The diagnosis that explains my entire life...

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What is ADHD?
www.everydayhe...
The Psychiatrist I used (PLEASE DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH BEFORE):
www.seikpsychi...
Studies:
ADHD Brain Sizes:
www.thelancet....
www.bna.org.uk...
Brain development:
www.ncbi.nlm.n...
www.ncbi.nlm.n... & www.additudema...
Brain activity in ADHD:
Dopamine: www.sciencedir...
Norepinephrine:
www.everydayhe...
link.springer....
www.ncbi.nlm.n...
What is time blindness?
www.verywellmi...
Channels that helped me:
/ howtoadhd
Contents of this video:
0:00 Intro
1:22 What is ADHD?
3:54 - ADHD Symptoms
6:16 - Patreon Account and Ad
7:35 - Symptoms at Law School (1st Lockdown)
9:19 - Symptoms at Oxford (2nd Lockdown)
10:54 - Self-diagnosis (Sleep, Blood Test, Depression)
13:25 - Contacting GP for 1st time
15:10 - More symptoms at Oxford
17:30 - Corporate Law Vacation Scheme
19:10 - Human Rights Job
21:00 - Contacting GP for 2nd time
23:30 - Symptoms during LPC
24:01 - Private Diagnosis for ADHD
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[@thewildetyme1112]

yessss omg this makes me so happyyyyyy i have autism and adhd and i feel like its so underdiagnosed in ethnic minorities and almost like a taboo so im so grateful that youve made this ilyyyy

[@noahx3569]

I'm glad you're back. This was a great video. I hope you are okay. Wishing you the best always and cheering you on from afar. X

[@Nyashy_]

I got a recent formal diagnosis and I could honestly cry as you are repeating my medical history back to me pre diagnosis. Sending so much love ❤️

[@svetavinogradova4243]

There is nothing medical about ADHD. It ia a social problem and a psychiatric disorder.

[@sonnys.5075]

I’ve also got diagnosed fairly recently in my early twenties… it’s like everything finally starts making sense but you also get this crippling realisation that you will always be like this. Can relate so much, sending lots of love and healing ❤️❤️❤️ a video on meds would be great!

[@svetavinogradova4243]

The result of bad parenting is hard to undo in an adult. Usually , for this prison is needed, it is quite effective.

[@susunthapa4027]

The ‘damaged goods’ bit really got me crying. That’s how I had been feeling the last few years because I couldn’t get my self to turn on. Thank you so much for this video! You don’t understand how much this video has helped!! 💜

[@amalabubakar]

This video literally made me tear up bc I just can’t believe how felt I seen. I’ve felt the way for about the same period of time, since lockdown 2020 and I always say to my friends I feel like I was so driven and different prior. It feels so lonely and I have hated myself so much for it. Thank you so much for Ibz, it means so much and I’m so glad you got your diagnosis ❤️

[@catn9608]

i was incessantly nodding throughout the video, and you spoke of exactly what I go through. it must feel so good knowing what you truly do have and knowing how it explains your life. it's been a tough journey for me trying to go through med school with my inattentive brain, it's a daily struggle and it's affected my self-confidence so much. just like you, I did well in school despite my symptoms and my gp thought that I may not have ADHD but she also encouraged me to modify my lifestyle first before pursuing an ADHD diagnosis, because it does cost a lot and takes time too. hoping one day I will be able to get it so I can feel empowered and receive help. Thanks for sharing your story and helping me understand myself.

[@GobsAlmightyVlogs]

i got diagnosed recently and i realised during lockdown too! i guess a lot of u realised then too. good luck with your future and your ADHD journey ibz :)

[@rebelkallus]

IBZ!! you dont know how much i really needed this video right now, thank you so much for making it. currently im at cams (wolfson) because i saw your videos ages ago and through you, thought it would be the best college for me to get into, as someone from free school meal background / being trans too. this was my first year and i got the news i failed part of my exams partly because of dealing with undiagnosed adhd among other things, so currently i am fighting to try to stay on my course... its been a nightmare honestly but, i just wanted to tell you how much your channel means and again thank you for making this video!

