The Dark Truth Behind My Youtube Break: Mysterious Illness, Dark Night of the Soul

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@theamazingsamuel3107 4 ай бұрын

❤Christina, I am so happy to see you back on KZbin ! You have been a great mentor for me. And I think you always did a good job of explaining that this is a journey and we are all different. I appreciate your guidance. I can totally relate to your experiences… even recently finally looking at myself in the mirror and admitting to myself that I have been a fraud. Well that is how it felt. I feel my soul under the layers and I feel myself peeling the layers. It is a remarkable and amazing experience. I also had the same dark thoughts… and my kids are the reason I redirected. Looking forward to your videos again❤

@ChristinaDRaju 4 ай бұрын

Thank you for being here with me on this journey! I hope you are out of the dark slump now and feeling better, putting your life meaning in your children is beautiful!

@michelledavis5630 4 ай бұрын

Welcome back and so happy you are doing your thing. Can’t wait to see your future posts. Yes I need to wake myself up and be who I am. Instead of this empty inside and my feelings are gone.

@ChristinaDRaju 4 ай бұрын

Feelings gone is not good, you are human, you are meant to feel! I wish you all the best on your journey💛

@NagaVansham 5 ай бұрын

Welcome Back 💫 Shine always. Hare Krishn 🌈

@veronicavirgo_ 5 ай бұрын

Beautiful Christina, thank you for sharing 🙏🏼🌈 I know that wasn’t easy, and you did it with so much grace. I also had a spiritual awakening (2020) I would say it has been the wildest ride!! definitely NOT all light and rainbows lol. But I agree with you about this individuation process, the evolution of the soul etc. it’s something all of us are going through at all times but on different levels/layers, almost like a spiral I would say. There’s definitely a cross between psychology and spirituality, and I also feel comfortable in the cross of the 2, but couldn’t be fully on one side or the other, although I’d say I definitely lean more spiritual. In the last 2 years (WOAH can’t even believe it’s been that long) I have also been exploring my own darkness without a choice. I started experiencing PTSD episodes and the physical symptoms of trauma. It took me 1 year before I agreed to do trauma therapy. Now I am at the tail end of EMDR therapy, and I am finally on the other side of all that darkness, phew!! My guides were actually convincing me to do it for a long time and in the end were the reason I gave in to do it, because my brain or the fearful/ego part of me was like HELL NO! Lol. Although I also know I am on many different spirals currently and so things will always come up in life that are deeply challenging to us of course - but I am so happy to (similar to you) be able to sense properly again and feel the pulse of life beneath everything again. Perhaps it’s a collective healing, I’ve heard a couple of readers etc. talk about a collective healing of the witch wound and sacral chakra and being seen happening right now. Anyway I’d love to hear more about your morning routine! I am wishing you the absolute best, and so happy to see you making content again 😊

@ChristinaDRaju 5 ай бұрын

Wow what a powerful story as well! I am so happy for you that you are out of it. Yes, sometimes it takes a while to listen to that inner voice because our ego is soo loud and shouting over it all the time. Yes, collectively there is a massive shift happening and some of us are dealing with collective (and of course above anything, personal) karma. Wishing you so much peace and inner guidance! You are one tough cookie now! 💛 much love

@IKARIANOFFICIAL 5 ай бұрын

Nice to see you again here! Your honesty and openess is refreshing. I think whether or not some wish to admit it, we all struggle with our spirituality and our search for truth. I'm a natural skeptic, but also know there is more to this life than what we are told to focus on. Our time here is so short, but I believe we carry on after this realm and into the next. And what you mentioned about toxic spirituality! Yes, I'm also noticing there's a lot of narcissists who are attracted to religion and spirituality because they can use it to gain more admiration and attention to themselves. Also the element of putting out spirituality and religion for profit, that really struck a chord. And when you say you "really want to know that something is true", that is very admirable, as most don't care about actual truth and only seek confirmation to stay with that what they already believe. Anyway, I'm at 7:30 in your video and will finish watching, but nice to have you back!

@ChristinaDRaju 5 ай бұрын

Glad to see you too and to hear we are aligned when it comes to being observant on our paths 🙏 yes the amount of businesses built on the premise of using spirituality nowadays is sad and thats why its so important to build our intuition and listen to our inner voice. I am so glad to be back and have an arsenal of things to share 🪄✨happy to have you here! Hope you’ve been good in the meantime ✨

@IKARIANOFFICIAL 5 ай бұрын

@@ChristinaDRaju - Agree, and glad you came through the other side of what you went through the last couple years! After finishing to watch your video, you had some very profound things to say. Your humble and authentic approach to teaching spirituality has always been nice, and the fact that you are open to challenging and questioning yourself and beliefs makes you more qualified to teach others in my opinion. Anyway, your video actually helped me out, as I've been going through a bit of darkness and deep questioning lately, and I look forward to the new direction with your future videos! Take care and have a great rest of your week:)

@Astrolobe5 5 ай бұрын

Thank you for your honesty, looking forward to learn more about alchemy and inner landscaping from you

@dimakatsotshabalala469 5 ай бұрын

Welcome back Goddess ❤️❤️

@ChristinaDRaju 5 ай бұрын

Aww 💛 Thank you so much! so happy to be here!

@borislava369 5 ай бұрын

So glad you're back again. I can't wait to see what you have prepared. Sending you endless love and light 🤍✨

@ChristinaDRaju 5 ай бұрын

Yeyy so happy to be back and have you with me💛

@davef6739 5 ай бұрын

Christina - it put a smile on my face to see the notification that there was a new video from you. I love your level of honesty here. For me, sharing the "darker" stuff about myself with others has been one of the things I fought against the most - wouldn't want to appear like I don't have it all together. But when I did share all that with others it was caused some of the most powerful transformations within me. Sometimes I'll feel like I have it all together, and other times I'll feel like a total airhead that doesn't have a clue. There were times where I felt like I was going completely crazy and had absolutely no understanding of life. But I just keep trusting my intuition to take me to the right places and people. Spirituality has become a bit trendy, but it is another area where I trust my intuition. My barometer on anyone's teachings has always been - does it resonate within me as truth? I won't just blindly accept what another says. And maybe it is true for them, but not necessarily for me. I'm glad to hear you are emerging on the other side of your challenges. As always - thank you for sharing your amazing self.

@ChristinaDRaju 5 ай бұрын

Well hello, so happy to see your comment as well! I hope you have been great in the meantime! You are so right, we are scared of being authentic but I learned that the treasure always lays under the dragon. 🪄 The fact you can discern your own truth is amazing! Much love!