one day Lily fought back her abuser. Then six years later, Her sister ran away to live with her boyfriend. A lot of Lily's hater switched the narrative into making Lily sound like the abuser. And a lot of people who dislike Lily don't care about the original source material. To them, it's the truth unless a mass amount of people criticism them otherwise.

[@lucythevixen8757]

Lily’s avatar in a green jumper is super cute though 😊

[@claireity8490]

There's something healing in telling a fucked up story and immediately being told "holy shit"

[@isapu1948]

"You're right to be angry and horrified. This is awful!"

[@TheMoustacheMan802]

all of these relationship stories remind me of the quote in bojack horseman of "with rose tinted glasses all the red flags just look like flags"

[@blair6647]

You and Mikayla saying I love you to each other, and then you calling her sweetheart broke me. It was so cute!! I'm glad you're doing so well! Best wishes to you, Mikayla, Ginger, and KP!

[@FaradornTardis]

As an ace person, I really appreciate the aggressive inclusion.

[@FaradornTardis]

@@SirBlackReeds Oh, sweetheart. Honey. Babycakes. Moron. No. Though feel free to keep spitting acephobic wank, laughing at it has really improved my day.

[@greggleblom]

I know Mikaila mentioned it in passing, but I just wanted to add that arousal is most definitely not consent. So many people act like it is, and it really bugs me. I've been in that situation myself, and I'm still trying to figure out how often it's happened to me. Not a good time

[@Sleepy_Sunshine]

as someoned who's aro/ace but still has a libido, yeah no, arousal means nothing, our bodies are not our minds, total agreement coming from me

[@lb3240]

I found Lily through the "respect the artist" clap back at toon and I have been hooked ever since. The ending of that video was so satisfying.

[@Theowolfboy1969]

Theses three women deserve hugs for all the crap they all went through

[@everythingalldwight4939]

Two hours of trama talk? *SIGN ME THE HELL UP!*

[@charowalsh1464]

"You ever had someone question your right to exist-?" Yes and no, the story I feel the need to mention though was my Ex-Bff asking me if I was attracted to her when I came out to her as bisexual. Like, she was the first person I worked up the nerve to tell this information to, and she hits me with "k, cool, but are you like, attracted to me??? uwu" Ugh, that friendship was a dumpsterfire and a half that I regret spending 5+ years of my life on, but it certainly was a painful feeling having this woman constantly dangling metaphorical carrots on sticks in front of me when the topic of LGBTQIA+ came up. Like, our mutual friend comes out to us as asexual, I'm supportive, telling her that's great, that I'm happy she's found this out about herself and offering her all the love and support I can. Ex-Bff says "I'm straight. At least I think I'm straight." ... Sure Jan, we didn't already know that from the parade of ex boyfriends and the fact that you repeatedly stated that you were not attracted to me/women whenever you thought I was being "too flirty" with you or whenever you told OTHER PEOPLE WE MET BEHIND MY BACK that you thought I had a crush on you. But actually, thinking about it I guess I can see why you'd feel the need to reestablish/question that after asking me "how do lesbians/gay people do it" because you saw me as not only your therapist and relationship advisor but also your sex ed teacher.

[@ZephyrStarchild]

Thank you for doing this... hearing people having gone through simular shit and go "Holy shit" is vaildating.... I am not Crazy.... thank you.

[@CavatinaProductions]

I'm sorry about all the garbage y'all had to endure. You're all truly inspirational women for dragging these "people" through the mud, and I hope it was therapeutic and cathartic. It always is relieving when I get to rant about my abusive ex-best friend of 10 years. I wish you all well. ❤

[@EVEningforrest]

As someone who is still trying to fight to get her life abuser free, it's very helpful to hear people say you shouldn't take this shit. I have recently broken up with my boyfriend you constantly pushed sexual activities on me even after telling him I was physically or mentally comfortable or ready for it and then by my family be told that I expect too much from people and if I don't lower my standers or just accept people the way they are I'm going to end up alone. You guys have helped me realize I had a lot of toxic people in my life and that was why I was always so depressed, I'm just glad to know there all people out there who are fighting against this and not just content we being pacified or settling for people because there may not be someone on the other side. Thank you, Lily, Mikaila, and KP you three have really helped when I needed it. (Also side note, artwork for the video is beautiful.)

