The Healing & Helplessness After Top Surgery

This is a mini Documentary of my healing process after top surgery starring Allen (username: theSLOfox). I feel great, and grateful for all the people who made this possible. As you can see, I'm a little baby for a few days, and I still will need time to recover, but I'm off to a great start!

[@NeonKodiak]

Allen seems like a really good caretaker! Glad you're feeling good and everything went well Forrest!

[@lincolntiffin]

Strut my brother, strut! You have earned it.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Watch out world!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

My friend that was just so beautiful to watch. Thank you for sharing yourself and your surgery journey with us. It brought back so much for me, those indescribable feelings of a literal weight finally removed from our chest. It's wonderful how those that love us come together to support us, it makes us for the medical profession neglecting us so badly. Happy healing. Positive vibes to you as always

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much. I am eager to be able to do more, but am waiting as best I can. I've returned to my isolated town where people know less about me, & the beautiful experience I've just had. I am so thankful for this beautiful comment. Hugs to you!

[@alexhaney100]

this was the happiest cutest most bromantic thing I've seen in a long time!

[@ClosetTransgender]

I was close to proposing...:)

[@TheSLOfox]

:) We did actually have visions of getting hitched and going off on many camping trips together.

[@alexhaney100]

TheSLOfox ClosetTransgender and I'd hope that you would continue to document this in this style, purely for our entertainment ;)

[@smeather87]

My surgery is only a day away and I was searching for some comfort. I thank you for making this video. Especially towards the end when you said, "Don't be afraid when it's your turn."... the tears starting falling... that was the most comforting thing I've heard! Thank you!

[@sammcbride8013]

I love this video SO much. The love, brothers, the fun! What a couple of cutie pants.

[@TheSLOfox]

"the closest I'll ever be to feeling like a prince." LOL!!!! love it. That's awesome that you got Dr. Satterwhite to be in the video. You look so great in the footage from after you got the binder off! Fantastic man chest! Sweet t-shirt! I'm so excited for you, Forest. This is a wonderful video! You put it together so good. I love the footage from when you were alone at my house! haha. I'm thankful to have spent that time with you--I'm really glad to have gotten to know you better. Here's to more hanging out in the future!

[@ClosetTransgender]

I'm going to watch this whenever I miss you. We took it to a new level, I'm so thankful sweet brother!

[@Doublehlshot]

Like it's been said but worth repeating, so happy for you Forrest! I loved this surgery video. It gave me a better idea of the recovery and that it is possible to accept help from others to get it done. Glad you had the support and friendship to help you through it. Allen's a great guy. Look forward to your future videos.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! Every kind word goes straight to my heart, so repeated words just feel sweeter & sweeter. The help from others is important! It really was hard to turn on and off a light switch that first day. Sometimes we are reminded of how it feels to be a baby, and its nice to have some support around as needed. We lean on others and at times they will lean on us. The ebb and flow of life! It was nice bringing a friendship to that level. I am honored & humbled. Thank you for this beautiful comment.

[@proudvirginian]

What a wonderful video. Congratulations. I'm very happy for you. I was fist pumping and woohooing for you. It was nice to see Allan again. The toothbrush bit was hysterical. Again, congratulations.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Nice! It makes it sound like my mini documentary was as exciting as a sports game! I must say... I do feel like a winner! So thank you for the applause, it makes me feel like standing tall with my chest out!

[@marlonquarry5233]

Congrats! Great video. Awesome bromance. :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

Pretty cute? Right? Thank you so much.

[@sammcbride8013]

And that surgeon! I love him, too! I want him to be my surgeon! So happy for you. I can't wait! I'm not afraid!! Stoked!!

[@mellylavi]

i love how you never loose your spirits forest! congratulations, you deserve this!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much! On many days I was feeling like a happy baby!

[@Zedie36]

So happy for you. Love the birds chirping in your peaceful moment. Keep healing well :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

I'm always thinking about you. In fact, I was thinking about what a bad ass you are! These surgeries & recovery are more work than the unaffected can imagine. I miss you bud!

[@TnDon]

Congratulations, Forest. I know it's going to make a big difference in your life. Look forward to updates!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much! I will keep you up to date. So far, so good!

[@reneerobinson3559]

Omg you look so cute when recovering! Like a little puppy. I know you were pain, but cool you could find humor. You seem very loved, you're blessed.

[@ljmotorcyclegrl]

Congratulations Forest! What an amazing week for you! Documented so well.!! Watching you and @TheSLOfox together is like watching Batman and Robin...??!! Oh well, definitely entertaining :) Thanks for sharing brother!

