This all makes so much sense. I’ve never had the decrease in joy from weed, but I have noticed it’s stagnated my life. It makes it easier to tolerate a mediocre life rather than pushing through and making it great
@Blue-fo1tx9 ай бұрын
And what if your life is just permanently mediocre. Lol
@epoch299 ай бұрын
Becoming content with discontent.
@GiraffeCrab9 ай бұрын
@@Blue-fo1tx well having a mediocre life should be the motivator to break out of that cycle rather than smoking weed untill your happy with being mediocre.
@jaakkovirtanen54139 ай бұрын
99% of everyone lives a mediocre life. Mediocre is fine
@GiraffeCrab9 ай бұрын
@@jaakkovirtanen5413 what mediocre is we define for ourselves. If you think your life is mediocre then ... Why do you feel that? You bored? Not achieved what you wish you had? Whish you had wealth or something?? Why not find satisfaction with life to the point where you don't feel that you are living a mediocre life? Weed helps people come to terms with being mediocre rather than striving for satisfaction.
@lovemusicharmonybeat Жыл бұрын
As someone who is literally going through the same thing, I want to thank this person for coming on and sharing his story
@carsonlove531 Жыл бұрын
You got this! Rooting for you to find the balance you need in life to experience the joy you deserve 👏
@Freakazoid12345 Жыл бұрын
Not figuratively going through the same thing?
@FishJackson Жыл бұрын
Agreed. This helps a ton, the experience and conversations had.
@wherethesundontshine6912 Жыл бұрын
Same here. Good luck with your journey 👍@@FishJackson
@Novac19 Жыл бұрын
This guy made me feel less alone in the situation.
@noahbartlett2832 Жыл бұрын
I sold weed for about 4 years in Colorado at a dispensary. It might not be "addictive" in the traditional sense, but I saw plenty of people blow thousands of dollars a month on it and everyone who used it all the time (including myself) just stopped going anywhere in life. It's like we were just fine making minimum wage, having no furniture and having no ambitions. Woke up one day realizing that and just never smoked again
@Patel-Chirag-Gupta Жыл бұрын
@nicholastime1513 two different sides of a coin
@nfrgbros8937 Жыл бұрын
seriously man, that’s how i feel. i get way too comfortable smoking n i been doing it daily for a long time now, just killed all of what i had tn so gonna see how it goes, i plan on not smoking for a very very long time
@lemonheader Жыл бұрын
@nicholastime1513is the weed for your adhd or did you get a diagnosis and get on meds?
@nahfamimgood Жыл бұрын
@nicholastime1513 facts. To quote Hank Hill "Why would anyone do drugs when they could mow a lawn?". Clearly he has never mowed a lawn while high. On a serious note, I also have been able to manage my ADHD incredibly well with weed. 4 Years in I definitely feel my tolerance almost tapped out, Should probably take a tolerance break soon. I'm a joint a day kinda guy
@dandre3K Жыл бұрын
@nicholastime1513It’s a dumbass assumption and it’s a deflection. The average cigarette smoker, coffee drinker, fast food eater is unsuccessful, and none of those things is the cause.
@zerg6001 Жыл бұрын
I just wanted to leave an experience in case someone needs to hear it. I also used to smoke everyday and it was holding me back from pursuing my goals, eating healthily, and living life to the fullest. I have since significantly reduced my use, joined a gym, go for regular runs, and I’m eating significantly better. I also started college after avoiding it for 4 years after highschool. You can do it. You can build resiliency. You might feel like you aren’t ready or you can’t do something, all it takes is to keep doing the next right thing one step at a time. Start a routine that doesn’t leave time for smoking. Tell someone you are trying to reduce your use so they can help keep you accountable. Add in regular exercise and self care, and identify a long term goal. You aren’t defined by your emotions. You are defined by what you do about them!
@keeling1813 Жыл бұрын
thanks bro im in almost the same boat as you, just only took a year off school.
@sh0werp0wer Жыл бұрын
What does reduced use entail for you? The only time I really miss/want weed, is if I'm alone and lonely/bored one weekend, because weed really has really helped me through those nights. This is how I always "relapse" after being off weed for months, even years, I plan to just smoke one saturday evening to relax and stave off loneliness/boredom, and then it just continues on Sunday, and immediately becomes a daily thing. I've managed to moderate daily usage to the extent where I only smoke before bedtime and make sure I get my exercise and daily chores done, but it still feels like an addiction, because I can't sleep without it, so I really feel like I depend on it. I'd love to just be able to smoke in moderation, like for instance only on weekends or saturdays, but I've failed so many times now I wonder if it's even possible.
@hansschafer7925 Жыл бұрын
@@sh0werp0wer a friend of mine had the same thought that smoking in moderation could work out, for him at the end quitting fully was the way to go, after 3 months he rarely thought about smoking again and everytime before when he started smoking after not smoking for months, he was smoking daily again after a week
@diarmuidkuhle8181 Жыл бұрын
@@sh0werp0werIt's totally possible. You're already halfway there because you are aware of the situations and feelings that motivate you to smoke. You always use for a REASON. You use because it does something for you, some effect that you find desirable, otherwise you'd not be doing it. I learnt to moderate my heroin use after several years of addiction. The difference is I no longer lean on it for anything. I don't use it to escape from my problems, I no longer feel I can't get through the day without it, I just enjoy it now and again as a treat. And I don't want it constantly now in exactly the same way I'd get sick of my favourite meal if I had it for breakfast, lunch and dinner every day. PS I can greatly recommend a book to you, written by 3 authors both from individual experience and decades of research, called 'The Freedom Model for Addictions'. It's available as a free download and it is fantastically helpful for sorting out the relationship you have to your drug of choice. All the best, you can get there! I have and people used to tell me I'd die in the gutter.
@tirates Жыл бұрын
@@sh0werp0wer I can connect with these statements alot. Ive tried to stop smoking handful of times. But it only takes that one night of indulgence to send me back down the rabbit hole. For me personally, ive accepted that I have an addict mindset, Many addicts in my fam, and I have to treat weed the same way some one in AA treats drinking. Might just be my will power, might be how i get when im stoned. Thanks for sharing
@trayonett Жыл бұрын
I’m really proud of this guest, and his ability to articulate exactly what weed does over time. He’s very smart and self aware. I’m 30 now, been what I’d consider a pretty heavy smoker for 10 years, and have been working on rewiring my brain and opinion about cannabis. This conversation really helped me to understand what I’m going through and how to proceed.
@williambjork2777 Жыл бұрын
Same boat. Daily user but woudnt necessarily classify is as an addiction but looking back it absolutey stunted my potential in my 20s. I've been weed free for a year and made more progress in my career during that time than the previous 10 combined. I think mostly becuse my "boredom tolerance" is so much higher and Im able to focus for longer periods of time. This is probably the most nuanced and realistic video on the subject I've ever seen. Just becuase you´re not a complete fiend doesnt mean that usage of any drug can have negative effects on your life. Im not giving it up for life, I still love it and it has enriched my life. But there is a time and place for everything, and right now is not it.
@trayonett Жыл бұрын
@@williambjork2777 couldn’t agree with you more. I never felt addicted, but it became part of my routine in certain ways that I can see now was detrimental. I think it’s easy for smoking to become part of your routine when doing certain things or winding down at night. I’m only 12 days without smoking right now, but in that time I can already see that my productivity is up, I sleep better, and I’m more likely work out and explore cutting out other vices. Can’t say I’ll never smoke again, but moderation is key, and there is a time and place for it 100%. I do how ever think a daily smoker lifestyle is no longer for me.
@Arcanineisthebest10 ай бұрын
@guitarszen Here. Work out pretty much every day + my work is very physical as well. This is extremely accurate, was both for me and the people around me. Being a social stoner, a weekend stoner and a daily stoner are completely different things, and only one of those is healthy. Plus the people who just say ''You're doing it wrong" or "You haven't found the right strain" are usually the ones whose lives revolve around weed.
@Arcanineisthebest10 ай бұрын
@guitarszen It's my anecdotal experience, not my opinion.
@thecount396510 ай бұрын
Yeah he’s more self aware than I was at that age
@epelly39 ай бұрын
Props to this guy for doing this interview. This is a conversation that most people would only feel comfortable having confidentially
@blackhawkthepirate Жыл бұрын
My experience with weed is pretty different from this, but there are definitely some similarities. I always try to be aware of when I am avoiding something. Weed often helps me see when I’m avoiding things. The issue can be how often I smoke. If I smoke all the time, I’ll never really grow. I have to have breaks for: a) tolerance, b) boredom (really important!), and c) to absorb knowledge gained. Weed really helps me to see how things actually are, but if I never let myself be sober and bored, then I’ll never really learn those lessons.
@anishkirtane5860 Жыл бұрын
learning how to make substances work for you is the important thing!
@belivuk2526 Жыл бұрын
You could achieve the same effect without it if you put your mind to it, just without risks
@_VISION. Жыл бұрын
You don't actually need weed for that though
@roninsoul9051 Жыл бұрын
@@belivuk2526But it's a sensation that is beautiful beyond words surely once or twice a week vaped or ingested rather than combusted is worth it for the introspective souls and dedicated tokers everywhere. Moderation is key and if you fail at it you can always try again. But I will acknowledge that weed is of little importance compared to trusting your gut and doing what works for you.
@reyliw Жыл бұрын
I had many awesome insights on weed. It is a great therapeutic tool. Like shrooms, but lighter, more accessible and less frightening.
