What I Learned from Being Married to Someone Secretly Struggling with Depression

[@judeahartley921]

Girlllll THESE videos!!!!!!!!!!!! Now this is what I’m talking about. This is what people need. THIS type of transparency and connectivity. This is what draws ppl. This. Right here. This ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@jameslaw5510]

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[@TT-zc1pv]

Amen

[@JoyBeforeHer]

Girl. The prayer that Curtis prayed got me in tears. And the fact that God honored his prayer and took him with him, wow just wow. This side of the story has me in awe and I commend you so much for taking so much time and using wisdom the last 5 years, before you shared this. I am so proud of you sis. You are such a huge encouragement in the faith and I love watching God use you. 💗

[@vanessacevallos5803]

I can't believe it's already been 5 years..smh I'll NEVER forget the day I watched your video on how your husband passed away. My God! It weighed so heavily on my heart and soul. That was the day I became a subscriber and both you and your late husband stole a piece of my heart. I cried right along with you and prayed that God would give you the mercy, strength and peace I knew you'd need to get through such a tremendous loss. But this video you just shared is SUCH a testament of God's mercy and love for His children...it's unreal!!! The fact that God heard Curtis's cry to go with Him, how God knew his struggle and didn't allow the world to suck him into the darkness we're surrounded by everyday, speaks volumes about who He is. HE is the King of all Kings, our true Father, our redeemer and the one who loves us more than any human ever could. 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 Thank you, Lord for your love and mercy EVERY SINGLE DAY of our lives...whether we see it or not. You deserve all the glory, Father! 🙌🏼💕🥲 Thank you so much for sharing this video...this was truly a blessing and I look forward to hearing what God has put in your heart to share with the world. Love you, sis. Keep shining that beautiful light you hold in your heart. 🙂

[@godsgirl7201]

Don't just pray for our husbands pray for son's uncle's brothers grandparents dad's🙏🏼

[@godsgirl7201]

🙏🏼

[@RossG117]

Which video is it? Where she explains how her husband passed?

[@mommi3895]

I’ve been subscribed to you for years and for whatever reason, I have unintentionally not seen one of your videos for those same years. Well today I saw your video pop up in my feed so I watched- and I just wanna say that it is completely apparent & entirely evident that you have this gift of not only speaking, but speaking directly to the heart & soul. God bless the calling that has been placed upon your life, as you speak to those who battle depression, which is such an awful plague on humanity- the one thing that stops us from seeing God’s true love & grace. Thank you for sharing your story 💕

[@Robynabreu]

I remember that video of you sharing about your husbands passing, I was 17/18. I was not married but I felt your pain, I was so emotional. I’m now married with two children, it touches me even more. You are extremely brave & resilient. You’ve shared your journey and keep doing it, we appreciate this and you so much. Thank you for your vulnerability ❤️❤️

[@stringsgalore]

As someone who struggles, many of us are so open and warm to others because we don’t want others to feel the darkness we feel.

[@winninginlife]

Yes👏👏👏👏. I'm always making sure everyone I meet...feels seen, heard, accepted and understood with no judgement ❤️

[@somuchtexture]

I NEVER comment on videos but just wanted to say thank you for being obedient to God and sharing this story. I relate to it in so many ways.

[@marynicole212]

This video gave me chills. But you never know how many people this is helping, so thank you for always sharing and being vulnerable with us all. It’s so beautiful 🤍

[@katianacolon1015]

Michelle, thank you for being obedient. As I get ready to get married in June of this year to my beloved fiancé, your video has opened my eyes to see that marriage involves sacrificial love and care for your spouse. That even when they are hurting, we are still called to love them and serve them well. You may never know how many people you are impacting with this video, but one day you will see on the other side of heaven. We love you

[@alexandrahokanson]

Literally the lord sent me this video today WOW. My partner just opened up to me yesterday about being extremely depressed and it’s been dividing us for months now. Thank you thank you thank you ♥️♥️

[@ShakiraKGardner]

Prayers for help and healing of the mind and spirit. I’m Jesus name. Amen

[@migalmahlangu9871]

U got this, get some resources and make sure u also speak to someone. Sending love ❤

[@danilaroche1156]

I had longterm clinical depression & debilitating anxiety for years. To the point I couldn't function or leave my home. This stuff is spiritual. Read Ephesians 6. Once I realized this I asked the Lord how I could be healed. I'd be happy to share more if anyone's interested. God completely healed me of mental illness. Completely.

