Suicidal Doesn't Always Look Suicidal

[@Incognito-vc9wj]

Sadness is an emotion, Depression is a state of mind. You can be happy yet still suffer from depression.

[@BitchChill]

You explained it perfectly

[@rickestsanchez1423]

Sadness is seasonal, what remains is emptiness ... I understand this shit, we are here to transcend our hole into light

[@alessadolan5718]

True

[@angelicart.6]

Can I use your sentence in my journal? I want to make two pages talking about depression and suicidal thoughts, cause it’s something that touches me more than anything, and I want to use the most beautiful quotes I’ve seen till now. I just want to know if I have your permission 💜

[@Omgitsrevi]

Depression is a state of mind, but most precisely a mental illness. Anyway, you want it to go away most of the time.

[@saiko1831]

It's horrible when you wanna talk to somebody and no one takes you seriously

[@luxturn4a]

talk to me

[@Ludasn]

It’s worse when they listen and then leave you too

[@xdStray]

That's just exactly what's happening with me I take days, months, maybe years to take the courage to tell people but when i do they just think I'm joking

[@gehazelmuse1507]

I Talk To Myself Cause That’s The Only Mf Who Gives Af FOR REAL!!

[@ClaraDbvl]

It's bad when you have nobody to talk to at all. I hope you're ok. I've figured the pain of my bones hitting the ground will be fleeting compared to the pain every day. My eyes hurt from salty tears. There's nothing left.

[@NoName-fn5ip]

My friend sent me a text message about 10 years ago. He wanted to hang out. So we went shopping just for fun. He paid me a bunch of stuff, food clothes etc. He wa smiling and happy. At first. He was " normal " but the same day at night he sent me a message saying that he loves me and he was very happy to be my friend and that he was sorry for what he was about to do. I knew something was not good. So a jumped in my car, i was riding so fast that I don't even know how I didn't crashed. I broke into his home and he was cuting his wrists. I saved him. He was very mad. He never said thank you and i never asked for. But now he has a daughter and everytime I go visit them he always says to his daughter "look that's my best friend the one who saved my life so many times"

[@blu3j00Ls]

I cried.

[@Nebulex78]

Lmao

[@motion69]

Alas,he is saved

[@themasterofgaming1113]

I cried , wish to have friend like you

[@saltynoodlez]

I cried too that’s so sweet

[@lilpestcontrol]

“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know absolutely nothing about. Be kind-always.” - Robin Williams

[@jamannk]

Goddam if it ain’t the truth. The fight to stay alive never ends.

[@Miley-we1iq]

E' Platone che dice queste parole

[@North_Cascade_Railfan]

That quote is bullshit, something nobody lives by.

[@echolalia682]

@@Miley-we1iq E' John Watson che dice queste parole

[@Miley-we1iq]

@@echolalia682 Platone e' nato prima 😂😂 Sorry

[@charlie_56]

"i don't want to be healed. i have a strong urge and desire to just disappear and never be seen again. and at this point, pain is sweet." yes, there are people who feel this way

[@nadexbloshy5063]

Same things are going in my life as well I'm failing my college exams and the urge to kill myself is getting stronger day by day ...

[@arandompasserby7940]

Some people are just too broken to be healed

[@jenkinsrower7380]

People who are really suffering want to be healed. If someone say that he don't want, he 1- don't feel that bad, 2- is mad, 3- can't be healed

[@that_guy_standing5754]

​@jenkinsrower7380 I didn't want to waste people's time with my pain, I felt like it would be an inconvenience to my peers to ask for help, so I just didn't. I broke out of it last year, and genuinely smiling is a great feeling. Sometimes I just do it for no reason, besides being content. It can get better, and I knew that one day I might not regret leaving, and it came sooner than I expected

[@ewokwicket1681]

​@@that_guy_standing5754 Trust me you don't waste anyones time I often had that thought that I was a heavy weight for others if I would tell them of my feelings but it resulted that I got the deep bondings with some friends and not only those who could relate in some way.

[@jssvxpl]

By the time you're suicidal, you've already learnt how to put up a mask and stuff. That's how it's so difficult to tell if someone is suicidal or not.

[@drms-liberation]

It's quite funny how a suicidal person could appear perfectly fine in front of everyone. When in reality, it might take them a single, just one thing that would throw them back again in that state to end it all.

[@jssvxpl]

@@drms-liberation yeah

[@Natalie-yg5rn]

You can always ask

[@kevin510]

@@Natalie-yg5rn it’s not that simple

[@eaa0903]

Been trying since i was 13 (not very good at it guys) I haven't held a gun to my head for a record amount of time. Everything comes and goes. Bad emotions and thoughts and the sort. But it takes longer for something to come than go. Stay strong💪

[@thesorrow96]

My father always said… “Life isn’t fun without a struggle in it, but some struggles lead to tragic endings.”

[@zoraideale4046]

Well no shit, was there supposed to be a meaningful point or lesson here?

[@vklkg5486]

@@zoraideale4046 pops gave em a reality check 😭

[@BG-pl1zx]

@@zoraideale4046 chill out lol

[@zoraideale4046]

@@BG-pl1zx Pipe down cause I'm calm, I was just truth telling. He didn't tell us something we already know, well I guess can't speak for you huh? So you didn't know I assume.

[@chris12carp]

@@zoraideale4046 You’re literally being argumentative for no reason. The guys talking about something his father told him that he obviously found inspiration from and he’s sharing that here. Yet you have to put him down like that and try to act all cocky. Grow up and have some compassion for your fellow man

[@itnsk2629]

"The last expression of people before they kill themselves, it's a smile, but isn't a normal smile." - A smart guy

[@thegreatacolyt1277]

Yeah

[@jans5820]

Its releave

[@gwmarcos9965]

I know that 😊

[@waysidevocaloids]

If anything, I’d say it’s the only “real” smile they’d see.

[@Hedgehogssongs]

In 2014, a man shot a suicide note video and killed himself in my country. (If you are interested, his name's Mehmet Pişkin and his video is still on KZbin. Video is almost completely in Turkish but he says something in English about at the end of the video.) this quote reminded me of him. He was successful, working in a good job, only 35 years old and had many girlfriends before. During his video, he was smiling. doesn't look like a man who will kill himself in an hour, just like it's just an unimportant vlog. When he finished his talk, he listened to a song, smoke and drank wine slowly and peacefully. He was smiling, but not an ordinary one. Painful smiling. So, sometimes I watch his video again and it makes me a little, shivered.

[@mr.horseshoe2301]

Been depressed/suicidal for a long, long time (20+ years). Only thing stopping me is knowing that it would destroy my loved ones. I could never do it.

[@Rose7576_]

I’m sure they love you a ton and their lives would be hell without you in it. Don’t just stay for them but stay for the random people like me who read this comment. I know it probably doesn’t mean much coming from a stranger but your life does matter. I know it might feel like you’re going through hell right now but even if it’s a cheesy thing to say, it does get better. I believe in you.

[@DjSpinMaster]

Keep your head up! I hope you find peace. ❤✌

[@GreenOnionsPL]

The loved ones not getting hurt is my top reason as well, with the second one (and the cause for the first) being the need to leave the world a better place before leaving it, but oh, it is so hard to see the validity of said reasons on some days.

[@rosethornil]

My husband killed himself. And yes, it destroys everybody who ever loved you. Suicide does not end pain. It increases it exponentially and transfers it to the people who loved you

[@joshkemp4188]

You are worth it. Love yourself

[@julian_whiteway]

_All it takes is a beautiful fake smile to hide an injured soul and they will never notice how broken you really are._ - Robin Williams

[@Wriggs74]

Very true and very sad. That saying is actually on my "About" Watts app comment.

[@Primex_01]

Been wearing that fake smile for a very long time now.

[@nomeca961]

You can still have good times and have fun when your depressed

[@JRHartley.]

@@Primex_01 I know the feeling, keep trying mate. All the best.

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you. You are worthy of love, if you do not want your life, give it to Jesus. Please stay, I love you.

[@thescoobymike]

People might misunderstand and think those weren’t genuine moments of joy but they very well could have been. You can be suicidal and still have happy moments.

[@pian-0g445]

Depression doesn’t necessarily negate other emotions such as happiness, but rather negative things such as extreme low self esteem and self hatred become overpowering. Obviously there’s also the biological side which explains it (which still is hundred percent as there has to be more to it than we know), but low serotonin levels doesn’t mean there can’t be moments of high serotonin levels. Depression, just like anything mental health issue is extremely complex which we still don’t understand fully

[@thescoobymike]

@@pian-0g445 indeed

[@lunaoliveira8771]

Some people kill themselves in a impulsive moment.

[@G_Confalonieri]

Every single tiny moment of happiness is lived as if it were even more meaningful than what it really is, just cause what is regular to everybody, is precious to those who lack of it.

[@zoyadulzura7490]

@@lunaoliveira8771 Statistically, men are more likely to do it impulsively than women are; this video seems to reflect that, as it appears that there are mostly men in this video. I don't know if that has to do a cultural pressure for men to hide feelings, or what. For those in the U.S., 988 is coming up, a phone help line for people having a hard time with their mental health.

[@brunderbergft4196]

I can't hear these phrases anymore. “Think positively” or “Laugh more”. The only thing that helps is a hug. The feeling of connection. Heart to heart.

[@yordanmendez4245]

love life its just what it is dont let the world shape you, you can transform your world, dyins is easy at the end , life can be hard but nobody is going to judge you in the afterlife for your actions but you might regret it and think it was dumb as it was an experience even if it was so extreme

[@roadwayrona]

I don't want hugs!! Absolutely not! I want no-one!

[@brunderbergft4196]

@roadwayrona Sure! That's your life and free choice.

[@thelie6992]

I guess im too far gone. Nothing helps anymore and it just hurts.

[@phantom_wolf5274]

What people often don’t understand about suicide is that when someone has been depressed for a very long time and they finally make the decision, they finally start to feel peace and calmness because they know that the pain and suffering will end, so if you know someone who has been under the weather for a very long time and all of a sudden one day they’re in a really good mood, that’s not just a sign, that’s a whole siren because that probably means the decision has been made Edit: the amount of stories in the replies about how you guys had loved ones that committed suicide is heartbreaking, I am so sorry to all of you that have experienced such horrible losses and to all the people who have taken their own lives, may you at least Rest In Peace

[@phantom_wolf5274]

@Dannydolan88 I’m fine, I’m not suicidal I just wanted to share this info

[@Im_a_sexafender]

​@@phantom_wolf5274DO IT

[@YasnaKo]

Just like with physical illnesses. Often, shortly before death, a person feels better. The body throws away the remaining reserves.

[@phantom_wolf5274]

@@YasnaKo yeah it essentially means your immune system gave up trying to fight it

[@viniciusdacidadezinha3334]

This is what happened with my dad.

[@cameron8946]

The thing with suicide is, as soon as someone says they want to end their own life wether it be in a moment of depression, a moment of stress or even in a moment of emotional exhaustion, that statement should tell you that you need to stand by that person and keep them going, no matter what the context, always take the threat seriously.

[@Blugharm]

The thing is, people who say they want to commit suicide are the ones that never go through with it. Most often it's the people who won't admit it and seem relatively happy in their life. And that's the saddest thing about this.

[@JanezKrnc-San]

Really hard to do when a person starts abusing the attention he/she gets by saying that. Seen it happen many times and it makes me so mad... but you can never be certain that they're doing it for attention. Which is the worst form of emotional manipulation.