[@gustavofring7254]

As a member of the Team Fortress 2 community, we would not like to associate with this man. Thank you and keep being awesome Lily!

[@thegoat20066]

Of course the most racist ppl also tend to be the most abusive. This video is amazing

[@warkid57]

“Hi all two of you” Yay I’m 5 of 2

[@ShadowDOA]

Always a good time when Lily uploads

[@kaiad.1903]

Hey so, I found you through the Over A Barrel video when I was like, 9 or so. Since then you've helped me through a lot of abusive shit that my dad put me through, you taught me that I should stand up for myself and know my own worth. I felt seen and understood by a KZbinr more than anyone else in my life. Thank you. I wish I had enough of a standing to stand up for you as you want from your viewers. I'm graduating highschool in like, 3 months so I kinda feel like I've grown up with your content, I've found myself as a nonbinary person partially due to you. Thank you.

[@lalaliet]

Lily really does look really nice in green!!! It fits her so nicely :D

[@JaniHorvat1]

Lily: "Ooh, yes please." *rubs hands* Not gonna lie, that put a smile on my face.

[@marcog2270]

Really wish I could comment with photos so I could use the ‘get in bitches, we’re going to therapy’ meme.

[@marcog2270]

‘Get in the LGBT community, Ace bitches! We’re going to kill the nazis!’

[@marcog2270]

@@SirBlackReeds Patty don’t start

[@Darkspriter4]

God Lilly you did the exact same thing I did when my last partner tried the ""I'll kill myself" shit, "Here's the knife I'll watch." Mad props.

[@BroitmeOli]

1:03:35 Lmao, I'm pretty sure I have some form of depression and adhd but like, my parents don't wanna think about me being neurodivergent so they won't let me see a doctor. So I can't take meds lol.

[@thescholarsjourney661]

My mom openly admits that I might have AHDH, but doesn't want me to take medication because "it changes you." B*tch my nearly overwhelming depression because it takes hours to do a task that should take 30 minutes is changing me!

[@psychicbeagle5106]

Listening to the Violently Inclusive bit, I can only see Lily's WoW character running around, smacking exclusionists with an ace flag while the gremlin Gardevoir child cheers her on.

[@lowlandbat9709]

As a gay, Non-binary, Mexican, I had my existence question so many times.

[@dalastorradio]

Tbh I needed this. Especially since I'm going through a lot with jerks and others spreading misinformation. So hearing y'all pull through stuff like this inspires me to push through. Thank ya lily ya wonderful. Keep up the good work.

[@j.a.ogrady7783]

As a closested questioning potentially ace person, hearing Mikaila's story was hugely therapeutic and validating. Thank you to all you lovely ladies and I'm hugely sorry you all had to go through all thay, it's amazing hearing people talk about it

[@mxjez]

Don't know what else to say other than it's a really great thing that you three were able to build such happier lives/social groups/mental health after everything that happened to you. I hope Lily and Mikaila can get married ASAP because you two deserve to have each other and that happiness. Also you three shit talking your (and each other's) abusers is great. Love that you're all ready to validate each other instantly.

[@Hyperhydron]

I believe they just got married actually

[@LilianOrchard]

Travel restrictions put an indefinite hold on the wedding.

[@HatoriDrag0n]

@@LilianOrchard That fucking sucks. Canada doesn't accept any travel arrangements, even with a mandatory quarantine period after arrival? Or refugee programs for people fleeing failed democracies?

[@HatoriDrag0n]

So angry and disgusted you've been put through this. As far as my own experiences with abusers, they don't just try to gaslight you but also your entourage of people. Abusers need to craft this illusion that their victim is a bad person or brings everything unto themselves, because if not then they couldn't get away with their abuse. Then there's people who should fucking know better but they still go along with it because helping the victim or confronting the abuser feels like "too much of a problem". And yet they feel the need to tone police the victim when they fight back or get an upper hand, ultimately revealing that they are simply simpering cowards.

