stuck in a rut, trying to get out of it (vlog)

[@gabi-kd8nv]

12:20 the guilt of being rude to your loved ones while having a hard time is so real and it sucks

[@eliemends]

One of my favorite videos is the one where you don't go to school because you're not feeling well and you stay at home taking pictures recording TikTok etc (Old but gold) because it's genuine and vulnerable. Something that we are sometimes afraid to show. And this video now reminds me of it because it's the same feeling remembering that these phases are part of life and they don't last forever 💌 Sending lots of good energies to you Amalie!! ❤ Love youu

[@khal7982]

which video Wass it ?

[@eliemends]

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[@audreytheresee]

its okay to not be okay: easy to remember but hard to believe. just know that every single thing you see online is curated, we all want to look our best, if you're not showing your best then neither are other people. We have all got this!!

[@LalaLala-jw8gd]

i'm at the same place at the moment where i feel like i should be at my happiest but im not. thank you for making me feel less alone

[@Lea-45]

I think we often forget that life doesn’t always consist of happiness and peace and high emotions but also of lots of up and downs, feeling stressed out or unmotivated or sad is just our body telling us to slow down, therefore being in bed all day or just having a good cry is necessary to calm down and recharge, thank you Amalie for posting such an emotional and relatable video, it will get better, lots of love 💗

[@cécé.d.2000]

Feeling the same way at the moment, you‘re not alone in this

[@etsukiikanaa]

I've been feeling very depressed the past two months. I graduated with a masters degree, and instead of getting married, getting a job, or enjoying my life, I was stuck at home. I felt useless and thought about ending it every night, but it passed. It's those moments that keep reminding you that not everything is in your grasp; some things are up to what Allah and what Allah has written for you. Life is not about being happy or having a check list you are obliged to finish; life is about living and getting to answer what you did to yourself in those years. You are a good soul Amalie and you are a good friend, just be easy on yourself.

[@theelusiveshadow2709]

thank you so much for sharing this!! i’ve been feeling the exact same way for about 2 months now - its so comforting to know someone else out there is going through the same :’) hang in there, you got this x

[@mona-luciastanica3972]

Have been depressed for the past 3 months and only recently have been getting better. Thanks for being vulnerable, it truly makes me feel less alone x

[@chichiiz]

Girl I’m not an expert but what you described sounds like depression more than burnout but please don’t blame yourself for feeling the way you feel it’s totally normal. All of us experiences this at least once in a lifetime. Be gentle with yourself! Take it one day at a time. Sometimes it’s good to surround yourself with your loved ones but if you feel like crying inside, don’t force yourself to. From my experience it did feel worse. Little by little you will get better. Sending you lot of hugs and hope you get back to yourself soon ❤

[@layla-oj7fm]

this is probably up there with one of my fav videos you have posted. I love all your videos, but this just feels so real and vulnerable. I've been feeling a similar way recently, and also struggling to work out exactly why. the feeling of being in a rut, it sucks! its nice to feel reminded that its normal and we all can go through this at times. just know it'll get better, and its not permeant. don't feel guilty for not having high energy every video, we just love you for you, the sad and happy videos. its okay not to be your high energy, happy self everyday, because that's normal and not shown enough on social media. sending you lots of love, look after yourself girly! always supporting you xxxx

[@isabellakbyrne]

Thank you for being vulnerable. Today was a breaking point for me. My sadness overcame any bit of happiness I've been trying to hold onto. Its overwhelming to feel so sad and not have motivation for anything, it also just feels so lonely. I can never find anything that makes me feel better when I get to this point but you just did. This serves as a reminder that we all have our struggles and it helps make me feel less lonely within mine so thank you for that. You will get through this, continue to be strong and do what you can day by day, even if one day all you can do is shower

[@emoryanissa9006]

this made me feel so much less alone

[@sm-je9uj]

Every time I feel down i come back to this specific video and it genuinely makes me want to get up and get going

[@botelhas5254]

I'm a boy and your videos really inspire me , its amazing the quality of your videos and the way you present yourself in a vulnerable way, that is strength. We all have our ups and downs, i wish everything starts getting better , great video

[@tolentinodhane]

It's okay to not be okay, it's okay to be vulnerable, it's okay to show and feel extreme emotions sometimes. It's a part of us, a part of being human. I wish I could give you the warmest hug right now but know that we are here for you and so so proud of you. thank you for sharing all of your adventures with us, it makes me feel like i have a friend that i can always catch up with every time you post. i love you!