[@Lexusfordd]

The simple fact that your husband prayed to God and he honored it without him having to take his own life. That’s powerful! I really cried that was hard to hear. But God amazing!

[@Ranai2004]

This was so good and on time. My husband deals with depression and has dealt with suicidal thoughts and it is so hard. You wake up each day not knowing which spouse you’re going to get. And it’s so hard to not take it personal when you hear from your spouse that they have thought about taking their lives. But I trust God each day with this and I thank God for using you to encourage everyone today. ❤️🌻

[@DesiraeOfori]

As a spouse who suffered deeply with Postpartum Depression and Anxiety and had to go to therapy and be on watch, it is helpful to see what it's been possibly like for my husband. Thank you Michelle ❤❤

[@migalmahlangu9871]

My ex husband also struggles with depression and drug addiction and man it was very hard, I too felt like I was failing him and needed to do more, I stayed longer because I wanted to help him. Thank u for sharing because many people need to know it's not their fault and yes please go to therapy 💗 love u sis

[@kourtneyelise6210]

I needed this video so bad I have been dealing with a lot . With depression for 2 years now covid hasn’t help at all . I’m a mom a wife and I have dealing with so much on my own . I’m just ready to be happy and loving . I’m ready to be me again . Thank you God for leading me to this video I NEED THIS ♥️. I’m crying has I type this I’m ready for something new . I’m done being in the dark I’m tired of feeling alone. Thank you again for sharing this .

[@MissAki1]

The word of God says in Romas 6:8 "Who the son sets free, is free indeed"

[@teesolo7631]

KZbinr you are filled with purpose; your videos have vital substance. May Jesus continue to guide you.

[@littleblizzard7591]

YES! There are so many people of faith that are now speaking out about their love for God and the strength and blessings they receive from The Lord! I’m so grateful for the community. And YES, it is amazing what God can do with us when we are brave enough to obey Him. Everything you said, God is good. Thank you for sharing more of your story. It doesn’t dishonor your late husband at all. I’m so sorry he struggled and you were so good to love him and covering him in prayer. I’m reading this book, The Power of a Praying Wife, and it is very humbling. Not entirely the same situations but the same idea, covering your husband in prayers 🌸

[@godsgirl7201]

Don't just pray for our husbands pray for son's uncle's brothers grandparents dad's🙏🏼

[@godsgirl7201]

🙏🏼

[@joymbugua6135]

Thank you for being obedient. Thank you for sharing your story. If ever you have any doubts or fears about being real about anything because of what others may think, remember it's your story, not theirs. You lived it and have the position to recall it to whoever and whomever. We're so blessed to be among those who hear your story and can take away those 3 things. Bless you sis, you're such a light. May God continue to grace you

[@jsamobu]

God was all over this video. It touched me so much. Your words, conviction, and love you showed… God bless you Michelle ❤️

[@MissGammons]

Wow! When I tell you that I felt this on so many levels, it hit home. When I found your video, my brother had just passed away from health related issues. I can’t believe it’s been that many years. Depression is a beast and when I went through such a hard time in my life, I could not get my husband to understand that overwhelming and unexplainable feeling. Prayer… prayer and holding on to faith saved me. I listened to worship music every morning before going into a job everyday that brought me so much grief, that saved me (it was providing for my family, so I wasn’t an easy decision to just leave). My parents divorce in the midst of losing my brother, a son, was a place of darkness. Hanging on to faith was all I had. I look back and I think wow!! I had “Made a Way” by Travis Green, I had “Smile” by Kirk Franklin, “Praise You in This Storm” by Casting Crowns playing in my head over and over throughout the years. I held on to a prayer book for women and would hold on to those Bible verses. I continue to pray to steer me away that overwhelming storm that I once went through. Thank you for sharing, thank you for praying, thank you for embracing.

