STOP TORTURING YOURSELF | my eating disorder story + things I've learned

well i guess i posted it. this video was something i wanted to make for awhile but never knew how to even start. at the end i just decided to just say what is on my mind and share my experience because that is all i have at the end - my experience. please do not starve yourself. i know it can be hard especially with the beauty standards of our society but your health is your number 1 priority. the desire to change your appearance is completely ok - but not when you are sacrificing your mental and physical health.
the amount of joy and wonderful experiences you are missing out on when you are restricting yourself is immense - from someone who had a binging and restrictive eating disorder.
if it's not apparent enough, i have a much better relationship with food now. which is also why i currently have the courage to make this video.
please eat well and take care of your body. i love you and I'll see you all very soon!
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[@via.ilyouu]

i want to make it clear that: the picture in the thumbnail was me in the high school where my binging was at an all time high (left) and the other photo (right) was a photo taken a few days ago where i am nourishing my body and also working out! i don’t want any of you guys to assume that it was the aftermath of my ed.

[@Luvmckeea]

You’re so strong via I’m so happy and proud of the person you have become ✨

[@gelzamannn]

Via you are sooo beautiful and brave and I love you soo much💞 You are a big inspiration for me. I have some problems and I am trying overcome them but we need to live life in the best way cuz we live once . Take care yourself you are precious to me girll🤍🤍🤍

[@immiiimgood]

I have a genuine question Via, did the eat disorder encourage you to go vegetarian and was it a hard transition? Btw I am very proud of you🤍not only for the decision to give your body the love it deserves but also for all you have accomplished in the past year !

[@user-zh6zl3bt7f]

I love you so much for this comment

[@resultofeatingborax]

goodbye i thought that was a photo of wonyoung

[@user-dv3xo3cr8s]

"People treating you badly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself badly" this touched my heart so bad... i love you via

[@Lynn-cl2kq]

They v

[@larauerc]

"just because other people treat you horribly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself horribly too" - damn, that it hard

[@Ann-sv7zx]

That's the best advice someone can ever give

[@MountTaesan]

It’s so tragic thinking of your body as a lover whose love will never be reciprocated. It’s like a child seeking to be something great for your praise, only for you to call it “ugly” and physically harm it. The perspective change really alters my own as it makes me feel like a villain and it’s essentially what I am. Your body is the only one you’ll ever get so make sure to love it as much as it loves you.

[@back.on.track.]

this is really profound

[@pirimi]

this comment hit so deeply, wow. thank you for that, truly

[@Maomaomahu]

Unconditional love is a good thing. It means loving something with no bounds. Do you mean unrequited, which means a love which is one sided?

[@MountTaesan]

@@Maomaomahu yes I think that’s more fitting, thank you for the clarification I’ll make sure to fix it!

[@mummytrolls]

Except I’m not insane and live in an adult body that is my own. We aren’t separate entities. I’m literally my body. It’s not that deep.

[@asteriaaa16]

honestly getting this during a really bad relapse feels like a sign EDIT: thank you guys so much for the support. i’ve had my ups and downs since this relapse but i’ve kept going. i’ve been trying not to get irritated with myself each time i relapse because, as somebody in the replies said, healing isn’t linear. but it’s baby steps for now. and i hope the rest of you are doing good.

[@elliyuh228]

best wishes for recovery :( you’ve got this

[@PeaceMe-hs8dr]

Yeah this is BIG sign !

[@yeehaw-4532]

stay strong fam i believe in you 🌷 (for you) 🫴

[@theaizere]

healing is non linear, just keep on going, there is always tomorrow, you can do it, you will be okay eventually

[@vaampyyrez]

you got this ! from one person in recovery to another

[@dmnkhptr]

honestly, ive been aware of my eating disorder, which was mostly rooted in my mind from me being insecure, for over a year now. im trying to get better at eating and seeing food not as a "i eat something just to stay alive" and my habits are bad still, but i love to see somebody else recover. it makes me motivated, thank you so much for this video

[@megisawesome]

Hey good for you every day you’re getting better. I’m proud of you.

