The Caretaker - Everywhere at the end of time - Stage 2 (FULL ALBUM)

Everywhere at the end of time - Stage 2
thecaretaker.bandcamp.com/alb...
00:00:00 - C1 - A losing battle is raging
00:04:38 - C2 - Misplaced in time
00:09:20 - C3 - What does it matter how my heart breaks
00:11:58 - C4 - Glimpses of hope in trying times
00:16:41 - C5 - Surrendering to despair
00:21:45 - D1 - I still feel as though I am me
00:25:53 - D2 - Quiet dusk coming early
00:29:30 - D3 - Last moments of pure recall
00:33:23 - D4 - Denial unravelling
00:37:39 - D5 - The way ahead feels lonely
Stage 2:
The second stage is the self realisation and awareness
that something is wrong with a refusal to accept that.
More effort is made to remember so memories can be
more long form with a little more deterioration in quality.
The overall personal mood is generally lower.
Artwork by Ivan Seal
carlfreedman.com/artists/ivan-...

[@RazzPlays]

The handles on the vase look like a man and a woman dancing, both without faces. Good detail by the artist.

[@donnaquixote7538]

Or maybe playing and flirting around a tree. I swear I've seen them in some other painting.

[@ruggedlover1313]

or a rib cage with flowers coming out of the spine?

[@comradeweeble5317]

It also looks like the vase is deteriorating yet the flowers are perfectly healthy Just like Dementia on the outside you look fine, but the thing that holds you together is falling apart

[@spacecowboy2160]

Bro ur actually a genius, I would have never noticed that

[@comradeweeble5317]

@@spacecowboy2160 bro i'm a fucking idiot, don't try to make me happy

[@AlecNormal]

The fact that “It’s just a burning memory” gets more and more slow and distorted is really sad and scary to me. It’s almost like dementia reminding its victim “remember this memory? Now look how distorted and different it is”

[@pc31754]

It's actually, as stated in the description, because of an effort to remember. The patient would sort of fill in the blanks, resulting in a loss of accuracy. "More effort is made to remember so memories can be more long form with a little more deterioration in quality."

[@four-en-tee]

@@pc31754 That reminds me a bit of the ship of Theseus, except the ship that's slowly falling apart and being "repaired" in this case is a memory.

[@paradeice5396]

I think burning memory helps the listener understand more what's going on. They already know that the music is getting distorted, but knowing how much it is distorted helps even more

[@mspgilbert486]

“Remember this memory?” No, not really. That’s sort of the point.

[@sackfu7952]

Remember this memory...? Remember it now?

[@mr.nazareth4501]

a hint of unease. something is *not* right. you don't know, or don't care what it is, but something is not right and you either refuse or accept it, and try to clutch onto the memories you have with you. who was that girl that came to visit you...? your daughter says she was... you think her friend? and she was a... oh... what do you call it? you can't seem to remember. what exactly is happening to you? yesterday you couldn't remember which drawer takes what sock, today, you can't seem to remember where you put your keys again. hang on while you can, old man. this is stage 2.

[@squittlequeen2282]

Mr. Nazareth I saw this comment in full on the full six and a half hour album I wish I could find it again and I wish it was pinned because for me it explains dementia a little better

[@mr.nazareth4501]

@@squittlequeen2282 yeah, I would've put it in all six stages but I didn't want people to think I was milking it or something

[@mr.nazareth4501]

@h-hey, baka!!! cause I already put it in the six and a half hour video

[@panchikofan123]

@@squittlequeen2282 Yeah I've been looking for it. If I find it again, I'm gonna screenshot it.

[@jadeblades]

@@mr.nazareth4501 just saying, youre an AMAZING writer.

[@jacobgraham962]

Lyrics for those with loss of hearing: “:(“

[@conbon3564]

You are a genius

[@nicetry69420]

Stage one: (: Stage two: |: Stage three: /: Stage four: ): Stage five: DX Stage six: *is without representation, your place in the world has faded*

[@checkYVELLUAP]

lyrics for c2: oooooooooo oooooooooo

[@the_fake_th30ne]

lyrics for those with loss of memory:

[@unapinarandomdelinternet3568]

[ART]

[@hollysmith148]

this makes me too aware of my mortality

[@masicbemester]

same

[@winterthekitten6626]

'The way ahead feels lonely' is like seeing dark clouds in evening coming closer to you while you're lying in front of lake, making the most of it before the storm will come.

[@beanogee]

these jams need a goddamn prescription warning.

[@SpeedXaaa]

Lmao PREACH

[@cerebralmalsey]

Advertisement: Symptoms may include memory loss, loss of awareness, loss of self, or death. Everybody in the Ad: *DANCE*

[@elnoob78h19]

4 years ago??

[@crap4brains652]

@@elnoob78h19 well yeah, whats wrong about that

[@elnoob78h19]

@@crap4brains652 I di d not know this album was posted 4 years ago

[@ibs_haver]

In my opinion, this stage is the most depressing. Either the person refuses to accept the fact that they are developing signs of dementia, which is sad in a way the person can't understand, or the person accepts the fact that their mind is deteriorating, and that they can't do anything about it. Either way, they're still aware that something is off, and that is the saddest part to me. By part 4 they are already long gone, and while soul-crushing, they are beyond knowing what is happening to them.

[@mtsairmass1123]

This and stage 3. Libet Delay itself changed my life

[@heheheiamasuperstarcatgirl8485]

@@mtsairmass1123 stage 3 did it for me, but the point where 3 changed to 4 was absolutely gut-wrenching

[@panchikofan123]

@@heheheiamasuperstarcatgirl8485 6 is disturbing.

[@edwardjohnson7849]

Hate the fact of part 2-3 happening to me, but listening to part 4 5 and 6 is fucking disturbing dude

[@ioutra6121]

What is suffering without remembering what said suffering is like? If you can't even remember what your arms and hands looked like, how can you even remember that you were wilting away just moments ago, or was it hours ago....?

[@birdflox1337]

when your mom suddenly starts forgetting everything you told her earlier that day...

[@Chrnan6710]

never cried from a comment before

[@Shakenmike117]

@@Chrnan6710 minecraft profile pic

[@Chrnan6710]

@@Shakenmike117 yes

[@Marie-qv6on]

Wish I never read this smh Mom I love you forever

[@blitzthespittah3712]

Leave my mother out of this you scoundrel! >:(

[@antsuh.a.h3637]

Right now, I'm listening to this on my 16th birthday. I have no idea what it actually is like to lose your memory. But I have a plan. I have marked my calendar on my phone. On my 60th birthday It'll remind me to listen to this again. Then I'll probably understand this better. If KZbin still works and I can come and comment here, I'll try to remember to do that. We'll just have to see what future holds for now. Maybe I won't even live to be 60.

[@matturner6890]

You're gonna have to have the same phone for 44 years then! Maybe it'll be a collectible by that time. Happy birthday, keep enjoying weird music!

[@meledit_]

I'm 16 too I'm looking forward to your comment in 44 years

[@theonezenitram]

Meet up in 2064 guys.

[@tiesdekkers9106]

dilson count me in

[@hiZarki]

you're better off at one of those websites which automatically sends you an e-mail sometime in the future you get to decide

[@acle_]

the first track sounds like a spring cleaning. windows open, sheets strung up outside. playing from inside the house out the windows. or if a camera was recording it and everyone's moving fast. sprightly.

[@gammaplayer1]

What a wonderful comment & one way to capture this beautiful music in images. Lovely!

[@ibs_haver]

I actually get a way different image. I imagine an ordinary senior citizen at a retirement home going over their memories in their head, realizing they can't piece it all together anymore. And they just start crying, because they know they won't be there for their children or grandchildren anymore. The song title sums it up perfectly; A Losing Battle is Raging.