[@DrPinkieDie]

"The Hypothetical Straight white guy watching this" Uhhh.... hi?

[@WestRail642fan]

there is another

[@drakeevans8042]

Yooo

[@gustavofring7254]

*slams table* ANOTHER

[@drakeevans8042]

@@gustavofring7254 flips table you to

[@xiabluecheng]

Says posted 5 mins ago...this is the earliest I've ever made it to a new vid😂😅 Edit: ...so I made it up to 51:19 and I had to pause cuz I'm fucking crying for Lily. I'm crying as I'm typing this. What in the actual fuck is wrong with these people?! Idk if you're gonna read this, Lily, but my heart just seriously shattered over what you said. The courage on you is amazing to publicly speak about this, but at the same time, incredibly sad and rather disturbing... I'm so sorry that happened to you, I really hope things are better now and continue to get better as time passes. I prolly shouldn't be crying so much since you have no clue who I am and I've only been following you for a short while now, let alone the events you discussed didn't happen to me. I guess I'm just more sensitive than I thought lol...but stay strong and hilariously witty love💕 you have my support all the way🤞❤

[@erinmurphy2228]

i want to thank all of you. I've bin going through a pretty tough time with toxic people and this made me feel not alone. I've loved all of Lily's content for a long time and rediscovering it recently has been a huge help to my mental health. ps. I have dyslexia so if things are worth it weirdly that's why.

[@kaiad.1903]

I love her updated sprites and pfp! Green really does look super nice on her!

[@dorotheabell9155]

Hearing Lily and Mikaila talk about their past relationships was heartbreaking. I went through a lot of similar stuff with my ex-fiance (Lily talking about Lizzy pressuring her into sex was what made me realize I was raped during my relationship) I wish all these beautiful women the best in life and I'm glad they have better support now.

[@alexisfrost9545]

This really gave me a lot to think and reflected on how my abusive ex did some of the same crap. And listening to the three of you talk about felt relieving to hear the dishing out of shitty people.

[@fizzpop8491]

This has really shed the light on my own experiences... I honestly didn’t know what is happening to me is abuse until today. So thank you😊

[@barrettbirks1058]

Don't know if I told this story already, but I'll do it anyway. I first discovered Lilly around 2017/2018. I was just getting out of a extremely bad phase of my life where I almost became a Men's Rights Activist, someone who says women are oppressing them and blame all their problems on. I was still getting recommended videos from those people for awhile, didn't help that I kept watching, and one day I found a video from someone called Just A Robot. Just A Robot's gimmick was he used a robot voice while saying normal toxic right wing shit about pop culture. The video was about Lilly's video about the MLP episode about Big Mac cross dressing and it went over a whole lot of stupid shit. He said Lilly was a rip of Movie Bob and Zero Punctuation, used a clip from Christ Ray Guy to disprove that women are over sexualized by men and men are actually the ones being over sexualized, (WTF that means I have no fucking idea) and other things like that. After the video, I saw Lilly video talking about Sheldon from Big Bang Theory, I decided to give it a watch, and I never looked back. You're the best Lilly, You've helped me become more aware of toxic things in media and your Glass of Waters are always things I look forward to. I wish you and Mikaila the best. Sorry about what I said about long cut scenes when you were streaming Kingdom Hearts.

[@timpaul721]

I appricate this video. Theres nothing like listening to other peoples trauma to put your own in perspective. Thanks ladies.

[@pastelgalaxystudio7103]

Kp will take over the world with her army of emotional support lesbians.

[@mairimelodies]

Ngl, this came at a really good time. I had a major mental breakdown recently, to the point where the people who have ignored my pleas for help for the last 18 months finally realised I actually needed it. I've just started councelling and I'm on antidepressants now, but while I know they will help I'm in a really precarious place where I'm having to fight to keep the mindset of, 'Help is coming now.' because its not helping yet even though logically I know it will. It's really easy to slip back into feeling hopeless and stuff like this really helps since you guys are big beautiful reminders that you can fight through this shit, and I really need that reminder rn. So thank you all for sharing, it really helps to have that hope.

