My Daily Routine as a Recovering Addict

hello thank u for watching !!!! i've never filmed one of these "a day in my life" videos, and decided to do one now that so much has been changing in my life. Due to the timing, i decided to shape it around my recovery from active addiction. But in addition to this just show my daily life with my animals n such. ***ALSOOO i forgot to edit in the bit where i turn all my animals lights on but in the morning i also turn in bindi's, twisty's, and sabor's lights. woops.
credit to / billwurtz for the piece of garbage audio during the intro lmao :')
*This video isn't about how addiction works, but just about my own experience, but my next two videos on this channel will discuss the cycle of addiction and how it works, and looking back on a timeline of the progression of my own illness!*
i also talk in this video about what early recovery looks like in general, and the steps commonly followed to take advantage of everything the recovery community has to offer (I include a timestamp in the video to skip this part if ur not interested in this information).
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MAIN CHANNEL: / @taylorndean
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ok i'm aboutta rant because i'm super passionate about all of this lol
****I state this in the video as much as I can, but the list of steps i mention are only suggestions to take advantage of every layer of programs that the recovery community has to offer to transition you back into daily life, they are by no means a list a person MUST follow to achieve sobriety. This list just offers the most opportunities to help you, because it starts you in the most protection (rehab) and slowly gives you more and more time back to your personal life outside of recovery so you can stay safe. Rehab is only the first step, not a solution to your problem. Discovering you battle addiction isn't like coming down with the flu, seeing a doctor, and being sent on your way to jump right back into life as normal. It's an illness you have to learn how to manage continuously and will continue to present itself in your life even when you are sober. Due to this, rehab will get you sober, but not keep you sober. What you do when you leave rehab is what really will determine your success, which is why even though all these programs may seem like a lot, they really do shape you for success by giving you so much support in your day-to-day life and personal challenges. Again, I'm not saying you need to do everything on this list. Some people can manage sobriety just by going to occasional meetings and seeing a personal therapist. Others need a lot more help. the illness of addiction is a spectrum and some people don't need as much "treatment" as others, and no matter where you are on the scale there IS help and you CAN accomplish sobriety!

[@taylordeanvlogs7088]

Thank u everyone for watchin. I messed up with a lil bit of the editing but oh well. Also forgot to put the caption under the part with my hedgehogs saying they’re getting a bunch more enrichment for their new cage. Whenever I move back out they’re being going in their old 160gallon cage, it’s just temporary! Also I forgot to edit in the clip of me turning the lights on in the morning I think ??? (I didn’t see it so if I missed it nvm) ps I got my shirt from omighty clothing for those asking!!! ❤️ ANYWAYS, new video on my main channel in about 3 days and then hopefully again on Sunday, and then another second channel video next week. Love you guys thank you again 🥺🥺

[@saveriopanaccione996]

Taylor Dean Vlogs your so beautiful

[@BornAgainFarmGirl]

Taylor we are here to see how your doing , not your edits . Some of the latest skin treatments are actually really hard on your skin and can cause premature aging . You’re beautiful naturally , a real cutie 🥰 .

[@robertmoore1123]

I have a friend in recovery and in drug court. I know it's hard as hell. Most poeple just don't know how hard it is ...n

[@Nicole-qh4qz]

U go sis. Also ur short hair is so badass, you look like female kobain (sorry if youve heard that before 😩)

[@Asmith121209]

You are gorgeous and an inspiration! Whenever I feel down I watch your videos bc they always make me feel better.

[@aesthetickait31]

“I don’t go out much in my life so if I’m gonna look hot for my therapy. I’m gonna look hot for my therapy.” This is the most relatable thing I’ve ever heard.

[@HettieB8]

Isn't it 😂😂😂😂😂

[@marthanewsome6375]

So guess you are just it's all about me person. Hope you don't have pets or children.

[@minahraven]

@@marthanewsome6375 or maybe they're not and you're just judging on one simple comment, with no knowledge of their reasoning or background.

[@worshipcatalyst1]

Sometimes I dress up for my support group. It's rad.

[@behappy9591]

@@marthanewsome6375 if you feel like that then stay off her channel it's not that hard. People don't need to hear your negative at all. She is getting her life together. So if you don't got nothing nice to say then DNT say shit at all. Better yet stay off her channel.

[@trackgurl123]

Ugh. I felt that hygiene part. It's so hard to get out of bed and shower in a severe depression. It's the worst. You're brother quoting The Waterboy was EVERYTHING.

[@kms1011]

Luc same. I can go days (even weeks when i’m in a really bad place) without showering, But i always brush my teeth.

[@trackgurl123]

@Luc that is the one thing I will do. Brush my teeth. But shower...or brush out this curly hair..or putting on clothes...nope. lol

[@themelissaeileen]

I love Tanner so much!! ❤️

[@chesseeggspotatoes2420]

Y’all nasty. Go wash that ass 😂

[@iLoveTheBamx]

Chesseeggs&potatoes lol wish it was that easy. Easier said that done tbh

[@ChantelleSchmidlin]

I love how she still cares so much about her animals even tho she has to really care about herself.

[@JoeBlow-ub1us]

animals help trust me

[@ethereal1216]

she isn’t taking the best care of her pets though

[@UnderworldSelene01]

Um her pets die like flies.. there is tons of proof how bad she treat animals

[@renatagoncalves4576]

@@UnderworldSelene01 she did when she was still using drugs, she rehomed 12 animals and is trying to take better care of them. come on, she was ill, this is not a joke. did you watch her first video about it? she literally said that she bought too many animals, she was kinda manic.

[@renatagoncalves4576]

people have no empathy for her situation, omg

[@Mountaingrly2513]

“I don’t go out much but if I’m going to look hot for my therapy, then I’m going to look hot for my therapy.” As an introvert I felt this.

[@desertgirl3374]

Same

[@kaylynzamora]

Same

[@sacredsiren]

The fact that she called it a "cow outfit" and not a "cowfit" is a tragic missed opportunity

[@elsab379]

sacredsiren i guess you could call it a missed steak

[@kennedychristina4226]

elsa b 🤣🤣🤣

[@whitneyisanerd]

@@elsab379 You deserve a standing ovation.

[@sythepie]

yes

[@RikaMakara]

Also tragic, instead of pecan comic, they missed the opportunity to say “pecomic.” Bahahaaa!

[@Sam-rn9di]

You mentioned that the last step of recovery is to continue attending meetings as often as life allows. It made me think of my aunt. She has been sober for 30 years now. She still attends meetings twice a week diligently. Won't make plans on those afternoons because "I already have meeting." My aunt can honestly say she does not have cravings anymore. She still goes for the people like you Taylor, and all of the other young people who may feel lost in their recovery. She goes to meetings to show young recovering addicts that 30 years of sobriety is POSSIBLE and that addiction is not a death sentence. I am so proud of her. I'm proud of you too, Taylor. I can only imagine how difficult recovery must be when you are in the limelight like this.

[@KaylaRene]

Same with my dad. He'll have 19 years in February. (God willing; I know there are no fronts in recovery.)

[@Mini-rt8bm]

Wow love this!!!

