Sufjan Stevens, "Blue Bucket Of Gold" (Official Audio)

[@DriftwoodScarecrow]

"Tell me you want me in your life." so perfect. My favorite track on the album.

[@elijahkennedy2820]

Chris Greene well that's the first time I found someone I knew in a youtube comment

[@KateOwino]

+Chris Greene I second you on that part - this track hits too close to home for me. Powerful final track to this album.

[@cristhianserna]

Sufjan didn't make an album this time, he created a piece of art.

[@ZimmerSquash]

He didn't make art, he made a piece of his life.

[@ayoubigmir4530]

And repaired a piece of mine

[@danielbernas2293]

ZimmerSquash he didn't make a piece of his life this time. he made a piece of the galaxy... am I doing this right?

[@ZimmerSquash]

Daniel Bernas Wrong album

[@randomness264]

he always does that though!

[@MorbidLovely]

I was about 13 or so when my dad and I had a falling out. Mostly over issues about visitation, me not being able to really express myself to him in fear of disappointing him should we disagree. A giant miscommunication. Two years went by and every day I wanted to call him or write him and fix things. But I was too scared. He never contacted me, either. When I was 15 he killed himself. All chance of fixing things gone. "Raise your right hand, tell me you want me in your life" totally destroys me. It's really apparent that he had that same desperation to connect with his mother that I did with my father, but a strong sense of distrust built on past events. It couldn't just be stated and believed. It had to be sworn to, under oath, raise your right hand and prove you mean it before I can trust you enough to admit I want you in my life, too.

[@tharkun21280]

I am so deeply moved by your post.

[@MorbidLovely]

+tharkun21280 It means a lot to me that anyone would notice, or take away anything from my experience, so thank you. :) I've known so many people who are at odds with their parents, with so many different reasons for it, but one thing is always the same: Whether or not a person claims to love or hate their parents, they are always deeply impacted by them and by their actions. That comes across so clearly in Sufjan Stevens' music. It's comforting to me, how relatable it is.

[@annaro1030]

Hey. Thank you for sharing this. Thank you.

[@Fran_4444]

Brutal

[@xavierserrano4880]

I’m sorry to hear. I felt a signal of pain through your post and I’m crying atm ..fuck❤️

[@brianjosephestanislao3511]

The end literally sounds like a ghost being released into eternity.

[@Robo94100]

The end sounds very Coldplay and Jon Hopkins imo. Like 'Midnight' from their Ghost Stories album...

[@asic3468]

Sufjan once said that the ending was his own way of releasing Carrie into the beyond, so in a sense it is.

[@honyybal]

Sounds like nights in white satin

[@aity846]

Nah if you want to hear what that actually sounds like, listen to Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven by GYBE

[@leamaltar2.e840]

"friend, why don't you love me?"

[@ЕрболатЭдрисов-э5к]

😭😭😭

[@X1A-Z]

❤️

[@elihusted9464]

😭😭😭😭

[@yyyv8]

friend asking for love is it too much?

[@leamaltar2.e840]

@@yyyv8 if someone needs to ask for love they need to look for it somewhere else, the person whom they're asking isn't gonna give it to them.

[@adassai92]

This album is so special to me. My mother suffered from bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder, and like him, I struggled with the periods of love and the periods of abandonment, wondering whether you were truly loved or not. Like him, my mother was taken from me while I was young, and it is something that I struggle with even today. This whole album captures all of this so beautiful. Thank you so much Sufjan.

[@lulugracie]

Alexander Ganoe sending you love.❤️my mom was mentally ill all of my childhood too, and later was diagnosed with early onset alzheimer’s. hope you’re doing well now. healing takes time.

[@ЕрболатЭдрисов-э5к]

Hey, my name is Yerbolat, I'm 19 and I really wanna be friends with u, I know how hard it is...We could have a good talk and give a support Insta: cute_boy_240602 WhatsApp: [phone]

[@kblackwellable]

That's beautifully put, and I completely understand your sentiment. It must have been immensely cathartic, if also emotionally painful to Sufjan creating all of this, and what a work of art for the world to appreciate.

[@ZimmerSquash]

Here's what Sufjan Stevens said about this song : “I didn’t know (my mom) well in a lot of ways and I didn’t know how to say goodbye on the last track with articulation. So I quit playing piano and vocals and just stopped. I wanted to surrender her to the beyond with noises that sound bigger than just me.”