[@RickyCow]

You guys are really amazing. I started going to therapy for the first time ever a few months back. I've been through a lot, and living in Venezuela makes everything so much harder. But I'm making progress and it's inspirational hearing what all of you have gone through and how much better you are now than when you were in those dark times. It helps keep going, if you can, then I can too. Thank for sharing, I know it must be very difficult talking about these things even more so in public.

[@DeathLadyShinigami]

As an AroAce the violent inclusion is much appreciated!

[@mattpostingcinematicuniver7920]

Let me set the stage for you it's 4 o'clock in the morning, my sleep schedule is FUCKED, im stressing out. *Sigh* I needed this...thank you. As someone who has been there and been in a few of those situations. My heart goes out to all three of you and im glad you're seeing better days. 💚

[@EveleenKisune]

Lilly, Mikailia, as a teen boy with long hair right now, I have respect for you two and your long hair. It’s harder work than short hair but it’s great regardless of gender.

[@HatoriDrag0n]

1:40:00 Maybe it's all three options at once? All these traits are essentially the landmark of a vulnerable/victimized narcissist. Which is far more fucking insidious than the malignant narcissists because they play the part of the victim so well. They always manage to shut you off after hurting you, even when you know you are right, and the worst part is you know something is fucking off but you can't put it to words.

[@sleepycryptid8275]

"Have you ever had your existence questioned before?" Me, an autistic Pagan freysexual nblm Latine: Why yes I have, thank you very much for asking.

[@zerozeroren]

I'm really sorry that you all had to go through so much hardship! But I'm glad you found each other and formed a healthier bond and a better relationship, and listening to you shit talking your abusers is great! Hopefully it was as therapeutic for you as it was for me to listen to you.

[@elizapetersen8302]

1:49:26 Get in the car, losers, we're going to advocate for our rights to exist as ourselves

[@barrettbirks1058]

I'm glad to be one of the 3 people who listens to these

[@skylarcase9296]

As a survivor, this was immensly cathartic.

[@mmiw134]

I'm not even sure I'm ace, but if I am, then it would make my world to be able to say I was and have someone say "Oh okay" and make me feel fine about it. That part really got to me, you are such a healthy couple x

[@jayelatolbert5822]

I love your videos Lily and I’m so happy that you’re just happy. I don’t know when I started watching this channel probably around when you were criticizing MLP. You helped me realize the toxicity of relationship tropes in the media we consume and how cartoons don’t need to be overtly dark to be a good show.

[@IoAKAIolite]

"If you were a brony in 2013 you either became a transgirl or a white supremacist" damn, I realized I was trans because Lily helped me see that LGBT+ community wasn't the real problem You were a huge help Lily and thank for all the great things you did

[@turner15]

Honestly this is my favorite piece of content you make. I love the Sqaudcasts.

[@taabi.6818]

thank u for this like this really helped me unpack my own abuse from a significant other

[@alliumrose6862]

WOW josh really needs to eat a tortilla chip vertically

[@morarotorybread7044]

Listening this in school, makes the monotony of school go by faster

[@Blackrosecreater]

Lilly, i love how you admit that youll say things that kp wont. Your an amazing person and i hope you have a amazing life.

[@hemeri279]

Thank you all for talking about your experiences. Listen has helped alot. The Ace story gives hope.

[@Alfreedom]

Honestly what you said about getting better friends is so true. Surrounding yourself with a loving support system makes things so much better to deal with even if shit goes bad. Also this was really therapeutic to listen to, I used to be in an abusive friendship and a lot of the shit is so similar, so glad that you're all away from those people :)

[@anagonzalez8972]

1:03:06 And that is really frustrating because having social anxiety isn't even the definition of introversion. Being introverted means you're often not interested in engaging in social situations, not because you're anxious or shy or you incompetent, but out of complete desinteres and most people is boring to you. Twilight Sparkle is a great example of what being an introvert is like. You can socialice just fine and still be an introvert.