[@TrapLegionRecords]

@@Blugharm yea true, I hid it always, I made a plan when and how I'm gonna end it all and the day came , but I failed cutting open my wrist with my veins, I still have the sign

[@freddo9682]

Suicidal people don't usually say it, because they don't want people to intervene, normally the people who say that are the one craving atention and in most cases don't have the guts to take their own lives.

[@steverox87]

@@freddo9682 There's nothing courageous about taking your own life. It doesn't take "guts". Sometimes people express their desire to die because we ride a constant wave. Sometimes we're up, sometimes we're down. When we're lucky enough to have another up, we want those closest to us to know that we can't guarantee that our next down won't be the last and that we're not sure we'd have the strength to pull ourselves out the next time. Think before you speak.

[@besteyldz6601]

My brother started to play video games all day long for the last 6 months before he took his own life and he was always playing the same game. One day when I asked him " are you not bored doing the same thing over and over again?" He said "it's not that I'm enjoying this but at least I'm not self aware when I'm doing this" he was crippled in a car accident and couldn't accept living a life he never thought he would. I miss him so much

[@treesaretough]

im sorry for your loss. Car accidents are so hard. Its been over 10 years since mine but im grappling struggles that started that day (driving being scary, hard to get around). A handicap can really set you aside in life, then everyone says they have to go to fast to even think about you coming along. Its really lonesome & feels like a deadend. I wish I could tell him (or anyone in a similar position): Youre not alone in how you feel. Youre not too damaged to find healing. Youre worth it.

[@moonsigil]

@Jason Voorhees THAT's what you took away from this? smh

[@MightyKondrai]

damn. that quote perfectly describes me. "it's not that I'm enjoying this but at least I'm not self aware when I'm doing this" when i listen to music, try on the rare occasions to play a video games again, movie, show, exercise, its all the same. I'm just waiting for the end.

[@besteyldz6601]

@@treesaretough I appreciate your kind words please never give up you're the only one that matters don't you ever forget that

[@Summer-oz6mg]

@@MightyKondrai I know you might think this sounds cliche but the answer is your creator, please, even if you have to look trough all religions that exist, never stop searching for that thing that you are missing and be honest, I have no doubt you will find the truth I am a Muslim myself and when everything seems dark and pointless, i think of God and it satisfies my heart, even if I am still sad that I am living on this earth in these circumstances remember, life is meant to be a test, you are ment to hate doing pointless and evil things, it just means that you love that what has purpose, that which is good which is normal, now comes the hard part, you must still go trough life, fulfilling your duties and try to be grateful and count each and every lovely blessing God willing, you and all that struggle with depression will win the fight I know how hard it can be💗

[@cdj5431]

“Be nice you never know who is trying their best not to fall apart”

[@lordlane3510]

It’s insane how much pain can be hidden behind something as simple as a smile

[@miyo918]

​@@abhijitsaha9373bruh

[@miyo918]

@@abhijitsaha9373 no

[@Cubafrm22st]

@@miyo918 😂

[@StalkingPeopleHmm]

​@@abhijitsaha9373no

[@aayuxh1321]

@@abhijitsaha9373 how can I help you??

[@desertweasel6965]

What I find very sad about suicide is how a lot of people become really happy right before they do it. It's like they have already died and are just waiting to pass over. The sadness completely leaves them once they decide to do it, because they now feel empowered and feel like they now have control on when the pain ends. I've just always found that to be the most troubling is that bout of happiness right before they kill themselves. The people that have quietly been worrying about the person sees this happiness and is relieved that thier loved one finally seems to be coming out of their depression, but is then hit with the earth shattering suicide. It's like how a person that is dying in the hospice seems to come alive and are full of energy right before they die. They'll be in a coma state and suddenly wake up and start talking to everyone in an alert and excited manner and then falls over dead. Life is strange as is death.

[@trappart9209]

Life is hard sometimes, it sucks...

[@goldenboy06]

Interesting phenomenon.

[@kerbeezzz]

This felt very similar to terminal lucidity in people with dementia or Alzheimer’s. They cant remember even the names of their loved ones for years, yet a few hours or days before their death they can recall memories and recognize people. Kinda like bliss.

[@FordHoard]

@@kerbeezzz Everyone I've ever know that was old and dying always saw people in the room that no one else could see. It's weird, but I always think of that being their guardian angels.

[@tupakkaonhyvaa]

Life is shit

[@blvck3303]

My mom , she's the reason I still wake up everyday . I can't imagine the pain it'll cause her . For her I'll endure this

[@erenyeager9541]

What will you do after your mom pass away? Will you still want to continue living or die

[@siddislikesgoogle]

Endure for your own sake, you deserve a long, joyful and fulfilling life. I hope you find the way back into the light.

[@aelovesya]

proud of you. stick around for us

[@Elven.]

I know how you feel. I won't try to cheer you up with a comment because I don't know if a comment would help. I'm there with you, also staying here but without a reason. Something I find funny is how people say we all suffer in life. But you see them experiencing it way easier than you. If it's of any consolation, life is harder for some of us than for others

[@PhenChua]

Same here pal, at least we have our lovely parents to always be with us when hard times come. Just remember, we love them, and they love us. ❤

[@userpapa-f4d]

I`am 35 years old, I`ve been under psychiatric treatment for half a year, due to severe depression and generalized anxiety, and I tell you, I don`t wish it to anyone. Many people believe that depression is like crying like a baby in the corner of your room, when in reality you simply lose hope in your goals, plans and objectives. You stop caring about what happens to you and in some cases you even start thinking of ways to leave sooner. I have often felt and had these thoughts more and more frequently and the simple fact of thinking about it brings me a calm and tranquility that I miss feeling. My advice, never underestimate what your family or friends tell you about this topic, most people who decide to end their suffering have expressed it at some point, pay attention. Good luck fellas.

[@chlo300]

I hope that your depression suffering will end soon and when it does it will be like a rainbow in the sky as a new beginning. God bless you.

[@JamesP44]

Sorry to hear you suffer this, I'm on medication for mostly anxiety. I was anxious to the point of hardly able to leave the house earlier this year and especially around this time last year. 1 thing I've cut out which has helped tremendously is alcohol, it takes months maybe more than a year for the brain to recover from every weekend of binge boozing like I was doing for the last 20 years but that combined with a better diet along with medication helps. I know its not 1 size fits all so not suggesting its a simple fix for you it might be more complicated for you and whatever you've gone through in your life, but just from my experience cutting the bad stuff out or lowering it like sugar/caffeine, going on a better diet, taking vitamin tablets especially vit d etc has been helping my mental state. Also trying to see life differently to how Ive been seeing it before and appreciate simplicity which takes work instead of wanting it all which was me before. I hope it gets better for you I believe most if not all can find a way however impossible it seems to see this thing called life differently.

[@chlo300]

@@userpapa-f4d God bless you. I pray things will get better.

[@gunawansutejo]

The "These are the last videos of people who took their own lives" hits harder than you think

[@Shadowarfare117]

All the people with children hit the hardest for me. I'm grateful to God I'm even alive today to love and raise my son. I'd never want to leave him or his mom alone.

[@dihannvanniekerk]

I got a cold chill from that, I wasn't expecting it

[@stop_dave]

does anyone know who made this cover of Bring Me Sunshine? I've looked everywhere and can't find it

[@TheMisterEMS]

Yeah, these really devastate me to no end... 😢 I keep thinking of all the ways I could've saved them if I knew them

[@char.ger-3321]

Life isn’t for ungrateful people lol

[@jacotromp59581]

The last few days before my dad took his own life, he appeared so happy. He smiled, laughed, played with us, took us out to more restaurants and then suddenly he was just gone.

[@jacotromp59581]

@Dannydolan88 thank you Danny. I was a teenager when it happened. I still miss my old man.

[@Omocoldest]

I have a friend name Danny🙂😃

[@Eshine21]

I’m deeply sorry ): . I hope his soul is at rest now. And I hope you and your family are healing well. One day at a time ❤️‍🩹

[@Blackberry578]

I am so sorry for your loss

[@Jimmy99]

Stay strong brother

[@scdl-m2z]

people who are suicidal often feel trapped, so having suicide as an “option” brings a sense of comfort. that’s why many people seem to be suddenly really happy the day/s before their suicide/attempt.

[@metalrules6193]

💯

[@gateauxq4604]

This is the absolute truth of it that people don’t understand. This is absolutely truth.

[@krillin3350]

They wanna live life happily one last time before finally submitting 🥺

[@ayten3617]

Shits always seemed like an out for me. Ive never heard Anyone else say it like that. But it is like that, kinda like a last resort, but saving it for when u really need it. I'm 32 and been thinking of suicide 90% of days since I was prob 14. It dont discriminate. Some the most seemingly well put together or seemingly doing in life , physically, financially and mentally, people I ever met killed themselves. My step brother was 24, smart AF making like $170,000 a year (legally) had multiple degrees, well spoken , held his head high. Made eye contact etc. He Shot himself in the head one night... Another, My best friend since grade school, was 26 when he took a twelve gauge under his chin and pulled trigger. This was after he joined the US marines, infantry, he did like 3-4 tours, when he came back he was much more quiet, more serious, would randomly throw up, wouldn't sleep unless I or someone was awake, he wouldn't sleep without his boots on and laced, side arm with him. When he drove, same, but with loaded shotgun in the back seat. He'd never talk about what they did over there besides guard poppy fields, only spoke of killing random wild dogs because they were vicious and would bark at them, spoke of combat and shootouts but only when asked and never about anyone being I injured. He did mention after his last tour, that out of his 12-13 man group, almost half of them committed suicide before he did, and he was only home maybe a year lil more.. many of them got hooked on opiates while they were over there because local children would often come up to them trying to trade opium or smokable heroin in exchange for food and water or what ever .. He told me they thought it (opiates) made it easier for them to relax and do or deal with whatever they had to do or already done . Anyway back to point, these were people I looked up to, and were strong, go getters. Never would have thought theyd take their own lives, considering how strong they seemed. .. Peace and prosperity to those deserving!!!

[@scdl-m2z]

@@gateauxq4604 yep. unfortunately it’s only something you can really understand if you are/were suicidal.

[@RasodaOP]

The fact that they will get more love when they are no more instead when they were there just breaks my heart

[@VilleGardian]

Yes, no point in living...... people are just getting born to make each other miserable it seems

[@dawgpost90]

My sister just took her own life. It's been three days. I feel numb. I wish I could have talked to her one last time. It's heartbreaking.

[@mp8077]

So sori for u & her🤝🖐️

[@StreakzFred]

I'm so sorry, for your lost, My respects to your sister, I'm sorry you have to go through this, please try and stay strong.

[@CREDLACE]

I don't know who you are, I don't know where you live but I want you to know, from a total stranger to a total stranger, my heart goes to you, It's okay to feel how you feel, and I sincerely hope you can find some semblance of peace, whenever you are ready for it. Do take care.

[@Isa69123]

having a sister and reading this, my heart breaks in two 💔

[@Tardersauceee08]

im sorry for your loss

[@notchkali9892]

Lost my best mate to suicide 24 years ago when we were both 23. Had no idea he was struggling, not always easy to spot the signs if they’re not there. Funniest bloke I knew and we were out together the night he found the courage to do what I guess he felt he had to do. Rest easy Dean Kerry. I miss you and wish I could’ve helped.

[@tyrantgregcagkaiju71]

Rest in peace, Dean Kerry.

