The Dangers of Psychedelics: How I recovered From HPPD, Depersonalization, Anxiety.

This is a video explaining how I got through psychedelically induced HPPD, depersonalization, derealization, and anxiety. Not a lot of people talk about this here on KZbin, but many people who have experimented with physchadelics, or even weed have experienced this horror. I hope this video helps.

[@healthnutsuk]

Everybody please know, this is a temporary condition and will go away with time. I experienced this exactly like he explains in the video 10 years ago when I was in my early 20's! It's good to stop all other substances, find a therapist you can trust, eat really healthy food, exercise daily. Use this experience to motivate you to completely turn your life around. This is what it can do for you, as distressing as it is, it can be used to propel you into a direction of psychological growth and maturity so that you can really become the person you are here to be. This will pass, you will be OK, and 10 years from now you will look back on this as the defining moment of your life, and a truly positive life changing experience! peace be with you, Much love. p.s. Meditation and mindfulness can be a great key to recovery when you feel ready.

[@calebhoward5048]

Have you taken psychedelics again since then?

[@ShayVidz]

I so agree that this has to get you to stop doing all stupid things. This is your turn around story. Don’t suffer for nothing.

[@darkylll406]

Dude I fvcked up man, I have no appetite, haven't eaten all day and can't sleep now. Tell me you have experienced the same thing

[@healthnutsuk]

@@darkylll406 You'll be OK my friend, all this will pass, you are just experiencing a lot of fear, which has come up into your mind. Do anything you can to bring you anxiety levels down. Meditation, vagus nerve excersises, cold water immersion, healthy diet, there is much more. I will make a video on this soon. Reach out if you need support.

[@darkylll406]

@@healthnutsuk Thanks for the support, I really needed it, it helps a lot to know that this is temporary and a lot of other people go through this. I have been having a few panic attacks throughout the day, though im starting to get used to it now, it's getting easier to eat food again, I don't know how much sleep I got last night maybe 5 hours so I think I'm starting to sleep again. Overall im doing better than yesterday. Thanks again bro. 👍

[@ThisIsQuixoticHD]

The only thing I can suggest is this. Take a few minutes and think about your happiest moment in life. Your first dog, your best friend, or someone who had a positive impact on you. Then make that idea your focus point. And then you will have the strength to carry on and eventually you can make your own existence your happy point too. I now have so many happy points that I can look to it makes me so strong, but I still sometimes fall back into the existential crisis and depersonalization and have to fight my way back to normal. Never give up because it’s the last thing people want from you, is to give up. Everyone wants to see you be the best you, so give it your best shot. YOU? Yeah, you’re still you. Someone else has an idea of who YOU are and that will never change. You have to remind yourself that you’re still worthy and still the same guy or girl, just now you have a mental battle others can’t handle, and you’re stronger than them because you’re able to handle it. Sometimes I can’t handle it, but after I eat, pray, and exercise I usually come back to reality a whole lot more myself than before

[@timonweber2675]

I am almost crying bro thanks i hope this will help me through this

[@maxbr3280]

Brody how are you today man, i feel the same way but even more than 1 year and a half, i had a lot of bad thinks but in general i belive really on the total recivery. But a wanna now how are you one year later than this mensage?

[@ThisIsQuixoticHD]

@@maxbr3280 After reading my comment, I would say I definitely don't struggle with the same problems anymore. I would say I've recovered nearly 100% and I would have to say it is because of my decision to join the US Navy. I just sent the last 2 years training my hardest towards the only thing I really ever wanted to be. A Navy Seal. I did not make it. But I have grown from my experiences in so many ways. I now know that I can handle just about anything, there is nothing I can't do. Get out there and attack your goals in life. You will regret not trying. Even if you fail, you will always have another chance and it you'll be better the next time.

[@andrasdudas8226]

Long conversations, deep conversations, chill. Letting your thoughts out, with someone, who is a good listener and explainer. Making thinking feel better, by learn to enjoy social activities again, and show evidence to yourself, that you indeed are still here, and able, slowly to get back to normal.

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@ThisIsQuixoticHD how r u now friend

[@Alecks_Martyn]

It’s a traumatic event and your mind goes on survival mode. This happened to me as well and it took over a year to fully recover.. it’s been over 5 years now and my cns is still really not all the way healed even too much caffeine triggers anxiety.. it’s ptsd, I hope all people take this content serious because it’s not a fun place to be. It’s a very nasty, dark place to be. Stay safe, it made me extremely mentally strong though, so do not lose hope ride it out and you’ll learn so much about yourself and your mind.

[@MegaTeachmehow]

How are you now?

[@mickyhouse8753]

Thank you for those motivational words, you are helping me by just reading that

[@l00d60]

Are your vision normal?

[@calebhoward5048]

Have you taken psychedelics again since then?

[@ShayVidz]

Thank you so much for this post

[@truthmedia9848]

It happened to me too. It has been almost 4 months since I did mushrooms and now i can say that I am 85 percent healed. And I know that I will be healed for 100 percent in no time. It's only getting better. So, if anyone is going through this who is reading this comment, just know that it is not going to last forever. I hope that helps.😊

[@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew]

How was it when you tried to sleep, I'm having hallucinations when I close my eyes can't sleep usually for more then 2 hours

[@truthmedia9848]

@@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew after I used to wake up, I used to see some light geometrical patterns for like 5 seconds, then they used to disappear. And now, I have completely healed from that problem. I have healed from all the problems caused by that magick mushroom trip. Don't worry, these are just lingering effects, they won't last for too long. You will be fine within 2 to 3 months. For me, it took me 6-7 months to 100 percent heal but I healed for around 80 percent in 2 months already. Now, I am perfectly fine. Believe me, you will be fine. Give it some time. May God bless you. I have healed for 100 percent now! I have done it, so can you!

[@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew]

@@truthmedia9848 I also feel what seems like a simulation to me now I feel like I'm here but I'm not here 😕 its so disturbing

[@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew]

@@truthmedia9848 I feel like life is over

[@truthmedia9848]

@@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew whatever you are experiencing, I have experienced that. I know what you are talking about. Relax, it won't last forever. Give it a month or two, all your problems will go away. After you will heal, you will realise how stupid these thoughts were that you are having right now.

[@MegaTeachmehow]

Psychadelics are nothing to mess with.

[@imchase7796]

It took me a good year to recover. Shit sucks man. I didn’t feel like myself I was a completely different person. I wasn’t that funny guy anymore, I was quiet shy, and anxious all the time. You just gotta focus your mind on something else, a job, music ect.

[@deadlyzone8304]

I feel that

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Imchase how r u noww friend

[@joseandresgomezaguilar4185]

Same happened to me

[@imchase7796]

@@sangeetalambh6389 I’m doing great yeah I haven’t had any episodes in years, I got lucky I guess or who knows if I even had depersonalization it could have been from my living situation at the time which I was living off of mcchickens everyday and lost 30lbs. Depersonalization just sounds like what I had, but yeah I’m great now, just working out to keep me distracted and my job does a good job of it too. Occasionally I see the floors and walls waving around if I don’t focus my eye sight

[@awakenedsoul6406]

Have it still very visible ever since I just turned 15 (Jan 8 2019) 18 now. Shit sucks but yeah going to university in a few months, I am okay tho just don’t think this will be going away hahaha

[@muhammaddaniyal4966]

I went through this too man.Its horrifying.Its been 3.5 months .I am like 99% fine.During my trip I lost my identity,I though i was never gonna be able to work again and lost sense of reality,time and what the essence of everything is like nothing made sense .I dont wish this upon anyone.