[@elderberryva9282]

Jesus Christ this man will never not make me cry

[@candead]

just

[@richoswald6113]

@@candead listening to this song for the first time. the instrumental part reminds me of "KID A"

[@richoswald6113]

actually, more so knights in white satin / moody blues

[@iyadhussein8517]

Man wtf

[@srilankanflyer92]

The ending of this song gives me goosebumps. It's almost as if he's letting go of the burden of his story about his mother, which he's told through the whole album. Wow.

[@elihusted9464]

Just magic.

[@babypickle07]

Had sugery yesterday to remove cancer from my abdomen. Sufjan has kept me fighting. ..now i lay here in agony but find peace in his voice. ....and the dilaudid lol

[@brennanstultz]

+babypickle07 Hope you're better man!

[@drewbocop]

+babypickle07 lmao, godspeed and here's to a quick recovery

[@dobbsiancant3699]

+babypickle07 best wishes.and 3 cheers for dilaudid!

[@andrewstevens4412]

+babypickle07 Man, I hope you're making a great recovery. Best of wishes..

[@1CarlosVillarreal]

he's my brother.He died on December.

[@ben-ty9jo]

This is the last song I am listening to in my grandmother's house after she passed a few months ago. I practically grew up here and will probably never see the place again, let alone be inside it. Something about this song just feels right for the occasion

[@TimeLadyClaire]

holy shit. this album is an experience.

[@Sumtinrandom]

I saw him live on his tour of this album. I am now a different person.

[@matthewpatterson803]

Sumtinrandom me too.. no words

[@laurab3847]

how did it change you?

[@lucastarg]

Thanks for being alive, Sufjan. You make my life much more bearable. You are the brightest star in my universe... Last month I found out my mom has cancer. I cried a lot, but on the same day I listened to "Should have wrote a letter", and it made me smile... The only smile on that horrible day. Thank you.

[@samdopier]

My sister died yesterday, I know you fealing

[@lucastarg]

Sam de Boer Oh, dude... Sometimes sad things happens in our lives. This part of existence :/

[@majestysnow]

Aw, I know exactly how you feel. Sufjan has always been my guiding light... honestly and truly. Anything and everything that happens in life always seems a bit more bearable with his music playing in my ears, my soul, my heart... LOVE

[@CouveTJ]

Oh my God. This comment hit me hard because about 6-8 months ago my mom had to be tested to for it. I'm fortunate that the test was negative. I hope your mom is doing okay. You made this comment 2 years ago so who knows. Best wishes.

[@geniszelos]

Lucas Targino d

[@kathrynspoerl9355]

Sufjan. I just discovered and really listened to his music this year. I feel like I missed out on so much. Years ago, when my siblings loved him, I could've cared less and boy did I miss out. My best friend was diagnosed with terminal cancer out of the blue. We threw her a last birthday party. I was one of her only friends because she had special needs. We live in such a shallow world. At first I brushed off her death and tried to ignore grief...and now 3 years later it's catching up to me. Thank God for Carrie and Lowell. Thank God for Sufjan. I don't know how else I'd cope. He seems to be the only person who understands. The only person who would never say anything like It's been 3 years. Get over it.

[@Ben-ub9mq]

Kathryn Spoerl I lost a brother in March and my best friend 2 weeks ago. Sufjan is the only music that makes me feel okay

[@kathrynspoerl9355]

+Benjamin Petro (benjaminp87) I'm sending you the biggest hug I can. Good to know someone else understands too, huh. If you ever need anyone to talk to I'll be around. Sorry I took so long to respond.

[@leafloev]

"Raise your right hand. Tell me you want me in your life. Or raise your red flag, just when I want you in my life."

[@pt9562]

Something special bout this album, itself is a total masterpiece, but every time I scroll down the comment section, seeing all the stories down here, about anxiety, about sadness, about loss, about letting go and forgiveness. It always gives me urge to cry. Thank you Sufjan, and thank you, whoever you are. Sorry for your loss, happy that we all find peace in the music.

[@calvinchandra5573]

Someone dear to me cannot accept my mental illness and left me. “I’m sorry” she said tearfully. The line “friend, why don’t you love me?” will haunt me forever as I yearn for her touch

[@cadenceroy6686]

i’m so sorry. hope you’re doing better now

[@rayjor]

Wish you alright

[@adastrapgh]

the exact same thing has happened to me, and it's a kind of pain i wouldn't wish on anyone i hope you're doing better now

[@kareve07]

been listening to this album on repeat all day I went from a really bad place to total serenity thanks Sufjan

[@nikiboi2cool]

Songs like this always give me a feeling of assurance that in the end, everything will eventually be okay.