[@surveils]

i'm an "ugly", midsized girl in 9th grade, and i feel insecure about how i look. people don't make fun of me, but i'm scared to dress the way i want, put on makeup, remove my facemask even when it's not necessary to wear, and i'm always VERY cautious when it comes to food since i often notice my differences from my pretty friends and stuff. watching your videos often remind me that i'm still young and that none of my current concerns really matter. i'm glad you're somehow healed from the wounds you've received growing up, and i hope that a certain point of my life where i finally heal from all the bad thoughts would be worth it, like how i've noticed from you. thank you for being such an inspiration to everyone, via! lots of love ^^💗

[@story_inside]

I also used to do this in school, and honestly getting over the face mask was key for me to feel better about myself. It felt like a safeguard “just in case” someone was judging me, but then I realized I cared too much about what ppl thought of me. And abt the makeup and clothes, just do it! Like Via said, you only live once :)

[@ichijixi]

very much felt the same way! im def doing a lot better now my junior year but i still have days of feeling down but i think it gets better! i grew up as the “ugly friend” in middle school and was also mid sized and had a lot of acne/face fat. this year i actually started putting an effort bc i always binged junk food n stuff but if you just try to take care of urself bc u wanna be healthy, i promise it will get better from there! i am very hypocritical bc i give others the advice i dont take but remember you are still 14-15 and dont obsess too much over stuff like others do (me), ur very beautiful and strong!!

[@MUSAFIRBEFIQR]

Oh, it's the same for me. I have been wearing a mask since coron@ came. And now, it has become a shield for me. I am very scared to take it off even in front of my friends. I don't go outside now, apart from taking classes. What am I supposed to do?? I feel so trapped 😭

[@ar7sa821]

@@MUSAFIRBEFIQR I was like that once but I challenge you to take it off for a week straight soon you’ll realize how silly it was and no one cares

[@meganm6269]

I used to be the exact same in 9th grade. I always thought I was too big but looking back I was actually really beautiful. I only had mostly small friends so that also worsened things for me. One day you will look back and see how beautiful you are🫶🏻 enjoy your time and do what you want with it. Good luck.

[@madeofcastiron]

i hope this isn’t rude, but i love your mad, “no BS” tone when giving advice. you’re like “fuck people’s opinion! fuck treating yourself poorly! go enjoy yourself!” i honestly find it so motivating.

[@akshithareddy746]

“I was never called beautiful”… it hurts that soo many beautiful souls have not been told how gorgeous they are.. I hope that you give yourself all the love you deserve!!!

[@Luvmckeea]

My dad used to comment on my weight all the time and it really affects the brain and becomes a problem. I also went from binging to fasting and after losing weight I still saw myself has over weight but I wasn’t. I don’t understand why people have to talk about weight so much. I can’t believe the rude things your parents said to you 🥲breaks my heart

[@milenasolis2201]

Same story of me. I understand you😢

[@niki_jungkook7]

via is literally one of my fav ytubers and therapist i love her soo muchh

[@allianne]

“i was scared of drinking boba” and that line hurt my heart fr

[@_lilyzz]

I just can't believe how your OWN FAMILY would call you "fat" or something like that. I've heard things like this since I was 11 and to this day I'm afraid to go out in a swimsuit or shorts, it's unbelievable, and usually comes from people who are twice your weight. Remember you are beautiful!❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@leti9340]

It's very common in Latinos and Asians households

[@jazbennington6452]

Thinking of my body as a separate living being has also also helped me; "she is there to love you unconditionally" is a really powerful mindset! 🥰🥰

[@lordfreerealestate8302]

Family shapes our relationship with our self-esteem like nothing else. I cut my family out of my life because my family liked to degrade me. Best thing I've ever done. Now I have the confidence to do anything. Sometimes they deliberately degrade you to make you the family scapegoat, or to make themselves feel better. We need positive reinforcement, and it's emotional neglect if it isn't given to you.

[@Ayi429]

I love my parents but I hate them. They’re the reason for my low self esteem and soo much trauma. But. I start to miss them and get scared of what do I do if I lose them for good. How do you cope with just cutting them off…?

[@arroyobaby38]

I did the same thing. I cut off my family as well for the very same reason. I love myself more than I love them and thats how I’m able to deal with it. It was too much stress having them in my life. Now I’m stress free and happier than I’ve ever been!