[@joyceg7651]

Hi 😮😅😅

[@LeniceRomney]

Thank you for sharing this🧡 It's so heavy, but life is so heavy sometimes. I have struggled with depression during my marriage as well. And it just made me realize more what my husband must have felt. God set me free from depression and I am so thankful for that. My dad took his own life in 2020 and I took it so personally. I felt so broken and rejected. But when you were talking about internalizing and to not take things personally, it hit me. It's not my fault. And I forgave my dad. God has been healing me and I am so grateful for that

[@biancatarot2777]

Given the celebrity suicides recently. This video is very important. Been watching you for years. Thank you for your courage 💞

[@mrs.murphy2611]

Yes, so true! Thank God for her obedience❤

[@aahbee4807]

I literally have no words. I’m currently going through this situation and your video randomly popped up in my feed. Thank you God!! 😭

[@user-wv7rh9bl5i]

Your videos helped me massively to navigate through a loss / grievance of my late partner. Thank You Michelle, You’re a darling! I pray that God restores our pain ✨

[@tammy-joywicomb6542]

🥺♥️ thank you for allowing God to speak through you. I am literally in the exact same situation and needed to hear this. I pray that God continues to bless and guide you. I have no words. 😭

[@caitlynchandler5537]

Your video just came across my feed, I’m only 5 minutes in, and girl! My KZbin have been getting BLESSED with so much content on obedience, idolatry, holiness (Jackie Hill Perry) I don’t know you or your story but I am so excited to have found you! The call to righteousness is growing

[@AstoldbyCec]

Thank you. You have no idea how much this helped me . I can relate to Curtis so much and you help me see it from my spouses perspective

[@chelle9941]

I just want to say thank you for your obedience and you spoke right to me. My husband passed in January. A friend sent you my way cuz I told her I didn’t know anyone else who was young and a widow. I thought that’s the only way we could relate……I couldn’t watch this video right away but a month later here I am watching it. My husband told me the exact same thing yours did. My husband took his life, and I’ve been kinda dealing with shame this morning. I know you were speaking to people still married but I want to say your words touched me so much. Thank you.

[@kielaandrew]

Thank you for this video. As someone who has suffered with depression and also had suicidal thoughts but seeing the power of God transform my life, your words deeply touched my heart. It also gave me an understanding of what the other person feels like in the situation. Thank you and this video it’s going to touch many peoples lives. ❤️❤️

[@nataliiraheta941]

Thank you for sharing with us. I’ve followed you since 2017 and you’re such an inspiration 🤍 God’s favor shines through you

[@glambitious91]

That prayer at the end was beautiful . I feel like I tuned into your video right on time ! Nothing is coincidence . Thank you 🥺🤗

[@carriewright4292]

Girl thank you for this video I'm going through a good bit right now in life and it feels like you was talking directly to me when you prayed I lost it I'm on a journey looking for God and just thank you because I feel like I'm going down the RIGHT road just thank you...

[@arlenes423]

Whewwwwww! That’s all I got for this. 🥺💜 Thank you for being brave to call us out and also show us the complexity of life between stories behind THE story.

[@moniquesantiago8612]

With having a parent that struggles with depression, definitely needed to hear to not internalize it myself. That is something I do struggle with and have to know I can’t be in control of how they may feel. I have to turn it over to God and know everything will be ok 🙏🏽♥️👑

[@Mamichula2489]

Thank you for the courage and obedience to share what placed in your heart. 💓 Sharing our testimony brings healing and brings us closer together.

[@KacyLoveRichards]

This couldn’t have been easy for you to do, Michelle. I pray God continues to heal your heart.

[@lamparium7620]

You speak with such passion and conviction in such a gentle yet strong manner it's amazing to listen to all you have to say.

[@TrippiePineapplz]

Thank you so much for sharing what it may feel like for the supporting person. Thank you for praying for those of us who really struggle on a day to day to that depth. You are such a beautifully healing person that God gave these gifts to. Thank you

[@karibonner905]

You are so necessary! Thank you! You are incredibly anointed, and I always sense the presence of God watching your KZbin videos. I pray God continues to bless your life abundantly!