[@hambonefakenamington69]

because maybe it will

[@bhrisphoria428]

You were a better friend than I could've asked for. I'm sorry I didn't realize that at the time. I wish I was better to you. I wish you weren't so far away. I hope I can see you again someday. I hope you remember me. I miss you. You were a true friend even when I wasn't.

[@tanguysayboot4630]

damn i also have similar experience. it's hit deep.

[@ЕрболатЭдрисов-э5к]

Don't be sad💙, I'm always ready to give a support, just text me, we could have a good talk, Insta: cute_boy_240602 WhatsApp: [phone]

[@hannahmae7522]

I've never heard music from anyone else with this much emotion. Sufjan is beyond gifted. His music makes me cry but I feel so much better after listening to him.

[@thebluntandonly]

Sufjan Stevens has struck so much emotion into me and I can't but to think how long I've been listening to him and how many times the same songs invoke emotion over and over and over and the songs never fade for me. He is such a special artist. I can't explain to people what he is and how it's so mesmerizing. I'm just thankful I found it almost 2 decades ago

[@DeadHandX]

Its crazy how many people come back to this everyday... this song is masterpiece!!!

[@oldbirdwing9114]

Sufjan's music brings so much peace! I hope he draws closer the The Spirit

[@bigslur9830]

Woah, guys, we got a real expert here on Sufjan's closeness to The Spirit. Look out!

[@oldbirdwing9114]

Big Slur got a problem?

[@bigslur9830]

I believe my comment was pretty clear. Just wanted to make sure people knew there is someone on this thread with intimate personal knowledge of the state of Sufjan Stevens' soul.

[@oldbirdwing9114]

Big Slur ha who's that, my comment wasn't even close to saying that. But things can say whatever when you're dillusional

[@Bandito24k]

Max gang

[@bleaky8885]

One, two, three My blue bucket of gold Friend, why don’t you love me? Once the myth has been told The lens deforms it as lightning Raise your right hand Tell me you want me in your life Or raise your red flag Just when I want you in my life Search for things to extol Friend, the fables delight me My blue bucket of gold Lord, touch me with lightning Raise your right hand Tell me you want me in your life Or raise your red flag Just when I want you in my life

[@gabrielaamuchastegui9698]

❤

[@Lilystech]

Chaeyoung really have a great taste in music 🥺🦋

[@emilreads]

Carrie and Lowell - a life-saving record.

[@rosakami1588]

I swear when somebody listens to this for the first time they'll never be the same again. Sufjan has made one of the most immaculate albums ever

[@Jefferson_starkid]

I'm just sitting here with my mouth open, I'm in complete awe

[@rnmusic-gt7zw]

Great album loved every track it's melancholy but so beautiful, I can see lots of people falling in love with this album and even helping them get through similar tough times themselves , although I usually find an album that does that is sometimes difficult to pick up and listen to again after so long as it brings up so many memories

[@TWTNWmusic]

***** This was very beautiful to read. I'm sorry for the loss of your dad, I'm sure it was and is difficult to deal with. It was just touching that this music had such a beautiful affect on you, I've learned the same thing through this album and others as well.

[@peelyb]

I will always come back to this album. It's the most beautiful collection of music I have ever heard. It's haunting, sad, beautiful, aching, touching. This album saved me night after night, for months, in a lonely apartment in Hanoi, Vietnam. It makes me smile and cry at the same time. But I am melancholic by nature and I appreciate the beauty in sadness, the art in emotion.

[@jihyokim612]

Chaeyou really has a great taste

[@justadev____7232]

Everyone reading this has excellent taste in music

[@Redhotz07]

I've struggled with debilitating health issues for many years and at some point discovered Sufjan's music. At times I have only had it as my companion and felt it was the only thing that understands how I've felt. Very thankful. Music can be so powerful. I saw him play this in concert recently. It was a spiritual experience.

[@tbdkll4218]

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[@hannahzwic5975]

Having grown up in an emotionally unhealthy family, Brings out tears I didn’t know were there. Thank uou

[@ThatOneGuy400]

Has anyone else had the privilege of seeing this song live? I'm not sure if mere words can describe how awe-inspiring it is. A wall of sound that will give you goosebumps for days upon end. Bravo, Sufjan.

