STOP TORTURING YOURSELF | my eating disorder story + things I've learned

[@via.ilyouu]

i want to make it clear that: the picture in the thumbnail was me in the high school where my binging was at an all time high (left) and the other photo (right) was a photo taken a few days ago where i am nourishing my body and also working out! i don’t want any of you guys to assume that it was the aftermath of my ed.

[@Luvmckeea]

You’re so strong via I’m so happy and proud of the person you have become ✨

[@gelzamannn]

Via you are sooo beautiful and brave and I love you soo much💞 You are a big inspiration for me. I have some problems and I am trying overcome them but we need to live life in the best way cuz we live once . Take care yourself you are precious to me girll🤍🤍🤍

[@immiiimgood]

I have a genuine question Via, did the eat disorder encourage you to go vegetarian and was it a hard transition? Btw I am very proud of you🤍not only for the decision to give your body the love it deserves but also for all you have accomplished in the past year !

[@Kiklip-x5e]

I love you so much for this comment

[@resultofeatingborax]

goodbye i thought that was a photo of wonyoung

[@FaridaAhmed-m7x]

"People treating you badly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself badly" this touched my heart so bad... i love you via

[@Lynn-cl2kq]

They v

[@kokich1991]

😭😭😭

[@larauerc]

"just because other people treat you horribly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself horribly too" - damn, that it hard

[@Ann-sv7zx]

That's the best advice someone can ever give

[@MountTaesan]

It’s so tragic thinking of your body as a lover whose love will never be reciprocated. It’s like a child seeking to be something great for your praise, only for you to call it “ugly” and physically harm it. The perspective change really alters my own as it makes me feel like a villain and it’s essentially what I am. Your body is the only one you’ll ever get so make sure to love it as much as it loves you.

[@back.on.track.]

this is really profound

[@pirimi]

this comment hit so deeply, wow. thank you for that, truly

[@Maomaomahu]

Unconditional love is a good thing. It means loving something with no bounds. Do you mean unrequited, which means a love which is one sided?

[@MountTaesan]

@@Maomaomahu yes I think that’s more fitting, thank you for the clarification I’ll make sure to fix it!

[@mummytrolls]

Except I’m not insane and live in an adult body that is my own. We aren’t separate entities. I’m literally my body. It’s not that deep.

[@asteriaaa16]

honestly getting this during a really bad relapse feels like a sign EDIT: thank you guys so much for the support. i’ve had my ups and downs since this relapse but i’ve kept going. i’ve been trying not to get irritated with myself each time i relapse because, as somebody in the replies said, healing isn’t linear. but it’s baby steps for now. and i hope the rest of you are doing good.

[@elliyuh228]

best wishes for recovery :( you’ve got this

[@PeaceMe-hs8dr]

Yeah this is BIG sign !

[@yeehaw-4532]

stay strong fam i believe in you 🌷 (for you) 🫴

[@theaizere]

healing is non linear, just keep on going, there is always tomorrow, you can do it, you will be okay eventually

[@vaampyyrez]

you got this ! from one person in recovery to another

[@akshitha746]

“I was never called beautiful”… it hurts that soo many beautiful souls have not been told how gorgeous they are.. I hope that you give yourself all the love you deserve!!!

[@matchalaitte]

i'm an "ugly", midsized girl in 9th grade, and i feel insecure about how i look. people don't make fun of me, but i'm scared to dress the way i want, put on makeup, remove my facemask even when it's not necessary to wear, and i'm always VERY cautious when it comes to food since i often notice my differences from my pretty friends and stuff. watching your videos often remind me that i'm still young and that none of my current concerns really matter. i'm glad you're somehow healed from the wounds you've received growing up, and i hope that a certain point of my life where i finally heal from all the bad thoughts would be worth it, like how i've noticed from you. thank you for being such an inspiration to everyone, via! lots of love ^^💗

[@story_inside]

I also used to do this in school, and honestly getting over the face mask was key for me to feel better about myself. It felt like a safeguard “just in case” someone was judging me, but then I realized I cared too much about what ppl thought of me. And abt the makeup and clothes, just do it! Like Via said, you only live once :)

[@ichijixi]

very much felt the same way! im def doing a lot better now my junior year but i still have days of feeling down but i think it gets better! i grew up as the “ugly friend” in middle school and was also mid sized and had a lot of acne/face fat. this year i actually started putting an effort bc i always binged junk food n stuff but if you just try to take care of urself bc u wanna be healthy, i promise it will get better from there! i am very hypocritical bc i give others the advice i dont take but remember you are still 14-15 and dont obsess too much over stuff like others do (me), ur very beautiful and strong!!