[@harmoniousandtranquilhannah]

Or to be the one in control of your decisions by lowering your confidence

[@nawel.iffrig]

I had an eating disorder but now I feel more comfortable in my body I’m so happy with my progress 😭💗

[@catcacaforlife1438]

Do you have any advice? I’m having trouble loving and feeling comfortable in my body…

[@nawel.iffrig]

@@catcacaforlife1438 hi ! For me I started to be a « fake » confident person and then I started feeling confident for real. But for my eating disorder I just made a bocal of my « fear » food and tried one of these once a day ! And my sister also helped me with that cause it’s a psychological illness so I think you have to say what you feel to your closest friends (they can help you) and create a new version of yourself !! 💗 I hope it will help you too 💗

[@AkiraFireAngel]

⁠​⁠@@catcacaforlife1438 Hey dear, I also was at the point where I hated my body and myself . It took me a whole year to say: I don’t hate myself anymore. It takes time and some days won’t be rosy and flowers. But as Nawel said: be “fake” happy. I started with saying 3 nice things in front of a mirror daily to myself. I did that for a whole month. Than I went on saying to myself what I like about my body specific. ( I like my eyes/ I like the way I smile when happy/ I like my eye lashes/ I like how my skin looks today) point is appreciate yourself daily, for a long time. It could be weeks, months depending on how m long you need for yourself it’s not a race😊 after I felt that I was no longer telling myself hateful comments I tried wearing clothes that I would have never worn. It was hard it first but every negative comment that came to my mind I tried to out weight with words of affirmation to myself. Today I really love skirts and dresses. 2 years ago I would have rather get burned inside my jeans and pants… it’s a journey a long one to be real but it’s worth it. The last step on my list was the relationship with food this one took me a whole year as well to fix… I had an ED too and I am still not fully recovered but I am trying and working on it ❤

[@alukakto7604]

As a person who struggled with eating disorder for 5 years and completely ruined my health , my hair,body,nails,skin , even it affected my height growth … this video helped a lot , thank you so much via you are amazing

[@Mary-fo2uv]

Same, we got this bro.. I wanna change for better once for all.

[@ketsu_kit8920]

Im literally fucking balding I’m always tired I just hate this so much I’m trying to get better adghghk

[@YOUUV]

I developed anorexia when I was just 9 years old. My childhood was ruined because of that, but I am glad to be born in this era where everything is at my fingertips. These types of videos have been helping me since then. I am 15 now, but I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. Sometimes I eat a lot, and some days I eat nothing. But when I binge eat, I see myself instantly fat in front of the mirror and I feel like total crap after that. I feel aggression, self-hatred, and more. I do 1 hour of workout daily, and as a human, there are those days when I didn't do my workout merely because of my school and studies. Because of that, I feel like trash thrown outside. I am on a journey of self-improvement, although my illness does affect my height, and because of that, I am 4'11 while being in class 9. No one in my family actually believed in eating disorders; they used to think that I was being stubborn, starving myself, while being a pain in the ass for my parents. They told me that I was ungrateful and spoiled. According to them, that was the reason for me starving myself. This actually hurts when I think about it this way. My parents used to beat me, a nine-year-old, so that they could force me to eat something, and then I would be left with bruises all over my body. It hurts. I went through a lot, but now I am on a journey of self-improvement. I am sorry for dumping all this. This whole chat should be a yes or no thing, but I wrote a whole life summary.

[@winefish5006]

Oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong for still fighting. I'm the same age as you and struggling w ana too, but we can win this disorder❤️

[@YOUUV]

@@winefish5006 hope u recover soon

[@mariaalonso3464]

u are so correct, Via. Sadly food is something that is present everyday and when u have a bad relationship with it, it ruins your life. It has ruined my days, every single moment of the day revolves around food when, in reality, there are so many things that life has to offer. Unfortunately, an eating disorder won’t let u see that. Im working on it everyday, but sometimes I just wish I didn’t have to work to have a normal relationship with food, but it’s the only thing I have left. Everything u said is so true, thank u for sharing your story, i felt so identified and less alone💖💖

[@graciepages]

when you started explaining how it is important to treat your body like its own being, almost like an inner child, I felt my heart crack..I'm 16 years old (going on 17 this year) and I've spent too much time worrying about my body. time and time again i would restrict/binge myself to where I felt like I was being a burden for no reason to my parents by saying things like "oh, I can't have that ice cream because it doesn't fit into my deficit", forgetting that my body ISNT EVEN FULLY DEVELOPED YET. i honestly admire the bravery you have in eating, travelling, and let alone vlogging yourself. thank you for this video

[@Hello-ll7ht]

I am the same way, this video is going to help me a lot!!

