The last year hasn’t been pretty

[@TheEvolutionofJenniferJLewis]

This, too, shall pass. And you’re coming back better than ever.

[@TheEvolutionofJenniferJLewis]

Remember, life happens to all of us. And you absolutely rocked it out and still.

[@elemuri]

Happy you're coming back... Don't pressure yourself too much, your fans and followers are here for you... 😊

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much!!

[@ModaMisfit]

*Update:* Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments on this video. I truly am blown away by how kind and supportive you are. Just wanted to share a little update - on the very day this video went up, something happened in my personal life (if you saw my Instagram stories last night, you know what I'm talking about) that has completely devastated me. This thing that happened yesterday is part of the same year-and-a-half long saga I referred to in this video, which I genuinely thought was behind me. I thought things had gotten better, and on the exact day that I had a video talking about how much better things were, a huge setback occurred. Again, so sorry for being cryptic, but this involves more than just me so I simply can't go into detail. I want to go through and respond to each of your comments, but for now I just don't have it in me. Just know how much your love and support means to me. You are all incredible.

[@K4TH7D4V1S]

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry to hear that this time in your life isnt over yet. Sending you and yours peace and energy to get to a better place quickly.

[@liisaking1247]

Steffi, I'm so sorry that things are not okay again and that it happened right on the heels of you posting this video. Since I don't have Instagram, I haven't seen your stories but I'm sure it's very difficult to process. I'm sorry if I added in any way to the difficulty by letting you know last night that this video wasn't available. I totally understand if you were second-guessing the wisdom of having this up when things were going sideways again. But I *am* glad to see you making the effort. I knew, as we all did, that you were struggling, basically from the time of the move onward. I'm also in a really rough place at the moment, where everything that I've worked for (overall, for 17+ years, and recently, for the past couple of years) is basically for naught. That's a lot of money, time, energy, hard work, and planning down the tubes. I don't *like* what is going to become the "new normal" but I know I have to deal with it, so I get that you're having to make adjustments in order to move forward. I just want to say that I'm here for you (as are many, many of your subscribers) and that you can always reach out. You are, as you say, pretty powerful! Hugs!

[@AD-yk7mf]

Take your time! Don't let us be part of the burden we want to uplift you and are happy to see whatever video whenever! You're a very smart and sensitive creator that's why this thing is effecting you the way it is. Everything will work out for you ❤ ..... add the super thanks to your channel for those of us with gifting as our love language 😁

[@merylkleiman3930]

Listen, kiddo. You don’t owe an explanation for anything to anyone! Keep that in mind while you experiment with your perspective-ectomy!!

[@Yosoy919]

I love this very different KZbinr.

[@lindajohnson1873]

That’s real talk. A person’s home is a true reflection of his/her mental reality. Thanks for being so honestly human.❤

[@lawoman608]

Your life is your life with all ups and downs. And you are not alone

[@sharonmcbride2374]

Thank you for being so honest. I am so glad you are back. Sending health and happiness for the future.

[@bretthammonfilms7581]

I don’t know what specific battles you’re fighting, but as someone who has struggled firsthand with a lot of depression, anxiety (and in my case, panic attacks), I want to let you know that we are here for you. You bring so much joy and inspiration to your viewer’s lives, and I hope you feel that. Sending you all the prayers and support! You really are pretty powerful :)

[@ajdrew1661]

I just wanna say I found you a year ago when I had to move into my little studio apt. You helped me more than you know. I now LOVE my new little space. Hopefully, things are getting better in Steffi Land. 🤗

[@osteophagus]

My 9 year relationship ended at the end of last year and now I'm out completely on my own for the first time in my life at 29. It's been hard but I've gotten on the better side of it and I'm now enjoying having my own space and finding out who I am outside of that relationship. I actually found your channel while I was looking into how I was going to decorate and organize my little shoebox apartment! I'm glad you're back and I'm sorry you've been struggling, but hopefully the upswing continues for you :)

[@ModaMisfit]

So sorry to hear about your long-term relationship ending, but it sounds like you've done a wonderful job of rediscovering yourself! Breakups are so hard, but in the past I've found that after the initial pain, I grow into an even better version of myself as a single person!