@SuperLotus Жыл бұрын
Glad they're finally doing viewer interviews instead of just big influencers
@animofo_za Жыл бұрын
Word. I find the viewer interviews more exiting than the influencer ones.
@ETHBlade1 Жыл бұрын
Tbh dr k started off doing mainly viewer interviews and stuff, the influencer interviews came as a surprise to me when they started happening
@vroomzoom4206 Жыл бұрын
I hate the influencer interviews. Why do i care about their problems. Real people are much more relatable.
@Gretstarret Жыл бұрын
@@vroomzoom4206 AoE healing concept. When you interview influencers and talk about their problems, you get both of HGs and their community to watch it = the information get spread around more.
@joshmillere6263 Жыл бұрын
@@vroomzoom4206 maybe because it humanizes them? Just because they are influencers doesn't mean everything they say is irrelevant. Try watching them sometimes. Especially ones like sweet Anita and such.
@dlwseattle Жыл бұрын
As a 62 yr old that has smoked weed over 40 years on and off I can say that it's held me back from a lot of the things I really wish I had in my life. I'm 2 months clean still fighting for happiness
@mariechosgaire6984 Жыл бұрын
2 months is amazing!
@peepoos Жыл бұрын
what did it hold you back from?
@dlwseattle Жыл бұрын
@@peepoosthank you for the question. i could write a lengthy diatribe as an answer for you, but i will just say this: many of the things i wanted to do - i just flat out didn't do. many of the things i did do - were done half-heartedly, or never fully completed.
@kennypowers1945 Жыл бұрын
@@dlwseattleodd. Weed makes me do more things and be interested in more. It hasn’t held me back like when I was sober
@ThanosMatsoukasOfficial Жыл бұрын
We are rooting for you Sir! Never too late. Thanks for sharing!
@Memento__Mori Жыл бұрын
Marijuana has been a godsend for me personally . It made me more and more aware of myself and others . My worst inner conflicts I've solved being stoned at night . It brought every negativity in me that was in my subconscious to the conscious which made it possible for me to work through things and get better . It does however harm me when I begin indulging in it. Side effects are worsened sleep quality , low hunger , clouded mind and lazy . Mind you I never smoke during the day it's always before bed time.
@codis572210 ай бұрын
Dude 100 percent. I feel like when I smoke, I can get out of my mind and see things from an outside perspective. Mind you, I never had the ability to do this beforehand. Ironically, alcohol is looked at as an illusive solution while actually making things a whole lot worse. Unfortunately it took all of my 20s to figure this out while simultaneously being totally against weed. Also, the forgetfulness from weed I think is my brain disregarding because when I am reminded of something I forgot, it's always irrelevant and I noticed there was no need to store that type of info in the first place 😅😂. Key is to get shit done then smoke
@bonenintomatensaus9 ай бұрын
The worsened sleep is a good indicator of stress for me. When I'm more relaxed the effect is way less profound. So yeah I can smoke a spliff to do science on my mental health :p
@jacknapier66689 ай бұрын
Checks out that your other comments are for videos about anxiety Now your here saying weed is a godsend Maybe take a T break there Chuck irony is on the milk carton 😂
@michaelrichards91509 ай бұрын
Totally tangential to the conversation but how tf do you check comments, like I can't find how to see even my own comments and I would like to@@jacknapier6668
@rkjeffery7779 ай бұрын
I "microdose" cannabis daily and i feel its been very helpful for me especially as a double athlete who works 40 hours a week.
@connerstephens2738 Жыл бұрын
Maybe it’s because I am neurodivergent, but honestly Cannabis has been far more beneficial than any professional mental health provider has ever been. It’s actually helped me process emotions and better my life in ways no medication or therapy has ever come close to helping.
@maxgoldstein7202 Жыл бұрын
Same, in a way. Im on the spectrum and weed is (when used sparingly) a good way to actually introspect a bit and be less stressed out about myself. The unfortunate thing is, it's still psychologically addictive, and at the point in my life I'm currently at I can't afford to bear all the negative effects. I'm a lightweight and am quite sensitive to thc, so using it frequently is always a bit of a coin toss. Working on quitting rn
@KH-to9sc Жыл бұрын
Be careful. I started my use to mitigate anxiety. At the height of my addiction, I began to develop BPD1, GAD, and could feel the psychosis not far behind. That was the day I quit. I was a HEAVY use case, one milliliter of distillate daily. Moderation is sorta important!
@Alex-js5lg Жыл бұрын
I started because I realized it helped me eat and sleep at a time I struggled with both. Then it helped me manage anxiety. Then stress. Then sadness. Then boredom... just be careful. Maybe keep a record of every time you use, kind of like tracking calories but for weed.
@anthonycampos8302 Жыл бұрын
@Alex-js5lg another problem I have with adhd is completing people's sentences and hyperaware of people's slow thinking. When I smoke weed, I end up socializing the behavior and let my thoughts slow down and I'm able to socialize better. What I'm trying to learn sober is learning how to slow down naturally but also accept the fact my brain will just be quicker
@PhuPhillipTrinh Жыл бұрын
this interview me! im a component of successful cannabis user, keeps me going
@Mongol_Invasion Жыл бұрын
The dude is good at describing weed's effects
@VioletEmerald Жыл бұрын
Yeah as someone who's never consumed marijuana it's really helpful to be able to watch content like this and more deeply understand it.
@codeman3639 Жыл бұрын
@@VioletEmerald Everything he says about noticing more in music is totally true. Even more so on psychedelics. Being stuck in the present moment is definitely true too - easier to block out your problems in life, for better or worse.
@davek89666 Жыл бұрын
Yeah he sure is. He's very observant
@gj4312 Жыл бұрын
@@codeman3639 psychedelics are a whole different kettle of fish. I've done LSD once and I'd say that other drugs are basically still sober, just a different flavour of sober. Psychedelics are too different to compare like that.
@doomertube7050 Жыл бұрын
I was thinking the opposite lol, he’s a newb
@theghostofblakephilbrook Жыл бұрын
"Its like you're too busy fighting a losing battle to just run away"... I love how Dr. K helps people come to these conclusions on their own. The answers are inside yourself, Dr. K just puts a spot light on it for you.
@Motivational_Posters4 ай бұрын
This is the basis of Motivational Interviewing and person-centered therapy :). A lot of use this is in the field… well hopefully…
@js54679 ай бұрын
spent 10 years stoned 24/7.. wake up, bongs for breakfast, go to work, head home and rip a couple for lunch, back to work, go home at the end of the and smoke myself green. weighed about 2 bucks and had terrible anxiety. did that for about 30% of my life lol. 2 years off the shit now, and although quitting weed in itself didn't magically make me the most productive, confident and ambitious person in the world, i'm a lot happier in ways i used to think i never could be sober
@BearFruit905 ай бұрын
you worked high on weed? wowzers
@leroyjenkins26394 ай бұрын
@@BearFruit90 pretty easy to do. I’m trying to quit right now but for years nobody even knew I smoked. I smoked so often that being high was my baseline. When I’m sober people think I’m high because I’m not acting like I normally do
@82mjoseph3 ай бұрын
@@js5467 yes I’m so happy I quit it felt like weed was taking over my life every thing I did I had to be high now I’m in control
@UndeadLavender Жыл бұрын
I'm a smoker of almost 21 years, started around 16; I'm 37. I was an alcoholic most of my adult life; 4 years sober this December. Also, late in life diagnosis of PTSD probably complex tbh, ADHD, and a few other disorders. Through the use of therapists, we were able to understand that my early on use was basically self medicating to regulate the ADHD and other disorders. My parents never believed my mental anguish therefore never wanted to take me to any psychologist or therapist. Weed really also slowed things down for me. My brain doesn't like to shut off, never has, which has always impacted my sleep then daily energy levels, motivation etc. I intended to quit smoking after getting sober from alcohol, however, I was never able to fully make the transition over to 100% sobriety from pot. I enjoy this sense of focus it gives me and it has always seemed to help transition that focus to other tasks. Recently though, it has been having the opposite effect. And again, has me considering quitting for good. That's when the back of my mind fear of having life with that focus, without the pot sets in. Which in turn creates anxiety which in turn makes me want to smoke. Am i addicted? Before sobriety from alcohol I would have said no. After being in recovery for so many years and seeing therapists, if you asked me if i was addicted to pot, I'd say, definitely yes.
@crystalizeplays9103 Жыл бұрын
You got a diagnosis of CPTSD from a professional? How? I thought it’s not in the DSM
@sjoe_87 Жыл бұрын
This is me
@guitarplayer1495 Жыл бұрын
you know a drug has you when you can't sleep.
@erichaberman3812 Жыл бұрын
Add ten years to that and you'll be me.
@m9498-y8y Жыл бұрын
@@crystalizeplays9103 however it's official diagnosis in newest ICD-11
@zzzzzzzzzzz67 ай бұрын
"Its helping you internally do the work, but its not helping you do the work" is such an insightful and great point, that's exactly what it is -- For me i need it when i hate my job but it makes me bad at my job
@onyax9323 Жыл бұрын
30++ female here. Been addicted to weed for about 10 years, daily smoking, several j's a day. I grew up in a home where any negative emotions (sometimes even the positive ones) were not allowed and us kids were shamed and punished for them. I have realized I have some level of alexithymia, but it is hard to say how bad it is as I cannot really feel what I "should" feel. I have ADD (diagnosed in my late twenties) and self-diagnosed autism. This video is very helpful. This guy has his whole life ahead of him. And I do have a lot of mine to live, too. This time I feel I really am going to kick the "all-day everyday" habit. I am mentally equipped to do so. Long-lived habits die very hard, though. Massive thanks for this conversation to both of you! (+ subbed to your channel - great content, sir!)
