☯The Diary of a Depressed Child | Part 2☯

[@creepyanimegirl7608]

It's always sad reading old diaries when you had and have depression because you feel like your reading the diary of a completely different kid and your reading all the sadness and despair.

[@lidiainna]

this is so sad how depressed you where at such a young age

[@leseanicole]

I have been battling with Depression for almost 15 years. I dont think it will go away💔

[@ninac7471]

and here i am again 2 years after discovering your channel, after already having seen every video of yours multiple times, rewatching all of your videos again. I'm so proud of how far you've come. ily

[@milliedrew4613]

I've never re-read a journal... and I have a full box of full journals in my closet. I guess they served their purpose, and I don't have the guts to read any of them.

[@__mastershifureads__]

I'm really relieved that I'm not the only one that did the "my blood" thing.

[@avaako]

when she mentioned MCR i started crying even harder...literally SOBBING

[@Lunarosalina]

I hate myself for not bawling my eyes out through this

[@iforgotmynameagain9512]

trippy hippy same

[@saradahokage2999]

I think that that moment when u put the blood on the paper is the moment when u alredy saw self harming like a relief of all the pain u where feeling. Idk. Maybe im just talking nonsence but im a seof harmer too and i remember how i used to like that red color, color of blood and how i would always punch into something when i get mad/angry just so i can feel phisical pain and dont have to focus on what hurts inside. Anyways i really love all of your videos and u really inspire me and i can realate it to what ure saying really deeply and thats helps me feel better. Thank u so much. ❤

[@lindsayludski]

Love your hair. And the rest of you.

[@MeerjungfrauLeonie]

Love your hair ❤️ & I hope you got over your depression :D.

[@mayaarmour14]

you are really amazing to put your diary online. i could never do this!

[@Marina-jo5yv]

I was crying the whole time during this video I can’t, I know exactly how u felt I did the same thing in my diary with the blood

[@calirodriguez]

when you were reading about the one from February 3rd that was the day I turned 4 and a lot happened that month and now I'm having all these memories asdfghjkl

[@ava_and_emma7483]

I haven't seen my mom in 10 years and I would cry when I talked because my adopted mother would tell me I was just like my real mom and it got to so when I would go the Store I would look around and wonder if any of the people around me were my mother just so I could tell her how much is left of my life and I miss her so much and that I want her to come home and that I want her to stop fighting with dad I got to see her but I didn't feel anything I didn't feel happiness but I didn't feel overwhelmed I just felt like I was meeting someone new that had no value in my life

[@brookebennett8640]

you should do more of these, if you're in the place to be able to do so.you got me looking for my journal from when i was 9, struggling with depression.

[@jishwassmlfrenatthephandom2022]

I've never thought of things like this in this light. She was so young... It's sad.

[@joanaoliveira7770]

You have so much beauty I love you and I want you to know that I found my strength in you, hope you're okay

[@imtrash6389]

I love my chemical romance so much. ❤️

[@cutiepie6115]

Im Trash Me too!

[@freezedriedfruits]

same

[@littlemissemogirl7559]

my depression started when i was 10 :/

[@katiecave8868]

I went through the same thing. Had depression since the summer of 2012. I have bad time and better times but I was never happy. Nothing could and I get lost to the point where I committed suicide two times. During 2015 I found out my mom felt the same thing and she said she took medicine everyday to help her so she said she'll take me to a therapist to help with how I'm felling. Later I found out I have serve depression, panic disorder, and anxiety. We went to the doctors and the prescribed me Zoloft. These past 5 months that I've been taking it have been amazing for me. People in my life have realized I'm a lot happier. And it makes me even more happy to say that I AM happy.

[@bobsherwood4537]

Katie Cave Thank you for sharing this, Katie. You've inspired me to keep going.