[@jazwhoaskedforthis]

Yo, tell her she’s probably saving lives just by doing that. I’m sure she probably knows though

[@Natalie-le5os]

I am so proud of u wtf, to be this honest and vulnerable on the internet is so dope. wishing u the best and sending u healing energy

[@purplepeggy9027]

Natalie Romero No pun intended? 😉

[@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys]

@@purplepeggy9027 smh that was messed up

[@purplepeggy9027]

《UNKNOWN》 《PERSON》 No,it eas funny. Guess what I am very likely much older & wiser than you. no offence dear. But, I've been thru it up & down & all around. If you can't bring humor to it. Your really in trouble. Please, there is NOTHING you can say that would change my thoughts. I am at tbe very far other end now. & someday she will be. But, this whst posting comnents is all about. voicing our opinions. And hoping to agree to Disagree at times. Take care.

[@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys]

@@purplepeggy9027 seeing that you can't even spell "is" correctly I would say that I am probably much older and wiser than you are "dear" 😊 have a nice day.

[@purplepeggy9027]

《UNKNOWN》 《PERSON》 That's what you came up with? A typo? 😝😝😝👎🏻

[@joi1346]

I relate to this so much, when you’re mom said “you’re all clean” it made me happy, when I was in rehab my mom called to check on me and when the nurse told her I was in the shower she cried, i hadn’t been taking care of myself in so long, it meant so much to her just that I was showering. Keep up the good work, 3 years clean here, we’re so proud of you!

[@mariiamghazy]

Hope all the best for you!

[@j.sargent9172]

I'm 3 weeks clean, cold turkey. First time in 5 years

[@mikaella.mikaaa]

Keep going

[@leonaswift3834]

Yess that’s so good. Are you seeking support?

[@leonaswift3834]

Yess that’s so good. Are you seeking support?

[@j.sargent9172]

@@leonaswift3834 so far I haven't, but I dont do well with NA and stuff. Im good until they start talking about Jesus then I head out.. And rehab costs too much since I dont have insurance..

[@mikasaackerman1410]

Wish you the best success in staying clean!

[@riley4301]

my parents are on heroin. it got so bad I was homeless and had to move in with my grandma. I don't even see them anymore and I still struggle with it sometimes but you can't help someone who doesn't want help. addiction is a terrible thing but i'm glad some people get a second start and get to live out a sober life!

[@Lightforeverandever]

Are u alright

[@littleblondemop]

I'm sorry:( I stumbled on her other channel because she was walking her adorable furbabies....had no idea about this channel. I've never had addictions. I hope things are good with your grandma and hope your parents change someday

[@ashleys4263]

I’m so sorry! I know it seems really difficult right now! Things can get better for you. My parents did drugs for a long time. Luckily they’ve been sober several years now. Things can change. Just work hard and focus on making your life as great as possible. I really feel for you!

[@kendraramirez7435]

riley r I feel you both my parents have been on heroin since I was born now I’m 11 and live with my. Grandma

[@5050TM]

@@dontrellwilliams7246 No, you don't have to wait until you're 18. You can get emancipated from them if you are 16+. Please contact other people in your family yourself also if you can as it is NOT safe for you to be around an addict. If you can't, or don't wish to do the above, please at least visit your School Guidance Counselor and fully explain the situation. This is more common than you think so don't be embarrassed, but you need to be in a stable living situation for the sake of your mental and emotional health.

[@ramennoodlebabey6945]

when you were talking about hygiene i immediately thought"i havent showered in a week" and went to shower so? thank you for reminding me i guess? i have major depressive disorder and hygiene is usually my last thought because i dont have the energy

[@aloluccak.8303]

Like same. I am just taking a bath

[@colleennewholy9026]

I have Bipolar, and yes... I feel like I don't keep up with my hygiene. Bleh.

[@ckat1111]

It's only been four days, but I'm replying for a lil reminder about your hygiene :)

[@laneboy3220]

I'm proud of everyone here in the comments, I struggle with the same things as everyone here. It feels good to not be alone and I'm so proud of you all :)

[@chichan4461]

Same, that was me in the summer (my depression gets bad in summertime) but now that the school year has started im starting to force myself a bit more.

[@qluna6837]

The hardest thing for me was guilt. After getting sober all the guilt just hit me.

[@jennharper872]

Oh my gosh I know right like I've been sober for a year and legit when I started feeling guilty it was a week before my Birthday in March. 2019 I cried so much.

[@leahyao9414]

I agree as well, the guilt is the worst part of sobriety. However, it kills me using as well. So there's literally no reprieve for me either way. The only difference is that sober I know that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing for my kids. When I'm using, the fact that I'm still fucking my kids off is a huge part the guilt so it's terrible to feel everyday. But then I know I did it to myself so I think I deserve to feel the way I do and it's a vicious cycle.

[@elizabethvaughn5694]

Yoooooo yes. I'm 3 years sober and I can still start sobbing if I think about what I put my mother thru. It breaks my heart. the pure and utter shaaame is unbearable

[@romama647]

Dam. it hurts. but I guess it helps to see I'm not alone after reading this small thread

[@qluna6837]

I’ve been clear for years. I didn’t want to count the days or years but I know it’s more then four years. Now I crave being sober, there’s was a point I never thought I’d stop doing drugs. Now I can’t imagine not being sober.

[@emmalee6524]

Finally, someone who actually acknowledges that things aren't just right back to normal after addiction.

[@magpie9341]

Whole new life, scary but worth it!! ❤

[@ernestgonzalez9539]

Lol what? It's common knowledge that withdrawal, and recovery after is very much an uncomfortable and mentally straining struggle. Besides, she's full of shit, she takes zero responsibility for her own choices to use opiates and instead blames her ex. Then feeds on all of these suckers calling her brave and courageous and blah blah blah. That's how she continues to justify passing the blame, because she's just as much addicted to all this attention as she is heroin.

[@christadelancy2012]

Ernest Gonzalez wow someone else who isn't brainwashed by her, finally. She blames everything on her ex takes no personal accountability whatsoever she is not a good role model for anyone in recovery

[@ernestgonzalez9539]

@@christadelancy2012 Oh no, I'm very far from being brain washed by someone who's that obviously full of shit. I'm astounded at how many people blindly believe, support, and defend her like they know she's innocent and compassionate. I completely agree with you! I came across her when my fiancee asked my opinion of her drug stories, and said she couldn't stand her lack of accountability. Her claim of consistently using Heroin because it's her BF's favorite is one of the dumbest excuses I've ever heard for using. Shit, or the real reason she made a video demonizing her ex (who's obviously a piece of shit) 100% wasn't to warn others, she did it because she's upset that he left her and knocked up some other girl. She doesn't care about other people, definitely doesn't give a flying fuck about victims of the same abuse she claims to have endured. She was antagonizing his past victims online after being told by MANY people that he's dangerous. She didn't care cause his attention was on her. And even that psychopath got sick of her dramatic attention seeking bullshit. The fact that she thought people would believe her bullshit reasoning shows her stupid and selfish nature. Anyone who's dealt with heroin immediately recognizes her bullshit. Initially I was bugged because I despise liars and attention seekers, but after looking into her more I'm completely disgusted by who she really is, because of what she's done and how she constantly passes the blame for EVERYTHING. The worst is how many animals she killed because she views them as objects. She doesn't care about these animals, but she knows she needs people to believe she does. I mean who the fuck kills a kitten by trapping it in a bathroom and not taking care of it? She fucking does! Many many more as well because she would literally hoard them for videos and do little to no research on what they require. She's a total piece of shit and her actions as well as the excuses that followed are seriously upsetting. Anybody who's abusing and killing animals to stroke her own ego and feed on the attention she craves so badly is a piece of shit. Every one of her stans calling her brave and courageous gives her the justification she was fishing for to continue lying, playing a victim, being a total attention suck and worst of all to keep killing animals. Fuck that stupid slut.