[@mateo02_]

you had an ego death lol. most people wish they could’ve had your experience. i’m guessing you weren’t ready for it, nor did you anticipate what was about to happen. had you been in a good headspace and right setting, you’re so called “losing identity” is exactly what psychedelics do to put your ego in check. if you went through ego death and still didn’t learn from it, you definitely need to try it again. “don’t wish this upon anyone” shows me you don’t know much about psychedelics, nor should you have taken any. but what you went through was VERY very normal in high doses of psychs. the entire point of ego death, is to let go of the negative feelings in your life that your ego can’t let go. while tripping, you lose your sense of self, allowing you to perceive the world and life with a completely blank point of view. free of opinions and thoughts of critic. you are simply the observer. i know what you went through sounds and probably felt like hell, but even during my bad trips that put me in “hell” allowed me to gain profound knowledge on how to live life in the moment and forget about the small things that irritate me. if you ever decide to trip again, make sure if you fall back into this “dying” feeling or “losing identity”, don’t reject it. let that anxious feeling of trying to end the trip, go away. once you let go, the universe will connect to your conscious and show you what you need to see to better improve yourself. anyways, long rant, but i hate to see people have these “horror” experiences, without actually knowing that it can be a PROFOUND experience that truly does enlighten your consciousness. Cheers. best of luck man.

[@muhammaddaniyal4966]

I think I experienced ego death just a little bit.I agree with what you said but psychedelics are just not for some people.I had a few good trips before.But never again will I do it again.Its been one year since that day and I still remember .I am so glad to be ok now and better and it's something in my past and I have learned to move on ​@@mateo02_

[@allindoge]

chill bro. you'll be fine

[@muhammaddaniyal4966]

@@allindoge lol yes after 1 year I feel pretty good .But I still think about it from time to time

[@kennyg5538]

Not dealing with this, but I thank you for being a good person and giving help to people in need of advice !!

[@stopit1011]

Bro, this literally helped me so much, every time I get courage to watch these type of videos it is like a trigger for me, and I just spiral into crazy anxiety attacks, flashback trips, etc. But your video didn't cause any flashbacks or anything, I hope I can get better.

[@wes_333]

thanks for making this, you have no idea how important this video might be to someone when they have experienced this!! i also experienced this some years ago from weed, and i fully recovered after about a year. but its a very scary place to be in, especially when you feel like you are not you anymore. BUT, it WILL go away, it just takes some time for your mind to recover from it, and to ground again.

[@spilkafurtseva1918]

Thanks for sharing this, honestly I found it just at the right time as I was having a flashback/derealisation semi-panic attack for the last hour. I feel like I’m not alone and everything will be fine. So Thankyou and God bless you

[@Art-it4ix]

Thanks for sharing man 🙏🏽 this really really helped. We’ve got this guys 💪🏽

[@mickyhouse8753]

Thank you so much for this video Grayson, you are helping us all!

[@andreac1328]

Glad you’re talking about this! I took too many shrooms about 8 months ago and took me a solid 6 months to recover as well. I took them already in a depressed state and it made it 10x worse after that. It got to the point that I couldn’t even drink alcohol without getting anxiety and having flashbacks. I was getting flashback even 100% sober for the first month. To this day I can’t have more than a glass without getting that out of body experience or feeling removed. PLEASE never take too many psychedelics. Always take 1/2 as much as you want to take and don’t have more until a few hours in (MINIMUM). You lose so much of yourself and it’s not worth it. Good advice on trying not to fight the derealization. Eventually it fades. Just focus on other things in the mean time like health and exercise. If you find yourself having flashbacks, I found it best to bring yourself back to the moment or wearing an elastic band around your wrist to “snap” yourself back into it

[@albextoxx]

I love you brother for real this video is the real deal thank you very much for the effort and time creating this from the bottom of my heart ❤️

[@katieparker5952]

this is almost exactly what happened to me, but i had *mild* reoccurring episodes that were the same to the original trip, a couple weeks later. the DPDR lasted continuously for 6 months and it continues to impact me. no one listened to me and that was the worst part, i was diagnosed with panic disorder and i knew that wasn’t it. it’s hopeful to know that there’s other people have gone through it too.

[@camerondouglas3697]

Wait was yours lsd induced?

[@deadlyzone8304]

Same but mine happened like almost 4 years ago idk what I took it was laced weed tho

[@mickyhouse8753]

Same thing happened to me after an Edible overdose. Had the most traumatic trip. This was 2 months ago and I still have flashbacks of the trips here and there, it comes and goes but when it comes, boi I have a full on panic attack

[@rezur3kt698]

@@mickyhouse8753 how are you doing now?im experiencing something similar and am very scared

[@mickyhouse8753]

@@rezur3kt698 Hi, doing a lot better now, but I did go through hell at first. What really helped me is that I started taking in Vitamin D3, it calmed me down a little but I would still snap back in to the bad trip and it was basically PTSD at that point, I went to to a Psychiatrist and was prescribed Lyrica (Pregabalin) for extreme case of anxiety and it got better within a week, I stopped taking the medication after the 2nd week as I felt a lot more relaxed and my body didnt need it anymore. I would suggest to get some sort of anxiety meds if not then the best course of action is for you to stop searching any of this stuff, distance yourself away from it and occupy your mind with other things. Let me know how it goes, best of luck!

[@AlbinoLatina]

Thank you for sharing this Grayson. It’s so comforting knowing there are people out there that I can relate to

[@britestarr3783]

Thank you man Fr fr, this shit sucks and I’m glad people like you are spreading awareness for this so maybe one day we can get a cure.

[@vincentcampbell69]

Thanks for sharing your story. Ive had the same thing happen to me in high school experimenting with LSD. Lasted a long time for me, I think a year. Experimented a bit a few years later but not like I did in highschool. The scariest part, is no matter how it disrupted my life, and more of a concern on my behalf no matter how it impacted my family and what they saw what I was going through. It was the best time of my life. Confusing. Scary. Terrifying even. There was also so much beauty. And that scares me.

[@Daniel-rs3kg]

Thank you bro it seems as the only way to beat this is to put yourself back into the world. Forcing yourself to dive in even though it’s meaningless. Doing this everyday can make you become attached again.

[@invaderp3155]

Dope video, I needed to hear this

[@healthnutsuk]

I've been there, 10 years ago. Was the scariest thing I've ever experienced. Took a lot of therapy and work to overcome this and was a long process, but it has been the making of me and I'm grateful for everything I went through, because it has made me the man I am today.

[@dyfilms]

Thank you for making this and it helped me a lot, i feel like we need a support group

[@pauloflores9247]

Thank you for this video, it helped me a lot

[@lk6380]

Great advice. It took me 3 months to get out of it, now I just have HPPD still 7 months later. But exactly that, dont fight it, it's the resisting that keeps you stuck. The intensity comes in waves, accept and ride them everytime, let it do it's worst, and ironically you might just be ok.

[@user-jq4ee9zv9o]

Thank you for making this. I feel less alone now :)

[@zachhall2575]

On the road to recovery myself rn. Thank you for this video. Wishing any of you who are dealing with this immense support and a strong recovery.