[@MUSAFIRBEFIQR]

Oh, it's the same for me. I have been wearing a mask since coron@ came. And now, it has become a shield for me. I am very scared to take it off even in front of my friends. I don't go outside now, apart from taking classes. What am I supposed to do?? I feel so trapped 😭

[@ar7sa821]

@@MUSAFIRBEFIQR I was like that once but I challenge you to take it off for a week straight soon you’ll realize how silly it was and no one cares

[@meganm6269]

I used to be the exact same in 9th grade. I always thought I was too big but looking back I was actually really beautiful. I only had mostly small friends so that also worsened things for me. One day you will look back and see how beautiful you are🫶🏻 enjoy your time and do what you want with it. Good luck.

[@dmnkhptr]

honestly, ive been aware of my eating disorder, which was mostly rooted in my mind from me being insecure, for over a year now. im trying to get better at eating and seeing food not as a "i eat something just to stay alive" and my habits are bad still, but i love to see somebody else recover. it makes me motivated, thank you so much for this video

[@megisawesome]

Hey good for you every day you’re getting better. I’m proud of you.

[@Luvmckeea]

My dad used to comment on my weight all the time and it really affects the brain and becomes a problem. I also went from binging to fasting and after losing weight I still saw myself has over weight but I wasn’t. I don’t understand why people have to talk about weight so much. I can’t believe the rude things your parents said to you 🥲breaks my heart

[@milenasolis2201]

Same story of me. I understand you😢

[@niki_jungkook7]

via is literally one of my fav ytubers and therapist i love her soo muchh

[@madeofcastiron]

i hope this isn’t rude, but i love your mad, “no BS” tone when giving advice. you’re like “fuck people’s opinion! fuck treating yourself poorly! go enjoy yourself!” i honestly find it so motivating.

[@_lilyzz]

I just can't believe how your OWN FAMILY would call you "fat" or something like that. I've heard things like this since I was 11 and to this day I'm afraid to go out in a swimsuit or shorts, it's unbelievable, and usually comes from people who are twice your weight. Remember you are beautiful!❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@leti9340]

It's very common in Latinos and Asians households

[@allianne]

“i was scared of drinking boba” and that line hurt my heart fr

[@lordfreerealestate8302]

Family shapes our relationship with our self-esteem like nothing else. I cut my family out of my life because my family liked to degrade me. Best thing I've ever done. Now I have the confidence to do anything. Sometimes they deliberately degrade you to make you the family scapegoat, or to make themselves feel better. We need positive reinforcement, and it's emotional neglect if it isn't given to you.

[@Ayi429]

I love my parents but I hate them. They’re the reason for my low self esteem and soo much trauma. But. I start to miss them and get scared of what do I do if I lose them for good. How do you cope with just cutting them off…?

[@arroyobaby38]

I did the same thing. I cut off my family as well for the very same reason. I love myself more than I love them and thats how I’m able to deal with it. It was too much stress having them in my life. Now I’m stress free and happier than I’ve ever been!

[@harmoniousandtranquilhannah]

Or to be the one in control of your decisions by lowering your confidence

[@gracema4901]

My dad also likes to belittle me and as a child I was incapable of protecting myself. But I'm separated from them now, I had a huge fight with him last week, but I'm happy I protected myself. No one can hurt me in the name of love.

[@nawel.iffrig]

I had an eating disorder but now I feel more comfortable in my body I’m so happy with my progress 😭💗

[@catcacaforlife1438]

Do you have any advice? I’m having trouble loving and feeling comfortable in my body…

[@nawel.iffrig]

@@catcacaforlife1438 hi ! For me I started to be a « fake » confident person and then I started feeling confident for real. But for my eating disorder I just made a bocal of my « fear » food and tried one of these once a day ! And my sister also helped me with that cause it’s a psychological illness so I think you have to say what you feel to your closest friends (they can help you) and create a new version of yourself !! 💗 I hope it will help you too 💗

[@AkiraFireAngel]

⁠​⁠@@catcacaforlife1438 Hey dear, I also was at the point where I hated my body and myself . It took me a whole year to say: I don’t hate myself anymore. It takes time and some days won’t be rosy and flowers. But as Nawel said: be “fake” happy. I started with saying 3 nice things in front of a mirror daily to myself. I did that for a whole month. Than I went on saying to myself what I like about my body specific. ( I like my eyes/ I like the way I smile when happy/ I like my eye lashes/ I like how my skin looks today) point is appreciate yourself daily, for a long time. It could be weeks, months depending on how m long you need for yourself it’s not a race😊 after I felt that I was no longer telling myself hateful comments I tried wearing clothes that I would have never worn. It was hard it first but every negative comment that came to my mind I tried to out weight with words of affirmation to myself. Today I really love skirts and dresses. 2 years ago I would have rather get burned inside my jeans and pants… it’s a journey a long one to be real but it’s worth it. The last step on my list was the relationship with food this one took me a whole year as well to fix… I had an ED too and I am still not fully recovered but I am trying and working on it ❤

[@mariaalonso3464]

u are so correct, Via. Sadly food is something that is present everyday and when u have a bad relationship with it, it ruins your life. It has ruined my days, every single moment of the day revolves around food when, in reality, there are so many things that life has to offer. Unfortunately, an eating disorder won’t let u see that. Im working on it everyday, but sometimes I just wish I didn’t have to work to have a normal relationship with food, but it’s the only thing I have left. Everything u said is so true, thank u for sharing your story, i felt so identified and less alone💖💖

[@cheeseburgerhater6676]

Your body IS YOU. She’s a part of you, the vessel you carry to move through life. With a ED, you think of your body as a possession when it is completely who you are. The body you carry shapes you.