[@Suvoreum1]

Have a good rest Dean Kerry

[@devsaini7367]

So sorry to hear that man, i feel like the way you’re describing your friend is how people who know me would describe me. I am 23 next month and nobody knows anything. I’m just a strong pillar everybody looks up to. I feel like it’s a taboo and people tend to ignore it when they experience it firsthand. I owe my life to a lot if my people i won’t do anything of that sort but i live like i have done it already

[@phantommagazine2336]

Rest in peace, Dean Kerry. I love you.

[@Raul-cu9vo]

:((

[@michaelhawkins7835]

Hearing my son confess his level of depression to me hit like a ton of bricks. He always seemed so happy. He confessed having bad thoughts. I went from not wanting to bother my adult child by calling and stopping by to see him to now calling him multiple times a day and doing things together. We have dinner once a week on Sundays now. We both realized how hard life was for each other and are making a commitment to be there for each other like never before. Him and my daughter are my whole world. When they became adults and moved out i was crushed. I am dealing with it better now. One day at a time. We need more open discussions when it comes to mental health and depression. I felt so alone. I know I'm not. Thank you to everyone for the kind words. Reading through replies made me both happy and sad at same time. This life sure can be hard sometimes. My son lost a good friend a few days ago to suicide. A friend he has had for many years. A friend he had no idea was having such a hard time with life. Be kind to everyone. You don't know what thoughts are running through their heads.

[@Evangelinerosaa]

omg that really made me tear up😢😢 wish my dad were like you they’re so lucky to have such a caring dad. Wish you guys a blessed life

[@sarahs7253]

I do underst and. I have 5 children but still when my oldest moved out i was crushed too and cried alot. She does alot with her bf and his family now and i have come to just let her be. I should draw closer to jer too but i seem to always say something she takes the wrong way and gets upset amd says i make her cry. It really breaks my heart cause i love her so much but i dont know what to do.

[@dearconspiracy5504]

you are a good parent! not even most parents put in the effort of their loved ones when they hear news but i’m glad you did. don’t ever give up cause you are wanted, needed and loved

[@ManubibiWalsh]

You sound like an awesome parent. Blessings to you. 💖

[@TomDutch]

God bless you all!

[@dylanwallace5571]

0:28. I know that smile.

[@JJS7070]

What do you mean?

[@chrispina4526]

​@@JJS7070 The smile that's for others, to keep up a mask, but if you can see it, you'll realize there is a crack. A crack in the mask, which when it breaks is when suicidal thoughts become suicidal acts. He may have been smiling, but his eyes were empty. Sometimes people will experience this, while others have an intense experience of happiness, because they've accepted that suicide is the choice they're making - such as being under the belief that your death will better other people's lives, or that you've accepted that you don't have the strength left to continue. And that brings you peace, so you can let go of the weight of fighting with your brain's narrative that tells you that suicide is the answer. I've never reaches either side fully, which is why I'm still here. But I've been close. Close enough to have a detailed plan, a back up, and a different plan all together in years prior. So close that just thinking about having it as an option gave me more peace that most other things in my life then. It was never enough that I could convince myself to let go, but enough to understand the terrible places your mind can take you to be. Please be kind. Even if you think suicide is a cowardly act, understand that physical and emotional, experiences aren't always based in "valid" triggers. Perhaps someone loses a loved one, but instead of feeling sad, they feel anger. They have no idea why, and perhaps they hate that they're angry, but that doesn't make it go away. Doesn't diminish your anger, even if someone else believes it's ridiculous - or selfish - if you do. Emotions themselvea are always what you are immediately feeling, which means its real, which means its true. The *reasoning* might be untrue, or out of proportion to the experience, but they're real. So, just as we should all be able to trust each other to believe we should be allowed to feel what we feel - whether it's anger, happiness, sadness, loneliness, or the draw of suicide - others deserve our empathy, and we deserve theirs'. Be the change first, and it'll invite others. Sorry that was really long, but I hope this helped.

[@KjJoe-ty3ie]

@@JJS7070a smile who keeps something behind that facade of happyness

[@rachitkumar1012]

​@@JJS7070Are you alright?

[@TriforceLegacyOfficial]

If you see a depressed person unexpectedly happy, something is not right

[@racapinang]

Their friends: "Yay, they managed to get the right choice!" Themselves: "Yay, I managed to get the right choice!"

[@andreasullivan2419]

Not always true I suffer from depression and sometimes I am happy for no reason at all.

[@onserutiri4359]

@@andreasullivan2419 they're referring to a suicidal person that has come to peace with their decision, having depression doesn't always equate to being suicidal

[@andreasullivan2419]

@@onserutiri4359 Thanks I'm also referring to suicide. I'm 53 and I've had suicidal ideation for a long time pretty much all my life. Just barely a year ago I've come to peace with my decision to not go through it. I still feel like I don't belong in this world but that doesn't mean that I want to kill myself.

[@Draculaya2002]

I was able to beat depression. I had a serious eating disorder that took a serious toll on my mental health and my social life. I felt like I wasnt loved and that nothing would change if I were gone. My parents had no idea I felt like these, not even my siblings. I knew if I told them, they wouldn’t take me seriously. I felt so lonely and my thoughts were getting to me. One day, I decided that it was time, time to end it all and disappear and finally cure the pain. I thought of taking lots of my pills. But then, there was a voice in my head asking me if this was really the right decision. Did I really want this to be my fate? I thought about all the good moments in my life and it made me smiled. I know that what I would be doing would be selfish and that my parents wouldn’t be able to handle the death of their teen. I decided to give life a second chance and started going to therapy, working out, and even going to church and reading my bible daily. I wouldn’t say my life changed completely because I do still have bad thoughts about myself and how people view me, but I don’t let them get to me, not as much as before.

[@Shregurun93]

“People don’t commit suicide because they want to die, they just want the pain to end” -A quote by someone I found on another suicide related video.

[@GauravRawat452]

💔yea

[@sopitas_141]

Depression and suicide are not the same for everyone, it is sad to know that for many dying is the solution but they want to live, but there are also people who do want to die, who genuinely do, and this is even more devastating because it is more difficult to combat.

[@BrianAugust-f7q]

Ahh yeah, i saw that too,, hit like a rock

[@Slimegang5]

But the pain will just be beginning when they sent to hell cause suicide is a sin

[@dueverity]

​​@@Slimegang5 bible/quran quote?

[@Dashi42100]

In 2012, I attempted to take my own life. I briefly left this world, and a team of paramedics determined to bring me back. I am now ten years into an EMS career, three of those years as a paramedic. Two strangers cared about me not because it was their job, but because I didn't deserve to die. So take it from me, a stranger, you don't deserve that either. I don't have to know you to say I care about you, and I need you here on this planet with me for a while longer.

[@rrl9786]

What do you mean you "left this world"?

[@comradecrusade7417]

@@rrl9786 I am pretty sure they mean their heart stopped. Clinical death. But they were resuscitated.

[@Yoyoyoyosuup]

❤

[@PrettyPuppy180]

What did it feel like when you “left this world” did you see or hear anything?

[@kencampbell-rf6ot]

Thank you Dashi. your words have landed, not today

[@hesam4270]

It's so heartbreaking thinking about the fact that some people have never had any happy moments in their lives...

[@bh73]

I'm sure they all had many happy moments. In some ways, it would be better if there were no happy moments--you can get used to that. It's those brief little bright spots that give you hope. Then that hope, all those good feelings are ripped away with little warning, leaving you cold and hopeless once again. The cycle becomes tiresome and soul-crushing. You begin to resent yourself for thinking life could stay better. Sometimes I feel that a complete lack of happiness would be a blessing.

[@chrissy9153]

Robin Williams is a pure example of how you can make others happy but be horribly depressed

[@user-ov2fc5sd1e]

Man was just doing his job...

[@Skippy0330]

he is a pure example of what doctors can do to you with medication, and careless prescriptions.

[@TedEhioghae]

Just know that suicide leads to Hell Fire. :( Please people, repent before it is too late.

[@nownow4323]

​@@TedEhioghae you saying someone like Robin Williams is in hell now?

[@veiserexab1428]

What happened, why he off himself?

[@maddyG7414]

I sometimes wish I had no loved ones, because I feel trapped. I hate living like this, but I can’t leave and hurt my family, friends and partner.

[@psych7776]

Yeah same ,

[@FM.......]

You are so beautiful, hope you will feeling better, i want to kill myself as a kid because my parents torture me

[@ad7543]

Same. I want this to end, but I think of how much pain I’ll cost my daughter.

[@helloooo-ne9sx]

Please don't give up people, things will work out, trust.

[@jamesfehr2071]

It's a sickening feeling. I often think how much of an a$$hole I am for not ending it before trying to start a life I knew wasn't meant for me and dragging everybody down with me. Burnt a bridge with my best friend the other day, everything is horrible and getting worse. It's scary how many people feel this way.

[@ShiftyCDN]

In high school, my best friend popped into my job on a Saturday just to hang out for a bit. It was a little unexpected but there were no red flags. He killed himself on Sunday night. I still have his picture in my wallet more than a decade later because he's the only reason I've never hurt myself regardless of how I'm feeling; the pain it inflicts on others is not worth it. I miss you so much man. Edit: Thank you for the supportive comments, and I'm so sorry for those who have gone through similar situations. To those who doubt me, I wish it wasn't true. To those saying I should have done more, I hope you get help.

[@waltertanmusic1100]

He probably want to meet all the people he known before he go, I assume, cause that's what I will probably do if I ever committed

[@sdogg]

sorry to hear brother. losing a great mate to suicide is something you never get over

[@robert743]

I can relate. A close friend of mine committed suicide when we were 16, and his funeral still haunts me. I could never do that to my family and friends. I'll never forget his mom standing by the casket as we all walked by for the viewing, she grabbed me by my sleeve and kept asking me if I knew why he did it, if I had noticed him acting weird beforehand, etc. Almost as if she felt she could fix it if she could just figure out why it happened. I could never do that to my mom & sisters. He didn't just kill himself, he killed his entire family that day. They never recovered from it.

[@jarrodlangford7692]

@@robert743 thank you for sharing Robert.

[@patriciavdputten8732]

@@waltertanmusic1100 my son did. Everyone we spoke said they had seen him, went for a walk, had diner, spoke to him. His last night was with his cousin (almost like brothers) they had fun, music, film, diner. It seemed a normal evening. Only the part when my son left was different. We all felt that. Looking back it was strange. But we didn't know it back then. that he visited or spoke to everyone his last 2 weeks.

[@trippyabsolute]

It’s not their death that makes me sad, it’s the amount of pain they went through before they made this decision. Horrific.

[@superdrummergaming]

It's important to know that you can't _always_ help. I was in a place like that many years ago and I made sure nobody could tell. One day I thought of a reason that I couldn't do it and that was the end. Nobody ever knew.

[@homeslice2825]

That is the truth. Personally, I’ve always wanted to but my family and fiancée need me. I was so tired and I wanted to feel peace. I became so talented at hiding my pain that even to this day, the only way it comes out is through nightmares. I’m trying to be better though. Pickup hobbies, try to appreciate life, etc. it’s working but I’m afraid it won’t be a permanent solution and the psych ward might be seeing me one day.

[@KoopMalverde]

@@homeslice2825 you're doing okay though. Thinking outside of yourself sounds like something worth doing a lot no matter how hard it is.

[@SureYoureRight]

Did you hide it because you didn’t want your friends and family to get you help?

[@stonecat676]

Sad, but true. Most hide very well.

[@ShaferHart]

I think media has overemphasized that angle and made people feel responsible as a result when in reality most of the time people can't help. They would if given the chance but usually they're not given one. Hard to not feel responsible but the media has made sure that people do.