[@lincolntiffin]

I can feel your excitement! I'm so dang happy for you.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Lincoln Revere thanks! I'm trying not to strut around too much!

[@ichlesemit]

congrats forest, and good to see you re doing well! wooohooo its done! 💚

[@ClosetTransgender]

Green is my favorite! I love that heart!

[@torilhug3639]

I'm so happy for you!!! :') congrats man!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much!!!

[@coz9189]

Gosh, Allen is such a sweetheart. It's brilliant you have these people to care for you during the healing process. I'm so happy everything has gone well for you, Forrest! It’s been such a long journey. . .

[@ClosetTransgender]

Indeed! Thank you for being there in spirit! I love your kind comment, means a lot.

[@MichaelDavidRitchie]

congratulations on how far your transition has progressed! thank god for modern medicine

[@Shoezen00]

So happy for you Forest. Glad you were able to work everything out. Congrats!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! All the love & support has me healing nicely!

[@Liamlou712]

Forest I'm so happy for you!!! I hope you're healing well and feeling good :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! Kind comments like yours bring good healing & strength to my body & spirit!

[@littlemamaj98]

Ok I admit it I have been crying happy tears because even the sound of your voice there's a change there's of freedom I really can't put my finger on it because I'm so emotional and so happy that you're happy it's almost like your soul is smiling and you can tell that you feel complete you're an incredible individual you're an incredible man the messages and the inspiration that you give to others you know exactly where I'm going with this so I'm just going to stay you are loved by so many people including myself and I feel so blessed to have been able to by a piece of your art and you give me inspiration everyday Sarah was so worried about you having surgery and I told her you would be just fine and we are so happy I for once I'm speechless so on that note don't miss behave don't push yourself yes those days you're feeling like you can do something and you know you shouldn't please don't we love you keep healing well keep the positive energy flowing and know that yes all those prayers I really do have to say that are happy dances we hope helped you hurt less and stay positive when you were hurting more and yes you have a long road ahead of healing but now it's awesome it is so awesome to see the man you have grown into so many times you make videos and you focus on other people helping them reassuring them and much love to you forest you deserve only good things to come!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you both! You were sending the good energy! I could feel it! Lots of recovery to go, but off to a wonderful start!

[@wesly1503]

Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you. This is life changing!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you buddy, you've been right there with me!

[@irenedailey7499]

What a sweet boy you are, Forest! I'm so glad my Allen was able to help you. Best wishes to you!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much! I am very grateful for the wonderful care. We deepened a good friendship. The kind, nurturing nature of Allen led to a fast and joy filled recovery. You made a good one!!! I will always be there now, we got each others' backs.

[@SELKILKT]

CONGRATS MAN :D so happy for you!!

[@ClosetTransgender]

SELKILKT I'm glad you are watching! I miss you man!

[@MaRta-py7mb]

So happy for you! I hope your recovery is going well and you're enjoying the real you :) By the way, I love it how you keep positive and smiling even after surgery! You're an inspiration.

[@keloreilly7017]

Yeah, Forest!!! This has been beautiful to watch. Know this...your sweet kind Spirit is what moved people to want to reach-out and help you. I am SOOO happy for you and look forward to hearing about your Journey from this point on. Bless you, friend.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I am so thankful for your support! All the love is helping me regain my strength & I am practicing walking straighter, taller and proud. You helped make this possible! I'll keep you posted! So happy!

[@MrJimmyBeat]

How could I miss this!!! What a great journey!! and Allan took care of u man

[@Rhaveyn]

You guys are so funny and I love how many people happily took care of you and helped you out. I'm really proud of you and happy for you that you could finally get this done for yourself. Well done, you. :)

[@pmbluemoon]

Top surgery coming up this week, had to visit your channel, THANK YOU!!! Glad to see you're doing alright, can't wait to share my results, I like to document before and after and during too! Thank you Allen for taking care of our buddy!!!

[@abovebelow4937]

Alright! This is wonderful Forrest! Congradulations!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much!!! I'm practicing standing straight!

[@zackriotpdx]

I am so happy for you Forrest! You look so calm and serene in the last scene. It's a beautiful thing!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you for being there... If you live in pdx--we gotta hang!!

[@caden4860]

So Happy for you Forest, hope you heal well and quick, sending positive thoughts your way!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much! You are making my day my friend! I am super restless waiting to be back to full capacity. Soon I hope!

[@nothingwasthesame13]

Congrats Forest happy for you Alan is a champ so nice of him to take such good care of you ! Great !!!!