[@dustinclark8388]

Ernest Gonzalez “anyone who’s actually dealt with heroin immediately recognizes her bullshit” so true man. I would gain a lot more respect for her if she took responsibility for her addiction instead of blaming her ex

[@AW-qz4kk]

i really appreciate how genuine and transparent she has become.

[@lesley-annfenwick]

Same

[@MrsBear-sv6wo]

Likewise ☺

[@paulinevanchhawng9185]

I know❤️

[@cold.raviolis]

More people need to understand how much of a struggle hygiene can be

[@melliethemortician]

Honestly, I have depression and when its really bad ill go weeks without showering, brushing my hair etc bc its so tiring and just physically and emotionally tiring but people never see that side of it. Its so normal for us but never talked about due to shame.

[@blanknone5408]

Get over yourselves

[@bgdhfytgy135]

@@blanknone5408 oh shut up damn

[@imthatyeetedfetus8113]

None Blank u obviously haven’t been through anything and if u haven’t been through it, don’t comment on it and act like u know about it. dickhead

[@ZZ-uf1fs]

None Blank we all know you are an insecure little shit. Be quiet.

[@briannavictoria7252]

i'm not an addict, but i do have severe depression and anxiety. i started watching this while still laying in bed at 1pm, and it motivated me to get up and eat something. i even threw my sheets in the dryer and took my medicine. you are doing so well considering the hell youre probably going through, thank you for sharing your journey like this

[@monkeynumbernine]

I was in treatment for 2 years. Of course, I was a meth addict for over 20 years. I've been free from all of that for 12+ years. 💞

[@lvasquez2978]

Amazing. Keep up the great work love. You are worth it🖤

[@karisgreen1009]

Wow well done!! Keep it up, you're doing amazingly❤️

[@babygoose8716]

monkeynumber nine that’s amazing! Good for you! ❤️

[@KELUIX]

!!! Dude that's awesome! Keep it up!! We're all proud of u

[@uoxanna945]

good job! so proud of you

[@casssurf1719]

My dad (Russell) started using when I was 3 months old . He died when I was 19 but I lost him way before that. Not everyone recovers, that’s what makes each recovery story special ❤️

[@marshiemellow]

Cass Surf Glad you view it through a positive window❤️❤️

[@romama647]

yea that was the most unexpected reversal I think I've ever read. Makes me think your am writer/author.

[@doingme8384]

God bless her dad. May he Rest In Peace.

[@doingme8384]

My dad was the same way by the way, heroin addict even before I was a child. He died when I was about 19 too, surprisingly. But like you said, I lost him before that. It sucks. Addiction is horrible. I’m an addict now too. But I am high functioning and care for my family. It’s so weird how it affects everyone differently.

[@casssurf1719]

Just Me Bless you, sending lots of love your way ❤️

[@Ashak2001]

I haven't showered in three days and I havent left my house properly in about three weeks. Mental illness sucks. Proud of you for being sober

[@jessicam3468]

Asha King ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ciara4087]

take all the time you need pal, just remember it always isn't as bad out there as you think. baby steps. all the love x

[@meljstephan]

Sending all my positive vibes your way

[@witch7530]

I feel you. Keep living that’s all that matters take your time on everything else 💞 you’ll get to where you need to be

[@watchaone4400]

Yes its easy to get caught up but have you ever got into a shower and afterwards feel so much better plus if you stay in bed your mucles get week and you end up being tired so prayers going out to anyone who suffers from this but stat strong we need you ,peace.

[@LaurenMca]

I’m going on 10 years clean this year.

[@booooo6387]

OMG CONGRATS THAT IS HUGE

[@billbailey8628]

Is clean with prescriptions or clean with nothing?

[@brianna3340]

Congrats!

[@leonardthebeardeddragon2317]

That’s amazing!!!! ✨

[@romama647]

bastard. i mean good goin 😋

[@unnamedxx]

I stopped following Taylor on everything like a year ago but this video randomly popped up in my recommendations and I’m so glad I clicked on it. I genuinely missed her and I’m so glad she’s doing better. I’m proud of her.

[@anyonebluejay5597]

Same here, yeah. I just wanted to see her trying to do better, and I'm really glad that she is, and she has a good attitude on everything.

[@CierraCrochets]

Uh Huh as

[@desireabrown6255]

I love how you talked about hygiene in early recovery. I could handle massive life issues with a poker face but doing a load of laundry or dishes was seriously overwhelming. I had to learn how to live everyday life and take care of myself again. Its still a struggle sometimes but facing it and tackling one thing at a time head on is the key for me. Take it one day at a time you're doing great!!!❤❤❤

[@kdaze10]

Same with the hygiene...I would go days without brushing my teeth or washing my hair...dry shampoo was my bff...lol. I'm slowly getting better... but there are days when it is still a struggle to get out of bed...especially when the depression is hitting hard. I've been on methadone for 1 year....but only completely clean from opiates for 4 months...and some would say I'm still using bc of the methadone...but it's through a doctor...and it works for me when for 10 years nothing worked to keep me clean...so I'll take it.

[@colleenwren2106]

Same girl 💕

[@dmxlovesmenotu]

@@kdaze10 we can be 90% made of dry shampoo still its OK! We clean!

[@kinsey987]

@@kdaze10 dry shampoo is the best/worst thing thats has ever happened to me omfg

[@kristamonroe9120]

Fully agree. A life without heroin was a life with no energy. Still a year and half later - I’m still facing days where I canNOT bring myself to accomplish menial house chores or apply makeup.

[@MrTattooASMR]

My girlfriend is 3 years sober and watching these videos makes me so proud of you.

[@electricsapphire]

Hey! Fancy seeing you here I love your channel! :)

[@TeaSesh]

Mr. Tattoo ASMR me too 🙏

[@roseileboop720]

Hi cool seeing u here, Mr. Tattoo you probably help lots of people with ur videos too. Helping people calm down and relax. I know they help me with my depression and anxiety.

[@HeathersWorld]

omggggg this brings back memories of being in a sober living house, doing outpatient treatment, going to court, having ankle bracelet, and etc. 6 years later still sober! i wouldn't change any of it. good luck on your journey girl!

[@tootsmay4420]

Congratulations! I was 6 years clean and sober it felt so amazing. I relapsed at 6 years clean and sober and I never thought I would use again. It started off with moderation for about 8 months which i didnt think was possible until it was no longer possible for me. My point is keep going sobriety is so much better anyway. I had 67 days then relapsed for months and now have 7 days!!!

[@HeathersWorld]

@@tootsmay4420I get it i have my struggles too, im rooting for you, you got this! thats what scares me it can happen at anytime.

[@1hollig1]

Congratulations!!!

[@vleaky3430]

Keep up the good work sis

[@P4bs]

I'm so happy for you, I feel the "hygiene " stuff, I suffer from severe depression and anxiety disorders and your videos help a lot. Hope you're feeling better yourself as I remember you mentioned you weren't feeling 100%

[@beardeddragons8721]

I hope you had a great day!