[@agneszzz]

The end of the video low-key made me think that we all are kinda like ghosts possessing a body and you just realized you can't treat your "vessel" bad otherwise you will have to wait very long before you can possess another vessel again, and I think that is beautiful

[@MUSAFIRBEFIQR]

My mother also took a picture of me to show me how I looked like from behind. But it hurt me when my sister made a video and showed me how my hips were so fat. Honestly, from day on, I have started to cover up myself from back even more. I feel like I don't deserve to wear anything pretty or beautiful.

[@lvckycharm1218]

Hi Via!! As someone who has struggled with disordered eating and body image issues for years, I'm so happy you're sharing your story! So excited to watch!

[@Coreexedits]

I really love the fact that you are so genuine 😭🤌🏼

[@1234DKFN]

Via I was never called beautiful too. Like never until one of my friends randomly called me beautiful cause she noticed putting myself down , at 21 year. It felt bad. I felt like I was overreacting. But I was hurt. Seeing you cry , cause i cried and told her that too. I realised it wasnt our fault. We were regular humans seeking validation and love. And that need wasn't fulfilled. If I would meet high-school via maybe I would say you everyday you look beautiful. We are beautiful via internally too.

[@cheeseburgerhater6676]

Your body IS YOU. She’s a part of you, the vessel you carry to move through life. With a ED, you think of your body as a possession when it is completely who you are. The body you carry shapes you.

[@loonaticgowon]

Kaeya pfp !! also tysm this helped sm

[@zigzaglychee7324]

I completely understand that thing about seeing your body as your younger self :') a couple years ago i was seriously thinking of ending my life. I was living at home at the time and my mum had these photos of me as a baby. She told me she used to keep them on her desk at work in her old job. And that made me almost burst into tears. That's her baby. I thought about hurting her baby. How could I do that to her? How could I even think about harming that little girl. Being a biologist as well made me feel so guilty because it made me think about how hard my body was working to keep me alive and healthy, and I treated it like that.

[@Sunnie-pd9jv]

Don't worry, you don't have to be sorry for making a video with a serious topic.We needed this to be addressed eventually.Thank you so much for this ☺️☺️

[@aurelia9233]

i didnt go through hating myself bc of an eating disorder but i did have body dysmorphia and i totally know how it feels. i had a terrible mindset for around 2 years where i was so lonely and couldnt enjoy doing anything. i think what helped me the most was finding a sport that i was really passionate about, as it allowed me to take my mind off how i look as well us taking up a lot of my time and energy, so i dont have the time to worry about it. it doesnt have to be a sport, but i think the best thing to do to stop obsessing is to find something youre really passionate about and spend lots of time on it.

[@Esandeech2]

Your story cannot offend anyone, because it is YOURS!

[@iuueoi]

люблю когда любимые блогеры выкладывают видео о том, с чем ты сталкиваешься в данный период своей жизни это как знак от вселенной 😭

[@radaheyyyy]

Я впервые вижу русские комментарии на канале Вии, афигеть… ты со всем справишься, солнце 🫶🏻🤍

[@iuueoi]

@@radaheyyyy сейм хахаха! спасибо большое 😭🤍

[@sonyamaslova9837]

У тебя все получится, главное не дави на себя

[@iuueoi]

@@sonyamaslova9837 спасибо 🥺

[@lotus.luvsrain]

YESSS FOR REALL😭💗💗

[@irej9088]

aww this made me cry 🥺 the part when you talked about your body being like a little girl who is dependent on you. Although I’ve never had an eating disorder, this video reminds me of how negative my self talk used to be towards myself, how abusive those words were. I’m so glad you’re doing better than you were in high school, and we love you too via!

[@SumayaSiddique-dx4ib]

Via li I can relate to you in so many levels. I never got any attention in my teenage years and was never been in relationship. I was very introvert also being average no one would approach me. Now I'm almost 21 and I've come to peace with everything. I'm glad I found this community. I dont feel like I'm left out anymore

[@ieatdirt9596]

ahh this video is gonna hit close to home. I was suffering with body dysmorphia and ED in high school. I would starve myself to look “prettier”, only drinking water. I would only allow myself eat when I was so weak i couldn’t focus at school. Then i would binge eat to “fill up the space” and feel so disgusted and disappointed with myself for not having self control. It was just an endless loop. Now i am in college, still not perfect. I don’t think i can ever be the same again but now i know that i am the prettiest when i am happy and healthy. To anyone reading this, your body issues might take months or even years to fix, but the fact that you are still trying now is so admirable, and you are my hero for trying your best. Hope we can all be better soon

[@longliveleonkennedy]