[@C.J.One.]

This hit me right in the chest. I know exactly how these beautiful people were feeling and I struggle everyday. We need to talk more 🖤

[@Virginia6779able]

Your in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you a beautiful day! Hugs

[@davinastanton3865]

C.J.S you are in my thoughts. I send you oodles of love. 🌹

[@krotchlickmeugh627]

How do you know these people are really dead?

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you. You are worthy of love, if you do not want your life, give it to Jesus. Please stay, I love you.

[@voilenoire1246]

The paradox is the feeling of loneliness and despair we have yet we are legion.

[@jarrodlangford7692]

It's hard because most of us didn't choose to feel damaged. We had that stripped from us through unsolicited life experiences. You grow into an adult expecting to be able to carry all that weight and the weight of others. Sometimes that weight feels too much. I say this as someone who has dealt with suicidal ideation since I was 8 due to trauma. Not a day goes by that I don't wish it would stop. But I love life truly and try to make the best of it. I fully understand when others have had enough and I don't judge them. But unless you've felt like this I don't quite think you get it. When there's certain days if you just didn't wake up you could ignore the pain. That's the sad reward for death.

[@Ghostyfrost9688]

Well said

[@gothamsmostwantedclownbitc7107]

@Fritz White Unless you have a mental illness or unresolved trauma, you have no right to speak. No, not everyone goes through that. Shut the hell up.

[@Ghostyfrost9688]

@@FritzDWhite bitch, what?

[@ValentinClaudiu7]

Hey bro, just know that you are loved and you matter, regardless of your traumas and life experiences. Also, I want to kindly recommend you to five David Goggins a listen on youtube, after that buy his book. You are going to change so much that trauma will mean nothing to you. I believe in you brother.

[@badeugenecops4741]

Dude, I fkn lost it reading this. Perfect description. All I can say is hang in there. You only get one shot at life. The odds of being born are 1 in 400 TRILLION. Remember that.

[@SauerkrautX]

I’m sick of being alone

[@starseeker27]

I'm sick of being alive

[@Leona_-]

I love u .. all the way from Africa middle of small village ❤❤

[@grafvonrotz2233]

Adopt whatever animal you could see in your life. It's a game changer. And if it's not a game changer for you, at least you made that animal not feel alone anymore.

[@nonyabidness5708]

Find groups with common interests! Board games, church, line dancing... ❤

[@nayyabmughal1123]

Same ​@@starseeker27

[@nikogide2117]

Sometimes some people with depression just enjoy the present because they know there is no future for them.

[@kingzingo1784]

Lmao

[@perpetua111vv]

😐

[@StFigarlandShanks]

*because they think there is no future for them* you meant 🤟

[@themalonetribe]

100 percent

[@akhileshprajapati323]

😢

[@karenparker7830]

Had a student commit suicide. Leafing up to the time, she seemed happy and calm because she had already decided what she was going to do. So the last week was one of relief for her. Afterward, we were all, of course in shock. This was 19 years ago. I have not gotten over it. I know her family and classmates will forever be affected by our loss.

[@AIDYL31]

May she rest in peace ❤

[@skylar9450]

Unforeseen things haunts me.

[@rajveerkanojiya2985]

19 years ago damn

[@Mindfreakypinky]

lmao you are fk weak if you sucidal i went from home abuse straght to my first psychosis but idgaf now i have fk greek god body heading into psychward for resocialization and i still dont have bad thoughts in my head just becouse i know i will menage just keep your head up and fight dont forfeit your biggest blessing that you could breath

[@lauralynn2210]

As a former suicidal person, I can tell you on one sense to respect what that person wanted and be at peace with it. It is what that person wanted at that time. I went through this myself, you mentally check out- your done, like a hotel sign out checkout 11am. In my experience, nothing could have changed my mind. I cannot fully explain it, it's suffering, it's numbing, I was screaming and in pain on the inside and nothing could make me happy? As hard as it would of been to my family honestly I wouldn't of cared because that was- what I wanted. It was a peaceful, comforting decision really. I tried to od on pills and somehow survived. The only bit of advice and I know it will come off as aweful but I speak from my experience, is to respect the wishes that person wanted, unfortunately I know how that person felt, and nothing would of changed my mind. In my experience, I viewed it at that past time was that this was a sole based decision I wanted to do. I was set out on a mission and nobody was or could stop me. That was my former mindset. Somehow I survived and thought how am I alive? I think I see it differently because I experienced what it was like to feel that way and oddly , I don't know why, it was a peaceful, comforting decision. It was sad, but I made peace with the outcome. I'm not sure why I survived, but I wanted to shed light on my experience to try to have a better understanding ❤ in my experience, there wasn't anything anyone could have done, mentally I was checked out. You suffer on the inside for so long in silence. People say they care but shelf off . It's very important for anyone reading to build a social network. It's people around you that will pick you up when you fall. Or advice, knowledge and guidance. It's important to have a social life, if you dont have one- form one by any means possible. It's human nature to want interaction and acceptance and guidance. I was so lonely I truly was suffering. Some people maynot even realize what that's like. But I do. It's important to have a social circle , by any means even if it's just talking to strangers and making it routine to say goodmorning to the local cashier and ask how's your day, or have a good day, join a chat group and find some regulars to talk to because sometimes any interaction is better than no interaction. ❤

[@christiansofthecatacombs]

I think this is the single most powerful video I have ever seen in my entire life. Blessings to who ever put it together! ❤❤❤

[@justinlong5892]

I remember talking to my mom about feeling suicidal. She made the conversation about herself and complained about my father. She wound up crying about her own problems and I ended up comforting her. Gotta love being raised by a narcissist.

[@stephens021]

I'm sorry, hope you find the help you need.

[@iexist.imnotjoking5700]

Same, that is very close to what I experienced. Actually 1:1. Except that I got screamed at and told to "go to my father" (who lives divorced from her)

[@HUEHUEUHEPony]

well, you can't help someone if you're filled by trouble yourself :)

[@iexist.imnotjoking5700]

@@HUEHUEUHEPony you can, I've tried, not to mention that the troubles of these non suicidal people are not even comparable oftentimes.

[@ClutchClick]

Maybe your mom is depressed and you’re the narcissist…. Maybe she needs that comfort as well. Not everything is about you either bro. Put yourself in her shoes

[@aintnoway3980]

I've always liked this quote "People don't want to die they just want to start living "

[@HmaPaYT]

omg, so deep...

[@lemuelashrithstgss1059]

But when they cant...

[@Okakarink]

yeah, that’s sad

[@bernarxgames]

Nah, the void of the afterlife sounds better, imagine it. Nothing, just pure nothing, no one, no worries no feelings, just so much nothing that even you are nothing, the worries of life are gone and the daily life struggles that everyone says are so satisfying to over come, but only bothers you no matter how you handle it, are gone. Pure bliss, none existence is true heaven.

[@samyakjain584]

Whose quote is this?

[@aaronbell5994]

I've called the hotline nine times. Told family about it. Finally after three years and six months of extreme gratitude focus (I've said thank you probably ten thousand times... literally...), I pulled myself out of it. I'm one of these smiley people myself, and yeah, I get what these people were feeling.

[@youresoold1216]

Good for you bro 🙂

[@basedbroskiworld]

Being a Christian helps its literally the only reason im around

[@pipipupu5104]

​@@basedbroskiworldlol what bullshit being associated with any religion is pure bullsh!t

[@lol-iy7wv]

@@pipipupu5104 if a religion helped them through hard times why try to take that away from them and calling it bullshit?

[@654Crossman]

​@@basedbroskiworldgot back into church earlier this year. Been fighting suicidal thoughts, depression, and a few other issues, since 2014 when I was discharged from the Navy. I decided to try some churches again, because I was feeling utterly hopeless and I knew what that was gonna mean. Used drugs and alcohol for years, to just keep making it another day. Now, I'm in church, getting clean, volunteering again, and trying to help encourage others. It'll still be hard but at least we have hope.

[@vickilawrence7207]

This is so true. It’s often when they’ve made up their minds to go through with it that they seem most relaxed and happy ☹️😔

[@RobTi]

“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always.” - Brad Meltzer

[@spicydramarama852]

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16.

[@gregdee5548]

@@spicydramarama852 I struggle to see the connection between this scripture and the Brad Meltzer quote (genuinely). Love != kindness, but being truly loving might lead you to kindness (maybe). And giving your son as a sacrifice out of love seems unrelated to being kind to a stranger who is having an internal battle of the mind. Also being God being loving or kind feels far removed from the struggles of us mere mortals being loving or kind to others. I'm not trying to be difficult - but the connection seems tenuous at best.

[@gregdee5548]

@@sugarshane1985 Good catch, seems to be Brad Meltzer 's quote

[@RobTi]

@@gregdee5548 Good to know. I edited the original comment.

[@rabbit0664]

That's something good to go by. I know not everything is rainbows and sunshine so I try not to be a jerk. Actually like helping people.

[@valueinyou9931]

Having severe depression/anxiety is like being terrified and exhausted at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hating socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything bad at once, yet being paralyzingly numb to anything good. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

[@eva-ov8sp]

hey are you ok?

[@valueinyou9931]

@@eva-ov8sp You know Eva...I think it will always be a fight. I haven't experienced full blown suicidal ideation in quite some time - thank goodness, because it's absolutely horrendous - but that shadow is just always there, lurking, you know...? But thank you so much for asking. That you did that in itself sets you apart. ❤

[@barksdalebell000]

You described perfectly, I don't even remember who I was back in the day..

[@eva-ov8sp]

@@barksdalebell000 you ok?

[@lukaswilhelm9290]

It's just bad that i'm not alone with this kind of feelings

[@laurenjeanvp5131]

Sending my condolences. It's not easy. Depression, anxiety, disorders. They're real 🥺💜

[@HUYI1]

Yeah, no understands mental health, not even close relatives or friends it's frustrating 😣

[@laurenjeanvp5131]

@@HUYI1 it's true, I've dealt with depression and anxiety, I even have OCD and it infuriates me when people say "how you you depressed? Go take a walk or go see a movie"....WTF? Those very fortunate people that don't have any disorder or illness, just don't understand and it needs to be more talked about 🥺💜

[@SeatLeonMK2]

yes, but the depression rate is alot higher in past 20 years? wonder what that could be...

[@ChristPaidForOurSins_ThatsLove]

ive got is all, and its all at its worse

[@laurenjeanvp5131]

@@SeatLeonMK2 there's a million factors. Pressure at school to be beautiful, rich and popular in teens/adolescents, social media and bullying, pressure to make more money and provide to your family, homelessness, drugs and the withdrawals, anxeity/depression that comes with it after getting clean, trying to stay clean...I could go on and on..

[@COREcasual]

the most depressed people become experts at hiding it.

[@justalex3525]

Robin Williams is a big example.

[@CiderHead]

Whats scary is it becomes the norm, routine

[@sfotos7410]

That's scary how true that is. I hope everyone here gets a chance to open up about their pain, y'all deserve to be heard no matter how bad it is

[@deviantfish2711]

This makes me feel better I guess because everyone can smell my depression from the moment I walk into the room. I must not be that depressed, I guess I'm just lying to myself.