[@tobyr3]

Congratulations on a very successful surgery. Allen to the rescue! That little reading was a nice touch. I was very impressed by all the support that came through.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thanks Vern! It's a great start to a new chapter of life!

[@Kaybunny]

I am soooo happy for you Forrest!! This is video made me tear up. Congrats Man you deserve to feel normal and natural.

[@ClosetTransgender]

You are a soft sweet heart. Thank you for the love!

[@taylorward2920]

Wow, congrats! It's great to see all the positive energy and laughs! I'm getting top surgery in a few days and am overjoyed.

[@jonekristiansen3664]

Congrats man:) Happy for you!

[@RubricalLou]

So happy for you Forrest :) glad everything went great. Your surgeon seemed like such a lovely man too!

[@ClosetTransgender]

The surgeon was very sweet! I am thankful for everything.

[@Gambeli02]

Your description of the binder and bandages keeping you all together... I'm thinking of a particular scene in Eraserhead. Congrats Forest!!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you buddy! I have yet to see that movie, maybe a good one for recovery. :)

[@sad_doggo2504]

Looking really good Forest, can't wait to see the final results. :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thanks for being there! Every kind word lives in my heart!

[@ukeball]

Ahhh dude! Congrats, glad to hear everything went well and sending further good vibes to you in the healing process =D

[@ClosetTransgender]

I'm glad you are out there! I miss you buddy!

[@thehappypineapple]

Congratulations Forest! Good luck in the continuing healing process.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! I have to remind myself to slow down. These scars need time.

[@eliellard]

awesome brother! Congrats Forrest proud of you and so very happy for you!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much brother! All the suport helps me heal!

[@lorralisa]

Congratulations Forrest, I'm so happy for you. Glad you are on the road to a speedy recovery from surgery. Just be mindful and don't over do yourself.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I really do need the reminder! Thank you so much. I feel your kindness!

[@CardboardCreative]

Hey man, congratulations! In that last little segment, you look so happy! It's so good to see this happening for you, and I wanted to say thanks for sharing the experience with your viewers. It was also so lovely to see your support system come together. Best wishes in your healing process, and in returning to work and your daily life! also that shot of alan brushing your teeth OMG

[@ClosetTransgender]

your comment is beautiful & affirming. I am glad you enjoyed the funny parts! It really went well. Thank you.

[@JayTee67]

Congratulations Forest. Glad everything went well and that you had good people to care for you. It probably was a plus to have someone who had been through the same surgery take care of you those first few days.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I've had some good advice from Allen & other transguys, Thamk you for your kindness too!

[@margharitta]

So happy for you Forest. Your friend Allen and all your other friends seem to be so nice people, well done for them to take care of their friend so well. I wish you a speedy recovery and looking forward to your next videos. Take care friend.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much. This support helps heal me!

[@erica1529]

Yay! I'm super happy for you Forrest (: you're a step further to being happy with yourself and i'm soooo proud of you. You've come a long way! Keep on keepin on (:

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! It's been a long ride! It has been wonderful with your support, thank you!!!

[@DRockTransMan]

Forest, This makes me so happy...may have shed a tear. Take it easy man, let your body do its thing. You're gonna have an amazing summer!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Oh man... I cannot wait for summer! Thank you, I feel you understand me well!!!

[@1PhotoGeek]

Congratulations Forrest, I'm so happy for you! I know you have waited a long time for this day. This has got to be one of the best recovery videos from top surgery I have seen. Funny and inspiring. Allen was so sweet. You two are funny together. I cannot wait until I have top surgery. I long for the day. Congrats Forrest! Cheers!

[@ClosetTransgender]

This was a special time. I am so thankful the way it worked out! Your sand boarding pic is awesome!!!!! The comment you have left is beautiful, I'm horored. There were some funny times for sure!!

[@transdespertar]

So happy for you Forest! Good vibes and energy to you!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thinking of you my friend! Thank you for watching!

[@jethrologan2361]

i myself am an ftm, and im about to undergo top surgery next month and this video is very inspirational to me, all your videos are. i just would like to thank you for posting videos like this one because it is scary to think about even more so to experience it. Your videos really are helping me get through this experience. god bless man:)

[@ClosetTransgender]

+Shanell Stefon Logan Thanks so much. This is one of my favorite videos and a good memory. I love that people are still able to get the goodness from it. I am really excited for you! It is great being binder free and gettin' that extra weight off... It's nice to know you are out there! I support you brother!

[@xJPxTSUKIx]

jethro Logan how did ur surgery go its 8 months later haha.