[@GoSuNiguy]

Nick Thomas Indeed. The way Sufjan finished Carrie & Lowell with Blue Bucket of Gold mirrored the beginning of his performance, as if he is closing a chapter of his life. The sheer epicness of the thunderous climax towards the ending of this song live still gives me shivers when I give this album another go.

[@reverendjordan]

Nick Thomas This song live is next level. Everything about it is amazing live.

[@ladyinwight]

reverendjordan seconded

[@ZimmerSquash]

+Nick Thomas You should check out Sufjan's remix version of this song. It's the closest to live you can get.

[@landryan]

Thankful for Sufrans music, it helped through similar rough times.I had my mother pass away a few years ago from ovarian cancer. SobI decided a two year sabbatical from work and moved in with her untill she passed away. Somehow I came across Sufran Stevens one particularly bad night during my mothers illness, he music really helped. He really is the most unique and talented artist out there. I am looking forward seeing him play in Seattle soon!!!!

[@aidanclare6602]

Love the Sigur Ros-style ending..

[@TheSpodeification]

THANK YOU MR. STEVENS FOR ANOTHER TERRIFIC ALBUM!

[@goofycawfee]

This will always remind me of an old friend of mine. We aren't friends anymore, but she showed me this song and I appreciate every moment I spent with her after it all went down.

[@lulugracie]

the only song that makes me feel understood. thank you sufjan.

[@jeremymcfly9508]

This song reminds me of home. For the past week before moving I’d listen to Sufjan Stevens sitting in my old childhood room. I currently live somewhere I hate, I listen to this music to remind me of being home again. Honestly I didn’t know leaving some places can cause so much heartbreak it’s almost feels like losing a close friend or a lover. A few months before I moved my fiancé broke up with me, so honestly moving felt like a part of me was dying on the inside. Sorry if this sounded depressing I guess I just needed to type out my thoughts somewhere

[@jennygoodwine2494]

I relate to this. How do you feel now, a year later?

[@jeremymcfly9508]

@@jennygoodwine2494 life has been cruel, however I’m writing a book and my audience appears to like the sneak peaks, I believe it will be successful. It has its ups and downs, I still miss my home greatly sometimes but I have mostly moved on. Before I couldn’t even visit my hometown without feeling heartbreak

[@jennygoodwine2494]

jeremy mc fly I get it, the heartbreak connected to place. Sending love. Glad there are signs of life, like your writing. Wishing you well.

[@sonialeliukh8498]

God i know this feeling

[@mandyschmitt7516]

Yes. What would I do, if not for Sufjan? Thank you for being my eternal break up song, the song to comfort me on the worst days, the one that understands me, and gives me the hope to go on. You make soothing masterpieces. My favorite is for the windows in paradise, for the fatherless in ypsilanti but I also love blue bucket of gold. My broken heart is safe with you

[@andybruce904]

Love you Sufjan!!! KEEP INSPRING AND MAKING DIFFERENCES IN THE WORLD ALL THE TIME

[@MrVishnudeep]

How beautiful it is when you re realise an album from start. I thought I has explored enough only to accidentally land on this song only yesterday and since then I am totally hooked. Even so overwhelming to see people commenting in the section below, relating with the songs in the context of the events that have influenced their beautiful ives. To all you people, I offer my love. Thank you Stephen and thank you beautiful people, for sharing your songs, your lives, your love lost and pains felt. We are in this together.

[@jayrowlesjr9880]

Listening to the whole album through is such a beautiful experience...

[@franky.378]

Went to my local music store, they had only this album of Sufjan. I'm a wreck now

[@MeanGirl42]

Jesus. On an emotional level, that's like going to the gun shop and they only have a tank.

[@franky.378]

@@MeanGirl42 haha good one, hey happy new year, stay safe!

[@azurewolf3195]

Well, that was a ride.

[@olderendirt]

Just got turned on to Sufjan today and have really liked all I've heard so far.

[@4EyedAnimation]

+olderendirt yes me also

[@christianbravo505]

+olderendirt The best thing about Sufjan is that it gets better each time you listen to him.

[@jerryloh5594]

Same here

[@majas5648]

Cathartic and soothing....thanks Sufjan.

[@piranhadru]

Sufjan Stevens has saved me from so many stress these quarantine days full of work and modules, his music is so mesmerizing, some of my classmates say he's boring, but they don't get the lyrics, it's just too beautiful

[@EntropyWolf]

You know when this song comes on the real feels are coming!

[@samb9537]

I'm here coz Chaeyoung's vlive. What a beautiful song.