[@loonaticgowon]

Kaeya pfp !! also tysm this helped sm

[@jazbennington6452]

Thinking of my body as a separate living being has also also helped me; "she is there to love you unconditionally" is a really powerful mindset! 🥰🥰

[@graciepages]

when you started explaining how it is important to treat your body like its own being, almost like an inner child, I felt my heart crack..I'm 16 years old (going on 17 this year) and I've spent too much time worrying about my body. time and time again i would restrict/binge myself to where I felt like I was being a burden for no reason to my parents by saying things like "oh, I can't have that ice cream because it doesn't fit into my deficit", forgetting that my body ISNT EVEN FULLY DEVELOPED YET. i honestly admire the bravery you have in eating, travelling, and let alone vlogging yourself. thank you for this video

[@Hello-ll7ht]

I am the same way, this video is going to help me a lot!!

[@lvckycharm1218]

Hi Via!! As someone who has struggled with disordered eating and body image issues for years, I'm so happy you're sharing your story! So excited to watch!

[@MUSAFIRBEFIQR]

My mother also took a picture of me to show me how I looked like from behind. But it hurt me when my sister made a video and showed me how my hips were so fat. Honestly, from day on, I have started to cover up myself from back even more. I feel like I don't deserve to wear anything pretty or beautiful.

[@alukakto7604]

As a person who struggled with eating disorder for 5 years and completely ruined my health , my hair,body,nails,skin , even it affected my height growth … this video helped a lot , thank you so much via you are amazing

[@Mary-fo2uv]

Same, we got this bro.. I wanna change for better once for all.

[@ketsu_kit8920]

Im literally fucking balding I’m always tired I just hate this so much I’m trying to get better adghghk

[@YOUUV]

I developed anorexia when I was just 9 years old. My childhood was ruined because of that, but I am glad to be born in this era where everything is at my fingertips. These types of videos have been helping me since then. I am 15 now, but I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. Sometimes I eat a lot, and some days I eat nothing. But when I binge eat, I see myself instantly fat in front of the mirror and I feel like total crap after that. I feel aggression, self-hatred, and more. I do 1 hour of workout daily, and as a human, there are those days when I didn't do my workout merely because of my school and studies. Because of that, I feel like trash thrown outside. I am on a journey of self-improvement, although my illness does affect my height, and because of that, I am 4'11 while being in class 9. No one in my family actually believed in eating disorders; they used to think that I was being stubborn, starving myself, while being a pain in the ass for my parents. They told me that I was ungrateful and spoiled. According to them, that was the reason for me starving myself. This actually hurts when I think about it this way. My parents used to beat me, a nine-year-old, so that they could force me to eat something, and then I would be left with bruises all over my body. It hurts. I went through a lot, but now I am on a journey of self-improvement. I am sorry for dumping all this. This whole chat should be a yes or no thing, but I wrote a whole life summary.

[@winefish5006]

Oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong for still fighting. I'm the same age as you and struggling w ana too, but we can win this disorder❤️

[@YOUUV]

@@winefish5006 hope u recover soon

[@Coreexedits]

I really love the fact that you are so genuine 😭🤌🏼

[@1234DKFN]

Via I was never called beautiful too. Like never until one of my friends randomly called me beautiful cause she noticed putting myself down , at 21 year. It felt bad. I felt like I was overreacting. But I was hurt. Seeing you cry , cause i cried and told her that too. I realised it wasnt our fault. We were regular humans seeking validation and love. And that need wasn't fulfilled. If I would meet high-school via maybe I would say you everyday you look beautiful. We are beautiful via internally too.

[@aurelia9233]

i didnt go through hating myself bc of an eating disorder but i did have body dysmorphia and i totally know how it feels. i had a terrible mindset for around 2 years where i was so lonely and couldnt enjoy doing anything. i think what helped me the most was finding a sport that i was really passionate about, as it allowed me to take my mind off how i look as well us taking up a lot of my time and energy, so i dont have the time to worry about it. it doesnt have to be a sport, but i think the best thing to do to stop obsessing is to find something youre really passionate about and spend lots of time on it.