[@AngelaNortonTyler]

"... gotten on the better side of it"- I like that. :)

[@angelalong6740]

I'm happy you're back. I had a hard season myself. My father passed last year so all I was motivated to do was eat, sleep,and go to work. I'm looking forward to your videos to inspire inspiration. My favorite saying my father always said was hard times come and it's up to us how we grow from that. Have a blessed year.❤

[@keikodesuu]

I'm sooo sorry Angela, I know this pain all too much. I just lost my dad last week, and it's still surreal. Sending you love and hugs. 💜

[@e1985-]

I'm so sorry that your father passed. Thank you so much for sharing his words with us; it sounds like he had a great perspective on things. ❤

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw Angela I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Thank you for sharing this here. I'm sending you tons of love!

[@ModaMisfit]

Oh no Keiko, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm sending you tons of love as well!

[@angelalong6740]

Thank you for your post. ♥️

[@beadekker8642]

Glad you’re back. Sending healing light your way.

[@spookylittlebooknerd]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I love that you gave yourself space. It’s so important and there’s nothing wrong with a break. *hugs*

[@margeeeeS]

Hi lovely one. So glad to see your face and hear your voice again. You have been missed. I have depression (ppl that have not experienced depression think its the same as sadness...its so different. Depression is more common that we know. So glad you are getting better. I am so excited for you and look forward to your vlogs.

[@elmwicks]

My dear I am so overjoyed that you are back! What you said just rings true - gotta get your head straight before you get your home straight which reminds us all that mental health is so important. ❤❤❤ Can’t wait to see what’s next for your channel.

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you Ella! 🥰

[@CaroleDesrochers-bw6wv]

Take care of yourself, we will take whatever you can give us! ❤

[@nataliejones1329]

Happy to see you back. I've had a rough year myself.. hang in there 💞🌸

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you! You hang in there as well ♥️

[@myeyes9574]

I just love you girl ❤💪🏾. Still support you. Praying for you

[@donnajones9006]

Glad to see you back!

[@K4TH7D4V1S]

I CANNOT explain HOW MUCH I identify with the vague description of what you have been going through (the beauty of being a bit mysterious lol). What's wild is I literally just had a moment of peace and being able to mentally move beyond some of my events impact just yesterday, around the time when your video went up. Sending you a hug. Very proud of you for being strong and getting back into routines you love and so looking forward to the content to come!

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw thank you Kat! That's so funny/strange that the timing of my video synced up with your life in that way!

[@alisongallup6385]

So happy you are back!

[@jogitakaur1349]

Finally, waiting you for long, nice to see you...❤❤❤

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much 😀

[@momma2871]

Oh sweet girl…sending you so much light and love. You do not owe anyone an explanation. Life is hard. So glad to see you back. Please be gentle with yourself and do what you can. Stepping away and dealing with your mental health is always a good thing. ❤️❤️❤️

[@claudefrou7119]

I'm sorry you have been suffering sweet girl but I am glad it is over and that you feel you can come back to KZbin. You have been missed 💗

[@shannoniversen6123]

I appreciate the real, raw you and excited to see you back! Your videos helped get me through a really tough time myself. And this video helps me know why I was struggling to get my space right during that time! Love everything you share and I’m sorry you were struggling ❤️

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much Shannon! So sorry to hear that you've been through a tough time as well. Sending love your way!

[@BaronVonLove]

I can relate to this. You've been a big inspiration to me, having moved into a studio apartment following a separation,.I've really leaned into your style. Thanks Steffi. Sending love from down under.

[@InTheGlow135]

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. But don’t worry about your followers, I’m sure everyone understands… we all have been there or are there in different ways. I hope things get better for you. I’m glad you’re back ❤

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you for always being so supportive!!

[@staceyrenee2238]

Life always has ups and downs. I was in the best shape of my life when a family event happened, derailing all of the efforts I had made. Sadly, I’ve not gotten back to that girl because that girl evolved into something new and wiser. You are NEW and WISER! Grow where you are planted! 🌱

[@ModaMisfit]

So well said, Stacey!

[@LumpyBumpylou]

Welcome back and I'm going to subscribe to the newsletter!!!!

