Swans - Feel Happiness

I'm truly sorry
for what I never did
but I forgive you too,
for your indifference
You're a lonely child
layed open to the world
and when I looked in your eyes
I saw myself there too
So please forgive me now
for what we never had
Although its useless to say
I wish you happiness.
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[@Korewarumine]

One of the most powerful songs ever written, the catharsis and emotion here are just unbearable, it`s absolutely transcendental from start to finish This song is the greatest proof that SWANS isn`t from this world

[@hollandaisvolant9943]

I absolutely have the same feeling about this, maybe the strongest song they did

[@t.n.3819]

This whole album reminds me of a decidedly miserable time in my life, but this song especially dredges up bad memories. I used to listen to it on my drive to work daily, 8 years ago... All I can say is I'm so glad I don't have that job anymore.

[@antonakismoustakas4811]

glad for you bro!

[@quintinebio]

Michael Gira will never die

[@MrPeguin666]

The first time I heard it I was caught off guard when I heard clapping and realized this was live. Incredible performers

[@ArtOfFugueBach]

MrPeguin666 I AM GONNA SEEEEEEEE THEM AT SUNDAY HOLY SHIIIET !!!!!!

[@CloneCommandos101]

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM NEXT WEEK!!!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!

[@senTien.6]

I'm gonna see them TODAY in my fucking HOMETOWN. HOW COOL IS THAT?

[@amberx3027]

SWANS live is like going on the Hajj

[@bloodnchocolate]

I SAW THEM IN 2016 IN NICETO, IN BUENOS AIRES, AND I FEEL THAT ONE SHOULD ONLY EVER WRITE ABOUT SWANS LIVE SHOWS IN ALL CAPS

[@fox8945]

One of the greatest songs ever made, I think. It's incredible how much stark emotion is conveyed through such minimal arrangements.

[@amberx3027]

Yes.

[@tomt5745]

It's a pyroclastic flow.

[@JiminiCrikkit]

Just one of the most important songs ever found, created, discovered, recorded, experienced etc ... turn it up and feel. :)

[@tomt5745]

Amen to that. Turn it up and float

[@sonikgoat]

It's 4am or something. Lying in bed in the dark. This has tears of joy pouring down my face. Why are we alive? Hearing Swans, I think maybe this is why. To experience this.

[@hollandaisvolant9943]

This is totally and painfully beautiful. At some points in my life, I just couldn't hear this song anymore...

[@charlfoo]

Best Swans song. Kills me every time.

[@grazynajabonka]

PIEKNA PLYTA .DUŻO PRZEMY ŚLEŃ

[@arnoburtner380]

this is as heavy as it gets. Feel priviliged to attend this show and throwing the plastic cup you hear falling after the intro.. My life has never been the same since SWANS and despite their recent efforts which are astonishing the best liveshow ever was this one, from Paradiso Amsterdam 1997. Love you Michael

[@andyrenshaw3869]

Only the Dutch could like them. Truly awful.

[@1985cactus]

Andy renshaw Not Dutch and love 'em, you freak

[@amberx3027]

In that case I'm Dutch as fuck

[@hupje]

Yes, I'm Dutch and I love Swans. Sorry for you if you don't Andy/

[@MrProzacmilkshake]

@@andyrenshaw3869 you need a good hard look

[@ABlackRainbow]

my favorite Swans song...

[@ken73820]

我真的很抱歉 關於過去所做 但我也原諒妳 關於妳的冷漠 妳是個孤獨的孩子 向世界敞開了大門 當我看著妳的眼睛 同時也看見了自己 所以請原諒我 對於我們未竟 雖然已無所謂 我希望妳幸福

[@briefersrock4591]

What does it mean

[@alchemist.88]

@@briefersrock4591 lyrics in chinese, I guess.

[@wesdan126]

Always loved this song...

[@sunsetgradient]

its hard to believe this is a live recording. it sounds fantastic. that last third of the track absolutely devastates me - nothing is saddening like it is.

[@xYoungGodx]

This song is so beautiful. So many people I could say these words to, but don't have the guts to do it.

[@iuliadumitrescu8012]

such a sublime sound

[@amberx3027]

Accurate adjective

[@nosefug]

This will play on my funeral

[@pavelnagl1526]

Children of God - toto 2album mne v osmdesátých letech opravdu dostalo a šířil jsem v té době kopie mezi přátele a i dnes si ho rád pustím- je dobré si to poslechnout v klidu a celé.