[@Surdeigt]

Me too. People (who don't experience this) don't understand the struggle with showering/taking care of yourself in times like that, it is so hard. I've tried explaining it, but it's pointless..

[@juliabb5662]

You should try to do a grwm once a week to try to encourage you and give you a reason to shower! I have no idea really how you feel but I think it’d be a good idea ! Btw I’ve been watching you for like 2-3 years now and really glad you’re making more videos and getting better!

[@mrbqkc]

This is a good idea! We would watch it! You could even try out hairstyles so you'd have to wash your hair. (Also absolutely no judgement from me, showering is hard sometimes!)

[@SunnyDayz14]

@@mrbqkc Thats a great idea!!! Halloween is coming up! Maybe do some Halloween makeup looks Taylor?

[@sandysgrandgirlssandysswee2492]

Julia BB what is grwm?

[@juliabb5662]

Sandy Hagstrom it’s a get ready with me video

[@ithinkradioheadisgood]

@@sandysgrandgirlssandysswee2492 it stands for get ready with me

[@shibibi1]

you know, you actually look really nice without the makeup and freshly washed hair. Your makeup skills are absolutely on point, but you definitely have a natural beauty. even with a breakout. Keep goin girl. you're doing good and you will get to a good place

[@christopherwoodward1586]

Very cool. I'm a recocering heroin addict with 4 years clean. I was literally homeless on the streets. I now own my own home and run two online businesses I've been contemplating starting my own youtube channel to give some people hope and let them know there is life after addiction. Thank you for the inspiration. You rock!💪🙌💜

[@hermithillfarm1123]

She relapsed. Go to her Instagram and you'll see it

[@emilycastillo388]

U should start a KZbin channel! Congrats on your sobriety

[@marcellafair3712]

God bless you..thats a major accomplishment!❤🙏🏾

[@lizzwilliams6022]

U mos deff SHULD start a channel ! Never Kno .... It might open new doors for u or jus might b tht glimpse of hope for some one else. Almost 5YC for me and I still randomly come across pages like this and will still watch them along with others like it .... I say go for it !

[@nedkelley777]

What did you do to help with the withdrawal.

[@mouselikecreature]

When I was at my lowest my family would make fun of how I wouldn’t shower. My depression held me back and it made me feel so bad

[@Sarah-ko3mx]

That's crap. I struggle with the motivation to look after myself so I get what you mean. It can be so embarrassing to be walking round with greasy hair but then there's just no motivation to shower, so you carry on feeling worse and it's just a vicious cycle :/

[@yungaccent7917]

Y’all are disgusting lmfao take a fucking shower

[@urrbeka]

Yung Accènt i feel bad for you! only bold in what you say behind a screen.

[@Sarah-ko3mx]

@@yungaccent7917 I'm happy that you're healthy enough to think like that :) but just accept that others aren't

[@JMartin3z]

Yung Accènt ya bro

[@TheAmy2389]

Proud of you girl! I think it would be really interesting (if you and your mom were comfortable with it, obviously) to film a video with her talking about your addiction/recovery process from both perspectives. I'm in the process of getting my Master's in Counseling, so I always find it so interesting/beneficial to get perspective from multiple parties. Anyways, love your videos so much & I know I'm ot alone in saying how insanely proud of you I am & how amazing you are!

[@jenniferdowns8991]

Yes

[@anselyesteve526]

I second this ^ it’d be scary to post so understandable if it’s never created but it would be inspiring to see

[@lil.ms.j7156]

I would appreciate this as well

[@heatherhent4445]

I cried tears of joy at points in this video. As an addict myself I love you for your courage.💕 It is so good to know I am not alone with some of these issues. Seems like many people glorify mental illnesses & addiction. There is nothing pretty about any of it & people need to hear this.

[@taylordeanvlogs7088]

Heather Hent444 I’m so glad you felt like you could relate and be reminded that we are all in this together. I absolutely hated the idea of filming with my hair greasy and my acne bad, and on a day so boring, but I just wanted to try to be as realistic as possible about all of it so I’m glad it resonated with people. 🥺 you’re never alone love!! Keep taking it one day at a time. ❤️

[@heatherhent4445]

@@taylordeanvlogs7088Ok- You got me crying again 😂. Thank you.

[@megantipton3381]

Opiates were my thing too! I was clean 3 years then relapsed after my fiance cheated on me. I moved to Houston & now I've been clean almost a year. I truly appreciate your honesty! & btw... the hygiene thing & wanting to sleep all day.. i totally get it!

[@OMGIGILY]

Youre so nice to yourself giggling that they were obsessed with your washed hair! I would have been so embarassed and cried if they pointed it out. youre really inspiring

[@jbula03]

I can totally relate to the hygiene part , some days are harder then others. Just wanna say I am proud of you ! Keep it up and keep up these informative videos with your process

[@rynloback2508]

My mom was addicted to heroine.. she never got the chance to recover. I get so happy when I watch these videos. Keep up the good work! ♥️

[@carolynnalvarez7032]

Sorry sweetheart 😔

[@brookeevans8400]

Ryn Loback ❤️ stay strong love

[@Laura-gg4zo]

I’m so sorry ❤️

[@ericcartman4751]

I'm so sorry for your loss, rest in peace to your mother 🙏❤️

[@Rotary12A]

Shes not clean shes on suboxone

[@emmadillon392]

It’s so amazing to watch someone live there best life as a recovering addict. I’m 13 years old and when I was 11 my mom died of a meth overdose and it makes me so happy to see you recovering ❤️

[@TheMurray1922]

Emma, im so sorry to hear this- but you can do anything, in spite of the pain you've experienced. Keep your chin up!

[@AyeYoTay]

Omg I'm so sorry..

[@paulinevanchhawng9185]

I'm so sorry, I hope you're doing better

[@AyeYoTay]

Like I didn't know that was possible. I heard of heroin overdoses but that's from you getting to relax and you stop breathing.. So with meth I didn't know you could overdose... I'm glad to learn new things everyday.. God bless you and your family and your mom isn't hurting anymore. Id like to believe she is in Heaven chillin with my japanese grandmother having fun.

[@paulinevanchhawng9185]

@@AyeYoTay 😂 that's sweet

[@mikaelal9479]

My boyfriend has to get up everyday around 7 he has to go the clinic for his methadone and counseling. It’s a hard journey.

[@isabellee.alyssaa]

Mikaela L stay strong, both of you!! it’s a long and hard journey but you have definitely got this

[@dvlexotics2177]

Its a long hard journey but tell him he is doing great and remind him how well he is doing and how proud you are of him.

[@andler5061]

that’s supposed to be hard?

[@natalija8771]

@@andler5061 it is incredibly hard and unless you go through it or someone close to you does then you can't ever understand really

[@Sporkdiedddddd]

Same 🙄 and it’s not just waking up st 7 that’s hard... she was just saying that’s part of it. And duck yeah it sucks getting up EVERYDAY at 7 am and a lot of places have long as waits

[@JenniferHayesJVG]

Girl I feel ya. 19 months clean and sober today. Keep kicking addictions ass !!!

[@Mari-kb7jb]

Jennifer Hayes congrats on your anniversary! ❤️

[@hollycline5931]

Weird I'm 18 months as of the 28th/today

[@jessiecorvus9262]

I get my 6 months chip for Christmas! So excited!