[@Kakmanmartinez666]

Gonna be honest with you rn, this video had me crying. I lost my mom to suicide 2 years ago and I remember the last time I saw her she was so happy to get remarried and I was happy for her. I remember standing in the kitchen with her as she pulled out a t shirt that said "Future Ms (his last name)" and I thought about how I was going to have both parents in my life. I didn't care he wasn't my biological father, he still loved me just the same and wanted to adopt me and my siblings. I cry all the time thinking about how I never spent a lot of time with her. It hurts me looking at her pictures knowing this is how it all ended. I remember my life shattering the night we got the call she was in the ICU from her attempt. She passed away days later. I'll never forget the pain I felt when they told us she was brain dead. Knowing she was slipping away right from under us. Knowing I'll never see my mom again. Knowing I took it all for granted. I took having a mother for granted and I kick myself in the ass everyday because of it. I remember the last thing I said to her when she was in a coma. Before they took her off life support... "I'll see you soon". I had every intention of taking my life weeks after all was said and done. But I didn't. And I'm glad I didn't. It still hurts carrying on, but I'm stronger than I used to be. My last attempt was October of last year. And I plan to keep it that way. Because I'm going to keep fighting. Even when it hurts.... Edit: I'm on new medications and I'm feeling so much better. I look back on this comment because this was at my worst. I'm a year free from self harm and replaced bad coping skills with better ones, such as tattoos and piercings. It's boosted my confidence so much and I never looked back. I can confidently say I'm doing much better and I plan to get married to my fiance very soon. He's been there at my worst and now at my best. My heart goes out to everyone who's lost a relative or good friend to suicide. It's definitely not easy, but you will get thru this! It's taken 3 years to heal and recover from my past. I did some stupid stuff in order to cope, but I'm glad it's not something that follows me to this day. You are loved and very much wanted in this world even if you don't believe it. I have the best dog and fiance in the world that keeps me going! It may not be much, but I'm get grateful for them both! I still fight and keep fighting for a better life than I was given. Even if it hurts, I still get up and keep going! If you're in America, the new suicide hotline number is 988. It really works and someone will be there to help you with whatever you're going thru!

[@budomk9299]

I'm so happy you didn't. I know it must be painful but I'm sure she'd want you to carry on. I myself have considered it and have decided I won't do it.

[@ayeshaarooj9405]

I'm so sorry you went through such a trauma. I hope you heal and find your purpose in life ❤️

[@raziel4949]

I cant imagine the pain you feel, but I hope u keep going my friend, love and blessings for u and your family 💜💜💜

[@Meetbol6284]

I havent dealt with anyone close to me committing suicide but I've had many close people to me pass. It's hard to deal with the guilt, thinking that you couldve done more for them or spent more time with them but try to remember that, at the time you did what you did. You would do things differently if you could and that's what matters. Taking the decision to keep going is so strong of you, you're a fucking champ.

[@Kakmanmartinez666]

Thank you guys for the comments. It really means a lot to hear this ❤️ I'm working on getting trauma therapy, grief therapy and cognitive behavioral therapy as I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder a month after she passed. I'm taking small steps to recover and I'm working on finding an apprenticeship for body piercing. It's something I've always wanted to do and body modification is something I love. I have a puppy that keeps me company and really is helpful when I'm emotional. I have videos on my channel lol. Thank you for all of your support! Still fighting because I know my past and disorder doesn't define me and rule my future. If you ever feel down, don't give up. I promise you will find a way out of this dark place!

[@tenebristhewaifu]

My friend killed himself few weeks ago. We hadn't really been in touch for about a year before it and we knew each other for a short time, but man, this information left me shocked and devastated. He helped me through one of the hardest moments in my life. Since his suicide, there hasn't been a single day I wouldn't think about him. He was the purest soul ever, always eager to help others, always energetic and always cheerful. Such a beautiful, extremely young, lost person. As far as I know, the reason was bullying and it makes me fucking mad. It seems he was just an angel, too delicate for this shitty world and fucked up people. That feels bad as hell.

[@jeraldaguilar2763]

how did he end up his life?

[@tenebristhewaifu]

@@jeraldaguilar2763 He hanged himself

[@uuuuuaaaaaaah3637]

Im sorry for your loss. Im sure he is in a better place

[@JDxGaming54]

So sorry for your loss

[@codenandrews2924]

I'm so sorry.

[@j_nightshade]

I lost my brother to suicide 4 years ago. It still feels like yesterday. I’m still in counseling and healing from it. Thank you for posting

[@ArtbyArnel8291]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@Lilita971]

Sorry to hear that

[@ArthDragon14]

May God comfort your heart

[@91deep]

I’ve joined your path my man, lost mine too, much love from one self brother to another

[@j_nightshade]

@@91deep I’m sorry my friend. For me, it became different but it’s never easy. I found a group of people that formed a suicide survivor support group. I’m not a therapy group person. However, these people changed my life. We share our loss and show each other how to move forward through life, while grieving for our loved ones lost. Man it saved my life. I prayed for the pain to take my life because it hurt so bad to mourn. I’m okay from my experience. I still hurt, but I don’t stay there. Good luck my friend

[@ItsAlannaBanana]

What a powerful video. I’ve never personally lost someone to suicide and I can’t even begin to imagine the pain they themselves feel and in turn their loved ones. I’ve dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts but I’ve thankfully never gone through with ending my life. Sending love to anyone dealing with this and reminding you you’re not alone ❤

[@survivingitall5263]

My dad died by suicide on Thanksgiving Day.It was absolutely shocking and he was always a major extrovert and the life of any party. I now understand that he showed the world one side but inside he was feeling opposite.

[@eminemthegoatfrnocap2032]

That made me sad as shit

[@jpesicka492]

Wow, U r so strong. Just keep going.

[@roadkillreborn3047]

i had a gunny in the marine corps do the same thing and he was the same way. we all came back from holiday leave and was told the news. it still doesnt sit right with me.

[@desertweasel6965]

It's very bizarre, because you expect people that are suicidal to be so sad and depressed that they walk around frowning with their heads down all day.

[@MONEYAINTATHANG100]

👁

[@scott4418]

you can fake a smile, but you can't fake sad eyes

[@0malicha]

Yeah, the thing is I could already read everyone’s eyes. Depression is easily noticeable for those who can read people well. I can tell when someone’s hurting or not.

[@babycakelings]

That's untrue. The person with the happiest eyes I knew died yesterday due to suicide. I wasn't just not smart enough to notice, everyone knew she was struggling but CPS and the school refused to intervene with the bullying and abuse she was going through daily. Now she's gone. But don't say bullshit like this as if it's fact. Your just gonna lead people to say bullshit like "their lying because they have happy eyes," and guess what, PEOPLE DID SAY SHIT LIKE THIS TO HER SO SHE STOPPED ASKING FOR HELP.

[@epicsandvich014]

@@babycakelingsI believe you are misinterpreting the comment. The comment is basically saying, you can fake being happy, but you can’t fake being depressed. Which supports the point you are making in your comment, people can look happy but still be struggling and depressed.

[@Yo-yo-dt5ze]

Yes this is true I suffered for 4 yrs with depression and nobody knew iam still suffering even after losing my brother it hurts when you feel like you have no one and your by yourself so you feel like why bother to even be here when no one cares that’s where iam it’s very empty and a dark cloud hanging over my head I’m tired of talking and no one hears me 😢😢

[@goodfeellife]

Isittrue😟

[@Hhuhater]

My neighbor was one of people who you would never expect. Always had this amazing smile on his face. We will never forget you Stanton.

[@TedEhioghae]

Just know that suicide leads to Hell Fire. :( Please people, repent before it is too late.

[@Hhuhater]

@@TedEhioghae not the place to say that

[@TheUninteligent]

@@TedEhioghae That’s something I think you should keep to you. Just imagine if it were someone from your family. You wouldn’t want someone to tell he/she is going to Hell. Also, God is merciful, don’t try judging anyone. Have a good day. 🎉❤

[@beyoncesmiddlefinger]

​@@TedEhioghae please stop believing in fairy tales

[@joshiewishy4966]

​@@TedEhioghae WTF

[@mrt.5689]

Im not giving details so dont ask. I saw a young man at a park several years ago struggling and crying with an object in his hands, I decided to stop running laps and make my way over to him. As I approached him the object turned out to be a g_n. I immediately disarmed him and he completely lost it. He didn't know how to chamber a round. It turned out he was a minor who took this sidearm from his older brother. I yelled for help and had another bystander contact law enforcement. He hugged me and refused to let go. I often wondered what ever happened to him until he unexpectedly called me 2 years ago. He is now married with 3 sons!!! We had the opportunity to meet and It was very emotional for both of us. Im sharing this story for awareness, I dont need any recognition and I DONT consider myself to be a hero. Im just a regular person who helped someone in need. Never be scared to say something or offer help to anyone, we all need assistance at some point! God bless everyone

[@raff2215]

You're awesome!

[@-Borax]

Do you know you are a real life hero brother?

[@BR30-l8l]

Omg I'm so happy for him and proud/thankful for you for being an amazing person ❤🎉🎉🎉

[@rustyhill5946]

I was a volunteer firefighter in high school and began fighting my ptsd. I was involved with multiple successful suicides and that was a major factor. I struggled with aggression and isolation at times. One day I really got stuck in a loop of suicidal ideation, but I never acted. One hour later the same day, I responded to another attempt and saved a patients life on her living room floor. That was my call to keep serving and get help

[@lilducko]

Thank you for your service! ❤️

[@wadadparker957]

No one ever talks about the suicidal ideation loop, where you constantly think of ending ur life at that point, you are realistically very very very close to it, n it takes alot of willpower to come out of it. None of the fuckers around me will understand it, they will only know the actual attempt, the actual attempt is easy, it's the not doing the attempt.... I understand

[@Codeman22]

Why save her?

[@zelda7059]

@@Codeman22 why not?

[@ahlembnhm2489]

@@wadadparker957 hi I hope you’re doing okay!!

[@Love_Yourself4830]

People rarely seem in as bad of shape as they really are. I lost my 13-year-old daughter to suicide last June. I know in hindsight that I missed subtle signs, but I really thought she was okay. She seemed happy. Genuinely happy. Maybe that was because she had already made the decision at that point. Thank you for sharing this message with the world.

[@Love_Yourself4830]

@rose2887 Thank you. ❤

[@Himanshu.1254]

You will give birth to another child. You will live in this world again 😊

[@phuonganhtran9722]

Condolences for your loss 💐 Pray that you and your loved ones may find peace someday ❤

[@Jugyye7736]

​@@Himanshu.1254That is not how this works

[@JackWhoGames]

Im so sorry, cant even imagine What thats like❤

[@rachaelh8026]

I recently lost a friend to this and she really was so calm on her last day, it's so painfully sad looking back but I'm hoping she's doing better now up above. It's so hard to deal with the loss of someone close, sending my condolences to these families and friends

[@Yarghoul_]

@Dqrkness Heaven or the equivalent depending on their religion

[@Alessandr0000]

Up above?

[@seahawksrule975]

@@Yarghoul_ In some religions, people don’t go up. But nonetheless it’s still sad and these people really deserved help and depression/anxiety are real killers.

[@promisemadepromisekept.7575]

With suicide you go down.

[@covid_guy]

@Pinko Slink It is, you man up.

[@SatanicDesolation]

I feel that when you really struggle with depression, you try to enjoy every small moment that could give you at least some happiness, some momentary relief. And when you do - you force yourself to savor these moments because you suspect there may be not a whole lot more of these left. It might as well be the last. These moments are not fake, these might be the most genuine moments of happiness in life. And then back to ashes.