[@IbzMo]

Sending you solidarity through this! Just make sure you have all the documentation you can get. Even reports from your supervisors during the year! Also, speak to the disability service for help, and get the disability rep from CUSU to help you. Keep me updated! Wishing you luck!!!

[@rebelkallus]

@@IbzMo Thank you so much!! this is great advice, i will do!

[@joeheller7581]

I am self-diagnosed and nothing ever explained myself to me more than ADHD. all my mistakes, impulsiveness, pacing, fidgeting, "overthinking" etc. all the things that I didn't understand, why was I doing that? cause I am disabled and I should have had help

[@GabijaS18]

You don’t have ADHD until you are diagnosed by a medical professional. This era of “self-diagnosing” mental conditions is absolutely horrendous.

[@joeheller7581]

@@GabijaS18 I know a lot of people are misdiagnosing themselves, but what you said is pretty insensitive considering the very high chance that I might have it. I have been told by my counsellor and mental health nurse that I show all the symptoms, my friend who I live with is the one suggested that I have it due to how I behave. and having read about it from medical books and sources I feel even more strongly that I have it. I can't know for a fact, but all the evidence points towards it. I can't see a professional soon because I can't afford it, doesn't mean I have to wait for 18+ months on the NHS waiting list before I can acknowledge to myself and prepare myself for this diagnosis. if you knew how debilitating my symptoms were, you wouldn't even come on here to question my "self-diagnosis"

[@khairahboukhatem5669]

@@joeheller7581 i feel exactly the same! two-year NHS waiting list, spotted by a GP, from a horrendously poor family so can't afford private, had to take time out due to extreme SH related to ADHD breakdowns so all my work money / student loan goes on rent... as if we don't have the right to say we suffer!

[@joeheller7581]

@@khairahboukhatem5669 I am sorry you're having these problems, too. I really hope that once I get a job I can save up to see someone soon, because the way I am living now is not even living.. you should see what a mess every single thing in my life is and 90% of that mess wouldn't exist if not for me adhd.. but we have to stay hopeful and not lose hope that we can be helped regardless of whether we have ADHD. I know its easy to say and I'm not sure how much I believe this personally, but if I know one thing in life is that trying to have a positive outlook is certainly not going to harm us. all best xxx

[@noorsmind7174]

this made me cry - adhd in uni is a level of frustration i cant explain i literally used to wake up thinking you lazy failure

[@thobaaa]

Thank you so so much for making this video. Your video prompted me to actually go and get an assessment and I have since had a diagnosis for inattentive ADHD. My whole life actually makes sense now and I can finally stop blaming myself for what I now know to be symptoms of my ADHD.

[@svetavinogradova4243]

ADHD cannot explain anything - just because is it only a label for the same behaviours that you knew about for years. Have you been coughing - well, you now have a cough disorder. This is not an explanation. The same would be to call it "Absent Daddy Home Syndrome"2!

[@Reeeeeee3333]

@@svetavinogradova4243 Psychiatrists and clinical psychologist wouldn’t put it in the bloody DSM-5 if it wasn’t a real disorder mate.

[@svetavinogradova4243]

@@Reeeeeee3333 It is a real SOCIAL disorder affecting the whole life of the disordered person. Nobody states anything about any medical nature of this disorder. A child who is not trained to obey, be patient, work hard, will not have skills to obey, be patient and to work hard. This will cause disfunction in academic learning and make the person disruptive and in need of suppression. To excuse chemical suppression of the protesting disordered young people, the code has been created for ADHD. Absent Discipline Home Disfunction.

[@mireya2273]

Considering you struggled to find motivation during the lockdowns, it’s incredible that you managed to find motivation to do the trial and error process and finally find out what was up. Good on you

[@h.a3487]

Watching this video is so insane because I went through literally everything your saying at quite a similar timeline too lol and just recently got diagnosed. Thanks for making this video and helping to raise more awareness!