[@norman7571]

Sound like a cylinder record

[@karolvareVO]

I imagine a bright place, clouds everywhere, an old couple. They’re dressed in old ballroom clothes, dancing away, smiling at each other. Except the woman is blurred, and grayed out. The man doesn’t matter, and slowly dances his heart out with a blurry figure. He doesn’t even remember if that’s his wife or not.

[@stefanpredoi4564]

It's really interesting that the first few seconds of "I still feel as though I am me" sound very much like Stage 6. It's like it was here all along.

[@Ellielulu_Ellielu]

Yeesh, I've only listened to the first four stages, and this one freaked me out when I first heard it. It's crazy that that's stage 6

[@paradeice5396]

I don't think this song would be too out of place if stage 4 sounded more like the second half of stage 5

[@trixaquilon2786]

@@follet173yearsago9 It plays in Long Decline is Over, but not the beginning of Stage 6 itself.

[@trixaquilon2786]

@@follet173yearsago9 no it doesn't? It wasn't confirmed at all.

[@follet173yearsago9]

@@trixaquilon2786 i think it’s the windy static sound in the beginning of O1

[@sarawhitley6168]

I can't stop thinking the vase looks like the sacrum of the spine. Also like figures dancing. The painter Ivan Seal did such a phenomenal job of the surreal textures

[@wrong1029]

glimpses of hope in trying times is soul crushing. cinematic yet so isolated and internal

[@panchikofan123]

this is when you start to realize something is wrong with you but you don't know whether to accept it or not.

[@LunaExpiX]

I would feel like The way ahead feels lonely would also fit in

[@ryandupuis5860]

To me, the D4 track "Denial Unravelling" is the scariest because it almost sounds like a human voice but just barely so it's uncanny

[@SpeedXaaa]

That's what messed me up about the beginning of phase 5 hahah, the indiscernible sounds in the background sounded like people speaking gibberish to me and that made it verrrry unsettling and draining to listen to

[@FloppaWeek]

@@SpeedXaaa because stage 5 DOES use human voices!

[@soouG.]

at the end of k1, there's a voice that says "this selection will be a mandolin solo by mister james fitzgerald" a few seconds after a static sound starts playing. are you talking about that?

[@thewitherbossyt6752]

@@soouG. I believe he’s talking about the beginning of K1.

[@largeeugene3373]

@@thewitherbossyt6752 ...follow me... -the voices in K1S1

[@justaguyontheinternet6779]

Stage 2: cover yourself in fading memories

[@cobean4695]

Stage 3 go back to your friends Benjamin house

[@leafyclass]

@@cobean4695 go back there, to benjamin

[@anzu7619]

Stage 5: D̷̡̫̺̗̋̈́̓͠ơ̶̧̢̨͈̖͙͕̱̯̘̜̥̹̘̩̼̋̈́̄̏͘͜n̵̦̬̳͖͍͓̥͕̹͎̼̹̗̝̦͉̓͒̉̊̇̈́'̴̨̨͎͉͚̱̺̮̮̹̭͙̰̺͈̏̂̀̃̇͛̂͂̽͂́̿̋̍͌̚͝t̴̡̨̛̥̰̖͖̣͓̭͉̾͊͒̎̍̀͒͠ͅ ̶̪͉͇̰͍̮̱͎̬͍̥̗̑̉͗͌̎͑̊̆̇̓͜r̵̨̛͕͐̿̋̈́͛̅̉̾͊̈́͜͠ë̷͓̞̪̭̜̪͈̯̹̲́͂͒̽̊̓̓́̃̏̿͌̂̿̉̕̕m̵̞̗̞̞̺̖̼̤̗͍̩̖̭̲̱̽͐̾̊͛͒̇̅̐̓͝͝ę̵̛͂̃̔̀̚m̴̨̢̛̙̰̹̺͔̤͈̦̦͚̭̦̦̀̍̐̎̓̃́̇̈͂̍̋̃͝b̶̼̦̫̘͎͈͇̫̠̙̹̟̣̦̅͗̓͋͒̌̏͜e̵̻͖͚͕͆̂́͋̆̃̿͗͐̅́͘͝r̷͍̳͖͚͖̩͎̪͓̜̟̝̭̦̺̻̀̽̌̿̋̋̒́̿͆́͝͠

[@thiagosilveira5700]

Stage 6: past reunite with your friends and die

[@vehicleboi5598]

Stage 7: cover yourself in care, for there is a desert out there

[@AuroraBorealis2006]

Stage 2: This is the first sign that something may be wrong. While you can't really what it is that is ever so wrong, you can feel it. That feeling messes with you. You may ask yourself "What exactly is going wrong?" or "Why is warping from what it used to be?" Some people react differently. They may feel depression or ambivalence. Whatever it is, you are in for a ride. This stage starts off in a sort of contrast with the previous one ended. It is far more distant and ambient than anything that came before it. It gives off this sense of a child-like naivety, but also it has the foreboding sense of something not being right. Almost like the character in this album is in denial. In general, this stage is a story of grief, denial, and accepting mortality. It starts off with our character being in denial of their dementia in C1. This turns to anger in C2, they are not yet ready to deal with it so they will choose to lash out. Then it becomes far more somber in C3 as we have our first reprise of Heartaches, how could things be getting worse, what's wrong with me. C4 becomes far harsher and anxiety overtakes the tune, an orchestra of fear, anger, and sadness. It calms down in C5, and it turns melancholic and depressive. It becomes more upbeat in D1, maybe the character has overcome their grief. In D2, it feels to me as if the character is reflecting on their life. They have become happy with what was, it was a good ride while it lasted. It grows euphoric in D3, almost like a celebration of the journey, we had gone through. If we are just to ignore it we can remain in bliss, but you can't ignore death forever. In D4 we realize that fact. We didn't get over it, we're only in denial. This is when the full gravity of the situation sets in. In D5 we go into a depressive state over this realization, but we come to accept this by the end. It is a roller coaster of emotions, my abridged version of my interpretation is only scratching the surface of the impactfulness of the album. Each track is important to the album; without one, the rest becomes weaker. It not only acts as a statement about mild dementia but also about the trials of grief. How often we fall into denial, but the only way to accept it is to confront it. Only when you confront it, you can grow. This stage is truly a masterpiece and really is when the albums start to shine. There isn't a dull moment, every part of it plays an important role in building the album to what it. I'd definitely recommend listening; not only with the rest of EATEOT but also on its own as a statement about grief. It is the best in my opinion, but it isn't my favorite; that one comes after.

[@jessiang9708]

Loved how you dissected that!

[@RubyPiec]

commenting to read this on a later date

[@hydrodoxxed2]

I think that the C sides aren't denial. Its probably more like: C1-C5 - Realization D1-D5 - Denial

[@AuroraBorealis2006]

@@hydrodoxxed2 yea i could see that

[@someguy1894]

bro just read the description it ain’t that hard

[@kasteman1]

It makes me really feel my age to think that the only people still alive that remember this era of music were small children at the time, and are now in their 90's, a generation that will be virtually gone in the next 10-15 years.

[@oldraggidpants3277]

We should try to keep it alive,as much as we can.

[@deadchannelwithbadopinonsi9077]

@@oldraggidpants3277 I mean it still exists, music evolves though, everything changes with time.

[@mcdiggles1141]

Every year past the age of sixty, your chance of developing Alzheimer’s doubles. I know it’s hard to hear, but even if their bodies have stood the test of time, I’m willing to bet that more than half of them are already long gone; trapped in a bed by a vase of flowers with only a group of familiar strangers to visit them.

[@badreddinnegr5084]

I wish i could live for a long time so i can make sure my children will lead music , REAL music to more years ahead and dont kill it because of generations developement. Man i believe that someday , music is the only thing that will change the world.

