Suicide || Spoken Word

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[@ClaytonJennings]

You say I save you when it's actually you guys saving me. I hope this helps someone out there. Love you all. All poems, vids and novels: www.ClaytonJennings.com Have I been able to help you? Support my channel here: app.moonclerk.com/pay/2qswhhel8db9 Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/3HM2KNmxuQ4SS3A3sI5Lez Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/artist/clayton-jennings/1494243865 Amazon Music: tinyurl.com/y5u4hxc3 Instagram: instagram.com/claytonjennings1/

[@shanf5027]

Clayton Jennings I said my first prayer to god 2 weeks ago. Thankyou

[@mindblowerex723]

Clayton Jennings hello I have to deal with winter depression and I almost took my own life in December of both 2016,2017,2018 and you’ve helped me through the last 2 year and I just want to say thank you for helping me stay in the right mind.

[@christiannowakowski4607]

Clayton I want to end it I broke up with my girlfriend and I dont wanna live and I dont have as many reasons to live as I do to kill myself

[@damiansawyer5803]

😭😭😭 think you so much

[@esther3193]

Clayton Jennings thank you

[@bthub3216]

Ur the reason my suicide never happened I swear I love you

[@Amber_Exander_LunaRaine]

Mine as well

[@bthub3216]

Amber Bell I’m so glad he makes these songs

[@bthub3216]

x rapfeels we are lucky he’s here

[@bthub3216]

x rapfeels I’m from the uk what about u

[@xrapfeels3791]

Ozzie Murray Definitely, his work helps me so much. I hope i get to meet him one day honestly but I’m from the U.S.

[@ameliaperry8554]

Clayton.... your mental health is so important to me, your family and your fans...... you're such an inspiration to so many! Keep fighting on!

[@mizawesome2835]

This made me sob. You don't know me, but you're here for the world, and I'll always be here for you.

[@lightningmoonphoenix7695]

MizAwesome I second that

[@duck_yy]

I second that too

[@georgeswanepoel883]

Me to

[@mickeythedankserepin796]

Me as well

[@meredith3403]

“but i do this for that massachusetts girl with a stutter / skipping in the lunch line isn’t the only thing that makes her a cutter” wow. just wow. that hit deep

[@ClaytonJennings]

You're one of the few who got it. Hidden meanings in many lines in many of the poems.

[@meredith3403]

Clayton Jennings thank you clayton. your words and videos mean the world to me💗

[@christianmclachlan4715]

I thought some lines had hidden meanings. . . How are you by the way? I could vent about my life but it's not doing anything other than waste my breath and potentially your time so I ask: How are YOU, Clayton?

[@paigevasquez2424]

@@ClaytonJennings I catch the hidden meanings in your poems. You've saved us and we save you. Your words hit my heart in ways I never thought could be possible. Thank you Clayton for all that you do, I don't know if you know this but I'm grateful for you. So many of us here are grateful for you.

[@bostonemily617]

🙏💜

[@serg_lupescu]

Needed this! God bless you Clayton for all he’s doing through you!

[@ohnono3097]

Amen!

[@sleepforever9793]

"Don't throw flowers then when you're throwing poison ivy now" that hit me really hard, the fact that you have the strength to share even a sliver of your life, we all would miss you and love you

[@mistyellis9201]

Thank you Clayton. I don’t know you. None of us really do. But just know we are praying for you and you can get through this. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Don’t allow others to bring you down. Just think of your beautiful daughter and your father before you make that decision.

[@AbdulHakim-is1yj]

Misty Ellis short

[@AbdulHakim-is1yj]

Misty Ellis short

[@coughindog4577]

Misty Ellis, Bless you too! x

[@zoemann8042]

i pray for your safety. thanks to you i don’t feel alone. please do what you need to for your mental health. we are not an obligaton, you and your family are the priority ♥️

[@revolutionaryofficial3816]

I just want to say thank you. I’ve dealt with anxiety and depression for years now. I kept fighting my own fights, but I would always lose. This speaks to me. You speak to me. So thank you for saving my life more than once. Thank you.