[@heylily2446]

Congrats!! Keep it up you got this 💕

[@Sarahbabeara91]

Awesome job! Congratulations!

[@amandabeach669]

I just want to say I'm a recovering addict of almost 2 years and I am so happy someone on you tube has talked about addiction. I think you are amazing and I am so happy to be a subscriber.

[@kookiecrumbs233]

I really want to thank you for mentioning the hygiene thing. I’ve had depression(+ a million other things) since middle school and even though I’m better now I still have a huge problem with hygiene. I try to excuse it by saying I’m busy but in reality I really and just never have motivation. Back when I still had bad depression I wouldn’t shower for weeks at a time, and though my hair doesn’t get that greasy you really just feel dirty. Anyway thank you for this video, good luck on recovery!

[@labaccident2010]

I've realized I've hit that "don't care about hygiene" depression again and I now force myself to shower and do laundry. makeup gives me a good incentive to bother washing my face.

[@Flufferz626]

You aren't alone. In bouts of depression I lose track of days and wonder if it's been 2 days or 10 days since I showered.

[@sapphirecharm01]

@@labaccident2010 please wash yourself

[@labaccident2010]

@@sapphirecharm01 I do! Even when I'm in a bad spot, I go make sure I keep up with hygiene. A warm shower is nice on a bad day, anyway.

[@elgordobully]

Exactly what depression feels like normal tasks feel like a huge tasks. Office definitely helps!!

[@nellrussellstarving_artist1215]

Oh god! I start 24 hours before I have to do something special, just to talk myself into it.... Also, "The Office" and "Impractical Jokers" are absolutely the only reasons I haven't offed it thus far

[@nellrussellstarving_artist1215]

Oh and I wait till the last min to pee... Then make myself brush my teeth at the same time, otherwise i would not talk myself into getting up again. IT'S AWFUL

[@elgordobully]

Nell Russell right?! And I hate when people call you lazy it’s like trust me I’d be better if I could

[@nellrussellstarving_artist1215]

@@elgordobully for real! And I hate when people tell me i should "do this" and "go to this thing" and "why haven't you finished this" or "visited so n so" ..... I feel like saying, "Man, trying not to off myself and just get into the shower is about all i can handle today"

[@lailinshale]

Love the cowtfit. Keep on keepin' on. Not everybody gets how big it is "just" to wash your hair.

[@toriebarrett5828]

Her talking about how she has to now deal with feeling a whole bunch of pain again (from physical disorders) after being numb for so long is such a real thing !!! I experienced it to and it’s hard as hell

[@yayao7450]

You’re brother made a water boy reference & you looked at him like he was crazy Girrrllll lol he’s hilarious

[@melovejoongie9203]

I literally started laughing as soon as he said it 😂

[@soulerheat]

that's what i thought!!! 😂

[@pea547]

you should get a bird feeder outside that window, the kitties would appreciate it in the mornings!

[@TheSecret_PRO]

Wait wha-

[@Finchsaviary]

that’s a great idea!

[@amaraoceaniagoodwin981]

Wish I could see the dislikes ... cruel for both the kittens an birds :(

[@gabriellevanarkel716]

Amara Oceania Goodwin I don’t think its cruel for them.. My cats love to watch the birds and we have a bird feeder in the front yard, the cats can’t get to them. So safe for the birds, and especially the older cat just likes to sit and watch. I think that is What the comment meant. 😅

[@brookecannon5817]

@@amaraoceaniagoodwin981 how is it cruel?

[@Thaa_judgeee]

I’m on methadone been on for 3 years been detoxing about to be off soon but I’m also on sleeping meds and can sleep foreeverrrrrrr forrealll🙄 but heroin free a year and 3 months ❤️❤️

[@xantana543]

Proud of u

[@miaclaassen]

We’re proud of u, stay strong bb

[@madisoneady405]

That’s amazing! So glad for you 💗

[@BobRossCat]

You can do it! Keep clean and you are amazing. Alot of people can't stop for a day, i love you! ❤

[@stephanieprimley2961]

Congrats on tapering girl!! I was on methadone for 6 years and it took me like 3 or 4 to successfully taper with no withdrawal at all! It took a long time but was so worth it . That saved my life for sure. Dont give up girl you're bad ass.

[@amberdean374]

Life after drug addiction is so beautiful! It’s even more beautiful than life before starting drugs!! You have a whole new sense of self and honesty. You see things for what they truly are and even when life gets tough it’s easier to cope and get past.

[@ahabby5513]

Tanner's Waterboy reference is everything

[@themelissaeileen]

Tanner is THE best! I love him so much! ❤️

[@LoveVanita]

I’m straight edge and never done drugs in my life but I found this video so interesting since I have severe depression and crippling anxiety and struggle to take care of myself and do normal things just like you and this really helped me out 🥺

[@kyakore]

LoveVanita please get help

[@zoiemarks]

It's really wholesome to see this side of you, it feels so much more raw and down to earth. And the talk of mental health etc is really comforting it's nice to see you using your platform to help people experiencing similar issues feel not alone etc as well as informing those who haven't experienced these type of life or mental health problems etc

[@WhitneyDahlin]

I really wish she'd do an update. I think about her a lot. Opiate addiction is a HUGE problem in the US. She is the ONLY successful KZbinr brave enough to talk about it. She had a lot to lose and still talked about it anyway. I guarantee YOU she isn't the only major KZbinr who had an opiate addiction. I hope shes okay now

[@JojoAndBay135]

She’s been going between relapsing and being sober for the last year. She updates on her Instagram and Twitter sometimes. I’m not sure if she’s sober as of right now but she’s been relapsing a lot. She’s apparently hanging out with really bad influences

[@katelynspencer8392]

@@JojoAndBay135she’s now a year and some change sober !! I’m so proud of her

[@RecoveredRaunchyRebel]

I hope she's doing better and having a routine when starting over in life is the key. Me and my wife are also in recovery and a similar program. One love to all my fellow addicts out there

[@Ace-gz5ol]

“You’re all clean aren’t ya” so cute

[@Saphireproductions1]

I felt the hygiene part😂 I’ve been recovering from anorexia for almost 2 years having the disorder for about 5 years and I’ve been in almost every type of treatment from hospital to residential and honestly I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in years I’ve looked up to you for so long Stay strong bb ❤️❤️

[@bannstrahl]

julia Maldonado im so proud of you!