[@VQUV]

This is insanely relatable, thank you for this video! Going through my own journey right now, wishing nothing but the best for you!!

[@jessd4770]

I always thought I didn't have ADHD because I do well at school (IE if I was inattentive surely I would get bad grades) even though I have several symptoms but because you are so smart I think I might go and get it checked

[@stephryland8157]

I always felt the same way but the feeling of coasting is very real 😭 a lot of the smartest people have adhd, it’s a huge misconception that good grades should prove otherwise. Hopefully we can all work to change that idea - I hope you find whatever answers you need!

[@maliamalis6389]

@@stephryland8157 I wish I was one of those smart adhd ppl cause I can’t focus on anything including my uni work 😭 it’s distressing

[@rachy001]

ur the only person i don't skip ads for

[@samo917]

Damn dude. Congrats on the diagnosis. I understand for quite a few folks it can be a period of grief, i.e. looking back on what could have been had the diagnosis been made earlier, I know it was for me. If it, I hope you're coping with it well mate.

[@Bananaboat13798]

Just diagnosed in my twenties after burnout and really bad mental health episode , feels good to have an answer and solutions 😊

[@ellalia354]

Oh yes. My favourite people have ADHD and when I first started watching your videos, I assumed you have it. It's a journey being diagnosed late in life, and I'm excited for you to learn how ADHD is also the foundation of the parts of yourself that you love: your humour, your creativity, your charisma, your curiosity and your love for learning (and so much more). We're blessed to have you in this community.

[@prettypoetess_]

when you talked about doing presentations omg that's so me 😭​😭​i talk so well during and really make sure that the audience is engaged but when it comes to actually sitting down and doing the PPT I just can't... like I'll sometimes even do all the research and the only thing left is the PPT and I just shut down-

[@puppythevampireslayer4998]

IBZ!!! Welcome bestie!!!! You *HAVE* to read Driven to Distraction by Dr Ed Hallowell (ik reading is not our strong suit but it’s like reading the results of a personality quiz). It is the definitive guide to understanding how an ADHD brain works. It totally changes how you see yourself and your entire life & how you manage your mental health. Good luck!!!

[@izzykate1806]

Currently on the referral wait list, have been psyching myself up to watch this video because I know it’s gonna make me emotional. Before I even click play, thank you for sharing your experience ❤️

[@kimthegrey]

It is very mind blowing to me that you describe your ADHD sympthomes exactly like how I experienced mine.... I haven't seen anyone else describing their adhd in a way that matches my struggle so closely. I have my ADHD combined type diagnosis since last May, but still doubting everything, so hearing your story is very validating. Good luck on your ADHD journey!

[@neetu3230]

We’ve missed you Ibz. Cracking us up as always. Love and solidarity 🤗 and DON’T SKIP THE ADS

[@maddykbass]

This is one of the best descriptions of adhd I've ever heard 👏

[@indeeditiscirro]

IBZ HI we missed you so muchhh also I have Aspergers and I think I have ADHD amd I'm so glad you're talking about this

[@ba1354]

At 10.39 where you’re describing how you stopped working and only focused on your uni work and just couldn’t really opened my eyes. I feel like the pressure of doing so many things and having only limited time to do uni work you will get shit done. Otherwise it’s a long day filled with apathy and distractions. Bruh I can relate

[@shaanzaeshahid3030]

Recently discovered your channel and I was so sad that you hadn’t posted in a while, so really glad to see you post!

[@hollyli9651]

Hi Ibz ! After watching this vid I cried cuz I relate on this so much. I have suspisions about this however I can not have access to professionals to get fully diagnosed due to stigmas around mental health issues in my family . I realllyyy hoppe you can create a vid about your current update in your adhd journey and treatment in this ect, and maybe share some advices on what to do if you cannot get access for diagnosis or have to leave it undiagnosed for some time. Thankyouu soooooooooooo muchhhhhh.