[@iiroseack4818]

ive had anxiety at the age 8 depression at 7

[@CBrezzy_]

Clayton thank you so much I just came from my therapist about my sudical thoughts thank you. God bless you.

[@laurazucchiatti8761]

How are you doing now?

[@indyernest4933]

"Goodbye world, I might just die tonight"

[@EXT_Cryptic]

Please tell me you didn't

[@kimeshareynolds2042]

Please reply 🥺are you okay? ????

[@kaedenceherr3215]

No no no, please

[@enochhernandez7649]

I had never realized the burden your popularity carries. "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9

[@velvettsmith8131]

This hit too close to home. I loved it Clayton ❤️

[@horrorqueen1238]

I've gotten so used to being depressed that I hardly recognized the pain everyone else can see in my eyes anymore. I cry everyday. Can't believe it's been six years since I've ever felt anything related to happiness. You're amazing and I don't know what you've been through or what anyone else has been through but no matter what there is always someone and something to live for.

[@purplelove6969]

Clayton thank you... You saved me from a really dark place that I was in. You saved me from suicide more then once. So thank you so much. Thank you. Good bless you.

[@marissagarza7368]

Jinx Jinx keep on fighting. I believe in you

[@purplelove6969]

@@marissagarza7368 thank you and I will

[@laurazucchiatti8761]

Keep fighting

[@Krystin7]

May God give you strength and comfort tonight, keep being the great man/ father you are. I wish i could let you know truly, the positive impact you had in my life. I genuinely felt some peace at mind with my anxiety. I prayed for my anxiety to lessen and let go of it and see thru his eyes. That night opened my eyes more than i can explain into words. 5 years ago my brother was killed, and since then I’ve had such bad anxiety. and just from your video , i was able to realize i can pray for my anxiety to lessen. I was so trapped i didn’t realize i could ask for that. So , from your video you brought me closer to God. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, for sharing your struggles, for sharing the raw version of life. I can only hope God gives you comfort and peace tonight and u know that you are doing amazing things for people all around the world. God bless you forever Clayton ❤️

[@nevergiveup4422]

You can't save people 24/7. Any mental health professional will tell u that u need to separate work from private life However, you are reading texts and emails every single day. You can't continue to do this on your own if u even want to continue. I feel sorry that you are so overwhelmed by this anyone would. I am working in mental health and without taking proper self-care you would end up with job burnout and possible depression.

[@kayahwright9916]

How could anyone dislike this?! This is so good and really touched me. Sobbing through the whole thing. WE LOVE YOU CLAYTON !!💘💘

[@krystalcolburn9050]

2:28 i think he might be talking about me. I sent him those exact words. Oh shit. It really is true tho. He had saved me so many times

[@ramofnc]

Well im glad your still hear

[@krystalcolburn9050]

@@ramofnc Yeah. Lifes been shit but im working on fixing it

[@kenziex4941]

I don’t know you. Obviously. But I’m so glad your still here. I’m so sorry you were ever made to feel low enough as to contemplate your own life. Stay strong❤️

[@krystalcolburn9050]

@@kenziex4941 thank you. Ive gone through some bullshit but i bet you have to. Hopefully you stay strong to

[@kenziex4941]

Krystal Colburn We all go through things. They just make us stronger. I may not know you, but I’ll listen to you if you ever need someone💯🖤

[@bqwadseertg]

I know when I see that you've posted a video similar to this one that I'm going to cry, and here I am. I try to keep how I'm feeling deep inside my mind because I know my parents and friends wouldn't know how to handle it. You've helped me so much. Thank you, Clayton.

[@anzalameerah6540]

Please don't do that. Let it out. Keeping things bottled inside will only hurt you.please don't do that

[@RosieDuckie-ut4vy]

This made me cry.. I really needed this.. Thank you for everything Clayton. I hope everything gets better. Don't give up yet..

[@jessikabilby3980]

"If you could keep your personal struggles quiet, yea that would be great. We'd rather see you smile and read us a verse.. I bet the same people will throw flowers at my hearse." I have a feeling that went over some heads but that hit differently. That alone says a lot.