[@hissweetestsin143]

I can’t imagine the weight on his shoulders 😔😔 thank you for this we love you!

[@MsNael89]

Thank you for your obedience and allowing God to use you to touch others. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@momandnas3788]

Girl this video has made me cry, worship, pray and everything else . Wow . Powerful . Let God continue to use you. 4 years ago I was struggling from what was clinically diagnosed as “passive suicidal thoughts” . Everytime I drove over a bridge I had an urge to drive in the water . But GOD!!!! Thank you lord pulling me out of the dark 😭😭😭🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

[@Blackinbusiness98]

I feel the Holy Spirit so strongly while watching this video. You are anointed !

[@Bibiray32]

Awwww, sis!! Thank you so much for the words; this means so much to me.

[@thejohnnymayeffect6638]

I really just want to affirm to you that God is really speaking through this video. My marriage has been going through similar issues and the advice you gave and everything has just been a complete blessing & such perfect timing that I know for sure God is moving through you. So thank you for your obedience which is giving me the smack I need to also stop running! I’m just undone and not even ready for the next video but know it will continue to edify. 😭♥️

[@ChrisTeeO.]

You can truly see your heart's desire to please the LORD...pleasing Him is always the blessing we are deeply aiming for. Mission accomplished, sis. May you rest in the peace of your obedience as He does the work that only He can do!

[@brittanyr7006]

Thank you so much for your transparency. There are parallels between what you experienced with Curtis to what I am experiencing right now with my husband. This is the confirmation I needed because I have definitely been carrying a heaviness everyday, but I am comforted by this message sent through you by God. It is very difficult to feel like you can’t reach your spouse when they’re dealing with depression. I thank you so much for being a willing vessel of God, and I pray God continues to bless you and cover you. 💕

[@ericaboom1]

Wow thanks for sharing and allowing God to use you. This definitely shed some light on things that I’m going through in my marriage. Praying for your continued strength in God.

[@jessietamayo113]

Girllllllllll I just wish I could hug you, because life is hard. You were so young and there’s so much to life you didn’t know. I’m almost 30 and now I’m beginning to realize just how heavy life is sometimes. Just all that it can involve. We truly can’t do it without God. Life is hard, but God knows and always had a plan. You’re testimony of that. God bless you and looking forward for more.

[@thinkinggrace8092]

Love your makeup and vulnerability in this video! But truly I was ministered by your obedience. God knows I've cried so many tears of despair and I need my hope in him to rise again.

[@BabyGirl-io8nt]

Thank you so much for this video, Michelle! You are definitely God sent and a soldier for God!

[@tamarajmorris]

Thank you so much for sharing this Michelle. I'm trying to find the words but I can't. I've had this nudge to share my story from the other side. I've suffered in silence for a lonnnnngggggg time with depression. And though I've been a bit vocal in the last few years, there is so much. For so long I've felt guilt that my husband has had to carry this burden with me.

[@inspiredbychristlj3877]

Thank you for sharing the rawness. I pray that God comforts you as you think about those times and that he gives you peace and gives you hope.

[@LS-vb6kt]

Thank you so much for this video. I needed this yesterday, today and tomorrow. Thank you for praying for people who watched/who will watch this video. Bless you sister in Christ. I’m Jesus name. ❤️

[@kaeyy5738]

Michelle, baby…let me tell you something. You keep your FOOT right there on the devil’s neck and don’t you dare move it. You keep talking about what God wants you to talk about because from looking at the comments you have set some people free! Keep going mama…and I’m so proud of you on how God is using you!

