KPOP BURNOUT and it's GUILT... My Experience

[@junehosh4347]

I literally relate so hard, I haven’t been a bts Stan in like 3-4 years but I was able to get ptd lv tickets and I felt so out of place at the concert even though I knew most of the songs they played. Like it was the best time but I also just felt guilty? But yea I just grew out of that Stan phase and got into other artists, and by that I mean I got back into 1d and Taylor Swift lmfao. It’s also so sad for me to look back to when I was a hardcore army, bc it was such a good time in my life and it was so fun but I just don’t feel the same anymore. I looked back at my old kpop tumble and legit started crying bc of the memories.

[@InternetsNathan]

Sumi don't let the guilt overshadow your desire to create. You got this!

[@SumiAppleBerry]

Thanks Nathan! the best kpop youtuber~!

[@Imafreeloufa]

For me it was the change of the kpop industry. It's now Gen 4 and I grew up in Gen 3. Things just don't feel the same anymore and it's hard to push myself if I'm not as confident in what I'm doing. So I understand ❤

[@yrmommyhouse7307]

I relate it’s totally understandable I am 16 now and care more & excited for my future. When I was 11-13 I was obsessed with K-pop BTS, black pink I realised I only thing I had in common with my old friends was K-pop and anything else we’d clash. K-pop was my identity and I’d wake up 5 am every morning to practice K-pop dances.K-pop was a safe place when I was depressed and had low self esteems. Whenever I think about K-pop it just gives me bad memories of that time period so I have completely detached myself.

[@jessbeee_444]

I’m also someone who has outgrown kpop and now it’s basically not a part of my life at all anymore, HOWEVER, you are literally one of my comfort youtubers and me and lots of others would continue to watch and support you no matter what content you made bc we just like watching you and your channel, pls don’t feel too guilty, it’s normal to grow out of phases in your life

[@moonshadow4274]

Don't worry Sumi, this is pretty normal! I used to be a huge stan of BTS around 2015 - 2018, their music meant so much to me, but now, I honestly don't care about their new music anymore or what they do. I wish them all the best, but honestly, this new bubbly American style they produce now does nothing to me. I do listen to some occasional Korean songs (Mamamoo or Jessi), but its not my passion anymore, and thats okay!

[@user-xb2kw2qy3d]

I became so depressed when I drifted away from Kpop cuz I began to realize that I wasted so much of my youth obsessing over people I didn’t know

[@jovy55101]

I’ve definitely felt this too. Especially as I started to feel more comfortable talking to people and feeling more comfortable with myself. Kpop helped me so much when I was in a dark lonely place in my life. Then I started to get out there more. Find some really good friends in my real life. And I still listen sometimes. Especially any R&b but I still love Kpop but in a different way. It’s always gonna have a special place in my life. But I’m not up to date to anything anymore. Thank you for posting this! And talking about it!

[@fkso8940]

Ive had the burn out cuz of the unhealthy amount of terrible toxic " fans" that have joined the stan culture. Like it got too tiring worrying for the idol cuz of terrible people words.and I stopped enjoying it cuz I the whole K-pop world was my coping place. Now I watch the MVS of some and sometimes watch their other content. And I just ignore any drama. It makes me happy. But it's not the same as before. I also felt this for youtubers that I watched like Dolan twins and such and that ended terribly 😭. Sumi, I love who you are so no matter what you post I know I'll love. Plz post more I missed you🥰

[@momobangtanryn7956]

I have felt this guilt and I still do feel it sometimes. Many stans are scary and many are lovely. But there really is no knowing which you will be in contact with. It is very stressful dealing with the burnout. Please know that I am always here for you Sumi! 💙💜❤️

[@janskuux512]

I'm so happy for this video, I relate so hard. I started losing interest a few years ago and it was sad and difficult to accept. Being a stan has truly been one of if not the best part of my life growing up but it hasn't felt the same in a long time. I've accepted it by now, doesn't change the fact that KPOP and BTS impacted me for a long time and I'm grateful for them. Thank you for this video, I would still love to hear about your life outside of KPOP :)

[@liberty630]

Ive been a kpop fan since 2017 and you can definitely tell who is an older fan vs a newer fans. I find it hard to relate to anyone who got into bts or kpop in 2020 as i dont have the passion and interest to be into the stan aspect of it, I sometimes also dont feel like im really a fan. I dont think you should feel bad or guilty for being a 'bad youtuber' you originally decided to publish videos about what you liked and you should continue to do that despite those intrest changing.

[@___kaiyah]

Hey Sumi, I just want to say thank you for coming on here and saying how you feel about being burned out from k-pop. I damn near teared up when I heard the hurt in your voice because you could only dedicate so much of your life to one thing, and I feel like when you stan multiple groups or even one, that shit feels like a job. Me personally, I struggle from financial burnout because I am spending my money on merch, albums, online and live concert tickets for one group that I stand; which is BTS. I understand where you're coming from b/c it is overwhelming and takes a toll on your health. Take this time to do you and enjoy life, you have support on your side! Thank you for everything.