[@JugHead1]

"Raise your right hand tell me you want me in your life, Raise your red flag just when I want you in my life." Fuck. Carrie really did a number on little Suf.

[@gemes64]

Not even sure that McCartney can conjure up some of the great melodies this man simply blesses us with. Thank you, Sufjan. xx

[@naluvle]

i cant express in words. how this song makes me feel but it really do make me feel all the emotions

[@elizabethbaez4698]

When he said “friend, why don’t you love me” I felt that 😔

[@smurfpavlyshyn3425]

Peace u say? it scratches me from inside like hell, its so good and so destructive, jsus i love it

[@queencesly]

Im here from chaeyoung's vlive. Yessss this is gooooood

[@isabellacamera2145]

I love this song it describes my life right now

[@jasenambio6440]

every songs had meanings,I like your songs Sufjan...you deserve much awards

[@testgoober193]

Thank you for all of this, Sufjan. I'm so grateful for having heard this album.

[@philou1895]

Merci Sufjian pour ce magnifique et incroyable album, pour moi le plus beau devant Illinoise

[@imkristine5052]

this song is one of the best songs on this album!

[@hyv_lth]

his songs are heavenly

[@Bojoschannel]

shit's heavy, man

[@davidsobel3303]

Ethereal and haunting. An amazing piece of songwriting. thank you.

[@Yvonnbonifacio]

I love this song so much I made a video for it. Thank you Sufjan for writing such beautiful music.

[@foxshuvo]

please, share your video!!!

[@foxshuvo]

ohh, just found it, nice

[@petergroen3436]

Love this song - love Sufjan so much

[@inkoinfinity2]

His songs are so consistently good

[@ManuManu-oq8lt]

I LOVE YOU SUFJAN!!!!!!!!!!!! subaru ♥

[@rachelbishop5796]

This sounds like a hymn

[@thatguyfromhouse]

This album is amazing.

[@karlhuttenmeister]

Listening to this track while reading all of your comments, has left me here in a crying mess. I love you all.

[@minarisakalam8444]

THE FIRST TIME THAT I HEARD THIS ON CHAE'S VLIVE, I ALREADY LIKE IT. THIS IS A GOOD SONGG!!!

[@gabrielgian8988]

Started listening to this album at the beggining of this year, which hurt me as fuck with a really stupid case of unrequited love. This song still touches the shit out of me.

[@CouveTJ]

I'm thinking about doing a Sufjan Stevens tribute video where I talk about Sufjan and listen to parts of various songs and follow his evolution as a singer-songwriter (quite possibly the best ever. He's my favorite solo artist ever and number 2 artist ever behind Radiohead.

[@emilygustafson8119]

My parents haven’t talked to me in almost 3 years. I bawl listening to this song.

[@VictorsaurioRex]

obra de arte de principio a fin

[@antoniaj.alvarez9380]

Una preciosidad.

[@tomasgomez6010]

In hard days/months like this, listen Sufjan music it's a couple minutes scape to other land (Love from Argentina, sorry for bad english)

[@ladis.de.aruanda--LITCI-org]

This Melody remembers of a music I can't remember which.

[@ErickMcNerney]

Nights In White Satin by The Moody Blues?

[@roger_2250]

absolutely thank you inas

[@Heysto34]

Thank you❤️

[@eli_r_q]

The emotional desperation in this song just destroys me. It's such a soft and subversive way to end this masterpiece of an album.

[@ВікторМазілов-ь6л]

Terrific song!!!

[@TheONEANDONLYBeuh]

1 year and no comments is so wrong - best song on the album

[@davidjacobs2102]

found time feeling from confusion but all makes sense now

[@marcelbuijs1888]

That epic ending is borrowed from Nights in White Satin by the Moody Blues

[@mmcc-w5x]

here from chaeyoungs live

[@shalenwilkinson1629]

This entire album just makes me wanna take a humungous drag on a cigarette

[@michaelkossin2765]

No crazy time signatures on this album?

[@makiyves4292]

i like chaeyoung taste

[@johndoe148]

THNX 4 TEARS

[@freethought_veteran]

This song has a Moody Blues nights in white satin vibe to it

[@ghouldishanimal]

That ending though

[@professorcoco4838]

i'm tired of fear losing somebody i love fearing everything

[@amitnaamani5702]

tears

[@shadowsn9695]

From twice chaeyoung recommendations 💘

[@orthospch]

still here six years later

[@pupdevil6469]

why is this song so fucking relaxing i cri:(