@RagnarSwiftRage Жыл бұрын
At 8:17 Dr K remarks that "it doesnt improve performance but it makes things easier to do internally". This is perhaps the best description of what marijuana does for me, an ADHD patient. It helped remarkably for focusing on school work and spiritual activities (yoga/meditation). BUT it does drop off after awhile, and now anhedonia is a real concern. Psychological safety net, is a good way to describe it. I get brutal boredom and my attention span is non-existant if I go too long without using it now. Also, "Too busy fighting a losing battle" comment... SO TRUE
@Kickitwithquan10 ай бұрын
As someone who use to be suicidal, Cannabis has really changed my view of life and has definitely helped me enjoy the present moments more. However I do think it can make people more complacent, hold you back from achieving goals and becoming the best version of yourself.
@marshallcierovola3765 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for having a conversation about the middle ground of addiction. Dr. K nailed it when he said that we mostly only pay attention to the addict level but so many of us, myself inlcuded, are in the middle and don't really understand the fully impacts.
@intel6947 Жыл бұрын
Sometimes I miss weed. I’ve been sober for 3 years and it used to be the most relaxing thing ever and helped me where no other medication, therapist, nor doctor could. I slowly realized it was just hiding my problems out of view as they were stacking up and it wasn’t a really true solution. Eventually I started getting intense panic attacks from it and borderline psychosis and that’s when I finally stopped. I do miss the days of playing video games, watching movies and TV, listening to music, and eating while high. It really does make sensory perception richer that’s an accurate description. I used to feel like I was cradled by God or something and colors were brighter and I was so so so calm and relaxed. Nothing would ever beat eating an amazing meal and zoning out into a good movie or show. I would get so immersed and it was massive escapism. I also noticed that weed made me more social and was a great excuse to connect to people here in Southern California where pretty much that’s all we would do lol. Smoking in the mountains and meditating in nature is a whole vibe. I would have deep meditation sessions in my bed too and I opened my eyes to so much. I also made my best music in the days when I was stoned because I would think more outside the box. I think reliance on weed is the worst aspect of it for most people and it should be something you only do a few times a year at most to enhance and experience. Never use it as a crutch for mental health. This is all just my input and experience.
@damonplant9962 Жыл бұрын
I can really relate to this whole conversation, having smoked almost daily since i was 19 (I'm 31 now.) There have been many days where i've been stoned and can sense that i'm wasting/avoiding opportunities because of it, and the cumulation of those days really takes a toll on my sense of self sometimes. Its an addiction for sure, in that it takes some of the pain of stagnating away by giving me an excuse for it (im too high for xyz) instead of really confronting the root of the stagnation
@jarednorris9559 Жыл бұрын
I finally after 12 years of smoking weed finally finally quit, I used to spend about 150 a week on weed... just to laugh and do nothing.. looking back at it now I've realized I've spent so so much money, I could have had a house by now 😢 I'm just glad I finally found the strength to stop. I'm finally getting up and cleaning my apartment first thing in the morning, getting into positive routines, taking my dogs for walks multiple times a day. Just living. It's been so long.. I've also noticed my focus is so much stronger, and another noted side affects I'm dreaming the craziest dreams every night. When I was smoking it got to the point we're I wouldn't dream but maybe once a year.
@trentwebber5291 Жыл бұрын
Thank both of you so much for this conversation. I used weed in the exact same steps that this young man did. Fun with friends and my ex early on but after the seven year relationship ended found myself using everyday to push out the negative emotions I was feeling. I went to therapy but wasn’t as honest as Rogan was and maybe through a mix of not the right therapist and dishonesty didn’t get the help I needed. I noticed personal growth during a three week tolerance break I took during my year and a half of heavy usage but had a bachelor party at the end of the three week mark and went right back to using again. I’ve since lost a very good job opportunity due to failing a drug test (not career ending thankfully) but have since stepped away from weed all together in order to get clean. This conversation really helped me understand what was going on in my brain during that time in my life and why I didn’t grow like I could have in that period. I don’t think I will ever completely give marijuana up because I do really enjoy smoking in moderation and believe it to be considerably healthier than alcohol, but a lot of people paint it as a non-addictive health food while ignoring the potential damage it can cause. Thank you both again for the therapy session I needed as a young man but never really got.
@sevn9562 Жыл бұрын
I’ve been going through the exact same thing and I honestly really needed this video. Marijuana used to be something that truly helped me with feeling joy during times I didn’t think I had any joy left, but now I can’t help but view it as a crutch that keeps me from being motivated to pursue goals that will be hard to achieve. I think I’m finally deciding to quit/take a long break so that I can start to “feel” again and hopefully I’ll be able to focus more on my passions instead of getting high so I don’t feel so bad about putting them off.
@artmusicliterature9859 Жыл бұрын
Chronic smoker for over 11 years. I've been clean for about 3 weeks. Very difficult. My lungs almost feel worse from detoxing. I'm staying strong tho. Thanks for posting this convo!
@db00g Жыл бұрын
Stay strong, i believe in you!
@Jyolski Жыл бұрын
4 years for me and we got this bro
@Elegyforthend Жыл бұрын
Your lungs feel worse because its cleaning out. You'll feel much better after a few weeks.
@2turnt11 Жыл бұрын
we are fighting the same battle my friend, do it for yourself!!
@dhananjaywithme Жыл бұрын
Kudos to all the champions!
@PuppyTeethVEVO69 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your positivity and encouragement Dr. K! I'm no longer a stoner, and good lord can I now recognize how much it was hurting me -- it's awesome to see you helping someone else realize the same thing. You're doing amazing things for people out here man. Thanks!
@davemccage79185 ай бұрын
You deserve a like just for your username. I actually laughed out loud when I read it! 😂
@davemccage79185 ай бұрын
Also, I’ve never met a pothead that was really going places in life. Most stoners I know are just mindlessly droning through life with no aspirations or goals, working in Amazon warehouses and delivering Uber eats. I know a few smokers who started weed in their mid 20s and are relatively accomplished in their careers, but they’ve just stalled in progress and are content with staying in middle management for all eternity.
@lolxfps Жыл бұрын
I’m so glad this video was made. I struggle EXACTLY the way he struggles. It was fun to start, then it became an every other day thing, then it became daily. I am currently on my 2nd week, no weed, no juice, gym every day, & eating properly and healthy; and this just kinda confirms for me that I’ve finally stepped out of that losing battle, and onto my way to better things. I hope everyone is taking care of themselves, thank you for the amazing work as always Dr. K.
@flyingknee23 Жыл бұрын
It’s easy to be stuck in that cycle. Even I admit to it, but what help me the most is staying busy.
@jessewright8930 Жыл бұрын
How did you tell yourself don’t do it again
@1Shotice Жыл бұрын
Good stuff man keep it up you got this man!!
@lolxfps Жыл бұрын
@@jessewright8930 Hey, I’m not sure if my answer will help much but this is how it went for me. I was spending minimum 250 a week on weed at my lowest, and I was high almost all day every day. I knew for a while it was not good but never had motivation to stop or do anything better for myself. But eventually after enough thought I visualized it in the sense that if I was willing to spend that much per week on weed, why not cut my costs, save money, and do something better for myself in the process? Hopefully this helps
@lolxfps Жыл бұрын
@@jessewright8930 Thank you very much
@abgportal Жыл бұрын
I love the honesty of this guy and his description of his experience. As a person who didn't know they had anxiety and ADHD until much later in my life. I have a unique relationship with cannabis that I'm always analyzing and trying to learn just how I feel about it.
@fefigs8 ай бұрын
One of the best videos I've watched this year.
@natty-ice Жыл бұрын
Thank you both for this, Ive been using marijuana daily for 3+ years. You've described my experience and feelings almost exactly, its like you say theres no "magic" in it anymore and I can see its detriment on my life and the people in it. Ive more recently started staying sober when I game with my friends or when Im cooking or cleaning and Ive found a different kind of magic in that. Im more grounded and I actually have to grapple with reality rather than retreat into my mind. I wish anyone else whos having trouble slowing or stopping the best and know that it get easier, it gets better and others will notice, so will you.❤
@-whackd Жыл бұрын
When youre cooking and cleaning you grapple better with reality? Whats that mean dude
@natty-ice Жыл бұрын
@@-whackd when I'm not high I'm more present with the world around me rather than chasing thoughts in my head. I get stuff done faster and I do stuff the right way rather than being lazy or just giving up on the task.
@carloscontreras3633 Жыл бұрын
How is it a detriment to your life?
@natty-ice Жыл бұрын
@@carloscontreras3633when I get high w/ marijuana I tend to be more lazy, I don't want to socialize, and I eat tons of junk food. This ends up affecting my overall health and social status, a lot of people don't interact with me because of how I am when I'm high. Add to the fact I get high everyday when I'm bored or have nothing to do and it leads to family and friends just not talking to you. I wish I'd been more conscious of how it affected my habits and behaviors because I'm definitely paying for it now.
@jessewright8930 Жыл бұрын
I hope so I been trying so hard and it’s like something in my mind is like go smoke you don’t have nothing to do no one to talk to just smoke and feel good while the other voice is yelling at me like no don’t smoke look at your life look at your past look at all the problems weed has cause….. and I still do it. How did you avoid that voice that’s telling you to smoke.