[@iamcreepsmcphanthebananabi4627]

Mcr for life

[@cutiepie6115]

IamCreepsMcPhan TheBananaBichBro Yas

[@doivnjoijf814]

I feel you i'm like it now at 11 exact same feelings

[@aimeeasper2728]

Hi I've started to watch your videos and they mean a lot to me. I'm going through the things that's your going through and I'm almost glad that I'm not alone in this journey. At my school for health we have to fill out a paper for depression and I show all the symptoms. I already know that I am but I really don't want my parents to find out. They are just going to tell me to suck it up but it's to hard. Idk y I put all of that but to get down to the point .... Please stay alive and keep me alive by making more videos they make me happy

[@rollox1519]

I had a diary from when my parents split up and I lived in my friends house for ages and its way better than my life now coz I had friends and they looked out for me and even if you're going threw a bad time but have friends around life is still fun but now I have no friends and am lonely and bored and living in the past and I keep looking back at that diary and miss those days :(

[@Oscar101101101]

I spent like 15 mins trying to figure out what front porch step song was playing in the background xD

[@jemmasan4877]

the past will stay there if you let it

[@keliswilcox8628]

So she cut when she was 9/10? Im so sorry i don't know her name, this is like the 6th video I've watched.

[@diydaimy7742]

Yeah She did

[@_eviegx]

Her name is Ana 😊

[@lilliebutler4733]

she cut when she was 9 i though t i was the only kid who cut but i was like 7

[@keliswilcox8628]

Lillie Butler I didn't know what cutting your body meant when I was seven, although unfortunately I found out and started cutting myself :/

[@brighteyes7591]

I scratched myself when I was 10/11/12 because I didnt have razorblades but I at first just used my nails until I started using scissors, knives, & pins. I eventually started using blades, however. Even though self harm wasnt an everyday thing back then, I attempted suicide multiple times. I remember my first suicidal thought was when I was 8 years old.

[@creeplant2973]

How old was your sister bianca in this time? It is heartbreaking to hear what you've had to go through... You are such a strong girl and your videos are awsome❤️ i think you are that kind of person i'd love to have in my life 😅. Keep staying that strong :) you are the lovliest person ever ☄

[@gymgod7212]

your hair is life

[@Ta1kesh]

looking back on my past like this always breaks my heart. i remember as a kid i would lay in bed awake counting the different ways i could kill myself in my bedroom the way another child might count sheep. fall off the top bunk.. get crushed by the book shelf.. electricuted by the socket.. so how do we accept the fact that we've lost the majority of our childhood to our illnesses? am i supposed to just be okay with it? i feel like i've missed out on so much.

[@eleanorgreen1315]

Hair 😍 You're soo brave x

[@katethecreative6352]

My mom is dead and you inspire me

[@michellekhorozyan5055]

When you were talking about your mom my mom called asking me if I was okay cuz I was home alone

[@aaliyahbohny8475]

omg I'm 11 and I started doing that stuff at 9 😭 idk what to do

[@lotanneJCH]

FRONT PORCH STEP AH

[@slaysavage5167]

I'm only 11 years old...and I feel worthless and not needed I cry mostly every night...when I'm at school I'm happy and smiling...My depression started when I couldn't see my niece..they toke her away from me AWAY FROM ME...I WONT BE ABLE TO SEE HER NEVER AGAIN BECAUSE OF THEM !!...I just wanna see her..Its been a year....My mom doesn't understand..Nor my dad..I just wanna see my niece...If I don't see her in another year....I'm Done....