[@heatherparker9820]

I have watched all of your videos (you are the only channel I have done that with lol). I have been wondering where you were and I have been worried about you. I am hopeful that you have come through whatever has been going on and that you are doing well. I am praying for you!

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much Heather! Wow I'm honored by the fact that you've seen all my videos! That means so much to me 🥰

[@pr1130]

Good to cu back steffi!!! Everything will be grand. Chin up princess!

[@patsygill2678]

Welcome back! Sorry to hear your having a difficult time for the past year. Airhug!

[@yourcraftycatlady]

I’m so glad you’re back. Thank you for your honesty. Take it slow and don’t forget to breathe. Seriously, it’s essential.

[@rosaalba3498]

Sorry you’re been going through bad times. Thank you for being real and honest. Hope things are better for you. So glad you’re back, your videos make my boring days so much better.

[@zisnzat2070]

Sweetie, been there, done that. Hang on tight and make small movements forward. Strengthen your core. Get rid of the word "should". Sending lots of peace, love and understanding to you!

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much!

[@BlueMerStudios]

I'm glad that whatever was going on in your life is at the point where you are able to move on. It's good to see you post again. I just moved into my first studio apartment 2 days ago and have spent the last month rewatching all of your videos to prepare myself. You have a lot of incredible advice to share and I'm excited for more!

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw thank you! So happy to hear that my videos have helped!

[@steffil967]

I'm so happy you are back, don't be so hard to yourself. 😢 You are not alone ❤ Welcome back! 🎉

[@pattiturner0425]

It's so nice to see your face again. Hugs to you. :)

[@pilarveracruzalvarez2269]

Hi Steffi, Very Glad to hear you are back. I am also undergoing a very hard time, full of sadness. When I discovered your channel It was like a small balloon of oxygen for me. Take care of yourself!!

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw so sorry to hear you're also going through a tough time. We'll get through it!

[@jacquig1939]

Please take it easy, healing isn't linear. So if a bad day happens, you don't need to necessarily push to do more than you feel. I lost someone really important to me and I thought I was doing great for the situation, then I had a few people be horribly unkind over 2 days and then I didn't/couldn't leave my bed for a week. What I'm getting at is, while we love your channel we care about you more. So take care of yourself and if possible, can you get some sun? I'm an indoor girl but going outside in the sun and looking at flowers has helped me stay out of bed for long stretches.

[@ksk881]

I've missed you, and I'm so glad that you're back. Im sorry you've had such a rough time, and i hope you will take things easy. I love your videos, but I'm concerned for your health, too. Stay well.

[@margueritehardin3763]

Welcome back! I've been looking for you. I really enjoy your videos. Wishing you all the best.

[@bassamaboona6444]

I am so happy to hear that things are going better! I wish you all the best! :)

[@SummerCamp-le8vv]

Hey Moda, I just wanted to encourage you and say to keep your head up. Honestly, your channel has changed my life and brought new interest such as: Hygge into my life. Yeah, I'ma guy BUT watching your channel helped me not to just decorate my bachelor pad . . . but also make it a place where I enjoy being. Don't forget how incredible you are! I love your channel and I'm always gonna follow your stuff whether it's KZbin or Instagram. I kinda just did a few days ago lol. Your a f****** rockstar!

[@bambinalwmbsb3045]

hope you doing right, im glad you comeback. 🫶🫶🫶

[@10barnaby1]

Aww, darling girl (I'm an oldie and that's my legit internal dialogue), so sorry you have been going through it. Look how brave you are being your authentic self with us and sharing the tough stuff. I will treat that with the reverence it deserves. A big hug for you, glad you are back. No pressure though, you just come and go as you need to, we'll still be here. xo

[@janetmccausland8953]

I think it was Bob Marley "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have." Maybe not exact quote but close enough!

[@bethd4739]

Wishing you the very best moving forward.

[@indiasimone6645]

Hello Steffi, its great to see you, you must take care and invest in yourself. I'm so happy youre feeling better. Thank you for sharing 💝

[@marybethentenmann9730]

Glad you're back. Missed you!

[@TheEvolutionofJenniferJLewis]

Yes, I haven’t seen you in a while. So glad you’re still here.\

[@brinagotsued]

I'm so glad you're feeling better 💜.

