The day he wanted to leave + Hitting rock bottom | lovemichelleana

[@hannahm.8278]

Ahhh Michelle, my first video of you was watching your life update on how your husband had just passed away, and I cried and prayed for you. I myself had just newly wedded and through your grief I told myself that I would love and honour my husband because our time on earth wasn’t guaranteed. I met my now ex-husband in uni and he was my first everything, when things started to get bad I also fought so hard. We have been separated for a year and half, now that I am now out of the grief fog, God has been talking me about so much and much like you, my husband was on the throne of my heart despite professing to be a Christian … I couldn’t see a life without. Now I do and I laugh because whilst there are sorrowful days, God has been everything he has promised and more ♥️. I just turned 29, and I am excited for where God is taking. Thank you for sharing your story and walking in obedience to God, I can’t wait to see where God takes both of us ♥️♥️ Love from Australia 🇦🇺

[@audreylisamuranda2881]

Wow sis, such a great testimony. Where in Australia are you from? I’m from 🇦🇺 too. Would love to connect with like minded Christian sisters like you 😊

[@MissAki1]

@@audreylisamuranda2881 me too! Hopefully, Melbourne!

[@WAMbamKAM]

“Do not devalue who you are because someone thought you were worth walking away from.” WOW. Just wow. Thank you sis for sharing your story. Thank you for displaying that we are worthy in Christ, no matter what road we walk.

[@bluejay7777]

God brought me back here. I find myself crying all hours of the night over my husband rather than being on my knees praying and spending time with my real life partner.

[@desteni1992]

My first ever video of yours was the update about Curtis passing. Now knowing this part of your testimony my heart hurts even more for you that he passed in a time where your marriage wasn't where you wanted it to be, and that he started to feel differently. I'm so sorry and you are such a strong, inspirational woman. Thank you for sharing your truth ❤

[@BriW444]

Michelle, I’m reading the comments and like everyone else the first video I saw from you was of your husband passing. I saw. this video on the fyp and I was like “this can’t relate to me , but maybe I should watch it “ however God knocked my ego down for a second and told me to watch it. This video is very soul touching right now I am going through a breakup and me and this person were on and off and I still want to give him closure because I still appreciate him. The breakup was just sad and I say that because I had to break it off before things got too toxic. But I’m going through my 20s , going through an identity crisis, and now a breakup. It’s been hard but hearing this message made my heart open back up to God , and be more in tune with my relationship with God.

[@modikiramaisa4619]

I remember being ghosted by a guy and literally shutting down like my immune system , lil did I know he had a fiancé the entire time and I was uncovering the truth . Today his married and still tried to contact me to cheat on the woman he chose smh . Thank you for the message I look back at that and realise I was devastated over a jerk

[@dehaank77]

The anointing on you Michelle Ana! Whew 😮‍💨 the vulnerability, the absolute grace, the raw honesty- giiirrrl, it’s almost too much! But I pray you stay encouraged to keep going and keep sharing & may God continue to bless you and keep you💛 thank you!!

[@nellieoliver5699]

What a powerful word when you said " we make others or things a priority when God should be the center of our lives." Love this video in so many ways. God bless you "woman of God."

[@ZURISADAIist]

Wow, When they say God speaks to you through multiple streams I truly believe it now. My husband and I have been going through our lowest point in our marriage where we have found ourselves on the verge of separation and I’ve been heavily seeking God and his guidance on what I could do to be a better wife. However I have felt God speak to me heavily this week telling me that my value is not determined by my marriage he sees me for who I am and I alone individually is who I need to be better for myself. I came across your video today by accidentally clicking on it and I receive this as confirmation. I do not know what’s going to happen with the future of my marriage but I do have 100% faith that God will not forsake me. I yearn to hear more from him 🙏🏼

[@aliyah4688]

I truly believe that i am one of the persons that had to be touch and helped through you. Your video popped up in 2017 with the captain saying your husband passed away, i remember watching it sooo many times, then i started following you on Instagram, and over the years I have watch you I'm feeling your pain, I couldn't even comprehend how you would be able to move on with life. I was 16 when I saw the video, I'm 21 now and married, I'm also trying to find out who I am, for the first time I actually feel whole, but im a newlywed as well and im trying to center my life and prioritize myself and find my identity. You are like a guide where my marriage is concerned, and also you have showed me that god can turns things around for the best, you are one all of his vessels. Thank you and keep being you. You are a breathing testimony, i have hope

[@missbriellelynette]

God really knows how to bring you what you need exactly when you need it. Im going through a breakup and Im realizing its been so hard to let go because my boyfriend, too was "on the throne of my heart". He held the key to my worth, my value, who I was...and when he walked away it felt like he was taking it with him. Thank you for your transparency and honesty🤍

[@rudochimera838]

Word! “Do not devalue who you are because someone decided to walk away from you”. So many nuggets to take away from this video and the whole series. May God continue to use you Michelle as a vessel of noble use in his Kingdom.