[@booooo6387]

I am so proud of you I am in my early stages of recovering from anorexia. These types of things are not easy to surpass so the fact that even just some people can gives me hope. Things like this really make me happy seeing people get better because I am extremely young barely entering my preteen stage. Some people think people my age can’t get eating disorders or have depression but that isn’t true at all. I suffer from depression, anxiety, scoliosis, asthma, OCD, and anorexia. I go through lots of hard times and have participated in self harm which I am not proud of. I have people who care about me just as much as I care about others. That is art of my problem. Instead of just feeling proud or accomplished when I please people I feel the need to do everything right on their behalf which is what led me to my eating disorder. I would completely skip breakfast and lunch at school and my friends began to worry about me. They would call at random times of the night since we already saw each other over ten hours a day because we went to an after school program. That didn’t matter to my friend. She had been in my life since I was two years old and even before either of us were born our families were friends. My parents split up when I was a baby so that was just what I was used to. My mother was mentally abusive and she couldn’t stand to look at me if my scores on anything was any less then perfect. I still have pretty bad issues with my mental heath to this day but it is a lot better then what it was. I had to deal with everyone judging me I was in every single school club or team and the lead in plays. While lots of people think that it is just fun it isn’t. I also am bisexual and I identify with both genders and most people in my grade knew that. I was extremely open about it and I don’t regret that. I have 4 different friend that are sexually different then most. My friend is currently discovering who she is in a matter of sexuality. This isn’t even my full story. My point is that anyone can recover for some it might take a little longer than others but it is definitely possible. So no matter what problems you struggle with you will be ok. That goes for anybody who has or had issues mentally or physically. I know for a fact that without the people in my life that live me I wouldn’t be here today and I most likely would have ended my life. So anyone dealing with somewhat similar problems you will get through it. Just know that you are loved. And capable of immensely great things in this world even if you don’t know what that thing is yet. Always remember that.

[@nafisaali291]

ED + a drug addiction was a wild ride for me. i’m sober from drugs but i recently relapsed in my ED & it’s so draining. it’s so hard…

[@rachellane8756]

taylor: tanner, say something really inspirational tanner: *sips capri sun* same tanner

[@itzgrace6041]

Rachel Lane just like a mood

[@jtreed8624]

As a recovering addict it is extremely overwhelming to become a functioning member of society. I easily get overwhelmed when I have too much to do in one day.

[@EmileeMahar]

This video shows how important animals are in our lives. They save lives. Dogs saved my life!!!

[@YeosangThePirate]

As someone who’s been suffering with depression most her life I completely understand the Taking shower part of the video Taking care of your self is so hard when your brain just doesn’t want to

[@uwabami6630]

violet von vexx i relate to this so much it’s so hard for me to even take meds, I haven’t showered in 3 days amd even though i feel disgusting my brain just doesn’t want to cooperate

[@YeosangThePirate]

OPHIDIA literally me rn 😓

[@uwabami6630]

violet von vexx we’ll get through it ❤️

[@hin0]

Sometimes taking one bath is enough for the whole week

[@YeosangThePirate]

Hinora and you feel so accomplished when you do to

[@LilttleFreak]

"If I'm gonna look hot for my therapy, I'm gonna look hot for my therapy." Girl, same. It's all about wearing what makes us feel good ❤️ I'm also in my early 20s without a license btw, so don't feel bad. I love having my mom drive me.

[@electricsapphire]

I am gonna be 20 in November and my boyfriend drives me everywhere and refuses to let me pump gas. He is the only one I feel safe driving me. I am to scared to drive myself. I feel like if I got a little Volkswagen I'd feel comfortable with it but I can't drive big ol cars its to worrisome.

[@gennyrose5047]

Same!!!!

[@Dinosgorawr124]

I got mine at 21 no shame in being late. I have extreme driving anxiety. I try to avoid it.

[@MariaHernandez-hv2qy]

I found your channel today im a recovering addict as well 8 yrs addicted to heroin i been ckean since 2010. I can relate to your situation i was in a toxic relationship for 10 yrs with a heroin addict. He left me homeless for a crackhead. My parents forced me into rehab 3 months I was bed bond I had no strength at all my dad had to carry me to the bath out. I thank God and my parents every day for saving my life. I just wanted to say be proud of yourself not many addicts live to tell their story. Your a blessing so congratulations 👏 and keep up the good work.

[@briannarichardson2018]

I love how she gets so excited when shes talking about her sobriety. I'm so proud of you ❤️

[@ereynolds4637]

Your brother is literally my favorite person ever he’s so sweet

[@Nekei]

I feel the hygiene part so hard :( when I’m in my depressive episodes I struggle with brushing my teeth and showering and it’s so awful. I feel like I’m just being lazy but I know it’s not the case bc I know that I want AND have to but I just like cant bring myself to do it sometimes 😪 I’m super proud of you though it’s so great to see your journey with recovery and I’m sure you’re helping out so many with what you’re showing!! You’re doing amazing 💕💕

[@beardeddragons8721]

It's okay! I can relate too! I hope you are feeling better!💖

[@iLoveTheBamx]

I’m so glad I’m not the only one. Seeing this helps me because it reminds me I’m not alone. I struggle with showering and hygiene too when I’m depressed. It feels like extreme laziness to me, like you said, except I know it’s more. I know I’m going into a depressive funk/episode when my hygiene and cleanliness starts to slide downhill again.

[@beardeddragons8721]

@@iLoveTheBamx I thought about it too that I'm only one with thst problem and "lazy" but It's really about mentalhealth

[@kristenc6839]

Coming up on 3 years of sobriety here! Keep it up girl!! Here’s a tip.. even when you don’t feel like showering force yourself. Always make your bed in the am. It’s the little things that will make you feel “in order” and feel good about yourself. And don’t forget to thank God for another day and to keep you sober in the am.. and thank Him at night for keeping you sober !💓🙏🏻

[@megannethery2513]

I was a heroin addict for 6 years, during which time i lost both of my parents, went to prison twice, and lost 10+ friends to overdosing. I totally understand what you're talking about with the hygiene thing, i use to go weeks at a time. Those were the worst years of my life & i pray i never go back. It is a daily struggle for an addict to stay clean, and always will be, but this life is sooo much better. You are so incredibly brave in my opinion, thank you for being so transparent. It helps to know you aren't alone in this fight. Keep up the amazing work you're doing❤❤❤

[@imnevergonnalosemyselfagain]

Megan Nethery so proud of you! you got this and you‘re worth it stay safe ❤️❤️

[@nellrussellstarving_artist1215]

Same Megan, same. Getcha. Idt my brain chemistry has ever balanced back out.

[@kinglouis6974]

Megan Nethery And I thought I’d gone full bore , No matter how bad shite is you know deep down using will make things worse, keep it up babe 🇬🇧👍🏼

[@elliemortonxxx]

what was she addicted to

[@bruhidk3069]

elliemortonxxx heroin

[@UniNarwhal]

oh my god your editing style is GREAT and I love youuu. I’m also loving this vlog channel ❤️

[@taylordeanvlogs7088]

Uni omg thank you so much!!!

[@UniNarwhal]

Taylor Dean Vlogs you’re welcome!! You’re such a beautiful person and everything will be alright, ok? (and your short hair is so pretty!!)

[@sarahjarrett8004]

I love how much you’re feeling yourself since becoming sober. You literally look so good and healthy

[@dekearty1515]

Hi, i am a recovering addict and at the moment i am trying to wean myself off suboxone. I just want you to know that your story is giving me the strength i need to kick the strips outta my life. Thank you soo much for these vlogs. I literally just watched your story on how you became an addict and.... i really really think you have the power to complete this chapter and add it to the index of your life.. just know you've made a difference in my life even though I've never met you. Good luck

[@bmoneyrancidfan91]

Man those strips taste like orange shit

[@Harlow_Khmer]

Hope you're doing well ❤️

[@delvinmallory3427]

@K Maxx Wow, irony this rich is hard to find. I guess you'd say this to a cancer patient too, right? Those stupid people and their stupid diseases!

[@mariamiamonteleone]

The SECOND I wasn’t dope sick anymore in rehab I started showering and doing my makeup and taking care of myself again

[@taylordeanvlogs7088]

Maria Mia YESS my first shower in rehab felt so good, it was amazing.