[@mikasaace]

Im going through the same. Keep your head up. Let’s go through this

[@zachhall2575]

@@mikasaace I have gotten a lot better since that comment. It really can go away completely you just have to keep moving and forget about it. Don’t freak out when it happens just know that you can’t die and that you’ll keep going

[@mikasaace]

@@zachhall2575 Hey Zach! It’s now about 2 weeks since it happened and I feel alot better. There are great KZbinr who have channels about DP. It’s knowledge! Sending you greets and power from Germany

[@zachhall2575]

@@mikasaace that’s awesome to hear. Thank you🙏🏻 I wish you the best on your journey

[@dakotaimadog4112]

@@mikasaace PTSD

[@thomasnorton4015]

Thanks for your inspiration and words man👍

[@seeingeyegod]

I'm glad I never tripped alone. I did do Salvia alone once but not a large amount, and it was actually pretty cool. Whats interesting about what you're talking about to me, is that I sometimes have dreams that I feel like what you're describing you felt like the next day... like the dream is about reality but in the reality I feel like it's a dream, but at the same time it's not a lucid dream, its just this horrible feeling of like depression and knowing something is just "not right" and I can't get out of it and it's a nightmare feeling.

[@staynegativevro6943]

No wayyyyy! Bruh thank you so much for talking about this thing. so i was just searching in youtube about how i feel, i searched for Day dreaming and intregered with with this DDD disorder. I watched it and the symtoms are so accurate to mine but the causes of it in the video doesnt seems fit to my situation since i've never been into serious trauma or whatever . So I tried to searching the disorder and psychedelic then im so glad i found this video. Thanks Bro 🙏🏾

[@tomjones3488]

Going on two years I had this Dp/Dr. It's so hard. SMH happy you recovered though.

[@chadigholam]

hey bro! hes completly right!! DONT FEAR IT!!! you got this dude! ive had this happen to me for months till i realised what hes saying and it diminished quicker! i KNOW you are going to be okay and whoever is reading this please know this!

[@kalenew8676]

I got this 4 years ago. I’m still trying to work with it. It went away for a while or I wasn’t noticing it. Exercise truly does help. I just hope it fully goes away for me. Thank you for this video.

[@benjamindixon4693]

I’m so glad you made this video, I bin like this 8 months now keeps coming bk I’m hoping it fades

[@moistwater3014]

I tripped a lot of LSD and shrooms. MDMA set off DPDR and HPPD and that was 2 1/2 years ago. it started with a series of intense panic attacks that onset chronic anxiety. I had 7-8 panic attacks a day for about 1 year and then they subsided but the chronic anxiety stayed. its been a constant struggle with the symptoms people know of HPPD and DPDR. my anxiety had gone down tremendously from taking vitamins, meditating, breathing exercises, self regulation, pelvic floor exercises, putting my focus away from sitting on forums and watching videos regarding what you are going through. the more you fixate and obsess over it, the worse it will be. stay away from drugs, caffeine, nicotine and anything that is a stimulant, alcohol isnt as bad but if you drink way too much youll feel more DPDR and HPPD when you wake up the next morning. you have to try to eliminate your anxiety as early on the day that you can. relax your body as much as possible and practice the felt sense. Go and live your life as if you werent experiencing these things and sunglasses help during the day. if you have triggers about being in public then take little steps out of your comfort zone and practice breathing and relaxing your body when you are facing these things. exposure does help bring you back to reality. I still struggle everyday with this but it has gotten a lot better due to what ive said above. the day it goes away could be tomorrow or months from now and you have to believe you didnt do serious damage to your brain and you will become back to normal. any suggestions or ways people have made full recoveries are appreciated as I am still not recovered yet

[@youngspannny4411]

Damn dude. I’m sorry to hear that you are going through all of this. I even took LSD a few months ago and had a really unpleasant trip. Saw some things I felt I want “supposed to see.” Had me feeling like I was dead for a few weeks afterwards. Thought all my memories weren’t real. Had a bunch of weird thoughts about life and the universe. It fucked with me and from time to time still does. I even think about some of the traumas I forced myself to face because of it. Be careful. Shrooms are cool, but acid to me just sets me off every time. There’s something sinister about it. It feels like shrooms on Meth. Anyways, just breathe, meditate and eat food. Be happy that the trip isn’t still going. At least you aren’t stuck in a permanent trip. That’s what I told myself. Shit would be terrifying.

[@iloveeverything4380]

It's not the same for everybody alcohol is extremely bad for some ppl with hppd

[@iloveeverything4380]

@@youngspannny4411 shrooms can be bad for some people look up s*icide or murd*r on trips

[@user-wg9vu2ez2k]

Yo man could you tell me if your hppd symptoms have gone down or not?

[@Theuglydave]

Hi bro, if you’re still not doing well please watch Shaan Kassam on KZbin for anxiety recovery, I’ve been watching him after a bad Shroom trip I’m on month 6 now and it’s improved a lot

[@Feliciasam]

This happened to me and lasted quite a few years , I spent soo much time trying to find out what was going on . Like you said there was no information out there. I am glad you made this to help others .

[@Yolo-kb9go]

How are you now? Are you back to reality? And what difference you feel before dp and after dp

[@Feliciasam]

@@Yolo-kb9go I am definitely back to reality now but I have to say Ill never be the same. I wish I had never experienced it . But I am back to normal so I can not complain too much. Weird time of my life .

[@kingkongjjs]

@@Feliciasam how long did it take ? 10 days after my last trip I took antibiotics which ruined me and I feel like I'm tripping all the time its been 17 months How long did it take you to recover ??

[@sangeetalambh6389]

@@Feliciasam how r u now frd

[@TourStudios]

I appreciate you posting this thank you

[@camerondouglas3697]

Thank you so fckn much dude I've been having the worst past 2 months of my life. Shit is still moving especially when I'm tired and it gives me the worst anxiety I've ever dealt with in my life and your video made me no longer alone in the situation thanks again man this video really calmed me down during my anxiety attack😅

[@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew]

Same here

[@camerondouglas3697]

@@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew hey man I got over it about 2 months ago the side affects subsided. I've done countless hours of research and people say too much light is being let into your eyes and thats why you constantly feel like your in the psychedelic state. Lots and lots of water, exercise, and any way to calm your anxiety (I hop on my bike and go for a good ride around town to clear it from my head) the biggest battle is the mental part you just can't be thinking about it 24/7 you HAVE to find other things to think about. It's just changed your reality and this is what you were meant to see. You'll be ok bro I promise just stick it out and you'll litteraly just become used to it😁😁 also staring at things can instigate that trip like state so just try and keep your mind off it bro I believe in you😁😁✌✌ much love G stay up

[@veggiemetal7812]

Thank you so much. I recently went on an Ayahuasca retreat and I now have full blown HPPD every day. I suppose trying to focus on my mood and mental health is what's best instead of hoping and waiting for when it's going to finally end.

[@shmurda7075]

Wow bro I forgot everything when I was watching this video u make it feel like I’m safe bro I’m struggling rlly hard rn I just wanna say thank you bc I feel more comfortable after everything you said

[@elementkidful]

Dude thanks for sharing this, literally me the past two months, had a intense trip on 3.5 shrooms, thought it was all good then three weeks later started the DP/DR and panic attacks, getting better but man it sucks!

[@oliviarebecca2142]

Same thing happened to me, my trip was terrifying but the panic attack that triggered my dpdr was weeks after

[@sangeetalambh6389]

Mr Black how r u now

[@Theuglydave]

How you doing now?

[@fanapt798]

thank u i loved this video i sadly got this from dxm and im just happy im stopping that deadly stuff and working towards each day to feeling better thanks for this informative video it was helpful really

[@markthompson1819]

June 7th 1985. Lsd. Freaked out badly. Next day I felt like I'd shrunk into myself. The first few months were terrifying and Ive suffered with depression ever since. I managed to keep life together but I lost something of me permanently that day. Thanks for posting this video. It's good to know there are other people that share my experience. 👍

[@jasonyao7315]

Same here took mdma after 3 years still having bad depression anxiety tinnitus and hppd life never the same since

[@markthompson1819]

@@jasonyao7315 eat healthy and don't smoke weed. It gets more manageable with time.