[@sandervisser970]

....and I cried like a baby

[@Italkid]

Got fired, my girlfriend left me, i moved out of town. I'm far away. But still, I wish you happiness. I'm finding my own happiness. I'll get it one day, i believe.

[@finlaymiles9798]

i wish you happiness on your journey too man

[@agsrf6479]

hey man its been 9 months, how has it gone for you?

[@avery3081]

how are you??

[@Italkid]

Patient is the key. Even with the pandemic one can learn. I'm good. On my own way. I found what i wanted just being alive, being present. And i wish you all well. And thank you. I never thought someone would respond. 🧡

[@forestprophet]

@@Italkid 3 years later I'm happy to hear you're good ❤

[@Quyhm]

This is pure beauty bursting into my ears and flowing towards my soul.

[@Huelogy]

Great experience

[@stiggyh]

i was like baby baby baby ooooooooh baby baby baby ooooooh like thought that you'd always be miiine miiiine

[@getraped0531]

I think I feel it

[@darcgibson5099]

+far right edgelord Do you feel it?

[@mrg9139]

my hero

[@user-bf6gz8ej4o]

U feelin it now, Mr. Krabs?!

[@1970e300FANATIC]

thEE best song I have ever seen live back in 1999....

[@Felipejvcsful]

Gira looks so badass in the first picture

[@Buffalohump77]

Sheer crushing power... the strange thing is I've been listening to Swans since the late 80s but only recently discovered this incredible album.

[@levelminusone]

these emotions...

[@blancheesdemurphy3478]

melancholic's all of me

[@pedroa.cantero9449]

Toda una generación buscaba como fín último el sueño de Ícaro. Volar hacia la luz y, ya alcanzada, flotar eternamente en paralaleo a los astros para lograr el éxtasis celeste. De hecho, flotar es en sí mismo una gozada. Gozo supremo de todo vuelo. Magnífica existencia la del meteoro, fuerza pura, energía sin otro fin que estrellarse en el punto culminante de la exaltación. Feel Happiness…

[@SaBiNuKi]

Masterpiece

[@bianchy77]

The first time I listened to this I was in classroom and I cried a lot

[@amberx3027]

That's a beautiful story in one sentence

[@clsagst]

The lyrics are really hard hitting...

[@thunderfoot4969]

why wont my earphones play this louder and fill up my entire inside D:

[@peeterbleh]

Thunder Foot You need new earphones bro

[@Huelogy]

+Jasper Bens sadly I have neither my headphones are gone

[@someguy779]

Ned Gerblansky Dostoevsky wasn't a filthy commie

[@DeathGrunt666]

I'm a filthy commie

[@someguy779]

Bry son okay

[@el_mal_de_ojo]

Amazing.

[@onafetssss]

sono senza parole. incantato. stupefatto. fatto.

[@mannyb4265]

This album and Soundtracks for the Blind👌

[@veselinstrasni]

im high as f*ck and listening to swans. time of my life

[@gideonnavmurphy2259]

For all the talk of this being like a drug....that is the point. Gira doesn't do drugs and stopped taking them a long time ago. Most of the unbridled emotion in this is all straight from the brain...and that in itself could be even more disturbing. I love Swans

[@DinosaurAct86]

Michael Gira reminds me of "The Cowboy" in Mulholland Drive... and the music matches.

[@nyctilia]

For me, it was the other way around. "The Cowboy" reminded me of Michael Gira :)

[@amberx3027]

Seconded! Damn, it's ages since I saw Mulholland Drive. It's one of the creepiest films ever made, but also stupendously beautiful. No-one does that combination like Lynch. Absolute Lynch devotee, whatever some feminists may say. Personally, I think he has deep sympathy for his female characters - Laura Palmer in 'Fire Walk With Me' is basically me as a teenager - I used to cry buckets every time I watched it, because it was so relatable. Donna: "Do you think that if you were falling in space, you'd slow down after a while, or go faster and faster?" Laura: "Faster and faster... And for the longest time you wouldn't feel anything... and then you'd burst into fire, forever... and the angels wouldn't help you, because they've all gone away..." Incredible performance by Sheryl Lee. I think I prefer Moira Kelly to Lara Flynn Boyle as Donna - she does cute and innocent but clever and determined so well.