[@iuueoi]

люблю когда любимые блогеры выкладывают видео о том, с чем ты сталкиваешься в данный период своей жизни это как знак от вселенной 😭

[@radaheyyyy]

Я впервые вижу русские комментарии на канале Вии, афигеть… ты со всем справишься, солнце 🫶🏻🤍

[@iuueoi]

@@radaheyyyy сейм хахаха! спасибо большое 😭🤍

[@sonyamaslova9837]

У тебя все получится, главное не дави на себя

[@iuueoi]

@@sonyamaslova9837 спасибо 🥺

[@lotus.luvsrain]

YESSS FOR REALL😭💗💗

[@Nancy-ep2yq]

I am in love with your content, I feel so related to it like you just know me you are amazing big sis 🥹💗

[@longliveleonkennedy]

I'm happy you feel comfortable to share your experiences with us Via :(

[@irej9088]

aww this made me cry 🥺 the part when you talked about your body being like a little girl who is dependent on you. Although I’ve never had an eating disorder, this video reminds me of how negative my self talk used to be towards myself, how abusive those words were. I’m so glad you’re doing better than you were in high school, and we love you too via!

[@ieatdirt9596]

ahh this video is gonna hit close to home. I was suffering with body dysmorphia and ED in high school. I would starve myself to look “prettier”, only drinking water. I would only allow myself eat when I was so weak i couldn’t focus at school. Then i would binge eat to “fill up the space” and feel so disgusted and disappointed with myself for not having self control. It was just an endless loop. Now i am in college, still not perfect. I don’t think i can ever be the same again but now i know that i am the prettiest when i am happy and healthy. To anyone reading this, your body issues might take months or even years to fix, but the fact that you are still trying now is so admirable, and you are my hero for trying your best. Hope we can all be better soon

[@hallelujahlockandload]

I just hate that she couldn't remember ever being called beautiful, because she is gorgeous, and high school her was such a cutie 😒😒 she served

[@agneszzz]

The end of the video low-key made me think that we all are kinda like ghosts possessing a body and you just realized you can't treat your "vessel" bad otherwise you will have to wait very long before you can possess another vessel again, and I think that is beautiful

[@SumayaSiddique-dx4ib]

Via li I can relate to you in so many levels. I never got any attention in my teenage years and was never been in relationship. I was very introvert also being average no one would approach me. Now I'm almost 21 and I've come to peace with everything. I'm glad I found this community. I dont feel like I'm left out anymore

[@raginiborkotoky1473]

My friends laughed and mocked me for having belly fat a long time ago, I too have never been called beautiful, I exercise more than I need to. If by any chance someone tells me "I gained weight" it gets worse- I stop eating. When I became very very thin due to excessive exercising and not eating properly, my parents were scared and said I look malnutritioned and should eat but my "friends" said I looked pretty. I was 16/17 when this happened. Now I am 25 and have body dismorphia. I am still trying to heal from all of these but it takes time. ❤

[@wealldieinend]

You got thisss

[@zigzaglychee7324]

I completely understand that thing about seeing your body as your younger self :') a couple years ago i was seriously thinking of ending my life. I was living at home at the time and my mum had these photos of me as a baby. She told me she used to keep them on her desk at work in her old job. And that made me almost burst into tears. That's her baby. I thought about hurting her baby. How could I do that to her? How could I even think about harming that little girl. Being a biologist as well made me feel so guilty because it made me think about how hard my body was working to keep me alive and healthy, and I treated it like that.

[@IzzyOnTheMove]

I'm sorry to say, but your parents are abusive and you don't need that b*llsh*t in your life. Cut them off. My dad's last words to me was to tell me I'm garbage (I'm not). I didn't go to the hospital when he died. I struggled with it but ultimately that was a great act of self-respect and self-love and I chose MYSELF. 💜

[@Paedyn-yn7qt]

This is so embarssing, but when I was in 5th grade, so around like 10-11 years old, I would skip breakfast, and only drink school milk at lunch during the day. The only thing I would eat throughout the whole day is whatever my family made for dinner. Come to find out I was lactose intolerant, so the main cause of my acne, was the milk I would drink at school, which was the only thing I consumed for hours. I also remember being in this really toxic friendship with the girl in second grade, and one day I told her that I liked this guy. She told me that he would never like me because I was fat. Bruh. I was a normal weight for an eight year old, and she was on the lighter side. I LEARNED HOW TO SUCK IT IN AT 8 YEARS OLD. like what?! (If ur wondering if I left that friend, the answer is yes, and now im 14 with the most supportive and loving best friend ♥) Sorry u had to go thru that Via, I know what it's like

[@Esandeech2]

Your story cannot offend anyone, because it is YOURS!