@theedgeofoblivious Жыл бұрын
Honestly, I have experienced enormous depression in my life, and without marijuana I was pretty much frozen, not feeling like anything was worth it. When I started using marijuana I became much more likely to think that it was possible for me to accomplish things. I started cleaning my home, became motivated to do things I'd wanted to do for years, and I started doing them. I even went out and scheduled appointments to talk to mental health professionals(which I had always wanted to, but never had done). And I started doing things like home repairs that I had always been hesitant to tackle because they had seemed too big to handle. I am not sure that the effects on everyone's motivation are as uniform as they were described in this video. I don't use it every day(closer to once a week), and I probably COULDN'T use it every day, because I'd be uncomfortable doing so, but I've felt that it's had a majorly positive affect on my life.
@mandemkat6452 Жыл бұрын
For me it was the opposite. Weed is very bad for my mental health, anxiety and paranoia. Doing very good since not smoking anymore.
@codyhodges1590 Жыл бұрын
@@mandemkat6452same here man. I started spiraling hard into a deep depression. It really does seem like it effects people differently
@ジュレジュ Жыл бұрын
@@codyhodges1590 It's interesting. I use it to self-medicate anxiety occasionally, but I do it very deliberately since I know I could then become psychologically dependent on it, even after I improve my social skills or, via exposure, my social anxiety. I am also aware that at least for me it has a trade-off, which is that it can temporarily make me less motivated or can temporarily tank my ability to concentrate. I think drug use, especially use that involves psychoactive drugs, is very complex and I could never agree with people who simplify it.
@jeremyc4811 Жыл бұрын
Same, it was actually the thing that inspired me to go back into treatment. It was the first time in a long time that I realized that life could feel so much better than I'd been feeling. I would get a long night's sleep, wake up, and then tackle chores that I'd been putting off for months. Just knowing that it was possible to feel better was enough to motivate me. And to be clear, this was after trying multiple different antidepressants which were ineffective.
@djszal Жыл бұрын
Same here. I've been using it selectively for a few years now. Once or twice a week or sometimes never during any given week. It pulls me out of funks and gives me the same type of motivation to fix my house or journal or learn or deep meditations or whatever. And the effects last for a few days so I don't need to use it every day. I have caught myself using a little too much and luckily I'm able to pull myself back without spiraling. To me, I think there is a "strategic" way to use it. But there is also a part of me that is concerned that continuing on this path will lead to destruction, but I think that comes from cultural conditioning about old thoughts on weed. But maybe I'm naive. I just know that it helps me sometimes, and I don't see it as being a problem in my life since I'm still going after goals and getting stuff done. I do wish the research would hurry up and catch up so that we have more information on the substance to know everything we can know about its use in someone's life. I probably won't stay on it forever, but it's changed my life for the better in many ways.
@mihirjoshi8934 Жыл бұрын
This is so cool because it has one to one talk with the therapist. This becomes so much relatable for someone who’s suffering and has decided to quit weed. I hope more and more such videos are up there! Keep it up!
@zigzag69 Жыл бұрын
Facts bro this cool af
@8304u7 ай бұрын
it doesnt stall me at all, it enhances my life in so many ways
@notrare_png9 ай бұрын
I come back to this sometimes. This guy is so self-aware. That's exactly how I thought and acted as I started to get into doing it everyday in high school, but I wouldn't have described it to people like this until more recently looking back
@shanttt Жыл бұрын
First video that actually convinced me… showing a good reason to quit. I’m a successful tech professional, and a full time artist as well. I work on a lot of things, mildly high (always just one small hit). I never knew how to feel about if I should quit or if it’s detrimental to my growth But really it’s just to put away my emotions and get the work done. I think I need to start living life’s experience, without substance, even just minor use. Thanks dr K
@Alex-Palermo11 ай бұрын
Did u stop ?
@shanttt11 ай бұрын
@@Alex-Palermo I did bro . Life isn’t much different but it’s worth for sure 👍
@aayushparmar3482 Жыл бұрын
I don't comment much but I feel Dr. K is ACTUALLY talking to me & this dude is describing all of my problems.
@Viiiolet18 Жыл бұрын
Me too. Same
@madmintentertainment6268 Жыл бұрын
exactly me. this video made me address a lot of problems I was ignoring.
@wmoros4902 Жыл бұрын
at 19, this is making me start to realize alot of things ive pushed to the back of my mind, maybe its a sign but I really don't know what I could do
@zead73399 ай бұрын
100% same
@DeepMoonWave9 ай бұрын
Doc really thought this trough before hand, you can tell he knows what he is talking about.
@jsvaodinson2272 Жыл бұрын
Great podcast, 4 weeks sober from alcohol and weed here. I feel like you guys touched a lot of good bases as to the core issue with substance abuse while remaining in a very respectful and positive light A+ episode
@KbIPbIL0 Жыл бұрын
bro same for 2 weeks it feels great 👍
@jsvaodinson2272 Жыл бұрын
@@KbIPbIL0 right on dude keep at, granted I’m only at 4 weeks but in my experience so far it only gets easier and more stable every single day Best of luck to you and me and anyone else working towards sobriety!
@d4ws125 Жыл бұрын
Congrats both of you, great work so far
@herexcellency4304 Жыл бұрын
proud of u both
@ComeFindOuts Жыл бұрын
I can honestly say I started smoking weed when I was 14 during the spring time . I felt like it was a fun thing to do but was negatively affecting me. So I stopped and didn’t start back till I was about 21 to 22 years old . Haven’t stopped since then and I’m almost 28 now . I can say as I grow older the more it benefits me from a mental health standpoint and even just my overall health. It really helped me become so much more socially and pushes me to actually go try and do things . That’s just my experience with it and I know it varies with different people.
@etta548710 ай бұрын
Can I ask how often you use?
@jennw6809 Жыл бұрын
Thanks, Dr. K. I'm 54 and used weed heavily for 38 years. It was my main emotional coping mechanism for my CPTSD. This is my 35th day clean. I stopped on the day I started getting ketamine treatments, also at the suggestion of Dr. K's guide (which helped me realize that even though I'm less depressed than I used to be, I still totally qualify for an MDD diagnosis.). I've been wanting to make this change for a long time, and have been watching HG for a year now before doing so. It took a while to be ready. I'm grateful for this resource!
@source7431 Жыл бұрын
mmm ketamine
@-whackd Жыл бұрын
Take a bump of K instead of a toke of weed there ya go
@jennw6809 Жыл бұрын
@@-whackd Definitely not trying to abuse this therapeutic substance. When used daily, it doesn't work.
@katattack907 Жыл бұрын
Excited to hear about the positive changes you're making in your life! Keep it up. 🌿
@jennw6809 Жыл бұрын
@@katattack907 Thanks!! And I love your username :) Hope you are well.
@superlady2960 Жыл бұрын
The lemon analogy was great. For me, I wanted to quit smoking weed, but couldn't find the will. It took years of my soul wanting to change... And I felt so torn over what I was continually doing,, but would not stop, it was what I did for 15 years. Such a habitual pattern of smoking as an escape.. it took me a whole year of panic attacks and borderline psychosis, I finally, FINALLY knew weed was not feeling good anymore. It was so scary sometimes, sometimes I would cry and pray that if I could just come down and have my mind back I would never do it again.. took so many times before I hit my breaking point. I am finally weed free and I feel so safe in my mind and my self. Learning to embrace and be okay with boredom and emptyness still, but that is life. It took smoking weed turning into such a terrible experience that I could finally decide to let it go. So when he said the lemon thing, I had to imagine my lemon was not only dried up... but covered in mold and literally toxic to my system. It was fucking up my brain every time I used it, like a poison. 😂 I can laugh now but good luck to anyone who desires to let that go out of their life, just know keep trying, every time you attempt to quit you are one step closer. Even if you break your vow, one day you will finally see it for what it is. 🍋 You will get there, every step, even each relapse adds up to show you the truth. Nothing is wasted.
@PearseXI Жыл бұрын
I’m really glad and that you freed yourself. I am in the midst of this situation for sure and it really helped to read that you knew you wanted to quit but couldn’t find the will… i’m sorry u went through that but I also am experiencing this so you give me hope. I actually was able to quit two years ago for 10 months straight only because I landed in the hospital for two weeks and was unable to smoke at all and when I got out I just wanted to stay sober. But I relapsed one day after playing with the idea for awhile and now almost two years have gone by in a flash and i’m so fucking ashamed of myself and i’m going nowhere in life I’m sorry this comment is all over the place. I will do better but this is my truth. Thanks for sharing yours, bless ❤
@MasterYoda38910 ай бұрын
sigh.... not looking forward to the nightly flash sweats....
@christopherwhitenton933810 ай бұрын
I think I had just gone through the same thing you were talking about. A few months ago and I had quit because of it. I didn’t hallucinate or have delusions but I felt extreme delirium, anxiety, panic attacks, difficulty with sleeping. Was this psychosis or just extreme anxiety? I felt depersonalized too for a bit. This was still happening to me even when I was sober.
@Mariah24-978 ай бұрын
thank you for this message ❤
@mishasnyder9873 Жыл бұрын
Wow, I knew all this stuff intuitively, but I’ve never heard anyone explain it so pointedly. Thanks Dr K. I’ve been a functioning addict for about 20 years, and sober for a year. It’s been a really good year. I got really tired of squeezing one drop out of the same lemon, and I’m starting to clean the cobwebs out of my life, making way for the bigger lemons.