[@midasbaijense8379]

Have you seen Fire Walk With Me: The Missing Pieces? Moira Kelly has a couple of fantastic scenes that didn't make the movie.

[@aidanmca4177]

Ye ur right, not only the cowboy thing but at some points they look rly similar

[@Ericozzz]

Cuts deep inside.

[@rrippp]

Agree mostly, apart from the 'brain' part. Gira's brain is involved, but imo, and from what he says, it's mostly visceral. Most people won't play from the pit of their stomach or genitals, which is why Swans own.

[@simonhugo4893]

I wish you happiness too, Mr Gira.

[@paradissebastien8028]

Sublime........

[@Longknife]

I legit found this song four years ago on z0r and only just now found out the song name thanks to the damned comments system being added. I'm so good at finding out song names in a timely manner

[@sunsetgradient]

long shot here since this comment is 5 years old but maybe someone else will see this and know... which z0r flash used this song?

[@JozRad]

As always Amazing. saw their last show in Atlanta, great night. This is the music I paint with. I am an artist, and this has been very inspirational for my art.

[@fox8945]

Those lyrics just fucking destroy me every time

[@Soundnest]

Michael Gira: God on Planet Earth.

[@puppetmaster3911]

Love this song!

[@79Canes]

Definitely my favorite Swans tune.

[@shadul]

Thk's for posting this one ... got this CD digi pack since 2000 remarkable :) "the golden liquid that washed your face, contains my secrets, and bitter taste"

[@GoldenIntestines]

Actually I don't even drink and I love this shit.

[@mattsmith7123]

trust me, you don't want to fight me, i like getting hit

[@professorpigpen1809]

+Matt Smith UFC?

[@tomturdy6076]

Matt Smith we enjoy hitting you

[@Nowhy]

Matt Smith Aww thanks for that comment. ;)

[@sean2824]

so earthing but gripping.. my mind ecstatic ybut still

[@piribolygo]

I’m truly sorry, for what I never did, but I forgive you, too; for your indifference.

[@billygoth]

truly fantastic

[@toddslater]

I love this track and knew it from Swans are Dead as a live version. Can I ask where this one came from? The live version is 16:57 whereas this one is 14:58 and sounds a little crisper. I wasn't aware of a studio version… just curious, thank you posting!

[@angels.l3967]

I have been asking me the same since I listened this one and comparing it with the original from Swans are Dead, and I presume is the same song, but this one probably edited by the person who uploaded the video, that is why has a better audio quality. If I am wrong, anybody is free to say.

[@psych0ma13]

You're welcome!It's from "Swans are Dead"--[THEY'RE NOT ACTUALLY!! ;) ] Unfortunately It's edited,according to the15min upload limit that period :)

[@toddslater]

psych0ma13 Strangely, I think I like the edited version better. Thanks again psycho!

well..liked both ;)

[@pedroa.cantero9449]

Toute une génération cherchait comme fin ultime le rêve d’Icare. Voler vers la lumière et, celle-ci atteinte, planer éternellement en parallèle des anges ou, encore mieux, atteindre l’extase céleste. En fait, planer est en soi même une joie. Jouissance suprême du vol. Existence superbe du météore, force pure, énergie sans autre but que maintenir le point culminant de toute exaltation. Feel Happiness…

[@Caligula138]

He says it all...

[@scubalozenge]

"feel happiness" was 1997 and I believe this recording is from Amsterdam Paradiso

[@lanakorvin570]

brilliant !

[@stehlik]

No, unfortunately there is not. But the song is available on their live album Swans Are Dead.

[@grace7705]

His eyes are pretty.

[@ModernPlague]

Holy shit, you are dead on! That's hilarious! I hadn't made that connection yet myself, but now I doubt l'll forget it! "Now you'll see me one more time if you do good. You'll see me two more times, if you do bad..."

[@Romaxferre]

Yes, they are. Break through possible, but also easy to avoid. New civilization: no chance. Manifestation: channeled through sheer stubborness on Gira's part.Also, money and timing certainly plays a part. Apparently, fully dependent on his being there w/energy level high enough to support unreal sound world. There for the taking youtube or otherwise.

[@GoldenIntestines]

Uhhh! This really does it for me.

[@Hupsibasse]

I'm already in love

[@el9668]

Favorite song from the Sonic Frontiers soundtrack

[@MyHerpderp]

I feel it

[@ibrasoetandyo728]

Band tergila yg ku pernah dengar

[@antongusten6776]

no niin!!!

