Struggling to find balance during autistic burnout recovery & having doubts about my channel 🎥♥️

[@InterDivergent]

Coming out of Burnout myself I've noticed that it's like riding a rollercoaster. I'm starting to conclude that I need to be focussing more on my strengths than my weaknesses. I'm feeling strong PDA for upcoming festive activities; in particular present buying: I hate this time of year and the expectations that are there. The stuff you talk about, is stuff that we are all thinking and relating to. Watching your video's is like chilling at home with a good friend and talking about random stuff that no one else is interested in.

[@paunesjourney]

Thank you, that means a lot 🥹♥️

[@suzannetunnicliffe2422]

I just want to say try to take care of yourself and you will come through it. I've seen your cats and love them as I'm an animal lover too.

[@laura.bseyoga]

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[@nonnymoose6260]

One of my favorite channels is “Suddenly Autistic”, and she only posts when she genuinely feels like it. I find her videos so helpful because it’s definitely quality over quantity. I relate 100% to what you described with talk therapy and also the weird feeling of being perceived in a different way than I may actually be. I recently have felt that I might feel less stressed if I could learn to speak less, journal more. I talk to process things and my opinions can really change - and yet others will stay stuck with however they think they have “pegged”/categorized me - which is very frustrating to be misunderstood. I am like a flowing stream, but they keep trying to capture and hold me to a snapshot- plus labels they like to apply rather than experiencing me every time to know me each time. But I know my changing perspectives or partial communication is causing issues, making me seem contradictory, even. It’s a communication disorder, go figure!😅. But i need to see if I can keep quiet more, since I am too stressed by the consequences of explaining myself - or shift what I talk about, stop oversharing (for me). I am also silly/childlike in ways that I only share with my husband.

[@paunesjourney]

Thanks for the recommendation!

[@MonaM204]

Yep, I think I get it about the therapist and how people think they know you, and I don't know how to describe to a therapist especially how they are not understanding or not seeing. Yes, inauthentic, but also it feels like I could use infinite words and they would still not understand. You end up feeling like you're talking in circles.

[@radishraven9]

Thank you for the video, very relatable, especially as a fellow youtube person 😅 i try to think that every video i make is relevant to my life at the time i post it, and therefore makes it relevant to maybe someone else, and that it is important. I often find that i want to delete old videos i don't agree with anymore but i don't as it is seldom completely false or false all the way through. I understand the therapy problems and fear of oversharing. I have a feeling from what i have seen that i probably talk much more and am quicker to respond than you would maybe be, but still same thoughts have come to me. Like how whatever i am saying in the moment is not truly reflecting who i am. Therapy is complicated and nobody can know you 100%, but at the same time we need to open up to get help. I think we have been taught all our lives that sharing too much of ourselves is bad and therefore therapy is a weird situation where you're suddenly expected to bare your soul. I am glad you have some energy back, use it wisely 😊 also happy channel birthday! 😊

[@paunesjourney]

Thank you! With every day that passes I get better and better at managing my energy so that’s good. How are you doing?

[@radishraven9]

@paunesjourney thank you, yes I'm good 😊

[@ladyphoenix_111]

We are in mercury retrograde. Lol. = Technical difficulties. 😂 Take it with a grain of salt. But I just had my fire alarms going for no reason. 🤷🏻‍♀️ About Burnout, it is so confusing. :( I feel like it takes forever. I am coming out of one now, but it's been 4 months out of work. I hope it doesn't come back when I go back. I hope it helps to know you aren't alone. 💖🫶🏻 I have ADHD and working with my therapist to get assessed for possible autism as well. Big big hug! Take care of you. You can't pour from an empty cup. :'( I'm sorry you're in burnout. I hope you heal and recover sooner as time goes, and you learn what works for you. 💗