[@deadchannelwithbadopinonsi9077]

@@badreddinnegr5084 all music is real music tho, even if it's shit (like literally any media-ised band from the 2000's), give rock or synth to someone living in the 1920's and they will call it noise.

[@GoatgutsRecords]

All these songs used to be so calming to me but further I went into everywhere they became more uneasy

[@qwertyuiop-cy5en]

yes because its a musical representation of dementia

[@commenteroftruth9790]

@@qwertyuiop-cy5en it's more than that.

[@TheCSJones]

That's the point.

[@greteb1951]

The music sounds like it’s melting or crying while playing sometimes, it makes my heart hurt. Like it’s trying to get the notes out but it can’t seem to do it without shaking

[@jackpijjin4088]

It's a similar feeling to watching an old, ailing, and near-death pet walk around the yard still trying to act and play as though it were still young.

[@amongushastheworstfanbase]

Also its doing the Shoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshoshosho

[@jackpijjin4088]

@@amongushastheworstfanbase the what?

[@amongushastheworstfanbase]

@@jackpijjin4088 in the background theres like a *shoshoshosho* noise in the first one

[@jackpijjin4088]

@@amongushastheworstfanbase the record surface noise?

[@spiderstheythem]

i like how "surrendering to despair" is the melody of "the lord is my shepherd" i think that's an interesting connection. a song about surrending your will to something more powerful than you, on multiple levels

[@noahfraser395]

I never noticed that. That detail makes this album all the more ominous. Thank you for pointing that out!

[@gooolixx]

hmmm

[@recollectedthe]

Its actually Sweet and Low/Forsaken

[@0ddestMouse]

I knew I recognized that melody

[@Corgipon]

It’s Sweet and Low

[@picklechip9294]

Fun fact, this is not a fun album to listen to while sleeping. It gave me sleep paralysis, and let me tell you that the song "last moments of pure recall" was not fun to be listening to at 2 in the morning not being able to move

[@darrielaiman1167]

It's weird that I felt the opposite of what you felt... I found that "Last Moments of Pure Recall" made me calm & it sounded kind of familiar to me...

[@picklechip9294]

@@darrielaiman1167 It sounds familiar to me too, thats why it was freaking me out so much. its like trying to remember something you wanted to say but you werent gonna say anything in the first place if that makes sense

[@DocKrazy]

@@picklechip9294 I suppose that's what Kirby was trying to achieve (also, sorry about the sleep paralysis)

[@jordantruxton]

I’m about to go to sleep to this

[@gav1233]

The first stage isn't too bad. The second one, though, is not okay to listen to while sleeping.

[@Themselves86]

The Caretakers music reminds me of "The Shining" the ending scene where Jack gets swallowed by the overlook hotel.

[@Woji52]

it was inspired by this scene. According to the internets at least. This series is such a gift

[@Woji52]

h-hey, baka!!! Yo my friend! I realized I was lied to years ago. You know how many people I’ve told a bull shit story behind Caretakers 1 album!?!? The entire series is BRILLIANT

[@PancakeStack654]

i change my pfp constantly he did get some inspiration from the ending scene though

[@hats1642]

@i change my pfp constantly The Caretaker as a project started in the late 90's, inspired by the style of music in the haunted ballroom scene in The Shining. It was really an exploration of memory and how it decays, and nostalgia.

[@robster191]

I was literally thinking this when listening to Stage 1

[@scitsalcoryp]

Truly removed... wouldn't play this in a big house alone at night.......

[@scitsalcoryp]

@@ethnicleanserberg7975 eh, I erased the comment . Thanx for bringing it up . Just being stupid . I don't know though .. sometimes I think that this kind of ' music ' might invoke spirits ....

[@nicolasgellon2946]

Exactly what I'm doing

[@tristanarmstrong1047]

I think that might be the best way to listen to this. To simulate the isolation when dealing with dementia

[@jimh781]

Nicolas Gellon it is the spooky season and the ballroom must be haunted at all times and lacks thereof

[@scitsalcoryp]

@Sándor Tóth Let sleeping spirits lie if it is possible . This is utterly fascinating .. Stuff that was left over after the last signal went off on TV late at night

[@imgayareyou]

Misplaced in Time is taken from Lullaby of the Leaves. I love it! So haunting.

[@limegreensquid]

THANK YOU! I've been trying to find it. I love it as a musical piece of it's own. But I've anyways been drawn to haunting 30s music with small, disproportionately happy sections...

[@donnaquixote7538]

No matter how many times I listen to "The way ahead feels lonely", it never fails to give me goosebumps.

[@gabrielpereira2832]

em too

[@jimmy128100]

Donna, you are so right.

[@youarenotsafe666]

Nah bro,it gives you tears.

[@unoriginalcharacter]

then we have back there benjamin's jumpscare

[@ThudMan67]

I heard this project was supposed to make you feel sad, and get a glimpse into losing your memory but I doubted it. I assumed is was another pretentious internet noise project. But now I'm nearly through this second phase and already uncomfortable and contemplating my own memories. Excited/afraid to hear the rest of the phases.

[@yoshiknight3680]

Hard to take you seriously when you have a Roach Dog profile pic

[@callowaylivingston7490]

@@yoshiknight3680 I think it is hilarious, but I think it also shows how moving this album is.

[@5nbome114]

@@yoshiknight3680 hasn't gotten better,now it's a joker pfp lmao

[@mikadosannoji553]

@@5nbome114 joker sure doesnt remember living in a society anymore

[@maybeluca8027]

how was it?

[@akalibadaify]

Surrendering to despair got me on the edge the whole time. The footstep noise is driving me crazy.

[@ProGremlinPlayer]

That's the cylinder scratches.

[@cianraynes5680]

it’s the sound of the record going round friend love it

[@mikadosannoji553]

spongebob walking be haunting us

[@sashaelisemusic]

19:40 sounds like spongebob walking

[@c0niine]

KSJDKKD I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE-

[@thepencilcunts]

Steppin on the... the uh... Hey, where's my identity?

[@unapinarandomdelinternet3568]

It's too in a battle is raging

[@vikiv.1352]

He surrended to Squidvard

[@dulcetscreaming]

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME LESS DEPRESSED LMAOEHFURGHU

[@julieneff9408]

This one is my favorite for melancholy. If I need a good cry, this one can usually induce it.

[@jbaer0]

The beginning of C4 definitely made me aware that the path ahead was going to get uneasy

[@sergeantswiss2401]

My favorite song in this one if I want to cry is quiet dusk coming early.

[@mollyg5499]

The song that started playing around seventeen minutes in sounded a lot like a lullaby my grandma would sing to me. I’ve grown up so fast. I hope the rest of my life doesn’t feel so quick

[@SpeedXaaa]

It probably will, but it's not too late to try to enjoy every moment as much as you can from here on out ❤️

[@Lunar.67]

it will be gone before you know it, just remember to always live in the moment and enjoy what you have

[@slwilliams13]

Guys help I reached the end of the comments and I'm only 24 minutes in

[@perpendicularparadox]

Star uwu D O O M E D

[@opusrecord4201]

Oh you are so not ready for what’s comin

[@Thorin-MattfromGO]

Now sit back and enjoy the music while you can, it won’t be music for long

[@SpeedXaaa]

Welp, you're fucked 👀

[@mind_333]

don’t worry we’re here

[@hannahhopwood659]

My take on the artwork: I think, like most people, that it's a vase, and that vase is supposed to represent the brain and the flowers the memories that we all have. Notice how the flowers are slowly beginning to droop like they're beginning to die and wilt away, just like what is happening here in stage 2, the memories that we have are disintegrating into nothingness.

[@garbageyoutubechannel310]

i think it's supposed to be a vase but abstracted to where it's _familliar_ but you wouldn't call it a _vase_

[@davidholmes2932]

The name of the piece, I believe, is something along the lines of 'pittor pickgown in khatheintersper'. No idea what this means, a lot of Ivan Seal's artwork's titles are similarly nonsensical, although it is to note that some of the titles do make sense, like 'round of applause' for example.