[@tamarahfrancois7895]

I want to thank you for your kind heart and for your obedience that allowed for such a powerful testimony and undeniable authenticity. This message is also for people with loved ones struggling with mental health, in marriage but also in close relationships, such as family. Thank you so much ❤

[@orlanny1]

I’m convinced 100% that the lord sent me this video.. I needed this.. I needed this! the tears I’ve shed with this video… OMG.. Thank you for sharing, may your prayer find us and help heal us in Jesus name🙏🏽🙏🏽… Amen

[@brisierra1441]

Mama this was so heart touching. Thank you for your sincerity and helpful words to everyone who needs to hear this at this time . God is so good and will always be . God loved your husband so much he brought him home he is no longer overwhelmed or unhappy . You have a angel watching over you . God bless

[@adrie7318]

I sadly lost my brother to suicide and God was the only one to pull me out of that dark hole. I have lost half my family but my brothers death was the most traumatic that has left me a scar for life. I cant imagine what my parents felt after the fact since they too ended dying after him due to health. Im thankful for your videos and pray over anyone contemplating suicide that God will bring joy and hope back into your life. He loves you he is so kind and gentle I pray and encourage you to read his word. His word is nourishment to our mind, soul and spirit ❤

[@des7023]

Woooowwww!!!! I didn’t l needed this though!!! Thanks for sharing and for praying for ME!!!! Thanks for your transparency & obedience ❤️❤️❤️

[@KhidrAlexandria]

Wow, the more I watch this video. The more it speaks to me . Just wow

[@pamelagarcia263]

This was beautiful. Thank you.

[@LJS2377]

WOW Let God be glorified in the truths of your story…… mercy 🙌🏽

[@dancingdee100]

In complete tears, thank you for sharing!

[@WordsPictures997]

Michelle, THANK YOU! Thank you for taking your time. Thank you for not rushing your process. Thank you for loving Curtis the best way you could. Thank you for all the resources you've shared with us. THIS IS SOOOOO NEEDED, especially in this season. I'm really sorry you both experienced so much pain. I pray for your continued healing and peace. I pray for his soul. I pray for his family's continued healing and peace. I pray for your family's continued healing and peace. I thank God for the love and the good times you did get to share together.

[@lizeliss]

May God continue to strengthen you and use you for his kingdom and glory. It is in your obedience and allowing God to use you that God is revealed to each and every person that watches this video. May his grace sustain you in everything Michelle. Amen

[@KhidrAlexandria]

MichelleAnna, these videos are RIGHT ON POINT !!! You’ve really been speaking to my soul. Keep going sis !!!

[@mitch5077]

My wife has been gone 9 years yesterday at 42 year's old. I'm still grieving, Stuck and very depressed, even to the point I've pushed my daughter away and now can't see my granddaughter. I've prayed for God to just take me from this lonely life. I am Christian a Jesus believer, but I haven't gotten any relief of sadness. 😢

[@efrainbrown1]

Wow, you are in my prayers boss. That is tough. May God restore your relationship with you Daughter. Keep the faith. You are of value . Thank God he didn't answer your prayer of taken you. You are of Value my good brother. Better days ahead.

[@curlyhairtales6746]

Praying for you Mitch! You are important and needed on this earth! Praying for peace and unity in your heart and family. GOD LOVES YOU! God Bless you brother!

[@brooke6300]

Praying the Lord will renew your heart and give you comfort and pour His love all over you! And praying you rekindle the relationship with your daughter in Jesus name

[@briannacollie2742]

Praying for God to give you a peace of mind, and for divine restoration.

[@mitch5077]

@@briannacollie2742 Thank You! I won't lie, I've been in self destruct mode lately and I know that's not what God wants 🙏🥰

[@Nit.natty28]

I never believed there was anyone I could relate to until today.

[@godsgirl7201]

You broke down mental health So beautifully

[@theladybc1990]

Powerful and Spirit led ❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽

[@loveMichelleAna]

😩😘

[@MamaCakeFace]

Thank you for sharing your testimony with us. I shared this video with my friends & family. I pray God continues blessing your life & your ministry

[@jesseniamora6385]

Wow, thank you for your obedience. I am looking forward to the rest of your testimony. It is so close to home and it is definitely so very difficult trying to help someone dealing with depression. It's hard not to internalize and be angry when you just don't understand. God bless you!

[@aimeearce2329]

Girl!!!!!! This is RAW but TRUTH!!!!! Thank you for sharing!!

[@blkbohemian]

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. That's all I can say. Grateful that the Lord not only lead you to share in this way, but that you allowed Him to. There is a blessing in every testimony, and I can say with boldness that yours is no different. Praying for your continued journey and that Christ is ever by your side ❤.