[@ainhoairurre8042]

i've literally grown up by your side, watching all your videos and feeling like you're a big sister to me. you have helped many of us just by posting videos and inspiring us for so many years. now that it is you who needs someone by her side, do not ever doubt that we are all here to give back the love you have never failed to make us feel

[@SleepingBeautyKitty]

i've been laying in my bed since I came back from london 3 days ago. Watching this video made me do my laundry, wash my hair, clean up my room, and even get some henna done. I feel much better, thank you for the motivation and being real

[@nikish7552]

You dont know how much it means to me that you shared that. Ive been feeling similarly the last few days/weeks and i always wanna put myself together but its tough and everything feels hard

[@cowboytin]

Amalie I just want to tell you that I’ve been in that rut SO many times. It helped me to tell people around me how I was feeling, to find a good therapist (she’s my bestie I love her), and to accept and forgive myself for feeling how I feel. I love you SO much you are such a joy to everyone around you, but if you don’t feel that all of the time it’s OKAY. I swear. YOU ARE SO LOVED. Please take the time you need to feel what you feel 🤍 We are here for you xx

[@tessa.rodrigo]

Hey Amalie, you always put out such gorgeous and amazing content but you’re only human, you’re going to feel down and have days where you don’t want to do anything, or feel you can’t. Those days are I important because it makes you appreciate the good times and that’s just life. Thank you for showing such a vulnerable side, been watching for years now and you are such a kind soul! Take care of yourself ❤️‍🩹

[@Sophie_17]

As someone who relates to this video at the minute, thank you for showing people that no one's life is perfect despite how it can seem online. Hope things start to get better for you soon 💗

[@filipa8626]

I have been feeling the same away for a while sense why I'm only now catching up and I'm now starting to get out of this energy. I hope things are better now Amalie and thank you for sharing this more vulnerable side of you with us and making us feel less lonely. You may not realize it but you really inspire and make a lot of us happy without knowing you face to face and closely like your friends. P.s.: Asking for help is okay and necessary sometimes and that doesn't make you less than. It's normal to go through phases of harder or less positive emotions but that's what make us enjoy and be more grateful for the better ones and vise versa all emotions are normal and necessary for us to exist. The hard times really teach us important lessons that make us shine even brighter moving forward! Sending lots of love Amalie or for anyone who needs it *virtual hug*

[@MangoslicePapaya]

Amalie! It's totally alright to need a break sometimes. You have been traveling a lot and of course it must be tough to not have a routine for a while and as you mentioned you have been in between homes. Take you time, take a few walks, drink water, do things you love, listen to your favorite music, watch a good movie, read a good book, eat your favorite nourishing meals, sleep it out, cry, laugh, and heal. Also it is normal to feel hormonal after a period, what helps me during these times is taking my supplements and especially chaste berry extract! Sending you a big hug, and don't forget - its a bad day not a bad life :) You got this

[@iceesm8854]

What you are feeling is valid babe! This is such a vulnerable thing to post but yet you still posted it it makes me feel seen like everyone has problems and this makes me love you even more! Literally been watching you since forever and literally i can say i grew up watching u ive seen you grow and become an even more amazing person i do not know you personally but i just wanna say that i am always here rooting for you and you will get through it ! Ily vv much

[@danit4227]

you didn't end on a negative note, but in fact a pretty realistic one. i was needing something like this today - it actually grounded me. thank you for sharing such vulnerable moments. I'm sure everyone is watching is grateful that you were brave enough to just share what so so so many others are feeling currently

[@khadijahbegum3546]

I have been feeling this way for three or four years now, ever since the COVID pandemic started when I was 15 years old. I am now 19, and I still experience these feelings. Unfortunately, I haven't been achieving success in my life since then. I'm not sure if it's due to the evil eye or some other factor, but whatever it is, it has certainly had an impact. However, I'm not complaining because I have a cozy house, a bed to sleep on, and access to food and loving people. Many people cannot afford or have these basic necessities right now, and even before the pandemic.