[@martinbogado4924]

I agree with you, but i think that the part of the base was actually a tree. Him and his wife were playing in that tree. But he doesn't remember that anymore, he only knows that it happened

[@DarthInsomnis]

An interesting interpretation friend

[@clayperdue1798]

just sipping this robitussin in my nursing home...

[@daddy4sharx]

I have a feeling the next installment is going to hit particularly hard. We're past the point of ignoring this as an issue or brushing it aside as just old age. It's affecting day-to-day life at this point.

[@edwardjohnson7849]

I heard the second half is where it gets hard

[@edwardjohnson7849]

^that's what she said

[@TheCSJones]

@@edwardjohnson7849 Yeah, 4, 5, and 6 make up 70% of the total runtime and are almost unlistenable except either in parts or as a test of endurance. They're incredible as works of art, though.

[@ninamarques341]

The transition from stage 3 to 4 is gut wrenching. Everytime I listen I just freeze for a minute before I realize what just happened. The last 3 stages really are an endurance test. How long can you last listening to static and glimpses of instruments while it sends you through an emotional rollercoaster. A very slow one.

[@thecarnew5334]

If you are reading this, anybody, just remember that these next stages are not for the faint of heart.

[@TrashyBadBitchVivi]

‘Quiet dusk coming early’ has got to be one of the most depressing songs not only in the whole stage, but in the whole album altogether. I literally tear up at the first few seconds. This whole stage is just one big sad fest, but that one especially gets me to cry without fail. I guess ‘I still feel as though I am me’ is a close second. That violin is soul-crushing.

[@ohyeahbobboganbrother2549]

It really is like something you’d hear as a Captain drowned with his ship

[@fiyum333]

one of my favorite songs too

[@ihatetheantichrist3332]

Denial unraveling is :(

[@dumbdannia6326]

D1 is just so beautiful yet so depressing. It always makes me cry

[@fordc.2831]

I agree. This is one of the saddest songs on the album. The song itself sounds like it’s crying

[@beyondobscure]

In my opinion, the story goes a little like this: C1- A general depressive episode. What once was pure and clear now somewhat lost, corrupted. That horrid feeling of not knowing and not being able to, because that memory can never be lived again. C2- A minor recovery is made. In my opinion, it sounds almost wistful, questioning. An aura of mystery is present and lingers through the entire track. You wonder if it was a one-off thing. It wasn't. C3- You fall back into the void. Once again, what was pure and clear has changed, malformed. The memory, and quite likely you yourself, aren't the same anymore. C4- The opening bells (?) sound fearful. Once the song progresses into the remainder of the track, not much can be said but the generally low mood points itself out again. Another quite depressing one, I must say. The orchestral strings halfway through really do encompass the title. A glimpse of hope, in trying times. C5- You've given up. This is your mind's war cry. Stuck in a losing battle against your own mind, and by the end you've done once again just as the title said. You've surrendered to your own despair. Your emotions now are the only representation you have of really anything. They control you, yet vice versa is not the case. D1- The opening silence is a period of mental blankness. This digital, compressed deterioration hangs throughout the entire track. Its mere existence goes to show that you're still there. Not entirely the same person, but deep down you're still the same whoever it is you always were. D2- A major depressive episode. This so far is the lowest you've gone. It feels like it lasts years, yet minutes. It's horrible. Just horrible. D3- A brief relapse into the earlier stages of grief. Back to denial, and pretending everything's fine. Mood's still low, but this is the highest you'll get for quite some time. D4- A manic episode. The deterioration in this track is intense. Everything about it screams mania. The rising crescendo of the orchestra, the heavy reverb and delay on the lone clarinet, the fact that instrument is the only main melody, the changeup midway through the loop, just about everything is a good representation of a manic episode. Even the title shows this. Denial UNRAVELLING. Your mental state is utterly destroyed yet it collapses further. D5- Acceptance. You've collected yourself, and shown you are fully prepared for the horrors that lay ahead. You're ready for what comes next, whatever it may be. Like the brave soldier you are, you march into the void, unaware you're never to return. After this moment you will NEVER be the same person again.

[@persik123]

I thought D2 sounded happy

[@gomonus3687]

@@persik123 To me D2 conveys a different emotion as well, like a bittersweet relativization of the situation: "Yeah, my *quiet dusk* is *coming early* , but I've still lived a whole life."

[@benpalmer4688]

why is no one talking about how beautiful quiet dusk coming early is man im in tears rn cuz of this song

[@TunaminV1]

The track “What does it matter how my heart breaks” is literally a slowed down, heavily altered version of the track “It’s just a burning memory”. Update 8/15/2021: yes i did state the obvious(couldn’t hold that thought in any longer.).

[@TunaminV1]

Mr. Cantaloupe Thanks a lot for the source.

[@TunaminV1]

U L T R A Pingu and Burning Despair does ache

[@koyuki222]

Whosampled is your friend 😉

[@Jadeite427]

Nathan W. On my about page, I have a link to a document that I’m working which contains a considerable portion of the samples that the Caretaker uses in his works. You’re free to check it out, and I can guarantee you that it’ll have some samples that aren’t on WhoSampled.

[@youtubeisevil]

@@Jadeite427 docs.google.com/document/d/1vSUn1lW4zQq2InGH9aWaO9d0R7NnV4wgc1bEr0jeHuc/edit docs.google.com/document/d/1SPlzy6WwP-S2HlnsN4OLyOu-O6uGdYLlMGCglxm_Zow/edit

[@calobrien7531]

for some reason, this stage is the most unsettling to me, something about the very slight "offness" almost not enough to notice but it just absolutely puts me on edge. which I think is the exact feeling someone whos just starting to realize somethings wrong would feel.

[@seankemp9706]

Very underrated project. Really moving sounds. I can't say enough good about it

[@Woji52]

It is absolutely one of the most beautiful things my mind has ever been enveloped in. I have loved An Empty Bliss for the years. I have just found out it was part of a series. My mind is blown, as it should be. Underrated indeed. Sean Kemp, my friend, stranger, I hope you are well and that you have your mind intact...for now.

[@dodu8281]

stage 2 is so blissful!!. touching my deeper chords...

[@FilmBucket]

im so glad this project blew up. im not an OG fan but i feel bad for the OG fans who were apart of the beginning and didn't see it get as popular as it is today

[@vibrantgleam]

Imagine knowing it blew up now.

[@Tyreless87]

Underrated stage. I’d put it as my 2nd favorite to stage 3. The artwork really puts a picture of how bad dementia starts to affect the patient. Whether it be represented by their mood, or their mind as it starts to decay. The music shows denial, grief and fear. The clearly audible crackling in the background, the distance felt in the music, and the long dragging of notes really show that memories are fading away combined with the patient’s mood, personality, and humor. The last of their true self.

[@dr3dg352]

This is easily my favorite of the artworks, as great as all of them are.

[@5nbome114]

I swear, Denial Unraveling is one of the most beautiful, yet terrifying in context, songs I have heard in all my years. Trance like, but not in a pleasant way.

[@thechubster3423]

it sounds like it's in fear and confusion

[@Exileduh]

the whole album is like that..

[@aa-to6ws]

For real, this album made me wanna live, I wanna have a life that is worth remembering. So when the memory fades away is a tragedy and not to end my misery.

[@ingerhawkiaproductions9736]

I just realized that track C3 is a remake of the first track from the first track on Stage 1 except much more melancholy and disturbing.

[@karmapolice247]

There's an even more depressing and distorted version of that in Stage 3.