I'm happy you feel comfortable to share your experiences with us Via :(

[@piacamesella]

About the last words you said at the end of the video, Via please don’t be sorry to touch a serious topic. I found your channel not so long ago but I really love it, and this is one of the reasons. Your videos have a perfect balance of vulnerability while also being a place of comfort and heartwarming. Talking about these kinds of topics is also a part of it. So as long as you feel comfortable talking about this kind of things I think you shouldn’t worry about posting it. Also I have these same struggles and I want you to know that this wasn’t triggering at all, you talk it from a great point of view. Sending you lots of love and I’m so sorry you went through all of that but I’m happy you are in a much better place right now❤️‍🩹

[@lavendermilk351]

I completely relate, especially to the academics. What we try to satisfy is an emotional hunger. I really recommend breathing techniques and taking a moment to ask yourself what you really are hungry for, is it food or is it something deeper!

[@reighanaguirre8835]

Watching this gave me the direct call that I was trying to avoid numerous times. I was really wasting my time torturing myself and missing opportunities, I'm glad that I watched this video to make myself feel that HIT that I was always avoiding. I know I need it and the half of me needs to hear it really. Thank you!

[@kikigh-in7uy]

i dont think you understand how badly this touched me , as someone who grew up "overweight" and had such a clear horrible relationship with food (still do -) but people around me didnt think its a big deal bc im overweight , and as someone who was told "are you eating your siblings food?" as a joke bc theyre skinny and im not , someone who was forced to be on a diet since 5th grade , someone who developed being a "picky eater" bc the constant thought of food just makes me feel sick to my stomach , someone who had to throw up after every meal , drink huge amount of water to get rid of "calories" after or work out just to feel like i got rid of that slice of the bread i had , as someone who hate it when people take group pics and as someone who heard shitty things everyday for a literal living , i cried watching this , hearing you describing a very familiar life of mine made me feel seen for the very firt time in my whole sixteen years of living , especially that youre one of my "comfort youtubers" , so i really wanna thank you from the deepest point of my heart , thank you for recording and posting this Via , that meant so much to me

[@taintedflower01]

i’ve had an eating disorder for half my life, since i was 11 years old and today has been one of the most horrible days i’ve had, just tired of it but not knowing what to do anymore. this video came at the right time, thank you so much for the courage it took to make it and post it. i’m so proud of you for getting through it and i hope i can too one day

[@Mary-fo2uv]

This video is really something I've been needing for the past 4-5 years.. it gives me hope. I really related with the household stuff and all, makes me hope that things will actually get better when I leave. Thanks via you give me hope, I've watched every self help video but they're just like something to procrastinate, I listen to it but it never actually gets to me. You're one of the fews if not the only one I feel like understands me

[@sapphics4hozier]

thank you for posting this via , , it truly makes me feel less alone , , seeing this in a bad relapse right now and i couldn’t help but tear up , , this one really hit for me ; every word made me reflect on my journey in regards to my ed . im forever grateful that you openly speak about this stuff , , i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself ! here’s to recovery 💌

[@angelaliu1285]

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I’m so proud that you somewhat overcame your childhood trauma, especially from your parents and highschool-btw tufts is amazing gj. You’ve come such a long way to grow a much healthier and stronger mindset and it’s helping so many younger girls like me avoid eds and hurting ourselves.

[@Specificpickle]

This was really helpful for me in coming to terms that last year I was highly restrictive and obsessed in a a not healthy way. These past few months I have been really hard on myself for not looking like I did then, and thats no fair to myself. Thanks for opening up, I know it helped me!

[@cho.verygal]

honestly thank you so much for this video. i kind of struggle a lot with my relationship with food, often going through periods where i will let myself eat a lot because i feel like i am skinny enough, and then go back to trying my best to eating hardly much each day to lose whatever i mightve gained in those periods of eating, a lot like what you described going through. i feel like i saw this video just at the right time -- literally falling back into restricting myself, waking up so hungry it hurts, filling myself with water, being tired, and constant headaches. im going to go treat myself to a meal right now. thank you so much and i really mean it!!

[@helinaslan5276]

Via you have no idea how much your videos help me, you are amazing

[@lunam7578]

Via, you don't have an idea of how much your videos had helped me to see things I'm identified in with a different perspective, feeling that I'm not the only one who feels in that way, encouraged me to keep going and growing through things like this.