[@vanillasweetcream]

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[@khadijahbegum3546]

@@vanillasweetcream You're so cute, thank you for the heart love. Here's a heart for you too: 🤍

[@etsukiikanaa]

that's true, people hate to be that person but getting back on your religion always helps. May Allah makes it easier for your Khadijah.

[@khadijahbegum3546]

@@etsukiikanaa Thank you luv and May Allah guide and help us all💕

[@lillrich9894]

Me too!! Sadly my year before covid was one of my best years.. But because of this "" downfall"" I kinda faced some dark parts of myself (which were buried reeeally deep), I think that's the meaning behind it.. I guess /hope so. Hope your doing better!

[@katharina.maaria]

was feeling so down the last couple of days...i have a big to do list which i have to do and you just motivated me to start. thank u soo much for sharing your vulnerable moments with us amalie

[@lillienhep]

I absolutely look up to you girl, sending you the best vibes !

[@tildeeriksen]

To show this in this video was so important. It was so comforting to see, because I’m myself in this mental space right now and it’s so hard to accept it and work through it. I feel you and I hope you get in a better headspace soon. It so nice of you to show that’s everyday is different and that you some days are better than others, and that’s okay. We love you Amalie ❤️

[@AnnabelleWilkinson-tk7zt]

I feel you babe! The ups & downs…just remember to hold your beautiful head high and the universe is working for you. You inspire me daily and feel your feels!! *this shit is hard* thank you for including us. We love you always in all ways! 🌞💕🤟🏽

[@cambrieoyler5503]

Hey! I want to say, pulling out a camera and filming either a time lapse or just vlogging for my close friends story or main story is one of my favorite ways to help myself get my space clean! There is no shame in it and its called body doubling! It helps for people with ADHD!

[@lisa_and_christian]

We all go through this. Every. Single. One. Of. Us. Keeping up high energy, even when you dont really feel it, makes the drop even harder because you've expelled what energy you had pretending with others. You will get past it. But give yourself time. The honesty and pureness in this vlog means the world to so many more people than you could know. Sending 💛and ✨.

[@Anna-ey9cj]

Amalie, I've been feeling and living the exact same way recently but for weeks now. Thank you so much for not making me feel alone in this. I've tried talking to friends and family, but they don't understand and claim I don't sleep enough (which is actually the opposite) or say I'm just lazy or need to just be more disciplined with myself (easier said than done in this state). You are the first to understand and it almost feels therapeutical. Again, thank you so much for being vulnerable it has helped me so much! From reading these comments, I know we are all not alone. These are the moments when I am thankful for social media to exist. We will all get through this together!

[@moradiazaraque5781]

Happiness depends on sadness. Without one, we cannot appreciate the other.

[@peppi2238]

thank you amelia for this video, being vulnerable is not easy ❤️ i’m watching your videos thinking your life is perfect and you have everything i dream of, forgetting that every one struggles no matter how ”good” things seem they are. thank you for showing the bad days as well, it gives us comfort that we’re not alone

[@itskylierae]

Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I know it can be scary to show this side of you but it shows us that even the people who look like they have their shit together have off days too. Hope you’re doing better and just know you have so many people who care about you🩷🩷

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

this was so comforting to watch thank you for being vulnerable ❤❤ you’re so strong

[@Sophia-od6xl]

This video is so real, thank you. I've been struggling with my mental health for years so I appreciate this kind of realness

[@nelesophie1963]

babe wake up Amalie just posted⭐️

[@fmaya7914]

have been in the exact state recently, i bet its extreme exhaustion, maybe hormones and burn-out. i just see myself in you girl. and even though you dont know the exact source of the way you feel, maybe it's not even necessary. with time it passes and you realize that no one will come to save you and you just start saving yourself. and it's TOTALLY not embarassing to share something like this Amalie, life has ups and downs and it is fine. you're doing a great job, gorgeous gorgeous girl, love ya xx

[@sovereigntae]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your life with us like this. As someone with chronic depression it sounds to me like you might’ve experienced a depressive episode and speaking to a therapist could really help even just to clear your mind. If you end up feeling like that again just remember that the feeling is temporary no matter how eternal the sadness feels in the moment. Keep your head up and think of all the future plans coming up and spend time with your friends and family and it’ll unburdened your heart even just a little bit. Sending you lots of love ❤❤❤

[@becca.foulkes]

I have been in such a bad headspace recently and to hear that other people all over the world are as well makes me realize how ungrateful I am for some things. It honestly makes me so happy to see that you're going out your comfort zone to share this. Thank you Amalie

[@estefanyrodz]

hope you feel better! this is a collective feeling forsure. love your content

[@paulinav0_]

It's okay to feel this way! Makes you so human. Hope you know we love the person you are!