[@conormooney1031]

Claytons here for us through all our hardships, he doesnt know us personally but what he does means everything to some people, but whos there for him, nobody there to pull him through, show this incredible man support and respect, hes saved lives and thats facts

[@juliakeehn7848]

you have made me not look at life the negative side. thank you

[@theforever29mom47]

Here’s a word for you that my spirit wants to let you know “ And let us not be weary in well doing, for in due season, we shall reap, if we faint not”. Galatians 6:9. What your doing is brave, God sees the warrior in you, God is with you always. Tell them stupid demons to go back to hell. Fight the good fight! Praise God your a Bold and willing vessel. Jesus wept, Jesus hurt. He knew the pain of the people. And now you feel the burden of people. That’s why he is using you for this broken generation!! It’s hard, but there is only a remnant in these last days. You need to see that you are a warrior. Pray, keep praying God’s word, and the angels will come to fight the demons off! We Christians are all in it together! Don’t give up!! God bless you and your family!!!

[@atlas_end3791]

Clayton you have no idea just how much your poetry holds me together. Your the reason why I’m still here

[@katsbyz]

Clayton, I can only imagine the burden you carry with your calling. Please know you are loved and prayed for by me and many others. I continue to ask God to provide you with strength and grace to keep on doing His will. Blessings to you

[@savagesmilemore8824]

I been depressed I just wanna give up on life I need some talk to

[@esther3193]

Isaiah Parker me too. Hold on

[@kaylatyus7366]

I'm here

[@horrorqueen1238]

Isaiah Parker I know how you feel.

[@breakthesilence3406]

Hey bro what's up

[@cakeisgreat71]

I know how you feel because I feel the same. I look at the world and cry because it’s so beautiful and I wish it wasn’t sometimes because then it would be easier to end it. Please look at the world, look at the people who love you. If you can’t talk to them talk to me

[@smokingpreach1038]

Love you Clayton praying for you brother, glory to God forever.

[@chihuahuabently95]

I really relate. Thank you for not holding it all in Clayton. It helps to know I'm not alone.

[@gemmaberne1538]

you’re so strong. and you have helped so many people without knowing it. i know you’re hurting. and i would do anything to take the pain away. but it does get better. although you may not see this, just know that i have watched your poetry over and over. you have helped me. and millions more. you are the reason why others hearts are beating. believe in yourself. don’t give up. you are so inspirational. there aren’t enough thank yous in the world i could send you for it to have enough meaning. but from every piece of my heart, thank you Clayton. 🙏❤️

[@gvtgaming9769]

Clayton your videos have helped me through so so much, I have gotten so close to pulling that trigger but another one of your videos are published, I love what you do man. Everything you do helps so many people just like me, I’ve been though hell and back but because of your videos and your help I have been able to stand up against my enemies and it’s hard but there’s always something that pulls me up out of the rut I fall in. Idk what I would do with out your videos.

[@sahmayawilliams9854]

I held a kinfe in my hand and was going to kill my self because of how my family is be treating but when you sang this song i am still alive right now thank you love and respect

[@peteralmeida2626]

I was going to do that

[@justinknitter6057]

Wow, thank you Clayton so much. Don't ever stop what you're doing please. We all love you man. Thank you, from all that you've helped in life.

[@natecard1313]

Your videos are what saved me from suicide and I am thankful that I came across your channel thank you

[@karenstaten2992]

Thank you very much. I have been depressed for way too long. This is really helping me. I have thought about suicide for a while now, but you make me not want to do it. Thanks

[@GEORGIOUMUSIC]

To whoever is reading this. I pray you quit overthinking, replaying failed scenarios, feeding self doubt & seeing the good in everyone but yourself. You deserve more.

[@serenityedwards4680]

You help so many people just being you. Just to know there is someone out that there that is like me too.

[@paddyconnaughton4721]

this is why I love you Clayton you say it like it is I tried to end my life but listening to your music made me realise what's important to me thank you for help saving me xx

[@Trayven-Cole]

Oh my gosh I'm crying cause I listened to it

[@PamixxBeauty]

Love you Clayton..I always say this but thank you for doing this for us, for God. God sees your struggles and the battle you're fighting everyday and He is with you always and the one reason you're still alive is because He wants you to be. Thank you again, sending love.