[@stephryland8157]

I know I’ve said something to this affect to you already but lemme comment here for the algorithm xx You being open and transparent about this is more important than I think you will know for a while yet. When that peak study KZbin era was around I honestly couldn’t relate to literally any of them (tbh it feels now like a bit of a prelude to productivity culture but I don’t believe in any way that anyone was being negative in that way) except for you. Something in your energy and the way you explained things just clicked for me. Ad-hd attracts lmao. In a lot of ways I’m glad I didn’t know I had ADHD until adulthood because I wouldn’t have had anyone to really turn to as a kid, and when adversity hits everything’s already amped up to 10 as you know well. It’s so nice now to see that those who I did feel comfortable looking up to in those times actually understands the way that I’ve seen the world. Waking up in a world that wasn’t built for you and not knowing why is a struuuuuggle yet you and I and so many others are able to embrace this now. So, thank you for your candour, I’m excited for whatever comes next for you 💕🐧

[@MrJellybeen]

Your back!

[@IbzMo]

I promise I'm back!

[@priyachithra1039]

Im so glad that you have gotten your diagnosis. Im waiting for my appointment in September. I realised I had adhd through my teacher. Im so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️

[@vtee361]

Welcome back. Wishing you all the best for the future

[@KenDay]

Been watching from the start and so relieved and happy that you are on a healing journey Ibz. Much love ❤️

[@saraheboon]

I was diagnosed at 25 and it explained a lot for me! Glad you now have a better understanding of yourself

[@louisa_hy548]

Ibz I am so incredibly proud of you! You have accomplished so much and are an excellent role model for anyone! Keep shining bright and thank you for the informative video! :)

[@deanfields5242]

Great to see you back man it,s nice to see you still smiling

[@oumaimaharich3282]

I am facing same issue thank u for pointing this topic Ibz

[@madeleinec1107]

Love you, Ibz! I'm self-diagnosed autistic, and am so happy you've found out about this part of yourself. Take your time to come to terms with it and I hope you can be proud eventually!

[@kingofblox2976]

So nice of Ali Abdaal to help you out

[@IbzMo]

Lol it wasn’t him.

[@kingofblox2976]

@@IbzMo Lol, the details would have matched up tho🤣 Great video

[@doieslove1290]

This means so much to me

[@xerrrrtt]

Thank you for sharing this

[@kinchan7558]

Brilliant. In so many different ways - love to see u back.

[@aliyacuud5756]

I missed you 😩 can’t wait for your next upload. Sorry to hear you have been going through it in private- wishing all the best.

[@stevenanderson5811]

look it makes you even better you inspire me as a guy to better for myself so it makes everything you done even better

[@BC-xu8yq]

Thanks for sharing ibz. Excellent research and info too

[@annabelgoodby772]

This video was so informative. As a long time subscriber, I appreciate your continual honesty and growth. You're awesome, inspiring and I hope you're doing well! (Watching ad rn)

[@rebeccans7729]

Aw Ibz I’ve missed you. Sending so much love, thank you for sharing ❤️❤️

[@tracymason2384]

Great to have you back Ibz

[@selenathesparklycabbage]

I MISSED YOU AND YOUR IBZ HUMOUR SO FXCKING MUCHHHHH😭😭😭💕💕💕💕

[@kaymccat8084]

This is crazy good timing as I am also getting diagnosed with ADHD too!!!

[@janelleevans8793]

So brave! Always inspiring xx

[@sumk2031]

So proud of you ! ❤

[@kasloywinters6687]

"oh my god i'm so depressed i have uncontrollable diarrhoea" REAL

[@briarcurley4123]

:3 Me loving various youtubers for their energy, humour, way of explaining........... then it turns out they.... and now myself... have adhd. :)

[@Olo_211]

Notifications working fine 😍

[@busayooyedoyin933]

I get this so much! Sending you love x

[@Roshy1234]

Proud of you ❤️

[@blinky28890]

OMGGGGGG IBZZZZZ I HAVE MISSED YOU!!!! I’m going to make some tea to enjoy this video 😍

[@blinky28890]

Also thank you for speaking about this as I feel adhd is something that’s it’s cool and it really isn’t

[@sethennis3316]

Since I had to pay for the NHS for being an international student in the uk I thought I might seek out a diagnosis, the struggles you describe I’ve completely had to deal with. Simply can’t start shit, periods of being very productive, adhd best explains to me why I’m like this. I’ve thought this way for the past 5 years, but I also felt that left untreated my symptoms got worst.