[@darrielaiman1167]

The sample for this stage was actually by another singer

[@thebenevolentsun6575]

Yeah the point of the album is that the songs become more and more distorted and fragmented over time

[@donnaquixote7538]

"Heartaches" is a recurring motif in EATEOT, at least in Stages 1 - 4. You can still hear a very distorted sample of it during Stage 4 Postawareness Confusions (track 1 of Stage 4) if you listen closely. It comes around the 8th minute, if I recall right. After that, *if* it does play in Stages 5 and 6, it's so distorted and slowed down it's unrecognizable. I suppose Kirby chose this song to represent the whole EATEOT because it has the theme of memory, heartbreak and loss, even if it's played in major key.

[@chaysiecondaya2973]

thats the point for all the stages, it gets more distorted every stage

[@somthinwrong]

The way the stems stand out hard, trying to stay strong like "c'mon I gotta stay happy, I gotta stay happy!" while the flowers are facing downwards showing how tired they really are...

[@Cantcontrol208]

The track “the way ahead seems lonely” always gives me chills it’s like the moments before everything goes wrong and you know you can’t do anything

[@donnaquixote7538]

I wonder if anyone recognizes what other painting the playful male and female figures in the vase allude to. They look familiar but I don't remember where I've seen them. That's pretty much the point of the whole painting and the musical score as well; it looks and sounds familiar put you can't quite put the finger on it how.

[@boxecomp1374]

They look playful, but they're separated, that's another piece of symbolism I noticed

[@donnaquixote7538]

@@boxecomp1374 Good observation!

[@samuellinn]

Could be man and woman playing, could be a ribcage or could be a vase. But what if it is all three of them? The picture could be a symbolism to you misremembering multiple memories as one and creating a distorted mess of images you've accepted as one.

[@cowts535]

The faces are blacked out too, cause you can’t remember what they looked like.

[@ninamarques341]

My interpretation of the vase is something like the figure on the left could represent the person before trying to hold on to their memories (they look like they're holding onto the vase) and the one on the right looks like they're letting go of it (they look like they're letting themselves fall off)...-

[@TunaminV1]

To me, Stage 2 feels like that one part of a major project that is never really brought to the spotlight. Why I feel this way is anyone’s guess.

[@thatnikkakris2339]

It’s my favorite of the 6

[@AB-uf1et]

Probably because everyone hypes up Stage 1 as the "calm stage", Stage 3 as the "disoriented stage" and Stages 4-6 as pure agony but this stage rarely gets credit for being so good, or maybe that's just me

[@TunaminV1]

@@AB-uf1et to be honest.... Stage 2 & 3.5 > every other stage. This is the sole stage that has the feeling equivalent or emotional impact as Laser to Laser.(imo)

[@AB-uf1et]

@@TunaminV1 yeah this stage tackles with the emotional side of having dementia more than the others and I think thst sets it apart. The other stages mostly just touch on what the deterioration of memories is like but this stage focuses so much on the denial and depression the illness brings and I love that

[@TunaminV1]

@@AB-uf1et that comes to show how powerful stage 2 is. Just wait until you hear Laser to Laser. Here’s the Link. kzbin.info/www/bejne/aaTSppajbsqghZY

[@AlastorTheNPDemon]

I'm doing a series in the comments sections of these videos I'll call, "Sensory-deprived Commentaries on 'Everywhere at the End of Time," where I turn the lights off in my room, put a pair of headphones on, and close my eyes. Here is my review of STAGE 2, written on a notebook (spelling mistakes maintained): "This stage, by contrast, was far less than pleasant; we can thak the tone set by the first song... "Surrendering to dispair?" for that one. A mixture of evolving emotions, mostly negative... Discomfort became anxiety became distrust became anger. It was raining outside, and the faint flash of lightning sent a hot shiver down my body. My heart was racing, I feared for my life. Not even the tones of the music could I entrust to comfort me... but I managed to comfort myself down to a manageabel level of tension. The comfort came in the tone of the last two songs, to deliver me from this state of grief."

[@Voltraxfr]

Wow, good job, that takes a lot of courage to do. This music is very depressing, so i must imagine you were tired after it.

[@InsaneGold]

That is very brave of you to do. Please take care and let yourself rest after doing these.

[@thequoncher9154]

@goose it was pretty nice imo, dont get the uneasiness

[@andylane3739]

@@thequoncher9154 - this work hits everyone differently. I'm loving it, though it gives me eerie feelings and thoughts. It's art. People get different meanings.

[@thequoncher9154]

@@andylane3739 nvm, im starting to understand the uneasiness

[@nicetry69420]

The extreme dissonance of the background sounds in "A losing battle is raging" instantly made me nervous and I knew we weren't in Kansas (stage 1) anymore...

[@daniels1293]

This is almost like music ur not supposed to hear nothing about it sits right with me.

[@SpeedXaaa]

That's a really good way to put it, I totally agree ❤️

[@andrewreissig6395]

Amazing how this music transcends time and this runs through me to the point of me humming it in the supermarket. Very comforting and elevating at times.

[@SpeedXaaa]

For the record, the first song loop of the first album has been stuck in my head all day 😂 So I totally feel that

[@Awolfx]

Denial Unraveling is my favorite. Feels like the last desperate acts to hold onto fading memories, the music keeps trying to uplift itself but the cold dark realization continuously makes it more apparent that this problem is getting worse and worse.

[@awest4249]

4:38 this one makes me ugly cry

[@Yottifferent]

It kinda sounds like the start of Nude by Radiohead mixed with old timey music and vinyl crackling

[@finden3362]

@@Yottifferent its lullaby of the leaves played by George Olsen orquestra

[@progect3548]

I really like misplaced in time. It’s my favourite track on stage 2.

[@finden3362]

@@progect3548 i too like Misplaced in Time, one of the most memorable moments of the Album

[@namealreadytakenonyt191]

@@finden3362 in 5:14 it sounds so dramatic that it made it the most memorable song in this album

[@Hiiii000]

C2 Misplaced in time 4:38 is honestly one of the best songs in the album because at one point it’s creepy at the start but then it’s sad and depressing. This definitely represents the dementia for the patient on this stage and makes it so sad

[@youtubeisevil]

Surrendering to despair is one of my most favorite songs of all time.

[@user-wf6xe5zj4g]

I just finished this stage and I think from the experience I am getting so far is quite enjoyable, I know it gets more dark and depressing as we go on but one thing I want everyone to take away from this is that you have only so much time to live, so use it to your fullest. Go have fun with your family and friends while you can because you won't ever have a chance to after that chance is gone. Stay safe

[@agressia5582]

There was a hypothesis of russian psychiatrist by the name Snejnewsky called "the theory of general psychosis". He stated that that the latest stages of mental deterioration such as marasmus syndrome (total dementia) include vestigial symptoms from previous stages as well, even the mildest neurotic issues. Although portraying the onset of Alzheimer's desease nosologically, first 3 stages hardly feature cognitive disability. There is no lasting memory loss, but rather treats more common with schizophrenia: social distancing, apathy, lack of willpower and flattening of emotions (particularly stage 2). Thus, we experience the path TO dementia through every other known pathology. Caretaker made a compassionate requiem in honor of each human being who ever struggled with mental health. And this is praiseworthy.

[@Josheshenourfilms]

The last track “the way ahead feels lonely” fills me with an emotion I cannot describe. It’s a mix of finality and sadness. This is where you finally say goodbye to your life. The ability to recollect your childhood, memories with family, and life itself. It’s a calm before the storm as you realize your memories are about to be wiped away. It also reminds me of a person with dementia sitting with a close friend. The friend is in tears as he describes their memories together to his friend. Realizing that this could likely be the last time he remembers him. It never fails to make me cry.

[@ezrastardust3124]

The final track on this album really hits close to home for me It sounds like funeral music or something you would hear at the end of a sad movie when the main character dies I’m crying

[@greentoesbstatus4325]

You mean R6? Yeah to me it sounds like a funeral.