[@lilyjun3]

thank you for posting a video like this because i was having a really tough time emotionally earlier today, you’re really brave for showing yourself this vulnerable to so many people and it really encourages me to do the same

[@ashleyadams6369]

I've been feeling down lately and I put a smile on my face when I go out because I don't want anyone to worry but inside I feel so sad and I can't understand why because I have all this love and people around me. thanks for showing this side of you, this helped me feel less alone on this rollercoaster of emotions

[@SheaMA-l3v]

Amalie, I just want you to know how much this means to probs not only me but so many ppl. You're such an incredible person babe. No doubt you'll get thru this.

[@mayaweaver8464]

This is so beautifully venerable. this has helped me feel so normal about my moods because I get like this a lot when I'm overwhelmed and feel down. Socializing is so lovely but sometimes your body needs to feel and in the moment comfort yourself and know the ups and downs and mood swings are so normal. Honestly I am new to this channel but this video is so truthful and I love it. All is well my love.

[@desireej6653]

thank you for the raw honesty 🤎🤎

[@Lana-ph1dv]

hi amalie!!! im so happy that you finally back to posting, wishing you only good things happens around youuu

[@fayeraad1790]

i love you amalie im so grateful for your honesty

[@lunagrg8059]

Amalie I’ve never felt this relatable to you I’ve been rotting since week after my vacation all the things you are feeling I’m feeling too but this vlog comforted me and love your vlogs I hope everyone who are feeling will heal from this taking their own time & way

[@aqiqilo]

heyy amalie ❤️‍🩹 i've been watching your videos for a while now and i can say you rlly changed me, you gave me your amazing energy and you gave me the motivation to spend more time with my friends and not feel like i don't belong, i am rlly glad you are showing the human side and the ups and downs bwcause that's what a real role model should be, you are one of the rare ones people should rlly look up to, keep shining 🫂

[@jendryalpizar4370]

Thank you so much for sharing, I understand the pressure of keeping high energy around others and not allowing the “two sides” of me to mix. People know me to always have such a positive and energetic personality but sometimes anxiety really takes a hold on me. I’ve always hid that part of myself and it’s taken a long time to let people be a friend in that space too, most will if we give them the opportunity. I’ve actually watched your videos for a while and really admire you because of how much you do and even moreso now. Mental health struggles are so hard, especially because they can seem invisible to others but we have to have grace with ourselves and take that rest like you allowed yourself to have. Thank you so much again for being vulnerable and I hope things do feel better more often soon for you and for whoever relates in the comments 💛

[@lillrich9894]

I think as you mentioned all the traveling and socializing is now "pushing" you to regain energy + more inner connection to your soul. You need more quality me time, at least that's what my body is always showing me in those situations/because of all the rush and new experiences ⭐✨ I hope you will be better soon, write everything down no matter if it's always the same thing, talk to your closest friends (I know it feels wrong to share "" negativity"" or to let people see some of your others sides through your own lenses, but it will strengthen your friendships / relationship with family), hope this helps, sending hugs and thank you for being so vulnerable!

[@jasmimseixas3356]

It’s absolutely ok and valid to not be ok queen. Sometimes we have to sit with our emotions and just feel. Feel everything. Let it pass through you. It does not define you and eventually it will be ok again. It’s temporary. Vulnerability is beautiful and pure, thank you for sharing yours with all of us. It takes courage. Sending you lots of love. It’s gonna be ok

[@johannaapuck4062]

just what I needed rn

[@jenfrancisangela]

wishing you so much love and healing. something that came to my mind is a possible hormone imbalance. i struggled with the fatigue, burnout quick, and episodes of sadness and rut and when i got my hormones checked, it all made sense. hope you feel better love. love you

[@ivyouthere]

thank you for being vulnerable and open Amalie, things will get better and you’ll be back to your normal self eventually, dont beat yourself up over needing to regulate and rest for a while, we all need to from time to time. ❤❤❤

[@annasneidere6324]