[@yasmindelece9709]

Thank you for your video!! God bless you 😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕

[@MichelleAyana]

Wow this is powerful! Thank you. I too have been mentally struggling in a career where God has not called me to be and it does led to deep depression and my fiancé sees all of it. I’m slowly overcoming it but it is not easy, Thank you for sharing!

[@Hamilekonu]

To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord, wow! Thank you for sharing this next chapter and season in your life and especially sharing a little of your husbands thoughts and what transpired before he walked into heaven. I won’t ever forget the day I saw your video of your Husband passing. I still remember how traumatized I was crying and literally feeling pain inside my chest as if I Knew you and your husband. But your story hit home! Gods Love is enough, there is Hope💓

[@HerFaithUnfiltered]

Amen♥️♥️♥️ Jesus loves you so much and you are needed HERE! To anyone struggling Dont let the enemy dictate your worth. God says more then enough about you in his word. No matter what you've done the word still applies.

[@yalitsasoto]

I feel the presence of God !!! Jesus bless your anointed daughter! Bless her life and take her testimony to ends of the earth, that those who hear her voice would feel your presence and love just as I just did!! We worship you Jesus and give you all the honor and the glory! MichelleAnna thank you for your transparency and courage. It’s inspiring and encouraging!

[@tashamarrie9265]

Thank you for your vulnerability and your obedience to what God told you to do. May God continue to heal you and open your eyes to new levels of you. ❤️

[@kenbehindthescenes_79]

Thank you for your vulnerability and transparency in this video. A great lesson on being obedient to God no matter how hard the task is ❤️ .

[@anahidalgo7360]

Thank you for sharing! You are amazing! God is really using you to help so many people that need to hear about him❤️

[@asiadaniels154]

Wowwww!! This video spoke right to me- to the depths of my soul. Like a WORD, specifically for me. Thank you so much ❤️

[@TT-zc1pv]

Wow this has blessed me sooooooooo much. When you thought you were the only one. Beautiful Sis thank you sooooo much for sharing. Truth is EVERYTHING!!! I’m so proud of you keep going not just for you but, for the Truth of God!!! Amen

[@MXC912]

Wow this is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

[@shadayfreeman4293]

That was a good prayer sister. God bless you.

[@yashiradenise4119]

I love your obedience Michelle! Thank you for this video!!!

[@thewordisgod31]

Wow woman of God! Thank you for the prayers! Thank you for allowing God to use you as a vessel of honor. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and by the words of their testimony. Thank you for sharing your testimony.

[@momandnas3788]

Omg I remember watching you. I remember when he passed , I don’t know if you even mentioned what happened back then . So happy to see your beautiful face and your light shining through . 💜💜💜💜

[@brittbah6737]

I needed this. Thank you for your openness. That prayer, spoke to my heart so deeply. Thank you.

[@lysette2381]

Your prayer.... thank you! 😭

[@lizebengo1880]

sis! sis! sis! such a powerful video, thank you for sharing!

[@ebie4897]

Your videos always bless me all the way in London xx

[@chibuezechosen3191]

You are indeed blessed sister

[@SofistAKAted3]

Thank you so much for this video n for your prayer. May God continue to bless you and guide you.

[@praiselovepray4494]

You’re amazing and I love you GuRL! You are always tapping into my heart vibes. I didn’t go through this but before my husband left me behind on this earth, I carried a heavy Marriage. We lost a child 7.5 months before… it’s all Glory to God that I’m encompassed with His Grace & Love to. This. DAY. But I loved & witnessed so much struggle & always felt inadequate for what he was going through then. God bless you & thank you for moving me. See you in the next one!

[@dinajones2761]

Awesome!!! Thank you so much for sharing because I have been so down I didn’t want to be here

[@ladyt4062]

You are so beautiful and real , I haven’t seen you in awhile! Thanks so much for sharing!!

[@padishialogan]

Whew sis, this 🥺 thank you for this!

[@__ed.wina___8918]

Thank you❤️ This whole video game me the perspective of others in my life, it reminded me that God loves me, and even with the chaos going around, true happiness and peace would be from Him. Thank you so much!! I needed this❤️