[@joshuatowns5471]

I swear. With no help at all. Suffering and tormenting thoughts and dreams and painful reminders I've come so close but thank God I saved these videos to me device and no lie. They play on my ringtones each call interrupts and I avoid the call to hear what you have to say. Thank you for not giving up.

[@brooklyntooker9137]

When you said last month I had thoughts of suicide, it hit me hard because I have the same thoughts every day.

[@derrickmcneal9538]

Keep your head up brother 🙏🏿 , you’re blessed.

[@wotbogpred5658]

You helped me through the bad.. these grey colors really got me mad! Like normal people never feel sad? Nah there right I’m just really messed up.. sitting in my room carving these wrists up, but I really hope one day they see me for me! Not just some loser that plays for God’s team.. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ You saved me brother! Keep up the good fight your courage helps me to keep going, we stay alive together!

[@horrorlane1596]

I’ve been listening to this a little too often....I’m in a really dark place, but listening to you slowly pulls me out of this dark hole of depression...I’ve been trying not to self harm, but that keeps getting worse and worse..I try to talk about it, but who gives a shit about my problems when everyone else has other things to worry about...You’re truly amazing Clayton.🖤 Never stop doing what you do, you help a lot of people.

[@hailleymatthews1169]

I hope you're okay clayton.... we all need you. So please stay, no matter what you go through. You're here for us so we're here for you. We love you clayton!!

[@Nico-Callahan]

you are the reason that some people are alive. God made you to speak his word and save his creations💙💛💙

[@michaylag2308]

Nobody saves anyone here, it's a chain of mutual support that forms a ladder for anyone to climb it. The base of the ladder just happens to be God. It's all a choice for each of us to decide, I'm 15 almost 16 and I've fallen in a hole and that ladder fell to me and even if I fall down a couple steps I still keep climbing. I want to thank everyone in this community because without the ladder that was formed I would not have made it to were I am today. So thank you.

[@lovelynat3324]

Clayton, I love you, you’re an inspiration. I spend so much of my time helping others and doing all I can to help people who struggle, no one knows what I suffer with. The day I found you on KZbin..I listen to you every single day. You’ve helped me so much. I wish I could be there with you in your alone times.

[@mindyedwards9184]

Clayton thank you for being so real don’t stop there’s so many people that are feeling what your feeling. I can’t imagine the weight that your feeling because so many look up to you. We are here for you. And your right sometimes it feels like the church isn’t here for us we feel outcast or that we don’t belong but I know deep down it’s the enemy trying to keeps us under and from hearing gods word. Thank you for this we know you are only human as well. We love you brother.

[@ingridapollon645]

Mercy! Those who are thinking about suicide....don't give up! GOD knows what you're going through. Hang in there! GOD has a big plan for you. Keep on the Lord because he hasn't given up on you!

[@yomstarr]

Dear Clayton you are the reason am still believing!!

[@matthewmartinez5507]

Had a really good friend take his life back in October 2018, none of u knew his struggles! The word you have put out hopefully it will get those who need to hear this, God bless you Clayton!

[@daniaraya717]

Moved me to tears. Praying for you and your work Clayton, you’re an inspiration to many including me. This hit home for me, and I’m glad you shared it. You’ve helped me through so much and I just thought you should know that. Thank you.

[@keyoshashawnterria1609]

God will all of us including you 🙏❤️❤️❤️

[@sebastianperez6785]

I love ur music keep doing what ur doing...much love❤️

[@susanmuturi8493]

I have been following you for a while now and you have been an encouragement and a comforter in my raging storms. May God continue to use you to impact my life and others. Be blessed

[@elmasloco822]

I know it's more than difficult to see the good through all the shit, but the good YOU have done, the people you've helped, is in my opinion worth it although it's impossible to truly know your pain. Don't let the fact that you can't help every single person that comes across you blind you from seeing that the good you do is tremendous. I only came across your poetry a couple days ago but it doesn't feel new, and is the crutch I need in these moments. I have no one I feel I can trust to speak with without judgement or an empty response just so they don't feel guilty. Thank you Clayton, I hope you get to read this. No need to respond I'm grateful for what you have done.