[@neilarmsweak9084]

I’m a 20 year Firefighter recently diagnosed with PTSD. I used to go on suicidal ideation calls and think they were bullshit. I’m now in complete darkness trying to fight my way out, but I’m losing the battle more and more every day. I’m fighting so I can be here for my family, but it is so hard

[@mysticalmoon8590]

It's hard I know but if you take your life you will leave behind so many people that love you! I hope you overcome this and you find the strength to continue moving forward with your life. Lots of love and healing to you at this time. Stay blessed. 🙏❤️

[@rantman6486]

I don't know you but I deeply care about you. The world needs you in it. Your family needs you in their lives. Don't give up and keep fighting. You're more important and stronger than you realize.

[@SumPixelz]

As an army veteran, I would say to you that you have probably seen more stuff than the average person, and shit like that changes you. I was diagnosed with ptsd 4 years ago and struggling every day. I just don’t feel like I belong in society anymore. People just don’t understand, as much a s some people would want. What helps me a lot are my dogs, don’t know if you’re a dog person but they are right now the red line in my life, I would definitely recommend a dog in your life if you have the ability to have them. And I am also blessed with a very patient and understanding wife. I sincerely hope you find your way in life my friend, everyone who feels alone and in darkness is not alone in that feeling. Peace to you 🤜🏼🤛🏼

[@urwahhassoon6886]

i’m 34 and it started when i was 17…half of my life have been fighting…can you imagine? as you said the KEY word is “family” you have to catch your life by teeth and nails… DO NOT LET GO

[@isbfairley6080]

God can help u just call on him he will answers

[@natevic1867]

The one person at my workplace who ended her own life was the happiest most sweetest person we knew. She was always bringing light into other peoples lives. That’s why it was the biggest shock to all of us when we heard she had taken her life. The whole office went quiet for a whole day. I cried thinking about her and I rarely cry for people I don’t love.

[@sukma5277]

Some people say ,most of cheerful person hide their pain/depression really good

[@cigsafterlana9237]

I’m soooo sorry :(

[@derederekat9051]

the deepest and most hurtful scars are hidden behind a smile.

[@knowledgehub7904]

I got tears in my eyes reading this. RIP I hope god heals whatever she was going through in her afterlife so she doesn't have to suffer there as well.

[@UserUser-in6ig]

Maybe she just drank too much that day?

[@SueCade]

So true with my friend Peter, we spent an afternoon joking about ice cream - then the following morning the police knocked on my door. I'm in tears.

[@annikaroberts4686]

I'm so sorry

[@loouuiisssss296]

So fake bro. Why the police came to you if Peter is your friend? Peter has no other family members? Peter has only one friend?

[@TheMoonThatGuards]

@@loouuiisssss296 in this case it's likely that Sue Cade was the last one to have contact with said person, which makes sense for the police to investigate, in order to determine the course of events

[@loouuiisssss296]

@@TheMoonThatGuards 1. I'm pretty sure in her story the police came to inform, not investigate. 2. The police do not investigate suicide case the way they investigate murders. Unless they find the suicide case suspicious, or someone has assisted suicide.

[@jesuswesleyramirez4165]

@@loouuiisssss296 3. shut up kiddo

[@DragonsSongStudios]

"Just because you see a smile don't think you know whats going in underneith. A smile is a valuable tool, it inspires your friends, keeps your enemies guessing, and ensures no matter what comes your way, you're the one in control" - Alastor. Hazbin Hotel

[@907Ak]

It's been almost a year since my little brother took his own life. This brought me to tears instantly. Man I miss my little brother. No note, no warning signs. Just gone, guessing he felt that life wasn't for him. For those who feel this way speak up, call somebody, anybody. Man I miss my little brother. 😔☹️

[@907Ak]

@Kevin Thach I appreciate the kind words and hope all is well with you and your siblings.

[@MisaHalit]

Tried to speak up. Told them. Everyone thinks I can't have depression. Nobody ever takes it seriously. They think I'll be fine. Time will heal everything. I have spent a long time here in this emptiness and darkness. I have no energy left to fight. I'm suffocating so badly I'll die.

[@907Ak]

@@MisaHalit keep going every day. Find peace within yourself. Pray if you believe. 🙏 ask for guidance and relief from your pain. I care about you and I've never met you. Love ya keep fighting to find yourself again.

[@louskroo453]

I miss my little brother too he took his own life may 6 2020 and I’ve lost my mind since then

[@MisaHalit]

@@907Ak Thank you for being kind 🌸 yes I do believe and pray. It's only because of God that I'll never attempt suicide. This is life. I'm trying everyday. I'm sorry about your brother I pray he's in peace. I just want you to know that you don't have your brother anymore but you have this sister and you somehow saved her. And there your brother will always live ! As a beautiful reflection whenever you'll help people this way 🌸

[@Sh3r-Bear]

In 1991, my husband & father to our 4yo son & 1yo daughter, ended his life. 32yrs of unanswered questions, not an hour goes by without him in my thoughts. Please know that you ARE loved, you are NOT alone & we’re ALL in this together! Reach out & I promise you, someone will take your hand. 🙏🏻

[@rajveerkanojiya2985]

fake story so people don't die just fake 🤥

[@edmund_mili]

Who cares😂😂😂

[@adelinogomes6122]

Thanks for your kind words...🙏✨🙏

[@Dulceria-La-Princesita]

All alone is all we are.

[@RahRoots777]

32 years of unanswered questions.. what a way to put it, bless you, thank you and Rest in peace to your loved one.

[@lisainger6751]

My daughter committed suicide in 2016, My husband's granddaughter did the same a year before that Suicidal people don't want to die, they want their way of life to die, for all their problems to vanish. My daughter said in her note, Mum, I feel like I'm going on holiday.

[@userk0jks73fq5]

That made me sad :(( condolences for your daughter and the granddaughter

[@otheraccount1270]

Holiday, i can relate to her. tears rolled down my cheeks reading the last line. i pray to god may her soul rest in peace....

[@skh5960]

😪😪

[@13Gangland]

Wack.

[@almukhlabi]

@@13Gangland Ironic that you’re a Christian yet show no empathy. It’s a shame you claim to be a servant of Allah, yet you have no shame or sympathy.

[@JANK_AF]

This could be absolutely anyone you know. Please treat everyone with kindness because you never know what they’re going through.

[@dendevis4331]

доброта здесь ни при чём, мой друг

[@glen8461]

Kindness has a lot to do with it and absolutely what you say is true.

[@hilaryelphick1353]

Depression is not a day by day thing, it’s an hour by hour existence 😢

[@Eighteen19]

Man… I know what this means…

[@kimanilestercomia1879]

Yes. It's sad that I had to know...or feel what this meant.

[@arzuugur5686]

​@@Eighteen19what does it mean? Really?

[@fuerstmetternich1997]

Just do stuff and stop staying at home all the time.

[@jeffdeutsch]

@@fuerstmetternich1997it’s so simple to people who haven’t actually been there.

[@Time8omb91]

Wanting to die, but being unable to fully go through with it because you know how it'll destroy those around you, is awful. Suffering life so others dont have to suffer without me is me living in my own personal hell. *Update* I see this post has received a little bit of attention. Because of that I just wanted to post an update. First of all, I'm still here. Secondly, though my life certainly has had it's ups and downs, things are generally trending upwards. My life has mostly stayed the same, but my perspective is slowing shifting towards being slightly less negative. I just hope that those of you who see this, just keep hanging in there. I'm with you all, maybe not physically, but spiritually. We can do hard things, like facing this life. We can do it together. Keep your heads up. But don't hesitate to reach out for help, to those close to you, or even me. I do my best to read all the comments. You have my heart.

[@Tharzic]

This

[@TheRuckus-ji4wt]

my exact situation.

[@chamilleleonne]

Someone actually put it into words 😕

[@Time8omb91]

@@sally_686 strangely enough, I am.

[@Time8omb91]

@@sally_686 I really appreciate that and am happy for you that things have gotten better. I'm still working on it over here. One day at a time.

[@quangcof6154]

"Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always." Rest in peace!

[@sunnybhai2551]

wonder

[@justalex3525]

I can’t count the amount of times I have written ‘Goodbye’ letters for my parents, sister, and friends. I don’t want to die, I just want to end my pain. My friends are getting married, this Friday, and my cousins are getting married, next week. I should feel really happy. Instead, I’m just feeling really depressed. I thought I was being selfish for not feeling excited for either of the events, but that’s not the case. My mental health has come to the point where I feel so drained, exhausted, and just so done with everything.

[@Remus-z6y]

I feel you, I’ve been there. Seeing life happen while you have this weird empty feeling in you, eating away at you at all hours. I never wanted to wake up from sleeping, always disappointed when I did wake up that I didn’t die in my sleep. I drank to numb the thoughts. I’ve been there, writing that letter to my friends and family. Not knowing how to explain why I feel this way even though they always gave me love and care. Hyping myself up in the bathroom to commit, only to have my dog walk in dropping her toy at my feet, making me break down in tears because I couldn’t believe what I’d do to her. I’ve been in that spot. I’ve gotten better, I’ve made life better. It’s a lot of fucking work that won’t feel good at the time, but if you get through it, life gets better. The exhaustion decreases, you feel like you’re apart of life again. I won’t lie, there’s flare ups, it’s a part of you. You can manage it if you learn how though. I went to therapy to learn, changed aspect of my life that helped it grow, and I was open to those who loved me. There’s hope my friend, I’m glad you did not follow through with those letters. I know that probably doesn’t mean much coming from a stranger from the internet, but I mean it. Don’t give up the fight to experience life. Your depression will convince you it’s not worth to see, it’s a lie.

[@justalex3525]

@@Remus-z6y I’m really sorry about what you went through. Honestly, I’m so glad that your dog came in, when they did. I’m glad that you decided not to do it. Your family & friends love you. My schoolfriend died, last December, due to mental health, and that’s had a massive impact on my life. Last year, I sent her a message, saying, “Happy Birthday!”, and she replied with, “Thank-you, lovely! ❤️”. I didn’t reply, as I felt there was no need. I regret that so much. I didn’t know that she was gonna do that, but I regret not checking on her.

[@blockedmedusa1737]

@@justalex3525 I wish you the only the best

[@justalex3525]

@@blockedmedusa1737 Thank-you, that really means a lot. Sorry for the slow reply, it’s been a really hard time. I wish you the best, and I hope you’re ok.

[@Hanibul_Lecktor]

Nothing anyone can say will change how you feel. That's all on you, just know, you are not alone. Life is about struggle and moments of peace, laughter etc. Find something that makes you happy, carry on. A relationship won't make you happy, it will just show you you're still depressed and make things worse. Don't do that to yourself or anyone else, find peace first. Then you can live, or just stay depressed. In the end, it's 100% up to you. Nobody can make you happy, but you. Good luck, it doesn't get easier, only harder as your depression pushes loved ones away.

[@extremewriter2553]

My late sister-in-law took her own life nearly 4 years ago. In the hours before she did it, she was joking around with her father and playing cards with him in his room. Afterwards she popped the shelf out of her closet and hung herself there. And her mother found her when she went into her room to wake her up for school. She was 14. Nobody noticed anything at all because she was laughing, joking around, and being herself the night before. You never know what people are fighting behind their grins and laughs. Always reach out, even if you don’t think it will help, it does.

[@6.4inAz]

All you can see is that puppy dog face before they go..

[@user-vi4xy1jw7e]

How do you know to reach out if they're acting normal

[@ebbys]

@@user-vi4xy1jw7e just try to not assume that everyone is okay + when you ask someone how they are doing, try to really mean it and ask them on a deeper level.