[@svetavinogradova4243]

a lazy bratty child of an overprotective mother is your diagnosis.

[@jamaalafzal9981]

Miss your vids!

[@ametrinemoon]

I am neurodivergent as well, I had speech therapy at primary school (big flag?) and finally got diagnosed whilst at uni in my early twenties, I'm in my 40's now. Mine prevents me from driving as I have low reflexes as well as sequencing and me being meeeeeeh. For those of us who didn't go to uni or get diagnosed through college, for dyspraxia that is even a private only thing for adults and everything including coping mechanisms are geared to kids, when you are an adult you are pushed back as if it say, you've managed it all your life.

[@charlotte6175]

Amazing video! I'm grateful you made it

[@Lindalu129]

I missed this man soooooooo much

[@aminakayani3468]

Not me laughing at 14:04 when I have the same questionnaire sitting in my desk drawer from a month ago

[@noorsmind7174]

I just got diagnosed privately too and there are just so many obtsacles - its so depleting and depressing cuz the next hurdles is paying for treatment which only 1 year of would amount with this place to 3000 pounds maybe . its really just so disheartening - and then theres the imposter syndome with private even though i know without a shadow of a doubt that i have adhd , it can feel like your being percieved or just internal sense that you paid for a label especially if you afterwards realise you cant afford the next steps - sad times iin the united kingdom

[@busayooyedoyin933]

Thank you too adjectives as describing words 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@KE_149]

You shouldn’t be ashamed of having ADHD it’s who you are and you should be proud of yourself for who you are ☺️

[@violahelen_]

❤️❤️ watched all the ads xx

[@user-by2bu3pv4e]

I've missed you so muchhhh 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[@Alisha-jb4bc]

Ibzzzz we missed u!!

[@user-by2bu3pv4e]

It took me forever to do my DSA forms for the condition I have due to the condition I needed it for. There has to be a better way of doing it 😂😂😂

[@lylabellamy9963]

omg this is the video I didn't know I needed to watch!!! I was recently diagnosed with ADHD (combined type) after having the worst year. I would love to be involved in the Patreon community. How do I find out more about it? xx

[@laxmi4685]

if you dont mind me asking, how long did it take you to get diagnosed?, i heard the waiting list is one year to four...

[@sophiehead413]

i relate to the private adhd cost - potentially having to move college bc mine cant fund my medication titration and I'm about to go into 3rd year psych

[@mareeyamasinghatey]

We miss youuuuuuu!!!!🥹

[@IbzMo]

missed you more!

[@aaliyahhhhhhh335]

Im still watching your old videos and watch the ads so you get the money for your Law Career

[@neec1234]

nd u still conquered oxford! kween

[@indeeditiscirro]

Ffs H pylori I forgot all about that person

[@danix4919]

this video means a lot to me. i’m not officially diagnosed but i really do relate to every aspect of this vid 😢

[@user-by2bu3pv4e]

I have been I have adhd tendencies but can't afford to get tested 🙃

[@syubiased6854]

im already laughing haha missed you

[@moyoaina370]

I've never related so much to something in my life

[@Ayylex]

Got into Russel Group with poor GCSEs (3s, 4s & 5s) with ADHD similarly to yourself. silly brain is causing me silly problems.

[@schoolinwithsig5438]

Best believe I watched those ads ❤

[@m00nwalker32]

I have a question I’ve been looking into adhd for a few months now and I’ve just started therapy but I don’t have a diagnoses or anything. I know you got a bunch of A* at A-level and killed it And I’m wondering how you mustered up the motivation my motivation seems to only come when a deadline is fast approaching and if I get random bursts of extreme motivation it only lasts for a few days and quickly defuses and then I wait for the next deadline because it’s hard to muster up the motivation to start and get going. But how did you do it?