[@daniellesalvia7788]

Maria Mia amen to that! I never did dope but I’ve done other shit and I don’t go a day without makeup now just because it makes me feel good!

[@Athenia_Orion]

Severe Depression causes me to not wanna get up or bathe or do laundry

[@colleennewholy9026]

Or finish things you've started...

[@mind-of-neo]

i feel you

[@Nixie_536]

💕Feel you🙏🏻

[@HeyItsSix]

Same

[@daniellepirtle]

Me too, babe. Daily battle to accomplish even the smallest, most “normal/trivial” things to most people.

[@VampireGirl8772]

Our routine is almost the same, that makes me feel so good about myself because I’m not alone. However, I’m two years sober off heroin and benzos. I love you and I’m proud of you :)

[@jgx0x0]

How long did it take u to feel better after stopping benzos? I am in the process and it feels like it's going to be forever till I feel "normal" again. Congrats on 2yrs.

[@gabidemartinolyingaboutbei8641]

Jordi Gellar I’ve been on benzos since I was 18, and now I’m 38(heroin too but I’m “clean” now, on methadone for 6 years). Ive tried to get off benzos soooo many times; cold turkey(had seizures, etc), rehab, I tried everything. I’ve accepted the fact that I’ll be on them forever, because I’m NEVER trying that again. I went 48 DAYS off of Xanax and was STILL having horrible w/ds. So, on the 48th day I got some and never looked back. I think it can take years to get over Xanax/benzo w/d. Good luck, I hope you have better luck!

[@shawnmiller5611]

Jordi gellar try winging urself off of benzos a lil each month or 2 just a little each time until you don't need it anymore or u think you can try without them never I mean never do it cold turkey

[@lisamarieromeo6122]

@@jgx0x0 heya hun I'm off benzo almost 2yrs and I had fits and sweats all the cold turkey symptoms. You can do it My moto was fear the fear and do it anyway. The only thing is I've have no support. Just me and my dog Romeo. My partner and fiance died. Thomas 12yrs he died sudden adult death syndrome. Not drug related My 2nd partner of 6yrs died from lirka and benzo So I really didn't we want to die. I started coming down as slow as I could be wuse about it What we tell ourself we end up believing a self limited belief it's called. If u start telling yourself you ll never be off them Well most likely you will just accept iti was exact same but trust me you can do it Take it like 1mg a week or month. Do it all at your own Pace don't beat yourself up if u fall just get back up and try again. I need up becoming an addiction councillor now. Once we break the cycle of what we tell ourselves like I'll hate myself or I am stupid guess what you ll start behaving this way. It's all self limited belief s we absorb growing up as kids that we take in and it reflect into our behaviors. I done addiction studies and analyzing behaviour s also physiology too So if u change your thought s you will gradually change ur beliefs God bless you and you can do it Remember nobody is harder on us than ourself. 💕🙏💜🤗

[@alishatomblin3363]

Same here. Routine is also about the same. Some people don’t believe me when I tell them how often I sleep.

[@lucysoul7073]

idk why this is my comfort video. always come back to this when Im super depressed. thank u Taylor

[@jessiecamacho9936]

I was thinking the same thing. Like I always watch this and it makes me feel less alone; like it’s “normal” to just exist even if I, myself, am at my lowest.

[@sophiemoccep4395]

Can we talk about how cats help us with everything ? Sleeping, relaxing, getting up, laugh ?

[@Boutys_mom]

Sometimes I wonder if my cat is depressed too, when she sleeps as much as me. Lol!

[@AndreyaWryght]

I just wish that they could make coffee or tea.. That would just be the best 😂

[@backtosourceandbeyond7536]

“Pecan comic 😂 you can be a pecan comic if u want.” I feel better about life now

[@melodies92]

One minute in and I already feel SO happy that I am NOT the only one who starts my mornings this way!! I'm not alone! Everything you say in this is sooo relatable and true for me. So thanks!

[@hippydippyeilish7572]

"ima take a chill pill- no pills, pills are BAD" 🥺🥺

[@sageharmony3128]

1st day sober off my meth relapse and saw this. Thanks for the encouragement friend ❤️✌🏽

[@Mari-kb7jb]

Sage Lynn same girl, same

[@VK-uh5jz]

I'm about a year and a half off of it. It can be done. Hang in there. Life gets so much better and you will look back and love yourself again. I also in that time have not had a drop of alcohol or smoked any green. Other substances only triggered m use. Good luck. You can do it

[@skiddni8665]

U can do it!!

[@wifeyg7136]

It only gets better, been clean 7 yrs now.

[@HalfwayJac]

Wifey G 713 Yo everyone on this thread, I just wanna say, I love you all! Please don’t give up!

[@mandigurl2341]

I want Tanner to know that his jokes were really funny and that they made me laugh 😊

[@484Chrissi]

mandygurl2341 same!

[@autumnsworld7663]

Made my day too lol he reminds me of my brother love em!! # waterboy

[@paigecrosby4516]

I’m on methadone. 4 years sober off herion. Life’s been hard but so worth being alive ♥️ I love how you’re so raw

[@edithmaskerkline3747]

I'm also on methadone, I've been off heroin for 5yrs as of May 28! I still have day's where personal hygiene is hard for me. We all have our own journey as long as we take it 1 day/moment at a time, stay sober & continue sharing experience strength & hope also being open to recieving the experience strength & hope when we need it. I'm so proud of you, keep on keeping on ❤

[@crystalisacunt2728]

I’m on methadone also! Been off Herion now for 6 years!

[@rachelperson-brookrealtor9617]

I’m also on methadone. Been on the clinic for 5 years and clean for 2.5yrs. I’m tapering off the clinic now and I’m down to 25mg! Woohoo!!

[@emmaxx2529]

52 mg from 65mg 🥰 I actually wasn’t on heroin I had an OxyContin/oxycodone addiction from being in chronic pain due to pancreatitis. Been on methadone 2 years now and was addicted to opiates for about 6 years. I’m 28 and hope to enter my 30’s completely drug free. 💜

[@Hana.Behl-Lecter]

Me too, I have 2.5 years. So happy it's finally becoming more accessible and less stigmatized. Everyone telling me I shouldn't get on it kept me from the one thing that actually got me off drugs for yearsssss.

[@monicarussup8498]

As s person in recovery for almost 5 years, and who works in a treatment center, I have to say that I relate to so much of what you said. I was clean for 8 months before my doctor decided to try suboxone, because i was in such a deep depression, hygiene problems and all, and i was this close to getting high. Suboxone literally saved my life. My quality of life improved greatly after suboxone. Thank you for being open about that. The 12 step meetings where I live do not consider suboxone clean so I struggled with that as well. But i do Smart Recovery, which I love, and now between a job I love, my family. my 6 dogs and 4 cats, my life is finally "normal" for me, anyway. You ROCK!!!