[@aaishaaa76]

Don’t throw flowers then when your throwing poison ivy now

[@sierram7057]

This helps me more than any therapist could. Thank you so much ❤️

[@ashleystacks9609]

Clayton, you have helped me and probably help a ton more people. And you deserve to be helped, you deserve someone to be there for you and to listen to your feelings and everything you really need. You deserve to be happy Clayton. Thank you for everything youve done for me❤❤

[@derangeddevlin]

Thank you, you put yourself out there and make yourself vulnerable so people like me have a chance at survival. God bless you man

[@raresuperman]

Keep doing you Sir....I greatly appreciate your hard work and due diligence ....I pray that blessings and peace follows you all the days of your life.

[@kenji1423]

I whas always being bulyd until I hated myself but you inspired me thank you for helping me and saving so many lives ❤

[@priscilla6827]

wizerd you’re beautiful the way you are. And Jesus loves and adores you.

[@kenji1423]

Pricilla Smith Thank you so much ❤

[@graciemiller2191]

Wow I just saw this now and wow. I hope you’re doing better and even when you’re helping us, take time for yourself because you’re a hero and heroes need rest and help too sometimes. Love you man

[@atlas_end3791]

I’m rewatching and the “some girl outta Boston” line just hit me cuz I don’t what he means. And the “skipping the line in the cafeteria isn’t the only thing making her a cutter” this deep aswell

[@fredkingsten5988]

When I listen, it makes feel really sad and want to cry but once this sadness goes away I never think of doing suicide.

[@xIITamyTrIcKzIIx]

So powerful - keep doing you. Thank you for sharing 💜💜

[@Shindler39]

May God Bless You my sister in Christ

[@therichie9916]

Stay strong bro...you’re still needed

[@aliceryder5998]

Woahh I love him he knows everything and explains it in every right word

[@wonderingsoul468]

Who would dislike this? Disgusting

[@user-od7hk4zu3i]

Everyone has their own tastes☺

[@amandabartlett8510]

Book_Potato and they got their reasons to dislike. Maybe it hit a little too close to home. Not disgusting at all..

[@user-od7hk4zu3i]

@@amandabartlett8510 Exactly.

[@kylemckenney9679]

unwanted they just missed the like button

[@madisonoblanc9424]

Why even say that this is an amazing inspiration

[@savagepandarilya7363]

Early squad. Ive been watching your stuff since the beginning. You are a amazing man.

[@coffeegirll]

Don't throw flowers then when you're throwing poison ivy now. What a line!❤

[@jermeywillwhite]

It’s a cruel world we live in Clayton just keeping moving forward!

[@rpfishin2542]

Awesome vid Clayton! I love your videos man! We ask you to pray for us but I want you to know that I’m praying for you!!

[@jaquezalexander3221]

I love you so much, you've helped me through a lot...

[@cpzjoker4847]

You are an amazing person Clayton you struggle just as much as us that is why we turn to you. One person who is strong enough to voice what we’re going through

[@deannamilligan312]

Thank you Clayton for everything you do, you’ve helped me through some hard times and I can’t thank you enough for that! ❤️❤️❤️

[@ssterlingdve]

...keep pushin' clayton...this was actually true...

[@dylzorz2247]

This is just wow

[@randolphderoypichardo1141]

Thank you Clayton. You helped me when I was down. It has helped me get through the thoughts of my past. Your the reason I'm still alive. I don't think I'll be here without you. Your the only man I trust.

[@ann27cuthie]

You inspire sooo many people and you save sooo much from their suicidal thoughts. We thank you, Clayton!