[@SofieSoph]

Hey! I have only recently found your channel and I want to say it is fate that I found it! I have been struggling recently and your channel has made me feel just that much better. I relate to you so much. I had/still have an ED and severe anxiety and I want to believe and hope that someday I can be in the same sort of mindset that you have! Thank you for creating this channel. It brings so much comfort to people like me.

[@a_ashii]

I’m so glad you made this and I just want to say that you were and are beautiful. If the people around you couldn’t see this then it’s their loss

[@carmosilva3589]

I'm so sorry you went through this, I'm glad your environment is not so toxic anymore!! Sending hugs and love 🫂❤️

[@britneydiamondford1880]

Thank you so much for making this video, Via. You’ve been my role model for months now and you talking about your experience made me feel less alone. I love you and your videos so much, watching your videos brings me so much comfort. I will never stop recommending your channel to my friends. You’ve helped me create a healthier mindset and i’m genuinely so grateful for you. Thank you and take care!

[@tubhjbadshbhi]

I love you via and I’m really happy you’re doing better

[@deardiary.animatic]

this is a increadible video thank you , i struggled in school with anorexia and i feel better after i watched your video and i saw that im not alone with this, my family didnt help me to get better and i feel like eating disorders are so much misunderstood and the victims have such a hard time to find help because my experience is that no one takes you seriously and everybody says: "Just eat more" or "Just dont struggle with food" .

[@alealeoh]

You are an inspiration, Via. From the year of more I've been watching your videos I can see how your relationship with yourself has improved a lot! Thanks for sharing it. You are so brave for standing up for yourself!

[@ilofepuppies]

It's nice to know I'm not alone in this. 😭 I'm going through almost the same thing you went though when you were in high school and it's so nice to know that there's someone out there like me who went through this but was able to get out of it. I hope one day I'll be able to get out of it just like you did and thank you for showing me that I'm not alone in this

[@dascooleWalross]

its so good to hear from others having gone through the same bc irl when i was actively going through it i felt so alone with it no one else around me seemed (!) to be struggling with food at all... best wishes x

[@Seungeeeee]

I really appreciate it when you started loving more yourself 💗✨

[@sillyxeny]

Youve seriously been helping me with recovering, i watch ur vids to distract myself whilst eating so to know u also had one and recovered is really special to me🙁💜

[@shorayyyy]

everything Via said is SO REALLLL 😭 esp the slowing down of ur metabolism bcs of starving urself and not going out bcs of thinking that everybody is judging u. i am still battling with my anorexia nervosa ed and it's hellllll like i can't eat this eat that cause it's "off-limits". i have been trying to heal but whenever i look at my body i just relapse and not eat while also do heavy workouts. i still have a lot of things to say but i can't find the words to say ykyk. so, Via thank u for this, thank u for sharing ur experience, and thank u for the making me realize more things if i keep losing to my ed ❤️‍🩹

[@iisunny_parrot2797]

Thanks so much for opening up on this Via. Im 14 and had an eating disorder for a year and its been hard loving myself and your my motivation and this video really hit hard. Im glad i saw it though because your body is a temple, and now i understand that. In gonna keep trying to love myself as much as I can. I love you and im glad i have someone to relate to❤

[@m6.1096]

Thank you immensely for your vulnerability and for sharing your story, Via! I've been battling my binge eating disorder for quite some time now, and I've watched numerous videos in the hopes of changing how I perceive myself. Your video really struck a chord with me; it brought tears to my eyes. I've never felt so understood and seen someone who has gone through such similar experiences. Viewing myself as someone who cares for me, nurtures me, and keeps me warm is truly a powerful perspective! I'm determined to integrate this mindset more into my daily life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you treating yourself with the love you deserve, but you're also helping countless others do the same. You're truly incredible.💓

[@noabutterfly2607]

thank you so much. I've been struggling with food for years, but once I hit my deepest point I worked really hard to get out of it. recently it's all gotten worse again, and this reminds me of why I started recovering in the first place. I wish you a very happy life

[@Nancy-ep2yq]

I am in love with your content, I feel so related to it like you just know me you are amazing big sis 🥹💗

[@s8ntimental]

i love and appreciate your vulnerability in this video via, you are so honest it's nice hearing how you treat yourself sm better and what it took to get you here. youre an inspiration TT

[@samp-avi6617]

Since recently I've been in recovery and kind of was hitting a relapse but then I saw your video, I started crying when you cried too bc EXACTLY like you said "how can I do this to my body" and just the way you can feel her fighting to still keep you alive... thank you so much for this video! Im very happy you are having a better relationship with food and I hope you can continue to grow within yourself and reach more healing for the things that have happened to you :)

[@creativeteeny925]

if there's a chance you read this, thankyou for this video, i really needed it today. Im in highschool and basically i'm having the same experience you talked about, i was never called beautiful and so i never felt like it. I was always compared to my sister who is much slimmer and 'prettier' than me. I'm doing my best to heal my relationship with food and just heal from cruel comments and remarks that have been so normalised about other people's bodies but people like you making these videos, being so vulnerable helps so much more than you can imagine.