[@greydeath4273]

Your lil brother is hilarious only comedy geniuses understand his talent of the pecan comic

[@myiareads]

watching you be so open and honest with yourself and everyone around you, (including us) is the most inspiring thing ive seen you do . i hope i can be this honest with myself and others one day. i know it was a journey for you and im so happy your sharing your journey

[@femalelucifer1219]

Have you ever heard of "build a ladder" it helps with depressive disorders to break down tasks into smaller tasks to be less daunting. It may help , I use it . Looking after your hygiene is equal to self love and care , I know how you feel and the harsh self judgement that brings you further down. Routines are good to build up starting small and make you feel more in control and human. You'll get there , we will all get there but at our own pace. Sending lots of love to you xxxxxx

[@brittanyxbesty]

female lucifer is this an app?

[@MrsBear-sv6wo]

Yeah i agree. What is this?🤔 do tell...... Intriguing minds would like to know

[@hanginlxights3_853]

I can tell that ur Additude has changed ((for the better))! I’m really so proud of u for fighting ur addiction.

[@gxldxn]

Lol attitude

[@hanginlxights3_853]

J H I mean like her additude... not her ADDITUDE... you know?

[@laylay-bi9dq]

My dad will look at me crazy when I’m like I haven’t showered in a week and I’m just like IT’S DEPRESSION like I don’t even want to get up and pee

[@watchaone4400]

Praying for you to change good luck

[@Freya1412]

I know. Depression sucks. Hang in there. You aren't alone.

[@krazykdon]

Sometimes it even hurts to breathe or move.

[@kingstingray9436]

breathing hurts thanks to my misplaced balls being squashed on a daily basis by a fecking binder. never complain about bras after wearing this every goddamnday

[@nicolecourtney8688]

So relatable 💕

[@jawnnysins8153]

I really felt the hygiene problem when i’m in the throes of depression I can’t even get myself to brush my teeth. you’re not alone sis i’m so happy you’re fighting for yourself ❤️

[@beardeddragons8721]

Hope you have an amazing day!

[@alanna4872]

when your legs get hairy does king cheese grow a beard

[@michaelmelancon357]

14 months sober. I'm grateful for every single day. Stay strong and keep pushing forward. 💪💪

[@kirianyre83]

i just turned 15 yesterday and i’ve dealt with watching my family struggle with addiction my whole life. including my own parents. and i know that getting clean is one of the hardest things for someone to do so i just wanna day congratulations and i’m so so so proud of you ‼️❤️

[@katelynchamberlain9953]

My boyfriend of three years became a herion addict after a lot of shit happened. I had to leave it got so bad. I don’t know how he’s doing... last thing I heard he’s selling it and is making no effort to be clean. Watching your videos almost brings me comfort and gives me hope that one day he’ll be the person I know he can be. You’re so sweet, keep it up 💗

[@beatrizcastro3129]

😞

[@heythere5817]

My ex turned into a junkie a month after I left and last I know of him is the cops chasing him to issue a DV order and that he is homeless sleeping in dumpsters. Sadly I dont have any hope for him

[@katelynchamberlain9953]

Hey There I’m sorry you’ve lost hope. Focus on yourself and making yourself happy and healthy. Sending Positive thoughts your way.

[@hasmikgligoriu4011]

I’m a heroine recovering addict been clean 16 months and at times I still struggle with cravings but I quit cold turkey it’s my second time getting clean .. I overdosed in 2016 flatlined but I finally can say I don’t want to go back to the devil .

[@lyndonlangley3795]

Hasmik Gligoriu bless ur heart . my mom is a addict . she has holes all in her nose from coke . and never talks to me . i’m 15. stay strong we’re all proud of u❤️

[@hasmikgligoriu4011]

lyndon langley Thank you beautiful don’t lose hope on your parents

[@hokulaninalani6975]

lyndon langley god bless you. like she said don’t give up on your parents please don’t. They’re human too and not perfect.

[@motolumpy1216]

I know he saw the focus of this video but I work with special needs kids and your brother is an absolute joy oh my goodness, he's such a sweetie

[@HaileyHansen]

your hair is literally so cute with this color + length omg

[@clayreichard1774]

Haha Shane’s series Taylor’s posting this is the best October ever

[@claudiadominguez7007]

LITERALLY!

[@CoffeeAndShop]

My dream come true would be Shane and Taylor doing a collab, I would literally scream if that ever happened

[@flapperghoul1762]

Shane should have done a series on Taylor with less editing and more real.

[@RP_76]

Please don't be in a rush to stop the Subs, I get why you're wanting to just wanted to say that. I was almost ashamed I was on it, but I'm not doing what I use to and that's all that matters! I'm super proud of you, every time you post I click tight away 💕💕

[@Discovering_Nicole1]

Hey, We have MARA meetings over on my channel. Medically Assisted Recovery Anonymous meetings. Come over♡

[@cuppatae834]

I agree. I've been wanting to get off them so bad, I've been on them for a year but I'm really not looking forward to getting off them.

[@amandakaricunningham4116]

Idk what I'd do w/o my subs I can honestly say it saved my life! There comes a time when u do need to quit them but u definitely should taper down first.

[@cuppatae834]

@@amandakaricunningham4116 Same. Idk where I'd be without them honestly. I hate when people say that we're"Not clean" while on them. Like okay at least I'm not sticking a needle in my arm & getting abscesses.

[@amandakaricunningham4116]

@@tsukiimaufomecca2069 I have gained weight also my blood pressure started running a little high but that could be something else. I hate that you have health issues

[@danibee149]

Taylor, this is my all time comfort video. I cannot say how many times I have watched this video.

[@endertamer3273]

That first audio clip literally sums up my entire life

[@leonardsusskindswar7258]

I did a DBT IOP program for 8 weeks and now do a weekly class. It helped me so much, learning to deal with my anxiety and depression, as well as my chronic medical conditions (I have POTS and EDS, as well as an auto-immune disease that's eating away at/fusing my spine and hips in place). Facing those issues head on was really difficult. I never wanted to get out of bed, was too exhausted and in pain to bathe daily, or really do much of anything. But now I'm doing much better, due to the IOP and now weekly sessions. Keep up the great work! So proud of you! P.S. My cats also wake me up in the morning by pulling out my shades, or, if that isn't successful, launching themselves at my head until I open them fully.

[@TheLuckythirt3en]

Question here. Was wondering if you also might have chiari malformation as well. Most people i know who have pots and eds, also has chiari malformation. Just curious. Im glad that you have been rocovering and getting better.

[@leonardsusskindswar7258]

tiffany boschee thankfully, I don’t. I consider myself very lucky.

[@evelynj1605]

taylor eating fries in her bed watching netflix is a big mood😂

[@bluballs-cw1mx]

evelyn j omg that’s my life too the office is why I get out of bed when Jim pulled pranks, Pam acted drunk at Chili’s, and Michael’s conctint need for attention that’s my life

[@creaturecomforts7069]

I was watching this in bed whilst eating my dominoes🤣

[@amaraoceaniagoodwin981]

PLEASE TALK ABOUT YOUR FAMILY FINDING OUT AND HOW THEY ARE COPING ME AND MY PARENTS WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT

[@amaraoceaniagoodwin981]

@John Laurens did I say she had to ? God cant say anything without white knights these days :/

[@amaraoceaniagoodwin981]

@John Laurens what a strange person u are .

[@kealeyherring4797]

Amara Oceania Goodwin this was a interesting online fight

[@amaraoceaniagoodwin981]

@@kealeyherring4797 I was honestly just so confused

[@kimsometimesasmrvids4302]

I would like to know about that too my family acts and tell me that am still on drugs getting off one drug to the next they think!