[@kisz4tj]

Man I needed this 20 years ago! God is faithful, he did bring about healing.

[@sabrina.natalie]

*Fear can no longer have a grip on your destiny.*

[@carolinabycarolina8451]

Many years ago I subscribed to you after watching the video where you talked about your husband passing away. I subscribed and I had not gone through that experience. I felt something about you made me subscribe. Then after the passing of the father of my 3 children I am back and understand the emotions of that video. This video speaks to my heart and is helping me grow in my faith. I wasn't married to him, but we loved each other since our teen years. We were in our lives for 13 years. We had children together (9,6,3 yrs old). He died by suicide in July, 2022. I can relate so much and for me its still very fresh. I am very glad I subscirbed to you years ago because your experience is helping me get through this grief and new open eyes journey with our lord and savior Jesus. Thank you! John was only 30 years old and I am 29 years old soon to be 30 myself. I have so much confusion right now and although I know God is in charge and I shouldn't fear. I am honestly scared of the future and how I am going to raise my kids, can I ever fall in love again. I never saw my life without him. Not that I am thinking of moving on. I am just young and know one day maybe I should move on to experience the joys of love again. My priority right now is to grow in God and raise y children.

[@daniellebitzer304]

So much to take away from this. Three huge points hit me , like a belly flop on my WHOLE soul. Girl, I love you. Thank you for allowing us to to take part in Gods redemption in your life❤️

[@MsVI-ow4vs]

Wow wow wow! I wasn't expecting this. I've been through two heartbreaks and my gosh that almost took me out. So I know exactly what you're talking about. May God continue to bless you. 🙏

[@judeahartley921]

Wow. Just like…wow. Had me in Tears. I commend you! That bravery. Strength. Vulnerability. Jesus you beautiful woman!

[@fimja]

Now I understand this video more

[@Islanddreamer430]

So refreshing. In the past I’ve gotten so caught up in things that don’t matter which clouded my view of God’s love.

[@noela2005]

Thank you so much for this series. The honesty, the vulnerability, the self-awareness. Woooo, an entire word. 🥺💕👏🏽

[@StrongerThanStroke]

Amazing words…amazing revelation. If you ever find yourself lost please listen to your own words. You said journaling is not in the Bible but think about it this way, David wrote Psalms with so many emotions just like journaling and King Solomon wrote Song of Songs…just like journaling. The Lord wants us to scribe. His word is so powerful, our words are so powerful. Much love to you ❤

[@monique.shamirah]

This message is so God. Everything you mentioned are things I’ve been wrestling with lately and I had a moment this morning where I just felt hopeless. But God! He loves us so much and I know for a fact this popped up on my feed to remind me. Thanks Michelle for your obedience to God 💕

[@EatPrayDream]

Thank you so much for sharing Queen! Dethroning and Letting God take His rightful place on the throne of our hearts was key for me. We can’t truly walk in our authentic identity without the Creator on the throne. We will be always be striving, something we were never meant to do. I can’t wait to watch the second part on Identity! ❤️ God bless you and thank you for your obedience, this is truly freeing and delivering.

[@Janettoi]

Michelle Ana, you are anointed! This is a message I didn't know I needed. Thank you for your vulnerability through the years 💜

[@silentlymindless]

Going to breakup now and you don't realize how much your transparency and honesty help

[@marleneloudermilk3105]

I needed to hear this!!! Thank you so much for sharing your testimony, girl you don’t know you are helping not just myself but many who are in need of encouragement..

[@antonellatotino2794]

Michelle, You are wise beyond your years. Your messages are so filled with God's grace. Thankyou for Dearing your journey. Grief is never addressed and quickly forgotten by those not directly affected. Thankyou

[@jyj2072]

I needed this, it’s so hard to be an individual but one in a marriage. It’s hard to do what God called you what to do and still show up to the marriage. Balance is tough

[@alya6557]

Michelle girl… you have me crying on my lunch break. You put words to how I’ve been feeling for YEARS. I just wanna say I LOVE you. You’ve helped me so much over the past few years.