This is actually one of my favourite Amalies' videos, because she shows the whole, real herself, not just the good parts. I feel like now we all can relate to her more and get to know her even deeper. I don't know why but this video made me love her even more. And I feel really sorry Amalie that you had to go through that, thank you for being the real you. And I also feel sorry that you feel like you shouldn't feel like this, that you should hide it. That's not true, we're all humans with feelings and we love you no matter what. You don't have to always pretend like everything's perfect. It's okay to feel how you feel and not hide it. Love you❤

[@sunnnyjelly]

I've been in the same place for the past couple of weeks. Just feeling really tired and burned out. I had to temporarily deactivate my social media because I just needed a social break. Limiting the amount of time I'm socializing (whether on social media or in person) has been really healing too because it allows me to be with myself and focus on caring for my needs. And sometimes, being on the go constantly can be so draining physically, emotionally, and mentally. It's good to rest and do nothing and just put the world on pause for a little while. Sending love from Michigan, Amalie! 💝

[@lisasophii2613]

I have times where I feel the exact same as you and I think I’m crazy and not normal. I’m also very hard on myself and that makes everything worse. For me meditation helps a lot, journaling and spending time in nature, that could be going for a walk, reading outside, watching the sunset or having a solo picnic at a nice spot by the water. Thank you for sharing your emotions and making me feel normal bc I know that even you feel like this sometimes even tho you have such a fun life. 💛💛🍀

[@mellax.7004]

Thank you for sharing this vulnerable side of you. You will get through this and dont be to hard on yourself girl xoxo

[@vivian8230]

Amalie, i love you so freaking much. You are literally one of my favorite youtubers and hope you know this has kinda been how ive felt as well. Thank you so much for sharing the bad parts as well. To be vulnerable is something thats kinda uncomfortable, but im glad you felt comfortable enough to share ❤

[@bluerriviera]

amalie, thank you so much for sharing this with all of us

[@iskramblol1221]

I specifically searched for a video like this. I feel you. A day in my life vids pisses me off, it was all perfect. I'm currently in a sump and I hope to get out of this soon

[@wooden_girl]

as someone who struggles so much with the same feelings i love that you shared this :) i watch your content all the time to lift my spirits up and def thought ur life as ideal and you showing this side makes me feel not so alone and idealize other peoples' "perfect" lives. we love u amalie you can get through this

[@caroooyn]

I feel u. So proud of you precious baby ❤️‍🩹

[@stellataylor492]

Despite not feeling well this is a very relatable video. I feel like everyone myself included is guilty of showing the good parts and never talking about the bad and if they do it’s often after the fact. It’s super refreshing to see it talked about in the moment. The good will come again and it’s okay and normal to have these moments. ❤

[@kajamaria4695]

i really needed this video it gave me hope and motivation and i really need that now thank you ❤

[@l2O2-h7v]

this was such a genuine and pure video, not to say that it maybe was the best vlog of you in my opinion.

[@leerica]

i was, and still am stuck in a rut--different phase in life sigh,, i understand that struggle, and how much energy it takes to even wake up, have something to eat, and or even talk to someone. know that all emotions are valid. negativity is part and parcel of life, and for u to feel accountable of impacting others? you're amazing, and you'll be better. trust me; it took a long time for me to recover, but slowly and surely you'll b back at it! you got this amalie :)

[@lilyyoung123]

aw Amalie im sorry you feel this way. It is strong of you to post this to so many people as we all know how difficult it can be to share mental struggles. we all love you and support you so much. and thank you for posting this because it makes many of your viewers not feel alone xxx peace and love.

[@EllieRitchie-c4j]

Amalie, thank you so much for posting this video. It is SOOO refreshing to see and means so much. I hope you feel better soon, this is only temporary !!!

[@LalaLala-jw8gd]

love you the most thank you for this

[@sansaadams4509]

hey girly, try not to judge yourself so harshly for feeling bad. it’s okay to be sad and to have those harder emotions, and it’s okay to be working on feeling better without judging yourself or being mad at yourself for feeling bad. that’s not your fault. we love you lady!!

[@Joyish]

Thank you for sharing. Sending you so much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@rs916]

Thanks for being so honest and real about your emotions and what is happening right now. I'm sure it wasn't easy to post this. Please talk to someone--a counselor or therapist--they will be able to help. Also, know there is NO shame in asking for help. We all need it sometimes! Sending good vibes and love! Take care!!