@MrMarttivainaa Жыл бұрын
I tried weed for the first time in Prague on a holiday, 2 months later I got into weed at home and kept going almost daily for 6-8 months. Then I tried shrooms once and decided to quit weed because I saw that it was making my life worse, not better like it did at the start. I've relapsed a couple times for short periods but that's acceptable to me. Shrooms finally brought some colour into my life and snapped me out of the deep depression and pessimism loop I was stuck in my entire life. I'm not mentally healthy, but it's an improvement.
@-caleb-7201 Жыл бұрын
Thanks for you comment it was very insightful. I believe moderation is key like with anything in life. I wouldn’t take more advil than I need at a time ya know? That being said it’s good to be aware of when it’s not serving you anymore. I was just curious how you went about using shrooms? Did you microcdose or take them traditionally?
@MrMarttivainaa Жыл бұрын
@@-caleb-7201 Traditionally, I started doing shrooms semi-regularly 2-8 weeks apart and they're some of the best experiences I've ever had. Eating them gives me nausea and they taste like ass so I make tea from them. I seem to be very prone to addiction so shrooms work very well for me, I can't just be high constantly like with weed and the experiences are so draining I wouldn't even want to. I do need to take long breaks from them sometimes when they start taking their toll on me. Shrooms are self regulating, when I've had enough they lose their magic and they just fade out from my life until I feel the want to trip again.
@etta548710 ай бұрын
Can't moderate when you're an addict! It's just not that simple. @@-caleb-7201
@davydecker1268 Жыл бұрын
I love this guy, unbelievable how well he’s able to describe this situation
@MagicCookieGaming Жыл бұрын
As someone who had to stop smoking as much due to CHS it really opened my eyes to how overpowering it was and how it was taking over my life. I'm now able to use it exclusively socially on weekends out of preference but I am so happy to see these candid and proper discussions on the subject. Weed addiction/dependency is something that needs to be more seriously talked about because it is a real dependency but not enough discussion and knowledge is being talked about around it. It's great, but needs to be used responsibly.
@KL-kt5tb Жыл бұрын
I’ve struggled with weed addiction for years and I’m finally about 3.5 months sober. It took years for me to figure out the exact same things Dr. K said in this video. Wow.
@Shalin_Deniece Жыл бұрын
I am curious if you have seen an improvement in your life and goals without marijuana?
@KL-kt5tb Жыл бұрын
@@Shalin_Deniece yes. I’m way less anxious. I feel more energetic. My mood is more consistent. I’m coping with bad things much more level headed without needing the crutch of weed
@1dingerr9 ай бұрын
I'm sad to say it took me several years to realize that weed was causing my anxiety and depressive feelings, not making them better. It's weird because weed makes you feel like it helps you, but it really just creates those feelings in the first place.
@youtubedeletedmynamewhybother8 ай бұрын
@@1dingerr Its because we dont have real and healthy coping mechanisms. Instead of dealing with trauma we get high and forget. Leaving the dirty dishes in the dishwasher and not even turning the rinse cycle on. It DOES help, in that moment. Its however many hours later when you remember your issues that the cycle of decline begins and you're still getting high just to ease the pain.
@tobi4586 Жыл бұрын
Understand that you are not weak but have weaknesses, and that’s okay. You are strong. Thank you for this interview, I needed to hear it
@octivazquez8 ай бұрын
This was dope (excuse the pun). Cool intersection of spirituality and science/psychology in the analysis and very relatable. Good stuff boys, thanks for being vulnerable so we can all learn!
@dawidczerniak51779 ай бұрын
I like how you’re being careful not to step on your patients ego your careful wording combined with a powerful punchline (if I may call it this way) makes him really think about the negative consequences of using and notice how many benefits he would gain if he stopped… by the way he seems to be talking about me when he talks about himself except I’m a bit further into addiction than him. But this talk really makes me think
@podchicane571 Жыл бұрын
I'm listening this as a 25+ years old who's been smoking since 18. It does spiral down fast, especially when you have predispositions to addiction. I have a weird problem where I want to hide my usage from people I know, but it realistically helps me digest tasks more easily. I have had more than one high level jobs that I did not have the education for, without lying on my resume, just because I see the world in a way that most people do not and being high helps me articulate my views. But that is not healthy at all, and if anyone is considering trying weed: don't. If you're trying to self-medicate like I did when I started (and probably still do as I read my first sentences), you're going to go down a hell hole. Use weed as a recreative thing if you want, but don't use it because you're hurting or feeling misunderstood. It will absolutely evolve into a habit/addiction. Take care, everyone. Especially young people only starting their adult life. Cultivate your life like a very frail garden that you wanna see become fruitful.
@maxgoldstein7202 Жыл бұрын
eloquent af my good man
@AvonNabors Жыл бұрын
only thing harder than building good habits is breaking bad ones, and when you’re getting sober you’re doing both at the same time.
@seanocd Жыл бұрын
"Don't use it because you're hurting or feeling misunderstood". Amen! I would propose a minor change: "don't use it IF you're hurting or feel misunderstood". If you do you are playing a very risky game. You might be fine, sure, but you may find it can become a crutch much quicker than expected. Once it's become a crutch it can start to harm your ability to handle issues in a variety of ways that can snowball before you even notice it. Same goes for any potentially addictive activity. Marijuana, alcohol, videogames, TV... Hell, even exercise can become psychologically unhealthy, despite it's physical benefits.
@podchicane571 Жыл бұрын
@@seanocd You're right. Those are coping mechanism we develop to hide the pain we feel, so it can become unhealthy. That makes those coping mechanism an obstacle to our psychological growth rather than a way to help us get through a hard times. It makes it last longer.
@mighty_osaker Жыл бұрын
@@podchicane571 Thanks man, you saved me today. It was like "I feel really down this evening, let me smoke a bit just to heal myself and then I'll be fine and I won't smoke tomorrow". And it feels very fucking real even though when I read it it looks so classic of addiction.
@timothywheeler2852 Жыл бұрын
Yo…. I been smoking cannabis for decades upon decades, since I was a child. At 47 years old I’m having the strangest relationship with weed these days. The lemon, the metric of plus and negative net results, this whole video was so good. I’ll be quitting today for the next while just to see what happens. I’m ready and thank you so much for putting this out there I actually needed it.
@jamesgoodman3705 Жыл бұрын
Hope it went well!
@CodeNameEN Жыл бұрын
I’m in this dude’s boat as well. Trying to fight the boredom and push on without getting high, because it is effecting my ability to get meaningful life experiences and meet goals. Thank you for this conversation.
@AlrDavid Жыл бұрын
just do some shrooms it will fix your problem
@CodeNameEN Жыл бұрын
@@AlrDavid I have multiple times, and I can’t say that did the trick.
@nathanmaccay75333 ай бұрын
If you dont use it to try to erase all feelings and regulate dosage, it greatly increases lots of physical abilities, and it can stimulate reflective meditation. It helps you realize all kinds of things you didnt perceive before. Its always an awareness scale
@Trintron462 ай бұрын
5 minutes in and Dr.K has hit the nail on the head! It took my years to realize I was addicted to weed because it helped me ignore my trauma and "be more present." But I was really spending my time running from the past, not enjoying the now
@brandonjoel9868 Жыл бұрын
One of my favorite descriptions of addiction is “something that narrows the things you draw happiness from”
@SuperMc111 Жыл бұрын
Thats a good one mate, I like it
@abcdabcd5366 Жыл бұрын
Which doesnt convert tbf weed enhances things you like. The lemon !
@mohammedbinopata9977 Жыл бұрын
Anything good in life is worth narrowing your life for
@brandonjoel9868 Жыл бұрын
Use it as the spice of life =) just don’t let it become better than doing the things we needs to thrive and not just survive ❤ Imagine you like something so much nothing else makes you happy in comparison. Then imagine it was a substance instead of being healthy, being social, and things your body wants to be able to regulate/motivate itself from within. It’s more of a chemical/dopamine thing for some people. If it isn’t the most important thing in your life it most likely isn’t a problem. There’s just some people that use it to avoid healing/growth. If you like it too much it releases more dopamine than it should and can cause your brain to “motivate/trigger” you to seek it. For some people it becomes the equivalent of masturbating for their brain. “Neurons that fire together, wire together” and the brain is ultimately seeking dopamine so you’re rewiring your brain and telling it how to get dopamine through how we deal with adversity. If you smoke every time you’re upset your brain can even go “this body gives me dopamine levels that dwarf sex dopamine levels whenever he is stressed/upset, so I’m gonna release bad feelings until I get the fastest path to dopamine” Same with stress eating, stress smoking, or even sex addiction. Dopamine is supposed to be from the pursuit of something. Purpose is what you pursue. Nothing wrong with using something it improve or enhance your life =) just don’t choose harmful things and don’t let it take away from all the other experiences/growth we could potentially have =) “PEACE AND LOVE” -Vash The Stampede
@louievazquez5231 Жыл бұрын
Currently in a Homeless situation (I have a car and job, so my situation could be way worse). I smoked every day, it does lose its magic. My mom was an addict to much harsher stuff, and she explained it to me this way. Most people end up chasing that First High without realizing it. Ive controlled my usage, found purpose in my hobbies that I used to generally enjoy andfocus on that improved my life. I could work high, I could work out high, i could meet my girls parents high, almost anything. I realized while homeless and having limited access to the greens that it became who I was one day without realizing it. The main problem greens has brought me was the impairment i had in my budgeting.