[@kayleehiggins8448]

misplaced in time feels like something is pushing you away from your memories and you keep trying to stop it but you realize you can’t no matter how hard you try. and you can remember that this is happening a lot. peaceful but scary, like before the storm.

[@hellofriends1259]

SIDE C C1 - A Losing Battle Is Raging: Probably after the diagnosis. The static is pulsating, probably representing a constant switching between mild confusion and little to no confusion. The music sounds very sad and I wouldn't normally listen to it. It also has alot of heavy droning behind it. Probably all the brain fog. This sounds like the first stage of grief: denial. C2 - Misplaced In Time: Probably a war memory on the battle field. Sounds train-like, just like C1. Definitely one of the longest loops in EATEOT, maybe the memory is a long memory that you have not forgotten yet and want to hang on to as long as you can. C3 - What Does It Matter How My Heart Breaks: Sure, I can still tell it's Heartaches, but it is much sadder. Maybe depression or sadness after the diagnosis. The violin puts me on edge. It has more aspects to it than A1 so maybe he is making up things in the previous memory of A1 without even realizing it. C4 - Glimpses of Hope In Trying Times: This is probably the second stage of grief: aggression. There is a constant anxiety playing throughout the track with is fueling this stage of denial. It is probably nervous anticipation of what is to come. C5 - Surrendering To Despair: Sounds like C1 except sadder and hopeless. You can sometimes hear distinct footsteps in the background and I do not know what this means. This track has one of the longest loops I've seen in EATEOT and lasts a long amount of time. SIDE D D1 - I Still Feel As Though I Am Me: In the beginning it sounds like stage six. Maybe it is a thick confusion happening right after you have woken up. I do not know if this is a symptom of Alzheimer's so please fact check me on this so I can correct this comment. Anyway, overtime it slowly starts to sound like music again and it sounds more upbeat than most of stage two. I do not know what this means since we are in the middle of the most depressing album on this project, maybe the character is ignoring he has dementia and trying to live his life normally. D2 - Quiet Dusk Coming Early: I do not know what this song is supposed to represent, but I am guessing it flows in the third stage of grief, bargaining. The character would do anything to stop this disease from progressing at this point or even slow it down, he/she would even sacrifice their spouse since the memories they have had with each other have mildly degraded. D3 - Last Moments of Pure Recall: It's all downhill from here. It sounds happy like D1 but there is something off. The backing instruments sounds like drums that have been ignited by the fires of hell so maybe in the memory they are having they are only focusing on the main events and nothing in the background. D4 - We are in the penultimate stage of grief: depression. The loud instruments at first don't sound like it but it gets downbeat over time. Maybe it is the character pretending to act happy in front of their family and friends. D5 - The Way Ahead Feels Lonely: Now we're in the last stage of grief, acceptance. This is the beginning of the end and the character has to realize it before it's too late. It is not a loop like C4 and D1 and quite beautiful like them too. It's one of my favorite tracks. It sounds so solemn. Wow that took alot of time to come up with. I am planning to post something like this on every stage and eventually, once I have all the comments posted on all the stages, I plan to copy and paste the entire thing onto the whole 6 and a half hour video. Wish me luck.

[@TrebleWing]

Prolly my favorite stage. Has that uneasy transition from familiar to foreign; from blissful, to unnerving.

[@DocKrazy]

Glimpses of hope in trying times is possibly the most unnerving piece in my oppinion. Yes, the later stages are very upsetting on a deeper level, and the fact that they last so much longer is mentally exhausting (as it should be considering the subject matter), but this specific track causes immediate unease. It's about the melodic progressions, something about the trumpets that just yells out alarm. It might remind me of an unsettling melody I've heard in my childhood, and ever since anything that even slightly reminds me of it causes a visceral reaction. It unsettles me and at the same time it intrigues me. I'm still in search of that specific melody. I want to understand it. But for now I'm stuck with "similar enough". With love, A random commenter on a youtube video

[@zoehardee8636]

The sample at the beginning and end of that track is from The Shining, the film from which the Caretaker got his name

[@dr3dg352]

This song to me was the exact moment when The Caretaker realizes something is wrong. The earlier part of the track is so eerie. But it's also one I frequently return to when revesting EATEOT.

[@donnaquixote7538]

"Losing battle is raging": Love's Old Sweet Song.

[@CalyBun]

The track sounds like the record player has been sanded down with sand paper as the music struggles to play. Or at least, it sounds like something is cut from one song and replaying for a while, and the other song is normal 1930s music. It reminds me of a train where it goes chugga chugga, but the chuggas are bits of a different track. It's uneasy, and it gives a hint that the music is wrong, but you can't put your finger on it. As the track plays, there are some parts where the songs would echo and play on reverb. It's like that feeling when you're trying to recall a memory, but then you lose track of where you left off, so it causes you to repeat the bit of a story. In the middle it sounds like there's a mysterious tune that plays during those quiet scenes in horror movies where someone is paranoid of their surroundings. It gradually gets louder and then it hits but stays,and then calms down and plays the error tune again. it kinda spooked me because I was so used to the chill music from before. Around the 20 minute mark of the second album, the music is suddenly really droned out and long sounding. It's quiet and little bits of occasional violin playing happens. The violin sounds really weird and solo sounding, but it doesn't sound like it has a specific peice it's playing. It sounds like whoever is playing it is doing improv.

[@acerolalu]

i listened to this while doing astronomy homework. i didn't realize how much that would enhance the existential dread i feel while thinking about the universe

[@joshuareisig1558]

Very pastoral in parts. Feels different than the other stages with regards to the transitions from each album. Could almost be a standalone Caretaker album. Incredibly beautiful stuff.

[@Gorandius]

Perhaps one of the times I use music like this to fall asleep, it will take me across the veil.

[@HLoriW]

"I still feel as though I am me" It legitimately made me cry, I can't imagine how sad and devastating it must be for these people to feel that way, to know there is something wrong but not have the ability to recognize it or identify what it is. They still feel it's them

[@herkusgaming6263]

This stage is much more different. As saying, it's the most relaxing album ever. At the moment, the art is very great. The new thing to find is a pot of flowers. But there's one thing hiding. There's 2 men, or , 2 woman, at the pot. Ahh, never mind. The music has more louder cracking, echoes, and distortions.

[@ghostcar]

Formaldehyde is flowing into the body. It's cold but I don't feel it. The older gentleman is applying makeup with care to my face. I deeply sigh, though my body has no traces of life. Once out of this shell, after the fires of cremation, I'm off to who knows where. Maybe a transitioning into something. Such curious period music the embalmer plays while working.

[@bubbaducky7961]

God this comment is unsettling

[@angeliqueclarkson1158]

@@bubbaducky7961 jfc you're not kidding. In context of the song and the scene the OP is setting, it makes me terrified of the idea of still being conscious on some level after death and experiencing it all.

[@CubicApocalypse128]

@@angeliqueclarkson1158 Look up SCP-2718 and thank me later.

[@TROPICALRAPTURE]

As if it were my mother conducting the songs of her style in the sky.

[@AshtonScripts]

“What? I don’t remember owing you 10 dollars!” -my mom, everyday

[@ortherner]

@@AshtonScripts rip

[@VALIANTIVY]

11:58 This track marks a turning point in the album. It's a complete deviation in tone from any other track so far, with the beginning almost sounding like it's trying to say "hey! something's wrong!" This is only reinforced by the fact that we hear it just after a slightly off-kilter reprisal of A1.