[@CaliforniaDreaming26]

This was so good. Thank you for your transparency and vulnerability

[@StephaniesHammond]

This is so deep and so real. This kind of transparency is so needed in the body. You are so courages to share these parts of your journey with God. I pray that it draws many to the well of Jesus♥️

[@Cn-eo7ho]

Ive been following you for a while and I always felt there was something deeper to your character, your life.i totally relate to you. Ive always felt I put this face for everyone like family and coworkers but very or really no one knows who I really truly am...

[@raspberrymelon]

God bless you. Thank you for letting Him use you. I was healing from heartbreak when I found your video where you shared your grief about Curtis’s passing. Knowing about this whole other layer of grief adds a lot more perspective. Thank you for sharing your journey and reminding us that GOD is the only one who should be on the throne of our hearts. ♥️

[@gabbyk78]

Whew😢 I bless God for you and I can see that God is truly in you. I’ve been in a rocky space with my relationship with God due to grief I’ve been experiencing and recently I started working on building my relationship with God again. Prior to this, I didn’t want to watch any videos that talked about God and his goodness and mercy etc. So when I saw this video I was contemplating watching it, but GOD!! I needed this and I’m looking forward to your future videos. Thank you💕

[@loveMichelleAna]

😭😭😭😭💛💛💛💛

[@annamunoz3097]

Your testimony has truly blessed me and encourages me. 🙏🏼💛

[@Islanddreamer430]

I haven’t even made it to the end of the video and about to cry when you’re sharing about the moment the church’s first lady prayed over you.

[@soulfulsteph5339]

I truly feel like God saved this video for me to see at this perfect time. Going through heartbreak and having trouble letting go of someone. I need God to carry me through ❤

[@TarDan20]

Through tears , All I can say Michelle is Thank You.

[@Ashley-kf8xq]

Amen! Same for me having people on the throne of my heart. Fears been gripping me for years with coparenting since I have no control besides being the best parent I can be to my daughter and one day she will see the truth if she doesn’t already,but more than anything I wish her dad would try to be a better dad to her and be respectful towards me and my household.

[@sandratsosie1161]

Thank you for sharing. I honestly always can relate. Everything in our life does lead up to this day. It's amaizing still through all we go through in life that God loves us in every season. Me n my late fiancee watched you for a few years when your husband passed it struck us to love each other even so much more. We felt for you..., n prayed n thought about you. Then my fiancee passed in 2018 and I had to go through familiar emotions n I just thank you...n God for knowing n seeking him makes life make so much sense. Every experience has a purpose. And excepting what has happened after all the grieving and even during the lost we fight to come to a place of excepting. That is truly when you know how great his love is for us in a completely new light. God bless you Michelle Ana...❤️.

[@ivonne6525]

Thank you for being obedient to God. God bless your heart. 🥺💜

[@Helloimjennifer_]

Girl! First of all, I love you sister! Thank you for being bold and sharing Jesus with the world. You’re amazing and I can’t wait to see what the Lord continues to do through you! What a solider you are for His Kingdom! Double blessing today with this video and alsooo the nails you shared today on IG haha 💗💗💗

[@shamyramarie866]

THANK YOU ❤️😊 My boyfriend of 18 years and father of our 4 children and 1 more on the way next month. I needed to hear this. May God bless you 🙏❤️

[@samfunnsfagforhjemmeskole4564]

❤️❤️

[@yuritzikhan4040]

I hadn’t seen your videos in a while. I’d say a good year. I thought about you yesterday. So I looked up your channel and started watching your videos today to ‘catch up’ (i first found you when your husband passed) And let me just say they spoke to me SO HIGHLY!!! Praise God. Keep going.

[@Energy.Healer]

I felt that I LOVE GOD it hit me right in my chest❤❤❤

[@blessed1002]

Wow wow wow..... thank you so much for sharing! God bless you for your vulnerability

[@brittniegarcia9943]

Thank you

[@migalmahlangu9871]

Ahhh this hit home so hard, u put into words all the things I felt 💔 thank u 💓 u healing so many of us with ur truth. I love u sis

[@personalle8236]

We love you Michelle♥️

[@Yosoykarina1]

Thank you so much for this video!! Appreciate the vulnerability & love you sis!! I truly admire who you are ❤️. Can't wait for part 2

[@grinsley]

Thank you Michelle for your courage. I saw this when I needed it and I’m thankful to you and grateful to God for you.

[@LoveeeeelyM]

Thank you. As always, thank you so much for your words ♥️

[@Winnethe_pooh]

Thank you so very much for this! I needed to hear EVERY SINGLE WORD of this!