[@jethrologan2361]

my surgery went great thank you for asking. i had my surgery in san francisco with dr. kim shes great and my chest looks great. Recovery wasnt as bad as i thought it would be everything turned out to go as planned.

[@xJPxTSUKIx]

jethro Logan i am actully having my surgery a month from now haha.

[@jethrologan2361]

who are you having surgery with

[@MPimT]

What a lovely video! You and Allen look like you had a fun time together. Good luck with the rest of the healing.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I miss the guy! Thank you for being out there and sharing the kind thoughts!

[@Annie65H]

Love & hugs & continued prayers sent your way Forest !! Wonderful to have such good friends to take care of you! It looks as if you are recovering so well - looking great! :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

This was a special experience, unforgettable and memorable in so many different ways, thank you, I feel the prayers.

[@ZeBeFruity]

you are so generous for sharing on this deep level. i respect how calm you carried on through the entire process, surrendering to help as needed plus had a good time on top of it all. dang, the one time i am sick in five years coincided with your visit. . . much appreciation for the gesture though.

[@ClosetTransgender]

There will be another time! We will both get well soon!

[@ovh992]

So cool that you posted this! You are so handsome!

[@Balancedbitesandmoods]

This video is so amazing, congrats on your surgery! It's such a wonderful feeling to get those things off our chests. I love the footage of you washing a dish, it made me laugh so much. I wish you a speedy recovery and I'm sending positive thoughts your way. *hugs*

[@ClosetTransgender]

I'm so happy that part with the dishes made you smile! Cuz I was too!!! Thanks for the support and understanding, I'm enjoying the virtual hug!

[@videkoli9194]

LOVE this! I'm so happy for you. I'm having my surgery next month, and this made me smile and laugh and filled me with even more anticipation. You're looking great!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Months go by fast! It's just this thing we gotta do. Once this surgery happens, it's kind of annoying, slows you down-- but the results? Priceless. Things finally feel right!

[@pedroquintela9300]

Hi Forest congratulations on the top surgery, glad to know you´ve finally reach this far. Peace!

[@ClosetTransgender]

It means so much. Thank you for being out there, supporting me with kind words and thoughts!

[@RockinUK]

Congrats!!! Dr Satterwhite seems like a lovely guy and Allen sure looked after you. Great t see you guys together. I hope you continue to experience fast healthy healing. :-D

[@ClosetTransgender]

Everything sure did work out amazingly! I am so thankful... There were times when I was angry I couldn't do this sooner, but maybe it was meant to be, because timing wise this all just lined up. So gratful.

[@faronwatts4048]

Glad everything went well! Your very lucky to have such great friends.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I'm glad to have your sweet support! It really means a lot.

[@cordyceps144]

Bwahhhh this is awesome! Congrats! I've laughed a lot with this video, you look niiiiiiiice!!!

[@ClosetTransgender]

I wanted to laugh so much more during that time--- because it was funny! I smile upon the memories! Thank you friend!

[@SomeStuff9]

Happy to see you doing so well! It may sound weird, because I don't know you in person, but I was actually thinking of you on your day of surgery and since then, wondering how you were recovering. So happy for you man! Many congrats and thanks for updating your subscribers so soon. Several of your videos were meaningful to me as I began to embark on my path of self acceptance(still working on it) with my gender stuff. Congratulations Forest!! (and a shout out and thumbs up to Allen as well)

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you for sharing this. It's comments like this that really inspire me to keep making quality videos. I am thankful you wrote, it means a lot to me also

[@elliottgustafson6062]

This is an amazing video

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you! It's also one of my favorites!!!

[@SourPatches2077]

I look forward to seeing the results from this Dr. I had my consultation 2 weeks ago and I really liked him. Happy for you :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

I am happy for you! You are in good hands!! Keep me posted. Maybe we will have twin chests! Lol

[@Greyedable]

Very happy for you, Forrest!!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you!!

[@griffinvongabriel9369]

Congrats man:) Thanks Allan for helping him:) So happy that you could brush your teeth after day 1, I was scared for when it's mine turn. You look great:) later

[@ClosetTransgender]

Brushing my own teeth was feeling good. Every day I can do a little more, the human body is amazing!

[@Speakingyeah]

Congrats on your man chest Forest. It was great watching you being so positive throughout those days. My surgery is coming up in the near future and this was a good preperation video :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

This video is meant to help. Be brave, this is a weird duty we have! Lol. I'm here if you ever have questions or concerns.

[@lincolntiffin]

Congratulations! Glad you have so many friends that are there to help you. I hope that when my time comes, I'm just as blessed. Keep those videos rolling out.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I love the name Lincoln!!! And I love the love that surrounds us. A good community increases all kinds of healing. Thanks for your lovely comment.