[@sphynix5661]

hey Clayton, I know you won't ever see this but at this point I don't know what to do with my life I been stepped on, spat on, kicked, and punched by my father there are so many days that I don't go to where I just think that he will come back into my life and do it again my father scares me the one person that I thought was supposed to protect me didn't it's always been hard for me to trust people ever since but yet unknowingly I still do, until they hurt me too I try and I try to stop cutting but all I can do to calm me down from ever wanting to runaway it hurts I know life isn't supposed to be easy but I didn't think it would be this hard either I'm just writing this to you to get some help I know that I may sound crazy but writing is one of the only ways I can get my feelings out and I am so sorry for how long this is but i hope this gets to you even if it doesn't I am just glad it is out there

[@zombieman6828]

Desmarie Sinclair if your father hits you please tell someone or if you go to school tell a teacher or someone that cares for you if you think no one cares for you. You got a lot of people who care for I care for you people don’t want a child to take their own life because people do care you just got to look

[@zombieman6828]

Desmarie Sinclair I forgot to tell you if you feel like killing your self please call the suicide hotline [phone] they will care for you

[@sphynix5661]

@@zombieman6828 he used too he's out of my life now i just scared that he'll return

[@angelasirca1854]

🙏🏻

[@stardusttribe]

God send your army of angels to protect this precious and worthy soul. Lead him to the people who will help him on his journey to healing the trauma that distorts his thoughts and causes him pain. Heal his heart and mind. Hold him close and bring him peace and comfort. Heal his father so he never abuses another. And give us the strength to forgive, as Jesus did. I ask these things in our savior Jesus' name. Amen

[@esther3193]

Sometimes you can’t help it

[@denaeriesbrandow8508]

May God Bless you Clayton May you find hope as you have given so many of us hope Thank you for sharing your struggles and victories Please NEVER GIVE UP... Blessings

[@alexisrandom2179]

the emotional videos that you make help me so much. I have been through a lot of the same things and i'm glad to know that i'm not alone

[@camrondiba7782]

Your a god dude. Keep up your in an inspiration

[@emotiondarapper6046]

Camron Diba he’s not a god, he’s just a guy trying to tell people about God

[@morningstar7896]

Emotion Da Rapper he a god to me but I understand what u saying

[@Jstrid18]

Put the phone media away brother . We love care for you , your soul is more important we all go through things . God is the GOOD Shepard He will Shepard those whose are His bro . Praying for you and that God would give you wisdom on what to do

[@annalee9281]

Clayton...Everyone here loves you and cares about what you say. You struggle too, but since you’re such an advocate and inspiration, many people take that for granted. You have your problems too but it’s great that your fans keep you going. You truly do save lives. You’re an inspiring man and God is always with you on that journey. Don’t let your demons win, they’re lying to you...I love you ❤️

[@juliannasubirias6288]

Clayton, thank you so much for everything that you are doing. I discovered you when I needed something to get me through. I am thankful for everything that you are putting out and the messages that you have to give the world. Keep up the great work! :)

[@yxngscan5105]

Thank you ive sufferd from depressin for the last 2 years im only 15 years old ive tried to end my life so many times and you have helped and inspired me when evere i think about ending it i watch your videos and wake up the next day can you make a video about love please❤😭

[@anzalameerah6540]

Please do not do it your stronger than this I promise. You'll survive this. We're all here for you we care

[@davidd2341]

Hi Clayton I’m late but love your poems I also do spoken word and read it to people love ya

[@potatotophat1147]

I feel so bad for him, that’s why I don’t tell people when I’m upset

[@tarpleyk9352]

I appreciate you and the message you bring. I understand your words vividly since childhood. I'm now 46, with the same hurt and scars even from way back then. I'm thankful for your words, the difference you make in the lives of others. God is using you in a mighty and powerful way. I'm thankful! Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar, I keep it bottled in, always have. I don't know why I'm even writing this so I will stop. However, you understand !! Never Stop!! For some, you are all one has. including, myself.

[@therichie9916]

I feel you bro

[@katelynns112]

50th. love you thank you for your support clayton. muah :3

[@hurleyskaterzero]

Bro, this hits so close to home. You’re an amazing person. You’ve touched the souls of hundreds of thousands of people. You can rely on your fan base as much as we do on you. Keep your head up and chugging along. Through the glory of God you have another day to prosper.

[@kristysmakeuparts9973]

Your words r just so real the way u say it omg😢😢😢😢