[@danirenee85]

So glad you're back. Try not to be so hard on yourself, and give yourself some grace. Life is hard, and you don't have to be "okay" all the time. Hugs.

[@kellydowney2100]

Yay your back 😊

[@floofymuffin]

So sorry things have been so rough 💜💜💜 Sending all the love and good vibes!

[@e1985-]

Welcome back! I'm looking forward to your new videos, but want to add -- no pressure! ❤ Please take all of the time you might need. I hope you're feeling better!

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much Emma!

[@charlottehetherington8720]

I really like your decorating style so glad to see you back

[@aliciat1491]

Praying for your healing ❤️‍🩹 🙏🏽🫶🏼

[@mariastathopoulos744]

I believe get your home sorted first because crisis will repeat throughout your lifetime. I've taken care of my palliative now deceased parents, married and divorced in 2.5 years, had 8 rounds of IVF, 2 miscarrages, gave birth to 2 children, buried a child. So my advice is to make your home as comfortable, safe and welcoming to you. Furniture layouts and accessories change throughout time.

[@TheEvolutionofJenniferJLewis]

I love your accent wall by the way. You are absolutely amazing. Keep going.🔥

[@katecarnac1440]

First, so glad you are alright. You are so wonderful for letting viewers know what is going on. Not only do we care but also so many can relate to what you are going through as we also suffer. So... not only are your decor videos inspirational but you are an inspirational human for your honesty and your vulnerability... that is what makes you human and beautiful ! Pretty powerful too ! ;)

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you for this lovely comment Kate! You're right, honesty and vulnerability makes is what makes us human and beautiful. Very well said!

[@merylkleiman3930]

You are brave and strong! You're on your path and wherever that is, it's where you are. I'm holding a good thought for you and your strength and peace of mind. I always say, if all else fails, try a perspective-ectomy. Works pretty well every time!

[@ModaMisfit]

Haha a perspective-ectomy, that's exactly what I need! Thank you for your kind words 😊

[@Michelle-bk5uq]

Sorry things have been rough but glad you are feeling more positive. Take all the time you need. I really enjoy your content and will watch whatever, whenever you post.

[@furiousstyles9528]

You're so beautiful and talented. 🙏 Don't take life to seriously. We really don't know anything in this life and believe we do. Ty for your helpful entertaining videos and positive energy. 😎✌️☮️🕊️

[@cyangriglio]

I hope you are feeling much better and I look forward to your videos. You are the Best decorator on You Tube! Even though I have a 2 bedroom apt, I get so much inspiration from you.

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw yay I'm so happy to hear that, Cyan! I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm the best decorator on KZbin 😅 (I can think of a few who are quite a bit more impressive haha) but I'm so happy to hear that you've been able to find inspiration from my videos!

[@susanroberts8553]

I love having you back to inspiring me in my same.studio apartment. I understand the ups and downs looking forward to see you again. Hugs

[@amygdala7489]

Hey Steffi, glad that you are back. Very courageous statement, be proud of yourself. And always remember 😉:Your life is destined to be happy and healthy.And you are pretty capable, too, by passing along your knowledge, your talent and your courage to other people. Thank you.

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much for the encouragement and kind words, Amy!

[@annagrallert5849]

Thank you for sharing ❤

[@shaynecoventry8894]

Hey Steffi. Welcome back girl. *Hugs* I'm sorry You have been having hell. Thanks for all You do. You rock.

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you Shayne!!

[@MentallyBeautifulVlogs]

So glad you’re back, so sorry depression has reared it’s ugly head… mental health is hard work but we will get there xxxxx

[@ModaMisfit]

Yep, as cliche as it sounds: one day at a time!