[@luckyotter623]

Stage 2 is so sad and poignant. I can't listen to The Way Ahead Feels Lonely without crying. Those last few sobbing, sighing notes, my God. The whole stage is devastating, especially this track. Even the artwork is sad. The flowers, so delicate and perfect, but wilted, and the vase, that looks as though it's rotting. It's a perfect artistic expression of the emotions this stage is trying to evoke. Denial Unravelling is deeply unsettling and eerie to me, but I can't stop listening to it. It gives me that same feeling you get when you're doing something enjoyable, but in the back of your mind you remember a terrible problem you are having to face, and occasionally it rises up and overwhelms you. You keep the smile on your face, but inside you feel like you're dying. Overall, this stage evokes emotions of deep sadness, grief over what is being lost, and existential dread of what's to come.

[@lynner175]

Lyrics: C1 - Once in the dear dead days beyond recall, When on the world the mists began to fall, Out of the dreams that rose in happy throng Low to our hearts Love sang an old sweet song; And in the dusk where fell the firelight gleam, Softly it wove itself into our dream. Just a song at twilight, when the lights are low, And the flickering shadows softly come and go, Though the heart be weary, sad the day and long, Still to us at twilight comes Love's old song, Comes Love's old sweet song. Even today we hear Love's song of yore, Deep in our hearts it dwells forevermore. Footsteps may falter, weary grow the way, Still we can hear it at the close of day. So till the end, when life's dim shadows fall, Love will be found the sweetest song of all. Just a song at twilight, when the lights are low, And the flickering shadows softly come and go, Though the heart be weary, sad the day and long, Still to us at twilight comes Love's old song, Comes Love's old sweet song. C2 - Rustling of the leaves used to be my lullaby, In the sunny South when I was a tot so high, And now that I have grown And myself alone. Cradle me where Southern skies can watch me with a million eyes, Oh sing me to sleep, Lullaby of the leaves Cover me with heaven's blue and let me dream a dream or two, Oh sing me to sleep, Lullaby of the leaves. I'm breezing along, along with the breeze, I'm hearing a song, a song through the trees, Ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh ooh. That pine melody caressing the shore familiar to me, I've heard it before, ooh ooh ooh ooh. That's Southland, don't I feel it in my soul, And don't I know I've reached my goal, Oh sing me to sleep, Lullaby of the leaves. C3 - Heartaches, Heartaches.. What does it matter how my heart breaks? Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me, I can't believe it's just a burning memory! C4 - No lyrics. C5 - Sweet and low, sweet and low, Wind of the western sea, Low, low, breathe and blow, Wind of the western sea. Over the rolling waters go, Come from the dying Moon and blow, Blow him again to me, While my little one, While my pretty one, sleeps. D1 - No lyrics. D2 - To have, to hold, to live for just a moment, In ecstasy, and then to be, forgotten. To laugh, at life, and learn to sing a love song, A melody, that's soon to be, forgotten. When, love has ended, to cry, but when, Your heart, is mended, to love, again. A night, of bliss, but when the dawn is breaking, A memory, that's soon to be, forgotten. Love is a flower that blooms in May, Fresh for a moment, then fades away. Love is a vowel, while springtime hums, To be forgotten, when winter comes. To have, to hold, to live for just a moment, In ecstasy, and then to be, forgotten. To laugh, at life, and learn to sing a love song, A melody, that's soon to be, forgotten. When, love has ended, to cry, but when, Your heart, is mended, to love, again. A night, of bliss, but when the dawn is breaking, A memory, that's soon to be, forgotten. D3 - Into my heart, Querida You came unknowing Into my heart, Querida With love light glowing Close to my breast forever, I long to hold you Your tender eyes remind me of stars above Into my heart, Querida You came to me with love! D4 - I am just a shadow, you are all the light You are like the sunrise, I am just the night You are all my heavens, smiling from above I'm the earth beneath you, reaching for your love You are part of me, dear, I am part of you Joy will always be near just with you, I love you In my love letter, cheers to belong I am just a singer, but you are the song! D5 - No lyrics.

[@Solaire_of_Astora13]

"Glimpses of hope in trying times" feels anything but hopeful 😢

[@HobbesandCalvinFan]

This is definitely more melancholic than the first stage, and downright foreboding at times with tracks like C4 "Glimpses of hope in these trying times." The first track and C5 "Surrendering to despair" were rather intriguing to me with that record skipping noise and the droning. From C4 onward I imagined old timey movies, like some kind of fantasy film and a western movie, as well as an orchestra, but by the later tracks my images of them became more distorted, often overlapping one another.

[@shindroid]

i was going to save this for later but i couldn't resist and am now listening to this on the toilet

[@terriblereading7586]

Listening on the bed

[@jaydenludewig7401]

listening on vacation with family, calming yet unnerving

[@ninten1305]

@@jaydenludewig7401 I listened to stages 5 and 6 at a fucking Christmas party. When I should have been celebrating the birth of Jesus I was crying to a school choir.

[@emmakrantz9674]

this is the worst stage, imo. the uneasiness, knowing that you can't stop yourself from forgetting all the beautiful memories you've made in life. it's awful.

[@mikadosannoji553]

like enjoying yourself in pure bliss, denying that silly thing you've been feeling the whole day

[@basicperson]

imo its stage 5

[@dumpsterfire6466]

Nah, it's stage 3, your conscious enough that you know that something is wrong but you're already halfway there, stage 3 has the worst memory loss out of all the lucid stages, you see yourself get ripped away faster than stage 1 & 2

[@ortherner]

@@basicperson in stage 5 the caretaker doesn’t even know reality exists.

[@ortherner]

@@dumpsterfire6466 stage 3 is definitely the worst one in term of memory, but stage 2 is when the main character realized they have their condition, which makes it pretty heartbreaking.

[@auraemberofficial]

This is the most difficult one to listen to. It's a crossroads between worlds - holding on and letting go of what you remember and the pain of forgetting. The foreboding sense of reality that we really only exist in other people's memories when we can't see them brings a chilling sense of mortality. I want to hold everyone I love and never let go.

[@tf2nico]

All of the lyrics: C1 A losing battle is raging Lyrics: (0:35 is when it starts) "Once in the dear dead days beyond recall. When on the world the mists began to fall, Out of the dreams that rose in happy throng Low to our hearts love sang an old sweet song And in the dusk where fell the firelight gleam Softly it wove itself into our dream Just a song at twilight When the lights are low, And the flickering shadows Softly come and go Though the heart be weary, Sad the day and long, Still to us at twilight comes love's old song Comes love's old sweet song. Even today we hear love's song of yore Deep in our hearts it dwells forever more Footsteps may falter, weary grows our way Still we can hear it at the close of day So till the end when life's dim shadows fall Love will be found the sweetest song of all. Just a song at twilight When the lights are low, And the flickering shadows Softly come and go Though the heart be weary, Sad the day and long, Still to us at twilight comes love's old song Comes love's old sweet song." C2 Misplaced in time Lyrics: starts at 4:50) "Cradle me, where Southern skies can watch can watch me with a million eyes! Sing me to sleep, Lullaby of The Leaves! Cover me with Heaven's Blue, and let me dream a dream or two. Sing me to sleep, Lullaby of The Leaves! I'm breezing along, along with the breeze. I'm hearing a song, a song through the trees. Oooh! Oooh! Oooh! A pine melody, caressing the shore. Familiar to me, I've heard it before. Oooh! Oooh! Oooh! That Southland! Don't I feel it in my soul? And don't I know I've reached my goal? Sing me to sleep, Lullaby of the leaves! Rustling of the leaves, used to be my lullaby. In the sunny south, when I was a tot so high. And now that I have grown, I find myself alone." C3 What does it matter how my heart breaks? Heart..aches.. hear-ar-art heartaches.. What does it matter how! my heart breaks? your kiss was such a scared thing to me.. i cant believe its just a burn-ing memory.. C4 Glimpses of hope in trying times No lyrics. C5 Surrendering to despair Lyrics: Sweet and low, sweet and low, Wind of the western sea, Low, low, breathe and blow, Wind of the western sea. Over the rolling waters go, Come from the dying Moon and blow, Blow him again to me, While my little one, While my pretty one, sleeps. (i forgot the lyrics so sorry if i messed it up a little) D1 I still feel as though as i am me No lyrics D2 A quiet dusk coming early lyrics: To have, to hold, to live for just a moment, In ecstasy, and then to be, forgotten. To laugh, at life, and learn to sing a love song, A melody, that's soon to be, forgotten. When, love has ended, to cry, but when, Your heart, is mended, to love, again. A night, of bliss, but when the dawn is breaking, A memory, that's soon to be, forgotten. Love is a flower that blooms in May, Fresh for a moment, then fades away. Love is a vowel, while springtime hums, To be forgotten, when winter comes. To have, to hold, to live for just a moment, In ecstasy, and then to be, forgotten. To laugh, at life, and learn to sing a love song, A melody, that's soon to be, forgotten. When, love has ended, to cry, but when, Your heart, is mended, to love, again. A night, of bliss, but when the dawn is breaking, A memory, that's soon to be, forgotten. D3 Last moments of pure recall Lyrics: Into my heart, Querida You came unknowing Into my heart, Querida With love light glowing Close to my breast forever, I long to hold you Your tender eyes remind me of stars above Into my heart, Querida You came to me with love! D4 Denial unraveling Lyrics: I am just a shadow, you are all the light You are like the sunrise, I am just the night You are all my heavens, smiling from above I'm the earth beneath you, reaching for your love You are part of me, dear, I am part of you Joy will always be near just with you, I love you In my love letter, cheers to belong I am just a singer, but you are the song! D5 The way ahead feels lonely.. No lyrics.