[@smsmsmsmsmsm]

Well fuck I’m crying. I never cry, let alone at KZbin comments but I think this hit way too close to home. I’m so, so sorry you and your family had to go through that. I was intently suicidal and attempted around that age (peaking at 13) until I sought help privately and no one ever knew, not even my family, until many years later, since I was the always the joker of the family. The past 5 years since then haven’t been all great but showed me that life is nothing if worth living. I can’t imagine actually going through the pain of losing someone as young as your family member. I just wished that every depressed person knew it gets better and that you will soon have some of the happiest moments of your life after recovering. Thanks for sharing and rest in peace

[@pHofsevn]

May she rest in peace ❤❤❤

[@oeheaven]

As someone who has lost a lot of friends and a brother to suicide here are two things to look out for: 1. giving away possessions 2. Being really happy before it when they were real sad before

[@vklkg5486]

The thing about suicide and depression is that nobody really takes it serious until it’s too late. And that’s the sad truth. I’m hurting but I’m just the type of person who won’t speak. They ask you are you okay and you tell them yea they believe you and just keep going about their day. Makes you feel like they don’t even care. But when it happens now they wanna care to the upmost. Family friends they’re all the same when it comes to this. But that’s why you gotta care for yourself even if nobody else does you have to learn to be you’re own support. It’s harder than it sounds but it’s possible and those who suffer from depression can benefit from this the most. Learning that yes there will be days where u feel alone and like giving up. But you have to always remember you are never alone and the only way you can give up is if you allow yourself to. Be a warrior don’t let a thought pattern control you. You are more than the depression you are more than suicide you are more than sorrow. To emerge from the darkness as bright as the sun is the goal. God is always with you, since you are always with yourself so you have nothing to worry about. Never succumb always fight. The easy way out is just as pathetic as the life you think you live. The feeling of looking back at you in those darks times in your life, and being able to proudly say you’ve overcame that is a feeling that is unmatched. You’ve conquered the beast inside and now you are the true king of your temple.

[@KeweenawPatriot]

who cares? If someone wants to die, who are you to stop them. Run your own life. We don't weak people.

[@vklkg5486]

@@KeweenawPatriot You are the scum of the earth. You are just as weak as someone who wants to commit suicide. You lack understanding and are inconsiderate. If the world doesn’t need weak people than it definitely doesn’t need you 😭.

[@a.thiago3842]

@@KeweenawPatriot Look alzheimer Joe Biden, you might not care, but videos like this is where you gonna find people with real depression. Just be aware that a single word from you can cause serious consequences.

[@PK-qv5kv]

Im thinking about the second reason and what would be the reason

[@cornixdemetrius7883]

Difference between sadness and depression is that sadness can be fixed with an entertaining activity. Depression can only be distracted. It always comes back, whenever anyone turns away, or you remain alone, the thoughts always come back.

[@AzulNR-t2f]

So much truth.

[@john-5ty]

And how do I get rid of it?

[@aleksandra7696]

​@@john-5tyThe best way is to go to the psychiatrist or any specialist of mental health. They can help with journey of getting rid of deppresion. It is really worth. It's also good to talk about it with others to undestand that you're not alone with it, even if you might think like that

[@jakesherman8080]

@@john-5tyyou can’t get rid of depression, I deal with it all the time, you need to learn and accept to live with it and find ways to distract yourself and keep yourself happy, remember it will always be there but you can make the choice to fight back and make sure it doesn’t win and take away the good things in life

[@datguyisandog6794]

@@john-5tytherapy mostly, but you can’t just go into it thinking that all you have to do is attend those sessions and you’ll be ok, all therapists do is give you the tools to dig yourself out of the pit, you’re still gonna have to dig at the end of the day, but it’s gonna make it easier. You also have to go in with the mindset of actually wanting to get over the depression, which I know sounds weird, but I took some therapy sessions around 2 years ago and found I wasn’t really ready to move on from my depressed state, I hated myself and loved to revel in it and kind of romanticized the struggle in a way and enjoyed feeling like shit every day. After I got myself out of that mindset and started doing more with friends I mostly got out of it, it comes back every now and again but it doesn’t seem to last anymore than a week or two now. TLDR: therapy and a good mindset, or antidepressants

[@karlbates1172]

The thing is that you never want to people to know you’re depressed or suicidal, as the stigma is hard to wash off and deal with…you’ll smile to people even when you’re tearing up inside

[@vedranromac1046]

Exactly. But it seems to me that there is also a deep inner reason, as if you are terrified to get out of that one role you are playing, which hides what is happening inside you. And I think it's not just a matter of acting, so like now you're going to expose yourself. It's as if that role you're playing is, in fact, your own lifeboat for your entire life. And you feel that if you step out of the role, you've left that boat. And if you leave the boat, you will drown. I would also dare to say this: you will not drown because there is no one out there to save you. You will drown because deep down you don't believe you are worthy of being saved. And that is the biggest internalized lie of all, ever.

[@kizutaitsuki]

The worst thing is that no one notices it until it happened.

[@RageUnchained]

Because people will just tell you to stop being negative. Or when you do express that you want to die they tell you to stop being dramatic. Then one day you’re gone.

[@Quickword15]

​​​@@RageUnchainedexactly this. Plus the lack of sympatheticness especially from those closest to them just ends up making them feel even worse, since its constantly reinforced to them that their issues are not valid.

[@RageUnchained]

@@Quickword15 yup. Been there many times. Have to remind myself I’m worth it every day

[@meatloverspizza23]

@@Quickword15*empathy, sympathy is toxic

[@RageUnchained]

@@meatloverspizza23 empathy and sympathy are hand in hand. If you don’t empathize you can’t sympathize

[@dollarstoremark]

When my best friend was actively suicidal, he was very outgoing and fun to be with, he attracted everyone. He seemed so happy because he was literally living each day like it was his last. Nothing mattered to him, because he didn't know if he would see tomorrow. You would've never guessed how much he was suffering, being he was so brave and confident. And now that he's finally fully healed, he's actually quite shy and anxious. But he's healthy and truly happy now.

[@mcp866]

The good ending :)

[@SpideyFan2002]

Nice to hear that he's doing well.

[@ViolentGenius]

Sometimes people learn to deal with the pain, but the feeling always lingers.

[@danieloluwapelumiaderibigb1472]

*Sigh*

[@gereksizbirisii]

It gave me the goosebumps :< So glad that he's doing better now!

[@abdelhamidsherif4995]

Also, to those who think that suicide is selfish; I cannot forget that reddit thread on suicide where one guy was saying that he keeps deferring suicide, not because that he was hopeful that his life may change, but because he had some loans and his parents were cosigning parties, so he said he was working as hard as he could to pay back those loans first as he didn't want to leave his parents both grieving and in debt...... there are ones who defer suicide because they don't want to harm their families, or because they need to continue their roles as caregivers while, deep down, they are dying.

[@sakesan6828]

Suizid is selfish, there is no way to discuss about. Its just simple. If you are in a situation, where suizid is the fastest option to end the pain you do in this moment what its best for you - stop the pain. But if you kill yourself and you have a family people where love you or if you are even responsible for a child etc. You are a m*f assh.l. Allright. ? I suffer from bipolar disorder since iam 11. iam 28 now and i tried two times to kill myself and its a wonder i did not die. Since two years i have a son. My depressions are under control now. And i had one hard time where i was thinking about suizide.. but i was strong, because i did swear to myself i will never try to killself again, because iam responsible now, i have a child and he need me and he needs a father who loves him. There is no option. Fight and do the best what you can do. And time will reward you. Cause you get stronger and stronger. Times will come where it goes down again, but if you have a victory about your hardest fall, you will do it again. Stand up try it again. For me important. If you have no one where needs you, or will miss you etc. For sure then its okay if you commit suicide. But its always important to not forget, suicide is not a solution in 90% of all cases its only a irreparable end of your existence including all your problems. Some people have cancer or other terrible illness, pain etc… and if they have no way to recover. Its also totally okay to choose this way. This will be the 10% from above. Don’t destroy the live of others just because you want do finish your problems…

[@abdelhamidsherif4995]

@@sakesan6828 That is a classic case of "look at me, I am stronger than you".... you have a son "so I could assume you have a family", meaning that you have something to live for; there are others who have nothing and there are others who kept fighting and fighting till they had no energy left; be glad and thank God that you still have energy left in you to stay alive, others weren't that lucky and weren't that privileged.... every case is different, so, again, be grateful

[@nonkululekotembo1652]

Every delay I've had has been because of others " maybe not this month, it's so and so's birthday", "oh man, so and so's going through a hard time. Let me not make things worse for them"....

[@Flimpofloempieflomp]

@@nonkululekotembo1652 You good now bro?

[@RaduP3]

@@nonkululekotembo1652 just because I am human, and you are human, I am glad you are still here. God bless you

[@AlanAvis]

The brightest smile hides the deepest pain.

[@shun8104]

I keep coming back to this whenever I feel suicidal.

[@ale_30341]

I had suicidal thoughts since I was 14 years old until I told my school counselor I didn't want to live anymore... I've struggled so much with the health care system here in the US. Pills only made me feel stupid, numb and spacey. Thankfully, one of my jobs recommended to go see a NATUROPATHIC DOCTOR. I was extremely skeptical my depression wouldn't go away. Thankfully it went away. 🥹 Now I'm really HAPPY to say that I'm living my best fucking life without depression and those stupid antidepressants!!!! Please be safe!!! You will get through this!!! ❤

[@drhruthikrhruthik4322]

​@@ale_30341 Sister can you help me I tell my problems if you agree?

[@maxoupichou888]

@@ale_30341but not me

[@maxoupichou888]

Me too

[@ale_30341]

@@maxoupichou888 what not you? ☹️

[@buntysonawane5750]

"Thousands of geniuses live & die undiscovered either by themselves or by others" - Mark Twain

[@Lo-FiChillVibes]

The opposite to depression is self-expression. So when a depressed person isn't "acting" depressed, the person is self-expressing his/her light soul - when the person goes in a depression it's when the person isn't expressing him/herself. We all need to start to be kinder to each other and embrace happiness and kindness.

[@GriefTourist]

Great quote

[@marinaburikina5939]

😢😢😢

[@Punicia]

If everyone is genius no one is genius. Come on, that’s narcissism

[@rajveerkanojiya2985]

OMG GOATED quote

[@XxTwiztidxX697]

To those who may not understand.. The relief of knowing the pain will come to an end gives a euphoria.. So they can appear very happy for a little while, talk to them, love them, don't judge them.. Always the chance that'll be the last time you get to talk to them..

[@johnton6488]

Sorry for a technical note - I agree but we do not know the time gap between shot videos and suicides.

[@jamesseth4710]

this need more likes

[@Verårtu]

so true I felt more alive when I was preparing for it.

[@hotfeva9843]

Yea sure pal

[@abhijitsaha9373]

@@hotfeva9843 can you help us ?

[@TheReal_FishFins]

That poor toddler has no father. So sad.

[@21minute]

As someone who attempted four times, the state where you finally decided to do it is scary. First, you become blank. Then, you plan when and how. After that, you wait and then act normal. Basically the mindset is "I'm gonna die soon, so I'll make the best out of my remaining hours."

[@Hayduk_808]

Battling demons is difficult, be part of high energy and life be great.

[@ibinkyz]

​@@healthyliam6803you seem to be bad at living n stuff

[@healthyliam6803]

@@ibinkyz anotha one bites tha dusttt… 🌟

[@rgo583]

@21minute I can relate 😞

[@Contraltissimo]

What does becoming blank feel like?