[@jhodson8399]

best!

[@Radiobed]

Anytime I see him in that cowboy hat I can only think of Mulholland Drive.

[@marke9088]

Anybody got the London LA2 gig? I was there. Met Gira after. Would love a copy. Thank you.

[@groundcontrol-x8701]

I Really Like This Song,It is Divided into more than One Part...)...And ultimately you hear that the song is to his Son...)... X ... ....... .........)

[@abna84]

get on it!

[@GuterHesse]

The lyrics are fucking relevant

[@7grijeha]

Its about her lovely friendly indifference...

[@urrrccckostan]

anybody know where these recordings for this album were done? I saw em at the Roxy in '95 and '97

[@berRojas]

epic

[@JessDurden]

Why is this song so quiet?

[@saltyjon42]

+JessDurden I think the issue at hand may be that you need to turn up your speakers some more.

[@aarongtr180]

+JessDurden Why do people keep asking this? The video is set at a perfect volume. Just turn up the volume on your PC or get better headphones.

[@JessDurden]

+aarongtr180 Why are majority of users on the internet taking things so literally? I just want it louder so it rips my ears

[@strangedays871]

You're either half deaf or you are listening through a shitty phone.

[@jorgepeterbarton]

a song file is not what is quiet, it is the soundsystem in every instance....

[@mattsmith7123]

i'm 6'3" and i way 180 lbs and i'm more mucial than fat. and i use to be a body guard for a drug dealer.

[@darcgibson5099]

+Matt Smith Cool, man.

[@anickner1178]

Well... Good for you.

[@Ojoe2010]

Well, I guess it´s a welcome change to the old I-was-a-navy-seal-story, so thanks a bunch....

[@jorgepeterbarton]

mucial? as in mucous? are you a slug?

[@omgitsrobsandy]

a 6'3", 180lb, bodyguard slug

[@vomeinsamenmadchensophie]

♥♥♥++++++

[@vomeinsamenmadchensophie]

Hehe...*•*^•^))

[@MrLogicallyrandom]

You jinxed it...

[@superiorpatrician]

9:42 sounds like Red Velvet Wound.

[@steksisteksi]

[@ColonelTheSlav]

Is there a studio version of this song?

[@Lucols4]

Nope.

[@arnoburtner380]

@@Lucols4 Nope indeed. But The Hat will do it. In time.

[@MrBeastknows]

...Except the world would kind of suck if this happened, because everyone would be extremely depressed and possibly psychopathic.

[@sonicvlasis]

Τι λε ρε παιδάκι μ;

[@guiltyspark66]

Thanks for posting, wanted to punish my Facebook peeps with this fine piece!

[@FractalBolt]

Is that really M. Gira? Doesn't sound like him at all?

[@swans1997]

That's not a bad thing, at least they won't get into the pap mainstream and become some shitty Hot Topic trend.

[@Jane-vw2mk]

Thanks to z0r for bringing me here. Love it.

[@sunsetgradient]

do you remember which z0r used this song? 5 years late to ask i know.

[@scottbrown6019]

Note to Petter: I like your idea of simply killing the profiteers. The Russian revolution was not achieved by boycotts, nor will the intrusion of corporate assholes into real art.

[@yunikage]

+Scott Brown The Russian revolution wasn't much of an achievement.

[@yunikage]

***** The rapid industrialization of the USSR wasn't really a function of the revolution itself, or even the first regime following the revolution, so it seems a bit tenuous to credit one with the other. Toppling a weak monarchy with broad support from the working class and then devolving into infighting isn't particularly impressive in my eyes. But I see your point.

[@Hypnozems]

Sometimes Y have to lick your own foam of your own lips!

[@eileenstubington8592]

Sounds like godspeedyoublackemperor playing a live sonic youth version of a xiu xiu song with Jim o ' rourke playing as guest

[@Chameleonardodavinci]

@TomorrowNeverKnows cmon man xiu xiu and GY!BE are hardly boomercore bands

[@TranceMissions]

sounds like Swans playing Swans

[@gokugotengohannaruto]

​@@TranceMissionsI always thought the start of this sounded alot like coil

[@bazejruba8750]

unlikely, swans will never be popular outside of drug community

[@RagazzaInk]

wow is LIKE A FUCKING DRUG!!!!

[@StethoscopeConundrum]

Nope