@maximusandr Жыл бұрын
same here its started to create a problem in my finances, granted im only 18 so i just spent my free cash on za lol but i could be doing way better and this is a wake up call
@louievazquez5231 Жыл бұрын
@@maximusandr you'll find that greens isn't "addicting" in the usual sense. You could pay all your bills, grocery, adlnd the things you know you need, and if you don't have enough for the mj you'll be fine waiting for next paycheck, it's not debilitating in that sense (yes you'll find yourself hella bored for no reason). The thing is, you'll spend money on it knowing you truly want other things to fulfill you instead. I want to upgrade my PC, but I need greens first. I want some nice new shoes, oh I'm low on greens though. A concerts coming around, but I won't have enough greens by then, so I might as well not go and buy more instead. It is it's own kind of curse.
@Prestiginii Жыл бұрын
Sending Energy for your situation to get better bro ❤
@yournanshobnobs9707 Жыл бұрын
Trust me bro, minor setback for an even greater comeback
@louievazquez5231 Жыл бұрын
Thanks to everyone who would come here to send support. "Pray not for an easy life, Pray for the strength to endure a difficult one" Bruce Lee/J.F.Kennedy My situation is one full of learning. I too Pray everyone chooses to find that strength they didn't know they had.
@blurryface9910 Жыл бұрын
That whole graphic was quite incredible and eye-opening. Really good break-down, especially since I'm a numbers guy - that "1" really hit hard. The guest was also great - I wouldn't have explained my weed experiences and thoughts nearly as well. He mentioned he was worried about the negative outcome of reaching out for help and whatnot - honestly I think much more highly of him now than at first glance. Mental health is practically the core of one's life. We shouldn't feel ashamed for trying to save ourselves.
@azorahigh32186 ай бұрын
fast forwarding through a day is the best description of being high I've ever heard.
@steceymorgan814 Жыл бұрын
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
@Jennifer-bw7ku Жыл бұрын
Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to give shrooms a try.
@elizabethwilliams6651 Жыл бұрын
Yes, dr.sporesss
@Jennifer-bw7ku Жыл бұрын
Is he on instagram?
@patriaciasmith3499 Жыл бұрын
Dr.sporesss is the best, he's been my go to for anything psychedelics.
@elizabethwilliams6651 Жыл бұрын
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
@famimame Жыл бұрын
Been sober for almost 3 years, been going to gym to get back in shape and try to live healthier. The negative emotions are still there but it's true like you said Dr. K, I've made some positive changes in life now.
@FinallyAlmino9 ай бұрын
I think it's very brave the way he speaks openly and so freely about his cannabis usage and the effects it has, both positive and negative. I know it's legal many places now, but where I live there is a massive stigma surrounding it. I did get it legally some years back when I lived in a different country, and just mentioning that I used to have that prescription to anyone in an official capacity puts me under the microscope. I told my psychologist, who I thought couldn't tell anyone, and they put me on a bi-weekly piss test for almost a year because they didn't believe that I was sober. Seriously broke my trust to the healthcare system, and now I find it incredibly hard to be open and honest with any type of doctor.
@arnoldschonberg95989 ай бұрын
Had the same. Had a therapist tell me that the only thing she could tell my parents about was violent crime, so I told her that I'd smoked weed with some friends. She then went on to tell my parents that, and I stopped therapy completely. Ten years later, maybe I'd have stopped smoking earlier if I had someone I could talk to about it.
@gdoggcasey Жыл бұрын
As a 36 year old guy who has been addicted to weed with daily smoking for 15+ years with very small breaks from it here and there, Dr K hit the nail on the head with moving negative emotions to the background. Doing this so much has caused me to be almost incapable of living with my own thoughts. I will smoke to avoid my own thoughts, and then hate myself when my mind is just spinning its wheels because its high. Ive tried quitting so many times and failed. Its got to the point where i just consider myself a weed smoker and just accept it...until the next day when i tell myself i need to quit again. Its been an ongoing, never ending battle and i have no idea how it will end. I dont even know what winning the battle even is. Is it quitting for ever? Or making actual peace with smoking. Feels like ill never know.
@Treebranch_ Жыл бұрын
I bet a conversation with someone who has gone as deep into it as you have and pulled theirselves out would help. You have the strength. There are methods. There are ways. Your mind will do a good job convincing you you’re not capable and it’s not worth the effort of stopping. But those thoughts are temporary. And those thoughts aren’t you.
@UrineDeity Жыл бұрын
Practice moderation man and remember that variety is the spice of life but be careful
@albyj3310 Жыл бұрын
What helped me out was finding a physical hobby that I was so invested in that I would rather wake up at 6am to go do it before school/work, and want to wake up so badly to do it again in the morning that I stopped using any substances that would impair me feeling 100% fresh in the morning, in my case skateboarding but could work with tennis/golf/ any new hobby that takes time investment to learn. Basically gotta get that dopamine fix from something else
@Shannendetro Жыл бұрын
8 years for me, but I’m right there with you. It’s gotten to a point I don’t know what’s the weed and what’s me. Is there even a difference anymore? Probably not
@animepussy8356 Жыл бұрын
Quit cold turkey. The withdrawal sucks (anxiety, insomnia, sweats) but once you get it over with, it's done. If you can just whiteknuckle it for a couple days, the urge to smoke should lessen considerably
@Dudesidabe Жыл бұрын
As someone who found weed after 30, its opened me up to so much more. I think had i found it in my aimless teens id have spiraled to nothing too. Its awesome to be able to understand this on a deeper level.
@weedacidegaming1996 ай бұрын
This video came at the perfect time. I'm almost the exact same case here and was going through a similar cycle of usage. I had an emotional outburst that was followed by this video and I have already removed all marijuana from my house. Very grateful to this guy and Dr. K!
@OtavioFesoares Жыл бұрын
Having quit weed a while back, I can definitely say that most people who use it daily will turn a blind eye to the harms that daily usage of this drug may cause. Some might defend it that it's not even a drug, but just a plant, while at the same time, calling coffee (a roasted seed) and sugar (a food) drugs. If that's the case, then morphine isn't a drug either, since poppies are just flowers, right?
@ABadGamble Жыл бұрын
Weed is a gateway drug for copium
@ambi3nttech Жыл бұрын
Totally agree. Potheads (I know because I used to be one and all my friends were as well) will even go so far as to say it’s good for you, while completely ignoring that they are fat, lazy, and have 0 ambition in life. Happy to just coast along.
@Zaedin710 Жыл бұрын
thats not sound logic as weed is simply grown, if you throw it in the ground it grows. 90% of every other "drug" has to be synthesized somehow, Morphine isnt just grown, its processed INTO a chemical called morphine.
@Brandon-bc1fz Жыл бұрын
@@ambi3nttech I'm not sure how I feel about this line of thinking. Your generalizing very hard and I just cant help but point out the bitterness in your observations. Like do you resent these folks for just "coasting along"? I mean who gives a shit if someone is enjoying their life? Not hurting another human being or impeding their right to a happy life. Why does every single individual need to have this super star ambition? Are folks not allowed to be content with the life they are living? Im well aware fat lazy people exist but i just take umbrage with the notion that every single person that doesn't have some higher ambition in their life is somehow lesser or idk you certainly hold some animosity towards them.
@simeonsmith8461 Жыл бұрын
im not fat..@@ambi3nttech
@user-md7ky6nm5q Жыл бұрын
As a woman I feel like I can't express my emotions either. Every time I have I've been shut down or it hasn't worked. I feel I have deeper issues than the average and nobody I've talked to including therapists have not been helpful so I've learned to stop reaching out. It's hard for women too and this was a very helpful video!
@tablebasse1299 Жыл бұрын
Keep on doing your own research, nobody knows what you're feeling and going through other than you
@tiptapkey Жыл бұрын
Yeah, I'm a woman and I feel the same. My parents would roll their eyes or laugh if I had emotions, so I never learned how to express them.
@josicat4789 Жыл бұрын
Same here... no oft understands and basically tells me to stop. So I just don't be anymore.
@coffeedude Жыл бұрын
Not a woman but i've felt similarly to you for some time. I started going to a psychoanalyst and it's been tough but I think it's helping. The main thing that kind of therapy does is make YOU understand your problems. If you've already tried that kind of therapy maybe try a different therapist. Just keep in mind that it takes time and work to be able to express yourself and learn your truths.
@madmintentertainment6268 Жыл бұрын
Im sorry you go through that. But you are the exception. Men on a societal/ global level are beaten down if they dont show anything other than stoicism past the age of 13. "would you still date a man if he cried in front of you" is still a debated topic. Im not trying to downplay your experience. But the reality that almost every man faces is just something you arent gonna understand, both because you arent one AND because we are awful at articulating it because all of us havent been taught how to discuss even the most basic of emotions. I got to 24 before I started being comfortable with the fact that I get sad sometimes, spent my whole life before it hating myself for it.
@jjeanedoe Жыл бұрын
I've been working on the habit strobgly this year. I was a pretty regular "stoner" for over 10 years. By that I mean daily. I wasn't "ready" to quit until I saw it ruin a beautiful relationship while I headed into burnout with my business. I'm a little over a week with smoking again and I really love this conversation. When you said "I believe it is stunting your growth"........ just YES. That is what I needed to hear and what I've known for years as I've continued and struggled with the idea of quitting. Thank you, Dr. K. I think I'm finally ready to move forward with my life. Wish me luck! ❤
@carloscontreras3633 Жыл бұрын
How did it ruin a beautiful relationship?