[@Sunnie-pd9jv]

Don't worry, you don't have to be sorry for making a video with a serious topic.We needed this to be addressed eventually.Thank you so much for this ☺️☺️

[@melacting]

I always was skinny, yet still when I was 13/ 14 I had times when ibis’s obsessed with going on diets from time to Team even tho I didn’t need them. Then while studying for Uni or sometimes when I’m stressed I’ll forget to eat. Last year in July I weighed like 53 kg and the lowest I was when I had an audition, met my boyfriend and had Uni work in March was 47 kg. Rn I’m like 48/49 kg and super insecure about bloating recently and felt super bad. Thx for sharing this vid, needed that rn, even tho I don’t have an eating disorder. 💗 and to everyone dealing with an eating disorder my love and support goes to y’all ❤️

[@kikigh-in7uy]

i dont think you understand how badly this touched me , as someone who grew up "overweight" and had such a clear horrible relationship with food (still do -) but people around me didnt think its a big deal bc im overweight , and as someone who was told "are you eating your siblings food?" as a joke bc theyre skinny and im not , someone who was forced to be on a diet since 5th grade , someone who developed being a "picky eater" bc the constant thought of food just makes me feel sick to my stomach , someone who had to throw up after every meal , drink huge amount of water to get rid of "calories" after or work out just to feel like i got rid of that slice of the bread i had , as someone who hate it when people take group pics and as someone who heard shitty things everyday for a literal living , i cried watching this , hearing you describing a very familiar life of mine made me feel seen for the very firt time in my whole sixteen years of living , especially that youre one of my "comfort youtubers" , so i really wanna thank you from the deepest point of my heart , thank you for recording and posting this Via , that meant so much to me

[@loonaticgowon]

‼️TW‼️ pls don’t Read this if sh, ed etc.. triggers you I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable so a warning I doubt anyone’s gonna read this anyway but erm‼️ this video helped me sm you don’t know how much I appreciate it I’ve been suffering from anorexia since I was 9 and it’s haunting me I wish I could be like other people, like normal people. growing up in my environment my family used to make comments about my body especially my mother. she would tell me stuff like "are you really gonna eat all that?" Whenever I tried to eat something no matter how small it was. She was the cause of my eating disorder. Im 15 currently now and I feel so sick my thoughts are just "starve you’re not skinny enough" growing up with an eating disorder I grew a habit of counting my calories and calbs and it’s terrible, my lack of blood sugar makes me want to faint when I was between 9 and 10 I was not even fat I was just a little chubby but only a few words that come out of your friends, families, relatives mouths can ruin your entire life. I was and still am bullied by my friends for looking like "a skeleton" or looking too skinny. I’m currently on my 6th day of starving myself tbh I feel like I’m gonna faint at any moment, I currently weight 44 KGS I’m not even sure if this is healthy for my age but I honestly don’t even care anymore, my anorexia also caused me to have severe depression and it’s Leads me to sh I feel so inhumane I honestly don’t even know what to do anymore, whoever reads this stay strong ilysm you’re not alone

[@layanhalabi6155]

I just want to tell you that your videos give me positive energy and motivate me, whenever I am sad or upset I watch your videos and feel better, after watching your videos I want to go out live and be happy I really like the way you give us the message with energy and I just love you Keep going and never give up❤ Out of the concept but I have an idea to make the intro for the next video by opening the fridge and you pop out saying hi and ...like that I don't know if you understood me but yaa

[@Lucky-ce9jh]

GIRL YOU ARE BEAUTYFUL❤Every time you wake up i want you to say that to yourself because if nobody called you BEAUTYFUL before….then they are fucking BLIND❤❤❤ EDIT:you gained a new sub❤❤🫶🏻

[@xo3ykay774]

Wow. I’ve been going through a similar thing and everything you would say hit me so hard. Thank you so much you I genuinely can’t express how much this video and you helped me. Also this is off topic but you literally look like an ethereal goddess like you are so beautiful

[@aa.r.ya_]

Thank you so much! I appreciate this a lot! And I’m so happy that you can have a healthy mindset and relationship with yourself

[@manjotkaur5263]

I LOVED the video 'cause it so resonated with me. Instantly Subscribed

[@piacamesella]

About the last words you said at the end of the video, Via please don’t be sorry to touch a serious topic. I found your channel not so long ago but I really love it, and this is one of the reasons. Your videos have a perfect balance of vulnerability while also being a place of comfort and heartwarming. Talking about these kinds of topics is also a part of it. So as long as you feel comfortable talking about this kind of things I think you shouldn’t worry about posting it. Also I have these same struggles and I want you to know that this wasn’t triggering at all, you talk it from a great point of view. Sending you lots of love and I’m so sorry you went through all of that but I’m happy you are in a much better place right now❤️‍🩹

[@Khadija_027]

Since I was young everyone told me to lose weight when I was literally perfectly healthy weight due to this I spend so many years starving myself and exercising really hard only to learn that i don't have to be so hard on my body

[@TatianaKurnosova]

Thank you so much for this video, I'm also almost crying now... Feeling so related and just want to hug you right now, you're such a sweetheart and brave beautiful creature! Thank you Thank you Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💕🤍

[@BlossomWhite877]

So if other people hates you cause you are ugly to them...then this is wrong and when you hate others cause they are ugly compare to you, then this is acceptable

[@SkyeGames97]

Omg, I relate to this in a since, I also deal with binge eating disorder. And though I’m not 100% better with my food but way better than when I was growing up and all through high school. My mother also was body shaming me because I have hard time losing weight. Love your videos!!