[@DragonBlood88]

@@jasonyao7315 checkout Liam stops tinnitus on KZbin...he cures it.

[@manuelkanakaris64]

I experienced something similair , and at a certain Point i chose to accept my new self and it gave my life new meaning and Sense of self

[@therealjulez7886]

that is evolving ...beautiful man

[@SQUIPPYPOP]

Ur the worst kinda person

[@LoveWins]

I guess it's a little bit different for everybody. Because I find that bad trip, ego deaths are the most productive trips. I wouldn't even call them a trip. I would call them an event. This is the main reason why I love DMT so much. I micro dose DMT daily for depression and it's worked wonders for me. But those breakthrough experiences are life altering. Great video man!❤

[@shaz3396]

Thank you for this.❣

[@jaisonmorales6917]

I took probably the same amount u did and it really just made me super anxious and uncomfortable a few days past after the trip n I was fine then about a week later I was in the Wendy's drive thru and BOOM it hit me. I felt all anxiety I felt on the shrooms and then made it worse with all the research. After watching your video Im positive that I just have a mild case. It's only been 2 days and I'm always in deep thought really other than that no visuals or anything. Bottom line this video helped alot and I look forward to getting thru this.

[@wavxy7454]

That’s not hppd bro u must have visuals

[@darkylll406]

How long did it take you to recover? I'm kinda going through the same thing as you.

[@Bogart1111]

It's been almost two months since my last trip that causes me severe fear/anxiety/confusion/depression. During the trip I experienced partial ego death and I was literally in Heaven and we're Angels and the system put a lot things on our mind for us to be distracted, for us to not find our real purpose on life which is experiencing this magnetic field of love energy that surrounds us. It's like my ego brain doesn't like that idea, he simply took over my body and take command on everything including my breathing. Whenever Im trying to remember my self before this, my brain will start to bring back all the scary memories of that trip and then confusion will follow and I'll be back on being in state of fear, angry, confusion. It's hard to deal with my ego self day by day it's like he's always one or two step better ahead of me, and I can't do anything. I miss my old self

[@FroopieRick]

I had a similar experience, not as bad but I was so terrified that I almost got religious. Because in such a bad place there is nothing that can save you, except your faith, acceptance, surrender and breath. His tips are absolutely right. I still wake up stressed and think about my responsibility for my thoughts, which control my feelings, which control my perception of reality. I will work on that.

[@pedrozurita2638]

1 year and 3 months here... i feel like my self again... but its still hard to focus, to see sharp even with my glasses on... i still have visual snow and distortion when i see stripes and white and black stuff. i was extremely depressed and scared of everything... i was always tired.. i will sleep but i felt that i was getting no rest... and all thanks to me taking a whole 1/8 of shrooms with some friends... im just now starting to smile... to have a personality, make jokes, not feel so offended.. im just now starting for notice that i was even loosing my balance... just accepting it a few days ago has shown huge improvement... ive been practicing focus... eye tracking... muscle memory on hands and eyes... even the way i used to look in general its been slowly going back to normal... this video speaks truth 100 %... and a friend who is a spiritual master, recommended me to try a micro dose of shrooms again to remain my brain that its not going to harm me and that the danger has passed a while ago... as well as exercise... make your body and your brain trust each other again.. and reconnect with your self on the process... this happens to us for a reason... so we can become better people and to stop bs us about the obvious lies around us and society

[@mashedtaters6935]

im 8 months past my trip, this is good to hear! 7 more months is a lot but at least its not the rest of my life!

[@jovelard]

@@mashedtaters6935 keep going homie

[@boscorner]

You'll get there. It takes more time. One day this will be just a weird memory

[@braedyl7515]

Hey man, it’s highly possible your depersonalisation was a fear response that our minds do as a survival mechanism from traumatic events. Keep an eye out on your anger/anxiety/ flashbacks long term as it has potential to be PTSD

[@yoyo-rs6wz]

i don’t know why this isn’t talked about enough. HPPD and DPDR are seriously horrifying and make everyday a living nightmare for the one’s experiencing it. psychedelics are being normalized in this day and age and it’s worrying me that more people will end up with these disorders. i’ve experienced them myself and it’s been nothing but hell. the worst part about it is that it’s all in your mind, nobody else can see or feel what you’re experiencing but yourself which makes it nearly impossible for anyone to help besides comforting and counseling. people really need to do every kind of research on psychedelics before trying them, especially the bad sides of them. dosage, setting, etc are super important for preventing bad trips. it really does suck and i wouldn’t wish this nightmare on anyone else. i don’t plan on taking psychedelics every again but i do miss weed and those silly laughable highs but it does trigger my DPDR. i know it’ll get better with time but i think it’s just safe to stay away from drugs completely. the mind is a very fragile organ that could snap at any moment. for those currently experiencing these disorders: cling tightly to the things or people that make you happy. find hobbies to distract yourself and your mind from everything negative and prioritize your wellbeing. the advice of connecting more with nature is awesome. taking hikes or walks has helped me so very much and i encourage everyone to do the same! keep yourself distracted ! please stay safe everyone ❤

[@shroomer2183]

Dang that's crazy. I never had a bad experience with mushroom I started off micro dosing just to get an idea of how my body and mind would respond to such a drug. Then I would choose 1 day out of every month to go a higher dose. Once I completed the 5 Raw Mushroom "Heroic Dose" that changed my life forever and the way I think about life. I find the mushroom to be magical if you know how and where to use them. Mushroom help me with my addiction to weed, it helped me cut off junk food completely, it also helped me in exercising and taking care of my body. It made me feel like my body was a temple and the mushrooms was the connection between mankind and every living organism out there.

[@whiteguydavinci1322]

I'm currently dealing with this for the second time in my life. But now I don't have much support, and I start panicking so hard that my heart beat scares me. Then I usually end up in tears. I feel so tired even after I wake up. Anxiety attacks, very unpredictable appetite, horrible dreams, and all of this was worse the first time. Thats why i get so frustrated and start panicking, because it's like "dude, you've been through this before, it will be alright. You will be alright" But sometimes thats hard to believe in this state of mind. Everything is hard to believe, even if you know its true. Much Love to everyone suffering from this horrible reality. Stay strong, don't give up. I didn't even know what i was going through the first time. It took me an entire year to recover. Now I'm there again, and I just wish I would've never taken acid.

[@bloodyrayne9282]

Hi, how you feeling now?

[@ALFREDOHERNANDEZ-qz8ew]

How are you feeling now?

[@nellen474]

Me too , i took 440ugs of LSD ,i have vivid dreams and nightmares every day for 8 months now , my body just stayed shaking all night web i took it ,but i was going throw alot by the time ,abusive relationship and financial crises i was under some levels of stress alreeady , and after taking it i was fine Next day ,felt it was just a bad trip but i survived ..it was olnly when a couple weeks later after i moved back to my mums house and Started working 12 h a day in a job that i didnt like and ppl that i couldnt relate that all Bell broke loose ..i think its a very importante factor watever your going throw in life até the time you take the substances and off course the amount of it ..i didnt even wana take it , but i was soo down that i didnt wana say no , and i took it Soo many Times in my life and never went to the dark SIDE ..but then again i was going throw some very hard things alreeady.. wish all of US a good and fast recovery and much love to all .