[@Corgipon]

I know C5 is Sweet and Low but what are the other songs the other tracks used?

[@1manjams_]

@@Corgipon C1: Love's Old Sweet Song - Chester Gaylord C2: Lullaby of the Leaves - George Olsen C3: Heartaches - Seger Ellis C4: Grand Canyon Suite - Painted Desert - Paul Whiteman D1: Grand Canyon Suite - Sunrise - Paul Whiteman D2: To Be Forgotten - David Rubinoff D3: Into My Heart - Roger Wolfe Khan D4: You Are The Song - Paul Whiteman D5: Grand Canyon Suite - Sunset - Paul Whiteman

[@iesusdesus5704]

this hits harder when you’ve listened to the whole album already.

[@lucifervibes]

first track is unreal

[@prod.groovy_]

"The way ahead feels lonely" is one of the most heartbreaking song names out of the whole 6 stages. Especially for being the last song in a stage.

[@waterbears9874]

Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t feel as much dread as I probably should be while listening to this, to me this is just some kinda neat music. Tho it could just be because I already listened to this stage before and the effect wore off on me, but I don’t know if i really felt any sorta dread really

[@waterbears9874]

Tho reading through the comments kinda restored that feeling of dread

[@catpollution]

I have Alexithymia... so can't really find the persons feeling on dementia at all. All I hear is just some nice classy old music..

[@waterbears9874]

Chilled And Soft whats Alexithymia?

[@catpollution]

Water Bears, Alexithymia is a disorder to understand others feelings.

[@directorh7649]

I personally enjoy the music

[@william_ytp]

so ethereal! a huge leap in sound from the first stage. i'm looking forward to seeing how the rest of this project plays out!

[@DiegoDoodle]

5 years ago.... Time really flies doesn't it? 🤧

[@lordroy88]

@@DiegoDoodle yeah!

[@ElixirBlue9]

wonder what happened to you 5 years ago lad

[@leonassa2671]

This sounds like a home that was once full of life, full of laughter and kids running around, but now it's just this abandoned carcass of a home. The walls are turning brown, everything is dusty, fragile, old, not taken care of. It smells like mouldy books or rotting wood, it smells like death.

[@nichlogs]

the difference about the ending of the stage 1 to the start of the stage 2 is unnerving A6 - My heart will stop in joy is very happy, like and ending credits song, like a musical grand finale, even if its only the beginning of our journey. but... C1 - A losing battle is raging is REALLY sad, mainly in the start, REALLY REALLY sad comparing to my heart will stop in joy, the static fades in and out really fast too, which is very cool, honestly. this is my opinion

[@MrSfilms94]

Many say that D5 is "happy" and the acceptance of what you suffer...But the song is very depressing and painful. It's like a stab at all hope and feeling that "everything will be okay."

[@vidgamarr5126]

I still feel as though I am me is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard. But at the same time, it’s so incredibly sad. It’s synced on both ends of the spectrum… to me, at least.

[@vithor592]

I love how The Way Ahead Feels Lonely has this vibe of "things are not getting better ever again,it's all downhill from here"

[@d4mdcykey]

Not really much of a fan of the other releases in this Stage series, but this one is incredibly mesmerizing; I feel like I am half-drugged and (happily) trapped in the ballroom of The Shining, waiting for another apparition to take hold of my very being. Superb in every way!

[@Desperado420]

It's so distorted and disturbing but I enjoy its uneasy and horrifying behavior in its tone and atmosphere, the high and low volumes bring me too such a vibrant landscape of sound, its very mysterious on what will happen next it's so unexpected yet you can somewhat feel it occurring in your mind, oh how gruesome and terrifying each note is, in every part of it's time my skin crawls of anxiety and torture as very sound echoes in my ears starting a mental breakdown do to my weak memory of what I have become, I slowly fall apart drifting into madness and nonsense, slowly losing my very fiber of my true existence and morality, what will become of me next I wonder? What will be the new normal? What will become of us now? The color in the eyes slowly loses its pigment into a dead white as I forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget and forget, what are you now? I haven't gone through its misdirection and complexion since your last day of imperfection, very depressing and uncomfortable and unnerving to my brain cells, I enjoy the music none the less.

[@Enriquito445]

The little whistle noise in the beginning of "A losing battle is raging" sounds like a train

[@urboysquishy342]

One thing I’ve noticed about state two is that it has a lot more static that stage three, but stage three has far more reverb, along with some static. I think this can possibly be because in stage two, although you are loosing memories, you can still grasp on to of them, although it is harder to, and with more deterioration in quality. Thats what I think the static represents. Whereas in stage three you are starting to loose a lot of long term memories, and even more short term memories. This can lead to confusion, which is where I think the reverb and droning comes in. Basically to sum it up stage two is your memories degrading, and forming less and less, and of coarse you losing some memories, and stage three is where memories start to become more fluid, and you begin to loose track things going on around you. You simply can’t remember what is what. Idk that’s just what I think feel free to share your take.

[@robloxgamer21_official]

0:00:00 - what a great start, i have gotten pe- wait this isnt peace we are in the next stage 0:04:36 - start of the lullaby of the leaves, but slower and more melancholy. 0:09:21 - haha funny seger ellis composition 0:11:58 - *_w e c a n t_* 0:16:41 - finally the tone is back! but more melancholy, im saddening now. 0:21:45 - _no reaction_ 0:25:53 - real melancholy. 0:29:30 - sounds like some waltz 0:33:23 - calming, not depressing 0:37:39 - *_this is more greater than _**_25:53_**_._*

[@DerKopfkissenmann]

Misplaced In Time is my favorite so far

[@zanziboi]

definitely the most relaxing album, but very unnerving

[@actwh]

true

[@AB-uf1et]

Definitely my favourite of the 6, and the one I find most relatable, because it tackles denial and depression It sounds so sad, it's obvious the person is mourning what they're going to lose and they're trying so hard to be strong for their loved ones but they're still wilting. Heartbreaking. And definitely relatable for me, I don't have dementia but I have depression and trauma, and I have to hide both of those things and be strong for the people around me. But really I feel like a part of me has died, and I'm mourning that person