[@lincolntiffin]

Thanks. How goes it. Feeling more and more like yourself??

[@ClosetTransgender]

Yes! But I feel like a version of myself that must hold back the desire to exercise, run and hike for a while. I must learn to slow down so my body can heal, but do I love my body? Yes, yes, yes. Now more than before!

[@jail.2501]

Love the way you did the video. Congrats.

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you for watching my friend! I appreciate you.

[@zackq6804]

WOW I´m so happy for you!! Hope you are feeling well and I wish you all the best!! I hope that your recovery continues to go smoothly ...//Zack

[@ClosetTransgender]

Zachary! Every kind wish has helped me so much, thank you for that.

[@BrieBrowne]

Great to see you have friends and supportive help, hope you feel fine in afew day, stay safe and stay well 💙💜brie💜💙

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you Brie! I feel the care & support, makes a huge difference!

[@David49889]

Great Forest! and great your friend!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you for watching!

[@LookItsTy]

I keep trying to figure out what I want to say because this is one of the best surgery videos I've ever seen. I'm so happy for you! Congrats! Thanks for making all of your awesome videos! How much pain would you say you've been feeling? Anyways, congrats again! Stay awesome and keep us updated :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

That means a lot! this comment brings a big smile & warmth into my heart. I would say day 2 or three was the most uncomfortable pain wise. But these days it doesn't hurt, just has the numb tingle which feels "creepy" but much better!!!!!!!

[@SuperTri1985]

i loooved this video. and the part washing the bowl lol

[@Codytalks11]

Big Congrats!! Glad you are recovering well! The nipples always weirded me out for quite a bit... haha enjoy your new chest :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

That's exactly the weirdest part. I have to mentally prepare the daily cleaning.

[@andrewkiwi1]

You are lucky Alan was there to help you. He made you a nice little nest in the bed. aww. You've been lucky with everyone there to help you. You've been wanting this for so long too and now all over and all you have to do is heal up. Take care No 2 dad.

[@ClosetTransgender]

you the best! couldn't have done it without you!

[@andrewkiwi1]

Its a shame i couldn't have given you more. BTW, screw work take the time off while you need to. Ill write them a letter LOL.

[@vegancomicnerd86]

This is a beautiful video.

[@ClosetTransgender]

This time will continue to touch my heart.

[@manoturner4589]

Awesome! I'm so happy for you! :-D

[@itscolehayes]

You are amazing.

[@alocoweed]

Woohoo! Congrats!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Oh yeah! Celebratin'

[@TheUnbreakableOne]

Heal up quick.

[@ClosetTransgender]

The body is amazing, combined with mental powers I got this! Sometimes the hardest part is all the relaxing required to heal, I need to remind myself not to move too fast. I am glad you are watching man, you've been good support for a long time.

[@TnDon]

I forgot to ask, Forest, you did have Dr. Crane do the surgery? I watched some of you other vids leading up to this and I heard Dr. Crane's name mentioned. You'd know Dade wouldn't lead you astray. If he says some doctor is good you can be pretty much assured it's the best information. Take care and don't push yourself too hard. I've had several major surgeries in my lifetime and I know something about letting the body heal. I'm thrilled you are on the other side of this milestone. Man, Allen was really a good person to help you through this. Kudos to Allen...oh, and the other folks too. Cheers! It's all uphill from here.

[@ClosetTransgender]

I went to Crane's clinic, but he mostly does lower surgery so I got someone trained by him. Life is good, results are looking great. Just the waiting, waiting to be fully healed, that's my big challenge at the moment.

[@DesignGuy17]

Congrats dude!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thanks friend!!

[@treblinka45]

Congrats man!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thanks bro!

[@BrieBrowne]

Good on you Buddy, Oh my god , my hormones just spun out of control, and for the first time I felt the lump in my throat, tears in my eyes, but really happy for you to Feel like the Man you were meant to be. 100% sexiness, oh yeah and those chin up pull ups at the beginning, gee wow you got my attention straight away.... Take care xx BRIE xx

[@ClosetTransgender]

This is such a cute comment. :)

[@jameshenrytrotter2520]

congratulations!

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thanks buddy!

[@alexella9689]

I am so happy for you. :)

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you so much

[@Mikmaqdrag]

Congrats ! ^_^

[@ClosetTransgender]

Thank you funny mischief maker!

[@Mikmaqdrag]

ClosetTransgender omg! i loved that game. michief makers on N64.