[@user-dt8ky2sn3k]

I think you have to focus on your discipline, motivation only gets you so far. Its doing the work especially when you dont feel like it

[@emrarahi3742]

I have become the victim of the same atrocities and noticed the same pattern of symptoms at exactly the same time as you and many of your followers have mentioned( the beginning of the pandemic). It does not fit into any of the behaviour patterns that I used to have prior to the lock down considering the patterns, longevity, intensity and other factors . In my case, the targeted areas have been studying, exercising and sleeping. At first when it started it caused me to collapse (toxic gas) and after my third collapse it changed to the symptoms identical to the ones that you mentioned in the video. Most importantly the way in which the symptoms behave is of outmost importance !!! Is it a coincidence that we all suddenly developed ADHD or something interesting is going on??? I would be interested to know your thoughts. Kind regards EmRa

[@slickjumpedoverthelazydog]

good video

[@pregerzoreo4886]

You should look into Sami timimi

[@notexactlyscience]

im still trying to get that adhd diagnosis! psychologists think im too smart for it, but i may want to just self diagnose at this point,tbh. sometimes i cryyyyy because of the forgetting! A note, though: after this it's gonna get easier to know why you do certain things and manage your way through it. meds and diagnosis alone will not be as life changing as that. :D also, r/ADHD is vey helpful!

[@svetavinogradova4243]

Don't cry. Simply eat a pack of wasabi each time you forget things. You will soon remember.

[@aaliyahhhhhhh335]

Hello Hi How have you been, gosh I have so many questions

[@IbzMo]

pls ask away!!

[@abidabegum8069]

Now I think I have adhd 🙃 everything makes sense

[@theahegwood]

How many degree’s do you have? Also hope your doing well and if you moved to a new place hope it’s going well!

[@sharonberhane8]

He has an undergrad from Cambridge in HSPS (mainly focused on Sociology and Psychology) and a masters degree from Oxford in education.

[@sairac4337]

@@sharonberhane8 actually his undergrad is in Psychology (he switched)

[@sharonberhane8]

@@sairac4337 he switched to a psychology degree yeah but he still studied sociology from the HSPS course as far as I’m aware. That’s why I mentioned both subjects since you can study modules in psychology with HSPS.

[@jersey282]

Not only do you have ADHD but you are also addicted to school! lol Isn't this like your 2nd law degree along with a bachelors and masters? Anyway, when you got into Oxford I was so looking forward to you being fabulous and making me laugh while you did that thang but you just....disappeared. We got like 2 or 3 videos which I was grateful for when they did appear. I thought, maybe he is too busy, too dedicated to this degree to be making videos...living your best life (in this effed up world) without us. And that would have been cool! But to hear it was actually you struggling, that's sad and I hate that you didn't get the most out of your Oxford time and get to enjoy how amazing it was to not have to work while at a top school. I hope everything works out now that you have a diagnosis and are on meds to alleviate some of the symptoms and maybe you can learn habits that can also circumvent when your brain is trying to sabotage your hustle.

[@assimgreen9806]

man we missed u, u cut us off one year and just show up without explaining anything

[@ninawildr4207]

Just get rid of carbs

[@Rachel_Tensions]

yasss ❤️🏳️‍🌈

[@notexactlyscience]

ad-hd🤣

[@hollyli9651]

Hi Ibz ! After watching this vid I cried cuz I relate on this so much. I have suspisions about this however I can not have access to professionals to get fully diagnosed due to stigmas around mental health issues in my family . I realllyyy hoppe you can create a vid about your current update in your adhd journey and treatment in this ect, and maybe share some advices on what to do if you cannot get access for diagnosis or have to leave it undiagnosed for some time. Thankyouu soooooooooooo muchhhhhh.