[@santinafigueroa4145]

I...think that description is more referring to someone who's asocial.

[@caseycarpenter3221]

You are all very very strong wonderful women. Thank you for sharing your stories with us. It takes a lot of courage to talk about sexual and abuse trauma.

[@JamalService2000]

I heard about you from Josh, I'm afraid to admit, but never saw his Conservative side, as I mostly watched his countdown videos, but even then I felt a bit of a douchey vibe from him. I accidentally stumbled across a video about the ending of your friendship with him, but I was compelled to check your stuff out and was much more drawn to your content despite being more of a Disney kid and not a huge fan of SU and MLP. But watching a glass of water especially "Guard Break" "Bismuth as usual" and "Violence is Golden" has made me much more horrified and clued up about Josh as a person nowadays to the point that I'd legitimately wanna break his neck. And I've also learned from you as a POC how debating bigots is a waste of time, and defending yourself from them is much more effective. Hell I've damn near ended the career of one when they disrespected BLM protests and gaslit the Black community. Keep doing what you do. This is one POC that really feels that you're making positive changes, and as we say in the hood, FUCK THE HATERS!

[@LilianOrchard]

Thank you, this really brightened up my day.

[@JamalService2000]

Also I was told as a 4th generation windrush immigrant and British citizen, that because of my name I should be deported. Bearing in mind I roasted the man who told me that.

[@JamalService2000]

@@LilianOrchard Trust me, I know what it's like to have that "friend" that feels comfortable to rant some of that racist shit to you and you having to deal with the fuckery. I'm still trying to purge my social media of coverts and overts. And you also make me wanna go back to finish my martial arts training considering the times we live in. And if you ever wanna shit talk, holla at me. my DMs are open for you.

[@basicwitch6562]

I made it to the outro music, I actually enjoyed that podcast. All three of you are just delightful

[@SHGogo-df5jr]

I really love the art. Mikaila especially looks good ^-^

[@Sunderland3646]

Listening to this really made me think about some of my own relationships... I might be having some really concerning realizations right now

[@joahjoah92]

I love how near the end y'all just go like "yeah for the record Kim is not KP's name" and then proceed not saying what her name is. Also, it's really nice to see you are all getting to better places.

[@rainfire4749]

Oh- OH WAS THAT A HEATHERS REFERENCE?!

[@VanillaVillain8]

*_SHE'S STILL ALIVE!?!?_*

[@rohaisme]

No

[@JaniHorvat1]

Who? Edit: I got it. Within the first few minutes.

[@castielcrews1496]

48:30 I honestly don't think other people(mostly straight white men) understand how much our lives get questioned everyday. I had to debate my AP gov. teacher my senior year of highschool on why LGBTQ+ people should be able to get married and not be discriminated in any place of business. I was the only one who took the side of the LGBT+ community and I left that class with my second panic attack of the day. (For context the government class was my first class of that day and started at 7am :/). I ended up getting a text from a friend from my GSA who had the same class the next peord who had the same unfortunate experience. P.S. I love the Squadcasts and this was was super cathartic to listen to!

[@norteydowuona4681]

This was inspiring and enraging and hilarious. Thank u.

[@elis_hq]

I love the grainy effect on the artwork :)

[@realimereads2707]

1:25:52 I did not realise how universal this was

[@seeya5948]

I'm sorry for all the abuse you went through, the length abusers will go to and the things they will tell themselves just to convince themselves and others that they are actually in the right is baffling. Death threats over a shitty take on a game, harassment for being popular (and a woman). I'm glad that you all have better friends and a greater social network and hope you all the best in the future. As a demisexual I relate to the scare of coming out to people and being upset over your identity, and also believing that someone broke you and that's why you don't feel attraction to others, and exclusionists really doesn't help at all. So the aggressive acceptance is really appreciated. Lily really ACEd that conversation, to bad you don't remember the pun, everyone loves a good pun.

[@StarlightStream]

I am just sitting here beffeled. Thank you for opening up about this.