[@spirituality-livinggood7759]

Wow, yeah the mirror really got me confused too

[@matslundin6602]

I have just now stumbled on to the HPPD syndrome. I am 69 years and when I was 17, one evening I took Mescaline, LDS and smoked hasch. That got me into a terryfying experience. The first year after I had severe horrifying flash backs. They I slowly got worse and everything you say about depersonalization is true. However, I think I got a lot worse then what you describe. I have never recovered. I still have it and my whole life has been a living hell. Still I had to somehow accept it. It has been hard. The extreme anxiety levels makes your body ill after a few decades. I have developed heart- and kidney problems. The metabolic system does not funktion and I have extreme anxiety and depression. Talk about a whole life wasted. A whole life living in the worst terror imaginable. So, LSD and such drugs can be VERY dangerous. I am Swedish so please excuse my bad english.

[@cheffboyaryeezy2496]

Have you seen a psychiatrist about Lamotrogine? It has some evidence to make it much better. Potentially in combination with an ssri or snri. Thought id ask to try Lamotrogine first.

[@Theuglydave]

I’m a 17 year old girl who did shrooms 6 months ago. It gave me dpdr, anxiety and hppd I’ve improved a lot but sometimes I get setbacks, keep going no matter how hard it gets you will be normal again

[@vivilonrane1330]

sometimes I hear stuff like this, makes me wonder if 17 might be a bit too young for these experiences due to our brains still being very neuroplastic in youth, and therefore more in danger of this

[@fucxoft]

bro this has exact thing happened to me and i’m legit the same age, i never used to have anxiety and shit before i had lsd and now i feel like i panic and get scared of everything. sometimes i can’t sleep and i feel trapped in my head ☠️ i just want it to go away man it’s really fucked with my head

[@juanandres9455]

I abused LSD when I was 14 to 16. Got hppd. I don't know if I am fucked up because I feel normal despite the vision distortion and whatnot but maybe it is because I can't remember too well how I was before drugs. I still think nothing has changed

[@Deathstock]

​@@juanandres9455dude I was the exact same. Tried to "cure" a bout of major depression with acid at 16. Felt great, so I abused the fuck out of LSD for a year. Had HPPD for around 2 years

[@angelahiggins862]

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I’m trying my damndest to accept where I am at. Let the tears come daily, let the panic come and go. I am taking a low dose anti anxiety med to help me get through it. I hope that won’t hinder me overcoming this but honestly I don’t need to think about negative things like that right now. I’m persevering every day to to normal things and move my body. Ive been through difficult and traumatic life events but this is something else man.

[@smartjared7203]

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[@smartjared7203]

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[@smartjared7203]

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[@ii_soldyou3772]

Thanks for this it’s been about a week feeling like this now I don’t feel like I had a bad trip tho

[@DavideTatino]

I took lsd about 20 years ago and for some years, when I saw fixed naturalistic panoramas (e.g. Mountains, woods, sea) or the floor itself, they moved like they were liquid. Fortunate le i did not panic, i’ve been lucky because me mind accepted this phenomenon as normal. After some year all became normal. The best thing to do is to accept in primis EVERYTHING happens during the trip and surrender to it because the trip is you, is your mind and even the monsters should be accepted as part of you. Love yourself, accept the monsters and do not fight them because you are gonna loose. Then, if you have a hppd must stop every drug, train your patience and body, wait time and time will fix you. My theory is that since you will do the trip you need and not the trip you want, if you fight the effects the journey remains incomplete and tends to finish also after the substance has been eliminated from your body. In any case I do not approve the use of psychedelics without the presente of professional medical assistance to guide and help you in case of bad trip.

[@TheMidnightLibrary]

I tried 8 grams of shrooms and had a psychotic break during the peak. I don’t remember much from when I was actually peaking, other than throwing up and “coming back” suddenly, as if I had just woken up for the first time in my life. It was the most surreal experience I’ve ever had. I came out of the ego death way too soon, and didn’t know how to deal with going from feeling like I was God and one with everything in the universe, to suddenly being myself again. I puked up the shrooms and I think that ended the trip prematurely, and I just haven’t been the same ever since. I sometimes have these moments where I feel like I’m the only person that actually exists, and everyone and everything else is just a projection of my mind. It’s so incredibly lonely and depressing, and I want to try to talk about it but I feel like there isn’t a point because nobody else is real anyway, they’re just going to respond in ways that are projected by my own mind. It’s a very dangerous and terrifying place to be in, and when I have those moments I just freeze and don’t know what to do. I often wonder if there’s even a point to doing anything at all, because since I’m the “only consciousness” that truly exists, I’m going to continue existing whether I do anything or not, and I’m never going to die because I’m just going to come back as someone else, or even just restart this life from birth once I die. I suffer from some kind of fear of eternity. The thought that this just goes on forever horrifies me. There is no end to it. Our consciousness just continues existing even after death because energy cannot be created or destroyed. So I just sit there sometimes, wondering how many times I’ve lived this life or other lives, wondering how old my consciousness is, and most importantly wondering what the point of existence is. I find myself wondering what is going to happen after death, and why? Why does reality exist? Where did it come from? Is anything real? Am I real? I kind of rambled a bit at the end there, but that is just about the only way I can describe what I’ve been going through for the last 3 months. It’s been so very lonely and scary, but I have to say just knowing other people have been through this too makes me feel so much better. Just the fact other people experience this too kind of grounds me back in reality. It takes me back to where I was before I tried shrooms. It reminds me that mental illness is very real and it helps me to distinguish my reality from my irrational thoughts and fears. It allows me to see that these thoughts arise from mental illness, and this is just what mental illness feels like. It’s not _reality_ like I believe it is sometimes, it is just my mind’s perception of reality being altered by anxiety and fear and depression. I didn’t stumble across the meaning of life and the answer to existence the way I thought I did on shrooms, I merely became super-focused on my own perspective of reality, and it’s a little hard to dial it back to normal. But again, just knowing others have been through this, and for similar reasons even-it helps me to realize that I am just suffering from a mental illness, and it doesn’t mean anything more than that. I am not the only person that’s real, just because I can only experience my own consciousness. If anything, the fact I only experience my own consciousness proves to me that I’m simply human. I’m not a God or anything like that, because if I were, I would experience everything at once, and I wouldn’t have these fears or anxieties. All of this might seem a little crazy or whatever, but I just felt like I should write this out for anyone who might be in the same position as me, so I could give them some peace of mind that they aren’t alone, the way this video and others have done for me. We aren’t going crazy, we are real, we are humans-we are just suffering from a level of anxiety and existential paranoia that most people don’t experience. And that makes us stronger as people, I think. It gives us the experience we would need to help others dealing with anxiety and existential crises, as we’ve been there and done that, and will have the knowledge needed to ground others. When I think of it from that perspective, I can’t help but see this as a good thing. I was meant to experience this minor psychosis and recover from it, so I could help other people who are suffering. It’s all a part of a plan that is bigger than I could ever imagine. It’s part of God’s plan-the true God.

[@Giablo1]

I know what you're talking about with that intense feeling of loneliness and HPPD, its fucking weird I can't stand it either

[@vivilonrane1330]

I think you have touched on very important realizations. I believe solipsism occurs when we have a temporary experience of "tapping out" of the subjectiveness ofn consciousness and experience its grandeur (a great feeling, right?) but then our subjective mind tries to filter this experience within out patterns and subjective psychology, which leads to these feelings if loneliness. But you have yourself eritten quite eloquently, that is just an interpretation caused by the emotionality of our human condition and not how things "actually are", although it is hard to go through these emotions regardless. For me I have realised its most helpful to not completely discard these experiences as "ah its inly in my head" and acknowledge that I might have gottan a brief glimpse of something profound in terms on consciousness, and yet also keep in mind that I am still a flawed human being with a subjective mind and therefore I should not blindly trust in any interpretation or perception my mind comes up with. I think you are on a great path and it's beautiful you're already thinking about helping others :)

[@cheffboyaryeezy2496]

Ok, you need to immediately see a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Make sure they are actual MDs you need someone who went to medical school. Remember to be skeptical of those god thoughts. Psychs make you hallucinate, they dont necessarily show you truth. Matter not being created or destroyed doesnt mean consciousness cant be. Lamotrogine has some research showing it can help with hppd. Early hppd the first 6 month to year are hardest, but over time it dulls and u learn the boundaries of it. Mostly its trauma and some neurologic changes. But these things grt better with treatment and time

[@blue-ck9ns]

Why would you take 8 grams?