[@biakookie]

I went through this but I was not overweight I was judged bcz I was too skinny and this made me eat emotionally a lot and back then I hated myself but I healed, I started to have a normal weight also the most important thing TO LOVE MYSELF 💖

[@tummyhertz]

omggg where are your jewelry and lashes from, I'm so obsessed 😩

[@Areum2323]

5:34 Fr like I’ve been rejecting my friends suggestions for going on a walk or hanging out with them cause I’m fat and I think that I’ll make them uncomfortable or making everyone uncomfortable because they think “oh they’re so beautiful why do they have to be friends with this fat girl?” Last year we had a plan to go out and i rejected right after I agreed to go with them, I just lied and said my mom won’t agree, today I went out and hanged out with my younger brother and it was fun but I’ve been thinking about how people thought about me, im recovering with this but not that much 🥲.. And about Asian parents, that’s so true, when I was younger maybe 17 or 16 I can’t remember, she told me that I look like a fat pig that’s why nobody loves me, every time I look at her I remember those words and I say how can a mom say that to her own daughter like I could never..I love her tho haha..she’s a good mom now.

[@via.ilyouu]

oh girl i am so sorry to hear this. i cried reading this comment since i relate to it a lot. please remember that you are beautiful. and please trust your friends that they want to hang out with you! i also have a problem with constantly getting worried about what others think of me - but just remember that you deserve to do anything you want! the question is whether you want to do it or not? if you do then f*** the others and what they think. and always remember you are always in control of your life. and what your mother said to you is horrible and is not true. you are a beautiful beautiful girl and i will always support you! xx via

[@Areum2323]

Oh via you don’t know how you heal my soul , your videos are like free therapy to me, thank you so much for your words, I’ll try my best , watching your videos and listening to your words are giving me motivation to keep going and have more self-confidence, thank you so much again for your beautiful words, you’re perfect and beautiful too, I love you🌷

[@Seungeeeee]

I really appreciate it when you started loving more yourself 💗✨

[@YikesItsYaaks]

5:30 i hate how much i relate to this :') atp im skipping social hangout with friends solely because im scared to go out eating

[@aldooby]

3:26 the way my jaw dropped, that is such an evil thing to do as a mother

[@danaalamr3703]

Hey Via (I usually don’t comment) I hope you see this comment so I’m basically a teen and I relate to you so much

[@Mysterious98]

I could relate so much with her because I've dealt with food until last month where I would have a mental breakdown and questioned myself as to why I was hurting myself with food.I'm 24 and the issues with food made me quit college.I was depressed and took medications a lot.And I've been told as well that I was not beautiful and I really want yo change that narrative.Thankyou Via for this awesome video❤

[@nisargar1094]

We both had similar life, i am happy that we overcame it 🙂

[@SofieSoph]

Hey! I have only recently found your channel and I want to say it is fate that I found it! I have been struggling recently and your channel has made me feel just that much better. I relate to you so much. I had/still have an ED and severe anxiety and I want to believe and hope that someday I can be in the same sort of mindset that you have! Thank you for creating this channel. It brings so much comfort to people like me.

[@jeonaf_]

I'm 16 and severely overweight for my age. I too have never been called beautiful. But the things you have gone through is unimaginable to me. I have had my parents support as far as I remember. My relatives do pressure me into losing weight (also to grow taller). I have a sister and brother who do call me fatty without meaning it and I laugh with them too. But sometimes when I'm already feeling depressed cause of my weight I find myself crying to myself in my room after pretending to not be hurt by their comments. If you are going through a hard time please feel free to vent your feelings down below. We all can OVERCOME this!!

[@Potterhead707]

ur video is awesome and it's helped me out a bit, but... I still kinda hate myself, I guess.