[@weirdo24-7]

"Sometimes the pain is too much, and sometimes everything is not enough" "It's hard to look forward to tomorrow when today and yesterday look the same" "You just don't understand" I do understand, not because I've heard it but because I know the pain. I spent alot of time helping/listening to suicidal and depressed people. It's not an easy thing to do but I have yet to hear of anyone of them commit suicide. They all still suffer and hide their depression though, but I understand why. People often compare strengths but they never understand this type of weakness and mental illness. Medication only suppresses it but the love of people around them makes depression easier to ignore, and ignore the triggers. Being alone and being left alone for too long is not a good idea.

[@tghost7721]

Thank you for sharing and I Hope you're doing well today. Just wanted to let you know that you are here for a reason and know that someone cares for you💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 Have a blessed day 🕊🕊🕊

[@manher4335]

What do I care of your pain? Lol the world doesn't. Bite the bullet and solider on

[@elizabethcremeans731]

What’s even more sad is a depressed person helping another depressed person to make it to the next day

[@weirdo24-7]

@@elizabethcremeans731 It's common for people to associate with who they identify with.

[@YTUA1983]

Thank you, somebody that understands!

[@Emptylord]

I think the biggest barrier of understanding for people who aren't or haven't experienced depression is that depression isn't feeling sad. It's not the opposite of euphoria or ecstasy; it's not sadness jacked up to 11. Sadness is an emotional response - it's healthy. We're meant to experience it. People with depression may/often experience sadness as an emotional response to their depression, and depression may develop as a result of chronic sadness - but they aren't synonyms.

[@Ghostyfrost9688]

This is true. It’s far more than just sadness. It’s more of a deep, deep emptiness

[@maurannlyons5420]

Well said

[@Ice.muffin]

@@Ghostyfrost9688 Exactly, exactly.. And it's 10000% impossible to understand by those who haven't been there not by far, I've seen it countless times... It's beyond exasperating.

[@10byrdie]

Yes! It is literally feeling like you lost your soul. You are the walking dead. I have zero emotion which makes life worthless when you cannot feel it or enjoy it. I’d honestly rather be sad to at least feel alive.

[@rickestsanchez1423]

Sadness is seasonal, what remains is emptiness . I understand this shit, we are here to transcend our hole into light

[@zabrodski]

man I cannot stop crying every time i watch this video. remember that you have a reason on this planet. maybe right now you don’t feel like it, but eventually you will find your purpose.❤️

[@CameronFox08]

What is even sadder is that some of these people who commited suicide had children Imagine growing up with just one parent it feels like a big chunk of your life is missing I feel terrible for them and their children must have been a lot going on to do that😢

[@BethMcCarthy]

Truly an honour to have been a small part of this incredible campaign and to have my voice associated with such an important message. My heart goes to the families and loved ones of those featured in this film and to anyone else affected by this subject.

[@juliandorange1450]

Beth, you should record this cover! I love your work

[@marionchesneau1459]

Yes ! You should definitly record this cover ! I love your voice filled with emotion. This spot made me discover you art.

[@givaldorolim7013]

@@juliandorange1450 i agree

[@phoebexxlouise]

💓💓💓

[@ac.l1467]

por favor grava un un cover completo de esta canción, tu voz es hermosa.

[@juansalgado6212]

You know what, as I get older, I realize how miserable and difficult living is. It’s a rarity someone makes it to the natural end in one piece both physically and mentally. Have fun everyone. Be safe.

[@imover9999]

But it can also be rewarding. To learn from those hardships and grow stronger from them. To look back and realize all you've overcome. To look forward to challenge as a way to become better. It's all about perspective. And I've been through hell in my life, so I'm not just talking out of my arse like someone who has never had problems. The best thing we can do is treat our children with love and make sure they never go through abuse or negative childhood experiences like that. Raise them to be mentally healthy and they'll never have to deal with the stuff we have had to. God bless and stay safe.

[@B888-h2o]

Same, I’m so tired wow. Life is drowning me.

[@fibonaccisequins4637]

We didn’t ask to be here. Feels weird when you think of it that way…it’s why I’m pretty sure I’m not having kids. People act like life is this amazing thing and it truly can be but so much if it…is hard. I’m lucky because my life is pretty good, outwardly, but the older I get the more I realize how rare that seems to be. So many people are born into broken homes and horrific situations. It was thrust upon them and yeah it’s all so weird. I don’t think life has to be as hard and painful as it is though…I think a lot of people at the top make decisions that make them richer and make the lives of working class people unnecessarily hard. Life can be beautiful but the way it’s heading…we’re gonna destroy not only ourselves, but so much of the beauty and nature around us 😔

[@fibonaccisequins4637]

@@imover9999 It’s hard to do that when society is so fucked up.

[@juansalgado6212]

@@fibonaccisequins4637 completely agree. The way the world is structure only favors the top, while the masses suffer. The planet enough resources for everyone to live prosperously and healthy, but it will never happen. It cuts into the profits. I’m on the same boat, children is not even a thought in my mind.

[@ClaudeVanguard]

It's crazy how a few words can change a lot of things. It was mid 2020, a few minutes pass 6pm, i was in my shed humming to my favorite tunes with my earbuds on while looking for a rope to hang myself later that evening when my brother suddenly showed up outside the shed, asked me if I'm okay and apologized for everything then invited me for dinner. Soon I'll be attending his wedding as his best man.

[@tiberagamer6165]

dont do anything again your pricious ok idk who you are but you surrve a purpose

[@laurencedelves]

you and your brother are very great & kind. I'm proud of you, even though as a stranger :D

[@tiberagamer6165]

@@laurencedelves yea msn they surve a purpose

[@Harry-fk5of]

I don't know what your brother did, but don't ever let anyone have that much power over you again

[@iamwooth1729]

​@@Harry-fk5ofI don't think this person was saying it's his brother's fault. Even a little sibling argument or bad attitude cause be blown out of proportion when you're not in the right state of mind and he probably realized that when his brother apologized and invited him for dinner. Siblings fight all the time but I don't think anyone expect things to end in such a way.

[@KelvinMukua-i3v]

Watching this and feeling so sad and broken inside.. How I wish i was dead fr....i dont wanna live anymore

[@-ivan-1378]

Never give your suicidal friend a chance to be alone. Never leave their side. Be sensitive with what you say about and with them. Mention them as you're happy. Show them that you truly care about their existence. Show them that they are truly loved by someone in this world. Edit: What I'm trying to point out is that generally you should support those who are suicidal (OBVIOUSLY) I never said that they should never seek medical attention, I never fully stated that you should babysit them 24/7, I never said that you should just devote your life to that person and that person only forever, no. My message is for those people that do not know how to handle having friends with suicidal tendencies. Yes you should seek medical attention and I even think that that's the first thing you should say to them or help them achieve. Regardless, my main point is not to leave them be and to just call it a day by saying "stop being this because this very bad."

[@buddy3635]

This

[@bonky8043]

Your love for them isn't usually why they end their lives. It is usually their hate for themselves that causes them to act on their suicidal urges

[@abhijitsaha9373]

Hello there. I am Abhijit from kolkata, India. My family is going through a tough situation. My father took a loan from a local lender during the covid. During covid he and I lost our jobs. After that my father had a brain stroke, which made the situation even worse. We do not have money to survive. No one is helping us. We need to save the house and my papa. Please help. 🙏🙏🙏

[@-ivan-1378]

@@bonky8043 That doesn't change the fact that just by being there for them can truly help them recover in the long run. The best solution is love and effort.

[@hotfeva9843]

🤣🤣🤣sure pal

[@FatherMcKenzie66]

My sister’s boyfriend was a theater actor and he always looked happy, we used to watch movies and play videogames all together, he committed suicide last Christmas while his family was celebrating. He didn’t looked depressed or anything, just a bit stressed, he faked his happiness very well. I still remember the last time we played together, we were playing Half Life 2: Deathmatch, It was 18 December. He was like a brother to me

[@seanmoses5225]

He probably didn’t fake his happiness in the moment. People can be happy but still be depressed in their minds.

[@queenieburgers50]

I'm pro choice on suicide, I see that as a right we all can have, but I gotta say, choosing his moment to be on one of the biggest holidays and without ever discussing his plans with the family so they aren't shocked by his decision is one of the most selfish things I've read. As much as we have that right to go, those we love should be aware to get their goodbyes and certainly not be done on holidays or special get togethers.

[@noahsylvester8994]

@@queenieburgers50 your ignorance here is crazy. Knowing people who tried as well as myself. The amount of pain you have to be in to try to end it all is so great your families reaction is so irrelavent and small to yourself and your impulsivity. Why tf would they discuss it with their family who would stop it. Also pro choice on suicide would lead to so many people including myself that could/would be dead that didnt get to reach the other side of the tunnel, where one regrets that action and is thankful to be alive.

[@queenieburgers50]

@Noah Sylvester as someone who has been dealing with chronic pain and depression my entire life, suicide has been talked about with my family and doctors often so there wouldn't be any surprises if it happened, or if I planned on going to a clinic for doctor assisted death. The more it's openly discussed, the less family members are caught off guard and obsessively wondering what could have been done or why they even made the decision. Eventually, people understand the decision why and they will stop involuntarily hospitalizing at some point.. They don't want their loved one to be suffering. We didn't ask to be here, it's our right to go. Talking about it is something those who are in the chronic pain community do more openly than others, so maybe it's shocking to you that I'd respect someone's decisions or speak to family about it but if you ever see other comments similar to mine, you'll understand that that's probably a chronic pain patient. It's not always an impulsive decision, shit builds and builds for weeks, months, years and one more thing can have them follow through. Throughout that time, plans are being made, and throughout that time, discussions can also be made. Kind of strange that you didn't realize I was saying what I had based on *my* experience, so not everyone has had the same experiences *you* have had, your ignorance here is crazy.

[@unoqualunque5484]

@@noahsylvester8994 yes but the thing is your death isn't just your death, you basically kill all your most beloved parents by doing that

[@markostankovic5839]

For all those who couldn't carry the burden of their suffering anymore, I wish you are in a happy and peaceful place now.

[@datface7615]

Gracias

[@mrsane3117]

I hope afterlife have internet so those ppl can reply u.

[@realMarkholla]

From a person who wants to die, having consciousness after death is the last thing we want. We want all thoughts to end.

[@markostankovic5839]

@@realMarkholla I hear you and understand you, it's a reasonable reaction. Don't let that beast get you.

[@markostankovic5839]

@@TheEntireWuTangClan why?

[@enlightened387]

My mom called me at 9:30 pm when I was still at office. Though it was an unusual time for her to call me but I didn’t answer the phone as I was busy. The next I got to know she drowned her to death by deliberately jumping onto a 100 feet deep canal. To this day, I regret not answering her phone. Maybe she just wanted few minutes of support, empathy…someone who could listen to her and that could’ve calmed her down. Please talk to people around you who are going through this. People who are nicest and laugh on smallest matters are the ones who are shattered the most

[@6u99y]

damn...

[@You-Tuber2024]

Are you okay? (Genuine question)

[@tails20342]

i'm sorry to hear that :(

[@scarletmasked3324]

So you helped her made decision?

[@skilldiff260]

Everyone who made it far, thank you for staying alive

[@तेजसरजनीशखरे]

Welcome 💓🤗

[@invertedc]

Damn, this hit differently

[@Blick405]

For what though really? Lol

[@Knight-rg2bg]

Thank you this brought me to tears honestly.

[@vrmax1919]

What dont even know you fam but ill take cash for my good work