surgery in 9 days and extreme anxiety coming along with it!!!

[@jessicakavanagh2698]

I know it's terrifying and I completely understand you feeling that way! I know you're strong enough to push through this week and come out stronger for it. Everything will fall into place in time. You're doing the best that you can! I'll be here with you through your experience and afterwards when you are doing better and healing and kicking life in the ass instead of the other way for a change. 💛

[@rebekahwhitford]

I understand the fear thing well. Except for me, it happens with social situations. It’s the reason why I’m 29 and have never had a job. I literally can’t tolerate the fear and panic of being around people. So it’s not the exact same situation, but I get where you’re coming from for sure. My BPD and to some extent my bipolar disorder have improved over the last couple of years, but my anxiety is as crippling as it’s ever been. The advice I have is to remember “this too shall pass.” I don’t mean that in a religious-pushing way at all, it’s just one of my favorite quotes because I’ve realized how true it is. All bad moods, fears, and anxieties will eventually cycle out. Of course, that also means good moods and experiences will too. Try not to beat yourself up about “backsliding.” You’re coping with a lot right now. It’s natural that your ability to deal with it all will decline when you’re overwhelmed. You’ll get back into the swing of things again. And, unfortunately, you’ll have other trying times. But the good news is that everything in life is a phase, including the bad! Good luck with your dental work. I’m a mostly quiet watcher of your videos, but I’ve gotten to know you over the years through what you’ve posted and I have faith in you. You’re stronger than you probably realize right now.

[@ghughghugh]

This one hurt the heart. I just hope you can manage to get your appointment done okay, then you can work on everything else at your own pace. I really wish I had something more to help, Ash. Huge hugs.

[@stylinzon]

i truly hope so too but as you can see, my hope is very low. thank you, i always appreciate you!

[@ghughghugh]

@@stylinzon I know I'm usually positive, but I also know how much this procedure would help you. You've suffered lifetimes more than what you deserve, and you're so young. Just know that you are heard, and maybe that offers just a sliver of comfort!

[@nfc598]

I know this is extremely scary right now leading up to your appointment. I obviously don't know your doctor but I've seen people get serious dental work done and they feel so amazing and confident afterwards. I've never seen someone regret it. I'm really sorry you're having such a hard time with anxiety. I also struggle constantly and I understand how incredibly difficult it is. I believe in you sweet lady. I'm not a fan of supplements because they don't really work but magnesium has helped me with panic attacks quite a bit. Doesn't stop them but does make them less frequent.

[@stylinzon]

no you’re very right, i know i won’t regret it once everything is all done with. it’s just the fear of the unknown, i guess. anxiety can really destroy good things though and it sucks so bad. also i used to take magnesium supplements but i stopped because i just simply ran out. perhaps i should buy more, i just supplements werent so damn expensive 😅 thank you for your comment. ❤

[@empemitheos]

Derealization, and I assume depersonalization, is caused by a stress response and your brain trying to protect your consciousness from some type of perceived threat or stressful event, the way to get out of it is to somehow get back into your normal relaxed state, trying to shock yourself into feeling something probably is going to work against this, you need to be activating your relaxation response as much as possible, or spending time in a low stress place as much as possible until it passes, otherwise you're just reinforcing it and making it last longer, this happened to me for about 3 months one time and I didn't think it was possible to not be able to think clearly or feel my body for that long, clearly the higher parts of your brain are able to control the lower parts to feel fear for something that hasn't happened yet, so maybe you can try just focusing on what's happening right now

[@leafyisfearmydear9884]

just be brave, that is the problem with the world today, everybody pays attention to their anxiety when it can be ignored

[@jessicakavanagh2698]

This comment is ignorant af. She doesn't need any negativity okay thanks bye.

[@stylinzon]

my dude what the fuck kind of comment is this? how can you comment something like this with your whole chest to someone who’s channel revolves around mental health and diagnosed with severe anxiety disorders? you can’t ignore shit that quite literally is destroying your life for no explainable reason. so with this being said, respectfully fuck off ❤

[@cesar3422]

@@stylinzon It is actually a mean and misinformed comment, but there is some truth to it in the sense that you need to keep being brave no matter what, just as you have until this point. Keep exposing yourself to the situations that trigger you, that's what worked for me. You are right about the rollercoaster analogy, but remember that when you are on its lower part it is about to go up again. You must be hopeful through the reminiscence of your past improvements; you know it can get better because it already has. I've been watching your videos for a long time and I still think yours is a success story.