[@Dayo_kid]

its okay because we all go through it and hoping we all get out of it soon. idk when this was filmed but june can be like that sometimes, maybe because its the midpoint of the year we're really feeling the impact of our hard work, successes and failures. Thats why its important to rest no matter what judgments you have about what you did that week, always take a day off and be easy on yourself .

[@jennylin6753]

hey amalie, i wish you all the best. just know that every small step counts and that you will get better step by step, eventually. i believe you are a powerful woman. ❤️ sending lots of love, my thoughts are with you

[@matildetarp5717]

I know all about that feeling, and I also do everything to hide it with social activities and so on. I hope you soon find a sincere and stable joy, even without all the distractions. Sending all my love your way

[@ingerboeflydal353]

Was in at rut this week myself, and u made me feel better and, Get up. Love the honesty. Life has its up and downs for everybody❤

[@rilee_powless]

Sending my love and prayers! thank you for sharing this part of your life. You are not alone in this! love you

[@shanillaperes6330]

we love you amalie 🫶🏼

[@emaertea]

Amalie! Thank you for showing us different emotions that a human being has! I root for you and keep my fingers crossed for your well-being. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!! for good and bad days :) hugs&kisses

[@maria-qx9jv]

Honestly, I felt so disconnected from you lately, and it was weird. I didn’t know why. This video was an open door again, I missed you. Thank you for being vulnerable

[@Justtdiana]

Yes i got the same thing!!!! Same feeling idk where when or how it came from but this is exactly an open door again

[@martinagarciasantandreu]

my comfort person ❤❤❤❤❤

[@ninelrotto]

Don`t be sorry for the vibe of this video, Amalie. I`ve been feeling and spending time the same way lately. It`s just soothing to see that you`re actually not the only one going through this, and that there`s nothing wrong with you. So, thank you Amalie for bringing the message out into the world. Sometimes all the world needs - it`s for people to share their true feelings :)

[@ghanatm5486]

miss yoy girl about today’s Vlog it’s something normal in fact you not being sad is not normal. and not trying to fix it is also not normal try to do activities all week so you don’t feel down a month ago I was in my most sad/depressed i ever been due to the exams and my period and it was hectic I tried to do activities that I never thought of doing and ended up liking them and change my mood 360° and tip for you don’t relate your happiness with people or something try to be happy even in sad situation’s just say maybe God didn’t choose this for me maybe God is hiding something greater and bigger for me just be grateful and thank God about everything that you do and you’ll find happiness ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@thedadjokess]

You are so loved and I hope you feel better soon! Dont me so hard on yourself

[@itsjustmads]

I literally came to KZbin with this in mind and this is the first thing I see :)))

[@sarahmatthews7057]

luv u Amalie🌟

[@simay8423]

going through a breakup rn, thank you so much for sharing this

[@Hannah.hkp6]

Girl I feel you , I’m in the exact same position right now. My brain is just on shut down mode

[@pascalewidmer9683]

girl I feel you so much !!! weirdly I’m in the exact same headspace and I’m very confused too. I get it !!!❤️

[@ritasilva3593]

Take time to recover a feel like yourself again. We'll always be here waiting and cheering for you, you're not alone in this. We love you very much 💓

[@lottieclark-j4d]

Amalieee i love you you can get through this

[@mathilde_roien]

Never related so much to a video!!! Sending so much love❤‍🩹

[@juant4972]

I've been there an a lot of us have been there. It's not easy being vulnerable. When you're dealing with being out of sync with your own body/mind and/or depression nobody understands unless they themselves have dealt with it. I was in the same funk as you but mine was 2 years. It got bad during covid and after and I was just not myself.Your room was my room, you just wanting to sleep was me and not knowing what to say to people was me. There's no magical cure to get over the funk but I will say this. Therapy didn't help me. I personally had to find little things to help combat that funk. I gained a lot of weight so I created two calendars. One for fitness/health and the other mental health/fun activities. That has helped me tremendously and after two years of this funk/depressed a la cart mode I finally am getting back to myself. Remember you are not alone in feeling how you do. Take each day with a grain of salt and it's perfectly okay to not want to smile or be happy all the time.