[@zerkosnow2556]

i wish i could give you a big hug, i really hope you’re doing better. from what i’ve seen you’re a really sweet person and i hope nothing but the best for you 🤧🫱🏾💕

[@estrellademiel_]

it really hit when u said that these obsessive and self-deprecating thoughts about food and ur body make u unable to enjoy life. Its constantly on my mind, when im out with friends, when im out in the world, when imjust trying to exist. its so so limiting and hard. ive been struggling so hard, thank you for this video. I have been preventing myself from living, truly. im glad ur video came when it did, I appreciate you.

[@annavampy]

as someone who has been in a constant battle with disordered eating and mental health struggles for around 5 years now and still struggling, i want to thank you so much for making this video. you posting this video is so brave and inspiring for someone like me. seeing stuff like this makes me want to get better so bad and gives me hope that someday i will. thankyou via

[@Paradise.kiss_]

I'm so happy you felt comfortable sharing your experiences with us, as someone who has currently struggled with binge eating disorder and body image issues since I was 12 years old, this video helped me a lot!!! thank you so much, you are amazing Via, we love you sm

[@user-dv3xo3cr8s]

Im so proud of you this video needs a lot of courage that many people may not handle thx via for all what you do and for staying strong all this time where you just needed a stable ground to settle on❤

[@elindejong8632]

Thank you so much for telling your story. I'm a sixteen-year-old girl with depression and binge eating disorder and I've just started going to therapy. It's very comforting to know that I am not the only one that is going through/has gone through something like this and that there is hope, even for someone like me. Again thank you for sharing❤

[@Mina-mq2gu]

i love how real and genuine you keep your content this sounds a bit corny but I genuienly does help me feel less isolated and alone, thank you for continuing to share your experiences

[@_slayoongii]

This video actually made me cry because i’ve been struggling with an ED for YEARS and this is still something that hunts me. I’m trying my best to overcome it and this video gave me the motivation that i needed to keep going. Thank u so much.

[@alinacrutch]

Via is so beautiful and just radiates light.. thanks for this video, I'm healing my relationships with food and exercieses so I needed to hear this. Your story made me really emotional

[@AdiraSahar]

Genuinely Via, thank you so much for talking about it. I gained so many new perspectives about eating disorder in general. You're so brave, you're such a beautiful soul❤

[@cynopoly]

The family thing is exactly what I’m going through and while I’m really sorry you went through it it feels relieving to know that my “food is my only controllable factor” mindset isn’t something I struggle with alone

[@inyourelementtherapies6808]

Thank you for being brave and honest - it takes a lot to share this very vulnerable part of yourself in public. This video may be the words someone else (going through what you have/are) needs to hear today and might be the very catalyst needed to get support for what they are experiencing. Blessings your way, and continued strength. xx

[@noemiemorilhat4555]

It feels good to hear you talk about your experience because it shows us that it IS possible to change and become a better version of ourselves. I also have eating disorder and watching your videos gave me the strength I needed to want to heal... Thank you ❤️

[@TatianaKurnosova]

Thank you so much for this video, I'm also almost crying now... Feeling so related and just want to hug you right now, you're such a sweetheart and brave beautiful creature! Thank you Thank you Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💕🤍

[@k.j.6487]

I´m so glad you made this video and I appreciate your courage. I always feel desperate when I search for authentic stories from people who have gone through binge eating. I sometimes feel like eating disorders are too romanticized on the internet and it makes me feel even worse about myself. So thank you for your honesty!

[@rabiasarkaya7455]

Your videos really give me strength. You are a very sincere and caring person. I was very impressed that you fought through what you went through. I also have an eating disorder and now I'm doing things that will help me. and this video of yours has really given me strength and will help me keep going.