@DarqIce7 ай бұрын
Rogan, bro, tnx for doing this - I'm absolutely positive there are literally millions of guys experiencing a very similar thing and you asked & answered questions and opened up for all of them! And Dr. K - hats off for being able to go straight for the jugular - that PC / NPC analogy was so dead on it's creepy :) Ty!
@enensis10 ай бұрын
Wow. This hits home. I've been in the middle ground my whole life and everything you guys talked about resonates. I am very pleased to see the discourse about the problems facing us men has become more public as its a crying shame and an obvious problem when you look at the rates of male suicide. I've been going through an extremely tough year trying to sift through 30 years of suppressed emotion and trauma that I buried with cannabis. I still have the occasional smoke like once or twice a month and it's gone back to being fun but I keep a very close eye on how I am feeling before I do it and set intentions before doing it. Good luck to everyone just trying to survive. You've got this 👊
@adoxartist1258 Жыл бұрын
Fortunately, it's not really chemically addictive in the way alcohol is. But it is easily behaviorally addictive. I am strict with myself about how and when I use it. For me it's strictly medicine but I'm in my 50s now. It's much easier to use it appropriately than it would have been if I had been using in my 20s. I can say for certain I would have had real trouble only using for health in my 20s.
@mrs.quills7061 Жыл бұрын
I like your explanation of this. Behaviorally addictive because when life gets hard people turn to it. I don’t smoke and use a small amount of edible that is half cbd, but only after a long week at work and to help me sleep better and reset for the weekend or if I’m having a very bad period and emotional swings and sweats. I use it at most a few times a month. I have coaching and was in therapy. Sometimes it just helps to have that reset but yeah I use it as medication essentially to help me relax and sleep. I don’t want to be stoned all the time and for me I don’t get why people want to be in that’s state all the time. I just use it as a tool to help me get through bumps in the road. I also didn’t start using it until I was 25 or so. I never saw the appeal until my spouse had a traumatic brain injury and uses gummies to cope with stuff on and off. It’s like I got him back after that and he didn’t want to be addicted to the opiates they put him on. He had a bad depression spell for a while after but besides making changes and using that which he uses more than me has helped him. It also helps him sleep too and just gives him a better quality of life.
@HeatherFaraMS Жыл бұрын
Wrong. There is loads of research. It is chemically addictive for potentially about 30% of the population. It changes the way your brain works and creates cravings and physical pain for many. If you suffer addiction, you have anxiety attacks in withdrawal. You also struggle with mood regulation on and off it when addicted. Off you may suffer rage. On you may struggle with paranoia. Addicted people will smoke to the point they don’t eat right, manage finances, manage relationships, etc. Statistically people who use regularly when the brain is growing (25 years or less) are statistically more likely to become addicted down the line.
@MKULTRA_Victim_ Жыл бұрын
I feel like this is a great plan to responsibly use it. I think I might have to use it when I hit your age as well, due to the back pain which I'm certain will get even worse (always had a bad back)
@ppnotsmol8538 Жыл бұрын
Newer studies coming out are starting to find that THC actually is chemically addicted. Folks are even experiencing withdrawals when stopping. A lot of what we've been told the last 20 years seems to have been misconceptions, or at least exaggerated benefit
@LeafBoye Жыл бұрын
@@ppnotsmol8538yeah I quit cold turkey and the first week I literally could barely stand, everything was drained from my body and sometimes I would just drop to the floor exhausted thinking only the weed could fix it. I was lied to for so long and told myself that I wasn't physically addicted it's awful
@VoltaVoid Жыл бұрын
Been a background viewer of the channel for a bit, but recently I had been coming to some of the same conclusions that Dr K talks about on my own, and this kind of gave me a hope for next steps to end my dependency on it. Really appreciate the video 🙏🏻
@Mr.Coffee576 Жыл бұрын
This kid is literally how I was when I was 19. Its like looking at my past self. Im no longer that stoner guy, but I can clearly understand what he's going through. I wish somone like Dr K would have been there in my life years ago to help me process these feelings.
@Mr.Coffee576 Жыл бұрын
And at 13:45 thats exactly how I felt. It wasnt addiction because I went months without it. But the idea of lighting a joint as if it would give me the answers for what to do next, because I was bored; made me continue to smoke it despite the paranoia and negative thoughts which weed gave me.
@Mr.Coffee576 Жыл бұрын
Also 24:48, amazing perspective of negative emotions. I thoroughly enjoyed this talk.
@wmoros4902 Жыл бұрын
I am currently 19, watching this as I smoke nightly and the whole stunting progress is really hitting me, ive felt basically dead for the past few months because I havent been trying to find a place to live, drive, hang out etc but instead falling back on something which was a cure for the past. Ive hit a point where I just feel stuck, just doing the same thing every day, every week.
@jessewright8930 Жыл бұрын
Right same here I wish I talk to this guy at 19 as well
@heyitzphil8 ай бұрын
I want to thank you Dr K for taking so much time to go over so many subjects. Helps me a lot through my mental states to understand them and disregard the waves of influencers online that give misleading insight.
@backroomsuperstar8 ай бұрын
One of the best videos I've ever watched regarding cannabis consumption, I use it medicinally for neuropathy, and it does indeed have side effects - perhaps I don't see them quite as much because I'm running around after two ADHD kids - but they are definitely there! I'd like to thank you both. In particular for the interviewee, you're immediately employable. You're naturally analytic, and you'll be a sound investment for any employer. Good luck with your life!
@Bubbataurus Жыл бұрын
I have been a cannabis smoker for over 5+ years and adding a t-break (tolerance) is beneficial when long term usage. Everyone’s experience is going to be different, however, even tho weed IS the safer option compared to other vices, IT IS ADDICTING. I see influencers say it isn’t addicting but I can tell you it does. It’s not bad or good, just is. I don’t plan on fully quitting because it DOES HELP ME.
@Entropy67 Жыл бұрын
Its not addictive in the way that word is usually used with drugs, where you are chemically addicted to it. But it can definitely be addicting to the right person.
@echoawoo7195 Жыл бұрын
It's psychologically addicting, but you know what else can be psychologically addicting? Literally everything else.
@alexiskitt6989 Жыл бұрын
@@echoawoo7195 right, a common example of for (non-chemical)habit forming is lip balm usage.
@milkmahtitty Жыл бұрын
we got some people coping here, let’s make it straight, it is addictive and nothing else, and everything that have “but…”’s is hard cope.
@echoawoo7195 Жыл бұрын
@@milkmahtitty No, we have people here without a clear understanding of what addiction even is, let alone the forms it takes, or what substances can trigger it. Hint: Go look up pica. Or pagophagia. Or Urophagia. Willfully stupid people really need to stop talking now.
@briandillmon2972 Жыл бұрын
I enjoy it when you do viewer interviews. I'm a former addict(meth), I'm sober but I'm using weed to help me get over it. Honestly I think it would be fun to be interviewed by you Dr.K. If you are interested, I'd love to see what you have in mind.
@AkiraDesmondes Жыл бұрын
When you realize that the final segment of the video (Where Dr. K and Zack talk about weed dependency and how it stagnates life) has an INSANE amount of replays compared to the rest. That's where you realize, this shit is a common problem. "You're too busy fighting a losing battle to run away" Incredibly insightful, and a GREAT sentence for a metalcore song before the breakdown 😂.. Good luck fellow weed smokers. Let's climb this pit together. 🤘🏽✌🏽💜🖤
@suprita16868 ай бұрын
this guy is saving this kid before he does something irreparable to his life. bless him
@GreenMachine71310 ай бұрын
Thank you both of you. You are both incredibly amazing people, thank you for the content. I am currently going through the same thing at the age of 27. Its never too late to get help. I hope everyone struggling with any kind of substance abuse can find the help and support they need.
@13SirLink Жыл бұрын
The way they described getting all the juice out of lemons resonated with me. I feel like I need new lemons in my life, particularly a change of scenery, but I financially cannot afford the new lemons. I’ve definitely regressed in mindset as a means of surviving the negative feelings I was having about wanting that but not being able to do it. Trying to put myself in a position to afford new lemons but it’s feeling like it’s gonna be a few years before there’s any fruiting and I’m not really sure how to deal with that, especially feeling better, other than just accepting where I am, meaning having to accept I’m not happy in life. Thanks for reading if you did 🙏🏻
@larrytate1657 Жыл бұрын
Be grateful for what you have for now that’s the number one key. There are rich people with thousands of lemons who commit suicide. The key to happiness is being grateful for what you have as you strive for more.
@ethanroland9892 Жыл бұрын
not all lemons have to equate to money, you can exercise for free and if you havent done it in a while then you have lots of dopamine to extract from that lemon. you got this!
@Bruen0r Жыл бұрын
I found myself in the same situation as the interviewee. This video has been rather eye opening to me, about needing to face the negative emotions. I had been pushing them aside and piling up for a decade and im scared to face whats to come.
@dirkharvey Жыл бұрын
Great way of explaining what it does. I agree, THC is fun at first, then free will slowly goes bye bye, the magic goes away, you need it to function, constantly with drawling from it, and you ultimately end up using it to mask the side effects it produces rather than the benefits it once had. I've quit and restarted so many times I can see it clearly. Currently off of it. No way one can take a 4-5 day break if they're a chronic user. Getting off THC is also pure hell for me, can't sleep, can't regulate emotions or feel any sort of happiness/joy/pleasure. The first 3 days are the worse, and then after about a week things start feeling more normal again.