[@blue-ck9ns]

I’m beginning to notice a common theme in people who have issues after taking psychedelics. They either take too high a dose, or take them too frequently. The mind is vulnerable, and psychedelics are hard on the mind. I’ve never taken a dose higher than 2.5 grams, and I only took that dose once. Majority of my doses are just under 2 grams. You don’t need much to have a good experience, and you also don’t need to do them very often. I wait at least 8 weeks between trips

[@zezorp157]

Thanks man really helpful

[@mischoo9941]

this is the video i wish i saw about a year ago when i, pretty sure, had a bit of hppd and derealisation from weed. most anxious couple of weeks i ever had with a couple panic attacks thinking this is how it is now

[@prod.cloudee5306]

I really appreciate you for putting out this video because now I someone to relate to. I did LSD about four or five months ago and ever since that experience ended I’ve had slight de realization and it’s honestly affected me a lot. The thing is is I don’t get it anymore regularly but if it’s night time and I’m walking alone I will still get it. It doesn’t always have to be night time i can still get it during the day, it’s not bad at all anymore but it was, i’m not fully recovered from de realization but i’m scared it may go on for the rest of my life.

[@lucybain5484]

How are you now, do you still experience it?

[@prod.cloudee5306]

@@lucybain5484 not as often but i accepted it and it comes around every now and then like once a day but it’s been a lot bettee

[@lucybain5484]

@@prod.cloudee5306 Really glad to hear this, stay strong!

[@prod.cloudee5306]

@@lucybain5484 thank you!

[@metalmichaelmyers]

Ty bro, you relaxed me a lot, i ve been in this shit for three monts now

[@camerondouglas3697]

Bro i feel you im 1.5 months into this and currently dealing with really bad anxiety watching this and its calming me hella to know I'm not alone and you aren't too was yours lsd induced or psilocybin?

[@metalmichaelmyers]

@@camerondouglas3697 Resource chemical of LSD type

[@fumigatedroachhotel9740]

6 months for me... It's getting worse.

[@camerondouglas3697]

@@fumigatedroachhotel9740 did you take lsd?

[@metalmichaelmyers]

@@fumigatedroachhotel9740 you ll get better eventually

[@blue-ck9ns]

The problem actually doesn’t come from psychedelics themselves. You’ve induced a dissociative disorder. A dissociative disorder gets induced as a result of a traumatizing experience, and with psychedelics, it is commonly caused from a bad set/setting, taking too high a dose, taking a psychedelic that’s too potent, or mixing other substances, such as cannabis, which can lead to a bad trip. As a result of the traumatic experience, the brain becomes inflamed, and you end up with symptoms such as hallucinations, tinnitus, headaches, intrusive thoughts, feelings and urges, amnesia, flashbacks, internal voices, and dpdr. These symptoms are the result of the brain responding to the trauma. War veterans report having similar symptoms as those who have “hppd” from psychedelics. It is not permanent brain damage, as the brain only needs time to heal. But it can take months to years for that to happen. So when taking psychedelics, remember to always have the right set/setting, a good trip sitter, and a sensitive person should NEVER take a high dose. Potency will always vary, and that can be very dangerous. In the case of shrooms for example, the average person will never need to take any more than 2g to get a good effect. But you should never start with 2g. You should start with doses below 1g and work your way up until you feel comfortable with a higher dose. And lastly, never trip more than a few times a year. Don’t abuse the medicine.

[@angelahiggins862]

Any suggestions on how to treat brain inflammation caused by this? I have most of the symptoms you mentioned after doing a dose 6 mos ago. I recently got diagnosed with OCD with the constant intrusive thoughts and ruminating. Terrible thoughts I’ve never had before and a lot of fear associated with them. I’ve never felt so out of control with my mind.. it’s just awful.

[@Sussana13]

@@angelahiggins862get outside for a run,strat cleaning or get a dog.focus your attention from the mind/thoughts and do something whenever you start having these thoughts

[@jennifertilly9273]

Acid is a chemical. Not medicine.

[@kuhk2728]

i genuinely feel like i have ptsd from one horrible mushroom trip i had. during my trip i had completely lost sense of anything in this world. i had completely lost sense of who i was and anything i learned in my life. i completely forgot what my phone was and i kid you not i woke up with glass in my mouth and a broken phone. it felt like my whole life was on repeat.. like i was living out thoughts in my mind that i was unable to control, remember or tell the difference from my thoughts from reality. time didn’t exist to me. now that’s what happened in my trip. one time in class the exact same feeling happened to me while i smoked only a little weed before. i remember the feeling when i first started to lose my mind again. it felt like i was looking around a 2d world, unable to remember a single thing about the reality i was just in. i quickly associated this feeling with my shroom trip and believed that i was still stuck in my shroom trip, which by the way was at least a month before this happened. it felt like there was no time between my shroom trip and this experience.

[@oliviarebecca2142]

About a year ago I had a very similar experience, during my trip it felt like a rug was ripped from under my feet and I lost complete grip of reality. Actually, it felt like I was hanging on by a thread and being dragged into it against my will. I knew who & where I was but there was no separation between my thoughts and reality and my mind was moving so rapidly from one thing to the next. I also kept getting stuck in thought loops, mainly about dying and horrible things. It was genuinely terrifying, I began to think my actual life was fake and this is how I’ve always been. It felt like it would never stop and I was on the brink of losing my mind. Luckily my boyfriend was able to help me relax so I didn’t do anything stupid. I feel like I have ptsd from my trip as well and struggle with existential anxiety/ocd which is not fun. Just wish I never did it.

[@kuhk2728]

@@oliviarebecca2142 the part when you said that your thoughts were moving so rapidly from one to the next and that your life felt fake and always had been fake was super relatable. we pretty much experienced the same thing.

[@RichSProducer]

I had exactly the same experience with mushrooms 3 months ago and it has completely destroyed my life. Everyday is a literal nightmare. The day before the trip, I was so happy, excited about life, loved being outdoors, working out and playing guitar. Now nothing seems real, I can't find the smallest pleasure or comfort in the most mundane thing, like the feeling of coming home and relaxing on the couch. I was never depressed before, I had no repressed trauma and I went into the trip with the best intentions. Now I live in a constant hell and wish I were dead.

[@atalkingafro9632]

I know this is old but another tool that’s REALLY helped me is meditation and yoga. There’s something about tracking your breath in movement and stillness that really grounds you back in reality. Going on 6 years now since I had my first derealization experience. I felt like my closest friends were out to kill me in some kind of twisted movie or science experiment for a while and it ate away at my life and sleep. I’m barely starting to smoke weed again because of it. I don’t think the dream state ever fully goes away just because of the lessons you learn. but I can say it definitely gets better and falls further by the waist side. Keep perservering everyone!

[@zachhall2575]

Does smoking weed again not trigger your anxiety/derealization again? Rn I’m on the recovery and cutting out all substances but am curious if I could one day return in moderation to weed without activating anxiety like it does now

[@atalkingafro9632]

@@zachhall2575 ​ Not even gonna lie to you it does, but it's manageable. So I may socially smoke when it's around me but I definitely will be out of the rotation before everyone else and I'm okay with that. ABSOLUTELY no edibles, had a hard time with those at a music festival in October.