[@SumiAppleBerry]

so thankful for you and your continuous support! you too, take it easy and enjoy life

[@emk-pq2pc]

I honestly never watched Sumi for her Kpop videos. I really fell in love with her personality, amazing family, and shared life experiences. Sumi you are so dope and I will always watch no matter the content you create!!!💕

[@peachreniade4485]

Ur one of the girls I watch when I was into kpop but honestly I fell out too 🫶🏼 I’d support u no matter what

[@cypher427]

i’m two years late to this, but that’s okay 😅 i used to be so deep in the kpop fandom, it was my entire life. i only watched kpop related content, listened exclusively to that genre alone, had posters and CDs all over my room, and i based all of my friendships and interactions around it. we interacted quite a bit, i actually sent you fan mail! i used to go by “Peaches and Cream” but that is long gone. its so refreshing and comforting to see YOU talk about this feeling, it makes me feel better about moving on from that time in my life. i hope everything is going well with you, and i wish you a lifetime of happiness and love. -Emily

[@dkrz6881]

Actually I really relate too… I was gone to Japan with no Internet or phones for a year. And I was a ARMY STAN as well, but that really disappeared after I came back. I still listen to kpop, and follow up on somethings… but now I’ve burned out as well. My friend even offered me tickets for my first kpop/BTS concert for this week, but I just felt the guilt as well, but also didn’t feel deserved so turned down the offer. But now I’m more interested in dance because of kpop.

[@beckilu1902]

Love you Sumi, I started watching you when I was just getting into K-pop and recently my interests shifted as well and I also felt so much guilt for not being into k-pop as I was before. I remember watching your videos because I could share my excitement with you through your videos and I'm glad that they were there for the times that they were because it was so much fun relating to someone but coincidentally I went through my own k-pop burnout at the time you mentioned you did as well. It's nice to look back on my stan days without feeling the guilt after coming to terms with not feeling as excited about it because I can't force it to go back as it was. It's also comforting to know that even you've been through it and it's okay to feel lost and confused about it but eventually we can deal with the reality of the burnout and it's okay!💖

[@SumiAppleBerry]

The guilt has definitely gotten easier over time! Looking back now, it's just memories of a time that was once so wonderful. Thank you for your support and hopefully you take care as well :)

[@seoulrainme]

Sumi I’ve been watching you since like 2016, all your videos, all your reactions, and I completely understand what you mean. I was such a huge fan of kpop starting with F(X) and I was just on a very big kpop 24/7 wave with Red Velvet, BTS, Twice, and the list goes on and on. I think like in like 2020, I kinda stopped being a huge fan of kpop and just started to listen to it only for my faves coming back. I use to be such a huge fan of BTS and listen to them everyday, but I honestly don’t even look at them anymore, and it really sucks because dang…… I’ve been there for so long, but things change.. we get older, focused on other things, and the main thing is we were in a youth. I think as we grow up and see more of life, we kinda pass the torch on to the younger people and focus on what we want to focus on ourselves.

[@user-ns9tz3zk8m]

the livestream felt like we were friends catching up after a long time! so happy you uploaded 🤍

[@s._.senpaii]

glad to see you back on here!!!

[@0_base1]

I have been watching you for years, you are absolutely amazing and you feel like a friend. Thank you for that, I support you always 🥰🥰❤️

[@vip5hawol-deehirota]

i definitely feel this 100% actually nearly fell out of kmusic scene and (tbh most of entertainment) after a fave of mine passed, topped with my own issues. to this day, i’ll go from catching up on releases to feeling so much lack of motivation and being months behind all over again. its really overwhelming and i have no clue why i put myself through it lol but it all comes back to music being my reason for sticking around i guess ? really sucks especially if you’re a “multifandom” stan too ugh end me lmao anyway- i’m down to see any content you put out because you have such a genuinely endearing personality ! was at your livestream for a short while and god, such a pleasant surprise. take care out there

[@meliavalos8427]

I totally relate gurl, don’t stress ❤️

[@alvinaeth9393]

last week i suddenly rmb "oh i haven't seen sumi's video for years!" cause I've been following your channel in 2018?maybe earlier I'm not sure xD, but i definitely loved your videos as I was a huge army back then, and I came back to your channel again and saw your last vid was a long time ago, and Im quite surprise to see you post this video on this channel, and I just wanna say thank you for being a part of my life and growth few years back then, I rly enjoyed your content too ^^ Appleberry fam will always support you!

[@allyjae1085]

Love you no matter what (glad your back) :)

[@xxashley314xx]

I totally understand I'm 34 and followed kpop for awhile and I just don't feel as passionate about it as I did in my 20s

[@millieswife6821]

Love u so much no matter what I'm just glad ur back luv 💜💜💞💖💟😭

[@nancymguzman]

In my case I got into bts and kpop back in 2015 before America got into the kwave bandwagon and once they got too mainstream, like their music before felt like they were really tackling deep subjects and now hot take, I was not a fan of dynamite,permission to dance because it lacked the deep work they did before so I felt like I lost interest once everyone found interest, not that that is a bad thing it just got so saturated with the amount of content,keeping up with every new album, dance routine,merch and concerts tickets that I could never afford, being a stan is expensive! I am sad though because take into account I haven’t been able to attend a concert at all even if I knew them longer, prices are insane. At this point I still love BTS. Though am I going to watch every live stream? learn every song? Every life update? umm no. If I like a song I will listen I won’t force myself to know everything because I have a life too and can’t revolve it over a group, at this point everything in moderation, I will say that thanks to BTS I have found that I am more into the k-indie genre so there is a bright side to all of this too. ❤

[@Steve-Richards]

hello i come from your Scary Webtoon reaction and i love it! i will watch all scary videos you did on your channel :D have a nice Day!

[@minhyuksssmile]

Hi it's ok me too kinda I wish you good luck I agree

[@Nxbodyknows]

not gonna lie if you posted more content about mental and body i think this may take a big turn your videos are definitly interesting you should comeback to this channel very wholesome love this shit even though imma guy..... ik this about kpop but any who... your voice is very welcoming could listen all day plz.... come back plzzzz

[@HazalElise]

Sumi :") it's half past 1 here (a.m.) i can't sleep lol so HELLO

[@0_base1]

I love you

[@HazalElise]

guilt and fomo honestly :")

[@kekoadarby9097]

hi summer

[@Sierkify]

^What he said