@RingsOfSolace9 ай бұрын
Two things have helped me enjoy my pot while also not putting myself in a bad spot: when it stops doing what you want, abstain for a while. Also, mindfulness meditation has helped me. I realized that when you have thoughts like that, your response is the stressful part, not the thoughts themselves. Meditation kind of helps you come to that realization, or at least, it did for me.
@bigkarrma36013 ай бұрын
This was very insightful. I have a huge empathy for Rogan. I’m 32 and still feel on one hand like I’m the same troubled kid, but he’s pushed to the back of the class and ostracized for his emotions leaving the adult misguided and hopping from one panic to the other. I’m a daily cannabis user and it’s borderline addiction, but I still function in my daily life pretty well: I have pets, a wife, a mortgage, paid off car etc. -I have a full time day job that I consider off-limits for weed. I smoke before I play music at my gigs (dream side hustle) and that enhances the performances both internally and externally, but I think sometimes “Can I even do this without weed? Why should I have to?” I have since resolved to smoking with a purpose, but smoking in the idle times is what kills me because it actually will take away my ability to communicate rationally with my thoughts and with my wife if it doesn’t take away my motivation altogether (say like mowing the lawn). It’s a daily art of balancing sober and rested vs high and dopamine-depleted. Life really is like a lemon.
@NoahFarber Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing doctor ❤️ I smoke weed every day and don't really want to, so I can't wait to watch this!
@listeningtomusic7665 Жыл бұрын
Look into Allen Carr homie, haven’t smoked since
@NoahFarber Жыл бұрын
@@listeningtomusic7665 thank you!!!
@mdlouie Жыл бұрын
you can stop, mate. the first week is hard (mainly because it's very difficult to sleep) but it rapidly gets easier after that. i smoked every day for over 20 years and was up to an oz/week. stopped almost a year ago. you can stop too.
@NoahFarber Жыл бұрын
@@mdlouie Wow.. Thank you!! 😁💯
@Chucklzzz Жыл бұрын
I started trying weed just about a year and a half ago, maybe around 2 years. A few months ago, I got a vape, and was high every night for about like....3 or 4 weeks. It felt great...but...also...started feeling tired of it. I also began to notice quite a significant issue with memory. I wasn't really retaining conversations I'd had with people, even though I had those conversations when I wasn't high. So... I stopped. I didn't have any weed for two months. Got some edibles, was high for about a week. Now I'm not doing it again. So moving forward, I think I'll only do it on special occasions, like my tobacco use. Only on my birthdays, Christmas, etc. Fortunately, i've had no problem stopping it's use.
@maxgoldstein7202 Жыл бұрын
Yeah it's fun at parties and such but after a point I had to realize that it really wasn't doing me any favors in daily life
@Chucklzzz Жыл бұрын
@@maxgoldstein7202 Yeah! Exactly! I'm just glad I never developed an addiction of any kind to it. Would have been a lot harder to put down if I couldn't just cold turkey or no problem.
@justindaniels411 Жыл бұрын
so you've done everything except smoke the beautiful flower? its the best way to smoke . its not scary when you fully understand what it is you're smoking. Similar to drinking, I i just handed you a shot of an anonymous liquid you'd be scared. But if i told you exactly what liquor it was, when & where it was manufactured, you'd feel a lot safer. This is how weed is and should be handled.
@Chucklzzz Жыл бұрын
@@justindaniels411 No, I've smoked it also.
@TheBloggme Жыл бұрын
Best way to do it dont go the daily route, im addicted and smoke everyday for 7+ years
@Animatals Жыл бұрын
I love weed but after I heard someone say something along the lines of “we use substances to become someone else because we aren’t comfortable with ourselves” it made me change my perspective. Around 11:40 he talks about he is uncomfortable with his thoughts and I could relate
@miloradstrbacki42489 ай бұрын
23:29 is the BEST explanation of common weed usage. He turned it into SIMPLE MATH and just gave it to us as a simple equasion we can solve. Amazing
@neilmezache78457 ай бұрын
I’ve given it up after 10+ years of misuse. The way I’ve given it up has been very important. The way I describe my biggest hangup with it is that when I was misusing, is it was in effect like a drag suit deploying too early in the proverbial race. Not that I’m in a hurry, I’m actually learning to slow the fuck down, but I was dragging behind. I was not keeping up with the promises I made to myself which really was holding me back from achieving the little and bigger goals I set for myself. Stagnation resulted and that is probably the worst feeling ever. I could go on but that’ll do. Thank you both for sharing, I hope people who have trouble making healthy adjustments in their lives without hearing other peoples’ testimonials and breakdown like this, find this video and the help that they’re ready to receive and put to action to improve their lives. Rock on 🤘
@isaacjohnson6517 Жыл бұрын
started smoking after a family loss, it was good at first, then i started smoking every day and weed started enhancing my negative thoughts and insecurities and i became a recluse. i also started smoking carts which would get me way higher which worsened the effects way more. i wasn’t remembering anything and started showing up stoned everywhere, stopped taking care of myself and it got so bad i temporarily got psychosis from smoking. i took a long tolerance break and switched back to indica bud, i also cut back my usage to once a week and switched to 1/4 papers. i also started smoking only after i’ve completed all my tasks, and made the intention of smoking to relax after a long day rather than just for boredom. i also got healthier munchies food (fruits) and started self improvement. i also started going out more and fighting against that negative self talk spiral that weed can put you in. now when i smoke it’s a lot better. weed is cool but you have to be healthy about how you use it
@michaelpesa71047 ай бұрын
Yessir wonderfully said
@brettsutherland8390 Жыл бұрын
I really appreciate this conversation and wish I had it with someone before losing years of my life to weed
@PierceLavoy Жыл бұрын
Bro I need an interview with doctor k. This man has helped me more than all the therapist that I’ve seen, combined
@MKULTRA_Victim_ Жыл бұрын
The hardest part I think would be describing yourself accurately. He can't do any good work off of bad information, and I struggle with that a lot. The guy he interviewed today was very good at that bit.
@Jiggysjunction11 ай бұрын
Amazing video. As someone his in sober from long term severe cannabis addiction this is exactly what cannabis does. Also I’m in recovery from CHS (cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome) I thought cannabis was saving me from my life of pain when it was the very thing causing it.
@heyitzphil8 ай бұрын
I relate to this guy so much he puts it into words perfectly. Only difference is I smoke morning to night day by day for more than 10 years. I'm glad to be here and try to put myself back on track.
@varin5749 Жыл бұрын
As a former addict, this is a brilliant breakdown of how it works. Dr K nailed it.
@akindel6590 Жыл бұрын
This video feels like it was timed for me. I have been a daily smoker for twenty years but just last night had a breakdown over my habits. It feels like smoking helps turn down my ADHD (clinically diagnosed) allowing me to focus on whatever task is at hand in a low stimulus environment. I do not believe it has impaired my life, but it certainly stalled my life for a while. I didn't get my act together until I was 26, but now I have a great job, married, house and an amazing kid. Now I look at myself and wonder if the growth I've made over the past twenty years means I no longer need to smoke and I am just doing it because it's what I do.
@skhumbuzotobela5914 Жыл бұрын
I think what is important is to do is to actively monitor whether your weed smoking serves the purpose for which you intend. If you only smoke to control your ADHD (I have it as well btw), and it does that, then there's no need to think negatively of it (maybe you can improve how you actually get it into your body). If, however, you smoke to get some fun but do not actually get that when you're high, then maybe you are smoking because it's just what you do. You have made strides and grown in your life while smoking weed and that is part of your story. To think about what could've been is a waste of energy. Congratulations to you for everything you've accomplished and just remember "Everything could have been anything else and it still would have had just as much meaning"
@Pottatow Жыл бұрын
There are successful people who smoke every day. It's not black and white you need to just figure out what's best for you and not let people pressure you into doing something you're not comfortable with
@gopremiummedia2945 Жыл бұрын
Work In your sleep
@petrapatia6395 Жыл бұрын
Since beginning to smoke pseudo-daily, I've: Realized and began transitioning, went to therapy and worked on myself for four years, started the longest and deepest relationship of my life, built a tiny house, volunteered for both political and charitable organizations, addressed my lifelong suicidality to a point where it's currently in remission, got diagnosed and medicated for ADHD, established a habit of meditating during times of intense emotions (positive and negative) traveled extensively through the US and Europe, made peace with my father's passing, and right now I'm in the process of trying to restart my art career which I had thought died years ago... Has it held me back? Probably. Nowhere near as badly as any one of the multitude of hardships above. All the same, taking a solid break every now and then feels good, and it's always important to remember that any coping mechanism can turn into a hinderance. I'm thankful for the help it's provided, and look forward to moving on from it one day.
@michael.a.m Жыл бұрын
Cannabis definitely helped save my life, but as of this week, it's been a year since I last used it. There are honestly a ton of upsides to cannabis use and we need more open conversations like this so that people can properly weigh the pros and cons and choose what works for them. Thanks Dr. K for all you do here and Rogan for sharing your story with us!
@nightsight13918 ай бұрын
that guy literally spoke for me, He literally say what I was thinking all this time, you nailed it, thanks for the content
@suzannaflores11649 ай бұрын
Neurodivergent, cptsd, back injury, I am a successful independent contractor, artist, clean, organized, not depressed, never bored. Weed helped me do my taxes last week. I never tried any drug for anxiety other than weed. Never drink. I believe Im good
@JYKZFORTNITE5 ай бұрын
reading the first the first two things shows me that u arent good.