[@BasicHemp]

i just tried shrooms exactly 1 week ago for me i would say i feel a little disconnected from life and the hardest part is not feeling normal i just want to go back to how i felt before the shrooms i remember telling my friend my old me died and now i feel like im stuck the way i am right now. its scary asf bro but i just want to say thank you so much for this video it has reassured me and is helping me thank you

[@omarkhan9515]

Are you oka now.

[@Billlumberg227]

That’s just part of the process and when the change is so unexpectedly unwarranted, the perception that you have that is persisting from the use of psychedelics that triggered this within you can cause lingering anxiety and trauma due to the particular nature of whatever experience you had. Many people don’t realize just how powerful and altering these substances can be, for better or worse. And during this process resistance just makes things worse but the stress from the experience can often bleed into regular life for a long time afterwards and it can be quite difficult to reorient yourself into normalcy. But it always goes away and your brain will reach homeostasis. You can do your best to use the time to reevaluate your life, as much as it can suck to feel that way and not feel normal and have that depersonalization, derealization, etc. but the human mind/brain/body and the ways it can adapt is profound, and the other side is there and the grass is indeed greener my friend.

[@Billlumberg227]

And everything this guy is saying in the video is spot on and if you follow his advice during the process I’d say that’s the best advice you could have for such a situation.

[@BasicHemp]

@@Billlumberg227 its been 3 months since i post this comment i stuck with the stuff this guy said and im for the most part good now no more feeling weird except when i try smokin weed

[@user-fk8xo2iu5r]

LSD messed me up. I don't feel myself walking, I don't feel myself talking. I don't feel... myself. I used to be sharper, a stronger person, someone who knew what they were doing and walked with confidence towards their goals. I don't know that person anymore. I don't know myself anymore. I'm so, so scared. I feel like I've forever lost a part of myself because of a stupid decision and I don't know how to get it back. I'm trying to accept my reality right now but I'm so, so so scared that I'll never get myself back.

[@EdenUptonnew]

How you doing now ?

[@artisticwonder5935]

Thank you for this video. Previously before my depersonalization i thought that anxiety was the worst thing ever. But when i experienced depersonalization for the first time it was the most scary thing ive ever experienced. It took me about 2 months to 90 percent recover from the dps. I swear to god everyday was hell. Thank you for this video.

[@Riseandrollin]

You recovered bro?

[@artisticwonder5935]

Riseandrollin yes. took about 4 months to recover. Now i dont experience derealization at all, Or barely. Derealization is a form of anxiety!. your body is trying to protect you from a threat by making you detached from it. When i learnet that i realized its just all in my head and im not going crazy, Its very natural actually. For example. If you drink a bunch of liquor you wont feel any derealization, You know why, Cause it removes the Anxiety that gave you DPs. But yes im recovered now but i still suffer from anxiety but thats been all my life😁

[@Riseandrollin]

@@artisticwonder5935 well how about you help me with the Dpdr and I help you with the anxiety?

[@Riseandrollin]

@@artisticwonder5935 I got over my anxiety it’s really just the Dpdr that’s still there.

[@Riseandrollin]

@@artisticwonder5935 I actually got it from too much anxiety and stress. I didn’t even get it from drugs

[@akira4085]

Here's the thing about all psychedelics , they will all never show you something scary just to scare you. They show you what you need to see. The real problem I notice with psychs is I just can't relate to regular people. I have to pretend to be normal around them just to blend in.

[@LawrenceAngeleMusic]

Thank you man.

[@Triazolax]

I had a horrifying acid experience where I had a panic attack and thought my parents were dead but honestly despite being completely fucked and mentally gone at the peak and freaking out I just ended up coming down and being fine. I've tripped twice since then and haven't had any problems. honestly since then my mental health has been better than ever and I can't even begin to describe how fucked that one moment of eternity felt but idk I felt okay after I came down a bit. what I gained was a positive healing experience BY experiencing all this tension I had built up and I was able to release it and feel completely present

[@Triazolax]

I will add that in my last few trips there were a couple moments where I felt like an aftershock of the original panic but once you give it your attention and tell yourself your okay you'll be fine

[@codyjohnson9354]

Everyone please read this. So back in October 2019. I ate about 2 grams of shrooms and my friends ate like 4 grams. I had so much anxiety, felt like I was gonna puke the whole time. My pupils were different sizes. I just layed in bed the whole time til I was fine. Few days after trip, I got so much anxiety that I couldn’t sleep and eat. My pupils were still different sizes to this day. It was like I had a non stop anxiety attack. I thought I had like 50 different mental illness. I became a hypochondriac. So I started medication in November. About a month after my shroom trip. And I have tried other meds, currently on Prozac, remeron, and adderall. I still have anxiety, but not as bad. I’m just dealing with depression now. I’m still figuring out my meds and dosages.

[@STARCHRISS]

Cody Johnson Stay strong! Never give up

[@ajellyfish6357]

What sucks is the reality is youre seeing you're not yiur bosy, ego death shows that you are still awareness even without identity. Its hard to come back and be normal

[@__B__]

Man I hope things are still well for you. Going thru it bad currently.

[@concretecastles878]

Keep going bro you’ll be okay remember you’re not alone

[@mrsspidermonkey1691]

Iv Had HPPD for 4 years now and I just accept it now. Just try to ignore it and live my life the best I can.

[@robbiedow9765]

MrSpidermonkey do you still drink or smoke? Trying to figure out why some people have it for what feels forever while others effects go away in the space of a year.

[@mrsspidermonkey1691]

@@robbiedow9765 I still drink and smoke. So idk what would happen if I stopped for a couple years. I didn't do anything for a year after it happened but it didn't go away so I kinda just accepted it went on about my life.

[@camerondouglas3697]

@@mrsspidermonkey1691 fml lol hope thats not where I'm headed with this

[@gogouser99]

It took me 6 months from my shroom trip to have the hppd subside Before that I’ve had previous acid trips. With major hppd with that For anyone , good luck , it’s just time

[@zamoretdw1224]

Hey my friend is going through the same thing and I’m trying to help her. She’s saying she wants to see a therapist but I know she doesn’t need one. I went through the same thing with weed but overcame it watching videos like these. Is there more I can do to help her or can you recommend some videos?

[@user-bz7vz7xq5k]

this guy is better than my therapist

[@nanobruv]

I felt depersonalization for sure. People always thought I was crazy :c

[@sarahprestley7783]

I have suffered from DPDR since 2013... going on 7 years. This was stemmed from a traumatic childhood... I’m 22 now

[@RockyHoarderPictureShows]

Just remember it can change. Even if you can't see it yet, believing is the start.

[@therealjulez7886]

WOW thank u for sharing this brother.. Shrooms are slowly becoming legal next and ppl need to know of the repercussions if you do not respect the plant. I have used shrooms & psyc's since I was 16 years old, when I started tripping more often I developed a light case of HPPD .. i'd stare at my ceiling and it would start breathing when I was sober long after the drug worn off. I'm 32 years old now and trip only a couple times a year. no more visual distortions, U need to give yourself time to understand your trip and keep yourself grounded. people who trip twice a month or even 1 every 1 month will get this disorder 100%

[@alexisvidztv5990]

L0st Frequency did you have tracers too or nah

[@alexisvidztv5990]

Im currently 15 and have done lsd i would say maybe 6 times, usually i would trip every 2 to 3 weeks. The thing is i have never actually had a bad trip i have always felt like I learned something from each experience. I have mild tracers,after images, halos and starbursts at night around lights for 3 months. I just recently tripped again last week and it doesn’t seem to have gotten worse. I also have depersonalization however i don’t think it was due to tripping itself but from the anxiety and panic attacks knowing thats i have hppd. I am thinking about taking a break from any drugs for a year and seeing if it gets better especially the DP thats what really fucks with me. If not or even if it does get better i will probably start taking psychedelics again but more responsibly and doing it every 3 months.