[@roses6261]

Via, you are so beautiful!!!! And yes I totally relate with you. I also had an eating disorder in High school and HATED the way I looked. But now I do realise the importance of having a healthy relationship with my body and food. Keep shining, love u always!❤

[@estheryeng7542]

Just genuinely curious, what made you want to go vegetarian

[@shorayyyy]

everything Via said is SO REALLLL 😭 esp the slowing down of ur metabolism bcs of starving urself and not going out bcs of thinking that everybody is judging u. i am still battling with my anorexia nervosa ed and it's hellllll like i can't eat this eat that cause it's "off-limits". i have been trying to heal but whenever i look at my body i just relapse and not eat while also do heavy workouts. i still have a lot of things to say but i can't find the words to say ykyk. so, Via thank u for this, thank u for sharing ur experience, and thank u for the making me realize more things if i keep losing to my ed ❤️‍🩹

[@youyouccr3696]

BABE YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL 💗 You're so strong you've been through so much thank you so much for sharing your story with us 💗 I love youuu so much 🥰🥹 💗

[@mlemlemlem1749]

I never was fat. I always was a slim girl with good figure (i had a nice assss, and still have lol). But when i was 13 i justified said to my mother how much i weighted and she just said "hah, ur weight is quite big, my was less than ur at ur age and i was taller than you" just wtf mom? 50kg for a 165cm girl is too much??? I started to starve after that. And then overeat And again starve I only ate when I was already feeling sick and weak Just to stay alive, yea Now it's not that bad but i still have that shi And I got thinner, but the weight didn't go away, and that's okay, because I got a little taller Now i do some sports every day, I try not to starve, but to be on a calorie deficit And I've often been told that I've lost a lot of weight. Just thanks mom

[@wealldieinend]

Hope you're doing good now❤❤❤ I'm proud of you

[@bluehourcore]

loved the video via

[@alizeh714]

no bcs the same people who used to body shame me now tell me to eat more all the time, i got told to “watch [my] weight” and stuff, my mom told me i had gotten fat and reached the point where not even the nicest clothes could look good on me, (she said that when i couldn’t decide on an outfit bcs nothing looked nice on me and we were getting late) she’d tell me “tummy in” when ever we were taking photos even if it was in front of my friends, my brother would calculate my bmi and make fun bcs it showed up as overweight, my mom would constantly repeat the quote “you are what you eat” a dozen times a day and call me a potato, my dad bought me books on exercises and losing weight and made comments here and there. Now that i lost the weight, i get told to eat more and that they want the old me back, i constantly get told i look sick, emaciated, haggard, malnourished and get compared too a twig, skeleton, stick, rack of bones (basically everything negative). My brother still calls me fat though. It’s like they can never be happy no matter how hard i try. If im being honest i like the comments im getting these days💀💀sorry for the rant😭

[@packed2497]

im so sorry, just know theres so many people here for you. stop doing things for you're toxic family. do things for you, be who you want to be for yourself. ik ur beautiful and amazing no matter what.

[@lazel1057]

11:11 this is so true y'all please please PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR BODY and FOOD more! Just when I finally healed my relationship with food, I was diagnosed with chronic gastritis and GERD after an infection :/ now food hurts to physically eat although I literally WANT to eat, and drinking water is a struggle since it messes up my gut/it doesn't go well with solid food. I've been struggling for 8 months now, meds didn't work and now there's nothing much I can do since it's a life-long condition ;-; I miss soups, hotpot, eating my favourite desserts... enjoying full-sized meals with fam and friends... It's really important to take care of your health, you only have one body, so please treat it right!!!

[@-Sooyasoo-]

My love posted again!! Thank you soo much via❤ youre soo beautiful and have made me realize that im beautiful the way i am and that means a lott to me Love you, Via❤

[@moonatthenight]

She is a comfort person, inspirational person, big sister and the list goes on......She just makes me realize how many things I am missing, just can't express how much I luv and respect her. Love u ❤‍🩹 and thanks a lot❣

[@creativeteeny925]

if there's a chance you read this, thankyou for this video, i really needed it today. Im in highschool and basically i'm having the same experience you talked about, i was never called beautiful and so i never felt like it. I was always compared to my sister who is much slimmer and 'prettier' than me. I'm doing my best to heal my relationship with food and just heal from cruel comments and remarks that have been so normalised about other people's bodies but people like you making these videos, being so vulnerable helps so much more than you can imagine.

[@lvly_cherry]

you’re like the big sister I never had

[@animehubrecapped]

Oh my God I really really like you. You're so honest and down to earth

[@alinacrutch]

Via is so beautiful and just radiates light.. thanks for this video, I'm healing my relationships with food and exercieses so I needed to hear this. Your story made me really emotional

[@virgo_vampire]

you're an absolutely beautiful young woman, let nobody tell you otherwise. i'm so sorry you grew up in a household like that. my therapist and i are finally working on my eating disorder together, my story regarding that's pretty similar to yours, and like... my therapist basically told me that once you approach your body with a sense of compassion and act out of love instead of shame/fear, your relationship with food won't necessarily heal, but it'll be a lot easier to tackle that. the thought of your body loving you unconditionally is definitely a helpful one for me, i'll definitely be taking that with me

[@lunam7578]

Via, you don't have an idea of how much your videos had helped me to see things I'm identified in with a different perspective, feeling that I'm not the only one who feels in that way, encouraged me to keep going and growing through things like this.