[@keikodesuu]

Hi Steffi, I'm so happy you're back and doing better. I'm sorry you had to go through such a dark time, but I know you will be stronger and more inspired than ever! I can relate to this past year being a challenge, but to be totally honest, the last couple weeks had me turned upside my head too... in the end, long story short, I lost my dad last week, and it's been such a surreal time. I've been flying back and forth from California to Washington the last month where he lived with my stepmom, and it's just... a process. I do want to bring it back to decor (ha!) as well, and say that before all this happened I really was pouring myself into decorating and organizing my space, and I'm glad I did. It really does help to have a safe, cozy, warm space to heal when I'm alone. Had I never found your channel and joined SASS I don't think I would've made it this far in my home decor journey, and I really do feel grateful that I can live in a space that just feels good to me because I was able to learn how to decorate it and make it feel like a HOME. Thank you for all your hard work Steffi! I wish the best for you and Moda Misfit and I'm soooo happy you are back! I'll keep watching your videos of course, they are always so comforting and cozy. ❤

[@ModaMisfit]

Aw Keiko, I know I already said this in response to one of your other comments here, but I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I can imagine how world-altering that has been. Take your healing slowly, give yourself time to grieve, and you can always return to decorating when you're in a better place! Like I've said many times, decorating is not a requirement. It's a fun luxury. And so many other things in life need to come first!

[@FablesandFells]

So sorry again that you have been going through such a rough time. Always happy to see whenever you have a new video out and if there aren't any, we can always go back watch older ones for that cosy fix. So no pressure. Hope things improve for you 🙏🏼

[@quentin-_-99]

Glad youre back 🌹

[@christinadehart4880]

Im sorry you went through all you did this last year. Im glad you got through it. I know life can be really hard at times. Thank you for being authentic and sharing something so personal. Glad you're back. Slow and easy. No rush.

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you so much!

[@argisparrow4269]

Thank for keeping it real lovely. Glad you are back and grateful for you 🙏 💜

[@kimesch9698]

Understood. Hang in there.❤😢

[@Βασιλική-ΝικολέτταΣακελλάρη]

Girl we all get you. Take your time! We are here for the LONG run. Don't get stressed for us please 🙏 I can wait as long as you want. Not going anywhere. You have already helped me so So much 😊 I had an awful year too but things are going wonderful for once. Remember I had told you I was rennovating my house while pregnant and with a flower shop on my back? The stress was Real😞After giving birth with surgery I decided for my sanity to close the store which cost me so much emotionally. But it was impossible with a newborn and surgery issues. My baby would throw up breastfeed milk and it took a while to find a formula milk that suited her. Now she is healthy and happy and I found a job at an old flower shop 3 min from my new house!!! I'm so happy and let me tell you my new house decor is super witchy /forestry with a lot of moon and floral patterns 😊

[@ModaMisfit]

Wow you really went through it! It's so encouraging to hear that after that super tough time, you came out of it in such a positive way! Awesome new job, beautiful witchy new house... this makes me feel so optimistic!

[@jossam1235]

I hug you!

[@michellemarshall21]

Thanks for the update! Glad to see you! Take the time you need, we’re here for you ❤❤

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you!! 😊

[@TheEvolutionofJenniferJLewis]

Tell me about it I know about the abs and flows of decorating especially when you have so much going on. However, all that we’re going through a seasonal and at the right time at the right moment that flow will return.

[@kathyesargent9088]

I wish you a perfect future

[@sarahprosecco]

I hope you're doing ok....

[@bethlovold3221]

I'm so glad you are back! I love your videos. I'm sorry you have been having a difficult time. I hope I'm not being too nosey, but you are not moving? Are you still with your boyfriend? I'm sorry to ask, but I have been following your videos for a while now. I feel like these questions are relevant to your channel. I hope things will continue to improve. Sending positive energy and encouragement.

[@ModaMisfit]

Thank you Beth! Haha I definitely left the "will we move" question as an unintentional cliffhanger. I should have clearly stated that we did renew the lease in this apartment for another year!

[@jacquijackson592]

Yeh!

[@lisacamilleri211]

I'm super tardy in commenting but........I'm so glad you're back!!!! And very glad you're on the other side of the dark period. It's never an easy feat. I was also expecting a "we moved" video but it looks like you guys decided to stay. Hopefully you're now feeling more inspired to decorate what looks to most of us to be a lovely apartment, despite its challenges. I'm really enjoying your new videos.

[@AD-yk7mf]

Missed you!! Where's your $ super thanks button???

[@ModaMisfit]

Ha! Didn't even know that existed until I looked it up just now. 😂 Some KZbinr I am 🙃 Thank you for asking about it though, I'll look into setting it up!

[@liss2503]

❤

[@tinalundy7858]

Way to be so honest it showed on your face just breath girl just one breathe at a time