[@JoyBeforeHer]

So blessed by you sis 💗

[@lifewithjean5216]

WOW that was a powerful video. God is doing a good works in and through you girl. All glory to God for who He is 🙌🏽♥️ Will continue to uplift you in prayer

[@iamsharinasmith]

This spoke volumes to me! Thank you for posting!!!!

[@SmileOrangeWillow]

People really attribute any success in their life to a person that they've never seen or had a 2 way conversation with ever. I wish for true joy, peace and freedom to anyone in this situation.

[@sarahcrick9092]

You're so brave!! Thank you for sharig

[@singlesliving4him88]

So blessed by this!! Thank you for sharing.

[@shandalesantana]

💛 I was in the same in 2018. God is good!

[@toade22]

Thank you for sharing 🥺

[@trishrutendoganda8714]

Omw I love this video so enlightening and captivating. Yes part 2 please❤️

[@brittbah6737]

Absolutely loved this and your last video.. needed this yet again. Thank you sis

[@LishaRose]

This was needed.

[@lavonaturner7691]

Whew chile, you blessed me. I can totally relate. Thank you ❤️

[@MelGhi373]

Thank you for sharing sis! This has helped me more than I can even say here, today. xoxoxo

[@Virgoae]

you’re so beautiful! i love listening to your stories!

[@accordingtojaz7412]

Love your transparency❤

[@sheilajones4433]

Omg! Yes! This!!!

[@bluejay7777]

I needed this !

[@lauslora6511]

I love watching you although I dont believe it god its nice to hear others and what and how they believe

[@anitaasare4696]

Thank you ♥️

[@iamsharinasmith]

This video spoke to me so much because I can truly identify with being the spouse fighting and being drug along 😢. Thank you for reminding me to replace my identity in God and how much journaling truly helps- prior to marriage I journaled literally everyday, sometimes 2 times a day. I am looking forward to the second video. I’m the one who needs it. I can’t count the times I’ve had that same look and cry in my eyes and have seen and felt unseen. This video made me feel seen by God. Thank you 🙏

[@itsmoic320]

Thank you for being real, this is so needed. I’ve recently started journaling and I do see the importance of it, but not sure how to do it 😞 I couldn’t find your link for the journaling tips… could someone please post it here? 🙏 thanks

[@loveMichelleAna]

I dropped the link in the description box. 💛💛💛

[@itsmoic320]

@@loveMichelleAna thank you, I found it!

[@marlaalvarado1034]

Part 2 !!!

[@hissweetestsin143]

Love you so so much !!!!!

[@loveafrica97]

You sound like the sister from “Madeas Family Reunion” The one with the kids, specifically the scene where she’s doing the poem in the porter club. Anyways, great video!

[@hissweetestsin143]

Living with my mom shes forced me to surpress my feelings and quiet my voice

[@hissweetestsin143]

Im hereeeeeee

[@Robin-ge7sy]

For some reason I thought she said there where going to be 4 videos? I only see three. Maybe I’m missing one or has it not been posted yet?

[@burdeo2313]

Thank you for sharing this! I was really, really into this video and the words you were speaking were flowing into me when I literally just fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle. Now that I’m getting that taken care of, back to this video 😂💜

[@ajacobo72]

❤️

[@PassionsForHer]

Few seconds In and wow! You’re beautiful beautiful 😍

[@PassionsForHer]

“Fear can no longer have a grip on my voice, my confidence, my destiny!!!!” My spirit felt that!

[@lenes.bruwer8269]

❤️❤️❤️

[@growinginfaith1670]

❤❤❤

[@Mayrows]

Seek first ❤️😏

[@lilianao6254]

I’ve been following you for years and most of your videos are very encouraging, but I honestly feel like what your saying could seem hurtful to other people that also loved Curtis, for example his mom. Being that you are in a public platform this could easily be misunderstood. Just saying. 💕

[@zimflores3744]

So the alternative would be…….to not share her testimony? Or stay silent forever? Remember how we defeat the enemy: Revelation 12:11.

[@crenee7471]

It's ultimately up to God to release her to share her testimony. She hasn't spoken one negative thing about him or his family. I think God would be more focused on his children being encouraged and set free from things that have become idols in our hearts. Her platform connects her to a lot of men and women who are struggling, this is her purpose. I think we are going into a season of speaking truth. People need to be set free more than ever. This video definitely spoke to me and made me feel not as alone in my own personal journey. Just thought I'd share from a different perspective 🤍

[@pamelamoyo6122]

There is nothing wrong with her telling her story. She has to get this off her chest. lt helps others and l know it’s healing to her too.

[@glamorouzj]

thank you so much for this 💜love you girl.