[@jasmintea8825]

I was spiraling down to a relapse, this genuenly was a wake up call, tank you

[@aisyahsalim4175]

this is the first video that I watched from your channel and it makes me cry

[@laurapaloma_]

via, thank you so much for sharing your story and sharing some advice. i wish 21 year old me had this video available because she would’ve gotten help sooner rather than later

[@paradise.kiss_0n]

I'm so happy you felt comfortable sharing your experiences with us, as someone who has currently struggled with binge eating disorder and body image issues since I was 12 years old, this video helped me a lot!!! thank you so much, you are amazing Via, we love you sm

[@Abhishekxsahu]

I am a gay boy and your and my experience with our appearances and parents have been so similar via. I am on a weight loss journey and muscle gain one. I hope i heal my relationship with food too ❤

[@mdraihanalikhan1350]

You are beautiful, you truly are.🙂

[@siopaopao]

I love your and your content sm, it's like a cup of warm tea on a cold day. Thank you for for this video, Via.

[@Mary-fo2uv]

This video is really something I've been needing for the past 4-5 years.. it gives me hope. I really related with the household stuff and all, makes me hope that things will actually get better when I leave. Thanks via you give me hope, I've watched every self help video but they're just like something to procrastinate, I listen to it but it never actually gets to me. You're one of the fews if not the only one I feel like understands me

[@un_expected_8237]

You r beautiful ❤

[@rajeshbala8662]

Guys does via li have a discord?

[@rimhammoud17]

I feel super sad when I see someone that I think is sooo beautiful and that. Suddenly I hear them saying they're ugly it makes me so saddd and I loveee when they realize they're pretty bc I want them to know the truthhhh , love urself y'all it's not Worth it to hate urself ❤

[@tata-qo8yk]

I really appreciate this video cause I live that situation my entire life and it makes me cry, thank for be a good example 💗🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@ILuvKingdomHearts]

I somewhat relate to what you're going through with having an unhealthy relationship with food. Growing up, it hurts to hear from my mother constantly about how my appearance and looks only matter and I didn't have many friends growing up and even if I do, they left me a few years later and to fill the void I resort to eating. That, and stressing over meeting my mother's expectations in my academics and working towards an objective that I ultimately felt like a complete waste of half my life that I have absolutely no passion for just to make others happy compounded the issue further. No one taught me how to cope, and by nagging me to eat less and lose weight without any specific methods to do so, it made me felt more like a failure and ironically, this made me resist doing what I was told. Hence, eating felt like it's the only way out of my discomfort and to forget everything wrong about me and while I tried exercising, I felt like I'm always failing by quitting halfway every time and wonder why exercise didn't work. I tried working out with a personal trainer two years ago and while it worked initially, I fell back into my old habits when he betrayed my trust and from then on, I've always been very skeptical about others and their intentions when it comes to exercising. Long story short, from the time he disappeared, I felt extremely demotivated to continue working out regularly and make a change in my life. It took me five months to get over it, albeit for a short while. Apologies if I've been rambling here and there, but I just want to get that out so that you know that there are people out there who can relate to your problems on body image and having an unhealthy relationship with food. With my life circumstances changing for the better come at the second half of 2024, I feel like I'll be more motivated to tell myself that it's possible for me to be happy with my body and I'll have an easier time reaching for my goals. Thanks for sharing your struggles, and I hope for the best for you. You deserve to be loved no matter what.😄

[@Boutiquewonyy]

I was so surprised when she said she was never called beautiful. She’s gorgeous and I honestly would do anything to look that pretty

[@thekhushimeena]

Via YOU ARE Beautiful 🌸✨

[@anjaxtv]

You're so beautiful 💕 love your style. Very ethereal 🩵💖 happy you conquered your demons 💚

[@m6.1096]

Thank you immensely for your vulnerability and for sharing your story, Via! I've been battling my binge eating disorder for quite some time now, and I've watched numerous videos in the hopes of changing how I perceive myself. Your video really struck a chord with me; it brought tears to my eyes. I've never felt so understood and seen someone who has gone through such similar experiences. Viewing myself as someone who cares for me, nurtures me, and keeps me warm is truly a powerful perspective! I'm determined to integrate this mindset more into my daily life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you treating yourself with the love you deserve, but you're also helping countless others do the same. You're truly incredible.💓

[@prensesbeyza1040]

you are so beautiful inside and out this video is really touched my hearth cause everything you said exactly what I felt and lived. This video made me cry ı FELT EVERYTHİNG YOU SAİD DEEPLY. just know that you are amazing person and know that you are NOT ALONE .

[@dascooleWalross]

its so good to hear from others having gone through the same bc irl when i was actively going through it i felt so alone with it no one else around me seemed (!) to be struggling with food at all... best wishes x

[@aly_tcg]

This hits so hard. This is the exact same experience I had. Between binge and restricting it’s so accurate. I’m so thankful for how far we’ve both come ❤️