[@KS-fk3zv]

Lily and her girlfriend talking my gay heart Can’t

[@KS-fk3zv]

All I can think of when Lily says I am violently inclusive it’s just putting a gun to their head and saying (i’ll include you)

[@ArcanaZeroTheFool]

I can't find it now, but a year or so ago I watched a video where the speaker revealed a troubling fact about the country I live in: There is a law that states, transgender people are required by law to be sterilised before they can legally change their gender. This made me question a lot of things and realize that no matter how wonderful your country supposedly is, there are some things that are unacceptable.

[@_Asleep_]

Queens right here.

[@scarletrosalia940]

I don't know if this is weird to say, but Mikaila's mm-hmn's are pure gold to listen to. Overall I think she has a really pretty voice.

[@zerozeroren]

The one and only time my partner was an ass to me was when he questioned my bisexuality. I really don't know where it came from, he's usually very chill about these things, but that time he was all like "oh yeah? Why don't you date girls then"? With this mean girl look on his face. The same reason I don't date boys, because i am MARRIED to YOU you mashed potato! I know it's a minor inconvenience of an experience compared to stuff other people go through, but honestly I've never felt smaller than i did that day.

[@LilianOrchard]

That's horrible, hon. Biphobia is never acceptable. I sure hope he apologized eventually

[@zerozeroren]

@@LilianOrchard he did that same day, and never repeated the sentiment since. Feels like he got the point.

[@LoveBug-pw4vu]

Thank you for being accepting of asexual people! I genuinely teared up at the violent acceptance bit.

[@Cutie_Amor]

as someone that was a brony in 2012 and is now a (still very closeted) trans-girl i approve of the meme

[@eastmeetwestba628]

Yes people question my right to exist because i was born with mental issues.

[@Shining-ou7bo]

Hey I know it’s hard to talk about all this trauma these horrible people who have been in your lives but I hope you guys know that your beautiful and deserve happiness 😊

[@pink9949]

I have a friend who's online name is Ross and we just stopped using his irl cus no one (including him) actually cares as long as we all know who is being referred to

[@spoofsmcjenkins2807]

I really like this. Please do more candid kinds of videos like this if it's not too taxing. Listening to people talk, like actually talk, is really relaxing, even if it's about trauma and past abuse. Sorry of that's a bit selfish.

[@midnightarrow5207]

I just sorta found myself bored tuned in for all of 5mins (1hr something) and instantly just wants to give hugs, no one should have to go through that shit, I can relate with lily, australian rural catholic parents that's all the pro white straight anti everything that isn't that

[@tortoiseoflegends4466]

I didn't even know this series existed, it never showed up in my sub feed until now. This is great.

[@OneFluffyHat]

Do not let the chaos aunt touch the chaos child!

[@WestRail642fan]

"If your a brony in 2012, you either become a trans girl or a white supremacist" Me who was a brony in 2012 became neither

[@DeltaMarlfox]

All three podcast hosts are amazing people and I aspire to keep watching their content.

[@hiddenechoes]

This is definitely the podcast I needed 😘 keep it up you awesomes ❤

[@FatherIimaginedyoutaller]

Hearing about your friendship with Josh had me feeling some sort of way cause I also was in a toxic situation very similar to it. Only that I wasn't forced to agree with bigotry, I was forced to agree with them on the camp of "fiction doesn't affect reality" and "writing erotica of child characters isn't bad". I was fucking 14 and they were 18 and in college writing porn of underage DC characters who were my age. I defended that person so much cause I bought the lie that fiction doesn't affect the real world. It took me talking to another survivor to realize how bad this was and to realize I was groomed by this person. I guess what I'm trying to say it's thank you, talking about your experiences has helped me. Just like you helped me realize I was polyamorous from your other video.

[@lesley1762]

Love the new icon! :D

[@NeoAnton]

I learn so much , great video

[@eyawolf]

I just wanna say thank you for being violently Inclusive. It makes me feel better knowing that there are people in the LGBTA community willing to accept asexuals.💜