[@therealjulez7886]

@@alexisvidztv5990 You are young and have your whole life ahead of u brother don't throw it away just BC you want to see cool visuals and colors its not worth it. if u don't respect these substances they won't respect you. my HPPD wasn't that bad no tracers or after images like u mentioned but keep in mind Mushrooms were my plant. I heard it happens wayyyyy more with LSD, which is why older folks always told me LSD is a shot in the foot. also blazing weed brings it out more sometimes, I never had DP bc I always took shrooms for personal insight and they are a teacher so i always looked at it that way. as for the anxiety u could working yourself up thinking about the changes u made to urself. Trip safe and responsibly

[@alexisvidztv5990]

L0st Frequency ok thanks. Just letting you know i dont trip for fun to see visuals, i do it for spirituality. The last trip i had last week i did so i could fight my anxiety head on and understand the root cause and how to overcome it, but instead i just relived how much i loved this world. I also feel like the lsd was telling me to explore more psychedelics and become a Psychonaut like Terence Mckenna and talk about my experiences with other people. I know that this is who i want to be.

[@JS-mg8no]

@@alexisvidztv5990how is it now

[@dakid6183]

Thanks for giving hope bro, in this video can u say that u are back to ur old self? Glad to hear u say ur at 100% but is it a different u, or would u say ur the same,

[@Giablo1]

Yes, in some ways I'm better because now I have this experience and knowledge to share. Theres still struggles with anxiety and depersonalization every now and then, but nowhere near the level causes by the mushrooms at first

[@bradleywilson7557]

Grayson Guice I was only 14 years old when I got depersonalisation and derealization due to a bad experience with weed.it has been a full year and a have recovered to the best that I can.something still feels a little off but there is nothing you can do.i really agree with the whole getting on with your life.if you have depersonalisation and u do not want to interact with others you need to just push on with it.you have to try and re centre your concious to reality.

[@SergioMartinez-ku2wn]

Two months ago I took lsd and ended up with psychosis and the worst part, with a incomplete heart block also because I mixed it with marijuana, i had taken lsd like 20 times before and it was cool i had really good experinces, but that night everything was different, i had all the syntoms that happened to you then exactly like a looked to my family and i saw them different or the trees were bigger or smaller, everything felt so unreal, one month after that night i felt complety normal but i still had hppd so i went with the psychatrist and she prescribed me risperidone but i made everything worst i only felt the adverse effects and hallucinations went worse to the point that i felt depersonalizated again butit turns out that risperidone doesn´t help with hppd it only make it worse while you use it, so now its almost two months since that night but i still feel ansious because it happened to my twice and algo because i still have hppd. It scares me a lot I'm 18 years old and i don't know if this hppd is going to stay all my life

[@stewie2k893]

bruh were fuckin the same does it bother u?

[@escobar8617]

A few months back I did them a lot and I remember stepping outside one day and seeing the purple sky and feeling so anxious I felt like throwing up. The vastness of the universe I guess got to me Lmfaoooo. I laugh now but the most important mindset is to learn from what you have experienced.

[@Smokey_____]

I never ever Had a bad experience if anything IM ALWAYS like a little kid with excitement so happy and can’t wait to start tripping my last trip was 1/2 ounce of Shakti mushrooms and I was smokin all the weed I can as hard as I can and man I I loved every second of it I always feel SOOOOOO EUPHORIC and happy and I’ll feel like I’m on a rollercoaster I even would scream like I’m on one too seeing these differen patterns and visuals this was the first trip that was fully a delirium trip I LOVED it

[@FedArteUrbano]

I had a horrible weed high in Nov 2022 and I feel I am 90% recovered. Tbh I still have dpdr episodes that are very short. What I can say is that my perspective towards reality hasn't been the same ever since.

[@haydencary8698]

I have tripped on enough mushrooms and LSD to find myself falling in a rabbit hole that I never expected myself to wind up in. Still bouncing back but staying positive💯❤️trip safely amigos

[@marioalberto34844]

I've been smoking weed most of my life, and just now ive been having symptoms, feelings like psychosis, im starting to think that its because im stoned all day, everyday, and all i think is under that state, i think is affecting me. I know what does help or at least for me, is exercise yes, and playing video games like intense one (to keep your mind occupied) multiplayer, br, where you can talk to people, and hear people talk, and just socialize as much as possible w friends and family, you notice that when you feel shitty , you don't exercise or socialize, so when you do you feel good.

[@rickimoss5369]

I’ve never gotten any mental issues for the 2 and a half years I’ve been smoking weed. But I have been trying to cut down the the amount i smoke and one way is by waiting as long as I can before I have my first cone of the day. I try to take as long of brakes in between cones.

[@NobleVagabond2552]

Hopefully u stopped smoking for a while. I was a daily weed smoker for 10 years and one day I derealized pretty bad off a thc wax vape pen. Only lasted a couple hours but then it kept happening every time I got high. Went off thc entirely for a couple months and then smoked flower again and felt okay. But I’m extra cautious now, only smoking about once a week, and I avoid thc wax entirely

[@niwtahcardnas9644]

First and only time trying shrooms I had a bad trip. Nothing has ever been the same since. It changed my life for the worst. Never had anxiety, depression or DPDR before that. Kids, drugs are bad, umkay.

[@dakid6183]

How are you 3 months now after this video?

[@williamnimbach6419]

I had that same bad mushroom trip I was alone and I was feeling suicidal and shit all the negative thoughts in my head were at the fore front however when I came down from it I was good I dont feel anxious or bad or anything but everytine I do shrooms now I have a bad trip I honestly feel like I was just doing them to much and to often

[@oasis3583]

The universe thing happened with me recently and now I can’t stop looking at the sky trying to get my head around it lol

[@delirivm0000]

thankyou 😿

[@dmitriy7126]

Can you explain in details the moment you felt that it's all gone? It was sudden fact that one day you felt it's over or it's long lasting procedure that can take months?

[@Giablo1]

It was a slow return

[@dutchstreetpreacher]

Jesus Christ set me free from this aquarium feeling

[@prod.jiiggy]

I had HPPD after one bad trip and had demonic allucinations for a whole month after, now it’s been 7 month I still have visual distortion like halos and translucent waves also I can’t focus very well from the distance and my height perception is messed up… I stopped smoking and drinking but still… I have the feeling that is gonna last forever, I hope it doesn’t but I feel like it

[@aprilthomas1489]

I literally NEEDED walks for a good year after my bad trip, otherwise I would spiral into panic attacks. I am about 2.5 year out from my epic/bad trip. Still healing... I still think it was worth it though.

[@firehawk6230]

I wonder if I have DPDR or Psychosis after taking to much edibles

[@roseconlon6773]

I’m not going through it personally, but a friend of mine is. I’m scared for them because they took 11 tabs of acid and now for the past week they’ve though that the government is after them and there is no calming them down. They’re coming to stay at my house for a few days after they’ve finished being evaluated at the hospital but I don’t know what to do because I feel like they can’t even grasp reality right now so I’m not even sure how to help them back into a normal pattern of thinking. They’re completely stuck in the illusion that the government is going to find and kill them...

[@GeraltOfRivia99]

@hillary conlon drugs can have a bad effect on people. sounds like it might have set off schitozoprenia in him. how is he doing now? its been a while since your comment. hope hes doing better