[@paigepattison2966]

Its ok you're going to be ok I promise

[@slaysavage5167]

+Paigey Potamus No I'm not at least the pain will be over when I leave this world

[@toonax6958]

+Frederica Marshall Darling, I'm serious. It's okay, there are other people in the world that feel like you. I have felt like you before. I didn't get to see my mom in 5 years, not even my brothers. Heck, I haven't seen my older brother since I was around 2 years old and I'm almost 15 now. Trust me, everything is alright. I know right now, you don't believe you will get better. But honestly I felt like that last year. I felt like I would never get better and I am not good enough for the world, IT DOES GET BETTER TRUST ME! Please protect yourself and help yourself, it does get better. Try and tell someone how you feel, it took me 2 years to tell someone, and I told my cousin. I could hardly tell her, it was so hard but I managed to tell her. I let her tell my grandma (who is my legal guardian) and I got referred to a psychologist and honestly, I'm still dealing with some depression and it hurts but I am a lot better than I was. Please believe me when I tell you.... THINGS DO GET BETTER PLEASE. I know it hurts now but when you over it, you'll think to yourself 'Wow, I did get better, It feels so much better to actually be happy'. Please, I want you to be happy. You're still a beautiful young girl, you've got a lot of life to live! Stay strong gorgeous

[@slaysavage5167]

+Toona x Thanks 😃

[@toonax6958]

You're welcome :) , remember, there are people who truly love you and would hate if anything were to happen to you! There is always help if you need it. Stay Strong

[@breannajess7251]

This song❤️

[@Sophiesticateduhhuh]

wow, our lives are so similar its insane! god it so weird, we should seriously talk sometime so i can explain all the similarities

[@lincelljackson8911]

I’m 20 days without cutting

[@almacruz404]

i have like 6 journals just from freshman year to now ive had more when i was younger but i lost them or someone took them

[@jessdixon9869]

I started young to dw 😭

[@ainehall9932]

hairr😍😍

[@sharnyiaselvan819]

Omfg i'm from Malaysia and bindis are not toys hahah

[@DetlefNudelauflauf]

+Sharnyia Selvan What are they? :)

[@SexualizingTheHolocaust]

+Ronnie Pickering in Australia they're drugs

[@gilmoregirlies101]

There those things a lot of south Asians wear on their heads (those jewel stuff) and sometimes it's a dot

[@iforgotmynameagain9512]

at 2:15 I heard someone cough outside my apartment door and she looked to the side as if she heard it

[@CandidKeychain]

I watched this on Mothers day. :/

[@lyannbouman62]

What school did you go to when you lived in Malaysia?

[@jacquelinecalderwood3062]

Can you do a video of where you have lived?

[@kylieh8101]

no one understands me ppl hate me because im trans and my school hates me bc of my scars

[@wherethah03zat]

Well they can all fuck off okay?Youre a lovely human being and just keep going😘If you ever need to talk dm on ig @graceisabella._

[@kylieh8101]

Grace Isabella thx a lot

[@wanderingsnowflake5874]

+Kyle Harassement I hope you're okay! I care for you and many people do. If u need anything , ask for my social media

[@creepyanimegirl7608]

+Kyle Harassement There all wrong. And no one has the right to judge your body or you as a person because they don't know you. Your a beautiful being, and I hope you can realize (if you haven't already) that your amazing and your body is the only thing we own truly. If you want to change it you can and no one has the right to tell you otherwise.

[@alexalong1742]

Ik how you feel please don't lose hope. Trans stick together

[@hannahgorochow992]

I love mcr

[@samreeves4801]

This got me a higher level than my chemical romance emo

[@haydenkrauss4734]

March 8th is my birthday

[@polomint4381]

Your brother (Bianca) is like mine

[@ameliaheythere4392]

💗♥️

[@tf3confirmedbuthv54]

Are you ok right now

[@slopez6332]

I need a friend. Anyone. I need someone to talk to...

[@adnalove9467]

I'll be your friend. Do you have instagram?

[@funnylaurenc]

I'll be your friend I also need some friends. Desperately

[@Olivia-ot1vc]

+PHAN me too

[@ominous_11]

Phanima I can be your friend

[@cutiepie6115]

Phanima This is an old comment but if you need someone to talk to my instagram is ; music luver4

[@bruhbruh7927]

Same name just mine has and 2 n's

[@lyannbouman62]

What school did you go to when you lived in Malaysia?