[@nathalie1010]

via honestly i cannot thank you enough for this video, but THANK YOU!! so many people including myself found this really helpful! i love youuu!!! 🧡🧡

[@nunun672]

thank you for being this vulnerable with us,it is not easy but you still did it ❤

[@mah_.lamino]

Oh via i'm so thankful that you made this video! You have no clue, i grew up overweight, beliving that nobody never would love me because the way i looked, today i'm okay with myself and finilly getting compliments lol, but my relatioship with food never get better. It's so confortable heard about this and think "i'm not alone"

[@amane8885]

Girl you're my inspiration. This video bring me some kind of relief. I'm still dealing with my relationship with food and its been a long long time. Seeing someone who managed to overcome this problem, sharing experience? Its so helpful and lovely :'33 Also I've been watching your videos for a couple of months now. I wanted to express my gratitude for you being on the internet and helping others with this comment. You're doing amazing job keep it up!

[@virgo_vampire]

you're an absolutely beautiful young woman, let nobody tell you otherwise. i'm so sorry you grew up in a household like that. my therapist and i are finally working on my eating disorder together, my story regarding that's pretty similar to yours, and like... my therapist basically told me that once you approach your body with a sense of compassion and act out of love instead of shame/fear, your relationship with food won't necessarily heal, but it'll be a lot easier to tackle that. the thought of your body loving you unconditionally is definitely a helpful one for me, i'll definitely be taking that with me

[@ysca08]

i really love your videos, via! it gives me comfort since we both kinda have similar experiences and it's nice to see someone talking about it. you have inspired me, keep thriving!

[@mangoconnoisseur300]

You have such a sincere and special way of touching people's heart with simple words

[@pookiewookiebear14]

GIRL I CAN'T TELL U HOW MUCH I NEEDED TO HEAR THIS. I've never been diagnosed with an ED but im pretty sure I have had it in the past or have tendencies now to fall back into my old habits. Thank you for this reminder

[@Xyxyr]

I feel you and relate to you so much. You’re not alone! I’m so glad that you told us your story, as always loved the video! ❤

[@michalinayskanowska5476]

this video was so triggering and healing at the same time, thank you 🤍

[@michellekidd1933]

this video hit so hard… thank you for your vulnerability and candor, I know this will help so many people ❤

[@tianatouch7399]

Aww Via when I first saw you I was like “omg she is beautiful, rlly gorgeous!!” this is something that is personal and very sensitive to talk about but I’m glad you are able to be open enough with us and express this about yourself, I know how it is living in an Asian household because I am half Asian and they are very judgmental and out of pocket with their words and growing up with that hurts and I’ve also had negative thoughts about myself but instead it was about my skin color and they used to bully and tease me, it takes some time and it’s a very emotional journey to go through to be content within yourself but I’m glad that you found that peace within yourself and food, you are strong!! 💓💓

[@duckhongjoong]

I can relate to this so much 🥺 I was also never called "beautiful" in my life and that alone fcked up my mental state real bad which led me to constantly compare myself with others. Learning to love myself is still a daily struggle and I really hope to reach the day where I can wake up and not hate myself or the way I look. Our bodies will continue to grow and change so I think we should also learn how to appreciate it and take care of it. Thank you for this, Via! Internet hugs for you 💞

[@paulabevilacqua1986]

you are so brave for making this video and talking about it im sure it will help and comfort a lot of people!

[@melacting]

I always was skinny, yet still when I was 13/ 14 I had times when ibis’s obsessed with going on diets from time to Team even tho I didn’t need them. Then while studying for Uni or sometimes when I’m stressed I’ll forget to eat. Last year in July I weighed like 53 kg and the lowest I was when I had an audition, met my boyfriend and had Uni work in March was 47 kg. Rn I’m like 48/49 kg and super insecure about bloating recently and felt super bad. Thx for sharing this vid, needed that rn, even tho I don’t have an eating disorder. 💗 and to everyone dealing with an eating disorder my love and support goes to y’all ❤️

[@radiokat1306]

thank you for your content, you’re really helping so many people feel seen🫶

[@lapponiasnow7329]

Your timing is perfect, this is what I needed. Thank you sweetheart ❤

[@moonatthenight]

She is a comfort person, inspirational person, big sister and the list goes on......She just makes me realize how many things I am missing, just can't express how much I luv and respect her. Love u ❤‍🩹 and thanks a lot❣

[@zelos6307]

💛💛💛 thank you so much for the content via! I feel better watching your videos every time! You are so relatable and honest about the things we often find embarrassing :)) your positivity and openness about issues makes me feel calmer and motivated 💜